Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 2: Episode 2: The Trisha Paytas Episode

Episode Date: August 2, 2021

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please contact Connex Ontario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge. BetMGM operates pursuant to an operating agreement with iGaming Ontario. Cancer. Don't remember doing this at all. Welcome to the most iconic episode of the cancelled podcast that will ever happen the icon the myth the legend Trisha Paytas herself is on the cancelled podcast I love it I'm shook you're my first guest I mean that's the goal if my lawyers let me release this after we talk shit I know I feel like this well I've done

so many podcasts that don't get released really yeah like I've done like three podcasts in the past like month that like don't get released dude I swear to god today I was like god what if we talk so much shit and my lawyers don't let me release it and then Trisha cancels me for being a fake bitch oh my god I'm done like three podcasts in the past month that don't get released. Dude, I swear to God, today I was like, God, what if we talk so much shit and my lawyers don't let me release it and then Trisha cancels me for being a fake bitch. Oh my God, I'm just like recording this whole podcast. Please, please. No, I have to now.

Every podcast I've been on, people will be editing it and stuff like that. I'm just like, oh my God. Not that I care. I don't really care, but it's you and you can edit me however you want. What stopped when the last podcast may release? Just like chaos? The last one was the last frenemy. We filmed the whole ass front of me

And it did get released And then like She already said the F word Yeah And then And there was Yeah that's cancelled I got cancelled right after that

Yeah it was like Everyone like loved me For like nine months And then like boom Everyone hates me That's why I was shocked I was like You know I'm cancelled

Cancelled now You are so convinced That the world hates you But what I will say about you We were talking about this yesterday We are like cockroaches Especially you you're my inspiration in that sense no one is ever gonna take trisha paytas off the internet and like shit happens bro frenemies was so iconic like you know what i mean like it was an iconic period of time and like i i fucking love

you and i think you are the most polarizing iconic inspirational figure on the fucking internet like I just I can't when people said like who do you want your first guest to be I was like Trisha or cancel the show

that's crazy because I know you're like really in right now like you're very trendy you're in with everybody no you are don't hype her up please

you're friends with all the tiktokers the big youtubers like it's amazing you go from David Dobrik to Bryce Hall in like one night and I'm like that's amazing you go from david dobrik to bryce hall in like one night and i'm like that's amazing i'm like don't even remember and i'm like yeah i think i did that it's like just so i see a paparazzi photo i'm like i think i did that i don't know this morning was literally like i'm alive and awake just so you know it's like okay no because i knew that like i mean obviously you've seen me in the past even just like with jeffrey video stupid shit in

the past like i i'm terrible at showing up. And I wanted you to know, like, I wouldn't miss this for the world. Old me would have for sure. Like slept straight through it. But I care so much about this today. I was up with bells on, but so nervous, you guys. You were, yeah. I'm sweating in the makeup.

You're just, you like texted me too. You're like, I'm nervous. Like, you're the one popping. I'm like, I need this. Bring me on. You're so ridiculous. No, you're an icon. This is that you're like i'm nervous like what like you're the one popping i'm like i need this like bring me on so ridiculous no you're an icon this is that you're doing so much more it's just us gassing each other up no right right right right trish and i were literally talking about how everyone fucking thinks we like don't get along or whatever and i'm like we just really actually have an chance to like super bond yeah moments but i mean like no why was your first bonding

moment it was at an award show i remember and i saw you in the bathroom and you're like oh my god i hate this girl too and i was like oh thank god and i remember we like bonded over like hating somebody i remember that night i was wearing just like a stupid img address and trisha told me i looked good and it was i'm not even kidding i like good things happened that night but that's the only thing i remember like i i like i can't even you no i i know i love you and i hate that i hate that people think that too i'm like oh my god because we've never actually been on video together we've met but we've never been on video we don't have any pictures we've never done a collab either the last time I saw you was when I was pretending to sleep on David's beanbag and you were in the couch is that the last time I saw you and you're

like I have a boyfriend and they're like who cares that's all I remember better days better days things have really looked up from that fucking moment. Oh, my God. I don't know. I believe it. I drunk me fucking. Who knows? No, you're everything. You're the fact that you're only 23. I was like, oh, my God, you almost went through.

I was like, holy shit. That's crazy. Really? She's lived like five lives. Yeah. No, you really have. Because I'm like that. Trisha, you can't even say I've lived five lives.

You have lived every. I am so excited today to sit down and ask you all about your life like i just have so many questions so many things i want to know about i can't even i mean you were one of the first people i i remember fully like blonde sundial moment like i i saw some of your first videos hunter is not like very like internet you know what i mean like savvy and it's it's crazy to me because it's like i I'm like, I'm obsessed. He walks in every day to me watching your shit. Every single day.

Some sort of thing. Really? Yes. You're the only one. You and 50,000 people. No, I'm not. Trisha. She's a fucking icon.

I can't deal. But I mean, like, I'm so excited for him to hear all about your life today, too. Yay! I'm just, I'm so excited. I don't even know where I want to begin. I mean, I guess, obviously, just to accredit you, you are one of the first people on YouTube. You've been on YouTube probably the longest out of like everyone. Yeah, I feel like me and like Smosh, like all those people, like 15 years.

It was like Joey, Smosh. Yeah, my first album was like 2006. Dude, and I swear to God, at like six, seven, I'm ready to tap the fuck out. I don't even understand like eight more years. And to just stay in the game and be someone that everyone is talking about and everyone is obsessed with. And obviously we talk about our like roller coasters of people liking and hating us. But to just be such a polarizing figure for 15 years. Like what?

I have like no other option. It's like this or street walking. Like I literally was a street walker for like six years. I'm like, you know, let's just keep this going. I'm not kidding. That was the first thing I said I wanted to ask you about today was just everything you did like before this. Should I always say if I I mean, if I didn't do this i i would be a stripper in vegas it's not a funny joke i would have ended up fully like selling every hole you know i mean like

but you get the coin now because no matter what happens like let's say you were like totally irrelevant tomorrow which will like never happen you could get the coin for being a feature dancer a high-end escort you'll get money just for being you. You know what I mean? I really be seeing these like Instagram girls like making all their Fashion Nova brand deals but then escorting on the side.

Yeah. And it's crazy to me. I'm like, dude, have I ever had my managers back here like fucking shut up? But I mean like,

for real, I mean like, I don't even know. That shit is crazy. Did you talk about getting a new manager already or no? Oh my,

so Trisha. We had the same manager for like a minute, for a month. I love it. She's going right into the goddamn T.I. Oh yeah or no? Oh my, so Trisha. Because we had the same manager for like a minute, for a month. I love it. She's going right into the goddamn tea. Oh yeah, sorry. I'm like, look at you.

