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Episode Date: October 2, 2025

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A lot of you guys have seen the video, right? And so, like, I'm not going to go through this. But, like, long story short is that my dad passed away. He did. And this happened a little bit over two weeks ago at this point. And I've, that actually, I was very busy dealing with that. It turns out, like, dying is really complicated. Oh, my God.

There's so much paperwork with it. Holy fuck. And so I've had to deal with that a lot. And, yeah, ripped out. I know it's fucking horrible. And I, uh, it's been, like, I feel like a lot of, it hasn't even really set in in like a big case. It hasn't really affected me.

And, you know, like, really, I, like, yesterday I went into his house and I just, honestly, I just cried, right? And I'll just say it. And first time I really have in quite a while. And let me show I turned that down. I think it's a little bit loud. And so, and, you know, it was the first time I had ever since, like, the first couple of days. And so it was just really, it's been really rough.

And so my dad passed away. And basically he, you know, it was one of those situations where he just decided pretty much, I mean, he had pancreatic cancer. He had had pneumonia six times. I'm pretty sure he just decided, man, it's time to clock the fuck out, right? Like, I'm dumb with this shit. I don't want to deal with this anymore. And that's exactly what he did. And, you know, they told me that really wasn't that high of a probability of a, you know, things were good, right?

And then, like, I'm talking to two of the doctors there. They're telling me it's not a matter of if, but when he's coming out of the hospital. I said, okay, great. And then the next day, they're calling me as I'm driving over there, telling me that he's probably not going to come out of the hospital. And so that was very, very unpleasant situation, and it was awful, to be honest with you. So that basically is what happened.

And then obviously, you know, I was there with him the whole way, all the way through up until the very end, which was very unpleasant. but I'm glad that I did it. And that's that's kind of what happened. Roller coaster. Yeah, yeah, definitely a roller coaster. You end up doing hospice? I did. I did. And I, you know, like he, it was as comfortable because like he and I had obviously had conversations about this, you know, in the past. And, you know, because he's 78. And so like, because of that, I mean, it was very obvious that, like, you know, this could happen at any time. And so he's like, okay, listen, this is what you're going to do. this is what I want. This is how I want it done. And that's how, you know, like, this is the decision

making I want you to do. I executed that decision making. And that, that's what I did. And so, you know, I, it's weird, right? Because I've lost both my parents now. And I'm kind of just here, you know, I'm just here. I'm an only child, right? And so I'm just kind of here. And it's given me a lot of time to think. And it's given me a lot of time to just kind of, you know, I don't know. I mean, like for, and this is something I really didn't kind of talk about a lot in my video, is that ever since I was like, you know, I would say like 23, but really 15, like in 2005, somewhere around there, my, like my family, like me and my mom and my dad got in a really bad accident. And my mom, like, broke her wrist and she, I think they said that she had like a heart attack while they were doing an operation on her or something like that. And she was like never the same after this operation. And so ever since then I had been having to like kind of take care of her and help her, etc. Then as I got into my early 20s like, you know, 21, 22, 23, especially 23, you know, things just kind of deteriorated and they got worse.

And so I at that point, like I couldn't really move out. I couldn't, you know, go and, you know, pursue anything that I wanted to do because my mom didn't have anybody else. You know, she was here in Austin, Texas, all her families in Florida. And so like, I mean, at that point, I didn't really. have like funds to help her any other way. And so I had to, I had to take care of her. And so I had put off a lot of, you know,

things that I think that you would do. Like I did a lot, like, I don't want anybody to get an idea that like, you know, growing up, like, things were bad. I mean, like, things were actually very good in a lot of cases. But there's always, uh, negative aspects to it, right? And, uh, one of them was that, um, you know, like for me, I ended up having to take care of her from about, you know, I would say like on a soft level from

but like really seriously from like 23 to like 31 whenever she passed away I was 31 then and so then there was like a year and a half and that was like the elven ring lost arc Johnny Depp saga of my stream where my dad was healthy and also my stream was doing I was streaming all the time and I didn't have any anything I had to deal with right and so then fast forward to like maybe six months after that, my dad gets really, really sick. Like, I mean, and this is like one of the things where like, one of the reasons why I wasn't as upset about like losing my dad now is that I thought I was going to lose him two years ago. Like, I was already past all five stages of grief at that point because like, y'all, y'all didn't see this because I never talked about it really on my stream.

