Call Her Daddy - 103- Tana Mongeau Exposed

Episode Date: December 2, 2020

2 years later, the bitch showed up and immediately regretted it. TANA MONGEAU EXPOSED. #DADDYGANG

what is up daddy gang it is your single father alex cooper with call her daddy oh my god roast me cook me i deserve it i don't even start talking and here she goes daddy mother fucking gang it is no stop it is your fucking founding father back on it again for another motherfucking episode of call her daddy i am sitting i'm not tearing up i'm not about to puke and shit myself i'm actually like losing my mind dude freaking out guys i'm here with tana when i just heard you say that shit in real life, I lost my fucking mind. I can swear. Obviously, I can swear. Are you kidding me?

I'm like, how many dicks have you had inside of you at once? Go. Let's go. Not me not knowing if I can swear or not. I'm really still a piece of shit. Tana. I am so sorry. Welcome.

No, welcome to Call Her Daddy. Thank you so much for having me. I don't know why. Second time's a charm, sweetheart. Call Her Daddy's doing charity this month. For real. I feel like a kid getting just like a special day. I'm like Second time's a charm, sweetheart. Go fuck yourself. Our daddy's doing charity this month. For real. I feel like a kid getting just like a special day. Like I'm like, it's a treat.

It is a treat because- For me only. Let's talk about this cunt. And I'm going to use that word very strongly. As you should. No, okay, so. No, as you should. Fuck you.

Daddy gang, listen to this. If you guys are not aware of how this relationship started i don't even know if there is a relationship i think there is my guts i think i think it should be like full like who just walked out of a podcast no no it's true we had a we had a rocky start so about two years ago call her daddy started and the first guest that we wanted to have on call her daddy was tana so right there still don't know why like whoa like i don't either wrong from the jump wrong from the job however however i am a fucking idiot and did you know that you were going to be the first guest no i to be honest with you like i didn't realize, I didn't realize until today the severity,

the, the drasticity of how much of a piece of shit I was like until, cause I always heard other people's versions of this story. Right. And I really, I sat down today and I, I deep dove, I deep dove. Can I talk to you about how I feel? Yes. Here we go. Because guys, Tana ditched us.

She never came on the show yes and i think it's as i should start off with call her daddy i think i should just start off with an apology wow to you this is big you're winning point um no i shouldn't okay here we go here we go i watched that video today and it's this i definitely think that was during the time not that this is like an excuse for it where i was just the biggest notorious piece of shit for being so such a piece of shit just late to everything not showing up to everything not whatever and it came to a head like during that time as it should have i deserve that shit and i watched that video today what

video is it the like tana mongeau fucked us over like the original first of all you should have gone literally harder like you should have made eight videos you should have and that's i think what angers me the most about it because i think back if I were in your shoes that's what I was really watching it today like I wouldn't have been as nice as like y'all were like watching that like like I just I sucked so bad and then you guys were still so classy about it and it's crazy and then I was thinking even at dinner Alex and I like went to dinner before this and we were sitting there and you were like I I look at it as a blessing in disguise because then we just like never had on any guests and like you know now everything's like doing so well as you have like the biggest podcast in the world she's like it's like doing well so humble um but like like you're still so

nice about it i would be like fuck that cunt to the grave so like i am no but it is kind of like fuck you but it should be what i was trying to explain is in daddy gang you guys can now if you are a og daddy ganger you understand that as much as at the time tana was hungover and sick or whatever it was no we should we should dive into it we're going to as we should i literally look back on that and it was a blessing honestly i know that sounds like i'm being a bigger person but we ended up making the decision that we were just not going to have guests on and we and because i fucked these bitches up so bad it really ended up being i think like one of the biggest reasons like part of why it got so big is because most podcasts have guests on it and for so long we didn't so it's almost a blessing that you were

a bitch that day um but just imagine let's explain like what happened that infamous night morning because you want to know what i remember i kind of black it out because we're just like so i really do and i am so sorry literally like fuck you but i remember seeing your social media no you were hammered no i know you were like blackout no i remember seeing your story and i'm like in the studio getting ready and we saw like three hours ago she was like hammered walking the streets of new york city like while the sun is rising like blackout and i was like oh this is really good yeah like i can't wait to see her today like this is gonna be great never showed up we waited for hours that's the difference between me now is like i can't say i still wouldn't walk through the city of new york blackout drunk but if i had an obligation a i

would know about it and b um i would still show up like holy holy fuck right but i we do need to get into like the logistics of this moment watching this video even that i was just like like tana if you're gonna be a fucking idiot yeah like do a better job and then even it's like watching it now like I look back and I'm just like you you fucking idiot like I still feel that I'm happy to not be that bitch now but at the same time like just it's one of the biggest L's I think I've ever taken but y'all bossed up on me y'all said like like you know like that's why now I'm like you shouldn't even have me on you know but you know what there's a lot of people and so I'll explain that to you so there's a lot of people that when we were posting out at dinner

together that were like why the fuck are you gonna have this girl on your show as they should I wanted to really go and get those drinks with you and I remember like uh your assistant kept being like you can bring whoever you want I'm like I'm fucking going alone yeah and I want to show up to this fucking dinner alone and I really want to see like who the fuck is this girl tana and i wanted to go there because if i really felt as though you were a majority of the part of some what people think you are on the internet that hate you i was gonna be reluctant to have you on the show because but i didn't think you were gonna be a dick and i do want to clarify that meeting stop complimenting me no no i'm not trust me i'm not because i asked you like three minutes into our dinner i'm like so are you a narcissist tana's like sweating she's like well um you know no i'm sweating puking but

you made me gain so much like respect for you because it's like like i mean i've obviously i've always respected you what have you ever done to make me lose your respect it's out here i'm out here making you lose mine but i'm saying like sitting there being like damn like she showed up alone to actually have a conversation with me and find out who and the fact that even just like your time now is so much your money like everything when you come out to los angeles like the fact that you actually took the time to and i didn't i didn't know that either because i didn't know even this going into i didn't know like i was like what does she want with me like i suck like she's goaded like like it's charity yeah so i was like i thought we were just with me? Like I suck. Like she's goaded. Like, like it's charity. Yeah.

So I was like, I thought we were just going to get drunk or you were trying to fuck me or trying to expose me. God only fucking knows really like, you know, and then, and then I went into it and you were like so intelligent. Like actually you were curious. Like you were like, so why the fuck were you like this? Who the fuck are you now? What the fuck is your life?

Should I even have you on my shit? And it was like dope. I don't even know. Like breaking down that wall. It was. And I think that's where we can kind of get into this episode of when we posted those pictures on the internet yeah the amount of people dude the amount of people that love you but and then the amount of people that fucking hate you and like it's my twitter was i saw i was going through my mom

literally texted me was like hey so like what is this drama like i are you sure you're making the right decision and that is literally no but dude no she was like being cute but i was like you know what that's why you're like you can still go no like but i'm saying like it's not made it's not uploaded no that's the thing i don't give a fuck i i make my own decisions and i like to meet people and be like i met you and i sat with you at a dinner and your past mistakes or whatever you've done in the past like sitting with you for over an hour i was like she seems like a decent fucking human being um and that's why i want to talk to you about like all of your issues or whatever so many you've so

many issues you're gonna be here for 24 hours yeah let's go be the fact that you did that just shows a lot about your character it's funny because it's like really like actually like getting to know you i see why daddy gang is like they would kill for you i see why they hated me for years as they should have as you still should i think you should be like fully mean to me for the first 30 minutes the fact that i ever even like made you so scared to not have guests like it like traumatized the biggest podcast host in the world like yeah it's it's such a fat ass and i just don't even though like you know like she thinks i'm nice now guys like don't let me off no i don't think you're like the nicest but i definitely do have like a lot of respect for what you're doing because i feel

like you've been canceled so many times even that's nice you're still here you're still here like why are you still here we're calling you like so many times. We were just saying you're still here. You're still here. Like, why are you still here? We're calling you like a cockroach. I was literally just saying off camera to her, like, I'm a cockroach. I never die. I don't know. Like, I don't know why I'm still here.

I wake up every day and I'm like, God, like you can take it all away. Like I get it. Right. No. Over editing photos we have to talk about because you made me fucking scream, dying, laughing. Literally we're at catch.

Okay. And I look at Tana and I go, Daddy gang, I have two things to bring up to Tana one your apology video is literally dog shit horse shit like you're not talented because of that video single-handedly you are fucking awful quit now while you're ahead i swear to god that was a face tune she was like your video is the worst thing ever and like why do you face tune like that i was like we need to talk about over editing tana i liked her no but you know what Tana it's funny because I have so much respect for you you've

talked about editing your photos right like oh I gotta go facetune that bitch or whatever or maybe I'm making that up no yes yes deeply I've been sponsored by facetune do you like I am like do you should get a sponsorship oh you do yeah like I did that oh perfect do you edit your own photos yes I do

sometimes I don't. Now I'm making such a surplus of content for so many different streams of shit. Right. I just took 500 OnlyFans photos and a brand deal for Instagram and then something for this brand that's like e-commerce and then a magazine cover. If I were editing that all, I swear to God, I would spend all my time face-to-face. There are days. Yesterday, I spent five hours editing photos.

Just sitting there smoothing. Because it's like you'll have a hundred and that like what the magazine will want all 100 and like i love that you're honest i think that's why people love you is you're honest about it because i'm like okay if your fate i don't understand to be honest though i think that there was a point in my life that i took it way too far i've talked about that during college and even still I'll like teeter because like now I don't even know what's like right or wrong I'm right fucking like in boa like drunk with tiktokers like reshaping my ass like not giving a fuck which is bad so I've had to chill in that sense and that there were there were like two or three it wasn't even one like like big face student scandals where there were some where it was like i posted fan edits that were just heavily edited and some where it was like there was a day where i

i just what i did to my body this day in editing truly shocking no was so unacceptable that was the day not that not that day but the scandal that i realized like if you want to do this like go to the gym or get ass shots which is better than like what the fuck this shit is and i started like actually caring about like working on my body and shit but there was a day where i was in mexico with all my best friends i'll just forget it because i'm an head ass i was in a bikini i was like a tiny it didn't fit me oh my god pale just. Pale. Just fugly. Fugly. Fugly. And I'm just drinking, like, pina coladas all day. Like, just fat.

