Berner Phone - Ria Ciuffo: Hoes In The Office & Getting High

Episode Date: April 22, 2021

Ria started as an intern at Barstool and is now a full time content creation queen. She smokes, she jokes, and she THRIVES in hell. She opens up about her deepest insecurities, her biggest regrets, and her impressive passion for fast food.--- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/berninginhell/support Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

There you go. We're just the chicks in the office. You're not ho-b bitches in the office. No, and even still, like, hos in the office would be awesome. Hose in the office, people are like, I need to tune into that. I think we have to change the name now. Welcome to Burning Hell. What is up, little devils? It's Hannah burner.

in the dark depths of hell with ria chofo chifo chifo i always do this i get cocky with the italian names and i fuck it up nobody ever gets it right they used to call me quifo like you know when they would say your name in school and they would be like you know if you have a hard name like mine it's c iu ffo who knows how to pronounce that they'd be like is that could do quifo i'm like oh it's chiff oh but that could do some serious damage took i hope we've talked to some about that because that's fucked up yeah no I haven't, but, you know, it is what it is. It is what it is. It made you funny. You guys, Ria is one of the first female hires to be on a podcast at Barstool. Am I right? Yes, actually, the first

female podcast at Barstool ever was chicks in the office. And yeah, I was one of the first women to ever work here. It was just Erica, the CEO. And then we had like one or two sales women who were female and then I was like the first girl content person at barstool so I've been I've been there since September 2016 one of the day ones um chicks in the office if you listen to pop culture like it at all this is the pod you have to listen to three times a week and then they get high and have a podcast called because we got high yes why not in your past have you been in like male dominated spaces and flourish or is this like a first time for you I feel like I've always been comfortable around guys. I feel like I've never really like I have my girl group of

friends like I'm a girl's girl but I can also I feel like it sounds so cheesy to be like I can hang with the guys you know what I mean like it just sounds everyone like rolls their eyes but I've never had really issues like getting along with guys so you're like balls in my face I don't care yeah I mean like I have a brother I have an older brother so being around him and his friends you know also have you had a boyfriend the whole time being a bar stool uh i started off not having a boyfriend but my boyfriend works here so we met here obviously hank part of my take if you listen to part of my take take and yeah we hooked up when i was an intern and i wanted to die like i no joke i i swear to god i i tell the story all the time because i had to be honest with him and

be like yeah i was not like raving about you the next day i not in terms of like I didn't like him because I very much did, but I was so embarrassed of what I had done because I was an intern and I just, I never saw myself as that type of person. It's like a little naughty. Yes. I was like, who is she? Like what? And so I was so disturbed at first, but then obviously, you know, things went well. What advice would you give to people if they have a crush on someone in their office? Because people make it like it's like the worst thing to do, but most of the time those are the only people you know it's fun like it is fun it really is a good time when you're in the I know this is bad advice but whatever you don't listen to me have we ever given good advice you don't know

listen for good advice but you listen for like the real life stuff because I could sit here and be like no you shouldn't date somebody from work but I have been for the last four years and it's been great so it did it does work out for some people depending on where you work because At Barstool, it's like, everyone's, like, friends and, like, family. So it is a lot more relaxed to be able to, like, flirt here and there and have it come across as, like, your friends. So I don't even know any tips I would give to people in the actual workplace in an office. Like, you're like, this is fake weird shit. If you have a warning for people.

There is something called, like, the office crush where it's like, do you like him or do you just work with him at an office and he's the hot guy at the office, which is not. real life and like the like slightly hottest guy becomes looking like Brad Pitt because that's the only guy you see. I think that is so true. I think you're like wait I'm happy second. Yeah. No, no, but like here's the thing. This is how I look at it with my relationship and working here and dating and living together and we're just like always together is that I also after a short amount of time of working I realized that I really wasn't going to be able to date somebody who didn't understand how this place work and how my job works and like how demanding it is at times. You know, like, always being on your phone can be a very annoying thing.

And granted, I do like take my time to be off of it. And so does he 100%. But like there are like weird hours. You know, my boyfriend works until two in the morning some nights. But I know he's here doing the podcast because I'm like, I can walk in the office and see you. You know what I mean? Like usually it sounds sketchy. Like, oh, I need to work until two.

who I am but like I know what he's doing he knows what I'm doing because you might have to do it tomorrow yeah and you guys are in the same industry but you're not like on top of each other you don't have the same podcast it's kind of like my fiance where like he's in entertainment but he's not like in in on reality TV and he could give me like some sanity occasionally but he's also yeah he's not like why are you creating content on your phone you fucking loser and I'm like it's quality premium content you bitch yeah exactly like they get it even though it's different at the same time they're in the same industry so they understand like he Hank produces so he understands from that angle of like yeah you got to like

be producing content so during quarantine it was like yeah he'll film my TikToks and he'll be like all right I'm going to give you from like one to two you got an hour of my time and like we're going to make this TikTok so oh my god a guy that loves being behind the scenes gets me so horny because it means they're confident in themselves and they're like yes baby shine you're just like yes yes yes What made you feel like you had a voice that people cared to listen to? First, starting out here, like, the guys here very much encouraged me to make content. And they were like, you should do it. And I was always like, I don't know, like, why anybody would want to listen to me or whatever.

And then when Fran and I started doing chicks in the office, and at first it was the radio show before the podcast. And as it was going as the radio show, we had a lot of people interested in that in the Instagram as well. And they were like, well, why don't we start the podcast? and Fran and I were like like who there's so many podcasts and this was in 2018 like there are way more podcasts now like at the time we were like there are so many podcasts who wants to listen to us and they were like just just try it out as like a best of from your radio show and I remember the first episode did like way more than they projected like way more and we were like oh so we should have been doing this the whole time like that's when I realized like people really did care about

what we were talking about just from posting on Instagram. And that's when I realized like, okay, I like have something here. Like we can do this. We started doing it once a week. And it was like, people wanted more. And that's when we started seeing like, we want twice a week. Now we're at three times a week. So not to put you on the spot, but you're hot, you're funny, you're smart.

