anything goes with emma chamberlain - hobbies

Episode Date: December 4, 2020

Sometimes, especially now, it can feel like we’re stuck in the same rut doing things that don’t bring us much joy. Thankfully Emma has picked up a few hobbies, and talks about the importance of doing something for the sole purpose of making us happy. Plus, a holiday gift-giving guide for everyone in your life, and questions on the problem with public relationships, Emma’s full list of celebrity crushes, and what’s going to happen in 2021? Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Hi everybody. Welcome back to anything goes I'm Emma Chamberlain your host. How is that more professional intro? Do we like it? Do we hate it? What do we think? Hi everybody. I'm gonna be honest with you guys. I am struggling with the pod. I recorded two episodes for today and I hated both of them and I scrapped them and then I just recorded half of today, and I hated both of them and I scrapped them, and then I just recorded half of an episode, and I stopped recording and I was like, I hate it, I don't know what's going on with me. It's so weird, but I really am excited.

Sorry, I had a lot of hot sauces morning on my breakfast and now I keep burping it up and it hurts. But we persevere, and we will get through it. But I like to be honest, see being honest is a double-edged sword and I've been realizing this recently in my personal life and on social media. I'm almost so honest to a point where it might even harm me because I just wanna talk about everything.

I wanna be like, open about everything. I wanna come on here and tell you that I tried to record three times and it didn't work. But part of me wonders if that makes me seem negative or makes me seem whiny because I'm honest about even the bad moments. Does it just seem like I'm complaining or does it seem like I'm just being honest and venting?

I don't know. And that extends into my personal life. I like to talk about anything and everything. And even the shit that people kind of bottle up because they're like, well, I'm gonna keep this one to myself because I don't wanna like weigh down others. But I like get into it anyway. And I wonder, I think recently I've been kind of insecure I keep this one to myself because I don't want to like, weigh down others. But I like get into it anyway.

And I wonder, I think recently I've been kind of insecure about my openness. I'm like, am I too open? I don't know. So that's something I'm thinking about right now. And I think that's why I scrapped two episodes because I was giving opinions on things and being really honest.

And I listened back and I was like, eh. Too much, I'm not too much. Step back. Keep some shit to yourself, you know. But I think that right now it's hard because it's so easy to fixate on things right now and like form really strong opinions right now because we have so much time on our hands. But anyway, I just got home from the Bay Area, I went home for Thanksgiving, and I stayed at my dad's house, which I haven't done in a really long time, and it was kind of awesome because here's why.

In LA, I feel like everything is so, it's very gross and dirty here, don't get me wrong, but I more mean people wise. Everybody's really put together. A lot of people are very beautiful and very put together and just, you know what I'm saying? Like a lot of people are just very,

very much Gucci belt to the grocery store vibes, you know what I'm saying? And I've been around that for so long that that kind of became my reality in my head and then when I went home and saw a little bit more of a normal Town like it was just a normal town. It's like Some people didn't brush their hair that morning. It was amazing. It was amazing to be around it And I really kind of let myself go a little bit not in a bad way, but in a good way. I was like, I wasn't fucking showering,

which shut up before you even get into that. I don't even want you guys to roast me for that because sometimes it happens, okay? I like, didn't have to shave my legs. I wasn't wearing makeup ever. I was wearing the same clothes the whole week. I packed a whole massive suitcase and more one outfit. It was amazing. I wore one week. I packed a whole massive suitcase and more one outfit. It was amazing.

I wore one hoodie. I wore one hoodie. And it was nice to kind of experience something a little bit more simple. And I feel like I learned a lot on the trip. And one of the things I realized was, I need to find something in my life that excites me that has no real goal or endpoint insight.

I'll give you a little bit of an example. In school, every single thing that you do at school, whether you're in like a book club or a math club or you're doing a sport or you're in like a really special science class. Every single thing that you do at school has an end goal in sight. For example, again, I keep going for example. I'm fucking in an inception of for examples right now. If you're in like the math club, you're really not in the math club because you genuinely enjoy the math club. You're probably in the math club because you know that having that on your college application is going to give you a better chance of getting into the school you want.

