Au Parloir - Épisode #160 - Priscillia Laplante

Episode Date: September 27, 2026

⚠️ Abonne-toi sur PATREON: WWW.PATREON.COM/AUPARLOIRDans cet épisode, je reçois Priscillia. Issue d'un milieu familial marqué par la dépendance, la pauvreté et les traumatismes, sa jeunesse bascule après le suicide de son grand-frère. Rongé par le choc post-traumatique et la consommation, son père sombre dans des épisodes de psychose et de paranoïa. À seulement 14 ans, Priscillia vit une véritable prise d'otage armée à la maison avec sa mère et son frère, qui se conclut par le suicide de son père.Malgré les épreuves, les abus et les difficultés, elle a fait le choix de la résilience. Aujourd'hui mère de quatre enfants et cofondatrice du Café Parenthèse à Saint-Eustache — un refuge et un espace sécuritaire pour les personnes en situation d'itinérance ou d'analphabétisme — elle offre aux plus vulnérables la dignité et l'écoute qu'elle a toujours prônées. Son parcours est une leçon poignante d'espoir et de courage.☠️ Suivez-nous pour ne rien manquer :Tik tok : [https://www.tiktok.com/@cedricbergeronparloir](https://www.tiktok.com/@cedricbergeronparloir)Instagram : [https://www.instagram.com/cedricbergeron.parloir.humour](https://www.instagram.com/cedricbergeron.parloir.humour)Facebook: [https://www.facebook.com/cedricbergeron.parloir.humour](https://www.facebook.com/cedricbergeron.parloir.humour)⚠️ Pour collaboration : [e-mail] Hébergé par Acast. Visitez acast.com/privacy pour plus d'informations.

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of a tragedy familial that have engendry other tragedy familial that

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and we echelone that until today. Well, I've I've got to

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we're to the campang we're in Bannliu, new milieu, first house also

bought. My father was factor for Post-Canada and my my mother, in the secretary,

and I worked in these companies here. Adjoint administrative. Gen. Exactly.

I said that I know, I know it's not a word, but at the time it's a

secretary. Exactly, exact. Friends of two brothers, which one a half-frey

but we've always considered as a brother who had eight years and a little brother in the

one that's a year and a two years a family traditional family traditional is there a lot of

the case of the dependence of the violence in this family there? Well,

you know, in fact when I were young it seemed not so But, gross Ombudsmodo, my

father, I was consuming a cocaine, of alcohol, a lot of a little, I think,

I think, I think it was a bit of that, arrived at the barque of New Marial,

after that, transfer in camppang, the banliue, et cetera, so, so,

the of consumption that's develop a little with the time, and we

will be the field of the history, that's So it's a bit of the famous eventment we're going to talk, before the first event, the element of the clencher, it's already in his life?

It's already in his life. Incourt, in my mom and my father, they've had started, in the front, my parents had 17 years. So, he was very young. My mother had already a child, so my grand friar, that had had an person precedent.

They've had they've got their life like that, at 17 with a baby. So, so it's, it's, it's,

it's, it's a, so, my father from a family where it's all all the

family, so he had, in the five, five, so it's, so it's

a little rock and roll in the coins, but, you know, you know, you mean,

it's a factor, so, good time, all right, all right, it's certain

issues, is, at this at this time that, is a, a, a,

a consumption problematic, or it's a consumption recreational creative is, is something that's something

that's something that's that? I'm going to I'm in the sense where my father has

kind of granded in a place that's quite quite quite quite the consumption

of cocaine has made that eventually he has quite developed certain trouble,

a lot of violence, a lot of impulsivity, et cetera. So, you know, we'd see, we'd have some of the young, it's, it's,

some of the chicanne of family, etc., which deroyed a little. But it was it was just, I mean, the work, you know, the work, it was geree well, the life familial, the responsibilities

gere, and it's an issue, where's it is a lot of time to make on the air, if a call out, or if you're not

far to be because we don't know how's what he will react, or it's not at this point? It was not at that point that. In fact, my father, it was really

an idealist, the sense where my father is all the first, in the fond of his family, he had made his studies, he had made his studies for being countable. And in the recession that he had in the years 82, if I'm not

83, something like that, in fact, he's been a lot to try to do work in his domain, and he had not perced, and he said, because he'd I'd say he'd say, he'd say, he'd say, I'd have a job, I'd say, I'd have been a bit, you know, it's a job for a travel, it's, it's a family, and we're

contented to that. It's, we're doing, to, it's promenue to panse at at a table, and the bar, there's not, there's no, no, there's no, to help them to find those impo, , they're, they're appellate the loan to pay. Exactly, but, you know, he was, quite perfectionist, I mean, before to enter, at the maternal, I, I know, I'd know my table, of multiplication.

It's a good idea. We were there we were in a family that I'd say, I'd say some of the

values of respect, of honesty, of loyalty, some things kind of a good base, very, very installed

and then even a good encardrement. We didn't not, it was not a family let's see

and the kids are what the people do you feel that you feel like you feel like you were to do you

were very encodered. But, there were there's there's there's related to the consumption.

Young, we'd see more because we had cuched more than the bonner also, but

it's that, in years, after, you know, we've seen, I've had a grand

frar, in the fond, that's called Stefan. Stefan, in the phone, being in the guard

partaged, and, with his father, he's partaged in the two families, exactly,

and then the fact, has developed also of the issues of consumption. In other,

in the time, it was a coll. So, the young, it's new it's not a call.

And then eventually, the alcohol, et cetera, but, you know, it's so, he has

to have probably, maybe some of, there's a , you know, to get to CGO,

but, there's not with the Colo, and it's, it's a very, I'd say,

I'd , you know, by the young that, you'd like, you know, I'm, you,

I'm, I, I'd like my comprehension of a little little girl of 10 years in the time, you know, but grossomodo, in the fond, my brother,

I think I'd search a lot and eventually, there were a lot of conflict also, you know, between my mother,

he wanted to go to say, there, there had some, you know, there had some many my father,

he had come to deraping a little more, you know, consume a little more, my grandfrette arrived at 18 years, he's permitted a little bit

more of affairs it's a cause big chican at a point where's the moment of a moment of a year, I mean,

my father, in his derraignment, I'll say like that, he has made the cuto on the gorge

to my frar because he had been to my mother, you know, and at after that,

well, I mean, my friend, in the he is part, he is parted, and he's not revenue,

it's the last time that we've seen, you know, You have talked to the past?

Yes. Because it's not because it's not the famous element of the clancher that I

talked about when your your friend had quitted at 18 years, so you would be a

about about you're in a dozen of about exactly it's the last that you

see that you see the last that I know I'm at

at at my time that I'm that I'm that I'm In the phone, in fact, I'd say, I'd say, grossomodo, has continued,

his consumption, et cetera, and eventually, well, a matine, in the front, it's jocke in the bottom of the parkier, you know? That's the same, the consumption. You're not there, you can't talk about for him, but it's that, these issues of consumption,

of, some, of the bullying, or, long of the family, sometimes. We're talking about a press, in a... Yes, and there's a letter that has been left,

in fact, some people. a little, a bit, a bit, a bit, a bit of vaguer,

so, so, that's, probably, he was in a state to be in a lot of the

point, but it's that, you know, some years after, they've made the rampart of

the on, and there were, there were there's in the year,

in the in 2014, in 2014, that's his death, had taken to have exactly,

he's not he's not, you know, we're saying, it's so, it's so, no, it's so,

it's so, it was at the month of March, so there was a few of chance to be in mind a lot of course, it was a event that's

an event that's an event which I think is not the case now, in the case, where it's made to different

ways, so we have identified a death, a day, your frere had your frere was madaned

physically because you're soot in the point, and we asked, the police had to demand to your

father, to go, to get the to identify, and my father has wanted to take his responsibilities, in

fact, because in the fond, I'm, in other a number that he had proposed to be able to identify himself, and my father has refused, you know, but what you know, is that when you

salt in the bottom, well, you know, I mean, it's not like you tombe in the water, gross-o-d-o, he has, like, rapped,

all the bar, of the base of the bays of the bottom, just to be cras on the glass in the back. So,

so, you, all that, you, to say, that the spectacle, finally, never would not be very very beautiful.

My father is to identify his his son infant, who had he was

the most the face arached, we're really there. Chek you can talk about

that's for me, it's important, to mention that the suicide is a it's a

solution definitive a problem temporary in general. So, so, 18,

6, 6, call, if you have some ideas, you have some the pensions, it's a problem permanent

to, it's a solution permanent to a problem temporary. Because I'm important to mention it. So it's an

image, so someone, I know not your person, but in general someone who consume,

when it's more recreative, it's already someone who has been to appease certain

sufferance, you know, I think I've got to have an experience of people who have been in

the problem of consumption and often, even if someone is not not quite camufely

these big bobo and there we've been to add a big coche his appell clearly.

And, you know, I want to say that, to what I have seen also,

the issues of consumption, there are certain person also who are hyper-sensible. And this hyper-sensibility, is hard to get, and clearly that my father, it's a person who is hyper-sensible.

So, at the end of the end, we're talking, brief, we're talking to shock post-traumatic, you can't get an identifying your child like that, without a shock post-traumatic, but in these years, it was not necessarily diagnostique, it, it was not well-known,

we were already in the judgment of all what is depressed, and a question, et cetera. An man, it's a man of his generation. In 2014, yes, it's already more evolved, but he's not in 1980. I'll say, it's a man of another generation.

Exactly. We're not, we're not and I'm not talking about it's at table. A man, you have to be able to be far, it's a-so-medicamance, because it will not be able to be a medicine, and the alcohol, the Coke, it's all, that.

It's a part of it, and I'm a badgerat. But, yeah. And, really, and, ironically, It's really especially, the factor,

the cocaine was really very rependue and the depression also. It was really a moment where there

had a congey and that the people had not very very much. So, it's not

necessarily a case to be to be in the history, but it was a

reality in the fact, that, by the people that were that.

And, after this event that, he changes, it's not the same man? Well, no, he is cased. But he returns to work. He returns to work. And then he... We're crazy. He essay, he essay, and he essay.

