The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 413- Sibling Rivalry, Daddy Issues, and Holiday Cheer!

Episode Date: December 6, 2025

Welcome back! We open intense (of course), talk about my dad’s birthday and why it’s still weird eight years later, our family dog passing, then immediately pivot into lighter things like why Black Friday is STILL happening and why my coffee machine is officially performative décor.Life updates include: my newfound 9/11 hyperfixation, Jonas Brother concert collabs, and my ongoing inability to move on from the assassination of Charlie Kirk and obsession with Candace Owen's podcast series about it. We go down holiday memory lane, do a Thanksgiving recap, discuss my 2026 planner, getting competitive about golf, spin class, and the current state of my house (wainscoting, window tinting, extreme decluttering). Plus: a reframe about wifehood, algorithmic brainwashing, and why cleaning your kitchen and doing laundry doesn't make you a tradwife. It means you're a responsible adult. News bits, a Luigi Mangione update, the “Taylor & Travis never fight” discourse, and a Content Cop-Out finale: Reddit advice and a chaotic Doomscroll-With-Me challenge. Subscribe + Join the Patreon2025 Roundup coming later this month! Thanks for tuning in and supporting my show! REVIEW THE SHOW ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ https://open.spotify.com/show/4ijzUBunTIHgVmahB0ISEN BECOME A PATRON! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/tjms⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ KEEP IN TOUCH!INSTAGRAM »⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jacquelinemonroe/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ TIKTOK » jacqueline.monroe EMAIL THE SHOW!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ MY MUSIC GUY⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ SPONSORSSpotify for Podcasters

Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show. We're going to light a candle right now together. We're going to light my Cinnamon Noel. And this is not for like the holiday vibes. You know, you might hear the music right now. You might be thinking, oh, she's setting the mood. It's December. She's setting the mood for Christmas. She's lighting her Cinnamon Noel candle from TJ Maxx.

You might be wondering, did she get that sticker off of it? Of course I didn't. Why do they put the stickers on the TJ Maxx candles like that? You know what I mean? It's like, just put them on the bottom. So they're not annoying to look at. Anyways, why am I lighting this? Okay. So we're going to just say it. We're just going to say it. Corey called me 10 minutes ago. This is real life. Okay. Welcome to real life. Welcome to life. And by the way, we're going to be coping with a lot of humor today. A lot of humor. Corey called me 10 minutes ago and he's like, honey. Yep. And I, and I just knew he didn't even have to, like, he texted me, can you talk?

And then I was like, yes. And I kind of knew, and I had a pit in my stomach and then he called me, he's like, honey. And it was just the tone of his voice. And I'm like, fuck you guys. Buster is no longer with us. The family dog, okay? Today, unfortunately, he was, this music right now. They had to put him down, okay? It's really sad. He was 10.

He's Corey's parents, Rottweiler, okay? So yeah, it just happened really fast, I guess. So yeah, there's that. Okay, today's a really tough day. So like, I'm gonna cope with humor. I cried I cried I cried Corey's like and I'm like I'm like trying not to cry I'm like I have to record he's like he's like stop crying honey you have to he and he copes with humor too like 10 times more than I do so we're like laughing crying it's like this mess and he's like honey

go get him go have a great podcast and I'm like and I'm like like I feel like I still look like I'm crying like go to YouTube or Spotify to watch on video you know that welted thing you get around your eyes, like that welted look that, and that's also something we we've all been through. Let's talk about crying for two seconds and I'll start the show and I'll like set the scene and I'll talk to talk about why today's a really tough day for me. It's December 3rd. Um, I'm making it a tough day. Usually I'm not this conscious of it, but I'm deciding to give you some intensity and some vulnerability like some just like it's the holidays it's it's a hard it's it's a hard season for a lot of people it um it's there's a lot of family stuff that comes up and grief and

there's a lot of joy obviously but a lot of sadness a lot of people it's a tough time for a lot of people so we're going to touch on that at the top here but um one thing I want to mention is we've all been through this where you're like you're in the the car you've been crying you need go in the grocery store for a quick errand or the gap whatever you're going in public it's always like a grocery store and you've just been crying and you're like do I you're asking the person who's with you that you were crying to like do I look like I'm crying guess how many times I have done that thousands of times in my life where I've like checked the car mirror thing to see like does it look like I've been crying because it's a very specific look and I'm always like somehow mortified

by it where I'm like no this is just life and what okay anyways so today's a tough day because you guys I haven't seen my dad it's going on eight years today's his birthday yeah family dogs getting put down or I don't know if it's happened yet and then there's like that my dad's birthday I usually forget it's his birthday and then I like or like by the end of the day. I'm like, wait, it was my dad's birthday. It's just so, it's never not weird. Okay. I'm just going to put it out there right now. Like it's never not weird. And today I'm really thinking about it. I'm thinking about it more than I usually do. And, um, yeah, it's going on eight years. And, um, I think something we can all relate to is that you grow up, you have two

parents, whatever. Maybe you, maybe your parents split when you were like two, you don't remember them being together but in my case my parents were together for 20 years and then you go home for Christmas for the first time and it's just your mom's in there and you're like what the fuck and you don't really like talk to your dad because that whole shit show and then it's like it's just never you had this concept in your head for so many years of what your family is and how we do traditions and holidays and whatnot and then when that just shifts overnight and then it's not that anymore it's it just sucks it just fucking sucks you know what I mean I'm just gonna admit it like it just I'm blessed in so many other ways but like it's never not weird and it just sucks

you know and shout out to all of you out there with your parents still together and it's like this warm and fuzzy you're going home for Christmas and it's you know the I guess ideal way but it's not ideal if your parents are like you know not well together so anyways um it's my dad's birthday. I haven't seen him in, it's so weird. Eight years is so long. It'll be eight years in May, but yeah. So let's cope with humor on that note. Let's cope with humor. Uh, no, we want more upbeat than that. We're going to cope with humor. We're going to get through this together. You guys today, by the way, just putting it out there. this episode is going to turn into a streamer vibe at some point I'm not going live I'm not

going to live stream but the vibe is going to give like is she a streamer and I'm what I'm saying is that um we're going to do what's called the content cop out today the podcast host content cop-out segment later on. I'll explain what that means when we get there. Just know that we're going to try something new and I think it's going to be a lot of fun and we're going to choose our own adventure together. And I'm going to, once I get there, I'll like decide and I'll think about it up until that point. So anyways, please hit that subscribe button wherever you're listening right now. I'm on Apple, Spotify, Google, Google podcast, Stitcher, Breaker, Overcast, wherever you listen to podcasts, hit that subscribe button and review the show five stars while you're there.

follow me on Instagram and TikTok at Jacqueline Rowe for all of my lifestyle I always do this stupid thing now beauty guru content last night I posted a Candace Owens uh TikTok mentioning how I'm mortified of about the way I've been so shy about like liking her public like just standing her being a Candace Owens fangirl like I've been so shy about it publicly not on this podcast so I've been really, I've been talking about it obviously ever since what happened to Charlie Kirk, not to keep talking about it, but like, anyways, I, I, that, that post blew up a little bit. And, um, so I'm doing the commentary on Tik TOK. I'm doing the beauty guru content. I'm doing the lifestyle. I'm doing all of it. I'm doing every anything, you know, whatever I'm

feeling that day. So follow me on social media. This is like so geriatric follow my social media counts um jacqueline monroe everywhere and and then finally if you want to support the show patreon.com slash tjms patreon.com slash tjms it's my subscription service it's five dollars a month go check it out all right dude let's cope with humor i'm drinking a i'm drinking a latte okay so a couple things happen cory called me he's like hey they're putting the dog down and I was just like eating an orange. Okay. Like I'm eating an orange and you know, when you're crying and you're, you're grieving and you're eating, there's something really messed up about that. Try not to swear. I'm really trying. Um, and then also I'm like

in the middle of making my latte and I'm like, I don't know if it's good to be this emotional eating and then also caffeinating, but it's halfway gone. Okay. We are, is Buster's candle still going I just want to verify because this means a lot to me that um I don't know there's something trying to guys he was such a good dog okay so yeah anyways I'm drinking a latte I decided this week that I looked at my espresso machine that my mother gifted to me my mother I'm so geriatric today this is not okay my mom gifted to me for me and Corey for our wedding it's one of our wedding gifts from her um one of millions i mean she gave us so much for the wedding honestly so that was like the the whatever the two thousand dollar whatever braville barista pro

whatever was like the stocking stuffer okay but i decided this week and mom please close your ears when you hear this, that, um, it officially it's my, I decided that our Breville barista express on our countertop, it was officially performative. Okay. It was there for looks. We haven't been using it regular regularly. And I decided to bust that thing out. I went to sprouts yesterday. I got some new coffee beans some regenerative farming organic whatever espresso beans and I made lattes for Cory and I this morning he took the dogs to work by the way so I wish I could hug him right now though he's been he's been spamming my phone with pictures of them and it's really cute um they got new Christmas bandanas at the office. Someone like a secret Santa gave them, gave them those or

put them on. I don't know. Anyways, they're cute as shit. Um, I made us lattes and that's what we're drinking today. And I feel very blessed right now, by the way, I think one of the best things about my life honestly, is that I get to grieve, like I get to get some bad news and then just grieve it out on my podcast and cope with humor and talk it out and in the comfort of my own home and I get to you know what I mean it's like a nice blessing because like if I had to go off to my uber driving job right now and I had passengers in the back seat after I got that phone call and I had to like keep working you know that would be a rough time I think yeah what are the worst places to work after you get death news like you're just a you're a waitress at a five-star

classy restaurant, New York city or something. You have to be on anything where you, and I'm on right now, but I get to choose how I want to be on. And I, and I chose in the beginning to mention it, to light a candle. Like I get to, you know what I mean? I get to be whatever, do whatever, act how, whatever, act however I want. But so, um, yeah, I feel really blessed to be here. Thanks for being here with me, me today. Thanks for choosing my show out of the list of podcasts that you subscribe to um maybe you chose me over candace that's a that's crazy am i on your spotify rap tag me and i'm kidding spotify wrapped is here okay i'm not gonna bore you with that i haven't even looked today maybe we'll check mine out and i'll um pull my pants

down publicly for you and i'll show my ass and show how what was it last year it was literally like chris brown little wayne uh it was just all like male rappers there's nothing um there's nothing else i need to say um it was like i think i posted it and people i post i like tiktok did or some bullshit like some who who does that i did it like i was like oh spotify rap these are my top artists and it was people in the comments were like oh girl like this isn't a flex like this is and I wasn't trying to flex I was just trying to be like isn't this ridiculous like me and this is what I you know it's not like Gracie Abrams or uh Sabrina Carpenter Taylor's it's not even it's never Taylor's you know okay so yeah Spotify wrapped us here thank you for choosing my podcast

