Betrayal - S1: E7 - Recovery

Episode Date: June 2, 2022

Jenifer learns more about Betrayal Trauma with her coach and expert Kim Gould MSW. Kim explains the ways Betrayal Trauma impacts its victims and how they search for safety. Jen shares Spencer’s ...jailhouse letters which place a surprising amount of culpability on the women with whom he had affairs. A found text chain drops a bombshell. Kim Gould, MSW provides her therapeutic coaching services at The Center for Relational Healing in Los Angeles (www.lacrh.com) and Life & Intimacy Coaching practice (kimgouldcoaching.com)See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

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Starting point is 00:01:33 thank you. We've been taking the time to read through all of your emails you submitted at patrialpottedgmail.com because so many of you have reached out with your own stories, questions, and feedback. You plan to release bonus content with updates and resources. So stay tuned. But first, here's episode 7. This podcast discusses sexual assault. Please take care while listening. I was packing up to go and was in my office and she surprised me.
Starting point is 00:02:03 I think she said something like, what are you doing? I'm going home, I said. That's too bad, she responded. I was in shock and surprised by her closeness. Then I remember a kiss. It was so very consensual. I'm Andrea Gunning, and this is Betrayal. Episode 7.
Starting point is 00:02:34 Recovery In the first year after Spencer's arrest, Jennifer fought hard to move forward in heel. All the while, Spencer was sending letters from jail, telling her how sorry he was. I want to restore our marriage, and I'll do whatever it takes for you to believe me about that. I promised myself to be real with you about my true feelings, and that promise also makes me say that I 100% believe we can get through this. Jennifer understood she was experiencing trauma. She sought help from wise empathetic voices
Starting point is 00:03:16 that helped her find her footing. My name is Kim Gold. I am a betrayal trauma specialist in coach. It is my deepest passion to help people heal from trauma and reclaim their lives. I do this profound work at the Center for Relational Healing in Los Angeles. And then in my own intimacy coaching practice, I help people take that healing to the next level.
Starting point is 00:03:39 Kim, I get so emotional when I think about you and the part that you've played on this journey with me. And I'm just really, really grateful. You know, when all this happened, I didn't know betrayal trauma was a thing. And it's a thing. Certainly yes. It is what we commonly refer to as the shattered world view. The child trauma basically takes away everything that you thought you knew to be true or safe or just in the world. So you're literally like a little baby trying to learn to walk and talk and make sense of things in a nonsensical world. And what feels like a very dangerous world. In the beginning especially, I walked around feeling like
Starting point is 00:04:42 there was an elephant standing on my chest. Yeah, it certainly is physiological, emotional, spiritual, cognitive and mental. But try to trauma feels like and it does. High jack, the person going through it and it did that to you at the beginning as well. Physiologically, a large part of that is because your nervous system has been shut. There's no place to find safety and your nervous system will send you into a hyper-vigilant state. And the body and the brain are sending you into fight, fight, or freeze. So many behaviors come from seeking safety.
Starting point is 00:05:38 The being a detective and checking emails and texts all of my long-for-hours and hours and not able to sleep. This would look like, so the betrayed partner or the woman is going crazy. And there are unfortunately times where women have been misdiagnosed. As an example of this, many women have been labeled as having a personality disorder
Starting point is 00:06:04 when they are really just adapting to this earth shattering trauma and did not even have these symptoms before the event and every single thing we say of betrayed partner doing is safety-seeking behavior. I relate to that so much and I think that's why I'm so consumed by needing to know who it was that I married because I didn't know him. I didn't know a whole side to him and that's so scary. Honestly, my biggest fear coming out of this and sharing this story with everyone is I know people are going to ask, how could she not know? How did you not see any signs? And I just didn't.
Starting point is 00:06:51 Probably at least 50% of the betrayed partners I work with say it's like being with Jekyll and Hyde. These are not people who, for the most part, were mean or on caring to their partners. The majority of the women that I've worked with, similar to you, are astounded and surprised and they were very smart women and very intelligent, intuitive women. These are not women who have had their blinders on. What we're talking about is the acting out partners being so unbelievably skilled at gas lighting and manipulation.
