Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 125: IMARI’S DATE WITH THE BIGGEST DJ IN THE WORLD… - Ep. 125

Episode Date: June 27, 2025

Cancelled is back with Imari and talk about childhood food habits, old Vegas stories, brand deals, relationship dynamics, OCD, and daydreaming. They also reflect on the internet’s reactions to their friendship and what the future might look like for the show. For a limited time only, get 60% off your first order, plus free shipping when you head to https://Smalls.com and use code Cancelled.   Tana Mongeau Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tanamongeau/ Tana Mongeau Twitter: https://twitter.com/tanamongeau Tana Mongeau TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@tanamongeaulol Brooke Schofield Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/brookeschofield/ Brooke Schofield Twitter: https://twitter.com/BroookeAmber Brooke Schofield TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brookeschofield1 Brooke Schofield YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzCVovj7tfqnV2lIkaVk35A Produced by: https://instagram.com/oscaralva

Hello and welcome back to the cancel podcast. We have Amari. Wow. Oh my God. I'm so happy about this. Honestly, me too. I had a great time podcasting with you guys last time. Everybody loved it, rightfully so.

And you're our favorite guest. So you've got four more episodes till they turn. It was well received though. Unfortunately true. I think the three of us podcast really well together because I'm good friends with both of you. Honestly, I feel like yeah I hate these other bitches I just feel like well, I mean we go back further than like you and Paige and stuff

Yeah, it's just like a lot more lore and memories to talk about and we have our own memories that we've built Without her. Yeah You just love you so much, the people love you so much and we want to hate from you. You're the best. And we've been like, it's just, it's very interesting. Like as you bank episodes, I think sometimes it's just like you can tell, like we did one the other day

where I think I yawned maybe like 412 times. And like I was just trying so hard, but like, I don't know, this is nice. Yeah. And just like, you're a good conversationalist you make it easy Oh, which is nice. Love that song now what? Earlier we were like laughing about something really funny so back in the day like in high school when we go to Starbucks like what reminded me today is Tana had a sweet tea and When we were in high school Tana used to go into Starbucks

I don't know where you're going with this and I'm scared. Her iced black tea with 30 pumps of sugar not kidding she would say 30 Sometimes she cut back and do 28 like I'm not kidding though It would actually be like 30 pumps of sweetener, and it was actually the most insane thing. Do they do that? I feel like now that would be like a health and safety thing. No, it's like honestly if I ordered one right now, it's good as shit. It's good as shit. It was an expensive drink too.

Yeah, I bet. Isn't it like 50 cents a pump? Just tell them you want to drink classic syrup, like Nick's the tea. Oh my God, maybe I was pre-diabetic. It was so funny though. If you weren't then you are now. I just saw her sweet tea and for some reason

it just made me think back to that. I was like, damn, do you remember back in the day when you were really out here getting 30 pumps of sweetener? Very frequently. I think it's just like, I don't know if you can attest to this or like, there were no like food laws in my home. Like I don't know how to explain it. At all.

And also, well, I had like, obviously in my house, I was allowed to eat anything and I was like a very much like Oreos, Cheez-Its kind of household. And so when I discovered like health, it was like, oh my God, I'm such a genius, but I was like 15 or whatever and I was so obsessed with it that I didn't know anything like accurate. So I would drink like 75 Jamba juices in a day. And I'm like, why am I gaining so much weight? Did you have like a favorite after school snack? Oh, are you kidding? Listen to me.

When I tell you this, I was such a fucking monster. I used to wake up. My grandpa would make me like a breakfast sandwich, pancake, something. I would go to school. I would have a calzone and a French bread pizza for lunch with a brownie cookie and a soda Okay, and on the way home from school three hours later. I would get a Big Mac Fries sauce everything and that was just after school snack my family eats dinner at 5 p.m. So then literally two hours later I would have a full dinner. Whatever it was

Pork chops or some shit and then at 9 p.m. I would be starving again. I would have a full dinner, whatever it was, it was probably pork roast, pork chops or some shit, and then at nine p.m. I would be starving again, so I would have another, I was, I was, like the biggest back of all time. You're like today drained me, no babe, you're in a food coma. No, it was great. It was me every day.

And my grandma blessed her heart, but she, like, even before she had DaVenture, she never ever stopped going, are you hungry? Are you hungry? And I always yes. That's actually so sweet though. You know what I was just thinking about that my dad would do that I have not like talked about enough in life is that like he very much would look at the ingredients in the house, like whatever they could be and like make it like slop. Like you know what I mean? Like just like eggs with grape jelly, spaghetti with grape jelly, like whatever,

like the items. I love that, it's like, what's his name? Spencer from iCarly. Very Spencer-coded, but it would be so disgusting, and it's crazy if you really think about it. It's like, I'd rather eat grape jelly plain and then spaghetti, like how are you serving me like spaghetti with grape jelly,

and then you're mad that I won't eat it. It's like, why the fuck you complain? Go somewhere else then you fucking whore It was always go somewhere else then where the fuck am I gonna go Man that if you're fucking hungry Don't worry girl, I'm on the way with pop tarts My go-to after-school snack like My dad would pick me up from school or like after track practice or dance practice

I've tried every single blizzard there is from Dairy Queen because yeah, there was a Dairy Queen right next door school So every day after practice he would take me through the drive-through and my siblings would be pissed because they didn't get one but I mean I was just harder working. I feel like you still eat like I just described. What'd you say? 100%. Like you can eat anything. He has an entire dresser under his television with no socks and underwear all of the drawers are filled with candy. Okay, first of all, she's lying on my name. No, I'm with her on this when I see this. Let me clarify because my socks and underwear are in a drawer in my closet.

That's what I'm saying! No, but the dresser, there's like, there's two drawers that are dedicated to candy, okay? And they're massive! Yeah, they are big. Two big drawers. Yes, they are. Yeah, it is too much for sure. And I just can't let someone think that I have a dresser full of candy That's a little excessive being drawers of your dresser makes the story no better

Nicole came over to do my hair and Kim's looking through the pantry pantry and she was just like is there any candy and I was Like I don't know maybe and she's like should I go to a Mari's room? Like even she knows that. No, the guests, no, like sometimes, like Sade, sometimes she'll just come storming into my room and she's like, can I get some candy? And I'm like, yes, yes, it's me, Willy Wonka, the candy man of the friend group.

No, but I love that about you. But I will have my own candy brand one day, mark my words. You need to. I want a beef brand. I reached out to Mike Malak. I was like, who's got the beef? And then he, it's so funny. He responded like so intelligently. He did. He had a really insightful answer. I almost regret. Sometimes I regret asking Mike Malak questions. Yeah. Because he really like takes it there and I love him so much. I'm so grateful for it. But then I like, I

came to and I was like having a meat brand is a cancelable offense. I guess it is maybe, but then I'm also like like you eat beef all the time like what it like I know it's not like you're slaughtering the cat no I sound it's wrong I don't even like it coming out of my mouth. Do you know that I reached out to PETA to try and work with PETA and they rejected me? Do you know that you also did a meet and greet in a shirt that said people eat tasty animals with the PETA logo? Oh shit. I actually sent that back. No way. I swear. No way. I know some animals.

I really am passionate and I do love animals, but I'm an odd vegan and I do eat animals. They clocked the shit out of you. You know some intern, it was like their third day and they were just, they had time. This is too easy. I guess I just like, for some reason I was like, how could you get rejected from doing charity work?

That is actually very wild when you put it that way though. Because obviously you're following, you could provide. I figured that there were levels to it. And I thought that I could be an animal lover and advocate without having to be a vegan, very serious. Has anybody ever done PETA? Because wasn't there a point in time where you like did PETA, almost like Playboy? Like, bitches, remember like, would be in like the fur coat.

I think Pam works with PETA a lot. Yeah, but I feel like she is a vegan, Pamela Anderson. Yeah, she's like a huge animal. Has anybody ever done PETA that isn't, like is Khloe Kardashian a vegan? I know she worked with PETA. Let's get Tara's world on the track. Is she vegan? Yeah, she is. SheA. Let's get Tara's world on the track. Is she vegan?

Yeah, she is. She's been doing my, uh. Yeah, she has. That's all I saw. I love her. Anyway, sorry PETA. No. It'll never happen again. No, yeah.

We don't say that enough. Like just some niche ass shit. It'll never happen again. It'll never happen. I say that actually a lot. Chloe Kodash Kardashian is not vegan Aaron just searching Chloe Kardashian with a C is so funny oh my god have you ever heard a gay man with a spray tan I just saw him I just saw him oh my I love him when I see him we literally will be like hi with a K if there's one thing you guys know about me, it's that Murphy and Mouse, my cats, are my pride and joy.