You have amazing Instagram content. You seem very confident in yourself. What do you hate about yourself? Oh, so much. I mean, so much. And this is the thing, I feel like that's kind of an image of myself that I've been wanting to shed a little bit of, like in the past year, I would say, because I feel like I was kind of like putting on like, oh, like perfect like pictures on Instagram or whatever. And like I can take some really good pictures. I can also take some really bad pictures. And I'm, I'm actually very insecure. I really am. It's something that I have not have struggled with my whole life. It was actually I. I. never struggled with it growing up, to be completely honest. But it was when I first started working here and like being on camera more and seeing myself on so many different angles and platforms,

like, uh, you know, just in every way that you would never normally see yourself, right? Like, like, just everything. I'm just like seeing myself all the time. And I got to a point where I was like, I don't even know what I look like anymore. Like I would look in the mirror and I'd be like, I don't even know what I really look like is what like the people they're saying about me true like I would only see what somebody had commented about me like say like my nose or my eyebrows or my arms or like whatever it is I look in the mirror and like that's all I see like it just like stands it like really stands out to me and honestly that's something that like really really affected me from I'd say the middle of the summer this past year up until up until like

like March, I would say I got a lot better in the beginning of March is when I really started seeing everything turn around for myself. But that period of time was really dark in a way that like I really hated myself. I did not. I thought I was like the most annoying person to listen to because when you're talking a lot and I do three shows a week with chicks in the office, we do because we got high once a week. We do the group chat every single day. We do our daily videos and then we do the bachelor stuff at night. And it was like, I'm hearing myself talk all the time and I get it like I get why people think I'm annoying and like I started like falling into that like yes I have an annoying laugh yes I hate my voice like I am so annoying and it got hard for me to like

be motivated to get out of bed especially when the goal is to make people entertain not annoyed them and you're like am I just like torturing people with my voice every day that's what I thought I was like why am I even like if everybody hates me because you see a few comments and you take that and you're like, oh, that's what everybody thinks about me. And so that's how I thought every day. And I was like, I just, I don't even want to live with myself. I can't even imagine anybody wants to, like, consume my content. And yeah, so I hate a lot of things about myself.

But I would say it has really turned around in the past month or so. I feel so much better. I don't, and this is going to sound fucked up. What do you think happen? I, this is what I'm going to think I think happen. I know it's deeper than this, but feel me out. feel me out it's hear me up feel me up feel me I literally made a TikTok the other day and I said feel me out and it was my first TikTok that went viral and people are just commenting like did she mean

hear me out anyways is it just me or this girl's voice really annoying yes exactly exactly do you remember when I dyed my hair black and then the white stripes in front yes so I loved that right and I didn't think at the time that I was going through a mental breakdown but looking back I'm like What happened? You're like, no friend was going to be like, are you good, bro? Nobody stopped me. Nobody stopped me. And I have to be honest, like, I really felt like my boyfriend hated it, but he wouldn't

admit it to me. But I really felt like he hated it because he had known me as a blonde for the amount of time I've been dating him. And all of a sudden, I dye my hair black with white stripes in front. Like, I could see how that could be like, whoa. And he just wouldn't, he wouldn't let him. You hate it. Every day.

I was like, you hate it, you hate it. And then I just died. it then it just went to straight black and I was still miserable and then I dyed it to brown and that's when things like started changing and now I got the blonde highlights back in and I'm like I'm myself again I have like I sound so messed up but I truly think it I definitely had something going on mentally for sure that's definitely why I died my hair in the first place and got a dog like randomly in the middle of the summer obviously there was something up But then dying back, I all of a sudden feel normal again.

I don't know. I don't know. So I don't think this is crazy at all because it actually shows if you're upset, don't just keep doing what you're doing. And it was like kind of healthy for you to be like, okay, I'm going to fuck some shit up. Like if I don't feel happy in this space right now, I'm going to go sexy Corolla Deville. I'm going to figure it out. I'm going to keep moving.

And like a key to is like keep moving. And also it sounds like you weren't taking yourself too seriously to be like, oh, everyone thinks I'm not pretty or whatever. Then fuck you. I'm going to do this crazy thing with my. my hair like who is rhea um but it's hard to see yourself through the lenses of people who are projecting their own shit onto you especially like angry men right exactly and that's a lot of it online like random just like men in their basement obviously like another thing was just like

a lot of comments about my weight which is something that I never like I said I just never really struggled with that growing up to be completely honest and so it was it's kind of like my first time, like really, I did struggle a little bit in, I only went to college for like a semester, whatever, but in that one, or two semesters actually, but in there was a space in between because I transferred college as a whole big thing, whatever. I did go through some like bad anxiety and depression in that one period of my time, but it was like something that was like so rare and like just, I got over it quickly. Whereas this, I think was the first time I was like really experiencing it deeply. The pandemic has been a self-reflection, but like also

like the haters can be so fucking loud yeah and anywhere else to go like i said the stuff about my weight and how i said like i didn't struggle with that but then i started struggling with it a little bit like in in the past year because i of course gained some pounds during quarantine like of course i did yeah we're not moving yeah but by no means am i like unhealthy like you know what i'm saying like it's it it just it's not making sense to me that things that people are saying And like I said, I would look in the mirror and I'm like looking at my body and I don't even know what it looks like. I'm like, oh, okay. You know, my arms are like really flabby and big.

But also I remind myself, I'm like, why does that even matter? Like even if they are, who cares? Like, whatever. This does remind me of like in college, everyone started telling me I have short legs in a long torso and like your girl didn't know that about herself. And then suddenly I'm like, do I have stubby legs? So like what you're going through, it's like you're good and you're. body and then people are trying to like pick apart little things and also it's like what's wrong with like having whatever you like oh i have meat on my arms i have a muscle on my arm even if it is that way

even if it is true why are you saying it in a negative way towards me like that's i think and i've i've like come around on that where i'm like well whatever you know i do think being in a similar industry like it's almost like our job is like we just have to keep showing up every day like especially with the ups and downs like people hate you people love you people think you're annoying people think you're ugly and it's like as long as you keep showing up like you're going to be okay why did you decide like fuck college i grew up going to i was like an actor model kid i like oh yeah i know i know crazy i went to the city like i'm from long island and my dad drove me into the city at least three four times a week i was doing auditions classes go sees which is like

the modeling stuff photo shoots stuff like that ever since i was eight years old. And so my parents knew that I really just wanted to be an entertainment. But when I got to high school, I stopped. Like, there was a time in ninth grade. I went to a Catholic high school, Catholic private high school. And the way that they do testing is so weird and different than like any other school. At the end of the year, we would take something called a comp. And it made up 50% of your grade. So like no matter what you did that entire year, right? Like say you were you got straight 95s the whole year. If you fucked up on that test and got a 55, like that's going to fucking drop your whole grade. For me, I was stupid the whole year and got like 70s. And then the

comp is where I'd fucking go in. I would like take Adderall and stay up for like 60s straight and study so hard and get like a 95. And then finally I'd be bumped up. But this counts for 50% of your great so this this is like my time to shine I go into this audition and like I said I've been doing it since eight years old and I hadn't really booked a big thing like I didn't book that that big role I did a lot of photo shoots and shit like that but commercials nothing big I'm going to this audition I say to my parents I'm like if I don't get this role like I'm done I thought I crushed it I had to do like a Russian accent I don't know where that came from the first I had to do an accent in an audition And I walked out there.

I was like, I crushed that. If I don't get it, I'm done with acting. Next day, next day my manager calls my dad. It's like, she booked it. She booked the role. So it was this movie called The Contest on Cartoon Network. It's a movie out. It's out now.

It's out now. Whatever. It's been out. We're like, great big break. It's happening. It's happening. My dad calls my school and it was starting to film on the day of those comps. My dad calls my school.