I have never publicly really, I mean like I've said very PR nice things, you know? Like I love David. He's the best manager in the world. Yeah. He found me at my absolute darkest place, like brink of suicide. Just like terrible and he's changed my life inside and out. But for a long time, you and I were managed by the same terrible. And he's changed my life inside and out. But for a long time, you and I were managed by the same person.

I'm scared to say anyone's name. We're going to get sued. Yeah, we don't have to say it. It is very crazy, though, to know like how much you've changed mentally towards your work, towards everything once you switch management. I know. I think I like wake up for shit and shit now because I'm not like a depressed piece of shit because you look great. Like when I saw you, I was like, whoa, like actually amazing.

Like you were here like literally before me, which is is like on time and then you have like all of this you know what i mean yeah right because everyone always just says like i waited for tana for like a whole day and she never showed up i never texted for so long i mean literally today i was like trisha seen me cancel on everyone in the world like i imagine she'd be on twitter like tana just fucking like made me get ready like i will be not even just that i'm so excited no i would have been excited to be cancelled like I thought you were catfished

remember I like you texted me and then I DM'd you and I was like is this your number on Twitter she literally I text her like

please come on my podcast I want you to be my first guest and she DM's me on Twitter like I think someone's catfishing me I don't know what you said no because it was weird because you're like

I'm so excited I'm like this doesn't sound like Tana like you're like because you kept texting me like every day and I was like this is so weird

so then I'm like I'm like following up you're like this is not fucking Tana seriously so I was like wait I feel like because you was like this is so weird so then I'm like I'm like following up you're like this is not fucking Hannah seriously so I was like wait I feel like because you're like

this is a new number and I'm like this sounds sketch like you know I get catfished all the time by people being like this is like you know

Ethan whatever yeah it just happens really they just like yeah because you had tweeted about it so then thought maybe someone's like messing with me

or whatever no I no I thought someone was messing with me I'm like Trisha's fucking she's not gonna show up literally until you said you were parking

I was like she's kind of fucking not no I was so excited I wouldn't miss it with me. I'm like, Trisha's fucking, she's not going to show up. Literally, until you said you were parking, I was like, she's kind of fucking not coming. No, I was so excited. I wouldn't miss it for the world. I was like so excited. I follow you on OnlyFans. I follow you everywhere. When you want to bet on sports, play it on a field or ice or course. BetRivers is the place.

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please contact ConnexOntario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge. Trisha, that's so crazy to me. I always say, I don't even know if i would have ever started an only fans if it wasn't for you really like first of all i mean no one ever really talked about money on only fans in my opinion especially in the influencer space until you like hey i'm i'm making fucking bread off this i'm not monetized i'm making bread and i remember being like she could do i could do it. Oh, you're right ten times more than me right now No, nobody's she doesn't ever post anything

I mean as long as it's my like titties or asshole or something people buy it on the asshole Yeah, you haven't like spread it. The way she knows that. How do you know? I watch, I subscribe. I buy those messages, I unlock. Are you fucking kidding me? Yeah, I'm like one of his only fans a lot. Like you actually like, I really don't. I watch people, yeah. I really like.

You don't look at people. I will if I'm like being nosy yesterday, this like TikTok kid put his asshole on there and I was like, I have to buy this. Yeah, fully. I should find it for you. Can I expose him? It was Bad Zach, Zach Clayton. He's a good friend of mine I wanted to see the gooch

pic that's giving promo actually so I want to check it out Zach Clayton I don't even know who that I'm so bad with so many people but I'll look him up are you do you still are you like heavily into OnlyFans still yeah I post like every couple days on there yeah that's every day yeah I mean it's just insane first of all you have you done like everything i've seen a lot of your stuff on only fans but again i'm not like going down the timeline so i'm not gonna lie yeah have you posted like pretty much everything like crazy shit yeah i want to collab oh my god imagine when you fucking fucked lena i was like i want to fuck trisha i want to fuck trisha so bad like imagine i'm down we... I'm down. Sorry, Moses. Moses is all scared about, like, trying to get her.

No, he's like, girls are fine. But I never have that. He's like, girls are totally fine. I love a girls are fine guy. Yeah. I can't. For a couple months, I did that. Like, are you single or you're dating someone else?

I'm dating someone. Trisha, I'm fully in a relationship. So you can't, like, you don't fuck guys or anything on your... Oh, you wouldn't do that? No, no, no. Would you guys do it together? I guess we would. I mean, I've never fucked anyone.

I'm my only fan. But I have said, I would be sad in my career if I never had some sort of sex tape. Yeah, you need it. And the offers right now are absolutely fucking insane. My manager's off camera like, go do it. It's that shit. Why aren't you?

I know. It's not going to last forever, you know what I mean? You could be me at 33 still begging for $5 for the open peanut. My manager's off camera like, do you fucking hear this? Yeah, I guess, yeah. I mean, but true. You're right. I guess I've just been apprehensive because it's like, I know it's a one and done.

It's got to be like iconic. I want it to be like a Paris, like just psycho moment. But I can't even. I really do want to do a sex tape. It's so your brand. Jake and I were going to do one for a really long time. We were going to, we like attempted to kind of like get around filming it. And then we were going to put it the way that both of us and i didn't we didn't trust each

other enough that we were gonna put it into escrow and then like sign off onto it together and do it smart and then we did i kind of regret not doing it i think it would have been iconic it's never too late right i think you'd be somebody else but even just for money it's not like you're like in love you know what i mean oh i i don't? Oh, I don't think he would. You don't think he would? David's in the headphone right now saying no sex. I don't want to fuck him, no, either. Oh, no? I thought you were all about it.

No, he's not about it. Yeah, we're not on the best terms. But I mean, my boyfriend and I would definitely, I mean, I guess I would. I don't know. You have to. I love him. He's great. I just, I'm scared of like a whole thing.

Well, you're like young, so it's like a kind of risky, but it's your brand. So it makes sense. I mean, true. It's like Paris Kim. Like you're on that level. Cause you have like your own brand. So it's like, don't gas her like that. No, I really do like hate everyone.

I was telling you, I was like, I literally like hate everyone, but I like actually like love you. Cause you've always been nice. Like through everything, like, you know, the whole David Jason, all that stuff. It's like, you've always been like just so nice. Like through everything, like, you know, the whole David Jason, all that stuff. It's like you've always been like just so nice. So I was just like, I never had. I mean, there was nothing.

