Betrayal - S3: E6 – Complexity

Episode Date: June 27, 2024

With Justin behind bars and Tyler on a path to healing, Stacey’s grief finally comes to the surface. She meets with Jordan Dann to make sense of the mess.   Jordan Dann, LP, is a dynamic psychoanalyst, author, teacher, and speaker. She is the author of Somatic Therapy for Healing Trauma and the creator of the Relationship Transformation Method. She is also a faculty member at the Gestalt Associates for Psychotherapy in Manhattan. Jordan is a nationally certified and NYS licensed psychoanalyst in private practice in New York City. You can follow her on Instagram @jordandann.  If you would like to reach out to the Betrayal Team, email us at [e-mail]  If you’re a man who has experienced sexual abuse or assault, or you know someone who is seeking support, go to 1in6.org. Find a path to a happier, healthier future. See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

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This is Betrayal, Season 3, Episode 6, Complexity. Justin's sentencing for rape and voyeurism marked an ending. An end to Justin's reign of terror, to years of manipulation and abuse, and to the Rutherford family worrying about whether justice would be served. Justin would be locked up for decades. Tyler was finally free of him. I told everyone, I'm ready to stop letting this shape our life. Everything's done now. I was done with it. But Stacey wasn't done. For two years, she carried the weight of guilt, shame, horror, and deep sadness, and was nurturing wounds of her own. During many conversations with Stacey,

she expressed sincere interest in examining her own grief and emotions surrounding the aftermath. It's not something that comes naturally to her. After Justin was sentenced, her process was just starting. And to her credit, she was completely honest about it. When court was finally over after three years of dealing with this stuff, my dad was like, I'm glad it's over. We can put this all behind us and you can

start moving on with your life. From the moment Stacey learned the truth about Justin, she prioritized her kids and their healing. As you can imagine, she was concerned about Tyler and focused her energy on his needs. And then there was the support that Michaela and the littles needed as well. So there was little to no space for herself. I've gotten to know Tyler and Michaela and the littles needed as well, so there was little to no space for herself. I've gotten to know Tyler and Michaela over the last few months, and I can confidently say that Stacey raised two bright and emotionally intelligent individuals. They were old enough to understand that Stacey

was putting on a brave face, and they worried about her. When the older kids would ask me how I was doing, I would always just say to them, as long as you're okay, I'm okay. Stacey was strong for her kids. And when it seemed like the family was finding their footing, the grief she had been suppressing reared its ugly head. I spent so much time trying to tend to this and tend to that and keep this going. And as far as my own grief, I feel like I'm just now starting to kind of get into it. But then there was this to reckon with. How could she make sense

of her own grief, let alone explain it to other people? She was ashamed of her thoughts and feelings. So we looked for someone who could help Stacey work through everything she was experiencing and maybe in the process enlighten the rest of us. We introduced Stacey to Jordan Dan. She is a licensed psychologist, psychoanalyst, author, teacher, and speaker. She is also the author of Somatic Therapy for Healing Trauma and the creator of the Relationship Transformation Method. Stacey and Jordan allowed of the relationship transformation method. Stacy and Jordan allowed us to record their sessions. If you listened to Betrayal season one and two,

you heard a similar process with Jennifer Faison and Ashley Litton. I would like to preface this episode by saying that for the next 20 minutes, we're going to explore the many emotions, thoughts and shame Stacy was left to work through as a critical step to her healing. I also want to note that in our next episode, we're going to focus on Tyler and his healing journey.

He's going to meet with a beloved Hollywood actor who shares a similar story. At Betrayal, we don't believe in zero-sum thinking. There was the harm done to Tyler, but Stacey was also wounded in her own way. It's important for us to hold space for their individual experiences as humans. Hearing some of the complicated feelings survivors of betrayal trauma struggle with can be hard to understand if you have not been through it.