And eventually, but he's not the choice. He has to come in a conge of a disease because he functioned put, you know? So, like, he's part of the grand machine federal. So, you've got, can't even access to des assurances, et cetera. and you have some obligations to go

an psychologist I don't know I remember not how many times which is a good thing it's certainly more more

more than you than it's absolutely but but all that but all that he was he was quite well

he had quite he lived a lot of judgment because as you know the depression in this time

that it was just in your head and it's because it's because it's perous no it's

it's parreceous He wants the T-off, they'll fill the Poo, he will the T-A. And, and then, it's some of the things I can't

again, in 2012. Well, yeah, I know, some, you know, some,

they've been to get in the work, there, the family, and it's been, there, she,

she, she, because in two, this person of the same, person of the

same to the person of the person, the same, I, and, oh, we're,

we're, we're, we, but it's, there's a very task in your dossier. The people, they know

they're going to they're going to they're doing, they're doing, they're not, they're not, they're not, he'll never

more of responsibility, you're not a person, exactly, it's not necessarily really related to the work, you know,

we're not, it's not, but I think that the people are more sensitive also today, now, you know,

the death of an child, you, it's, okay, you know, we're, you know,

we're not, you know, in the impact important. But, you know, I'd say, I'd have different chappos in the life, but, entre other, we'll, we're going to we're talking to the Chamber of the Communion,

to the Committee of the Condition Feminine. You know, these realities by these parents, who perils of their children, it has not of good sense, no, no remuneration, not of

congey, not, you know, a conge of a malady very limited. Brief, you know, we're in in trying to change that. We're even

not run-in- there, and it will be in a time,

it's a not a when you know, when you know, when you have a family, to have a

point, but if you don't per one, you have to have a to have to have a

person, you know, and I think it and I think it's for the first time,

my friends, my feet are in studio, so I'm not, they're not just me imagine that,

I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know a very pretty who has lived in a

year ago. And it's, it's a year that's a time to start a not, it's not, it's not the,

it's not a medical, for long time, and in travel, leg, you know, because it's, it's enormous,

it's impactant, it's, it's, it's a joy, to have a time, to bring someone to find a

to be in aft, but if it's a parent, to have a for taking to take care of to take

to have a man, yeah, really? And if you have not an assurance, it's very

limited, you know, you're three months of a malady paid, so, so,

try to re- to re-revelling after three months. The people who are never re-leven, well,

no, exactly. But, it's not a judgment, but you could, that's a

debate, we're going to when we're when we're when we're going to get to and I'm,

and I'm I'm sure, and I'm by talking to our rot and the hospitals, so, because the auditors know this whole lot of opinion on, approach me, never, to make a party of a party

political. It's a very bad idea. But, so, so, it's a man who is brisier, but who, you know, he's finally, but you say, he's, finally, it's...

Well, yeah, it's not, it works. But, yeah, the arre of work also with the price of medication, because, there, if you're not, if you're not, you know,

I mean, you know, that your assurance, and your employers will say that you want to be able to help you so, so you're

so you're trying to try to try to get some of the anti-depressers so brief,

we've seen all the color, I've my my father having the hockey

for a month and a day every day every year every time, more

capable to not capable to be able to it's it has it has it's

someone even someone who is even a okay for a month and a minute, you have

to get a lot, but it's aphatically in the sense that if you're still, you know, it's already, someone who's not, someone who's not, and everything,

and all that, and what I'm also, for to have lived, I mean, I'm to have, to have, been in arre of

your medicine, you're in your medicine who know, you know, you know, to make an arre of work, and conscient,

and there, the medicine of the company, or the company of the assurance that he'd one time, a half hour,

perfect, he could return to work and then you're like, well, you're like, I'm not, okay,

I'm not to be able to come back, like, two days or a week, you're doing that's a

correct, not the doctor, so it's either your job. Yeah, there's a way, but I'm but it's but I'm,

but I'm, it's just that's changed a bit with the time. I think there more of sensibility, but it's clearly not perfect.

So, so there he he's, he suly the recommendations? Exactly, exactly. But there, what it's it's, it's, it

makes that my father is at the house at every day. Now, it's quite a person, you know, the factor,

it's a lot of nothing, but he march the kilometers per day, and it's kind of a work

that's very physical, but there, the day or the day, you're all the activity

physical. And then, what's what you have to do you have to do with your day to do your own at the exact? You're going to

get a boutteet, you go and you go ahead, you're going to listen to the TV, it's a bit so it's not so it's not

so, and the and all over the you get overbe a little your personal,

you know, I mean you're like you're like more to be more by a bit by

you're doing you're doing you're doing you're doing you're also, you know, so. So, so it's a little bit that, in the phone, my father,

it's made to be to make, these new friends who were on the aid social, and I, and I'm,

I absolutely nothing, against the health, but of the people who had these great an issue,

that it was the issues of consumption or the issues of the health mental,

et cetera, and it's been new friends, and the people that you frequent on the

eventually, clearly, who's, they have an impact on your way to to develop

as a person. You know, there's a certain tendency, so we're we're in seeing by,

if it's a person, and if it we're a little, we finish, we end up and we're

to be able, because we detain on the people, the people detain on us, you know,

it's... well, well, and, and, you know, what I'm not mentioned, in fact,

is that, we, we, and the cousins, all the people are always together

and the whole of all the people were on the river south and we, we're

demanaged on the river which has really isolated my father. There was

a friend there was that this kind of that it's like frited on the

few of the years and when he's coming in the when he's deflaced

p. he's not So, you know, in other, at cause of the alcohol, I mean, it's been to get

for consumption on volant. And my father, is a person very, very fair, there,

he wanted to do the prison, you know, and the next time that he had been to be able

to be in a state, he had in prison, so he decided to not renewing his

permit to do you, so, so. So, there, just just launch a

boutte Exactly, because... It was more easy. It was more easy to do do that. And then, I know, the

people of the region will be 30 30 years, 35 years, at St. March on the lake, the transport

in commerce, it was not great, but I'm sure, I'm not not quite exceptional if it's

not even more too, more than St. March, and it's not not not quite

not, I'm not I'm not don't know, I'm not there's there's not, I'm not,

And even if there, I said just to part in a bus to St. Mark, if you're like, it's like, it's like, it's a good one. It's been to be a bit of a little bit longer, you see? Oh, yeah, so. I don't know.

I don't know if it's a pattern that. I'm going to go to the next couple of years, so I don't know. It's just, it's probably, it's whatever. But all that, to say, he's still kind of, really, really

isolated, you know? Because it's a matter of you, you're at a school, so, in the day, he, he, there's person. And he just, he just, to chillies with with the chileu

who they boeve and sniff and in this pattern that, exactly, and just in the way, so at the

end with the time, they're a bit part of the bit by the bit, it's being to consume more,

the health has a bit the bar because that you can't be that, you know,

that's, you know, to get in the world of the health, you know, you do you

do the sit on your sofa all the whole and you and you buy,

it's it really really it's it's the the little little

you're in the young adolescent, you're in the whole young, you're in trying to see what, yeah, it's more,

it's who, that's, you know, it's not the man that I know, it's not, the man that's, it's, not, and,

especially, you, my father, is a person kind of, just, very, very, well,

, you, always, probably proper, and, and there, it's, it's, it's,

really, really, really degraded, but, you know, between, let's my 10 years and my 14

years, my reality, my comprehension of the world, it's my little world familial, you know,

and it's that's, even at the level exterior, you know, my father had been

so, so, terribly, even with the people, with the boysin, the boysin,

they had power, it's really, it's really, it's we, we,

I mean, I remember, we have some people aged who'd abutte to ch'in'u, you know, and then my father had a lot of functioned, so the gazon was relatively long,

let's go, and he made a point out, you know, but, you know, my father is going to conned at their port, with a carabine

in the menacing that if he had had been a little and he'd be taken, you know,

I'm saying, you, the people around had a power, the person our tour were at all

the time, there were person, when I was when I was when I'm there's that they were in

my own that's that they're not a lot of that's and I'm know, and I'm

know, my parents he fumed, my parents, my parents, three packets per day,

each, I, I'd feel the the old clop, there, we'd

not know, it's so that's so so, so finally, I'm, you're like, 80%

percent of the of the children of these years of the 90-90. With the rites of charles, the windows with the smoke that's the only can't even if you can't have any of the next? So, yeah, I'll add you to

that, you know, I'm not liy, in recent, but I'm russed, carot, with the shoes, I'm ashamed of mine. Look, it should be cute, I, you know, I'd say the year I'd say, I'd say, I'd say, I'm at the same, because at least, what I thought ironic,

is, that your father decides, to have to stop to have been able to be, because he'll not return in prison, but to have been asked with a carabine. It's a good way to be in prison. Yeah, but it's of the impulsivity.

But it's that, because my researchist me had given some line, and, you know, your father has some of the episode just like, what's what I'm

recounted, that your father had certainly violent, but that's really in dissociation or in psychose, and when he'd

to come to him, he paniqued? Yeah, it's so, he pleaded, excuse, because he is really in dissociation, you know, when you're in PTSD, you're

not there, you know. Yes, and at all the last, it's the consumption, you know, at the end, let's say, my father, he had been

in desintox for to do this. I don't know not that he retoucher to the cocaine, but after, you know, I had my

friends, who had a bit trash, who came to at home she's and who he consumed

with my father. So, my, my, my, my, my

my my people had he was to the d'aub.

So, we're talking, like, the bivar, of the mescaline, all

sorts of of a mix, that you say, we're going, the guy,

he was, like, we're clearly of the same generation, because

with what you just that, I'm like, we're clearly on,

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Me Me' My W'clock To come My My I was I'd attend to work. Your mother,

my mother is a person fantastic. But, I've been 14 years that I've never to talk to my mother. Okay.

Let's on at this epoch. At this time, it's always been really a good person. But my

mother, in fact, it was really, it was a woman who had extremely fear, you know,

she would say, and she would be, she would be, she, my father not decided.

