Call Her Daddy - Trisha Paytas: Internet Trolls, Kidnapping & Nudes (FBF)

Episode Date: April 25, 2025

Join Alex in the studio for an absolutely insane and hilarious interview with Trisha Paytas. Trisha takes Alex back to where it all started and reflects on growing up dreaming of becoming famous, having no friends in high school, and desperately wanting to escape her small town. She gets real about her problematic early days on YouTube, what was really going on in her personal life behind the scenes, and reveals her eventual rock bottom moment. Trisha opens up about being addicted to the drama and why she’s totally over it now. Then, Alex and Trisha crack up discussing nudes, internet trolls, and butt plugs. The pair also read some of Daddy Gang’s DM’s and give their advice on everything from what to do when your BFF is secretly hooking up with your brother to when you get caught sending nasty messages from a burner account. This episode is so chaotic and fun… get ready to laugh your ass off.

What is up, Daddy Gang? It is your founding father, Alex Cooper with Call Her Daddy. Trisha Paytas, welcome to Call Her Daddy. I'm so excited. Daddy Gang, we're going to be really honest with you right now. We were just recording for a solid 10 minutes. We were cruising down the freeway. We were thriving. And then we realized it wasn't recording. And it was gold. Those 10 minutes were gold. then we realized it wasn't recording and it was gold That's ten minutes were gold and we can't recreate it. You're like pretend we didn't do any of that

I'm like, I can't recreate that gold everything was going amazing So if you guys feel like we're a little on edge here and ready like ready to end it all it's because we are okay Um, I was saying to you Trisha. Congratulations. You just announced your second child Tell me how you're feeling again. I I was saying to you, Trisha, congratulations. You just announced your second child. Tell me how you're feeling again. I feel very excited from the beginning. I'm like, do we go through everything we just said? Where did the names come from?

I always thought of Malibu before the movies came out. From 10, I'm a middle child, older sister, brother, younger sister. You're the baby. Who are you close with? Brother or sister? You're like, I'm gonna get in trouble and that's when it cuts.

You guys, we literally went through, okay, no, we are doing it again. How are you feeling? Talk to me about all the food that you can eat because you're like I'm gonna get in trouble and that's when I cut you guys we literally went through okay no we are doing it again how are you feeling talk to me about all the food that you can eat because you're pregnant oh I just feel oh yeah that's what we were saying it's like see now I forgot already um yeah I just feel like usually I do eat what I want but I feel guilty about it now I just eat what I want don't feel guilty because you know you're like growing a baby so you're growing a baby you're allowed to just like shove food into your mouth and no one can get mad at you or judge you it It's like, fuck off, I'm pregnant, leave me alone. Yeah. And most of the time I don't care what other people think. It's usually what I think. So it's usually like, oh, no, I don't feel bad. Now I'm like, oh, I'm not judging myself.

And I can sleep all that I want. Usually I'm like, I gotta be busy, I gotta do it. But now I just take naps and I don't feel any guilt. I love it. You're napping and you're eating. Yeah, it's the best. I'm so happy for you. That's why I love being pregnant. You said you want more than two. Well, we thought two.

I don't know. I don't know. We don't have two yet. One is very difficult. In my head, I'm thinking like four, because we were talking about how three is like hard. So I was like, it's two or four. Okay, I know I already asked you this,

but just to set the scene for people, where did you grow up? I was split my time between Illinois and California. My dad was in California and my mom was in Illinois. So I went back and forth a lot. I quit school a lot to like be homeschooled and stuff. Then I'd go back into school. Like I was constantly doing that

because I loved the lifestyle here in California with my dad, but you know, my mom is what I used to. And like we lived in a town of like a thousand people back in Illinois. So it was like two extremes. Yeah. Were you closer with your mom or your dad? I mean, definitely my mom.

Yeah, like my dad I saw like the summers. You know what I mean? Yeah. But my dad dad I think in that though I thought my dad was so cool because he was like in California and I was like even though like obviously he was the worst Sir of the parents my mom literally raised us. I always felt bad saying like my dad was the best I feel like that happens so much when you come from divorced parents The one that's like the cooler one is actually just the one that never had to like instill any boundaries or like tell you like You're grounded because you did this. Yeah, Or like just was not the one parenting as much.

Oh yeah. And then you grow up and you're like, oh yeah, dad, maybe not as fabulous as mom putting in all the work. All the work. My mom works four jobs, bus driver, bartender, all that stuff like that. And I'm like, I love my dad more. It was like so weird. But yeah, especially at the wedding, we had a wedding and like my dad walks us down the aisle and gives the speech and my mom's don't get anything at the wedding and they do all the work I kind of felt bad. That's such a good point. Yeah and my mom still helps us out she's like watching our daughter right now. Can you kind of paint the picture though, like before high school, just like of your childhood? I feel like obviously so much of like who we are is from our childhood. And I know you just mentioned like your mom was working for jobs. Like, can you kind of just

paint the picture growing up in Illinois with your mom? Yeah, we lived in like these farm towns and they were, yeah, there were less than a thousand people. We kind of moved around a little bit because I don't know, I just never liked school. And yeah, it was just small. It was just a small town. It was a farm town, so everyone,

and my mom like was from there. So it was just like farm town. My grandparents were on a farm and there's just not much to it, to be honest. It's really just, it was boring and I just I hated it. I haven't been back since I think I left at 17 and I have not been back since. Oh my God. Do you think if you landed in Illinois, like would you get triggered? Yeah. Yeah, for sure.

Even just going to Chicago, which is like two hours from where I live. I'm like, not Illinois. No, I kind of relate to that, though, and I think a lot of people, especially during the holidays, like I've seen people always say, like, it's triggering to go back to your hometown because one, I think we like repress so many memories. And two, it just like, it just reminds us of a version of ourselves that like,

if you were cool in middle school and high school, like kudos to you, but like I wasn't. I was like not really either. I wasn't like bullied really. I mean, a little tiny bit like everybody, but I wasn't cool either. So I was just, I was just neutral, just everywhere. Just kind of neutral.

What did you wanna be when you were growing up? A famous. Famous. I just wanted to be famous. And this was before like reality TV. So I was like, I need to be a singer or an actress. Stop. But I can't do either of them.

But I came out to do it. Cause that's all you got famous back then. So when you're sitting in Illinois, are you like, are there any like TV shows or magazines or anything that you were watching or like people you were like, I want to be like that person? I mean like Britney Spears, of course. Did you tell people in your town you wanted to be famous? Yeah, I was most I was voted most likely to be famous in one, I think two of my yearbooks I was most likely to be famous. Yeah, just because I like was I just liked attention and like

I said I don't know I just I feel like I always stood up you know if I feel like you just kind of know if you have like a little it factor, you know So I knew I had something but I was like it wasn't talent So I was like, how do I parlay this going back to high school? Like did you have a lot of girlfriends? No, no, I was I was I wouldn't say it picked me but I definitely was like girls are a charm I used to be that I used to be the girl that like did not like girls because of that reason because I was just Intimidated I just thought oh no guys gonna look at me if I'm in a room of girl I just was not a girl's did not like girls because of that reason, because I was just intimidated. I just thought, oh, no guy's gonna look at me if I'm in a room with girls.

I just was not a girl's girl. It took me a while. Now I'm only a girl's girl and I can't stand men. But it took me a while. I definitely was insecure, never wanted to be around girls. You know what I mean? I think I was always a girl hater. Especially just like, I just never felt good enough.

I never felt skinny enough, pretty enough. I never had boyfriends until I was like 30. So yeah. No, I think that's relatable though of like when, especially when we're younger, like we're constantly comparing ourselves in rooms because at that age, it's also like what guy likes what girl. And if you're not getting picked,

then you feel like a loser and you feel like, fuck, like I wish I looked like them. And then it's just this comparing game that you can never win. Definitely. So it's hard to, like I had that a lot where I like my best friend was like the gorgeous one. And I was always like, I love you so much,

but like, fuck me. Yeah, don't be around me. Right, like can you move a little to the fucking right? Cause you look too good in parties. And I'd be like, I'm literally never gonna get chosen if you are sitting next to me. And it's hard with girls, but it's like now I look back and I'm like,

oh my God, it wasn't actually about us competing with each other. It was about the men that we were trying to like appease their standards and had nothing to do with the girls like liking each other or not. It's all based off of if guys like us. Of course, with everything, with acting, with anything. It's just like, you know, it's just what they,

what they approved of, what they liked and had nothing to do with you. So I know, I wish I would have found my own lane earlier. Cause I, and I do love pretty girls. I'm like, I actually like am obsessed with pretty girls. I just like was just too scared to be around them. No, it is intimidating. Like I agree like you,

and also it's hard to not be envious of like, I wish I had what you have. And like, I wish I was you. But at the end of the day, once you get to know those people, a lot of times they've got their own shit. Oh, for sure. Like they're not perfect either. Oh no, for sure. They're not perfect either.

Oh, no, for sure. I was always envious of you. I was very envious of you. I remember like when I think it was like 2019, 2018, you girls were on Impulsive. And I remember being like, and I didn't know anything about podcasts. I didn't know how people got podcasts. And I remember just being so jealous. I was like, wow, they have a job where they're just like talking and talking about sex. I was like, I could do that. That could be me. And I was like, how did they get this? And you girls were so much younger. I was like so jealous. And then obviously when you got your Spotify ID, I was just like talking and talking about sex. I was like, I could do that. That could be me. And I was like, how did they get this?

And you girls were so much younger. I was like so jealous. And then obviously when you got your Spotify ID, I was just like, oh my God. You know, I was that person who was so jealous. So funny because I remember just like watching you on YouTube so often. And I would be so jealous of you

because before I started my career, I'm like, I wish I had Trisha's platform. I wish I could like sit on YouTube and like do what she does. That's crazy, because I was like alone and crying all the time. Like I wish I could be that person. That is so crazy that we're both like, oh, I was jealous of you.

Oh, for sure. I definitely was. I definitely was just like, I don't get Call Her Daddy. I definitely was. So when I did this, I was like, all I know is that clip is gonna be resurfacing. So let me just go ahead and say it. It's so funny because I had one

of my really good friends now. She went on a podcast at one point and was like, I don't get the Call Her Daddy Girl shtick, it's so fucking dumb, why are they acting like that? They're acting like little whores. I'm the first person and I think that we can talk about that too with your career of like, by having a career on the internet,

you just say so much stuff and half of the time in the beginning days I felt like I also said stuff that I regret. And I remember in those OG days back in the day with my old co-hosts, like we, when we started to get desperate for views, we would like say stuff about celebrities. And I'm so deeply embarrassed that we said those things. But I know it wasn't coming from a place of like

actually being like mean girls. It was, I know from my POV, it was genuinely just like, how do we stir shit up? And you can teeter this line that's so unhealthy and you just become like, how do we get more? How do we get more? And I'm like, why did I say that? So if that clip resurfaces, I wouldn't give a fuck.

