Call Her Daddy - Charlize Theron: I Don’t Need a Man

Episode Date: July 2, 2025

Join Alex in the studio for an interview with Charlize Theron. Charlize discusses her current approach to dating, being a single mom, and why marriage isn’t necessarily for her. She also opens up ab...out her therapy journey, navigating power imbalances in Hollywood, and finding healing. Enjoy!This episode includes discussion about addiction, sexual harassment, and domestic violence. Please keep this in mind when deciding if, how and when you’ll listen.

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Starting point is 00:00:00 What is up, daddy gang? It is your founding father, Alex Cooper with Call Her Daddy. Charlize Theron, welcome to Call Her Daddy. Thank you. I'm so excited to be meeting you. The same here. Cheers to it's happy hour. Somewhere in the world. Somewhere in the world, it's happy hour. We're cheersing. We've got a little vodka and we're gonna have a great conversation today. You're in your cozies.
Starting point is 00:00:30 Yeah, I apologize if I was supposed to get dressed up. No, no, no, no. I'm usually in my cozies. And I have a meeting after this. I would usually be wearing exactly what you're wearing. So this is perfect. You look great. You look like me today.
Starting point is 00:00:42 And I maybe look like you in another life. Okay, in doing research for this interview, I realized we have a couple things in common So this is perfect. You look great. You look like me today and I maybe look like you in another life. Um, okay. In doing research for this interview, I realized we have a couple of things in common and maybe we'll find out more today, but one of them being we're notoriously known for saying the word fuck. Yes. I am. That's why I love your show.
Starting point is 00:00:58 Why I love your show for many, I just love you're very authentic and I love your use of the word because you know, if somebody uses it that much, it has to feel like it's coming from a real place and yours feels very grounded. I haven't heard you say it yet, but I know it's going to come out today, but I'm like, I've heard that you have, you say it all the time. I remember reading it said Hollywood reporter profile said that you said fuck 154 times in three hours in an interview. They have to fact check that. I don't think that's true. There's no way. I was like, she's an icon.
Starting point is 00:01:29 It's not humanly possible. Have you ever said it in a really like inappropriate setting where people were like, Charlize, what the fuck are you doing? Listen, I have definitely, I'm trying to think of how to say this without getting the right context around it. I swear in front of my kids because I feel like, you know, I feel like I am a responsible mom but I also, I am who I am. I'm not ashamed of who I am.
Starting point is 00:01:59 I also want to teach my kids that there are things for them to look forward to. They don't necessarily get to say that right now, but that's really fun because they're going to grow up and get to say what they want. And also just because it's sometimes it's hard to articulate exactly what fuck cannot replace. Like I just feel, and maybe that's because my vocabulary is just not very strong and English is a second language, but it just, there's, it's hard to sometimes really get that thing across, you know, and you can just, you can special size it. You can custom it for your, whatever that fuck is that you need, you know. It's fucking amazing. I do this really fun thing with my kids in the morning when we drive to school, they DJ.
Starting point is 00:02:46 So I can't DJ at all. So they all take my phone and they'll just like alternate with each other and like play songs. And then they got a little older. They were like, you know, it used to be like the clean versions. And then it was like, mom, can we like play the dirty versions? And I was like, okay, just for this car ride. So in the mornings, this is now where I think they
Starting point is 00:03:05 get a half hour of just getting they play it every inappropriate song so incredibly loud that I like lose my hearing and we're driving for a half hour and they're screaming every single inappropriate words that they possibly can. And then I load and I can tell like all that energy is out. They're gonna have a great day at school. And then I put a podcast on and I probably listen to your it's like, by 10am I've had a full life. It's a it's a full day. You're listening to like a walk at like 7am. You're like 100% 100% That's amazing. It's great. It's great. Okay, let's go back to beginning days of your life. You grew up on a farm in South Africa. What was that like? It was normal. You know, it's what I knew. All of my friends kind of grew up on these small farms. They weren't like these like out of Africa kind of farms. They were called
Starting point is 00:04:13 small holdings. We ate off the land and lived off the land. My mom grew. She's growing stuff on our farm out in Ojai now. She's like just a natural farmer, knows everything about fruits and vegetables. So we lived a farm life, but not as isolated as people would imagine a farm life to be. And growing up, you went to a boarding school, right? High school, yeah. If I was to ask your classmates, like, what were you like in high school? What do you think they would say? Well, that'd be interesting. I think there was a side of me, you know, my, my, my, there was a lot of alcoholism in my family on both sides and a lot of shame that I think kids in general have
Starting point is 00:05:08 a lot of shame that I think kids in general have about a parent that might be an alcoholic. Because my dad was like very, he'd show up in states that was just very inconsistent. And so I think my friends or people who knew me in school would say that there was a part of me that was very, like, closed off and not necessarily sharing the truth about my, who I was in my life. Like, kind of, I think, I think I created somewhat of an alter ego that came from like a happy house and like my family were good, happy people and, um, and I think the other side would probably be that I, I never really like fit in anywhere. It wasn't that I was unpopular. It was just that I almost like really wanted, there were two girls that I very vividly remember in both my lower school and my high school. And one was called Charlene in lower school and the other one was called Marlise in my high
Starting point is 00:06:21 school. They were both girls that I absolutely just admired. Like I just thought the world of them. And if you ask me today why, I actually couldn't answer that. Do you think it was like their aura or their confidence? Yes, I think it was their confidence and that they were authentically, truthfully being who not only they are, but also living the truth of their circumstance at home. I think that was the thing that I really admired about them. Not that they had, I don't think they dealt with the same issues that I did. I don't think that a parent that
Starting point is 00:06:57 was dealing with alcoholism, but I still have this with women who like when they date, they're just like very open and honest. Like they don't try and hide anything. They'll say whatever they want. They're not walking on eggshells. And I think that's the part that kids in my school probably remember the most. But it's, I think now looking back at it, I understand why I was that way better. But don't you think when you look back to like, understand why I was that way better. But don't you think when you look back to like,
Starting point is 00:07:30 why you admired those girls so much, what you're saying also is like, being that young and like masking and situations is exhausting. Like you wish you could just be out in the open, but family is family. Where you still, it is a reflection on you, even though you're doing nothing wrong, whether your family is dealing with this, but you still feel this almost like pride that you have to try to uphold something because it's like currency in high school. Like what is this person like and what is their family from? And so you try to create this narrative, but that's exhausting. And then you walk in the door at home and you're like, well, this is fucking miserable. It's exhausting.
Starting point is 00:08:02 It's very exhausting. And it's crazy how we carry all of that weight. Like somehow it's us, like somehow their actions are reflective of us. And it's a crazy thing that I continued in other relationships in my life. And I just, I think I admire women who are just like, that's that, like that's not me. But that was exhausting, for sure. Yeah. And it affected my life in a way that I think it took me a long time to be able to figure out. So when you asked me like, how do my friends or people who went to school with think of me, I think they think of me in a way that was not really authentic me. It was a put forth version of me. In dealing with that in high school,
Starting point is 00:08:48 then I know like we don't need to get into all of the details today, but you experienced such trauma at such a young age. How do you think experiencing that ended up impacting you in your later life, not just in the like, oh, she's not as authentic, but then once the trauma really hit, like how did that impact you in the next couple of decades of your life? I think it was just, I was, I, I, the first part of it was full denial
Starting point is 00:09:16 because my mom didn't really have the tools to deal, um, with that tragedy. But it was also just years and years of this consistent kind of like walking into a house or waking up in the morning and not knowing what I was walking into. It's like what a lot of people say about living with an alcoholic, right? You're kind of living at their whim, like whatever they're feeling that day or wherever they are, that's what is going to be the vibe and the energy of the house. And that inconsistency, I think, was what affected me way more than just that one night.
