Berner Phone - Ken Eurich: Fur Babies & Boob Jobs

Episode Date: February 22, 2023

Ken joins hell today to discuss her mental health meds, decision to get her boobs done, dealing with trolls. and being a mom of a pitbull and multiple cats, Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Welcome to Burning in hell. Okay, guys, I'm so excited. This episode in hell is going to be chaotic per usual. I mean, this chick is so perfect for this pod, and I've been manifesting her coming on. She's here. She's literally the same as online. It's crazy.

I was hoping. I mean, it depends on who you are, But, like, she is real, recognized real, as my shirt says right now. I like that. So, Ken, I've seen you before in the wilds, which is kind of crazy. Wait, in real life? In real life.

Oh, my God, what the fuck was I doing? Am I allowed to say that word? Yes. Because we're fucking wild. Okay, I just want to make sure before, like, they're like, beep. Like, you need to cut all that out of it. Beeps are funny, though, sometimes. So I'm at the airport.

I don't remember where I was going. Maybe L.A., maybe Austin. I'm a lost squirrel. So, but I was in the airport. and your voice is distinct it's the kind of thing where I was like I now need to listen to everything this girl's about to say I was here you were sitting like a little over there

just waiting for to get on this point and you're talking to this stranger who is like fascinated by you like it was like a full podcast like they were asking you all these questions and you were giving you were serving like they were like so like it was this like random dude who seemed nice it was kind of artsy and you were just having you're like I'm from a farm

and then and I was like fully into this and I didn't know who you were at the time The fact of this is so fucking on brand from me because I get myself in these situations all the time where like I become like friends with someone for like five minutes and never see them again. No, literally. This dude seemed nice. Like it wasn't creepy at all.

And I could tell that you were just like born and one talk shit where I'm more like, I'm very New York where I'm like, if I don't know you, don't speak to me. I don't want to talk to anyone. But I was like, I'm invested now in this conversation. So I sat there like a creep. And I learned so much about you. And I was like, wait, this girls. But at first you mentioned like TikTok and I was like kind of like, okay, oh, this girl posts

on TikTok. Because, like, I was on TikTok, and I'm like, who the fuck is this bitch? Push, blah, fuck TikTok. And then, like, so I have one million followers on Twitter. He's like, you literally just were like, yeah, I'm a TikTok. I create it on TikTok. And then he was asking you about brands and shit. And you mentioned Steve Madden.

And I was like, wait, this girl, like, legit. So my little crazy FBI brain, while you're right there, I'm like, I think I was like, TikTok, Steve Madden, you pop up. And I'm like, okay, Kennedy. So then I would not talk to you ever. But I was like, okay, support other female content creators, follow, follow, I follow all your accounts. And then I'm like, I'm going to follow this girl's journey. Fast forward, maybe a year ago. Fast forward. Here we are together.

That is literally insane though that you heard me talking about. I need to shut the fuck up, actually. If there's anything this conversation has taught me, it's like, shut up, because you know how embarrassing it was that I was like, so I'm a TikToker. And like, the people around me are probably like, oh, my God. But also, like, you are young and you're living a very exciting life right now. People think that I'm fucking older than that all the time. I'm like, well, I want to be my youth as long as I can. I want to be 17 forever. So the fact that people are like, I know 22's young, but I want to be 17.

I wouldn't be like not being like healthy. Your 20 is honestly are the fucking worst. Really? I mean, uh, it gets better? Yes. Oh, okay. I mean, like, your 20s, like, all the shit that you're going through is making you the person you're going to be when you're 30.

I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I might be a really bad person. Well, I know you're not. I've been through a lot lately. I'm like, feel like I'm 28. I'm biased, though, because you could literally, like, burn down an entire, like, house, but the fact that you have cats and a pit bull, I'm like, that girl can do no wrong. Thank you. I'm a big animal lover. The Reddit likes to say that I am an animal hoarder, so. I'm like, bitch, I got three cats and a dog. The fuck? I'm like, how's that an animal hoarder?

So I'm going to age myself, but I have a husband. Shut up. I know. I have a husband. He's 47. And he's one piece of advice to me. He's like this comedian been the kid. game forever. Like, we'd get into fights about it. He'd say, stop reading the fucking comments if you want to have a long-term career in this industry. But it depends on the person. So I wanted to ask you, because we're getting fucking real. They know you're looking. It feeds them to want to talk more. Is this a game you're playing with them? Sometimes. Sometimes it's a game. Like, I literally stayed off the Reddit after like, the first week that I knew it was out. I think it was because I was like fighting with my boyfriend or whatever

and so everyone was invested in like what was going on. It started with good intentions. You wanted to keep tabs on me and I was like, okay, whatever, like reading it. Then they said some like random shit like, oh, she's from like the nicest farmlands in Pennsylvania. First of all, bullshit. Bullshit. Shout out to Ambrose Farm. That, if you think that is a bougie farm, it's a tin.

It's like a little tin box. So after that I was like, I'm not doing it again. It's just giving me too much anxiety. I had to like literally go on anxiety medication because I was like on end all the time. But now? Damn that. That Welbytron Lexapro Mix. I was gonna ask you about it, bitch.

I feel nothing. I was like, bring it, bitches. Bring it. I was on Paxil for like ever, but I've never had like a real person diagnose me. Yeah. So I talked to someone, I'm like, I definitely have ADHD, whatever. And they were like, first of all, you can't get pregnant on Paxil, your babies will like, it won't work. Shut up.

So I was like, I'm not on a place where like, who, I'm so about with my birth control, who knows what's going to come on my pussy. So I was like, so there, I'm, I'm like, currently switching to Lexa Pro this moment. Oh, really? Yeah. I'm not gonna lie when I first tried Lexi Pro, like, the first day, on it. I was like going insane. I don't know what happened. But like that was like my body, I remember just like laying in my bed being like, I want to hurt somebody. But then it was fine like three days later. I was cool. Then I'm like zombie mode though. No emotions. Like you could

tell me literally anything and I'd be like cool. Like you could say your house is on fire and I'd be like, okay. A lot of houses are on fire in this episode so far. I'm kind of into it. It's hell. I was going to say it's hell. I was like that makes the most sense. So why do you add the well buterin? Because I heard it helps with ADHD. The well Well, Boutrin, I will say, like, the second she put me on that, mixed with it, I know I'm laying there like, oh, it takes longer to feel it. I don't know if it was a placebo. I was on one.

When I tell you, like, within three days of being on Weldbutrin, I was on my shit. I went from being like, you couldn't get a hold of me all day. I was just, like, sitting on my couch doing nothing. Like, texting Haley, like, these are my outfits and I'm putting for this trip. Like, what do you think about them? And she's like, Jesus. Are we SSRI influencers right now? I might say.

Try that well, Beatron. I might be. See if it works with your doctor. Yeah, check out with a doctor. Check up. Yeah, we're not diagnosing. But I love that you're open about it. Also, I told you, I love you.

The two things I love most in life are cats and pit bulls. Got one? Well, we were fostering. I've always wanted to foster. This is the thing about fostering. If you adopt, you save one. If you foster, you save money. And also, they don't die on you.

That's a good thing. Because I, I'm like saying this right now. No. I've only had a couple, like, two animals die in my life. and they were all, like, childhood pets that just died, like, last year. And I was like, I don't know how I'm going to survive if these animals died because, like, they're my whole life, especially my cat. Mango.

Mango. Especially if Mango guys. Mr. Mango. I'm like, I'm going to be fucked. He died. I was like, oh, my God, this is bad. But I kind of, like, had another cat that I bought him a month before Mango died. And he was, like, looks exactly like mango.

So in my mind, I still call him Mango to this day. I'll call Manx Mango. I'll be like, Mango. And I'm, well, maybe. Because they look alike. Maybe his spirit. Yes. It healed me somehow.

I'm like I'm like oh mango's like literally right there so now I'm like I'm not prepared for whenever my animals I have right now die like these are mine these are my like I feel like I birthed these ones the other ones for like my childhood friend yes I feel like literally came out of me no much well she's like five years old and I feel like she's my fucking mother she just has this energy about her that's like she pays rent like puts her belly out she gives no fucks I'm like I didn't know mom in the house she is I didn't even mean to get her either like I was at the shelter one day and we were just like going for the event because that shit like brings me up you know what I mean just like Look at first of all, all these dogs are barking like crazy And I'm a cat girl So I was like, oh, fuck this Like they're all like ah So then I'm like You're like calm it down Yeah I'm like this shit is scaring me

Like I'm ready to leave And then I see this like short Because she's like literally a foot off the ground She's short and she's built like a pig Yes imagine a pig So I'm like wait you're kind of funny Her name's Luna Marie I was like I kind of sarcastic

No yeah She was just sitting there All the other dogs are barking And she's like And I'm like let me take you out Took her out She literally didn't give a fuck Like I was like I love you

And she was like okay And I was like all right So then I went around the shelter a little bit more. I came back for her and I heard somebody else basically saying that they wanted to like take her out on a walk. I was like, I'll take her. How old was she? Five.

Yeah. I'm like, who would rehome? And to this day, like she hates other dogs. She does, she does hate especially big dogs. But she loves my cats. She loves people. She's an angel. I'm like, who would get rid of her?

So when I met my husband, it was over the pandemic and he was fostering pit bulls. How many? Like, he would do like two or three weeks with each one. it was so hot because I was like if he can handle that pit bull Oh no he can handle anything But let's be honest

Pipples are fucking softies No they are you're like you're like I fuck a badass Like walking down the street with this big ass Pipple and they're like in the house She's like sleeping on me She's like they're the most cuddly little babies But I would joke because this one Pipple

Would have like witching hour And he would call me during witching hour And he'd be like I miss you babe And then you'd be like Flynn shut the fuck up I'm telling you some dogs Was it an older dog? Did they have dementia?

It, it, or it was, he'd have these, like, traumatized dogs. Yeah. They have anxiety. And at night, they would, like, just go nutty. They'd be ripping up everything and they're going crazy. And he was, he was stern with them. Yeah. And I was like, that's what I fucking need.

I need someone being stern. Because I'll take a, I'll fucking fuck around bullshit people. Me too. I mean, I could have been a great salesperson. Yeah, I was, I was a cold calling sales bitch. Shut up. Back in the day. That's all you did.

You called people up? First out of college. Did you make an insane amount of calls, though, a day? Yes, but I kind of had this like quality over quantity thing and then I would email a lot. Oh, God, you were professional. I lasted a year and a half, so I was a Hall of Famer in the industry. They still talk about me. Yeah.