I literally wouldn't, Trisha, because I, first of all, you didn't know me. You had never met me. I was just jealous, 100%. Because honestly, as soon as they called for this, like literally like my management from Canada flew in they're like this is I'm like Yes, this is the biggest thing. You know what I mean? So I think but I really try and in the past especially since being 30 I really try now to really just not hate on girls even if like everyone's on them

I really try to find like even with data pink. I'm like I try to find like the good side of this I'm like, you know, she down through a lot now she could so I try to I try to, I try to keep it positive with every girl, you know? I agree. You're right. I think what we can both understand, it's like being in the media, a lot of times when we do the stupidest shit is when we're hurting the most. And so trying to find like any type of empathy for anyone, when you see someone like acting out, it's like, well, what the hell are they going through? There's still people that like, I can like, oh, I just can't find the silver lining. But I just go, I scroll past. But now I don't like to say anything.

I'm like, let me just, if you have nothing nice to say, don't say it at all. So I feel like I've matured a lot and like I don't really like hate on girls. But if there is a girl that annoys you, and there is, like I just annoy some people, just, you know, I just keep it going. It just makes you look bad.

Like I just look so bad. Like you said, I just look so bad talking like so much crap about people. But I really can tell you, like it came always from a place of like jealousy, always. Like I used to talk about like the Demelios when they were like 18 and 16. And I was just like, I was so jealous that I wasn't me,

but I was like 30 years old being like, oh my God, you're spitting out a snail. How ungrateful, like, you know, they're 18. No, but I also think that comes from a place too of like people on the internet then probably like writing to you being like saying mean things about like, I get it now, like relevancy or like age as a woman. And it's like, as a woman, if you're past the age of 21,

you're like old as fuck and you're outdated. And so naturally that's gonna cause resentment of us feeling like when you see younger girls, but really we shouldn't be mad at younger girls. We should be mad at society and mainly men being the ones that tell us like after a certain age, you're not valued anymore. It's a thousand percent true.

Right. Fuck off. Right. Exactly. Fuck you. I love it. No, it's true. It is true.

I want to talk about you going to LA. So you graduate high school and I remember reading like the day after you moved to LA. Yeah, like literally the day of. What was your plan and what was your job when you got to LA? Well, I initially moved with my dad. So that was the first thing. I like lasted about, he wanted me to go to college. So I went to like two weeks of like community college.

It did not work out. Because I never had a math class in my life in high school. So I took like a pre-algebra and I like had no idea what was going on. So I was like, I drop out. And so yeah, I got on a TV show right away. That I got on a show called the Greg Barrett show. It was like filmed at Culver Studios.

It was like syndication show. It was like a at Culver Studios. It was like syndication show. It was like a talk show. And so I did like 10 episodes of that. I was in Sega after. So I was getting like, you know, $1,700 an episode, which was like so much. It was great. And then I got another show with Stan Lee called

Who Wants to Be a Superhero? It was on Syfy. So I was like crushing it. But I was like 18 and then like 19 hit. And then I kind of like, whoo, I had no money, nothing. And then that's when I did the whole stripping, escorting. I wouldn't even say escort. I was like a hooker on the street,

but I like to say escorting, it sounds like fancier. Trisha, slow down. Yeah. Hold on. Trisha's like, I can go, I love how fast you can talk. You're like, I can go through my entire life story. Literally. I'm like, Trisha, we need to like get an hour in here. I'm like, we're at 18, and I'm like, we gotta get to 35.

Okay, first of all, I'm dying at your math comment because I was so fucking bad at math. Shout out to Oscar. He was this kid in my math class that he would, I would sit next to Oscar and I would pretend I'm writing my whole math class, do, do, do, do, doing nothing. Then when Oscar was done his, he would hand me his test

and I would hand him my test and he would take my test for me and he would like even like change like his writing to be more girly. And then Oscar would hand me back my test and I would go hand it in and I'm like, Oscar, I knew he was going to Harvard or something. And I was just not meant for math. And I just knew there's gonna be a phone

for a reason that has a calculator. I don't need to know the square root of things. You manifested or you knew? There was already cell phones back then. Way to have cell phones in high school, so I don't know. We did have cell phones. But you know what? I thought you just manifested this is gonna happen one day. I was like, wow, you I don't know. We did have cell phones, but you know.

I just like manifested this is gonna happen one day. I was like, wow, you made the iPhone happen. Honestly, I absolutely will take credit for that. I'm dead. Yes, I absolutely made the iPhone happen for sure, 100%. And then I, no, I was like, I just knew I didn't need math in my fucking life because I knew I wanted to be Entertainment did you ever cheat in school? No, I've never had friends. So My friends were literally I guess I was just like hitting up like celebrities just trying to be okay

But I've never had friends in school never had friends now. I'm just not a friend person I don't know, but I'm really trying now with my daughter I really am like being trying to be as social as possible Like we're going to birthday parties for her because I just don't want her to grow up like that with like no I don't really mind it doesn't make me sad because I don't need different yeah and also I'm just like not a great friend because I'm not someone to like hang out with all the time I've just never been that person so but I'm trying out for my daughter like we got to make her friends

make sure she's social and yeah okay let's talk about you saying so casually when you're talking this fact you're like okay and then I'm gonna just I love it we have an hour so like let's get it in an hour. Our podcast goes like three and a half hours, so I'm like, I gotta get it all in. No, I was more saying, Trisha, we need to at least get to an hour. You're gonna talk about your whole life story in 30 seconds. You're like, okay, so then I went this thing,

then I went that thing. I know, I know. Okay, so you got, finally after you were in LA for a second, you were having some success, and then you just casually were like, and then I became a stripper and an escort, but not really, what happened? Yeah, yeah, so I just had like no money

I was just like running out of money my mom like was helping me as much she could and then she kind of ran out Of money I like maxed out her cards and stuff So we all ran out of money She had a husband at the time so she was like living with him and she was like fine But my dad was not in the picture at all like he hated that I moved out like cut me off completely So I had like no help no money, and so I didn't know what to do I didn't like I wasn't educated like know, I didn't have college degrees. I had no idea.

I tried to do like the regular jobs, you know, like making smoothies and stuff, but that was just like, not for me either. And I just, you know, loved the stripper life as like in movies. Like I loved it. I thought it was like so glamorous. So I was like, this is gonna be for me.

But like my stripper life was not glamorous. I was like literally at like Canoga park, like V&I is like Godfathers. It was like super sketchy. I wanted to be at Spearmint Rhino, but that was like the bougie pretty girls with the fake boobs already. I was in like, like Canoga Park, like VNI is like Godfathers, it was like super sketchy. I wanted to be at Spearmint Rhino, but that was like the bougie pretty girls with the fake boobs already. I was in like, I don't know,

if you know Godfathers, it's just like sketchy. So yeah, I had a stripper life and then yeah, then I just, you know, I think casually then you just start, cause like Hansa Paul, there's like a bunch of hookers. Like, so I just casually started like going on the streets, just get more money that way, don't put it with the club and stuff like that. But I was kind of out of my mind there.

I don't consider myself an addict, but I definitely was using a lot back then. Okay, can I ask what you were using? Back then it was just like, I did a lot of coke. I did a lot of like, I didn't do meth until like 2019, but I did do stuff that I didn't know. Maybe it was like, you know, the ones where you snort with like rocks.

I don't know if that's meth. I don't know what it was. But I was like snorting rocks. Yeah, I literally didn't know any of the drugs were. I just know I did a lot of this. Everything was snorting. OK. And one was like really rocks. Like it was just like hurt my nose all the time like that. And so I was just yeah, I was just doing a lot of that stuff. I was just like out of my mind, honestly, whatever people gave me.

And at 18 and 19, you're just kind of like, don't care. You know, I didn't care. I was like, I don't really care where my life goes. When you said your dad cut you off like what happened? Oh just cuz like I didn't want to do school and he's just like I'm not gonna support you and yeah I mean. You were on your own. Were you scared at all whenever you were stripping like were there any moments where you like got into situations where you're like I am like a little scared? Oh yeah I feel like all of it,

like going home without guys all the time. Like, yeah, it's crazy that like I'm alive. It all scared me. I guess at the time you just didn't get scared because you don't think about it, right? No, I get that. I think it's like when you almost like can get into something that you just kind of fall into

and then you can almost just like keep going down that rabbit hole and you almost don't know when like to stop or when to like check yourself. Cause again, you're right at that age. Like if you don't have someone like that's a parent being like, stop it, you kind of can just start to go wild and like not know like what is bad, what is good. And I'm finding myself and I'm figuring myself out.

And if you didn't have friends, like you kind of had no one probably to compare yourself to. My friends aren't doing this. Had you ever done drugs before you went to LA? No, no, I was super good. I never drank. I just didn't, I wasn't having sex in high school or something like that,

because I just never, I never was that person. I don't know, so maybe I just thought LA, be wild. You know what I mean? I thought, and again, I think being insecure, I just was like, you thought having sex meant, you're so attractive, everybody wants you, you know? And you get paid for it. That's actually insane to me I just was like, you thought like having sex meant like, you're so attracted, like everybody wants you, you know? And you get paid for it. Like that's actually insane to me.

I was like, oh my gosh, like people are gonna pay me now, that's wild. You're right though. I can see what you're saying of like going from like being in a position where you're like, oh, like I wanted to be liked by these men. And then to get this profession where like,

they all love you and they're all paying attention to you. But then I can imagine like the drugs probably made you get into situations. Like could you share any stories of just like situations you got into that you woke up and you're like, why did this happen? Oh my gosh. I mean, honestly, a lot of them that I like blacked out.

I mean, really just, I mean, I've been kidnapped a bunch of times where it's just like you wake up in like a truck and the trucks moving and stuff like that. Yeah. Trisha? Pause? Sorry, what? Yeah, I got kidnapped. Well, I guess I don't know if it's just like you wake up in like a truck and the truck's moving and stuff like that, yeah. Trisha? Yeah. Pause?

Sorry, what? Yeah, I got kidnapped. Well, I guess, I don't know if it's kidnapping if you're over 18, but I was 19, so. I think it's kidnapping, Trisha. I've been abducted, I guess. It's kidnapping, no matter if you're 45 or 50. Wait, really?