Okay? I love my cats more than I love my friends, my family, my co-host, my fiance, everybody. But if you guys recall, Mouse does struggle a little bit with his eating habits. He is known to eat regular household items that no animal should consume. And so naturally, as a good parent,

I had to really take a look at what I was feeding my cats. It felt nearly impossible to find a food that both of my cats would like because Murphy's really picky and Mouse is a bangle so he has to have really high quality food. A few months ago I started feeding them smalls which has been a godsend okay because not only do they both love it but it's protein packed ingredients with no preservatives. It has made my life exponentially easier because they get delivered right to my door. So I just go on every week.

I choose which flavors they want and they show up every Friday and the cats love it so much you guys. If I feel like they're getting tired of something or they've just had too much of something, I just go in, switch their flavors and their life is exciting again. Mouse's favorite at the moment is ground bird

and Murphy prefers smooth pig. They truly love it so much. They finish their food every single time, which is so exciting for me as a mother. And it's exciting for me to see less of my household items disappearing because mouse is full. And yes, of course a cat can survive off of kibble alone. But it is scientifically proven that our cats are better,

healthier and more functional when they have protein packed diet diet after switching to smalls eighty eight percent of cat owners reported overall health improvements That is a huge deal you guys and for a limited time only because you are a cancelled listener You can get sixty percent off of your first order at smalls plus free shipping by using my code Cancelled that is sixty percent off when you head to Smalls.com and use promo code cancelled. Again, that promo code is cancelled for 60% off your first order plus free shipping at Smalls.com. Okay, we love our cats. Wait, Brooke, you're gonna love this. You want to know what I did recently? Yes. So I went to Vegas and it was to celebrate Mother's Day but it was a week

after and it was during EDC weekend and Zed was performing. And obviously like we love him. We love Anton. And I was like, fuck, I really want to go to the show and like going to the club during EDC weekend, they'll typically give you like a comp table and stuff. Like if you're from Vegas and if you don't even need clout or anything like that, if you just know the people and they, you can't do that during EDC weekend because it's like everyone comes through with all the money to spend you know no free tables are happening and

I'm like how the fuck do I go to Zedd's show? I took it upon myself to text Anton. And I was like hey like it's Amari blah blah blah like I'm coming into Vegas I'm also in town for the weekend like I'd love to come to the show with like three friends and he was like oh yeah absolutely I was like and it was so funny too because like Vegas friends and stuff everyone's still scrambling to try and go to the show and I'm like okay well I have me and my plus three like we're fine to be at the stage and everyone's like people are like oh my god like whose table are you going to how are you going how are you going

blah blah blah I'm like I texted Zed. I like often think about the Zedd era of our lives and I'm just like how because Ashley was dating Michael who was in this music group called Gray. Yeah. And they made that song like the middle one. The middle starving. Yeah. And so we all became like very intertwined and like sometimes I'll just think to myself, like I have this scar on my leg that I got from running through Resorts World

to jump on and attack Zed. I was bleeding everywhere and whatever. And I'll see him and he's still nice and I'm like, it's crazy how much he just put up with. I remember one time he was doing a show at ZUK and I was crawling on the fucking DJ board and he got yelled at by Resorts World after that. There's just so many memories where it's like he

shouldn't still be like letting us in. No seriously. It was actually amazing. I house sat for that, like not house sat, but so I had found a dog at the gas station. Stugen! Yeah, I found a dog at the gas station. They wanted a dog, Anton and Arkadiy. Arkadiy is Zed's brother, Antoine's brother, and they lived together

and they took the dog so when they needed a babysitter for the dog I would go to Zed's house to babysit the dog. And it's like at the time he was living in like his AD house, like the Arkadiy Lidovsky mansion. The craziest, most beautiful mansion of all time, but all glass, like all glass windows. So I'd be sitting there on the couch and it would be dark outside and I was like, oh my god Everyone in this city can see right into me on this couch right now. I get so scared It's such an interesting house. Like it really is like

And one time I'm sitting there on the phone. I'm already like kind of freaked out I'm freaking myself out. I'm hearing noises and all of a sudden every light in the house goes off Cuz it could they're controlled by there. He controlled him on there his phone Because they're controlled by their, he controlled them on his phone. And so I freaked out, I grabbed that dog so fast I took it to my apartment and he stayed with me for the rest of the weekend. I was like, I am not going there. That is so funny. Was he fucking with you? I don't know, I think it was like an accident. I also don't even know if he knew I was there. Because it was like I was there for our Cudi.

Yeah. But that was a fun time. I miss like that era. It's like I loved Vegas so much. I used to go to Vegas every single weekend, no matter who it was, Martin Garrix, anyone, I'm like, how do I get in the DJ booth? And why, what is the, it's just so funny, the psychology behind that, feeling like you're just, I remember I'd be like, oh my God,

I'm gonna flash my tits behind Zed and I'm so cool. It's like, put them away. It works, it was the most amazing thing because the first time I went to Vegas, it was my friend Nana I was with, and the guy picked her out of the crowd He was like come with me took her took us to the DJ booth and we never left for three years It's just like you're just in a booth But it's because I guess like I had come from Coachella when I was like, oh my god

I'm a million miles away from Dylan Francis or Martin Garrix or whatever it is, and this is the coolest, most amazing thing in the world. I cannot believe that I can just go to Vegas and be this close to them. Yeah, and watching them do that shit, especially when it's people who are high level, talented, insane, is so cool.

Yeah, and people are rolling. Some people roll. I miss when he was not, because he's sober now, right? Yeah, he looks so good. I was like, holy shit I was like what the fuck and that's what was cool to like how you're saying It's cool seeing them in their element and stuff like being back there like I typically don't care to be like I mean Being at the DJ booth is obviously awesome and more convenient

But being at a table also doesn't suck at all either but something about it being during EDC weekend 525,000 people flew into Vegas to like just be at this fucking crazy festival and stuff like seeing that I was like, holy Shit, I felt cool. I felt cool there. I'll say it and I was fucking him with the spray tan I think I was more excited to see him than see that. I'm not even kidding. You guys should have him on the podcast. He would have like a lot of lore, but I'm just like, we're always teetering the line of that Kardashian cease and desist. Yeah.

I'm actually like just afraid. Speaking of. Skims like sent me a bra the other day and asked me to make a TikTok for it. And I was like, some intern doesn't know. Some intern, like you sure? Sometimes I just like lose track of like what we say and stuff too.

Like I ran into Haley the other day beeper And I'm like afraid to look her in the eye cuz like god forbid she came across a clip one day and like someone saying like I never say anything bad about Haley Bieber by the way, but I'm like I get scared cuz I'm like, what if she's like that dumb. I think she is safe I don't have we ever I dragged I Dragged road through the mud on tiktok because their lip product made like melted my lips off my face And I just knew because it got I think I was a coincidence I don't know they didn't disclose that the tree nuts in their products and my lips melted off my base

And it was crazy. Did you read the fine print? Actually, um I probably could have filed a lawsuit. We're not gonna talk about that. But, no, I did not read any fine print. There was no fine print. It's like somewhere like look look at your shit. Look at your shit. Does not say contain nuts. Although this flavor is called peanut butter and jelly. Okay, well, I don't think watermelon had anything like that in there, but it was crazy because I just knew when that TikTok started blowing up and getting millions of views, I just know the road offices were in shambles with my TikTok pulled up on a PowerPoint.

I was like, well, yeah, they're fine. They don't need me. I'll kill myself. My slander did nothing. No, I'm a kiss-ass. I don't even care. Haley, I love you. I love Haley, honestly.

I do. I always have written for her She is everything but you get hate for that these days people are like you're well now. It's flip you would like now It's flipped. It's so wild the way the internet works because now it's like she's a billionaire And we always should have loved her now. I think he has money No, I think the what's a slip was everyone was like Justin sucks Or like Justin's like obviously like not that nice to her sometime. Yeah, I think people started being like wait She's amazing Vogue yes was crazy

Mako could tell me that and I would fucking smack him upside his head and I'm never gonna be on the cover of Vogue I can't even imagine someone who like has a viable valid chance You know it's like and just to post that like is all like especially there's like something to be said I feel like that happens a lot where people want to make your big moments like somehow about them Mm-hmm, and I feel like that he I mean, you know what? Billy I made a song about that. Yeah, it's just yeah I thought the vote post is crazy too because it's just like imagine that coming from your husband and like someone that's just like So successful like Justin Bieber, you know, it's just like imagine that coming from your husband and like someone that's just like so successful like Justin Bieber

You know it's like it's embarrassing. Yeah, just feels like you're getting like shat on you know like damn like I want good things for me, too She has she has been on the cover of Vogue like before now. Oh really yeah And he only has two Vogue covers, and she's in both of them That is why like I don't understand it all to be honest with you. I'm also, I'm not a Justin Bieber hater, I just, I don't like that caption. I know, it sucks that I love him so much, but it's like.