You know, I've said, you know, I'm doing, you know, I've got to get a, we're doing,

we're more to get to get to get to their life, that's a whole life, it's, she's just

rest there. And, you know, my mare, it's a woman who had to work at part of the

morning, in the car, she'd come, I'd say, she'd say, she'd

do, she'd be, she, But I'm not, you know, how I can say that? I mean, I'm just trying to come to an coup adult when I've had had been in the fun, my mother, I'm not going to be in his bra, and I had not a moment privileged with my mother, because my mother was always in trying to

be sure, you know, in the fact, to secureize his environment, to assurred that my father was good and, et cetera. But, you know, we, you know, at all the time, and my my little friend, in fact, we're in fact, we're quite accessory,

in her life, so, she, she, she, she, she, she, she, she, she, she,

she, she, she had, for, let's, our need, but, but, she,

it, was, in a situation where she had a place, the rest, had not the

place, she, she, she, she, she, she, and,

she, totally, , , that for her, it's a third infant, you know,

in your and you know, so, so, so, so, he's not, he's not,

he's not, the other, they're not, there's a , you know, it's a bit that's, it's a,

it's, it's, it's, she, I think, that, I'll have not,

I'm not, you're not, you know, I'm not, you know, I'm not, it's a moment, in this situation,

plus, that's a woman cartesian, she does, she does, she has not , She's here and this soul,

we've got to be She said. She said, she She said, But at all the last of all the of this, it's that, you know,

we were, we were archipov, we, we had a misery to because my father had also some

the problems of the year at over these years, because what's you do you do you know,

because what's that's so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, at the mother,

she had to do a lunch, because she had done to work, and she's , she's , they were, and of suc.

So she had a tranche of pears, and put her butter, and it was her own lunch for the journey, and it's that he had maintained. So, so, the tranche of

ballone, he was counted, we were, we were really there in time, you know, and of consumption, because the consul

is not gratis, not the point? At the moment, your father, has been in arre of his, is he returned, to have,

he's not returned, he's never, returned, and he's never, returned to but, but, in fact, it's because

it's because it's It was so much degrade. You know, I mean of a story, where there were one or two of his brothers who

had a lot, and I, this episode that's not me who had seen it, I've heard about about it, but he had

to get a and he said, he said, there's not, it's not, there's an extraterrest that's seen at the table

with us out, it's not, it's not your friends. It's, so it's, so it was, it was in

a other world, entretan, And the next then they'd whoop, si he'd and then

he'd he'd I'm sure not, what's what's I'm just a

yeah, it's not it's a time, what we're saying, it's like, it's

so they could be aggressive, that they could be able to hear of some schizophrenic,

that's, you know, not, not, because, you know, schizofference, it's because you're

saying, it's just it's just, you're saying, you know, they're doing, but, you know,

In other, the Coke, it's a, you know, if you're a bit paranoia in the life, it's been four-mill. But, in fact, he is rested with the angeal of paranoia, he is rested, you know, it's really that. But, you know,

to add to that, you know, and, you know, the bivore and the, you know, the champions magic, and then, you, at a moment of a day, the brain, he digerate not all, and then, with the antidepressure, you know, the, you know, the perfemix,

alcohol-include, it's that. So, you know, there's plenty of episodes, you know, these episodes where, you know, I mean, let's on a moment of an end, I'm and I'm gonna always

just on an orrevee. You know, I was always in hypervigilance all the time, all the time, you know, I hear, and my mother has cried, and you're me made, you know, you

make mal, you know, and, you know, I was very, very fonseo, I was always in color, always fashed. But I think

that it has been a lot of very much to be frustrated like that I'm saying, but I'm

doing it, I'm on and my father has a catana the kind of the sort of the sort of

you met on your wall, well, he's to be able to be to be

to be because he conscious of all the pain that's he wants

that's not that has not a bad sense and the only thing What he wants, it's, like, to get, you know,

to get, you know, and he's saying, well, say, I'm going to die, it's going to be the problem, you know, so,

so, these episodes like that, a repetition, I'm going to be there. Well, with my friend, just,

your acutters, I just, I just, I'm not grossed with your micro, you know, I'm sure,

I'll, I'll do, I'll make, no, it's because you didn't, no, it's, because you're just,

I'm not very because I'd just be sure that we'd get up to your mantle. So he'd be sure that's not my double manton. I'd like to ask you not the same. No, but I'd more pose the question for when we're so on, you know, and if I'd be posed not a question, it'd have to be, the little, the little, he would just

go to the whole lot, go to the long, go to the long, go to the microphone, so on the microphone, is so on the microphone, is so. No, no, no, no, no, I'm correct, you'd be that, we can't, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's,

It's good. I'd like to make these points like that. I'm going to focus on you. But that's right. You say,

you know, you know, so you know, so you know, I'm going to see that's because I'm going to end my

mother. My mother, she has had the two hands on the catana, and has to retone

my father who wants to be so, so I'm traversed, and I'm cross the catana and at two

we're just, you know, so it's some of the situation like that in the a young woman of which age,

at a pretty, um, we're in 13, 14 years, we're really in the last years, you know,

just before that's the same thing, we're in a total. Because it's really, it's a big episode.

But I'm sure to see, on what, and I don't not quite, he's at-life, we'll be in not over not

but your little friend, it's, you know, your life at the everyday, at the life, you know,

to live that, at what, the time, the family that you are today, comprehend the impact or maybe

of the kind of the way to have to be in the house, to see, to watch that this consumption

as to you, your friends are going to consume with your father? Is that you, it's a pattern that you're

an idea to get to get to the look at what? You know, your life? I'm a

bit too I'm just a little, my mother, I'm done what, my father, I'm done a fuck out. In fact,

I'm just a ball, like, at the school, I've really very but when it

when it starts to be rape in fact, you know, I've been called to, the parents would not,

that the parents would not with me, at cause, and other, to my entry, in second-air

one, I, I'm made meaze at the school to the intimidation, when we on the

time, we're in there, we're in there, we're not, we're in a few

crotch, I'm out of the car, I'm, you know, I'm any,

any manner social, I mean, you know, I'm not with the people no more, you know, to the sense where I think

I'm always always been very very much, you know, but I'm really difficult to be very communicate,

I think, with the people and I'm mean, I'm there, there was a young girl, there,

I'm not, I'd like, and, you, it was, it's, it's like, the family that's popular,

to, you know, and, you, it's not gross, St. Marte, so, the guy that, you know, the guy who

menace the with the carabine, it's a call the town of the city, they're talking,

it's not, you know, and that's that, and that's that she's she's, she's,

but it's a lot of, every year, you know, and then I had a time, and then,

my father he's fashed, and he said, he said, there, you,

he's sack a lot, because that's not he's not that's you know, I'm not

a woman, you know, I'm the , you're the general of people, that if I'd be batted, I'd retone the coup, the,

the time that I'd probably to be mad to get to be so, but it's what I'm doing, I'm doing, because when I'm doing, when I'm going to,

well, I'm doing, at two, three episodes, but I was so I'm telling with some people, in fact, who were saying, who were doing,

their parents, it had these people violent, it had these people that were people absent, it's, so, so, so, so,

I, I, I, I'm, like, embarked at the adolescence in this world, not but at the adolescence, I

really met the panoply of the people who had all the problematic a little bit about, you know, if the

young who are not they want to come to come to their own reason? Well, those who say,

they're so they're going to go, go, go, go, it's not great, that, it's a pattern,

so, so you're, so you're, you're, you're, you're, you're, you're,

you're, you're, you're, you're, you're, Well, you know, it's always in defense, because I never

I've never, but it's so, but rest that's that, you know, this foe, I'm like, it's like,

it's a creed a ride to bus to the young female, you know, and after that, I, I've,

I've got to my, I'm in secondar-1, then, then I, I've, I've, I've,

I've, and I said, my father would be anything to get to get to all the volley of the world

because I would not to go to and I had to say, and I'd have to a week

that's in an committee of that's I'm in I'm doing, I'm just a secondair two, I've

made a month, and I have some notes of fool, I had do 95% to 100%

to I'm sure, and I close that. You're probably a minute of me,

I'm going to listen to so, I'm so, so I'm so I'm more of time with my friends Tannan, you know,

it's a so, you know, I mean, I mean, I have done, you know, I had some I mean,

you know, I had three and 14 years, my son, he had 23, you know, we were in there, and

he'd be able to arrive, and then, he roched a bit, but in the time, he had been

there's too, he had been put the there's and I think it was probably it was panique,

you, I think it I'd say panicky because it's not that he wanted for us but it's not that they're there'd be no control, you know, your little friend has sued this pattern that also, I imagine that it would be the same thing, the people who are

the right to play with you to see you, it's, it's, the little freight of your friends who, you know, in fact, my, my, my, friend, it was like a, a pot of coll,

he would all the time to me see, so, so, so at a moment of I, you're obliged to be in an ambiance family like that, I can understand

that you can't that's a little, it's a structure, Yeah, but it's also because, you know, the night I'd go to my front of my family in cachette. So, like,

if I wanted to be stoole, it'd have I'd like to train, so, so, so, brief, he'd see if, had a good daughter. But, you know, after that, you,

he had done to the road of the way, you know, I, I think that I think, it'll be back to, but, you know, there's a lot of people that are

in, in, in these patterns like that, you'd have been other choice in my life, and I'd could continue to have a

life that's because, you know, I'm saying, it's a seem to be a lot of people who have saty in the middle of

but who's, but who's not your car, you're not here, because, you know, what I've seen much, in the case,

at least I, I'm not, I'm not , you're not , you're not , you're not down, you, don't,

it's the sense who, you know, young, 13, 14, 14, I, I, I was like the game of

the world all the time you know, but but I guess that I had and then

I'm, I'm I'm I'm writing a lot I'm I'm I'm

I'm every day I'm every day I'm so I'm so I'm so I'm

my pattern my reflections how and I and I'm I'm I'm

I'm I'm so I'm really totally naive you could

me have to have to have to have been to the board, to the whole of the

world, I'm not a little bit of but I'm in but I'm think that I think I was have a great

resilience, you know, I'd write, I'd say, okay, my life is, it's, it's,

it's, it's, it's, I'm a fact, my family, it's a ha'

not a lot of , and then, the land of the landmain, I'm, oh, but it's

both, the world, the I waso-chanted this morning, wow, it's so so that it's so

that I'm a little bit of personality, but I'm that I'm that I'm that I'm think I'm

with, that, this espose of resilience, that, to be able the beau, malgrary all the

the movey out, it was already there, and anched, and I think that that it

has brought all my life, to have this effort, of something of

to desire, me amelioring, to become a better person all the time. So, you, I've passed all sorts of of things.