Let's say you're doing a sport. Maybe you want a scholarship. Let's say you're taking a really hard science class. That's probably for college in some way. Let's say you're taking special summer camp classes. It's probably for college in some way so that you can go to college and get a better job which eventually makes you money. Like it's hard for people to find a hobby or something that they like to do that doesn't lead to financial gain at some point. I was thinking about this the other day, I'm like, I used to do YouTube for fun and all that and social media for fun and all of that,

but eventually I started making money from it. And then it was like, you know, it lost that charm for me in a way of, I'm just doing this because I love it, because now I just doing this because I love it. Because now I'm doing it because I love it, but also because this is now my job, and my dad was telling me he was like, you need to find something that you like in your life

that's just, that you don't even need to get good at, that you just enjoy, doesn't have, there's no need to get good at it. You need to find something in your life that you wanna do because you enjoy doing it that doesn't ever need to make you money, doesn't ever need to benefit you in some sort of materialistic way,

something that you like to do. And he told me that and I was like, uh, that's an exhausting piece of advice to give somebody. Like, what a fucking homework assignment. Being like, okay, find a hobby that you like. That's not easy to do. It's hard to just find something that you like to do. For me, I have a really hard time with hobbies because I don't like doing anything.

I just work and do the necessary things to survive and then sleep and then again and again. And I don't have things that I just enjoy doing because to me it feels like a waste of time, which is not true. But that's how my brain works. My brain's like, why pick up a fucking useless hobby? What's the point of it?

My mind is almost wired in the way of, if it's not gonna benefit me in surviving, then why do it? But when I was on my trip home, I kind of had a realization because I started playing drums, because my dad is a drum set in my room at home. And I started kind of playing the drums

and you know, the drum set is in my room. So every time I would walk by it, like I'd go get water from the kitchen, when I'd come back, I would play drums for like five minutes and then I'd get back into bed. And sometimes before I'd leave the house, if I was going to get my morning coffee, I'd play drums for a little bit,

and then go and get my coffee. It was something that was right in front of me. And so for some reason, I just kept going back to it and doing it. And I actually felt happiness when I would figure out a new drum beat. Because when you're playing drums, it's like, you're playing drums, it's like,

you're playing and then, if you wanna learn a new beat, you kinda have to retrain yourself for every new drum beat, at least for me, because I'm a very much beginner. So it's like, you have to take your mind, it's almost like solving a puzzle, because it's about rhythm and your body, it'll click in your body

before it clicks in your mind almost sometimes. It's so weird. But I genuinely was releasing serotonin when I was fucking figuring out new drum beats and shit. And it was like a puzzle and it was fun and it made me feel good. And it was therapeutic and I loved it. So I'm buying a drum set for my place in LA

and I wanna get kinda good at it. For me, not because I wanna be in a fucking band one day, not because I wanna be a professional drummer one day, not because I even wanna be that good at it. I don't even care. I mean, I would like to be good at it, but like, that's not why I'm doing it. I'm doing it because I genuinely doing it because I genuinely enjoy it,

because I genuinely enjoy how it feels to play drums, and it makes me feel happy when I do it, and when I accomplish something, and it's something for me to work hard at without any consequences. It's like when you're in a really hard science class, you work really hard at that because if you fail Then that could negatively impact your GPA which could negatively negatively impact

Getting into college If I like can't figure out a drum beat there's no It's there's no harm in it. It's fine like I'm not in a band. I just died. There's no reason for's no harmony, it's fine. Like I'm not in a band, I just, there's no reason for that. Like it's just low pressure fun. And I'm doing it for myself, which gives me an element of confidence.

I also bought a sewing machine because I also wanna try sewing clothes at some point. I'm not gonna be able to sew clothes for a long time, but I wanna start sewing because I used to love sowing, but then I kinda gave it up because I just like didn't care anymore. I went through puberty and all of the hobbies I had as a kid just went away.

As they always say in like the fucking tampax commercial, they're like, you know, they like said something about how like women give up on their hobbies when they're young for some reason. I don't remember that commercial, but it did stick in my head and I did just reference it. So, and I don't know if I even agree with that commercial. But anyway, I did.

I like kind of gave up on a lot of my hobbies when I was younger. And, but like, I want to get back into sewing because I feel like sewing, I mean, I love fuck, I love clothes. I love designing clothes. I love coming up with ideas for clothes, whatever in my free time, in my head. It's something I enjoy in general. So how fun would it be if I tried to make stuff, you know? That sounds exciting to me. So I am getting a sewing machine as well. So I'm gonna have two new hobbies, drum set, and sewing machine are on the way to my house. And I'm really excited about it,

not for anybody else, but for just me. I think it'll help give my life some purpose and some excitement, you know? Because sometimes it's hard to wake up every morning when you just work and do your silly little tasks and then go to bed. It gets depressing. I mean, look at the movie, The Shining.

