Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 130: THE END OF THE CANCELLED PODCAST - Ep. 130

Episode Date: September 29, 2025

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Hello and welcome to the final episode of the canceled podcast. That was way harder for us than it should have been. I know. Instead, it was too much enthusiasm now that I'm thinking about it. Yeah, I didn't like the upturn of that. It should be like, hello and welcome to the final. Yeah, for the edits at least. Wow. I don't even know where to begin. And this doesn't feel real. And of course we are in some dumb ass garb. One thing we're going to do until the end is. have some fucking get up on speak for yourself i look amazing we are giving funeral realness because that is what we are doing today and i just don't even know how i want to approach

all of this because it's i think it's lighthearted it's fun until it isn't because if i start crying now i won't stop for the rest of the episode i honestly i fully agree and i'm like i'm having anxiety because i don't know it's hard because you and i have been talking a lot about this that it's like been the longest breakup of all time like I feel like you and I almost cried together and like felt all of the things like four months ago you know what I mean and now the day is here and it's so I just feel very like out of my own body I can't believe that this is real yeah I know I know because it's like I know I'm like so I'm like so I'm like so Maya and Brian broke up.

That's the other thing is I do have like random topics and shit. Yeah, there's certain things that we have to address, obviously. There's one. But I don't know if we do, because do we really want to look back at this time capsule

and be like, Amaya, Papaya, posted on Instagram? No, but there's a timeless mention of the queen getting engaged. Oh, that's true. Taylor Swift did get engaged and we're happy for her. Of course. I don't have anything.

She like, you're not a Swift. I am a Swifty through and through but like she's been engaged to that man in my eyes like this just like duh they were always getting married I feel like she's copying me but whatever correct me if I'm wrong and I will but I don't know if I have it in me to like

just discuss random topics today because they're not on my mind you're right like fine I just don't want to ruin my whole episode right in the beginning and sobbed my eyes out because you know I will no I know and same honestly but I mean do we have tissues by the way just like for

future yeah we're gonna we're gonna need some tissues for sure but I mean it's true brook I think it's okay to like feel the emotions because it's like I'm just realizing how late I am to like processing things first of all like last night I laid down and like finally was like oh my god I'm shooting the final episode of the canceled podcast tomorrow and then I got high and it all just hit me like I felt like I was genuinely in like back to the future that like a time capsule was like just playing like before my eyes literally like a fucking projector on my ceiling of these past four years and how jam-packed they've been and like how much this anyone have tissues i'm already crying it's so weird because

oh thank you we should have got a black tissue box kind of sticks out like a sore thumb sorry i swear i'll come i'll just get out of away i me too and i think that it would be not human to sit here and just be like, te-t-de-t-de-de-de, like, you know. Oh, just don't be surprised if I literally don't pay attention to you. But sometimes when I'm trying not to cry, I have to go like this. No, I completely understand. I think you should just feel what you feel and be real.

It's weird to me too. I'm going to say something that might actually come across is fucked up. I don't think it'll make you cry. But I'd please, I wonder if you relate to me on this. obviously you and I have gone through an extreme emotional rollercoaster across this, you know, and just our relationship has changed so much. And now we're in this beautiful place and we will get to that. We will talk about that. But and just obviously, everyone has seen all of the episodes and we've expressed some of our frustrations with what this can do to your

mental health and whatever. There have definitely been points of my life in the last year. half where I begged God for this day like where all I wanted it's all I could think about it there was a point in my life where this was consuming me this coming to an end because of the things that I felt like it was negatively doing during certain times not all times like there were lots of positive times you know what I mean but I mean genuinely eating me alive like about like this just has to end because I hate what it's doing to us I hate what's happening on the internet I don't resonate with certain things anymore and whatever and I was so convinced that on this day and in the end I would show up and fucking pop a bottle and a firecracker and fireworks and I'd be like

finally and like what you know what I mean like that yeah there were points where I was 100% sure that was what my energy was going to be today and then today has come and I could not feel more different than that like yeah I wish I could go tell that girl like that you're not going to feel like that at all like these past few weeks have been so interesting too because it's like we're not working on anything for canceled you know we have like we had a few episodes coming out and stuff but we finish the tour and it's almost really interesting to me too how immediately you and I have reverted back to how we once were like it's it's almost it didn't even have to truly end for us to like feel

the relief of it I almost feel like and like we're calling each other and we're having these like five hour calls and you're touring houses and we're going together and we're skipping around and we're like I don't know how to explain that just all of the strife and everything like it's like it almost like didn't fucking happen and it like we were right we knew that like having this baby together and trying to agree was like what was hard and putting a strain and now it's like I just finally like see without the cloud you know what I mean like just the immense gratitude that I have for you and for this era and for this time in our lives and this podcast.

And like I just, I didn't, for a minute there, I didn't know that I would feel this way. And like, and I'm just like so fucking excited for our friendship and our future. And like, me too. I've been having so much fun. And it's like so cool because I don't know if there were versions of us that like could see this. You know what I mean? Like this time and of our lives and this like chapter.

and it's just like very wild to me I don't know where I was going with that I lost my train of thought no I think it's really very of course it's sad and it's depressing and everything but it's also so exciting and I we've said that so many times but I really am starting to feel it because it's like yeah it's just like so much is changing yeah and it also on the like flip side of that it is very hard though you said something and I've been talking about it all day and I probably will forever Brooke and I were on the phone today as we do now as well as I yeah you guys I don't think you understand like when we say I think we've spoken more in the past like two weeks than we have like in the last two years because it doesn't feel like we have to call each other and like work out 90

million business things we get to just be ourselves again and I don't know it just like it's very nice but on the phone today I was telling you because now it's now that we are like just vibing and there's much less stress and just like in these beautiful places of our lives and the podcast is still happening there is this part of me where I've always sucked at leaving what's comfortable you know and there is a sense of we know this very well and it is like you said today you said what I truly think to be one of the greatest analogies I've ever heard in my life is leaving this podcast today feels like leaving the casino when you're up and it really does and Lord knows I struggle with leaving the casino when I'm up and

but I know it has to happen and like I think just like it almost is more understandable to us because we know how many times we've tried to leave this podcast when we were down you know what I mean like when either you and I were just not seeing eye to eye and like could not get along or whatever it was there was a big fight there was a big scandal like there have been so many times where like this has to end and this is the first time it's ending when you and I are like wait but like I know we're getting along and like and like life is and it was always going to end that way and like no don't we just didn't know that we didn't know it was always going to end this way and like be so happy and like I'm so happy for you and so happy for me and like it's I don't know if you want to talk

about your house or just anything like that but like we both like everything is so set up for us to like go off into the sunset and be best friends and be like holy fuck we did that shit too and I think I really suck I really suck with feeling accomplishments as a they happen. I'm always like just thinking about the next thing or what I did wrong or just like I and I just have trouble sometimes really internally with giving myself like props. You know, like just that's a mental struggle. And last night for the genuine first time, I was laying there and I was like, holy fuck, we did that shit. We did that shit. I was like, just everything. I mean, everywhere we went for the last four years of our life, girls all over the world came and stopped.

that I love the canceled podcast. And like, that is so fucking insane. Like every, I'm grocery store fucking everywhere I went. That is what people had to say to me, you know? And like, oh my God. And just like I was thinking about all of our like random biggest moments. Like there was a day where you and I are on tour. We're in the green room.

We FaceTime Gypsy Rose Blander who is fresh out of jail. We're talking to gypsy. We're like, whatever. We get these big. cheese block hats we put them on our head and we walk out and we do a show to like 4,000 people and like we break the venues decibel level the venue and had so many iconic people had performed there we were the loudest show they'd ever fucking had in Milwaukee and then we just like went to the tour bus and we ate Taco Bell and we laughed and like we did it again and again and again

and like in the moments you're not like holy fuck like you know you just like you're in it and like just looking back at like and even just like how far we come like like thinking about our fucking first ever show and like we would take a sprinter everywhere and I had 19 sound cloud rappers on the sprinter and like we're blacked out and like just the girls that we were and like the mess I want to get into like all of those memories to then like touring the world only staying at the four seasons with like a fabulous like set up and like these massive shows and like flying and lay down seats with our boyfriends to like do this international tour and like you know what it's just like the

the progress across this too like i've so sorry i have so much to say i'm just firing cut me off i'm not speaking because i literally can't speak without crying like please cut me off at any point i'm just like everything is like flooding me but i was talking about this to macoa last night and he compared it to take like how people do that thing where they like take a photo of themselves every year of their life and then it shows them like slowly changing across that like that's what we've done like never will we ever document this much change and then this much of our lives we sat down every single week and like tell that to audio boom we sat down every other week and like just share to everything that we shouldn't have about every single

detail about our lives to this like community of girls and like now we're like done with yeah but like yes and no i'm i don't think we'll ever stop over sharing i think we'll stop maybe sharing about double-ended dildoes and anal and all of that but i think that there's like we're always going to have some level of like sharing more than the average person i agree with that but i mean like brook like we'll get into we have a bunch of segments planned for today the stories that we told about our day-to-day lives and other influencers or just like other actual like normal people and like that's that's a problem I had in the beginning is like I wasn't speaking about influencers I was speaking about like stranger like yeah you know normal people who don't do social

media like you can't do that just anything that anything that happened to us across a 10 day period we would write down and come and sit down and talk about it like I know that whatever I do at least I can't speak for you like will not be that no you know what I mean like it's like truly sharing your lives and like bleeding for the people to see and like just everything I think about even like our parents like how much you and I healed each other's like familial wounds across this podcast and like how much stop looking at me we got to like do that for other people like I was even thinking about the meet and greets and it was like no matter where you and I were right like if we were in the best place ever in the best of friends or if we

fighting or if we were stressed or no matter what was going on in our lives and outside world there would be an hour and a half that we had to lock in and got the pleasure and the blessing of meeting people whose lives were changed by this podcast and you know sometimes that can feel a little performative on a bad day or whatever you know but other times it you know what I mean you're fully in it it doesn't matter no matter what we would lock in and you and I would stand there and like girls would come up and they would like share their darkest demons and their their mother wounds and their relationship wounds and their struggles that we also were going through and there would be those moments where then you and I

would just look at each other and make eye contact and no one else was there you know like it was you and me like a feeling we got to feel so much of just like as corny as it is because obviously like we also talk about fucking gussets and shit but like how much this did change people's lives including ours you know and like I will never have that bond with another person like for all the good and for all the bad and for just everything like it was you and me against the fucking world and against each other sometimes but we did it like we did it and we are like coming out genuinely holding hands walking off into the sunset against all odds. Every single

odd was for us to fucking want to kill each other and I'm sitting here and like I don't and I love you so much and I'm so proud of the woman that you've become and like the life that you've built and like I just proud of us like it's I don't know it's crazy it's really crazy

I think it still is you and I against the world I agree and I think that that's like just sickening just fucking sickening because it just I don't know I can't believe it no it's it's actually crazy I think too like I'm also in such an emotional period because like where I started at the like I mean you were you were rich and famous you know what I started this podcast like at what cost no honey bee but you know what I mean like actually this has been like the most transformative thing obviously of my lifetime you know I'm so

proud of you I love you thank you and I'm sure that you feel the same way but like when I'm really thinking back to the studio like the person who was sitting across from me like and same for you like those girls have died in like the best way like thank God somebody take them out sooner you know but like no we haven't I mean they're still in there but hopefully really really really tucked yes 100% like there are parts of us and our souls and stuff that are there but the growth and just coming into ourselves and navigating so much while like arguably too it's so funny because across these four years I can say like canceled has been the only consistent thing you know what I mean like everything else was

just ever changing around us on a week by week basis to get us here and like but I think that's so cool and so special because we really had that check in like I always say this but I'm not a journaler I've never been able to like write in a diary or like jot anything down so to have this like forever you know what I mean? to like refer back to and like oh this was happening like sometimes i don't remember things but i can watch a clip and be like oh shit and it is so funny too because i was thinking about that last night too and it's like i will never delete this fucking podcast like i can't even express to you like who like just now being sitting here in this like i'm so fucking grateful for it and i just like

i can't believe the way that it has changed our lives and i have like lists of so many random memories that we can like talk about if you want i want i want i want i can't believe it's but i am i god i hope there's more positives in this episode because i can't even no this isn't sustainable i will literally be sick no it's weird because it's all positive it just it is it's leaving the casino when you're up i know and it's hard and that's what makes you sad because it is like it is sad it's just everything like even when it's for a good thing i'm thinking about this too because wait I have a surprise I got my house why would you tell me what I'm in congratulations oh my god congratulations I'm like that shit is the canceled house that's the canceled villa

like that is so crazy Amari said something like that today like you know just just about Maui and me going there and that property and like thanks canceled and it's like so fucking true like it's just like how cool that it like facilitated the next chapters of our lives it did and I was thinking about it today because like it happened so quickly and now I'm like I'm getting so sentimental about like where I live now because I just love it so much it's been so special to me and stuff and that's kind of how I feel about the podcast where it's like I want to move on and I want to get to the next thing but it's so sad for me to leave we are so trauma bonded to this shit i know i already have like we are so because it's it is so true

it is so true and that's that's what it is we're like this is all we've known like i said it's the only thing that's been consistent it's all we fucking known and like walking away is very weird and i do find such incredible peace and comfort in knowing that neither one of us is actually dying I know. And more so, we're now neighbors. Yes. Like, we're in, oh, my God. And how cool is that, too? Like, again, just against all odds that we're touring these houses. And we're like, I hope you get this one so we can live by each other. And, like, we can hang out. Like, I just want to tell Jortsgate girls. Like, oh, my God. It's y'all.

Like, imagine going in and telling those girls in the middle of that green room during Jortsgate in fucking Cleveland. Cleveland. that you like like i wish i could show them a flash of this like y'all are going to want to be next more neighbor so bad like i wouldn't believe you i'm sorry gun to my head at all and like that's so that's just so sickening i can't stop saying it but it is like sickening remember this is supposed to be timeless you're going to look back and be like was i really saying sickening that is so marvelous Yes. And so moving and just like, this is a very big lesson to me too that everything touches just end up working out exactly the way it's supposed to. And so much of life that you

spend ruminating is wasted. Like, you know. It is. But it's also just like, God, if things can feel like feel like this was feeling so negative than I was like, I was really, I feel like having a harder time with it than you were a little bit because it like I felt good about it. I was like, I wanted it, I wanted it, I wanted it. And then when it came, I was like, oh, oh, no. 100%. And now I have this big thing that, like, it's made me excited now again. Yeah.

For. And it's just like, the future. I agree. And I, like, it's like, even like, I just look back at our old vlogs where you'd come over and we'd, like, cook something or like, whatever. And, like, I'm so excited for you to have a show and me to have a show eventually. And, like, that's so cool, too. Like, I'm going on Brooks podcast today. And then, like, I'm going.

to then the vision for whatever it is is your fucking vision and I'm obliging and same otherwise. You know what I mean? This is my show bitch. Yes, exactly. But like dead. Dead it. No. And then like you'll come on mine and it's the same thing.

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your mind. Again, that's lucy.com and use code canceled to get 20% off. And here comes the fine print. Lucy products are only for adults of legal age and every order is 80. verified warning this product contains nicotine nicotine is an addictive chemical i have this list i can't believe you are your house i know i was you asked me today and i i've known for a couple well actually i've only known since yesterday but i didn't want to tell you until we were on the podcast so i just had to lie to you to tell i'm so happy you did because it's like it's just so cool and it's so fucking cool i've been so emotional over i just like literally can't believe

And it's beautiful and it's so you. And it like quite literally fell into your lap. It feels so universal. I know. It feels so fucking. You know what's weird too, by the way? Is. So we filmed with Chelsea Handler, right?

And I'm just thinking about like synchronicities. And I wanted to share this with you because it's so strange to me the way that this happens. And this means absolutely nothing to her and everything to me. Like what I'm about to say. I assume we film the podcast that she's on. And you already know that's the end of my book and the greatest day of my life. And just like, you know, with writing my book and just like how I want to move in the future,

I'm very inspired by her. She's my idol. And we messaged a little bit after the podcast and then like we didn't really talk unless it was like funny comments on people's photos. And then the day I woke up to leave on our flight for Australia, she messaged me out of the blue. And she said, hey, I'm thinking of you today. Like, how's everything going with the touring? Like just like, you got this.

like type of thing. And I felt so like moved by that because I was in the place where just like after Europe, I was scared and like whatever. And then Australia ended up being fabulous and so emotional and like the best ending of our touring for now and or forever. We don't know. But, you know, Jonas Brothers are back. Yeah. And that's, I want to get into that too. But just I don't know. It felt very synchronisital that she messaged me that day and it almost calmed my anxieties. And we've never spoken on the phone or anything like that. And I'm getting. ready today and right after I hang up from you she calls me she just calls me out of the blue and she's just like how are you like just asking me all these things and just like asking about the

podcast and like whatever and I'm like actually I'm going to film the last episode and like it just felt so synchronisital like because she didn't know you know what I mean and then she just like called me and I was like that's special I don't know it's so special and then you got your fucking house today like like that's just like so cool that like the universe is opening like as we part in this way it's opening these two beautiful like pathway it's rewarding us for doing like what is correct i think so too and like that's just like so interesting to me even the like not a crow with a raven like on your balcony and we were we went i went with her to tour your house oh yeah we didn't we haven't even talked about that and there was an owl right yeah i brought tannick because i mean i don't

have any other friends who buy houses so like i wanted your opinion obviously and i'm like selling her on this one because i'm like neighbor like i'm okay I don't care of it's a fucking dump getting this one. No, but I just really wanted you to see it. I was so excited, and the instant we went in the backyard, a big owl came. And if you actually watched the last episode of the podcast, when you're talking about the raven, I said, like, I had this owl following me for a long time. And which is just, like, weird.

Like, that was my response to you. And I have not seen an owl since that time of my life. I don't think I've ever seen an owl in my life. And we're in your backyard and an owl pulls up. My backyard? Yes. And. And like an owl signifies like extreme change and new paths and all of those things.

And it was like really cool. We just looked at each other and it was like, holy fuck. I'm so happy. We did it and we're on to this next chapter. And I am so fucking excited to not have to talk about other people. Me too. That's like my biggest thing. I can't wait.