We were, we were talking to my father. My father, there had one of his friends who had a dog, you know,

and there were plenty of young, the 17, 18, 19 years, he had some runn everywhere,

at two mountains, St. Mart, St. Osteach, name it, so. So, I, at 14

I was going to do the drug. And, you know, it's it, it's, it's, it's, it's, kind of logic, of the thing. And then,

I'm going to go there, but, you know, that's a person that, who had a man, you know, he'd have to get his

children, et cetera, and, you know, my father, he was really in confidence, you know, in fact, it was a

abuser of an abuser of an ex, so, so, so, I'm, I'm, I'm,

like, reveighed at 14 years with a penis in the face, and I'm like, oh, and you know,

what's the worst there there? It's that you're at a stage that, in the case,

I've lived like, but also that you do you okay, it's been degeo,

and as you know, but it's like the boss dealer, and then, you're like flatted a

little bit but you you're 14 you, you don't, you understand not, you realize

not, you know, the guy, there's 40, 45, but it's that, so, so I'm living now in a world like that, you know,

it's my reality on the day, so, but I'm, I'm not all the same, I had

all my friends, that's like, that's, that, they'd be there, I've seen many,

at a grand coup of point on the houd of Chor, and all all of his friends, we're,

we're, we're, we're going, I guess. You know, it's for that I'm always just the grand line, because you know,

it's just, you know, it's these things that I'm not, and you know, the way I'm, and it's the way I'm in the way, it's the way,

but this young female, that, of 14 years, but, you know, you develop not a relation with this man, it's just,

he abuse to a, you know, I mean, I'm not to get to enter in the, you know, I'd say,

two, three three episodes, two, three episodes, of too, we'll say, and, But I wanted to I wanted to say

Because, you know, I'm not because because I'm not because I'm not because if my father he'd have been he'd have tried, I'd

not get in prison so I'm so I'd say And I'm I know And the guy he's just He'd be jealous

He'd say He'd say He'd be that I'd do that I'm And then my Puck up to My part he's

Couch country You see, No, it's Bain, no, it's Bain't my Gull, we're going to dole, we're going to dole-series. But it was that.

It was the world in which I lived, and my father was totally fragilized and affablied in his consumption and in his health mental that he had put in total, who had confidence in these people like that, you know,

more than his parents. You'd say, if you'd think he's a manipulator, to drug, if it's a murder, it's a murder, but he's more,

but he crore plus he than her own his own, that's why, well, that's it's a fact that's

it's I'm going to I'm going to I'm trying to my father I'm trying to I'm in my little

little bit more but I'm just like I would just he's just he creves and it's written for

word for and I see I read these things after and I'm oh, it's so

it's done so I'm because I'm my parents in 13, 14, 14, because, in

plus I was really mal-enguelly but but in the it's like who's who's

who's he's there's there's a there's a time. If he had to

this reflection that for him saying my family will be not there

you're a young rebel that you see that and you do you do with

what you with all with the other who you're very with the green in plain

face at 14 and all that's that's you can to understand. And honestly,

I prefer a adolescent who has a question. I'd like more that's more it would be

simple if I would be able to me, I'm sure, but it's so. And, and, you, we're going

here to but, you, the suicide, in my family, it's really, they've made an

study university on my family, because that all the world all over

the life, so, so I've really of the grand chance genetic, let's on,

to have this desire, to part, you know, and again once, I say, I say,

I'm always I'm always, you know, but the life has made all the fog and the chien

that would just be fashed and say, hey, it's not in, what you did,

what you did a swan, to say, ah, and the land of the last to say, I've heard

a, I've heard a news, it's a It's a force, and, you know, I was to say, it's not in the gene, you know, with something, you know, we're trying, you can take the eight

children of their own family, and the eight will have their, there's a lot that's going to be more, but, you know, it's not in your DNA, you know, certain nests with, why there are who

have some of, because there are that people who live not a lot, who have some people who live, that's, that you've been, I've had, but I, I'm,

but I, you know, but I, you're, you're, you're, you're, you, you're, you, what, you, what, you, you're just, I think I'd

be in a focet, you know, you know what I'm, so so, so much human. Yeah, but I think that there's still, you know, that's sure, that's sure. Listen, I'm I mean concretely

of a moment, you know, before my father deced, where what's that, you know, I say, I, you know, I'll roll a vehicle on the piece cyclable, and I'm really

said, I'm going to me batire, my proper philosophy of life, and, I, I choose that today, I think the world is beau.

And I'd say, that's probably that, this decision, that, pries with me at that that that's

that you've put to the rest of my life, and, you know, you'd say, you'd say, I think that one of my

more great force is to look to anybody, and to be able to see the person that

in the back of all the crass, you know, it's really that, so, so,

but, but, one, it's very beautiful to have these reflections and to be to get this today.

No, no, it's so. And I think that's, I think we're too, in a generation of judgment,

and it's, you know, I mean, it's the reason number one of this podcast that at the base,

if, just, I wanted the judgments and the stigma, it's so, the base, it's,

it's all right, it's, it's all right, it's all to touch a plent, but at the base, it was that, you know, and I'm

the first one, that's a lot of course of my change, I'm changing, you know, to find a job, you know, to find a job, but we're

that, what, what, what's, the fun of the life, and what I think, we've been , we know,

that, but, that, me, where I've started to at the end,

30, in the, early, you, you, you've been so, so,

so, it was, you know, you, you, I'm already young. It's when? At what age?

The famous event. The famous event. Because, there, you could the affair of the epa, and you said, you know, we're saying, we're saying, we're, we're going to pray

three hours just an event where your father had started at carabine and he's si, and he's tilted for after that to be to be to pleurray

in an excuseing. I think that you could, we'd comprehend the personage. It's just that there's a an event

that's an very very, that's very, I'm I'm going to

say, the day I'm I'm in my I'm at what age? 14

14 years. 14 14 We're on 8 July okay, yeah,

yeah, the we're not a lot of the year today today, I'm

like, I'm like, we're we're turning the 8 July 20,

226, okay, we're It's not planned. It's a... It's a lot of. It's a lot of. But I'm thinking

on coming and I'm coming. I said, oh, my Godon. But, but, you know, it's that, in the phone, the day of the event, I'm going to go

my family, I'm going to see my my family, I'm going to chill, I'll come the morning, I'm up, my mother

has, uh, my hair, and all my gannet, you know, and then, she, and then,

in the fact, it's not complicated, my father, he has I'd have tried to irasches the eyes during the

night. And then I'm in view, because I'm not there. You know, I've not put put

to protect my mother. You know, I've been heard of that's so, so,

so, so, so, so, so, so, I'm not, I'm not,

I'm, I'm not, I'm gonna, I'm gonna get the the same Mr. Tanto.

Oh, Mr. Grin'en-in- -office? Exactly, so, so, so,

so, I'm, I'm going and all that. And then, in fact, I'm

the night, I'm in my head, okay, that's suffice.

I'm 14 years, but it's not right that I have, I'm going to have

a fear of and the realization to me say, I'm more

to die, so that can't that can't that, I'm I'm

in front, I'm there, and there it's it's, I'm more capable,

you have to that's a minute. So, so I'm going to my father, who is not

even more too advanced in his consumption. Just, excuse me, I'm going, you're 14,

your brother is there also that's 12? That's your at the house? My

mother is always at the house, if there's not over work. Perfect.

So, so, so, so, so, so, so, I said, you, the respect

to our respect to to us, it's a super important. So, you there's not people who have been

to be able to people, everyone, and it was respectful of the parents and all. I imagine

that he when he had been in there. Exactly. But, I,

I pete my coche, I, I'm trying to do the, of all the possible,

and I'm, you've seen, what you have you done, you know, to make, is that you

do you do you deuce? And, I, I, I, Fashe.

Faf, brief, we close the night like that my father he pleur, he pleur,

he's in a morso, and I'm just like, limit, content, because I've

passed all my points, and I have made, and I'm like, I feel that he

realize, because we can't be so, so, so, so, so,

so, we're so the land the night I'm my last, my father, my

my son, my he is we have not air climatized. I don't know if it existed in that time that, you know, I'm a cult. Well, I confirmed

that yes, it's a little bit to get into the same. But, but it's like a sofa. It's like a grand cell

familial, with a bar, a sofa, with it's some of the bibliotheque, etc., and he is

cuched, the bra in crore. And I'm there I'm a feeling, but, you know, a feeling,

I mean, there, there, there, there's to be going to be going to be something, there's something that that's a feeling,

an intuition that's a feeling, a intuition, that when I arrive, she's the famous man, I'm going to, I'm saying, and I said,

I said, there, he will be going to be something, I, I understand that's not logic, but you've got to come to get to

the work, you know, you know, he's, you know, his family is a little tanned, the drama human,

who entombed my father, and then, and then, and then, you know, you're not to make a lot of that, you know,

so he said, well, I'm not going to go to do you know, my family blah, blah, blah, blah. So,

that, I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm trying to, but, you know, but, you know, I don't know to take

someone, and to let's get to be going to be something, yeah, no, no,

no, there's a a little bit of your part, normally, more, it's a little

, And, et cetera, and I call the policiers, hey, I'm at the boot, you know, when you're called the police,

you know, when you're the type of life that's because you're run to do, I, like, I'm doing there, there,

he's going to get to get to something, it's certain. And then the police say, yeah, but you know,

that's a matter, it's a point, but how you want, that's sort of the house to get to the

question, to my father? I'm going to where? Because my My mother, she could not just to start like that

to get to make it it's justify it's so that at the end I'm in my own

I'm in the same all the night, I'm going to be able to be in then in

night it's it's all all it's my my

my part, he's it's it's it's it's he rush

his life and then he's sure I'm to do you have to make a lot, and there's what

that's not, and it's it's a cry in up, and all I'm, I'm, I'm,

I'm, I'm, I'm on and I'm, he's in the thing, he's, he's, he says, okay,

you know, he's got to come to find my mother, you know, and come they're trying, because there have a

fear of their to make a , you know, and, listen, my uncle, in the , in the font

couldn't, because my uncle, he had too to bring the volent, you know, so,

So, my... But your father had kind of... You know, we're saying, when he was in I'm... You know, I said, but, you know,

it said when he's in psychose, it's doing to do with, he said, he'd in alarm, he's in pleur. I'm sorry,

I'm not, I'd say that. And we'd say, he said, he'd say, he'd say, there, there was...