Yes. I could be kidnapped at 35. Yes. Oh, okay. We, we. Yeah, I was, yeah. Can you walk me? But it's like, it's in the sense where it's like I don't know where I'm at Like I go with somebody and all of a sudden you wake up you're like, oh and someone's truck and stuff like that

At one point in your life you woke up in the back of a truck. I mean multiple times. Yeah, yeah, it's crazy There's like and you know back then again, you don't think in there but you like why I went with this person willingly So yeah, you just don't think about stuff like that. When you would wake up in the back of those trucks, like what did you do? You kind of just don't do anything. Well, you know, you're like coming off a drug, so you kind of just like let things happen. You're just like, oh, and then they like let you off or something like that. So you kind of just and you don't again, I just I didn't think of it like anything. I hear people talk about their stories and for me, it just like I say it casually because

it's to me it almost seems casual like it almost seems like oh well that's what I was doing I guess even if I didn't want it or like someone like you know brought me with them like it's kind of a I don't know I'm like well this is the life I chose you know which is like such a weird way to think and of course anybody else in the situation I'd be like oh my god that's so awful but for me I just thought well this is what I chose but I think also there's a level of, at some point you kind of have to just like disconnect from it because a lot of that, like for any woman listening, like that is, I'm sitting here being like, sorry,

you woke up in the back of the truck. Like that's so scary. I do think obviously when you're on drugs though, everything can become way less intimidating because your senses are like not heightened whatsoever. You're just kind of in a sedated state. So you can't really, you don't have the ability to make maybe the decisions you would make when you're sober.

Oh, for sure. But when you look back at yourself in those situations, how do you feel? It's almost like I just don't even know that life. It's kind of like my high school life I don't know, that life I don't know. There's so many stages I look back on and I'm like, oh, I don't even recognize, I remember it, but some of it I don't even recognize, you know what I mean? Because I was just such a different person and it almost seems like I'm telling a story,

you know what I mean? It almost doesn't seem like my life. It's almost like, this is a story about this girl, but it took me a while. I didn't go to therapy for a really long time and even in therapy now I don't talk about it because it's just like, it's not trauma to me, you know? Stuff that happened to me as a kid too.

I'm just like, oh, it's not trauma. Even though like it is, it's just like, I don't know. I don't like, it's like, it's not something I'm like uncomfortable talking about. What was like therapy, I'd like don't get deep into it. Cause I'm like, it's fine. And they're like, no, it's not. But I'm like, to me, it's fine.

And like, you know, it doesn't, I don't think it affected me, but they're saying it does. And it probably did. Cause I mean, I am kind of, I was messed up for a long time. So. Well, yeah, I think a lot of the time, it's like the body keeps things in, but like, if you've done such a good job, essentially like dissociating from it,

I get what you're saying, like you're telling the story, but you don't personally feel that affected by it right now, because you have survived through it, and you're like, I don't really like connect to that person anymore, which I think is how a lot of people survive. And I think there's also like a stigma where people,

which I completely understand when people would look at you being like, well, you have to figure it out and you have to solve it. I think that there's a lot of people that don't wanna go and relive some things and I think that's okay. Obviously, if it's like significantly affecting your life to this day where like you're having like, whether you're feeling like if you're having sex, you're getting triggered or you're having PTSD or flashbacks like that's usually when to like open it back up. But like definitely, I think everyone has to figure it out on their own time.

Yeah, I definitely had that. I've definitely had that where I had to like talk to someone because it was like someone like touched me. Like I was, you know, it's like just dealing with all that stuff. So I've definitely dealt with that for sure, but yeah. Yeah, I'm curious like going through that with men and like being in positions where obviously I'm sure like, you've kind of alluded like there's taking, like taking advantage moments. Like how did you kind of like rebuild

your relationship to men? I think I just like always hated men. And I feel like I'm still kind of there, especially like giving birth. I just had like such bad experiences with men like not understanding postpartum. Just so I just and I just all my life was just like any type of men. I'm just like, I don't know. I feel like I wanted their like validation and they were all awful.

So I feel like I have still such a strong hatred. I think if there's anything to fix, it's like maybe my hatred towards men and like it's like it's not even just like me being this feminist, men suck, you know, it's just like, I really dislike them and when I like have to talk to a straight, like this year I really made a conscious effort to do only female podcasts. Like I make, I don't want to talk to like men, like I don't know what it is and it's like,

that's obviously not right either. You want to like be equal and like, you know, not hate men. But. Yeah, no, but I get what you're saying. I think like when you've been like fucked over or wronged by men or even just as simple as like they don't understand women. And there are some men that when you're actually looking

at them in the eyes, you're like, oh, you don't get what I'm talking about. You don't get what I'm like even trying to say to you. And that can be so infuriating and it's not worth our time sometimes. Like it's not our job to educate men on why we should be treated equally to them or why we should have respect.

If you're talking, there are some men that are great, like your husband seems great, but overall I get what you're saying of the trauma of having men fail you so many times in your life, why would you like them? Yeah. And then that's how I feel. And you're right, there are, my husband's amazing and I have a friend that has an amazing husband too. And it's like, there are some good ones, but then you hear on TikTok so many horror stories

of men that don't wanna change diapers, or they don't wanna like be planned the wedding, or they like just constantly like, like that to me is like so, and I hear it all the time. I'm like, that's so like triggering. I'm just like, you know what I mean? Just the way they treat women. It just makes me so upset.

I don't know. It's so fucked up. And then to see like how many women then wanna have like a say on what women do with their bodies. Oh, wow. That's a whole other, that's what I'm saying with postpartum or hormones when you're pregnant, all this stuff, all the abortion stuff, and so it's just like, it's infuriating

that men have a say, period. And I just feel like men should not have a say ever about anything, just don't say anything, giving birth, giving after, after I gave birth, I had so many guys online criticize me for taking fentanyl, for having a C-section because I had an addiction to drugs at one point. And they, oh, well, she said she never took drugs, but she took fentanyl for a C-section.

I'm like, they make you because they're cutting you open. I don't get the choice not to really. So yeah, and so I think all of that really made me hate men even more. And straight and gay, because you know what I mean? They both kind of don't get sometimes. So I was like, ugh. So even I had a hairdresser, I had all this.

Now it's like, okay, now I'm letting game up back into my life more. But like the straight men is still hard for me. And I don't even mean, and it's one thing. And I think because I'm married now, I don't even really need them as I used to think I needed them in the past with like dating and stuff.

When you're in the dating world, like I'm sorry, but like, I get it. Women are always gonna try to like look cute for the date and look this way and talk this way. Like there are little things we always do because we still live in a man's world. So it's like, we have to be delicate with how we unravel it. But once you're in a healthy, safe relationship,

it's kind of nice, you're right, to be like, I now don't need men. And if I'm gonna interact with men, it's gonna be on my turf. Yeah, it's the best, it's the best feeling. It's just so great. And I'm like, I don't care if I'm skinny enough, I don't care if there's a prettier girl in the room,

like none of it matters, you know? So it's just like, it's so freeing. It's so wonderful. Like you said, if you're in a good relationship, the wrong relationship will make you feel the opposite. That's almost worse than being in the dating game. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. That's awful.

You're like, yeah. I'm sure like, I'm sure so many women, including ourselves sitting here, have been in those types of relationships where you're like, I am a shell of a human. I was better off when I was dating a bunch of assholes, but going on dates rather than being with one guy that has your claws and you that's so like manipulative

and like emotionally or physically abusive, whatever it is. Like the worst calling you crazy, judging what you eat, conning how many nuggets you eat. It's like that to me. And I thought I was like so in love. And then you look back and you're just like, oh my God, this person like hated me,

but I was trying so hard, everything I could. And I'm like, and it's happened. Yeah, it's happened. I've only been in like two relationships. So it's like both my relationships are horrible. You had a man that would count how many chicken nuggets you would eat. Yeah.

What the fuck? On camera. No. Yeah, it's like still out there. It's like compilations of all the time. Yeah. It's like that to me is the most traumatic thing of my life. I've been kidnapped probably over 40 times,

but that was the most traumatizing. Thinking about it, I like disassociate right now. I'm like, oh, no, I get scared. I don't know. It's like such a weird thing. You're like, leave me the fuck alone. Let me eat my nuggets in peace, you piece of shit. It was it's like so it's actually like traumatizing. When I think back, I'm like, oh, my God.

And to this day, I literally had to cry the other night. Like we were eating pasta, like something triggered me from like that relationship and I was just like and it's so weird like I'm so like I never think about it whatever but there's like This like I was eating this pasta and I was like, oh my god I just started like crying and I was just like I feel like a disgusting person for eating this and my husband is like so Great. He's just like pasta is like the most like popular food It's in every country like what like it's totally normal for you to eat this, right? It's like it's like wipe your tears and eat your pasta, Tricia. Yeah, yeah.

Okay, I read a study that like pasta makes you happier. Yes, I repost that on my Instagram all the time. Me too. I always see it, yeah, like repost. I'm like absolutely happier, let's go pasta every night. It is true, I eat pasta every night. Usually I don't care and then like, I don't know. There are days.

Started a spiral for some reason. I totally get it. Yeah. When you were talking about your time in LA and like struggling with drugs, did you ever have have a rock bottom moment where you're like, I've got to? So many, so many. That was rock bottom moment when I was 19 that happened. I literally, I live next to, his name was Christopher Dennis,

he was the Hollywood Superman. There was a documentary made about him and he recently passed, he was so sad. But he found me just completely in piss and shit, all this stuff, because my apartment didn't even have a doorknob. It was on Yucca and Highland. There was like no doorknob. I think it's still there. It's like behind a liquor store now. And he like found me and like my dad and I hadn't talked for like

two and a half years at this point. And I don't know how I don't know if he called him, whatever. But my dad like showed up, took me to like Riverside Hospital. I was in there for like three weeks in like 2007, 2008. And yeah, and then I kind of got a little better. Then my dad was trying to get me back to go to college, did that for like six months, and then I moved back out again.

My mom came out. So, but that was rock bottom. And then 2019 was my rock, rock bottom. 2019 was my, the meth. I was in three mental hospitals. That's when I was like really hard-corrected, Matt. There was two guys that I dated who both have since passed from overdoses.

And yeah, I was just I was just wild. I think I slept with probably like 200 guys that one year, three mental hospitals, like just really beside myself, the Internet. Oh, my God. Everybody was making like hate videos about me. Like PewDiePie made a hate video. I was like, oh, my God, like, what did I even do? So it was like my rock, rock bottom and which is ironically, I was the skinniest. So sometimes it's like I want to be skinny. And then I was like my rock, rock bottom. And which is ironically, I was the skinniest. So sometimes it's like I want to be skinny.

And then I was like, oh, maybe not. That 2019 was rough. Trisha. Oh, my God. Wow. And that was documented that 2019. That was a rough year for me. Because you were on YouTube at that point.

Yeah, I was making like a lot of videos. There's a lot of deleted videos with the people I was with. Yeah, just was really like crazy. Let's talk about your OG YouTube days, because yes, there were some videos put out that people considered controversial and people tried to bring your old YouTube videos back to this day.