thanks for being here I hope your holidays are going well so far I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving I'll do a little Thanksgiving recap for you sure we'll do that on the life update section um and yeah I just hope you're doing well it's a it's a weird it's a joyful time but it's also it brings up a lot of stuff if you've got family like just relationship stuff family really you know it's hard um god especially if you live in a dark place oh nothing is worse than living in a cold dark I mean I'm my literally my mom on the lawnmower in the rain right now. She's like always listening to my podcast on the lawnmower up in Washington. But like for me, I am so affected by the weather and the changing seasons

so much so that I was that. Well, yeah, like that is why I moved to California. It was for the weather, for the Southern California, beautiful, gorgeous weather. I mean, right now I'm looking at sunshine and palm trees and it's December 3rd, you know, and it's all every morning is like a and then and then a rainy day is a treat here I finally like embrace and we had a couple what we had the El Nino El Nino whatever years of rain a couple years back where it was non-stop from like October to May um flash floods it was bad um but this this year has been really mild knock on wood it stays this way and it's beautiful so but nothing's worse than like going through the holidays it's dark it's depressing I mean if you live anywhere north of me like I'm sorry you know

it's just not maybe you love it maybe I just you know I'm so I I hate the the dark I we're not gonna be negative about winter because I've been telling you guys that this year anytime I let those thoughts or I feel those thoughts coming in about it's dark early I'm not gonna give it energy. I'm just going to go run a bath, get a book out, light a candle, eat some chili, you know, going to romanticize the darkness. That was like one of my tips a couple episodes back. I'm like, you have to like make the most of it. It's not forever. It's not going to be dark forever, but yes, I am heavily affected by it. Like, no, I'm not even like, I'm so dramatic about it too. Like, and then I catch myself or this year I've, I've been actively cutting that thought off where I'm

like, Nope, just turn all the lights on in the house, run that energy bill up, crank it up. Okay. You're not, you're not running the AC like you were in the summer. That electricity bill is going to be the new thing. What, you know, we're not running heat here. So I'm like, I know it might be wasteful, whatever. We're not, does anyone give a about climate change anymore like is that even like that was a thing and now the vibe I'm getting is that it's not really a thing like how did that happen like what what do we care what do people what are people screaming about now like what's the thing I'm trying to think about like what is the cause everyone's

pissed off like what is the is it billionaires like just billionaires I think that's what people are mad about they've always kind of been mad about that but now I think that's the trend just like being mad at billionaires climate change I don't hear about it as much as yeah what is the thing anyways um how did we get here um Spotify rap did I mention that yeah we're gonna do so it's the end of the year. It's December. It's the end of 2025. We're not going to do it on this episode, but in the next week or two, I'm going to compile my 2025 re like the ultimate recap of 2025. Like all the things I'm going to make multiple lists for 2025 trends, things about my life that were trending like highs, lows. Um, I might do a gift guide. I'll do the gift guide

right now. Actually, this is going to be very short and sweet. And this is for men and women of all ages. Okay. Buy your girl. If you're like, what do I buy my wife? What do I buy my girlfriend? What do I buy my sister? What do I buy my mom for Christmas? And you're shaking in your boots about it. Cause it's there's pressures on, okay. It's December 3rd. get her a towel warmer get her a towel warmer don't get her the Dyson air wrap don't get her a Sephora gift card don't get her slippers like Uggs like no get her a towel warmer I guarantee she probably doesn't have one she needs one okay that that towel warmer in my bathroom that my mother-in-law um shout out I was we were we were having dinner like somehow

it came up um and I'm not supposed to be talking about this because I think her friend gifted it to her and then she gave it to me but whatever I don't think she listens um she's like don't tell anyone that you have this like I'm just talking about it like I made a TikTok about my cozy fall bathroom items and it's like the first product I show um by the way speaking of products and showing products. I haven't seen this. I don't think I've ever seen this, but it's still Black Friday. It's December 3rd. It's still Black Friday. Thanksgiving was last week. Cyber Monday was a few days ago. It's still, I'm still seeing, it's still Black Friday. I think it's going to be Black Friday until 2026. I think they're cutting off Black Friday on December 31st. I think that's

when all the sales end. Black Friday to December 24th, get 70%. It's crazy. Anyways, so that's still going on. It seems like my towel warmer, get your girl a towel warmer, get your man a towel warmer, get it for your home. I cannot believe it took me this long. And I grew up in Washington where it was cold. I mean, because there's nothing better. There's nothing better than you're in the shower, you're growing up in your house and you're like, everyone's like taking turns showering and you're in the shower and you're frantic because your shower's about to end and you realize there's you don't have a towel you're like fuck you know there is no there is no better feeling than being in that situation and screaming at your brother and you're like

Robert like you're just full volume screaming across the house for a towel can someone get me a towel and they waltz their ass over to the laundry room because those are the only clean towels or like the ones that, yeah, the only clean towels because you're a family of five are the ones in that dryer and that dryer just finished drying or it's in the middle of it

and they waltz their ass over to the laundry room and they come back and bring you a fresh warm towel from the dryer. Okay, by the way, you can have that experience every single time you shower if you have a towel warmer. Can't recommend it enough. It's changed my life.

I'm putting my bathrobe in it. I'm just like putting anything, like I'll put socks in it oh my gosh when I get out of the shower it's the best coziest feeling ever and I want that for you too okay so get a towel warmer they're they're not that steep they're like probably they start like 60 70 bucks they probably range from like 60 to maybe the bougie ones are 300 it's kind of a lot for that for that I don't think you need to spend that much on it but yeah get a towel warmer so I'm probably gonna do um yeah I'm gonna do the end of the year recap next I'll just do it next week um or before Christmas all before the end of the year I'll do

it um yeah let me see my Spotify should I just give you a teaser here because I'm actually curious it's 10 44 a.m on a on a Wednesday and it's Spotify wrapped and I haven't seen it yet so or it's it's already this late in the day and it's crazy I haven't you guys it's like you know what I mean like it's just words you know okay it's like it's wild I didn't wake up and immediately check my spot by the way this is something oh my gosh I don't care who judged like I don't care about being judged for mine but like I'm

judging other people so intensely by their Spotify round. Low key. Okay. I listened to 83,493 minutes. I'm not going to do this whole thing. Wait, let me just see if there's like top artists, my top genres. Okay. This is interesting. Pop rap, space music, smooth jazz pop and R&B interesting my listening age is 33 okay it's like older than I am I don't I think that's because what does it say you're since you were into music from the late 2000s okay cool what are my top songs like see it's like here I'm showing my ass okay I'm showing my ass fully

hi pulling my pants down on camera um go to youtubers I'm just you know like I'm fully like we're stripping we're stripping down and we're being the most vulnerable I um version of ourselves right now. For you, the listener. Top song. Steady Mobbin. Gucci Mane. Young Money. Who else is on this? I can't see the full list here. Steady Mobbin. What are the lyrics? I mean, like, Steady Mobbin. I know, you guys, and the thing is, this is how, this is who I am okay this is who I am this was totally like this was like a I'm in I'm deep in the workout and I'm fucking feeling myself and this is what I'm playing and I'm gonna that's if you're like at the gym you're like I wonder what she's listening to that's the vibe okay

there are one how many n words in the first sonnet whatever it's called the beginning of the raps it's like one two three four yeah four straight off the bat and we don't want no problems okay you're a good okay you're a goon what's a goon to a goblin we don't want up you guys know that you guys know that song just go look it up uh yeah so there's my there's a little teaser for you there that's a little teaser from my spotify wrapped 2025 throwing it back to 2009 steady mobbing by young money featured artist gucci main um all right so life updates all right life update section

you know who has a really sweet life update right now that she just dropped and i'm like okay nice you know when you see a creator you respect and love and you're just like you want the best for them at all times you want them to succeed in life and love and business and it's like there she is Sophia Franklin posting her new her new pad somewhere in Italy or something I think it's in Lake Como ish she's engaged she's getting married she's I guess living part-time in Italy in a beautiful very charming home so much character I don't know if who if that's her man's home or if she just bought that I don't know it's gorgeous inside it's has so much charm and character and it's rare to see like when I saw her real

Sophia Franklin Sophia with an F podcast if you're not aware of who she is she's a podcaster like a girly podcaster like myself former caller to old news whatever she used to host another podcast it's extremely popular top charting right now anyways um yeah but this house that she posted when i saw the reel i was like it's so rare to see a space with that much charm and character and like cool architecture like the fireplace and the the built-in bookshelves and you don't see that on this side of the atlantic you know what i mean like you're just it's very rare and so shout out happy for her um but let's go on let's move on to my life updates okay

other than the family dog you know i'm gonna cry about it after this like i'm really sad about it and he had a he had a sister he has a sister that he let you know daisy the the golden doodle that he you know he was her bigger brother you know and she's gonna look around tonight and she's gonna wonder where is he you know and it's that's just her we're not gonna cry about her right now okay so other than that my 9-11 hyper fixation has continued it has continued and it has taken a dark turn. I mentioned last week that I am a newly hyper-fixated woman. I cannot stop researching 9-11. I told you last week, I went to a concert. I followed Empire of the Sun on Instagram because

I saw them in concert and I was like, Oh, interesting. They only follow one person. And it was this nine 11 account. Um, it's like twin towers, nine 11 on Instagram. And I was like, that's so random. They follow one account. And then I could not stop scrolling on it and watching all these videos and reading all these stories. And like, anyways, I I'm down the rabbit hole. Okay. I'm still reading the nine 11 Reddit, you know, like on the DL, like at dinners, you know, I'm just like one eye on the steak, one eye on the nine 11 Reddit. You know what I mean? Like it's, I'm in, I'm in too deep. We're not really going to dive into anything real.