And sure, it's easy to judge. Compassion requires going deeper. Here is Jordan Dan. People have difficulty tolerating uncomfortable feelings. It's easier to be in absolutes because you don't have to feel and be with the messiness. feel and be with the messiness. Absolutes. As in, you're either good or evil. As Stacey holds the complexity of both the betrayal and the horror and the pain,

she's really oscillating between the reality of this violent behavior, this trauma that her son has experienced, and also the relationship she thought she was in, that she is actually just starting to grieve. Stacey was and still is in a lot of pain. Calling back to the good times, thinking of happy memories, the life they once lived feels like a betrayal, betraying her son, betraying herself. If I think of the good things, I feel like I'm a bad mom. That's a slap in the face to my child that he hurt. I think that's what hurts me the most

is knowing that I was the one that brought someone into their life that would do something like this to them. But Jordan doesn't see it that way. Of course, hindsight is 20-20. To say I wish I had done something is completely understandable. Children do everything in their power to hide what is happening to them. Tyler had so much at stake, not only his own attachment to Justin, his own safety, the positive feelings that were a part of such an abusive relationship, but also his feelings of responsibility towards his mom, towards the whole family. Most children, the abuse is actually easier to tolerate than the danger and fear of actually

saying what's happening to them. And I think it's easiest to understand in the context of children with abusive caregivers, to be with the reality of a person who they are dependent upon for survival and is cruel and violent is impossible. And so they have to separate those two aspects of the person. And often, because it's too impossibly painful for a child to see their parent as bad, the child ends up seeing themselves as bad.

Stacey examining her own part of where things went wrong is a good thing. As parents, we do fail. Even with our best intentions, there are moments where we do not offer the protection, the care that our children deserve. And that's just a part of being human. Her ability to feel that she failed in her responsibility of protection of her son is actually a really healthy thing. And how could Stacey offer that protection

when Justin was so good at hiding who he really was? Did she really know him or the life she was leading at all? When you get to where I'm at now, you know, you question yourself and you think, was it ever what I thought it was? Was anything that I ever felt real? Think about the weight of that. If nothing was real, the love, the marriage, how were you supposed to reconcile all the time you spent? Those hours, the marriage. How are you supposed to reconcile all the time you spent?

Those hours, those years. That's the substance of your life, your life story. Is it no longer supposed to be of value because of someone else's deception? I question that all the time. And I don't know why I need to know. There's this part of me that just wants to know, like, you know what, that part of him wasn't sick.

It's the marriage and relationship dynamic that she misses. And it doesn't just live in Stacey's mind. I've seen dozens of the Rutherford family photos and videos. They appear as a happy and loving family. Stacey and Justin stand close together and look like a couple in love. Justin plays the part. I really have a lot of compassion for that repetitive thought that Stacey has. It's really the darkest of possibilities to face is actually nothing about this person, nothing about the memories

we shared together are real. Stacey has searched for that validation. I have had conversations with his best friend where I've cried to him and said, do you think he ever loved me? And he has told me so many times, he loved you. I know he did. When Justin and I got together, I didn't feel like I had to do anything for his love. I just felt like he just loved me for me and I loved him for him. So then when it slaps you in your face that that's not who you married and that person didn't love you.

They just wanted what you had. You were just the throughway to what he really wanted. You start to think like, wow, did you just pretend to love me? Hey folks, exciting news for those who live or hunt in Canada. You might not be able to join our raffles and sweepstakes and all that because of raffle and sweepstakes law, but hear this. OnX Hunt is now in Canada. It is now at your fingertips, you Canadians.

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Listen to Medal of Honor, Stories of Courage on the iHeart Radio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts. Jordan's never met Justin, so she isn't going to give him any kind of diagnosis. But she did tell Stacey building this kind of facade is what sexual predators do. I would imagine that Justin was incredibly secretive and your depth of trust and your love wouldn't have alerted you to anything that might have been dangerous.

And this is true for, you know, all sexual perpetrators. The whole way of grooming and creating that relationship is all based on based on bait and switch of care, warmth, love, and then threats and cruelty and manipulation. We're dealing with a person who does not have empathy, who does not have morality, and is able to completely shape shift their behavior for their own selfish motivations and agenda. Listening to Jordan, my takeaway is that sexual predators like Justin are acting at a role. They are pretending to love you and care about you, but there is an agenda. And at this moment, I'm grieving for Stacey because no one should be treated like that. It undermines your belief in everything.

Seeing this for what it is and digesting this reality, it takes time. Stacey could not be a loving and devoted partner one day and completely uncaring and detached the next. It's really hard to tell people that you miss that love because they're such a horrible person. But you can't just shut that off. It just doesn't go away. And that's what I think has been the hardest, with the exception of my children being hurt, is grieving that, but also being okay to grieve it. You did lose something really precious to you.

You lost all of these good things and the promise of love. You know, when I talk about the good times, I feel good about it. It makes me miss them. Stacey misses what she calls her boring life and yearns for a time that she felt love, purpose, and contentment from her happy and healthy family unit that she thought she had. But what she thought she had

and what was really going on in the darkness were two different things. So what Stacey's left with is trying to reconcile the version of Justin she knew, which was the loving husband, doctor, and family man, but the person she recently discovered, a violent predator. Fully integrating those two people is work and part of Stacey's journey.