I mean, you know me. It's not like I'm like a fake bitch. Like if I didn't like you, I would definitely be like, fuck her. But I've always liked you because it's like I think that there's a lot of things about us that are so similar. We're both just like we say what's on our mind. We're crazy. We're scandalous. Obviously, like in my eyes, you were entirely the better version of anything I could ever be but i just mean like that i like i fucking love you i know

i was like no you're the better version you're 10 years younger you're like hotter like the successful fucking rich icon i can't do this is gonna be us just gassing trisha we should get into like dirt or something like what's some what's some like oh bitch i'm ready do we hire you are you because i feel like you're so in now you're like on top, on top. Like, you shouldn't, like, try and get into drama or, like, bring yourself down. I feel like coming down to my level. I feel like I'm on top. I feel like I'm, like, falling off and need to do something.

No, no, no, you're definitely on top, for sure. For sure. The way that she was just on the most viral podcast of this century, and it's like, you're on top. I'm like, I hope mine does one one-thousandth of what yours did. But that's what I'm saying. And, like, within a day, I went to the bottom of the barrel again. You know what I mean?

That's what I'm saying. You need to cash in now. That's more like mentally for you. You felt like you were going to the bottom. No, it was like legit. You were killing regardless. No, my channels are like

70,000 views. I was getting like, you know what I mean? Which is fine. It's up and down. No, but you'll have like eight videos in a day and everyone's like

watching them all. And you don't edit them at all. I'm just kidding. No, I wish I could not edit like you, but I just be like, I'm not an icon. That's just lazy. I just stare at the camera for like eight minutes. I'm just kidding. No, I wish I could not edit like you, but I just be like, I'm not an icon. Like, I just stare at the camera

for like eight minutes. Like, what do I, you know what I mean? Like, what do I fucking do? No, you're good though. No, I mean, obviously I think I'll always be in and out of scandals.

Like, you know what I mean? Like, I don't even look at it right now. Like, I need to be good. Like, I just know it's coming. Like, it's like, you know what I mean? Like, whatever. But you know, like, I'm not a shit person.

It's not like you're doing things that are illegal. You know, I feel like your scandals are always like you based. You know what I mean which is good entirely her fault yeah

which is I think that's good you based yeah they're always because of you you're not hurting other people

yeah I don't want like children or anything weird who should we cancel we're here like fucking we're here right I don't know Trisha

I mean well I want to just ask you about literally everything in your life so you and Moses that's what I'm just interested in like the wholesome shit kind i'm so you and moses that's i that's what i'm just interested in like the wholesome shit kind of how are you guys you're getting married yeah he's here today yeah are you guys do you ever want to do like a well i know i know a

lot about your history with like you you want to have kids that there's like you know like whatever which i mean like that's that's crazy within itself would you ever adopt you guys want to do something or I mean or yeah yeah I would adopt I don't know if they'll let me like you can't like adopt if you have like a mental illness

so like I think there's like a lot of evidence that says I have a mental illness it's really the way I've always wanted to adopt and I think you just told me that I don't want to have kids I can't

you don't want no you'll change your mind no no no I mean I don't want to be pregnant I like the idea of pregnancy terrifies me so much you don't want to monetize. I like the idea of pregnancy terrifies me so much. You don't want to monetize it?

Like, well. She's lying. Just you. Yeah. Right now. No, but I would adopt. Like, I would have like an Angelina Jolie moment. I want to go save the children. I think you need to do like, I think you're on the turnaround.

So I think you'll be able to do it. Maybe don't do the sex tape if you're going to do that. Oh, really? Because I think they look down upon that. I don't know why, but I do know they look down upon like sex workers for some reason i don't know why that's what i heard that's so crazy i looked into adoption and they're like so strict really yeah they're like well damn i know of her fucking rich ass can i can never i can't trisha that's another thing i'm so curious about is money because i think that first of all like i like obviously you know i like the flex culture

like you know what i mean like you, like I love rich shit and whatever. But when I look at me in comparison to you, I'm like, I like she's so fucking. You say that with everybody. But it's like you went to Jojo's house and said that. But I was like, no, you're a fucking richer than anyone. No, you're only fans is probably making you like what? Like a million dollars a month or something. Right.

Actually post. Yeah, it does on months where I'm good. Like for sure, I could definitely make like a million or a month or something, right? It would if she actually posted. That's the thing. Yeah, it does on months where I'm good. Like, for sure, I could definitely make, like, a million or a couple million. But then, obviously, sometimes I'll take a, like, I just never like to do things when I'm not super, like, into it because I don't want it to be too forced.

Like, I don't want to schedule content. We're only fans of IG daddies. Like, I'm like, I want to take pictures of my ass when I'm in the mood. But now I'm getting back into it, and it's fun. We're doing something really cool with it right now, actually. Like, a little tanagon wild type feel What is it like flat what are you doing like flashing people? Well, obviously yes I honestly it's more just like shit. I absolutely can't put on YouTube like the porny side of my vlogs the crazy shit

I'm excited though for like a little BTS. Is your own subscription or is it like it's description? It's like five dollars a month Yeah, that's what I'm doing. No, that's People can like buy on top of the wall. five dollars a month yeah but that's what I'm doing like a no that's hard but you do like a wall and then people can like buy on top of the wall I have a free one too so that one's a wall I'm doing like that's what I want to do

is do like a subscription they actually told me the guy on OnlyFans was like yeah Tana's like free page like kills it and I was like oh I want a free page

like I started it too I like it it's so crazy that like how much you know like shit like I just I can't I just I'm mind blending

do you think OnlyFans is like worth it you know what I do like i just i can't i i just i'm mind blending do you think it's like worth it you know i do i do okay like you can it's tame like right compared to like but it's also more risque than some people some people just aren't bikini or whatever like you are more risque it's tame though but i feel like yeah if you were like going in yeah you can you know like you can like you talk about it so it makes sense yeah for sure i mean obviously i want to just get more and more wild with it over time yeah i never want, like, stagnant and not give people what they deserve. When you want to bet on sports, play it on a field or ice or course. BetRivers is the place.

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bad finances do you say like like are you explain to me are you spending everything every second like what i just want to know like because i like i love this life you can't die with money like i agree like i don't get me wrong i think like obviously i'm being forced by a thousand people to be smart and whatever but i mean like not forced like rightfully guided but um but i mean like like i love the way that you live wait do you live have you always been this way? yeah I love spending money I love it like my last music video I spent like $250,000 on just for fun yeah I literally saw a clip on TikTok

it looked like the coolest video I've ever seen we just like knocked off my chemical romance we did like this whole like army thing I just love when you do whatever the fuck you want I love spending money I want to talk too just to randomly transition it just made me think about this your gender identity I like it is so cool to me that you you just will be whatever and do

whatever because I'm pansexual so I always have said like I'm into whatever and people always think I'm bisexual I just let them go I don't care but I just mean like I don't care what you are who you are I love you whatever and so I love that like you are just like I identify as like what you know just yeah I love how does that work I love being non-. And so I love that like you are just like, I identify as like what, you know, just like. Yeah, I love. How does that work? I love being non-binary. If I had kids, I would have like no gender.