I went on. Except for when something horrible happens, in which case I will be talking shit about people. I guess that's true. like I never want to I would never want to secure myself to that I like I don't want to say I'll never do it again because like there are circumstances I went on Jeff FM yesterday though and he's just a potster and like who is he yeah and I was calling him out and kind of just like addressing because every other episode I'm like hearing my name your name all these things so I went on I can't open YouTube without seeing my name and a thumbnail someone's thumbnail yeah and like I

I was just like damn like after I left my takeaway was like you know what I mean I'm like I did that podcast and that happened but I'm so happy that I no longer have to do a podcast where like that is what I'm doing and talking about drama and like start like because I already know when his episode comes out like it's going to start some shit and I'm so happy that that's like no longer going to be what we're doing is like oh fuck that that's going to start some shit you know like that's I'm so excited to just it's so funny because it's actually been a really fucking long time since I've left an episode and been like that's going to start some shit sometimes I'll say like literally something I think is no biggie at all in it starts some shit you know what I was laughing about today is on

Friday I'm going to do Pilates with trisha and I had meg just like book a gym like just like I was like find a gym that we can like film us trying Pilates for the first time in and um it's the gym that like kicked me out yeah like that whole wait are you sure i what's the name of it meg oh no no no it's oh it's not no oh i thought it was um mari said it was um so never fucking mind to the rest of what i was going to say but essentially just even that like you just like sat down and you were like i wanted to go to this gym and like have this whole tangent and then like i know not to mention me going on a whole rampage about my building manager and now i'm trying get out of my lease.

Like, just, just all of the random things. Like, we remember, like, the big moments. But, like, it was something like that, like that gym every fucking week. I know. Learned a lot of bridges. We'll tell you that much. Now that the podcast is coming to a close, Brooke and I have so much time to go to concerts together.

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for sponsoring the last episode of the canceled podcast. Oh my God, I just went to the Frey concert and Landon Barker opens for them. And they invited me back, like, side stage. And I walked to side stage, and I'm so excited to see the Frey perform. And then I see that just Landon's standing there. And I'm like, you know what? I'm going to watch from the crowd until he, like, goes on. Let me not just be standing there, just me and Landon Barker.

And we, like, don't have beef. Theoretically, Landon and I, like, I've just heard through the Great Bind. And he said, like, I have to, you know, like, Tana's chill, but I have to, like, ride with my sister. And that makes sense. And then I go backstage eventually and I go use their green room bathroom. And I'm walking back up the stairs. And for some reason, Landon is, like, walking down the stairs at the same time as me. And we bump shoulders on the same stair.

And I just, like, walked away and I was like, just thinking about all of the people that, like, the canceled podcast has, like, if I put them all in a room, might could throw a party. Like, you know what I mean? The amount of people. Everyone's so connected. It's so funny you say that because yesterday. Like yesterday morning I did Pilates, just me and Autiana. Yeah. Like Landon and Alabama's sister. And it wasn't until literally 45 minutes into the session. She mentioned Alabama. And I go, oh my God. I didn't even think about them being sisters. I'm like, she probably fucking hates me. Like how, just, and there's so much of that. And we're in the segments that we're going to do, we are going to get into these specific instances. And if we owe people apologies or we still stand on what we're feeling.

I apologize to Alabama Barker. I wish the best for Alabama Barker. I think that's my answer as well. I really like, I have a feeling she's going to have a major, major resurgence. And I think I am actively trying every day to be a different person in the ways that I once was. And that girl still lives inside of me. She does.

You know what I mean? But I think that even with like Vanna from, I'm bringing her up again. But I know that that episode will have just. just come out. Like I can now look at that situation and be like, I was 21 years old once and I would have been 10 times worse. And she was actually really graceful and really kind to me in the end. And I would have never even sent that message. 21 year old me would have made a 50 part series about that. You know, and just like I look at things from such a different lens now. And like even Jeff's yesterday, like I kind of went back and forth with like Todd. And I think that will be one of the last

times that like I do anything like that like he called him in and I didn't know so I just like you might as well Hail Mary get it all out while we still have canceled and then it can just break off right at the end yeah I don't I don't think I will yeah like just I have I have so much more empathy now I think as you get older for human beings and their mistakes and shortcomings that we once had none of like oh my God just it used to always be really hard for me to empathize with somebody who I couldn't relate to. Like if I if I hadn't felt the specific thing like or like experience the thing that they were going through, it was hard for me to put myself in the position. And like obviously the more

that happens to me, the easier it is for me to like understand people. And I feel like that's where it comes from like a lot of the people I look back on now. I'm like God, like I was too hard on that person. Yeah. Yeah. Lots of like humbling across this too, which is so important. Do you know what I was thinking about in the vein of humbling, too, is in the last episode, and I think I ended up cutting it, but you were telling a story that is 1,000% true. I just wanted to elaborate on it a little more. And so I cut it because I didn't like how I responded.

Just about a time in the beginning of canceled, where you had to come to my house and drag me out of bed, and I was such a fucking evil bitch about it. And, like, just thinking about in the beginning of canceled, like how the way I was, the way I would just not fucking show up and I was drunk and I was just like a mess and a horrible business partner and like I was I don't think that I and I've we've talked about this but like I I didn't respond to the way that you would kind of come at me for that so then I would come at

you back but looking back on it now it's like it doesn't matter how the fuck she wanted to express to you that what you were doing was wrong it was wrong and like she was trying to help make you better and she could have eased up on the tone a bit no but like still like I was an insufferable business partner in the very beginning and then I think post your tweets resurfacing you and I had like a lot of that was kind of like during that time that was where we really like were just going at it the most you know what I mean and not seeing eye to eye and for some reason I just had this like dawn on me like after you said it it was like yeah tana the way that you felt like Brooke was being to you during that time is one thousand percent your fucking karma for how

you were to her in the fucking beginning like you were such a bad business partner Tanna like do you know what I mean it's like it all like carmatically now like just everything every argument and every like arrow where like one of us was maybe a little off like it all comes together and it's like pretty even playing fields and like it's you know what I mean like it just and that I couldn't see that. at the time. And it's like, I wish I could even just go to me. He'd be like, Brooke was such a bitch to me this day and be like, yeah. And remember when you wouldn't get the fuck out of bed? Like, boy, you wouldn't. Yeah, like, what? Like, just

humbling. You know what I mean? Just like, that girl needed some fucking humbling. And I appreciate. Well, you can't ever see anything. Like, I mean, I hope this gets better with age, but it's so hard. Like, what does they say? What did they say? It's like hindsight. Yeah. 2020. I actually don't know what that means. Hindsight is 2020. Like, when you, like, when you look back, you have 2020 vision oh yeah that's that's what i mean like you're never going to see anything for what it is like as it's happening you can only like look back on it sometimes it takes a long time yeah i agree with that it's just it's so crazy like that just and i am so happy no matter how we felt we we still like we fought for this and we even in our like low points we fought to like walk off into the

sunset and i think there are many times where you and i were sitting in meetings or talking about walking off into the sunset and we weren't feeling walk off into the sunsetty it was like this thing that we were manifesting but that's not how we felt in that moment and to be like holy fuck like we fought for that we fought for that walk off into the sunset and like now we're here and we are yeah I think the timing is right like I mean it's never going to feel 100% right like that's just how like things like that work but I feel like but and just never been a better time then now obviously you and I also worked so well on cancel than how we were because you and and I can be both very outspoken and volatile and all of the things, but we never fully,

we never turned on each other and we never, you know what I mean? Like I think that a lot of people thought that it would be some, I don't want to compare it to anyone else's situations. They still do. Yeah. Yeah, but like thought it would be that and we fought so hard for it to not be that and like we won that fight. It was hard. Yes. It wasn't easy. And sometimes like honestly, sometimes when people are like they fucking hate each other, I'm like, they're right. We might have in that week. And then that was the thing, too. It was just such an emotional roller coaster because we'd have the worst week and then we'd have the best week. And then, you know, it's, I don't know, it is like just very wild to me. Like, I'm very fucking happy that, like, we're up. Yeah, like, yes. Like,

I don't know. And to see it without the clouds. Like, the amount of love and gratitude that I have for you in this very moment, it's the highest amount of love and gratitude I've ever had for you like and it's like that's so sickening that's so marvelous no i agree i would love i feel like we should um lighten up the mood i have i have i just i'm going to start going i'm going to just like i'm just going to say things to you and tell me your thoughts on them or just these are these were just my high thoughts okay okay just to touch on our day-to-day early lives like how funny is it that like we would frequent the saddle ranch and boa steakhouse. Everywhere we went, we would wear mesh sea through tops with our nipples fully out. Like right now, like all of the people in that room

would see our full tits. And I just had no problem with it. And now I'm like, wait, what? I always think about like when you lived at Weed Lake, like us getting ready. I mean, it was like the clout house or whatever. So you had this insane closet. I would just go in there, where, whatever I wanted. We'd go to Boa. You'd call the paparazzi. I'd be trailing in the back. And like that was our regular. Like that was our fucking regular lives. And then we would go to these places like Saddle Ranch and Boa.

I don't think that we ever were like, no, well, I shouldn't say that. We would definitely think this would be great lore for the podcast. Like we would know what we were doing sometimes. I still live with the podcast in mind. Yes. But like 70% of the time we were just doing what we genuinely wanted to do, which was hook up with Harry Jousie or Bryce Hall, which was. like it was really shameful in the beginning pool boy like how fucking funny is that that like

we should have had him on today 100 fucking percent like that we genuinely like on some i don't even know what the word is like lady dawn shit there's a ghost there's a ghost there's a ghost there's a ghost well we'll come back to it in the head it, but those balloons just moved in a way that air conditioning could not possibly do. It was from the bottom up, like as if someone just hit them from the bottom up. Whatever.

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we like lived like we were like pool boy I'd be somewhere and he'd come up to like both of us and we'd be like ah and like we'd all hug and like like what do you fucking mean imagine doing that now I can't I can't imagine doing that then like how crazy we were just so drunk all the time and just diabolical true even just when canceled took its first break and we came back like that launch dinner I will never forget oh my god I will never forget that lunch dinner either because we were supposed to i swear we might have had 30 seats at this table which in a normal

world you might say like 10 brook 20 tana okay tana invited 60 people there's only 30 seats it was a nightmare that people are literally sitting lapped up sitting on each other sitting on the table like people can't fit in the room that it's in and it's so and it was at boa steakhouse which obviously we had done respect for that environment. So I was like so fine. We is crazy. Well, I'm trying to think if you ever did coke. The amount of, oh, probably.

There's very few places, restaurants that I haven't done Coke, honestly, in Los Angeles. And it's so crazy that one day I just did Coke for the last time and I didn't know it. Oh, I knew it. September 21st. Really? Yeah. I mean, it probably was the last day I did it too because I don't think I've ever really done it without you. It's the last time you did blow the last time I did blow.

The first time I did it was with you. ever that's so funny that most people start in college i am so good because most people don't start by the way don't well yeah i mean but also that like we lived in l.a where everyone did it and we were the only two people who were down to then come on the podcast the next morning with the coke hangover and tell the stories of all the things all the other people did on coke right like how i know we were really snitching on people too like we weren't like fully on drugs too i and that was taboo it's never like we said like we did a bunch of blow last night with x y and we've always only spoken about that in in hindsight in the past tense because i don't know i had a moment i think i've said

this before but when i just was like oh my god people die from this and i can't believe i haven't it's not like i was doing it that often i've done it i've only done coke 10 to 15 times Lindsay lohan referencing her she's an icon but you know it kills people sometimes the first time so it's like let me not mess with this anymore no and we also like came into the i don't want to go too deep into all of this because we have and stuff don't ever do it ever we came into this time in LA this party time where it was so normalized and kind of came into it when the fentanyl thing really started to become prevalent like there was a time where no one even like thought about that being a thing when you did a bump and it was just another party drug and like whatever you know and now I

know and I tell everyone I even now I'll meet young influencers TikTokers and stuff who are just like moving here and they're like I was so cooked out last night and now I'm like I see myself in them and I'm like, please don't fucking do that. You know what's crazy though? Gen Z doesn't drink. Because I think that the conversation about alcohol being kind of poison or bad for your anxiety is this is the first generation where it's like normalized, which is cool. I know that's really cool.

I just think it's so crazy. I didn't even like really notice until recently. I'm like, damn, no one's drinking. I know, which I like I love obviously. Even that. Like just coming into sobriety across a weekly podcast is nuts. It was trial and error. It's kind of cool.

It's not cool, of course, but like, it's, you know, we saw your first and second and third try. Yes, and the falling and getting back up and like, even looking back at that Turks and Kekos episode, I just, that's one of my biggest regrets. That's both Mindy things are one of my biggest regrets. I will say with yours, I think that,

I don't know I'm not that everything happens for a reason and that whatever but I wonder like if we didn't have that big gate and then like miss each other so much and then like remember how much like even your response video I remember thinking like god no matter how angry I am at her whatever it is the bitch is good you know what I mean and like I wonder if canceled would have ever like happened if it wasn't for that so like there's a part of me that like sees that one a little more I don't look back like I don't want to say I look back fondly on that time because I certainly don't but I definitely don't like wish shouldn't happen i agree with that whereas ashley's i i think i fucked up so horribly and i don't know if i've ever said that you haven't and i know that we should you guys have maybe an is irreparable a word irreparable but isn't irreparable does that mean something else like we've done irreparable damage okay you're right you and ashley may have an irreparable dynamic you know like you guys may never be friends. I think she, honestly, she put it better than that. I think it's like, it's not like irreparable because it's like not something that was like broken that needed to be repaired. We just like literally were never closed. It's up in the air why she blocked me,

but that doesn't matter. Also, I want to go on record and say that that photo that she used of me in the Guess Who game is hilarious and I loved it. And I, and there were lots of other also hilarious photos. I'm not even being funny. Like I saw it and I was like, wait, that's hilarious. I would have done it. If a full transparency, if The roles were reversed. She would have had a bigger head than that. I love that. Everyone can kind of just laugh at that and it wasn't that big of a deal.

I will. Her and I are going to play it at some point. And like I want to show that like 90 other people have just silly photos that she used from their Instagrams. And it wasn't like this insane direct attack. That's not my beef though. You know what I? That's not my shit to whatever.

But anyways, whether you guys have an irreparable relationship or not, I think that I was drunk. I think that I left out a lot of details. And a lot of details of that story that makes it so much different than it came across. And then it ended up doing a lot of damage to her career and character that I regret. You know what I mean? Because the same thing is the like the original Mindy video with you. Like we were able to kind of reconcile and like do damage control of that.

And people's takeaway wasn't like, oh, Brooke is a horrible person for doing that to Tanner. Like whatever, you know what I mean? and I don't know how to like put it in towards other than like that was just like me really misusing the platform like I was getting out feelings that I had and that's what I did on canceled every week but I heavily regret putting that out there because I think that like I was drunk and there was so much more to say and like just that I love her so much and just like you like we ended up making up and coming back together like that's my fucking sister and she she does love me so much and never had an ill intention or

or malice or just fucking anything like it was such a layered situation that needs so much more explanation than it was and that's one of my biggest regrets across this podcast because I think she's a wonderful woman and obviously in my dream world you guys I agree justice for Ashley but you know what I mean just in my dream world no I don't I mean but I also think it's okay if two people just aren't friends yeah I think that's it's totally normal I know it's and I know that you probably have a million more things that you want to say to that I just I thought about it No, I don't have anything negative to say about Ashley except for like unblocking seriously. Yeah, I think that situation is just so much more layered, but I wrote it down.

I wrote down the Turks episode because I really, people were also commenting that and I do heavily, heavily regret that. But that was also in the time even, I don't think I really learned the lesson of the weight of the platform until Alyssa Violet. No, you know what? Even though I should have. I still learn lessons about it. And it's like, again, kind of like you just said, you want to come on and you want to vent. And like, even if you tell a story sometimes in like the most lighthearted way, you don't, understand that people are going to, you know, interpret it, however they're going to interpret

it and, like, you know, run pretty far with it. I've just experienced it with Boatgate. Yeah. And, like, I shouldn't have told that story. Because, like, as funny and lighthearted as I thought it was, it didn't turn out to be that way. Yeah. And, you know, I regret that. Like, there's been a lot of things like that where I'm like, did you really, like, was it really worth the story? Yeah. And also, like, it's taught me a lot about it, even specifically. that Ashley thing, you can't do anything in the height of your emotion because like I look back at that now and it's like I was very emotional and I had a right to be. But I also like when I filmed that, I still hadn't talked to that with her. And then she ended up telling me so many more things

about that situation and that man and like all of those things that like made it a completely different scenario. You know what I mean? And like I just you, you know what I mean? I wish I knew all of that before I filmed that and did that damage because I would have said so many different things that are now like You can't just take these backsies. You know what I mean? No, it's like when you tell your mom to have something bad about your friend and then she never forgives. I feel like that's kind of the audience. Yeah, I mean, that was the lesson across canceled that took me far too long to learn.