Can you tell me who this person was to you? Actually just look at your hand and put the good qualities of who he was in that hand? He was like my answer to everything. He was kind, he was smart, he was funny. He loved me and I didn't ever feel like I had to beg for that. And then what about, what would you put in the left hand?

A monster. What do you feel in your body, Stacey, as you say monster? I've got tightness. You know, just like everything tightens up and it's almost like it's, it's like it's hard for me to believe that that's who I'm speaking of. It's hard for me to see that those are the same person. I hope you know how normal that is for so many people. I mean, for people who experience domestic violence, there's strong attachment, even though there's very strong violence.

You're not alone in that complexity of holding both. Yeah. For Stacey, the path to confronting her own grief and loss could only begin when she knew Tyler was going to be okay. I want to see Tyler be everything that he was supposed to be. Tyler living a good life, him thriving, him not being a statistic, his children not being a statistic. Although Jordan has never met Tyler, she has listened to the podcast

and heard his reasons for wanting to share his story. What I've really valued that I have heard from Tyler is that his why for being a part of this podcast is to let other people and young men in particular but to let other survivors know that they're not alone. That ability to feel that he can be a protector is reparative. The feeling that he can actually give to someone else what he didn't receive is such an empowering experience. When victims speak up, their desire for truth and repair so often cannot happen with the very person that they deserve a repair from. We need to hear survivors and we actually can offer empathy and we actually are a part

of repair for that other person. Even though Tyler doesn't blame Stacey for what happened to him, Jordan says it's possible that anger could eventually bubble to the surface. It can take a long time in the processing for the adult child to finally feel safe enough to be angry at their parent. One thing I said to Stacey, at some point you need to be ready for that to happen. Often those

that are implicated and are closest to them, like a parent, will not be able to tolerate the feelings of shame or vulnerability or fear. Paradoxically, that's the only way forward to be able to tolerate the shame, admit responsibility, acknowledge the lack of protection. But through this work, Stacey feels ready for those hard conversations, whenever they may come. I said, there may be a day that you do blame me, you do feel angry. I want you to come to me when you feel that, because we're gonna need to sit with it,

we're gonna need to talk about it. So Tyler and Stacey keep an open dialogue. Tyler is on a good path and healing in his own way. But what does the next chapter look like for Stacey beyond just making sure that everyone else is okay? I really appreciate that you're centering Tyler as the most important person to receive justice, but you were also injured deeply, Stacey.

Yeah. So, I'm wondering, what does justice look like for you? All I ever wanted was him to tell me he was sorry. And it wouldn't have fixed anything. But I just wanted him to say one day to me, Stacy, you didn't deserve any of that. Justin actually did say those exact words to Stacy. You didn't deserve any of that. Justin actually did say those exact words to Stacey. You were an amazing spouse and didn't deserve any of this. But Justin's words lacked sincerity.

They felt like they were more for the judge than for Stacey. They meant nothing. When someone causes hurt to you, what you need is an empathetic expression of remorse. When repair really restores safety, it's because the other person has access to empathy. But for someone who is actually devoid of empathy, which is part of their character disorder, that very thing can never happen. Consciousness begins when we realize we can't get from another person what we've been trying to get,

and freedom is when we realize we can go get it somewhere else. Jordan challenged Stacey to look inward and ask herself, what would it look like for her to create a good life and become the person she is supposed to be? I want to be able to trust people again. I want to be able to be in a relationship with someone and not think that there's stuff going on that I don't know about.

I could take you all the way back to my first husband with my guilt and my shame and my hurt that I've never dealt with, that I just went on to another man, oh, it's better, oh, I got a new relationship. But it still followed me everywhere because I never dealt with it. And I just don't want that for the rest of my life.

This experience with Justin is not the first time you've had an experience of two parallel realities happening simultaneously. Does that feel true for you? Oh, yeah. My first husband left me after eight years for a co-worker. You know, that was completely devastating. It just felt like my whole world bottomed out. It was so out of control and I couldn't control anything. And it was awful. I'm a bigger woman, so a huge thing for me is weight and self-esteem.

But, you know, when you throw something like that on top of it, it's even more devastating. The feeling of unworthiness frequently comes up for Stacey. During their sessions, Jordan asked Stacey about her family, her childhood and her place within her family. Her answers revealed the beginning of wounds that have shaped who Stacey has become as an adult. The repetition of unworthiness was not just in her first marriage.