Like I love having no gender, you know, like, yeah. Just loving like the human themselves. You get to decide. It's your life. It's your. Yeah, I feel like people always criticize, like especially young kids. Like that's a boy toy, that's a girl toy.

You know, like, you know, it's a girl. I hate it. Like, you know, I became like really femme, like presenting because like, you know, it's like it gets people to click and whatever so i'm like big boobs you know what i mean but like that's not me like normally i look like you know i look like a boy like my nails whatever i'm like biting my nails all the time now like i just i love being that too so i like switched i'm gender fluid i literally love that i've been trying to like learn a lot more about that from like demi too like the way that they're just like doing

their own thing i love tiktok for that because like we didn't know non-binary like i'm 33 so like you know when you're like when i was a kid like there was like not non-binary yeah it's all like new i think everyone's learning so much right now as long as you're open to like learning and like growing i think it's like so so amazing yeah you've done so much for me too to like like show me like what like how to you know how to call what people need to be called and their pronouns and all that stuff. And it's really, really cool. What do you identify as? He, him. He, him, straight?

Yeah. He's the most normal, like not normal, but the way I just began telling myself, that's not what I mean. I was like me. Yeah, just like. You're like the unicorn now because so many people are, you know what I mean?

Like exploring everything. So that's like, that's cool. He really is maybe the only person in my friend group who's just like a straight PM. Like I can everything. So that's, like, that's cool. He really is maybe the only person in my friend group who's just, like, a straight man. Like, I can't. We love that, too. We love straight people. Yeah, we love everybody.

I love all my friends. Whatever they want to be is so cool. Yeah. I love it. I used to be like, oh, I hate straight people. But now I love straight people. I'm back to that. Because I used to only like, like, queer.

And now I'm like, okay, no, straight people I love, too. I can't discriminate. Because I would. You know, I hated, like, cis straight men for so long. I was just like, oh, my God, they're the worst. I mean, I don't know. Maybe I would, you know, I hated like cis straight men for so long. I was just like, oh my God, they're the worst. I mean, I don't know. Maybe I'm still on that. I don't even know.

I'm kidding. I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding. You have to say something to get canceled. That's the podcast. I'm so excited to see what you say on here because I feel like you have such a mouth. You know what I mean? For damn sure.

But like you reigned it in lately. And so I was like, oh. You think so? Yeah. Wow. That's honestly sweet. I feel like. That's honestly sweet. I feel like. The last like your tweet to like about Tristan was like the last like old Tana thing I saw.

And I was like, oh, I like this. Yes. Oh, my God. My first podcast was like an apology to True. Literally. Oh, just true. Okay. Yeah.

Like their kid. I was like, I didn't mean to drag the kid into it. But I couldn't fucking feel. Chloe was coming for me. She just hung out with the Stan account that was like canceling me the other day and i was like you you gonna just get lunch with this twitter stan that came from me okay now i'm just starting it all over again one more time stop it probably has nothing to do with me i'm just assuming but that's weird like why who hangs out with twitter like that that's weird i don't get it just just

interesting just funny i don't know maybe it has nothing to do with me. I'm just being self-obsessed. But when it comes to TikTok and the internet, how do you feel like TikTok? I mean, do you like, I never, I didn't even ever think, I thought you'd always be like, fuck TikTok, never even get on it. You know what I mean? I know. I love it. And I love how present you are on TikTok.

Do you like it more than YouTube? Do you like it? Yeah. Really? Yeah. I love it more because my YouTube, I just, I don't know what to do on YouTube. You know, I do the same thing, which is like eating, which is like fun my YouTube I just I did I don't know what to do on YouTube You know, I do the same thing which is like eating which is like fun or whatever But like I don't have ideas anymore for YouTube. Take that's fun because like people give you ideas, you know, you know, entirely

Yeah, it's like just creating like your own More visibility like way more people see it Yeah, I live for it ADHD like I have such bad a usually so I'm always like just like you know what I mean Just a thousand ideas a thousand things at once. It's so much easier Yeah, obviously I'll always love YouTube because it's like, you know, like what gave me anything I'd ever have shit like you can't leave YouTube Yeah, I miss it it's really just editing like in trying to like get it's just so much more But just get an editor for you. I'll cancel every editor.

Every person, she does not. She is so particular with her work. I'm psycho. That's good. I just feel like people don't like, I don't know, but maybe I'm just being too crazy. It's not like I'm known for high quality editing. No, yours is good.

I can't edit to save my life. Is it ever crazy to you to think about where you came from YouTube all the way to now to TikTok? Like, when I think about, like, the way I first, like, really started watching you was your shit with, like, Shane and shit like that. You know what I mean? Like, to come from now. Yikes, I'm canceled.

No, I don't know. I never even, like, talk about Shane shit now. Really? Like, I don't know. That time of life was very interesting yeah do you ever comment on it like your scandal like getting peed like you peed on him when you're like 18 or something or were you 17

I don't even know wait really that was like crazy Jowzy texted me yesterday and was like you fucking peed on Chained Offsend I was like kind of how old were you I really the way it's like I don't bro you were not 18 I don't i kind of do feel like i was 18 but let's say i was like 18 in a day i don't even know it's not on you though like that's what i'm

saying like that kind of stuff is never on like of course you're 17 and you want to be like you love shane and just like wanted you know what i mean like whatever my idol like yeah and i now like it is a strange thing to look back on you you definitely i was saying this to you before you i've always just lived my life very crazily. I think we're similar in that sense. Like we just grew up in a very crazy, turbulent way. And we live life so crazy. And then it's like you kind of wake up one day and you're like,

maybe these things all weren't like normal or very strange. And I'm not trying to like cancel anyone for anything because I don't have any room. But it is very. No, but you so do. I like that you're coming around to this because you're actually still young to like think you know know this kind of stuff and like realize it but I like that you say something because you are known as being so wild and I am too like you know when you're open and you're very sexual people just think they can like do and say whatever and people really will I've realized how much people will

discredit I guess trauma or just crazy shit or like whatever when you are wild. You really did like open my eyes to a lot of that. I was in front of me as you said something about like, you're like, I hope she doesn't like, you know what I mean? Like go so crazy and wake up one day and like be so broken or like something like that.