Have you watched Michael Vicks? The documentary about Michael Vicks. No, doesn't the guy who thought the fucking pit bulls? Yes. It's called champions. I don't even know who I want to see. I'll be sick to myself. Nope.

It's going to blow your mind. They take all the pit bulls that he was using as fighters and everyone's like they should kill them all. They're these fighting pit bulls. And they fight and they say, no, these dogs are traumatized and they need therapy. I'm going to cry. They need therapy. So they take these dogs and they show them like going through like therapy, getting fosters. And all the dogs were the sweetest baby.

Some were like still scared of stairs because they're just so loyal. It's all about the fucking owner. They are so extremely loyal. And someone told me that the other day with my dog because I was like, I wonder why someone would get rid of her. Like she's so sweet. Like they're, I just can't imagine getting rid of someone like her. And then someone was like, well maybe her owner really like not.

a great person brought out the absolute worst in her so then she kind of matched that energy and then with you like you were so sweet with her so calm with her and so she's she's matching your energy i believe that these pits they you watched how like they literally were like abused kids and they were you know acting out and stuff and then they calmed down and they were in these great homes they did have to kill the most successful one though because they're afraid it was going to get bought and like traded like the winning pit but when when you do your tic talks being like everyone scared them ma because of her bark, I'm literally like, speak out for, like, you're such a funny influencer to me because you're not only talking about mental health, but then you're literally fighting

I'm fighting so many demons at one time. And sometimes, it's like, most of the time I'm fighting myself. I'm like, I will literally just get on TikTok and be like, you know what, fuck all of you today. Fuck people who do this, do this. And everyone's like, why are you mad? Like, literally, everyone's always like, why she's so angry all the time? I'm like, I don't know. I'm fighting mad demons in my head. So TikTok gives me an outlet to speak out on those demons. And then you deal with stupid people in the comments. They're feeding into you. it. I'm like, stop feeding the demon. Well, that's what I said. I was like, yeah, they're annoying the fuck out of you, but at some point it's giving you great content. Oh, and then it's

like, I read this shit and I'm like, wait, what? So what's the other day? They were like, she's, she's trying. My assistant got on there the other day because we were like, I just need it now. I just need to know what they're saying about me. Like, let me know if there's anything like that crazy. And he was like, well, this is kind of interesting. Like, they said that you think you're giving yourself acne to be like relatable. Like, she's never had acne before. Like, first of all, I have had acne before. Like, hello? Are you kidding me. They obviously haven't watched like my first videos and they're like I think she like maybe hormones or something. Who the fuck would? They're like trying to make you scar girl but you're

like it's not there. I'm like you think I cared that much about being relatable. Like hell no. I would rather have the most flawless face perfect as fuck than to be relatable. Like yeah, maybe I'm relatable because I'm ugly. Like I'd rather, you think I chose this fucking card? I'm just doing the cards that I was dealt with. I'm playing with those. Wait, when you became a redhead, I feel like they bullied you out of being a redhead. Oh yeah, kind of. The first of I did it, I was like, You know what? I look so, like, good. You were so confident. By the end, you were like, I know it doesn't go on my skin to all bitches.

I was like, before any of you say shit, I already know. You know, it's like, I hate when they say stuff that I know. It's like, yeah, my hair's washed out. And then you get comments that are like, your hair's washing out. Yeah, no shit. Like, thank you for acknowledging the absolute obvious. Dude, people on TikTok, I didn't even know I should be insecure about some of shit. They told me my natural lip color is too pale.

That's a thing. And I was like, I didn't know that was something. I didn't even know that was something to even worry about. Now I'm freaked out. now you better get your checked out but it's it's insane but I feel like you in your young 20s have the energy to deal with that shit oh yeah you're like I'm over I'm over but I do have to say that my husband why don't bring it my husband somewhere I know she's in love but I occasionally have to show him content to keep him young you know like keep him the no you something I'm not even

going to get into what the actual drama was but you were in a point where people were trying to start like a real like hate campaign against you because you like messed up one thing that was very like flippant and very like no one everyone's fine and you basically were like people spend oh yeah exactly what you're talking about people spend 15,000 dollars on a PR company to have them craft the perfect PR response because something you go on and you vent I don't even know what you said but I showed it to my husband and he's very into like ignore everything and he goes wow she said that perfectly and I'm like I can never say You said what all of us are thinking.

Well, that's what I mean. I'm like, everybody's thinking it. And a lot of people are just, like, too scared to say because I feel like, especially with like cancel culture, everyone's so scared to speak up against it. Like, I feel like we've almost molded into this thing where we have to, like, we have to, as like a social media person or whatever, you have to like be who they want you. And I'm like realizing now, like, fuck that. Because they're like, we made you, we own you.

Yes. Yes, there's this weird. And we will take it away if we want to. Yes, it's that. And they do think they own you. And it's the weirdest thing ever. And it's like, no, I've learned that people will come and go. I've had people stick with me since 2020

I've had people leave I had people come back like I am no longer worried about that and guess what it's all full circle because then I'm maybe I can't do this anymore whatever I'm not on her bones anymore so I just start posting whatever the fuck

I want like I used to and then I gain more followers again and everyone's like we love this girl she's so relatable and you know what I mean it's a full circle thing You're wise as shit It's a full circle thing You're wise as shit because it took me

I like I'm a comedian now But I used to do reality TV And you know everyone loves you And then everyone started to hate me And I was like Maves over, my career's over, everyone fucking hit. And then I go, oh, wait, I guess just start posting comedy now. Yeah.

And now, no one even knows me from the reality show. No, everyone knows you as a comedian. And everyone was like, holy fuck, if I just, if I believe that whatever those people thought of me at the time was real, I would have been just, you know, I might have had actually like a pit bull sanctuary somewhere in my own thing. It's not too late for that, though. Are we going to do that? Yeah, I would do it.

I would love it. I always wanted to do like an animal, like I wanted to like a little cat cafe or something like that. Oh my God. would be keeping all the cats and there's a cat cafe around the corner else i'll hook you guys up here yeah it's like this cool japanese oh it's so fucking cool i want a cat cafe but i also do want to somehow have pit bulls involved oh i want to have like everything any type of animal except for horses i'm like kind of but it's funny like you come like all i want is a farm but i'm from brooklyn so i like don't even know

how to milk a cow yeah but you're from farm life but now you're in austin i don't know how to milk a cow however um don't judge don't yeah i don't really i mean i'm gonna write on reddit and say you're like a fake farm girl yeah she like no she doesn't even know how to milk a first of all is a fucking produce farm do your research okay i worked in the store part i did i have picked things before i've picked watermelon i've picked kale tomatoes you know i've done it but i worked in the store part and because i'm originally from like pennsylvania pitts i say pittsburgh i'm like 45 minutes all right but nobody needs to know that no that's why like i mean she's a liar

until i meet someone who's like oh really like what borough like i'm right there i'm like It's like really a small town called I went to like Knock High School They're like never heard of that I'm like it's kind of far away actually It's like 20 minutes times three Yeah it's not really close But it helps for some dummy like me

To be like okay around Pittsburgh area But this speech you gave Just so people don't know you basically were like Look if you guys hate me you hate me And if you like me you like me and if my career ends today I'm fine you guys win whatever Cool and then I remember just feeling afterwards Like that was the most perfect things that I actually

paid a PR company when I was dealing with like online bullying and stuff and they basically were like stay away from her phone and don't say anything and I'm like that's what I'm paying you guys for yeah to give me that to not say anything from two girls who all I want to do is talk shit and I'm also like really like a justice warrior like I'm always like fading for like the rights of and it gets so fucking annoying because like you never win no you're not that's a thing as I mean I know that I know I'm never going to win but I'm still gonna fucking fight it out right like I'm still gonna let people know where I stand like you basically were like you guys win and you like but you like

one out. Afterwards, I was like, Des, that was the most, that was the best thing I've ever, because no one ever gives a good apology. I'll eat these bitches up. No one ever gives a good apology. They think, I don't know. I feel like they get so worried, like, oh, well, good luck. Brand's not going to like it if you're eating us up all the time. And I'm like, okay, well, then guess what? I'll start my own brand. What's going to happen then? What happens when I'm CEO? You can't do shit when I'm the CEO. Like, I'm the CEO of Kennedy York LLC, okay? And that's all that matters. But speaking of which, I did hire a PR team. I also have PR. However, I think I just give them a headache, you know? Like, it's not.

nothing's bad though I've never gotten like oh my god you can't post that I just like do things like however I want and I'm like and then you go okay guys just keep an eye on this yeah I'm like waiting because I was like her video down please like we don't need that your team's gonna kill her yeah no or maybe they understand this is part of who you are they do they're very like we know you just like talk out and do whatever so see I was doing with reality reality TV bullshit where I legally couldn't say things oh so I'd get in trouble with the network so they were always like you can't you can't say that and I'm like but everyone they literally think I did something I didn't do and they're like well you sign this contract and I'd be like well I'll

just go fuck myself I can't do I I've already established it I would love to do reality TV but I realize I also can't do it because if I was like on The Bachelor for one I would literally get on there I would be talking out my ass because I have a lot I have a lot to say my words per minute is a lot so like I just know it could cut up that shit so fast I'd be the villain like no one I would not be America's sweetheart on there and they'd be like this bitch is crazy well it's so easy to like this conversation right now we're having so much fun right all they have to was cut to me in confessional being like Ken was so annoying and you're just annoying. No, exactly.

Or if they cut to me being like, I've never bonded with someone like that in my life and be like, everyone's like, oh my God, I love that. They coordinate the narrative. No, it is like serious. But your career is exciting because like you have it at the palm of your fingertips. Like you can, did you know you were going to be entrepreneurial? I always knew I was going to be my own boss, but I thought I was just like going to do nothing. Like I was like, um, I was like, um, seriously like growing up I was like, um, I'm going to be

famous. First of all, I always said that as a kid. I was like, I'm going to be famous. I remember in high school, like, people would be like, oh, everyone's like, I'm going to Penn State. I'm going to whatever. Like, what are you doing? And I'd be like, I don't know, I'm going to be famous. Like, you guys just see. And then it's so funny. In 2020, like, when our college was like getting shut down because of COVID, the guy used to sit next to an anthropology, shout on Chase. I remember, like, that's going to be me someday. Like, that's going to be me someday. Like, I'm just fucking putting my money on it. And then now here we are. I manifested everything that happened to me. Like, yes, I thought I was going to be like,

you know, maybe like a, like an actress and I'm a mediocre TikToker, but that's okay. You got to start somewhere, right? You got to start somewhere. So it's not exactly what I had imagined for myself, like, you know, talking about shitting my pants on the internet. But also, we grew up not with TikTok influencers, so you didn't even know what you could manifest. No. Like, so I'm just like, I'm going to be doing something that I don't have to work.