Like I'm not going to tell we're not, that's not going to be, um, I'm just, my life update is that I'm still hyper fixated on it. Okay. I still, I'm still looking at you guys. I saw a new jumper video. and here's the thing I mentioned last week that I'm like inside job you know like I watched the whole Tucker documentary four or five part series on it you know and I mentioned the controlled demolition of it all and um I don't I don't want to be insensitive insensitive to the the victims and their families like I feel like I

was kind of being a little too insensitive last week about that just so nonchalantly discussing just just I was so conspiracy brained the way I was discussing it and talking about it but um it's so it's something it's like you guys the thing is is like when I here I am talking about 9-11 and by the way I think this hyper fixation is going to end soon and I'm feeling my orca whale obsession coming back. I feel like that's going to be an early 2026, uh, thing for me. So right now it's nine 11. I think my Ork whale. Yeah. Like I, I don't know why I get like this stuff. I just get like down the rabbit hole. I guess it's fun. It's fun to go down the rabbit hole about stuff, but like, yeah, this one needs to end because I'm literally having the craziest dreams.

like I take my L-theanine with my magnesium glycinate with all of my other supplements before bed and I'm we've been doom scrolling a little too much before bed I mentioned that one of my fall things that I'm doing can we just say it's winter December is winter it's winter okay I know winter doesn't start until Louie's birthday my bulldog it's the first day of winter is December 21st he'll be four oh my god is he three or four four he'll be four um but yeah to me December is winter so we're just gonna go with that one of my winter things is plugging my phone in and charging it in the bathroom and not bringing it bringing it by my bedside at all not even it's not in the space it's not in my my bed my bed space my sleeping space it's in the bathroom so

I physically have to get up if I want to doom scroll and I've been slipping okay I've been slipped in the last week or so and I've been scrolling on these 9-11 videos and reading stuff and watching stuff right before bed I've been having really weird dreams and I always say like the L-theanine makes my dreams it like heightens and makes my dreams more strange um but what I was saying is that my experience of 9-11 was my mom running in at like what time was it well we or West coast. It's not like it was broadcast. It's not like it was like, there was like a, you know how they do that. Okay. It was live. Okay. I forget what time I felt like eight 30. What time did the planes hit? I should know that off the top of my head. Just being a,

I'm a fake fan. I don't want to guys. We're not going to deep dive right now. whatever time it was, it was early in the morning and we didn't have cable. Cause my parents would go in and out of having cable or like they plug it. Cause you know, we're watching too much TV. And so they pulled, they pulled the plug on the cable. It's probably cause you know, they're trying to save money or something also. But I remember we didn't have cable at the time, so we couldn't watch it on TV. But I just remember my mom coming home from the gym, like screaming, like, Oh my God, they hit the towers, like freaking out, you know? And I guess she was watching at the gym and after that we got cable because my mom was like never again

we are not going to miss another terrorist attack as a family we are we are going to be we're going to be parked in front of in front of our tv watching the next one live um come hell or high water okay and yeah that was my experience of it and so I didn't really you know I'm a kid like you hear about stuff after the fact you grow up you kind of like hear more stuff trickle in and like but I'm not researching I'm not down the rabbit hole so it's been a new it's been a new thing for me to learn about and it's the story I think I just love the stories I think that's what it is for me like the survivor stories are so crazy and just knowing that like someone was 40 feet down in the steel alive and they made it out just stuff like that I'm like I never heard about

that before. Um, but anyways, um, my dreams have been so weird the other night. I keep dreaming that my, my sister has an adult child. It's so random. My dreams are so like, it's not like she has a baby. My sister has a son and I keep dreaming about it. And it's so strange because she doesn't have kids, but I'm like, why do I keep having this repeated dream that my sister has a 20 year old son. So there's that. And then I'm also just, I'm having so many demolition dreams where buildings are just falling. And the other night it was the Eiffel tower just getting crushed. And that's because I was watching those videos right before bed. And so, yeah, that's the latest. Okay. So we're still thinking about that.

Oh my God, I wrote here my actual new hyper fixation. okay the orca wheel one's coming you guys my life updates okay we're gonna do like okay um thanksgiving i'm gonna do a little memory lane uh section of the life updates for you um just recent stuff i've been doing workout stuff like house stuff okay um this new reframe i'm gonna share with you a new uh new way to reframe something I've been spiraling about with you that I never thought about before and I was a couple cocktails deep after golf the other day and I wrote this in my notes app as I was eating a whatever whatever we went to the place twice and I had the same did I have

the smash burger and then I had the the southwest wrap back like I forget which what I was eating but I was eating and I was a couple couple brewskis I'm such a dude and then I was like writing this down. So, um, you know, my actual hyper fixation right now is Jonas brother concert collabs. Like during their concert, they bring out the collab with an artist and the other, the, I mean, I've been, I've watched this 25 times. It is so they are angels. And by the way, the Jonas brothers were the first, that was the first concert I went to when I was in middle school. It's how I made my best friend. I officially it's, it's how me and my best friend became best friends. We were enemies before that. I'll, I'll do, I'll do a story time on that. Let

me just like highlight this way. Okay. I met the Jonas brothers in middle school and it was the first concert. And so anyways, this video of them bringing out Martin, what's his name? Martin Johnson, Martin Johnson from Boys Like Girls. The collab they did, the duet, whatever, of Aerosmith, I Don't Want to Miss a Thing, is unbelievably good. I have watched, again, 25 times. It is so, and Martin Johnson from Boys Like Girls. I forgot about Boys Like Girls. I need to start, you know, I've been, you know, you might be thinking, oh, wait a minute. No, you, you're good on the music, Jacqueline. You've been listening, listening to, you've been listening to Young Money and Gucci Mane. Like, you're fine. Or whatever. I feel like my, I'm like burnt out of my music right now. I need to reignite something in my Spotify. I don't know. what I'm saying is I need to start listening to boy boy bands again and I forgot about boys like girls anyways Martin Johnson it's like I could stay awake I sing on every episode now we're just

singing just to hear you know that's Joe singing amazing then Nick does a little watch you smile and you sleep it's so beautiful and then when Martin sings it is like first of his outfit, his hair. He's so rockstar, like so era, like so back in the day, rockstar, like the, the bandana with the hair and just like his facial expressions as he's singing. I'm like, dude, I am, that's another hyper fix. There's another way to talk about things you're passionate about Jacqueline without saying hyper fixation. You know what I mean? Like it's, it's getting redundant and it's getting like dude just tell everyone you just we're not going to mention the diagnosis okay

we're not um I'm obsessed with listening or watching people sing well you know and I love music I love yeah people belting like I love watching vocal lesson video I just love watching people sing well like if that makes sense like it it really gets me going like Corey and I will literally just lay on the couch at night and I'm like it's a YouTube we're watching people sing live tonight okay we're it's a YouTube concert we're watching acapella like we're watching singers tonight on YouTube whenever I get the remote we're either doing we're it's like a couple things it's like okay just murder doc we're doing a murder doc speaking of that we need to watch the murder hulu show because i've heard great things

it's a murder documentary if i have the remote it's architectural digest on youtube like the open doors. It's Vogue, you know, hi Vogue. This is what's in my bag. Or like, we're going to go through or like, um, hi Vogue. Welcome to my closet. You know, it's like girly Vogue interview stuff or it's just Tate McRae music videos, to be honest. Corey, we love those. I love them more. And I mean, I'm just like, dude, fuck yeah. Like her music video for, oh, I'm sorry, sorry. Whatever that song is.

Oh, the way they do the body makeup that's like grunge and dirty, but like sexy dirty with the glow and the hair's kind of wet. And the makeup is super, it's like mushroom makeup. It's like mushroom brown toned. and there's like just the the the bra situation like everything is so it's so good okay it's so what's the wrong word for it it's just pure fucking sex you know and

that shit sells okay and I am I am buying it okay whatever she's selling I'm buying right now Tate McRae's now in her angel wings era okay she has a new album coming out I think or music or she ended her tour anyways so those are the things or we're just watching people sing and um a lot of Justin Bieber singing playing the piano on live stream singing just random videos of that so that's another thing I'm really into right now this is a long-winded segment to tell you guys that I watched I love watching the Jonas Brothers collab with other artists on stage um they brought up mario you're the type of woman you know they did a little r&b cover with him of his song okay so yeah i need to start listening to boy boy bands again um

so oh Benson Boone covering Adele I'm still not over it I'm still not over it two things I'm not over right now are okay Candace Owens walking in the Victoria's Secret fashion show in that black lingerie set with the the little like thing she did at the end of the runway not over that I watched that that's how I wake up every I'm like project Candace did I say Candace Owens. Wait a minute. Did I say Candace Owens? That's how, that's how Candace podcast brain I am right now. Brained I am right now. Like Candace, Swan, Swanapool, Candace, Victoria secret angel, Candace, project her on my ceiling, walking in that black lingerie set at the 2025 Victoria's Secret fashion show. Project that on my ceiling every morning when I wake up. That's

what I want to see when I wake up. She would make a great angel of the Lord. If there's a local, she wouldn't do local theater, but if there's a local theater arts program I'm looking for a, looking for an angel of the Lord to play. Um, yeah, glad if they're looking for it and she wouldn't be a Gladys, they just need an angel of the Lord too. They're looking to cast an angel of the Lord. They need to hit up Candace. Okay. She's literally an angel anyway. So yeah, I'm still not over that. And then Benson boom covering Adele, uh, at his concert, I forget what song it was but it was insane okay so I already mentioned my dad's birthday say it's never not weird um we can move on um let's just like change the vibe right now

I think something that messes me up though as of late is the thought that and you're probably like what's the big deal like just call him it's his birthday like yes like it's really fucking complicated. It's so, and it doesn't need to be right. Like it doesn't. Um, but it's one of those situations where, and, and of course, Corey and I talk about this all the time. Like it's, he's baffled by it too. Like, he's just like, it's one of those things becoming a stranger, the parent as an adult who's settling down, who's married, wants to start a family, you know, the whole thing the okay the thing about it is that it gets to a point where you realize like okay if I'm gonna have a relationship it's gonna like if I if I want if I'm gonna

ever have one in a sort of normal way because it'll never be normal it's gonna come I I'm gonna be a hundred percent responsible for making that happen I have to be responsible for making that happen. Cause it's not going to come from the other person. I have to initiate every single thing in the relationship. And it's like a decision you have to make. Do I, am I the type of person or am I going to like make a stand in my life and say like, yep, it's going to be hard, but I'm going to do it. And I'm going to do it. And it's such a weird thing to calculate because you're like, it's just fucked up because you're the kid, you know? And you're like, anyways, I don't think I've really talked about it. And maybe I think I

have an episode called like literally explaining my daddy issues, but yeah, it's just weird. It's the holidays. It's weird. It's his birthday. I don't know. What do you, I think I'm just dealing with, and I don't know if I don't feel like I'm avoidant. Oh my God. We're not doing this right now. We're not going to do it. It's like, dude, biggest lesson in life I've learned is that parents, like you set the tone, right. And it's like on your ass to be a parent to your kid. You know what I mean? They shouldn't, it shouldn't be the other way around. And I feel like my life has been the other way around. You know what I mean? And it's such a, it's so, it's just a bummer. You know, it's just like a bummer. It's like, fuck, you know? And then you kind of

like again you calculate your head like what am I getting out of this is this even worth it it's so much emotional turmoil it's so much pain it's like every contact point is it just reopening a wound it always you always feel like shit after you never feel better you always feel like shit after you don't really get anywhere and so it's like I hate that I'm I'm not the type of person who throws in the towel at things. Like I don't. But this one is complicated and I'm just going to leave it at that. I have really good days about it and I have really bad days and I'm just kind of in a somber, yeah. This is the thing. If something ever happens with you and your kid, or no, you and your wife or husband, I'm just going to be vague. Okay. This is my take.