Starting point is 00:07:41 And such a mere compartmentalization in the brain. To be able to go out during the day and do certain things that are terrible and totally against the value system of your marriage and then to come home and act like he loves you and things are fine, I trust that Spence was really, really practiced and successful at that because you are a very intelligent woman, and you're not naive, and you didn't see it, and most betrayed partners don't. You listened to my conversation with the student.
Starting point is 00:08:17 I dare, it was very touching. Talking with her and the other two women, that's what this whole journey has been about. It's really helped me understand the other side of this person that I thought I really knew. As the police were leading Spence out the front door of our house handcuffed, I yelled out to them. He's a good person.
Starting point is 00:08:46 Even after finding out that he just committed this awful, awful crime against a young person, I still needed them to know he was a good person. Because in my head, he was somebody completely different. My reality was shattered and it had not registered. And I'm still struggling to understand the way he was with me and the way that I know he behaved and treated many, many, many other women. You know, I haven't been able to do any kind of assessment or diagnosis or anything like
Starting point is 00:09:30 that clinically, but I would guess that there are other things going on besides addiction. Like what? It feels to me like there were splinters of his personality. He learned how he was supposed to be a good, healthy husband, and maybe there was this other part of him that he didn't know how to express. In the beginning, all Jen had to make sense of her life and all the lies were long confessional letters and apologies from Spencer. She wasn't falling for it, but that didn't stop him from attempting to manipulate her from his jail cell.
Starting point is 00:10:13 That first Thanksgiving, he sent her a three-page letter on all the things he was thankful for. I'm thankful for getting to marry my dream girl. I'm thankful that you said yes. I'm thankful that one day there's a chance that you might forgive me. I'm thankful that at some point, I might get a shot at life again. I'm so very thankful for second chances.
Starting point is 00:10:40 I'm thankful that I will always have hope that my future could possibly have you in it. Jennifer, I'm thankful that I will always have hope that my future could possibly have you in it. Jennifer, I'm thankful for you. There wasn't going to be reconciliation. The apologies were hollow. She didn't trust him. How could she? Her eyes were wide open and she wanted to see who he really was once and for all. Maybe
Starting point is 00:11:06 then she could understand what he did and why this happened to her. Knowing what I do about Spence's behavior now, I feel like there was this compulsion that he just couldn't control. In another letter sent from jail, Spencer theorized that it must have been his need for a tangent that caused his problems long before he and Jennifer reconnected after college. I remember once getting a message from a woman saying she was thinking of me. It was such a rush. I had never had that. That became my search. This is all backstory. It's what I've discovered with so much thinking, meditation, and of course prayer.
Starting point is 00:11:52 You asked me when the cops were coming to get me if I was a sex act. My answer is still. Absolutely no. My problem was at a much more intimate level. Attention seeking., approval seeking. MUSIC Hi, my name is Cooper and I'm a mini golden noodle from Crocodoodles. And I'm a bit late, the cover.
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Starting point is 00:15:03 Listen to Suspect, five shots in the dark, early and ad-free on Wondery Plus. Find Wondery Plus in the Wondery app or on Apple Podcasts. just like you would with any other addiction, gambling, food, heroin, alcohol. Somewhere along the line, they learned that if I have this thing, I'm going to have relief from pain. Or it could be the opposite. I'm actually going to feel alive for a little while. So it's whether someone feels too much, feels too middle, and basically doesn't know how to have healthy coping mechanisms in life. But really what makes something an addiction or a compulsive disorder is that the person keeps doing it again and again and again, and it is bringing a lot of form and dysfunction into their lives and into others.
Starting point is 00:16:06 And they keep doing it and they're not able to stop. Do you think people with these kind of addictions or compulsions look for a certain type of person to pray on? You know, there's a big piece of this which in my, is so deeply connected to our patriarchal society that teaches us that women are of the most value when they are beautiful and getting attention from men. And they are trained that way from childhood. And here's, you know, a charismatic man who is giving them attention
Starting point is 00:16:42 and this feeds their own need for validation, making them so vulnerable to grooming, and the way they are going about trying to find worth in this world. Hearing Kim say this, maybe think of hope in Jennifer's friend. They said almost the same thing. I got this text message. Well, you're beautiful. Here's an attractive guy telling me I'm pretty.