He's like, listen, you know, she finally got this, this part. she's going to have to film. Is there any way she could take the test on a different day? And they're like, no, she's going to have to go to summer school. And my dad's like, well, she can't go to summer school. She's going to be filming a movie. Like, what are you not getting? And they were like, then you're going to have to take her out and put her in public school. And I had never been to public school in my whole life. So I was like, no, I can't go to public school. No, yeah. I was just like, oh my God, public school. They're like going to like be so mean to me and like bully me. And oh, my God. So annoying. Now, looking back, I'm like, I wish I went to public school.

but I just like cried about it so much and at that point in time I was like I want to be in my school with my new friends I don't want to do this acting shit anymore fuck it and then I just stop one of my biggest regrets because I really think if I kept going I really could have nailed something that's what I tell myself but now I didn't do the movie no didn't do the movie and then I just stopped acting from that point on because I was like if I'm not going to be able to do anything and like I just I was so weird where I was like I was like I was like I was so weird where I was like I just need to be in school with my friends. You know, I was meeting all these new boys and just like... That's also like you being a normal teenager. Right. I just wanted to do that. So I... And if your parents forced you, you probably would have had animosity, I feel like.

Exactly. But my parents were always so cool. And that's why I think with the college thing where I ended up, I went to Pace in the city for film. Oh, nice. Hated it. Drop dropped out. Worked as a pharmacy tech at a pharmacy on Long Island near my house.

And then I went to FIT the next semester. And then the same time I started at FIT was the same time I started my internship at Barstool, things picked up. We were actually, the reason I really dropped out was we were supposed to be on the Amazing Race. And it was starting like in September and we were like, okay, we're not going to go back to school. They ended up not putting us on the Amazing Race and we were not enrolled in school. So we were like, all right, fuck it. That's it. And then we just started as full-time employees at Barstool.

Fran and I did the same exact thing. Oh, my God. okay so why do you think you and fran have such great chemistry i think we are so different but also the same like we really yeah like we really have different personalities but we really get each other at the same time like we we love the same things first of all we have all of the same interests like we just we really it's hard to explain when you have that connection with somebody but i know that fran and i just get each other like no matter if we have totally different these the way we speak is different like everything about us can be different we're going to be on the

same page though like always like we are always like even around other people like we always just feel safe with each other we're like we just know each other at this point and we just get it i think that's our page and i had so much fun in your guys podcast if you haven't listened chicks in the office with me and page because there was so much good like friendship energy happening and people are always like you and page are so different i'm like yeah because i'm sick of myself i don't need a friend that is exactly like me And they bring you to see things differently, but you have the same sense of humor. So you're always like, I don't know. It's just, it's nice to see you guys like flourishing for so long.

But you've probably had some like riffs in terms of like working together. Do you have any advice for like keeping a friendship healthy while working together? Fran and I, we really, we are, we are very close friends, definitely. But we do not hang out all the time. Like that's, that's, we do not hang out every weekend. And, you know, that's, we don't have the same group of friends. Like, that's not how we are as friends. But we do sometimes go out.

There will be nights where we go out together. Obviously, we hang out. We are friends. But we are not, like, on top of each other in our personal lives, I would say. At work, we are. Obviously, we work together so much. But we really keep it like, I feel like Fran definitely, since she is not dating somebody here, and she definitely has more.

of like a private personal life separate from bar stool than I do like my world is more intertwined with bar stool so she kind of steps out of that and then that's I feel like that's how it works for us I feel like if we like hung out all the time as well as work together all the time like it would be a little much yeah I totally think that's very healthy and you don't have to like force the relation to be like we're best friends right so we have to know everything all the time and it's like let's enjoy each other and give each other space to breathe oh we text all the time like we you know what I mean like we're we're we have something to tell each other we do that but yeah we're not like hanging out every second also chicks in the office the concept like it almost feels to me like you

took the word that like can be used like oh look those chicks and you kind of embraced it and made it your own how did it feel to be the token girls well so the way the name the name came uh the name came about was a guy in our office he used to always joke around when a girl girl would come into barcel because it was like whoa a girl at barcel they'd be like whoa chicks in the office like make that joke and then fran and i were like let's just take that for ourselves yes and we're the chicks in the office and it was at first a little bit people were like we don't love that name like chicks like why are we calling ourselves chicks why are women calling themselves chicks and we're like who gives a fuck like chicks is not a bad word we're not we're i'm not personally

offended by that name so there you go we're just the chicks in the office you're not ho bitches in the office. No, and even still, like hose in the office would be awesome. Hose in the office, people are like, I need to tune into that. I think we have to change the name now. It has been hos in the office. It's so funny because Giggly Squad was from a man like yelling at us. Like that's giggly squad and I was like, that's amazing. Thank you. I will be a giggler. I also think, do you ever feel pressure in terms of like the concept of bringing female humor to bar stool because I just watched the Netflix documentary. Oh, not Netflix, FX documentary hysterical about like female comics in New York City. And just how like, even recently it was like

girls are funny. And it's like, did you ever feel like you had overcompensate or have more pressure since you're representing all the chicks in the world being in that office? No, no. I have to be honest. Like I was very, and this is something I just talked about recently on somebody else's podcast that I wish I had the same level of like no self-awareness that I did when I first started like I was so I was so comfortable with myself like I when I first started I was so comfortable with myself too comfortable I look back I'm like why would you do something like that why would you say something like that like that's crazy no self-awareness I still I still think I'm self-aware and I'm probably not like you know now I'm too self-aware it's a whole thing but I I just was

so comfortable with myself that I never even questioned if I was funny. I actually, I know what happened. I remember it to this day. I'll hold on to it because I'm like, this is what was like, oh, okay, I got this. There, we did one thing. I was an intern and we used to do Barstool Idol. And this was one of the first content things I did where they were like, okay, Rhea, you're going to read the comments from people online that are watching Barstall Idol. And so that was my job. And so they were like, all right, let's kick it to Ria for some of the comments. I was reading them, but I guess my delivery or the way it came across, like, people loved it. And I remember as soon as Barstle Idol ended, Dave was like, coming to my office.

And I went to it, went into his office. And he was like, you're funny. And I was like, thanks. And he was like, I didn't know that you were like funny. Like, you know you could like make content like here. Like if that's what you want to do, try it out. And then from that moment, I was like, okay, I guess I got the green light here. I can, I'm funny.

There you go. So I feel like I felt comfortable with that. And then I never really overthought it. There are times. where I'm like, do people think I'm trying too hard to be funny? This is just who I am. I'm not trying too hard to be funny, but I could see how people could be like, oh, she's trying too hard to be funny.

It's so funny how, speaking of funny, it's funny how I feel like me and you have experienced them are things where like the haters will say things like, they're annoying, which is like a common thing that people say about women who take up space or like they try too hard. And it's like, yeah, I'm trying to entertain you fuckers. Exactly. People always say. Like you want me not try?

