Au Parloir - Épisode #156 - Martin Maheu

Episode Date: August 30, 2026

Dans cet épisode, je reçois Martin Maheu. Issu d'une famille sans histoire, rien ne semblait le prédestiner à sombrer. Mais après une perte bouleversante à l'âge de 18 ans, il cherche à fuir sa douleur et plonge dans des années de consommation. Grâce à une thérapie, il réussit à reprendre le contrôle de sa vie et à se reconstruire, une étape à la fois. Puis, alors qu'il croyait avoir enfin retrouvé son équilibre, un nouveau combat l'attend : un diagnostic de cancer. Aujourd'hui, Martin choisit de transformer chacune de ses épreuves en source d'inspiration. ☠️ Suivez-nous pour ne rien manquer : Tik tok : https://www.tiktok.com/@cedricbergeronparloir Instagram : https://www.instagram.com/cedricbergeron.parloir.humour Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/cedricbergeron.parloir.humour ⚠️ Pour collaboration : [e-mail] Hébergé par Acast. Visitez acast.com/privacy pour plus d'informations.

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we're going to we're going to want to be there long time, but you're a bit an epit of democlis on the top of the time.

Exactly. I'm, I'm with you, as I come with all the world, I'm from the base, you come to where kind,

what type of family, it's what your life of your and we went to until today

I'm perfect. I'm, I mean to the Valtry. I've granded,

I have two brothers, one, one, a more young, I'm the infancy on Twitch, as we say.

When I was young, I had been young, I'd beguiae. I had, I had I'd say, I'd do with, I'd have been a little bit of, we'd say that I'd a little freerer in life,

but I've had a mother, I've had a man presentment who is always there, with a car enormous, she has been so much, she's done to do me, it's

totally, too, done, I, had a father who'd had a lot of, seven hours, his job, we, we, we've,

we've, we've, we've, we've, And at my, we've been to make of anything, we had our repas, we have a

meal, we've had a whole, it was a good, it's, I mean, I mean,

I mean, I mean, I'm a moment of that I'm not, but, you know, you know, you know, you know,

you know, that's, you know, I was sure that I thought that my parents, my parents, my father,

my father, and how, so, how that, you know, I'm, I'm living, I'm young,

you know, we're young, you, we're, We're not in our freedom, and we're saying that he imprisoned, but in the front, it's just he we're protecting to try to not go to these places that they knew their own, and we, we, we thought,

that it's just in the same of the infirm, you know. In time of parents, I tell you to be that I'm not strict because I'm not my females, at least, it's just that I'm not going to, you know, to, try to, I'm trying to, I'm trying to, try to reculking their encodew, but sometimes, we're trying to,

they want just, just even more plus. He will be to try to to show, I'm a little while to say, my day,

I'm a little because I'm a little pot that I'm doing to do you know, he said he's he said, he said,

I'm oldy of you, so, so, so, I, I've got to my life, a little so I, I've,

I've, I've, I'm, even even, even, my brother, my two friends are

so, so much, in mechanics, are so much, we're, we're all, my dad, my son,

he's a guy, he's, he's, They're inculkees there in the choubukane. So we're, we're granded in the auto

and my one of my younger, my friend of my little bit of mycanician the day of the char for

handicapped. They are so much in the human that I've often envied their talent and I said

me, I don't this morceau that. I'm not not done this one I'm not so, so I'm

I'm not the other thing, but I'm not the morse that they own infance but You'd compare to them?

I'm going to denigree. Yes, I'm denigree long time. I'm trying to try to find a box 10mmet and they're in

a ton of box. He said, they're going to have to say, they're not in the shoe. They're not that's abandak

so that even today, I'm, I'm, I'm consider like a good second, I'm there

to pass these out of the it's just because what I'm because I'm my and my My brother. My brother, he had a good boat, it's a three-quarter. I'm trying to have, you know, I see, it's a sall.

And I've never confidence in more, so, I'm going to do you do you do with it to do? And I'm not a lot, I've rarely been confidence in me in life, and it's that also that appalled that when I was young, you know, I had been a revolt when you arrived at an adolescence, I'd en vented, I'm going to do with the government, I'm going to go back, because he knew me demand,

but in the time that. For the same reason. No, it's all. I'm going to have for all right. I thought I'm trying to you know,

you know, you know, I'm going to that you know, at a moment of when you're in a young, you know, when you're in

your parents, you want to be at school, you look at the other who you have a bit of and you, you don't know

that's not because you have not been a little I, I've not, I've had something on my

I have a thing, I had a food, I have a lot, and a moment of an there, there's

someone who is two papa, two mamma, two mama? I said, what, that's, I don't know, it's a model 82,

it's, it's a, the non-composed, and the family reconstructed, and I'm coming, that he's coming to, that he's,

that, how, I, come, there, I'd, like, how I'd ,

if my parents , to see, my parents, I'd, I'd have, I'd, so,

I'd, so, so, anxious that you're anxious that you have to you've been to open the

door to an enticety to plus that's so it's so it's a bit that my parents

to say it that's not that my my mother and that if you okay I'm going to have

two two cados in the in the time I wanted I'm not my parents my parents

it's it's my my father is a working acharned my mom

my wife the time it's like that, I mean, when you're your parents, it's the heroes. My father, it's my hero. My father, it's an maniac of char. We'd all have because my father, he was

totally proper. He had so much his chars, that the man would have been able to his auto for him to have to have. My dad, my dad, and I remember a day,

my father, we'd have in his shop to have his car, to have his car, and we had his car car, and they're in old, Cout, Catero, the Q-Tip,

the Trap de Fahn. And a moment of the He had firmed the light, and he said, he said, he will be there's

a word of and he's not a little to have been to his manate and the light of the light of

and he's very, wow, he did you know he's rematched, but today I'm

really, you know, I've got a, you know, I've got a chance dramatic, but I've

had a question of exteriorize my life, I had been to do, to do

to do nother otherment. We'd say the auto-sabotter in me had been able to do with what I could be able to do, not to get, but just where I'd be around, you know, and to be done, you know, we're all, we had

some of the Air-6, and we had some of the R-6, and we had some of it, and so, and I'd start to fume a little joint, and, oh, my, a little joint, it, it, it's, it's, it's not good when I relax,

I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm anxious, the cannabis, it's, it it would have been an other anxiety that's,

you know, well, it's a depressor. It's a depressor. Uh, you know,

I'm that's enormously consumed of weed young, a man I, I, I put a

and when I'd be to get started, it's, I had, I, had,

I, had a lot, I'm, I'm, yeah, I'm, so, I'm,

I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I, And I feel the

but, you know, it's that the young, you know, and, you know, are not conscious to do that,

especially, it's not explicable, you know, what you see, what you know, I'm in there, I'm sure,

I'm sure that I'm very well for perso and for one of my own of my own of

my own, it's, sometimes we're not and we don't know but it's from the

same family, my friend, all it, but all there's, there's, there's, there,

We're going to start in our brain We're in our head And see, I'm I'm not so,

so I'm and then my chum, fuming, it's all right after the year, they'd have

no stress with that so, so at a moment of I'm in the time, my son,

my daughter, my son, and my daughter, and with his old, they're there,

and they're coming to see that, like, a little to put, so, so we're

a bit of But I thought that it was not really, but it would be a bit. Yeah. And the pudd, it's just a view to fight of the pudd. Exactly.

And I'm not a guy who He's not. It's not instantane, but, I'm not a guy who I'm not too the taste. And then I'm about to buy, and I'm going to

do you're quite to do like to do you have some people. My mom, my mother, my mother, it was, it was a house

of the house, I had the sooth, he had the sous-sull, he had played She my parents, we had these chums, and we had no, no, no,

a problem, we had to be in a moment of a moment of a moment, I'm at a moment, of the time, I'm talking about there's,

because there's something that you know, that you say, that I'm that's like a house of young, you

were, you would be, that's, is, is, your parents were, my parents were,

my parents, it was open, my mother and my father, said, it would be more,

that we're that we're , you know, we had all the families, all the my mom, my mrs. There were

sometimes my mother to get her car, because we could not start. And the advantage of that in the end, it's like, my mom, all of the , you know, and then, you know, and then, it's a lot, and then, it's a lot of, you know, and then, you know, and so, you know, it's a, you know, it's a lot, you know, and then, it's a, you know, it's a, it's hard, parre. Because, you know, I'm, you know, Have you wanted that there's a dozen constantly at a house who are going

to go out because I'm going to go and I'm going to go back to get me to say my phone, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

I'm sorry, I'm trying to everyone to have a lot of and it's me that's my chair, I'm sorry,

my choice, my error, excuse me, no, there's no, there's there, there's a motorcross, we had a

car, we did, we had a motocross, and we thought, and we'd part of the motorcross, and we'd You know, it's a little

epa, you know, when we're young, we're too fendant, crinkant, and there's... No, we're not afraid. We're not afraid. We're not born. No. We're young, we're in,

young, we're in destructed. I mean, yeah, I get the off of motocross, down the boat, and you're mad to find a macek, and then after that, I'm re-trove, I said, what's the thing?