Starting point is 00:09:53 And I think what happened was that there was such a focus placed on that one night when that tragedy happened. And it was very, very unfortunate. And I wish I could say it was only a one-time occasion. This is something that happens in homes across the world more often than we want to admit. But you know, I think it took me like well into my late thirties to really be able to look at that and actually like shake off the weight that I felt like I carried for my father, for my mother. You know, I felt like even when I got famous, like I couldn't quite honestly speak
Starting point is 00:10:31 about it because I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I felt like people were involved, they didn't ask to be in the spotlight. But then I also got older and I was like, but this is also my truth. Like this is where I come from and I don't want to have shame about it anymore. You know, my dad was an alcoholic, he wasn't healthy and my mom stepped up and protected me. And if that happened to me with my children today, I can tell you right now I would do the same thing. It doesn't make it less unfortunate, but you know, I, but, and again, I can't protect people all the way through. Like I have to also live my authentic self. So now it's not, it was a one night event in my life. I am still dealing with the everyday consistency
Starting point is 00:11:19 of a lot of damage that I think I experienced as a young person just in my every single day life. I think that is so relatable in the sense that like if there is something catastrophic that happens that shakes a family or a relationship that event feels very like palpable and you just people think of that event but when you're living it like, oh, it's kind of actually like not even where my head goes to when I actually think of all the trauma, because that was an instant the rest of my life, my entire childhood was this thing of living
Starting point is 00:11:54 with this alcoholic and learning how to placate or hide or defend and shield and then go to school and pretend like this isn't ruining my entire life and smiling and pretending I'm this like cute girl that is fine. Everything's fine. I know that you've talked about it, but you said later on in your life, you then got into therapy because you realized like, oh, this is really still affecting me. Was there something that made you realize like, holy fucking shit, I've got to get control of this. So strangely, I went into therapy because of a relationship, a long term relationship that I was in and it was falling apart. And I think I touched lightly on I was in relationships,
Starting point is 00:12:40 in a sense doing the same thing that I did at home, which is common, right? Walking on eggshells, trying to protect ego, protect embarrassment for a partner, you know, because of their behavior and feeling like somehow that reflects bad on me. Like all of these things I was kind of repeating in my relationships. And I had a narcissistic boyfriend that said, you know, you're the problem. And not that I believed it, but I felt like I had invested a lot of time into this relationship. And I was like, well, maybe, you know, let me put my ego aside. Maybe I am, maybe I should go. And there was always this kind of thing thrown in my face, like, because everybody knew about my life, like, oh, you must be this
Starting point is 00:13:25 damaged woman, right? So I went actually to try and save this relationship. And what ended up happening was that I ended up saving myself. Yeah, so maybe in a weird way, I do owe this guy some gratitude. Even though you were the narcissist? Yeah. Thank you. Well, two things came out of it. The therapist was like, you
Starting point is 00:13:43 should leave him. Yeah. And also, by the way, you're not the problem. Like other people have been the problem in your life and you need to start admitting that. I have gotten into therapy and it's changed my life too. And so I'm always such an advocate for it, but I know that everyone has to go at their own pace. So it's interesting to hear you be like, I actually went in for something that for sure was at the forefront of your life.
Starting point is 00:14:05 And it was like an annoyance and painful. And you were like, I need to fix this. But really it's like, oh my God, girl, we have so many bigger problems than this like douche bag that you picked up the curb and now let's focus on you. Interesting. So once you got into therapy though, and you realized you needed to start working
Starting point is 00:14:22 through a lot of this, did you struggle a lot with coming to terms with bringing back up trauma? Because I think a lot of people are like terrified to engage with it because for a long time if you just leave it in the corner, you think like, I don't need to bring all that back up. I don't want to relive those days and memories. Was it hard for you? Yeah, cause you, I've, I became an expert. I practiced avoidance, right? My entire life. And, um, also I, I was the product of an environment where therapy didn't exist in South
Starting point is 00:15:01 Africa. Uh, I didn't know one person who wasn't there, but I don't even think we had therapists. Now I might be totally wrong and some South African person feel like, first of all, okay, in my community, I never heard the word therapist. We also didn't have AA. Nobody was an alcoholic. You never use the word alcoholic. Like this was just, I. I grew up in a culture where men were men and a real man drinks. It was a very toxic culture, but therapy was just never something. Again, like I said, my mom didn't have the right tools. My mom does not understand the concept around therapy and I don't listen. She shouldn't. She didn't have it in her life. She doesn't know what that is. And so when it happened, her kind of words of wisdom, like she sent me to school the next
Starting point is 00:16:05 day. Like that tells you everything. My mom's like a survivor. My mom is like, you wake up the next day and you get up and you continue and nobody brings you down and you just, and that's what she did to me and I was 15 years old. So coming to therapy was not because I was avoiding it, it was just so foreign to me. And even I'm of a generation where I didn't even know a lot of friends that were in therapy. I think I knew like one friend that was in there. And it was this friend that I reached out to and said, could I meet with your therapist? Like I didn't even know
Starting point is 00:16:43 how to get a therapist. So it was all very foreign to me. So yeah, putting aside the behavior that I had learned for years, it was also just like, it wasn't in my, you know, in my, it wasn't, I wasn't surrounded by it in a way where it felt very natural or normal, or I had easy access to it. As you've evolved and continued to peel layers back of like how your childhood impacted you as an adult. I think I've even dealt with this with friends where it's like, as you become more, you look at your relationship, obviously with your parents differently. And it sounds like you have such a beautiful relationship with your mother, but like how have you navigated
Starting point is 00:17:30 being someone in therapy and dealing with that trauma, whereas you have then someone in your family that's not? Because I feel like there's probably a lot of people listening that are like, wait, so how do you handle those moments? We're like, no, mom, remember? And she's like, shh, let's go out to the garden, honey. Like, I don't want to talk about that.
Starting point is 00:17:47 In my 30s, it was very, it became contentious. It became because I think I was finding my voice. And I also felt, I still, I feel very protective of my mom. Because I think that, you know, without contacts and people really knowing who she is, and that you can ask anybody who knows her, she is, trust me, I cannot tell you, I can't go on a hike, I can't walk through a store without somebody coming out to be like, "'Oh my God, I love your mom.'"
Starting point is 00:18:19 She's one of those people that just, she has a superpower, and her superpower is incredibly effective, but it's also very, very damaged. You know, she, but what there taught me was that she is who she is and I'm not here to change her. And if she doesn't want to change herself, that's okay. And for our relationship, there's enough compromise there that it works, that it doesn't feel like I am compromising too much
Starting point is 00:18:49 or she's compromising too much. And we know how to kind of like live in, be copacetic with each other and live in a very loving way with each other without me going like, I cannot, like you are so unhealthy. You have, like I'm beyond that now, right? And she thinks the same thing about me. Like she's like, okay, whatever,
Starting point is 00:19:08 like you with your therapy. And that's what I love about her. She's authentic. She's very, very authentic. Um, but yeah, it's interesting not to, like, I don't want to put you on the spot, but that's what I loved about hearing about your story. Um, it's just so rare to talk to somebody in this kind of environment. I've never had that where your story really moved me and I was actually excited to sit down with you because sometimes I feel like, you know, you feel so kind of alone and sharing a story like that. Yours is obviously different, but to have trauma at that young age and what you experienced
Starting point is 00:19:45 was really painful to listen to and to hear your family talk about. It is, it's like such a strange thing when you get to connect with human beings because you're right, our stories are so different and yet so similar. And there's so much pain and there's so much hiding who you really are. And I agree, like when you were talking about the women or the girls in high school that you were like, I just was attracted to their aura.
Starting point is 00:20:15 I had the same thing with so many women where I was like, I wish I could live free like that. I wish I could walk into a room and just be me and feel like I can just own it. And I'm even if someone calls me out, I don't care. I can't get embarrassed. You can't embarrass me. And I didn't have that. So I think a lot of my career has been actually searching to find a way to get to that place
Starting point is 00:20:39 because I wanted it. Do you think you're there? I feel so much more at peace. Even putting out the documentary, I feel another layer of peace because I think that medium also is different. Podcasting, I do this every Wednesday. It's a thing that my audience is used to,
Starting point is 00:21:01 but putting something and a piece of work out in a different format, I think was really a good way to engage. Therapeutic in a way? Yeah, like, yes, because like I kind of had hands off, yeah, and a director was like, I'm gonna tell your story, and I was like, please don't ruin my life. Yeah, yeah, no. But like, I trust you. But you almost had to not be in control of it, right? Like, here you're a little in control of it, and... But it was kind of nice, and so I think that's how I also feel about therapy where it's like I'm learning,
Starting point is 00:21:28 I'm uncomfortable what I'm learning about myself. I hate sometimes when I'm like, no, there's no way. And my therapist was like, uh-huh, keep going. We're about to get under it. You're like, no, no, no, no, no, no, really? So I relate a lot to that. I also was thinking about your mom when you were just saying how your relationship dynamic, you are a single mother and your mom essentially after the passing of
Starting point is 00:21:50 your father became the single mother role. It was a single mother prior. Prior to that. Your whole life she's a single mother. How have you kind of found a way to appreciate each other even more and connect on a deeper level becoming a mother and her watching you be a single mother also? Yeah, that's such a good question. I feel, yeah, it feels familiar, right? But it also feels, God, you know, if there was a cautionary tale, it was definitely their relationship and how I didn't want that. And I think in many ways, maybe that did, I think it's not just one thing, right? It's very layered and complicated. But one of those layers of why I don't think I am in a relationship
Starting point is 00:22:47 why I don't think I am in a relationship was just purely because I still not, it's a combination of like, I don't want what they had and then also being very honest with myself and understanding that I, I did not have the capability of being healthy in a relationship. And those two things I had to acknowledge when I decided to be a parent. And I think it's probably one of the healthiest decisions I ever made. I think people look at it so like in our society as this kind of something must be wrong with her, right? With women, it's always like something must be wrong with her. She can't keep a man. And it's never part of the discussion of like, wow, she's really living something must be wrong with her. She can't keep a man. And it's never part of the discussion of like, wow, she's really living her truth. Like she's living in her
Starting point is 00:23:29 happiness. Like this is actually a choice that she made. I like want to just like look at them and just be like, do you know how fucking great it is to live exactly how I want to live, to experience motherhood exactly how I wanted to experience it. And I know the next thing they say is like, well, that's not fair on your kids. Can I tell you something that will be their story to tell? I can't tell you. I can only tell you that this is the best way that I know how to be a mother to them. And maybe they'll grow up and tell their story and I will respect that. I just know that this was the only way that I knew I could do it.