And my parents were like, yeah, well, you're either going to get a job or you're going to go to community college. Yeah. So I went to community college, made I'm happy and then dropped out. So I'm literally obsessed with you. I'm so obsessed with you. Because it's so fucking empowering. And also online, yeah, you go from like full fashion girly, like full fashion girly.

We got side. To full like diarrhea extravaganza. I can explain that to people when they're like, what kind of content? It's called being multifaceted. It's called being a multi-hyphenate. Okay. Yeah, write that down. She's a multi-hyphenate with diarrhea fashion.

Animal adoption. The diarrhea thing, you honestly wouldn't believe how empowering it is, I guess. Like I didn't realize like speaking out on shit was like going to be like that big of a deal. I just thought like, okay, yeah, everyone poops, whatever. It has been so empowering. Like, I have empowered the ladies around me. You know how many times I meet girls at bars and they're like, I too shit my pants. I too, like I hear stories all.

Every time I meet someone, usually like once a night I'll hear like some type of crazy pooping my pants story. But isn't that way more fun than like gossiping. I mean, gossiping is fun. But like to bond with any girl. Like whenever I'm nervous, I'll go up to a girl and be like, I have to poop. Yeah. And immediately her walls go down. My walls go down.

That's the most vulnerable. You could be with someone and then you'll know immediately if you're meant to be friends or not That's what I mean. If they kind of give you a weird look at first, you're like, okay, you're not going to fuck with you. I'm not going to fuck with you. I respect you, but you don't understand you're not going to vibe with me. Yeah, that's why I am like. Everyone always says that when I meet them, they're like, you're just like you aren't TikTok. I was like, what did you think I was going to be like, what did you think I was going to be like, did you think I was going to be like the girl who shits her pants giving like the side eye to somebody like being like I'm so like I'm, I do TikTok for a living. Like I'm a lot cooler than you. Like come on. Come on. Come on. What's the Austin, like, content creator scene like? Not really much going on, to be honest with you. I like it, you know? Because I like to be, I'm a Leo. I don't think I could survive.

Are you going to do? Yeah. I don't think I could survive being in, like, New York City or L.A. I don't want to be a small fish in big one. I want to be a large fish in a very small one. So living in Austin. There's content creators there for sure. And, like, there's a lot of, I feel, like, micro-influencers kind of on the come-up.

And, like, micro-influencer's, like, the shit nowadays. You know what I mean? Like, it's becoming, like, a real thing. Yeah. But I feel like nobody is really doing what everyone else is. Everyone's kind of doing their own thing there. Yeah. So it doesn't feel like it's competition at all.

It just feels like everyone's laid back. It's chill, great vintage shops. Yeah. Like I don't do anything though. So I like, I go out on the week. I mean, okay, I get fucked up on the weekends. But other than that, it's like I sit in my house all day, you know? Sit in my house, wait to the weekends, then recover for the rest of the week.

I'm obsessed with. That's what you got to do. I'm really obsessed with that. How's your, I know we hit on a little, but how's your like anxiety depression right now? Honestly, the best that it's ever been. Yeah. Yeah, I know, right? Why do you think so?

Medication. If I'm being real, definitely the medication. But no, like, I have been on one lately in a good way. But also I'm like, people don't take like literally be gasoline to me. People like, when I bought a car, someone's like, she's manic. She's bought the car because she's manic. And then I'm like, oh, my God, I'm also getting a poop job in a couple days. I'm also, maybe I am manic.

And I'm like, I might be buying a house next month. Like, wait a minute. Is this a manic episode? Or have you just been working your ass off and manifesting a great life for yourself? It's a thin line. There is, though, because every single day manifests, like, the same things in my little book. And so I'm like, either they're gassing me into thinking that I'm manic or like, like, I'm going to wake up and be in a blacked out episode and wake up in like three months and be like, I have new boobs. Where am I?

I'm driving a new car. Like, I just blacked all of that out. Or it's like, yeah, I'm going to be like, yeah, I worked for this. This is what I've wanted this whole entire time. I have trouble because I started making money for the first time recently. And I, but I still have that, like, poor mentality. Oh, yeah. And then you think when you're spending something, you think you're like an NBA player that's just.

going to like go broke. Oh, I still have that mentality. I still have them. So yeah, it's a thin line between being like I'm treating myself versus like, I'm like, you're spending one on the weekend. I know. I don't even say that. I just went with my first strip club ever on Friday and now I'm like, fuck. I'm like, maybe I do have a problem. Did you have fun that you're? Oh, yeah. And the strippers knew me. A lot of them were like, can I was like, get in girlie? I was like, let's go girls. I was like, can I take my top off now? Let's go, girl. I was like, listen, like, I want to get up on there. That's, that is like a talent. The way they were moving on this, They're athletes.

Yeah, that is not easy. Literal athletes. Anyone who says they can be a shipper? You're lying. No. You're lying. That shit, it's hard. No.

Nothing against only fans, but like this is... This is the real... This is real life. Yes. You know, you can't cut it and you have to go... No cutting. Exactly. No, you have to go with it.

It's like YouTubers versus stand-up comedian. No, I was... Yeah, no, literally. Like, you have to be on your feet when you're, you know... I would have... I don't know how I would even react. Like, if something bad happened, they all just looked so natural. Like, they had been practicing.

it was a super teen and they probably just went up there and just like did their thing yeah yeah no shout out to the strippers also I love stripper talk oh when I get on strip talk and they're like the whole time whenever I was literally at the strip club I just kept thinking of like looking on all their shoes and I got on the side of TikTok where they were like cutting up the bottoms of new shoes so they kind of good grip yes and I'm like I wonder if they did that you know I wanted to ask I'm like did you do like the trick because you learned so much shit from there yeah and their lifestyle is just so intense but yeah those girls are fucking awesome tell me about these the boobies Okay, this was definitely something

They just kind of came about You know, I've always wanted a pair of tits Who doesn't, you know? But you just like, I didn't get mine until You got tits too? No, they're not, they're real But like, I didn't I was like, oh my God, we got so much in common

I didn't get these until 18 Okay, I'm 22, so my time is past So were you like waiting And then you were like, okay Because I was flat, flat, flat And then 18, I just got to... I went through phases.

I feel like I was like, you know, when I was like really younger, you know, you're trying to like wear a push-up bra. Like you're trying to be out to look like... Yeah, you're like, I need to have the biggest looking boobs ever. Especially because my best friend at the time, beautiful, gorgeous, huge rack. Yes.

Like, we were in the eighth grade. She was like a double D. Like she, yeah, she was blessed. I mean, but also poor thing, like having... Oh, definitely. Like... Men look at you like you like you're an adult. Oh, definitely.

She had like a weird... She had a lot of, like, real... I ran around like a little chicken until I was 18. I looked like, like a 12, I still look like a 12 girl away. I think we have, like, fun personalities because we didn't get tits. I know. I had to, I had to depend on something. You know, like, so nowadays I'm so used to hearing, like, if someone calls me pretty,

I'm like, thank you. Like, I wish, you know, there's like some celebrities that are like, she's only famous because she's pretty. You know, that's not me. They can't say that about me. They say she's famous for nothing, but, like, they can be like, she's hot. I want people to be like, is she fashionable or is she just pretty? Yeah, they can't, they can't say shit about me, okay?

I'm the average looking. That's why I want a nose job more than I want a boob job Like that was like my thing I was like if I get any surgery done It's gonna be my nose job But then I'm like terrified of like looking really good With a nose job And I'm like dude I lose on my eye

And they're like dude she's hot now I don't give a fuck about what she has to say She's not funny because if you're hot They're like no she's not even funny anymore So I'm like you know what I better just keep the nose God gave me And continue having this fucking great personality Did you care as much how you looked

Or do you care more now that you see yourself In video all the time And you have people just I think I care less about how I look honestly surprisingly. I feel like everyone, you know, I feel like a lot of people are like, oh, it tore down my confidence. And I feel like something I've always depended on was who I am as a person because I feel like I didn't feel maybe necessarily the most confident on the outside. So I never walked into the room being like, I'm a 10 because I'm gorgeous. I walked into a room being

like, I'm a 10 because I'm funny as fuck. Yeah. Like I will tell a joke, you know. So. And that energy comes off in your TikTok's like, you command attention. Like I'll be scrolling and I'm like, Ken needs to tell me shit. They're like, she's yelling again. She's yelling again. Ken has stuff she needs to tell me. And I'm like, I'm here, girl and it's your energy is what really differentiates differentiates you besides the fact that you are also beautiful like yeah i like that it's a side thing though you know i like that it's like bunny cute well you know what i mean people who are like too hot are intolerable no i like i can't i literally was saying that the other day i was like scrolling and i was like oh god like i'm so disgusted right now

like she this girl's so pretty i'm gonna walk but i also love seeing like you all dressed up with your girls and i'm like oh like so hot and then you'll have the next day when you're like going to Target or some shit and you're but you also are not trying to be like looking cute you're like I'm going to target right now I should do I'm not trying to look cute now like you can't look hot a hundred percent of time I like say I'm part time hot yeah part time hot yeah I agree and I think like yeah just like being depending on my personality that's why I feel like when comments when I did like start getting hate comments about who I was the person those are the ones that like fucked me up the most yeah I depended a lot I'm like I'm oh my god if you're a good person you don't have

to say you're a good person yeah I'm a good fucking person yeah and I'm funny okay That's what does it for me. So I'm like, now I'm just like, oh, whatever. Like, I go out and, like, all the time I meet people like when I'm so scary looking. And I'm like, this is who I am. Like, but when people know you for your energy, I feel like you look more beautiful all the time. Does that make sense? Exactly.