There's a quote in there. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. I agree. All work in no play makes you dull. Doing silly little fun things for yourself is what life's all about. And it's also important because it involves nobody else but you. It's just you and your fun, silly little hobby.

That's it. There's nobody else involved. Obviously, you can meet people through it, which is even better, but at the end of the day, having hobbies is a you thing. When I sit down at the drum set or when I start sewing things, like that's going to be something that I'm doing and only I'm doing it. Like nobody else is doing it and I'm doing it because it feels good and it releases serotonin for me. There's something so empowering about that. It's all about me. It's all for me. I do it for me. I enjoy it because I enjoy it and When I improve at it That's gonna make me feel good too. So this is your sign if you feel like you've been looking for a hobby Try to find something but don't rush yourself because I've been

Figuring I've been feeling like I needed a hobby for so long and it took me so long to figure out what things I was excited about picking up. It takes time. So be patient with yourself. You're not gonna find it overnight. When my dad gave me the advice to find hobbies, I was like, shut up, shut up. And I kept pushing it off and not doing it,

not doing it, not doing it, but it got to a point where the quote that I mentioned earlier, all work in no play makes Jack a very dull boy. That is what my life became. It was like, I was literally that. All work in no play makes Emma a dull boy. That's how I fucking felt.

I felt so, I feel so dull right now without any hobbies. When my dad gave me that advice, he was planting a seed. He wasn't telling me I needed to go out and find a hobby that day. He was like, listen, this is something that could help you. So just keep an eye out for something that peaks your interest. And it happened eventually, but it took a long time to find it. Like, drums and sewing, it's so random, but I feel excited about those two things,

and I'm very excited to get into it. So try to find your hobby that speaks to you that has no fucking other motive besides that you love it period. This episode is brought to you by Squarespace. Squarespace is more than a website builder. It's an all in one place to make an online space that's entirely your own. Their all in one platform allows you to customize everything from the fonts and color scheme to your domain name. All you have to do is choose from one of their beautifully designed templates as a starting off point. Then at whatever you need to show off your ideas to get your

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Like you good neighbor, State Farm is there. Call or go to stateform.com for a quote today. Next topic. What's next? What's next on the list? Let's talk holiday gifting. Okay, I hate it. I hate it so much. Oh my God. There's nothing I hate more of my life. Then giving and receiving gifts. I hate it. But I'm going to give you guys my gift guide for different types of people and maybe it'll help. Give you guys some info. So number one, we have dads. Personally, my dad has a lot of hobbies. I'm jealous of him.

He serves, he fucking paints, he makes music, he takes photographs, I hate him. I wish that I was like him. He have never met a guy with more hobbies. If your dad has a hobby, say it's golf, whatever, the easiest way to excite your dad is to get them something bougie, not even necessarily bougie,

but like something kind of like, that they wouldn't buy for themselves for their hobby, but that like would make it more fun. For example, let's say your dad plays golf. If you get him, you know, really funny, like, or cool golf tease, like the little tease that you stick in the ground, is that what it's called?

I don't know anything about golf, but you get him like, really funny fucking camo ones or something, or like really cool bright blue ones. Yeah, he wouldn't probably buy that for himself because it's unnecessary, but it's gonna be a fun little thing that he'll have when he's playing golf or for my dad Like getting him a really cool wetsuit with a cool design on it. Although I think that

Surfers judge other surfers that have like crazy wetsuits because it's like embarrassing. It's like not the cool thing to do But or like with really cool surfboard maybe that's kind of expensive, but you get what I'm saying like Like something for their hobby. And if your dad for some reason doesn't have hobbies, get him some sort of massage thing for his back. He probably needs it if he's working really hard. Or if your dad likes to cook, new pans. This is something that I didn't realize adults appreciated, but I really appreciate it. My mom just told me, because she's visiting me in LA right now, she was like, you need new cooking pans, your pans are disgusting and burnt,

they burnt oil all over them, and I was like, okay, you don't need to come at me like that. But okay, and she bought me new pans, and now that I'm an adult, I realize how amazing it is. The brand Green Pan has really great pans. And I think there's something good about them. I'm like, I don't know.