Right. people are always like you are looking for attention i'm like yes yes i am posting i'm posting on i my job is to get your attention what are you not getting i wouldn't have a job if i didn't get your time i literally get paid to get people's attention that's what it is it's as simple as that and people think it's a bad thing but you are now giving me the attention by saying that i just crave attention and it's like yes i crave attention because everybody who is working in this field is craving attention because they have to. We have problems. Nobody who's making content or podcast or anything is like, nah, don't give me the downloads. I don't even want the audience and doing this, you know, just for me. It's like,

no, we're doing it to entertain people. We have holes in our heart that need to be filled by attention and the security of other people who don't need that. It's great. But like, yeah, like there's the consumers and the people who create. But I do remember pageant, were doing Instagram lives every night during quarantine and we'd never done that kind of like intense content i remember one day she was like i don't know if i could be funny today and i was like i know but i'm like when we don't try we're really funny and i'm like let's try not to be funny today and i have had moments where like when you get to in your head of trying to perform well in a pot or something that like you actually aren't your true self but i've come in like hungover tired and people are like that's

the best you've ever done and i'm like oh this really because i've been trying too hard actually always always it's the drunk or hungover episodes where people are like oh my god that was the best and we're like we can't do that all the time we just can't deliver like that all the time but I also think you mentioned like we have like a hole in our heart that is only filled with attention but I also think that there's a part of it where it's like we love to entertain people and make people laugh right like getting that satisfaction of somebody being like you made my day that was so funny or you know that's just put a smile on my face like as cheesy as it sounds is like the best feeling ever because you're like wow i just how i consume other people shit and i'm like oh that was so funny i'm so glad

i listened to that that was awesome it's like people feel that way about us yeah and i love the idea of you wake up and like nothing's there and then we actually create something out of nothing that brought some joy to someone's life and that's like in the simplest form what we want to do but i also think it's funny i was trying to research you and stalk your ass, but like, there's not a lot of, like, you're, you are Rhea from chicks in the office and you're killing it. And there's not, like, more in depth of, like, who you are. And I think this has kind of given me a lot of insight to, like, it makes so much sense that you are this kind of, like, content star. And I hate to use the word star because it's corny, but it's true.

But it's because, like, you came from a life of, like, entertaining and you just have that star quality. And then Barstool put you in a place where you were able to kind of, like, grow up in front of people and, like, have your stronger. And, like, you're from Long Island. You have a great sense humor you probably are surrounded just naturally by funny people in your life um so we love that for you thank you so much i i really appreciate it honestly i feel like people have that same people who have listened who have been listening to ticks in the office obviously the listeners like know me by now and and whatever but i feel like a lot of people if you know the exact story of how i got into barstle which is i went to high school with glennie balls who works here and he got an internship

I texted him being like, congrats. And he was like, actually, they're looking for a girl. Boom showed up and was hired that same day, like by Caleb, who obviously works here as well. And it was like sort of like a joke funny thing. And so people are like, oh, this random girl from Long Island who fucking was friends with Gondy Balls, like whatever. But there is so many years in my life that I put into trying to be an entertainer of some sort. So I feel like it did work out in some way. 100%.

also you've been in the game for a long time how do you feel with pressure of like trying to continue to create the great content or like being better or you know redefining yourself like what kind of thoughts go into your head in terms of having a long term career as an entertainer it's always on the brain like i am always thinking of what could happen or what's next what's the new idea and I feel like naturally it comes like I think I thought this way as soon as we started the podcast I was like who's going to listen to the podcast and then you know I'm like I'm settled in with one time a week this is good and now it's three times a week plus another show and I think things just happen naturally so I don't put too much pressure on myself because I think back to

the past of how it has kind of just like unfolded by me continuing to work hard every day There's not I the only day that I don't work is on Saturday really like you know so it's like if I'm still using all my tools every single day like something's just going to pop up like things have just popped up and it just keeps on going you nailed it it's like the only thing you can control is how hard you work and you can't control those like little opportunities that I mean in your life and show business you know how they come and go come and go but your like stamina and just showing up every day is the most important so we respect that. We're going to play a quick game. I'm excited. I love a game. Actually, we have two games, but they're not really games. I'm just asking you questions, but it's more fun when you say game. Heaven or Hell.

So Heaven or Hell, you're going to tell me if you think it's heaven or hell. Doing TikToks, what do you think? Oh. You go, this is a complicated dark question. It is a complicated one. Can I talk it out or is it like? Yes. Hell yes. Talk it out. Take your time. Unpack it. For me, making TikToks is like,

I want it to be heaven, but it's, it's, it's hell. It's, it's so hard. I feel like I, people find it so easy and I just, I'm only changing my mind on what I want to do for TikToks. And I feel like what works on TikTok a lot is like doing the same thing over and over again or even just for any content in general, but I don't know. I like doing it. So maybe I'll just put, it under heaven to be nice like i don't hate i love ticot so i'm not going to put it under hell in that way but i would say it's it's hard to figure out when you're so used to doing something else like yes come from ticot we've gotten our identity through like other shit yes so that's why it's like what's my what's my voice what's my ticot who am i on there i don't know am i on there but then like the lowest come

denominator sometimes pop off on ticot and i'm like i just had to like hop like repeat that person's voice like just put the voice and then like say it and then it blows up and then you're like but this is what I've been taught. I've been taught to be creative. I just, I had one blow up the other day that I've been trying to get my TikToks to blow up, right? You like, think about it all the time. This one, I was like, I'm going to make this so fast, whatever. Just absolutely popped off. I was like, are you joking? Like, I'm like putting in time to think about these things. This one I made in the second. Like, I guess that's just the way it has to go. I don't know. Yeah. Yeah. Well, we're trying. We're definitely. They make me feel old as fuck, but I'm trying my best.

Well, wait, can I, um, you said that makes you feel old, right? I'm 23 and I feel old on the app. And I think that's a bad thing. Like, I think that's a bad thing because I'm very young. I can acknowledge that. Yeah. I hate that it makes me feel like older than I am. I can't figure it out.

I always say like I feel like it's weird because it's hard to navigate naturally, but then it's also super weird because now I have a crush on like a 14 or name chase and we're working on that but also you carry yourself like a 32 year old i got to stop doing that don't you think no no but like do people tell you that because like i don't get that vibe from you at all fuck like honestly straight up i'm gonna say something that i didn't even want to talk about publicly but i'll have to say it we were in aruba last week and um this like group of guys from the netherlands like just like wouldn't leave fran and i alone right and we just like we're like uh you know what i mean like we were being nice obviously i don't want to like right away be like i have a boyfriend like i know

they're like this is the thing they do they're they live they're from the netherlands they live at aruba like they're talking to girls every night like they're whatever i have a boyfriend leave me alone so i was like whatever like answering comments here and there and then fran was like how old do you guys think we are and i was like oh god fran like what and and he said that Fran he guessed 28 or 29 and then for me guessed 30 and I literally almost jumped into the ocean and was going to drown myself because I couldn't fathom first of all like Fran is older than I am and I could see people like getting us confused in age but I I was like what 30 like I just oh my God I couldn't even it's one of those things where I'm like do I have to I I don't think I like, I don't even think, I don't even think I like dress older or anything. I think I like dress my age and like in that way. But maybe it's just the way I present myself.