You know what I mean? And still is a learning lesson because, again, they're even just with me saying that I wanted to delete everything, there is an element too where we just sit down and we start talking to each other and you do like forget the weight of the things that you say. I was going to talk about our NFT era, but that just kind of is the same thing as the boa. steakhouse of it all just like I thought we were going to be rich loaded billionaires they gifted us those NFTs and like oh my god we're sitting on a gold mine and just like the how before you've said it the other day but in the whole first season that's always what we were doing we'd get ready we'd put on our mesh seat through tops we'd film canceled then we would go do that like just like how different of people we were and we would do these black mirror ass NFT ceremonies j ceremonies is so funny

because it literally was like it was so black mirror everyone standing around clapping for like someone whatever um joe and chris rough times joe joe was just a funny situation because like that was one of like many i mean one of probably 10 guys in my lifetime that i have like like become completely consumed by that is not my boyfriend is not that serious like i just that's my personality so funny now to look back on it and be like brook there's no way like you were losing sleep over this situation like i was sick but that's where your heart was at like when you started that podcast like how crazy is that oh my god it was like all consuming i literally thought like the sky is falling the world is ending he kissed carly yeah you know like i can't believe this

which is you know it's funny that i've never talked about and i still i get anxiety talking about it and i'm always in some garb too when i want to bring him up and the ghost always acts up when i want to bring them up so we'll see what happens and i'm saving a lot of this for the book okay and i know everyone's eyes so fucking sick of hearing that but when I started this podcast I was so in love still with Jake Paul and like I never thought I would get over him and like that was always our conversations like off camera like you and I've never talked about that like anywhere and I mean and it's still it gives me so much anxiety to talk about and I don't know why because I don't think I've ever like admitted it on camera like how ever madly and I like literally my heart's racing out of my chest

even like saying it right now because I just keep it like so close to me and I want to go into detail about that in the book. But it is weird. Like I've never said that. But like you and I talked about it off camera every day for years. Like I was so heartbroken and thought he was the love of my life. And like, you know what I mean? Just like now thinking back that like that was where I was at for years and years and now where I am. Like that's just like so wild. It's so wild, but it's so refreshing because it shows you like sometimes when you think something is the biggest most catastrophic thing in the world

it turns out to be just so minuscule in the grand scheme of your life well I mean I don't know I don't know about miniscule in the grand scheme of my life because like there is a part of me that he was like my first real love I really never said any of this way I shouldn't say miniscule I just I just mean you

you get over it yes exactly like and just like everything is happening and I'm also like I'm not speaking on him it could be unrequited it could be whatever it is to him I don't know what he thinks of all of that, but I know that I was like a mess over him for so long and like genuinely convinced that like that was like right person wrong time and all these things that like just ended up not being at all and like led me obviously to Makoa. And like I now know that

like where my life is supposed to be up. But that's so funny because like just like how wild that time was. And even just like the Chris, all of that, you know, like thinking that was going to be the be-all end-all and like being in and out of that whirlwind across canceled for so motherfucking long i knew that wasn't your end-all be-all time yeah and like love him he is he is like a great friend and human being like we were just like we were never meant to walk down the aisle and get married you know what i mean in that whole he's sober now could you imagine by the way you would be wearing the outfit that you're wearing right now if you married chris miles it's so fucking true like so fucking true and like that's so wild to think about he's sober now i know i just saw that

congratulations yeah which is like so cool and that relationship also taught me so much about addiction and the person i mean chris is the first person i think whoever really got through to me and looked at me and said you're an alcoholic and like i remember me like no the fuck i'm not like you know what i mean but it's stuck with me like and he really like drilled that into me so i'm so thankful for him. I think he made me like realize I was an alcoholic, you know what I mean, which is crazy and everything happens for a reason. The old podcast studio and what went down and why we ended canceled the first time and why it stopped being at that studio and started being at my house in Laurel Canyon. There was a lawsuit, so how much can you say? My bad for

doxying that guy on that boat. should we talk about that yes i mean i wrote him down too like there's there's a list of your suitors that obviously as your friend and being beside you through that like seeing all of the people before miles that you were pursuing and god it just like i think obviously just being with miles is such like i never would look back on those like the way that i do if i weren't with him because miles could not be more different than all of these guys but the fact that, like, that was so recently almost like literally makes me sick to my stomach because like, what do you mean? I was like letting myself be treated that way. And it wasn't even

like necessarily like, oh, he was treating me so bad, but I was like genuinely like voluntarily putting myself in a position to be just like so miserable. And being your friend through that was, oh my God. Oh my God. It was hard at times. But yeah. So we made a joke. I think we were talking one time about how Tana like checked find my friends and and I was you know on a boat in a marina in a marina but we used the screenshot with the exact coordinate of his boat and it was on the real episode of the canceled podcast I never told him and thank God he never found out I mean he'll probably know and then we took it out in post but everybody knew like what it was or people had already posted it I don't know

his boat is long since gone from there but yeah but that's so crazy we don't talk about that too like the internal like that's sometimes that is what we mean as well when we say like it's not like brooke and i were just like i hate you as a person i hate you as a person fighting it would just be like tense mo like like like i'm put you told erin to kill himself i think i didn't but that's okay he left it in and that that's what it was we were in a dramatic volatile fucking era like i was in such like a distress unsettling like place with him that i was like oh my god could you imagine I just doxed the man. Yeah.

Especially because he didn't, he didn't even like to be talked about on the podcast, which is hilarious for me to be doing it. Now I haven't seen him in a year and a half. But now looking back to though, it's like that motherfucker deserved that and 10 times more. You know, I look back. Like we're talking by the way about, what did we call him? Mr. Big. Mr. Big.

Because he was. You were carrying. But yeah, I mean, it wasn't like him necessarily doing anything wrong. He was so honest that it was like, it really, I was just so embarrassing because it would really you'd be like, yeah, and I went on a date with the girl yesterday, and I'd be like, thank you for respecting me enough to be honest. And it's like, respecting you? Like, please, Brooke. Oh my God, it makes me sick. Yeah, I agree. I, like, I'm agreeing with everything that you're saying, but I also do think that leading on someone. There was also, like, there was also some omission, like,

where it wasn't like, he didn't, he didn't, he didn't say like, oh, we're dating or, you know, we're exclusive and he certainly never would say that, but. Yeah. Or just, just like I'm doing the exact same. I think he always made you feel like you were his, like, main hoe. God, at the very least. Yeah, and then, like, come to find out he was kind of doing the same exact things he was doing with you with everyone else. And low key with, like, one girl looked, like, literally exactly like me.

It was like, it was dark. I remember there's a photo of me, like, one of the most, like, recognizable canceled photos. It's me holding up a picture of me crying, and I'm hysterically crying. And it was like, right before we had gone on stage. I forget what city we were in, but it was our last city on tour. And I got a tab, or somebody sent me a girl's story, and it was like they were together. And he had just come to see her on tour. Yeah, he had just come to see us, like, was with us on tour, and then just literally flew directly home to, like, be with some other girl.

And, like, I see her stories and I can see that they're together. And I text him about it. He's like, yeah, totally. And then I go on stage and the whole time, like, I remember sitting on stage and just thinking to myself, like, thinking about it the whole. whole time just ruminating and like literally I wanted to fucking throw up but I just had to do the show a lot of that too we don't talk about that enough I think that's another one where I really bought like our it brought our bond so close together because that would happen a lot right we did fucking damn near 200 shows where something would happen in our personal lives that would

be like fucked up and one of us would be like fucking sobbing right before we had to go out on stage and then we'd have to go out there and like I don't want to cry don't do it But, like, carry each other on the other one's back, you know, and, like, and you're out there on the road and you're living together on this bus and, like, you have each other, you know, and like that. It's just such a vulnerable experience that, like, will likely never experience again. And I think it's cool that we got to do it together because a lot of people don't. A lot of people go through and do the exact same thing, but they don't, they have teams and stuff with them. But it's no one's going to ever understand exactly what it's like. To be a duo.

the same yeah you know what i mean and just like what are you going to wear today and like i i got really emotional like you've been just thinking about that not that we ever got on the same vibe with that at all except for green shorts day which which goes down in history did we talk about green shorts ever i we had to yes there's no way it embarrasses me so bad but like i'm not getting just recently i saw a comment of somebody like i think they were complaining about like i got this at the show and like we didn't get anything and like blah blah and somebody commented it was like Like, well, yeah, well, I saw them in this city. And they just fucking came out dressed like track stars and barely did anything at all.

Oh, my gosh. They hate us up. I'm like, oh, my gosh. We, they said like they were going to attract me. No, 100. There was this day where Brooke and I wore these. St. Patrick's Day. St. Patrick's Day.

We wore these little green running shorts. And, like, I had camel toe. Like, no one's ever had camel toe in a pair of track shorts ever and eats us alive to this day. Like so many just footy outfits, which did like bring us closer because we were bonding over that. you know what I mean like just mind you we didn't buy them together we both individually walked into a store saw those shorts and we were like perfect show outfit yes yes and then wore them and then like we we changed before the show I remember we saw the meet and great photos and we were like what the fuck I'm not walking on stage in that I can

never untake those photos and there are people who paid money and have to live with those photos and like we didn't stop there either I think four shows later we did two sets of shows in Bucky's onesies no no regrets I don't regret that one at all I looked I mean the onesies funny good for you I looked like bucky well yeah goals like I just I can't believe the things that I would willingly put on and walk and I remember page was so funny that day because we were fighting over a lip liner the lip liner my lip liner yes that Brooke did introduce me to I don't remember I don't I don't mean like oh my color I mean it was mine oh

And you swore it was yours, but I knew it was mine. It was mine. And then that's the thing, too. So many things were just sisterly. And then the way that we both fight sisterly is very different. And then it would be like you two are in a real fucking fight over a lip liner and you're in Bucky's fucking onesies, you imbeciles. And like I just imagine being all the outside people and it's like, oh, they're doing that thing again where they are actually pissed over something as trivial as. lip liner and page would just be trying to get us to fight harder because like what else do you do it's so

funny page is such an instigator like that's to page no that too like we haven't even talked about that but just the page of it all and the way people were to her and like that was so crazy i know justice for page i was going to start talking about all of the other because i wrote this down like hannah thomas ellie emma alison brie like the richard the amount of normal unassuming people who had to get on these buses with us and try to make this like shit show a business and a show and all of the tour managers and the things that they saw yeah the staff at the house of blue cleveland we've talked about it a lot george skate but i'm 100 percent convinced that george skate would have never happened to the way that it did if if thomas was our tour manager brie was our tour manager

anyone else like so many moving parts that had to be you know figured out but like and just so many people who came in and like either added to the drama or took away from it or like you know what I mean like and eventually by the end of it we had everything completely figured out and we had everything yeah there were a lot of things around me like Lila was on tour with us at that time like Olivia Kaiser was there like why you know it was just so we were so random yes so because it we weren't it was very unsurious at the time it was like oh my god are we like what are we doing it wasn't until we got on the bus that I started really being like wow this is a business and this is a profitable business

and this is beautiful and this can turn into something huge and you have to take it seriously as such those beginning shows just felt like and we were still in our boa steakhouse like drunk era. It almost felt like we were just bringing that city to city which did make for insane shows

because we were hammered and it was like Toad's place. Come on. Yes and exposing everyone on stage and bringing whoever on stage and figuring out what the shows were going to be and you know what I mean like all of that like again I wouldn't change everything. I mean, would I have done Coke with venue owners?

Probably not, but, you know. No, that was a fun show. That was right after I'd fallen out of the... I was so hyped. We were so hyped. I had just fallen out of the sprinter from being too drunk the night before. That's a thing, too. It's so crazy to me that we would like take sprinter vans because we didn't have the budget like that.

We didn't know if we get sold tickets like that. And like... From city to city. But it's overnight. So it's like we're supposed to sleep. But why are there six additional people? Then we're supposed to be in the sprinter van and they're all Tanna's people. And the party.

Yeah. I was just about the party for me. Because even now, I couldn't sleep on a sprint. Well, that was like the start of our, you know, like, just the animosity because I'm like, I want to sleep. And like, I can't, I'm not going to be the one fucking boner that's like, shut the fuck up. I was. No, but, and you were real for that.

And then I remember we came home and on that I called Britney today and I'll never forget it. I came in because that was after I fell out of the sprinter. I was arguably so injured that someone shouldn't do the show. Like I had like broken my wrist and like was covered in like a bloody. fucking injury. But I'm in peak alcoholism. I'm waking up. I'm chugging Casamigos. Go to the fucking venue. I know the owner has Coke. So we do it. And we go out on stage and we give them a fucking show. And it was a fucking show it was. You know what I mean? And we come back and I remember I my managers brought me into the office. And it's like serious. Like I'm in the office in Beverly

Hills and I'm sitting there and they are all like, this can. never happen again if you want this this can never happen again and then that was when we started taking touring seriously we had meanings about parameters of what could happen and what could not happen and my protections yes 100 fucking percent like and just crazy and it's crazy too even just thinking about how far those protections like sometimes went like just in the peak of times that and this was way later down the line you know what I mean but when we were like, I think this was post tweets and like just really like we were really fighting and there was conversations of you and I, of continuing canceled, but you and I having

a mediator to speak in between us. Like if I had something to say I would tell the mediator and then the mediator would tell you and if you had something to say you would tell the mediator and they would tell me. What are you talking about? I've never heard that before my life. Was that your idea? No. Like it was, but it just like it was. Wait, like, for the episodes or for... Just for everything, because every time we would have a conversation about business, it would be a blowout or like... Oh, yeah, big summer blowout.

Yeah, I get that. Like, in just conversations life, I thought you meant, like, on the episodes. I'm like, that wouldn't have been anything. No, imagine they're just in the room. No, like if we had to plan a shoot or anything like... No, and that time period, too, is very obvious, I think, to the public also. I think, like, that was one of the times where I'm like, everyone was pretty much right about, like, what was going on.

It was dark. But it was before that. almost like we had already been like really struggling and that was just like you know the straw that broke the camel's back but yeah and like we we want we were going to tour with two separate tour buses like the city girls that was that was that was six weeks ago that would still be nice for no but that would still be nice for like luxury reasons but like it was for morale reasons and like that's yeah like we were genuinely like willing to be out hundreds of thousands of dollars just for fear of like yeah and like i was so genuinely convinced that you

You hated my guts. You know what I mean? And like maybe you did. Who knows? Well, I think it was one of those things where it was like which one of us hates the other. It was like I thought you hated me. So I hated you. And you thought I hated you.

So you hated me. And looking back to now, I can just like Brooke was going through a lot and like hadn't figured out how to like you know what I mean? Navigate that. And like and now I can like I have so much like I just want to go back into that time and just like hug that Brooke. and be like, oh, my God, it's going to be okay. But now we're, I don't know.

It's just like, it's so cool to me. Now I have a stupid ass veil on my head. And life is cool. Anyways, we don't have anything else to say about gates or do we? I think they've seen enough gates. Yeah. At what point is like, okay. Yeah.

I just like toilet gate, skunk gate. They don't even know about skunk gate. They don't know about skunk gate. I'm still mad about shit myself gate, but that's beside the point. It's funny because I'm having one of those photos blown up. Like, and because I truly do love it. What photo? one of us on the side of the road but like I know the lore behind it and it's like no I did

shit myself and throw up in my lap that day oh that day oh my god and we fought because then that was after tart trip gate like our tart trip gate had happened right after that that was like oh it was tart trip gate like I got invited and you thought I didn't tell you and you were like so or was it was it Taylor Swiftgate what's Taylor Swiftgate no no oh because Taylor Swiftgate was on managers, I think. Yeah, but I thought it was a whole thing. That was the hardest time for me. That was like we just could not like, holy fucking shit. But that photo shoot is so funny because it is just like you and I outside of

a trailer, eating hot dogs, like giving a USA, like we're touring the USA photo. This is us. We're hitchhiking. And it was like the worst day ever. Well, I shit myself and threw up in my lap and Tanna says, you have to be there. You have to be there. You have to be there. I get there. And then she's, an hour and a half late and we have four minutes of sunlight so imagine me sitting there that whole time no bathroom no means of relieving myself anywhere and then just for her to show up I saw I had to stop and get a vape and it was a whole thing she kept having to do outfit changes but there's

more to this they're like and then I could go in on my side and maybe we'll never fully agree on that and I think the point is that it's over and it's beautiful I was going to say there was a new gate after that when I only received four images from the shoot. There is a whole part of that too like why were those fucking photos $20,000 but I think that we just digress on that one. Let it rest. Yeah, let it. It's dead. It's good. We're good.

I have like so many more like the sex bed club with Mike Maylach night Dolby projector night. Because that was another one of my like not so shining moments. I think I texted in our work group chat and said like somebody's going to die today. But honestly looking back on that you were kind of

valid we did that I don't know people like because the people who attended the show know this but arguably one of our most I think you were completely valid in saying that I like now looking back I didn't want you to get caught up I think was my thing I was like don't say that in case you get in trouble but you were valid on telling people that anyways we had two sold out shows at the Dolby theater in Los Angeles and it was the end of the U.S. tour and you and I we're in a good place at this point too and but we're so excited for these shows it's this most the most massive crowd ever. It's in L.A.

So we're constantly talking about it in L.A. We're inviting everyone in L.A. We knew that Tricia Padas was coming out for night two, the final night, and we're so excited. And we knew the people were going to be so fucking excited. And we were so grateful and just mind-blown that we did two nights there. But grateful, too, because that meant that night one, we could kind of make sure it was the perfect show with the Dolby.

So that by the time Trisha came for night two, it was flawless. And it was this flawless execution. And we get to the Dolby Theater, bells on to finally do our L.A. show. And there's also an element to the L.A. show where maybe you invite a few people who doubted you, you know. I invited every single person I know to that first L.A. show. Literally friends, family, friends of family, like family of friends. Like, family of friends. Like, yes.

Every person we know. And 20 minutes before show, the projector, the entire show. I've goosebumps even thinking about it right now. the entire show we're playing this game where the wheel spins and then whatever it lands on we tell a story in relation to that topic okay and telling the craziest stories mind you but the show was so heavily reliant on the things on the screen behind us and the Dolby I don't know if it was our people's fault or the Dolby's fault I don't remember technical difficulty of the century black stage go out in 20 girls, here's your mic, figure it the fuck out. So a 100% visual show turned into her

and I just talking, having to do stand up and just talk through it and like almost joke about how the thing, because everyone knew at that point that we would do the show with the screen behind us, so we're having a joke about it not working, but still try to carry the best show ever. But it's like, no matter how good you do, it's not your show that you've been doing for 40 fucking shows and you're so upset and like it you know again it's everybody who care about is like oh my god everyone we know we're going to see all of our agents like hoping we get another tour they're there everyone we know is like watching this black show and like we did our best like again i'm so proud of us like how and how many moments like that happened like technical difficulties

that were out of our control and you and i would still go out there and give it our fucking all and like kill it but like yeah it was rough and thank god night too they got it work And we had Trisha Padeus come out and we had the best show of our fucking lives. Like it was the greatest like, but those night one people like I, it's like. I know. Still to this day. I'm like one day. They got a very different show because then we almost had to carry for no projector

by exposing more things. And, you know, it's, I don't think it was necessarily a bad show. It was just the way that we felt that was so crazy. Like, oh my God, what else is there? The stage rushing girl. Oh my God. That was crazy. But honestly, like.

Is there anything left to be said about that girl, poor thing? No, I mean, yeah, it's nothing about her specifically, but I think that changed everything, too. That was one of those moments that changed everything. Like, the girl rushes on stage, I run off, Brooke freezes. You all know that that was a very classic psychological display of freeze versus flight and just whatever.