They're like non-stick, but it's not as toxic as other non-stick pans. I'm pretty sure they're made out of better stuff. Listen, you're talking, I'm literally an infant. I don't know what I'm talking about. But getting new pots or pans, like a really nice cast iron skillet or something, fucking dads love that shit if they cook or even moms love that shit too.

Moving on to moms. Moms love, well, it depends. There's so many different types of moms, it's tough. But I think moms really like, okay, here's the thing about moms though, it's tough. But I think moms really like, okay, here's the thing about moms though, it's hard, it's hard because moms love like, really nice like clothing items and stuff like that, but then you get them for them and they never wear it.

So that's why I'm stumped by moms. I've heard this story from so many people where it's like, oh, I bought my mom, like a really expensive purse and she never uses it. Or like, I bought my mom really expensive slippers and she still wears her like ones that she got 10 years ago, you know, from Target. Like she doesn't, like, it's funny. I feel like moms tend to be like that.

So maybe don't go that route. Oh, you know what I think moms would really like? My mom loves crystals. I know that that's so funny, like in random, but my mom really likes cool crystals. You can find really cool crystals for pretty affordable online that are like really pretty and nice. Moms love that shit and they can like put them around the house. I think that's a great gift for a mom. And like ones that have cute little good energy behind, like the ones that like, you know, they have like a explanation like,

oh this one will bring positivity or, oh this one will bring peace of mind, like you know stuff like that, that could be kind of nice. So maybe some crystals for your mom or maybe I know my mom loves PJs. So like any type of PJ set doesn't need to be expensive, but PJ set of sorts. You can't go wrong with that. I love that.

I think, oh my God, I love when people give me PJs. That's like, that makes me like receiving gifts because I hate receiving gifts because I hate the whole process of being like, oh my God, thank you. Like, ah, makes me sick. I hate it. But if somebody gave me PJs, I'd be so stoked that I wouldn't even have to like fake,

any, well, it's not like I fake. See, the thing is I don't ever fake emotions. Like I'm so grateful for any gift that I receive. But it's like, I always feel this pressure to have the perfect reaction. Like, I almost overly animate my response to receiving a gift so that they feel appreciated because I don't ever want somebody

to feel underappreciated for giving me a gift. So I feel this pressure to be so animated about it. I'm like, oh my God. I've been looking for a body wash that was peppermint. Oh my God, thank you. Like that's so unnecessary. But like, I don't want anybody to feel like I don't care. So I will over do it. And that's why I hate it. But if somebody gave me PJs, I would genuinely be that stoked and

That loud and that animated about it just because I love PJs. So I feel like giving people PJs. You can't go wrong So that's that Let's talk about for your friends. I feel like for friends it's so much easier like because you know you guys have inside jokes I think always playing off the inside jokes for friends is so fun. Let's say you have an inside joke about snuggies or about a toaster. Like play into that.

That's always my root with friends. It's the most fun. It gets a good laugh and everybody's happy. I feel like that's the way to go. As for significant others, oh my God, don't even get me started. I hate it. This is my biggest nightmare. I don't know why, but I tend to buy my significant other clothing for some reason. But that's so stressful. And I don't know why I put myself through that because it's really hard. Like if they don't like it, that's just gonna make, like it makes me cringe thinking about getting somebody

that you're dating, a piece of clothing, and then them hating it, like that literally makes me sick. I'm still stumped to this day about how to do it. I would say for your girlfriend, let's say, well, God, I don't know. I think jewelry, I think jewelry can't go wrong for whoever you're dating. I feel like anybody likes jewelry.

I think it's, let's say you, you know, you're dating somebody who's trying to spice up their style a little bit, getting them some really cool, playful, fun jewelry. You can't go wrong. Also, it has then a sentimental value, which is special. I also think that getting your significant other something that relates to your relationship, whether that's a cute framed photo of you or maybe a fun hand-made painting. Find somebody on Etsy to paint a painting of you guys that maybe a fun like hand made painting like find

somebody on Etsy to like paint a painting of you guys that could be kind of cute but also kind of creepy maybe depends on how long you've been talking I don't know dude I shouldn't have even gotten into the relationship gifting because I'm just as lost as anybody else I don't know good luck gift giving this year it's really awful but you know what I'm actually excited about this year everybody's been talking about how it's so important to shop small businesses for Christmas this year. And I love that idea.