Getting fat. Just a fat bitch cocktail. Like, just what the fuck can I drink to be a fucking beach whale on this shit in fucking Mexico? What can I drink? And my friend was, like, proposing to someone. And it's like, now I would be smart enough. Oh, someone's proposing? That means lots of photos. That means if you're going to FaceTune something that that you're posting at least look like whatever the fuck your face soon is you had us

i've gotten to the point where i like if i'm gonna act like that i think accordingly um however at that time my friend was like let's take this photo on the beach i took this photo and i just i went i look like a sea lion bro bro i looked I looked. I looked. Dude. So disgusting. I sat there on the beach and was just like reshape. Room, zoom, zoom. Reshape. It was like affecting her arm. Like she was like six inches from me.

And because I was dragging my ass in like so much in areas, her arm was like out like that type of shape. You're like literally reshaping like your entire body. Existence. My soul. You know and how scary when you do the before and after and it's like whoa i've screen recorded someone debated posting them to tiktok because it's like laughable it's disgusting i'm gonna start doing that i think this just inspired me this is hilarious um and so but anyways and then i just the face you know it

was a whole reconstructive surgery moment yeah of course the hair the nails face titty booty and toes shorty i facetuned it off and um then my friends like vlog of him getting engaged went live there is a screen grab of me looking like maybe like the michelin man like maybe like the like maybe like the wallers that you felt just the disgusting exactly how i felt and then the face tuned side by side and then it was like like months later it wasn't even time it was an award show the getty image and then i posted the fan edit and it was like all i can think about in the before and after of that one was whatever was done in that edit to the bottom of my face my face is like jumping at the gym jumping out the gym like up and down in the before and like double

chins and all of a sudden you've like this snatched perfect jawline and that was the moment i realized like whoa taking it too far yeah and they just went so viral as it should i would clown myself you fucking head ass bitch and i talked about facetune but that was when the point where it's like your perception of yourself yeah is no longer what it is you're trying to live up to this highlight reel this image that you want people to think you are and like all that that type of shit this is the shit that is is crazy about our generation is everyone is doing it and like what i don't understand is i have seen everyone think of a celebrity think of a bitch no of a famous bitch i've seen this bitches before and after and they don't look and they're crazy right one of my favorite things ever

is when you become friends with a celebrity and the first time you get to see their face tune before and after oh my god like and do like have you had girls that you you take the photo like you take the photo and they won't let you post it until they face tune that's every famous girl wait really yes they all just like that's the thing too is i think that's why i fuck with like nikita nikita's one of the only people where it's like her and i became friends because it was like you either don't face tune like you're like you and you're famous as shit and you don't give a shit and like I could just tell I can look at a bitch and instantly know which one they are you know either you don't at all or you're completely engulfed in it obsessed with looking like this

image you need to maintain obsessed with like yeah and I had to find this kind of gray area of like okay I realize a lot of people are looking at my shit and people follow me on Instagram because they love perfect fun images and if i can make something better looking i probably know and i get it but when you're changing who you are completely well i think that's where it gets scary to then walk into a room if you don't look like that i was doing that and that's where and then and then it fucks with you literally because then you feel insecure like oh my body doesn't look like that and like i'm embarrassed in hollywood it's not even like i'm insecure and i'm embarrassed it's like how do i start to look like what i am making myself the ideal to look like and that's why you see literally

like kylie jenner it was like she was bullied her whole life about her lips being small and then it's like she edited her shit big and then everyone's like oh my god you're beautiful and then she did it and then everyone's like oh my god you're a fucking big bitch and she's like but you all fucking told me to do this shit and then i was just trying to look like what i was doing and then it was like it fucked her up psychologically, you're a fucking big bitch. And she's like, but you all fucking told me to do this shit. And then I was just trying to look like what I was doing. And then it was like, it fucked her up psychologically until she dissolved them at 22. You know, like, I think one of the biggest lessons I had to learn with Instagram

and something that I try to teach people too, because even now, like, the TikTokers, like I said, like, I'll meet these famous TikTok girls with, like, six million Instagram followers. Like, I FaceTune just like you. Like, I learned to FaceTune by looking at your face. You know what I mean? So it's like, I'm always saying to them,

like, comparison is the root of all evil. Like, if you're scrolling through your instagram saying why can i be this bitch why can i be this bitch why can i look like this bitch why can't my hair be like hers why can i wear like hers why can i date this guy like her why can i like you're always gonna fall short in your mind you like you know what i mean it's like always remember instagram is everyone's highlight reel it always will be you're showing what you want to show and you can't compare yourself to people's best moments i feel like people always joke about like oh like you guys seem so similar but i feel like we have such different lives that's what's funny is that's that's what's so ironic is my my perception of you like when i first met you're saying like my

first impression well first of all i just want to say i came home and everyone obviously like everyone in my house is in the movie room done like so how did it go so how did it go like did she hate you like what happened like just because like you're the president of this like world like no you are like you fucking you are the president of like every bitch like me on this planet i'm like i fucked on you you should hate me like you should and so all my friends were just like did she fucking cut you like are you friends like what happened and i literally was like she is the most intelligent polarizing kind like kind, like, person I've ever met. She's so smart.

I see why she captivates a room. I see why Logan Paul was in love with her and couldn't have her. I see why. Like, I'm joking. That was just a joke. Joke, joke, joke. Don't come around. I won't start with the dark jokes, actually.

It was too dark. That was just a joke. Daily mail. Just a joke. And we're not, fuck all that. No, no, no. But that's cool that you said that. No that no but like you actually because it was just like the way you carried yourself especially about this situation you've shown me like so much humility that i think someone in like your position should not have shown you or wouldn't at least in this industry we've talked

and that we're so different yeah like that was another big part of my first impression is like everyone's like you guys are so similar. You talk about the same stuff. You guys are blonde. You guys like. Right. You're like twins. Like dick sucking and twins.

Like that's literally what people say. But ironically like like we're so polar opposite. Right. And if anything I'm so envious of you. There's so much about you that I wish I like because it's like you know you never moved here. You're so New York. You're so you. You don't give a fuck about this scene you didn't let any of the negative sides affect you and you

really just like stayed in what you do and like it's it's kept you so ridiculously authentic to the point that you stand out from like every bitch in the city and i think that shit is so respectable like you know what i mean like i thank you and that's something that i am now because that's that's always how i like used to be in so much of this city in this world like like i don't want to say took that away from me because it's decisions i made but just altered me in a way that made me not like so i see you and i'm just like damn no i appreciate that and i think that like you like we can talk about your earlier videos because i remember you being the vegas girl and i think that a lot of my

fans are so terrified that i'm moving here and i keep saying to them like i feel like had i done this when i was 21 and you can just tell a bitch went to college too when she talks it's so hot i'm dead ass i'm like fucking how many books has she read that is one thing that i really it's like because i i see why your fans are nervous and all fans because just time and time again, we've watched every creator move to LA and become a completely different person. And it's like, I now, like, I see why. Because it's like, you know, like, I moved out here when I was like, pretty much like 16, 17. Well, let's talk about your childhood. Because you and I, I literally can't explain to you, like, when I think about the way you were raised and grew up

like and there's no shade i think i commend you so much for where we're sitting on this couch together and we are from complete different backgrounds and i'm not making she's being so nice no i'm not i'm not making like any excuses for you but like i know how much my mom and my dad and my siblings like shaped you and stuff yeah and so when you don't have parental figures in your life and so you move so you lived in Vegas yeah I mean but yeah to like answer like I've always kind of like felt I guess alone in this world like in that sense so you're right and it wasn't even till I was like 18 that I realized like oh every other person is the way they are because their parents and siblings shape them. And I'm this way because I didn't have those.

Like it was even just realizing that like just was. Yeah. Well, that's why I think like, listen, I I hear my audience daddy gang. I hear you a lot being like, oh, my God, stop having influencers on. And I do think like, unfortunately, it's really hard to explain to people that aren't in the industry, like how hard it is to have someone speak into a microphone like you're used to it like when i had my mom on for my 100th episode it took us 19 hours for her to even understand like how to talk into a microphone and get used to it yeah that's true it makes my life a lot easier to talk to people that know how to speak

on camera yeah and that's unfortunately that's just like what i'm doing right now because it's hard she's like unfortunately i'm sitting here on this fucking couch with you um but no but like that's why most podcast hosts have sorry to interrupt you um have like have fucking hella guests on because that's what makes it easier that's what makes the it flow and that's what makes you stand apart and again the goat because you're like i don't even fucking need that shit bitch i'm alex cooper well it's hard too because i think a corona like content wise it's been difficult but so yeah i think that what i try to even killing it yeah thank you what i try to do is have people on like you or someone that maybe people are like i am sorry but i can't relate to tana mojo and like i know your brand has been so relatable but

i think you've gotten a little towards la that like after the jake paul wedding and all that shit it's like all it looks like all you did was for clickbait and so i want to kind of like go back to like where you're from and like there's a lot of people that listen to my fucking podcast that come from broken families and like i can't speak on that and so i'm sitting with you and i'm like talk to me like let's go let's fucking go i 100 that's why i started like what i started because i was watching shane and like he came from a broken home and i like i like i vividly remember years i literally just keep getting chills over and over again so annoying i hate simping like fuck okay you're fine you got this you got no um but i just remember actually sitting in my house i got like 12 years old for like every single day and like i would

be watching shane's videos in front of shane dawson if anyone doesn't know sorry sorry his videos in front of a computer and they're just be screaming in the back of my family fighting like dishes breaking shit breaking like my mom getting fucking like abused by my dad and Shane was just playing and I remember being like if he can come from like this I can I can do that and help people like me like that was the first thought I ever had about YouTube and you're an only child yeah so it was like and that was kind of the thing too is it was like there's no one in this with me you know what I mean so I wanted to help other people who felt the way i did so i sat and i made my first video and that's why what was your first video do you remember my first video was a daily vlog at the mall i worked at because i like worked

retail like i was vlogging my dad i remember my dad too that day like came pick me up and i was like i had like an iphone 4 or whatever and he was like what the fuck are you doing like it's never gonna fucking take off like it's so fucking embarrassing i go back to work i'm in this mall in front of all my friends like my dad was screaming the shit at me and like in the beginning too every time i would bring out a phone or anything my parents would hit it out of my hand they'd be like what the fuck oh so they thought you vlogging was embarrassing not embarrassing they're just like you're stupid old they're like 60 like they just didn't they didn't understand and i think people who are you know like ill in the head sometimes when they don't understand something

like that's the way they are you know so it's like i don't i don't villainize them for that of course so you well that is already i think relatable to a lot of people so you grew up in a household that your parents were there was physical abuse and you're sitting there being an only child by yourself and youtube was an escape well it was my only escape was my first escape i i i know, I hate saying this because it's so dark. And, like, call her daddy, too. They're like, we just want to hear about her, like, Gluck Gluck 9000. We'll get there. Don't worry.