That ain't no man. I think just like, any, like adding anything to the fire when, when peace shared, he gets so much hate and then being like, and by the way, I said yeah, but never be shit. You've gotta be like socially aware of the like, my husband hates me, final boss, yada yada, and then you're just gonna throw gasoline on that.

Yeah. It's very interesting. I wish nothing but the best for them. I don't know these people. At all. Me neither, I really teeter the line of being so unbelievably parasocial and then also so frustrated

with how unbelievably parasocial everyone else is. I'm like, you guys don't know these people and also, I don't know these people. 100%, but you know what I mean? This is our job. We have no choice. I wonder what would happen if we just completely rebranded, canceled, right now.

Starting right now, our next episode, we only talked about philosophical shit and architecture and six viewers. It would end us. It's kind of a funny segment though. If we started like having Devon look up like things and quizzing us or like, you know what I mean? No, I always thought we should have an educational segment

or like a vocabulary lesson since we like get so many words wrong. Yeah. Or at the very least talk about what we've gotten wrong on the previous episode. That would be really funny. Like the things we learned from the last episode, like for example the time I said Ehlers-Danlos was a really minor disease. Wait, wasn't I on that episode? When you were talking about... We talked about it a lot though. Do you have it?

We don't know. Cause like I said to you, I was feeling like complete and utter shit and then I came home and I feel great. So I think, well, are you just talking about like right now in life? No, just generally speaking, do you think you have like, Ellers, Donlos flare ups?

I don't know. You're so valid. You're so, it's adding to the Natalia Grace allegations. No. No, you're valid. I know my scoliosis is so bad my hip is actually dislocated and like and I was joking about it all across tour and I come home and I have like I don't know the term it's ends in my gosis with my muscles something and Dr. Javid's exact words were like things are just compressing like I'm like compressing too fast

Which is like now affecting my hips and knees and arms and like everything attached to my spine So it's are getting shorter. What yes, and you think that's why you're you say your feet keep growing you Into the ground and your base is getting wider Oh like dead ass probably they're collapsing probably, I'm not even kidding. When I come home I have to do stem cells. What's that? I don't know where they inject stem cells into all my shit. I think that's good.

I think that it is supposed to be really good. Yeah, but it just, it feels very baby's bloody to me. Like what do you mean stem cells? Where does that come from? Doesn't that come from like placentas and shit? I think stem cells are from no I have no idea I was gonna just I was just gonna start spreading misinformation. Yeah, I got my pre nuvo results Oh, I was literally just about to ask that mm-hmm and and I didn't have anything like crazy

I had like findings I had like something with my thoracic Vertebrae or something I have fluid in my my uterus that's not supposed to be there. I have cysts on my uterus. I have cysts on my liver. What do I have then? All that Tylenol. Do I have a person living in there? I have a cyst on my liver. I have, it's all like very minor though.

And there's some just informational findings. For example, my breast tissue is denser than others. I swear to God it said that. It did say that. It says I have implants, which was a shock. But it is very like, it's cool. Because I mean, I don't have cancer. I don't have tumors.

I don't have anything like- How many obligations to talk about it on the podcast did they give you? I already covered them like two episodes Trying to share something with my friend Is because this brand was just asking me to like organically talk about their product on the podcast and it's like the most Inorganic thing whatever I've you'll know come on. Get played on us. But first pre new voe.com But first, prenewvo.com slash brookescofield. No, but I kind of love that. I love when brands want that.

Cause it's like, we don't get it very often, right? Where a brand is asking us to organically talk about something on a podcast, but I bet like that's happening all the time from the brand safe podcasts of the world. You know? I really wanted to do it. So I was like, yeah, of course I'll talk about it. But now I'm supposed to post it on Instagram

and I posted it on my stories, and I got ripped apart. Why? Why? Because it's like, I actually understand it, because it's like- Very expensive? It's very expensive, and it just feels like, people are like, this is so tone deaf, like most people can't afford this,

and like, I understand that too, so it's like, maybe I just don't post it, maybe I just pay for it, and shut the fuck up, but it was very, it was something I wanted to know, and- You're an influencer, and I just don't post it, maybe I just pay for it and shut the fuck up. But it was something I wanted to know. And you're an influencer and you're posting for some shit. Like I think that that is one of the like crazy, doesn't feel real, what the fuck insane perks of being an influencer.

Or just like a luxury that obviously like a lot of people can't afford. But there are- Well I'm more so saying that other people would take that perk if given the thing. I just think like, you know, some people can't afford but there are also saying that other people would take that perk if given mm-hmm I Just think like you know some people can't get a mammogram, but like people should get mammograms if you can why are mammograms So antiquated what that felt like I was just saying I don't know what antiquated mean But like like how they smash your tit in between like two fucking big plates Oh, I think they're really looking for something, but it's like there's gotta be to Elon Musk do something. You know what I mean?

Yeah, well American health care is just like really disgusting and disturbing. Anyway, I can't get health insurance Nobody can get health insurance. I am coming to the realization that I think I have OCD Integrated old-fashioned or outdated Wow use that one, right? Wow You could definitely have OCD it sucks cuz and it's also just very funny like me saying I have OCD because the public perception of OCD for the most part is like organized and like whatever you know what I mean? I don't have that kind. What do you mean? But that's very like rare I feel like most people's OCD is like like ruminating thoughts or like or random rituals that like some people wouldn't even know about. Yeah I feel like mine is very much

ruminating thoughts and I like for a while I just thought it was anxiety. And then it's just like, I don't know, it's becoming more and more prevalent to me. Like the other night I'm in the kitchen with Makoa and he's cooking me dinner. And I'm replaying over and over and over in my head that he could take the knife he's cooking dinner with and stab me to death right now.

And like, could not stop. It's like, Makoa's not gonna stab you to death. So weird. Yeah, that's really weird. And I just like, oh my God, I just keep not gonna stab you to death. So weird. Yeah, it's like really weird And I just like oh my god I just keep having shit like that happened to me where I have like a Constant I had one on stage and it freaked me the fuck out like an Amsterdam for our last show Where I was just like I could literally like shit and fucking scream into the mic right now

Like I could just walk off stage I could just like like my brain was ruminating on the fact that like if I stopped yes like if I stopped just like telling the show I could like yell my deepest darkest secret right now I could like whatever to the point that I was like freaking the fuck out on stage and I was like damn I think I have OCD and it's crazy because this could like affect my so how do you go about getting diagnosed with that do you talk to a psychiatrist I should probably do that I've been talking like Jake Shane and Mike may lack I think I have mental Tourette's. Why do you think that? I don't know I have like certain things are like I'll get the most random like flashbacks that are so specific and like it'll be like weeks

At a time I'll get the same one same one same one same one and then like something new will be it But it's like always it like I put myself in a very specific memory in a very specific place and for some reason, like when I'm doing my makeup, I'm like there. It's so weird. But it's like in my head, it's like, I picture like a record player and I picture it like stopping on that, like my brain like stops on that little thing.

And then it's like- You don't feel like you're like maladaptive daydreaming? All these words. No, cause it's like- Shut the fuck up, get up. I'm not like moving through anything. It's like literally just like all of a sudden I'll remember like being in a house somewhere

like when I was six. Yeah. And I'm like, ooh. That's really weird. Are they doing memories for the most part? I don't know if that's Tourette's, but it's like uncontrolled, like I can't control thinking about it.

How adaptive daydreaming is excessive, vivid daydreaming that interferes with daily life and relationships causing distress and hindering functioning. I've always kind of done that. I've always kind of done that just in general, yeah. Like I love doing that, to fall asleep. That has been what brought me through most of my life, because it's so fun to imagine my life a certain way.

Yeah. And by that I mean whatever. I fall asleep a lot too, just put myself in some random situation, whether it's real life, or if I put myself in a show, or I put myself in Grey's Anatomy so many times, or a video game, or something like that and then I start actually dreaming,

like I fall asleep and then now I'm in it and I'm like oh hell yeah you did that. Oh that's cool to transfer it into your dreams mind, just not work like that. For a year I was like where am I going with Pete Davidson? I have to cut it, I have to cut that. I have to cut that, I literally have to cut that. I'm gonna kill myself.

I am like, I am my own worst enemy because it's like, just don't admit that. Like, you literally, I was... I think it's totally... We went everywhere. He loves you! Waking up like, that's my man for real. No, but for a while I felt like if I maladaptive daydreamed something, I could like make it come true.

And I won't get into those ones,. Seriously, it's just like too much. But once again, I'm obviously psychic. So like I was really hoping that one would just, you know, wrinkle into reality. Less psychic, more witch. That's crazy. Oh, my God. So earlier we were talking about speaking of going somewhere with someone. Earlier, we were talking about where speaking of going somewhere with someone, earlier we were talking about where you may be going in your relationship

you think you might be getting proposed to. Well, I know I'm getting proposed to. Oh, yeah. What? Okay, just like, no, honestly, I'll say. The way you said it is funny. No, well, Amari wasn't with it. Like, we talk, we like are very open about it.