I love that idea because, or the holidays in general, I just celebrate Christmas, so I shouldn't be speaking for just me. But this is like a fun time to like go online and try to find some cool small businesses and shop those. Like I love that. Or even like going to vintage stores

or thrifting gifts. Like that could be even fun too. It's like sustainable because you're not adding to the waste of whatever. Going to like goodwill and like finding a cool plate for your mom. Like that's kind of fun, right? Or like finding a cool like vintage your mom like that's kind of fun right or like

Finding a cool like vintage record player for like your significant other or your sibling or something like that's exciting It's like treasure hunting so that could be a fun way to do it this year is to like think about buying Used items from the thrift store like a treasure hunt that's fun, but also finding cool small businesses It's like a fucking treasure hunt for gifts this year, but also finding cool small businesses. It's like a fucking treasure hunt, forgive us this year. And it'll make it more fun. It's not like just you're on Amazon, like on Amazon, like, okay, I could fucking buy anything here, like, what am I going to do? Like, let's say you find a small business, maybe an artist who makes like really cool self

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Okay. Frankie's my sweet little, oh my God. Let's just talk about my cat Frankie for a second. I, it's so funny, she's so shy, like she only likes me and it's the best fucking thing for my ego ever. Because she only likes me, she only hangs out with me, she doesn't let anybody else pick her up, she doesn't let anybody else pet her, only me.

It's incredible, everybody hates her. Everybody hates her, they're like, she's such a little bitch. But she literally loves me so much for no reason. I mean, I guess it's because I adopted her. Like she maybe assumes that I'm her mommy, which I love. But she only likes me. And it makes me feel so good. Like she's just in the recording studio with me, which is my closet. And she's just licking my hand and purring. And I'm like, you aren't like this with anybody else. And that is, it makes me feel so good. I love her. Anyway, let's talk about New Year's resolutions. I never make them. I hate them.

I think they're so stupid. But this year, I gonna try to think of a few and maybe we can all Try this year to do. I just don't like to like I don't like to create a goal for myself just because there's like a year just because the year changes like I like to try to Make goals for myself all year round because I'm That's the most annoying thing anybody could possibly say. And I just said it, but it's kind of true. I try to like, you know, cause I feel like it's unrealistic to like make all these goals

in the beginning of the year. Like I don't know, but I've also been seeing people on TikTok making New Year's resolution, or like they're completing their New Year's resolutions. And they're like talking about it, like from the beginning of 2020 to now, like showing their like journey with one of their New Year's resolutions and I kind of felt left out and had felt I'm about it.

So now I want to try to have one and see what happens. So here's my New Year's resolution. Number one, I want to learn how to play at least ten of my favorite songs on the drums. That doesn't seem too hard, but actually it does. But that could be fun. Number two, I want to learn how to sew myself a full outfit, shirt and pants. I also want to stop not acknowledging my own accomplishments. Okay. I never acknowledge my own accomplishments and I am numb to my own accomplishments. Okay.

I never acknowledge my own accomplishments, and I am numb to my own accomplishments, so my goal in news resolution is to start feeling proud of myself. I don't know if that's possible, but I will try. And last but not least, I want to find confidence and validation within myself and not outside of myself. Thank you. That's mine.

Yeah, those are my news resolutions. I'm going to write them down in a journal and then I'm going to come back in a year and see what happened and see what happens. See if it came true. God only knows. Okay. I'm ready for questions, because to be honest, my brain is empty, guys. Like, I hate it. I don't get why, but my brain is empty. I like, no new thoughts.

Actually, I just shared enough thoughts. I feel like I did enough. I am fine. We can move on to questions. The first question is, talk about your celebrity crushes. Okay, I've had so many and I kind of want to list all of them. Cause I think it's funny. Okay, so the first crush I ever had was

the brothers and the naked brothers band. If you remember what that is, God bless you. That was my first ever crush, I think celebrity crush. I've had so many. I've been so boy crazy since I was a fucking Like literal four-year-old like I don't understand why I'm like that. I've always I was born Just being like always having a crush like always I'm like that. I'm so like that So yeah, okay started with the brothers from the naked brothers band a crush, like always, I'm like that, I'm so like that. So yeah, okay, it started with the brothers from the Niggit Brothers band. Then it went to the Jonas Brothers.

I don't know what's going on with me in boy bands, but apparently that was my thing. The Jonas Brothers, specifically Nick Jonas, sometimes would kind of go back and forth between Joe and Nick, but always usually Nick. Whereas now I feel like I'd have more of a crush on Joe, but whatever. That was probably my second crush. I also had a crush on the actor that played the main character in the diary of a Wimpy Kid movie, okay? That one doesn't really make much sense.