We'll get there. Don't worry. But, like, I feel like I wanted to die my entire life. Like, and once I realized the concept of, like, I don't want to live. Right. Even just being, like, eight, like, in my household. Like, I didn't want to until I found YouTube. Like, it was the first thing I ever found that was, an escape and that's what really it was a long time of that

for sure my co-workers my friends like and i dropped out of high school too so it was like all my friends were like what the fuck is this bitch doing like she dropped out of school and it's talking to her phone like talking to herself think about that like that's not you know so like no one obviously like that it comes with that but but i've also always been like the the weird kid that like you know i want to ask you like when did you start drinking and doing drugs when i was i in seventh grade is the first time i remember like smoking weed and wanting to drink but i even remember being in like fifth grade and it was like you know shit that like right i was friends with the bad kid like the bad kids you know right like it was shit that was being like my friends in middle school like it right like definitely like fifth grade and were your parents even my dad was an alcoholic his

whole life so like i was i was introduced to the idea he stopped being an alcoholic when i was born but had far many other issues to make up for that so you know thank god he wasn't also right um i knew and i grew up in vegas which is like obviously a city where alcohol drugs and gambling and like sex work are the only things that make that city thrive so you are raised to think that the rest of the world is kind of like that even right that's like normal to you yeah like i i was like like raised and like this is what life is like my teachers were drunk i remember my teachers because i grew up in bad like not the best areas right not the best school think about it vegas dude what the i remember being in like one of my first houses like it was like i was going to like second and third grade and it's not like my parents were

putting me to bed like i never had like it wasn't like bedtime bedtime story it was like oh we're gonna fight till like 3 a.m and like my kid's gonna fall asleep and like you know sometimes they'd be parents and like wake me for school and stuff and it's like my mom wasn't up like making breakfast like you know my dad was like trying to cover up for her while screaming about it because he had to go to work and bitching. Like it was always there was never structure implemented. And then obviously also just the turbulent like household and lifestyle kind of made it to where it was like I was a bad kid. Like, you know, I was staying up all night because my parents were fighting. So I was sleeping in school by like fourth and fifth grade.

Like it was never and like I would get in trouble, you know, and it's like normally you go home to your parents who like teach you why you're getting in trouble. Right. It's like my parents were going in like trying to fight the teachers and shit. And like. So you drop out of high school. Yeah. So by sophomore year, it's like, A, like I was just a fuck up in school my whole life.

Right. And problems manifested also. Obviously, like how bad my childhood was at like five years old was like far less bad than how it was by the time i was a sophomore like my parents fighting got worse the abuse got worse we got poorer like the you know just poorer and poorer and poorer so the fighting became worse and it just which obviously affects you know like how you are in school it affects your whole totally fucking life you know so my sophomore year it was like my parents were fighting till 5 a.m. I was sleeping through school.

They didn't care to wake me anymore because I was so like tired. I just wouldn't go to school for weeks on end. And then the school would like reach out. And there are these people called like truancy officers who would show. And I was so depressed. It's so sad because you look back and I know that all that ever was was just like being raised terribly and like extreme like mental disorders chemical imbalances from like like i was just so depressed i was sleeping all day couldn't even get up to go to school at like a freshman and and then my parents obviously weren't like oh she's depressed she needs medical

help they wouldn't i still am missing teeth from like the dentist appointments they wouldn't take me to they would they i probably went to the doctor a handful of five times like my whole life so it's not like they were gonna get me psychological help you know they were like you fucking piece of shit we have the worst fucking kid ever this is why you fucking suck it's all your fault like you know like you should die we should have aborted you like i remember my parents literally like just screaming that shit at me type shit and then because it's like it's such a so you were stripped of your childhood essentially because when you which is why i was reckless i think right right well what what else you're gonna do because

it's like i i dropped out i started partying all the time I fell in with like I was selling drugs like I've done it all in that sense were you living with your parents still then no no I moved out at I moved out before YouTube like I I moved out then dropped out then started YouTube like my home life was so bad at 15 I remember there was this day dark that my dad you know those like really big macbook bricks like the macbook chargers like we were fighting over some shit and he like picked one up that was mine and threw it at me and hit me in the head and he knocked me out and i remember waking up and i was like i can't live here anymore like i don't care like if i'm 15 like i'm not gonna live in this environment so i was like i'm getting a boyfriend i'm living with

him so i started dating this guy he was so like a like every guy was terrible obviously about the environments and then started living with them and then it was like obviously I wasn't going to school at that point because of all the things I'd enveloped myself in and like whatever and so then it was kind of like fuck it I'm gonna start YouTube because what do I have to lose it was more so like there's nothing I'm passionate about there's nothing I care about there's nothing I have to live for like oh that why not it's so dark but it unfortunately like when i look back at your youtube days because i remember watching one it's so crazy to watch you like in your first youtube videos i think how you got also so huge was because you did have that like nothing to lose mentality

you're talking about shit you were one of the first people i remember on youtube talking about sex drugs alcohol everything in a way that like someone like me that grew up or like I can't get away with anything in high school would look at you and be like oh I'm like kind of secretly jealous of this girl because she can like go drink and not give a fuck exactly and so there was a line of like you had no there was no limit for you you don't get on and talk about drugs at that age it was like what not that anyone cares but I don't think I've ever realized that until right now so if i just am super revelational over here like no it's fine but i don't think i ever realized that like that was it like when people really are like

why didn't you like i've always just not given a fuck but that wasn't that was a layer that i had nothing to lose like because it was like this was the only thing i've ever cared about the only thing that's ever saved me the only thing that could ever take me somewhere the only like i'm at rock but where am i gonna go like that like it's death or up you know like it's so dark but like straight up and i think like a lot of people always ask me about call her daddy like oh like how did you how were your parents reacting to it i was yes i was talking about sex so it was like i had my parents in the back of my head but they were so supportive when you're making those videos you weren't like i wonder what my parents are gonna say when i go home tonight no yeah because i wasn't have yeah 100 so it was kind of like what what why not 100

and that's where all the story times came from too because it's like i was so reckless i didn't give a fuck i wasn't you know what i mean like i i never like when did you get big like how did it was there a big moment or did you just slowly grew over time no i the way i like i remember it i guess i mean it happened very very like fast okay and it obviously wasn't something that i ever was gonna detest because it was like this is the best thing to ever happen to me this is my life stream this is all i've ever wanted fuck yeah let's go i hopped on the train i said bye yeah exactly i was broke as shit and my parents aren't gonna pay for college i can't go to college i'm a dropout like this is it literally was like the only thing that made sense for me to literally keep living like right and so um i worked up i worked multiple retail jobs because

that was at 15 after i moved out that's what i did like the legal age of hire in nevada is 15 so the first thing i did was like i'm finding a job to save the money so that i can get away from my parents because i can't go to school in an environment like this anyways like maybe one day like i'll learn all the shit that i didn't all I just made me want to cry oh dude but I'm grateful that I did like get to learn all the and I created a world for myself where I like get to I guess right um but then when did you move to LA yes well I was working like I said like retail Plato's Closet PacSun for like probably two years craziness hectic and then I started vlogging and then like a month into vlogging at PacSun my first boss believed in me I'll never forget him JJ if you're watching this love you my guy

um he he was one of the first people to ever believe in me about it too so I'll never ever forget it and he was like I just remember him always being like I hope you get out of here like I hope you oh no Tana's about to make me cry too and I I actually remember him being like I hope you get out of here and like i when i hit 100k i quit and it was like so happy because it was oh my god we're crying tana's crying because i was crying to get out of this life no but that's amazing i went on call her daddy to cry fuck dude we're crying give us a minute no that's some dark shit yeah yeah so i felt very like lucky to to get to get out of that shit there was no option

because like amari that's one thing like too is amari like almost like i hate to say but like endured a lot of the shit of my family with me he would come over and fight with my parents like there was a point in time when my grandmother i'm like miss you resident peace but like um like like that and obviously like i don't even but my parents their ideals on everything were so fucked on the world and shit like that. They were prejudiced, like just racist, like shitty white, like Republican, like from Texas. I'm talking to my own parents. Yeah, you're disgusting.