Like, we talk about it, we know we're getting engaged, but. That's so cute. I God love lockdown. I'm so excited, but I am very like I'm being really annoying about it first of all I'm asking BB every day am I getting engaged today am I getting engaged today am I getting and he Yes, I know for they're both like shut the hell up or we're never gonna do I love weird but BB is being a little suspicious right now because she wanted to get her nails done today or she made an appointment three days ago

for us to get her nails done today, which is already just like, we don't do that. Me and Bibi go day of, spur of the moment. How often do you guys get your nails done together versus alone? Every time. But, we don't make an appointment. It's always like, do you need your nails done? Yeah, I need my nails done. We go, so she made an appointment, but then I, honestly I do sound crazy. She, I couldn't go today. It

was the appointment was for today, made three days ago, and I said I can't go today. And she goes, instead of saying, okay, I'll go without you, she said, okay, then I'm gonna have to move our appointment Which makes me think I have to get my nails done which means I'm getting engaged Obviously how likely is the scenario of her going without you versus moving your appointment for the two of you? I just like I think neither of us would move the appointment after I already like planning it days ago We just be like, ah, fuck you. Also, what kind of nails are she gonna go? Isn't she a lesbian now? Why she's so eager is just to get the like acrylics with the two gel fingers

No, she has like her little like tiny nails right now, but no, but also like yes, she is I overheard at some point on tour of you and miles having a conversation about It potentially happening before Australia. So that's why I'm like I know but now I don't want to disappoint myself that way because it's like what if it isn't and like there's nothing on my books you know what I mean it's not like we're like we happen to be going somewhere or like yeah what do you mean you happen to be going down under no I mean like like a date or something like oh I'm literally an idiot yeah so like so I don't know I know it's not gonna be like a big proposal cuz I don't want a big proposal.

But so like, what is it? So when you say you don't want a big proposal, like what? And I think I agree with you. I think it's like nice, you know, but like what's. What's your dream proposal? I guess what I'm asking? I don't know. Like, that's hard. I don't have a dream proposal.

I have like almost just the opposite, like what I don't want it to be. OK. I think because I have so much like that's hard. I don't have a dream proposal I have like almost just the opposite like what I don't want it to be okay I think because I have so much like like birthday trauma not like you're not the birthday trauma But I hope you're gonna assume you are so like no I've always felt really weird about like big grand gestures or anything like that because it just makes me like Anxious so I have never wanted that I want it to be like so Like chill us too. I want it to be like so like chill us too. I want it to be cute still I don't want to do it at Burger King. Well I just don't think anyone should ever propose to someone in a restaurant in general. I

don't know I would be like rock with the Chili's proposal. Chili's I want a proposal for a brand deal. Yeah I don't know I don't know what I would want. He's always said like he feels like he's just gonna know exactly when he wants to do it and he's gonna do it. What if that's in like an air wand? Like do you think he means it like that? No, no, I don't think he means it like that. No, I think it's so cool that you both just like, no.

I think it's good too, like where he's at in his life, you know what I mean? Like, yeah. With him being older, I think he'll make sure that it's like really relevant. Yeah, I feel like it's gonna be so, even just like knowing the both of your like aesthetic, it's gonna be very like Pinterest and like, you know.'t have an aesthetic. Yes. I don't have an aesthetic My I feel like miles is very like cool girl as a guy

I don't know how to explain that you think so we went to his parent like to His dad's birthday was the other day and we went and had lunch with them and his mom told him like as we were leaving She goes I Really love you so much more now that you're with her aww that's honestly awesome wait what? that's so sweet though

that is cute what a funny way to say that yeah she's like I really love you and I love you so much more now that she's here that's so sweet he's like love you too but yeah I guess I would have liked to have had like a like, oh my God, I'm so surprised. But like now I'm like, tell me when it is.

I want to know. No one's telling you when it is. I need an outfit. You'll have an outfit. She refreshes Revolve new today every day. I don't think there's anybody who like, like. There's not an item on Revolve that I have not seen. Like, I feel like people go on and then they see new today and they're like, hell yeah, new today. Like there's not an item on revolve that I have not seen.

Like I feel like people go on and then they see new today and they're like, hell yeah, new today. But Rook is like, what is new today? I do. And now I'm doing it on the real real as well. It's like, it's a part of my major social media. Uh oh, don't tell her that. No, but I just, I need to stop. You know why I need to stop? Because I made a pile of all my like vintage things that I've been buying to do a haul for a YouTube video and I put it beside my bed.

And as I'm putting this pile beside my bed, I think to myself, this is really dumb to just like put all these things like right where my feet go. And then I woke up the other morning at like 8 a.m. to me just cracking a pair of Chanel sunglasses. No. Well why was she with the sunglasses on the ground?

Because I was like, this is my haul pile. Why wouldn't she, you know? It's so true. I've been looking on the ground? Because I was like, this is my wall pile. Why wouldn't she? You know? It's so true. I've been looking on the real real specifically for you because you have a birthday coming up. Oh my god, that's very sweet. Yeah.

I have it on the hunt for a gift for her too and I'm like, oh my god. Everyone's so nice. It's going to have to be secondhand this time, girl. I'm still. I'm like, rent's real expensive these days. This is one of the sweetest gifts I've ever received though because I do now that I switch them a lot I like take off my card. This is the like skip this part. We'll put a time on the screen where this part is over I switch my Cartier bracelets from wrist to wrist a lot because they like to change up me stack

And when I do that, I open it and I see George Mickey and I think it's very sweet Oh, I forgot that that's all that what I forgot That's on there It always just makes me laugh because I know that is the only time in Cartier's history that they have seen George's McGee Engraved into a solid gold bracelet or sure now and I had to wait a few extra days for that I was like I give this to her today instant gratification. I had to wait days for it. That's awesome. All right, everyone. We're back I had to wait days for it. I think that's awesome. All right, everyone. We're back Way I want to talk about something speaking of George McGee like when you guys were just on tour Everyone was seeing George's gate finally for the first time which I think is just

Hilarious Either of your guys's teams No, I can always I can always see both sides because like, well, first of all, like, because I know you guys, I just, I can just see, I could feel you guys arguing. Like, I could just put myself in that room and just being like, like, okay, she's right, okay, she's right,

okay, now she's right, okay, now she's right. Like, you know? And it's just so funny because like I Obviously see this shit all over tik-tok and stuff and people like taking sides and everything and I'm just like the way people are like Almost making it seem like you guys literally fucking hate each other makes me like Absolutely laugh because I'm just like you guys this is where the parasocial jumps out with people It's like you guys if you guys fucking hated each other's guts you guys wouldn't be sitting on these couches right now you know and like you guys wouldn't be touring together and stuff and it's just like

Yeah, like that like ended your guys's friendship or something like that and there's like sides. No, there's a new one because I We were like honestly, I was kind of I was being When she hit you with the stop poking the bear I'm gonna admit it right now. When she hit you with the stop poking the bear, I was like damn she kinda ate me. No, it was in a couple episodes later. She loves to poke the bear. It wasn't even the Jortsgate, it's a new one,

it's because we were talking in, I don't know. Why are you getting so defensive? Yeah, yeah, yeah. After fucking poking at me, her friend was like oh my gosh, thank you, Jesus. But it's why I was playing a game with like the rest of the room, which I'm sometimes doing like sometimes.

At my expense! And see, this is exactly, like this is where the sisterhood jumps out. I know, and like, God that's. And I swear to God, it's so funny too, because I watched that back and I was like, this is Tuesday. I didn't even think like, wow, this is like, because I'm just like that, it's all dynamic. I know, but then in my head, I'm like, there's so many omitted details,

and so many ways to interpret this, but the general consensus, and I know usually, if the masses are on a side, I'm probably on the wrong side. But I only mean like, that like, people do just fill in so much. Like, you know, Jortsgate, you know, with whatever, like, the way that, you know what I mean?

Like, yes, they saw Jortsgate. Yes, they saw that episode of the podcast. And we put it out there, so it's like, I don't care. I'm just saying, I think that then people assume and like, just fill in everything else. And it's kind of just like, yeah. But basically I was like, you don't go outside. And I was like, you would have so much more fun

if you went outside, but like, you don't. And she was like, I want to work. And I was like, oh, this is like fun if you went outside But like you don't and she was like I want to work and I was like oh This is like we were playing like Ireland or something. Yeah. Yeah, and so I formally apologize I actually did apologize You can't even get it out I apologize to you on my own time I said you know what I am sorry because that was like I was being like but in my head like I really Let me go ahead and go back on everything um I would I would never want to cut into

your work time I want to cut into your time playing I only play good so it's already night and now the new game and on planes and on planes and on planes have you ever seen me play it not on the plane accountability she'll be like I played good sorting match for seven hours yesterday and then I'll be like, I played good sorting match for seven hours yesterday. And then I'll be like, but you said you didn't have time to go outside and she's like, I was working. It's fine in the daytime, only on a plane. Wait, that was so real though. I played good sorting match for seven hours.