You got involved in, I feel like, a good bit of drama back then. When you look back at the OG YouTube days, how do you feel about them and how would you even describe them? It's like so many eras of YouTube too. Like the OG ones were just like so great. It was like, well, before you could make money on YouTube,

it was just like fun. And then you start making money and then it's like, where do you find your niche? Like I said, I never felt like I had like talent. So I was like, what can I do? Oh, I can like piss people off. I can do this. So I definitely went like the trolling route because it was like the most money I ever made without having to like strip or hook

And I was just like this is it, you know So yeah, I definitely had a lot of like problematic videos and just stuff that like I didn't necessarily even think I think if I was Like me I could like hold stronger to like oh, I was just like young or whatever but it was just like stuff I'd hear other people say that were like and I would just like repeat it I just wanted to be shocking and You know and I like I totally own up to it and I look back at my videos I'm like well, you know, some of them are pretty bad But I try to give myself grace and forgiveness with that cuz I used to be really hard myself. I'm like, I know I suck

I'm problematic and to this day like I don't get sponsors on my podcast like shout out to our patreon like our patrons do it And so that's you know, it's great. But yeah, I definitely forever have like this like mark on me on the internet of like kind of like she's a little controversial or you know you just people don't want you like around but you know, it's it's fine like again, I My word of wise to people when I see people trolling now on the internet is like just maybe don't because it'll like follow you Forever people will think of you as that forever and rightfully so like, you know Like those clips will always be out there and people either see the change and the growth

or they don't. And I think either one you just have to like live with, you know? But I do think it's helpful that you're like explaining your backstory. And that's why I wanted to talk to you about it today because it's like, for sure, I bet I'll get comments being like,

why the fuck are you having Trisha Paytas on? Like, what the fuck? I totally understand that. I also though think it's important, like the fact that you just said like, I could make more money doing this than stripping and hooking. It's like, okay, like it's good to know someone's backstory

and I think when again, when you're saying those type of things, usually the people that are saying those things, you're not in a great place. Never, oh my gosh. Oh, back then I just couldn't, I didn't care about me. I didn't think anything of the future. I was just like, I need to make money now. I'm just gonna piss people off.

I don't care. I don't have friends for a reason. Never thinking like it would be a full career or anything, you know. That's what I also think sometimes, like people feel like they're lucky because they can make their fake accounts, but like God forbid one day,

all of your fake account comments and trolling and you like telling people to go kill themselves or whatever. Like there are people on the internet that are so ruthless, but they don't have the balls to do it publicly and have their own name on it. If that God forbid you walked into work one day and all of your comments were placed on your own desk, like would you be fired or not?

And I think it like, if you look inward, all of those people are not in a good place and clearly you weren't either. Yeah. And you've kind of had this like redemption arc but like when you look back do you think you were addicted to the drama once you started to see the money? Oh yeah. I mean for so long like a good like 10, 12 years I was so addicted. I was just so miserable so like any attention was good attention, money was just money you

know what I mean? So it just yeah it's it is crazy but I did reap the car, you know what I mean? So it just yeah, it's it is crazy. But I did reap the carmatic, you know, effects of it all. So it does. Like you said, even the trolls, I think it I think it's so real. I think karma is so real. And like I've reaped all of that 10 times over, I'm sure. And still due to this day, we get a sponsor and like everyone harasses them. Like, so we lose at this point.

I'm like, don't even give us sponsorships because I just know the guy. So it's fine. Luckily, I'm like, don't even give us sponsorships because I just know they're gonna harass us. It's fine, luckily I have my ways to make money. But yeah, you just, you reap it for a long time. So. Why do you think though second chances are so important? Because I think people do like change. I think majority of humans evolve as human beings,

especially when you get older, when you find happiness, when you find love. Like you mean people do change. And I think like that's the whole point of humanity, right? Is like the evolution of it all. Like I think our society shows that like, you know, from like us in like the 60s, you know, with like segregation stuff, you know,

I think it's like just shown like, obviously people are like change. So I think that's important. Otherwise you never like, never can grow and never can like, you know. But yeah, I've had second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, and just so I'm appreciative of all of them. Some people don't deserve them. Some people don't wanna give them to you,

but I do think it's important to like, try to see people changing. Because I think, I really think people do and can. I agree. I think also it's really difficult on the internet when you have a persona that I even feel it sometimes. Like I feel like sometimes I've met people and they're like, oh my gosh, like I thought you were gonna be such a bitch,

you're gonna be this. And I'm like, oh, like, I mean, I don't know. You can be honest, like what you thought of before you met me. Yeah, because you just hear all this stuff, right? You hear all the drama. And so you're just like, wow, she's a ruthless, she's this, and you know, not to say I don't judge

because obviously I know, like I know how people take things, but you hear those things or just how, I don't know, you think someone's just gonna be arrogant or whatever, because you have all this like money and you're skinny and you're pretty, so you're like, well, you just know, you know, I think you have that assumptions again, at this age, I don't, I'm just like, and I was, I was surprised the energy you have is just so different than like people would think, you know what I mean?

No, I appreciate you saying that because I think that's the point is like, we see people online and most of the time we never get to meet these people in person so like there's a image online that people will like assume of you and it's really fucking hard to break away from that. And so obviously like I know my, the way that I got through it was like,

I know the truth and I know what happened and I know I feel like I can go to sleep and I'm a good person and I have good people around me and like, and if I'm good with my life off the internet, I think then I did become a better version of myself on the internet because it's like, when all you are looking for is validation from the internet, which it seems like at one point

that was, you didn't have friends, you were really in a dark place, you're gonna just say some crazy fucking shit and you don't give a fuck. But I do think second chances, you're right, are important because I'm so proud of the growth that I've had and I know you feel the same way about yourself of like, of course we've changed.

And of course now when you have things you care about, everything is put in perspective. Oh my God, it's so different. Now it's like, oh, I don't wanna embarrass my husband, I don't wanna embarrass my daughter. You know, you're like, so it changes everything about you. That's what I knew, I had to change all of it. And I really do feel it and I'm like, people to change all of it and it just and I I really do

Feel it. I'm like it people can see it or they don't see I don't care cuz I could feel better But it does feel especially right now that people have like seen it. It's not me saying I've changed it It's you know, just took time, you know, I think with anything like just public feuds anything, you know People always you know, there's always sides that people pick without knowing the full truth and it's just like getting through that and it doesn't Really matter at the end of the day what people think, you know about it It's like some people are gonna think I'm this person's on. Okay. Yeah as long as you know who you are. Yeah, let's yeah Okay, we're gonna play. I love your giant card. Oh man huge And there's like tiny little writing. I'm like, okay, let's play a game. Yes

I'm gonna give you a topic and I want to hear your opinion on it reusing nudes. Oh Yeah, I do it all the time my office still on it. Reusing nudes. Oh, yeah, I do it all the time. My office is still that. It's just old nudes from 2020 and people still, new people come in, I sell them. Oh, slay. Or just like sending them to.

But don't you can tell now. I feel like you can tell by the dates now people say, I don't know. Did you send nudes? Were you someone who sent nudes? Oh yeah. Really? Oh, loved to get nudes.

And you've never posted nudes online. I've never posted nudes online. I just was such a nude girl. I remember I dated this guy that was obsessed with nudes to the point where it was very unhealthy. And he was like, literally. Like every day you're sending him them? I would be at work, Trisha.

And this man would be like, come on, can I get a pic? And I was in such a bad relationship with him that I knew that if I didn't, if it was another girl gonna send him a nude, so I would feel so insecure. So there I was at work with like my like pencil skirt on and I'd like mosey my way over to the bathroom. Oh, you took him fresh.

I thought you'd have like a library. No, no, no, no, trust me. Wow. Oh my God, like I would absolutely edit them. I would like go back. I know literally I would like, I would be at work on the clock getting paid. I would go take it in the handicapped bathroom.

Sorry, it was fine. It was bigger. Bigger, and I needed my privacy. God forbid someone walks in in the stalls and I'm getting that ass shot. I'm sure if there was a handicapped person walking you'd give them the stall. Oh, for sure, for sure, for sure.

And so I would get out and I would go back to my desk and I would look around and I always had a girl behind me and whenever she would go to lunch, I would pull up my nude, I would go back to my desk and I would like look around and I would always had a girl behind me and whenever she would go to lunch, I would pull up my nude, I would go on PicMonkey and I would start like rearranging, like make the ass fatter, like everything. And then I would like send it off to him and be like, here you go.

And he'd be like, so hot, so fire. And then I would save those though. And then obviously like if I was talking to another guy that day, be like, here you go. So like I loved a good nude. I thought that I, it almost became like an art form at one point, you know, like you really get those angles. You learn how to like make it look good.

Like I loved a good nude. Like it was fun. And then, oh my God, like I've definitely sent like some videos and like all that stuff, but I never went, I never made money off of it now. Never, would it ever get out? No one ever posted on it? No, because I think like, I know the amount of people

that I've sent it to, like I know those specific guys people that I've sent it to like I know those specific guys Okay, and if they ever did like I think they know I would try to sue them So I think they're like too scared especially now. I feel like they would put you out there because you're you right But i'm like, yeah, but like try me let's go to court motherfucker But god forbid like I ever feel like I gotta pull out i'm gonna bring out my I have literally an old Nude like catalog like album like yeah, like you know, you've got that mac MacBook that you've got it on and you're like which one should I use today retirement plan yeah I should change the album name from old nudes to retirement plan I mean it's kind of like everyone's doing it now but I get you I totally get

you as meeting your celebrity idols have you ever who are who are your idols, told me everything? Oh, I love meeting celebrity idols. Yeah, I think the bigger the idol, the nicer they are. I feel like when you like a Z-list person, they have like, you know, maybe like Tom Sandable or something, I don't know. I don't really know him, but I just know he's all over TikTok. Like he probably won't be nice.

But I've met like Quentin Tarantino, Eminem, The Weeknd just sent me a DM. And I feel like the bigger they are, the nicer they are. We, I saw you talking about this on your podcast. What was the DM from him? Literally, I was on a podcast like two weeks of the Zach Sang Show and I was like, oh, I pay for music. And I'm like, I just bought like six of the Weeknd songs.

And he's like, thanks for the support. Me and my team appreciate you, like sent me a DM. And I was like, wow. He hears that I sent $6 on his music. No, they do. Because I think I saw, who did I see? I think I saw Snoop Dogg recently saying there were a billion streams, and he made 40K from it.

No, that's wild to me. That's why I buy the music off iTunes, and I still do. And they appreciate it. I mean, I was shook. I was like, oh my god, Abel's in my DMs. It was crazy. Like, literally, maybe they need to start an OnlyFans. Like, fuck.