We get off stage. We find out that she was not in her right mind. And it was not like just a crazed drunk fan trying to get a TikTok moment or more lighthearted things like someone, oh, someone dared her to do that or like whatever that it was actually someone who was maybe trying to do something that was not good. And I already have a lot of fears with that and stalkers and people doing weird stuff to us and lots of other weird things that had happened to us across tour that people did and following us and following our bus and following cars. And I'm very paranoid. And then finding out that her intentions that she wasn't in the right mind and her. intentions were dark and that that was she rushed the stage and whatever and then I don't know if we've ever talked about this I think we have but we get off stage immediately I'm in the car it's just you and me in the car and we're on our way to the hotel and we're sitting there I'm having a full blown panic attack about it and Brooke's kind of being broke she's trying to talk me down off of it and she's much lighter about it I'm freaking the fuck out in this car and all of a sudden across the

windshield the biggest loudest just thud. And I look up and it's a body. It's a body of a girl who threw herself at the windshield of our car trying to like have a moment. Think not like oh like he he she got touched by the car like she flew over the windshield. Like as if we hit her going a hundred miles per hour but she charged at it and I just remember like I remember instantly like like screaming like being so scared. And then that was the moment that we upped our security to fucking Fort Knox level. And And then every other show that we did since Ray and Lincoln, hello. It was Ray and Lincoln and then Ray and Craig.

Yes, sat behind us. Like, you'll see the most, like, on stage and just, like, how funny that dynamic was. Like, we'd never talked about that because then we'd leave stage every night. And it's like they were on stage the whole time, too. You know what I mean? So we're all fist bumping and, like, they're hearing these fucked up stories from our lives. And, like, me, like, I know. Every time I'm like, Craig, like, especially, like, I don't know, like they have, like, kids.

and they're probably so ashamed of us. No, they really do love us so much, but I know that both of those men had only ever really toured with big musicians. Ray worked so heavily with like a shanty and... No, I'm with Craig. I'm like vintage shopping with Craig and he goes, I was on that tour and I look and it's Britney Spears tour in 2000.

I go, Craig! Like, that's all they'd ever done and now they're on stage and I'm, we're telling fucked up sex stories and fucked up just like insane the things we can never share on the podcast, truly. you know what I mean and that was just like such a funny dynamic and I'm so grateful God brought me Ray he like just still is my bodyguard and he's the best I'm going through a lot right now by the way I don't think I'm going to podcast about it but he's back and he's back and LAPD

doesn't give a fuck um but I'm stay in my house yes I can and don't make sure that you do all the well then again look at me I took every precaution in the world to not have not be found by this one person and none of it worked so but yeah like ray's helping me through that and so everything does happen for a reason i don't know what i'd do without him i had bucky's nights and drunk girls leaving the shows like i wanted to just touch on our bucky's memories like that was so fun that was like the most fun you and i ever had touring on a bus was just the most fun that we've ever had it was as as much as i loved and appreciated europe in australia it was like definitely special and like nothing i'd ever done before it was such a different dynamic because there's no like camaraderie

like there is on a bus. It's like living separately kind of like when you're hotel and flying whereas like you live together like we live together. Like on the Europe and Australia tour we would go sometimes like five days without seeing each other

like off days and just like all the things which is totally fine because you wanted to spend time at home and I completely respect that. And just resting. You know what I mean? Like I just I needed rest across that. I was definitely like I'm tired, you know? Yeah, the bus was crazy.

Like we genuinely fucking lived together for months at a time with all of these other. people like and toilet gate and bucky's nights and all of those things came from that and like even just thinking about bucky's nights and like all those like cute things that we would do and like have so much fun and it was so much fun but then at the same time i'm like damn i wasted so many of those nights fucking going through somebody's following and trying to figure out where they all were like brook i'm so happy honestly i'm just more than anything in the world i'm so grateful that i will never feel those feelings ever again you're fucking engaged i know like that's

engage you know what's crazy i was just telling someone this yesterday but on july 6th of 2024 or wait i don't know yeah 2024 i posted my clinton cane like who the fuck did i marry series and then on july 7th of 2025 i got engaged like literally exactly a year later and also like you know i'm buying a house a year after that like it's so interesting how much can change in a year like that was such a huge moment where I like literally thought it was like the biggest deal in the world and only 365 days later I am marrying someone that I hadn't even met yet who treats you so amazingly by the way like I could who worships the ground you walk on just never imagine like ever even knowing somebody like him like I just had no idea we're buying a house together and we're

getting married and and I'm like what the hell was I doing I don't know if you want to talk about it at all but so you can cut this But and just how much you two had to go through together in this time of, like, being engaged and, like, so many things about him being untrue and, like, you writing for him. And, like, I wonder and I hope that at some point, because I know the, like, truth and the backstory of that whole situation, I've seen it all with my own eyes. Yeah. Which is why even when I get comments, you know, oh, my God, you're an apologist and you're this and you're that. I would never, ever, ever allow you or stand by you if I thought you were marrying a person like that or an evil person.

I also just never would. You know what I mean? And it's hard to say that because especially when people already feel like some type of way about me, it's possible to be like, no, but like that's not my character because everyone like is like, well, your character sucks, bitch. Yeah. Like I just truly, in a million years, I would never. like especially because I think what's kind of hard is because like I've had all these like

absolutely horrible like horror stories with the guys that I've dated to where it makes me like makes people question my judgment a little more than you would another person but what I think is the hardest is again I've seen all of these things so that's why I'm speaking on it is that there you can't speak for someone else or air out receipts that you have or air out you know what I mean and you're stronger than i i think that i in the sense that like yeah you i don't know it's it's a touchy hard thing to talk about but it's like you you know the factual truth you've heard it out of the mouth of the people yeah in that all of the people every single person every every every person involved every person who was a spectator every person you know around at the

time like i think the entire time i just had this mindset of like like the truth prevails you know what I mean like eventually I just like assumed it would either people would have enough like discernment to be able to be like okay well obviously this isn't true but obviously that never happened and I also I don't know I don't know what I thought was going to happen but I definitely didn't think that but me knowing everything that I know and getting to witness your dynamic and knowing who he is as a person and also in the beginning like when things first started coming out like I very much did my own digging and like did my own like me too how well like Like, you know, as much as I can love somebody and be, you know, infatuated by somebody,

I've been wrong before. Hello, you guys saw my series. I've been so unbelievably wrong about who somebody was. So I, like, oh my God, I did not take that lightly. Are you kidding? I literally, I knocked every wall down, you know. And like, even if she was calling me being like, I'm knocking every wall down. And that wasn't good enough for me.

I still had to go, like, fucking find out on my own. You know what I mean? To make sure that the person who's my friend that I love is not marrying this person. And then eventually, yeah, like I found out everything. And it's so crazy, like, because you guys are obviously being very private in your relationship, but I get to see it. And he is an amazing person who loves you so much and takes care of you so well and is the perfect match for you and all of your intricacies and your craziness. He is like, just like almost like the way McCa is to me, you know, just so patient and loving and wanting for like our growth and chill.

and just like all of all of the magical things that I would have dreamt for your partner when you were crying in that studio about Joe you know and I hope people get to see that and that the truth just really fully come out to light because it's a beautiful thing and I can say that because I know every single detail and every single truth and I you know me too I don't know it like it's been obviously fucking horrible and it literally made me so sick for so long but I now can kind of look at it and be like, wait, what a positive it's been for me to have like a relationship that I was the only person involved in. You know what I mean? Like I got to, I shouldn't say got to. I didn't want to keep, I don't want to fucking keep my relationship a secret

or not talk about things or not post things. I don't want to do that. But just to protect my own piece, I've had to do that. And it was, it ended up being like such a positive. And I think that even just in the end, it taught you a very big lesson about privacy as power and about phone down. you know and about like overconsumption of opinions wrong or right about you you know and responding to them and like yeah and just like I learned a valuable lesson about like if once people have made their mind up about somebody something there's nothing that can come out nothing that you can say that'll ever make people feel differently so it's like I have to surrender like yes and that's but that that's what piece is that was me across so many of my things like I know there are people

to this day that still hate me for a plethora of reasons, right or wrong. Things I did that were wrong or things that maybe I see differently and you know what I mean, like yada yada. But yeah, eventually finding peace and acceptance and that and knowing that I'm growing and I'm doing the inner work and like I've become a person that I'm proud of. Like that's all that matters. And I'm very happy to get to see you there and actively working on that because like there was so much time where I wanted to substance style going. in your back and go in your brain and like operate through things for you I wish I didn't want to be in there yeah I was oh my god even like I mean so recently as like the australian tour like I literally

was going to admit myself somewhere I was like I was so unwell like specifically because I mean obviously I just posted that I was engaged and it was not not good but yeah I feel better but I feel like that ended up teaching you a lesson that like you know the truth and you know your life and like you know that not everyone needs to see everything and like oh and just like uh it sucks because like was something i you know i wanted so badly and looked forward to my whole life i allowed to be ruined by people like by just like an imaginary yeah who don't know the truth yeah i mean and it's it's almost like too you can like mentally give grace to those commenters because it's like if we just saw a tic talk about someone else or whatever that might form our

opinion you know what i mean that truthfully like that does help me i have to think about like what i would think about somebody if i thought all of those things to be true like if it if the same you know another influencer were in the same situation and i like i saw this this and this and i was like oh my god obviously that must have happened i would 100% feel differently about that person i just would naturally it just sucks because it's like you know it's hard to be like when you see people say things about you you know what's true and you know what isn't and now learning that private is power this also gives like at some point you could write a beautiful book about like going through these times of your life and like what was true and what wasn't or like have an entire portion of

your podcast be about navigating mental health and or navigating mental health in the public eye or like you know what I like there's you have so much power like because of these things you know what I mean like and things can be so powerful because of that which I think is very cool you know I'm not all the way out of the woods yet I'm sure I'll have some sort of of, I have like an episode a month, but sometimes. Yeah, but that's, you're honest and that's like beautiful as well. And you're trying, you know, like I think some people will wake up and, you know what I mean? They're like, I am this way and I don't want to ever change or ever grow or anything.

And you are not that person and you want to grow and change. I want to. So that's fabulous. I'm trying. That's all we can do. That's sickening. I'm in therapy and I just bought a new workbook for that. a highly sensitive person yeah and like that's like just that's sick though like dead ass like

that's sickening I had a whole thing about just how much of a whore I was like again it was it was the vibe with the Coachella 2016 he left me at the red rock like that he did and how upset I was over that relationship that was such a funny relationship because like what the hell was that I know and I like thought I was going to marry him like genuinely like how funny is that you just really cracked me up like you just randomly i swear you met him and you started dating like the next day i know it's because there was a lot of lore there you know what he was he grew up in Vegas and was childhood best friends with one of my best friends so it like you know what i mean it like worked and like just so so funny that one was and such a genuine crash out i'm christmas you can bleep this

but oh like that happened on the canceled podcast and I was walking the dog and we just told this story in full on stage actually because I was talking about people like people I dated and the victims of my actions and all of that and just all of the things. But that one was crazy between Chris and I and then I was publicly dating Lil Zan and like all of that happened across canceled pool boy. Maudsson, Sahara Ray and Avril Levine. Sorry, Maudsine.

I told you I would never talk about you on the canceled podcast again. I owe Maud's on an apology as well I really do I it's funny I posted a TikTok the other day the one where I was addressing like deleting canceled and like I like I posted just saying that like I no longer want to delete it

obviously I struggle with digital footprint sometimes and mod comments it on it and he goes there's some episodes of the canceled podcast I'd love to have deleted and I was like you are so real for that like and even just if I ever see comments now because obviously like I same with the I think that was the same episode is Ashley that was quite the episode like it's our most viewed episode which oh it makes me sick now

because even mod I think I left out so many things I was equally as awful and like he was actually such a great loving partner and person and you know what I mean just like so he is such an amazing human being and I hate that I ever contributed to people thinking anything other than that like you know what I mean? As anything that he did wrong, I did something just as wrong and like so many of the things

that he did were also results of things that I did and like Maud's son loved me so much and was such a genuine person and I loved him so much and I loved him so much. Yeah like he deserves one of the biggest apologies probably of just all of the people

that I've said things about. I never want to contribute to anything but good words towards that really good person who was just normal and like had flaws like me and like you were also just a stupid drunk whore dana and like bringing avril the bean into it all of that like just shut the fuck up that is the episode that that is the climax of just to make podcast equipment more expensive who else do we need to apologize to who else have we really beefed with on this podcast. Junie B. Jones. Junie B. Jones. Oh, yeah. I think. Do you? I think that Devin has a lot of games that will probably refresh us. Okay, you guys, we have ran through some notes and ran through some memories and ran through some feelings. And we're going to take a beat on that. And we have prepared

a lot of segments that just encapsulate what the canceled podcast was. And I think it will jog our memory on some different things that we don't even remember. We're really just out here apologizing for the big ones and talking about the big ones. Fuck, I did want to talk about life during Clinton Kane, though. Like, not the actual episode in the series, but what our life was like during that. Remind me to do that.

So this first game is Sorry Not Sorry, Cancelled Edition, where Brooke and I will be discussing if we are sorry or not sorry. Alyssa Violet viewed. I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry in the same. slightest um i hated life after it it's i wanted to talk about this too like at one point our podcast and i've never thought about this at all anymore than when we talked about it and we posted an

instagram story about it and again this goes back to what i was saying earlier about just kind of being like not able to understand the weight of achievements and accomplishments or just certain analytics or whatever it is until it's over our podcast was number two in the world. The only podcast that was bigger than us at the time was Joe fucking Rogan. Like I remember opening the charts and literally just seeing Joe Rogan

and canceled with Tanna Mojo and Brooks Gofield. What was that about? And that is so crazy now being out of it to look back on, holy fucking shit. And that was during this time. Mm-hmm. It was right off the heels. of the Matt Reif, it was Matt Rife, Alyssa Violet, Clinton Kane, and Zach Seng all got it

in like, in like an 11-day period. And I see why people were tuning in. I mean, I definitely understand it is wild now, especially to just think about all of the beautiful things we could have done with having the number two podcast in the world. Yeah, but instead I wanted to play fucking whack-a-mole. Yeah. It was, I don't know what I was on. With Alyssa, I stand on everything I said,

and I think that her making that TikTok laughing in that drive-through and all of that and, you know, shaming me for OF and all of those things were diabolical. I think I might feel sorry about it. And I do think that I had so many experiences and heard about everything I said was true. Everything I said was true about her demeanor and whatnot. But it did in the end teach me a lot about the weight of the platform.

And I don't condone the amount of hate she got. But she also made that TikTok and you know, you're standing in the kitchen and that's the heat. So it's hard. It did teach me though a lot about the weight of the platform. I will say that. Yeah. I think maybe I would have done it slightly differently. But I will say I don't think I think she liked it.

And I think she's still feeding off of it. She's still engaging. Oh, yeah. like to this day Yeah Oh yeah And like maybe it's like okay Well yeah we were awful

So like yeah She thinks it's funny to be mean Yeah no I'm not sorry But I think she does I think she likes the attention Or she would have let it die Yeah I'm I'm And then I would have said

Alyssa I am sorry Yeah I'm not Actually Alyssa You want to come on the podcast You asked me yesterday No I guess I'm sorry Alyssa I'm not

I will say Well maybe if we're not sorry I'm going to say something nice about her. She might be the most beautiful person I've ever seen. So gorgeous. And that sucks. Only on the outside. I have to live with that.

Only on the outside. She is gorgeous. And she was funny, like the fact that she filmed that apology video. And then it was exactly. I didn't even clock it. That was funny. To the tone of your Mindy video. Like, it was, that's really funny that she did that.

She slayed it. And yeah, but you were right. She liked all of it and it's fine. And it is what it is. And if I went back in time, I probably would do that one very similarly because I was very disheartened by her sentiments. What was I mad at her about? I don't even know. I think you were just riding for me.

Oh, then yeah. And like attesting to the mean girl, if it all. You know what I mean? The, yeah. Tanna barking at a waitress. I'm sorry. I wasn't even there. Is this calf on the table?

It's probably a calf on the table time. Yeah. I think it was foot on the table. It was not foot on the table. Should your legs ever be on a table in a restaurant? You know what? Brooke, that restaurant in LAX is one of the grimey restaurants in that place and people sleep on the floor and kids are smearing things and whatever. And I have scoliosis and my back hurt and I was having a god awful day and it was just the near end of my knee.

and I'm going to point in the visual, this part of my leg no further, was on the edge of that table and I think that that woman might have been having a bad day and took it out on me. And I'll never understand instilling fine dining level rules and etiquette in a place where like somebody is like asleep on the floor yelling like Kanye lyrics. I think you should respect her boundaries because what if you were to go to a house that's not that nice but that person who owns that house wants you to take your shoes off would you say well this is a shitty house no i would never do that but i think those are different situations because this is lax where anything goes anything goes and i wasn't even at a nice restaurant in lax and again it was

like my knee arguably it was like my upper calf and i don't know what it was i like i don't i think she was having a bad day and it like you know what i even barking is a little crazy but i will say that I do think that this scenario could happen again today. Like I was sober and like I like again this part of my leg I don't know how the corner of my shin is bothering you while some lint lickers wiping their snot on the table over there like you do not have to be so mean. Maybe she yelled at them too. She didn't. Oh my God. I hope this isn't just me not apologizing the whole time. Like I'm sorry to that that waitress. I, I, only because I'm like the number one

to be like, get your fucking look off the table. But I just can't stress you enough. It wasn't like my leg across the table. I just had a moment. Honestly, I just snapped at you at the airport when we were on our way home and then I felt bad about it the whole way home. What?

But it's because you just sat down right in front of the checkin desk. No, it's front of where they were weighing the luggage. I sit on the floor. But you're right, this is an Ellers-Donloser, like, Scolios thing where I'm like in pain. So I like alleviate my pain by sitting on the fucking floor. and like no one like and especially you you're clean you look very clean you're dressed very clean like and then I can see myself as a mother being get up yeah like and your friend Tanna sitting on the

floor and like I might be a floor sitter wherever we are wherever we go and that does I can understand how that can ruffle some feathers so I guess I'm sorry there's time in place you know but I was about to apologize like about to be like I'm really sorry that you feel no but that's not what I mean I wish I was, like, posture on 10 sitting classier in an airport. Pilates will help you with that. Yeah. And honestly, like, I hope to not be a floor sitter for the rest of my life. And I wish that woman was nicer and therefore I would have been nicer.

LAX is a madhouse. I X. Tessa Brooks feud. I personally feel uninvolved in this. Me too. But then we could probably go back and we said words. that would make us involved. I don't remember what was said.

I'll say yes. I'm sorry to this because I definitely don't think she did anything wrong enough to warrant the amount of hate that she got for it. It was like her interaction with Paige. But to this day, I really think like there could have been a misunderstanding, not to discredit Paige in any way she performed because I love Paige. What was said? She said she like didn't know Paige.