I said, what's, I'm saying, I'm, I'm, I'm, hey, me, to, aid me, to get my best, you know, the things that you do,

men, it's fool, how we're how we have not a conscience but in the time we're in front of the conscience

I'm going to to pose a question my view not to throw your parents under the boss as we're saying but is

you think that certain liberty there of acceptance to see sure I don't you know he said you

sometimes of the food and you like he'd be a couple of beer he did maybe a

bit bit time time he'd make it that much he does it like they're

they're they're they're but maybe still, you know, but to get this

legitimacy that, I don't know if my term is exact like I'm, how I'm, do you

think, that's that's that's a thing, that's, that makes it that's,

to have that , you know, I can't be fombe the back to the time, it's not

gots not too my parents, so I'm to fombe a bat at the school also,

and I'm a bit of a bit of a bit of a little you, you, you,

I was like, I was like, I had more more fear than to de-savre than the police, you know, because, you know, I'm not, you know, I'm going to tell you, I'm going to tell you, that you're going to

understand why we're a little bit more to lose. You know, I said, my dad was really strict, he was a guy who was a guy,

he was right, it's a guy who he was, he was , but he did all, but he did all right, and a moment of the time,

my father, it was, it had 28 years he'd he'd do policeage, of train, atterisage for for these avioms.

And the company has entered the norm of of health and security and the children have been to get to buy. And my father,

he was magnate to the poignette to the point, tendinette to the cout, he had finished in his bureau and they were

advised that he had to clering after 28 years. After 28. Yeah. And my father, he lived at

Valtri, he'd and he had a dinner the midday. So my dad he was, we'd say,

we'd say, my mother in the day, at middier, we had our, my father arrived, you know. There was a structure at midd

and then, the night of course there were also. And at a moment of a day, when I was just my dad, my time, you've got to be

your life, you go to go to see, your camp, you've got to to go to work, you go to rest to the house, but

if you go to get to call, you, you're going to do you, go to find your little chris of my yet, you're going to

you're going to so. So, when I'm getting 18, bye, bye, bye, bye, I'm going to to come,

so I'm just the part I was, I'd have I'd have to be and I'd have to be a course. It'd have to be a call to make a course. You'd have a little diagnostic TDA? I'm trying to have to what, but in the time, he'd call it

that someone of polyvalent. It's pretty someone of polyvalent. I mean, I'd like the term polyvalent. I could be it could be but it was not interesting, it would be interesting, it

and I'd have done my third year, I'd be redoubled three times my third year. I was going to DGA in time, it was a difficulty grave of apprenticeship. After that, it was CEI, at the school, Paul Arsono,

they're in the front of, you're not quite not as well as the market of the project of the so my life. ISPIG that's called

in my co-in, and I'm going to and I'm going to I'm going to, I was a little tip, and men, I had some of the money, and I was

a little bit, you know, so. So, at a moment of that, because my father when I got to have lost his job,

he me he was in tabarnant because he, he never lived for his life, you know, when you did, that my

My father, he'd do you know 50, 60 hours a week, and for we, for we're for we're in everything that's

that's the family normal has to have a problem, that he's not that you're not you're not going to be out,

because you're finished from all, and we find out of and we're a reason for to be done to say that

that's what that's what my father, and my father, he had not had a he had a ball in the

he said, he'd be he'd be he had a bony, and he guy who had his truck, and he'd

sere his truck at two times a little bit more than you see a little bit down, but he'd

have to find a other job, and he'd have to be in the same thing, he'd be able to travel to the Rive South,

and my father, today, I'm a lot of that I'm a lot of things that he has, is that,

he had not the impression that at his job, he formed there, he was, he'd,

he'd, without being nominate boss, he was doing it, and he was doing to do it, because it had done to do with, and when he said made out of,

he said, they said, they've done, you've been, you're doing, to be a director of production, you're going to be doing the job, but there was like,

the stress, hey, I'm going to I'm going to say, I'm going to do you have a job, and the salary that came to an obligation,

exactly, exactly, and he, and he, he'd see, he'd see, he'd like, a moment of the

, it would be I didn't know, and I'd always, I'd always, I'd not be in my life, too, because he'd have he'd have been

out, you know, and I'd never had been my job, and I'm just a little chris, so I had had done with my truck, and I,

and I'd be petted, so my dad had been, he'd say, you'd have been, you, it'd have been to be a shubububack, with your chard,

that's, you, with your chard, you'd have made a mack, yeah, he'd made a m' in my mard, he'd be made, and he'd be,

he'd be't even, don't know, The taurse at a sergeant. We'll have to be there. There's a job. And I was just in my friend, you know, I'd be able to. And the day of that, there was a guy that, there was a guy that, he had been in the yard,

and I'd be able to work to work in the year, and then, when I was, I was going to put it to work. And when I was, it was the second day of work, and he'd come to five hours. So I'd say if I'd go to chinole, I'd have to be at four hours, I'd have to be. So I was in the room, and three mason before to go to go to my father.

I said, I'm going to be in bed. I'm going to be in front. I was going to put in a car of the boat. I was going to go to go ahead. Excuse me.

The morning, about about about 7 o'clock, my boyfriend, the chum of my democer, he came to reveighed, and you're to, reveight,

your father's cackle. Huh? I, I can't just my father, is cali. Me, reveveigh, bang, bang, bang,

bang, bang, in back, in the char. I rent, down to the room, I, and then I saw the ambulance. Tabernac.

My father, he's not caled. My father, he's killed. So, at least, I'm 19-year-old. I'm 19. My dad had gone to have 19. He went to, he went to the garage. At 2 o'clock, at 2 o'clock, he was at the door to his truck, he was serried.

He opened his valise. He had a jeep, Cherokee, blank, two ports. He sat sat sat. He has written a net. he had parted his vehicle and he's been suicide in the garage at her

and she said every night she was up to get up to get to and get to pedal. And the part

was barred and she said my mother is her so much she she's on dothed a dandelle

but you but we're not it's not it was over the door he had defunced the door he was asked

he had a buchan the eyes over he looked at the door. He is more. The camion, he had

been in the garage because there had been an air for that he had a carmion he had left he said,

he's written to continue to be to be able to his chou my fran, my frown my friend, he was bad at

my school he's the the more the young to get out of the chanper handicapped he had written

to be able to continue to to bat for me He said to my mother, who he liked, who he was excused, because he was more capable of all of all, and he he wrote to my, he said,

he'd write to my, he'd even if we'd make him, even if we'd make chie, because, you know, we'd and we'd try to, and we'd so, it's been, I've, I'd confirm that, in my car, and in my car, I'd envoled to the society

entire, I'd partied in courant, I fessed in the cabanon, I'd demoled, I'd I mean, I sure had a cat of paper, and then it's a clotchy. What he made to my mother, who, she,

my mother, she, my mother, she'd have been at a house, and she's the first amort of her life, she had had 18 years,

she's married, 45 years, my father, I'm married, I'm gonna have 45 a year of year next, if I'm gonna

if I'm, I'm, if I'm, I'm still, and the why you said that to be a plent of,

we're, we're, we're, we're, we're, had, we had kind of amy,

we had some of the people all the way and it's a little bit of a little bit of my mother,

but at the time, you, my mother, in plus she, my father when he was when he's getting,

we're making to say, that I think that I think that my father has done that because he

said, that we had been that he had been the house, the house had to be

my mother and was still, she's still, there's a little, there's a think irrealist,

because you can't, in life, the suicide, it's a gesture permanent to a problem that's temporal

and it, it's changed my life, it's changed my way, I'm changing in the borde of,

I'm vall at time, I'd want to, I'd be able, I'd be able to,

a way, to be able, for the 25 years, I'm at like a minute at a hour, and I'm

going to be here, and I was trying to do you know, I've always tried, like that to do you get to find. I'd call it to

doing it. I had to dowing. I had done to do things. I never had never to get rid of and I'm

fulled, and I'm a guy of car, I'm an guy emotional, I'm a guy that has

been to express these sentiments, and in the time that I was not capable to express I'm able to