Now they've grown a little with the world now. Not that I really know again in the past couple of years. Like, whatever. I'm not I'm not here to talk my shit. But I mean, like, I remember times in Amari, you know, growing up and coming over. My parents would be like just shitty. The things they would say would be almost underlyingly prejudice and i remember like there was a time when i was like i my grandma said some shit that was just like texas like bad like racist right and i i cussed her out it was one of the last times i

ever spoke to her and i was like i can never bring amari around her again i started never bringing him around my family and now i remember that being the moment that i was like i hate you people right because i love this kid he's the only reason i'm fucking alive and you think he's different than me like fuck you like i remember i remember that was the moment that i was like i literally my grandma's dead to me like you know what i mean right so i like that and then i i instantly also nobody knows who amari is it's tana yeah oh yeah he's my best friend yeah and so then i instantly just started going to his house every day and his family and it's funny because like his mom is like she's like a mom with her head on her shoulders and i remember me just storming through her door and her being like what the fuck

is this kid like and who is this i i commend her so much because i think any other parent would be like get that fucking thing so far from my kid like i would like oh my god i would be like get that stupid little bitch so fucking far away from you like she's like oh my god i would be like get that stupid little bitch so fucking far away from you like she's gonna ruin your life and amari's mom i feel like was like this girl has no one and spent her time like you know being like a mom to me and making amari siblings like mine and his dad like and even that like his dad you know being like a black like african-american man and i come from these fucking like terrible just like shitty like yeah yeah and it's like and his dad taking me in and seeing like no like she doesn't know any better and like worked

with me for so long on that like type shit like just i i commend them so much for what they did for me i don't know where i'd be without them obviously there's so much shit on the internet of people being like tana's fucking racist tana's fucking racist and there are things in the past that maybe you did yeah there are 100 so many things in the past i did that i look back and i'm like that was fucking like those words you're tweeting. Like that was racist. I don't care. Right.

Right. You can blame it on all the shit we said, but it's still obviously always like anger me that I even ever put it out into the world, like dumb ass tweets and shit. Right. But I also think about things that I did in high school that like when the shit that I put on the internet and I'm like the shit that I did when I was

younger and I had the parents, I have the shit that you were doing. It's never okay had the parents i have the the shit that you were doing it's never okay yeah it's just to then for you to make sense it does well also to see your parents and then like but i didn't know that story about amari and his family and his dad and all that shit like i don't think anybody knows everyone's full story so that's why i'm just i think everyone deserves second chances i'm not saying what you've done in your past is fucking great. 38th chance. Yeah, literally, 38th chance, you cockroach. But you've made shitty decisions, but you also have owned up to them. However, in your apology videos at times, I'm going to call you out here.

Oh, we did. I did. I sat down, and she was like, that video was the worst fucking thing I've ever seen. It was so shitty. You know what's funny? It's in my head. I was like, damn, I love this bitch. That was the first moment, because've ever seen it was so shitty and i know but you know what's funny is in my head i was like damn i love this bitch you said that was the first moment because i was like she's real as shit yeah like because you don't like i love that shit and then

we said i said tana this is the thing there's a lot of people on the internet that are super formulated and perfect and all their response is like no offense but like a james charles it's like yeah he's like a robot i'm not that you're not and i tried to be and i shouldn't have exactly so when you put out your videos you're so authentic and you're Tana. Yeah. The minute you put out your apology video where like there's 200 cuts in it and you look like you're being scripted. It doesn't play for you at all because you're the complete opposite of that all the time.

So unfortunately for like a James Charles, he can get up there and look scripted because he always does. I don't know why I thought I could do that. No. I really did. I'm going to be real with you you I thought that people would be like oh yeah she's like you know no way got her together for once it was the worst thing I've ever posted right um but I mean not I mean I guess to touch on what you were just saying right to the people

that tweet me like saying like you're racist or you're this or like whatever it is I I stopped trying to prove myself because I was like you know that I've done so much shit that it's like there are going to be people who hate me forever, rightfully so, and I'm not here to be like, please don't. Here's my childhood. Vindicate me. Like we just said, cancel culture isn't a thing. I'm going to wake up tomorrow and still be a person.

So for me at that point when I was getting all those tweets, it was more like, okay, let's reflect. How can I be better? Did I do anything wrong? I'm going to apologize and then like figure it out from there. And when it came to that video now to respond to that right right such a bad decision when it came down to it I was like I I thought about it for months too it was just like what do I do because it was like we've we talked about this a lot off camera but it's like I grew up in

this industry completely wrongfully thinking you know the right thing to do whenever you're in trouble is just to not talk about it. So I waited so fucking long, like an idiot, which now like, I'm grateful to have learned that. But like when it comes to that video, I was just like,

I don't know how to do it. And I, I felt like I wanted to like James Charles talk to you, whatever the fuck, sit down and be professional. So I wrote out how I felt and then just like read how I felt and then cut it and posted it. And like, and it was cause it it was like everyone was out around me was kind of too just like at this point saying something and it's true saying something was better than saying nothing

right but it's like looking back now it's like go live bitch yeah and do like do this like i could have fucking came on call her daddy and been like alex like like no but literally like i'm not racist and i know i made mistakes and i know i've tweeted shit i know i made awful videos and people make mistakes and unfortunately yeah i think that and i executed it so yeah it really it fucking sucked you were literally piece of shit loser awful i hated every second of it you should have called me and been like can you please help me and like look at this um did you consult anyone on it kind of yeah but it like i also felt like to be real with you like and this is like dark to say but it's like i spent so much of my career every time i was in trouble like consulting people right two people and i'm not saying that because i didn't consult as many people that this was

right because it fucking was it was the worst thing ever i should have consulted people right but i'm saying like i didn't you know like tana con like shane saved me like every apology video i called shane i called jordan i called my friends I did and it was like at least like I can say from the bottom of my heart lie detector that every single thing I said in that fucking video like I wrote it down I feel that way it came from my brain I mean I like you know what else do you do it's not like I ever knew what to do in those situations and you're right I slowly like it became I had nothing I went from having nothing to lose to slowly having things i didn't want to lose and trying to keep what i'd built because it's all i have i have

nothing to go back to like right you know what i mean like i love this thing more than anything and it's like i look back at so many of the like cancel culture moves i made and videos i made and i'm just like you stupid stupid stupid stupid you're growing up like on the internet in front of everyone making these decisions like i'm sorry and i'm again no i'm not she's like i'm not defending i'm not defending you at all but i want every no i really want everyone listening to this podcast picture yourself like something happens in your life and you have to get in front of a fucking camera and you make your apology video how's it gonna sound i bet a lot of them would fucking be shit i guess i've never thought about it like that it's not easy it's not fucking easy yeah but i'm also notoriously the worst at it i think most people are like really good at it you know

for like james charles the bigger like you know no no james charles like yeah like he can slap and like he does those things really well but it is just something to consider like i don't i do want to break the third wall where it's like everyone listening to this like if you had to make a video for your friends and your family and it's apology to them like how would it sound yeah like i think that it's a double-edged again we signed friends and your family and it's apology to them, like how would it sound? Yeah. Like I think that it's a double edged sword. Again, we signed up for this life, but it's also like, it's a double edged sword because it's like people want you to tell them everything about their lives.

And if you don't, you're inauthentic and you're dishonest and you're hiding shit and you're a liar. But the second you do, you've now given them everything to pick apart, scrutinize and hate you for. So it's like, which side of that do you want? Do you know what I mean? There isn't a, and then that becomes sitting in the middle and trying to find a level of acceptance because that's the life that you lead as this but it's not like you're gonna come online and bitch about

that either because it's like i live that life from a fucking mansion i used to cry over far worse things with bugs like i'll figure it out and do what the fuck i have to do to like help people i guess like with this now but it is like no it's dark i remember like seeing for the first time because i've always watched drama on the internet but i was having my own it was recently something happened i was reading dms of people are like crazy on the internet like they wanted me to continue to fuel the drama and they wanted me to spill more tea and i'm like and so many people do i could keep it going but yeah I don't want to do that I want to like go make my money make my show make my fans happy that's why she's perfect no because there was a time where I was like fuck yeah the drama's fun right and it gets clicks for a certain amount

but then it's like at what point are you literally selling your soul and that's like where I feel like I I found that I got to the like the gates of that and I was inside of that right what it is like to have the option to walk down the path of that and I was inside of that right what it is like to have the option to walk down the path of absolutely like selling your soul or to not well okay Tana we can quickly talk about this yeah yeah I think your career like when you look back and this is unfortunately what happens to everyone it's like you were getting famous because of your crazy degenerate life and then all of a sudden now you are in a mansion and you're living you lose the relatability yeah it's the ace family effect you're this family that's like so fucking normal with your baby that everyone loves and now it's like you're complaining about like the the

eighth landscaper didn't show up at 9 a.m and your life is so hard and it's like what like but it's crazy because it's like realizing that it's like i don't want to say how could that not happen because there are obvious there are people like you who stayed out of it you waited till you were 20 years old to even consider moving to la there are ways to avoid letting this industry change you and that's what makes people like you the goat because i think that the average viewer don't viewers don't realize it's like why miley's the goat like you know what i mean like the the punches you have to throw at all times to not let this industry change you

it is easier to walk down the gates of selling your soul because that's what everyone's doing you look to your right and it's every fucking famous person you've ever seen like doing that they're telling you that's what you should do they're saying here's the money and the cars and the no problems and everything you've ever wanted if you do this right anything when you decide to not sell your soul is when your life becomes hard because now you're going against everything this industry is like if that you know what i mean like i couldn't have said it better myself i think that's why especially the goat no but i think that's why i get so hypersensitive when i see people in my dms being like oh my god like i feel like you're changing and because you bought a nice couch and all this shit and i'm like if only you knew how far like i

really could be taking it and i don't i don't want to live that life like i want to move here and like be normal i will suck your cock right now no stop like top you up and say she's one of the most normal like famous people i've ever met no cap that's why you're here in this position i shouldn't be on this show should i walk away yeah get the fuck out i literally straight up asked hannah when we were at dinner I was like are you a narcissist which I know a narcissist would ever be like yes I'm a narcissist but like talk to me about like who are you like what like do you do you worry about okay yourself yeah I mean the narcissist I obviously I think I said this to you I know

I'm not a narcissist but I do think that anyone doing what we do even just sitting down back back in the day, I've never I struggle with self-love, especially back in the day. So it wasn't like I was sitting down being like, I love who I am. It was more so just like, I know this life isn't normal now, so I'm going to tell the story. Yeah. But I do think to maintain this job for six years, you're going to have narcissistic all social media. We all do. Because it's like you you're talking about yourself your life to millions of people all you're thinking about is how millions of people care about you and love you all you're being told all day every day is how

fucking perfect you are and how much people love you and blah blah blah so like this life breeds a narcissistic thought process but i've always been such a depressive person that narcissism was never something that was really in like right i guess like i mean like obviously like i'll make jokes about being like a hot ass bitch and like loving myself and like you know like shit like that are you but like insecure or are you not or did you used to be like what's your biggest insecurity yeah so i mean i will i mean i've definitely wanted to kill myself a lot in this life so like that is true like have you like you've wanted to but have you are you like i've tried i mean i don, I don't want to say I've tried in like the general sense. I've never attempted suicide.