Oh. That's what I was going to say. Didn't she call Paige? I believe Paige. I'm always going to ride for Paige. No one should ever treat Paige. that way page is so so nice and kind and i know her heart she's never page will never be like rude to anyone or anything like that yeah i guess i didn't remember this is one of those this is one of those where i

do think that the weight of the podcast made a person receive way too much unnecessary hate and for that i apologize i think we could have maybe made it lighter but that's also what canceled was at the time And I will say that I've also, like, spent a decent amount of, not a crazy amount of time, very L.A. influencer type of interactions, but around Tessa Brooks. And also people have bad days and bad interactions. And that doesn't mean that they deserve thousands of people sending them awful messages. And, like, she is a sweet girl. And even now I just see her, like, making her content and, like, just being, like, I just saw a video for her, like,

trying on her outfits at home and like hanging up cute shoe racks and I would never want her to think that like I wish the worst for her I think she deserved all of those comments or anything like that no I don't I don't at all I never want to send a hate train on anyone and also I think maybe because of what I know about her was why I was like that that has to be a misunderstanding like maybe it was like sillier than intended the way it came across and stuff like that I yeah like remember the time I texted in our work group chat and said somebody's going to die today I thought it was funny silly But they could have said I threatened them

Yes I yeah like I 100% agree that it could have been one of those Or maybe she thought she was being funny silly Paige left with her feelings hurt And just wait of the podcast Wait I am like so yes I am sorry Weight of the podcast I'm sorry She did not deserve hate

But also page is not just in case In case Zach sang take down I hate to say it but I am sorry why um because i think he kind of got like the brunt of like strapnal and the clinton situation is that what you're trying to yeah i think like i had i had a lot of pent-up energy that should have been targeted at clinton and clinton alone of course like you know there were things that i was not really happy with him doing and i don't really like think that he's necessarily somebody who i would not want in my

life today but the amount of hate that he got i don't think it was warranted and for that reason And I do apologize. And I think that he's a very, very talented interviewer. I think he's very smart. I think he's not a bad person. I think he just wanted a good story. And he got one. You know what?

It's canceled and it's going to be canceled until the fucking very end. So I'm going to say what's on my heart and like what I truly, I'm going to say my truth, right? At that time, I knew some things about him. And then later on I found out more things about him and nothing to do with you, more to do. And we can bleep this, but more to do with like. And shit.

Maybe he did. not deserve what you said to him for those reasons. Maybe he did not deserve the hate for those reasons. Like, do you know what I mean? Like maybe you were angry and you said those things and it could have been said differently or done differently. But if I were to play God and look at the karma of the things after finding out other things that he has done in Hollywood and just with people, the dating world and just different things that he has done. Carmatically, he did deserve that, but maybe for other reasons. And that's my takeaway.

That's fair. I guess, yeah, I'm proud of myself for sticking up for myself, though, because I feel like I definitely stuck up for myself. Yeah, this one is interesting in murky waters, and I don't have a sorry or not, sorry because it wasn't really me. I was kind of just there. But like, do I think that he's a phenomenal? old person. No, but it's also, it's not a take down. He's still slaying. So whatever, let him do

his thing. But if some of the things, some of the whispers I've heard about things that he's doing, if those are true, then we'll see. Leah Keteb, Coachella Dressgate. Another one where I don't feel involved personally, but I do say sorry. Same. And, you know, it's funny. I was making my Tart PR list yesterday and Leah Ketab was one of Tart's suggestions. And I I really don't know where her and I stand. Like, I don't know if she hates me or, and if she does, I honestly, I kind of think it's valid, like. Yeah.

I think so, too. I just, oh, God, it sucks like. But, yeah, I love her. Like, I'm such a big fan of her. I'm like, yeah, just as a fan, like, I love her and I love, like, how, who she is and what she does for animals. Same. And, like, her fashion sense is so insane, too, which is so funny that, like, that's what

this, like, is about. I think it's pretty lighthearted to say someone has a shitty dress. You know what I will say. This one, it's not sorry versus sorry. It's the tale as old as time that reviewing fashion is always going to get you in way more trouble than you think in the moment. That like, you know what I mean? And I know, again, it was she was, it was more between her and page, but I know she unfollowed me too. So I know she felt some type of way about it being aired on the podcast.

And I do think it's valid to review fashion. And I wish it was lighthearted. The amount of times I have seen people or even like like a Chris Clemens. or someone say like, oh my God, Tanna looks like fucking shit in that. And that's so horrible. Why the fuck would she wear that? She has no brain. She looks awful.

She looks disgusting, all of the things. And then I don't hate those people. Like, I think Chris Clemens is so funny. I'm like, he was right about all of those takes. Or like, even if he, even if I don't think he was. And I still think it was the best outfit ever. But I also have been doing this for a very long time. And I have very thick skin, very thick skin.

So another person can be like, damn, why is this? Why are these girls talking about me and talking about my. outfits and she also has such amazing fashion sense that I think I can also empathize with the fact that she's like you don't even I was wearing this to a fucking revolve party and I'm a well-dressed bitch where the hell do you guys get off yes yes exactly and like I and at the AMAs I ran into jane and I saw her and she looked justice for jane yes and she looked beautiful and we were just having a gaggy fun moment because we'd never met and it was like hi oh my god and we're hugging and we're complimenting each other whatever and then

then Leah facetimes her and I pop in and I was like please don't hate me and she was like I don't hate you so I think that I think that we're good and she also I understand her just wanting to like disassociate with canceled like she was the last episode before the tweets and I can imagine her too being like I'm coming on and just like doing a lighthearted thing after Love Island and now everyone is saying like fuck the canceled podcast let it burn and I'm the last episode like yeah I understand And then I also flippantly, like, I think we were on a live one time, like, right after she'd unfollowed me, which she had unfollowed me, obviously after the tweet's very valid reason to unfollow me. And I said, like, she blocked me. I was like, yeah, she blocked me. Like, I flippantly said that. And she hadn't blocked me. She'd unfollow me. But I think I would hit me as her after that. I mean, if she had already before. So very valid. I wish there was a category of like, like, it's not sorry or not sorry. Like I'm looking at Leah Ketab's name. And I love Leah Ketab. And my literal reaction is like, yeah. No, I still. I shame. I shame. I, I shame. I shamed. follow her. I love everything that she does. And now I just pretend that never happened. Some things actually hurt me to think about. So I have to pretend they never happened. Like I have quite a few

examples of some of those. And we fucking love you, Leah Ketab. And you looked fabulous in that yellow dress. And you were going to a revolve party before Coachella. And that is the perfect thing to wear to that. Not sorry. I wish we went harder. I wanted to make a documentary. Exposing Clinton Kane. I am most certainly not sorry. Yeah. I. Because I think that the was one of those things too where it's wild to me that the justice system has no parameters or laws or rules about compulsively lying to the point that it ruins other people's lives. Well, deception on that level I think actually should be punishable by law because it is like it's weirdly like I mean just the way that I felt after that like that I was you know dating

living with sleeping with like somebody who was imaginary like that it's very like I can't explain the feeling. I'm not sorry. I won't I'd be lying if I said. don't feel bad about it sometimes like of course like any level of any person with a heart like you know what I mean like you dated this person and they ended up being totally not the person that you thought they were but like you still were with a a person who he really is yeah and you know you have to assume that somebody who is able to do that and and feels like they have to do that is another level of mentally unwell which makes me feel bad because you don't like I mean I don't want anyone to be that mentally ill yeah at all and I just think I look at it more as like a

me standing up for myself and like me getting to tell a story that was like very very traumatic for me and happen for that reason I don't regret it and like I hope he's doing well whatever don't work yeah I don't yeah and it like it happened and like you how you probably helped a lot of girls also like stand on business in certain things in certain ways I mean he's still to this day he'll be like she's a fucking liar she's a lawyer yeah which is crazy because you are not i know every detail and i did it's funny now looking back i was really about to invest like a hundred thousand dollars and making an entire documentary about it because that's how passionate i was because i watched it all unfold from the moment that you met him there's also so much that i like

didn't say i but i what i like i think being with miles has helped me realize like how unserious that relationship was whereas like in the moment I felt like it was the most fucking serious thing in the entire world and I think like that was like the disconnects he's like I barely know her and I'm like that was the love of my life yeah um well and just getting cheated on so rampantly I think there's also a part of me that feels horrible for his fans and horrible for people who actually lost the lives of their parents that resonated so much I hate anyone who does shit like that is like sham lying to profit off of broken people.

Well, now he has a new angle, you know. All his music is about how, you know, the neglect led him to that point. Of mentally killing off someone who's alive? Yeah, he has a line in his new song where he says, like, I told the whole world where they could find your grave. And, like, talking about how he, like, lied about it because they were so bad. And, like, you know what?

More power, too. Yeah. Go off. I don't know. I don't know. No, I just with knowing Alex Warren and seeing someone with that real story and how much he does help people and move. And like, you know what I mean? It's like, you can't take that story.

I also want to talk about scrapped episodes at some point. Justice for Alex Warren, Hallie Batchelder, Harry Daniels, the Lila and Stasi scrapped episode. And we got high with all of our friends. Those are our scrapped. mainly like When did we get high with all of our friends? On tour in that

We went to like They went to It was in Nashville Aaron flew out Oh I've never heard of that But it's because every time I get high I get like so absent That like I wasn't there

Yeah that's and it was just everyone else Like yelling and then like Ari got super angry And uncomfortable on camera And it was like super bad Oh also La Boo Boo Boo Gate La Boo Gate was scrapped That and thank God

It's funny Because LabibuGate actually ended up turning into... LubbubuGate is still rampant. Yeah, like, yeah. God damn. If we ever... Like, there's a part of me that wants to keep that and one day show it to the people.

I have never... Like, I've never been so scared for my life on a podcast. Just, I've never on a podcast gotten actually so angry. Uh-huh. To where I, like, in the middle of the episode, I was like, we have to stop because I'm getting so mad.

Yeah. And I don't even really get mad like that. Like, I guess I get mad, but. And it was just like, I just, it just, oh my God, the scrapped episodes. Major apology to Harry, Hallie, and Alex. Like, Hallie. Because those all should have just come out. Yes.

Harry was, he's so sweet and young TikTok generation. And it was like a lot of ADHD, no tangents, like, got finished. And it would have taken us like weeks to, like, edit it together. to make sense and then like a lot of people got exposed and I didn't know if like he'd end up actually being okay with that and I think he was also just like really excited and he had a friend there who was really excited and they were just like talking over each other and it was like craziness and after Megan trainer I never wanted to put someone else in a situation again where like the ADHD because sometimes that's what it is you sit down with people and it's so ADHD lore and

it's like fun in real life but then people can't consume it makes people angry yeah and I didn't want to do that. Hallie was so funny and amazing. She came on and she like had so much lore about Noah Centeno and like just random like funny things and whatever. But then we collectively decided that this podcast was coming to an end and that the final episodes needed to be just like us talking. And that was why that one got scrapped. We love you, Hallie, though. You're amazing. Alex Warren, I just, I have no reasoning. You just like that slip through the cracks. Look at him so much more successful than us and we just scrapped his episode like he was worth nothing and more he's worth everything and he came on and he shared the most beautiful sentiments about his hard life and story and

it was one of those cases where then we filmed something else that was current and we kept letting the currents never like you know what I mean like we didn't find a space to fit it and we kept wanting to put out current events because shit was happening justice for Alex Warren and I fucking love you so fucking much Matt rife cheating scandal um i'm going to go sorry on this one i am i know i am because this was kind of another i think again my current relationship has made me feel so differently about a lot of things that i used to think we're serious that we're not serious because to me it felt like such a big deal and i really liked him so much that like i was really hurt when it ended and then like to find

all that out i was very like i was actually really sad as much as i wanted to make it like this like fuck you thing i was really upset but also another case of just like girl he doesn't like you and that's fine i could not disagree with you more broke amber i could not disagree with you more which common theme for us you know but because i think that someone who is doing that to women like you know he was saying to other women at that time i'm going to go be with my grandma and then the grandma was another woman you know and and and having seven partners at once and telling them all the exact same and sending them the exact same photos and the exact same things and saying you know like he was he was love bombing the shit out of you

saying i want to be together forever and i don't know his exact verbiage but it was awesome i want to fucking marry you shit i had fun though yes but who you are as a person to do that to you and seven other people yeah is not okay and you should be stopped and i think that to do that makes you a narcissist, maybe a liar. I'm not going to, I cannot diagnose him as a sociopath, but I think that some of that behavior was very sociopathic. The only way to hurt someone who possesses some of those traits is by doing what you did.

And I think he hurt you and seven other women. And he should not have been allowed to go around and parade around like he is the good guy. And let us not forget God left the motherfucking tag on. Yeah, I think you cannot hook up with women while then making vile jokes like that. But then I laugh at other things that are like, like really fucked up jokes. You know what I mean? I laugh at other people. Like if Shane Gillis were to make that joke, I'd be like, oh-ha.

I guess, but also like feelings matter. You know what I mean? I'm not, again, I kind of did this on the. the last episode too i'm not like trying to be an apologist i think i just i think that you're embarrassed of what you did i'm embarrassed i'm embarrassed and i also like the worst if the worst thing that he did was just like you know kind of be deceptive like he was obviously he yeah he was sneaking around and stuff but i think i've been so like people have done so much more wrong to me that i'm like let him live you know i think that can be two different things you can be like oh my god i was crazy and i i i never

want to be like a quote unquote crazy ass bitch again right or like i don't align with being that way now but i think he deserved that and more and i think that like have you never okay never mind now i am being a mat rife apologist i don't know why i've like had this like major change of heart about it recently i think just because i'm like i think the embarrassment is clouding it but i think god yeah i guess i just he's one of the only people that i look back on and i'm like okay well he was he to me was like always really great wait what am i what the hell am i talking about no liar liar liar lie to your face lie to your and think about how much more has come out no yeah i don't even know it takes women like i i it's your guilt

complex x embarrassment clouding the fact that two things can be true i think i started putting all these guys like in a line okay and then it was i was like i put clinton cane and then mr big i put them up here so then it like it knocked matt rife down a couple notches and like it kept happening to the point where I was like, okay, you know what? What he did wasn't so bad. I can understand that you can be like, oh my God, he played me and in the grand scheme of things, guys do that all the time and he played me and whatever. It's not that deep.

But my opinion, horrible person deserved it all. And more. I guess that's the takeaway is that I just feel like it wasn't that deep and like maybe I didn't have to go on such a rampage. But it was the vibe at the time. And you know what? It was how I felt at the time. I was really hurt by it.

I was upset. And I was like even then, I felt like I was kind of like I was defending him really hard on the podcast at that time because he was going through a lot like with his cancellation and stuff. So like, whatever. We've talked too much about him. Let's go.

Guys shouldn't get away with talking to a bunch of girls at once. But I also don't think like maybe I should, okay, it doesn't matter. Bringing TV on tour. Sorry. Next. Yeah, I'm not allowed to speak on. and well it's also it's on some team bright shit it's not my beef you know what i mean it's not my beef either i don't even know what it's about i saw someone the other day i fucking make it tick to talk about

like all of tanna's friends are so this that and the other and it's like i'm making fucking blueberry muffins at home with ashley amari and isabella who like i have fucking been with since birth you know who like like just i don't know like it's so funny i get dragged so into these things that genuinely do not like i'm no part of this and i'm no part of that either. Yeah, and you also, I'm very proud of you because I know your brain and I think that you're taking the high road by not taking this to social media. Well, here we are. Anyway, George's Gate. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Oh, but. But me. I think we've exhausted George's Kate. I kind of feel bad for the viewers if we talk about George Kate any further. I kind of agree with you.

And I think just ending take, we came to a conclusion on both of our faults in that scenario, something grander than others, and how we could have been better in that scenario. And I would not change it. It only made us stronger. And now it's like just a forever funny. I'll never hear the word, George, without laughing. That's hilarious. And that's, I'm George McGee in her phone.

It's engraved on a Cartier bracelet that I will never take off. Sleeping with Pool Boy. Are we sorry? No, I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry. Hot guy. Hayes Greer next. And we love you, Hayes Greer.

And I will just say he also has, I don't know. Everyone knows it's Hayes. We've posed, like, everyone knows. Yeah, that's very true. He was, like, I don't, we don't talk to Hayes a lot now. And he's in, like, a very different era of life. And I'm sure he doesn't, like, want any of this. But, like, he was nothing across it.

And we beat it home, too. Like the pool boy mentioned. on the pod we beat them home and he was nothing but a good support he attended the second canceled launch he was there that night he came to the launch he's a sweetheart he didn't deserve to be a character but like was also just down and funny and sweet about it and like i think he made a tic-tok like cleaning the pool just like good sport you know yeah and yeah like it was a vibe at the time wine tour i'm so deeply sorry and i wasn't even there i am also sorry um it was the worst day of my life, but I, I am so sorry for omitting details about that person.

I should have never done that. Sorry. You should have omitted details, but instead you are not omitting. That's not the word I meant. I am so sorry for sharing details about that person and the scenario and I, it's so funny. I'm pretty sure you gave her coordinates. Like, it's, I handled that. I could have told that exact story

from that exact day in a different way and it would be something that to this day I'd be proud of and it would have been funny and I had the storytelling skills to do that and I chose to be a stupid, drunk, petty and oh my God, on tour Jayrod and I were editing together

the montage that was going to play. Have you ever seen? Brooke, I remember right after this happened, Babel, who is a servant. Oh, they made a bit of it. They made a statement. A public statement denouncing me. And they're a language app. That's what they do.

They teach people other languages and about other cultures. And that was the ad that was in this podcast where I'm ranting so poorly about what happened to me in France. Or what happened in France. I shouldn't just say happen to me. Hold on. It's going to take me a second to find book, but it is so worth the time.