Starting point is 00:24:05 And my fucking God, do I love every single day of it. I love that I don't have to share them with somebody. I love that I don't have to run every fucking thing by a guy. I don't I love that. I don't. Well, oh my God, I like I fucking love that I don't have to do any of that stuff. And my children, you know, we joke. Listen, I think you can tell like, this is how I raise my kids like, right? We don't hide this shit. They're like, they're like, Oh, my God, Mom, I can't go to Sarah's house because like her father and I was like, Oh, my God, aren't you guys so happy? We don't have to deal with that. Like, Oh, my God, Mom. That's amazing. Yeah. So I this was how I wanted to be. I don't have to deal with that. Like, oh my god, mom. That's amazing.
Starting point is 00:24:45 Yeah. So I, this was how I wanted to be. I don't even know if I'm answering your question. I'm so sorry. No, no, no, no. This helps because it's like, you broke the cycle. Yes. Essentially. I broke the cycle. I am raising, it looks from afar, like I'm doing what I know, which is being a single mom, because I was raised by pretty much a single mom. But I think I'm raising my kids as a single mom because of definitely avoidance of things that I know I don't want and also understanding who I am fully and being honest with who I am and what I
Starting point is 00:25:19 can give right now. And who I am is at the time that I wanted to be a parent was not somebody who should be having kids with another person. I think that is the most mature, self-aware thing that anyone could ever fucking do. With kids you have to be that honest because it's a child's life. You have to. And you again sitting here being like, I've lived what a single mom looks like, who's not actually single, but we're happy about it. Right. And it's like the autonomy you've given yourself to find your happiness and give your kids a different life and a different meaning to what a single mom is. It's beautiful. Yeah, it's, it's, thank you. Thank you for recognizing that. I also love that I don't know what the future is going to hold, right? That's the other thing.
Starting point is 00:26:10 It's like, this is like this moment in this time in my life now. And I mean, I'll be honest, I have tried dating and I can tell that no man's moving into our house while my daughters are there. Like that's, and by the way, I don't think I can do it. Like I literally can't imagine a man moving into our house and me sharing my closet or like, I just, I don't see that happening, but then I imagine like being an empty nester and how that part of my life will be. And by then feeling like maybe I will feel like I want to be in a relationship.
Starting point is 00:26:41 There's this, this notion that somebody like me must be missing out on something and that people feel sorry for you somehow, that you're missing out on love. And you're like, guys, I'm telling you I'm good. And they're like, no, no, no. It's the thing that you don't quite realize until you have kids. And I'm not saying that it replaces one love with the other, but it is such a tremendous love that I do not miss love. You know, I might miss sex. Fair. That's fair. My vibrator is only doing so much. No, look, the vibrator is good. And I'm having, listen, I'm having, I'm having,
Starting point is 00:27:19 I'm having the kind of sex I never had in my 20s or in my 30s. Love. I'm having the kind of sex I never had in my 20s or in my 30s. Love. Yes. And so that part has been really exciting. But I'm not missing like a relationship. I'm not missing the partnership that I think people think you miss when you're me. And it feels like what you're also saying is it's not that you're not open to it.
Starting point is 00:27:40 You're just at a point in your life where you're really content and you're really happy. And I want to also point out because I can only imagine now even you just lightly explaining to me, the judgment that comes with a woman in your position. And we know women in Hollywood who are single and people are like, oh, what is actually fucking wrong with her? Yeah, she must be a real bitch. What a cunt. Truly. Like you fucking cunt. How crazy are you? Yeah, how crazy are you?
Starting point is 00:28:07 Truly. But how gorgeous to also hear you saying like, everything you're saying makes me more wanting to put it back on other people who are so triggered of like, how many relationships do we know of these women in these households with these men who have lost their voice, who are not happy? It's not everyone, but being alone, you have that control that a lot of people don't have in these certain relationships that they've lost themselves to.
Starting point is 00:28:32 So I think it's commendable that you're like, I know myself enough, I'm gonna stay right here until I wanna change it, and then maybe I'll change it. But guess what? It's your decision. Yeah, yeah. And then I watched you with your husband, and I'm like, God, that's so incredible.
Starting point is 00:28:47 And why can't we just, as women, experience these two, have these two very different experiences and let that be okay, you know? Be completely okay. Yeah. Like, I never thought I was gonna be someone that was gonna get married.
Starting point is 00:29:01 You work with your husband. And it works. Yes, exactly. And I get why people have opinions, but I'm like, but I'm happy. Well, that's the other thing. Like, yeah, exactly. Everybody will always have a fucking... It's like an asshole.
Starting point is 00:29:12 We all have one. It's like, please. Yeah. Get out of here. Yeah. At my age, I'm like, I honestly, there's like, I can't make enough zero fucks. Like, I'm like... enough zero fucks. Like, I'm like. I love that from you though. Immediately when you sat down, I was like,
Starting point is 00:29:28 I fucking love you. Like this energy is what we need. The girls need this energy. Okay, let's go back. 19 years old, your mom buys you a plane ticket to LA and is like, one way you're gonna become an actress, go. And you land, what the fuck was the plan? Well, I think now you understand a little bit better
Starting point is 00:29:50 that she was like, the next morning, she was like, you're going to school, right? So I was in New York, I was living in somebody's basement. I was there, I did not have, I think I overstayed on a tourist visa. So I was kind of in this no man's land of, I wasn't there legally. I couldn't really dance anymore. I wasn't happy with my life. I felt like my only other option was to go back to South Africa, a country that was in tremendous turmoil at the time, the brink of civil war breaking out.
Starting point is 00:30:33 And I had nothing really to go back to. When I had to think about how was I going to survive, I was like, am I really going to take over my mom's construction company? Like I, I was willing to take. And also when you're young, you just you're fucking insane. You're so stupid, so naive. I was like, this sounds like the best idea ever. Yes, let's get a one way ticket to this place called Hollywood
Starting point is 00:31:00 and I will get on this plane mother with this credit card that there's no money in there. I know, but you're trying to make me feel better about and I know nobody and I will get in a cab and I will go and find some motel to live in. Those were better options than getting on a plane and going back to South Africa for me at that time. So you get there and like how are you initially making ends meet before you get all modeling? Yes. So modeling was kind of my waitressing job. Okay. It turns out nobody's really checking your visa. They every once in a while will get you an O1,
Starting point is 00:31:32 but they don't really care. Um, or back then. Yeah. Sorry. I'm just going to take this out. Oh, you got it. I tore my cort, cortical intercortical muscles or whatever, coastal intercoastal muscles. By doing something. Yeah, I did something stupid. But anyway, um, get cozy. So I got here, I didn't know anybody, but modeling was always kind of an income for me. When you started making money, what did you spend your first like big paycheck on? When you started making money, what did you spend your first like big paycheck on?
Starting point is 00:32:25 I didn't make any money for a while. I was really like, not even like paycheck to paycheck. I was like, two, I was waiting for two bank and cashing this check for $75,000. And I can tell you exactly what I wore that day. I can tell you exactly how I felt. I can tell you how I walked to my Ford Escort. Like, it's so vivid in my mind because it was a moment of complete freedom. Like it's so hard to explain, but I think women or having financial freedom is something that is so important. And when you don't have it, and then one day you feel like you have it, it's a feeling that you never forget. You never forget and you never want to go back.