Like, you know, the second I feel like I start talking to people, it's like, whoa for them. Like, they're not expecting me to be so like. And then I'm in their face and they're like, oh my God. That's so shocking to them that they're like, they forget about what I even fucking look like. They're just like, I'm just, your energy literally, I'm going to do Uber the one time. And this guy does, like, stand up. comedy, I guess, the Uber driver. And so he was like, are you, I wasn't even making jokes. Listen, I just wasn't got a funny face or something because I was like, and he goes, do

acting or whatever? And I was like, oh, no. He's like, we should be a standout. Like, I do standup comedy and I host these shows. You should come. And I was like, okay, I'm not, I'm not a stand-up girl. Austin has a decent scene. No, I know. I didn't know that until I met this guy. And he gave me his card. If, like, everyone had hit him up. I was like, I cannot do stand-up comedy. I have to, like, I can go back and forth someone. That shit when you're there by yourself, because I've gone into a couple comedy shows. I love them. Could never do it. this is the thing you are doing your own version of stand-up on your I mean sometimes you're not trying to get a joke you're making like a point point and I'm like period but but sometimes like you take it on a journey basically I'm never disappointed with what you're doing on the video like you know some people they're like I have to tell you something crazy and you're like I bet this is gonna be wasting my time you always pull me in some type of journey either I'm sad I'm pissed off after for you or I'm laughing yeah honestly my favorite comments are like nurse she's out again because like every time I feel like there's like a different vibe in every single video you video and sometimes I'll like shock him every now and then like there she's out again come get her

I'm like keep us fucking guessing do you how strategic are you in terms of your content creation my manager's like probably laughing right now because I'm not strategic at all like when I but bitch be posting no oh bitch be posting that is the most important thing that's what I mean I'm like I'm doing organic sometimes she'll be like what do you up to today I'm like I don't know I'm like gonna you know as my day goes I'm like waiting for inspiration to hit me yeah I'm like you know I'm waiting for something to happen to me like I'm then you're also like you've created your own like mini farmhouse with all the animals so like shit's going down no shit is all and when i tell you like shit is always happening too like especially on the weekends because my dog is like so

attached to me because we spend my time together like i mean the only time i'm really gone is when i have to travel for work yeah so i'm home all the time i spend like 24-7 with her so when i leave on the weekend sometimes she'll like shit on the floor and i come back to shit on the floor yeah and i have to clean it up so i'm like yeah she's like a cat oh no she is because my cat butter when i leave too long i come back she's ripped up all the toilet paper yeah And she'll never do it unless I'm away for like a little too long. Cats especially, I feel like cats, like they got the, they know. I always say like if I left for a month, my first mom, Ma is very dependent on me.

So like she would probably not be here anymore. The cat's over. My bills would be paid. Everything would be figured out. Like I'd come back home and like my one, my cat Manx guy sort of got like he's an accountant in his free time. Like I can just see him. Yeah, Mr. Mings. I'm like, dude, these cats like know too much shit.

I'm like a fan. When I'm like watching them and they're like looking at me, I'm like. And I'm like, yeah, they all. also have to see me take some dick sometimes so I'm like oh my god they know a lot you know what I mean and like especially makes he's been around for a while like where you been late yeah he's seen some men at my place I don't know if you've done this but I would like to propose that you do this and then tell everyone how it goes have you done pet psychic before no do you got a good one I have I do have someone else see what I'll send it to you I did it once during the

pandemic when I made my mom adopt three kittens three kittens oh my god at the same time it was the most incredible thing ever that sounds like a dream because we had I had my cat. My parents had their cat. And then my nannas, outdoor cat had three little babies that are just in the woods. And I said, we need to take them in. And I waited for my dad to be in like a good mood. Like he had like a good golf day. And I was like, dad, can we get these cats? And he's like, yeah, whatever. And my mom and I were like, yes. So all COVID, we raised these fucking, like, house. Anyway, well, I'm so short, I found this, um, pet psychic during COVID. Get on the phone. And she's like, okay, I'm talking to butter. And she goes, Butter is sarcastic. Butter is hilarious. She's calling the other cat's fat. Like, I learned all this stuff, and I'm like, that's butter. Like, I knew she was funny.

Now you look at them, and you're like, holy shit. And then with the other cat, she was like, I'm sensing, like, a stomach issue. And the next week, he had, like, we had taken him to the vet for a stomach issue. So look, do I want to be that girl? I'm like, I don't believe in it. Yeah, but I'm not. Okay, I'm not. I mean, I believe in that.

I'm easy. I want to hear what they say, like, what they say, because they say, how. how they, like, feel about you, what their mood is, what they feel about the other cats. Like, I think we need to set this up. I'm, like, scared to know what makes things of me. Because I think he's much more intelligent than I am. So I just feel like he thinks everyone is stupid around.

I just give this vibe. He just, like, gives this, like, very intelligent. I'm smarter than you vibe. And I'm like, every time I look at him, I'm like, insecure right now. Do the cats fuck with, like, people you bring over, like, guys you see? No, not really. I could definitely tell, though, like, they make it a point, especially he makes. Like, if he doesn't like a guy, like, my last boyfriend,

definitely don't think he liked him because he just like was weird towards him his energy just like shifted completely then the new one the new boyfriend he like has taken my dogs and cats into like making them his own and so they love him like my new animals love him

especially the cats because he's more of a cat guy I'm not gonna lie but like mings and stuff they have like a very special one they'll go around my kitchen island like you know how cats like do this to like show that they love you they're called like headbutting

yeah headbut minks the whole way around the island see like I would want to get married immediately. Yeah. What's your opinion on men who don't like cats versus men who like cats? Oh, like men who don't like animals, period. Yeah. I just don't fuck with people who don't like animals.

Like, I feel like we will never get along because I will literally let, like, my dog lick my mouth. Like, I would let her lick my teeth. Yeah. You know, like, I kiss my cats on the mouth. Like, I'm sick as fuck. I don't care. Like, everyone's like, do you know where that's been?

I'm like, I don't. Also, cats are clean as shit. They are. That's are the cleanest thing. That's what I mean. I'm like, they're cleaner than I am. They're cleaner than I am. So I'm like I am really bad with my animals like that

So I'm like I can never be something like my boyfriend now is kind of like a little bit of a clean freak Like I'm a clean freak but in different ways than he is and he's I feel like sometimes he's like But like he doesn't say it you know he doesn't want offend me because he knows like that's I'm in my mom shit But you're connected to them it's like how like you you make out with me and my spit like my spit like my spit is that cat spit too Like we I truly do feel like I birthed them out of me so I'm like it's beautiful this is mine you know I created this thing so I'm like but boys don't like animals it's an absolute no for me But especially like boys who prefer this is a red flag And I thought about this so many times.

Men or people in general who prefer dogs, I think, over cats. I truly think that they are sick in the fucking head. Because dogs are very dependent creatures. You know, they've been bread and bread and bread to depend on humans. So I'm locally convinced people who are dog people, like you like that dependence, right? They like control. They like, yeah, they like that shit. Me, I'm cool as a cucumber.

Like, me and my cats, we just sit there and we like, they might fuck with me. They might not. Like, we'll just sit in the same room and just stare at each other. dog cover she's like sitting on me she needs me I'm like I see I have like a whole 10 minutes about cats and stand up like I could talk about all day but I this is not a joke I actually feel like dogs love people and cats love you no that is the greatest quote I've ever heard in my life I'm gonna steal that no literally you can steal it because I always joke like if a dog if a dog is more excited to see a stranger than me like we're getting in a fight that night it's like imagine your

boyfriend whenever he seems a new girl's licking her up and you're like oh you're just loves people like absolutely not my cat does my husband again my husband fed her i'm married fed her my husband fed her every morning for six months before she let him touch her oh i believe that for and now he's the only other person she'll come out for she'll cuddle with him but it took six months for her to be like okay especially if there's people at my house like my cats like want nothing to do with it yeah especially makes and people be like the cat sucks and i'm like oh no no no no no you understand they take an energy they know energy i truly do believe that like oh yeah my one friend Eric, he calls my cat Garfield.

And I'm like, and Eric's very drama. You know, he's very dramatic. I'm like, Eric, don't fucking call my cat Garfield. I'm like, I don't mess with that, Eric. Like, that's one thing. You're going to piss me off now. And he keeps going to me like Garfield. And he's like this spicy Latina man.

He's like, Garfield, stop fucking looking at me like that. So then the one day, he's like calling him Garfield, whatever. He's like, backs out. I used to live in the studio apartment. Like, he's like, has my, his back to the couch. What do you know? Garfield, Manks gets up there and smacks him in the fucking head. So hard.

And now to this day, he's like, they have like this little stare off every time he comes around. Like, he'll look at it because he's always in his catching. He'll be like, ah. Makes us like, call me by my name. Yeah, he's like, I'm on Garfield. Like, you watch your fucking mouth in front of me. Okay, it's time to play a game. Are you ready, bitch?

Oh, I'm ready. It's called the Seven Deadly Sins. Seven Deadly Sins. What are you greedy about? I'm definitely kind of greedy about. money, but I feel like food more than anything. What kind of food? Like, oh, any, not, I'm not a big sweets girl. You know me. Me neither. I want cheese. Yes. Give me like the salty shit.

Yes. Like when people touch my fucking food, that's like a no from me. That's like a no. That's like my biggest peep. I'll be like my boyfriend always, he won't get a drink because like, I don't know if he's being too cheap or what. And they'll take sips in mine. And like to me, a drink though was like such, I'm like a drink girl. You know, I'd rather go to McDonald's and get a fat sweet tea than have any food. So I'm like, that is like my meal. Like get your hands off my meal. That pisses me off like no other. You're like I also planned it out to have

this amount to go in my body. Yes. Like I'm going to have every last sip. Oh, I'm, I love a fun drink. Like, not even alcoholic. I'll be like, do you have any juices? Oh, yeah. Me too. I'm a piggy-in'er though. I love a chai. That's my biggest. That's my biggest. What don't you eat? Oh, everything. Probably like nine. You're like a kindergartner.

Oh, yeah. Ask me anything. My manager. I'm talking about my manager like my husband. I'm not like my manager. She is for now. She literally, no, yeah, she's like, you gotta go. We got to part our ways. She's literally, like, she was like my first, like, she didn't know me too well at first, and, like, she would, like, book all these dinners. I went to LA for the first time.

It was all this vegan, healthy shit. I was like, literally getting me the hell out of here. I remember I went back home. I don't even, like, I didn't even like burgers that much. I remember going home and just craving red meat. I was like, mom, I should make me a fat fucking burger with grease and disgusting this. Like, that's what I want to eat.

Obviously, there's nothing wrong with going vegan. But actually, when I went to Austin, I got tricked. I didn't know it was a vegan restaurant. I order. Eggs, sausage comes and I go, hmm, texture's a little strange. You're like, looks just too different. Why would you not have in huge letters, vegan? Because everyone was there.

I thought it was like the hot spot I walked in. And I'm like, why is there broccoli? And now all these people are like, they're colder than you. I can't go into a vegan place because I just feel like they're like, I'm colder than you. Yeah, they're definitely like, oh, you drink cows milk. Go fuck yourself. Yeah, fuck you, buddy. You drink cow's milk?