I know. He's like, babe, thanks for the $6. You're like, babe, literally get an OnlyFans. I was like, let's go. He would make bank if he was on OnlyFans. Well, I mean, I know it's basically like OnlyFans. It're like babe literally get an only fan I was like, let's go make bank if you're not only Well, I mean the idol is basically like only fans are just him like fucking lily rose depth and I loved it That's why I became a fan this year. I saw the idol and I was like That was crazy. I never get horny about anything and like literally that show made me like crazy. Okay taco bell

Um pass is this what are we playing? Are we doing? Am I reading this? No, I just I love it also like you're right. We've kind of changed the game for every single game Oh, I want to hear your take opinion on About um, I'm not I love fast food. I'm just talking about fan. What's your favorite fast food place? Um McDonald's Yeah, just cuz there's one close to us, I always get the nuggets. Right now they have adult happy meals. Oh wait, I think we're boycotting McDonald's.

Maybe. I think everyone told me we're boycotting them. We why? I don't know. I don't get political, but I think something is happening with them. So I'll be on a strike until the strike is over. Where are you gonna get your nuggets? Oh man, maybe Chick-fil-A. Oh, Chick-fil-A is controversial too. We can fuck them. I know. They don't support the gay! Oh no! A lot of my gay friends love

Chick-fil-a so I go with them. Uh, fuck, everything's controversial. That's interesting. If you go to Chick-fil-a with one of your gay friends, I think it's fine, then it cancels it out. I think so! They love it, so. Chick-fil-a. I love fast food but they're all problematic. They are. Okay so McDonald's first, then Chick-fil-A. Do you like Wendy's? I love Wendy's Spicy Nugget. I'm just a nugget person. Nugget.

So I only get nuggets at all these places. What do you dip it into? Yeah. Oh nothing. No sauce. Yeah. What? No sauce.

Yeah. I recently heard Jenna retake us that she has no sauce too. I'm like no sauce girlies. Get wait never this is crazy there's no live try to find a clip of me eating sauce you actually there's clips of me trying sauce but I don't like it yeah wait do you so you don't like ranch dressing no I don't like any sauce like no barbecue no ketchup no mustard your whole life yeah I'm just like I like a plain I'm very my tastes are plain I love like butter noodles I love chicken tenders like pizza like that's what I like yeah I have food for you to try downstairs. I'm very, my tastes are plain. I love like butter noodles. I love chicken tenders, like pizza. Like that's what I like.

Yeah. I have food for you to try downstairs. Now I'm like rethinking everything. Wait, did you make it? I'm having someone make it right now. Oh my, booze. No, no, no. Oh my God.

You have a content house with a chef. I do live here, like no, just to shoot here. I was like, wow. I just begged someone downstairs. I'm like, listen, there's this one pasta that I want Trisha to try. Do you think? Wait, what?

Yeah, I want you to try it. What kind of pasta is that? You know how like girls are like, oh my God, like I have my like, listen, there's this one pasta that I want Trisha to try. Do you think? Wait, what? Yeah, I want you to try it. What kind of pasta is that? You know how girls are like, oh my God, I have my girl dinner and it's like, when the men are away, the girls will play. And you make just dumb shit that men would be like, I'm not eating that shit.

So I grew up on this spaghetti sauce that my mom would make me, but it's this like, progresso, I don't even want to- Like, progresso? Yeah. Is that like, wait, what? Oh, like wait what a progress is like prego sauce Cuz I do like I like pasta sauce. I'm trying to figure out progress. Oh sauce. I Love a jar sauce if that's what you're talking about. Okay

It's in a jar and I swear to God, Trisha, I want you to try it. Like I know you like plain stuff. Like I'm interested to see your take on it. I love pasta sauce. Okay, we're gonna film it downstairs. But like it's good to know. But where's that going?

I guess bonus content. Where does that go? Gotta get that coin girl. I love it, oh no, same, same, same. I'm like you're gonna save for 10 hours, right? I love it. We're good to go. I will. Okay, so no to Taco Bell. No Taco Bell. Okay, I'm like, you're gonna stay for 10 hours, right? I love it. We're good to go. I will.

Okay, so no to Taco Bell. No Taco Bell. Okay, I'm crying. Okay, internet trolls. What is your opinion on them? Oh gosh, oh wow. I have a soft spot for them because I was an internet troll for a minute.

Now I can't stand them. I see people yelling at the camera, being ridiculous. I'm like, oh no, this is gonna haunt you forever. You should literally on every time you see somebody doing trolling videos, be like, haunt you forever. You should literally on every time you see somebody doing trolling videos be like, trust me, stop. Yeah, there's that girl, that pearl girl out there now. And I'm like, girl, let's pump the brakes.

This is gonna follow you forever. Dude, wait, I feel like I know who you're talking about. She's like- Mean. Anti, yeah, she's like kind of anti-woman I think. I don't know, she's like a woman, but like hates women. She's like, oh, if you're divorced, you're less than, or if you have sex before marriage, like they don't want you. I don't know, she's kind of woman but like hates women. She's like, oh if you're if you're divorced you're less than or if you Have sex before marriage like they don't want you Like strawberry red hair. Yeah. Mm-hmm. She's made videos about me

Yeah, Alex Cooper and I always just stop it. Oh, yeah, I never watch the video because I'm too scared Yeah, I don't know everyone and I get it. It's like a stick or something Hopefully but I'm like girl this is like gonna not do well for you And you like run out of money like you'll spend the money. I know, trust me, I've made like $10 million trolling and I've wasted all of it. I didn't buy a house until OnlyFans, so I'm just like, no, girl. Girl, stop. Stop. I know. But.

She'll probably clip this and be like, you fucking whore, shut up. Like, oh, literally. No, I know. I used to be scared of people talking about me, but I'm like, oh, no. I just I literally like I have again, it comes from a place of I know what it's like. Like of people talking about me, but I'm like, oh no. I literally like, I have, again, it comes from a place of I know what it's like. Like I get it. And I'm just like, oh no. Do you ever scroll on TikTok?

And if you hear someone talking about you, do you watch the videos? Oh no, I scroll instantly. The last, I don't even want to talk about it. But the last person I saw talk about me, I like literally cried for days. What? Yeah, she told me I looked like I had electrocuted hair

and I like cried for literally like a week. And I'm like, why is this affecting me so much? It was literally like a month ago and I couldn't stop crying. Wait, I'm so sorry that's so mean. I had a lot of postpartum hair loss, but then when I was young, people made fun of me for having like frizzy hair. It was this whole thing.

So I kinda, so it hasn't happened in so long that someone made fun of my hair. I'm used to weight, I'm used to acne. And I was like, oh my God, this one like hit, this one hit hard. That's when it's the most fucked up, is if it's something from like when you were younger, that was like something you got the shit bullied out of you

for, or that you were just insecure about it for yourself. When you're an adult and someone picks on it, you're like, I'm regressing to being 12 right now, and I'm sobbing. That's how I felt, it's like that, and like eating like chicken parm, like both of those things are like weird things that you wouldn't think like,

people call me fat, people call me all these things, and I'm just like, oh, I don't care, but those, I don't know. That was like- I chicken parm. Like both of those things are like weird things that you wouldn't think like people call me fat. People call me all these things. I'm just like, oh, I don't care. But those, I don't know. That was like- I'm so sorry. Yeah, so I, but it's because I like stayed on it for a minute. I saw and I was just like,

let me hear what this person has to say. Cause I like the person. Cause I was like, oh, I love this person. I talk nice about them all the time. And I was like, oh shit. And then I was like, yeah. So I, and I, I don't like to be in like the drama of it all. But I was just like, damn, that one hurt.

That one hurt like hard. It's just like, again, stop being mean to people on the internet. Like why are also, I just feel like to be in the drama of it all, but I was just like, damn, that one hurt. That one hurt hard. It's just like, again, stop being mean to people on the internet. Like why? Also, I just feel like we're so above, or at least we should be, commenting on women's appearance. Yeah.

Are we done with that? Just in general, hair, weight, I'm just like, that's it. Right. There should be, and again, I guess it's a compliment that that's what you're going for, if that's the only thing. True. But it's the worst thing to hear as a woman is like your appearance You're you're right. And I feel like it's expected from a man because it's like you're dumb but from a woman you're like You know, it sucks. It sucks cuz I'm so like pro women now

So I'm very and I know I haven't always been that's what I'm saying. The karma kind of comes back to me I'm like, alright, I guess I deserve it. I guess I've talked enough about other people's appearances So, you know, it does come back around. So I'm like, okay, I'll take it. That's how I have to look at it. I'm like, it's just another carmatic point. You got thick skin, girl. Yeah, sometimes.

Sometimes I really do. Like I haven't cried in a long time and I was like, oh my God, why am I crying? And like last night when I cried over the pasta, I'm like, this is very odd. Usually I'm not like that. Well, at least you allow yourself to cry. I feel like sometimes people hold it in too much.

If you're gonna cry, cry and then keep eating that pasta. Yeah. Let's go, let's go, bitch. Cry. How do you feel about reincarnation? Do you believe in it? If you're gonna cry, cry and then keep eating that pasta. Let's go, let's go bitch, cry. How do you feel about reincarnation? Do you believe in it? Ooh, ooh, I don't know. What do you think?

Didn't I see something on the internet that people were convinced, what is the theory? By my baby? Yes. Oh yeah, I did birth the reincarnation of Queen Elizabeth last year, I guess. Which you know what, honestly, makes me believe it. Wait, why do people think that?

It was so weird. It was the weirdest. OK, literally someone looked it up. It was the most time I was searched. It was the most search I've ever been. It was in September 22, a week before my daughter was born. Like, more searched than anything that's ever happened in my life.

Any controversial thing. What? That was the Google high point. And it was so weird. It was like a week before I gave birth. I said I was like one centimeter dilated, which is like normal. And you're going gonna give birth in like a week or two. Right. But then the queen died the next day and everyone's like Trisha just gave birth and the queen's and I was still very much pregnant. I just didn't have my phone with me. It was very it was so bizarre like TMZ was calling my dad my mom like everything. It was the weirdest thing. Oh my God, you know why you were probably so surged? It's like you kind of like tapped into like,

you infiltrated the royal family. Like, but everyone in England was like, wait, who is this bitch I need to see? Yes, yes. Like, is the Queenie coming out of that V? Like, what the fuck is going on? The day she died, I'm like trending. I have a screenshot, but like right underneath her.