That's the time I want to cut into. I want to cut into your good sorting time. But then people are like, well, if she wants to sort goods, she can sort goods. Not everything's about you. So in the midst of fucking la boo boo gait, okay? And you bitches are just WWE over a stuffed doll. I'm like, the goods, I ain't gonna sort themself. I'm like, shit, let me have my peace.

You're like, I have anxiety, I need to sort goods. For all of this? I'm not kidding, there would be some points in the green room where like Bibi or just anyone, just something would be happening, and I'd be like, I have anxiety, I need to sort goods. But all of this... I'm not kidding! There would be some points in the green room where like, Bibi or just anyone, just something would be happening. And I'd be like, I gotta sort my goods. It actually became like my coding mechanism. But all of those things had a common theme. And that was, I just want to spend more time with my friends in Europe.

See, when that whole thing happened, like, when I was seeing stuff. I could also see both sides of that too. It's like, duh, you want to create memories with someone and stuff. And like, it's like, these are like once in a lifetime opportunities and stuff. And who knows when you'll ever be back in this place with these people. But then again, it's also like, yeah, if the bitch is tired, the bitch is tired. And it's like, you know, just. I am definitely, I'm the sleepy care bear. I think that it is like.

Just our perceptions of things sometimes are different, and you very much are the type of person it is like, just our perceptions of things sometimes are different and you very much are the type of person who's like, I only see this out like in my person, you know what I mean? And like you guys might not be going back for like a long time because Miles doesn't like to fly and like you guys were looking at this with this like beautiful new eye and like vacation and whatever and I think I was very much looking at that as like, and this is obviously a privilege to even say this. I don't wanna say it and come off crazy,

but I'd been to Paris, I'd been to London, I wasn't, and I just can't, truly just no matter what, with the shows, I don't know. I know, it did make me feel bad though, because I felt, and you've said it, but you did not have a good time, you know what I mean? And that, I felt bad, because I was like, and you've said it, but like, you did not have a good time, you know what I mean? And that, like that, I felt bad because I was like, I feel like you would have enjoyed it more if you,

like I understand- I had concepts of a good time. But you know what I mean? You kept saying, like, I won't say what you compared it to. But you really had a horrible time and like the whole time I was like, I felt like if you were like really like

spending your days out, you would have not maybe had such a horrible time. But I also understand that maybe we wouldn't have gotten to the show if we. Yeah, I just because even in the US, like, you know, my like my show battery, it's just it's not it's not. It ain't what it used to be. And like I it's and it is harder being sober, I think, because I just feel it all. And like dead ass truly, like even just getting out there, I like, I don't know, like how nice would it be

to tour with zero other obligations? Like I think that then maybe I would also have more energy, but it's like, oh my God, I don't know. Like I was just like doing a lot of shit, but like it is what it is, you know what I mean? I know, well I do apologize. I really do. And not in a like, I apologize,

but I know I did say that a couple times. I remember when you guys were on the US tour. I don in a like, I apologize, but I know I did say that a couple times. I remember when you guys were on the US tour. I don't even like I hope you know, I was never like seeking it. Like I said, I watched it. And I was just like, I guess I just keep seeing these tech talks that are like, and there's a huge feud. No texting or like, wait, is there? I think people just kind of being led into what maybe more so of our off camera conversations can look like sometimes

Yeah, in fact we fight worse As my sister that's funny I remember like when you was on the US tour and I came for the last like two and a half weeks and stuff like Cuz Mako wasn't there and I was and we were sharing a hotel room and like every city we were in like I would get up and like I knew she was fucking exhausted and stuff I also had raging diarrhea that was like to play It's just like God like actually does test me a little more. Yeah, she was just like tired stuff I'd wake up and like just walk on the city the by myself and I asked her like oh, I'm gonna do this Like do you want to like come meet me later? You want me and she's like, maybe I'm like, it's not gonna happen

But also I'm like, okay. Bye. I'm just gonna do my thing like whatever like I can live It is one or the other for me It's also hard though because it's like I'm saying raging diarrhea, and then it's like put the whopper down then I have a whopper at home, and I don't have raging like I don't know what it is like just yeah Yeah, I take such I was crazy. Yeah that diary was not I remember you heard me one night. Yes And I was just like what you said it sounded like pouring oatmeal yes I'm not like oatmeal like just falling into a toilet. I was like oh Yeah, it was crazy. We didn't have to say that.

I'm happy we did though. It's making me feel closer. I brought my PS5 too. I remember I turned my PS5 on and I was like, no, no, no, no, no. This is not happening right now. You know what I wanna start? I feel like we should all start playing

with our Nintendo Switches. So fun. I also appreciate that like, gameplay with other people, like just like, like not. Yeah, I also appreciate that gameplay with other people. Just like not. Yeah, I'll sort your goods with you. My new one is eVenture, and I don't even, it's worse, it's even worse.

I run a little cafe, and I'm deleting it tonight. It's ADHD. I do just have crippling ADHD that affects me in so many ways, and it's so hard, because it's like, I don't know. I will say, I have ADHD too. A lot of people are like, you don't know what it's like. I'm like, no, I actually literally have that. But I, well, buterin' has completely eliminated

like ADHD paralysis for me. Not eliminated, but like I do not experience it like I used to. I used to like, it was like I have the world to do so I cannot move. I cannot move my eyes. I cannot move my hands. But I'm not like that, like, I don't know,

at home or in the daytime, like, it really, I was just experiencing like an extreme low during tour and like now I feel pretty back and I'm hoping Australia just doesn't do that to me. I don't think it will. I think it's gonna be good. And just the dynamics, yeah, like, I don't know, like, just all of it.

Like, I'm, I love Bibi so goddamn much. But I think you might be a little less on edge. I was only on edge for like three days because of Bibi the last three days, but boy was I on edge. I watched that TikTok of you guys eating McDonald's together in your hotel room. Oh, I was being so funny about this.

I felt rage for you. No, it was- I was like, oh my god The way she was like ripping the food out of your hands and like knocking it all over your bed She knows mouse was there That was giving mouse and I pictured like just us two and I was just like, oh my god Cuz I'm so that I personally like can I can eat in the bed and like not make him fucking psychotic met I can eat in the bed and like not make a fucking psychotic mess. A lot of people can eat in the bed and not make a raging mess, you know? No, I just ordered like actually like over $200 in stain removing products.

It's getting out of hand. But I was just sitting there watching that and I was just like, oh my God, I really just like pictured like this one right there. And I was like, wow, I really feel for her right now. And then just like Yeah, the way the ripping the other day the other day. We're sitting. We're laying in my bed and mind you I have my phone in my hand laptop and my hard drive is plugged into my laptop this bitch right here first of all you Can't just rip a hard drive out you have to eject it because then like sometimes your files can go corrupt

You can lose the entire project. I'm working on a YouTube video She just, no, no questions asked. Just reaches for the cord that my hard drive is plugged into my computer in, like literally grabs it, doesn't rip it. I go, what are you doing, what are you doing? She goes, can I use this charger? That's my hard drive.

But like still like hand on it. Like let it go. And also ask, ask. Like what's your laptop at? Can I use that? Like, you know, maybe even something like that. And then like five minutes later, we learned about this feature on iPhones

where like when you press this, the camera button or whatever, you can like zoom, like change the zoom if you like swipe it up and down, which I didn't know. And I'm sitting there like amazed by it. You can change it to front camera or whatever. And I'm like, whoa, this is so cool. And I'm experimenting with it. She just rips my phone out of my hand while I'm doing it. And I'm like, whoa, this is so cool. And I'm experimenting with it.

She just rips my phone out of my hand while I'm doing it. And I was like, just what? I'm not gonna go through. You're a barbarian. No, yeah, she goes, what, you think I'm gonna go through your phone? I was like, no, like you can go through my phone. I have nothing to hide from you.

It's the fact that you just ripped my phone out of my hand. Not even like a, oh, can I see? I wanna try or anything like that. Like she just, I was like. Sometimes I forget that you're like a whole human being and I want to try or anything like that like she just I was like You're like a whole human being and not like we're not one Those things happening within like 15 minutes. I was dumbfound my new business Oh, yeah, no, yeah She's I was sitting at the edge of my bed and she grabs my phone from my lap and like I don't give a shit

If she grabs my phone, but she grabs my phone picks it up Instantly just like brings it so close to my face swipes it up and just like what the fuck are you doing? You crack it. She's literally barbaric. I was like what the hell? Especially with you I just were like dude I don't know if you heard. There's no way that just happened.