I'm like, yeah, I do drink cows milk. Have fun. Have fun. Is that what it is? You have, like, weak knees. How fun. Oh, good. Um, who are you envious of?

Nobody, I love myself. Can I tell you I'm envious of? No, I'm thinking, my cat. Oh, oh, cats, for sure. Do you ever look at your cat and you're like, if I could switch bodies with this bitch? Cats who have, like, great owners, like, like, myself, I would do anything. I would do anything to be them. They sit all day, they eat, they shit.

They do whatever. And, like, I feel like people. Find the comfiest place and just lie there. And people who love cats, like, don't really care what their cat. Like, their cats can do no wrong in their eyes. Oh, no. my cat runs the household for sure. Yeah, oh, same.

Like, if my cat's somewhere, I'm like, don't touch him. The second she, like, walks on my chest is like, she's ready for me. Yeah, and I, like, I wouldn't be sick there like this. In the mornings, like, my cats, like, some of them, like to, like, come. Some of them, some of them. Minks is, like, very much, like, I'm not really. He does his own personal bubble, you know?

He's too good for that. Baby, however, he's clueless. He has not one brain cell going. He comes up, and he's like, he just wants, like, pets. He'll, like, and I'm literally like, oh, I'm sitting there. I'm like, do I pet him? If I pet him, like, will he move, you know? So you have to, like, balance that line.

Yeah, butter will fall asleep on me. And obviously, you know how they have their routines to finally get to that place where they go and that? So it took her like 10 minutes to finally get on me. And you're sitting there, you're waiting for it. And then I think the remote's like right there. And I'm like, babe, could you get the remote and they're like, you're right there? And I'm like, no, I can't. I literally can't.

The fact that I'm even talk right now is a risk. No. Speaking when you have like a cat in your hand, you're just like, don't breathe. Just hold it on. Yeah, no, because I'm like, my belly's pushing on him. He's going to be, like, getting all mad because they're only good. Yeah, I feel like for like 10 minutes. But they love your heartbeat.

And yeah, when you get a kitten, like butter, she was found in a dumpster in the Bronx, sweet girl. I kept putting her on my chest as a kitten and now that's where she still loves to be. Oh, that's nice. And it helps my anxiety apparently. I would, like, try, like, minx was such a little shit. Like, I tried to stick him on my chest. You're going to stay there. And he, like, did it.

He was the worst kitten I've ever had in my life. He was so fucking bad. Then baby came along. Like, baby, he's literally just baby. I don't know what to say about him. He's baby. Did you choose minks because he was really cute? Because he looked like mango.

Yeah. If you choose cats based on their looks, like, you tend to get the asshole. You have to, I don't care how beautiful these kittens are. Go to the one that comes to you. No, and minks did not. I found minks on Pet Finder from like random shelter.

Minks saw you and buked. No, definitely he was by himself at the shelter. Like, because they, like, I don't know. They were like, he's being fostered and they basically just take them to this house whenever they're getting adopted. Yeah. And I drove an hour and a half away. Didn't tell my parents.

my dad, I was like, he's going to kick me out of my house. Like, my dad's very much like, you don't fuck with me. Like, I told you no, I meant no. But not when it comes to animals. Oh my God. I was, like, literally shaking my pants. It's all the way there. It's like storming.

I'm like, this is a bad omen. Like, I shouldn't be here right now. Got the cat. And I was like, oh, my God. I'm like, what do I do this? And my parents are going to kill me. I took it upstairs to my room. My mom came in and I was like,

my dad had no idea. For like three days I was hiding this cat. My dad was so mad. And then, of course, he fell in love with it. And then he loves it. Then the other ones, yeah. Like, my other cats, baby, I just kind of was like, minks need a friend.

This baby was a cat for minks. Yes. You know what I mean? But sometimes, like, I thought Butter was bored. And then she didn't fuck with any other cats. So I was like, really? She hates other cats. Really?

She is a Leo. She wants just all the attention to herself. And I have to respect that. And I feel like girl cats are a little more like. True. You know, like, boy cats, they're like, we're hanging. Truly. They're like, guys.

I'm like, didn't he fuck your ex? Yeah. Like, that's Jason is great. Yeah, they're like, I don't give a fuck. They're like, we can chill together. That's literally how my boy cats, like, they all get along so well with each other. Like, none of them give a shit. Like, I could bring any, everyone's like, be careful.

You have to introduce them slowly. You're going to, like, I'm like, dude, I know my fucking cats, all right? I bring them. They take a sniff and they're like, okay. Okay, it's cool. Take one sniff of the ass and, like, they knew each other their whole lives. He's cool. What are you overindulge in?

Like, what's your guilty pleasure besides money? Like, what do you glutinous about? Oh, food. Absolutely food. Yeah. Food is, like, a main topic in my life. Like, when I tell you, like, I eat like shit. But, like, that, to me, if I had to give up eating like shit, it just, like, life would not.

How do you offset it? I don't. I don't really. I don't do any exercise, really. Yeah. I mean, to be 22. No, that it's like, it's like, it's like, it's like, it's like 20. I, it recently happened.

I used to still be, like, cool when I was 30. Something about 31. I used to, like, you know, when you feel kind of bloated. Oh, I feel like that now. Like, all the time. Well, now I lie to myself. I'm like, oh, it's because you're PMS thing, it's because of your period. It's because you just got off a plane.

I'll come up with every excuse. Like, I'll never be like, bitch, you've been eating like shit. But when I was in my 20s, I would just be like, oh, I'm going to eat like a little cleaner this week and it would just be like fun. Oh, I'm not. I never eat clean. Like, me as like, I eat a sweet green and I'm like, holy shit. Yeah.

Like the life just came back to me. Yeah. But usually it's like, I mean, I'm in Keynes, McDonald's. Anything gross you can think about. Like, and I'm a Dwardash. Like, I doodash every single meal. Oh. But Austin has, like, some of the best food in the world.

Oh, yeah, they do, but I still be eating, like, McDonald's. Yes. I'm like, my boyfriend's, like, a big, he's sober. So, like, he's, you know, he loves, like, good food. My husband's sober too. Really? Yeah. So he loves, like, food.

That's, like, we love a sober man. We love a sober man. At first, I was, like, I don't know. Like, I didn't know he was sober at first when I met him. Like, we met on Hinge. But that's cool. Because they're always talking about it. You're like, okay, you're still maybe struggling.

Yeah, I'm like, this is, and especially if, like, he would have mentioned it before I'm 20, like, at the point I was 21, I'm like, holy shit. Like, my life kind of revolves around getting fucked up right now. Like, I don't know how we're gonna, how we're a vibe. And he's 28. So I remember, like, we met on Hinge and then I met him out in the bar one night. And because he was also at the bar, so I'm, like, oh, okay. I tell you to the day, I have no idea what I said to him.

And he was like, it was like, it was, like, it was kind of crazy the first night I met you. But it's kind of cool that, like, you just fucked with, like, who he was. Yeah, no. I have no idea. Then the next day, I'm like, oh, try this, like, shitty vodka soda. He's like, oh, like, no, I'm like, germophobe. Like, I got so, I was like, ew.

That gave me the ick. I was like, you care about my germs. And then I kept on watching him and he kept on getting like Topo Chikos. And then I was like, wait a damn minute. I was like, no, he's like, you don't drink. And he was like, no, he's like, no, I don't drink. But he goes out with all my friends. He'll stay up till 4 a.m.

Like, he is so cool to be around. Even like, people never know that he's sober. Yeah, I've had girls text me and be like, I'm really nervous. I started seeing a sober guy. Like, what do you do? And I'm like, he's a human. And I'm like, you're not going to have those, like, drunken fights. No.

You're not going to have those horrible mornings where you're both just, like, hate each other, hung over. Like, I'm like, when you fight, it's real fights. It's not going to be like the stupid drunk shit. No, I don't have those, like, or it's just like very one side. I wake up in the morning. And I'm like, good morning, Jason. How are you this morning?

And he's like, I don't forget about last night. But he's pretty, I will say he's, like, very good at being. But also, it shows that, like, they're driven. They can focus on shit. It's just hot. It is fun to in your early 20s day guys who were drunk all the time but it starts to get like old especially if they're drinking like all that it's like it's like becomes a problem and also when you're like oh you don't want to hang out with me you'd

rather us be at a bar like why is that yeah why can't we just like enjoy each other be normal and not have to be under the influence and like do you only like me whenever you're drunk exactly but there are some couples who are like in their 50s who like still get fucked oh they I know people from my home like small town shit small town shit I remember like the football parents would get fucking blasted at like we didn't know when we were younger I'm like why are they doing the macarina but the day it's like it's like they're Your parents are blackout. No, they are.

Oh, the football. I was always so jealous of the football people because, like, I grew up, like, my family wasn't necessarily sober. Like, my dad is sober. But, like, I never, like, even knew the word sober, though, growing up. Like, that wasn't, like, a thing. It's not part of the culture of small towns. Or, like, Europe.

No. My dad just, like, didn't drink. And I was just like, okay, like, my parents don't really drink. But then I moved to Austin, and he introduced me to so many. All of his friends are pretty much sober. He's a lot of sober friends. And he has a, I feel like, he has a lot better morals than me. You know, we still go out it every once in a while

Because I just like to fight, to be honest with you I'm like 22, I like to be toxic But he goes like AA every single week And that holds like you really have to have like a moral standard I feel like doing that shit Well, it is to be sober You have to like understand your brain It is like a form of therapy

Because when you drink you don't have to face your feelings No, no So he's He's very good at like expressing his emotions And any man who takes care of himself Or is trying to improve himself in any capacity is a green flag. Yeah.

In my eyes. At first I was like, oh my God, I don't know how to do this. Is he going to be a lot? Because, yeah, it was a lot, but it ended up being like the best thing ever. And I'm like, date is sober man. If you have the chance. And over time, you're going to slowly like be less like, okay, I know what the night's going to be.

I actually don't need that right now. Yeah. It'll be like in eight years. Okay. Like later. Like later. I'll give some time. And also you didn't like fully have a college scene.