It was also in the seeds of her early attachment experience with a mother who was not able to respond to her and really be there in a very present and securely attached way. My mom was more cold and cut off. I just don't think she really knew how to be a mom good, like she never got down and played with us. I would see other people with their moms, you know, girls going shopping and having hair day and nail days and things like that. And my mom just didn't do those kinds of things. My dad was more like the mom. He grocery shopped, he cooked, he did those kinds of things. He was very like sensitive to us. As Stacey and her sister Heather grew up, their roles became defined. Heather needed

extra attention. She was unapologetic, headstrong, rebellious. Stacey was the opposite. I was the good child. I didn't cause any problems. I didn't do anything bad. I didn't get arrested. I didn't, you know, it was always just, oh, we don't have to worry about Stacey. Stacey's good. You know, she doesn't cause any problems. Stacey was the easy one. She didn't appear to need much. So so she didn't receive a whole lot. That was her role. And when she did need extra love and

support from her mother, it wasn't there. When my first divorce happened, I was distraught. About a week after I moved back home, after my life fell apart, she said, all right, it's time for you to pull yourself up by your bootstraps. I don't want to hear about this anymore. We're not going to cry about it anymore. And I remember saying to her like, oh, thank you. It's been a whole week. She just was very cut off like that. I still remember how hurtful that was. It felt like my feelings didn't matter or that I was just being too dramatic about this thing called divorce. Like, just move on, Stacey, just move on. Stacey didn't face this uncomfortable reality until it came time to grieve her mother. At her funeral, Stacey was at a loss. My dad wanted my sister and I to

write a eulogy and we just couldn't think of things. It was a really horrible feeling because we knew we were loved, but my mom didn't do a lot to show us that kind of stuff. What I'm really just appreciating is this way that you've had to learn to live from the beginning of being a kid where you had to put away or not pay attention to things that were hard and go on functioning. And that that actually was for you as a kid such an incredibly important way you survived. What I'm wanting to convey is just a real deeper understanding of this pattern of being in relationship and how understandable it was for you to be

paying attention to the good and actually how accustomed you have gotten to not paying attention to what's hard. I think it's really helpful to start seeing those connections. It's painful, but it also makes sense. And that's good when not much has made sense in this. Hey folks, exciting news for those who live or hunt in Canada. You might not be able to join our raffles and sweepstakes and all that because of raffle and sweepstakes law

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The new developments in the University of Idaho murder case. It was an unimaginable crime. In the early morning of November 13th, 2022, four University of Idaho students killed. Police have no suspect and no murder weapon. A nationwide manhunt captivates the world. Moscow PD saying today they're now looking for a white Hyundai Elantra. Then, a shocking arrest.

There is now a suspect in custody. This is a PhD student in criminology? This is the guy? Will he be found innocent? He claims he has an alibi. Or face death? Listen to season two of The Idaho Massacre on the iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. The Medal of Honor is the highest military decoration in the United States, awarded for

gallantry and bravery in combat at the risk of life above and beyond the call of duty. Since it was established in 1861, there had been 3,517 people awarded with the medal. I'm Malcolm Gladwell, and our new podcast from Pushkin Industries and iHeartMedia is about those heroes, what they did, what it meant, and what their stories tell us

about the nature of courage and sacrifice. Without him and the leadership that he exhibited in bringing those boats in and assembling them to begin with and bringing them in, it saved a hell of a lot of lives, including my own. Listen to Medal of Honor Stories of Courage on the iHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts. One really useful part of therapy is to identify patterns and move past repeated behaviors.

Jordan Dan explains how this applies in Stacey's life. Her mother had a lack of empathy. Her first husband had a lack of empathy. And Justin had a lack of empathy. And awareness of that pattern, once the unconscious becomes conscious, then we are free to actually move towards people who have empathy, who are there and who are able to give us the support and connection and relationship that we didn't

get before. And now that I'm aware, I can make new choices and I can create a new reality, one in which I have much more power and freedom. I always say that there's no light at the end of the tunnel. It's just a new tunnel. And it may not be as difficult as the last one. It's just always figuring out how to navigate something new. And so I don't know how I'm going to be 100% to be able to do that if I don't deal with

some of the stuff that I've dealt with. I'm going into a phase where I feel like it's okay for me to start to feel things for myself and to grieve what I lost. Stacey is working to hold the pain of her disappointment with the pain of Justin's destruction right along with the positive memories their family shared. But she's not only doing the work for herself,

she's doing it for Tyler, Michaela, and the littles. Her ability to actually hold that complexity is really crucial so that she actually passes on to her children faith and belief in the goodness of other people and is able to maintain a feeling of relationships are hard and they're also good. And if she actually just was in this absolute about who Justin is and what relationships are. That's the inheritance she'd be passing on to her children. And that would be a continuation of the trauma she's experienced.