Oh, yeah, I'm the impression, I'd have been the impression, I'm could be able to after, you know, that, you know, like,

there's like, a, an... An elan, an illuminate, I don't know how to it's a moment of lucidity,

it's what I'm sure I'm going to I'm going to make like exactly, exactly and then, then I'm like, okay

I'm going to call the police I can't go to you know, the kids are probably in danger and etc., and

my friend is really instable, so he appell the police so that the police

call the policeiers call the and then then it's my mom that's my mom

he is at coat and he can't all what the people what the So, so, so, so,

so, so, so, is that you're in security, are you can't you play,

blah, blah, you know, so, so, so, so, so, my father,

rackroche the line, and there, it's a part in vry, you know, you know,

the sense, where, there, put, the field everywhere in the escaliers,

because that, in the fact, he wants to, so, so,

he would be surprised, We're surprised. We're me and my my mother in the sub-soul. Guard my frere with

him on up. In the fond, make the chien to get the chien

can get jappe if they come to the police and then we're in the time,

he's going to go to, my brother ramped for change, The music. And then my frere,

he's to get to get on the plan to and he come to he's

he's he's a carabene, literally, we're in a prison detain, we're in

prison of and it's and it there's a there's a there's a thing, you know,

he wanted not to go in prison if he repugned a so he repugned

to get to be and he he'd person be but the police has had been

an element of the that's that's that's that's psychologist, but it's had to do it

have to be to be in prison. I don't know to do you. Exactly. It was impossible for him to do you do.

It was a honor for him to do you do that's an impossible. But the peace is that he had not

too long. No. Before this call that of the police I think it has changed today because

I think there's an adult of 14 a 14-year that's called the police today like my wife

my mother in the night, he will see something, I'm really I'm afraid. I think

don't know if you're going to do you think that's I think that I'm a little on a few of course today. But he'd

to get an minute you go, it's a minimum to get a little bit of a yeah, but if the person doesn't have

not plenty? Yeah, but we're saying if, you have been pretty that you know there'd be able to the monsieur

there's not there not top at the same I'm not I'm not, I'm I'm not, you're not

but, you're came when we're coming often to have never seen my father, it's not like

if they're going to be in your own to see you, you're still a call to make sure, you're

like, but I'm just like, no, I'm in a mann I'm in the case, I'm not,

I'm not, I'm just that I'm just that I have few douty, you know, legally,

there's a there's few of things that can't do you for, in the phone, sort of

sort of a family, and the situation like that, if the woman after,

So it's, it's these situations complicated, and I think that's the it's more before you know, I think

with the quantity of the time there's many there's many things. I've got a I've seen who's a

very often in the parliament and very with the people because they're trying to try to try to to change the

things. Yeah, so, so I'm, and I'm, because I'm in the course, I'm trying to

but I'm trying to be associy with her for, in the meeting in a I would have gone with that,

but for, just, for making the things, and all right, we're going to so, so, we're in a climate of,

of terror, you're other? We have my father, who is saty with a carabine, cached by the sofa,

who surveil the two entrue, my little frere, who goes to get to do the changement

to get with my pair, who is completely disjointed. I'm in the sous-selle with my

that my mother who panicked that's not capable to be barry the bra, she's she's in the whole people in their own to get a lot of

she's not, she's that, she, she, she, she, she, she, she, my father, you know, down to chadierre,

if you have to run, you, see, we're there, and, then, I'm, then I'm, and I'm in round, and I, you know,

14-year, I'm impulsive, and I've been to say, the day, that I, I'm no fear to worry,

I'm not, I'm not, I, just the, so, So I decide that I'm on. And that I pass at the travel

the 20,000 fill of the car in the escalier. So, naturally, my father my aunt my time so I'm

going to be in a carabine in the gorge, you know, and then it becomes emotive. But, but it's my

little friend who has two years who's interposed. It's the time to take a gorge of a little of the old.

There's not to try with that, to take a time. And, you know, this episode that

it's not, you know, I'm it's not, but not because my father,

it's going to pass but because you know, I'm saying, but I love my brother.

So, brief, this night, my, my, my, my,

my friend, my, my my friend, my he had retired,

he, he said, even I I think it was who who was in front of him to be in front of him. You know,

it's just the cord, they, you know, it's a human to abat, that's not

his thing. And, you know, I want to to say, that, you know,

my brother, at over all these years, he was he was a

fear, you know, he was a lot, and I was, I was always the

he'd My father, he'd dormed with a gun on top of his arraillard, at all the case where I would pass around the night, because he had a fear that I'd try to let's see. It's so that it's so, you know, so. So, let's don't know if I'd not have a bit of pee-pil the night, you know.

But, you know, this time, you know, my little frere, who had really terrible, he was positioned between my father, the fusie, and me, you know, and it's he, he's been,

Hey, it's Priscilla, go, there's a revelle, you know. And you know, it's like, it's like made end at the episode because, like, my, my father has

seized, and then he said, but what's it what I'm trying to do you know, what's the kind of, like,

every event, but it's just that it has pushed more way. Yeah, so, so,

that, he has made on my mother, and then, he said, okay,

the gang, you'll get at about 5 o'clock of the morning. We've got passed the night to control.

Is the police is present? Is there you a question? There's a minute?

Well, at the point of my father had rackroached, the police are coming

who they were barricaded so, so there, perimette of security, they've made evacue

people, you know, we're all, when we're out of there, there there had a troupement

there, there, there was there, but you're going to be able to be in security

and clack the line afirm, you're okay, Now, it's an light, that's

that's a lot, exactly, so, so, I'm I'm still, I'm still, my father

we're doing, my father and he's in the door, he's in the card of , he's

, I'm sorry to all the all of all the and I'm so, and I'm so much

in color, that, I can't even be he'd like, no, no,

I'm just like, oh, yeah, you're sorry, you, In the corner, I'm just like, I want to be to eat, you know, it's not a part. So, we're going to see.

We're going to descend, we march, there's, you know, there's person who comes to see. We march, I'd say, a coin of a minute, before an arrival to police, there. Okay, they're a perimeter,

but he's a long, the perimeter. He's not a long, the perimite, okay, so, so, we're, so, we're, and I'm sure, that the policeier me regard, and me say, is you, you're you

who who he had called? And then, I mean, I've got been polied. Like, I've been rinsed, but rinsed, you know, because it's like, I've got to tell you to tell you to it, you know. So, brief, we've got to be able to post of police. Well, I mean, we've said, we're past, it's almost the day that, and, you know,

after that, I've read, at gosh, at right, in the journal, because, you know, we're not, since we're, we're not, we're, we're, we're, you know, but, you know, But, you know, I've seen in the journals who have tried to contacte, who have tried to do talk, et cetera,

but, you know, finally, my father, the prison, it was not possible, so he's to try a ball, you know,

and it's finished there. So, so. The option Catana, let's don't, let's go,

it's more to, you know, in the same time, you know, you know, by all the people with who I met with who

I, you know, there's a, there's a person has made that same and that's It's been And that's

And that the person has stayed living, but with a true in the middle of the face.

So I'm quite content that my father that's not that's not just to add just to add

more of drama, but it's so. A, one of a lot of he's not capable

to live with what he comes to live. But no, because my

person. For the one. One one, but that. But,

yeah, he's too to be so your problem or what he did you have made,

but you can't not the kind of people who are I think, I think it's not that's not that that's not my father,

you know, my person, you know, he's a thing that's a good, and what he was he said, what,

it was a question, and, you know, there was a there was kind of there were there, you know, there are the

people who there's not, you know, you know, to give you to, to understand, to understand

what, met, who are not so, my father, he had these values, they knew, he knew, but he had not to control

on what's what he'd not to get to get his consumption, not his mental, you know, so.

A situation like that, we don't know the page in two days? No. You know,

you're going, it's what, your mother, your, your friend, I mean, we're going

in the house where all, it's, You know, you seem, what I've seen, what I've heard, a mother who's not, to take the reigning,

and, you know, to be able to get a job, or, you know, it's a total liberty, it's a transform, you know, you know, you've, you know, what? Your family , it's what?

Well, you know, , we're pretty, we're pretty, in charge a little by the family, to, you know, when I said, when the family

had, you said, at a time, that, exactly, so, you, at the first, we're at my name, we're a little baruette

at the left, and right, we're at a little to be able to live at a time at a certain time, that we know that,

we know that in a milieu in a little relatively easy, we don't have not any super good aptitude, let's see.

But, but it's that, for a certain time, it's that, but, you know,

rest that when you're when you're doing for Post-Canada, you're kind of my own my father, he has

attended before to to do the murder because it had to make a change

of the name. I don't if you do you see that a moment of a moment of

a year, they've started to not consider the name the non-the-

parenthes on the batiteer. The two- name. Exactly. But,

I'm my father had always functioned with the name under-

parenthase and so these studies, his card of surveillance, all,

everything, it's made to that's a new now, and there now it's a lot of

that they're not a fact, if ever, in the phone, the name didn't

not the name, so, so he had attended to do his changement

of the and he attended his papiers, and it had a

one for, in the final, finish these projects, but I'll

But, you know, it's like the proof that there's, you know, there's there's a big episode of lucidity, you know, I mean, you know, it's a person lucid, but who's, you know, that's a psychosis in repetition, linked to the trauma and at the consumption. Because, you know, I mean, is it, you know, if there, these events like this, it's not a day to try to try to have to do with you or tell.