No, that is why going out to me like I didn't even, even like, I basically was a community college so I didn't have any party like me I was like getting drunk with my cousins at his like house that that I just envision you in fields no like seriously I'm not even like it was my cousin's house and they're all boys yeah and so they're all like older than me and that was the scene that I like drank in and then I went to college but I dropped out of college I had to transfer to four university and then I dropped out but I still had signed at least I'm like bitch I'm gonna $800 a month for nothing you know I'm gonna live on this college campus and yeah so I live there and yeah we would go out maybe like on a Friday it wasn't crazy because it was just like small little

state school. They weren't like crazy partiers or anything. So it wasn't until I moved to Austin where I was, and in Austin, let me tell you, they'll find a reason to drink for anything. Like I tell you when I first moved there, they'd be like, let's, I would like meet with people from different brands. Let's just get a cocktail. Three p.m. on a Tuesday. Let's get a cocktail really quick. Everyone's always, they'll be like, hey, the sun's out. Yeah, let's have a drink. So when I moved there, I was like, I remember there were times of where I was drinking like four times a week. I went from like never drinking to drinking four times a week. Then it slowed down and then I was single again. So I was like, let's rage. And then, you know, I kind of went through

like in the summer I have Lyme disease not to like make everyone feel bad about me but if you do bully me I do have Lyme disease so something to think about. Do you have you talked about that in public? Yeah I've talked about it. It's like I'm pretty much good for the most part except for like But you had some bad. Yes. Oh my God when I got diagnosed at first I was the sickest I've ever been in my life I remember sitting at the hospital being like the series I thought they were going to diagnose me with cancer like I was so sick. Was this from a tick bite? I guess I never found the tick in me though. So it nothing it was just like I literally woke up one day and I remember I just work at a coffee shop as a brista and I remember like being like so sick at work and almost feeling I was going to throw up but it was like the worst out-of-body headache it was so strange then I threw up a couple times you know went to the doctor they were like

oh I don't know what's wrong with you and then went back again and I remember I went back because I couldn't move I was like oh my gosh like what's what's going on like any slight turn in my neck was like bro and they were like maybe you have viral meningitis like we don't know went to the hospital and yeah I got diagnosed with lindsies but within the medication getting in me in like two days I was like back to normal thank god they diagnosed you I know because some people like if you don't get diagnosed quick enough like you get your whole life's like fucked past so mine only notice in like the summer so the summer I kind of went through like a grandma era I'm not going out because of oh my god I'm probably like oh my god I'm like oh my god I'm probably

like oh my god I'm like oh my damn heat and austin I couldn't do it like oh no I would go out and like my I just like I was gonna hit the ground every time I walked outside I'm like oh my god you're dehydrated and drinking and you had to have a cute outfit and if you have boots on miserable so then now you know when the cold weather started here to get in October oh I was a wild girl again I was like I'm like girls let's get fucked up what's going on but all my friends are older so they're like i actually feel like i started saying era more because of your ticot i know i told myself i just so good i just so good at coming up with like a funny era miss my era i'm in so many i do have to say i don't want to creep you out that

i'm obsessed with you but you just like really are part of my algorithm no i love that though i love that people get on their fucking app that's i'm like the first like you're part of that voice and they're like holy shit what is like i don't have to search you i just know you're coming you're gonna find yeah yeah so i'll find you the internet was like i'll fuck with you Yeah. Okay, when was the last time you experienced extreme wrath or anger? Every day. Like, reading my comments every day.

Like, I get so pissed off. Like, it's not funny. Like, I get pissed off more than a normal person. But I feel like you, do you like any person? No, I do. That's a sick part. I love it. I have, like, a sensitive little, like, pussy.

And I will look at a comment and I'll be like, ah! So now I can't look at it. I don't like. No, mine gets to me, like, riled up, like, in a way that's, I'm like, and then I go, honestly, honestly, that leads to, like, my, I feel like my craziness in my TikToks, like, even if I'm not addressing hate, or I'm just, like, really, like, giving people my all and all my energy because I read some shit

that, like, makes me kind of angry. Do you feel better up to event? Oh, yeah. Oh, my God. Like, especially, like, on those days where I have, like, a mental breakdown, like, whenever you're talking about that video where I was like, fuck you guys, I'm going to do whatever I do. I cannot explain to you how amazing.

Like, I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I was like, I was so scared from the second I started social media of, like, this cancel culture because that shit is scary. Like, it's definitely gotten better. I think we're kind of coming to a, like, a realization that it's, like, just stupid shit and creators are finally being like you're not gonna cancel me like I know Alex Earl just like pop the fuck off lately and I remember like

people were getting on her in her comment she's like you're not gonna cancel me she's like I'll still be here making fucking videos and I was like yeah you tell him girl fuck him so I definitely think like that was like a weight lifted off my shoulder I was like I don't care but I also feel like you don't come off like psycho like meticulously driven

it's more like you believe in the moment stupid shit you believe in yourself and you're like this is what I meant to do Yeah. It's not like, I need to go and become a billionaire. You're like, this is who I am and I know it would be successful doing it. And I think that's what I feel like sometimes like the haters like struggle to understand. I feel like sometimes they're like, she thinks this shit out and she's and I'm like, no. When I tell you I wake up every morning, I roll out of bed.

I do whatever everybody else does. And then something comes in my mind. I record it and like that's my job. Like I don't think I'm better than anybody else because I have thoughts. No, I literally think that you've been yourself through this life and you've been like rejected and pushed into all these difficult places and you found like your fucking lane that is accepting you. Yes. And the people who come for you, you're like, bitch, I've, I've realized that. And I don't want, like, sometimes, like, when I see comments that are like, oh, I'm upset,

you did this or that. I'm like, no offense, but, like, I don't want you around. Like, if you're going to be that upset and you're going to, you view me as someone who, like, isn't going to make mistakes. Like, I don't want those people watching my videos. I want the people watching my videos who see as equals and Cia's like, you're going to make mistakes. You're living your life.

I'm just watching you as entertainment. I like the people that just acknowledge me for entertainment and, like, we can vibe in real life. And that's the thing. when you start thinking of these people as like a cool girl at a bar who's being mean to you, you're like, no, no, no, the cool girls are like, understand. They're not trying to come for you. It's literally these people you would never fuck with. No, I'm like, yeah, so like when I do the math, and I've never met, this is the biggest thing too. Going out on the weekends is so relieving for me because I meet so many girls in Austin, especially because like Austin's just like a party tourist, whatever.

And there's so many college kids there. Like, I meet so many girls every single weekend. And I've never once, like, had a girl be like, I don't like you or you've done this and it pissed me off. Also, you know the haters, the second they meet you, they want a photo with you. No, exactly. So I'm like, what am I scared of? Like, all of the shit is so fake. When you get big enough, it then becomes cool to like hate on you.

But then you have to come to terms with the fact that like for that many people to hate on you means you have star quality. Well, I think that happened to me. Like, I think it happens to everyone just out of nowhere. Yeah. It's like I felt like everyone was on my team. Like you deserve the most. Yeah. We love you.

How would you not verify? Like that type shit. And it seems like one day you just woke up and everyone was like mad at me. And I'm like, wait, why is everyone angry at me now? It's called the tall poppy syndrome where like if your poppy grows higher than others, then they need to cut you down. It literally just like switch. Wait, did you start during COVID? Like, when was your first pop off?

And I would say that to people. I'm like, I got lucky. Like, I'm very understanding of the fact that like, I mean, I think I'm special because I'm a Leo. But like, I'm very understanding of the fact that I got on TikTok at the perfect time where people were, it was still so cringe. To post videos yourself online, people were like, oh, like that's kind of cringe and people make fun of you. Yeah, I was late. I didn't do it during that time. When did you start?

Like a year and a half ago. Yeah. Like, see, like, a lot of people were like, that's kind of cringy. Like, I don't know if I like that. I saw enough people blow up that I was like, you're stupid if you start posting to not get on the bandwagon and do this shit.

Yeah. So I literally just started posting kind of like diaries or story times or whatever. Just like talking about my life. But you had the balls. You were ahead of the game. I guess I guess I was. I mean, she's a trun set up. I did love, like, I think I have to give like a shout out to like Tanamojo was like

my favorite like, like, growing up, you know, like, So I was always, like, loving the raw stuff. So I feel like that's kind of what it, like, inspired me. Like, all the raw people. Like, I never really love that, like, fake stuff on YouTube that was like, get ready with me, like, a day in my life. And it's like the most beautiful aesthetic. Like, I'm not going to lie, I try to make those videos on TikTok.

And I'm like, let's be honest. When I'm making those videos, it's when I'm the most miserable. I'm hitting my life. I'm crying. I'm throwing up in the bathroom, but I'm, like, burning a candle. This is my nice marble island that I'm renting. This is, I don't own it, but I rent it. And it's going to look so aesthetic in these videos.

But in the inside, I want to die. It's like, when I'm posting these crazy videos, me going off on people when I'm, like, feeling sunshine. And I'm like, oh, life is good. This is a weird reference, but you're the John McEnroe of the internet. Who is John McEnroe? I'm not too young. Okay, so he's a professional tennis player. Oh, my God.

I'm sorry. He's from the 70s. Oh, he's, but he was, like, iconic. But his thing was he would get really mad at the ump and, like, curse him out. And then he would play better. And he had, like, the best personality. Good. I wouldn't meet this minute.

He's still alive? Yeah. I want to meet him. I want to meet him. I'm going to talk about it. John McEnroe is the shit. I feel like it is a thing. Like, I feel like sometimes like...

Because some people thrive on it and then some people wilt. With like, like, I can't do anger. I just cry. Oh, no. Like, I do thrive on it. Yeah. I feel like a part of it. But you're that friend that like I could see in the bar like me being like that person just

did something fucked up and you go, you don't do anything. I got you. Oh. Like my friends are always like, you make me so much more confident. Like Trent, my assistant that I just heard in my little best friend. He literally was like being around you just like the last couple of weeks. Like, I am so much more confident in myself. And I was like, that's crazy.

We're obsessed. And especially because, like, sometimes I'm, like, the most insecure person ever. But, like, you got to fake it to make it. I really believe it. So even if I'm not confident. Everything is smoking mirrors. Everyone is faking their shit, especially in this time and age and TikTok. Like, you got to realize.

You know way more than the fucking 35-year-old CEO somewhere who's trying to tell you shit. And you're going to realize that people, like, if they see that I'm, like, if they see that I'm, like, I'm always crying. I'm so insecure. Like, I hate myself. People are going to feed off that shit. They love, like, haters love, like, looking at. They smell blood.

They won't take a low blow. So I'll get on there every day. I'm so pretty. I'm so funny. Fuck you guys. Or when things are going bad for you, I feel like you're really good at being self-deprecating. Yeah. And not taking your shit too seriously.