Starting point is 00:17:08 I was stressed out, didn't feel pretty all the time because I had kids hanging off me, breastfeeding. I was greasy, maybe showered every couple of days, maybe washed up with baby wipes. But then I would always hear, you know, like, you're so beautiful, you're really, really well-rounded, you're a great mom. But he says that he never sought after any of this. He says it was always the women that were giving him the eye or letting him know that it was okay. When, in fact, I have so much communication that proves otherwise.
Starting point is 00:17:52 Here is exactly what he wrote about Jennifer's friend, the one Spencer had sex with at the wine bar. To my memory, she was staring at me a lot at the bar. I'm sure I noticed it and tried to dismiss it as just my imagination. I honestly have no idea how it actually started. I just don't. It's not really important anyway. It's just not. It was important to Jennifer and it seems Spencer had amnesia when it came to how the affair started. But the women, they remembered specific details.
Starting point is 00:18:27 I went into the bathroom and when I came out, he was there and mentioned like, you know that we have this thing together, you know, you're feeling this too right? And then he came in for a kiss, then held my hand and touched his crotch with my hand on the outside of his pants. What is is how it continued. I guess she had to be a willing participant. There were times when you or her husband were out of town or when she might just linger at the bar. I can't give you details because I can't remember them.
Starting point is 00:19:04 When it was over with her, you can't imagine my relief. That problem in my life was over and was so happy. I think one of the biggest blessings of this situation was that Spence was arrested and has remained locked up. I haven't had to face him or deal with it except for in letters. It's truly a blessing because I can't imagine if that person was around to be able to lie about the situation essentially. I absolutely agree. His absence and removal from your space and from your life
Starting point is 00:19:53 while so painful allowed you to hear more quickly. And the extreme of his behavior makes him really definitive and clear for you. Jennifer took note of how often he used the word love with other women. It's stung. She pressed Spencer about that, especially with his colleague in the Air Force.
Starting point is 00:20:22 I really thought that he loved me. He had me convinced that he loved me. He had me convinced that he did. I mean, he told me. Hope, I know you're really wondering how I used the word love with her. I don't know how I ever did or could have. I do not and never did love her.
Starting point is 00:20:43 She's the same as anyone else. Whenever I did use that word, I can only assume it was to reciprocate her using it or to maybe keep giving me the attention I was still wanting. And that same letter, Spencer goes on to say, Any time spent with hope was never romantic, anticipated, or anything like that. Allowing these things to happen was just that, allowing. Hope it I never had a thing that anyone could see or detect. It was that cheap and meaningless.
Starting point is 00:21:15 I imagine it happened just as with the other one. Done looks that were accepted as attention and some kind of thing I wanted. After each time I was unfaithful, I felt disgusting and hurtful to all involved. Allowing these things to happen almost sounds like his participation was passive. However, each woman who was spoken has consistently shared that Spencer was clear about his intentions. And what's sad to me is that in his letters that he writes, he
Starting point is 00:21:48 really minimizes the situations. With the victim, it was consensual. She was looking at me. She made eyes at me. I find that there's a lot of denial and what he believes. People have built up these lies inside of themselves in the ways that they operate in the world for so long. It's hard for them to know what's really true and what's not. He wrote to Jen about the sexual assault victim. As a warning, it is disturbing. I had never, ever looked at her in any inappropriate way. Not at all. I tell you this so that you know how it all started. In fact, probably for the last 10 to 15 years, I have not looked at any teen girl as anything,
Starting point is 00:22:46 but that a teen girl. I'd gotten older, there were no fantasies. That is 100% true. In May, I can remember the students starting to stare at me. Longer looks. More often. She was being very obvious and it started coming out of nowhere. She also started coming by at the end of school asking random questions for no reason.