You are 21. Physically, girl, you are, yeah, you are thriving. Thank you. It's, you just have a sense of maturity and like confidence in yourself that it takes people, especially women, a while. I feel like me in my early 20s, I know what the fuck was going on. I would just giggle at everything because I just wanted everyone to like me. And like, it took me a while to even. and just like look at myself in the mirror

and be like, okay, what do we want to do? I thank you. It's a compliment to you. I appreciate it. And I also, I hate ageism in the workplace. I always feel like experience doesn't mean shit. Like, they even have done tests of, like, doctors who have way more experience.

The younger one who's, like, more cares more can do better surgery. And I just feel like it's great to see a young woman in the workplace killing it because I remember being young, like your age, and I felt like no one fucking listened to me ever. just because I was like young and still had acne yeah I feel really fortunate and lucky honestly it's one of those things that what do they call an imposter syndrome where you're like what like

I don't think this should be happening to me I've had to deal with that a little bit in terms of like I'm so young very successful but what's going to happen in a few years from now is it going to go all downhill because everything's happening to me so fast I think I peaked but I I I feel like those are just anxiety thoughts yeah exactly I feel lucky, though, because I know that just to get to the level that I have or shows that I have, it takes a lot of people, a lot of years to get, like, their foot in the door. Well, I also think that you got your foot in the right door, but you also, like, found your niche. Like, it took me when I was, after I, I played college tennis, then I went into sales,

then I went to marketing. And I was just not even close to my, like, purpose. And I just had to keep getting, like, door shut in my face until I was like, wait, I like comedy. And then somehow I ended up on a reality TV show, but we're, we're, that was a mistake. Um, okay, next question, heaven or hell, having just like a date, chill in with like takeout. Do you like it? Do you hate it? Heaven.

Ooh. What's your like go-to nighttime thing that you like to do to do besides like blow jobs and sexual stuff? Watch TV and watch a movie and do you have the same taste in Netflix and food? we definitely have the same taste in food that's important we're both like trash eaters like and you're so enabling you're like you know we can only make this love better some chicken fingers and you're like yeah yeah yeah like on my taco belt right now please like we're like really bad at that really bad um movies and TV I'm really good at getting him to watch whatever I want but he's not good at getting me to watch because I'm always like really you want

watch that and he's like i will he's like i'll watch literally anything you put on because his whole his whole thing is like my boyfriend honestly is going to sound so cheesy is super fucking chill like about everything no joke about everything it's crazy it's crazy i don't know how he's like i will give anything a shot i will watch everything one time through and i'll let you know how i feel after i'm like that's great i don't feel that way i'm not going to waste my time when i could be watching high school musical for the 500th time. I don't know. Well, I'm dating an older guy who's 45 and the pro is he wakes up at 6 a.m. So by 9 p.m. 830 out. So I'll be like, oh, do you want to watch this? And he's like, no. And then I just wait. You start hearing the snore and you're like,

and it's my turn. It's a party. But you still feel like you're with him. That's awesome. You got free rain. Yes. It's a full party. But you're doing what you're on your phone. You're watching TV. I'm like literally doing TikTok. Yep. Yep. Yep. I know exactly what you mean. Okay, heaven or hell, putting on a full face makeup. Hell. But I do it every day for work because I'm like, I'm on camera all the time I got it. But I hate the way makeup feels on my face, and I hate the way it smells. I don't know why it's this new thing that I have a problem with the way mascara smells.

And it's very weird. I can't deal with it. and I immediately the first thing that I do when I get home from anywhere is take my makeup off within five minutes like drop my shit I'm taking off my makeup right away it's not even a question like you know how people will go out and they'll fall asleep drunk in their makeup yeah that's your nightmare absolute nightmare would never do that I would never fucking do that even in my drunkest most disgusting fucked up nights I'm taking off my makeup can't also I don't stereotype but as an italian i'm so greasy that like by the end the makeup has become just like

so shiny and melting on me that i'm just like i'll take my nail and it'll just like come off and i just i mean you can see me right now like i'm shining shot i just i just white i just gracefully swept my face and i have oil pouring off my fingers this is good they say it's good though for your like i don't know aging but um also i do have to say as someone who loves a cat eye you're quite good at the cat eye like you really nail it thank you I think that's my signature thing I don't know you know I've always I've always wanted like a signature thing I think it's I think it's the cat eye I've been doing it forever and I actually remember my friends in high school knew they knew I was going through a breakup when I came into into school one day and I didn't

have eyeliner on and they were like what happened no joke they were like what is happening something's wrong and and that that night i had been broken up with so yeah to anyone who wants to feel yourself put on some cat eye put on a hoop i don't care big hoop little hoop whatever and live your damn life yes yes bitch gold hoops in a cat eye every day every day that is the outfit the uniform of being a badass biatch okay now we're getting a little dirty heaven or hell um licking a butthole hell straight up i'm not gonna i'm not gonna fake it i don't want to lick any assholes i've gotten my asshole licked i don't want to lick any assholes and i haven't i'm not gonna lie about it i don't want to lick an

asshole at all you can lick mine but i'm not going to lick yours straight up okay last one i love that one you were like so sure about the other ones you're like let's unpacked no no that one i just i am like uh that like literally i don't know why i just can't i mean i could think of reasons why but yeah no yeah you're like i don't know why society makes it like i wouldn't want to um okay heaven or hell summer house being the new cast member oh my god heaven honestly i love that show i honestly i think that i would have such a good time is this my official invite maybe this is this how it begins i might know someone yo honestly honestly i think for Grant and I would be great additions to Summer House.

I'm just saying. I don't know if they need any more just like two basic white bitches coming in the house. But if they do, sign us. Or at least like bar stool. I mean, your guys are probably in the works like doing a full reality show of what the fuck is going on. But yeah. I don't know. I don't think like it is ever.

Like we've always thought about that. Even when I went the office, people were joking about it. Well, we do stool scenes, which is like the. office reality show but it's not people's real lives it's all real what everything that happens in the office but it's not like following like the drama yeah that happens between people here and stuff like real juicy stuff and like people's personal lives you know i we were just talking about this the other day something me and somebody else here we were like how we would become like you know how there's like the la influencers that everyone cares about like i feel like barcel has a potential

to be like the new york influencers like we're in new york and If people would just talk about their real personal lives on camera, but it's not like anybody's going to do that when we don't have to do that already. You're like, someone needs to cheat on someone with someone and let's get the party started. Yes, like let's give the trauma. But I understand that people, like we already make content here like unless they came to everybody with a fat ass paycheck. And they were like, we're doing a Bravo reality show. Everyone's getting paid this.

And I think people would do it, but they're not like, we're not going to give this out for free. Yeah. Interesting manifesting. Yeah, I don't know. I like this. Okay, well, thank. Also, Ria and I, I've known about her. And someone hit me up and was like, Ria is going off on how much she loves Summerhouse. And you need to connect with her. So, like, thank you to whoever's DMing me and the people who were, like, hit me up. Because I was like, okay, this is good energy. We need to follow this. I was so hyped. I started watching Summerhouse, was binge watching it.

