Call Her Daddy - The Unknowns of Motherhood

Episode Date: October 7, 2026

Join Alex in the studio for a conversation about the unknowns of becoming a mom. She opens up about the fear of losing yourself, the thoughts you’re scared to say out loud and what no one prepares you for when everything starts to change. From relationship changes and body image to the pressure to be the “perfect parent,” Alex gets into the honest reality of motherhood and the importance of removing the stigma around these types of conversations. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

What is up, Daddy Gang? It is your founding father, Alex Cooper, with Call Her Daddy. Here's the thing. Today, I don't want to talk about dating. I don't want to talk about red flags. I don't want to talk about toxic ex-boyfriends or, you know, how to break up with him. Today, I want to talk about the absolute wild mind trip that is transitioning into motherhood. So whether you are currently pregnant, maybe you're trying or you're just at that age where your Instagram feed went from shots of tequila at 3 a.m. to, you know, just those aesthetic gender and nursery reveals. I want to talk about the side of motherhood that it seems like people are usually too terrified to talk about out loud to remind every

this is my first pregnancy and I will say through this process already I have been really fascinated by the entire world it feels like I have just been opened up to and continue to be opened up to there's so much new information so many unthings women do or feel things that women feel comfortable talking about when it comes to motherhood and pregnancy things that people don't feel comfortable talking about. And it is very exciting, but it's also a lot because like anything in life, the unknowns bring a lot of excitement and positivity, and it can also bring some fear and negative emotions. And that is really what I wanted to talk about today. I kind of want to talk about the deep, dark unknowns of motherhood. The excitement, yes, but also just, to be quite frank, just like the

absolute paralyzing panic of your entire life, your identity, and your body changing forever. So grab a glass of wine. For me, I'll just be sticking to a glass of water today. And here we go. Let's get into it. Okay. So let's, let's, first start off with being completely honest for a second. Just you and me here, okay? Why does society act like the second that you see those two pink lines on the test? Your brain is supposed to magically just delete the last 20 to 30 years of who you were. It just like doesn't, it doesn't work like that, right? And I think the biggest, most unspoken fear I have heard from women. And honestly, one that I have felt myself is the fear of losing you.

I just interviewed Emmy Rossum and she spoke about it so beautifully. You are allowed to be so deeply, overwhelmingly excited to meet your baby and simultaneously mourn the girl who could pack a bag in five minutes and sleep until noon on a Sunday and make completely selfish decisions. Both of those things can exist in the exact same brain at the exact same time. And I think it's important that we just are acknowledging that so that we rid all women of the shame of having any doubts or fears or concerns around the new and next chapter they're about to enter in life. Understandably, there are women who are sitting with the realization that, you know, she will never truly be alone or free in the same way again.

And that concept, to be fair, that's really terrifying. You've lived 20 something or 30 something or 40 something plus years of your life and you've only really been responsible for yourself. And now that's all about to change. That's pressure and responsibility and just extreme overnight change. And again, I really ask when I'm talking about all this today that people are able to to please see the nuance and the fact that I am not saying you don't want this new life. We're so excited about this new life.

But what I'm also saying is it's really normal to process and wonder and think about all of this. And yes, be a little freaked out or a little scared or whatever emotion comes up for you when you start thinking about this massive change because that's your reality. and you should never feel shame for that. Some women will go through an identity crisis where you feel like you are about to go from being this main character of your own life to suddenly feeling like you're just playing a supporting role

to this tiny, very cute, precious, adorable little human, but it's a demanding little human, right? I also think the reality for a lot of women is they silently fear and they don't want to say it out loud, but like, am I going to lose my drive? And how do I keep my career burning when my body is entirely focused on keeping someone else alive and being there for them? How do I balance that? And so I think at some point, we have to strip away the polished Instagram filters and the nursery reveals and the toxic positivity for just a second. I'm not saying