It's like if you get a divorce or separate, whatever, and you have kids with your partner and you don't immediately do whatever you have in your power to separate out in your head. Okay, I was married to a woman, we had children together, or I was married to a man and we had children, whatever the situation is. if you don't, from the jump, someone is sawing. There's like major construction. I don't know if you can hear that. You probably can't. I'm like, do I have a construction worker in my house right now? Corey, are we having like a contractor do something today that I wasn't aware of? Anyways, in all seriousness, it's on your ass as a parent to do what you can do whatever you can right off the bat to continue your relationship with your kid and make that as normal as possible because it's not going to be

normal for them they have two parents that are no longer together at Christmas and like no longer together um every time you come home from college or whatever and so it's like your responsibility to it's so like obvious to me when I say it to do whatever you can to be like hey kid like I know this happened it's not your fault but hey like let's I'm sorry you know what I'm just literally I'm just literally like I'm sorry you know start with that let's move on you guys airing out dirty laundry is not the vibe that's not what we do here um what what I will do is we'll move on and we'll go down memory lane because this time back in the day it's so weird like I live in a house I'm married we're decorating for Christmas we have a couple dogs I have a

podcast it's so wild if I think too deep about it and it's like back in the day I was just a kid in high school it's December 3rd okay like obviously we'd get a cake you know there'd be like a birthday thing for my dad whatever and then not whatever but you know it's but back in the day this time of year it was like Christmas tree farm working at the Christmas tree farm with my grandparents going to basketball practice after school like going to I like cross-fitted after that sometimes it was like it was just like basketball practice like going to practice and then like coming home and chilling I guess and then just like somewhere somewhere in all of that, I would finish homework. I don't really, okay. You know, it's so wild. Like I've been like

really thinking about this and I'm not the type, I'm not a person who blacked out my childhood that happens to some people, but in my situation, but like, I didn't block anything out. I just, I'm like, what did we do on the weekends? I'm like, wait, I feel like I can't remember it. Like I lived in a house. We decorated for Christmas. We worked at the Christmas tree farm. I would go to basketball practice. I'd have basketball games. I'm like, what did I do on the weekends? Like I probably was going to the Goodwill like I am now. Like I probably, it's just such a weird thing. I don't remember specifics. Like what did I, do we just like drive around and go to my aunt's house or something and just hang? And like, I don't remember. I mean, there was high school

stuff I was involved in. It's weird. It's so like past. Something that's been messing me up about like back to my dad for two seconds and I'll move on because, oh my God, we're, we need to move on. The thought that's crazy is like, you know, I'm 31 and it's been, it'll be eight years in May. And at a certain point, it's going to be more time or even just with living in California, more time here than where I grew up in Washington. That's kind of weird. So this will be technically more familiar to my brain and I've been here more than I than my own hometown and where I grew up which is so weird and then not knowing my dad and knowing my dad is gonna eventually probably it's gonna be flipped like I've known my dad for 20 years like in my back pocket 20 years I'm 31 it's

been 11 that it's been that's been weird haven't seen him in almost eight like eventually it's gonna be like half and half and then it's gonna be more time that I haven't really been close it's so fucking weird is our buster candle still going I need I need to be grateful that I even have a dad right now and grateful for you know you guys probably think I'm an asshole like what's the big deal. Just, you know, I don't like that. It's kind of hardened, hardened me. They're not hardened me, but I don't like that. It's, it's not, I just feel like maybe it's made me negative. I feel like it's made me negative. I'm just kind of like, eh, you know, just like a I don't know the thing is is I'm such a happy positive like you guys it's so fucking weird

it's like I'm so happy and positive and like like but I have this essence about me that I catch and I think you can definitely hear it when you listen to my podcast because this is a total release it's a total just dumpster fire of like let's release all the negative thoughts and tell the people on the other side all this toxic toxic shit in my brain but like I think I have an essence of me that's a little bit like she's she has a negative vibe you know and I think it's like the yeah okay we don't need to again shut up okay we went to Thanksgiving we went to we had Thanksgiving dinner at our friend's house it was great I brought sourdough I yeah we just drank a lot of wine and ate a lot of turkey and watched football and it was just a

really nice time um our friend's dad wore funny like pilgrim traditional like what you what you like the cartoonish version of a pilgrim like an outfit um which is unexpected I've never seen that at a Thanksgiving before and he was like carving the turkey and it was so great um desserts were amazing um yeah I'm pecan over I'm pecan over pumpkin if you're wondering all right pecan pie over pumpkin pie if you're wondering except if it's a Costco pumpkin pie if you know you know you know I have done I literally brought a pumpkin pie on camera one time I like had it in an old episode I was like this is the pumpkin pie if you're thinking about making one if you're thinking about going to Safeway or Publix, wherever you shop for groceries and picking one up there.

The Trader Joe's. No, actually. Okay. Oh my gosh. The sweet potato pie from who makes that? It's at Walmart. It's only, I think it's only at Walmart. Patti LaBelle. Wait a minute. Patti LaBelle sweet potato pie a popular dessert sold at Walmart known for its creamy filling and flaky crust okay I'll do that and that's a sweet potato pie I think it has um there's got to be some pumpkin in it it feels like it's a pumpkin sweet potato pie or the one at Costco those are the only two correct answers if you're looking to bring a pumpkin pie to your next gathering this holiday season okay you guys life update I finished my Christmas shopping uh wild that I did that like usually it's I'm within I'm down to the wire usually within the two weeks prior to Christmas

um sometimes it's like the two the weekend before you know I'm hitting the malls because or I'm getting that overnight delivery going, okay? This year, we did it. We accomplished it. We're done. We don't have to worry and stress. I'm probably going to keep trickling things in here and there. I'll still continue to find little tchotchkes.

It's just, I love it. I love picking out gifts for people. It's my favorite thing ever. I, I just, I get so excited for them about it. Like I'm so, I just love, I don't know what it is. One time. Okay. Back in the day when I worked retail and I was making for the first time in my life, like money, money, like for, you know, you're in high school or you're like right out of high school or yeah. What was it? My first, I think it was during my community college living like community college, living at home, working retail days. Yeah. My first couple of years of

college, but I was like making a lot of money for me at the time. And I remember that year I got to go, I went all out, like on all of my family members. I think I got my mom like a full, I went to the Macy's, what do you call the cosmetic section? No, there's like a beauty counters or whatever and I got her like a full Clarins um like skincare thing like a multi-step skincare kit um I forget what I got my siblings but I just went all out and that was the best feeling ever to just spend money just to spend on people it's I I love buying shit for myself okay like come on like who doesn't but there's something about buying things for other people and gifting things to them that lights me up especially something as simple as like

I make sourdough a lot for people now or my cookies like people ask for that and I get to make it and just knowing they're eating it in their house I'm like it's such a like it lights me up so yeah I think if I had all the money in the world I'd be giving it away like straight up just for, because it's fun. It's fun to give people like to gift people things and to like, think about, I, like I said, I get excited for them. I can't wait like for Corey to open his gifts. Like that's the best part. It's for me. It's for them, but it's for me. You know what I mean? There's, it's so rewarding. You don't know how to live unless you know how to give. That's, that's the tea. Okay. Not to quote Scooter Braun's old bio from back in the day when I think I

followed him because I I was like oh he's that guy who like he's like Justin Bieber's man somehow I like followed him on Instagram and anytime I'd see his profile I was like I'd read that and I was like that's a great that's a great bio like you don't know how to live unless you know how to give it's a stupid like Pinterest quote but it's a good one and I and I've mentioned this before like it was a deep thought honestly like I came like up a lot of times on my show I like have epiphanies and something that came up for me was oh my gosh my life is so good and it's always like a pinch me thing every day it's like like what's going on here like I'm always like looking around the corner like what's gonna you know like I'm always like

I'm always or suspicious when my life is so good because I'm not like used to that necessarily um I've had a highs and lows you know what I mean but I think right now everything about my life is very like even keel and great and when I was thinking about growing up and in that section I talked about or that what was I doing back in the day this time of year the the reason why I was thinking that is like now I'm doing so much all the time where I'm like I think life was just very mundane and routine with like going to school playing sports you know that was that was life girl let's that's childhood you know that's being a high schooler even going to college like things were no that's when things started to pop off honestly because like now you have your freedom

you're out out of the house and you're like you know partying and you're off at a big school and that's when it started to pop off um but now I'm doing so much all the time where I'm like what did I even do when I grew up like I can't remember it like I don't know so um what was I saying oh my deep thought was like oh life's so good what but like this is when you okay you're good time to give to other people time to be of service to other people if you've if you have it all like there's no point to keep it and just sit in that it feels icky for me I think that's what it is it's like the the epiphany I had was like wait a minute I need to like do something with this and give it back and help other people like that's that's when your cup

purposeful like pouring to other people and it's crazy how I had to like sit on my podcast to come up with that because it's so duh but not really I don't think so because I think when you get comfortable when you're too comfortable it's not good you need friction and if that friction for you because it's not normal for you to go help other people is to get out of your house and go volunteer get out of your house and yeah like help people at your food bank that need food right now or the homeless shelters like the dog shelters like whatever then that's oh that's okay to admit that to yourself if that's like not a normal because typically on the weekends you're at tj maxx or home goods buying fucking candles you know like that's so dumb it's so dumb

we should be helping each other and doing more of that and um but yeah that's the epiphany i had um, got my 2026 planner and I cannot stop thinking about it. I can't, I found the planner life update. Like this is a huge life update. It's not really, but, but you guys, I think planners are very, planners are personal. And what are my needs when it comes to a planner? Number one, I need a planner. Like I need a physical planner. I'm not a Google calendar. Everything is digital. My entire life is in a phone calendar thing. I'm not doing a notes app, like list thing. No, no, I'm writing it down with a pen on paper. That is how my brain works. And so number one, I need a physical planner. Number two, it can't be too

small and it can't be too big. I'm not doing an eight and a half by 11, like a full, like spiral notebook type planner. And I don't want to do something that's a pocket size. Okay. I also don't like a hard cover. Okay. I need something I can beat up. I need a spiral bound. ideally a spiral bound, but I need to be able to beat it up. It cannot have a hard cover. These bullet journals, these minimal, like you go into like a, you go into a really nice bookstore and there's a planner section and a notebook section and it's all very minimal and beautiful. And they're always hard cover with thick paper. That's like, I don't know how to explain it. it's just like the paper's too thick. It's a hard cover. It feels like a book, like it doesn't feel