I'm sure in fact you're the what you were in a little like your father

is not to get a to get a person to a man of a generation it's not that's not

that's not it's not it was, he had a fear of to get to my mother,

she had in the time that he had been in the time he had been she had had been

had been she's not three and a minute, and it's not grave, but my father, I've always said, my father was, look, all around the

of me, everything, my char, he is beautiful, my asphalt, impo, my, my God's on,

my car's on, the coche, I'm under the if we're poor, if we're poor, I'm not important,

my parents, is correct, my house is better, all, all the world, and he made, and he

made, and he said, he'd a, you're a reconnected in the he was, he had,

a, And the clone is, you know, we can put it like to put in the pre-hirt than the being. And then, you know, that's a message that I want. And I've got to be there. And I've got to passed on your siage who have been missed or who are not reached, you know, and who they've been all said,

but a chance, you know, and I, I'm not to tell. And I'll not tell you, I'll not tell you, It's a occupied my my spirit very, very long time. This option that has occupied

long time my spirit. And it's what I mean to people who listen to do and we're saying, and we're

saying it's the word, it's a solution permanent, a problem temporary, and nul know what

you can't do you have a gesture as a gesture as drastic than that, without to

know, if you're a dollarian, in 1985 and you've You've seen, you know, you know, I don't know what, you see not what you're going to

later, so for me, it's, it's, it's, it's so that that's important because it's a just that,

and often, I'm going to name drop, Etienne Bully, just, who, he, he said,

and he thought, he thought, that he said, he'd be more without him. You know, they're going to

be a bit better, and, and, when at the hospital, he has, like,

he, he has, it, you know, call- you know, there's the pain that he would have been the

mal of what I would have to have found. I'd want to tell to you know, and I'm like,

my view, it's not, to be, but this famous morning, or is that at this hour that,

if I'm not going to go to find a little bit to do that by my is the, is that's something,

is something, I imagine, has not been, because you you say, tabarnack, perhaps if

if at four hour, I'd have been able to get to be I'm trying to tell you, my view,

you know, but as well, it's not, I'm saying, Chris, it's sure that's that's coming in

your head to have this culpability that, that, that had been wronged, long time,

long time, all along, all the long time, all, all, all, I'd be, if I'd

, if I'd be ready to get to after after had been to , I'd be in the barren that's still

there's and it, and, you, with these si, we're not very things.

And a moment of a time I've learned a thing that I've made, I've made, I've made

my therapy at a pavion to new point of view. It's the other people, who have

given the life, and I have done it in therapy that I've passed my life, my genese,

I've passed six years to consume extremely very far for trying to try to try to

the bull that my father said that had in the vance before the I've

had been with me just in therapy and in therapy, I'm and I'm able to and I'm

said that, you know, he's suicidal today, I'm blesseded, it's been demolied.

By the point, it's not my fault to it, it's not me that had been

to have to be back to and that and that he would have been to be

he had been being there's certainly demoled also, there

there would there'd there'd there'd had been that had had been had been

in to do it he would have refate a other Joe. Man, it's a

fucking that it's even not a question to pose to think to be able to it's like that it's

that it's not responsible to do you I'm not responsible of his gesture I'm gonna I'm

too much because I'm I'm gonna my chum in grand saying that he had a

my dad my dad my dad you my dad my dad damn time man ferned my

man I'm no one I'm no my me, and he had all made to try to to me and to make a

minute, and my mother and had three and after that, you know, after the death, my mother

had been in her own, she had been in the insurance, she had placed of the money to get to the

place of the bombardier, you're going to have to get to their cartel. So, she'll

have made that at U. And then in September 2001, it's had crashed so, so it,

so it was not, it was not due, during this time that, and, a little later, we're

a lot of people, and then I mean, I mean, I'm sorry, I'm going to search of the consumption, I was talking to an accident, I was in a coma,

in my head to me, it was a time, but it was maybe a week, it was a little accident, I was, I was going to, I went to the foceal,

I, I came to the side, with one of my chum, he went to do, he was to call the ambulance, he, he, has seen have gotten, he, I, had set up, the cramp,

and I was in the coma, and when I was out of the coma, I had a misery to talk, I'd recommenced a little to beguier, I had to have a memory at short term, they'd have been, I'd have to be,

I'd have to retouch a round of pole, oh, it's true, okay, it's that, but, since that the world know, I'd say, I'd want to be able to people, because I'd like the

people to be in pity and, and, I'd just continue to fonse, and I'd just continue to consume, and it's been an affair that has made that's to bring my dechance

more long. I'm going to I'm going to Lavaltry, to get to find out of San Charles Borrome and then to come to make a single

that's more rentable. You know, I'm saying, I'm... I'm... I'm... I'm... There, you know,

there's something that you know, there's a way that you're the way that you're perhaps, you're perhaps more more close

to your other friends. But, the more I'm the impression that you're really much more

more more at the same, I'm a impression that had much more

more than you know, I'm impression that the part of you know, it's been in the

work, he's been in the work, and to get to his house and the time,

and I feel like, but the, the, the, the, the,

you know, you're, you're, you're, you're, you're, you're more to be

the person to be two men, of two generations different, who have gere their

of things of different. Your father, was you a bottle? No, my dad didn't know. No, my Buebe

not. Because often, you see, these men, they're seeing as well, they're in a little bit more

anxious, he's more cool. But my my father, he would not, he'd not say, he'd

never get to that's all to that. He accumuled, he'd be in tabarnac when I did what I

did it, and that's about, I'd hear not there, I'd be able that, I'm far

my fere, my fath, I'm far, I'm doing the pudd. He had reason on the whole line. And, and today,

you know, when my father is more, after that, you're trying to, in years, I'm saying, I'm saying,

my father, he's up , I'm elevated, I have, I have, the good, and not good, to you,

the good , I, I'm, too, I'm a colloqu, I, I'm, I'm,

I love my job, I love, to do my job, it, it was, it's a, he had a time, there were three young in the

house. He would not pass to the whole day. He'd let's it on my mother, Your Honor, and he'd say, his estuania, like, but, you know, as I said, I told you, I had the two, me, I had the two-coct-a-moor, my mother, who is surprotectress. I, I'd begay-ed when I was young,

I'd becky-old, hey, I'd beguerer and there'd begoyed, there were for me, in Tabarnac. So, my mother, I'd be afraid, I'm during the terror nocturn, I had scared of the wind, I had a minute my father, he made me remonsted when I was young, he was out

got, tabernan, he moor, he tonne down, down, I'm, you're too mad, you're not? It's regla, we're in the day. The day, I've been arrested, man, my wife, it's just, ah, so, you know, I've got, I've got, I've got, I'm going, bad, no, no way, peopperper, but it's, it's content to have had been the coat of my

father, because I never, when I'm when I'm trying to get to my boot, and I'd rather not, and I'll end up, and I'd I'd I'd I'd be there. To be

your moment, exactly, of the consumer so, so, it's like, the moment

where's the moment where you're doing that's that you're in and then you know, and then you're to come out,

you're going to live with your time, when is it makes it back, motel, it's a bit fun. It's a bit the fun.

I'd I'd say six months before I'd I'd have I'd have been for I'm said my father's

suicide the 25 May 2001 and the day of 25 May I'd not in consumption that's so

my idea mindset I was tattooed on a bra and on the other bra the date of

the rate of consumption and it's my an ancient beaufair who he he was

also consumption, and he had said, Martin, I'm to have seen, I'm trying to to have to be right, I'm back to the

valetri, at the time of the Fayeat, I'm going to to go to Romey, Alume, like 22 Cineepard

that. That's what, who makes, excuse me, that's about in auto, it's 45 minutes. Okay, so

Capit, you're a, a cup of hour, a cup of time. And I'm coming in front to show, and I'm

going to be on the fair to be Halloween, and I'm with my daughter, and with his my friends, and I'm just saying, I'd

never have to be able to have this. I'm just a bit of an little bit of a little bit of course. I'm just when you're going to, you know, when you're trying to think, you have the time to think of what you've got to have any of the life and what you've been in life. So, I'm just decided the next day of mine to, I'm saying, you said, you know, you're going to be able to

a day, I'm going to be there presentment, I'm there. Is it not too, Martin? Come, me to go. So, I'm going to go. I'm to have gone. He's going to payed of the debt that I had, everywhere. He had made the tourn of all the

debt that I had. After that, we're going to to the pavilion of a new point of view. We had conned at the door, he was

debarked there, and they said, sorry, Mr. Mayor, we're not an acceptation of the time. So,

that I'd return the night of the and I'm going to be dangerous. It's dangerous. Because, you know,

I'm very dangerous. I'm not, and I'm understand that, but, you know, when you, you know, when you're

someone who can't get to come to come to And then, this journey, the mindset, he is there, but the last night of the last year, I'd have to continue.