No, but, you know, I'd say, it would be a lot of, you could probably, or two two weeks, something like that, it's a quite quite it's quite,

but in the same time I said, my father had had a anti-depresser and I see not if you're in

these years, there's been a great recourse collective by a anti-depresser in the fond,

who seemed it would it augmentate the risks of suicide? And my father, in fact,

it's that's that anti-depresser that he had there was a there's a there's a

It's no, it's how he has tried, to see to get, to get, the poor that would be not top.

It wasn't not. And he, he said, not the other other side, exactly, exactly.

And the, you know, other, you know, the, the young female of 14, who is rebel,

who is here, who is that, you know, you say, you're not to say, you're, you're,

you're bar-dacced, you're, you're in Christ, like your father, but there, he's kind of to be in

the life, yeah. Yeah. For you, you live like a sullagement? You,

you know, you know, it's a pain also, I imagine. You know, it's, you know,

it's, you know, to be the other on your emotions? I'd say, I don't, I think not

that I've had been, I think that, yes, I've been put, but I think

that after I'm, like, I'm, like, I'm, like, , you know,

I've been on me to take care of my family, you know, of my mother and my mother and

my friend at the time. And then, you know, we're going to get, you know, we're going to

get to my grandma who had a little little more hazee. The assurances are arrived, we've

had been a lot of money, a lot of money that's relatively very

very bit, but, you know, a new new new milieu, etc.

I, I'm return to the school. You know, I've been said, we said I'd say, I lost the first month of second

to work in two, I passed my examines at the end of the year, and I had all right to get to get to get,

I've even not made a year, you know, the life has repried his course, we have had

got our different of our difficulties, you know, but, but, grossomodo, I think,

you know, I've used to get to my color, because it's been beau, but you don't

not to be fashed because all of a coup, the cause of your color has disappeared, it's an emotion that's a question that's

I'm trying to get a lot of that I'm in that's a lot of, and I was really risked to do have some when I'm

far sure, on the I'm not to control, that's, with the that's what's that's what you're

doing, so I've tried there's during there for years and and I'm and I'm

I'm saying, I can say, I can say that I'm control, but it's been long, it's been a long chame, a minute. So if if someone is

someone to cut in chard and you're going to show, is it's too dangerous? No, I'm just in the amor. I'm like, perhaps he

has not seen, perhaps, you know, it's not me that's been clacksone. I'm just in the denie,

finally, you know, no, no, it's so, but I'm just to do the tools for to act to actually

for put in this color that, you know, but long time I've dought, you know, I mean,

I said, I, I'm going to be in the folly like my my father, you know, you know, you know, you're 14, you're going to return at the school,

you know, to start in a life, but you have you become a young woman, you know, you know, how, your life evolved,

how, you know, your vision of the home evolved with one of what you have lived with an old with having a

father like that, you're, you a few not, you not the contrary, I'd say that I think there's no nothing that's in fact,

with the time, you know, I've already, at 19-year, I've had already a child. Okay. So, I've got four. And then, no, more four. Okay, so I've got to say, too. I'm not, again, I'm sure.

I'm not, no, no, no, that's, okay. No, no, no, that's, okay. Well, I'm, I'm I'm going to I'm sure that in my life, I'm sure that's because we're

talking about, let's on, my children, but in the time, I'm two who have got a bacteria resistant to antibiotics

and they've rased to die, I've got one who's got in the coma that he'd not supposed to be able,

and at all the foe, he'd he's all without sequels. I'd you'd say,

you know, I think, I think, I think, I think, We can choose, when I was saying, the bonner, it's a choice. But in my perception of the world,

I've been with a snout, I'm long like the bra, but in this, in all this, all the time, I'm all sorts of, my children's on sort. And today,

I'm like a troupeau of an infant, super-rereure, I'm grandmama, today, it's even not the bonse. You know, I've had some

an infant fantastic. My life is beautiful, it's I mean, I do you know, I do, I,

I'm in the life. But, it's what I mean, because you had, you had

all the cards in hand for to descend at the bottom, you know, you're not

down to and you me said, well, but you know, I mean, you know,

I've had there's, you know, it's, it's, it's, it's, it's,

it's, it's, it's, I don't, you know, and I'm not, but, you know, in the sense that the life you're pushing to say, hey, okay, I'm going to come in a bottle, because it will be much easier my

life, if I'm not too, and I'm disconnect, you know, but you've made, like you said, these choices, because, you know, a minute, people say, yeah, the alcoholist, it's true that's a disease, but, you know, if all the disease, so-in, in the sense that, you know,

if you do, you do you feel the choice, to get the choice, you know, you know, you're doing, you know, And you've made the choice to, I've got to me back, and to see, I'm going to see, I think

that's what you're going to be able to to say, but I'm going to say, I'm going to be able to I'm going to I mean,

I'd say, I said, I said, I said, I said, I said, I'm going to say, I was,

I was like, I had this capacity there also to me merveighy and over all the little things

of the planet, you know, so, so, that, I think, that it's a a kiddo of the

life. You know, I'm not developed with it's coming, it's an thing, I'm

can't be able to it's a person 100% authentic who, a little

too, a little too, sometimes, we're doing, but, you know, that I had to be

at the time, so, so, so, I'd have been a

because I had put a what's all that's that was also, to be able

to be to be the opportunity to do of other choice. So, so I'm

I'm going to my work in my time in the whole of the way, let's say, but I'm going

to do you but there's any of the day, there's a there's a more of choice than I

no, no that's it's not a question, it's just in the sense that you know,

you said, you know, there's a there's there's a there's a there's a people who it's

I do I do so much I've been not have you've been in the case that I've got to see, I mean,

I'm going to not the time but you say, you know, I was rebeye, I had a grandin in the face and we're

not going to get to be going to be more than that more than you and to be able to people, you know, I mean, it's

sure that when you, you start with more of the strikes that are more violent, you but it's

that, but 95% of people that I received because they're made, they've made some of

they're doing, So for that, for me, it's important that the people that people are, that it's important, that it's not that's important, that's to be inspired by these people who'd say, compared to her, I've been to have been a lot more, and I think I'm able to fonse me also and to find my choice. For me, I'm important.

Now, I'll make a pause on you because I want to talk about what you do with what you do with what you've ever-liqued, that's what I've ever-interested, but I want to to take also the newvelle of the little

guy who had 12 years if you're at a laise and if he is at least we'll nomor not whatever

but just just to know how he also he also he was used that he was a and you

did also he was he was more young and he was perhaps more fonseer

than you well I'm you know I'd you'd I've we've

every every our life a my and my and my

my and my brother, we seem of love, but, you, we see, we know, we know

one's one of two, three years, you know, and it's correct, you know, like,

we've got our cellul familial, and you also, you also, you've had had been,

super tanant, they're wonderful, but they're there, and they're a lot of

their tent. Oh, my God. But my my God. But my friend also, I think I think that he had in it

more young also, you know, but you know, I mean, I thought, I thought, I thought that, I thought that,

I thought that, I think, let's go, let's see, five, six years, I'd have regarded, I'd have said,

hey, oh, we're , we're , we're going to talk to that, we're doing to see,

we're doing, and, you know, in the last years, and I'll not, in the detail,

because it's, the, the, personal, you know, of my brother, but, you know, he has encountered different of the few, and there's things that are

remounted, and, you know, there's been there's been in time, you, but it's a batten, and, you know, that's, it's a lot

much more, but you know, I mean, you know, what I've been to, you, after, we're returned to the house, you know,

we're returning in this house, I'm, I'm not there, I'm not, you know, we see, when we see, when we see a drama like that,

we know that, we know that, you know, he ramace the car but he'd notews the rest. So, you know, when they're when they're in the house,

my mother and my friend, well, my brother, he has made the feet at the point of a old old

a moment of an end, you say, boyon, you, so it's, so it's, it's mark,

and, and, the whole of years, he had used to do this to have had to do you,

he's really fantastic, there's not developed these on the issues of consumption. He is not to cross. He's not allowed to cross. He's not allowed to do that

I'm really proud of the person who is there's been, but he has used these difficulties because there are some people that are remounted, between time, and they've been not been easy to live, so. So, I'm not going to go not, because it said it was 14 years,

you'd say, it was 14 years, but justly, your mother, this woman, that was a little effaced in the omens of your father, in the power of your father, who He was not so present, is there a a major relation at this moment that that's developed

between the two? Is it becomes more a mother? Or is it affecting to her also, you know, I mean, she's, it's a dream that she, she? She's on sort?

How do you know, I want to tell that after the moment when my father, he is decided, me and my friend on she's elevated all. Okay. Because, in the fact,

my mother a friend of my father, who had been... A bad friend? Who has been accused of violence, who he has entered five years in prison. So, all these moments, in the phone, she went to be in prison. And, I mean, I mean,

when he was out of course, there's been, it had to be made that we face some choice. We could be, we could be in contact, in fact, with my mother because, in the front,

she did, she said, So, at the end, today, it's because, you know, when you come from a milieu a little to croche, in fact, it's a lot of time, before you can't tell, okay, all right, all right, because the people around

you're clabuss. You know, I would say, the mird, it would be, but it's clabuss, you know. So, in the phone, my mother, she, in these choice of life, is to go with a person who was really

who was not a good person who is still not even not a good person and she has made the choice to rest with

this person there on the way of to be with his children and for us it was a

non-categor we could not be associated to that for protect our life our and our

and our and our and our and our exactly so I you'd say I'd say

that's She's four years today, my mother, she's, my mother, she's, my mother,

and I'm going to , and I'm not over not, you know, I'm not much farce, I'm not more much more,