You don't, I mean like, I'm like, it was, it was a very like eyeopening thought to me. And then like, it is wild. It's,

it's funny too. Cause this, I wish I could just say it. Should I just say it? It's kind of fucked up. Leap it. Cancel it. Should it cancel just say it i guess we'll cut it out but um this youtuber um i don't know if i was 17 or 18 i was like on the brink but i was at a playlist live and they were like trying to hook up with me and i'm like i just it's something i never even like thought of again you know what i mean it was just and obviously it was like an older guy and whatever but i mean

we're friends now and like obviously i'm not saying i should it's right it's not right it's entire but i don't know if i was 17 or 18 and i don't i don't know if anything so bad ever happened to where it's like condemning them it was more just like a a flirty weird encounter or whatever and a couple weeks ago i got a call from that should i say it that gabby hannah was trying to sell to them that this youtuber like hooked up with me when i was like underage and then it was fucked up and i was like what if this was my trauma it was so insane to me i don't because after all the escape the night shit i obviously i wasn't like super in it like obviously it was an experience and you know, I could have a lot of shit to say.

Yeah. That's gross. I know. I, well, I liked, I liked a Joey Graceffa tweet about what, you know,

like, you know, just impertinence to like his video or whatever. Yeah. And then I get this call. Gabby, Anna called me and said, this YouTube was trying to hook up with you. Oh,

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that's like the one person like i actually think is like a vile like disgust like i you know what like i'd rather like lick david dobrik's nuts than like ever see that girl again like i would rather like she's vile and then like hearing that stuff makes me like it really makes me just so upset like i hate that. That series was a very interesting standpoint. I mean, I always will keep up and like watch like tea spilling crazy shit and shit, you know, but I don't, I don't know. Like, I don't actually know a lot about your guys. It's like, what's her, what's her problem?

Or should I not even ask? I don't know. No, I mean, literally the thing was that she told Jason I had like herpes. I never, like we were not friends, but then her whole series was proving that we were friends. Like before she told Jason I had herpes she told my herpes you know she just has every text from like fucking like she does she put it all out there and it was just like me being nice to her from like till in 2017 then me being like fuck off after 2017 she's like and then i

want our podcast to try to be cool with her but that girl's like she's like she's like delusional but also like scary because like obviously with the jesse smiles thing she used her r word and then that is like gross it's so gross gross. And you know, like, yeah. That's crazy. Yeah, I hate that. I need an update super. Obviously, Joey and Daniel and I were on this. That's really my only like.

Connection. You know, connection to the situation. Because we're just very different people, Gabby and I. Like, we had very similar online presences. But it's funny. No, girl. I'm not even close. Like, what is the story time? Like, you know what I mean?

Like, just like. I think she wanted to maybe be you, but not. Not even. You are not. not no but i mean yeah that was the first thing we and that's what's so funny she thinks i talk shit about her everyone but like you were like it was the first thing we talked about was like you just came up to me like i hate gabby hannah too and i was just like oh okay you know what i mean this is right after i think the first escape the night and shit went shit was just crazy i mean like obviously you see both sides it was just clearly like just not a hostile environment

and it was I remember on my first escape the night I was definitely a piece of shit I was late to everything this was major depressive young ass

stupid but you're 18 like whatever I mean yeah I mean I don't want to make excuses because I could I could have been better

it was my first big production but I mean but 18 on a reality show is like stressful were you probably younger or were you 18 I don't know I think I might have been 18

because I remember a lot of the guys on the show trying to fuck me so I mean I was probably 18 no but um no people are

I guess they're I guess a little more age appropriate if you're 18 and they're like in their 20s no but I remember actually literally crying to Joey like shit's it was just

it was I don't I'm not trying to like I'm scared of getting sued by Gabby no don't worry she's not doing anything

it was crazy she's not doing anything. She's like struggling, you know what I mean? Because it's like the truth though too, you know what I mean? Like I hate when people are like, I'm going to sue this person. Like, you know, if it's the truth, you know, it's the truth. It's just what it is. No, I was really like in YouTube for so long. It really, honestly, I'm not even going to lie. Until you were on Frenemies where they just unafraid to like talk your shit about people.

It almost reignited a new fire in me to be like, I was so afraid for so long of like just telling the truth about shit. It can be the cold hard truth, but I'm like, A, people aren't going to believe me. I'm Tana fucking Mojo. I'm psycho. B, I get so scared of people like, where it's like I could say like, you know,

Gabby and I didn't have the best time on Escape the Night. You know, there were moments where we were friends. I'm not going to lie. Like I'm not going to sit here and act like we were never friends, but I'm saying like, like I was scared to even just like say something like that because i'm like what if she finds our text on 2015 and can't believe anyone in that case i just i i was so afraid of even just not doing a podcast for so long i was like i'm gonna talk my truth about

so much and i was so afraid of something yeah it's crazy even if you're telling the truth you still feel like wrong by saying that's what's fucked up yeah but that's what's so sad and i'm glad people are like saying like the truth and stuff, like, and coming forward because I think, like, people are so scared. I think it just comes, especially because you are young and you are in that world still. Like, you know what I mean? Like, I'm 33. Like, I'm not in that world. I can say this stuff, like, who fucking cares? But if you see these people at a party, it's, like, awkward.

It's, like, weird. You know what I mean? But also, like, yeah. That's true. I mean, I guess I... Everyone's, like, even more down to say anything because you're like, I'm not going to see this person fly. Yeah, right. I'm just like, no, I'll stop gonna see this yeah right i saw myself there my lawyers off camera like you're doing yeah no yeah it's so good no but i think like overall i think you have a pretty good people around you i feel like i got super broken like i developed like schizophrenia when i was like 31 which i like never had and i think it's because like i was the same like at six years

old i was like molested by like a teacher You know what I mean? Like go on really? So and then I'm like talk a lot about that. I like it's it's such a crazy thing to me Obviously, I've been like taking advantage of by people but at such a young age the way that can shape your brain Yeah, and you think you don't realize you didn't realize until later along. I thought it was like fun like to me I thought the same exact thing. You're like, this is cool. Yeah, I'm like a kid in high school. I'm doing my thing. It's chill. Yeah, I'm just like hugging myself.

And then like, yeah, when people start being like, yo, you know what's actually not chill? Like that wasn't okay. Yeah. And you're like, no, it was fun. Like I'm still in therapy. I'm like, I'm seriously

have no trauma from it. Yeah, me neither. Wow, I need your therapist. But it's so... Oh my goodness, now you're deleting trauma. My nightmares be going dummy. No, but that's good good you like recognize it as trauma

for me because even like your age even 23 you know i was just doing like the most with the most people and thinking like everything's cool like whatever you know what i mean it's just but i still will catch myself being like that but now i will look back at a lot of shit from like 15 to 18 and be like that a lot of that wasn't true yeah like you know what i mean and it's good yeah it's good to recognize it for you and it's also good when you talk about it because i think just more people see like i remember you did a t TOK talking about it and I was like, Oh, this is so cool that like she can like see it.

You know what I mean? Every person realizes it's so late or at different times. Yeah. And like, once you're able to start coming to terms with like, this wasn't okay, this was like, you know,

whatever it is, then you're like able to start healing from it. But until you get to that point, you, Oh yeah. I never was in therapy until I was like 29. I wanted to go to like a mental hospital before. Like I had to be like forced into therapy and medication.