Starting point is 00:23:12 She then started lingering at the end of the club. I started to sense something. It was packing up to go and was in my office and she surprised me. I think she said something like, what are you doing? I'm going home, I said. That's too bad, she responded. I was in shock and surprised by her closeness. Then I remember a kiss. It was so very consensual.
Starting point is 00:23:40 His account certainly differs from the sexual assault victims' account on how they first became involved. He had texted me that he had feelings for me. I remember feeling, I don't know, I guess chef, it's an understatement. That was the first time the boundary was crossed and he told me that he wanted to talk about it in person and I agreed to because I thought maybe we could talk about it and that would be that.
Starting point is 00:24:11 Spencer continued his account of the story in his letter. She was very aggressive most of the time. I was sure it was something she was super familiar with. In other words, I was never taking some leading role if that makes sense. I know it was all my fault, no matter how she was. What I remember feeling most was really confused. It didn't feel right. I expressed to him that I was a virgin and I don't know if I was ready for anything. Hi, my name is Cooper and I'm a mini golden doodle
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Starting point is 00:26:53 Casey Shane was murdered in the middle of an August night, shot point blank while idling in his Dodge pickup truck in North Indianapolis. There was no physical evidence, no known motive, and no one coming forward with information. Except one woman who swears to this day, she saw Leon to Troi Benson pull the trigger. Leon Benson was sentenced to 60 years in prison, all because one person swore they saw something. But what if she was wrong? And what if we could prove it? From Wondery and Campside Media comes season 3 of the hit podcast Suspect, co-hosted by
Starting point is 00:27:28 me, Matt Shere, alongside Attorney Laura Bazelon. This is a story of a botched police investigation, the dangers of shaky eyewitness testimony, and a community of feared law enforcement with good reason. Listen to Suspect, five shots in the dark, early and ad-free on Wondery Plus. Find Wondery Plus in the Wondery app or on Apple podcasts. Spencer pushed for his court appointed attorney to argue his account of the victim's complicity in the case. his attorney wisely reminded Spencer that remorse was his best legal strategy. While reviewing all of the raw materials for this series, her team made a shocking discovery.
Starting point is 00:28:14 In 2015, the same year that he started sending text messages to the sexual assault victim, Spencer made a hard play for at least one other student at Kell High School. And yes, she was a teenager. But she also the pursuer, another girl making eyes at him. Here are some of the messages he sent to that student. As a warning, these messages may be hard to hear. You are so out of my league. Busy tonight? Come by the bar.
Starting point is 00:28:51 You're the focus of all myerotica. What about hanging after school one day? We'd get away from this place. Well, since we both trust each other, I'm not worried. I think it'd be fun and totally cool. No issues, stress, or drama. And when he didn't get the result he wanted, he tried a different tactic. Her adulthood.
Starting point is 00:29:19 You're incredibly pretty and mature. You are a woman, are you not? And this. Do you ever think about me in the flesh? The text Spencer sent the other student were wildly inappropriate and upsetting. And while we did not see evidence that a sexual assault occurred in these text exchanges,
Starting point is 00:29:43 we did share this information with law enforcement. Everybody gets these kinds of dopamine hits if they're on Facebook or Instagram and they get a heart or a like. These things start to train the nervous system, like, oh, I like that. We want more of those pleasure hormones running through our bodies.
Starting point is 00:30:04 So every time he was texting, every time Spence was emailing and getting a response from these young women, it was releasing those endorphins and the dopamine and keeping him in the addiction cycle. Another detail that caught our attention was the way he described a fantasy to the student. What their first kiss would be like. I keep seeing this image of you and I hanging out, wherever it doesn't matter, but then at some point you lean into me as I'm talking and simply kiss me. Almost like you couldn't wait any longer and couldn't wait for me to move towards you.
Starting point is 00:30:46 It sounded eerily similar, the way he described the sexual assault victim in his letter to Jennifer. I was packing up to go and was in my office and she surprised me. I think she said something like, what are you doing? I'm going home, I said.