Oh, man. Hate to be publicly denounced by a bruntled. And rest in peace chilies I'm like damn Can we post the pictures We looked amazing Watch this

And I'll send this Right now Do you say Are you like talking about it And then you go like Babelissa Honestly I loved it Like I kind of want to be dead No offense

No I literally I I absolutely want her dead At the hands of me Well okay So was that your only negative experience at least Yeah That's good Other than the fact that I can't walk

but that was a positive before I don't know if we call that negative that was a positive that was a negative Estes Disfrutando of my podcast thanks to Babbo

I know what that means do you recently I've been learning to speak Oh god You're lying that that is a real excerpt of the podcast

and then I remember they denounced me and I was I could I was aghast I could not believe that they did not want to work with us any further you lost ass bitch you are so fucking stupid tana marimo jo and i'm so fucking happy that you are no longer this person and oh my good well same i'm the one saying i wish she

died i don't even know this woman and just again i could have told that story and it was like there are certain things that she said and did that were you know so wild and it was like a horrible experience a horrible day for me i had a horrible horrible day i was saying like to page recently that like obviously under all like serious actual worst days of my life's like deaths and funerals and whatnot and like actual horrible days of my life like if i had a list of just anecdotal like stupid shitty worst days of my life that would be the worst day of my life like i and i don't give a fuck i was i was so unhappy and miserable but i i cannot believe i was that stupid and inconsiderate you know this is like the height of that stupidity but there are so many moments

across canceled where I should have told things in such a different way and for that I'm definitely sorry even that that goes for most of these you know just like there are certain anecdotal things that should have been said with so much more wisdom and grace and empathy and kindness and class if only if only you know my worst day of my life the day I shit my pants um Brooke peed in the middle of Coachella was I in trouble for that you peed in the middle of Coachella? Yeah, I did. I didn't. I'd be like you'd do that now. With Madeline R.G. And we peed in the middle of Coachella. I feel like you'd do that now. It was last year. Yeah. So not sorry. I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry. Someone would step or something. I was in a corner.

I am not sorry. I would do it a thousand times over feeding Marian and not myself. Why would I need to eat if Marianne can eat? that is Marianne is now also people asked a lot for Marianne updates and she is good she is fed we kept making the joke on tour that she's driving a Maserati and we don't know that but we know that she's still we're still supporting Marianne yes and I love that and thank God for those white fox halls because they keep Marianne fed and that is one of the greatest moments of the canceled podcast and every time I see that clip I do not skip it I don't know why I had a fuck-ass bob like that fuck-ass bob like that

it's not about having a bob it was a lob yes it's not about having a bob that was just a fuck ass yeah and make make sure you clarify it's never about the haircut it's about the execution I don't know if that was about your microbang shit I'm saying the fuck out of that

I apologize deeply is microbangs on here I am sorry to the woman with the microbangs but in that photo they were pointing in every which direction and she quickly proved me wrong by posting a photo with her with her microbangs styled in which she looked absolutely gorgeous, okay, as all people with microbangs do. I think you guys should come together. Like, if you ever, like, run into her or something, like, you should do a funny video

or you put in fake bangs. It was a weak moment. She made a couple videos in a row about, like, obviously the Miles situation, which we know is not true, but she doesn't know is not true. And it frustrated me because it was feeding this whole thing that was just like, it was this huge horrible thing that just like I don't know it was affecting my life a lot and so I'm sorry I took it out on your bangs and it was never

about your bangs but in that video they looked awful Brooke I'm totally kidding I'm totally kidding I'm kidding I'm kidding and I think a lesson that like had you maybe left a comment um defending the situation versus

I did it was at the end oh I said maybe leave that out no I said this this and this I hate you used my mental illness. I said all this. And then the last line was, and you can't talk to me with banks like that.

And I could have left it out. But it was what I felt in the moment. And you know what? You have to just sometimes go with your cut. This is me and LAX. You wish my leg wasn't on that table. And I wish you left that comment out. And that's okay.

Yeah, I have always struggled with, because like I said, like someone commented on my video saying, like you have fucked up teeth or something. And then I went and I green screened that person's teeth. And, And I took it down and I ended up working it out and like all of those things. But it is, I'll never know the correct answer because there is the platform of it all.

You know what I mean? Like like doing that on our platform is, you know, but if someone can say something. Well, her video had like 12 million views. Yeah, like that that's what I'm saying. It was a horrible, hateful video about me. Gorgeous girl. Great haircut once styled. Yeah.

And I think that you hit the nail on the head by saying that like you know that things aren't true, you know. And so that's where you're frustration. Yeah, it was a bigger issue than her. It was like all these videos being made with such conviction. Like grown adults who can make a video saying something as absolute truth when we know it's not true. Yeah. How frustrating that is to be on the other side of it and just like see video after video after video. I still see it today.

I still get thousands of comments about it a day that are like, you are doing this. You're supporting a man who does this when it is actually just factually not true. So I was really caught up in it. she's a beautiful girl her haircut is also gorgeous and beautiful and that's that bloodgate on her crush was this on alexander oh yeah it was this is this is funny that's not even the most embarrassing thing that's happened to me with this guy i'm gonna just be honest oh yeah and you told the the the full story on stage do we talk about that at all in this episode by the way like like stories that we told on stage that like no wait what was i don't even know what it was i just

can assume that that wasn't the worst K-pop Jacket Yeah Um No regrets I would bleed on him again Well I won't

And I wouldn't But But I should say I wouldn't Take it back Yes And we love him He has a funny line Cut this

But he has a song that says And now my sheets are covered in red And I'm like me You should leave Please leave that in I'm hell begging It's the last episode You have to leave that and then so fucking funny.

Well, I forget what the actual line is, but it's like something along those lines. That is so funny. My sheets are painted red or something. I'm like, yeah, they are. You're like, that was me. Swearing at the streamies, it is the streamies, yes. So funny. Not sorry at all.

I just reposted it the other day. So fucking funny. Literally like, I do feel bad for the girl who was standing next to me. I never saw her reaction until the other day when I watched the video. It cracked me. But truly, like, I was dead. sober. That is what makes it so fucking funny. I can't guarantee if putting the exact same scenario, well, now actually I would probably take a quarter bar before it so that I'm not

having the panic attack that I'm so clearly having on stage. And I would commit to like using my ad read voice and just read. That's what I would do today. I would, I would medicate and then I would like gaming is like da-da-da and like do my best. But I was just having a panic attack and genuinely who wrote that you know and like who having tanamojo present an award in the gaming category is diabolical um and i don't even think the streamies are that mad and even if they were like it was a very viral moment of their award show it was very funny yes and i don't one thing about me is if i have an embarrassing moment how i look will always play into my perception of it in my head like even knowing i accepted the streamies creator of the year and that lime green fucking god-awful

pantsuit. I found it the other day in my storage unit, by the way, a relic. That will eat me alive, but I was serving. And that is, I'm fine with it for that reason. I love that. I feel like we can skip this one. Who cares? I have like a funny from the other night that I want to talk about, but like if you don't want to talk about it. From, this is about Becca Moore, right? Yeah. Can we? But you guys never told her, you never said her name on the pod. Yeah. Everyone knew. Which is so, because now you guys are friends. Yeah. And I think that's so cool. And it's so funny because we talk about this a lot. You always talk about this in reference to Monson and I talk about this just in reference.

Like a lot of this happened to cross-cancel too where it was like your beef with someone. You know what I mean? And like then I would go in on it and I would have to ride for it. And then like you always say with Monson, like it was my beef with him. But you had to ride for it. And then like you'd run into Monson and it's like. Yeah. Or almost like.

So we see her the other night. She's at Brooke's hair launch. And this is one of those cases. is like I always talk about this with Nick Vile where like I didn't remember what I said or why I was whatever but I would see Nick Vile and I'd be like but I didn't even know why I was like that and she came the other night and I was like I'm on she's talking to you and I'm sitting there with Miles and I'm like what happened what did she do to Brooke like why why do I still harbor this like why do I feel this way I'm looking up your guys as like TikTok past trying to figure it out and I like

couldn't figure it out and I was just like sitting there and I was like this is one of those that just going to have to eat you know what I mean like I rode for my friend so hard that like I don't know if her and I will ever you know no it was definitely like both of us just like being stupid in another case of like me talking like she flippantly said something about me on her podcast with no names and so then I went ahead and like did something worse like on our podcast but I I remember it was like cockroach right like she missed a meeting because there was a bug well but it was like she said she was in a business relationship with somebody and then she had a bad feeling about it and then she found out later that this person was like a bad person.

So that's what she had said. And then I like went in and said like all that about her. That's what I was trying to get you to tell me the other night. But because that is. But then she just recently or just the other night like when I saw her, she was like, do you want to know what it was that made me think that you were a bad person? And she told me and I was like, oh my God, so valid. I don't know.

I think it was all pretty stupid. But I look past its water under the bridge to me because because of everything that I've like gone through in the past year and how much like I've struggled mentally anybody especially somebody who like doesn't like me or who I have like a bad relationship with if they reach out to me and they're like hey I hope you're okay and stuff I like really appreciate that because I needed I needed it yeah yeah and she also is killing it like just every time I see a solo clip of her like she is very talented yeah like just and she went through a lot in like a previous relationship yeah and that is really and she got a lot of hate she got a lot of hate so I did the same thing you know afterward like when she was getting

it I was like checking in on her and it just like I'm like who cares like internet beef is so stupid if you're happy I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy I would go back in time and have Matt Rife on the pot a thousand times because I love my Osama bin Laden joke it's crazy because even in the moment I like didn't know it was a hit that it was me either really it was just my thought and it's it's one of my favorite clips of the canceled podcast of all time truly because what he was saying was wild but we, Brooke clearly has expressed that she is tired of exhausting this at nauseam and we are moving on. I'm just like, I'm sad. I like wanted to watch the new Kill Tony on Netflix and he's just like the front.

I'm like, fuck, I can't even watch Kill Tony anymore. And I'm really not trying to get that Annabelle Hex, but I mean, I even made Mochoa make a TikTok with the Elf setting spray. Like we're, we're in too deep. I'm in too deep at least. Yeah, gosh. Our next game is true or false, where we will be saying, you guessed it. true or false this one was heavily requested by you guys in the comments of our tic-tok and

let's see if we can debunk anything oh are we supposed to not know the answers to these because i already don't know the answer to this brook told kevin this he this is he left me at the red rock sorry to call you up by name love you you're the best we're still great friends um he left me at the red rock for valid reasons i probably should have led with that um brook told kevin she loved his name the first time she met him. You look this man dead in the face and you said, why the fuck are you named Kevin? Oh, really? And then you proceeded to tell him how much you hate the name Kevin.

No way. And then I feel like I like the name Kevin. No, because we were on this car ride to Omni and Night Club, and for the entire car ride, you were just like, it just doesn't roll off the tongue. Like, what, Kevin? But he's a really funny guy, so he was super like, he was down to clown. You know what I mean? Like he was very much with the jokes of it.

That's so crazy. Are you sure your answer's right? I think my answer's right. 100. Should we call Kevin? No. Tanna ran into a guy at Equinox that she fucked once and he told her I didn't recognize you. True.

I don't remember. Like, do you remember the guy? I think I remember his look. Devin, is this true? Yeah. And what else did I say? I don't know if you're with McCoa per se, but it was just Yeah, like... No, I wasn't with McCona.

You didn't have a normal workout outfit on. I think he had sweat, so you're trying to ignore him. But he also, like, ended up messaging you. Or you messaged him and you were like, I saw you at the gym, and then he responded said I didn't recognize you. Who the fuck is? This is true. This is true. but I cannot remember who it was and that says everything that you need to know about that time next. Tanna clogged the toilet on the tour of us.

Question mark is crazy. We know you did it. I know what. In my love for you, I am down to succumb and like allow you to have this. Don't make it like that because it's like not don't be like, okay, if you need it to be true because it's like, it is true. I just don't. I don't think I did it. And they're going to come from me online

and they're going to be like, Brock hard. No, but also perception is a real thing because like I remember being so adamant about not flushing the toilet paper, but obviously you also walked into a clogged toilet and like you think you heard me. And I saw you go in there.

And I went, I saw you go potty. You saw me in the middle of the night. I heard you because you passed by my little dinky little bunk. So you heard me. You didn't see me. I heard you subway surf all the way down there. And then I heard you go in there.

I heard you tinkle. And then I heard you not flush. Okay. Tanna and Averillivine have slept with more than two of the same people. Why'd you have to go make things so complicated? Who's three? I don't know who three is. Well, this implies more than two.

It was false for me because I went on two. Oh. Then it might be false. I just, I'm like literally. They're really guessing in good faith that we don't know who the third is, but there's the third. Yeah. Which is diabolical. I could see it being like Goody Grace or something.

Oh, shit. It definitely could be. I was just talking the other day about how he broke up with me because of paparazzi photos I took with Harry Jousy. And I remember being like, why are you breaking up with me? And then looking back at the photos, it's like, why is Harry carrying you a taken woman out of Boa while you're like half unconscious drunk? That's a reason to get broken up with. Anyways I think is this not a Christian French song

False, it's a Clinton-Kane song about you No way, what song? Making a monster? Yeah. Holy. No way, that's crazy. That is so funny. I thought cyanide was a very crisp word.

I don't even like. How does it? That's where my head was at. Sinoid. How do you say that? Sionide. Used to the taste of your... Damn.

That's a cutthroat lyric. Well, it can't be worse than the song called Go Fuck Yourself that he wrote while we were still together. That is so fair. You know what I want to do for YouTube and make zero dollars on Brooke is react to music. You should do it with me. Like react to songs about us. Oh my God. I wish it wasn't illegal to play it on the podcast because I have some real bangers.

I love illegal. It is legal, I think. What? Especially if it's not put out Like go fuck yourself as a banger But it's not, it never came out True, I'm a scientist I am amazing

I'm gorgeous Yeah, I feel like The mushrooms make it not literally yesterday But we were chemists over here When was this? Do you know? Who just told me to do mushrooms yesterday? Oh it says Brooke did mushrooms Antidepressants, Zophrin, and drank alcohol

All in one night Yes, this is accurate because I was doing little science experiment to see where I could get myself to the biggest, a vibe. But I don't recommend that to my friends. Mr. D.C. was 26 years old when Brooke first started hooking up with him. False. No matter what. He was older, I think.

Who makes that song way too old to be acting like that? Acting like that. Youngblood. Next. I would love to I would love to Haley Bieber Pete Davidson. She and I were wearing matching outfits at our workout yesterday.

And that goes in on the list of things I fucking wish I never said. Get that blonde Vegas hooker a muzzle. I'm sorry. Haley, I'm sorry, Pete. I hope you both are living amazing lives. I don't know either of these people. and I just want to put that out there for a final time.

There's an episode of Canceled titled The X Episode. True. Prob True. I'm pretty sure it did pretty well too. What is this episode? One of the deleted episodes. One of the deleted episodes. So Hunter was in it?

It's episode two or three. So Hunter was in it and we were just discussing our exes. We definitely talked about Joe, I think. Which is so funny. Like having to give him a seat at my engagement party is like hilarious. That is so funny that he's coming. I know. There's an episode of canceled titled,

I almost slept with Jeff Wittick. False. We're so good. There's definitely episodes where I almost slept with Jeff Wittick, but I don't think that was ever a title. And we never said I. That was the giveaway. It was always Tanna, R. Brooke, or we.

An NBA, NHL, and MLB player have all slid into Brooks DMs. I'm trying to remember if you were ever hockey. skiing it down if you were ever with the sticks and the ice because I believe in take me out to the ball game and ball is life I think false she was never much of a hockey girl anyway

I wasn't Drake's security removed Tanna from his section at a club one time I put probably I think it was Chris Brown yeah it's false okay oh well then why am I just saying words there used to be a headline on the old canceled set that read Tanna Mojo sleeps with 70% of Coachella lineup.

True, and I'll tell you how I know that it is because I wrote all of those headlines before I was ever supposed to be a co-host on the podcast, Tanna asked me to write them. That is so funny, because I remember just being like, she's so funny, she'll kill it, and little did we know. A crush once told Tanna to buy a ticket to his concert and then unfollowed her. This is beyond true. and it was surf Mesa. Am I allowed to say that?

Yeah, say it. Oh, he was my neighbor. Yeah. He was my, I think I told a story about him as like being my hot neighbor. Crush is also like too deep.

You know what I mean? Like I just was like, let me see what I can do in the DMs right now. I want to go to this concert. I want whatever. And he said, buy a fucking ticket, bitch.

That's actually so funny. It's low key. So funny. Like, He, because he was your neighbor. There's more, Laura. He was my neighbor. I remember he used to think I was two different people.

Like, he would say hi to me if I looked good and he wouldn't talk to me if I didn't. So it's like, damn. That's so funny. I swear. And there's something with Diablo there. I don't know. Amari and Tanna threw a Canada and New Orleans themed birthday party for their respective boyfriends once. The boyfriends went on to cheat that night.

True, but it was Canada and Texas. Oh. But I, true. You're allowed to say true for that. I went to that. They did, oh, my God. And that was like the first time we ever invited Lila to something without her, like, just showing up. Like her, because like all of the other time she'd shown up outside the hookabar or like something like that.

And like, this is the first time where we were like, Lila Gibney's funny. She should come to this. Little did we know how much that would change the trajectory of our lives. Tana once said, you're going to do this to me, a girl. It was a woman. woman. Brad Sousa's catching so many strays and I'm trying to stop. I've been talking about him a lot recently and like he's a dad and people turn over a new leaf and I really genuinely actually do just hope he's happy in being the best father and learned from everything. And I think

that getting thrown into my world in L.A. and whatever like that probably was very jarring and hard for him. Not so hard that he had to cheat and do the things he did, but we were young and dumb and I was just as dumb. So Brooke once sent a text to the wrong man saying, thinking, of you. I think this one is true and false. I think it's false. But the reason why I say false and true

is because Brooke has probably done something so similar to this. Can I tell you what it is? One time I texted a guy that I used to talk to and said like, hey, like I was just randomly thinking about you. I hope you're doing well. Okay?

Come to find out that day his nudes had been leaked. So I, he thought that I texted him because his nudes got late. Like, I was, like, embarrassing him. But, like, I had no idea that his nudes got leaked. I just, like, happened to be thinking about him. And I was like, oh, my God, he probably felt so embarrassed and thought that I, like, saw

his nudes online, which I wish, but. Fuck, I wish that there are certain people that have sworn, like, we have sworn under oath that we cannot talk about and, like, not air out what that truth is. And it's sex because he's one that I wish so badly. But he's another one that, like, didn't deserve the smoke. Like, what a little angel. And I shouldn't say another one, because. That's not what I meant.

No, he's one that did not deserve the smell. But he didn't, he didn't flake on you. I don't know. Mine was that I sent a photo of a subway footlong to someone that I thought was a tripod. And I sent it to the wrong person. I love that. It just says what it is. All right.