we don't love all that stuff, but it's a lot of that stuff, right? It's a lot of that stuff. It's a lot of that. And I think we also need to get comfortable and a little bit more familiar with talking about the absolute psychological warfare that happens when a woman realizes that she is grieving her old life. And that can be heavy and that can feel suffocating. And there is shame that comes with actually admitting that out loud. So I'm going to do it for us. Okay. I got you. Okay. I do also want to clarify and to make sure to provide essentially a disclaimer here that when I'm going to talk today about normal negative feelings, those are different from pre or postpartum depression. And to clarify, pre and postpartum depression, that is not something that you should feel shame over

or be afraid to discuss publicly. But I do think it's important to note there is a difference, which I could do an entire episode about and even have specialists come on and discuss and who knows what my personal experience will be. But I will keep you guys in the loop, right? And we can totally talk about that. I also understand, as I'm going to talk about this today, like in anything in life, there may be some women who don't have any of these thoughts or experiences, right? They may just be like, oh my God, I am, I don't even know what you're talking about. My identity's never been more solid. I'm not worried about work. I'm not worried about this and this and this. That is so fair. I have yet to meet a woman. I've yet to meet a woman like that. So I would love maybe to meet you. Since I've gotten pregnant, all I feel like I have been doing is having more and more conversations with incredible women who are sharing their most honest and vulnerable truths around pregnancy and motherhood. Some of them are sharing some of the most fun and positive. experiences and tips and tricks and all of it. But when it comes to the fears or the negatives,

a lot of my friends or people I've met or even guests I've interviewed off camera will say, like, I'm telling you this, but I would never admit this publicly because I know the judgment and the backlash that would follow. And doesn't that suck? Like, think about that. If a majority of women are feeling away, why are we not openly feeling comfortable to talk about it more, right? So, first of all, you girls been in her research grind, okay? And there is a scientific word for what we as women are going through at this point in our lives. Now, I am praying to God that I get the pronunciation correct. The term is matrescence, okay? It sounds like adolescence because it kind of is in that same vein as

adolescence. So just like adolescence, metrescence is the massive transition of becoming a mother. It is a huge physical, hormonal, psychological shift. But of course, while we're all out here and we give teenagers grace for being so moody and confused. And essentially these teenagers, we give them grace. for being identity list, right? Somehow we expect pregnant women and new moms to just instantly transition into this serene, gorgeous, selfless goddess. It's a complete lie, you guys.

It's a complete lie. Not to mention, over the last decade, there have been advances in neuroscience, obviously, and a lot of those advancements have showed and revealed that pregnancy and childbirth trigger one of the most radical rapid restructurings of the human brain ever observed, ever. Okay? And so I think a lot of people would be like, yeah, that makes a lot of sense. Okay, but then like slow it down. So if we are going through one of the most transformative

restructurings, why are we then being like, oh, she's having a little bit of a crisis, she's having a hard time, she's not a good mother. We should be happy to be standing up. We should be happy to be walking around and interacting with people, guys. Like, we give women no grace. And then we make us feel like we can't talk about it. And then it just makes a spiral more. Like, no wonder we are going through it. When you become a mother, your old self, I was thinking about it.

It's like it's not like your old self just exits the stage gracefully, right? The more accurate picture is like, we are. dragged off while you're forced kind of like step into a new role that you have never rehearsed. And we're like, wait, wait, wait, I need a little bit more time. I'm not ready. And they're like, go, get on stage. Do your best. Award winning also, by the way. We expect award winning behavior out there. And you're like, wait, but I've never learned about this. I've never done this. I don't know what I'm doing. And they're like, we don't care. Make it look easy. So of course we're grieving.

You're mourning the loss of the girl who had zero dependence who could make reckless decisions, who owned her own time, and who was the main focus and priority of her life and her story. And so, like, this isn't to be negative, guys. I'm more just like, this whole episode, I want it to be like a big hug. This is a big hug to all the women around the world. I'm just like, come right into this cocoon because I'm feeling it, okay? and we need more empathy from everyone. Because I think here is where the real damage, in my opinion, is done.

It's not just the grief that hurts. It is the shame that we pile on top of it. And I want to talk about this uncallor daddy today. And I want to continue to talk about it moving forward because we have to. We live in a culture that demands absolute unwavering gratitude from mothers. That is a fact. we are told we should be so blessed, so lucky, and cherishing every single second. So when you have those late night thoughts, like, oh my God, what did I do to my life?