Therapy is so hard too. Finding the right therapist is the whole thing too. And reliving the trauma. It's like. That's like, that was, that was always my biggest thing. You know what I mean?

I was just like, God, I already went through it. I don't want to relive it. But it's like, you have to, to like kind of get past shit. You know what I mean?

Yeah. Like, I don't know your full story, but I know like you talked about like just stuff with your parents, stuff like that. And I was just like, okay, like I feel like, especially especially your childhood and stuff like that i know there's like dark shit there and i was just like damn she really did good though you know what i mean and you're really doing well i love you i'd be yeah i'm still really trying to process the childhood like demons it's still so hard for me because it's it's so weird i don't i'm not i don't speak to my parents at all at this point so it's

kind of like you know what i mean like it, it's a very interesting situation trying to process that. Just all of that kind of stuff. That's hard onto itself. You know, I went a long time without talking to my dad and you know, I was angry at my mom. Your mom's an icon. Oh, I mean, I'm sorry. That was probably not a good time.

Your whole family is such a fucking icon. Yeah. Now we're, now they're icons for sure. But yeah, there was like a moment when you like go through it. I love that. I look at that. It's so dope that you were able to get to a point. Yeah.

Kind of like do shit with her. Yeah. I love it. You never know. I mean, you could get a relationship and then you might not, you know. You never know. You never know. Whatever.

I think no matter what happens, it'll happen. You don't have to either. You know what I mean? If they're awful. But they can change. You never know. My dad did a 180. He used to have like a huge anger management problem.

Like all this crazy stuff. And now he's like that goes to church like a saint like it's just weird That's awesome that he like changed step to you know want to change So that's that was always kind of my thing as I one of the things I just feel like the biggest life lesson for me Was just like you cannot change someone who does not want to be changed. Yeah, I mean, yeah and take that step Obviously, it's a very just like corny generic life lesson, but it's a truth like no one You know what? I mean, you can never force someone to be also even if he's changing doesn't mean you have to like one you know what I mean you can never force someone Even if he's changing doesn't mean you have to like you know forgive exactly Like my dad I don't talk to either and like he's protect doing the same thing. He's going to church

Good for you, but like not You don't need to forgive anyone I'm sorry, even if it's your parents. So I mean as much as reliving all of our child the traumas great I this is there's something on this table. I mean so much Hunters you can just Oh my god, fishy. From like 2009. Trish like fish. Fans are fishies. I'm a fishy. You're a fishy now. I'm a fishy now. I don't think I've said that since like 2011. Why am I like this? I'm a stalker.

No. But. Oh my god. Trisha eats these. Tell me specifically what they are before I have some scandal for just fucking this up. Who even knows? Right. They're Korean fried cheese.

Like they're Korean cheesy dogs. And a lot of people do ASMR. You can like bite into it. Or you can just go away from the camera if you don't want to be like annoying with it. Yeah. I mean, I think we both accept being like this girl is kind of dating and she was doing something

with like ASMR videos. She does full ASMR. It's iconic. Hunter fully was like fucking ASMR. Oh my God, is she popping on it? Yeah, she gets a lot of views I think. Is she in Canada or is she here? She's here.

Oh, look at you. You're like narrowing it down. I wanna know what this is. People are gonna go through this following. Like they're gonna know, I love it. You're like narrowing it down. People are going to go through this. People are going to go through this following. Like, no, they're going to know. I love it. Names, names, names. We got to name more names.

This is fun. I mean, fuck. I know this is good. And they're evil. They're like bad people, I feel like. That's why I'm putting on front of you. Like, if they're bad people, or like, at least you take accountability. Maybe they're not bad people, but you need people to hold out.

Like, then you can. I mean, but I love that entirely. Anyways. Brysle kind of changed, I feel like. We used to call him out in front of me. And then I feel like he kind of like, I see you hanging out with him. I'm like, Iryce hall kind of changed i feel like we used to call him out in front of me and then i feel like he kind of like i see you hang out i'm like i feel like you're gonna change a little bit i'm just like with him and she somehow like likes me which i don't even know why he's changed no i'm kidding he em'd me once to like come on front of me and i felt like he was like a good person i could sense a little something and not like an asshole vibe i

mean yeah i fully i was just telling her this off camera i fully there was i mean obviously at the time i was being hypocrite i had no room to try to condemn anyone, but I fully tried to cancel Bryce Hall. I was like, he's the worst. But then, I mean, we were just young and, like, dumb

and, like, you know what I mean? And then I got to know Bryce and a lot of this shit and he's had a harder life, I think, than a lot of people. Obviously, they just see, like, the Addison Rae shit and they assume he's just, like,

this TikTok guy, but he's actually been through some shit and he's pretty smart and, like, I like who Bryce is lately and now and, like, whatever. And you can cancel people just because you're canceled doesn't mean you can cancel people.

You hold people accountable. If anyone knows who should be canceled is someone who's canceled. You know what I mean? Like I see my behavior in people and I'm like they need to also be canceled. Like I did this and you do this too. She made the Jersey Corners. All the time she's just ever like canceled me for some dumb ass shit. She's like I see that.

But you know what I feel like with you I've always just like seen me you know what I mean like with all i see that but you know and i feel like i've with you i've always just like seen me you know what i mean like with all this stuff like but you're doing it 10 times better like i was like fucking like d-list celebrities you're actually going for like tiktokers rappers like you know the girl i've had i've had my fair share of d-list don't you worry shorty don't say they're like names you know what i mean like i feel like the ones that aren't named. See, we're the same then. Are you kidding me? Mine's like zealous. Like nobody knows.

No, literally. I'm like, you look like you eat cigarettes. Fuck me right now. I'm terrible. I'm joking. My boyfriend's going to kill me. All right. So what are these flavors here?

What are we doing? Trisha eats these so iconically. I've never really done an ASMR eating moment, but I want you to teach me like the, like I want you to teach me right now how to like eat this shit like a hot bitch. Yeah, let's do it. Is this hot Cheetos on it? I've actually never seen this one. Is this the hot Cheeto thing?

Oh my God, it looks like hot Cheetos. Yeah, so this is mozzarella. This is. No, she knows. Is this like cinnamon on the outside? That's like powder sugar. Oh my God. And then that's like potatoes.

And I guess that's like a hot Cheeto. I don't know. I've never seen this red on it before, or maybe it's not. Maybe I'm just like on. Should I put it here? All right. Are these sauces for it?

Do you dip it in the sauce? Oh, I've never seen that one. No, I don't eat sauces, but like go for it. She eats her burgers plain. I know so much. Yeah. Like she literally eats her burgers fully plain. I know.