Our next game. I'm so excited. We made this game a long time ago for the canceled podcast, canceled Jeopardy, and we never ended up playing it. And we thought we would just fuck around and try to play it today to see if it unlocks any missing. lore. Aaron, you look truly gorgeous. Yeah, he looks really good. That was funny too, just like the time where like people found out what Aaron looked

like and then he started getting like all the girls sliding in his DMs and stuff. Even like when, well, even just coming up with the name Amish Aaron across the podcast is so funny. And when he was Elvis, like when you were Moses, I was Trisha. Amari was Barbie and Aaron was Elvis. Like that's, we have so many funny memories with our Amish Aaron. and we love you. And Aaron and I used to get so blacked out. Like we'd shoot cancel, then you'd leave.

And then me and Aaron would just stay up facing wine talking for hours. Like I have so many fun memories. What did you say? I remember that. Yes, we had an era of that. And it was honestly wholesome. This has been like two and a half years in my life. So it's like really fucking wild kind of think about.

Because like I came out to L.A. and immediately got into this. So it's like. And to move to L.A. and the first thing you work on you want to be a podcast producer and it canceled falls into your lap like what a whirlwind you know what I mean like think about how many other

just wholesome normal podcast he could have produced like it could have been on Girls Gone Bible yeah like holy oh my God I forgot about that when fucking Severin left me for the Bible girls and I was sick very funny are you guys ready yeah you remember how Jeopardy plays like I

We say, like, who wore that for $300, right? I'm going to go, who wore that for $500? Do they get harder as they go down? Duh. Okay. Ha-ha. Ha-ha is so real. Who wore this?

Cardi B? It also could be like Kylie Jenner. with like a really dark spray tan Nikki Minaj Liza Koshi That's so Like I would never expect Liza Koshi

To be in like a pot stirring And she looks amazing That's iconic I would have never gotten that Okay Brooke you pick Friends Instagram captions for 500 God Baragandi Or whoever is watching over me

You're doing such a good job Keep up the hard work Can I do that? You can't, it's mine. Okay. You know who wrote that. Is it Amari? I'm going to say Lila Givney wrote that.

Who is Lila? Oh, who is Lila Givney? Boo. Because like God Buda Gondira, whoever is watching me, you're doing so. Like, you can tell by the cadence and like the capitalization and like that that's so giver. What the hell? And also, what a caption. for your grid.

She's so funny. I would like, I would love to see the photo attached to that too because you know it just earned an IMG and 2B set. Like so. And there has to be something offensive in there like Buddha and Gandhi. Or whatever. I like friends Instagram captions. I'm going to go friends Instagram captions for 400.

I've been to Kabul 11 times in three months. Someone get me banned. God, that's. I think I know who did said that too just based on who would actually be in Kabul 11 times for three months That was my guess Should we do it together?

Should we turn? Well, no, because you have to get your stupid fucking points. Your idea. Should we? Turn on three. Who is Ari Aguire? Yes. I like us just like doing it together.

I don't think it's... Okay, good, because I was going to lose. Let's do... Fill in the blank for 500. Amari Stewart once said, I love my hot blank men. I don't want to fill in this blank. I think I know what he said,

but I don't like that he said it. And God, if I'm wrong, it's even worse. Me too. Okay. Three, two, one. Oh. Oh. Thank God I was right,

because if I just wrote that and he didn't say that, I would have had to... Well, I put straight. No, it was one. That was my second guess. It was white or straight. I mean, he's allowed to his preferences,

and I'm just happy that I didn't write that out to nowhere, as I always used to say. Well, now I'm mad that he keep putting 500, and then you get the points. I'm going to pick set on canceled for 100, please. His mom owned Birkenstocks, who is Brooks Schofield? That's right.

Who'd you guess? but like obviously like that he's the one who said his mom's own his mom owns and he did say that his mom owns work in stocks which that also goes down in history is one of the funniest moments on the canceled podcast for me because clinging came really said that his mom owned perkins genuinely let's go set on canceled 300 that was really my plan a plan B was paying. Who is Tana?

What was this in relation to? Do we know? I don't remember. Plan B was paying. Oh, her tattoo. Oh. She was wanting to fuck for her tattoo and that's why we love our girl. Fill in the blank for 300.

Jeff Wittick once said, well, nothing is ever going to feel as good as. Hmm, I might be going for the wrong middle-aged guy you were right okay heroin but i was thinking it might be mike maylack oh my god also just both of you guys adding the e to heroin oh when there's an e it's a it's a female she's slaying like a like a heroin. Oops. Which was Brooke in Washington, D.C.

You were a heroin. Friends Instagram captions for 300. Are we there yet? I'm almost out of wine. What would you say? Is she right? What'd you write? Well, what'd you write? I started with Tanna and then I switched to Isabella.

Ty Collins. That is so Ty Collins. Because I feel like I would have said dizzy. Like it would have been in my, like, I mean, like, I'm sorry. I had a mama sat out of me dizzy. I just like I love when you do some like millennial stuff and you do something Friends Instagram captions for 200 I'm having so much fun with that one Not checking my Uber rating anymore I'm choosing peace

I mean I would have to guess it's you but Who's that funny like that's funny Page is that funny I put Bella again I don't know what I Fuck you're good at this game you're good at all the games it must be sobriety I don't know. That's just so page to say. Fill in the blank for 400. Tricia Paitis once said I blank everything. I felt so relevant when you guys were on tour.

Ready? Or I think it's literally the word C. I put Get Tagged in. Repost. That was my first thought too. And then I was like, no. Yeah, why would she be living vicariously through our fucking tour while she's doing Broadway and S&L? Let me just kill myself. What's next?

Let's try 2000s pop culture duos for 300. He was 36. She was 20. One performance would change both of their lives forever in 2013. Janet Jackson wasn't 20 in 2013, right? You're joking? At all. My bad.

2013 was 12 years ago. Janet Jackson is like in her 60s. Yeah, no, I shouldn't kill myself. He was 36. She was 20. but I truly don't know the answers this I'm gonna guess I've got nothing

I wrote Miley with a question mark Wait so did I Robin Thick and Miley Cyrus I forgot about Robin Thick My friend is literally married to Robin Thick I don't even like think of Robin Thick When I think of that I only think of Miley and her You know

Because that's the one where she's wearing like the thing with the phone finger right Yeah but 2013 it feels like it was more recently than that Okay I said on canceled for 200. No, that's fill in the blank, but that's fine. Brooks Schofield once said, you're going to find love, and it's going to be good. I have an answer, but if my answer was correct,

it would say Ann, so it can't be right. That's so funny, because I just have the same exact thought process as you. Because I was going to say influencer. Oh. What are you going to say? I'll wait for you to fill in yours, because now I think I'm wrong. Go. I just had TikTokers.

You have such beautiful handwriting. Neither of us get a point. Blur my board because I directly attacked someone that did not deserve it. And it wasn't going to be a musician. You ate with that. She is a modern day Socrates. Ah. I feel traumatized from who wore that.

Can we get 2000s pop culture duos for 500? Okay. Shoot for the moon. A romantic film starring Amanda Seafraid and Channing Tatum may have no correlation to these two musicians hooking up. But thank God we got the song title. We both got that, huh? Your handwriting is magging mine. Best song ever.

Okay, next, next, next. 2000s pop culture duos for 400. This famous friendship. once wrote an iconic letter to their friend. If only it had stayed in the drafts. What is Snookie and J-Wow? Oh.

What? Who wrote the letter? Oh, the drafts like threw me off. Like, I was thinking about actual, like, Twitter beef, and then I was thinking, like, Taylor Swift and Kim Kardashian. I'm going to go set on canceled for 500. You guys ever post so much You look back at your feet

And just be like, man, I need to stop yapping I'm gonna stop yapping I don't know He ate with that He was ahead of his time Without Trevor Wallace said that I'm gonna go with Seidon canceled for 400

We still own all our masters I don't know why I keep choosing things I don't know the fucking answer to Okay, whatever What the hell? The only reason why is because I felt like Megan and Chris would not say hour, but I felt like Bunny and Jelly

would like Jelly Roll so hour-coded. Can I say one thing about Jelly Roll really quick? Like the nicest thing ever. What? He's like the one guest that went out of his way. Like everyone left and he came back upstairs back at the old place just to say goodbye to me. Like no one else has ever done.

It was just a very sweet and like, uh... That's actually such a sweet anecdote to, like, put on this podcast. Like, that is like, because I can't imagine being the producer. Like, you probably have so much lower people who, like, didn't even fucking acknowledge you. I even feel that way, especially from the beginning of canceled. Yeah, like, people who would sit down and, oh, my God, that used to be my biggest fucking pet peeve. Because I never knew how to, like, fix it. You know what I mean?

Like, I didn't. Well, I'm cognizant of it whenever I go on another podcast. I'm so careful to never make anyone, like, feel like that, you know? Oh, my God. I hated those moments where I'd be sitting there. I'd be like, this person is not asking. fucking brook questions and it's like you I can't tell someone I also get it though because like sometimes if a podcast especially like at the time it was canceled with tanamoja

like if you think you're going on tanamosh's podcast and then there's somebody else just there you don't expect you don't like you know yeah but to an extent I guess but also like whenever I'm in a room talking to anyone like I hate when people do that in real life like just you know what I mean like even if even if I ran up to Adam Sandler right now and he was with someone else I would still introduce myself and talk to them too because it happened like I noticed it more like a little further down the line with people where it was like it really was like very obviously like our podcast where I was like oh god oh my god no that shit would like make me clench I would just go silent and like whatever okay but I still get paid for this episode fuck you um

it's real as fuck set on canceled for 200 just show me yay that was the best day ever when macoa tea back me and he'll never do it again. He thinks it's so demeaning and that was a one-time thing. So I look back on it fondly and I'm happy that I could share that memory on this podcast. Really? I like to curl up under there at night. Yeah, it's, I just, I love. He's gotten like, if anything, I think he used to let me like hold his balls more. Whatever. Who wore that for 400? Imagine I wrote like Kesha. Like I don't even remember my life that much. Yeah, this keeps me up in my

sleep paralysis. For me, it's just like, why are you doing a four? split under there. And can I tell you that my biggest problem is really how my armpit looks in that photo, which has nothing to do with the dress and that. Like, no, the dollar bill eight. I think it's funny. I wish you were like a $5 bill or something at the very least. Yeah, but I was a $1 bill at the time. I was the human embodiment of a $1 bill that's been stepped on in New York City for like, yeah, fill in the blank for $100, please. I feel like this is like an ad read. This is an ad read. This is an Adam and Eve ad read, and I honestly miss them.

They have the best, easiest, most fun ad reads of all time. Well, how come they don't sponsor us anymore? Do we do something? Was it me? You could tell me. I have no idea. I have no idea. Because it was me for a lot of them.

We'll tell you that much. I think Brooke and I both got that. Friends Instagram captions for 100. This could be, what if I want to ride a horse and a cowboy? Now I have to assume there's a horse in the photo, and now I don't know if I'm right. I want to change it, but I love. wonder who'd you put i'm gonna put my second guess underneath it and then if i'm wrong i put you originally then i changed it to ari and now i have my final answer is it amari yes like i don't know

why i just had to throw billet in every single time that's like what if i want to is so amari but then i like i couldn't picture amari with a horse that's why i second guess my i know and then i remembered when god there's so many of amari's exes that i would like i might have to pay amari off because I have like two tangents that I want to go on so bad and he will not fucking let me. Everything has a price although canceled is over

so I guess like, no I'm talking TikTok 20 part series about one of them like it's a story that if I don't get to tell it by the time I die I'm like genuinely heartbroken because it was out of a movie. Like I just,

oh my God I would do anything I'm already begging. Are we done? Or do we finish it up? Okay. Who wore that for 300? Paris. Oh wait.

Yeah, Paris. Why does it say desperate? Oh, that's probably the actual. That's the actual shirt. People edited it to pour, and she has a major discrepancy with that. Points for both of us. We keep going. I saw Paris yesterday.

Where? At the Glendelli. I did. I just love that you see people at the most, like... Well, because the Glendellie, like, or the Glen Center, like, that's just... I mean, it's smack dab in the middle of Beverly Hills. That's fair. So it's like everybody's always there.

I also say everyone. Who else have you seen there? I don't know. Yesterday we saw the guy with the hook for a hand. In SpongeBob in the intro? No, he's like a famous musician, maybe a rapper. I don't know. He has a hook for a hand.

Who did I just see yesterday? Who's Teen Wolf? I saw Dylan O'Brien yesterday. I love Dylan O'Brien. He was a trivia night. We also saw the, I'm, my, Dylan's talking to this guy, chopping it up. He's like, yeah, my mom says hi, blah, blah, talking to him. We sit down and go, who was that?

He goes, the lead singer of Kiss. I go, Dylan. Gene Simmons. Yeah. I had so much to say there, but I'll leave my Simmons lore for another day. Who wore that for 200? Unfortunately, I think it's James Charles. It's definitely James Charles.

Wait, it's actually kind of a sleigh-out. I don't know what I'm saying? Actually, he always kind of slays Coachella. 2000s pop culture duos for 200. These two singers played in the Super Bowl in 2004. Little did they know at the time, they would cause an erotic worldwide scandal. We were, she was six. I was...

This was Janet Jackson, right? Yes, that's why I was asking. I thought you meant Justin Bieber. I'm like, what the hell? No, Timberlake. No, but I'm saying that's why I was asking how old Janet Jackson was because I was like, I could only think of that moment.

She, you don't know about this? No. She's performing at the Super Bowl with Justin Timberlake. They were supposed to have a scene. It's actually fucked up. They were supposed to have a scene in their performance where he rips off her t-shirt

and exposes her brawes her bra. but they didn't rehearse it and they were supposed to rehearse it and then he rips her titty out on live television on the Super Bowl. It was so insane and you know how like headlines were then in pop culture and whatever and then

I think that like the media they wanted people to go on and apologize and Justin Timberlake did Janet did not go on and apologize at an award show they want and because she didn't apologize it actually fucked up her career. Why would she apologize for her own tit coming in? out exactly but so 2004 and then it ended up actually fucking up her music getting radio plays and

like whatever and just adds to just in Timberlake's scumbag lore uh gross and she was robbed that wasn't her fault pop culture duos for 100 this couple dated before the man in the relationship cheated with his fellow co-star I put brangelinea oh but that like kind of counts still. That definitely counts. The biggest highway robbery of a woman of all time. I cannot believe that was done to her. Holy fucking shit. All for him and Angelina to just separate anyway. Now his kids hate him. Yeah. Diabolical. Who wore that for 100? The final one. See, this is a 500 to me. The fuck is her name. Haley Bo Bailey? It is her name and you get that point because I wouldn't have been able to get there. Oh my God. And that. And, then she was like staying in that apartment that she rented whatever no it's it's not i have been watching videos about her lately she's been coming up on my thing actually haley beau bailey is not to be confused with haley bailey those are two different people they are two different people um which

i just found out yesterday um but she pretended that someone else bought her that apartment but she was paying for it oh she like made up this whole thing because she was like not getting views so she made up this like imaginary sugar daddy and then it ended up paying for her apartment for a year That's actually iconic. We have one more game or it's up to you guys. I want another game. Okay. I decided for the final game to throw in and I think we should be as competitive as possible about this.

Well, great. Because here's why. You and I have received so many allegations of not knowing each other, not being friends, et cetera. And obviously we have debunked some of that across this podcast. We had some pain points, but I do venture to say that we are friends. and we do know each other very fucking well. And we are going to play the newlywed game to see who knows. But I hate this because I'm not good at games.

Who knows the other better? No, I just go blank. You might surprise. You might surprise. Okay. And it's honestly also just all in good fun. I think poking fun at the allegations. Here is the newlywed game.

The fuck is in my paper. We can't even get this right. See, I don't want to go. We are never beating the allegations. I know that's what I'm saying like how is this stumping me so then what happens like let's draw a line in the middle of the board and then like you like this you write your favorite color like we write our favorite colors here and then our guess is for the other here right sure the fuck is your favorite color you'll like guess this if you really think about like me or like I don't want to give you any hints is denim a color no okay you know this I'm struggling to between blush pink oatmeal beige or burgundy. And I'm wondering if any of those are true or if it's olive green on the off chance.

Or is it a burnt orange? You love burnt orange things. What if I tell you one of those things is right? Okay, ready? Pink. My favorite color? Wait, your favorite color is orange. My favorite color's orange.

Oh, okay, so we both tanked. Tanked down. I thought yours was pink because I'm thinking Peppa Pig. No, light blue or blue. is my favorite color. Well, I thought that's your favorite color to wear. It's like cobalt blue. Oh, I do love to wear a cobalt blue, but I love blue.

That is my, damn, I, like, I knew that you love a burnt orange. Oh, fuck, you have, like, a favorite movie that you always tell me is your favorite movie, and I can never remember the name of it because I've never seen it. It's really fucked up. I'm about to eat. I saw what she wrote. Like, I can tell what you wrote. So I guess I'll put that.

But it's not my favorite movie. Right, what your heart desires. I know what you put, and I'm not putting me. that so okay ready you're no your favorite movie we're never beating these allegations it's low-key just way funnier we get them all fucking wrong what would you put okay i put interstellar for you i put happy kill more because i just couldn't think of any other adam stanler movies but i will take i would give you like a half point you can't take it just whatever she gone girl's her movie you also wrote interstellar out of spite because interstellar is your

second favorite movie and The Greatest Showman is your first favorite movie of all time. You just wanted me to get it wrong. I know it's your favorite movie of all time. And I haven't seen it and still was able to remember it. I will take my point. Thank you. Okay. You're never going to guess my favorite city, but I will guess yours. Cleveland, Ohio is your favorite

city in the world? Have you been to the world? But I'm going to give you Dublin because good point. I put Paris, New York, Vegas. So I got yours. You actually got two of mine, and I almost wrote New York, so that's actually really sweet. Paris, New York City and Vegas.

Because you always say, you know, that's my favorite city in the world, and you'll say, like, 20 of them. I know. Like, Maui was a close second, so was Malibu. I think we should both get that one because Dublin definitely counted. But I always do say Cleveland is my favorite city, and I don't know why, but I just do. Do you wouldn't put anywhere in Arizona even on there? No. Oh, my God, no way.

Cleveland. I've only been to Sedona once. Can I just, like, interview you for a second? Why is, is... Because there's anything wrong with Cleveland, Ohio, but I don't. I just, I recall us being in a sprinter van when we were with like all your friends. And I looked at the window and it literally looked like a window's like screen saver. It was like all rolling green hills or whatever.