But like you've thought about it? Well, I've, I've taken drugs hoping they kill me, you know, taking a lot of drugs, hoping they kill me, hoping I don't wake up. Like if they don't kill me, I don't get it, which is right. I mean, but that's suicidal ideation. It's not technically like wanting to attempt suicide. So I want to always clarify that like I'm you know but yeah I've I've struggled with will to live a lot this is the point in time where I definitely want to live the most I ever

have wow like I'm I'm definitely the happiest and like level-headed and like my will to live is higher than it's ever been okay well that's amazing I want to read I wrote this down I was looking at some of your videos and I said you described from january to december 2019 i crumbled and by december 2019 i wanted to die i wanted to kill myself oh honey and it only gets worse it really gets all you're sad now dana no yeah literally literally um that's stupid bitch when you did the december 2019 and march 2020 videos about mental health the mtv show the depression you fell into your past experience with abuse and the trauma from that um you were basically saying like at first the industry was your way out of your childhood and yeah and then you realize how corrupted that and

then you're in the industry and now it's like what do you do now because now this is the corrupt part of it 100 do you feel like you're fucking like what do you do you even know who you are anymore well it's it's even funny just to touch on what you said too even that like by january of 2020 my titles were like how this fucking industry changed me and my titles used to be like i sucked dick in a casino yesterday like you know what i like that that's like that within itself like just visibly seeing how much it does to you is like really really wild yeah you know but that's that's why 2019 at that point was such a frustrating year for me that was the year that I say I really like realized like you can either go this way or this way and it

was at that time where in the beginning when Jake and I like started everything I hate to reference it to Jake but that changed my life like who I was before that and like who I am now is polar like entirely because I went from like more of just like a normal Vegas girl who lived in LA and like you know I'd done some LA stuff like be with Bella and stuff like that and whatever but I'd I'd still it hadn't affected me in like the terrible terrible ways I hadn't seen the terrible and I'm not even saying it's Jake I'm saying the fame of what that relationship did so in the beginning it was very like you know just wholesome fun like we were hooking

up obviously just like off camera like we had been for like a minute and other times and whatever and then we got like caught and like which people thought was fake too which I will say to this day like I mean I don't know if I changed it all if I could go back in time but like that shit wasn't I wasn't doing that for all of that to happen and so

it started off as fun, but then it became like, everyone loves this more than anything in the world. And then it was like, when everyone loves what you're doing as a YouTuber, all you also know is to keep doing what people love. And if you love doing it, why like,

why wouldn't you? Like I was that at that point, that was probably the happiest and most carefree I'd ever been in my career. And ever would be because it was the most amount of success. It was before, you know, it was before the industry had like changed me in any way before I'd experienced so many things like that.

It was before people always say that you, you either like live long enough to, to die a hero or to see your heroes become the villain. And that was, I, that was the point where like I hadn't seen all my heroes become, you know what I mean? That was the point where I hadn't seen the darkness like in that sense so you were just really wrapped

up in well then we just started doing it and life started changing just paparazzi everywhere fans everywhere like fans coming to my house like fans like the I don't know if it's Jake's cult following or people liking the relationship or what it was I don't know but it was just like my whole life became like overnight like it just absolutely fucking changed well I don't know but it was just like my whole life became like overnight like it just absolutely fucking changed well I couldn't be normal anymore no one treated me normal no one talked to me normal everywhere I went no one I couldn't go anywhere without a phone in my face for like six months like it was like I I wasn't a human I felt like and then it was like too when you're being pushed into that and Jake too like Jake couldn't go anywhere without it being Tana where's Tana

Jana this really when you're both being pushed into that you gravitate towards each other too because it's like no one else that sounds fucking miserable and like it sounds happy but miserable because i feel like you're it's almost like it's like when people are bipolar like you're on a high and then the minute that shit's about to fucking end you are gonna go to the lowest point you all of your self-validation and worth becomes in the and that's just what being a YouTuber is in general. Right. So it's also the manifestation of years of that. But becomes in, based in if people like you or not.

And that's, you know, like you start to validate yourself in that. And then when you're doing it at such a high caliber like that, and, you know, with someone else who like is, you know, you're thinking in the same ways because of this. Right. Like you're like, you know, how can, like what can we do? Let's keep doing this shit. Let's, you know, let's keep in the same ways because of this. Like, you're like, you know, how can, like, what can we do? Let's keep doing this shit. Let's, you know, let's keep.

So when it ended. But then, like, the point of that is, is it just eventually, like, no matter how happy the shit makes you, the downfall, like, we were just in too deep. It was like, fuck this. I miss sitting in your bed and not having 83 people outside. And having to, like, post about it and make a fucking video about it. Yeah, yeah.

And just, like, people picking apart everything, too. too like so many of our fights were literally just caused by other people like right it wasn't even between the two yeah like saying shit i said or saying shit he said or saying or you know like i'm i'm upset at you because you did this and you didn't mean to hurt me but the whole world perceives it in this way and it's like well i didn't mean to hurt you and it's like okay but like the whole world thinks right so now so now i look like an idiot and fuck you right now we have to address it now we have to make a video about it now it's like yeah your your relationship is more for the world yeah actually didn't even have yeah have your own relationship and I just it came to a point where I was like I

I'm Tana and like I I didn't want to be someone's anything well because this is the thing Tana I think a lot of times like your life for so long you were relatable and then I think a part of it was like does now everything she do is it for clickbait is it real because Jake Paul kind of is like the head of the clickbait world just doing stupid shit to get clicks and I feel like you weren't in it until then you got so big from it but now especially just the wedding shit it got to the wedding shit that's when it was kind of like it almost became like a joke at that that's what i'm saying people are like what the fuck are you guys and there was so much real life mixed into something that was all which it was just it

fucks it fucks with your head so much so it's like it got to the point where i think that's when people i think the wedding was when people were like what yeah i think how far i took the public side of my relationship with jake maybe he made me lose a part of my credibility forever. 2019, I realized, like, I don't like what this can turn me into. I don't like what I've become up until this point. I don't like, in a lot of ways, who I've been for the last nine to ten months. I think a lot of the ways I am and have been for the last nine to ten months are a culmination of the way I was raised, this industry. Like, a lot of the scandals and mistakes I've made and the way i have come from lack of structure and responsibility and timing and you know like but that doesn't excuse it anymore like you're fucking you're 20 years old now at this point i think i

was 21 and so almost two years yeah and i was like fuck like i can't i don't want to live the rest of my life like this like what was your everyday life like like how many drugs are you talking about like what the fuck were you doing? Well, it's crazy in the celebrity lifestyle too. That's another thing is it's like, especially me, I grew up like with the party girl image. So it's like my whole life to this day, it probably always will be people coming up to you

with cocaine on a key and a Xanax in front of you and a Molly next to you and $10,000 cash if you take it all and you know, like and do a club appearance. And appearance and what like it's the lifestyle does nothing but brit that's why all child stars hollywood stars turn into addicts or die at young ages because because it's like like like amy winehouse like you know what i mean like it's everyone in the world giving it to you because you're making everything and that's too it's like all my content and shit comes from the party girl aspect so even when they do at a party they don't even know how many drugs you took but like tana you have to take and even the businessmen of the industry

are like give this bitch drugs to go tour so she does better like it's like no one's on the side of you being sober so the first like six months of that like wow that of 2019 like shooting mtv because it was like we would shoot the show for like 12 to 18 hours all day every day where you know it's a million people telling you how to be, what to say, what this should be like. And it's, and it's your real life. So it's like staging fights with your best friend. They are the producers and the people with your best friends, with your family, with your, with your management, with your boyfriend, with your whatever, so that they get this great ass show. They don't like, you know, it's MTV. Why would they care about it? You know, I'm not here to whatever but it fucked you like i was

doing that all day i guess and then at the end of the day every day i was taking a xanax to the dome getting as fucked up as i could you know hanging out with just the wrong people the wrong like rappers people who endorse that lifestyle people and you know and then i was waking up every day and sobering up from the the, sitting in the makeup chair, just like fucking crying my eyes out, hating what I was doing, hating my life, hating like where. But but hating myself because it was like I did this. Like I chose to do all that shit with no one else. Like I don't blame anyone but myself for this. So then it was like crazy.

But anyways, like after it was like over, I'm surprised I lived through like being really realistic like it which i hate to say no but you're pushing your body to do that much shit it's like yeah like i and like the way benzos work on the brain now i'm studying the brain so much so i know all about why like it's crazy but the way benzos work on the brain is they take away your REM sleep entirely because they it takes away the ability to store memories because it's like the first thing it does and that's what happens in your like rem sleep sorry call her daddy i know you just want to hear about dick sucking guys we're getting there i promise people but um so i was getting no sleep like just exhausted the way it fucks with your head so then when i finally decided to get sober it was just like like withdrawals were terrible and it was like all in the public

eye it's not like i'm gonna be like what up hollywood fix i'm withdrawing from xanax yeah my xanax addiction that i've been doing like or just whatever it like you know like it and it wasn't just that i know that life i've seen it yeah yeah you were telling me yeah and like dark people close as fuck to you it's it's so dark and working in that environment it's like close to impossible 100 and then i was still like trying and then it was like i would put on the face kind of and do it but then every day like break the fuck down did it affect your relationships not romantically but like your friendships like is it yeah everyone was miserable yeah i hate to say it again i don't blame them but i'm saying even just amari and ashley were miserable seeing my best friends miserable

and being like damn like they wanted to do this but did they know and that was the first time i to like seeing like we just said all the negative effects of fame like seeing them now affect these people that you've known from your childhood like that shit broke me so hard to like see yeah you know like that shit really put them through that right them struggle with substance abuse and i'm struggling with it yeah like you know just like what it did to everyone my manager i think it changed everyone's lives for the better and the worst right i mean obviously it's the same thing as what we just said. It's the same Hollywood bullshit.