He'd have kept with him with him, and he's got to, he made with him with him for not that I retouch at anything. And when I was returning there, the day ofmendomain, he me, he paid my therapy. And then, I, you know, how we're, con, I was, I'm sitting, and you know,

there was a chumann, and I had the right, he had the right, and you're in, you're there, because, alcohol, Chris, alcohol, it's worth a dollar, even, you had to have to, I'd have to have to be able to sit in design. Before we're trying to judge everyone who's in a series of six years, because

that's what I said, I said, I said, at what I'm saying, you know, you'd see, you'd be telling you to tell you're the fun and that's, that's the last month before, but, you know, so, you're probably five and a-merep't, you, have no, but in the same thing, but in the problem, but in my head, in my head, in the fact, in the, in the In fact, I tried to be suicid with the drug.

It was a lot of more of the same. Today, I can say that's it. To try to borses the red light, and at first, and it was to finish up. At least it, it was a moment of the time. You'd have to do... I'd have to work. I'd have to be. I'd have to be able to say, not that it'd be able to do.

It's not, but it'd be a bit of... It'd be there. That'd be there. I'd have to do some time. And, yeah, I'd have to do. And then, then, I'd have been, then, then, I'd have been, then, man, I'd have been, then, then, my mom, and, I'd never had to do it. money, then you know, when you know, when you know,

when you know, all the total it's crue around the toe to-do-to-to-do. Is it the option of crime finish by your past, by the time? I said, we know, to say, you know,

that's not, you're not, you know, but, you know, is that a con, the man, the money and the con-sou and the con-sue that you make,

like, my mother and I'm on a-d-n-pue, I'm probably, I'll be probably to start to rolle a little my mother, and I've been, but, you know,

I'm, you know, I'm, you know, I'm too, I was, I was in the States, I had my little card of the member. I'd go to an end up in a little bit of show in a little bit of chalet, and at a moment, I'd say, that's it, it's tassed, it's tassed. Is it in the street or you'd not rent? I was in a room, a room, and in this mansion of chamber, but it was all the consummater.

So, at a moment of the day, I'd have, I'd have, I'd say, man, I'd want, I, I'd want to, I'd I'd try to me save me to save me by all right I'd, I'd be with people who were in

the time the day of the dechaance had arrived quite quite you know, and you know, I'd

go and it's not too, and I, I'd be more nothing to know, and I'm

saying, you know, I've tried to try to make some because I'm having to a meeting,

I know, I know, I know, in the time before I'm after my year, and I'm

I had not accroached. And then after that, I had a voluntate determined to stop

and I'm the sole option that I saw the brother that was my brother that was I had done the option.

I did, I'd do you know, I'd rather than the door to, man, that I'd never that

to try that's someone who's there's been, you've passed all your night, to look at

the, the paranoia. Fuck off, man, it's, it's, it's, because there

and you said that you said to have to suicide and I asked you, you know, did you have you pushed to put in a moment to get a switch that a lot of people do they're doing

that people who are not these criminals but the criminals of consumption is what I'm that's what 80% of our prisons are filled

I'm an impression that you're someone who had the force to do make the incapacity to it's not to be able to

to do you to make to do to make to do more? It was I It was in the, it's in the, it was in the, it would have to suffer. It would have to suffer because my father, he's suicidate, because my father was molest, because my father was not there during all the moments

that I'd remissue that's there when you're 18 years. You know, why, why, that I'm going to, have you managed to make the doad with the therapy and with the years of, why, why, yeah, it's a little, yeah, it's a little bit, he's a little bit, because I'm going to drop it. Not too, not true. And is, is what did you have

to make the dole? It's why the punition? Is it the fact that you're not going to be able to be just all the thing you've always, my father is put

there, that this man, a kind of a form that is a lot, you know, you, have you did you know, to try,

three things, three things, three things, I'm sorry to be fired at bar, that's been the big thing,

because I'm I was so much wanted to to be able to have been to have to be in a car

of paper that's nothing to get to be after that after that was the second,

it's why I'm if I'm I've been had you not due to be like that

my father would be maybe maybe if I'd be a

a little Chris and if if you because of me it's

to us you're at my my wife that we're not No, it's not

that. After that, I'd have to be, because I'm able to talk to talk about to talk about to

I'm able to be able to I'm able to I'm playing if I'm to cry, I'm to laugh when it's

a guy who's a guy who's a guy who's I'm trying, so I'm having to it's probably

at cause of me, but no, it's not not at all because it's in therapy that I've learned

my consumption, it's, I'd tannie, the bouquet, I'd all know, I'd tanyed

all, you know, you'd flageolet? Oh, I'm just flageolet, that, I'm,

it's, you, it's, you, my, if you, my, if you're,

you've done, to do what, you, we've done, and, you're, you mentioned, your friends,

just, I'm, they've, we've, we've, we've, you, you've,

you've, you've, you've, you've, Xavier D'all at a level emotional, not at the same

place, but it's like to be there's like to be to be in real rock and roll and all the they've got,

how they've got to get it in this event but how they had to get that, but they're going to

get to, because you know, because you're talking to your son, but you're old,

but your friend, but in the time that it was his old that it was your

old were that they're they're going to see that that, tabernac, pay he's part, and you, Esty, that's it. That's so, I think that my

my more few few friends, I can't not talk about for him, because, you know, in the time he had

his part of his problems at him, my more more young friend, he had all that, he was all the time, he was still

at his time, and he had been not a char, me prete to his chair, my friend had to be there, but I think he

often, they were, they've always, they've seen, You have you, you know, it's a lot of a little bit finished, it's the time that you'll have to be able to do. But, without judge, it's not people who judge. He'd try to play it, but... No, there's switch, but...

Yeah, there's switch, but, you know, for all that, it's been able to want to be able to perseverey, because, perhaps that would have not functioned my therapy, if we'd had judged, I'd probably wanted to prove it more, but there's no, to prove, and my brother, Francis, he me had much help in time monetarment, in all, my friend Francis, he

would be cutt, without judge, as I said, I could have been peripaced, and I'd say to another thing, my friend, he's a bit like my, like my father he was, you know, he will not judge, and he will be afraid, and he will be

going to beckonet, and he's going to put into more the more, the part of, the, you know, the same on his side, you know, it's a person who has a grand car, my friend Patrick, and my friend Francis,

my my friend Patrice, it's not a person who will verbalize like I'm because I'm the coat of

my mother. Finally, your father, it's very different, you know, everyone, I'm like, you're like,

you're like, you're like, you're like, you're like, you're like, you're like, you're doing, we're doing,

you're doing, you're doing, you know, it's a feeling that I get when you're to, you're to what I'm

to come from, exactly, you're in therapy. You know, that's, that's far Fortunately, it's functioned, and often the therapy

that's the therapy that we're going to do. Because, you know, there's a lot of, like you said, if my mother had been demanded, if my mother had been

to do it, if I was trying to, I'm not able, I'm not able, I was able, and, you know, when you consume, and you look at some people,

and it's been doing it, and it's a moment of the day, I had not, and without, you know, and without,

I had not want to to me to be in 50 and to get to have a lot, I'm in

having a view, I'm in life before to have a view to have a family, and I'm having a job,

and to have a job, and to find my life, and I have been with a parent

who has been a malade, that's not that's going to get to my life to

and it and it's , it's rough, to get to get to so, so I'm

there, and there someone in therapy, my intervenant, he made mentioned, and that I will

remind me all my life, he said, take the 1-4 of the energy that you meant to try to try to try to to try to try, and you no consummere more to your life. Fuck, man, it's a far, so. And, and then, if you, it's just a quarter

to, and have a power, and then, I'm... It's been past, but, you know, in that, when I got started therapy, hey, man, I'm, man, I'm... Minding, that, if I'm able to marches six hour, go and to get to

because of the cause of because of the way is more more than the guy, he's front, I'm ready

to march to work six hour, take a of that's that's, you know, that's

you're able to to make a hour and a minute for catch out. When you you're ready to take a

hour and a minute for something of Christ, you can't do you get to that's a

but I'm that's a man has been asked I'm never used, you, I've I've heard

there's I've heard but I'm You know, you know, you think, you know, to try to put into the energy, as to try to put in a job for a lot,

you know, you've been an engineer in the liegery, that's, you prefer to decoling a, if you're, a pre-mattain, you know,

so, no, it's, it's not too, so, so, it's, it's a lot of it, and when I'm

out of therapy. Ah, but, wait, wait, wait, right, because,

no, but, no, but it's because it's because because I was I'd have to say, saying,

you're going to to say, you're going to get to say, you know, in the judgment and then, I'm saying,

I'm saying, I'm saying, you know, you're having some of the problems. Yeah, correct. It's a bit

mindset that I have. Yeah, yeah, it's a dis-dispy, to barnaq, you, it's a bad, you know, I,

I, I, I'd not, you, I'd, you know, I was really in the judgment enormous, you know,

and I'm just, I'm not, I'm, I'm, finish my joy at that, and I'm going to

my chamber, I've passed 24 hour finished, and he's been to get to get in and it's done, and there's a matter of course,

he said, you know, this time, so he said, out of your house, and you go to do you go ahead, to do you

have a few to do you have a bit of a bit of course that I'm in a bit of there, I'm going to ask

and then I'm and I'm saying, and I'm sorry that the therapy, all the world and all right, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

excuse me, I'm not, And then, I'm going to go to my emotions like ever, and I'm going to, you know, the bull of my father that there had in the interior, well, I've got to combated in therapy. Well, it's a six years that. Exactly.