He just looks like I don't really know what was going on there with that crush. That one was weird. I mean, he's definitely a cute kid, but it just is so fucking random. I was obsessed with him, like obsessed. I don't know what, like when I Google, like it doesn't make sense.

Like he just, when I look back, I'm like, he looks like a normal, he, I don't know what my like 10 year old brain was thinking. Like he just, he's cute. I mean, sure, but it's just like, it's so, it's such a random person to be as obsessed with him. I was so obsessed with him. It was was unhealthy. I don't understand how or why that happened.

Oh, then it was Colesprouse. Colesprouse was an on and off again, crushed for me for a very long time. I had a crush on him in Sweet Life, Zach and Cody, but then my crush for him kind of got reborn when I watched season one of Riverdale. I like for some reason just thought he was so cute. So that happened, that was a huge crush for me.

I also had a huge crush on Joe Kiri from Stranger Things. I couldn't get over that one. That one, like, physically hurt my body. Like, that one, like, I don't know why I was so obsessed with him. I used to try to, like, tweet at him, I think, or, like, DM him on Twitter and be, like, I need to marry you. Like, I have to. Um, but he has a girlfriend.

So, you know, that was one that I think it's better that that didn't go anywhere. But that was a really, I was a, like I was determined, I was like, I don't know why, but I love this man. Like I even love, this is the man of my dream. Like I don't know what, I think it was honestly his hair in the show. Like the fucking mullet thing, like that just like got me,

got my brain moving like crazy. I just like, no, not like that. But like you know what I'm saying? Like it just got, it really struck a chord for me. Like I don't, it was the hair for me. Who else? I mean obviously, I think my most recent crush was Timothy Shalame for so long.

And I just couldn't get over that one. I was obsessed with him, but I've also get over that one. I was obsessed with him, but I've also been obsessed with him. I was obsessed with him from like solidly 2017 to like 2019, solid, maybe even 2016. And like I feel like I actually had a crush on him. Like I feel like I was one of the first ones. Like I feel like I found him and I didn't,

but I feel like I was there first. I have the whole, everybody who listens to Tayman Paula, who's first, right? It's always that argument. It's like, well, I found them in 2015, well, I found them in 2014, well, I found them in 2016,

but it's like everybody's always arguing about it, right? That's how I feel about Timothy Shalame. I'm like, you guys are just figuring this out now. I had a crush on him literally in 2016. So where were you guys? Anyway, but that kinda got over that one. 2020, I mean, yeah, I think I just got over that one. Also when I watched Fight Club,

is that what that movie's called? Fight Club? I think so. I randomly got a crush on Brad Pitt for the whole duration of the movie. I was like, wow. Yeah. Yeah. That was that.

But who else have I ever had a crush on? Let me try to think. Let me try to think. Let me try to think. I had a little weird Ross Lynch phase for about 45 minutes, which is random. It only lasted about 45 minutes. But oh my God, I totally forgot about a massive part of my childhood magcon.

Oh my God, I had a huge crush on them. I thought Nash Greer and Cameron Dallas were, I thought I was gonna marry them. Like I genuinely was like, like you know what I said about Joe Kiri earlier from Stranger Things? Forget it. I thought I was gonna,

I thought I was gonna be Cameron Dallas's wife when I was like 13, 12, 12 or 13. I was fully prepared to be Cameron Dallas's wife, when I was like 13, 12, 12 or 13, I was fully prepared to be Cameron Dallas's wife. Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh But we made a v- oh my god, this is so fucking embarrassing. Oh my god, oh my god. We made a vine when vine was a thing that was like all of us, so I don't have it anymore, but I feel so bad for my middle school friends. Sorry guys, if you guys ever hear this, I know that we don't want to talk about this story. It's really embarrassing, but I'm telling it anyway. We made a vine and we all like got, we all stood in front of the camera and said,

when MagCon boys posted new picture and then we all filmed ourselves screaming and sitting in a chair, like looking at the screen and screaming. Middle school hormones are crazy. That's all I'm gonna say. Like, I don't know what I puberty hit us all like a fucking ton of bricks maybe. I mean, we were just what the fuck? We were like, cute, but like, I, it was dangerous. I mean, I don't like, the fact that those things like are possibly even on the internet still terrifies me, and the worst part is too. I think I've met Cameron Dallas before once, and I just was so embarrassed when I met him

because I was thinking in the back of my head about that moment, and I was like, I don't know how I'm supposed to. I don't know how I'm supposed to even speak to this man. I'm so fucking mortified, only he knew what makes me sick. Those are all the celebrity crushes I can remember, but I've had so many. I don't think I've gone a week without having a crush on a boy in my whole life. I always have a boy on lock. I always got a crush on one.