MTV did so many great things for me, but also so much darkness. Yeah. Like mentally, but it's like, so I asked you, I was like, Tana,

like, do you ever just like, are you ever by yourself? Like, do you know who you are? Like, can you be alone? Are you happy alone now for the first time ever?

And that's, and that's why I think I don't want to kill myself for the first time okay i want to talk about your sexuality oh my god fun okay so let's say let's get like more like disgusting here we go wow i'm excited we're finally moving on finally okay so you're fucked up you have trauma exactly yeah you're you are outwardly dating i feel like you've dated more girls almost than guys at this point recently like what what is your that's all i've ever wanted what are you doing like are you bisexual i asked you if you were bisexual you said you're pansexual yeah can you explain to everyone the difference between those yeah it's it's interesting because again i didn't even like i again like i

never thought i'd be a i'm pansexual i never thought i'd be like that person because i didn't know what the fuck that even meant for like so long right it's more so like i just again i grew i i credit everything the way i was raised but it's like it's not like there were any family values instilled in me so i kind of looked at the world with my own open perspective and then i was born and raised in las vegas which is a very sexualized city like right i mean like i was like hooking up with like four people at once at like young ass ages like probably which isn't good it's who what made me the way i am right i mean like you know like i was fucking crazy so it's like i was always just open and crazy and then it wasn't i i was never like attracted to girls i thought i could date one literally until like

bella existed right which is so like weird but it was more so that like bella had never dated a girl and we were kind of in like a similar boat so we were like talking to each other you know what i mean like wow like i and i figured it all out very like real time in front of everyone right that seems like it keeps happening in your life a lot yeah it's all that i really know yeah literally but that came with so many people obviously scrutinizing it because people scrutinize what they don't understand so it's like you're not gay you're not this you're not and i didn't know what i was and then i i obviously came to the realization after dating girls and after these relationships, kind of the, it was more or throughout them. Like it's not a girl,

it's more a human. Like, like it was, I, I loved Bella. I fell for Bella because I was like, you know, I was physically attracted to her.

Obviously I'm like, this is the baddest fucking bitch on this planet. I still don't know why she did the charity work of ever looking in my direction. Um, she probably doesn't either. She's like, I still don't really know either.

Actually, Tana, but, um, so you started actually having like sex with girls and you were getting scrutinized because people were like are you doing this for clicks and are you doing this like i don't think people but i mean rightfully so i'd been like very straight public right up until that point other than talking about like threesomes and

foursomes and it's not like i was like divulging into anything with girls or talking about anything with girls until that point and the first bitch you're gonna date is bella thorne i see why everyone is like no this is for clit so then it kind of over but that along with everything especially when it's the truth and it's who you are it's like over time people will see so it was just like i knew in my head like if this is how i feel i'm gonna continue to date whoever i want which i'm sure will probably mean other girls right you know and even bella and i were like it was like this whole throuple and I was dating other people and like I've always just been the way I sexually am in front of the world like tell me about your blowjobs oh my god dude we're sitting okay so Tana and I are sitting out of my head I'm wait I'm general girls guys everything

I feel like I could tell like you're giving sloppy ass blowjobs one of my better assets it can't talk it can't make apology videos. It might as well be able to suck dick. Yeah, it's for real. Oh, my God. I think it's all about the spit and where the spit, what the spit is. You know what? I always think about this when I'm giving it to you because it's like,

I feel like with a guy, it's about getting to the good spit because you're not starting with the good spit. Your mouth's dry. It's normal. You have to almost throw up. I feel like you have to really get there. Literally, like you're gagging. And because you're not starting with the good spit your mouth's like dry it's like normal you're right almost throw up like i feel like you have to really like get there literally like you're gagging and then you're then you're golden like put that shit in your neck bitch wait tana i am so proud of you because i can just tell like you give good head but i also eat your pussy after this wait we have to talk about that too that was kind of serious

you're like i was being dead ass i'm like oh i thought it was a joke okay i'm like stop sexually harassing me i won't eat your pussy um unless you want no no are you do you think you're good at that too yeah i think i just all overall my head overall is like wow super interstellar okay and maybe that's what people say because really what else is there right right yeah you're annoying i'm fucking annoying you're annoying dating me too like the unreliability and shit like at through throughout that time too i think that's why i wasn't in relationship wait you're a nightmare who do i date you exactly so you gotta make up for it somehow so you learn to really just suck your dick that's facts i'm like not even joking like at least you're like it's all i've got yeah

like literally like i can make you craft mac and cheese and suck your cock but i am gonna make your life a living hell i'm like you should wait so guys are gonna be like i love the way that she sucks my dick which is amazing and that's what daddy gang needs like so okay so let's talk about first and foremost we need a like we need more specific so like when you are going and approaching a dick okay you're i think it's all about your vibes then too yeah like it's just like i think it's the little things because it's like think about how many blow jobs are just had in general that anyone's received in their life so it's about the things that you're doing differently at that point it's like the little accessories that you bring to the table like literally literally literally literally it's all about the accessories

okay tell us about your accessory no i but that's what i think i think it's well i think it's taking a here she comes i think taking a dick and shoving it down your taking pants off with your teeth is always like that's what i mean like shit like that like back arch ass in the air but no you're taking their pants off with your teeth bitch who does that shit right like looking up the average right that's what i'm saying looking at your soul like yeah you're afraid of me like i want to eat your meat yes hello honestly tana and alex talking about blowjobs like this is what the internet wanted not mental health math and then blowjobs wait how this episode started i knew it was gonna be like this you bring that dick down your throat i told every single person it's gonna be like 30 minutes of me like literally probably sobbing and then 30 minutes of me like literally dying talking about psyching cock and that's that's what it

should be but that's what it should be and what do the people really expect at this point because we need to serve them what they didn't get no it's true then they all started going to sleep and now they're like oh wait now tana's talking about psyching dick let's get into it like good morning sorry so you are i love that you're saying like you approach it like very sexual like do something different like if you're fucking someone too it's like if someone fucks me i want them to say it like change their life well wait let me ask you because that's interesting so obviously i you kind of remind me of me in the bedroom i like really want to and it's not that i'm shut up hannah's she's like yes um i don't i like hate the thought of like listen i love to i want to have an orgasm but i also am like a

fucking psycho where i'm like no i want you to come and literally be like i will never forget that specific it's almost better than an orgasm it's like a mental organ no it is because you're like you straight up like watching him i'm like remember that you fucking bitch like i own you oh my god i've never we're identical it's psycho for sure it like gets you off by watching him be obsessed coming you're like i know literally the last person i fucked was like like i want to make you come now like i'm gonna make you come and i literally was like i could go to bed like because in my head i was like i like i served right i don't even care like i'm tired like sleep would be more of an orgasm to me because like i'm you watched yourself take him

down you're like i don't even need to come i already came in my mind because i just fucked you and that basically we're the devil we are do we are like we're like anyone's worst nightmare in that but it's fun because then you kind of like can own them if you're able to do that can i ask you it also makes people crazy though it makes people fall in love with you it makes people crazy and then it's like then you have to have this level of transparency too where it's like just because I fuck you like this doesn't mean like I want anything other than that. Which like you'd be most guys. They don't know. They don't realize that guys don't realize it.

And then half the time it's crazy if you're acting like that. And if you're like fucking them like it's theirs and all of a sudden they get addicted to you. But I recommend that it is good. It's a proven method. It is proven method. We you need to explain what was your friend's job that you give what was she saying she's like the no teeth well i would hope not but honestly some guys like have you ever had them be like i love when you bite my dick there are some guys that

like like a girl to bite their dick it's so strange i don't understand it mic drop wait what are you doing pick it up what are you doing what why are you dropping it i've never had someone ask me to bite their dick i've had anyone ask me to like pretty much anything and i've never had anyone i've had a guy ask me to do that and i literally looked up and i'm like did i hear you correctly i'm so sorry like what did you bite the dick yeah oh i love you so much and i would bite the dick and i and then i was like god forbid i like keep hooking up with this guy and get used to biting dicks and all of a sudden i go to the next dick and i'm like biting this dude's dick dude can you imagine awful awful so you've never been a guy's dick yeah wow leave his alex cooper too in the first 10 minutes of sex fine like the one thing i'm

right tell me about your blowjob why were your friends calling it a specific thing no no this no in my friend group it just became the way you talk about dick almost it's similar to gluck gluck 9000 yeah it's almost just a term for giving proper head like it's our gluck gluck oh what do you call it like it's a toothless gagless throat fuck hold on wait i said toothless unless you like to bite that fucking cock you slide wait wait wait it's all about a toothless gagless throat gagless yeah unless the gag is fake you know and then it's like a hot noise but you show no struggle wait wait no struggle but also i do

okay wait hold on toothless yes gagless uh and then throat fuck sometimes but then it's you know but then it's about the hands it's about you know there's so many vibes dude and every guy's different there's like the asshole finger ones there's like the ball grab ones there's like the hold my hand because i love you like don't put your hands on it once there's like i'm gonna fucking you know so then it's about assessing the vibe which is also important to a blowjob because it's like what's the best blowjob in the world to someone else might be the worst blowjob in the world to someone dude it is the truth and this is what i'm saying the glove luck 9000 and the toothless gagless whatever the fuck this thing is it could not work for specific men and you have to really try it out because i've

had a guy well like a dry ass shitty ass and like one preferably low as fuck yeah then the guys that are like you're about to literally throw up on their dick because they're like pushing your head down so far and i'm like i really can't breathe like give me a second here we go wait so do you go in and you're like i'm going to literally go so hard and like no i think it's all about the blind side it's like oh like i probably like shouldn't suck your dick yeah like i can't even get it down no like it won't fit like my mouth is so small you're like no i know my mouth is huge fuck i can't even front look at oh my god but wait how great if you pull your do you do that where you pull you like your mouth to the