I actually only started with the episodes that you and page are in. So I think what season did you guys come in? Yeah, so season three and on. I just watched the episode from last week, last night, actually. A little risque, you guys, a little risque around the house. Lots of PDA going on. But, no, I love Summer House. And I was so excited when you DM me.

I was like, oh, this is so cool. Like, I was just watching it on TV. I feel like I see other female conference. and creators and I'm like oh like they're so cool and then I find out they know who I am and then I'm like wait this is my chance this has happened to be like multiple times in the past it actually happened like back to back with you and page and then um Kelsey Creple who is she dates Cody Co and she like has her own YouTube channel and I love her I think she is so fucking funny like seriously so funny and she followed me and I was like oh my and I had been following her for

a while and I was like oh my god she follows me and then she de-empted me and I was like I have been waiting like who was going to DM each other first so I love that I love when like people mutually know each other and they're just waiting for someone to make the first move I was joking with Fran because I've gone to the office a couple times and I went to the bathroom and I saw her and immediately I kind of smiled like I knew her and she smiled like she knew me and then we both realized we don't know each other and we were kind of walking past and I was like I don't know what that was but I think it was good like you're like should I say hi which is by the way I think that going forward that should be the way everybody lives their lives is like if you think you should say hi to somebody say

hi because I've I've started to do that and granted there are a lot of misses like sometimes sometimes around the office with people who work here yeah but like hey and like I don't get a high back and I'm like okay I'm next time I know noted we're not saying hi we're not saying hi but I think you just got to go for it because it's always better if you're just nice because then people remember, oh, she said hi to me. Yes. And I think people are always way more intimidated in their head. And, like, I know we have masks on, but, like, a smile goes a long way.

You can see it in the eyes. You're killing it on burning hell because you came in full force. You were like, yeah, I hate myself. And then, like, you survived and got through it really easy. So you kind of tricked me on that. What did you, did you think I was going to be like, I love myself? No, no, no. I love.

But, like, normally I have to, like, push people to get there. And you were just like, yeah, this is me. Like, this is what I'm fucked up about. And we're working on it. And I was like. Yeah, I'm pretty open. I'm pretty open. There's really nothing that, like, I won't talk about in any sort of setting.

Even, like, in life and friends, people on podcasts, like, I really don't care. Yeah, and I think... I love talking about things. And that's why you do what you do. Right, right. So we're going to try to get a little darker with the final game, the final boss, the seven deadly sins. Seven Deadly Sins. What are you going to do?

greedy about? I'm greedy about, here's something. Here's something very honest. I think I'm greedy about attention from like my boyfriend, but I don't think that maybe I reciprocated as much as he does to me. Does that make sense? That is hilarious because I will go straight up to my boyfriend and be like, give me attention. And then once I have enough, I walk away. Right. I'm like a cat. Or I'll just like go on my phone and he's like that's it and I'm like I it's like just because I made out doesn't mean I'm trying to have sex right now yeah it's not it's not like I it's nothing personal it's just I feel like how we are sometimes that I just feel like that's sometimes women just we need a little attention and then we want to be by ourselves yeah you you want a little affirmation but

I do think it's funny that sometimes like I'll just like I want like a good kiss but then like guys will think that we're going all the way and I'm like no sometimes I just like a nice good solid meaningful kiss a little soul behind it but I don't need to get like I'm not going down on you right after it I'm just I just like I didn't feel the passion in the first one yeah like a redo I do it all the time I'm like you do that I didn't that wasn't that wasn't yeah or when I say like you mean it yeah yeah when I say love you and I or like when I text about my boyfriend love you and he writes love yeah I'm like why yeah and not you it's like we've been dating for over four years it's like I get it he loves me and does he'll be like love you and I'm like why are you saying that

joky voice like yeah yeah yeah yeah do you think I love's a fucking joke anyway this is yeah when you're bored because like you're not playing games anymore and you know you love each other and you're just like let's stir some shit up for no reason it's got spicy do you have any advice for four years right how to keep things exciting hmm here's here's the thing I think that get so lucky in your relationship that the other person is very like always something different. Like honestly, Hank has ADHD and it's not like a serious thing. But I think it like comes out in his personality where it's like there was always something exciting.

You know, there's always a different thought. And I think we're both kind of like that where it's like I'm pretty dramatic in ways that are not always bad. Like I'm very passionate about things. I'm very excited about things. And I think he is sort of the same way. So it never gets, it never gets boring. It sounds like you authentically like each other. Like it's not just love. Like you really enjoy it. And then I think naturally then the sex just comes naturally after that because you're like, okay, we still like each other on a personal level. We still like each other on a sexual level because I feel like the sexual attraction stops when you start like hating them as a person as well. Because you're like,

why do I even want to have sex with this person that I hate? Exactly. And it just like unravels, you know. Fingers crossed that things keep going. I was planned, you know, four years feel like we're in deep. Yeah. Well, I do think a lot of relationships after six months, you'll get bored if it's not right. But then if you authentically really like enjoy the person and have the same like stupid

similarities, like the same taste and shitty food and, you know, the same jokes and little things that makes you want to fuck them. Yeah. Because, yeah, women don't want to fuck things. And I would say like. also guys who are so confident in their relationship like my boyfriend is so confident and i mentioned that like just so confident in the relationship he does not get jealous like and you know i'm i'm around a lot i talk to a lot of like celebrity guys interviews whatever i could

see how somebody can get jealous in those situations does not get jealous at all is super comfortable with himself and i'm like you're that's hot like that does you ever want him to get like a little jealous to show like well sometimes i'm like do you even like me like i don't know like that's something i would definitely be bad about you know and I'm like you don't care and he's like well I trust you and I'm like that's sweet you're like yeah I'm not gonna fuck him during the podcast right no but you're like when he's like he's like I trust you like you just have to I'm just like I don't know what that is like you know what I mean like what that's that's crazy and confident dudes they're not jealous then you're like well how do I stir shit up a little bit to see right if you want me what I'll do

is I'll joke like some random like old lady will like be talking to des like at a restaurant and I'll be like, oh, so you're just going to flirt with her in front of me. And that's how I just get things going. A little rise. Who are you envious of? Who am I envious of? Hmm. I'm envious of people who, and this is so cliche, such a cliche answer, just like can live on an island or a beach in a huge mansion, but they don't need to be in social media.

Seen or heard. Or seen or heard by anyone. and they're just living their lives. Like, I think that the only, sorry, I'm wearing my headphones weird right now. I look like an idiot. No, I think you look cute. Thank you. You look like you, man.