So, now, it has de jell, this bull that. At de jell, and it has gelled mal-sale, and there's nothing in life, it's sure that's fast in the same, but when I was saty in therapy and he'd made me listen, and in the mission, and in the mission, the person in the case,

she said, man, it was like if I'd revivate the moment of my father, it really,

it's been in the room, and then my therapy, she's a bit like, you've got that's a

that's trying to find. I was trying to do that, man, my, my, my,

my therapist, he had, I was, we'd say that, because it's always that. Oh, no,

no, I've done a, I've been , but, But I think I think the people who are

in general are, and they're not there's not there because it's not the million when you're in a business

of therapy. No. I think the people who are there are for the good reasons at the base. And at

after that, I'm going to my therapy and I fonse in the two steps, and I, I,

I, I fonsed there really, and he made to create our life on a paper, and at the

time of the therapy, we had to be Deliverant for me I saw the I saw, I saw all the combat that I had

had been made all the hein that I had over a tell, a tell, a tell, I'm done

to be there and there, and I had 24 years, I said, I'm going to a new life man,

it's a new Martin, it's a new Martin, with all what I 've been

with all that I've going to be to be four years, I'll start, for a few, because I should not

who I'm not who I'm that's a parko that you that's a parko that that he made has made very much

endurcy and he's been after that I'm doing my I'm doing my I'm doing what I'm doing that I'm going to

not to forget my father, there was a problem also I was all the time that's not it's not

bad it's too bad it's too bad it's all the it's not it's not

it's not it's not it's not it's just he he knew It's not other other thing

to be able to be able to that's the same, but when I was when I was in my child, I was going to be the chienne,

I'm going to be able to but I'm trying to be able to see, he's going to be the same, you know, all my friends he's not capable

to try to be the goody, and to be boosted at the cot, and they'd be there to do that in the zels, I'd like,

I'd like, I'd look at what, I'm doing that, my guy, at 24 After, I'm good in what, I'm not good in mechanics? I'm not good in...

I'm not good in... I'm not... I'm not sure. I have... I'm a grand deal. You know, I'm a guy who... I like, I'm very much talking, I'm... Dialogue-in, so I'm...

So, I'm going to return to my equivalent to second one five. I'm going to reskreux of the school. I've got my equivalent. I'm going to do a formation in-vente, and a... a technique in representation commercial. I said, me'll go, they want to sell the chaw.

I like that. I like that. It's not made for being in front of, in a lot. So, it's not going to be in front of my life. I've got to set up. I've got to say my diploma. All right.

I'm going to have a mortgage for what. I'm a little. A bit of all. But I'm trying to do. You know. You know, I think.

But before that I'm going to see, I want to revert on, you know, your end of therapy, you know, this therapy, you know, you have to be,

is that, is that, is that, because it's a thing, to be in therapy, because to stop it's not the

problem, it's not, it's, it's, especially when you're structured, because not consuming,

it's a thing, not consuming, in therapy, not consumed, not in prison, not consume, not, you know,

it's to be to be, to be, to be, the, The work that you mention that, comes with what I

said to do until, but there's a quarter to get to be your time, you've got to keep your

time, my phrase, and my phrase and my flamble to be able to the world, I'm not

to turn to there. There, I'm going to be the same my people,

I want to get to in therapy. I'm got to there's there's got after that

after that I'm sorry that, I'm, why I'm why I'm , I'm I'm

the world. Hey, I'm, I'm a madame, because I had a job, and I'd be able to do you have a job, and I'd have delivered a pizza, and I'd have had my chum in therapy, and two years after, I'm going to run, I'm able to goreve it. I'm not, I'm not able to, I'm not able to tell you, I'm not, you're able to, I'm going to, and I'm trying to, why I'm trying to, because I'm trying to stop, I'm trying to save my gang of chum, because I wanted to save my gang to chum. And then, I, remember to me, well, it's often, Well, it's corremant.

Someone who discovers, you know, someone who's trying to, you know, and someone who's, and someone, it's a lot of, it's not the best,

well, we know, we get gossing with our new affair, we've been fatigant, time and so, so, yeah, and the time

that I had an old, my cellar, he soned my guy, at the time that there was like, pitt-d-d-b-d-it,

hey, I had been person who had been there had been, there had been, I'd have been, I, and I, and I'd be over,

and I, and I'd, Man, I had a pity. When you were playing a party, Chris, we'll call me. Mort is always down. We're in a new polole. Mark, he's always in with that, with that, with that.

Mark, he will marches with me to go. There was a day with that also, you know, to, you know, to be. You know, everyone would have to me. And at a moment of a while, I've changed to CERDAMI, I've made, I've done with,

tabarnock, these meetings in my life. I'd have two per day. I'd have all the time that I'd have every time that I'd have some midday meetings, Like these quickie meetings, I liked that. Not the time to play at egg. I'm not going to play.

I'm not sure. I'd have to do other things. I'd have to do the other thing. I had to do the good energy. You know, I'd have to do my affairs. I'd have to have my own meeting. The night and other meeting, it's rulled in tabernant with the meetings.

You know, the speed, it's not pence of dorm, it gives an energy, but a night of sleep also, so, so it's in account that, okay, Chris, when I'm going to die, I'm going to have an energy. It's sure that Chris has a problem with an energy when you do, fuck all, at cause of the adult?

You know, it's not the bad energy, that's not the bad energy, there's a bad energy, I had a bad energy,

I had a mindset of a man, I wanted, I wanted, I was, I'm a, part, you know,

I'm a guy, also, which can be also extremely dangerous, exactly, because we're, sometimes,

we're, a tendency to switch on other other things, I mean, we're saying, we're,

we're, we're, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm in the job,

I'm in I'm, I'm doing, I'm all the phone, man. I'm, I'm doing, and I'm saying, you know, my wife, she's a lot. I mean, I'm a minute. I know, man. I don't know. I mean, I don't know.

And I'm going to continue. But I'm 404 years, but, you know, I mean, you know, it's correct. That's not a million. For me, it's a good, for me, for me, now, I'm going to, a day, I have a million. But in the time, I had been to have a gas, and the world, in therapy, also. Not part in therapy, but in the meeting, you, you're in front of the world who are a little like you

who are a little amher like you and are able to understand what you see,

and the emotion to talk to what you go, today, it's going to be able to and I'm

really, I'm really because I'm having a craving, I'm going to I'm out of therapy and

it's finished, I had not in the gout, I wanted, and when I saw,

there were there, you know, the manchua, you know, the You'd have a good. You'd

You'd see. Man, fuck. Hey, it's that that I resembled. But I was without judgment. I'd

not return there. You know, I had a mission that's to never remit the feet where what I had been

that. That's my mission of life. So, I've made a devouement of all.

You know, I, I, I, I, I, based my life

on the fact to never retouch to that, and to do what I'm made

to do, It's to say, to have someone in my life, to have someone, mentally, emotionally, to have some

I wanted, I wanted, when I was, when I was in a newness, but it was not the moment, and it's a

thing that's a bit of chihuahua, man, it's my life, so I'm 20 livres of chien, so,

so, my life, man, it's, it's very correct, it's right, you know, I'm just,

I just, I'm just, I'm, in the, in this moment, in the, they're, they're coming,

they're they're out, But, you know, what I like of your history, of your because I like, you know, it's justly to demonstrate that's not been, and it's not been, and it's not

it's not, and it's not, the fragility, sometimes, of the human, you've not been abut, you've been to, you know, to be, you know, from a family, you know, in a cartier,

there, you know, there was something in you, on the, on which, you know, that could be able to make, it's, you know, it'd be to be mutilation, it would be,

it'd be, plenty of things. It's a lot of your circle, you have a circle in the consumption, so it's been your exudatory

but, you know, it's just a demonstrate that, you know, 90% of people who are sitting here, it's what I

knowed, it's a paste and all that, and I'm and it's easy to say, well, Chris,

I'm, I'm, I'm, with, what's the I've ever with, what I've

been living with, but, and I'm, and I'm, and I'm, because, because, my

my my problems that I've had been in the level that, that's been in the thing, the elements

of the clancher are my pair had always, but in the sense this ball that, and to try,

that's for that's what I mean, and the fact that that's young when you've

realized, you know, it's kind of long six years, far obviously,

it's something that's something that's when you're young, so you've got been to rebuttire after,

you know, because there's people who are when you're getting to get to get to get to get to the people,

I'm doing it. I've lost, I'm doing, the people who have been of the drug, the consumption,

I've heard in my chum who's in his car garage, I have been, the people,

it's a mal to live a lot of the same, you know, you'd be done to be dead, dread,

when you're not, you know, exactly, Exactly. So, so it would be, the day of, I'd have been

there'd be more there'd be to be able to be able to be very, very impacted, fracture of crone, you know,

you said that had been in a bit of time when it's a bit of time, so it's there's a time,

it's revenue. But, you know, I don't know if you're not quite with me, but I I think that

extremely hypocrit at the level governmental. You know, to say, we may, we want,

the re-insertion, the reputation of the government so on rehabilitation, we're going to re-on-on. Yeah, they're not reponsed. It's not very glorious. It's not very glorious if you're out of my bush.