You took me in. It was just the craziest shit ever. I always think about that. I'm like damn they could really just unadopt me. That would never happen. And then we're like sitting in my bed for like now she has like, uh mind you I'm trying to she loves to Okay, no I'm just kidding go on. She's always like oh like let's edit together. Can we have an editing party blah blah blah. I can't. I physically have to like lock myself in my room, be in my bed, edit by myself, no distractions, like I can't have someone else on their laptop next to me, like I just need to be alone.

She does not understand that one. And I mean she's gotten better about it because she just knows not even to ask me if we can edit together. But then now I'm clearly trying to edit hard drive plugged in, almost unplugged, and now she has Trevi in my room Ashley in my room And I'm like okay I haven't seen Trevi in a long time like Dan had like just got back and like we're hanging out a little bit like okay like 15 20 minutes would be fine like maybe They'll get the gist like I'm doing something there in my room for like two hours. I'm sitting there. I'm like

We you should let him work Working is so important Let him work his job is not just to be your friend. I was about to hit him with a Brooke out response and be like, well, me, Ashley and Trevi had so much fun next door and you're not inviting. I don't like that. And I had a great time hanging out with her for like two hours, but then like she was like, okay, can we go upstairs?

I was like, Tana, no, please. You guys just sat in here for two hours. I know. I was just trying to get back to what I was doing. I have been extra forcey with you lately cause I haven't seen you like being away from you. It's been great. See, that's me.

I'm just trying to force you to go out and do this. God forbid I just want to spend some time with my friend. Love God forbid. God forbid is like the best. No, but I'm going to get dragged. I already know she, who's going gonna work if you're out drinking all day Drinking I literally I drink one time that Do those people like saying like Hannah is a recovering addict and she cannot be around like an apparel

Riding for the wrong. I only drink one time the whole time as BB I don't mind that you guys had looked really cute with your like yours faces in them Guinness So those look really cute. I was like, wow, that's cool. Yeah, I know BB got fired Okay, wait, please explain a little bit to me I feel like I had a feeling something like that. Everyone knew it was coming. We anticipated it on this podcast We were like BB is coming. It's going to be a horrible idea. And Makoa, I remember the moment that we found out Makoa and I were at LAX for some reason.

And I told Makoa that BB was coming and he just started dying laughing. Like we were like, this is going to be like watching Bad Girls Club. But Tana has this completely skewed memory of what this decision making process went down has because when I started getting upset and like complaining about it, Tana's like, well, what did you expect? And I'm like, actually it's both. I think that in the beginning, obviously in my brain, but I'm not always also gonna tell you like my thoughts on some shit because like- No, that's not true. I had another assistant or another person who was gonna come with

me on the tour and I was anxious about it cuz I was like- Yeah, you were- no, my takeaway was do what's going to make you the happiest. That's always my takeaway. It wasn't your take, it was her idea. She goes, well, don't you think just Bibi could do it if it's this easy of a job? Like just invite Bibi to do it. And I'm like, I don't know if that's a good idea.

She's like, no, she'd be fine. Like in such a short, like with so little responsibility, like she would be fine. And it was your idea. Well, I think that you in the past have said like, that would make you happier to have like somebody who entertains you and like a friend and like versus like someone in just a working role

and you don't really like to have an assistant like that much. I'm not good at having an assistant at all because I, no, I'm just not. And like, that's true. No, I'm laughing because you'll be like, I just want them to read my mind. I do and like that's like. I might know laughing because you'll be like I just want them to read my mind I do and like that that's like an actual issue. I have like I'm not used to like allocating the commanding someone almost

Yeah, and it feels weird. It doesn't matter even if I don't know the person like my first assistant she was amazing, but I like we weren't that close so when I Like wanted her to do something. I sometimes felt like weird asking her Oh, and I felt like I didn't want her to feel like she was beneath me So I would like not really say what I wanted or like weird asking her and I felt like I didn't want her to feel like she was beneath me so I would like not really say what I wanted or needed out of her and then I would get so frustrated when she wasn't doing what I wanted and needed out of her.

How was she to know? So like I made that mistake with her and then I was like, oh but Bibi just knows me. She reads my mind, she knows me. Yeah I think Bibi is with that being said, would be the best choice. But there was this day in Amsterdam that was so fucking funny.

We have like some footage, like I'll try to review it and see, but we get this beautiful gondola, like boat to like ride around Amsterdam. Can I tell my truth? My truth, okay, so, and Bibi, I love you more than anything, okay? But like, I was already like, kind of like, holy shit, I have not...

I didn't expect her to really like, do a lot. That wasn't the thing. I brought her really because like, she's my best friend, she's my emotional support, I want her with me everywhere I go. So that was like her real role, okay? And I understood that. But everyone started doing shit with Paige

and not wanting the third wheel. Well the problem was, we weren't spending any time together, so then I was like, wait. Where's the emotional support? Yeah, where's my emotional support? I can't even find her so I was already getting a little like Like hang out with me, you know what I mean? Like not to force you to hang out with me, but I'll also like please hang out with me. Yeah, and I like if you're paying her but like really I started like thinking just because I was like I got to get her to do Something I would give her random tasks.

And my one number one thing, the entire trip, the one major thing that I was like, I have to have this, BB, I need to go on a boat, okay? I need to go on a boat. I don't care where we have to go on a boat. Nowhere we went even had boats until our very last stop. And the second we landed, I see a boat in the water and I go, BB, book the boat, okay? I'm in the water and I go, Bibi, book the boat.

Okay? I'm so fucking excited. I'm like, Bibi, book the boat. We're on the way to the hotel. At the hotel, I'm like, Bibi, have we booked the boat? She's like, I don't know, like which boat do you want? I'm like, any boat, whatever.

Next morning, Bibi, I'm seeing boats everywhere. Are we booking a boat? She's like, I don't know what boat you want. And I'm like, well, I don't know what boats there are. Doesn't matter, no boat booked. We're walking down the street, me and Miles go, look, Bibi, there's the boat booking store. She's like, I don't know, the website's not in English. I'm like, whatever. And it was all fine. I was like, whatever, I'm not gonna go on a boat until we're in...

And Bibi stands for bad with boats. Bad. Until we're in the green room and Tana makes an announcement. I got a boat for tomorrow. And I'm all excited and then Brooke's seething and I'm like, why? I got a boat. I'm so excited to go on your boat. That's not it. It's just the fact that like, like Tana all day she's, you know, working

all day she's you know working. And Tana found a way to book a fucking boat, okay? Cause it was really just that easy. And now Tana has a boat and the boat that I wanted to bring everybody on no longer can exist because now there's a different boat that everyone's gonna go on. Well no, my boat was originally me, Makoa, Chris videographer. It wasn't any, it had nothing to do with your boat, it was the me, Makoa, Chris, videographer.

It wasn't, it wasn't any, it had nothing to do with your boat. It was the principle, like just the fact that like now this thing that I was so excited that was going to be my thing to like bring everyone on this boat that I wanted to do. And now there is a boat and it's not like whatever. Like what you wanted to do, like how it fell through. It's like, it's never about the boat or the Labooboo or the George. Like that's the takeaway. And then she'll just like. It's always just the principle.

So whatever we get on the goddamn boat, okay? And the straw that broke the camel's back was this, I'm sitting there, we're whatever, we're talking and chatting, whatever, back and forth. And I stand up and Bibi's drink is sitting on the, like on the cushion and it spills all over the floor, all over like my outfit, my shoes, everything. And Bibi just goes.

Oh, didn't she get some expensive shoes or something? Yes. My brand new little sandals, my little chanclas, I've been so excited to put my whole outfit around them. And I'm sitting there, I stand up, her drink spills, I literally go, and she goes, well, why would you stand up if there's a drink right next to you? I'm like, why would there be a drink next to me? And then she, swear to God, Amari, Bibi I love you. I'm freaking out because my shoes are like their

leather and they're like, they change a whole different color. It really doesn't matter. The shoes don't matter. She doesn't stand up. Someone puts a rag on the ground and she just starts pushing it around her foot while she just still is in a conversation with Paige making Tik Tok. Oh my God. And so I just had a fucking fit. So now, and it's like a small boat, but there's the front of the boat and there's the back of the boat

and they're like running back and forth and switching places. I'm walking to the back of the boat and Bebe's like, she's such a fucking this. I'm walking to the front of the boat and Bebe's like, she's such a fucking this. And they're going back and forth. It was bad girls come on this beautiful gondola

in the middle of it. And I honestly made like such a scene, but it was because I'm like, now I'm not on my own boat. I'm on this stranger's boat. And Makoa just turns to me at one point and he goes, coulda had violin. Like we passed this old couple with like violins eating dinner on the boat.

Oh my God. It was literally Bad Girls club on this fucking boat. And it's so funny because we all hadn't had like a big, like we had been doing things separately. And then I was like, wow, this is like, cause obviously also I think that your boat in your dream boat world would have been booked at 8 a.m. And like my boat was booked at like 3 p.m.