I'm actually, I'm really in the serenity face at this story, because I think that in the life,

we've got a bit of our crore, and we're trying to do you know, and then sometimes this

new, there's a bit, it's not quite, it's not, and it's made, and I'm,

I mean, I mean, I mean, I'm be the whole the bonner of the world, you know, but I know

that at a moment a moment of a moment of a moment of a moment of course, but I'm trying to be there. But my

brother has made the same choice. I'll ask the question because it's, and I'm with a

fierty, this podcast that has approached a lot of people who got to get to

for different reasons, you know, and is if she she, if she she, if she,

she's She's still with this statement. She's still, if she preant, she has been, she's a decision of, is it too too far? Is it's a way of non-retour? Is it a way

an open to do? If she has, she read it so, if she'll, she'll listen, and that she's, is it? Well, I'd tell her that's a

good question. I think that, I don't know. I don't don't, sincerely, because in fact, it's like

if we were had become disinconnue. You know, my mother, on the day, I'm a man,

you know, I'm able to my own own, I've been built my life all so on

when you're a parent who's usually your parents will be your can't

be there when you go have there when you have been there I'm

all over I'm I'm I'm I'm I'm backed a family

I'm I'm I'm I'm exceptional. You know, he rests, you know,

a little of family, very poor to do you know, because they're pretty all dead,

you know, the family to my mother, reving a little, because they are partied

with my mother when we're on the time, so, you know, they're

coming a little, we're, we're in some, we're, but, you know,

it's, it's, it's, because I'm built all, you know, so I

would say that the sole reason for I'd say yes, I'd say just because I'm not

want to be that my mother, she's that's in a great situation of poverty

a little crotch, in a emmy crasseo, you know, I'm not of that

for my mother, because I repeat, it's a good person who makes a bad

choice. Moved choice. And, in a lot, choice is a word that we've used a word that's you know, you know, you're just saying, you know,

I'm just over, and justly, and in the life, you know, to find some there's ways, and then make some people

to go to go to to have to get someone who's, to make a marriage in their life,

that's not that's that's not, that's not, that's, that's sure that I'm to turn to

always in your country where it's that's important, to make the choice, it's important, It's extremely

hard to do with doing to do do it, yeah, but I'm going to want to get to be in your own

but you know, it's because you know, it's just things that's that's not, I'm going to ask you,

I'm going to let's go, I'm going to have seen, I've got to have seen that, and you said,

I've got to nine years, you've said, I've been to have seen to see, because the men in your

life, it's not not, I'm don't, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not,

I'm, I want more more to have been to see, I'm a woman a friend of, so when it's a

work not, it's not my practice, my priority, you know, I'm in the fact, my father

wonderful, okay, and there's his proper defy, he also, and in the first years

years, we've been together, you know, and then, and then, the life we've

separated, and I had to get to that, in the front, like a grand

Fife. So, brief, with all the difficulties, so, I'm you know, I'd say,

I'd say, the children have a real relation with Papa, and me also, me, and he,

we're like a kind of relationship, a friend, sister, so, so, so,

I'm really, I'm really chanceoose, he's there, at all the New Year, at all the anniversers,

and there, and there's there, there's never, so, so, so, so,

so, so, certain of great decisions and the grand responsibilities, I've had in certain moments

of his life where he had been to get to get to get some of the time where I

would say, I'd would say, I'm going, when I look, when I'm people who have

these families proches, the parents who are there for them to be in the life, etc.,

you know, I'm not in the end in the idea of the end, to be to be

You know, you know at what point you're choyed and at how point it's precious you know,

have you have been your time, I'm talking about the sense that you're all the same that you're all the time,

okay, there's a there's a there's a little bit that your thing, you know, it's a bit of

a problem, the parents are there, I'm there, there's a there's a little bit of there,

there's a there, and it was not there for the calene and and I'm to be able to be

to be four-en-a-half-a-old, you know, you're not a grandparent who is there, you're not the grandparent who's not the conjoint who's you're afraid to come in this pattern that, it's the mechanic that roll, of, yeah, yeah, good night, he's not the time, and he bov, and, you know, I'd say, it's got gollie, like, the man monoparental,

all right, but, I'd say, I think, I've had been telling my father, that this bout, that, pre the bar, a little, but I think I'm just, you know, I think I'm a little, you know, I'm a little, you know, like six years, the four, like, So, so it's a good. You know,

You're talking about, six, six. You know, from the, you're, you know, they're six years. Exactly. Exactly. So, so,

I know who's like 18 years, and my previous year, it's a time. You know, to have changed, the course long time,

yeah, and then you had been in many new, we're but, you know, but, you know, it's like, fantastic, you,

you know, I think, I'm very very fair to me, you , in vland to I'm saying, that I'm that I'm

respectue, who are brilliant, you know, I mean, who are these values, you know, I've got to be afraid of these chappen I'm afraid that

I'm in a adolescence, you know, and then the father also, he's a tonneux, so, so, so,

that we're, to a point of view genetic, they have kind of many, the, brief, but,

but it's so, you know, it's, it's, it's, it's, we've been, we've been,

the problem, you know, the malady has been really, really, had been well, you know, you

had said, you didn't know, you didn't know, because it's a person to their own, you know, the problem, the malady,

it's a lot, but, you know, in the factory resistant to the antibiotics, my little guy, he had eight years, I,

got, you know, with the head at the school, because he's in his butt, the landmine, he's plugged

to all, and he's, probably, you know, and we're probably , we're probably, it's not, so, he's got, from,

it's past proche, if it's, six months later, it's a her sister who's a scourcheo on a

booted on a bit of unoberation, we're getting to function and amyit so that, during the time I'm the rest

of the same I'm trying to do that's my back at the university and I'm promen to St. Justin and University of

New York, you know, so we've got been a many years? This medicine that's still still today, they're still

being like a virus that's been an virus that has been an virus that it's in fact it's

that we're on our on our poor. It's just that my children have really really

reacties like a little, not like a question, but the bacteria has found a

point of entry, and it's, it's, it's a same principle, you know, so,

so, so, the, the, the, the, you know, the

I mean, I'm not the people, that's people completely indem,

you don't have been just in the white with a little little little

little little different episodes, different clabousage at the right, but, you know,

I think, I think the people, when they know that they're always there, and that's solid,

and who's in line, I think, I think it's and today, my children, that's, it's so, they're so,

they're so, they're very to do you, yeah, really. Fired of your family? Teller to,

too. Good. Telling. It's important. You're returning at the university, you'd like to do it what in life,

and you do you When you're talking, it arrives, it's a 1 hour,000. I can't talk long. It's correct. I like that. I'm an anthropologist of formation. Okay. Look, I'm a second hour of two and a minute.

Anthropologe, okay? It's what, it's a great... It's a... It's a lot of... No, no, I'm more... You know, what, you know, an anthropologist? Yeah, but... Anthropolog, in fact, it's the...

It's, you know, but I'm... It's the part, etnology, so, the etude cultural... Why is we do we do that as... like that as human, and why... Finally, I wanted how it's gonna how it's actually,

I'm a bit of my objective. But, now, I'm just saying, I'm going to say, I'm going to go in psychos, I've had a... The ball, it was... The ball...

I... I've had a certificate in North. I'm... I'm going, you're... And, you know, I'm going to have never been

anthropologist in the life, you, I've never practiced the METI, but I've made many of other things, Soledartate International, I'm going

And in the fond, it's it's been many other that I'm in politics political political

federal. Okay. Oh, that's that's that's that's not exactly.

You know, I'm not, you know, I've been during some years, with some people,

with Denny Trudel at the Chame of the Chambuels, in the public,

and the documents, there, I'm, there, I'm, underian, the condition

feminine, in- and in- , so, person handicapped also.

So it's that. So, plenty of dossiers that's super interesting. I like, I'm going to be very well, I'm very well. Oh,

yeah? Okay, well, yeah, but that, you want, you know, the federal or the province?

Listen, that's he will have to have a face of me? In the same time, I'm not the board of

government. I'm just in the position well, it's so, it's like, it's like, it's like,

it's interesting, to have all the people who have seen to have the person who that person who that's

in the parenthode Exactly. But, well, I'll pass the message. But it's that. And, at a few years, five years, now, with, in the Farnatio, who is my ancient conjoin, Matthew, who is

a Traveyor-de-Rue, and I've been until 17 at St. Osteage, we've started the Café parenthesis. And the objective, that's an organist commonator, that we've done during the pandemic,

because we'd, you know, in the form, Matthew, in the card of his work, he'd not to rejoin the people, The persons were all They could not go to

they could not go to it's a winter that could not not get to it's really complex

we're over this organism that and today the organism has five and we we're

we're supporting everyone who's feeling to have the support of the people in

situations of situations of detenance dependents who live with these

issues of health mental and and it's like a

So it's really like a little cafe bistro. We have a stage, we have some musicians who come to do everywhere, at the Quebec, gratuitly, benevolently, for the people, I mean, these infirmiers on place, we've even even already had a

piscuit on place that came, name it, we have, you know, I mean, to say, plenty of services that are offered there, and in the front, we're seeing, you know, the people, you know, the people, a little bit like my father, who live, all sorts of,

all sorts of of the with all sorts of defies, and it's a milieu of high-seye-of-to-tolerance. I mean, you know, the people who are refused to partoo, we, we're doing, you know, and we're doing it, you know, and so it's a lot of my great force, is to see, to be able to see, but we're in front of the people. It's like to treat them as a human. So we're not of clients. We're talking to people. No, but it's a great layer, that.

To treat a human in human, someone who's an habit of not to be able to be able to be tassed, who is the habit of being treated to fool, who is the ability to look in the eyes and ask how it's what, it's

what his name? Yes, and I'm going to tell you, that, you know, the people at the people who have, you know, there's people who It's a few years, we've seen, you know, we're doing, but we're trying to know the persons in the rear. And the people, it's not complicated. They have a need to imitate.

They have been recognized for what they are, and to feel that their history has a value, you know. And that, it's the base, it's the debut of a possibility to be able to go out and grander, you know. If you... If you... If you...

If you'd have not this background, that, you think that it's that you've been to make to that? Good question. To want, you know, to be probably

the anthropology, to want to learn the human, because you've not understood a human that's been long time, you know,

and today, to want to have the people who, like your father, had been to have been

a time, too young, to be trying to be able, you couldn't, you'd have been to be out of the air,

and soot they'd or were you're going to be with her. The woman that you are today would live this situation with your father, you'd not, you'd have not, you'd be the same utilites, you could, you'd, you'd be able, my life would, if he'd be there, you'd,

it'd be more, you know, I'd, I'd be there to be, to everyone around, you know, what, is, that, it's not, you know, no, no, no, no, but, you know, I'm the impression that that, you're able to look at someone in your cafe, that's opened, and you're able to look like a human, like a human?