Starting point is 00:33:23 No. You're like, but I also like,. No. You're like, oh. But I also like stupidly, I was like, well, I'm done, I'm set for life. Like I was like. I'm ballin'. Yeah, like, oh, well, I don't have to worry about that again, you know.
Starting point is 00:33:35 But I didn't spend it on anything. Nothing. Just to, yeah, I didn't, I was so scared of having to like go back to South Africa. You start getting into Hollywood as a young woman, like what were your first impressions of Hollywood? It was confusing, you know, because I didn't have really, I didn't have, I didn't know what it was.
Starting point is 00:33:57 So I was kind of like, you have to understand, where I was raised, we had television from six o'clock until nine o'clock. Like we had three hours of television and then we had nothing. My access to Hollywood was so limited. We had a magazine that would write about celebrities. That was really the only information that I ever got about celebrities. I watched movies and thought that it was like a job that your neighbor did. I didn't know they were celebrities. I thought that Tom Hanks was just some guy that had this job and he was an actor. That status thing didn't exist for me. So when I got here, it was crazy. I was like, oh shit, like people are like celebrities here.
Starting point is 00:34:52 So it was very, it was very strange for me. But again, I was just so excited. I was so excited. I want to ask you about one of your early auditions that you had in the industry where a director asked you to go to his house for an audition late on a Saturday night. Can you just explain what happened when you got there? Yeah, I didn't know what an audition or what the process really, what that looked like.
Starting point is 00:35:26 An agency that I was working at as a model, I said, listen, I'm interested, so naively, didn't know how you went about being an actor. I said, if you hear of any auditions, I'd like to go. And they said, oh, we think there's a casting for this movie and you'll have to go on Saturday night. And they gave me the address and it was this director's house. And I might, the little voice inside me definitely said, this isn't right. And but then the other voice in me says, well, I don't know, maybe it is right.
Starting point is 00:36:02 But you know, that, like that voice that we don't listen to that voice knew that voice was like, this isn't know. Maybe it is right. But you know that like, that voice that we don't listen to, that voice knew, that voice was like, this isn't right. And it wasn't right. And as women, like you were constantly in positions where we almost like, we want to be like, no, I'm overreacting. Like there's no way I'm going to get there. And it's going to be weird. There's no way. And even when it is weird, you're talking yourself out if this isn't weird, like, no, I'm taking this the wrong way. That's not what he's mean.
Starting point is 00:36:36 And by the way, this guy, he got a little nervous for a while there. I've never said his name, because honestly, I don't want the story to be about him. You know, honestly, it's not because I'm protecting him or anything, but he got nervous for a little bit. Why? Because he heard me tell the story and he knew it was about him. And he wrote me a pretend letter trying to explain his behavior and how I must have misunderstood it, which is classic, isn't it? It's so classic. No, Charlize.
Starting point is 00:37:05 Yeah. He wrote you a letter? Yeah, because I think he panicked. He started panicking. Of course. He was like waiting for me. And I just realized like, I won't even fucking say your name because you know you're the scumbag. Like, you know it's you. And if anybody ever asked me about him, I would be completely honest. And he knows that. And I kind of like that he's got to be on a hot seat. He doesn't know when it's going to come. I kind of like that a little more. I'm so sorry, because I opened up in my documentary about this person in a position of power that
Starting point is 00:37:38 abused their power and sexually harassed me and all the things. And coming forward about it, I had like such anxiety. And it's interesting because it's like, you're in a position of power now. You were so young in your career, from what I understand, this was like a huge director. Yeah, huge. And the power imbalance being there in that room on a late Saturday night, what the fuck are you going to do? And most people would be like, well, why don't you just get up and leave and yell and go immediately report it?
Starting point is 00:38:09 And it's like, it's so nuanced and complicated. Like, can you just explain, because I have so many women listening, like a little bit about in those moments now when you look back, how to not feel such shame and guilt for something that clearly was not your fault? Yeah, it's so hard to even, it's like we can only share these experiences and we can talk about them enough so that hopefully it becomes normalized that we hear it enough where women can just go
Starting point is 00:38:39 like, okay, I've heard about this time. Like, while you're sitting in there, you can hopefully say like, okay, force yourself to do this thing that you, that we may be, the point that I'm trying to make is that we have to be careful because it's very hard for people to understand why someone with a strong personality, someone who's outspoken, how someone like that can find themselves in a position where they won't say something. And that is the story that, it's a classic story, right? It's very, very complicated. And even though I want younger generations of women
Starting point is 00:39:16 to not do the same thing, I also understand if they do do the same thing. Because I drove up Laurel Canyon and I was so mad at myself. I remember like being furious with myself because I couldn't believe how I had let myself down. Like I was like, what the fuck? Who the fuck are you? Like where the fuck, why the fuck would you allow that? Like, why? I still get those feelings, you know, because it's like, you, you know yourself so well. And it's very, it's, there's something that really like, kind of like breaks my heart to the core when people so, so, um, in this very luxurious manner talk about, well, you know what? Next time you should fucking say something. Don't wait 20 years, okay? This kind of like callous way of not wanting to believe.
Starting point is 00:40:17 That's really what it boils down to. Instead of saying, I don't believe you, it's like, well, don't be a fucking pussy. Maybe you shouldn't have been a pussy about it. And we all know what that feels like. It feels like no matter what they say, it can't hurt more than what you're telling yourself. Like I beat myself up over that. I was like, you can say whatever you want, motherfucker. Trust me, you can't hurt me more than I hurt myself about what happened that day. I mean, even just listening to you say it, it's so, it brings up so much, I think for every woman probably listening because you're like, you're so right. In those moments, I remember I was sitting, every time I talk about it makes me emotional because I was when I was sitting on the stage at Tribeca, because that's where my documentary premiered.
Starting point is 00:41:05 And I did a Q&A after, and I started talking about power imbalance, and when someone does something to you, and you're in this moment, and you freeze, or you fawn, or whatever it be, and I'm looking at the audience, and there's like a couple hundred people in this audience, and I'm looking at all these women's faces,
Starting point is 00:41:24 and multiple women have just like that look, where I almost wanted to pause and be like, I see you. How many women in this room? How many? And I'm not kidding you Charlize, I literally think almost every fucking hand would have gone up. And it breaks my heart,
Starting point is 00:41:42 cause I'm like, holy shit. this is happening as we're sitting here, someone, some woman has experienced this in this feeling. And I agree with you. I think for me, I relate a lot to what you're saying of being someone that's so outspoken. I do think a lot of people are like, there, there's no way that would happen to you. There's no way. And it's like, Oh no, the minute you're in that room, you're not yourself.
Starting point is 00:42:08 You are the smallest version of yourself. You don't even remember who you are. And the minute you walk out the door, you kind of start to remember, and that's when the shame hits you. Cause you're like, how did I not just, I said it to my husband, less than a year ago,
Starting point is 00:42:25 I had an executive say some of the most insane shit to me and I'm Alex Cooper, I'm me, I'm supposed, literally froze, froze. So if it's happening to me now, and it happened to me back then when I didn't have a voice, there is no through line of this can't happen to her. It doesn't matter where the fuck you are on the totem pole of power and success as a woman. When those men get you in that position
Starting point is 00:42:50 or there's a power imbalance, you're fucked. Or in your case, a woman. I actually, I think that story isn't told enough. Definitely not. So I'm really, I'm grateful and I really respect your choice in wanting to tell that story because I think just as I feel like when I meet men who have experienced this kind of power play, I think that we need to tell these stories so that we can understand that we're not alone.
Starting point is 00:43:19 Like that's the thing, right? And it's hard to tell them in a world where people don't want to fucking believe you. It's really, really hard. It doesn't make it easy for us. And when it starts to sound repetitious and it's like, oh, it's the same story again, it's like, yeah, but guess what? We're all made of the same fucking, we're human beings. And until you are in this fucking environment, don't tell me how you're going to behave because I will not let a motherfucker fuck with me any, any day of the week, like step up. But when somebody catches you off guard like that, you know, I don't like want to get emotional about it, but I think it's the fact that it's in an instant within seconds, somebody is telling you your value and they're telling you you're not really that valuable. Because guess what? I was never going to get a part that night. And I knew that as soon as I left.
Starting point is 00:44:10 Like when I was driving up Laurel Canyon, I knew I wasn't there because I had some value that I was going to bring to this man's movie. I was there for one thing. I was only valued for one thing. That was it. So when somebody does that to you, you will fucking freeze. No matter who you are, you will fucking freeze. And the conversation you also brought up of why did it take you so long? Right? I had experienced some people being like, oh, 10 years, it took you 10 years. Now that you have this platform, now all of a sudden you want to talk about it.