Like, it's so bizarre. I know, when I announced my pregnancy, everyone's like, uh-uh, King Charles, nine months left. I'm like, no. No. Don't even start it. No. Wait, that was- Yeah, it's funny now, at the time I was actually a little traumatized. I was like,

oh my God, what did I do? Like, because I didn't even start it. Like, I get if I start my own shit. And I was like, no. And I was out of drama. I was so out of drama. I did have my podcast. I was like not talking about anyone. I was like, oh shit. We're back. Yeah. Not like that bad of drama to be a part of because you're like, oh my God, like I just gave birth to like the new queen. Yeah. But that's also going to be such part of because you're like, oh my god Like I just gave birth to like the new queen Yeah, but that's also gonna be such an interesting thing like if your daughter googles herself one day like oh not about Google

Yeah, for sure your queen and she kind of is she's very like royal regal waves to everybody. She's very that actually So if I do believe in reincarnation, I do believe that could be yeah, I don't know how Queen Elizabeth was I heard maybe she's not a nice person. Maybe she'll be reincarnated as a good person. I Don't know. I know nothing about the royal family, but. Okay, how do you feel about retail therapy? Oh my God, that's all I do all day, every day. I spend way too much money. What do you spend your most money on?

Purses, I have so many purses. Yeah, I have too many. I probably have, I don't know, maybe 500 purses. And I sell a lot too, so I probably bought 500 purses. Wait, but you said you never leave your house. Yeah, just buy it online. Like 2020, I bought like six Birkins that were like a million dollars altogether.

And now I can't sell them. I wish I could. I've had so many Birkins that are ugly. And I'm like, I have like a dead ostrich in my closet. And I'm like, I don't want this anymore. Wait, and you like, you barely leave your house also. So like, where do you wear them? Dear, you're like, I love your Prada bag.

I'm like, thank you. This is my only shot to wear it. Oh my God. So like, do you wear them? Dear you're like I love your Prada bag I'm like thank you this is my only shot to wear it. Oh my god so like whenever you're gonna go do an appearance you'll wear but other than that just sits in the closet. But my closet is beautiful it's like sparkles and shine it makes me really happy like they actually just make me happy to look at them. I used to like never wear my purses out like I just love to look at them. Look at them. What's your favorite one? Uh oh I have the Paris Hilton Birkin like the pink one with the Swarovskis on it same uh retailer that got it the privy porter shot a pretty quarter

She made Paris is big and the team in mind and I love it But when you get the aftermarket crystals, they go down and value so much so I wouldn't suggest that I bought a $50,000 Rainbow Birkin and no one even once I can't even give it away for like eight thousand dollars So yeah, so don't do aftermarket, but I love my pink one. I don't like the rainbow one. Okay, let's talk about sex. Okay, let's talk about sex. Okay. I think that you obviously exude confidence and I know you have kind of like lately in this interview talked about just like your relationship to men has evolved.

But to women that are like, Tricia, how the fuck do we get confident in the bedroom? Like what personally would you say makes you feel the most confident in your sex life? Oof. You know what it is, I always say this to everyone, is like guys really don't care if they're like with you at that point where they're like undressing you like they

don't care. Do you know what I mean? I've I don't know guys just they kind of get what they get. You know what I mean? They did. They just are excited to be with you. And I've never I've never been insecure in that way because maybe because I've like hooked and I've been with like a hot like 500 guys like I mean maybe that made me more confident weirdly but I've just never had any like complaints and I used to have like uneven boobs I mean like back when I was like a hugger I mean I didn't shower for like five days and they would be fine with it So I think guys are just kind of nasty and they'll just take what they get so don't feel bad if you're hygienic

I think that's a plus If you put on deodorant that day girls, they're fine. Yeah Wash it's such a good point men are like kind of disgusting you put on deodorant that day girls, they're fine, you're good. Just do a little wash. It's such a good point, men are like kind of disgusting. And so I feel like sometimes like we're in our own heads about like, oh my God, do I need to do this? No, you don't need to do shit. No. Show up.

Yeah, I've been with, and I've been with all types. And I think like in like, I've been saying like, oh, I've been like on the streets or whatever. But I also been with like, you know, some WWE wrestlers that like prefer a big girl, you know what I mean? And they like love it and they can't get enough of it you know what I mean so I think there's just like types and some people love a skinny girl but

they're not gonna go to bed with you if they want a skinny girl whoever is like in bed with you like once you so I don't know I've never had any complaints like I said I've had like my boobs have been uneven I've like I've looked crazy so many guys just don't care and I think as long as you're not I don't know I've never been self-conscious about that I don't know why no I think that's great I think that's why I know people want to hear from you on care and I think as long as you're not, I don't know, I've never been self-conscious about that. I don't know why. No, I think that's great. I think that's why I know people will wanna hear from you on it because I think you're right of like,

we are in our own heads so much more than men are. Like if you're right, if he's in the room with you and wanting to have sex with you, there you go. Yeah, he's, that's it. They're not gonna be like, no, thank you. I've never had anybody like, oh no. You know what I mean, ever. I love that, I love that.

Exactly, like you got a vagina, they're gonna. Oh yeah, yeah, guys are very easy that way. So I always feel bad when girls get like self-conscious and I'm like, they guys want you. Like I've had girls write in being like, oh my God, like I'm insecure about my labia or the way it looks. I'm like, don't be. Oh, right.

Don't be, men don't give a fuck. And people love all types. They love the outies, the innies, the in-betweenies. They love all of it. Exactly, like who cares? How old were you when you had your first orgasm? Oh, oh my God, like 32. I love that you say that though,

because I think so many women, even if they would lie about it, like I bet a lot of women feel that same way. Like they, we, of course we didn't have orgasms at such a young age. Yeah, I don't know how people do. Because men don't know how to fucking please guys don't care about it Did you give it yourself or did you get it from a guy?

Oh the first time the first time was with a three. It was like in a threesome They had the one of those I call them hibachi's in a hibachi are they had Tachi what's hot? She yeah, she's yeah. Yes that like changed my life for real That was like I was in like this like throuple and they used it on me and I was like, oh my god That was when I was like, I didn't know if I was peeing or what, I was like, everything was going everywhere. It was insane. So that was like the first time I knew

what it was supposed to feel like. And that's why I was like, holy shit. Like that was like explosive. So- Wait, that's so funny because Bridget and Holly, when they came on, Bridget was the one that talked about it. She was like with Hef, like obviously we weren't getting off. So we would have these Mr. Hitachi's

and she taught me about it. And now, okay, so this Mr. Hitachi's and she taught me about it and now okay, so They're so good. Yeah, and so that was like the thing where I was like, oh that's what you want I did only fans like always squirting ones are with that because it's just like it's just so intense Like if you don't know how to do it or what because I'm like, how does that even happen or you're scared to like? Forces you to I mean with your consent But it's like you don't even have a choice because it's so much pressure you're just like well this is gonna here we go yeah that's so interesting so if you have like trouble orgasming or you don't know how it's supposed to feel like highly recommend going on like the big

setting of those and just get it going yeah yeah yeah we when you say you were in a throuple was it for just sexual or were you actually in a relationship with a couple it kind of was just sexual but they did come to my birthday party I think she's done like videos about me I I think she did interview with about someone. It was like my first like throuple relation. They were gorgeous. Oh my God. She was like hot, you know, fake implants. He was like gorgeous six pack anesthesiologist.

Like they were really gorgeous. And yeah, I think it was just like my Tinder year. I think that was 2019, but it was a, they were, it was great. I don't know. I think it was just like, so curious about everything. How do you even get involved in that? Like, do you like, did you meet her or him first? Tinder. Oh, oh, on Tinder. I met him on Tinder. Yeah. And then he's like, this is my girl. I was so curious about everything. How do you even get involved in that? Did you meet her or him first?

Tinder. Oh, on Tinder. Him on Tinder, yeah. And then he's like, this is my girl. They show right away that this is my girlfriend. I was like, oh, this could be exciting. You know what I mean? It was actually really, really fun.

Yeah. How did those things end? It was fine. Honestly, I think... What was that one? What was that one? I know. I'm trying to think. I was dating a lot of people at the time.

I was dating so many people, so I think I was just like not like looking to date. I think they wanted to date date. And I was kind of like not looking for that. Yeah, like three people in a relationship is tough. Oh, I don't know how they do that yet. But they did that all the time with people. And I think they wanted to bring someone in like to date. Wow.

And I don't know if, I think for me, I was like, oh, I'm gonna introduce like my parents, like my mom, you know, I'm really close with. And not that she's like not judgmental, but I don't think she would get it. Like this is my boyfriend and girlfriend. I don't know. Okay, no, I get that.'re like hi. This is my couple. Yeah, I'm the third It's still bizarre. Yeah, I see on tik-tok and I think more power to people but I'm always like this is it's still bizarre to me

I get maybe it'll get more normalized. So the mr. Hitachi What are I was gonna say? What are your top three like sex toys in the bedroom that you would recommend? So one is mr. Hitachi, what are another two? That's the first. I think that's pretty much it. I've been liking plugs lately, which I normally don't love an anal thing, but I just think they look really pretty.

And it feels like it just feels more pressurized. And I've been really into like that lately. I agree. It's great. I think like try out plugs. And I think it kind of just like, I don't know, it just feels good if it's not anything else, just because you like a little more added pressure.

I completely agree. I've never had like a gangbang, but I'm assuming that's what it feels like. Right. You're like you're all your holes filled. I don't know. Maybe not. Maybe I don't know what a gangbang is. I love you, Trisha. That's what I would imagine. Not to say I want all my holes filled, by the way, I usually prefer just sex like we do vanilla sex, but I love it. Like it's like I would imagine. Not to say I want all my holes filled by the way, I usually prefer just sex.

We do vanilla sex, but I love it. It's my fave. I don't need to, things filled me up, you know what I mean? So the plug can just be there. It's fun. It's fun for an added bonus, you know what I mean? Yeah. I'm kind of just vanilla actually when it comes to sex.

I kind of just love to have sex with just as is. I like that. Yeah, I like that. Yeah, but yeah. If you have advice for someone, how do you approach your partner if you wanna try a new thing in the bedroom? I don't know, I guess just be honest.

Although, you know, I've had people ask me to do some weird stuff and I'm like, that's weird. So I don't know, I'm the last person to ask about this kind of thing. Right, try to read the room. Maybe, yeah, know your partner. If he asks me to do something freaky, I might look at him kinda weird, I don't know.

Right, and be like, I'm done, I'm breaking up with you. Yeah, I've had people like ask me to like hang upside down like weird stuff I'm just like, I don't know. I mean, I guess that's like a thing with like swings I'm just not hanging upside down right like how would they fuck you if you're hanging upside down? Yeah, it's like the swing and you're like upside down and I guess they I don't know I know I didn't do it cuz I'm like that looks so dangerous. Yeah, I up and just like get a headache Yeah, I don't like I don't like anything that involves like hurting blood, any of that stuff. Like people always want to like slice you open and stuff.