I kind of, I'm like a DJ. I feel like I know in my head the only way I'm going to get that house on the beach is by pumping my social media even more. It's like I'm like, I'm not going to be able to step away from that and be like, live just not on my phone. So I'm envious of people like that. I love my job. obviously but I just kind of know where it's going in the future you know

yeah that's a good thing to manifest that like you're putting in all the energy but knowing it sounds like you and your boyfriend are good at knowing when you need a step out of it because you need a balance definitely what are you gluttonous about so what do you over indulge in food 100 it's you answered that so fast because it's something that recently I've really been thinking about in terms of like, I'm really fucking crazy about food. Like I, and people have pointed it out to me recently. And that's such like a tip.

I feel like it's like, I love food. I love to eat. Like it's gotten to like a gross point where like my friends have pointed out to me. They're like you eat every time you eat, you eat like you have never eaten before or you are never going to have a meal again. And they were like and you eat really, really fast. YOLO! I just like I love it like I love I'm like addicted to like I don't know sugar I don't I don't I don't think it's sugar what's your go to like you had a rough day it's dinner time everything I love

fast food I think that's like one of my biggest issues I really love fast food like if someone wants indulgent fast food what's a good order for them I can go through every place I got okay so we'll start with Wendy's I will do a 10 piece spicy nugget I will do a 10 piece spicy nugget I will do a medium chocolate frosty i will do a large fry and a junior bacon cheeseburger and a coke that's my wendy's order taco i'll do three soft tacos a crunch wrap supreme a nacha ball grande the cinnamon bun bites um for the dessert and a Pepsi because they don't have coke i talk about this is like fucked up i know all of this McDonald's i will do 10 10 chicken nuggets large fry I will do a mick chicken, depending if I'm like, is it too much chicken?

I'll do a cheeseburger. You used to love a snack wrap. And then the apple pie for after and a Coke. So I just fucking love fast food. No joke. I really do. How does your stomach survive? No, so I like have to get my gallbladder removed.

Like I, no joke. I had like a soda addiction actually where I, I in high school ended up in the hospital because my kidneys were infected and I started a new job as a hostess at a restaurant and I remember one of it was like my second week in working I was getting really bad pains in my back I was like I can't stand up like whatever my parents picked me up I couldn't drive at the time I was like I don't know 16 my parents picked me up and they took me to the hospital and you know when you go to the hospital you're like I kind of hope something's wrong it's like I'm kind of making a whole to do about this like there's got to be something turns out i did have a kidney infection and they were like you have to stop drinking so much soda like you have to stop drinking so much soda so for so for two weeks they were like you can't drink soda and so i felt like shit and uh i kept feeling like shit and after the i was just like oh my god mom like my head hurt so bad like whatever and she was like have have a cup of soda let's see something have a half a cup of soda

immediately immediately my headache went away immediately i felt better i know i literally had withdrawal like that's what soda were you drinking i was a coca cola i love i have like i'm still i'm so much better now like i will mainly drink water um and i'll treat myself with you go diet ever maybe once a week yeah no it depends i don't hate diet but i prefer the regular i would come home from i was a cheerleader in high school had come home very like competitive cheerleading practice and I would drink like three cans of soda like not water like I wasn't coming home and hydrated in the middle of night in the middle of the night you know when you get really thirsty in the middle of the night you're like I like I need something to drink I'd go downstairs and I would get a cup of soda like that it's disgusting so I really love

just like shit food I love good food as well I'm I'm not a picky eater but I'll eat anything like that's what I'm saying I'm very gluttonous about food there's not one food I can name that I don't like I I've gotten to the point where today I was like I need to um really just like take a break today start like eating healthy again today and do you find you have an addictive personality no that's the thing I just have a passion for soda yeah about food I was like I'm stopping today and then we had to do um a hotbox by Wiz Khalifa and 420 whatever they were sponsoring because we got high and we had to do an ad for them and they sent all this food to the office mac and cheese bites hot wings all all this shit i'm like i can't

start today and you're like also i can't talk about this properly without doing the proper research of how all this should taste right before i did your podcast i stuffed my face with a a chocolate filled brownie like it was a brownie also filled with chocolate it's already chocolate it's double chocolate. I had the brownie fill brownie bites a mac and cheese bites I had regular mac and cheese on top of that chip chips just everything I'm gross we would have so much fun together because if you watch summer house I eat so much because I always eat pages meal and like the other girls don't eat like it's stress related slash whatever we're in bathing suits I totally get it but like I get joy it's Italians like that's what we do we love food I think it's an Italian thing to be honest all of our memories like

the dinner table is like love family and food and I fucking eat and like naturally i do have kind of fast metabolism and stuff goes right through me a lot of the time so i i'm helpful for that thank you um but yeah i understand you i see you keep eating you only live once yeah and hopefully the gallbladder hopefully you live a little longer considering the yeah i also you brought up because we got high how long have you been getting high for what is your story of getting high so honestly i have two older siblings and And my sister, my sister is like a huge pothead. No joke. Like she's older than I am still. She's like she's a very functioning, very functioning pothead. Not like, I feel like there's a

stereotype, right? Like they're on the couch. And they're like not moving. Right. I work very hard every day, but I still smoke every day, probably multiple times a day. So it's, I'm very functional about it. But I started, I guess, when I was 16. So in high school. And I've always enjoyed it. It has always made me feel. Do you like microdose almost all day? Well, microdose would be shrooms. So I'm not doing shrooms every day. But I have microdose before. I think it's really fun, but I'm not doing that every day. I like will smoke. I'll take like a hit of my bowl in the morning or I'll smoke like two puffs of a joint in the morning. Nothing crazy in the morning. But when I get home and I like to relax, that is when I like will smoke the most.

because it really, it's something that has always relaxed me and actually helps my stomach, too. Like I have a lot of stomach issues besides the eating thing. I have endometriosis. So I get a lot of like really bad cramps and really bad periods. So weed has helped me in, I really enjoy it. It makes me laugh and I have a good time. But it also has helped me in like some ways with my health as well. How do you think it affects your anxiety? For a while it helped lately. Sometimes I'm like, okay you shouldn't have smoked before that and like that's a little much but for the most part it's something that really helps me i'm lucky with that because some people freak out and it actually makes it worse yeah like i love people who smoke like i feel like a lot of my friends are potheads

and i love being around that because i wish i was that cool to be able to handle taking a hit i'm will ruin any party like when i get high i mean to start crying i don't i can't i start a sentence and then when i'm trying to finish it i don't remember how it started i have full mental breakdowns i don't know who i am what's like it's always been bad because i always do it every couple years and like let's get high yeah i always room i have full of my friends are like that i don't even most of my friends are like that like sometimes i'm like shit do i smoke too much because not a lot i mean me and my my boyfriend smokes just as much as i do which helps because i feel like if one of us didn't no that's good it would be like not good we wouldn't be on the same level and also it's one of

those things that I started smoking long before I ever knew him. So it wasn't like I fell into that because of him. It's not like he like, you know what I mean? Like I feel like if he made me into that, my parents would be like a little more questionable. But no, she did to herself. I just feel like really dumb when I smoke. I feel like everyone knows I'm dumb. Everything I say is dumb. And then I get freaked out that I'm going to be dumb forever. I smoked right before this. Would you have known? No. You're eloquent and have your shit together. Thank you. And. Thank you. That's what I'm saying functional, functional. Highly functional.