But like he couldn't even get up and walk to the door, right? And so like, and this is going on for like a month. that was really, really, really, really, really fucking bad. And so at that point, obviously, like, I had to do a lot more for him, and I had to make sure I was available all the time for him. So, in a way, like, ever since I was 15, but I would say really, like, in a more, like, defined way, like, 20 in, like, early 20s, I'd say 23, 22, to now, I've spent my entire life basically being a caretaker for one or the other of them, minus about two years, maybe a little bit less than two years.

maybe a little bit less than two years. And so now that they're both gone, there is a, it's like you know, it's like you're alone and you're also free. Right? And that's a very weird feeling for me. Because I was thinking, I was like,

people are trying to make plans with me and stuff. And it's like I can actually just kind of do whatever I want to do. Right? I can do whatever I want to do. whatever I want to do. And it's like a bittersweet thing where it's like I would always resent and hate and be angry at my parents for the obligation

that they put on me. But it's unfortunate now that I wish I'd do anything to have it back. But you can't go back. And that's why we're here. My dad three or four days, he's on

hospice. I come in, it's like 2 or 3 p.m. He's like, why aren't you live? I said, motherfucker, you're dying. What do you mean? Why am I not live? He says, oh, right. Yeah, yep. It's just, oh yeah, yeah, I guess.

Yeah, it kind of makes sense, right? And so, yeah, no, I mean, he went out as, you know, as much of a hard ass as he's ever been. You know, my dad and I, there was a lot of friction between us growing up and as an adult. I mean, I was very, you know, upset and mad at them about stuff. But the end of the day, it doesn't really matter, right? It doesn't matter. And that's about it. And so, I was your biggest fan.

He would watch me all the time, like every day, man. He would. And it's really weird for me to think about, like, you know, because he would call into the stream all the time and everything. And it's like, fuck, man. you know like fuck it's the end of an era right

and it it sucks it really sucks and I don't really talk a lot about like my feelings and emotions and shit like this right I'm not a big guy in the getting into it

but um it's been hard it really is and uh I I I'm glad glad to be back. I definitely am. But it's been a rough time. I'll certainly say that.

And, uh, I mean, I will say he's giving a lot of his stuff away. But I got him recorded on video. Saying that the 2014 V8 Hemey Performance Package, Dodge Challenger, is going to me. Yeah, I mean, And so I'm talking about this.

And S fan messages me. He says, you masturbated it. And I was like, wait a minute. I actually massed you looted a mound in real life. I didn't even realize that until it fuck away. He just told me this. I never even thought about it like this. But that's what it was.

Yeah, full circle. Yeah, bro. Like life imitates art, right? And so, yeah, something's ever changed. Yeah, exactly, right? And so that's basically where, was at and I'm trying to think what else really has been what else has been going on really with me besides that and take us for a ride yeah maybe one day I will and so yeah I mean that's basically

been how things have been for me right and I'm just you know it's been a lot for me to deal with I'll certainly say that let me make sure I get I've got to get all my my stream and everything set up here it's a little bit different and don't let the car rot take care of it man oh he would complain all the time about me letting the first car that he gave me which I mean he gave me the car because I bought him a new car which by the way just in case anybody's thinking about this I actually bought this car I bought it for him and so it's like whenever I'm getting it like I'm really getting the car that I bought back and so like I you know it's not really I mean yes it's very generous of him to do this but I did pay for the car myself and so yeah

that's basically been it and anyway so yeah it's repossession really whenever you think about it And anyway, what you have to fight out in court? Is video enough to get a challenge of a state line to go shit? No, no. I mean, like, I'm his only son. Nobody else. Like, I'm giving away, I'm giving away all of his shit. Like, I mean, not all, obviously not all of it.

But, like, I'm giving away, like, 90% of his money. I'm giving away probably even his house. I'm giving away all the stuff. And, you know, I looked, holy fuck. Oh, my God. So I go over his house regularly, right? in order to like check the mail, etc.

Right. Do these kinds of things. Every two or three days, he gets like five or ten letters from these like different nonprofit charities he would donate to. He would donate to like 50 of these fucking things. And so they're sending a mail constantly asking for money. And it's like, you know, oh, this is a letter.

It says, you know, $20 saves 20 dogs. If you donate $10, only 10 dogs die. How much do you want to donate? And it's like, you know, the most blatant and obvious emotional manipulation that you can possibly have. But I've decided that, you know, I'm going to contact all of these different charities and everything. And I'm going to just tell them like, you know, this is what happened. And I'm just going to make a donation in his and my name just in perpetuity for like whatever the amount that he was donating. I'm just going to do that for the rest of the rest of time.

I think that's what he would have wanted to do. And so it's going to honestly, it's going to be a huge pain in the ass. Because like calling all of them and then doing all of that. But that's what I'm going to do. And they're scams. I mean, he donated to like wounded warriors Salvation Army. He used to go to Salvation Army whenever he was like, you know, like hitchhiking around. And so like really, I don't think it's necessarily a scam.

I would be surprised if it was a scam. And so, yeah, that's what I'm. I'm going to do. How many dogs are you going to save? I don't know. It's up to him. And whatever he was sat, the amount that he was saving, that's what I will continue to save.