Like you would have had a dream boat. Yeah, no, it wasn't that. I don't even know. I'm saying the only group interaction that we like all have to yeah just turns into fucking what show below deck oh fucking oh my god you say that cuz I'm literally in a bill below deck like full right now but I don't know it was it was another one of the situations where it's like okay Brooke I could have booked the book it takes two seconds but I could have booked the boat oh you're paying someone you want to be being like I just if I like I want just this one thing like if I ask for it

Like I want to get it and like to her she was like well You didn't tell me what time you didn't tell me which one like blah blah blah, but I was like well I totally got it like Honestly, that would frustrate me too and like what you said, but like you guys are so close like she knows you yeah Like there's something like that Like I do agree with you on the principle obviously like Yes, hiring your friends can be murky water and like whatever and we all know that

But I think if you pay someone to execute a task yeah They should execute and you're not asking a lot of her and like honestly the drink with you guys being as close as you guys are That drink would have sent me over and that's like back It wasn't it wasn't I'm sorry it was nothing it was why the fuck would you stand up? Oh see that what she would have been off the boat. It's Bibi I can't stay mad at her for literally like two minutes. Yeah. And like you guys are also just so similar in the sense that like both of your like perceptions are your so like you don't even like Bibi had her whole side of like. Yeah, and Bebe's like, and Bebe could tell this exact

same story from her perspective and there would be no world where anyone was on my side, you know what I mean? Because it was like, to her, it's like, well, how the fuck am I supposed to book a boat when you don't tell me the time? You don't tell me which boat, you don't like, you know what I mean? So I, she's, it was just stupid. It was like a stupid fight.

But it was one of those things where it's like. And you guys communicate So funny like like they will communicate in passive aggression like through the fucking moon Sisters like I always forget sometimes that like like it's very sisters It is it is very like like you guys oh my god It's like my my I grew up only with sisters like we would fucking beat each other we would like Everything was like you're such a fucking stupid fucking like so in my head. That's just like that's what you do No, and you guys actually it's so even the Amsterdam. It was so they're doing that

You know what I mean? Just fucking losing it and then the next day like they're on stage like scissoring And I'm like what no that was the same day that was two hours like you're such a fucking I hope you die to like insert labia here. Because even like, like Tana was in there for the blowout, after the boat was fine, whatever. It's funny, because I made a TikTok in the beginning, because it started off so lighthearted. And I'm like, fuck, I should have kept recording that.

It was in the scene. But it did not, it ended so like crazy and so bad. And so, cause it was just like both of our frustrations like at once. But even then, like in the mornings, like when we see each other, it's like, it's a joke. Like we're looking at each other like. I could really only imagine the heat like running through your body though when Tana

in the green room is like, so I got a bow. Literally my heart sank. I was like why isn't she excited? My heart sank because it's like I had this one little thing that I just wanted so badly to be like oh my god I'm gonna have this boat and everyone's gonna come on this boat. And then I already had to slow my pride down. I forgot about boat gate. God damn. I think I was sorting my goods off the boat.

But it's still a bit today still like Phoebe's like the other day we're making banana bread and she's like, look how good I am at assisting. It's also funny because like, not only has she assisted you, but she's also assisted you. Like, it's like, Bibi. Bibi is the talent. My takeaway is like, Bibi was never meant, she's not supposed to be anyone's assistant.

I really like realized that this year too. Like, I don't know, yeah, the assistant role. Like, I just, I don't know, She's not supposed to be anyone's. I really realized that this year too. I don't know, yeah. The assistant role, I don't know, because even just with Paige leaving, there were a couple weeks to a month there where I had no one, right? And I'm just like, I was having to do all these,

and I was like, God damn, it's so wild how much coordinating, scheduling, and just back and forth conversations, the amount of people you already know, an email could be a text, a text could be a thought, a fucking, and just like back and forth conversations, the amount of people you already know, an email could be a text, a text could be a thought, a fucking, just, and just so much shit, and just like shelving your own life.

And like, yeah, I mean, I could never do it. Like I think anyone who like is a very main character in their own world or in their own head, like it's very hard to shelf your life and your thoughts and even put your emotions to the side and like compartmentalize. I'm not gonna have any, I feel like you're so good at like delegating

and being like this is what I need, this is when, whatever. Cause it's the only way it will work. I'm such a procrastinator and everything gives me so much anxiety that it's almost like if I have to like go, you know, like spell it out, then it's like I might as well be doing it.

Well that's if someone, no, like you could definitely get in a rhythm with someone yeah like delegating and they are helping you out. I'm just not like a strong communicator like that like I don't. You want someone to read your mind and then you get mad when they don't read your mind that's not possible you know but. Yeah, you guys wonder what I think about often? You guys think Emma Chamberlain has an assistant? Yeah, oh yeah. Yeah you think so? Of course. Multiple if I had to guess. Oh my god, have you guys been to the new Chamberlain coffee

at Century City? At Century City. I haven't. I like it. So good. I tried to go, but I got mobbed. I know, I still believe that. Period.

Honestly, it was, I was like, yeah, I love Emma. We go way back. I do love her so much. I'm obsessed with her. I love her podcast. I was just gonna say, I love her podcast. So much. It do love her so much. I'm obsessed with her. I love her podcast. I was just going to say, I love her podcast. So much. It's just like so raw.

So, so, so much. I just love her. I love everything about her. Do you guys watch Alex Rohl's vlogs? No, I don't know. I see clips of them though. Yeah, I think. So obviously she doesn't podcast anymore.

And I'm not going to lie. Wait, she doesn't? No. Why? Oh, oh, oh. Yeah. But I'm not oh, oh. Yeah. But I'm not going to lie, I did not enjoy her podcast. I really just thought that-

I'm going to try to get out of the clip. No, I didn't enjoy her podcast. I think she's fucking awesome. I met her for the first time recently. She's so sweet. She's so gorgeous and stuff. I love her vlogs. I think her vlogs are amazing.

Well, it's just a smarter business-wise because I think so much of her strong suit. It is like her life is so cool, like showing the life versus speaking in detail about the life. She's meant to be watched. Yes. She's so captivating, like everything she does says her life, her friends, like everything. It's all so cool.

You're so locked in. I feel like it's hard to like, for that to translate. Yeah. It's like when she's talking about it, it's almost like, damn, I want to know what this looks like. I want to see this. Like, I feel like when she's talking about it, it's almost like damn, I wanna know what this looks like. I wanna see this. Like I wanna be like I'm there. It's such a smart business move.

Now her vlogs, I'm always, every time I watch one of her vlogs, I'm like damn, like I'm just like, can y'all do this? Yeah, I saw her looking for the artist bands, like at Coachella, it's just like a clip of her looking for her artist wristbands, and she's like, she's digging through her room, blah, blah, blah, Nina Dobrev comes out of the corner.

She's like, can you let me in? Alex is like, is that fucking Nina Dobrev? That's iconic as fuck. She has the most iconic life. I live for Alex Theroux. I want her to have all the success in the world. Went from Coachella during the night to wake up and go speak at Harvard the next week.

She's sipping Mark. It is just so funny to me, because I'm like, you wanna talk about battery yeah what do you guys think about her dad being her manager I think that's like the most interesting thing in the world yes yeah her dad is from the beginning of time I did not know that that's crazy I think that you occasionally hear the stories of it working out like Tish Cyrus or like it working out so perfectly but I feel like just I'm not talking about Alex I'm talking about as a blanket statement I feel like if I had to gather every story I've heard of that

only 10% are successful yeah like more often than really I think in her particular case it just works so well yeah she's everything she does is so centered around business and her dad is such a successful like businessman yeah, so make sense. She obviously has her agents and stuff, too But I always like when I found that out I was like, oh my god I could also just tell she has an amazing relationship with her family and you see that through like all of her content Honestly, they very little brother like I love her little siblings are so cute Yeah, honestly all of them are so I would do anything for an Alex or reality show Yeah, like that is like someone who fucking needs that.

I wanna know everything. Just all of the dynamic of everything. And just the busyness. Yeah, I wanna see her dad open her email and be like, 500K, not enough. Hell never. Hell never. Isn't that crazy?

Alex Earl probably frequently turns down, if I had to guess. You know what's funny is seeing TikToks being like, Alex Earl is making $70,000 a month and I like, and I wanna be like, Alex Earl is making millions of dollars a month. Yeah. Million.

I wanna, Carl's Jr. probably made her so much fucking money. I just found out what an influencer that we know got paid to do like a one day shoot shoot with a big brand and I was like Oh my can you tell us we'll bleep it you were there. You know who it is. No, I don't know It's the guy. Okay. Well, yeah, we'll just cut it but our bleep it or whatever but like Got paid like over like a fucking million dollars to go shoot for like three hours million dollars to go shoot for like three hours. Like millions.