Like, I want my old body back. I miss when it was just the two of us. And you have those split little seconds where you're just like, oh, I miss. Like, you're like, I don't know if I'm cut out for this. You immediately feel this wave of sickening guilt. You feel like a fraud. you look at other women who seem to be effortlessly glowing and doing it and you cannot help but think, oh, okay, I guess there is something fundamentally broken in me, right? I'm already a bad mom.

And a lot of these thoughts are happening when the baby isn't even here, right? You're like, am I prepared? Will I do this? Will I be able to do all of this? And by not being so sure and so ready and so this, It's like, shame. And as we know, shame thrives in the dark. And then it grows because we don't talk about it over brunch or we don't really post about it on social media as much as we do the positives. And so I'm like, you know what? Now we do on Color Daddy, folks.

But it's, it is similar if you think about it. The way that everyone is becoming more acclimated and attuned to, okay, Instagram. is fake and all this is it's like it is kind of similar to some of the motherhood stuff again it is I cannot wait to be a mother I I growing up wasn't sure if I wanted to be I didn't know I was selfish I was loving my life I was like and then it hit me and I was like oh I'm so ready to be a mother I can't wait and that doesn't mean I didn't have all of these other question marks and fears and all of it but like I cannot wait to meet my child I just Just everything is feeling more and more real as the trimesters go on and the time goes on and I feel the baby and I'm, you know, Matt and I are connecting more and all.

It is so exciting. And it's so terrifying. When I have spoken to friends who have also let me, let's get into this, when I've spoken to friends who have struggled with infertility, they have shared the shame for them they feel like also is. twice as loud because you think, oh my God, I fought so hard for this. How dare I complain now, right? And then if you're a career-driven woman, you feel guilty for mourning your independence. Like, well, I chose this. So like, why am I questioning it? But thinking about your old life and thinking back to it and missing certain parts or whatever does not mean you won't love your baby. does not mean you do not love your baby. It just means you loved your freedom. And it means you loved your life. And it means you valued the woman that you spent your entire adolescence and then teens and 20s building. And it's confusing to watch her change in a way that is so unknown and scary. And nothing is guaranteed. You are allowed to hold space for both feelings. That is okay. you can look at your pregnancy test or your baby with tears of absolute pure joy. And then you can also still get a little emo for the girl that you used to be.

I'm not saying you're completely losing her, but things are going to change. And it's not hypocritical. It is called being a human with emotions, guys. I think the truth is we have to acknowledge how completely incapable the world is of understanding nuance when it comes to women approaching motherhood. Society has this incredibly toxic black and white binary. They look at a pregnant woman or a new mom and think you can only be one of two things. You are either the grateful goddess who is glowing, she's rubbing her bump, she's thanking

the universe for her blessing, she never complains, she's so happy, she loves her life, yada, yada, yada, or you are the ungrateful complainer. where if you voice even one second of fear or exhaustion or regret about how hard this is, you are labeled as bitter, broken, or unfit to be a mother. There is zero middle ground. And I have to believe this is driving women into isolation. I feel like the struggle to see the nuance comes from this just collective cultural obsession with keeping women in like this gratitude prison, right?

The second you get pregnant, whether you, by the standards, had a quote-unquote, you know, easy time conceiving, or if you went through hell to get there, like IVF or losses or years of trying, either or people expect you then to sign, it feels like this invisible contract that says, okay, I completely waver my right. to ever complain or to be scared ever again. How does that make sense? And then obviously, then when you're standing in the shower crying because you're terrified of the birth or you're panicked about money, you're panicked, will I get postpartum, you're

panicked, you know, can I manage my career and handle this child? You're panicked about how this is going to impact your relationship with your husband or your wife or your partner. You're panic. You're just stress. You're mourning your freedom. because of all of this, you just end up not telling anyone. Because the response that you're terrified of getting is, well, you wanted this, didn't you?

Yes, but I can also be scared. Like, yes, I want this. But, guys, I've been in my cheesy analogies, but hear me out here. guys, wanting to climb Mount Everest doesn't mean you aren't going to freeze your ass off and panic when you're halfway up the mountain looking down the cliff. I could find a better analogy, but tell me it doesn't make sense. You are like, oh, I am a beast. I am powerful. I am strong.