And then unless I'm dating somebody, then I have a crush on whom I'm dating. But why am I like that? Is that normal? You guys tell me. Do you guys always have crushes on somebody? I never don't. Because for me, here's what it is. Okay, I don't have a crush on a real person in real life.

Time to find a celebrity to get emotionally attached to. Like the last time I was single, I literally just fixated on Timothy Shalma. I should not be talking about this on the internet. I okay. And I'd like watch an interview here and there and like I'd be like wow it's almost like I'm on a date. I literally it's sick. I don't it makes me sick. Somebody asked why keep romantic relationships private. I actually tried to film a whole episode on this so I'll be very brief

It because it didn't work when I tried to record an episode about it, but Here's my problem with public relationships it's so like It bothers me how Public relationships in my age groups specifically, I think that with older people, it tends to be different because they're a lot more mature. They're less likely to exploit one another, but relationships in my age group, there's

so much exploitation of the relationship for clicks and for views and all that, that rubs me the wrong way. And there's a lot of using one another for, you know, some sort of gain. And that to me is so toxic because, I mean, there's so many endless reasons, but one of the biggest ones being like, if you're exploiting your relationship on the internet and it's benefiting you in some way or your significant other in some way, you're exploiting your relationship on the internet and it's benefiting you in some way or you're significant other in some way, you're more likely to stay in that relationship even if it's not good. You're more likely to settle in that relationship even if it's not good because you're gaining from it. So you're not going to be handling the relationship in a normal,

healthy way because you're going to be making your decision based on the fact that, you know, you're financially gaining from it. Like, you're not gonna make rational decisions or smart decisions as it's gonna be harder to make rational and smart decisions when you're financially gaining from the relationship. But also, I have trust issues, and I don't think that I could, like, if my boyfriend say, like, was filming me, and surprised me with some sort of nice thing, like a really nice dinner at Nobu. But then, like, vlog the whole thing, I'd be like, so did you do this for the vlog? Or do you do this because you fuck with me because I'm your girlfriend?

Like, what's real? What's fake? You know, what's just for the camera? I think the perfect example of a couple that did it right is Cody and Kelsey. Cody, Cohen, Kelsey, Cretwell. Because number one, they're mature enough to handle it, where I don't think it's gonna put a wedge

in their relationship. Number two, they don't ever exploit one another. They make videos together almost as if they're friends because they're both funny and they both are so entertaining and great to watch. And it's like, they make videos together that are entertaining without them having to exploit their relationship, without them having to clickbait.

Like, boyfriend tag, you know, we spill all the secrets about a relationship. Like that's not what they're doing. They're just together in a video making funny shit, but it doesn't have anything to do with their relationship. They're not exploiting their relationship. Yes, their relationship is public and they do stuff together, but they're not exploiting each other.

They're making content together because they're both funny and they have a great friendship outside of their relationship. Yes, they have the romantic element, but they would be friends and they have a great friendship outside of their relationship. Yes, they have the romantic element, but they would be friends if they weren't dating. You know what I mean? Not really, because if they weren't dating, that would mean they broke up, but you know what I'm saying?

And then it's hard to be friends with the next, but whatever. You see what I'm saying? Like, they make videos together as if they're friends. Like, they have fun banter about things that aren't each other and they don't clickbait using each other. Like my fucking dogs are barking. Stop! Stop! Oh my god. What if I told you that I stopped my recording for a second and then forgot that I had a COVID test appointment at my house and then I just got my nose probed and cried,

because I heard not like cry as in like, where cry as in like my eyes were watering. I got my brain poked today. Actually it wasn't that bad, but that's what I just did. But I'm back. Anyway, I totally forgot what we were talking about. So this is episode's a fucking mess. I'm a mess, but whatever.

We're talking about public relationships, why it's bad when it works. Cody and Kelsey are a great example. Yes, okay. I don't know. I just think that there's something so sacred about having a private relationship and having it all to yourself. And I think that making relationships public can make it lose some of the magic.