But yeah, everyone reacts differently to it. So my thing is, but it's weird because I like love people who can handle it. Maybe it's my own stuff. Ooh, when was the last time you experienced extreme wrath or anger? I feel like I have a long answer for everything and I'm like, this is when I start, this is when I start thinking, am I too high? No, not even am I too high. Are people like, does she ever shut up? Like she's talked so much.

This is an interview. My job is to get you to talk. No, I know. Wrath. Okay. I feel like I have really managed my anger issues lately. I feel like I had a lot of anger issues. Like, I get angry easily.

And not necessarily, like, I would never do it out in public, like, in the work. You know what I mean? Like, whatever. But, yeah, yeah, like on, you know, someone's filming me. too but yeah um like at home in my personal life i honestly i grew up around a italian family very passionate long island new york like very fucking passionate everything's a fight and every no everything's a fight it nothing is easy or is it just how they talk no it's right no and that's what happened like are we fighting or are we having discussion or you talk and they're like i don't like

the way you're talking. Meanwhile, everybody's talking the same way. And then it turns into a fight. Like, we, we know this. It's been years. 20, 23 years I've lived with this. No, but I grew up where I would say, like, um, my dad has like, he's actually gotten way better too, but like very angry, very fast. My sister kind of the same way. Um, and so that's something that was pretty bad. And I'm not saying like anything violent, like physically, but I just like screaming, you know, just like getting so mad that I'm like screaming at the top of my lungs like a child like gross um and I've like thrown things like I've like broken my phone you know by throwing it on the floor like throwing you know what I'm saying like that shit it's just like just bad um but my boyfriend is so calm so calm so calm

does not raise his voice I don't think he's ever raised his voice I don't know and his family slam a door do you even give a fuck about this relationship yeah just just so calm and chill and I'm so thankful for that because it has taught me so much that I don't need to be that way like I really think in recent years I have changed tremendously with that so like I can't think of anything specifically that has made me like so angry but just know there basically every day there was something that made me angry for a while well it's great that you have this guy who's showing you like we don't have to get angry about things and there's other because anger is more like a frustration where you just don't know what to do and then you just snap because you're like a product of your

environment. So that's what I grew up around. And so that's what I knew. That's why I thought everybody's like, yeah. And my parents, they are in love. They've been together for 30 years. But the family, the passion. There's some fights every day. My, you know, I got siblings. We're all fighting with each other. So that's what I grew up around. And like, that is not what you grew up around. And I do think with fighting in relationship, once you like cross a boundary, like calling someone a name or like raising the voice, then it's like you lose this kind of trust where it's like you really want to remember like we're on the same team you know yelling can take things to like you say things you don't want to say so I love a man's that has patience that's exactly it that's exactly what he's

like we're I'm not against you yeah don't what's the raising in the voice the yelling the slamming of the doors like leaving the room like I'd like walk out of the apartment like when I would stay at his apartment when we didn't live together I'd walk out of his apartment I'm my head I'm like where am I going I got nowhere to go I'm at his apartment like what is going on So, yeah, it's been, it's, it's, you're like, how much, we're past that. You're like, I want to order chicken fingers. Shit. Okay, fine.

I'll make up with them. Yeah. And I go back like, two seconds later. I'm like, I'm sorry. When was the last time you were a sloth? Because I understand with your job, it's like never ending. But do you ever give yourself time to like not do shit? Yeah.

Last Friday, this past Friday. Oh, yeah. I did absolutely nothing all day long. I did not. All I did from the moment I woke up, went to sleep, I didn't change my clothes from what I was wearing Thursday night all day, Friday into Saturday. Didn't change my clothes. Didn't take a shower.

I just sat on the couch, watched TV, and ate all day long. Didn't even take my dog for a walk. You're like figured out dog. Mom's having mental health day. Straight up, if you want me to be honest, did not even take my dog for a walk. Sorry. What kind of dog do you have again? A dachshund.

he's the best okay final one when was the last time you lusted over someone besides your boy toy like do you have a celebrity crush or something oh i love harry styles so much there's i like i really love harry styles i really do i feel like everybody does but i love him i love him i've also heard that in person he's like really cool and nice i just think he's so cool and i think the whole when you're so confident in yourself that you can put on a dress like that makes you even hotter to me I'm like, you're, because he must have like a massive dick. If he's, if he's comfortable enough doing that, like I think, I don't know, I think he's got a massive dick.

Like, I just think he fucks. Like, I just, I just know it. I love this, I love this visual that we've gotten of Harry Styles and a dress with a huge dick. Yeah. Final, final question, Rhea, since we've gone way over an hour because we are dying. And that's the moral of the story of this podcast. We're Italian.

Can't stop talking about. In case you forgot, we're Italian. What do you do to co. with your hell when you're in the darkness when things are not going well what advice would you give i'm i'm thinking back to like like i said recently when i really struggled and like what got me out of it go get your hair done go go go get some highlights that'll fix it no i don't know you know what i loved i really look forward to and i feel like it's not groundbreaking but do it is like I'm going to have a really good shower.

I'm going to have a really good shower. I'm going to do all of it. I'm going to wash. I'm going to do a hair mask. I'm going to do the oliplex number three for 10 minutes on my hair. I'm going to then do the full mask. Then a wash shampoo and conditioner. Sit with the conditioner for three to four minutes.

Sit on the floor of your shower. Take that time in. Wash it out. Then we get to the body. Shave everything. Do the whole shave. Like a seal. and then pick out because usually what are you wearing a bed a t-shirt and a thong right because that's what i

wear it about t-shirt thong every single night have your one set of PJs like your one nice set of PJs right like maybe like it's a satin set from victoria secret or whatever it is put that on get into bed light a candle next to your bed and just watch some just watch i'm a big i'm a big tv watcher i always advocate for like put your phone down get into bed pick a movie you know you're going to on or pick a TV show. You know you're going to focus on. And just get, yeah, dive into that world. Don't, don't worry about your own world. There's fake worlds out there that you can enter and you don't have to worry about your own world. So do that. I love that so much because that is just self-care to the max. Ria, you're amazing. Where can people follow you, listen to you, watch you,

give me the goods. Thank you so much. I honestly love you and I'm so happy that I'm on this podcast. You can follow me on Instagram, Maria Chiffo, that's C-I-U-F-F-O, Chicks in the Office is the podcast, Instagram, on Twitter, I am Barstool Ria, and then because we got high on all platforms, you can follow that as well. And Chicks in the office comes out three days a week, because we got high as one day a week. And we have the group chat on Snapchat, which is, we've been doing that for years now. It's a Snapchat show, Entertainment News, so you can follow us there too. Wow. You will not miss an ounce of pop culture, an ounce of laughter, an ounce of weed. Thank you guys for coming to hell today, and I'll talk to you later.

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