like a planner, like that I can beat up. I want to be able to beat up my planner. I want my pages to be kind of thin. I like when I set my coffee or my beverage, like my sparkling water that's still, that's got some condensation on it on my planner. I love seeing the page get crinkly from the moisture better yet if the pen kind of bleeds a little bit where the water mark was or where the cup was and it gets you know what I mean like the the ink starts kind of getting messed up love that that's what I'm looking for in a planner and so with that being said I found my planner the planner it's a three-tier system okay it's start it's a funnel system so it's called the planner pad up top you have your brain dump okay so across basically also another thing oh my gosh I need

to see all seven days in the lay flat when it lays flat so I need I cannot do one day one page a day I can't do a half a week I can't do four like Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday it if it ends up no I need the full week when it lays flat I need Sunday through Saturday and by the way the first day of the week is Sunday it's not Monday Sunday through Saturday that that's the flow and then I need time stamps okay I need time stamps but I also need a place to list make if that makes sense so this is the perfect planner because you do your brain dump you can categorize each category of your life at the top second section is where you can do okay let's put the brain dump into an organized like list for each day you just take what you take the top of the

funnel and then you funnel it it's so cool and then the bottom I'm such a planner nerd and I don't think I've ever talked about this publicly on my podcast but like this is another thing I'm obsessed with and it's like dude you're such a type b bitch and it's like I I'm so type b and this is the thing here's the thing okay this is how you know you found a good planner this is how you know especially if you're someone who I don't want to mention it if you're like whatever like you usually if you're if you're not okay let's just say you're not type a okay you're more type be this is how you know you found a great planner and your planner if you actually use that thing the whole year for me and I did so the planner pad of 2020 my planner pad of 2025 is so well used

it's I'm looking at it right now I'm making it's it makes me happy to look at because it's really messed up because and that's how I know that I use the shit out of it um and the pages are crinkly and there's like coffee stains and stuff you know um it just gets beaten up in my I have a car bag like I'm obsessed with having like my planner in my car bag just there's something it doesn't go in my purse it's a little too big for that it's eight and a half by six and a half or eight by six and a half we're not gonna you guys this could be an entire episode um so yeah I got my 2026 planner it's the planner pad and it's amazing it it's so functional from how my brain works but that's how you know you found a good planner is if you

you used it all year and you get the gist things are getting too long-winded on this episode life update I'm golfing more because my sister's on my ass okay I said it point of view, you're the golfer in the family. It's your thing. I'm kidding. Like, this is how I grew up though. Oh my God. When you have siblings, I'm doing a lot of reminiscing on childhood today, but like when you have siblings and you're close in age, my sister and I are 14 months apart. My brother and I are 18 months apart growing up. Like she, she was competitive. Okay. Like between siblings and it's kind of

never stopped. Not any, no, it's stopped. Like as we've grown up and we're our own adults, we have our own lives, whatever. But now my sister is golfing. She just got married and she's golfing. And I'm like, and she's like at the country club, she's like doing the thing with her, like the whole thing with her husband, like Corey and I do. And I'm like, like, that is so normal and healthy. And like, congratulations, you're golfing now. But like my brain is like, she can't get, she can't get better than me at this. That's my ego. I'm so like, I am literally like, I had a freak out with Corey. I'm like, she just golfed three days in a row. By the way, I think a little sibling rivalry is healthy. I think it's okay. I don't think it's

like the worst. It's not, I don't think it's toxic. I think it's like, Hey, if it makes us better golfers, then so be it. You know what I mean? Adult sibling rivalry. When you're like settle down in your thirties. Fuck. Yeah. Let's go. You know what I mean? I think it's worse to be like keeping up with the Joneses. It's like, no dude, use your siblings. So anyways, I had to freak out because she's like posting her swing. She's like looking better and better every day. And I'm like, so hot. And I'm genuinely like so excited because when I visit her now, like we can golf and we can go at it. You know what I mean? And it's it's like we haven't done that because growing up it was we're in the same dance classes

together we're in the same acting classes we're doing the same plays together and it was always a thing like who got the better role or like you know shit like that or it was like we're playing basketball together we're um swim team oh my gosh we were doing swim team forever we were on the same relay team at state in high school like um track she was always a faster runner than me shout out Julia by the way um and then it was like the competition that I like was it's one of the things that was really like a fond memory in high school was when we were both in the same weightlifting class when I was a freshman she was a sophomore and I could lift heavier than she did and now she's like Olympian bodybuilder on her on her resume like she's squatting 400 pounds like

she's crazy with or not you know she's amazing crazy um but I just remember I think like we would always like push each other and I think again that's healthy and so now with golf it's like I had to freak out I was like Corey like I don't know what's been going on but we we keep showing up and just thinking we can walk on like we're just gonna get a tea time at these places we like to go and it doesn't work like that and so we end up just like chilling and like having lunch there instead so I swear the last four attempts we've made at doing this for it's so dumb it's like we we just think that it's like a baby course it's not gonna be busy no um but last weekend so life update we're golfing more because my sister's on my ass and I just can't let this

happen I can't and also I haven't been golfing this year um I haven't been able to I had surgery it's been what a year officially yeah a year and I couldn't for sick I couldn't golf and use my upper body for six months so I literally couldn't golf and then come spring we were like going to the range and practicing more and then this summer I just we didn't really golf that much and then whatever so yeah I'm I still got it like I still like I I thought I wouldn't I'm there's certain things that I'm obviously, I'm a, I'm a perfectionist when it comes to it. Like I really am, but you know, it's my swing felt good the other day. And you know, we played and I did. Okay. I didn't do great. I did. Okay. Um, like, so I'm still doing spin class. You guys,

we're going to turn this into, we need to do the content cop out. Cause I'm getting exhausted by this list um we'll do okay workout stuff so I'm golfing more whatever still going to spin class still loving it it's so funny how you used to judge it and now I'm like literally doing the karate chop hand motions and I'm enthusiastic about it like I'm really like and I'm teacher's pet like I am I am I've been getting shouted out during spin class they're like like they say my name and I know it's because I'm very dramatic about the way I'm or maybe I'm not maybe they're just like saying I don't know I think I do the push-ups really violently that's probably but I love my I love

my spin class um i love the people it's a good it's a good vibe it's a good feeling it's a good way because i'm just the thing is too is like i just i haven't ran in a year either i'm i'm worried if i run you know i don't know i i i don't know how i'm gonna the thing is i need to i need to attempt at getting a supportive sports bra or two or three i'm just like i just can't i feel like i feel weird running and I've ran after the dogs when I play with them and it's a lot okay like it's a lot of you really need to have the right um sports bra if you're gonna run in my situation and by the way I found I finally found a workout um or a yeah workout clothes brand what am I saying for girls with, with larger chest buff bunny. Okay. They're making, they're making the

best sports bras because they, they have, they, they truly make them for girls with, I think that's their whole thing is they make sports bras for girls with larger chest and they think of everything. And for me, it's like, I love bombshell sportswear, but I can't wear any of their sports bras because they're cut so low on the side and I'm not trying to be that chick at the gym okay like I wear a lot of longer sleeves high neck you know like zip ups I'm just I don't want to be that person but but when I do want to be that person I want to be subtly that person where it's a little cleave but it's not full side boob boob and cleave which is usually what happens with sports bras especially from bombshell they just don't make they have like one I can I'm actually wearing

right now it's their high impact sports bra um and but buff bunny makes the best sports bra so comfortable so supportive cute um for it's so funny i'm a former itty bitty titty committee and what do you call the other committee just just a yeah it's so weird it's so weird life is so weird it's like I have a house I have big tits I'm like it's so weird you know it's what I always wanted you know okay spin class okay for the house the house updates we're always doing speaking of having a house big times. Um, the house we're doing, we're getting our, uh, walls, wings coated in a couple of rooms. Um, yesterday I met a window tinting guy. We're

going to tint a couple of windows. Just, that's the thing we're doing. Still working on the backyard. That's a never ending problem. The thing about owning a home is it's just, and I said I keep saying this like every day you look at a wall and you're like okay or a room and you're like or tchotchke and you're like that needs to get moved over here or this is this wall needs a picture on it or this whole room needs a demolition I'm just like I really there's a wall in our house I'm like I'm itching I'm itching to demo okay I'm itching to bust a certain wall out and it's probably not gonna probably not gonna do it right now but I think if it's gonna be in it's definitely happening it's tough oh my gosh we had a debt guy come by

that was a hefty quote um it's funny when they like it's it's one of those things where are you gonna do the bare minimum are you gonna do it right if you know what I mean? With home projects. And so ideally you want to do everything right. And whenever you make that decision, it's 10 times, it's going to be at least twice as much as if you just did the basic job, you know? So, um, I think you always ideally always do it right, but it's crazy. It's like we had, okay. The, the drama of our staircase in our backyard, I think I talked about it at the time we had it's just stuff like this it's like okay or you get scammed or you have a guy come over and give you and he hangs out at your house on your deck and he he does scans and

images of your backyard as if he's about to like do the thing you're not even he hasn't even been hired for yet and then it's like he's somehow there for three hours I don't know how that happened it was like this is weird he had to use the bathroom three times also I don't do that like unless you're on a project hired to be here and do it I understand that situation but like if you're just coming to give us a quote and you happen to be I don't know why it lasted that long long story short $73,000 the quote was 73 Corey and I to this day look at each other and we'll just like make eye contact at the same time we're just like $73,000. That number is so just the number 73. It's so triggering and funny to us because I

think we ended up spending less than five for the same exact thing. Maybe it was more than five. I don't know. I forget. It's been a long time, but it wasn't more than 10 to do that. we have concrete stairs. It was concrete stairs, but he quoted us $73,000. So anyways, that, so the houses were getting wings coating. And then you guys, we need a Christmas tree. Oh, another thing I'm doing, and this is, again, I feel, is that long-winded? How long have I been going? I think it's because I don't know when I started. I don't have a concept of time right now. I really don't. I feel like, okay, from Belopolis right now. We have a scarf on. We have a red sweater and a scarf. No makeup. A little lip gloss. The hair is up. I finally

figured out my claw clip routine okay then we'll talk about something else I'm doing at the house and then we'll do the the reframe thing which is going to be short and sweet I'll promise you that but it's really good the reframe brain the brain reframe that you're going to learn from too because it's like duh bitch um we'll do that and then we'll do the content cop out section and then we'll end it. So I finally figured out why my claw clip situation looks bad all the time when I do it. I'm like, why does this not look like the other girls? Okay. Okay. You have to launch that shit forward a little bit. Okay. I was doing my claw clip low, like a low bun. um the hand motion is this I was wrapping my hair to do my claw clip around my finger

like a million times like it was a pencil okay and it was like and I would twist that so tight and it might look you guys do so I feel like it kind of looks weird I don't know it's floppy but and then I would just like place it on the back of my head which makes sense that's where your claw clip goes but when you launch your hair forward and you do this motion and you like grab the hair make a ponytail with your hair in your hand and then like almost like wrap it around the wrist pull it forward and angle it like at a 45 degree angle kind of on the back of your head and then clip it it just looks so much more flattering I was doing a little tutorial go to YouTube or Spotify if you want to watch that on video um I was just kind of showing you but yeah