So I think that the people who are regularly know, but, you know, there's some of the companies who are not to subvency on anything to engage people like that, who's forced, who gives the chance to people, and then, you obtain a good control

where what we'll be able to have to have to have to be in prison, all. Yeah, but now, you know, It's an idiot. I think it's a bit of a bit of because 99.9%

of these people, it's these people, like I said talked about, who had some that were in the emotion in the world, that's

they've done, and they've done and they've done, and we can't get to be a bit hypocrite to say, well,

you can't go to do you can't be all the job, you know, the bed job in tant

in the world, you're not in the big chattier, because you're a lot of you, sometimes I think

some of, sometimes, I think it's And so often these people that who are the major that are they're doing

because they've they've got tattooed. He's at he's the chance you're doing. They've

won't give a 20% for a job. But no, I'm going to do you know, but I can't pass to the

government and that's not that's so it's a bit that's a bit that's a damage but

but we're chanced to have been in the person. Is that, I'm not the question

if it's not your company, you're I'm at least to name the company or I'm not, I don't know, I'm not, I'm not, because I'm not, and you're not, and you're not

not, and you're not, but you're not just so, you, it's, it's, I'm content that we're in, but it's more, you know, the, it's, you know, that, you know, the point, you know, but, you're not, but it's just, it's just for, you know, I'm just for doing a little prop, but I'm also, that, with what we're

talking to say, by the government, I'm that I'm, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, you're If you're relettried. You're retried to complete. No, but for me, it's just important. And, you know, your beauforte, if he's always, who is, someone who will go to look at least

a prop, because, you know, to do that, to do this chance, there, there's nothing that he'll oblige to do that. And I've got all my respect, because you've got a ton of the roux when you're so, you know,

on, we've talked to, you know, they're talking, the insurance, the lawyers, all, it's all, it's all, All you have these bautons in the row. F'clock, to be able to have a good job, like it's in a construction.

And we've been with someone, you know, the guys who are in the rear of these trucks of Poubell, you know, they're they're being in these little people. And you want to do a nasty job that person who wants to be? That, it's a merit the respect. And they're, you know, they're on the

same, not they're in their trucks in the Poubell, in the sense that these companies, they're don't, their place, and they'll leave their chance because, you know, there are ben that they haven't that they ever,

that job, you know, Sometimes I've got, for me, they've got, you know, they've paid their debt. In any of course, there are some of the crime that the people find that I'd never agree. But in my head to me, there are many people that are, there's these banalities or of the past, who have sent on the shorty, that they've paid their debt to the society, and when they're revere, they can't do anything for, they're going to they can't do nothing

because they're like the man-liy because they're wanting to re-reauce and to re-reveen on the road-cham but there are many of their places that they're in

their own cases because they're so. So, that, sometimes I think that sometimes I think it's a little people who are

the people who are the guy who was, I don't know not the same, but the sover when you're out of the

people, that you'd be able to be in a therapy, to be, to be entoured, that your team,

you're not all that, but you're certain guys who have this parko, is, is that you, is that you,

you know, you know, you know, you're doing to do you get to get in a little, my guy,

I'm doing, and the morning, and the morning, when he gets, I go and they're going to make some guy,

and I'm going to I'm a little bit, because he went to the matth, there are

there's going to be, oh, I can't get to it's correct, you know, you know,

you're trying for what, and, you know, I'm not because. At the meantime, they're in their society.

Sometimes they're in the way of their own. But, you know, I'm a guy of car. I'm a guy of calen. I'm a guy who I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm going to live my

chaperop to these people, because it's not easy. They're going to work in a challenge like now, I'm

here people who castes the beton. Yeah, today, the day, where we're not, it's not

to you know to you're not to be able to show today, you know, I'm in the front, we're,

we're, we're in date of of the tournage, we're in in our tournage, we're in

Mayjuan and he's a show today, so they're like the machines, you know, the marto at

a little camera at 35 live, the marto at the end of their head to putte to the

tithe, they do you do stage, they're doing the I'm a capo, and I'm

a great care for them, because without them, I'm, I'm not my job.

The people always sometimes, the people our, our our there's a

company that because it's to be the company to be the company that's the person to do you know,

but you're not to get a cut the most submissionaire to return and there's a little man,

he's devu at the affair and it even if you don't have a carcoural, you know

what's to do repartire to get to get something. And I'll do it all the

time, you know, for me someone who is people who is people you're imprisoned in your consumption.

The prison has several layers. You can be in front of you know, you know, you know, I've been a lot of people. No, but I've had

been in prison at cause of other ruse humans, but he was not at the barro, but he was imprisoned, he was taken, he was

sequestered, he had, whatever, I have plenty of names in head, you know, so, you know, so, you're capable

to comprehend, and you're able to talk, and I imagine that they're they're able, do, is,

Is that you talk a bit of your part of your They're trying They're transparent I'm trying to I'm transparent, I have nothing to

I'm trying to and I'm talking because I'm really want a message of hope of to people that in life it's possible

when you when you're the volonted and the envy to get on I'm asking I'm asking

to ask me my word of my word of me and sure you can't there's there's a man can't

there there was another layer that I wanted to I wanted to talk about your past I wanted to call on a little of an enterprise because I think I think it's important to, to talk, I'm talking, I'll do

that often that's hard when you're to say, but to know that there's there's an entrepreneur, and there's there's employees like you, who, who, who have that, and they're going to be there for these guys, so for me, I think that's important.

You said that you'll say that'd be able to have for the age of your father, when he has been to remove the life, how do you go? Today? Today, I see. I see exactly.

You know, I'm going, where I'm going. I just as you am I, and thank you, and thank you, and thank you, during the pandemic, it was the borde of

all the life, of all the world, in the time, in the mine, I, I, I had a, boss that

he was pushed on the arm, I mean, I said to my wife, I'm a little boss In the room, my wife She said, oh, Martin, it's not normal that. Oh, but I just went to have my vaccine

COVID, so he made say it's normal. It's a fling ganglion, so I've continued my view. No, no, no, no, no, no. Because I know these people. Yeah, I know that, but no. I'm saying, it's reliant.

I'm not, I'm not, I'm not. No, no, no, it's just that I'll see that we're listening, right? Exactly. I guess, everyone's just, I guess, each other's opinion, I'll do always in the podcast. I'm not for the liberty of expression.

I don't know that's not that on the same. But it's not a bit of course I've got an ankleion that's been

a bit of time before I was because it was the pandemic it was complicated at the hospital it's it's a

It's a It's a bit of time and I've made a bit of and they've discovered that I had

a cancer of the my cancer of the whole I had a melanom stat-4 metastatic

and the type of melanom that I'm it's a mutant B.R. A. F, V-6-5.

Why I'll say that you'll tell you'll understand. Well, I guess, Stade-4 melanom,

I think that that's, everyone understands at what the word Stade-4. It's a stade-4

equal incurable in general. No, it's incurable. I'm sorry, I'm more to do that, when, I don't know,

I'm more not he'd be to be the person, he made, he made, he made, he had,

it was at the month of March, 15 of March, no matter. I just that you know, just that you know, I just that you know, I'm a matter of, I've been a while, I said, I said that

I had said I had been a business, so I've had to be able to my mansion. So, I've had to be bought my my house. I had to buy it

my house. We're at his finality, me, and my family, to do the other house. We're doing

to do the month of March. You're going to have a A crochet to have a nice little big point on your checklist.

A checklist of I'd ever ever think of that I'd have been to have in a time when you're in a house of chamber,

or you're going to get to be able to your house? My house according to we've got we've chosen, we've done

we've done and the efforts of the work that I'm to go out to sambly to the bedon because me

I was assembled to blanchet I've tried like a malade to do that And then the month of Mars, the oncologist

You have said, Hello, Mr. Maher, you have a cancer, Stat 4, metastatic, incurable. We have only that two treatments

that's offered to it's to the immunotherapy. And that's new but it's not, you know, we don't know it's not going to

functioned. But there, at this moment that, shoo, he's been a noorceur I'd

heard, but I'd I'd listen to anything. I thought my job, my guys, how I'm going to do, but I've continued, I can't arrest. I'm presently, I'm not quite nowhere. I'm not quite at you.