I eat everything so plain, but I just, I mean, I love food. I'm like a mustard and ranch whore. Really? I love hot cheetos. Okay. Okay, ranch. You don't like ranch? No. That is so. I wouldn't take you as a whore. Really? Everyone grab one. I love hot Cheetos. Okay. Okay, ranch. You don't like ranch? No.

That is so- I wouldn't take you as a ranch girl. Really? All right. No, I die. I die. Wait, I'm so excited. Okay, see that?

It's the noise she automatically makes. It just comes out of her. Wait, okay, but I want to try it. Oh, my God. Get close. Okay, wait. I'm just- Just get close. Get close Okay wait I'm just Get close

She's teaching me a lot She's making me a lot of money She's making me a lot of money She's making me a lot of money It's like if they were hotter It definitely could be A little bit better Yeah when they're warm

They pull Yeah so you're not getting A pull but they're I love the terminology Wait oh my god It's fantastic It's kind of like A very boozy version Of course it is I love the terminology. Wait. Oh, my God. Fantastic. It's kind of like a very bougie version. Of course it is because Trish is bougie.

I have a mozzarella stick on a stick. Yeah, that's basically what it is. I'm learning. I've only ever just been obsessed with watching people. I wanted to wait. They're really good. Is this like one spot in LA that people go for this? There's a chain now. Oh, beautiful.

Because of Trish. She's the guy of equity. Is there just like one spot in LA that people go for this? There's a chain now. Oh, beautiful. Because of Trish. Legit, we're trying to- She's the guy of equity. I should, honestly. No, but like if you eat them in the car when they're like piping hot, they're like, that's what I eat. I die. That's literally, oh my god, I can't with you. Everything that you eat. Fucking Domino's, Swarovski.

The other day I was showing my man. Oh, yeah. I was gonna tell you that too. I was like, what? The VIP Domino's. I live for Domino's too. I just love food. Me too. I die for Domino's. Good thing we didn't have it I've had whatever this is so cool

I'm sorry I got really excited she's so good no I swear to god and I'm not trying to make fun of Pete obviously I have schizophrenia too but I swear to god

sometimes I hear voices and literally it's like oh you're here and I was like yeah this is so cool so I heard a voice right there wait I kind of love that hi Trisha's voice

I'm on medication for him sometimes I still hear voices and they're like oh you're here and i was like yeah i love it for you sorry no why sorry i don't i love you for exactly who you are so don't please don't ever but beyond that at the same time i think that obviously there's the fun side of it but kind of battling that like while you're in an entire online presence and then like you know what i mean like you're obviously like i fucking love who you are but if there was ever a moment, you know what I mean? Like, you're obviously, like, I fucking love who you are. But if there was ever a moment, like, you know what I mean?

What is that like? Like, battling that on a day-to-day basis? It's new. It's so new. Really? And, like, I developed it at a time when I, or it came to light at a time when I was, like, so happy and content. Like, I was, like, on the internet.

I was making money. Like, I got engaged. Like, everything was going good. And, like, the voices started getting, like, worse. And, like, they changed from. That one's really good. Do we share food? I don't know.

Oh. Do you want me to take this from you? Do you want some? Your potato moment's yum. like the voices are getting like worse and like they change from Yeah So you said it came recently and like the cobit time or like when you're like at home like kind of dealing with more stuff. Yeah, like in January. That's the worst one. Sorry. Oh yeah, no, you're good. My ADHD is jumping out. Well, my voices are jumping out so I'm listening to that. But at least we're not using them

to be shit people. Right. Oh my God, yeah. Oh, you have ADHD? Crippling. Oh my God, and then Gabby over here being like, I'm having ADHD. That's why I was such an asshole.

I was like, really? Because Deanna's always been so freaking nice. I didn't know you had ADHD. Well, I mean, I've been an asshole in the sense of my ADHD making me, like, late and terrible and not motivated. That's different, though. You're not, like, a vicious person. You're not, like, vile, like, trying to ruin, like, someone's life. I hate you.

It's my ADHD. Yeah. You're not, like, exploiting people's, like, traumas and all that stuff like that. It's truly kind of crazy. But to circle back, Trisha, I think that, I mean, there are very few people people who are who are open about battling schizophrenia on a platform and I I just said to you even like you you being so open about traumas and stuff like that and about things not being okay truly inspired me to be able to be better about that and be open and shit like that but for you to be open about something like that too it's just like it's crazy what do you ever meet fans that like go through stuff like that too oh yeah

like a lot a lot more people than you think. And again, TikTok, like not to be up like Gen Z's ass or anything, but like TikTok is really good with that kind of stuff. You know, people talking about non-binary borderline, like all that stuff like that. It's like, it's really, really cool. Cause like no one talked about it before, you know? So I thought something was just like wrong with me. And then I was like, oh, you know, but like it's, I was untreated for so long.

That's why I talk about it so much because yeah, like you can have like really bad case of ADHD and it can cause you to, but you have to get it like treated like you can't blame it. You know what I mean? You have like it out entirely when you have to start speaking about like I speak about mental health as well And I think doing that just changes the messages you get as well You know people are more comfortable talking about what's going on. I think when you really Open about all the like sorry No, but it's true because you can be both like, you you know, you can be, like, a mess and have it, but also, like, coping with mental, you know what I think?

It's, like, good because I think, you know, if people are more open about it, I think it's a good thing. My favorite thing about Trisha is the speed that she talks at. I watch every single YouTube video at two times speed, and right now she's, like, talking, and I'm just like, I'm just cackling off to it. It's everything. You want a two-time speed.

I just want to take it all in. I liked that you always kept it real about who you liked and didn't like on front of me and stuff like that. And like, I mean, when people think they don't like you because you're like the one person that like I can't judge because you are so open about things. And that's why when like even to that Instagram versus reality thing, anything when people are like, oh, her angles here.

I was like, she's so honest about like facing about all this stuff like that. Like, I just I appreciate that from you, because obviously I've had my moments where I look back and I'm like, I could have been more honest. But I'm not going to lie when I look at because I mean, like we were talking about earlier, like there's so many times where people think that we like hate each other or whatever. And I'm like, no, dude, Trish is just fucking brutally honest. And if someone's doing some lock shit, she's going to call them out. And there are times that Trish has called me out for some shit like face tuning, creating

a false beauty standard. I did not call you out for that. I defended you. Ethan did. I was like, she's honest about that. No, I was like, never. No, but I i mean but even just it being like brought to light and you always being honest like i'll always kind of look at it

and be like i love that like i think that whenever you talk about me you make me better it was funny even during like covid shit you were like you drove by saddle ranch you were like home of the douchebags bryce hall tana mongeau and i was like i i should fuck no but i swear to god in my head i was like maybe i shouldn't be there every day during the pandemic. No, no, no, okay. No, I swear to God, like, I genuinely,

like, appreciate your realness and I think that's so much better than fake influencer bullshit. I feel like, though, that kind of stuff

because people do, like, I realize, like, some people do take offense to it. I was like, oh my God, like,

but the thing is, it's like, when you're, like, old, when you get old, like me or, like,

Wendy Williams, you have to talk about young people because that's what's, like, relevant, right? Like, I couldn't give a fuck

who's at Saddle Ranch, but it's like, okay, this is what everyone's talking about. Like, let's talk about it. Like I get more offended when people think they like invented Saddle Ranch. Like Zayn and Heath are like, we invented Saddle Ranch. I'm like, no, Bret Michaels did in 2007 with Rock of Love. Like people were doing, yeah.