And that was when we were in like Cincinnati to Cleveland and whatever in Ohio. Ohio is a very beautiful state. But then I went back to go do Bree and Grace's live show. Oh, and that was when they left you high and dry. Well, I didn't see them the whole time that I was there, which is totally fine. because they were hard at work. But I had to walk around the city all by myself for like three days.

Yeah. And I loved it. I was just like so happy and content. Okay. If we're going to add like a niche random, I'm also going to go, I love Charlotte, North Carolina. I love Charlotte too.

So we should just go there for the fuck of it soon. I love it there. Death row meal. Okay. Me? I don't even know. What do I like to eat? If I put my real one,

like you would never guess in and I don't want to play like that. we're such like fatties like i just roll like nine things for you i spelled my own favorite word wrong okay ready okay so for you oh my god babe wait sorry i've been spending too much time with miles um okay i'm gonna add what the fuck are you adding flip it bitch no i need to add because you're right you're right i said wait was i right about your death row and you weren't you were right oh my god and you got

you were right bulgogi indian and cream corn I would say is brook's death romantic okay well I started

with hot Cheetos just like you did but then I said crunch wrap and I said sweet green hot kind hot on

on each salad why did you say that you like it I like it sure it's a good

salad what the fuck I had in um no boo waggu mini tacos and split piece

split piece split split split split soup you love but my real death Romeo is just hot Cheetos till I'm full

I can so wow I should get an extra point for adding cream corn because even I knew that that was and you didn't okay least favorite guest

fuck mine's a little funky but it's true so you wrote yours and mine I don't know mine yeah you do because I think mine is Matt right that's right

Okay, I thought you had some niche shit. My least favorite guest for sure, Matt. Well, I have some niche shit. You need to think about what I would say. I know what you'd say, but I just don't know if you're going to say it. I said it. Good job. We got both of those, right?

It was just a joke. No, and you guys have, I am Switzerland. Favorite L.A. restaurant. Ooh, Brooks, Schofield's favorite L.A. restaurant. Mine's basic. Fuck. No, but you're so, I will accept that. I will 1,000% accept that. Crown of India, I got Brooks, and WeHo, I will 1,000. The fact that you knew exactly what Indian restaurant it was is really, you know me.

Weho Bistro, I almost put Yisabelle for myself. Yesabel is so, no, but WeHo Bistro is like my favorite out of it. Worst place you've had sex. I know mine, but you don't know mine. I sure I don't know yours? I'm 99% certain. And I think it's because I didn't tell anyone because I can't tell you why. But I'll tell you where and now. I have no idea why I did this.

Okay, go. I thought that yours could potentially be when you were in a dorm and then like, or like a fraternity house, forgive me, I don't know these things. And like you had slept with three people in the same house. That was just a bad day. and it wasn't i didn't sleep with three people in one house so let me just explain that for the people really quickly i if you're my fiancee keep scrolling um i had hooked up with or like just made out with a guy uh-huh okay i had a party hours later at the party i hooked up with someone

who i had already hooked up with before like my ex the next morning i was still at that house and I hooked up with someone who... And yeah, it doesn't sound any better now that I've said it loud. Or I said Barneys, but I know that you only performed Falacio. What the hell? Okay. Keep going. And then for me, I sat on a parked motorcycle because why was I having sex on a parked motorcycle?

But I don't know if you know that I've never told that. Okay. Well, for you, I put rave because I was just like, I know you had that little plur era with your little tiny shorts. I definitely had sex in it. with your little tiny shorts and mine is awful i'm going to tell you where but then you have to guess what okay okay bathroom at a concert okay this was less than a year ago who's concert this is expert level by the way you will never guess you just won't but it's so funny if you know who it is because it's like what business do you have was it at stephen tyler's concert

no was it at you're never going to guess ray Like, a little context to begin to listen. With who? Bleep that, but. That is so funny. Oh, in a porta potty. No. No, that was the different time that you had sex in a porpoly.

I went just me. And we left in her seat to go have sex in the bathroom and then came out. And I punched a man in the face that night. Yes. It was like, hey, you know those movies? Like the sleepover or something where like so much happens in one singular night. This was that night. Like I went to, I did a whole festival and then left and went to a Ray concert, went to dinner.

Went like we went so many places that night. And they did so many things that it's like, how was that all possible? Yeah. Missed my flight the next day. Left Bibi in Chicago so that I could fly to Canada. You need to, and there's way more to this. that was a story that you were telling on stage for a second and it was good, this tea.

Oh, my God. Good as shit. I want to tell that story so bad one day. One day on canceled, I'll tell that story. We got to come back for it. Where's habit? Is this our own? Yeah.

Mine's obvious. I just kept it so broad. She's sitting here for. an hour and a half. Okay. Well, let me add something because I think I know what actually hurts you the most. Okay, are you ready? Yeah.

Fuck you. But I would never say that because I'm super nice. She is so nice. No, it's like a habit. That's the perfect. You're not a mean person. If your bad habit is like... No, my habit is not being mean.

I'm mean when I'm standing up for myself. I wrote disgusting as mine just an overall. I put loud, messy, chewing, vaping. See, and that could be categorized as being mean. But reading comments is my bad habit. Thank you very much. That, you're right. I could have put that.

And I said mine was obvious and you still put being mean. But I can't stress enough. Okay, fine. What's next? I love this game. Celebrity crush. You want me to spare him? Fucking, that's so funny.

I have a new one. I have to spare him for the sake of my own personal life. I have a new one that has replaced him. Like if I were still single and insane and podcasting the same way that I was across my era of my Pete Davidson being my celebrity crush, this would be like my new one where I would be it. Well, you're going to have to give me a hint. I've said it. It's like very like And it's almost like the

Here's your hit Like that like it is the direct next Like if that was my previous celebrity crush Who would like the next one be? You know what I mean? Fuck like didn't we just talk about this On like the last episode or something? Maybe

Who is yours? You've so many. Do you want me to give you two options? Yeah. Wait, I'm gonna give you two options too Because my first one you're not gonna guess But I will say I just mentioned them them

Oh like It's not like the chain smokers It's not like a dual right Like okay Ready Domingo is so real though No because No because you're so real

Renee Ruff Because you said New Pete Davidson And I'm like S&L Sexy Domingo No you're so real I meant like dying I was thinking more like skinny And like dying

Oh Adam, who? Sandler. Sanler, Sandler, Sanler, Sanler. Renee Rapp slash Love Island, Charlie. It's even funny that for you, I wrote old people, and then I wrote Owen Wilson or Matthew McConae. That's really accurate. And then Pedro Pascoe.

Owen Wilson is an absolutely not, though. You know, he's a bad father. Yes, I do know that, but I thought that you still liked him in his nose anyways. I love, I love a nose. I don't love Owen Wilson. most iconic canceled podcast moment this is kind of hard well this like i mean for me oh what's dead i go soma slash dead double-ended dildo oh i felt like you loved the moment when trisha thought there was a mouse in the room not both of us writing just osama like we're on like on

First name basis with Osama himself. If you weren't an influencer, what would you be doing for work? First of all, girl, you got to get that checked. Okay, I'm ready. What would you put? Kill yourself. Don't kill yourself, Diva. I put nurse or wife.

Nurse is really real, but just like I have. this fantasy of imagining Brooke Karening out managing her apartment building that like I can't let die and then I think I'd be a stripper or a not a drug dealer a um I was nice I said bottle waitress yes or scam artist by dealer I don't mean drugs I mean like

wait did you see what we got tagged in about Jazzy's X yes that was dream podcast guest who is alive ready oh guy from boat show is so funny it's fraser from below deck frazer from below deck that's what i was just thinking of when you show me the hot the hot guy the hot hot is so funny always my name because fraser is like like i'm very attracted to fraser and he's just not my

i'm not his type i should say okay we skipped biggest dick in the industry and most famous fuck because we're engaged. Yeah, and we just felt like that wasn't appropriate for many reasons, but other than that, I have no idea who won, but I think that we both, that was fun. I think we did, we did well. I think we could have done better, but some of it's like, why would I know your favorite color? Yeah. Although.

You didn't know my favorite color. Four guesses, and I'm sitting here like, I knew it. It's like you guessed four different colors. Crown of India was my favorite that I got. That was good. Like, that was really good. And I know your favorite movie is the greatest showman and you writing Interstellar just isn't true to who you are.

I feel like we are segmented out. It is 10.13 p.m. Yeah, we arrived here at 4.30. Yeah, we have been here for... Okay, fine, we got here at 5.30. Yeah. And it's funny because there is this, like, weird part of me right now. Like, I'm tired and I want to go to bed and whatever.

But it's, like, sad. It's like, I want to podcast until 4 in the morning because, like, we won't ever do this. again and that's like that's not true i know we will do it in different capacities and i think that we have shed so many tears like even just the last show we like walked off stage and we were truly i hope you don't mind yeah you need that even the last show we walked off stage and we were truly fucking sobbing and it's been an emotional roller coaster and i can't believe this is actually the moment where things finally come to an end.

It's really sad. I guess I wasn't even thinking about it until you just said it. Well, yeah, it was. No, but I get what you're saying. It's like we were playing these games. I got up to go to the bathroom and I was like, oh, my God, like it hit me again. And I think it is going to be one of those things that continues to be a wave of different emotions, but how beautiful is that that something truly has made us feel every emotion you can name.

like I can't and I just like I guess what I want to say and I'm sure that you share the sentiment with me but the biggest thank you in the world is to the canceled podcast audience like you guys single-handedly changed our lives and not only that but as much as you say that we did so much for you I hope you guys know that you did so much for us like there wasn't a meet and greet that went by where we didn't sob and there wasn't a show that we did where we didn't I mean that was one thing that was so consistent like we would walk out every night and see those crowds and look at each other like holy fucking shit I can't believe this is our lives and just all of the crazy things the amount of like mini little dreams that we had like that

canceled would like make come true and like I don't know just all of the fun that we like got to have as corny as it like sounds it's like The only reason this podcast ever worked is because there were thousands and thousands of broken girls and gays and days out there who like saw themselves in us. And it was at a time where like, I don't know, at least I can say, like I felt like nobody could relate to me. You know what I mean? Like I felt like I was too fucked up or like I had so many issues or I was never going to find love or I was never going to get sober. All these fucking things, you know. And that's been the constant is that you guys have made us feel so seen.

like just so truly seen for who we are across this and I can't words will never begin to describe the way that I thank all of you we love you and I mean it when I say that the canceled podcast audience has been the best fucking audience in the entire world and to anyone who has silently listened to these episodes or just left a nice sweet comment here and there I hope you know that across us talking about things that we maybe had disdain for like it was never you and it makes me sad to know that there are moments that hate like drowned out love i know i really like i hope that is the takeaway because it is it makes me sad to speak about it that way because i talk about canceled like it's been this like overarching like very negative thing and that is so absolutely

not the case i've loved it it's been like genuinely like the most like the biggest privilege of my entire wait it has been the biggest privilege i liked jeopardy me too my favorite color's orange no it's been the biggest privilege but it's just time and how we already said it but like how genuinely fucking cool to have this like fucked up scrapbook of how much the both of us have grown and like how cool that we finally get to like ride off into the sunset together and like I just if you're in your early 20s and you're where we were at when we started this like I would do anything to go tell those girls in that studio like you will find your happy ending and like new crazy beginnings that you can never even dream of you you will make it through the mess that is

your early 20s that you're also sharing with the entire world and like it is time you know and The canceled era will just, it'll be forever and it'll be forever. There's a ghost. And you can't fucking convince me otherwise. How weird was that? Wait, that was really cool. Because like the balloons went off. Well, yeah.

And like, away. Damn, maybe. And there's me just stuck in. No, no, no, no. Stuck right where we left it. No. And you know what I will say too? is and I think it's beautiful I'm just moving on I'm starting to think the ghost is like on our side

you know like they're just but that was really crazy that felt like I don't know I can't believe you're not like thinking that was a bigger deal than it was I'm like so used to it at this point that was like the third time that we've been we've been filming for almost five hours and they just now we said and you know we're riding off into the sunset and they just went that is actually so weird I got chills I don't know how I feel about it it's just it's wild I will say also I think It's very cool that both you and I are in this place where when it comes to the future of all of the things that we do, it is very never say never. Like never say never, we don't have some crazy reunion or find some capacity that we are

both satisfied with. And like, I hope you guys know that we're so excited to put this to bed so that new things can come. And we will still be doing stuff together. No one's dying. And we will, we love you. And we will still make things for all of you. and just thank you

like the fact that there are people that just care and will like continue to care is so crazy to me and you guys have no idea how much you have saved our fucking lives like truly I would be dead if it wasn't for all of you and I know that

you know so I just it's like I don't want to end it like I really like it's actually like I'm having like a I can't because I know that the second bit we shut off this cameras we're never doing it again and maybe you know i mean you know what i mean just it's like it's really sad but it's also 1020 p.m and we made this fucking decision no but this is the end of the canceled podcast as we know it and brook amber i cannot

thank you enough this would have never ever ever ever ever ever been what it was without you and it's we truly did carry each other on our back and we fought against all odds and like i'm just so proud of each and every want everyone in this room but like i know oh i know i'm actually and thank you for like sticking by my side and doing this shit with me through thick and thin i'm like hello thank you for bringing me in you changed my whole life but you deserved it because you're the funniest most talented girl in the world and you're gonna fucking kill it And I just like, there are so many moments where you could have easily given up on me and just like, just so many things, you know, that both of us, like, you know, they would have been easier to do so many things and we fought for each other and we fought for this. We fought to sit here right fucking now and do this.

And that's so sick. And thank you guys so much. And to the Redditors, I hope you find something else to write about you sick motherfuckers. I'm like, yeah, what's going to happen to pour un-canceled sub, canceled pod? Hopefully. Tana Mojo podcast. Hopefully, 70% of those people go touch grass and now I can say it to the 30 that were kind. Genuinely.

Are they okay? I know. And you were saying like, to the listeners, I wanted to be like, minus you guys. Yeah, no. And that's, you know. I'm totally kidding. But I'm so, so, so fucking excited for the future. I have a gift for you.

No. before we go what the hell why wouldn't you tell me wait no it's i make one for me too you know i can't buy anyone a gift without buying myself one where is it i think it's under brooks under my chair oh it's under your chair i've been here all this time and i didn't even check it in my chair oh is it a pizza it's really cute and that wasn't supposed to be the cover at all in shudderfly and i have serious beef But it kind of is sweeter than it is the cover. I didn't even realize it was a book. I was crying because it was just the picture.

I literally didn't even realize it was a book. I was actually going to just be hysterical that you printed out this picture. That was our first ever show in Arizona. To 700 people I've misquoted it so much. I said it was 30 people once. it was a huge show it's all of the photos that we took on the stage at the end there's just too many images of me looking exactly like that shout out one size setting spray uh no shout out to whoever I'm using

am I supposed to open it well I want you to see it but you don't like have to know Like, you don't have to, like, literally sit and go through it on the pot. I just, like... I want to see it. At the end of every single show, we took a photo on stage. And it's pretty much every single photo. On Face Tune, which I'm livid about. So many bad outfits.

So... The front was supposed to say it canceled forever. It does, kind of. I honestly like that the front is the front. first show. I think I think it's really sweet. Oh, these are so cute. And like, why can't I fix that pose? It's so crazy because there was so many things that were like, that were like, why can't Brooke stop doing that pose? And now I'm going to have to live with it forever. What, this one? Where I, no, where I turned my fucking stupid front foot out so far. No, I think it's cute. I've always thought

that was cute. I'm in like a big fourth position. Oh my God. All of these shows are so, like, the memories. Each photo has so many memories. That's what's so crazy. This is so cool. Thank you, Meg. Lord knows I did not. I was going to say that's crazy. You did that. Hank, Slade.

I love this because right now we're discovering put your flashlights up. I just got to the point where we decided put your flashlights up. Oh, yeah, to make it. I remember it was to piss off someone we wanted to, like, make our photos as spiteful as possible. I know who it was, and I'm not going to repeat it, but. And then I got you a Christmas ornament. Where is it? Thank you.

No, you have to look at what it is. And now I have a house so I can... Wait, that's actually so sweet. This will be for your first Christmas. In your house. Miles will love this one. It says, press for pool boy. It's funny because I bought this, lost it,

and then I had to order another one of lunch. I've been so determined You look gorgeous And honestly can I say that that is one of my favorite things You crying across the Kinsle podcast Because you look just like this every time We don't know how you Because like I cried too like so much

Where I set for crying though I set I set I set You didn't set shit shit shit And that's Morphy setting Spray. Yeah, she's ass.

I'm totally kidding. I'm totally kidding. What's this? 40% off of a door dash order? She gave me 40% off of a door dash order. Imagine. In the end, I just gave you hell a coupon.

You did. Like, that's so funny. You did? I didn't do that, but they're there. You really appreciate it. I can take any dollar I can get. Thank you. As you know, I just bought a house.

You rich, rich, bitch. And thank Buck. Oh, I'm so happy for you. Well, thank you for my presence. I actually have yours in the car. I have yours in the car and I did bring them. They're at the store. still I don't give presents to get. Did you ever say that? Did you ever say that like when, when, like when, like when I was poor and I went to someone's birthday. I always be like, oh, your present didn't get here yet. Yes, of course. Oh my God. Or I would like steal gifts in mind like, oh, I'm about to get their present. But it was always like, bro, you know how many money? No, I would steal gifts for people. But then the gift in question would be like, why are you getting like? Hello, me hanging up on Christmas morning one morning and getting a cycling bike. A literal like a little like. A literal like.

like $4,000 cycling bike. Me and my sister, I was only five years old. I can't even reach the ground. I don't know how to ride a bike. And this bike cost $4,000. Somebody had a really shitty Christmas morning and I'll tell you that much. Oh, fun. How is fun?

Any fun updates in our home? Yeah, she just got into a digital marketing class. She's starting to do TikTok live. We're going to be back here next fucking week. That's honestly my only takeaway. I mentioned all of this is for nothing and we never quit. No, but I think it's time we genuinely close out. You have any final thoughts?

Nah. You know what I, my final takeaway is that this has been the greatest, most wild, biggest learning experience, trauma bond, but I mean that with the best, in the best way of my entire life. and I am so excited for the future and I love you so fucking I love you and I love you except for those on the canceled pod subreddit should we do it for the last right yes since I look so gorgeous thank you guys oh until the end baby thank you you guys for listening to the last thank you for listening to the final episode of the canceled podcast oh Thank you.