I am climbing Mount Everest. I am doing one of the craziest things a human being could ever do in the world. Some people don't survive it, right? Actually, this is kind of a good analogy. But it would be almost impossible to not have fears on that journey, right? Human emotions don't fit into these like perfect, neat little boxes. So I hope this is validating for women of like we can be so happy and scared. I was doing research on this topic.

And there is data from clinical psychologists who basically specialize in prenatal mental health that explicitly states that ambivalence, a.k. holding on to two opposing emotions at once, is actually the most normal, healthy part of entering parenthood. So if we have studies, we have clinical studies to prove that this is normal, how are we still not up with the times socially talking? about this? How are we still making women feel crazy for being scared and grateful and excited and nervous? Like how are we still there? When we have literal studies, psychological studies, think about any other massive life event, okay? You start your dream company. You are thrilled.

You're like, I cannot believe I left corporate America. I'm finally taking this chance on myself. and I, this is my dream. This is my dream of all dreams. So that's all happening. You're excited and you're thrilled. And you're sweating in bed. Baby, you're laying awake at night wondering if you're going to go bankrupt. You're like, but I'm putting everything into this.

So like these, the duality of both of these emotions are colliding and you're managing it. Because you're like, well, this is life, right? When you marry the love of your life, you are ecstatic. You are like, oh my God, I found my person. this is amazing, this is amazing. And you might feel a little freaked out by the word forever. This is a lot. But with motherhood, we strip that nuance away.

And we act like fear overrides love. If you are at all scared, if you are at all nervous, if you are all questioning yourself, then you don't love this baby. Then you're a bad mother. You're horrible. What? I think something I'm now realizing

now that I am pregnant is instead of ever asking another pregnant woman, like, are you so excited with that like intense energy that everyone always says? Like, oh my God, can I touch your bump? First of all, please, everyone stop asking to touch people's bumps. Like, I don't know why we now feel more comfortable touching women's bodies, unprovoked when they're pregnant. Like we already are like on absolutely extreme and appropriate terms with women in general and how we treat their bodies.

But then somehow when a woman becomes pregnant, we almost feel more entitled to their bodies like, let me touch. And you're like, please take your hands off of my stomach right now. But a lot of times, you know, people go up to pregnant women and are like, how excited are you? And it kind of like forces them to like basically lie to your face. Again, they may actually be like, I am so excited. And that's true. But it's such a heavy question.

Of course I'm excited. And I'm also my rib cage. I'll tell you how I'm feeling right now. I couldn't be more excited. But last night, if you want me to tell you, last night I think I slept maybe a total of two hours. My rib cage is in so much physical pain right now from this pregnancy. Don't worry, I've checked with my doctor, the normal amount of physical pain, which is a lot of physical pain, because my rib cage is lodged up and being pressed on and my ribs are expanding.

And a lot of times if you're pregnant, your abs are separating, right? and sometimes they go to your back, sometimes they separate whatever, and my stomach is completely moved and shifted up. My intestines are all the way over to the side of my body to make space for this womb. So there's just like a lot going on. But yes, I'm excited. I couldn't be more excited. I was feeling my baby all night. The baby was moving all around and I was like, we're in for a joyride right now. And it was so fun to feel this baby. But also, I'm starting to breathe like I am hard of breathing. yeah, that's how I'm feeling. You know what I mean? So asking a woman if she's just so excited, like, of course. And so I think moving forward, I at least, am always going to ask and said,

how are you doing trying to handle all this? And then if the woman, you catch her on a good day and she can say, I have never been more excited. I just went and got our nursery all set up and did that amazing. Or asking with that tone and just that open-ended question, the woman can be like, I'm really excited, but it's been a little bit of a struggle this past month. I have been dry heaving over the toilet between meetings. And I can barely, you know, hold down food. And my bladder feels like I have a UTI. Like, leave some room, right?