I'm like, no, thank you. Have you have you had someone else? Yes. Trisha. Multiple times. They want to slice you open. Yeah. Are you fucking Army Hammer? Like, yes. And not him. Oh, someone close. Actually, when that came out, I was like, wait. And then I was like, oh, no, it's someone who kind of him. No way. Um, I think celebrities can be like the freakiest

Especially like those kind of celebrities are like d-list, you know, they're kind of like freaky You know tom sandables cutting them up Whoa, so you got people literally be like they want to what do they do they just want to cut you or drink your blood Yeah Like that Yeah Just drink the blood and also just like slice you like on your stomach a little bit because they say it's like has fat there so you can't die

like you can't bleed out I don't know. I've had a couple people say it yeah. And what do you say? No absolutely not I can't do that I don't know. Do you proceed to have sex with them or do you just leave immediately? Um leave immediately. No leave immediately. The one that wanted me to hang upside down I guess I stayed with he was kind of he kind of like me on Manson a little bit You can have like those vibes so I was into that for a second. I'm like, oh, yeah, this is my this is my person But yeah, I just said I like couldn't do it like physically couldn't do it. You're funny Hilarious. Um, I thought you can talk about this cuz I feel like no podcast talk about sex. Oh my god

Oh, yeah, you're on Spotify. Yeah, you're not demonetized on YouTube. I'm like YouTube. They can't take anything. Oh, no I'm like, let's talk about everything. Yeah. No. Oh yeah you're on Spotify so yeah you're not demonetized on YouTube. I'm like YouTube they can't say anything. Oh no I'm like let's talk about everything. Yeah no that's great it's so funny. What do you think of for advice for someone who wants to lose their anal V card? Like give us the advice Trisha. I'll just take some poppers you know loosen it up a little bit because that's the only thing I could think of. Right but do you even enjoy it? No I mean like I said I love the plug recently but plug recently, but I don't love anal. Penetration. Because you know what it is, I just eat so much food and I know you're not supposed to eat a lot before.

Girls that do OnlyFans, you're supposed to clean it out. Guys too, all my gay friends, yeah, you can't eat before. And you're like, oh. Yeah, that's the only time we have sex is after we eat. So I was like, well, I don't wanna have my butt after we eat. Right, I want my nuggets and I want my pasta. Exactly, oh my god,

could you imagine having anal after lasagna? I don't know if I could imagine that, just involuntary everything. I'm dead. I'm a bad like anal, I'm not an anal queen that's for sure, but um you know try it, maybe start with some a finger or something you know. A little pinky, a little pinky. See if you like it. So I really love it. I get it. I think that I think the pinky is a good way to start. Yeah, right. Right. I'm loving your advice.

So the daddy gang wrote in some scenarios that they're going through right now. There's drama in their life. OK, and you're not a part of drama right now, Trisha. You're clean. You're free. You're like, oh, but now we need to read their drama and help them with their drama. Okay, so someone wrote in and said, my brother's messages linked to my laptop and I just found out that he and my best friend

have been seeing each other behind my back. I'm so traumatized from seeing these texts and pictures. There are so many messages that I'm talking about how I'll react if I find out, but it's so hot that they're sneaking around. Lately when she comes over, it seems like she's there for my brother and the two of them actively leave me out.

How do I confront them about the situation and do I bring up the fact that I saw their nudes? No, you're the sister. Like what, why do you care? Stop. That's weird. What is she gonna say? I saw your nudes brother You're hooking up with a girl. That's not me. How dare you like Your brother are you gonna be like, oh my god what like it's so weird I

Lanister status over there. Just like my brother's fucking someone else. I don't like it. It's so weird. Like Lannister status over there. Just like, my brother's fucking someone else. I don't like it, it's weird. I'm dying. I get what you're saying. Like, first of all, no, girl. You're not telling your brother, like, I saw that dick pic. Like, that shit's big.

Oh yeah, that's a more on you. I would immediately stop looking at messages. You keep looking at them like a weirdo. I understand the side of like your friends lying to you. Like you would like to know, like is she going behind your back? Maybe just address it with your friend of like, hey, I get your hookup with my brother.

Can you just be honest so it's not awkward? But maybe they're not like serious yet. Maybe they're not like dating. Maybe they're just hooking up. Maybe they wanna keep it. Like why do you have to tell everyone your business? Be like, oh yeah, we're actually having sex if that's okay with you.

Not quite dating. We'll let you know what happened. Like it's weird, I don't know. Trisha, this is where friendship gets a little complicated. I don't have friends, so I don't know. I'm done. Don't listen to me on that one. No, no, no, no, I definitely, I think you're right about the brother thing.

Like don't fucking tell him like I saw your nudes. Like leave the brother out. Right, right. I think you could go up to your friend and be like, listen, I don't care what you and my brother are doing, but like I don't fucking tell him like I saw your nudes like leave the brother out I think you could go up to your friend and be like listen I don't care what you my brother are doing but like I don't want to constantly be sitting in the room and feeling like you Guys are like keeping things from you. Yeah, let's be open with it. You guys are fucking fabulous. Let's move on Okay, you want to know? Okay. I don't know. I'd be like this. It's fine. Don't tell me like if you're having sex with my brother I don't think I need to know

But if it was your best friend, I guess I don't know that situation so yeah I guess I guess maybe. No you're right. I still don't think I want to know. I don't even want to know my brother has sex with his wife like I just don't want to know any of it. I'm good. I actually kind of agree. Whenever I think about my brother having sex I'm like no he doesn't. Oh no I don't want to know any of those details. Don't tell me. Yeah so girl just let it go. Go have sex. Yeah yeah yeah just let them Just let them do what they're doing. Like, I don't know. Yeah, and you go date. Yeah. Make yourself busy. That might be, yeah.

Find something else to do. Maybe she needs to get laid. I think that's it. Where it's just like, if you're that concerned about your brother's sex life and if they're telling you or not, like, I don't know. Move on. I get what you're saying, though.

I get what you're saying, too. OK, next one. I have a group of six girlfriends, and we've all been close since high school Recently a new girl has been introduced to the group She hasn't done anything actively wrong and nobody seems to have an issue with her but something about this girl just fucking annoys me Oh my one day One day I had five glasses of wine too many and decided I was gonna say something So I messaged her from a fake Instagram account. I said stop leeching onto other people's friend groups. It's sad It's sad and pathetic they obviously don't want you around and they all feel too bad to tell you the truth.

So I will. Oh my God. That girl sounds crazy. And I know you don't use that word lightly. No, that's insane. She found out it was me by the email linked to the account and told all of our friends, now I'm basically booted from the group. What should I do?

Oh my God. Well, good. At least she was booted from the group, what should I do? Oh my god! Well good, at least she was booted. At least she got some repercussions. Dude, that's insane. That's crazy. This is why I don't want girlfriends. Like that's so nuts. I just think, first of all, if you're gonna use a fake account, I've learned.

Make a new fucking email, bitch. Yes, go to a different, go go to the library get a different IP address Don't let it be traced. I literally do never never if you are stalking people on your fake don't ever let them know It's you know second of all what is so what is this girl doing? That's so triggering that you felt the need to message her Do you ever go on your fake account do you have a fake account? Oh, likes you. Do you ever go on your fake account? Do you have a fake account? I don't have a fake account. Have you ever had one?

It's like a lot, to make a whole new account. It's a lot. No, I've never had a fake account. I've always just looked from my account, but I really just don't look period anymore. I used to look and like, find out what everyone's doing. And it's honestly, life is so much better when I don't look for real.

Trisha, I used to have one. I would say like, I would say a year and a half ago I deactivated mine and I've felt lighter, I've felt happier. I've just felt like, why am I stalking an ex? Why am I stalking, like what am I doing? Or even if I like saw something online, I'm like, why am I on a fake account? If I don't want people to know I'm looking at it,

then just maybe I shouldn't be looking at it. That's how I feel too, that's how I feel. Like that feels weirder when you go on like incognito and stuff like that feels like you're doing something wrong. I think that the moral of the story is everybody delete your fake accounts. You don't need to have a fake account It feels better. I know how addicting it is cuz I was so addicted to like reddit looking up everybody I have like how many views is this person getting that look at get it But it's like so time-consuming so entertaining and like the minute I did like I stopped in August of this year actually and like

I honestly like good things have come like just like fortune has come, income has come, everything has come, for real. I'm like, wow. So I just didn't go back to it because good energy was coming in. I was like, maybe there's something to this. So I was like, let me just stop putting any sort of bad energy out there.

There has to be something to it because I also think you're right. Oh my God, I think I read, the last time I read Reddit, I think now it's around two years ago that I stopped. And I remember I was so consumed by it because you're constantly trying to be like,

okay, these people think this about me. So then all of a sudden you're like in a video or an episode trying to like appease them. And when you stop giving, also when I look at it, I'm like, there's like 200 people. I'm like, whoa, we're really like shaking it up here. Like, why am I listening to 200 people? If you have like hundreds of thousands

to millions of views on something, obviously there's people that like what you're doing so keep doing what you're doing exactly and don't give them like energy it feels so much better and honestly I really feel like there's no I mean maybe because I just don't see it but I'm like oh I feel like the hate spot my redheads did get taken down like they no one can start any reds on me it's like really weird really yeah we did this like documentary on it we like called right at all this stuff like that and like there's no more reds mine are 40,000 people and now there's like no more and it's wonderful. So shout out right I don't know what they did, but anyone who tries to make a new one on me. They take down right away. So that's amazing Yeah, there's no there's no true to pay snark credit

So they were like crazy like I was during my pregnancy They're like harassing like my doctors and they were like my baby's like hospital and like they were just like they were being nuts They were putting my baby's like image out there like photoshopping weird things with it So I think they had to take it down because it was like actually that's like hospital and like they were just like they were being nuts they were putting my baby's like image out there like photoshopping weird things with it so I think they had to take it down because it was like actually that's disgusting yeah yeah I think that like we did this whole thing about it this year because I was like okay what's gonna and then now that it's down it's just like it's great and I don't so I don't like I don't see hate anymore so I don't know dude I swear to God the only place that is there's like

main hate is on reddit and if you get that rid of your life, you're like, I know I have no hate anymore. It's wonderful. I was like, no one hates me. No one hates me. That's how I feel in my head and I still feel that way. Live that way girl. Yeah. Let it live that way. I feel like it's like perpetuated itself. Like I feel like it manifested itself. Like I feel like so many people like me now and I'm like, oh okay. Maybe because I stopped looking at hate. Done. Now more people like me. Done. Yeah. Let's do one not friendship. Okay. Because all these friendship ones, I'm like, I don't know. How about this? My boyfriend and I have been having ongoing conversations about getting engaged and planning to do that next year.