No. And I think people, I feel like a lot of the time people think that I'm like, oh, mean girl energy, mean girl energy. And I'm like, no. I hate that is, because think about it, that's the meanest thing you could say to someone. I know. Like, call me ugly, call me whatever. The second you start calling me a mean girl. That's the shit that like hurts me.

They try to hurt you. I am to everybody. I always say that I give people the same energy they give me Like if I meet someone and they're great I will feed into that I will never just be like But I'm telling you if someone gives me that bad energy Like these hate comments do Oh I'm ready to go in

I'll match your energy okay Mess with the bull you get the horns baby And I live by that and they're like you're on social media You can do that yeah I fucking can't I can't love that you're this like teeny blonde That just packs a fucking punch But also like old school 60 minutes out of Pittsburgh I get it

Also now that you're managing someone like he's part of your business Yeah It has been hard to manage him Like what kind of stuff do you have him do Because it is work It is work managing someone I think I definitely like opened his eyes

He was like there's a lot more Like behind the scenes And I thought there was it went into influencing Like I definitely just thought it was gonna be like Oh take a picture okay we're done for the day But we have a lot of fun together I'll say that probably sometimes too much fun Yeah

Like it'll be like mid work day And we'll be like should we go get around And then Haley's calling me And I was like but you guys get done today We're like Um we're at the nails French manicure No but we do get a lot of shit down

And, like, we have a, he has a good balance, I feel like with me. We're like, okay, we have to settle down and get serious. But he's also become, like, my best run outside of work. So it's like, we're doing shots together. We just got tattoos together. Like, we do it all. Well, yeah, because they've become really a part of your life. It's not like you're working in an office.

Like, and your job is you. It's your face. It's so fucking intimate. And you know, all the most personal details. I mean, I give everybody the most personal details on me. But he has to deal with those, like, when I am in those, like, maybe fits of rage and I'm, like, seeing comments that are getting anxiety, he can, like, pick up instantly on like my anxiety and he's like what's wrong like i know you're not like i know your energy just like i just

feel energy shift it's and and he needs to be able to read that on you and also i like to have someone that i know that i don't have to talk to if i like i can go we can just sit together yeah and go on our phones for like two hours and then be like say whatever the fuck we want yeah i don't want to feel like i have to like be polite i don't think i want us to just be ourselves everything is super natural and i feel like that's like the most important thing is like we can sit there on our laptops and like not speak to each other and he'll just make, oh, did you get this done? I'm like, yeah.

Exactly. And he could read you based on how you're feeling. When videos go viral, though, like, you cannot be looking at the comment. Oh, I will say that. When videos got, like, last night I had a video and I was like, this morning, I looked and I almost had like a million views, like, 800,000 views. And I saw one comment that said, who are you? And I was like, I know these are going to be fucking brutal.

Yeah, like, once mine hit the, like, in-cells in-mail stand-up? There's just nothing to gain from it. No. Honestly, having men haters, though, must be so funny. Oh, I love it. Girls are like, they just, like, think really hard. Like, I, that's why I know, like, the girls on who make, like, my red-up page. I know they're women who make my red-up pages about me because it's, like, thinking really hard and, like, catty, mean, girl shit.

No, no men are talking shit about you. Men will be like, this bitch is going to be single forever. Oh, you're ugly. You're fucking ugly. Okay. Like, like, maybe something better. Literally, it's just, like, fat, single, and ugly. I'm like, cool.

If I had a nickel. Like, I wish this were the comment. The girls are like, she's being malicious and she's thinking really hard about this. And I know she's purposely being. And that she has alternative motives. That whole accountability for her to... What the fuck does I even mean? I would make me a boy influencer in a minute

because I know they don't stand that shit, you know? When was the last time you let your pride get in the way of something? So like your ego with like, whether it is like friendships or career? I feel like mostly it's relationships because I never want to say I'm sorry. I'm like, I've gotten a lot better at it though. I've gotten a lot better at being like, yeah, I'm sorry. I'm not going to give like a full explanation like I used to. Or like, I'm not at that point yet where I'm like, I'm sorry because.

cuss and, like, we'll speak out my feelings. But a lot of the time, I'm just like, I don't want to bow down to anybody. Because I feel like my first relationship ever when I was in high school, I feel like I was almost like bowing down to him and never again. I will never bow down to a man again. And I think that's why, like, I have good luck in most of my relationships and like, why I feel like all the men that I've ever dated would date me again. Hey, not to bribe, but I think all the men that I dated would date me again because I'm like,

I hold my ground, you know? Well, the first time you're with the guy who dims your light and you, like, lose yourself in it, you realize, like, I don't care how cool he is if I'm still myself. then I'm happy. Yeah. But if he makes me feel like shit about myself, I don't care if we look good in an Instagram photo together.

If people think he's cool, that is, you're dying inside. And it's so funny because I'm like literally dating right now, like a 28 year old who does like finance shit. I don't even, honestly I don't even what the fuck he does. Doesn't matter.

I know what I don't know. No one knows. But like, you know, people on take up will be brutal to him like when I do post him and they'll be like I hate him and they get so involved and I know like you're putting your life out there

like what do you expect. But like sometimes I read this comment and people like she's way too pretty for him. she's way too good from him and it's just like you don't know he's a great person like yeah everyone has problem no they literally don't know anything and i'm like he treats me so well that it's like it's insane and i see this comments i'm like dude i don't care if you think he's a little fucking nerd or whatever like he treats me way better than i don't want some sexy instagram model oh you know boyfriend i mean famous girls are the worst people in the world i couldn't handle it

i couldn't handle it especially like if a guy i was like i was making a tictox and i was like dating a guy who was like doing like the lip things like oh i want a bad bitch i'd like get the fuck out of here. Like, no, we're not doing that. And plus, I met one guy when I was in community college. It was like this beautiful man who went to community college.

And everyone wanted a piece of that because community college is small, right? And I remember like, I got to talk to him, you know? We got to text a little bit. And the girls hated me. And the girl, like, literally were talking about me on their fintas who went to this college. You know, like, she fumbled her bag

because I was, like, I was, like, other dude, I was dating at the time. Not dating, but, like, you know. And they were like, she really fumbled the bag. I was like, I don't even know you. Like, we go to community college. I was like, who was so pissed about this? But I remember, like, we went to Starbucks together one day,

and I remember he wouldn't shut the fuck up. And I was like, you know what? I actually realized I don't want anyone who's like me. I want someone who's the back opposite. Like, the fact that you had, like, that big of a personality kind of pissed me off. Like, I don't need it. I need that quiet man. Like, I love a man who can keep a conversation.

But he's just like. Well, who's a good listener and who, like, cares about you. Yeah. What's essential? When you see these hot guys dancing on TikTok and these hot guys on Instagram and you forget that that is one percent of what a relationship is, that you have to actually sit with this dude on a couch. and listen to him. I know.

And, oh, God, I'm just having somebody, it can be nice. I feel like having someone in the social media. Like, in that industry, it's nice to have it, like, you know. Yeah. Advice or you guys can kind of know what each other's going through, I guess. But I love the fact that, first of all my friends and my boyfriend, like, they're all normal people who work nine to fives and, like, get up and do their shit. And they could care less. It makes me feel so better.

They probably hold you down. Oh, yeah. Like, when we're out for, like, oh, this would happen in my office job today. And I'm like, I got canceled. guys like they third time this week yeah for the third time this week this is with it and it's like oh my god that you realize like how like I'm serious this job actually is that I'm like this I cannot believe I let this shit get to me like this is my job like my friends have actual real life problems and I'm like someone's pissed me right now because they like my I don't know what the fuck I did but

they're mad at something like I didn't I don't know so you have perspective yeah you have so much perspective of how like how crazy life really is and how lucky I am yeah and that's the only reason honestly probably why most of the time you get hated it's because people do like they're like you're telling me in a heartbeat you wouldn't be taking a job talking out your ass all no one who's happier than you is coming for you oh and I always say like no one who's more like there's no like doctors probably writing hate that's my page like I can guarantee you no fucking surgeon brain surgeons on my page and they're like fuck you I'm like no it's definitely not they're busy being surgeons saving lives yeah like they're busy doing shit I do have to say with the guy

thing one thing I've learned after like dating in my 20s is that tall guys, hot guys, rich guys can be bad people. Oh, bad. And we forget that. That they can be annoying. That they could be like shitty. But society gives you this pretty privilege. We would assume because this guy has a jawline, he's going to give you everything in life that you're looking for. But it's so funny because with girls, I feel like it's almost the

opposite. They're almost like demonized. Like you've got people like Madison Beer that are hot as shit. And I feel like people will come up with any excuse in the books not to like her, tear down her music career or whatever. I'd be like, Well, yeah, they associate hot girls with, like, being dumb and mean and all the shit. And these men are assholes. I'm like, that's why I'm like truly not into like, I'm not sure what the word is, like conventionally attractive men. Like my boyfriend, I think my boyfriend's so hot and so cute. Yeah.

But, you know, I get like, I don't think I can do better than him. Like I'm not dating this like six foot eight tall man with curly brown hair and blue eyes. That's not like, and that's not my vibe either. Like I don't want to date someone where I feel like. My best friend is gorgeous. And I always joke. She likes a short hairy man. Good. That's all she wants. She's like, I'm the hot one. Yeah. He needs to be a literal troll. Yeah. Who makes me laugh. Yeah. That's, literally, someone can make me laugh and someone can just like listen to me. Dude, I dealt with all this shit online because I was with this, like, with this conventionally attractive man. And everyone's like, she's in love with him. She's in love with him. And I'm like, look, did he piss me off and upset me? Yes. He never made me laugh once. I was never going to marry that man. People get way too into online like relationships. That's the thing you. Like my last relationship. And they think they know what's going on.

and you're like you have no idea what went on you you have no because like I had my reality show try to portray it you have your own kind of reality show but they like see it through their line oh like no matter well like they're gonna have their own perspective on it and like my last relationship was like just like it was almost like we got along super well like we vibed we had very good like a connection I guess sorry I almost like threw up I was burping a relatable queen we could shoot the shit back before me and him and I feel like the audience saw that and because he was very charming, whatever, they were like, this is a couple's going to get married,

but it was just kind of like a cute little fling, and like we both liked each other, and it ended and it was whatever. But people online, like, did not want to let that shit go. And I was like, guys, it was like three months. And you're like, I've let it go. Yeah. How are you more emotionally attached to this relationship

than either of us? But also, they'll be the first one to tell you if you want to be heard about something that you should move on and when to move on. Don't even get, I love, like, when I'll be posting. I like post, like, I used to date this. God, I'm such a whore. I was such a whore.