Let me do a check in here on my camera. Oh no. Oh wait. Oh no. That's my, that's my claw clip situation. We are very frayed. Oh no. Oh no. Intermission. We're going to fix the claw clip live on camera I can't do it I it's it had okay my issue was I had a bunch of like fly away hairs going on um really bad and I spent about three minutes glamming for this episode so that's to be expected but because I I had this epiphany I'm like yeah you know I do the glam thing I put on a last strip most most podcasts like that's what I've been rocking for a long time now but I realized I was like wait a minute when I don't try so hard my clips perform better they're not looking at me with all this glam on and I feel like you can't

over glam as a podcast host and I definitely do I think it's more I'm more approachable when I'm not as done up and I want to be more approachable so cute fix my hair um that's how you do your clock clip, launch that forward. This is again, long-winded. Okay. So on, on we're going to do the reframe thing and then we're going to move on to the content cop-out section and then we're going to wrap it. Okay. So I've been spiraling for a long time it's like she gets married and she's having an identity crisis immediately like am I a trad wife am I a boss babe am I both is this healthy to be like a stay-at-home wife and to have a pot like should I be is it bad that I like to clean all day like skin by Kristen but what are like

is it bad that I have freedom to do that or also like be a boss babe is it good I'm always trying to like overanalyze my situation right and last week I talked about how I've been attaching my identity or my value like I don't feel good unless I'm working and and what I'm and the tasks I'm doing all day are the um the bucket it's in is career and making money that's how I feel like valuable okay even though all the other things I do are valuable it doesn't but because they don't make money I don't my brain sees that as a wash and as like a waste of time and it can't I always feel guilty and like weird and like bad at the end of the day if I was just being an amazing wife and and dog mom and um made magic around here in this home you know which is such

a blessing you know what I mean but I still feel this like anxiousness like wait a minute but that doesn't that doesn't move my podcast career forward or oh I'm not making money from you know going to Trader Joe's and buying a pot roast like so I have I spiral right I spiral okay and the reframe this is this is so like again I was having a a smash burger after golf the other day and I And I thought of this and it's like, it's very simple. It's like, bitch, you're not a trad wife. You're an adult. You're just an adult.

Like, oh, there's a mess on the floor. Clean it up. You know? Oh, it's dinner time and you're hungry? You and your husband are hungry? Make a meal. oh you worked out a lot this week and your laundry's piled up you know you have all these sweaty clothes to clean

do the fucking law it's like you're it's like that doesn't why is it that it's these algorithms and these stupid rabbit holes of content I've gone down over the last few years just I need it's like I didn't have TikTok okay I'm not deleting TikTok we're not even entertaining that idea but I think the reframe is like no bitch you're just an adult you're just a responsible adult you're like this is life making meals cleaning up messes maintaining a home is not that why do you have to label it in your brain is like oh this is like I'm just like a housewife cleaning cooking all it's like no you're an adult like this is like life you know and I think my brain somehow got side like really brainwashed by that where I was like wait I don't

want to also in my content like come across like this is this is like I don't want this to be my brand and it's like bitch just because ballerina farm bakes a loaf at 2 p.m on a Tuesday and you also baked a loaf at 2 p.m on a Tuesday doesn't mean you're in alignment with the way she lives her life and you're both trad wives like no you're just an adult who has free time on on a Tuesday at 2 p.m. to fold some dough in between your work because you also have your podcasting job you do you know like it's not like you're whatever like it's not like your little house on the prairie you're just that's life I don't know so I basically was like no you're just you're just an adult you're just a responsible adult it doesn't need to be labeled in a thing and like a stupid because

I've tied my identity or I like it's so dumb I overthink everything clearly the thing I just can't lean into and I and I don't know why and I think it's because it's like a fear of mine if I just even though it's like not even okay guys this is like okay we spiraled we're now we're just spiraling more about it um yeah I'm just being honest like me eating my smash burger two beers deep after golf writing down like I think I chat or not excuse me I um I just read a chat gbt reframe I wrote that me writing you're not a trad wife you're an adult but see everything's a thing with social media and like the way people live their lives and

fall into a category it's like what category do you and then when you're a person who puts their life out out there publicly it's like how what category do you want to be like known for and you have to like have a strong brand identity and it's like why I fight the trad wife thing really hard even though I'm literally like, I don't like saying, oh, I'm a child. But I, that's a lot of my life. But that's just also like, you're an adult. Cooking, cleaning, maintaining a home

and doing all this is life. That's adulthood. Everyone does it. Single men do it. You know, single women do it. Married, divorced, men without wives do it. You know, men with wives do it. Why, you know, everyone's doing it.

So, yeah. And I don't need to make a meal out of that. Yeah. I don't know why I always talk about that. I just, I think I was, am I trying to like, you know how when someone's doing all of these justifications for multiple episodes over the years, like whatever, it's like, is she trying to make herself feel like, or convince herself of something, you know, that whole thing. And I'm like, am I trying to convince myself of something? I guess I, I can't just do the thing without being hyper aware of is this, does this fall under the identity I want or does this align with how like my identity? And if it doesn't, then I get scared. I get all anxious about it. And it's like, Hey, you can grow and evolve and change. And when I look at my life though, in all, in all honesty, I've been on my lifestyle and the way I've, the way I grew up, the way I, during childhood, high school, college, post college, like living on my own for the first time in a new city, living with men before marriage. marriage. Okay. All of these situations, I have always been the same bitch. Okay. I have always been a fucking homemaker and I don't, and I don't know why that to me, I'm like shy about it. I think that's what it is. I think I haven't been able to, yeah, that's what it is. Okay. We just had, we're spiraling. And I think I just had another

epiphany. I think I'm shy about it when it's just, it's just who I am. It's me. It's not even an issue but I think I don't want to be known to be like I think I'm scared that you might perceive me as like she's married she has a husband and she has a podcast and she is a homemaker why is that negative like what the fuck is wrong with me actually because I think I'm maybe I'm insecure about my podcast what it really is is I'm insecure that okay I never want to portray that I'm dicking around being a homemaker all day which is what I do because I don't want people to go well that's why your podcast isn't isn't successful that's why you're not popping off like what other girly podcasts are popping off you know what I mean like maybe it's just all insecurity

that's what it all is it's always insecurity so maybe that's what I'm insecure about I think that's what we just figured out cool that's really interesting good talk you probably already knew that as I started spiraling about you're an adult you're not a trad wife like what the fuck was that segment um too much introspection too is not a good thing and I think I need to I need to like write that above my behind the camera here I have a doorway thing and a wall like it's like a door It's like, and then above it, I just need to write like too much introspection. I think it's fun though when people, when I listen to other podcasts, when they talk about themselves and they like think deeply about why they are the way, I just like, I like listening

to that. So I like making that kind of content, I guess. I don't know. Okay. So quickly before we move to the content cop-out section, which might be a little chaotic, we're going to find out when we get there I told you in the beginning at some point during this podcast some it's it's gonna seem like you're watching a live stream maybe it might be a little whatever um but before we get up where we go to that I forgot here I have um news updates I have two things okay Luigi Mangione looking hot in court I don't know why he was there I don't know what's going on but those photos were nice they were nice I enjoyed I enjoyed seeing the Dumois account on Instagram post Luigi Mangione smiling in court looking very handsome okay I'm not sure why he's

what was going on in that in that um session hearing whatever but all I know is that he looked nice he hasn't he has continued while he has been in jail he has continued to keep his I was gonna say he's continuing to look smacks while he's in jail he's just what is going on let me just like hold on let me just type in Luigi Mangione and just see what the like latest is um officer testifies about moments before Luigi Mangione's arrest there's something about the backpack something about like the body cam footage from the cop during his arrest turned off after 11 minutes and then they found a gun in his backpack which

apparently people are like when they place the gun I don't know I don't really follow it that closely. I did an entire episode. It's called deep dive, Luigi Mangione's bizarre life. I did that about a year ago. Um, and so, yeah, I learned a lot about his love of getting, I who's got lip reading. oh man this is very crass this is too crass that was too that was way too crass okay the other news update here is that taylor swift and travis kelsey don't fight apparently it's the driest headline i've ever read like let me like it's just like what are we doing as a society as a society

travis and taylor don't fight travis kelsey news travis kelsey says he and taylor swift have never once had an argument during their two and a half year relationship the couple first got together in 2023 and announce their engagement in August. They've never argued in their two and a half year relationship. Um, okay. So the Kansas city chief's tied in with what he's 36. Okay. Made a surprising claim on the Wednesday, December 3rd episode of his podcast, new heights. Oh, that came out today. okay this is hot off the press um while he was interviewing guest George Clooney that's a wild collab George Clooney does podcasts I guess I haven't what does he even look like these days George Clooney I used to think he was so hot when I was literally like three

watching oceans 11 with my parents he's looking old okay but looking good looking older but looking good when when asking about his past claim that he and his wife Amal have never gotten into an argument in their 10 years together Kelsey had the script flipped on him by the Oscar winner 64 George Clooney no I'm not lying Clooney Clooney insisted Travis shall we ask you the same questions Kelsey laughed at the reference to his fiance Taylor Swift claiming well it's only been two and a half years and you're right I haven't gotten into an argument never once now I will say this as a married woman of one year with an abundance of wisdom on relationships

I get this I do I think okay there's like a thing with like couples who don't fight red flag like there's something wrong with that if you if you everyone is just a hundred percent always on the same like that's kind of a red flag I think fighting is one there's a difference between because I don't I can't say I have never had a yeah like a fight a fight to me is like yelling at each other we're never yelling at each other we know we don't yell that's one of our core things is like we don't yell we never yell like no one's ever like screaming at the other person ever for any reason like that doesn't

happen, but it's never fighting. It's like disagreeing about a problem. And we're both on the same team arguing or going at that problem, trying to solve it. But yeah, you get into a little like disagreements. Like we're literally at the nursery the other weekend and, and he's adamant about a certain bush that we, that he thinks we should put on a hillside. And I'm like, absolutely fucking not. That's not a fight. And we can, we can eloquently have disagreements. Like we can eloquently cordially, like it's never personal. That's the other thing. Once it gets personal, it's over. Like, that's probably what Kelsey, Travis Kelsey was really referring to. They probably, I mean, I'm sure

are they butt heads a little bit just like a tinge um I'm so sick of talking about Taylor I don't moving on we're gonna do the content cop out content cop out okay you guys this is a segment that I don't know how it's gonna go but we're going to find out. Okay. We've, we've three options here. Okay. And I think I know which one I'm going to go with, but I'm scared. Okay. The reason why we're calling this a content cop out is because I'm going to, instead of pre deciding what content I'm going to share with you today. We're going to let it come to us and we're going to, we're going to discover it as we go. Okay. So the three options are this doom scroll with me. And there are rules to that game.