Jordan says, life is not black and white. It's healthy for Stacey to remember good times, not pretend they never happened. This has been huge for me to see things differently and to try to help me start realizing that it's okay. I don't choose to remember those moments. I don't choose to remember a smell if I smell it. For me to understand that is gonna help me to get to a place where I cannot be so

shameful of the thoughts and be able to move forward and be like, you know what? I can feel joy in these moments. It's okay for me to remember joy without feeling shameful. On the next episode of Betrayal, Tyler meets Anthony Edwards. The beloved star of ER and Top Gun shares his own story as we explore the stigma and shame that prevents men from disclosing sexual abuse. I became a good actor because I could go into a room and I could assess everything. You get really good at playing a room to know how to survive because surviving is the most important thing because when your spirit's broken like that, you feel like you'll die

if you don't. If you're a man who has experienced sexual abuse or assault, or you know someone who is seeking support, go to 1in6.org. That's the number 1, i-n, number 6, dot org. Find a path to a happier, healthier future. If you would like to reach out to the Betrayal Team, email us at betrayalpod atpod at gmail.com. That's betrayal, P-O-D, at gmail.com. Also, please be sure to follow us at Glass Podcasts on Instagram for all Betrayal content news and updates.

We're grateful for your support. One way to show support is by subscribing to our show on Apple Podcasts. And don't forget to rate and review Betrayal. Five star reviews go a long way. A big thank you to all of our listeners. Betrayal is a production of Glass Podcasts, a division of Glass Entertainment Group in partnership with iHeart podcasts. The show is executive produced by Nancy Glass and

Jennifer Faison. Hosted and produced by me, Andrea Gunning. Written by Carrie Hartman and Caitlin Golden. Also produced by Ben Fetterman, Associate Producer, Kristen Malkuri. Our iHeart team is Ali Perry and Jessica Kreincheck. Special thanks to Jordan Dan, our talent Stacey Rutherford, Tyler, and the rest of Stacey and Tyler's friends and family. Audio editing and mixing by Matt Zofecchio.

Editing support from Nico Aruca. The Trails theme composed by Oliver Baines. Music library provided by MIBE Music. And for more podcasts from iHeart, visit the iHeart radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. you get your podcasts. OnX Hunt is now in Canada. It is now at your fingertips, you Canadians. The great features that you love in OnX are available for your hunts this season.

Now the Hunt app is a fully functioning GPS with hunting maps that include public and crown land, hunting zones, aerial imagery, 24K top-o-maps, waypoints and tracking. You can even use offline maps to see where you are without cell phone service as a special offer. You can get a free three months to try out OnX if you visit onxmaps.com slash meet. From KT Studios, the number one podcast, The Idaho Massacre is back.

The new developments in the University of Idaho murder case. It was an unimaginable crime. One house, four victims, only one accused. If this is true, then this guy is the real life Dexter. Listen to season two of the Idaho Massacre on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. The Medal of Honor is the highest military decoration

in the United States. Since it was established in 1861, there have been 3,517 people awarded with the medal. I'm Malcolm Gladwell, and our new podcast from Bushkin Industries and iHeart Media is about those heroes, what they did, what it meant, and what their stories tell us about the nature of courage and sacrifice.

Listen to Medal of Honor, Stories of Courage on the iHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts. I'm Gary Veeder and I have a new limited series podcast, Number One Dad. Over this 10-part series, I'll go searching for the truth about my father, a conman, who I haven't spoken to in 24 years. He wants me to act like my injury is even worse for a payout. He's posing as my attorney in a court. There were moments where Manny would assume the role of undercover police officer.

Listen to Number One Dad on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcast. Hey, I'm Rachel Martin. You probably know how interview podcasts with famous people usually go, right? There's a host, a guest, and a light Q&A. On NPR's new podcast Wild Card, we have ripped up the typical script. It's part existential deep dive and part game show. I ask actors, artists, and comedians to play a game using a special deck of cards to ask some of life's biggest questions. Listen to NPR's Wild Card on the iHeart radio app or wherever you get your podcasts.