Starting point is 00:44:48 And it's like 10 years, yes. Because like you just said, when you're driving up Laurel and you're leaving that moment and how quickly you realize your worth and who you are, and then you're mad at yourself, it starts to almost seep into every single decision and interaction you go forward having in that industry, whether or in your relationships, whatever it seeps into. So yes, it took me that long because I had to repair what that person broke in me and I had to find a way back and it still fucking hurts and I still feel uncomfortable and I still cry about it. I'm not, there's no closure, but there's a little bit of a semblance of healing.
Starting point is 00:45:29 But yeah, it took 10 fucking years and sometimes people are going to live the rest of their lives and never get to feel any bit of healing. So like there is no timeline. There's also the complication of. I feel when I watch your documentary, how much you love playing soccer. Someone's taking something away from you that you love so much. So there's that fear on top of it, right? Like I remember I had this constant kind of worry for myself.
Starting point is 00:45:54 Like I was like, if I don't make this work, like the alternative is just so fucking dark. Like I don't want to have this other life. And so that was like the added thing on top of it was like they're fucking with something that you really love. So it makes it even harder, it makes it more complicated. That's their power. That's their power over you.
Starting point is 00:46:16 That's the why didn't you speak up? But most of these women are sitting there and like, this is my job. This is what I, it's so complicated. So I think the takeaway for any woman listening is also just like, we see you, there is no answer, but. And we're not sitting here saying, because of our experiences, you should do this.
Starting point is 00:46:35 You're probably not. And we understand why. And we need to be a community that can support each other. They can stand together. Truly. And fuck those fuckers. Fuck those pieces of fucking shit. Fuck those fuckers. Fuck can stand together. Truly. And fuck those fuckers. Fuck those pieces of fucking shit. Fuck those fuckers. Fuck you motherfucking ass bitch.
Starting point is 00:46:49 Fuck you. What have you learned? That's the beginning of your career. What have you then learned about your own strength through this crazy time in the industry that you've had? that you've had? I feel fortunate that my, that I think I don't mean this in like a feel sorry for me way, but I feel like I had a hard childhood. I think it set me up for an industry that's hard. I'm hoping that it can become less hard. I'm working. I'm trying to be part of solving the problem. But I think it was the thing that helped me. It kind of set me up in a way where I was so the fish
Starting point is 00:47:32 out of water. Like, you don't understand. Like, if you look at a map, that's where I was. This is like, it was so... I'd never been on a plane. Like I had never left South Africa. It was so insane to be that kind of a fish out of water. But I, the core of my experience as a child and being a survivor really, really helped me. It just really helped me to kind of, I, I, in this is not, I'm not, I'm not prescribing this to anybody because I don't want this from my own daughters, but I could suck it up.
Starting point is 00:48:09 In though, coming from a situation where you weren't really privy to the information about Hollywood, you had a really rough childhood, then you get here, like, did you ever get to a point where you felt like you could lean in and be proud of your success? Or have you or what is your relationship to success? Like, have you had like an I made it moment and you're like, this is fucking great. We got that $75,000. I was like, I'm done. I have had many moments like that because I think I always, you know, I think what happens when you have when you experience death at a young age, you know, I think what happens when you have,
Starting point is 00:48:45 when you experience death at a young age, this is, I'm not speaking for everybody, but for me, it, it had, it made me hyper aware of time. And I also think that growing up in South Africa, at the time that I did when AIDS just ravaged my country in a way, it brought it to its knees. I, as a woman, you just couldn't help but feel like you were going to die of AIDS. Like that's just what it was like. Like I had this constant fear every time I had sex with somebody, I was like, I have AIDS. like I would go and get tested. And so I had this constant feeling of time running out. So when good shit came my way, I really like, I felt it. But I also felt this thing kind of chasing me like times and run out times and run out times going to run out. Like, you got to get it all in,
Starting point is 00:49:37 you got to pack it all in, you got to get it done, which is a horrible way to go through your 20s. So I have had this, this, I've had great success and I've had a ton of great opportunities come my way. I've always said this, I really believe this. It is not just about talent. There are people out there that I know that are way surpassed my talent that will never have the opportunities that I had to showcase them. These are all things that I'm so aware of. So I try to... It's gotten better now that I'm older, for sure. Like I can definitely like sit in a moment. I don't feel like I have to make a movie every five seconds. I feel like I have other things that are more, that I kind of gauge my success at.
Starting point is 00:50:29 It's not just work related, but I also, listen, after you win an Oscar, there's a part of you that can go, oh shit, like, what do I do now? Like, how do I, what do you, what am I stepping up to now? Like, everything's going to be shit after this. And then after you realize like, yeah, it's probably going to be shit. You just go like, oh, the fuck that then, then I'm just going to fucking make movies that I want to make. Like, I got an Oscar bitch, like I got nothing else to prove. So let me just fucking make shit that I want to make. So it's great. It's very freeing.
Starting point is 00:51:04 Something I think a lot of people obviously respect you for is the way that you have transformed yourself from, for so many roles. Like you've gone bald, you've gained 50 pounds. Like you've, you've gone bald sounds like. I was like, that was a shaved head bitch. Like we don't have to go that far. You've gone bald. You know what I mean? Well, you were bald.
Starting point is 00:51:28 You shaved your head. There's a buzz in there's bald. Like let's just. You've gone bald. You're like, I buzzed my hair. But you know what I mean? Like you've really taken things to the extreme. How, when you were doing those things within your career,
Starting point is 00:51:42 did it affect your confidence or did it not? No, I found it very freeing. I think that there's, it's much easier for me to kind of lose myself when I'm working to really kind of be a good actor. Like, I, if I look in the mirror and I see Charlize, I'm like, oh, like, this is just all feeling like now I'm just feeling like I'm being like a fake version of myself. I don't know. There's something for me, maybe it's because I come from the world of dance.
Starting point is 00:52:14 There is a real appreciation for costume and music and like the this kind of vibe that you have to set to this world that you're creating. And I don't know how to work without that. Like I am always in awe of actors who can just, you know, Philip Seymour Hoffman, just be Philip Seymour Hoffman and be fucking amazing in every movie, but that's not who I am.
Starting point is 00:52:36 Like I really rely on finding a character from the outside in almost sometimes. Let's talk about your dating life. Oh, here we go. Okay. Hard pivot. Let's swerve. Okay.
Starting point is 00:52:51 So when you were bald. So when you, I literally was gonna say, so now that you're not bald anymore. Okay, so obviously we spoke about it earlier. You've been outspoken about never wanting to probably get married. And once you kind of accepted that, like how has that impacted your dating life
Starting point is 00:53:11 knowing that you're not looking for marriage, like with men and how has it affected them with you? Well, I think there's a, like, okay, let me just be clear. Marriage is a long-term commitment. And I think I want long-term commitment. I just don't need to get married. So I just want to clarify that. I will tell you in all honesty and the work that I've done on myself, I think a lot of that also has to do with the fact that I have a tremendous fear of not being able to get out of something. And that's again, me just understanding me, right? And you know,
Starting point is 00:53:50 now obviously by California laws, after seven years, you're in a fucking marriage, whether you walk down the aisle and sign the piece of paper, like you're it's 50 5050 bitch. Like, let's just be clear. So I'm like, my semantics is like crazy, but I want, if I were to find a relationship, I would think of it as something that I'm aiming for for long term. I've never been somebody that really wants to like jump from one thing to another. From the time that I was in relationships, I was in one relationship after another relationship after another relationship. And so when I earlier said I'm having sex now for the first time, like I never had before is because I'm not in relationships.
Starting point is 00:54:36 And it's not because I'm not, I don't want to be in relationships, but I'm seeing things for what they are. Right? I'm not trying to force a circle into a square or whatever the f*****g American saying is, the peg and the hole and the I can never say it right. But no, it's a, but I, when I meet somebody, I can, I can see where it's going to go pretty quickly. What is relationship you like versus single you? So this is what we were talking about earlier. Like I am ashamed of being a person in a relation or that I used to be, I should speak now. I've done a lot of work, but I used to be someone in relationships that would lose herself.
Starting point is 00:55:17 And again, it's that thing, you, like you're such a fucking power bitch. Like you're a baller. Like why that couldn't be you. But it goes back to how I looked at girls who were so, I've never really had a lot of practice and just being confident and like saying I've, I've always felt like I've had to like protect other people so much that that's that codependency has just remained in my relationships.