I also think that dating is something that is so all over the place. You break up with people. You get back together. You're dating for a long time. Like whatever, you talk to new people. You get back together, you're dating for a long time. Like whatever, you talk to new people, you get back to your, there's so much that happens. And I would be really hard to experience

all of those things under a microscope. Like it would be really difficult, and that's why I don't talk about it. But also I wanna respect the privacy of my significant other. And I also don't wanna feel like I'm being used either, because that's a huge fear of mine. And so I think that it's just better

overall to keep it private. But I do think that at some point, I will open up about it, but it'll have to be when I'm older and when I'm getting married. Speaking of that, why literally, like I don't know if it's, I've been talking to a lot of people about this.

Why am I like ready to settle down and like have a family already? I am like ready for that next step in my life. Like I just don't wanna be a teen anymore. Like I just wanna be an adult. But it's like why am I rushing my life though? I shouldn't be doing that. I should be like living a day by day,

but maybe it's the fact that we're in COVID situation. Maybe that's making me want to like settle down or whatever because it's like, I'm already like not doing much. So it sounds like the right time. Probably when things start happening again, I'm going to regret saying that. Luckily, there's no baby or family coming anytime soon so we have nothing to worry about but anyway. You know what I just remembered. So I just got my COVID test and when I had like a conversation it was like one of the rapid tests that you find out within like

five minutes or whatever. So me and the COVID test lady were outside and we were just chatting, waiting for my results to come in. And then, so we kind of had like built a little friendship in the few minutes that we were together, not really, but you know what I'm saying? We were talking. And so then when she was leaving, I was like, okay, like how do I like say goodbye to her?

Cause like we just had a long conversation. Like I don't, we were wasn't long, but like five minutes with a stranger, you know do I like say goodbye to her? Cause like we just had a long conversation. Like I don't, we wasn't long, but like five minutes with a stranger, you know what I mean? And so I was like, bye, stay safe out there. And it was so awkward. And I feel like that's my one area socially that I lack. I'm so bad at saying goodbye. Like I'll be getting out of somebody's car,

like one of my friend's cars, and I'll be like, all right, I'll say some weird shit every time. And it makes me cringe. So bad. Like I'll say something like, all right, see you guys, like don't hit a squirrel on the way home and then I'll close it up. Like no context, what I say.

Ever, and it's so weird. Like I did it today. I was getting out of somebody's car, and what did I say? What did I say? Oh my God, okay. I was getting out of somebody's car. It's Thursday today when I'm recording this.

And I was like, okay, love you. Happy Tuesday to be like funny, but it's not Tuesday, it's Thursday, and I knew that, and that's why I said it. But like why did I say that? Why do I do that when I'm saying goodbye? It's so awkward. It's so fucking awkward.

So I need to work on that. That's something that I'm going to start workshopping, like just figuring out how to not do that. Um, because it just makes everybody uncomfortable. So, okay, last question. Somebody said predictions for 2021. I think it's going to be, I honestly think it's going to be a great year. I think that things are going to kind of return to some normal C at some point in 2021,

which will be very exciting. I think that everybody is going to have an awakening in a way when things start opening back up and we're allowed to do whatever we want. There's going to be an appreciation for life and for that freedom to do whatever you want that we have never, ever felt in our whole life. And I think that it's something to look forward to. You know, it's very exciting that at some point we're going to be able to, I think that it's something to look forward to, you know, it's very exciting that at some point We're gonna be able to I think we're all gonna appreciate everything

So much more we're gonna appreciate putting our phones down like I feel like we're gonna live in the moment so much more and really like soak it up I hope I really hope for that because I think that That could be such a silver lining in this whole thing if we can go into 2021 and then return to some level of normalcy and then really appreciate life in a way that we never could have otherwise. And what better way to make people appreciate the simple pleasures of sitting inside at a restaurant than not being able to for eight months, you know, I'm excited for it. I think we have a lot to look forward to in this life.

More all of this episode, my brain is empty, but I'm getting some it. I think we have a lot to look forward to in this life. More all of this episode My brain is empty, but I'm getting some hobbies and I think that's gonna help and I recommend you do the same I love you guys. Thanks for listening to me every week and putting up with me in my bullshit, you know I Appreciate all of you guys so much and if you enjoy podcast, give it a little five stars on Apple Podcasts. Subscribe on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, anywhere you get your podcasts.

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Okay, we all need to be a little bit easier on ourselves. Let's work on that. And let's look forward to 2021. Okay, bye everybody. Love you guys.