Give them permission to say, I am so incredibly grateful. And I'm also really scared out of my absolute mind. because when you allow those two things to exist together, that's when the shame evaporates. You aren't a bad mom for being terrified of how your life is going to change. You're just a woman who is paying attention to your mind and your body and your reality. The unknown in life is always going to be a little exciting and a little intimidating. And there is so much beauty in that. So we as women should feel we are entitled, not.

Not only able, we should feel entitled to talk about the hardships and struggles without feeling like we are coming off as nagging and ungrateful. Because we do this in every other aspect of our lives. We complain endlessly and express frustration or exhaustion or fears about our jobs, about our families, about our friends, about our relationships. So let's make some room and normalize putting motherhood in that category. Because everything else, everyone's like, oh my God, give me the tea. like what's the family gossip like oh my god like drag aunt betty like drag her drag your mom drag

your dad oh my god it's like oh like we feel better after that vent session you're like oh i actually feel better and like um betty's not horrible but like we just needed a vent session why can't we have vent sessions about motherhood don't get me on a sexist rant i don't want even want to go there i also think adding to the unknown element that can cause fear and anxiety right we're talking a lot about the shame and all of this. Let's now talk about the physical aspect of this. We are so bombarded with bounce back culture on TikTok and Instagram and it's a lot. It is a lot. And trying to wrap your head around the fact that your body is about to stretch and shift and literally tear itself apart to create life. That is one of the craziest, most incredible, most beautiful, most beautiful,

beautiful transformations, yes, but it is also intimidating as hell. Like I have been meeting with my doula. I wasn't sure if I wanted a doula. And then I had a lot of people saying they didn't do one. And then other women said they had a dola. And I was like, you know what? I feel like I'm the type of person who I'm very independent and I feel like I just do a lot on my own. And I weirdly was like, I actually want someone to really force me even more into the process. And even if she brings some woo or whatever it is, like, I want to immerse myself even more in this experience. And this woman has been so transformative already for me and just talking with me as a woman. And being like, what are you worried about? What are you excited about? Like she has just this,

it's what we're talking about today. She has just unwavering support that I feel so safe when with her. And even just as far as like asking certain things about my body that I was like, what like if I want to, you know, had this natural birth and, and of course, we'll see what, you know, happens and where life takes me. And if I'm able to have a natural birth, like, I, that is what I think I want to do. And what does that look like? And what is an epidural versus non-epidural and like all of this? And like, I didn't understand. I didn't even understand when people are like, oh, she's 10 centimeters dilated. Like, I didn't know any of this.

What biologically and physically and all of it, I didn't know it. Because I'm sorry, in health class, they just said, like, baby's a condom. And if you have sex, because I went to Catholic school, if you have sex, you're going to die before marriage. And I was like, okay, perfect. So I think I'm still alive, but that's crazy. I'm like, one of the few who survived. I didn't die and I did have sex before marriage. This is wild.

Like, that's the gist. Put the condom on. Don't die. And we don't learn about our bodies. and this process, right? And so I understandably fear comes with that. I had a whole idea of what I thought I wanted to do. And then I met with my doula and I've met with her and met with her and met with her. And slowly, I will be honest. And I can share this in another episode. But my idea of my birth plan and certain things I wanted and certain things I didn't want it has evolved since becoming educated

on what happens to your body and what your body goes through and just certain things. what a blessing, right? But we don't have a lot of this information. When we talk about the physical transformation, aside from like just the birth process, the absolute whiplash between feeling like a literal superhero. You one of like you, you will never probably feel more powerful, right? You're like, I can't believe I'm doing something that is this incredible and insane. And simultaneously, you also kind of feel like a hostage in your own body. On one hand, you're standing in front of the mirror looking at your body and you're thinking,

I can't believe my body is capable of doing this. My organs are shifting and expanding and moving and making space. Currently, I have two hearts inside of me. I have two hearts. Like, what? I have two brains in my body. Like, it is insane. And so how incredible, right?