Starting point is 00:55:44 So I used to be a person that would watch herself, would also attract narcissists, men who wanted me to kind of treat them that way. And if I didn't, there was a lot of conflict and I actually don't like conflict. Yet again, something people are always surprised. I don't like conflict, but when I feel like I'm being, if I feel like I have to choose between conflict
Starting point is 00:56:10 or just placating, then I will placate because I don't want the conflict. But when you're in those type of relationships that you've lost yourself, how have you pulled yourself out? Friends. Yeah, great friends. Like, now I'm gonna cry.
Starting point is 00:56:27 Just great girlfriends. Yeah, because I think sometimes you can't see when you're in it. At all. And you need a friend that doesn't hit you over the head because you won't leave until you can see it for yourself. And a good girlfriend knows that. And so they support you while you're in the darkness
Starting point is 00:56:51 because that's all you have. Like you need that support. And I've had, I've put some girlfriends through fucking hell. So yeah, I love that the shows for women, fucking girlfriends, you, fucking girlfriends. You need good girlfriends. But I think that the biggest also point that I want to highlight that you just said is like, there is a difference between being a really good girlfriend
Starting point is 00:57:15 and then when someone's in a really unhealthy relationship, making them feel shame about it and being like, we can't fucking do this again. We can't. You're an idiot. What are you doing? Yeah. You then pull away. And if anything, you lean more towards the person you're in the relationship with. And we've all been there.
Starting point is 00:57:30 If you have one of those great friends and I've had it with my friend where I was in a horrible situation and then when you give them a light opening, because you're really looking for them to pull you out and they're like, okay, let's just, let's talk about it. Like, and then they slowly pull you and then you're out, but it takes you opening even like a crack in the door.
Starting point is 00:57:51 Cause if you don't wanna hear it, it's like the same thing like we were saying earlier with therapy, you can't fucking force someone to go to therapy, they're gonna sit there with their, you know, they're like, I'm not gonna listen to you. They have to be ready and the only way they're going to come to you though as a friend is if you've been there with them. And I know it's hard as a friend,
Starting point is 00:58:08 but there's always- So hard. That's the thing that makes me emotional because it's the patience. And it must, it's so hard when someone you love so much is just constantly hitting their head on the same wall. And all you wanna do is to remove them from the situation and you know that you can't and you have to like walk this fine line. Those, those.
Starting point is 00:58:32 Yeah. I, I have, I don't know what I did in a past life. I really do not what I did in a past life, but I, fuck me. I have been blessed with really, really good people in my life. That's half the battle. I'm a lucky bitch. ["Time to Love You Again"] When you're having these like fun little new romance moments that you're in your era of not dating but you're getting to have good sex, how are we meeting these men?
Starting point is 00:59:20 Are they men in the industry? Do you not want a man in the industry? No, I don't want. No, my God, no, no, no. I have zero interest. And again, like I say these things, you know, in a very glib way, but I don't think that dating somebody in my industry is a smart thing.
Starting point is 00:59:37 I agree. Yeah, it's not, it's everything I have to, I, and I'm not saying it's impossible. I'm not saying that it's that binary. I just think that in general, it's not a good thing for me. So how are you meeting these people? Are you on the apps? Are you out dating?
Starting point is 00:59:53 Are you friends? I am on the apps, but I don't use the apps. I am. I love that. It's so horrible. I have a few friends that are very, very good. And one of them I know is listening to this right now, who always is like, okay, know is listening to this right now, who, who always
Starting point is 01:00:06 is like, okay, you need to come here right now and you need to meet this person. And I'm very grateful for her and you know who you are. And I have not taken, I have not been brave enough on a lot of her offers, but recently I have and I, it has paid off tremendously. And so yes, my dear friend friend Amanda out there when she says like, you need to just Ruby and fucking Paris be like, you just need to fucking like come and say hi to this guy right now. So fun. And yeah, and then it totally pays off. And I'm like, yeah, I need to do that more often, honestly, because the apps are just horrible.
Starting point is 01:00:40 It's hard. No, it's not hard. It's a fucking it's a clown show. I'm sorry guys, but please like, no, no. Like I meet like honestly, not because I want to date you, but because I want to help you. No burning man photos, no photos of you with other women. Like I don't care. I don't want to know that you have girlfriends and I don't want you shooting a
Starting point is 01:01:04 fucking selfie in your closet of your hand in a jean pocket. I don't care. I don't want to know that you have girlfriends and I don't want you shooting a fucking selfie in your closet of your hand in a jean pocket. I don't. I'm sorry. I don't want to see you looking at yourself in a mirror that way. It makes my vagina close. I just can't.
Starting point is 01:01:18 And don't tell me you're a CEO because you're not like, I'm sorry of what of some business you can't explain to me that I'm none of my friends can understand like no and then no you don't live in this apartment if you're no you do not have a business stop. You're a fucking joke. You know, I get like I get wet when you just tell me who you
Starting point is 01:01:42 are like don't be pretentious. I'm sorry. Picturing you on the fucking apps with your girlfriends over like wine one night being like, let's just open this shit up. Well, by the way, that's how it started. I was like drunk enough to have a girlfriend be like, let's just fucking do it. I was like, yeah, let's do it. And that's how I ended up on this fucking app. Listen, I could take myself off the app, but I am secretly fucking enjoying the joke.
Starting point is 01:02:08 It's great. It's the joke. I'm sorry, I'm not trying to be mean. No, it's okay. I'm not trying to be mean, but like I'm trying to like help. This is like, think of this as like help. I'm a 50 ass year old woman telling you,
Starting point is 01:02:22 don't do it girls, don't like it. They don't fucking like it It's so true. Yeah the hand in the gene in no I can't I just can't I just can't I'm sorry. The CEO is also crazy Dad yeah, yeah, sir. His dad. Um, okay. how do we feel about sex on the first date? Well, so I like what do you consider? What do you consider a date? Oh, are you going on dates? Yeah, but I like I feel like when you like there's certain circumstances where you meet somebody at a party and yeah, you have sex and then that's it. You know, that's what it is. You're not thinking you're going to marry this person.
Starting point is 01:03:06 That's fair. Yeah. Are you down for one night stands? Yes. I don't have many of them. I sound I'm sitting here sounding like I do. So when I do, I'm like, oh, fuck. Yeah, I should have done this in my 20s.
Starting point is 01:03:19 I was married from the time that I was like having sex to the time that I had my last relationship. Then I had my last relationship. Then I had children. Who has fucking time for dates and shaving and waxing and makeup? And like I've got two children that have to go to school. Then I like I got it like this shit's on a time. Like we got, do you need me to send you a call time? I'm obsessed. And it's this you got two hours. Like what's happening? Because like I need to know. Do you have any sex tip for the girls?
Starting point is 01:03:49 Sex tip? Like what does that mean? Like, what does that mean? Like how to have good sex? How to what? Have an organ? Anything, anything that like you think of girls could just like, you're hot, you're having good sex. Okay. You're like, I almost choked. I am the last person to ask. I'm like sounding very cocky here, but I think it's because I have found this freedom
Starting point is 01:04:12 in my forties where I'm like, oh my God, so I just wanna say this in perspective. I've probably had three one-night stands in my entire life. Okay. But I did just recently fuck a 26 year old and it was really fucking amazing. Fuck yeah. Yes, and I've never done that. And I was like, oh, this is great. Okay.
Starting point is 01:04:30 Let me just say that 26 year old is the luckiest fucking man walking on this goddamn planet. He's walking different today, knowing. Oh my God. He for sure is not, but thank you. No, he is. He is. I will just say this. I wish that this goes back to, I think this is kind of like a thread throughout our conversation. Women who come across as confident, women who come across as like outspoken, ones that wouldn't speak up for themselves, tend to also be in bed people who
Starting point is 01:05:03 want to please males. Like, and I have found this in my experiences with talking to other women about this. Isn't it strange? Like, we should be the ones that are like, fuck you. Like, I'm gonna have an orgasm. And yet I, my whole life was so concerned about- Same.
Starting point is 01:05:21 The same? Same. Okay. Oh my God. So my advice would be this. Don't fucking do that for two reasons. You're going to have better orgasms. And guess what? Your man's going to like that.
Starting point is 01:05:33 They're going to have such a better time too. Yes. It's so true. It's really hard. I think back to my 20s and I and in college, like I was so thinking I was doing the right thing. And when you get the feedback of how great it was and then you're walking away feeling great,
Starting point is 01:05:49 but then you're also like, I don't know if I've even had an orgasm in my life before. This is kind of, is this what it's supposed to do? And then the minute, and it takes reps. Sometimes it just takes you getting, cause no man is like, unless he's the most amazing man in the world, which go find him, but no.