Starting point is 00:31:03 That's too bad, she responded. I was in shock and surprised by her closeness. Then I remember a kiss. It was so very consensual. His fantasy with the other student, the one he attempted to seduce, was the same as his account to Jennifer of what happened with the sexual assault victim. A young girl simply found him irresistible, but the reality was quite different. The victim did not initiate the relationship. There was one last issue in the case, with which Spencer took great umbrage. I would never, could never do anything to my accuser that would associate with the word
Starting point is 00:31:48 assault. I will not leave court without the DA and judge knowing any different. Jen, I have never thought to force myself on anyone ever. I sure as hell wasn't going to do that with a student. Clearly, I was already sleeping around, so there was never a reason none for me to treat anyone like she claims I'd treated her. Here he argues that with the number of partners, the availability of women he had, what reason would he have to be forceful? The victim must be lying. Then I thought about the words we heard earlier from Hope. Looking back,
Starting point is 00:32:26 I remember a couple of times where you know you would kind of put his hands around my throat and push down that kind of caught me off guard. Hearing that story from her, it's heart-wrenching. It's heart-wrenching. She talks about how he was forceful with her at times. But then in a letter he says to me, I would never, I just feel like in his brain, he really doesn't see the truth. Again, I haven't been able to do any kind of assessment or diagnosis, but I would say that having that control and being able to manipulate and coerce was part of what fed him. None of it is about love or kindness or connection or even the beauty of sex.
Starting point is 00:33:27 It's about wounds and control and manipulation and trauma to everyone involved and avoidance of anything that feels like intimacy. It's been about two and a half years since I spoke with Spence, and I really am curious about whether or not he still feels the same way in those letters that he wrote to me. If that is all still the case, then that means very little healing has happened
Starting point is 00:33:59 because those are the beginning stages of what someone needs to face in order to heal. And those things are all things that also allow the addiction cycle to continue. We work with those cognitive distortions and therapy and coaching when we're trying to help the sex addicts heal. All those things, rationalizing, minimizing, they help the person not have to look at themselves and take full accountability for what they've done.
Starting point is 00:34:33 He has been manipulating himself and believing all of his own lives for so many years that he really can't see the difference probably between reality and things that he's making up. There's also this other part of him that feels like he needs to hold on to. That part that you needed to hold on to, Jen, when the police took him away, he needs to hold on to some part of that within himself and even though he's done all of these things The part that he's holding on to so he doesn't Decentrate or totally fall apart is They were okay with it. It wasn't assault. Do you think there's any way that spends his healed himself?
Starting point is 00:35:23 From my vast clinical experience, it takes a lot of hard recovery work. Coaching and therapy groups, going through the 12 steps, making a man's, it's a long journey, but one of the first steps is being in some kind of recovery group where it will start to break down the lies and the identity that you've been telling yourself all along. I do believe greatly in the power of healing and no, people could not heal from this level of addiction and other compulsive behaviors without significant therapeutic help from specialists. True recovery and healing involves so much accountability, empathy and compassion. If Spence was deeply remorseful, maybe he would come to you and say, you know, I'd like to pay you back for the tens of thousands of dollars that you needed for your coaching
Starting point is 00:36:44 and your therapy. It's called making living a mess. But I mean, you wouldn't accept it and I would be a drop in the bucket, but I'm just saying when someone is truly healing and in recovery, there is a very big part of them that deeply cares about the pain and the impact that they brought into other people's lives. And they do what they can to try the best to clean that up. I can only work on myself, which is what I have been doing now for the last few years. You've gone through one of the most traumatizing things I've ever heard of. And you did that deep work of learning how to heal
Starting point is 00:37:30 yourself every day so that you can come out to the world and say, this happened. This is my story. It affected me, it affected other women too. I'm helping to heal those other women by doing this. And it's been such an honor to support you and be a part of your healing. On the next episode of Betrayal, Jennifer confronts Spencer. In one of the letters that you wrote me, you said that you never thought after it.
Starting point is 00:38:08 Do you still feel that way? Well, yes. It's just an opportunity with presented self. And then before I knew it, I was, percelling it. I was in luck and you got on with it. I was unlucky and I was going with it. It was a better effort to all gone to shit the first time.
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