your body's expanding. Like I said, creating no organs. We're preparing to push out a whole human being or, you know, have it, however you're going to have it, right? It's so impressive. And so, it's probably the most hardcore thing a human being could ever do, right? And then in the very next breath, you are hit with the cold, paralyzing wave of terror because you realize I am no longer in control of my body. Is this even really my body anymore? And that's, and that, inevitably is going to create a lot of push and pull psychologically. I would basically equate this to it's like your body has been rented out by this tiny demanding tenant who does not care about your comfort or your sleep or your mental health or your plans and you can't control the

symptoms, the nausea, the exhaustion, the random pains. Your body just does what it needs to do and what it wants, when it wants, and you just have to buckle up and you got to just be along for the ride. And so you look in the mirror, your hips are widening, your skin is changing, your boobs are changing, your nipples are changing, your center of gravity is off. And I want to emphasize this because for women who have spent years learning to love or control their physical appearance, which is almost every. single one of us during pregnancy, this sudden rapid change can be really triggering. And so as we're all dealing with all of this change and the unknown, then you go, okay,

so my body is completely changing, my brain is changing. It's not fully my own body anymore. I've got this little tenant in here. It's doing its thing. What about your relationship? Oh, right. The person you made the baby with. they're the person that you're going to raise, right, if you are doing that, right? And so if you have a partner in this journey of pregnancy, the dynamic is going to shift forever, permanently. You are no longer just lovers or partners in crime or roommate two hook up. You guys are now fully co-parents.

Add that to the list. And so naturally, the unknown. is going to start to creep in. You're going to wonder, oh, my gosh, will he still look at me the same way? And he's probably wondering, oh, my God, will she, you know, still look at me the same way and give me the same attention? Are we going to fight about stupid things? Like, who got up last at 3 a.m? And, you know, how are we going to keep the spark alive when we both smell like spit and throw up and all the other things that come with it? How are we going to make time for each other? Like, these are normal things. These aren't superficial worries. They're real vulnerable fears about the

foundation of your life shifting underneath your feet. Everything's changing. That's so normal. And it doesn't mean you have a bad marriage. It doesn't mean you're on the rocks. They're like, oh my God, there's trouble in paradise. They're asking these questions. Like, no. Most of the times, no. I obviously can't speak for everyone, but no. You just now have a huge added element being thrown into your dynamic, that is going to require a lot of adjusting and a lot of communicating and a lot of talking. You and your partner probably have schedules and hobbies and plans and rhythms that you're used to within your dynamic that naturally will have to shift when a child is born. And that's amazing. But it's going to be change and it will be sacrifices.

And so the unknown, it's like, yeah, we can be excited and we can be scared. And I think that is my true advice for women watching today. Amid all of this panic, there is this other incredibly loud feeling of just pure excitement and holding both is like, oh my God, what are we doing? I feel like I'm going insane. There is this primal, wild magic it feels like to realizing that your body is capable of creating a whole human being. And it is actually one of the coolest things in the entire world to be like, oh my God, my body can do that. And then there's also the excitement of the firsts, right?

I will never forget seeing that like first flutter or kick when my stuff. was moving, designering the nursery, imagining them sleeping in that crib, bringing them home from the hospital, picturing the first time you're going to hold them realizing, oh, my God, this is the person that I am going to protect forever. And it's this brand new kind of love that everyone talks about, right, but you can't fully comprehend until you're on the edge of it. and it's going to be this ultimate adventure and it is the highest stakes game that we will all ever probably ever play in life and the prize is just pure love and it literally from when I speak

to other mothers and what I'm feeling right now it just literally expands your chest right and so there is like so much to be excited about and it's a lot and at times it might even feel like too much. At times, I've had my low moments during this pregnancy. I've had just moments where I'm like not feeling myself. And I also am feeling like, oh, I don't know if anyone else like around me right now is going to understand what I'm going through. And like I've done the thing where I'm not giving the advice of this,

but I've done the thing that I would give myself advice of like talk to people, right? but when we feel like it's too much, it's not because we are capable of all of this. Doesn't mean we won't need to lock ourselves in the bathroom for just the quick occasional cry. Just a quick, just a quickie, just a little, I'm fine. Oh no, I'm completely fine. Have your full therapist on speed dial. Maybe we're hitting it multiple times a week. Oh my God, that month you're just.