But lately something has been really weighing on my conscious. My question is, do I tell him that I gave his best friend the Gluckluck 9000 blowjob on the trip that the two of us met before obviously we had feelings for each other. We see this friend quite often and I'm worried that my boyfriend will feel uncomfortable if he knows that I sucked his friend's dick. Oh my God. Should I come clean or is this something

that you take to the grave? Oh my, wait, did you trademark Gluckluck? I did. I love that. So like when people say it, you like get money. I love that. That's so smart. I remember that was such a big thing.

Like I really do. I just remember like, wow, it was crazy. It's great. It's a great thing. Oh my God. So smart you trademarked it. The double hand twist. Yes.

Gluck Gluck 9000. You think about the sex toy. That's that. I know. Cause it sounds like a machine anyways. It kind of does. Okay. Good to know.

Where it feels like you're like anyways. I don't know. That's. That's tough. I feel like you need to tell them otherwise it's like fraud or something I agree and God forbid like one night like something happens like if you're married and he finds out you never Could like literally end a marriage. Yeah, like just tell him. Yeah It was also you guys didn't have feelings for each other at the time, right? Yeah, what about how he reacts to like if he's upset about it then like maybe that's not one for you

Right, and he's like, okay, it was before we met whatever right like one standing guy. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Let it go. I think a lot about how he reacts too. Like if he's upset about it, then maybe that's not the one for you. Right. And he's like, okay, it was before we met, whatever. Right. Like be mature. You want an understanding guy. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Are you a jealous person? I was. I used to be so jealous. Oh my God. I was so jealous. Like at the beginning of our relationship, I was so jealous. All of a sudden, I had his passwords go through his DMs every day. Like I was super jealous, but now not at all.

Like I don't really care. Now you're fine. Now you're fine. Yeah. I think so, but he's so good. Like he gives me no reason to be jealous. Like even if like even if like girls like, you know girls like me want a picture with him like in public He just says like no cuz he just like doesn't want that out there. I'm fine with it I'm like literally whatever but he's very that so he never gives me reason to be jealous But that's the type of man you need in your life for sure cuz I am a jealous

I was I was always very jealous and everyone. Yeah, I got it I think I used to be jealous but because it was coming from a place of insecurity of like I had gotten cheated on before So then I'm like, oh my, like you must be doing it too And so like when you're just not in like healthy relationships the toxicity you can't help but be kind of paranoid which turns into jealousy Where you're like, oh my god Like I don't want you out and I don't want you doing this and then you're just like the worst version of yourself Yeah, it's I think that's like the worst like jealousy and we're together 24 7. So I think that helps too. I'm just like we're never apart. So Yeah, we're like codependent that arm codependent that way

So I don't know but I'd never of course now I'm like never jealous and he's like definitely not jealous like I'll say like Oh my god, the weekend so hot or whatever. He's like never gets jealous. He's like, yeah. Okay. Yeah. Yeah, literally I was like, I he's the first one I texted when I got a DM from him like the weekend just DM me Yes, babe. Oh, yeah. He's like, what are you gonna text back? He was so excited If the weekend wanted to have a threesome with you guys, would you do it? Oh, I would I don't know my husband What that would be like the dream come true. I Think he's gonna do it and just like suck it up. Okay What a cuz I I love it I love my husband so much

But cuz threesomes do get sticky. Like I've, yeah, anyone who wants a threesome, and anytime I've had a threesome, I feel like it just like ends in disaster. It does, right? Unless, I don't know, I feel like with my husband, of all people, like I know I couldn't with another girl. I'd be so fucking jealous.

But I think with a guy, I don't think he would. I don't know. I don't know. Even with a guy, I feel like kind of weird. I don't think I would with Matt either. I'm like, it's just too- With another girl. Yeah. Yeah, I don't think so. It's too much. See, especially if they have sex with a girl. Like sometimes they don't have I would with Matt either. I'm like it's just too with another girl. Yeah. Yeah, I don't know

It's too much see especially if they have sex with a girl Like sometimes they don't have sex with the other person, but I would I'd be living I would be literally in the bed like this Yeah, how people this oh the throuple I was in she like loved watching it They got off I was like this is and I think that's amazing like I like being the third but like I don't know being the main They're springing in the third. Yeah, you gotta be a strong bitch. No, I don't know people do it. I'm weak different person. Yeah It's a different definitely a different breed, which I'm like more power to you, but I'm just like I completely agree. It's crazy Okay, I have two more questions for you What is the biggest misconception people have about you? We're done with the questions

Right, um, yeah, what is the biggest misconception you think people have about you? We're done with the questions from the audience. Oh, okay. I like talking about other people's drama. I was like, yeah. You're like, put me in. Right. Yeah, what is the biggest misconception you think people have about you? I think you know what it is. I think it's just that I've had bad intentions. I think people think I'm a bad person, which I think is the worst part, because through all of it,

I've never really had bad intentions to hurt anyone ever. And I think that's the worst part of it, because I'm truly at my core. I've never hated hated anybody like anything It's really comes from a place of either like wanting attention being miserable or being just like completely ignorant So I like hate that people have like this. Oh, she's a horrible person I see all the time and I get why people say it but it's just like oh that sucks because it's like I've never I've truly Never been but I know I like made that bed. So like, you know, it is what it is

So I think that's the worst just like I never like had bad intentions. No, there was never malice I never wanted to like ruin someone's life. Totally. I also think just even from this interview I hope it gives people more clarity too because I feel like I Have seen so much of you online but I think this interview like we really kind of went from start to finish and it shows your growth of like where you came from like the decisions you made like the head space you were in and like, of course I'm not saying it was like right, but it's like it, you, people grow and people change

and the fact that you're even able to also like take accountability and I also love how you're like, but I also get it and like, I'm not asking. Like I think that's also a really mature way to look at it. Like there are just some people that will never look at you or me and like change their opinion if they hate us. That's okay. But you clearly know like you're a good person

and you did all of that in a place of whether it was, like you said, like jealousy or insecurity or just being in a bad place, like that happens. And I think it's obviously we have a social footprint that some people don't have that, but everyone said dumb shit in their life that can be hurtful or taken the wrong way. It doesn't always mean it's coming, yes,

from like a bad intentioned place where you're trying to like actually hurt someone. Yeah, it was never that. And I wasn't even diagnosed with borderline until I was 31 or something. Okay. So I was like, I had undiagnosed mental illness for like a really long time too. And again, like that doesn't like excuse it,

but they're like, it explains more. Cause I was like, wow, I really can't control myself. And then I was like, oh, this is like why. And now I can like work on like now I know how to like control myself and breathe. And do you feel better now when you're going into like doing your podcast? Do you feel like you now have a better handle on like what you're going to say and what you're not going to say, as if maybe in the other days, you'd be like, I'm just going to spew all this shit.

And yeah, I definitely was like taken to considerations, real feelings that like people will see it and people do like get hurt by it. You know what I mean? I know like Charlie DeMille just did Jay Shady's podcast. Like yeah, people were like really mean to me and like really affected me. And I was like spiraling and I was like, but you know, hopefully they change. I have a baby now. I'm like, oh my God, what are you talking about me?

Because I was like, and it was like I was so like I was so aggressive for no reason. And so like just you don't think that people will see it and stuff. So now I just really come out of place where I'm just like I really try to again find the silver lining try to find like the Optimisticness and everything, you know, it's of course fun to like gossip and stuff But I always feel like again if it's something like not nice or someone could hear that would make them feel bad I'm like, it's better just like, you know gossip with your husband. I was about to say literally just do it not online Yeah, yeah, every human being gossips. Everyone wants, drama is interesting to us as humans.

Just don't put it on the internet. Yeah, especially if it's not nice, if you're being mean. And that's like, I never even privately, I never even make fun of someone's looks. That to me is always weird. I mean, there's so many other things to say about people out there.

And I'm like, it's just weird when people attack their looks. I don't know. Well, that's just the lowest form of someone coming at someone who's like, you're such, that's just such a weak low blow. Yeah. And then you obviously have to be like, well, what's wrong with that person that they're going at someone's's like, you're such, like that's just such a weak low blow. And then you obviously have to be like, well, what's wrong with that person that they're going at someone's looks?

No, for sure. If like my husband started like making fun of like a girl, I'd be like, you're fucking weird. And like, I feel that way too. I'm like, it's just a weird thing. So it's like, there's so many other things like gossip and make fun of it, just, you know, make light of or whatever, but yeah.

Totally, totally. For those of who may not know, Trisha attempted to win a Guinness World Record for her speed reading skills. I love how the two of us, like I have to actively try to talk slower. Like I can talk so fast, I'm like, oh my God, Trisha, I'm so excited to go try that.

Like I can talk so fast and I'm like slow down. I didn't think that about you. Like I did not think of you as like this like really fast talker, cause you're so like poised and like put together. Okay. When I'm having fun with someone, which I am right now, I feel like we're actually having girl talk.

Where like some interviews, I'm like more doing the interview. And I'm like, I don't want to be a part of the conversation. I want it to be about them. But I feel like our vibe is just like, Oh, I love asking people. Yeah. I hate when it's like all about me. Like I love to be like, what about you?

Because I need to know where you're coming from. You know what I mean? You're like, what's going on over there? Are you judging me bitch? Yeah, for sure. No, I feel that. But then because you talk fast, my best friend Lauren talks so fast

that I feel the same way with you where I'm like, then I'm just gonna match your energy. Oh yeah. And then when I do talk fast, people are like, what the fuck? So. But I feel like people will like it. I know I get comments on my podcast like,

oh, my ADHD thanks to you because they just wanna keep going at that pace. That's actually such a good point. People can just be like, shut the fuck up, get to the point. we're getting there. We're getting we're moving fast. Okay before you go Okay, can you just speed read this little message to the daddy gang? Okay, you can read through it. It's literally a bunch of like nonsense It's just like happy new year Fast oh My gosh, okay. Luckily, there's no like two big words

Sometimes I get like the Guinness World Records is Hamlet soliloquy So it was like to be or not to be that is the question was noble in their mind if it was like this a whole Like really long thing and it's like this. I don't even know the words. It was so hard. All right, here we go daddy gang Thank you so much for having me. This has been so much fun. It's 24. Let's make it the best year ever It's the year stop giving a fuck about what other people like and to own our own confidence It's the year to try new things from the better one finally had that one is of organ the year of the it's year the giving The collect like 9000 only a trademark if you are also receiving some bomb ass head in return take risks which is about there Don't get too involved with the drama

It's never that deep give people second chances apologize when you're wrong pop that pussy shake that ass follow me where no accounts YouTube tick Tack it's room. Don't be stingy spread my only fans. You're feeling it. Tell my podcast just just I'd love you guys Thank you for taking the time to get to know me. I hope this isn't the last time we chat XOXO Trisha made us I didn't know it was like my outro. I love that. I would have put more umph into it. This is so true. That was iconic. Thank you so much for coming on Color Daddy. This was truly so fun. Yeah, thank you. Thank you. Thank you.