I've already established doom scroll with me, read Reddit advice and confessions with me on a whim. Just pull up those Reddit threads. I already haven't pulled up but like read the latest on those and i'll offer advice i guess on the advice one um or we'll definitely not do this one i thought haha we'll do an og buzzfeed quiz a christmas themed buzzfeed quiz to wrap this episode i think we're gonna do the doom scroll and i already decided that i think when we got like i finally by this time before this part of the podcast. I finally, you know how I said that? I was like, you know, by the time we get to this segment, I'm already going to decide. Here's why I want to do it. Okay. Because I think it would be

fun. And by the way, this is not like promoting health and wellness. This is not like literally offering to like, including you in my doom scroll right now is not, I know that's not the best for us, but you're going to do it anyways at some point today. So why not just do it with me? So these are the rules. Okay. So I'm going to go on TikTok. This is what we're going to do. I'm going to go on TikTok and the first rule is this. I cannot skip the video. So whatever comes up, I can't skip it. I have no, so you're going to also like, this is me showing my ass, like see what my algorithm is serving me. That's very personal. Okay. So we're going to number one, you can't skip the video that pops up. We have to watch the whole thing. Or no, no. My second rule here is I have to watch at least halfway before speaking. so I can't if it starts and I want to say something I have to shut up until it's halfway and then I can pause it and comment on it and then if I want to skip okay I can't skip but if

I do I only have three skips so I can only skip the video if I'm like this is stupid or whatever like three times so yeah that's um how it's gonna start I don't have anything pre-lined up here and we're just going to figure it out as we go. I'm going to be a bitch for a sec. Here we go. I work full time. I go to school full time. I show up for my mom.

I show up for my three best friends. I show up for my sister who's in prison, mind you. My brother passed away last year. My brother and my dog the same week. I got a puppy February of this year. Went through a major abdominal surgery February of this year. I'm on hormone therapy. Throughout all of that, I've maintained a 4.0.

I'm a part of an honor society. I got a degree. I'm getting another degree. And guess what I have? A boyfriend that I still show up for, that i still make feel special okay so your man has no fucking excuse there are women who are doing everything that i'm fucking doing and that are mothers on top of it and still show up for their fucking husbands men have no excuse why they're not doing what they're supposed to be

doing everybody has okay we're past halfway i think we've got about 10 seconds left period that's all i have to say fucking job you don't get to use that as an excuse why you don't show up for people get it together learn how to emotionally regulate yourself and be a fucking man sack up because women out here got some big fucking balls big ones they're getting a little larger than yours oh my god okay first video we're off to a great start um do i have any other comments on that i mean what did she say about prison in the beginning hold on i go to school full time i show up for

my mom i show up for my three best friends i show up for my sister who's in prison or sister's in prison yeah so sack up i feel like i'm not good at this because i should say more about the video that's the sentiment though it's like women are badasses and men need to step it the fuck up that's like the vibe out there I guess the thing is

about being a woman is it's all about like how much you can endure and sacrifice and like suck it up that to me is like and it doesn't have to be that way I think it just is what it fucking is you know and we're really good at it we're really resilient women are so resilient and strong and capable of so much put on our shoulders and we just

fucking buck up and do it and I think yeah she's like men do it I mean not that men don't men do men do it too it's not black and white okay it's not all men moving on home in my driveway but teddy is passed out and i know that he's at the point in his nap where he's not going to transfer he's gonna do oh no this is okay i'm skipping this one love her emily i feel like she lost her son trig in the swimming pool this is the influencer from i'm not sure where she lives it's like utah maybe um uh she's doing a get ready with me talking about the holidays and some of my thoughts lately i mean we're just gonna skip it's just i'm not into this vibe for this segment she's she's great i follow her she's great am i on my for you page yes i am i'm not on my following

if i did my makeup like a white girl this is what would happen are you guys the importance of using makeup techniques that fit your skin tone and your features nothing wrong with how they do their makeup but it just not look good on me this side we're gonna do the makeup as if i was a white girl I'm so sorry I chose to do this segment like we're sitting through a makeup tutorial right now and I'm dying to skip it this is my second skip in a row I just I want good juice I saw a video like six months ago on TikTok I'll show it to you at the end but it like literally changed my life not to be dramatic or anything I'm so fucking bored I'm so you guys like I just can't do this to you I can't let me just go on the explore section here can I just like see I want to

choose my own we just failed their own game we just lost our own game okay I'm bored I don't know why okay my algorithm is very much like boss or badass girl energy like anti-consumer I don't know um gay men gay men ranting I love the like I have my favorites I follow they're just the fucking best at it. Um, what else? Yeah. Like dog videos. Um, it's boring out there. You guys, I need to, I'm so my taste is my, my shit's so vanilla. This is so bad for us. Why am I looking at this right now? Oh no, there's a Rottweiler. I'm going to cry. Don't look at the Rottweiler. Buster was a Rottweiler. Thing about Buster is that anytime I would go to their house, my mom, my mom and dad's mother-in-law and father-in-law's house is that I always had

a soft spot for Buster. Like I would always give him those extra pets and scratches. And I, I don't care. Cause he was a Rottweiler and he was really hairy and like huge. He's a hundred, he was 140 40 pounds. And I would always like get my, my hands would get so gross and everything. But I was like, you know, I'll just wash them after he was in heaven. I would scratch his, I even took these like little brushes and I would just like for 30 minutes, I would just do it. He loved it. I even got him to like roll over and I, he never really did this apparently, but I like rubbed his tummy it's sad there's nothing I mean he was 10 but also like I don't know I haven't experienced it's the first time I've experienced pet loss since like it's not even mine but I'm so close

to Corey's family we're there all the time we bring our dogs over there and they like play and um i don't think i've experienced pet loss since my dog in high school which is i don't yeah so okay this is boring let's just do reddit advice instead um oh no this is just immediately like i'm 29 i'm a female and i caught my husband 31 male masturbating to my friend's selfie last night I feel sick oh no we've been married for four years together for seven I always thought we had a solid relationship good sex life no red no big red flags oh the bitch's name was Sarah let's call no oh there she's like let's call her Sarah oh no oh no I hate like this this is like oh it was removed this poster was removed so it

was just pulled up on my, um, my mom blames me 34 year old female for my brother, 35 year old male for being unemployable. Okay. This is Reddit advice. I have a career in healthcare. Part of my job is giving vaccines. Way back in 2021, when the COVID vax first came out, I was vaccinating the public like crazy. Busy times. My brother, who still lives with our parents, again, he's 35, no judgment, just mentioning, expressed his disdain for the vaccine. Whatever. He's anti-vax. i can't force him to get it at the time he didn't have a job and was lamenting that all employee employees were obsessed with applicants having a covid vaccine card showing they have been vaccinated i offered to vaccinate him easy peasy i can even come

come over to the house and do it he declined my mother at the time i love where this is going my mother at the time asked me to process his vaccine like any other patient and physically go through the motions of giving him the vaccine but just squirt it out into the air next to his shoulder as a pretend as in pretend to vaccinate him purely so he could get a job and lie about his health records i admittedly refused we had big arguments about this at the time have not talked about it since this thanksgiving five-ish years later my brother still has never gotten a job and still lives at home I learned that my mom squarely blames me for not forging his vax records back in 2021 that's the sole reason for his unemployment sounds like you need

to get a new mom I was that's so corny I was so angry that I had to take some deep breaths and excuse myself this was after dinner and I just got up and left said I'm going home I haven't spoken to them since and my mom has been texting me all weekend wanting to talk what would you do in my shoes what a dumb bitch it's your brother's fault duh it's his it's his it's his problem it's not he's that's such a dumb excuse as to why he's unemployed because she didn't pretend and like shoot the vaccine off the side of his shoulder and give him a vaccination card um she's like

that's so dumb I think he's like fully his parents are like are they still required they're not requiring that that's not a thing so he's using that as an excuse to his elderly parents as to why he can't get a job still so he can shack up with him with them he's saying like he's probably telling his parents like yeah i can't get a job because i don't have the vaccine i don't fucking know how dumb people are some i sometimes feel like i regret ending things with this guy oh one minute ago oh I'm I'm 30 and think my fiance's friend has a crush on me

okay this feels strange to even write as a 30 year old man but here we are the word crush makes me feel like a kid but I do not know what else to call this situation I've been with my fiance for eight years she was a close group she has a close group of four or five friends she went to high school with and over the years the girls have gotten partners slash husbands and that is why my reading is so like so shitty right now and that's the group we have now one of our friends let's call her x and I have always gone on well nothing unusual we both worked similar jobs and had similar goals and we've always talked easily over the past year i stepped away from a stressful corporate job to go back to studying i have been doing part-time

construction gardening to pay the bills which means two things i am no longer a stressed sunlight depraved corporate goblin and i have dropped a fair bit of weight and toned up without really trying the short version is of this is i feel better i have in years but so he's fuckable now the friend thinks he's fuckable now but something in the dynamic with x the friend of his fiance has shifted at first it was small things longer longer looks that i would catch when i was not looking directly at her her making a point to come over and talk to me whenever the group was together I thought she was just curious he wants to fuck her I'd always have to make things like okay um but lately has taken a turn in a few awkward moments from and I've is taken a turn

into a few awkward moments for me she's noticeably noticeably more touchy with me she will slide in right beside me during group chats close enough that her leg presses against me when we hug by was she always a normal um so her body language has changed towards him it's the kind of hug where you suddenly become very aware of her body against he likes like if he's calculating this okay wait a minute because he's reciprocate or the whole thing so now i'm sitting here feeling confused a bit and i feel i feel like i've stumbled into a

storyline i definitely did not sign up for i do not want to jump to conclusions but i do not want to pretend these moments are not happening someone said i'm sure your wife has noticed this too please yeah um i don't know i feel like if the friend of the fiance is it his wife it's his fiance it's it's an obvious thing like you know when this is happening but then it's like I'm trying to think in my friend situations with Corey's friends it's always like there's never a situation where there's no vibes everyone's like married up and happy and like whatever there's no vibes it's always like I mean no one's like lingering and like touching me or like I don't know so basically