Well, really, and, you know, I want to tell you, I think that I think I had kind of something in a entire of me, you know,

the sense where, you know, I'm like, and I'm really, and I'm totally, you know, I'm too, you know, I'm, you know, I'm, you know,

but I think that it's made also, it, has the plus to develop my desire of justice, you see, this volet there

to say, I want that the chance be equitable, I want that we're don't the

chance to everyone, and I want that's we're not that's a question, you know,

I know what to be ostracized, you know, to be seen like a person, that we're not in their,

you know, and it's, and it's, it's a detrues the people, so that we're trying to

do, in the fact, the people, it's that the people, it's not probably, we're not,

we're not a problem, we, you do you're associated to do you associate, to do you associate, to do you,

people, you know, I'd say, because, you know, I'm concretely, I'm, I'm at center, I feel the for X reason, that I'm a problem of consumption, that I'm badded to the day, that I'm in the whatever, you know, and I'm, you know, I'm doing, I'm doing, I, end up, hey, I'm, and then, and... Yeah, really, and we'll do you have to have a coffee. And you're a bit of a bit.

And then, after that, we'll have, what, what, what, what, what, what, you know, you know, you know, you're, you know, after that, you're, Well, the need of base, the embergement, we have some we're in

there's a parteneer everywhere so that's so, you know, so, it's, there's in

abergement of urgence, all the centers of dependents, etc. So, you, we, we,

we're like a little all over all the resources, but the people, we're coming to

people who come up who cross new and that need to be able to be able to affidia, and in

the phone, we're really to call to get to get to get to do you. So, so, so it's a but the objective is that you

don't know to to get to point in any part when it when it's not to get to get to get to someone, even if it's not

to jose, let's not, we can't not try to let's just evacuate, to talk to someone, you

get, you, I'm to get, you, I'm trying, I'm, I repeat, because that,

but, but, But yes, but yeah, really. So, so, you know, you're, you're going to and you're entomered to people who are all over the sorts of affairs and who are just the desire, finally, to be able to support also. We're just with these payers-a-ed-dad,

the people who have all right, they're all right, I see, I've got, I've seen, I've been doing, I've done, so, that, it's a lot, it's not anything, you know. And, you know, I imagine that you have these aid governmental, the money, you're out of the poach, for help,

it's easy. Well, I'd I'd I think I think the coffee has

proven his credibility and its their value in the so we're quite well,

it's always to have more and we'll have always to have always more more of

I'm glad to I'm because I'm but it's just but it's

time you don't give you don't know just to give some of it's just that it's just that's

it's rare But, I'm just I'd say that one of our most great difficult, in fact, it's, and there,

we're in there, we're in where's the people, they're not because the people, they want to

us. You don't? You don't have the people who do you know because they have to be

bizarre, because they will fom a joint on the road, because you know, because you're in quite,

you know, so, and we have these good proprietor, you, but it's not, it's not done to all the organisms, and the organizers like us, to hold of tolerance, it's a difficult. Sotomay, you know, at St. Ostesach, you me say, St. Marte, right, right, right, right,

so, you know, but it's so, at all the moment we're in central, you know, it's in the middle, we'd say, no, no, at least, I'd have a little house in the banyue, you're going to be... Yeah, and then after, St. Marte, you'd never, there, I didn't.

And, you know, I'm the first to see, I'm the first of, you know, I'm not sure. I'm a dad of two young children. I'm not sure that I'm very pretty close to have a guy a little lusk who's with a peters on the coin of the yoll. My wife are my feet.

You know, I'm going to make the other side, I imagine that you know, you know, you know, we can't, you know, we understand that, but we understand also. Yeah, and that's the difficult to the issue.

But our job at us, well, our job at us, it's also, it's sensibilize to say, okay, but you're, you're, you're done you can't that if you're to be in front of his parents to,

let's turn, let's turn to, that's just put, that's could, that's can't be able to take to make a march on, you know, a street that's not just the

house with the children, and we, so we're trying to sensibilize also the both the

the, let's them, let's them, you're explaining what you know, and also the people who often the people

who think, in their life, it's normal, so I mean, I mean, why it's I don't know. I don't know.

But, yes, it's because the parents, they want to their parents, they see, someone who's going to be in their parents, you know. But in their life, it's not that? There's a question of culture there in, and in the case, I'd have long to say there on to say, I imagine. But it's different cultures, it's

these worlds different, it's, the apprentices' social different. I mean, it's been long, before to really understand how it works the life of Monsieur, Madam, all the world. So, if it's it's a

apprenticeship, because I had been in all the public, I think I'm not, I'm doing all right,

but it's very correct, that's right. It's not to be able to all the things, sometimes.

No, but minimal, when you're at the choice to be respected or not, I'm sure, I'm sure,

I'd be sure, I'd rather not in the time, I'm saying, I'd say, hey, it's been, it's not,

it's been, by the point, to be able to get to be able, I'm gonna get the time to be on But, you know,

Bravo and thank you because, and I do that to all the people who do you decide to open that, and you know, it's probably a lot of work, enormously of gestion, you'll make,

not rich with what she has that, you know, I'd say, it's not a necessity in your life, you know, you, you know, you'd have been, you'd have been profited more of your

and your kids' kids than the time to have to pass to get the to do this trick that's

you're to do you know, because I think that's important. I know, and I'm

agree with you know, but there nothing that you're not that's it's a whole

people, you know, there's there's a other who will be there, but I'm

to tend to not, I'm not to get to people who people who do you know that,

I'm not a couple, I'm not, I'm not, But if all the people say that, he'll have never to aid.

Because she doesn't necessarily of where she would have been at the base. But it's for that, because you,

you'd have put to say, hey, I'm in these view it, they're going to be there and there's

to be there and I'm and I'm and you're to be able to do you know, I'm sorry to do you

have to do you go? I'm sorry, let's go. I'm not, you know, the person like, you know,

the man the man in the front of face? Yeah. Okay? Okay? Okay?

Well, but... I don't know. It's, I'm for the... But this person that is coming to get to the aid to

coffee. And there, it's been a challenge. There, it's a deal with the sense where, okay,

I'm doing with that? Because, there, clearly, this person has a need to and she has

been to help, but, now, it is not me who he's not he going to you know, so, so,

I'm, I'm just, I'm just, I'm retireed, and it's the intervenants who have

made the job, and who they're accompanied, you know, but, you know, it's ironic sometimes the life,

there's a thing, and that's that's bad, and it's so, it's a great for you

have a place, you've been to, you've been to a person that? Well, I'd say,

that I'd say, let's, that I'd plenty of tristess or of or of this

or so, but for for real, I'd be absolutely everything, it's just that,

When I look at least, you know, that's been to be a child, by the end of, but, you, at this age that I'm not there.

It's not your responsibility. No, no, it's that. No, no, it's that, but, you know, I'm, you know,

is that, really, it really, it really, it really, I've never posed the question. I'm not

asked a question. I'm not, I'm not, but, I'm not, but, I'm going to be here,

but, but it's so, you know, I, you, it's, personally,

it's, it's a problem that's the you're going to because you're there's a limit and he he doesn't

not here. Well, I'm sorry to get to get a no, yeah, and it's correct

and it's normal but it but it's made, like, no, we're over that you know, it's not

to get to everybody, but I'm in the good, and I'm just not, but to just

say, I'm me aloing and someone of other will gerry yeah, we pass

the epoch. Bravo. Thank you, thank you, felicitation for what you do you do you've

traversed because as you've said you have made some of the I'd say when we're because when we

have the key in the key to have had all the toulde to get to call

and nasty of force for real I'm I don't and I let's

let's let's you know the two hours that we came to pass together,

it's, it's, if, you could have a cap, then you'd be able to

be able to think. Well, no, I'm, because, you, you know, just at 14 to have made front,

you know, to have, you know, made the foot before that person that was extremely

dangerous, it's far, and, you know, all the different that, and, you,

And, bravo for that. And I'm sure that you're a great source of inspiration for all the people who are going to be read- to listen to this episode.

And thank for what you do you do with the cafe. Redone the name, so please. The cafe

parenthase. Description YouTube, you're there. You're a site, we can do do you know, I imagine. Yeah, cafe parenthase

point com. So, if the people can't, if there are people who want to see, it's people

who want to have to do Don. Exactly. We aid, we support, it's going to be people like you. It would have

come to our instances governmental a little more, this kind of thing, but, we prefer to cut and

do you have to make the road to marred, but in the way, let me not talk the system of the

health. No, I think it always, it's always it's more. But I

just just say, I mean, I mean, it's not, it's not more, it's like,

all the people who are in back, it's the team, it's the people, it's the

people, because I would have to work a machine to make a same. I'm not

but at the base, it's a person, it's a person, it's not to do you do it,

to make a accountability, to make a , you know, there's a thing, there's a thing,

I'm doing, that you do you say, that you don't know, to say, you're not to say to

all the people, that's not that's not that's not that's not, but you Matthew,

Matthew, Matthew, They're not there, have not the idea, have not the idea to beckon to seepolling, and to be able to structure the beneficiaries, and to call the associations

for it. It's not. Exactly. I mean, I'm saying, we're saying, we're saying, it's a very good idea for say, good-jour-a-mond,

who are all together the podcast? Well, 100%, but all, in fact, it's simple, all benevolence, all the benevolence, all the benevolence,

my salutation, and all my respect, and, the gang of parenthesis, thank you for what you do with it, to be able to people who are

to be able to do because it for an idea, and as you say, you could not do that all. So it's

so it's not and these people are not, I can't not you know me, but you know you're who's at,

and you have all my salute and all my respect. you also. I'd I'd

I'd do you plenty of great things to have your kids and your kids'

and your children in health, who's maybe a reunion family more in the

next year. I'll you'll be to be a lot of people who I'm in a lot of

I'm so I'm so I'm thank you to have thank you for what you thank you

for what you Thank you.