side i think that guys think that's so hot call her daddy listeners you don't realize how lucky you are because like that that's not a tip like that the average bitch is ever going to give you to open your fucking mouth while your cock is in your throat like that's like life-changing advice and that's why it is daddy gang is probably the best in bed type people they are psycho are you daddy gang can't even see what we're doing with our mouth you like bred a generation of bitches giving just the best blowjobs like the manipulation tactic to a man like almost is a blowjob yeah okay wait do you have like i know that you've fucked athletes no are they gonna say like a person she's like addison ray i know that you have fucked um let me bring up my list um if've fucked athletes no are they gonna say like a person she's like addison ray i know

that you have fucked um let me bring up my list um if you fucked athletes yes what are your experience with them well i mean that's my like everyone like jokes that that's my like forte oh my god see and that's also why i think athletes of all the calibers of men athletes are one of the harder ones to get at athletes like don't want a bitch like their yeah ball is life bro like you know so to crack athletes you have to be a special bitch so that says a lot about her that's actually probably the genre of men that i like i like a rapper like they want a bitch like it's easy like you know what i mean like it's fucking easy i've never fucked a rapper

dude your face when i just said that i was like wait what's wrong the new rap caviar playlist and it's just like my sex stop wait stop wait tana is that straight up you fuck a lot of rappers i feel like if you had to think about what i fucked like most it's probably rappers we don't feel like why do i feel like they're like not treating right not that like athletes are treating right the problem is that i probably left liked that you're like i love this oh my god i and that's a problem too the way i am i love like toxic fucking crazy fucking rappers are crazy like it like gets you like you know what i mean yeah like yeah let me be fucking crazy bro in romance you wrote an album about me like i like that i'm just joking um do you do you like really aggressive sex like are you like asking guys to like choke you and like hit you oh my god yeah like beat the fucking shit out of you

and that's the difference too is the guy the difference in guys and girls that's so true because i don't want a bitch to be like not a bitch sorry like women no yeah i always say i always say bitches here bitch is a term of endearment here honestly to me but i remember that the public doesn't always think that way that's why i haven't called you a bitch i've called you a cunt because i'm like you're not a bitch you're not you're i'm not i don't love you i hate you that's so true that is so i don't think she's called me bitch once she really doesn't know i don't fuck with you at all um no i'm just kidding but i agree with you there's there is a difference between like loving when a man like kind of like not

beats the shit out of you during sex but like i do like a guy that's like dominant no punch me but like have you no but literally like punch me in the head but have you ever had it go too far there isn't really too far for me i think you literally knock me out and i'd be into it oh really like yeah this one time this guy i think about this one time all the time where this guy was fucking me and he was like slapping me and i was i was vibing and it was a vibe and then i was vibing while this guy was hitting me i love a good slap to the right and again this is us like giving permission we're saying they can do this i don't want anyone to be like yeah let's confirm very much consent very much trigger for people fast forward yeah i'll put a time code but i don't

ever think about this is why i'm more scandalous than you yeah yeah fuck you again yeah um but and i was like i was like punch me fucking punch me like i don't think i've ever been punched during sex at this point. And this is before I was introduced to the idea of donkey punching. I didn't know there was something in that interview. But I'm not going to say I haven't been punched in the back of the head. I'll go. I love a good donkey punch.

Tana Mongeau and Alex Cooper. I'm like, literally the hottest thing, like the biggest turn on in the bedroom is when the guy literally knocks me the fuck out right when he's about to come and I'm going to come. It's like perfect moment in time when you get donkey punched in the back of the fucking head this is so fun this is so dark the levels of this podcast this is by far out of anything i've ever recorded in one sitting maybe the darkest thing i know and like the waves but

i told you i was giving you full honesty i love it i love it okay so he's going to hit you um yeah and i was like punch me punch me punch me and then he was like no baby i can't you know it's like my normal boyfriend he's like barely probably slapping me because i don't ask me to do that that's so mean you're like yeah punch me fucking hit me legs in the air and so finally he's like okay and so then he punches me and it's like hot and then we keep vibing he doesn't and i'm like punch me again i'm sorry but i'm gonna pee my pants when you keep saying, I tell him to punch me and we're like vibing. The fact that you're saying vibing.

I remember the first time. It's a running joke between Jake and I too, because he's like, I'm not going to beat your ass. And so finally he keeps punching me harder and harder each time. Wait, he's like punching multiple times. It was probably like four in total. And is this like fist to like side of head or like like face like a face like this is like before i even thought about the body and you're like wait

like don't fuck with my fillers like oh my god i've had people like literally fuck up my filler sexually we could talk about that wait that's hilarious okay so many things have fucked up my filler i can probably still show you like all the things that oh my god okay wait wait okay so he's punching you i start gushing blood okay he punches me in the tooth and one of my teeth like by accident like he doesn't mean to it's like right here like it's like one of these teeth and your tooth falls out and my teeth start bleeding but i'm i'm in it so when i give up fuck so my mouth is gushing blood and i'm like he's like do you want me to stop like oh my god babe i'm so sorry i'm like no it's hot like fuck me at the blood like i don't even care but you probably also

don't realize how ugly it looks because like blood coming out of your mouth and you think it's hot but i'm sure like the site made not i know i get but i'm fucked up with head like it's hot like it's not like i'm bleeding i'm dying i would think that's just hot which is right right right right problem the whole core issue of it all and so then he's like grabbing my blood and just like smearing it like all over me like fucking my face blood and to this day i'm like that was hot there's like a lot of people that are like that's that's the line that's the draw my spitting your own mouth into someone else's mouth and then you like slurp his cum with a mix of your blood perfect little mix of a bloody mary in your mouth spit your blood into his mouth he spits your blood back into your mouth then you swallow his cum with his own spit your blood mixed with his spit back with his cum come on great day

perfect combination we love it all honestly i don't want it any other way now dark um but it's not an everyday thing i don't know how we started talking about this where you like i asked you if you like it rough and then we started slowly it got to dana was bleeding out of her mouth so the answer in long form is yes i guess you could say i'm someone who likes it rough dude literally i'm like picturing you like they're like but i love it rough but like i've never gotten to the point of like blood ever massacre like i am so fucked up like i'm like i'm slurping back like my you know i have never drank my own blood basically during sex and been like this is it it's not a daily thing i swear it was one of the first moments where i was like okay so i like it you're like this and that

was the moment where tana was like and now i need it every night instead of most girls would be like it got went too far tana was like how do we make this happen all the time i don't know if there even is like too far in sex to me like i would just like oh i won't do that again i guess and i think guys though it's hard as fuck to have these conversations with guys maybe not your soundcloud rappers but like yeah that's why i go for them i think too because their norm is just sex like that yes i remember the first time i fucked lil xan and that was just like his like absolute norm and i was like i love you and then we literally started dating like i suck these are things you definitely need to look into no i have buzz buzz oh my god buzz heard this shit right now oh my god no tana no

tana we don't bleed we don't associate hot sex with blood no like 100 he would be like and so your trauma with this this this and this is why you're in that like no but like literally dude yeah today i was literally telling him about like ashley and i walking past like an orgy it's like with her hair girl and i was like buzz i'm so fucking sorry like close your ears like wait do you like having like threesomes and foursomes or no can i actually i've like i feel like i've never really had a threesome like i've technically had a lot of like threesome vibes right but when it always comes down to actual fucking it's always been more than three people like oh like it's always been this is why i'm happy i'm having tana mojo on my show because i'm like oh you've never had a threesome that

normal you're like no alex it's always five or more so you've had like multiple orgies yeah like like probably a lot of like well it's an orgy what's an orgy above four yeah so like a decent amount of foursomes and maybe like some five sums i've i don't think over like but we're five or six i almost just debated on a giant orgy though like in florida and miami really recently like a couple weeks ago but it was like all my best friends and i was like i don't want to fuck them like yeah and literally my video the video guy over here was part of the orgy and here we were the theoretical orgy wait oh wait how do you put these together you're all just in a group chat like would you guys be down for an orgy

or where's there like a reservation you got an rsvp to the orgy in miami there's been so many different scenarios in my life every orgy is different every orgy is different like don't don't touch an orgy by its cover um there's not like most girls um there's been like relationship ones you know where you're fucking other couples that's what i was gonna ask you have you done like swinging where you're like dating someone and you've fucked another couple yeah hella hella and you like that no i mean not now like now i i haven't in like years i was in some relationships where i was i feel like it's more it's it's probably not more normal in vegas that's a weird fucking right but vegas sex like honestly that shit was more normal in vegas like now like

couples don't just all fuck each other like all the fucking time no i agree but i also think it's like a really hot concept and that's one thing i've never done is like had a boyfriend and fucked another couple i would always do it especially when it became normal if my boyfriend had hot friends and i wanted to fuck his friends i would like purposefully select the hot friends and then just like all these fucking their girlfriend but like whatever like you're like at least i'm fucking this guy oh my crazy shit would happen to there's been people i've had foursomes with like i'd break up and then after i ended up like fucking them and shit and they like broke up with their we that's also no dude that's where i think it gets so dark because i've known couples that have done threesomes and then the other person gets shady and goes and

fucks the other person without the other person knowing that's what you risk because it's all dependent on like who you're dating too like you get to trust don't okay so are you into cuckolding the basically cuckolding is like watching your boyfriend fuck a girl yeah i've never like thought of the term i'd definitely be in that vibe with that so that's why of course it would be cheating and wrong but if it's like a vibe like oh i think i think she just shrugged her shoulders she's like even if it's cheating i mean you know whatever we all do it um i think that hooking up with a guy that is, like, wanted by other women is super hot, obviously. I agree. I, like, fall for that.

Yeah, I don't want to be with a dude that, like, nobody wants to fuck. 100%. I think it's the hottest thing ever. But are you a jealous person? Not really. Someone has to be really crazy to even raise my attention. Not even not really. No.

I'm not a jealous person really, like, at all. And if anything, I think it's become more that way by nature because I've realized that I need someone who's so not jealous. The jealousy is one of the things that almost will ruin every relationship with me no matter what and where I live. Because in the lifestyle I live, I mean, jealousy breeds insecurity and insecurity breeds tumultuousness. So you're not jealous in relationships.