tell the wife or the fiance she probably already notices it um oh he said he told her so I told her and said it was more of an awkward feeling for me if you know someone of seven eight seven to eight years and the dynamic changes it's pretty noticeable and a bit of a shock most friendships fall into a routine and that's the beauty of them but when it shifts it's really noticeable um she she his fiancee listened but kind of downplayed it at first thinking I was just annoying her and or being weird but when I said how it manifests and what her friend had been doing and if that and that if I and that if you did that to a man you're obviously putting something out there she did agree and definitely she did agree that it's definitely a bit odd and knowing

my fiance I can tell she's wait she's thinking over things that I don't know this is kind of stupid um I think you just keep your distance right like you just you don't, I mean, you go out of your way to like, if it's a hug goodbye to like side hug or you whatever, like you kind of avoid the, you keep your distance from your fiance's friend. That's what, if it was me, that's what I would do. I'd be like, like, I don't want to be around this person. They're trying to be like touchy feely with me. Like, that's what you, you just, you do what you can to like keep the person at a distance you don't let them do it and I feel like he's letting

her do it because he wants to fuck her trying to twist this like what is the or he's feeling himself he's fuckable now she thinks he's fuckable now they're lingering their hugs because he's hugging her back that's the thing a lingering hug unless because it would be weird if a guy one of Corey's buddies would like hug me I would end it quick you know I wouldn't be like lingering with him unless it was I mean I'm not not that I don't give good hugs but like with you just there's a way to do it where it's like yeah um I wouldn't make them like hang off they would like still be hugging I'd be like backing up they'd be like falling on the floor so I'm like you're this is going a little too long buddy like back it up okay this is kind of fun should I do reddit advice more

a married man just slid into my dms what oh god damn it god if i've learned if i've learned anything though like that does not i mean okay married yeah married men i don't get the thing is is i don't people just don't there's there's levels to it but i feel like me being married married to some men in my experience since being married isn't a thing or engaged with a ring on my finger like they're like don't there's no like they don't fucking care which is so i i it's disgusting like it's so disrespectful it's like have some like some decorum like respect like they just it's on their

it's whatever um and then married men have i had that experience no um i think here's the thing though i think when someone oh i'm getting speaking of married men my husband's calling me you're on the cast oh is it done we we we're we're done crying that was about 30 minutes at the top of the show we lit a candle for buster um is it done it's done fuck dude Sorry, I'm podcasting, so I'm being more dramatic. He was a fighter, too. They had to give him a little bit more.

Damn it. My mom was there, and they scratched his butt. You know how he always does his little like, rah, rah, growl? Did he do it? He keeps scratching him. He was still doing it. My candle, is my candle still lit? I lit a candle for him.

It's called Cinnamon Noel. Yeah, well, my dad said he wants to get it. get another dog and get a puppy and train it wow okay another rottweiler yeah poor thing just happened so fast like i'm gonna after the show i'm gonna look at pictures and stuff i think that's like a good way to remember him and just think about it and like feel it you know i gotta feel it yeah sir you off to lunch i'm off to lunch and um yeah nice just grabbing some food and then heading back nice thanks for taking the boys oh yeah they're hanging i put their bandanas on they're very happy they're so cute they're bandanas we're all sleeping together

tonight all four of us okay yeah I want to reminisce I know you never know life you just never know you never know what's your favorite buster memory do you have one just when he was a puppy just you know all the fun I used to have with him yeah crazy all the late cuddles and just hanging him pretend growling when he just wants more scratches I know and I think that's why i would scratch him for so long when i first met him because i was scared he was gonna like i didn't know that's what he did so i was like scared yeah he's like come on woman keep going and i did i would get my hands so dirty oh yeah oh yeah don't stop all right all right well a downy show but okay now what where do they what do they do with them now

I cremate him and take his you know his body I'm going to cry like stop okay I shouldn't have asked that question I don't like to think about it I just visualized them like rolling him in the cremation center or whatever it's sad

yeah it sucks I'm going to actually cry okay like we got to stop okay moving on have a great lunch thanks Kara I'll cry later I have a show to do we're reading reddit advice and I'm reading about like

like the next one is a married man just slid into my DMs what do I do oh boy my wife keeps the next one I'll do is my wife keeps accusing me of being gay that might be a better one oh boy not me though

definitely not you honey alright I love you sorry for the drama I'll talk to you soon love you too talk to you soon yeah bye okay sad definitely not me that's such a fun you're not a fun game but like straight men like fucking with them about being gay is so fun sometimes because they're so like i i swear to god well no it's like the honey boo boo thing like everyone's a little gay

right? Isn't that what she said? Like, I know I'm 40%, but there's like a test you can take online and I want to like force him to take it. He's at, he's at least like 2%. Every man is at least 2% gay and that's okay. We're all a little bit something. We're a little bit, a little bit, I think, excuse me. Oh my God. It's getting long. This episode's getting long. I'm going to sneeze now. That's, this is like that time of year. You know what I mean? We're just, we don't edit we don't cut this out I don't know what just happened I think that was like my punishment for calling my husband early when I say two percent gay okay on that note let's read this one my wife keeps accusing me of being gay my wife keeps if this is how it starts

my wife keeps accusing me of being gay not as a joke she's being serious because we haven't been intimate in a long time the last time we tried i wasn't able to perform it sounds like he needs blue chew or i don't know trip to the doctor's office i've been trying to avoid the issue to be honest but she won't let it drop i'm not gay by the way i'm just not attracted to her because she gained like a hundred pounds in the last five years. Well, there's your fucking issue, buddy. You're not attracted to your wife. You're not gay. She's fat. You don't want to fuck her. Pretty simple. Sounds like they need to go to a couple's counselor. Get her on a Zempic, you know? This is the argument. She's like, you're gay. And he's like, you're fat. And it just goes back and

well you're that's a tough one you know and I and I've said it and I'll say it again I'll keep saying it never like she gained 100 pounds the last five years divorce her like you're I'm sorry like I am so anti letting yourself go for any reason like no they're you that is such a prison to put your partner in to to be hot to be fuckable hot young sexy whatever they're attracted to you and then you just throw in the towel you're married whatever and then you just throw in the towel you stop trying you gain 100 pounds maybe gain 200 I don't know 60 pounds even and they're just like not attracted to you anymore the whole like no matter what size you are i'll still love you of course they love you but like you gotta you gotta keep it sexy for your partner at all

times and i'm just anti yeah turning into a frumpy slob i just think it's disgusting and i think yeah this this man should divorce his wife unless she loses bring okay this is the thing couples counseling. Sure. Be honest with your wife. That's, I don't know how you tell your wife she's fat and you're not attracted to her. You can't, you don't, that's why you don't want to have sex with her without literally saying that. I think people, a lot of the times are like, well, you have to like, okay, like take her on a hike or like stop buying junk food in the house or like whatever like do things to kind of help her lose weight without directly addressing it so I think that's lame as shit and she's aware she knows she gained the weight um

to cancel sorry see we're just like this is the stream stream part we're just kind of scrolling and you're with me right now. What if I did the confessions? I think these are fun too when people confess stuff. I use my company credit card to feed one homeless person per meal. Shout out. My company rakes billions in profits.

I work in a high level sales role for a top 50 tech company. Often I have to travel for work to different high-priced cities across the globe, London, Paris, San Francisco, New York, Sydney, et cetera. My meal stipend is over $300 a day for these big cities, given everything is pricey. This is only why I travel, by the way, not every single day.

So if I'm buying four tacos for lunch, we'll just make it six. Throw in an extra water bottle instead of one. Maybe add two more chips to go with that meal. Are they really going to judge me for overeating? so much food that's that's under the policy doubt it can't do this every single day but it happens fairly frequently technically unethical and worthy of being fired but society has enough issues been doing it for the last two years not stopping now always brings a smile to both mine and their face being handed a nice warm full meal he's looking for brownie points that's why he's

posting that he wants to feel good about himself today so he posted on reddit um but shout out like you should be fired he should be fired but keep going keep going I'm all for feeding people a warm meal who need it I can never be against that I think you know if you're principal then if you're like doing your job correctly to the book you wouldn't be doing that but like also but I feel like the thing about doing things like that is it's a it's a slippery slope or whatever where it's like that's you're gonna start doing those kinds of things in other areas of your life it's like stealing you know when you feel like oh that was easy I can get away what and then you like keep that going for like the rest of your life

If you like keep and then the thrill, like you're chasing that like thrill of getting away with it or whatever. You have to be careful, but here and there, it's like, hey, if you see the guy outside the restaurant and you're at a Chipotle in Sydney, Australia, and he's homeless with a dog and you're like, it's cold out. I don't know. It's probably not that cold there, but it's like, yeah, get the six taco plate instead of the four taco plate and hand him one on the way out. Your company's rack and build, you know, you're doing, you're, you're doing the Lord's work that I think it is so odd by the way. And I never, I think about this every day because we do have a homeless crisis here in Southern California. I live in San Diego and I see it every day. And it's like, I think it is so weird driving by people that are so disheveled and like hungry, like on drugs, flopping over. I mean, there's pockets of the city that are so bad. And I think

it's so weird to be a human being next to another human being just a car away you're on this and they're on the sidewalk you're just in your car I just think it's so strange how I don't know it's like a whole different world and we're not tapped into it we don't we don't just we don't like pull the car over like are you okay like can I help you it's just kind of accepted and I understand it's more nuanced than that obviously like we're not I'm not oblivious to the reality of that situation but um some people it just looks like they need a warm meal and it's just go give them give them a taco on the company credit card um oh late night google search made me realize what kind of dad I'm turning into

that's too triggering for me on a day like today i just need to throw this off my chest because i'm done let's see what this is about i'm a man and i love this girl and she loves me but it's hard because the islamic laws here are strict even if she wants to be with me due to islam rules her parents make the final decision if they don't like something about you it's over like am i going to be with her or with them what she's an adult she should be able to choose for herself but most families want you to have a high-paying job a big house and multiple cars in a country where most

people are people barely earn enough my only hope is to leave university and find a job before they force her to marry someone else because it's totally totally normal here lol everything feels so complicated okay two things great motivation to get a good job to work hard so you can get your dream girl this is a positive thing that is positive it's okay to be motivated what word was that motivated by, um, potentially getting the, the, the feeling of a woman's touch that you lust over. Fucking what am I saying? To be motivated, to dream hard and work big and pursue wealth and, um, all the things. If that means that you get your, so like we're not gonna say the crass thing we're not um you know that's positive that's good it's

good to be motivated by something um you need motivation in life to get you out of bed every day and if that's your motivation fuck yeah you know also run away and marry her I don't know where he's at but he needs to um just disappear just like the movies you know it's a love story baby just say yes or something that's the episode let me see if I forgot anything that was fun doing advice thanks for hanging out please hit that subscribe button wherever you're listening right now I'm on apple spotify google podcast stitcher breaker overcast wherever you listen to podcasts, please hit that subscribe button and review the show five stars while you're

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