But I'm even, but I'm not quite at all right. I'm saying, you know, you're saying to me that, I'm out of the gym. I'm, I'm trying to, two times per year, often, five days, a week, I'm, I'm, I'm, and, I, I, I'm not, I'd understand what he said. It was inimaginable to me

to say that I have a cancer, state-cath-car, incurable, who has only two treatments. Fuck, man, my family, she, she,

she's, she'll be able to her own time, and she can't be, my house, I'm not sure, my house,

I'm not sureable for the view or the invalidity, and it's not really, that we're a place, when you're a

cancer, oh, you're going to repose, to have to your life, and, no,

no, the medit of construction that me practically two, six hundred per month, and that's after to have

passed your shor-mage-maladies, and that's if you're if you're a rate, and I'm thinking about, you're unthinkable that I'm thinking, I love what I do, I love my team, I adore my

life, man, I'm a house, I'm doing, it's been to, it's been to me a force that I didn't even not, I decided

to force, and to go, to go to chie. So, I've continued, I returned to have done to try, and I've announced that, and the

people capote, and the reason of the state-chart is that I had the metastase in the lung, I had in a

grandalal all the point in a moment of the point in a heart of the stard four,

if I had a place in a place, I'd have been a state of never a stade one, just at a

year, just at a time that I'm so, that's for that it was for that in the pumon, I had in the

ganglion, I had in colon, I had as a colon, I had some the hipot, I'm at some

my minute, I'd getpott I'm going to let's see, let's see, It's what's what's what what's going to do? So, they've been said that the immunotherapy

it had to boosted my cellulet, it's like if I had the cancer for the whole and that's provened in my scent and that's, hey, body, he'd let's pass it everywhere and he'd sackroch to ganglion. It's so,

he said, this treatment that, it will be boosted your cellulet that, she, will come back all the mechains that and, by course, the default of that

is that it's a combat also the good, what I'm what I'm doing so I'm doing during my treatment my employer he wanted to

my job, I'm back to him back to you, because you're an away my job and you're in my job, and you were the last

he's the brother, it's the friend of your friend of your and everyone will just be my own

my way, but I'm too on design to understand that I'm to chier man I'm not

madame, man, I'm because your system immunitarian it's return counterme after my

after my second after my second after my two shots of hypnotherapy at double dose.

It was the epimulumabab and a level lumab that I mean the more the more possible because I was

the more if I was if I had 50 and plus he would don't know this treatment that because

he had done not not, he was too very dangerous. It was by chance

that I had 20 years, by chance that I was the word it's hard to

It's hard to say, and we're at to understand, but we're at and we're to learn, we're doing, we're doing,

we're doing it, we're doing, so I'm in the first time, and then you're sitting at the hospital, and you look around

to you, all the people who are in treatment also, who are you say, what you do you do, I'm not a

man, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not at all, I'm saying, the guy who is, the guy who is, the guy who is entering

in therapy the first year, it's the same guy who is sitting in trying to do this treatment and he

he's a time, it's not me I'm not really, I'm not I'm not I'm not no, I'm not

because I'm a minute it's not able to they want to they want to do you have to find a valve

for me for me for my treatment because my ven it's worth all right yeah I'm

first treatment two treatment but I continue to work and I'm two, month three

I'm sitting at my job the eyes me were to the head because Because there I was a edem cerebral, an uveite, irritation of the cornea.

They've made a 20thene of the puncture longbeye to me degagre the pressure in the head to me enleve the pressure because my brain is going to be clautee. Now, stop the treatment, the drug of the treatment of immunotherapy. So, Martin has no more than the treatment of immunotherapy. We've got to soign the effects secondaire. How we'll soaned the effects secondaire?

I've learned in my depends, it's by the cortisone. 70 mg of cortisone to all the day. When I was the cocktail of medication I'd I'd say, I'd go

in a other country, I'd like that and then the cortisone it's the way to the alarm your neurons,

it's allude, it's frourette and then then my wife has found that a drool because

well, I wanted all right, I was in the house, I'd look at all the different

an analyst, I was, I was turned to have been able like 22 Cinepac in my with the

carthzone. I've never consumed a drug of my life that's also powerful that's that's like the

person who's doing what? I said, man, I'm doing what, I'm doing what? I'm going to get to

get to, I could be all right, in my head, I've got to piss, I'm instantane

I, hey, I've got to have been pussed at my culott, I'd at my wife I'd

capote, I'd brawere, I had the, it's It was the last far, this sovrage of defends secondary with the cortisone. It's had to beck, four months.

They've been basse my cortisone. But dangerous for... Because there... ...kearche who has a parkour of consummater? Yes, but no, because it's even not... It's not... It's just... Flippant, finally.

Those who have already... ...cic... ...he's who they've already put the cortisone, they're going to understand. When he gives the cortisone, he says, to have to the cards of of the chrisons there's people

who are to get to get some of the people who are they're doing they're doing it's a bit like a bitolair

there's like the on a new my wife my wife had to go to the gym and train

after an hour and a hour and a minute my waiteater lave my my wife

my wife a capote her t'barnack it's all last the bans it's all all right my life was

my life was my life is the carth but when it's the night It's the l'amphare. I had some

at the optometrists, at the neurolog, everywhere. I'm going to put on the ompson on theomber. There, they've been in front of other treatment.

One of the other treatment, that's regained, yeah. After that, yeah. Excuse me, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

I'm sorry, to know why you're still on the morning today, I'm still, I'm still, I'm very content,

but... It's that, they're, they're sitting, and I'm said, Martin, the other

treatment that can't do Don't know it's a treatment that's an therapy

suburbia it's a two types of medication that's the braftovie and mectovie which

combined together will diminue the SUV that's the speed of

the speed of the cancer and the other will aminus

the metastase so with that with that it has it has it's

on to get almost 90% to my core, but they

rest all the time there's recalcitrant at some quite. So, that's experimental they don't

have to be a real of five to see when they're going to do that, they're not for four to five,

six years, the maximum. After that, it's sort of your that you're that you're going to

be able to be able to that I'm not like like that, but I suffer the martyr in the

pain of the morning I'm left, I'm the two years I'm just I'm the plies in mitre for

able to be able to re-chauffe I'm going to those knees, some of the problems, there's some of the problem, but it's

stabilise in the action. When I'm left the morning, I'm done by the I'm finished, I'm finished in

soin palliative for trying these medications because they're the mayors for trying these trotement.

The soulagee it's not that but that for actually to try to amyore the quality of life at maximum on the last the last year.

What's the last is the same, all the world would say that I'd rather than to work and that's that I'm prelase on an end up

that I'm trying to get to work. And my beau friend, my employer, they know that I know that I've made a role more sane and

more... More, more, more... I'm... I do you development of the affairs, coordination, and I'm...

I've seen the guy, and it's less stressant, and a chance, because, I could not to work.

And, me to work, and I'm trying to live, and it's the thing to be in life, like, what I'm trying,

it's hard to say what I'm doing, but what makes fine to your years, it's sort of your body,

or you can't, you're not, you're not to be able to be able to be to be able to be the star in the

brain of the he, he declange, because you, you're not the first, I've received that,

and she said, I'm literally, because she had at Stade 4, she said, she repart, she said, she depart, he me to do, like. Exactly.

I'm exactly. I'm, I'm doing the Tapscan, IRM of the Cervo, they pass an ecography for the car. At each two

months, three months, I've all the time for all the time for the time, I've got no, so I'm so I've been

to be able to make a function longbour, that's, I'm running and the last time, the madam,

she had to have to be the a miserable to mal-fair. I've passed an hour with an guillet in the column, to try to be able to get a pressure, I've been, I said, I've been, the d'norsalusualers, the nausea, but I have a pellet for chak, but I have a pellet of nausea,

I have a pillure in sand, because it's a lot, and the day, well, it's long to make my butt, but I'm my butt, my guy, because, me, there, I, have these guys who make their butt for to go and go, and I'm going to make my bad, I, and I'm going to make my and I'm going to

and I'm assured that I'm assuring that all the world I'm sure to be able to be able to help to help

the people to pursue their chimes and I'm to be able to my brain to be able to not think

to this little bitty that's that's probably in the I know not, but your

wife also has been to you? My wife has been me also but

yes if if if you were more smooth or the fact that you're condoned and you say I'm, I'm

I'm not for how many times I'm just my prelaced to the sun because I imagine construction it's for a long

time you're for the company I imagine there's certain insurance all that I'm at the construction

I have the you could be in the house you could be to be in it's not that's not

a new point it's not really that's not that's the top you know you're going to get 80% of

than you don't know if I'm at my own it's sure that I'm going to be to be in

it's sure that I'm not in the but I'm I'm in I'm sure I'm going to live and

for live today it we're a job and it has not my my wife

on my wife I'm doing I'm to get a carly three row for an

because it's two years I'm doing I'm in it's all a cone yeah it's

It's more... It's more... I'm in parenthood, but it's more to take the balance. I'm not going to say, and it's a gross control, and there's

a lot of thing, I'm going to to buy a S-10-1911, we made a motor 454 in there. And with my friend, we've

passed the winter to gossed on I, I've done the tools, and he did all. It's a car 594, it's a machine

to burn, it's a machine at a hour, there's not, there's not there's not, excuse for the moment that you're not

the money, it's a You're just to have a affair of the Bucan, that. Yeah, I love. There's a lot of... There's a lot of... I don't know. I mean, it's...