Yeah, because it's like I feel like if I am jealous now especially, I'm a hypocrite because I need a boyfriend who I'm like, yo, my ass and titties are on OnlyFans with Lana Rhodes this week. You have to be fine with that. You have to be fine with a thousand people fucking jacking off to me. You have to be fine with everywhere I go, guys hitting on me. You have to be so secure with yourself that you don't care, which is almost why i probably go for like narcissistic people by nature because i pick people almost so much they're so in love with themselves yeah like you're both just in love

with yourselves that's why you're a narcissist i wish i loved me exposed here we go there it was all coming full circle the answer is yes tana mojo is a fucking narcissist that was the whole thing every single question was just a plot to somehow get that it's the maniacal laugh it's the alex cooper maniacal laugh for me i'm gonna make that show my ringtone it's actually amazing okay i still hated myself for most of this time i've only gotten to the self-love like now no we're getting there we're getting there should we host a podcast this brings me to my entire point no wait no literally yeah no i'm actually just here to not only try to get you to forgive me but my brain is really fucked up i heard like you might like need a co-host to like

have me on and she wasn't that's my whole pitch this whole time it was just to be your co-host so now that we're here it's pitch hannah why would you why should i pick you to be my next co-host pitch me give me your resume you fucking slut and i actually have no reason so my pitch is over you're like so my work ethic is um zero i have a work ethic at zero i'm like no no now but i already blew it you know i could have no no i could have probably replaced the co-host then wow i showed up back in the day but like now but now no yeah no just know it's a dream it's a lifelong dream but i do think you're you're doing way better at podcasting than i expected you

because i said to tan in the beginning i was like you're so adhd all i want is you to just please i can't wait for my videographers to get what as i'm talking tan is just deep throating your fucking fingers um okay this is i mean i should practice what i've been preaching no but you should you should me just prove me i can't gag on call her daddy you're like and just so alex knows how do you put the whole listen to me do you think you'll ever come out with sex tape oh my god finally you asked yeah no really you're like if the money's right um which it would be right that's the thing is realizing how much that was the thing that only fans for me is it was like i've been sexualized since i was like

literally fucking 15 years old so why not fucking profit off of it like and i'm such a sexual person where it was like fuck that shit like i do this shit for free on every platform anyways so it was and i'm and i'm losing the only money i make because of that you know i'm getting demonetized so only fans were like it nothing's ever made more sense for me probably my whole life like which is maybe bad just buzz and OnlyFans you're like OnlyFans and I really are just we don't get each other so you're making a shit ton of money on OnlyFans it changed it's life-changing money it's life-changing even just like for me it changed my life like it and then when I saw that I was like I'm starting an OnlyFans agency.

I'm signing girls. I'm doing the whole thing. This is how I'll like retire probably. I think it's like that. So like not only is the money dope, I guess. Like yeah, but like a sex tape would also just be fun. Wait, how often do you post? On OnlyFans?

Well, I saw on your calendar. Tana's calendar says like post only or like take feet pictures or something do you know feet photos make more money than anything else on the whole platform i could fuck my asshole with this water bottle right now and i would make less money than if i fucking took this shoe off and sold a sock pic i swear feet to but like no i don't like no i would not suck my own toes and i'd be sucking toes wait so are you posting feet pictures like mad ass? Oh my God. Yeah.

And how does that work? But now it's like when I ask you for it. Yeah. So it's like what's crazy. Only fans, too, is there's a certain amount of money that is like made in messaging and a certain amount of money that's made in posting. So it's like there'll be people that are begging to send you like 10 grand for a feet pic.

And then it's like you're figuring that out navigating shit like crazy shit like and anyone like it doesn't you know like but i think another reason why i would want to do a sex tape is because i never want people to think i'm like discrediting like sex work in any way because i porn stars have always been my favorite people too in the beginning of this industry the first people to ever show me kindness before i had any level of fame were like riley reed fucking lana lena the plug like and it's maybe it's because people are so shitty to people who are in the sex industry yeah that they develop like gina valentina kendra sundell and they're some of the nice people i

ever met they develop these levels of like compassion and shit like that so it's like i the way i look at sex workers is like y'all are god y'all found a way to become rich ass fucking bitches capitalizing off these stupid ass men literally all back to like why you talk about blowjobs on this straight up because you're like this dumb ass like sucking dick this dumb ass thing is like how you can control the mind of a man right you know what i mean so i just think sex work is like so beautiful so i think even that like dabbling in that would be like fun and how far is it from like what i've really done what is your biggest insecurity great question yeah

she's like i know that's why i have the number one podcast in the world no shit bitch madeline logan says that shit about impulsive too because you just know you do better i'm like you're literally pathetic i don't see you up there bitch i see michelle obama me and joe rogan where are you at logan come for me you should fuck joe rogan did you say i should fuck joe rogan if you fuck joe rogan i want to go on joe rogan not fuck him oh my god i want to be on top of him on the charts not in real person oh my god okay hot you're see i love look at me just looking like businesswoman like i couldn't host a podcast too because i think i'd fall in love with you like that i was like oh my god no you would just be so adhd that you're like going everywhere yeah me always literally yeah no yeah we couldn't stay on topic so biggest insecurity hey yeah what did you say it's the biggest insecurity hey i'm thinking i thought you said

it quickly and i missed it i'm like what is it no no no um well you we were talking about this a little bit at dinner and i think i always say this it is not it's not one there was a point in time where there were like physicality insecurities like i didn't like my nose i would never turn my head to the side i hated the profile more than anything right under the surgery i was like scoop that bitch out make it as cute as you can right i'd get another one but like i'm but i'm saying like i'm lucky to be in a place where i got to rid of some physical insecurity so it's more so like obviously physically i'm still comparison i'll be like i could look better my bottom teeth could be wider my fucking nose could be this or there's always that shit you know but

for me my biggest insecurity is more so that like i pick apart myself in my opinion worse than anyone else ever could i think it's a it's a my biggest insecurity and one of my biggest strong suits because it it's created a level of resilience that most people could say things to me and it's like i have said worse than you in my head one minute before you just spoke at all times. I'm waking up in the mirror saying like innately, naturally thinking like, you know, the worst things anyone could ever say about my appearance, the way I sound, the way I look, the way I walk, the way I dress, the way I talk, the way I date, the way I act, the way I do everything. Because that's what my job has made me do, because it's everyone scrutinizing all of those things. You start to do it yourself. So it's more so like my biggest insecurity has been untraining my brain from like innately thinking that way because i've always

been self-deprecating too like my first like catchphrase ever was literally just me saying i hate myself and fans just being i say it all the time because of you and then it was like me being like wait that was your first catch ever i would just be like i fucking hate myself and then everyone started doing it and then i was like oh my god like yeah my will to live and then you're like wait now i like really need to stop no i hate myself other people are doing it you made i hate myself merch like i'm better now it was the judgment it was the face of judgment for me yeah 15 years old like literally head ass like like oh my god where do you get the word head ass i've never heard this vegas that's like a vegas that's a head ass you say head ass head

ass a lot of head ass is everywhere though i think it's like maybe i live on the west coast i don't know it's more west coast your east coast like you probably like hello wasn't something that was like a part of your terminology like maybe in like a rap song yeah but whereas like i like everyone i know says hello like every other word like type shit so do you still feel like your vegas roots are strong and living you're not too to la yet i never will go more la than i was i was the most LA I think I will ever be at the point of like Jake Paul marriage yeah and now you're like edging back yeah like I yeah exactly and if anything I hope to only do that more and more because I've seen what the city does and I think it's done yeah and I think like in the ways I am in every way like I'm Vegas like I agree yeah

like I think it's and I also think when you lean more into it it almost makes you more likable because you do have that like yeah part of you that is different than that and I forgot that like I really forgot that I like it yeah yeah like you jokingly are outwardly like oh I'm ratchet I'm this and this but it's different when you're like I'm from fucking Vegas yeah and I'm actually like I live I don't know how to live any other way and if you tried to make me a fucking prim and proper like princess I could never like that's it's who I am like to the core yeah do you think you're gonna I wouldn't discredit them I wouldn't discredit any of it like it all made me this now so I'm thankful for all those things because it's like I needed to learn all those lessons like for sure um yeah I'll probably be I'm probably getting canceled right

now like what this episode something you said is going to like trigger people and they're going to cut it into a specific way. I'm sure everything I said pissed off people. And then of course. I think you did pretty well. It's, it's weird. I'm scared.

Even that's like MTV made me realize that though. You could say anything in the world and people cut it however the fuck you want. So it doesn't fucking matter. And even that, I can't actually even be saying this. I'll shut the fuck up. No, no,

no. I think it's cool. I'm, I like using my job to get to know people because i will say like you're kind of exactly what you are on the internet which i do appreciate i never thought i'd get that sentence out of alex cooper do you know yeah yeah i don't know if it's good or bad no just kidding i'm sure you're very you're very i did i still stand by it you are smart narcissistic smart and good you're like shut the fuck i take her to the

brain scan place i'm like sit here the title is gonna be tana mojo is a narcissist it's kind of a funny angle like the shane dawson social mojo is a narcissist but it sucks good dick i can't i can't thank you enough for coming on and opening up about your life i can't thank you enough for making a wish on me today. Make a wish. Thank you so much for whatever the fuck this charity work was. It's crazy because normally I'm like, I love picking people's brains

and I've never, at least in the last few years, let someone pick my brain the way you just did in a public way at all. And like people are going to be like, this fucking narcissistic bitch. It's all going to work. It's all going to come out. Daily Mail. Tana Mongeau exploited as a narcissist by alex cooper but i think that i want to get to know you on the next podcast because i'm trying to be a host i'm leaving i'm done canna thank you for coming on i'm sorry for not going on two years ago still

we don't come for her daddy didn't come for me but also come for me come for me okay bye right the best thing i've ever done on my life the audience talked that long no i love you i'm in love with you i hope this is someone not alex Alex Cooper, I apologize for taking time. When it was two hours of your charity work time. Thank you.