And it's so funny because I just like, obviously I will die having never experienced that side of the shop. And I wouldn't trade like my life for anything. And like, you know what I mean? But it's just, it's so wild. Yeah. Just the P like, you don't, the money. Like that, the Jake Shane's, the Alex Earls are making, like. It's so wild.

And I just, the dream to me is to have that workload. Like I just feel like when I am like, oh I wanna make the X amount of dollars doing something, the amount of work, time, effort, meetings, creative, shooting, all of it. Because it's usually like a self, more self. Yeah, but you do a fuck ton. Yeah.

Yeah. I thought you were saying you like... No, I'm saying like how awesome would it be to get paid a fucking million dollars for an hour shoot because you've never talked about getting fucked with a toothbrush online. Like that's, it's like wild, but yeah, I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I don't know. Even like, I'll talk to Camilla sometimes, and we talk a lot about that, where she's like, I wanna break the mold for being an OF girl, but then also being like brand safe, and I'm like, hell yeah, girl, you try. You know what I mean? And I think she could do it.

This doesn't mean like shitting on the idea of that, if anything, I think it's awesome that that's the way that she thinks about things and looks at things. But I think that I, for so long, was like, I'm it's awesome that that's the way that she thinks about things and looks at things. But I think that I for so long was like, I'm gonna do that. And then like I had to just make peace with like, you know what I mean? Like I might not ever get that goddamn Chili's deal and I might joke about it, but like the connection I have with my fans because I know for a fact that I'm never like getting on camera and being someone else.

It's more valuable. And like yeah, that like, I don't know. Yeah, them seeing all of my mistakes is just as valuable as them seeing all of my happy moments because it shows them they can also grow. And I don't know. I definitely see that still for you 100%. I always use Trisha as an example,

but Trisha has every opportunity in the world right now I'm fine with being like a role model for the fuck-up girls that like you can't build it all yourself. You are people. I mean People and people need that. Yeah, you know you are like so many people's like I Know it's just like very sweet. Yeah yeah like I wouldn't change it for the world I don't know I see so much more value in the fact that like so many people are actually like moved and changed by you then like that's what I'm trying to say is it's like I would yes like of course it's like okay chillies

please pay me to eat your triple dipper I'm just gaining weight and like I would literally live but like at the same time like I don't know like it feels nice to be here for more than just entertainment yeah Yeah yeah and and just like you you don't I don't know I don't want to sit here and say like you don't see a lot of archetypes like me on social media a lot but like I do have that special bond with my fan base where it's like. Well you don't it's special it's like not to say that these people aren't fucking up but like people aren't showing it. Oh my god what did I just see the other day? I saw this TikTok where this woman,

she's in the bathroom, like she's talking about this, she's still actively with this man. They have a kid together. Like this woman has a kid with this man and he named their daughter Sophie Rain and she had no idea why. No. And then like come to find out he named the daughter

Sophie Rain after like OF girl Sophie Rain. That's fucking crazy. That's the most terrifying thing in the entire world. Imagine your dismay when you find out that your husband that you think you love and you think is like a good person named your daughter after an OF girl. Have you not seen like the amount of people who get in, like their kids are named after like their husband's

mistresses and stuff, like Adam Levine, almost named his daughter Sumner. Really? Yeah. That's crazy. It's so diabolical. I've been learning a lot lately about them. No, this is this lady trolls.

She's fake, she's fake. She makes, yeah, she's a troll. I mean, what the fucking wizard Liz shit going on. I just don't put anything past She makes tic-tacs all the time just being like like she's like shit like damn I mean, that's good. He's good at going viral though I literally want to send that to my mom and be like post it talks like this. I'm not kidding Make money that makes me happy that it's not a real story But also societally we are at a point where that 100% could be a real story,

which is just fucking wild. Oh, so it didn't actually happen? No, she just trolls like this. Okay. What a weird, I don't know if I live for that. Britney Spears Balenciaga shirts. I was actually thinking about getting one for Trisha today. I need to like look into that.

What is it? Balenciaga's been doing these drops with like celebrities' faces on their stuff. Does Britney get any money from that? Yeah, that's, whenever I see anything Britney Spears, my only takeaway is I hope she loves this once and is making money. I guess it's like the designer of Balenciaga

that's doing it with Britney. It's like his last, it's like their last line ever. And so that's why Britney's down to do it because it's like his last project it's like their last line ever. And so that's why Brittany's down to do it because it's like his last project. That's really cool. But they are $800. $800 t-shirts. $800 t-shirt?

That's too much. But Balenciaga has always kind of done that, right? Like even when they had the like button up with the button up attached, the iconic Trisha Paytas button up, like they were charging astronomically for that. Or like, didn't they also do the stained t-shirts and jeans like just look like,

remember those jeans that look like you pissed yourself, but they were like $2,000? I don't know, I've never really been with Balenciaga. I am like weirdly. Jesus, 1,050. Potentially. Damn. It's Britney, bitch.

Eileen Pompeo was detained and held in the airport. I'm pretty sure the feds showed up for her because they thought her airwands on flower seeds were a bomb threat. Or like a drug or something. That would happen to me. That's fucking insane. I just have the worst.

But you know, she's just so cool. Ailyn Pompeo is- I'm obsessed with her. Me too. Especially because I've been on my Grey's Anatomy kick. I just love Pompeo. What season are you on? Is this your first time going through? Yeah I'm on season like 16 I want to say. Oh you're on season 16 so you've passed like the most

important moment of all time that will ruin you and you haven't gotten there yet so we can't even tell you about it. Wait what? Obviously John Doe, bus crash. Oh oh shit you need to make me start it because I want to. I actually like really really want to. I've also just been having so many problems with my television not working and everything in my ass. I had to pay someone five hundred dollars today to come make sound come out of my TV because the last person that I just had come to like fix our sound system broke my TV. Like I keep having people come break shit

and then having to pay other people to come and fix the shit. The only thing I've gathered from you having bought a house is that never buy a house. I had a guy come the other day. Oh, sorry. Today our pool guy came to come and like inspect our pool heater because like the wires

got chewed up or whatever by rats and stuff. So it's trying to find a place for- Mind you there was an inspection seven days before that that cleared that nothing was wrong with the pool heater It happened seven days after the inspection that I paid for today the guy opens up the pool heater. There's live rats in there Live through all of it and pull egg you'd think a pool heater was like decently priced No, you wouldn't honestly. I wouldn't how much does it cost like five six? Oh, I would think more seven eight depends like really what kind of pool heater you want how big is your pool? Mm-hmm what quality of a pool? He's not for getting an Olympic sized pool

You know what I mean? It's like Tana. I tried to swim from one end to the other the other like knock on wood Earthquakes and a put a fucking crack in the basketball court I know even the PTSD with like just the fires like really thinking my house is going to burn down No this guy comes the other day and no smart home ever is smart

by the way I think all of the systems are just fucked and fucked and fucked and again this is me bitching about a champagne problem but he comes and all of our gates and like doors to enter everything in the house are like codes and like the security like that. Like they're very digital, right?

And he comes for an issue that we're having with just like the speakers like outside, like something that has absolutely nothing to do with all of our gates to enter our home. And he leaves, he fixes that. And then I leave the house and I try to walk back in and I'm entering the gate. All the gates and the front doors and everything, like nothing works. I can't get into my fucking smart fortress. And I call this man, he's like,

I can come back in two weeks. I'm like, why would you leave? Why would you leave? How do you feel okay with charging me this much money and you just left my house and I can't even get into it in any way and it's not like two weeks from now, like it'd be fine if it was like a fucking light house and I can't even get into it anyway and it's not like two weeks from now I could be fine if it was like a fucking light bulb I can't enter or exit that's how I spilled sriracha all over my shirt because I was crashing out to this fucking man. No I don't think you should be even

allowed to charge if you haven't done the job and done it right. Yeah. He's like I had to get my kids from school it's like all uber them here if it's the only fucking time that you can fucking let, get me to let into my home. We just had someone come yesterday to do something and then they literally had to come back today because what they did didn't work properly or it worked for 24 hours.

And then- How come no one at control four can control the four? I'm not, I wanna talk about our old drug dealer and all the Los Angeles's drug dealer, but I think we should save it for the Patreon. Yeah, for sure. Because we were just reflecting on that in the car. And it's very, it's just a wild, wild,

you'll know, you'll know the time. But I think we should hop on over to the Patreon, right? Yeah. Yeah. And Amari, thank you so much for coming on. I feel like I just love these episodes so much. Like, I feel fulfilled leaving them I just love these episodes so much. I feel fulfilled leaving them and we appreciate your presence very, very much.

And our solos, I feel fulfilled. I don't know, the last two episodes I was really like, damn, what the fuck did we just talk about? No, you just can't. And that's on no one but me, just me being brain dead. Sorry I'm so confused. Okay, we love you guys so much and we will talk to you. Love you guys.

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