I used to date this guy who six foot four I did from like four years. The girls who know now, now, basically his parents like wouldn't let us date anymore. Like we were dating for a year and a half, two years. Romeo and Juliet. Yeah, oh, it was. It was genuinely Romeo and Juliet era because I basically like made a comment someone on TikTok one time on a live was like

do, does his family like you? And I was like, let's not answer that question. And his little shit of his sister told his family I was talking shit. I wasn't talking shit. Talks I said. It's a general term that they will use to take you down. I know. And so then me and his family were beefing over that. And then someone asked him alive like, well, whatever happened to that? And I'm I'll bully his little sister if I see her again.

Joking. His family's full of like six foot monsters. Like I'm not going to beat the shit out of a six foot person. I'm sorry. I'm not going to fight it all. I'm a princess. I'm not going to fight anybody, first of all. Okay, I talk big shit, but I wasn't going to fight.

Keep in mind at this time, I was 19 years old. I was like, I'm a child. I'm like barely out of high school. And so they were like, you guys can't date and whatever. And so I was like, oh my God. But being with someone who like you don't feel supported by the family's. Oh, it's like a whole thing. We were sneaking out or else he got kicked out of his house.

Like it was a lot. but I would talk about it and at times I would be like oh yeah we're with each other but then his family would like kind of find out or whatever have suspicion so then I'd be like I'm not with anybody

it was just super confusing and me being young and like wanting to post about my life it just made it so much more difficult and people would be like stop talking about it why the fuck do you still talk about it and it's like because this is me

I share my life with you guys and you're processing it the way you want to process it yeah also I'm with an older man so his parents are dead so that is a bonus in so I was gonna say like low key I'm like orphan men

not yeah like not having a date a man where you have to deal with their parents is like nice. And like, but I like kind of put his parents on a pedestal because I've never met them and I was like, oh so you'd be like they're probably the greatest. You don't have to face like what if they were shitty people? And and look I look at him and we never have to be like, who's parents' house do we go to? I'm like, I guess I'm going to my house for Christmas. Get to meet the family. Get to get super close to the whole fan. And the cats. Final question. Okay. What advice? I'm interested in here what you're watching the time? What advice do you give

to people and the listeners on how to cope with your hell? When it's your dark time, you're going through it what are your methods of surviving honestly my animals like that's why i'm like i don't know these people who don't have pets are like fucking psychos to me because i'm like what do you come home to like do you even feel happiness like what the fuck like i walk in my door and even though if i have the shittiest day whatever like my dog is so excited to see me and my cats just like their energy yeah i feel like my cats are like welcome so healing yeah it's like being in my own little home i i love being it which is why like i'm looking into buying a house right now because i'm like you're creating an oasis yeah

Because, like, my apartment's cool. Like, I love it. But I don't own it and it's not mine. It's like, oh, I live in an apartment. I have to see other people. Like, living in my own little sanctuary where no one can fuck with me is, like, the greatest thing ever. Like, I am very much a person who likes to be alone.

And, you know, some people are like, nobody likes to be alone. I love being alone. Me too. I love having. But when we're out, I'll give you 100. Oh, no, same. I'm going to give you 150. That's what I mean.

Like, if I'm out, like, I'm performing me. Like, I am such. I am tired as fuck when I get home on a Saturday night. Table, bitch. Yes. But when I get home, you won't hear from me. Silence. Unless I'm, like, in a rage because I saw something that piss me off.

Then I'm like, da-da-da-da-da. But other than that, like, I can sit there on my couch and not say anything. And then I bring that energy to, I save my energy, okay? Yes. I get your energy from being alone. And once you build it up, then you go, let's unleash the tiger. And then you go out and you let the lion go. What other signs are you?

Oh, fuck if I know. I know. I just like to be like, I'm a Leo. I mean, Leo just makes sense. I wish I was like a triple Lee. I know I'm not that. I wish I was just so I could be like, improve something. Honestly, I feel like you'd get arrested.

Oh, someone who's like a triple-e, yeah, you're a threat to society. You, yeah, you're bad for your own good. Like, you can't be around. Like, us times three? Absolutely not. Absolutely put me back in my mom's pussy. Yeah, no, literally. My parents, I think, are already like, we created a month.

Like, my parents are like, holy shit. Especially now. You're like, oh, you're moving to Austin. Oh, no. Especially then I'm like financially respond. Like, I'm not responsible. Financially independent now. Like, before they could hold shit over my head.

Like, don't do that. Guess what? your car's going to get taken away. Now you're like, we're going to off the phone bill. Now I'm like, I'll post anything I want. Like, I'll be like, I did mushrooms last night. And my parents are like, oh my God. Like, I'm like, what are you going to do?

I'm dad. Kick me off health insurance. Because guess what? I can pay for it now. I can afford it. Like, you're going to start something you can't finish. Dude, that is power. No, seriously, it's the most powerful thing ever.

Because I always got that hell over my head as a kid. Like, we'll take my, we'll take your car away. I'm like, do it. Mm-hmm. What are you going to do? Mm-hmm. now i'm like yeah i'm obsessed with you i love you this was like this was so fun i'm like they're gonna be like i feel like i feel like i don't even ask you a question no i really i feel like there

actually like wasn't any like question i can't even remember the questions i was that it just kind of fumbled into this thing we fumbled the bag to win to win to win and sucks it that's how when you're a leo that's what happens in your leo yeah things just work out for you we just manifested this podcast like she literally was like so you're just going it and i'm like watch watch us well because she just came in here like i was just you know i was just you know i was just you know i just you know I'm, like, the same person that I talk about when I'm like, people are like, oh, my God, you're the same person in real life. So I was like, oh, my God, I was like nervous. Like, what if you're going to get in here and be like, then it's like three, two, one.

Hi. Like, I was scared of that. Yeah, like, I was scared of that happening. So I'm like, I'm like, I'm literally on my phone and that I'm like, Ken. Like, nice to meet you. So I'm like, oh, my God. I'm like, what if it is like that? Like, I don't know how I'm going to handle it because I'm like.

But no, it was like, yo, what the fuck is that? Like, welcome. Let's get this shit started. And I'm like, okay, wow, this was a lot easier. I also, like, knew I was going to fuck with you. Like, I decided it. Oh, yeah. Whether you liked it or not.

Can you imagine, though, if I was, like, horrible? Like, the energy was just, like, not there. Like, what would you do? Like, have you ever had that where, like, the energy was kind of off? See, that's why I couldn't do guest podcast. I've ever, or, like, they're kind of, like, withholding from me. Yeah, you're like, just give me it. And I'm like, we can have a boring pot if you want.

But, like, I want to make this shit. I'm like, I'm just trying to feel something. No, I definitely, like, sometimes I like, I kind of like want to stir the pot a little bit. Like, really is. And how, yeah. Literally the one thing, as my husband being wiser, and I'm like you is when I, younger in my career, I was very loose-lipped. Oh. I was very little.

The only time I get in trouble is being loose-lipped. But it also, what made me funny because, like, you're not overthinking stuff. You couldn't pay me to shut the fun. But as I got, and also, like, I'm going to give him a clip. I need to give him from a bill. I mean, it's being illegal. I'm like, I'm like, I got to give them. Do not.

I'm telling you. I got to get the hate or something to work with. I got to get my love or something. If you do reality TV ever, because you're probably going to be asked, you're either going to blow up, but like it's going to be a nightmare or like it's going to ruin your life. Okay, yeah, so I'm not doing reality. Don't do it. Because, like, you will literally be sitting there and be like, I'm here to work.

Like, what do you guys need me to do? And you won't be mean, but you're going to serve. And then they're going to take it. And they'll be like, how do we make this look terrible? And the people are just beat off of that shit. The more you give them. And you know, as Leo's, we're like, we are here to perform. That's what I mean, like, if I was on The Bachelor, I'm like, you bitchies are lying.

came here to find love no you didn't if i got on the bachelor i'd sit down and i'd be like let's be honest i'm trying to get my instagram followers up engagement's been down lately um i know i'm not gonna fall in love with this man like all these girls here are dumb if they think they're gonna fall in love with this man that they know for like three minutes like i'm not worried about it also i'm only gonna like him because everyone else is liking him and that's just psychology yeah i'm like i don't think i could fall for that shit i think i would if i went on like the bachelor i'd be like there for myself i'd be like they always say second place is first place at the bachelor oh yeah because then everyone's like if they loved you especially for like america's

sweetheart? I would have, Can you imagine? I would end up, I would be like, this is not, this is a misogynistic show. Sometimes I wish it I was America's sweetheart and then I'm like, no, fuck no. I couldn't get away without the shit I do. You know, like some of these people that blew up for being a cute little lip sinkers, like they got to watch their shit. Me being a little loose lip, you know, like people have. That's what is. It's so innocent. You're just loose lip trying to survive in this planet. Yeah, sometimes people forget that I'm 22. You're like I'm 35, like loose lips saying on this shit. Like, I'm 22. I should still be in college right now. Yeah, like,

Like, let me live. And also, like, loose lips, don't let us sink ships. Let us have some fun. We're trying to entertain. Being loose-lipped is not a bad thing. It's like... We're talking about vaginas, by the way. Yeah, I was going to say, I was like, listen, I was like, this goes for body positivity

and everything else. I was thinking the same thing. I was like, if you think a loose lip vagina is, okay, we need justice for the loose lips. Clap your labia because for those loose lips. Ken, where can people follow you? Like, all the shit you're doing, give me the tea. If you guys want to follow me, you can give me a follow on Instagram at Kenyric. I would really appreciate it.

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Like, we were crying, like, when I told her dinner, she had no idea that's right name of the company. And then my manager was like, cheers to Love Mango. My mom was like, wait, what? And my mom's so much, she'll cry over anything. She'll be watching. She'll be like, Kennedy, I just listened to that podcast. Five times in a row. It was so beautiful.

Wait, I hope she likes this one. Oh, yeah. She'll be like, oh, my mom listens to it too. My mom will call me and she, yeah, she'll be like, that was an amazing interview. And I'm like, mom, we literally talked about dicks. Yeah. It was like, it was so funny. She's like, just watching you guys go back and forth.

There was just so much energy. I loved watching. Oh, yeah. People are going to feel like they're on fucking well-buture and after this. Oh, I hope so. Get on it if you have. Well, if it's prescribed. Test it out, prescribe it.

Check with your doctor. Don't listen to us. I can. I can't approve smoking weight, so. Thank you guys for coming to hell. We have to stop this pod. Unfortunately, we could talk for hours. We love you guys.

Talk later. Bye. Love y'all. Bye.