It's fair. It's fair. It's clear. But it's... It's a... ...that my friend, he has had... My friend, too,

1, 454, we'll put it down, pap, blah, there, there's... And, you know, it's his side of... He's a car enormous, he has done that all the winter, he has

passed that, my guy there's... To, my guy, that's... ...toe, my guy, that's... The guy who was a fond for

to destroy, today the malady is in trying to destroy and you decide to live at

fond? You know, you know, you know, I'm going to say, I'm to say, I'm going to

me, it's me that's me who would be me die, let's go. It's me

that's going, to be the thing, I'm, you know, I, I, I've

really in the in the way to do you know that I'm doing I'm 24 for a year

year of the year I'm in a year to get to be able to be able to get to be 60, I'm going to

my family, I want to I want to she'll be her husband, I'm, she has

her has her, she's like my wife, Andrea, she has a little baby,

hey, I'm, I'm trying my life, that's a beau grand papa? I'm

I'm a grand papa, and I, a little a little girl, and I, I want to

grow up to get to make sure, to make forci, to rest in life, to combat that, to be,

because I see that I combat in the because my car, he's always, I feel you bring to

the point of my job? I'm going to take so on the other, it's not when you're not there,

if you're not if you're not, if you're a few, a year, a, you know, an avion,

there, I'm, and we're I say I say often, you you have to put you to make your mask to before you have to wipe out, you

can't put to put it to put it to put all you know, you know, you know, you know, all the you know, but you can't do you can't

do it, but you can't be in a state, so the first person that's you need, it's me, you know,

it's true, Cedric, I'm not, I'm sure, I'm sorry, but, you know, I'm just to say, my chum,

they're going to get to the university long time there, it's a more cool because it's if you're fatigued if you're fatigued

if you're you're in a person who's someone who's someone who's a tiny microb they're going to because he's

to be fatigued because you're fatigued but you're not the first and I'm and I'm not why you're

not you're not because I'm to listen to you I'm just like you're talking with with plenty of emotion I want to

I want to grow to this little I'm I want to I'm sure I'm sure that the

medicine and that the life will be able to do it but if you can you know, you know,

because it's a work that's a because I'm until I'm retien to not to go and I'm know if it's really about

and I'm really attention. I think to this I'm not to talk. I'm a few years

a few years who's got and when he had come his treatment man he had some there was

like tabate and it's a guy who's a guy who he's It's like he re-fetched sacko, he had this energy there, and a minute,

he'd, you go ahead, and it's impossible, and it's impossible, it was impossible, it was a bit more fulgurant than you. And, and he'd be, you know, and he'd were parted, again, today, if it's not, he'd still, and he'd still still, but it would be, a little,

there, a little bit, a little bit more long time, if there had, we're at a part of the , you know, I'm afraid, you, you know, there's not, he, he's not had, there, he, he had been, he, And, it's the contrary, it's all right, and it's for that,

it's excuse me, because if you, you know, I'm talking, I'm trying, Brian, and I'm asking to be calm,

you, I profit, the, you know, you're not, you're doing, and I'm, that's a

, and I, and I, just for that, it's just, it's just to be to see, because, all the,

he said, he said, bring so in the way, and to bring to take, to the other, it's important,

you're it's, it's, it's, you know, I'll say, at 24 years, you've taken to to take care of you, because you were in the dechance. You've pre-sohn to put your own, my child?

You've thought to do, you want to help the other, but you've said, I've been to have been these chums in therapy. Why'd you've been these chums in therapy? Because you're taken to take you to take the therapy, you had to be able to, try to amy to get these other. If you want to be able to be able to be able to do. You're able to be able to be. listen it's not

easy to bring that. It's so that's not it's not the company for the job for the

company has been to be able to and I'm inal and I'm chiole I'm gonna

but I'm a lot of but today the head of your teteete of my but today

I'm just I'm just they're thank because I work again but I'm

I'm still more calm it's more less stressful because it's quite stressant to have

on the all the problems of the project that can arrive, and it's it's a lot, because it's all right, because it's a row, I'm going to be able to be my life, and if I'm able to do that, and to do you, it's just, tranquilly not quite, it'll be, it's going to be, it's

and if your car, you'll demand to do it, listen, then, you, it's not that, you're not to be able to, to do, make it's not easy, but, you know, it's not that's not, you know, accept, You've accepted that you have a problem in a 20thens. You've accepted your febless.

You've accepted your problem. You've got to be able to regulate. So, you've got to accept, also, what you're trying to be in your life. You have to accept that you've got to be less, that you're less, that you're not able. I don't want to be.

You know, you're able to get to start to something that you have the control. There, But you have the control of you, you have the control of to listen and to do you know, I'm doing to do

I'm trying to impossible, but I'm barred because everything is possible in the life. There's nothing that can't

when you have a view. And me, my view, it's, it's to see the

the little of my blonde, arrive, Sicilia with these three tress at seven,

eight, and then, and I'm, that's my view, and to let me, to make a tour of pickup, and, you know,

to have plenty of things. You know, I didn't have an child, and she's like my wife, Andrea, it's a pearl, and I'm really

choyed, to have a family around the people, all the time, everyone is very people, and my family,

my family, my family, my family, my wife, it's a pearl, it's a, it's a pearl that's a perl

that's, and I, I thought, she, I thought, she, she, she, she, she, she, she,

she, she, she, The marriage, we're not in life, you know, I mean, I want to continue, and I want to do make in a sort of that I'm doing,

I'm doing, you know, I'm sure. I'd say, I'd say, that you can't live, to be to be able, to be able, the miracle

that can't, we're, we, we're going to want to be one, but I think that, you know, you know,

you can be afraid. Fierre to have made a checklist, to have, you know, Fierre,

to be at an be to get to assume your parkour, Fierre to want to help,

Fierre of the man that you you're, you're, you're a guy, you can

get to the manton crissment on up and I I'm sure. Oh, yeah.

I'm sure that he's Fierre in Tabarnac I'm You're sure You're not I'm sorry I'm gonna say He'll see that he's

That you know And he's And then And he's That's just I know, I'm I know I don't know

But you know I'm not I'm not a guy Spiritualal and all But if it's There's a If there's

There's a There's a And even if he's There, I'm Maybe he's I think that's If he's He'd be here

I think he's Yeah, I'm sure. And so, And men, I, I, I, I wish to do you want to that you can't live the more long time possible, the plus of things possible.

Take care of you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Yes. Yeah. You know, it's hard to make these butts.

I'm at a minute. I'm trying to putt. Met, you de loafer. Chris, it's a good. You're not, you know. Just, you know, because maybe it's both challenging in the life,

but you've got to see. You've got already done, and continue to do it. Thank you, Thank you, Martin, sincerely, thank you. There's a

many of many of the things that we're talking about because because I've seen plenty of things,

I've had a mirror at some cases in your words, it's, it's, I'm not,

I'm not, because it's very, very, very, to name this name this name,

this name, for me, for me, you've been to say, you're in in the fact,

I, so, I, it's, it's, it's, it, it's, it's

it's been it's been this conversation that's been it's been it's been to be able to be able to

to be able to try to put a message to get a message of people because in life when you're able to be able to get to

we don't know we know. We know we're going to see a no. And we're the often we're

the people who are the people who we're the life's a bitch the bitch, the life's a put,

sometimes it's a chien necessarily They can't increase Yeah, and they're pretty baton in the roux,

but we're able to let's see, it's changing and we're and it's a preve, you're doing

force, and I'm thank you thank you thank you that it's, it's true, it's sure,

it's sure that it will you know, to find a certain person to to find to the support and

if you have some if you have there, if you have some people who have a situation like Martin

in this moment, it's maybe not a bad idea to let's hear a listen to at the

last year of the last year because I know that's a malorously a malady that's a lot at the

through what has been to do with the family, at around the people, you're a proof of

resilience, of force. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you. Thank you.