Starting point is 01:06:07 It's all these men, it's about them. And they're not actually being like, I know it takes you longer than my fucking dick just getting off in two seconds. So it's a process to you advocating for yourself in the bedroom being like, hold on. And actually then speaking up, but it takes time. But I agree, once you hit that part of your life
Starting point is 01:06:27 where it's not just like, oh, I'll just like do it. And then like, he'll get off and like, I'm like faking it. Your life changes. And practice helps. You just have to practice and then you'll figure it out. Yeah. That's good advice, see? Yeah, yeah.
Starting point is 01:06:40 In the safe way, please. Okay, yeah, yeah. Yeah, please. Please, with the love of God. Okay, what is the biggest dating disaster you've ever had? Oh my God. I had a guy once ask me to make out with his nose, which was really, really probably one of the most bizarre asks ever.
Starting point is 01:06:56 Yes. And a very like he was getting off on it. That was really gross. I would say aside from that, nobody's ever asked me to do something that I was like, whoa, that's really fucking weird. Like, I guess I'm, I like weird shit. Like, I'm not like thrown by weird shit. Like the nose thing was the weirdest thing that'll do it. Yeah. But I'm not like thrown easily. So that's why I think I'm kind of like, I'm like, oh, that sounds so well, let's see what happens. Let's give it a try. Yeah. Okay, we're gonna play a game. I'm having the best time. Okay, you are. You are crying and we are laughing and we are I'm not never gonna get over the bald comment. That jail for me. Okay. All right. I'm gonna go through some dating scenarios. And I want your opinion. Are you in? Or are you out? Wow. Okay.
Starting point is 01:07:44 Okay. He tells you he loves you after one month. That's usually what I would do. That's like a Charlize move. Oh my God. This is like a constant joke between me and my friends. This is how unhealthy I am. Like, I just will tell you I love you in a heartbeat. Like, I've never understood this conversation. Like, have you ever had been in love? I'm like motherfucker. I'm in love all the time
Starting point is 01:08:08 Like I like I like while I'm fucking you I'll tell you I love you Like and for a long time I was like this is not healthy and then I just went you know This is who I am like honestly like I'm not gonna beat myself up over this anymore. So I'm gonna say that's okay I don't know if I want to hear it from a guy though. Fair. So fair. I feel like again, it's like the photo, the selfie, like, no. Like calm down. Yeah. Let me be the one that's like, I think I love you.
Starting point is 01:08:35 Yeah. Yeah. And make me chase you just a little bit. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like God, don't be so mean to me. Can you believe it? I'm in love with you. Then you're literally at home being like, oh my God, I can't believe he believes that anyways. But maybe I am.
Starting point is 01:08:49 How quickly do you actually think you know if you're in love with someone? In all seriousness, I feel like I have the ability to go there pretty easily for someone who is as like, have been so, I think maybe it is because I've been so protective of my life and have to protect so many things in my life that there is, and it's maybe why acting is, feels safe to me. I have the ability to kind of like go into that kind of like reckless vulnerable place easily. It's beautiful.
Starting point is 01:09:23 Yes. Have you ever had a guy tell you that he loved you and you were not on the same page? Yes. Yes. Yes. And you just let them down easy? I am going to be honest with you. I'm not good at letting people off the hook easily. Do you say it back? No, I don't say it back. But I don't know how to like I will pretend and then I'll probably ghost like I'm not I Did I know it's really terrible and I have to work on that but after that I just don't know like It's it's part of me is like I don't have I don't know I like it's a lot of time to get into like the softness of all of this and sometimes I just think it's easier to just be like let's just let's just not yeah That's not because I don't love you. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:10:06 And it's easy for me to tell people I love them so if I can't say it back, you're really a fucking loser. There's a big problem here. Like it's not gonna happen. Holy shit. Okay, you caught him going through your phone. No, I don't like stuff like that. I really. Have you ever caught someone?
Starting point is 01:10:21 Listen, when most of my dating and serious relationships happened, there were no iPhone. She's like no iPhone gang over here. Yeah, we didn't have that problem. We didn't have, I mean like isn't that love. Yeah, but I don't like stuff like that. Even my kids, like my kids find it really hard that I'm like, I don't want to go through your phone. I want to be able to trust you. Yeah. Yeah. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.
Starting point is 01:10:46 How did you find out? I found out after, not while I was in the relationship, but I always felt it. Like, you know, again, it's that little voice. Yeah. But it's actually, it wasn't worse for me, because part of me was like, that wasn't the reason why I broke up with the person.
Starting point is 01:11:02 And also, I don't think I was with like, I don't think it was constant all the way through. I think it was like towards the end or it was like somebody thought like a blowjob wasn't cheating like shit like that, you know? But I classic them not thinking a blowjob. Yeah, just the classic stuff of men. Like that doesn't count. Oh yeah, no, you getting your dick sucked did not count for sure. No, not at all. No, totally fine. Yes, 100%.
Starting point is 01:11:29 Did you ever confront him about it or no? You just let it go. No, because most of the time I found out afterwards. And then by then I was like, I couldn't give two fucks. Okay, he hates cursing and asks you to stop saying fuck. Impossible, absolutely. If I can't do that in front of my children, do you really think I'm gonna do that for you?
Starting point is 01:11:48 Go fuck yourself. And I don't even love you here. Like this is like before I've even told you I love you. So, yeah. Okay, what is something you'll never compromise on in a relationship? Now? I think you know, I've talked about it.
Starting point is 01:12:04 I will not lose myself. I will not lose myself. I will not make myself smaller and I will not do things that are not authentically, it doesn't mean that I'm gonna be selfish, but I will not make myself somebody that I'm not for you, for you to feel better about being in a relationship with me. I fucking love it. Oh, thanks.
Starting point is 01:12:23 No, no, no, cause it's like you being aware that that's your one thing. We all have that, right? Like I had that for so long where it was like, I knew everyone knows that one thing that you're like, okay, this next time I've got to stand my ground and I can't let myself do X, Y or Z. And I think that in it's like, for me, mine was like, I really loved the games. Like I was like addicted to like the push and the pull and the push and I'm like, the drama.
Starting point is 01:12:50 And I'm like, what am I doing? I'm exhausted and like, I want to feel safe. So why am I doing this? And finally, why, why we're still working on that. I still don't fully know why I was doing that. Do you still do it? No, I am so happy where- You're aware of it now. Matt was the first person that literally,
Starting point is 01:13:07 it was like a couple, like a month or so in, and he was like, I don't know what you're doing, but I have literally no interest in it. So let me know if you wanna continue or I'm done. And I was literally like, Oh wow. I'm in love with you. But you obviously didn't stop it straight away.
Starting point is 01:13:22 No, it just, it took, it was a concerted effort for me to recognize, like I had become used to a pattern. Yeah. And it became familiar to me. And then you jump right into it, into the next thing. And a lot of it made me feel like if we fight, then when we come back together, we feel closer. And it was a bad cycle I got into. And then Matt was the first person that I broke that cycle for. And it was like, I made such different life decisions with him that I was like, wow, I must really love you
Starting point is 01:13:47 that I'm trying this hard to like not be. That's amazing. Yeah, so, you know, we all have our thing. Yeah. Okay. So you told him right there you loved him. Yeah, then I was like, let me take my pants off, fuck me, and I love you all in one night, let's go.
Starting point is 01:14:01 Woo! No game here. He's like, this bitch is crazy. You're like, you want no games? No, literally, let's go. But actually that's like, this bitch is crazy. You're like, you want no games? No, literally. Let's go. Yeah. But actually that is something.
Starting point is 01:14:07 We're getting married. Tonight. Let's go to Vegas. He's like, you're insane. Yeah. Okay. Let's talk about your new movie, The Old Guard 2. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:14:17 What does it feel like playing this character again? Like, is it exciting to get to do something a second time? Yes. It's challenging, but also, yes, it's exciting because I've never, I've been wanting to do television for a while or like a limited series because I've never experienced having several hours to kind of build arc and explore a character.