like it's going to be a heavy one. Maybe you will get in some fights with your partner just out of sheer exhaustion or because the dynamic is shifting and you guys are still trying to figure it out. Yes to all of that. Right. Also, if you're sitting in your car right now, you're walking your dog, you're at work, you're laying in bed and you're feeling overwhelmed by the prospect of motherhood and all of these conflicting emotions, I just want you to take a deep breath. You are not failing because you are scared. I would actually argue, in fact, the fact that you are scared means you actually care. It means you understand the gravity of what you're about to do. I know it. I'm terrified, right? We want to give our children the best possible life. We want to give our children,

you know, everything and more. And the pressure that we put on ourselves is intense and it can feel really overwhelming. You want to either give them, you know, a better life than what you had in your childhood or you want to make sure you live up to the standards that your parents gave you. All of these fears and the dynamics that are going through your head are so understandable. But I am telling you and what my therapist told me, the fact that you are even thinking about these things, the fact that you are even thinking, okay, how do I write the wrongs of my childhood and do this better for my kid and how do I be a present parent and how do I show up and how do I make sure this and this and this is this. If you're all of these thoughts, you're already

winning. You're already showing up for your child. You're already doing it. We don't have to be perfect moms. We don't have to have the beige aesthetic through and through, okay? You don't have to have perfectly organized pantries. We never have to, you know, raise our voices. Like, we just have to show up. It's going to be a little messy at times. And we can be real. We can be ourselves. And we can love those babies with everything we have while also holding onto a piece of ourselves, too. So what I hope and I ask, Daddy Gang, of you is like, don't let anyone make you feel guilty for your fears. Wear them. Talk about them. I promise. You're going to get through. this. And I genuinely believe it's way easier when you go through it together. By talking with other

women, being vulnerable, sharing the real truths of our experiences, I am convinced we will always be able to rise with that kind of support. So when you are feeling down, when you're feeling like, oh my God, maybe I am one of those like weird ones that's just like really not vibing right now. call a friend, call someone who is going through something similar because I promise you, they're probably going to be like, hmm, how much time do you have? I'm feeling the exact same way. Or I'm not feeling that, but I felt that last month and let me, let me tell you, you're going to be fine. I just think that when I look back at my life prior to me being pregnant, I was so, attuned to my body and my emotions and what I wanted. And having this baby inside of me

makes things more clear and also confusing. But again, the nuance, right? It's like, I've never felt more of this like maternal instinct. I've never felt more like I want to get rid of just like negative energy in my life. I feel like I'm, I'm very protective right now. And I'm very just like, I want to not be around bad energy or negative people. I don't want to involve myself. Like, there's just this feeling of like, I just want pure bliss going, because that's literally chemically a thing, right? I want to send bliss and happiness to this child. But then also, as I'm doing that, I'm sitting here. And I'm like, I need to work. harder than I've ever worked. I've got to get prepared for maternity leave. I've got to do all these

things. And so it's like there's this push and pull of Alex prior and Alex present and then Alex's future. And a lot of us on the day to day, like unless you are the most mentally sound, psychologically strong person, like already without a child, you're a little like, oh, who am I? What am I doing? And so adding on that, it's going to add a level of just light chaos. And I want the chaos. I just want to know that I can talk about it and not get judged. And I hope a headline doesn't come from this. I mean, Alex Cooper is saying, you know, that like you can be so unexcited. And no, that's not what I'm saying. And so I hope people really digest this and listen to this of like, give ourselves grace. That's all I'm saying.

This is a lot. So I love you guys. You're going to be. amazing and don't worry, I am feeling it too, girl, okay? Of course, every woman's experience looks a little bit different, but most of it is all connected, same fears, same wants, same hopes. And so, yeah, I guess the fatherhood saga, it's going to be a wild ride. And it's just the beginning, which is very exciting. I hope this made anyone feel a little less alone, a little less in their heads and just know, I promise, I'm always going to say what it is on Call Her Daddy. Even if I'm the one that gets the backlash, guys, I got you. Okay?

I got you. Please know, guys, I am very hormonal right now. I don't need that, but you know what I mean. Okay, I love you guys. You know the motherfucking drill. I will see fuckers on Wednesday. Goodbye.