Starting point is 01:14:42 And so like my 20s, it's always felt like pack it in two hours or under two. And so this was nice because it gave me an opportunity to kind of like go and revisit a character that I had played before and I'd never done that before. But it also makes it challenging because then you're like, well, am I, what do I want to go and explore? Like, what are the themes that I, or the behaviors that I didn't feel like I fully fleshed out on the first one? So then it becomes complicated in that sense, but good complicated. Okay, you're hanging out of a helicopter in the movie. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:15:18 How do you even train for something like that? You don't, there's no training for that. I wanted to do something, I'm actually, I don't like that. You don't. There's no training for that. I wanted to do something. I'm actually I don't like risk. I like challenging myself, but I'm actually not like some wreck. Like I have kids like I been even prior to that. I'm not like someone's like, I don't give a fuck. Let's just jump off this roof and see what happens in the water. And I'm not one of those people, but I do like the
Starting point is 01:15:46 challenge of being a producer and being able to have some power over talking about that developmental part of what is the narrative and the action, because that's where you can start to challenge yourself a little bit. And if you're making these movies, you should be asking those questions. Right. What is the most insane stunt that you've ever done in your career? Well, that would probably be one of them. Yeah. But, you know, if you hear the story behind it,
Starting point is 01:16:16 it's not as crazy. It looks insane. That's why we did it. But it was explained to me by this incredible man, Fred North, who is like the guru of all helicopter stuff and movies. He's like, this is really safe. No one's ever really done this, and you can do this completely practical. And that's really what I was looking for, was to do something that we didn't have to go on a stage and fake, and that I could have some cred
Starting point is 01:16:41 and have a behind the scenes video that looked really fucking badass. And I could be like, yeah, and that's me right there. But yeah, so that's probably the craziest things. But I've done heart I mean, I just had elbow surgery. Four weeks ago. I did this movie in Australia. I just wrapped it like a couple of months ago. I play like a really, a professional rock climber, like a free soloist kind of like rock climber.
Starting point is 01:17:13 And I worked with a mad director from like Iceland who just like was like, you have to climb the mountain. And I was saying, holy fuck, like he's gonna actually make me climb this fucking mountain. I was like, for the next three weeks, we are only shooting this mountain and you are climbing this mountain. And I fucking climbed that mountain barefoot, like no shoes. Like I, it was insane. I look at the footage now, like I go back to the dailies and I go, what the fuck? But it's amazing. It's like you're in it and you just kind of go like, wow, it feels good to feel this strong that I can do this.
Starting point is 01:17:48 That it picturing you barefoot climbing up and just being like, yeah, they were like, they were making these silicone feet for me to protect my feet and stuff. And I was like, I'm from Africa. Okay. I didn't have shoes until I was 13. Like I climbed trees that I don't have. And I was a dancer. I have no fucking feeling in my trees. I don't have and I was a dancer. I have no
Starting point is 01:18:05 fucking feeling in my feet. Okay. Put me in. Yes. I'm going to be fine. You guys perfect for this role. Yeah. Thank God we got her here. Holy shit. This is amazing. This mad man of a director who's fucking brilliant. And I love him. He like he never gave me one compliment. It was like my dad relationship all over again. I was trying to please this motherfucker every single compliment. It was like my dad relationship all over again I was trying to please this motherfucker every single day. It's like be on the top of the mountain I'd be like my elbow I couldn't feel my fucking toe was broken My ribs were and he'd be like walking away and I'd be like, what did he think? He's like, oh he went home And at the end of the film he like pulled me and he was like, you were fucking amazing.
Starting point is 01:18:46 And I was like, all right, all right, I deserve that. I got it, I got it. I got the approval, thank God. Did your daughters go to the premiere last night? They did, my youngest likes to kind of like just ride along with me. The movie isn't right for her. She's too young, there's too much violence in it. But she walked with me because she knew I was going to go home afterwards. So she just walked. She just waited for me. And I said a little thank you in the in the theater. And then we went home and, and I was like, she's like, why don't we why I said, no, no, no, I'm so tired. Like, we're gonna go home and have a girls night. And we have ice cream and we got like the ice cream out of the freezer and I had
Starting point is 01:19:25 Like a half a pound of ice cream and then I fell asleep like like an old man Literally like she was like really this is our date like this is your premiere night Yeah, I wish that was the headline like you're in this gorgeous outfit and then you get home little does everyone know you're like I'm on the couch with my ice cream Shoving a having a hug and doesn't I was like I should walk this down to the freezer because it's going to melt. And I was like, fuck that. I'm rich. It's fine.
Starting point is 01:19:48 It's a half a pound of fucking hog and dust. Like, what am I worried about? So good. Do your daughters understand like who you are and what you do fully? Honestly, I couldn't tell you, you know, I feel like maybe I think that they're also they've been they've been around it. Most of the movies that I've made since they've been around have been during the summer because I don't want to leave them.
Starting point is 01:20:16 So they've been on every set that I've worked on from the time that they've been in my life. So they know that is mom's job. They obviously don't, you know, they don't watch the kind of movies that I make. So in their eyes, I'm like some dinosaur, right? And so like every once in a while when I work with somebody, they're like, wait, you know, her like, oh, Renee wraps coming on Saturday, like, like, every once once in a while I'm like, yeah, motherfuckers, like I'm cool. Yeah. So I was just driving here and my oldest daughter, who's a real bitch, like she does not make it easy on me one bit. Like she does not suffer fools easily. She has never given me a compliment in my fucking life. I was driving here. She was at a sleepover and I called her to tell her that, you know, her sister was coming over and she goes, Oh, I really like what you were last
Starting point is 01:21:12 night. I almost fell off my chair. I would, I had the phone fell out of my, I was like, Oh my God. Oh my God. Like, be cool. Be cool. Be cool. Thanks. Yeah. So they, they play with my emotions, I think. It's really cute. Yeah. It sounds like you are such an incredible mother. You are a great daughter. And you've had such an incredible career.
Starting point is 01:21:35 And you will continue to have such an incredible career. And this is why I love my job is getting to meet you. I had no idea what to expect. You know what I mean? Like, I didn't know. I feel like this fucking woman that can't keep a man. Like this crazy bitch. Like let's see how this. She's bald. Now I understand. But I didn't know, you know. And I think not that it was bad or good. I was just like, oh, I'm excited to meet you. Yeah. Yeah. And, and in getting to speak with you, it's so inspiring hearing what you've done with your career, what you've done
Starting point is 01:22:05 with your family. I think it's such a testament to women and it's really, I hope, a message to women of like you really can create your own path. Your past doesn't define you, but be aware of your childhood and any trauma you've had and you've done such an incredible job, like making your own version of what you want your life to be, which is so inspiring for women to hear. Yeah. And I'm still trying. Of course. Still figuring it out. Of course.
Starting point is 01:22:34 Yeah. But we should definitely try for sure. Life is too short. As you enter this next gorgeous decade of your life, what are you the most excited for? just decade of your life, what are you the most excited for? I, okay, so everyone's like talking about the celebration. You're the first person that's ever asked me like, what is this next chapter in my life, right? I think outside of what I touched upon, which is that I do think about like, because it's very real, my oldest is about to be 14,
Starting point is 01:23:02 like I will be an empty nester soon. I think about that a lot because I love my fucking kids so much that they can never know because I can't imagine my life without them. And the idea of them not being in my fucking house, like scares me enough to be like, who is this sad man that I am gonna fucking catch in six years and be like, you can have my whole closet.
Starting point is 01:23:24 Just don't let me be alone in this house. The real? Aside from thinking about that, I don't know, because work feels really satisfying. I really feel so blessed and so lucky that I get to do something every single day that I love that doesn't, it doesn't feel like work. And I'm glad that I get to show my kids what that looks like. To find something that you love, that if you can have a life where you don't feel like you're working, but you are working hard, that's a very rewarding life. And not all of us get to have that. So if I can continue
Starting point is 01:23:56 that and make sure that my kids are okay, like that's gonna be okay for me. I'm gonna be okay. This is good to know. So whenever we see you pop up with a man, we're like, oh, the kids moved out. It's literally our problem. Oh, she must be 18. Oh shit. Oh shit, she's miserable because the kids are gone.
Starting point is 01:24:17 This is just the fucker that happened to be at the coffee shop earlier that day that she's like, you're moving in with me, motherfucker. And he's like, shit, I get to be with Charlize Theron. My secret's out. I just fucked myself. Yeah, well, there goes my vagina's joint. Like, that's not happening anymore.
Starting point is 01:24:32 Thank you, Alex. Thank you. Really great. I will tell this man I love him before I know his name. I will hook him so fast. And you'll hook him up. Good closet, nice life. We're doing it right.
Starting point is 01:24:44 Yes, exactly, exactly. Thank you so much for coming on. This was truly a pleasure. You're such a good hang. And it felt like, I forgot there were cameras. It just felt like we were having really nice girl talk to you. I was looking forward to this because it's nice to know you. I feel, in a weird way, I'm not going to tell you I love you. Come on. Come on. you. Like I feel not in a weird way. I'm not going to tell you I love you. Nice to know a little bit about you. And I'm a huge fan, by the way. Well, I'm a huge fan too. So look
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