They had a reality show. All pop culture. Oh, I watch, I hate watching so many podcasts and I watched the Zayn and Heath one and they were literally like, yes, we were with Saddle Ranch before it was cool. I was like, no, you weren't. Like, I hate that so much. I only ever hopped on the Saddle Ranch trend with Saddle Ranch before. It was cool. I was like, no, you weren't. Like, I hate that so much.

I only ever hopped on the Saddle Ranch trend, to be fair, when it was cool. But I'll say that I'm a little fucking clout whore. I'm like, I don't have to go. You know what I mean? No, it's everything. I could never go to Saddle Ranch. I used to love Saddle Ranch.

I used to love the food, but could never go there. I would fucking die. No, it's actually so anxious. I mean, I like going there, and I'll just drink through the anxiety of it, obviously, which isn't good. Sorry, guys. Coping mechanisms. Working on them every day. I'm, like, I like going there and I'll just like drink through the anxiety of it, obviously. But which isn't good. Sorry, guys.

Coping mechanisms working on them. But no, it is crazy. Saddle wrench is like a full on meet and greet. It's like going like every tick tocker in the fucking world. But pop culture wise, I just brought this to my attention. One thing I wanted to talk to you about randomly. I brought it up on the last podcast, but I feel like you might have some insight on this that it would just interest me.

I think I'm just a Trisha fan and i want to know free britney tell me your mom oh my god yeah i've been on the free britney movement for a moment i love britney so much i mean that's another good example of someone that's like oh like this is what i hate when people like label someone like crazy or they look at someone crazy because she had a mental breakdown and so now people use that against her for life and i feel not to like bring it back but that's like kind of like you, if people like label you, it's just one thing you think, oh, I can't talk about it.

I can't do this because they label you as this. And so then you're, when you do talk about it, then you're under a conservatorship or now you're crazy. Your kids are taken away or something. There's something you did in your past and like she just couldn't control.

And now she's still, and she's fully mentally aware. Like when you were listening to the audio, like she's fully like there and mentally capable. She went on tour. She did all this stuff. It's like, first of all,

yeah, if you can work and make millions, I said this last time you you are far well like capable of doing whatever the fuck you have to do but her voice and the way she talked on that recent fucking what's that called like a court hearing yeah yeah something like that like the way she i don't i don't know either you're trying to be like webster's dictionary people don't expect that of us um but it was crazy to hear her be so like, you know what I mean? Just like smart.

Coherent. Yeah, like insane. I was watching her listen to it and she was just like crying, like so much emotion because I think that like you're able to identify with certain aspects of,

you know, things. You and I resonate hard with you, Brittany, because people probably tried to do the same thing to you. Take your money, like take, you know what I mean? Your freedom,

your like just everything. Like still to this day, yeah, I mean, even like with know what I mean? Your freedom. Your, like, just everything. Like, still to this day, yeah. I mean, even, like, with the last, like, friend of me's blow up, everyone's just like, oh, she's just crazy. This is what she does. This is her pattern. Even if I'm, like, completely in the wrong or in the right, which I have been proven to be in the right with so many situations. And they're just like, no one wants to even listen because you have that reputation. And, like, you know, that's why I feel

sad when you're like, oh, I don't want to talk about anyone or cancel anyone because who am I to talk? Or, like, even talking about, like, stuff that you felt uncomfortable with like you're allowed to feel uncomfortable even if you participated and you were willingly participating in it you know what I mean validating 10 hours but you know what I mean because like I know like for instance the pee thing not to go back to that but like the pee thing is specifically like that I did I did so much of that stuff when I was like 18 and younger 17 16 I would like do the like craziest shit like let people like show me p.m. all this crazy stuff and then I was just like you know i was like oh i liked it whatever but then like

realizing it like i actually like hated it it made me feel so sad or whatever but like you didn't don't process it because at the time you're like no it was cool it was fun and then you're like oh no this was like a fun fucked up not that it's in years no no but i get what you're saying you know what i mean but i mean like yeah and i mean there's just so much i can think of a thousand instances in my life where i can just you know things were like you know they were they were dope and normal and then i was like like, oh, that's great. But if you loved it, too. Some people love peeing on people.

And if you love it, then that's fine, too. I'm not trying to. I don't get peed on. I was going through a phase the other day with my boyfriend where I think I just wanted to feel something. I was so bored. I was like, what do we do? Yeah.

You got me. Fucking kill me. And then what I was like, babe, take a breath. No, it's hot. I mean, it's either hot because you have trauma or it's hot because it's hot. Because I used to love it, too. But it's like a degradation thing. It's like being degraded.

You like love it. Yeah, I love a good degrading. But I think that it- Who literally asked, and I was like, it was the first time I've ever had someone like want that. And I was like, is this a degrading thing? Like you're more than welcome, you're valid, you are- That like turned her off.

You're like, no, you got me. But then I did it. And I'm just like- And I did like it for so long, but then you're like, oh, I don't know why I like it. Then you didn't like it, you know, it's fine. You can like it and then I did it. And I just picked it up. Because I didn't like it. And I did like it for so long. But then you're like, oh, I don't know why I like it. Then you didn't like it. You know, you're just fine. You can like it and then not like it.

I'm fully going to tattoo. It's either hot because you have trauma or it's hot because it's hot. That's the best quote I've ever heard in my life. You never know. You know, it's kind of like whatever. But I can't stop. I mean, honestly, like, even though I joked about it coming to an end, I really thought it would be forever.

Because, like, obviously, I'm marrying, like, his brother-in-law, you know. Because I can't imagine him doing. Right. Like, you can't really an end. I really thought it would be forever. Because obviously I'm marrying his brother-in-law. Because I can't imagine him doing... Right. You can't really do that. I know. Literally. No. We actually started dating. I mean he knows this. Whatever. We actually started dating because I was always on their podcast and Ethan was always kind of an ass with me. And I was like oh it would be so funny if I fucked Hila's brother.

You know what I mean? And he knows that. You and I have so much in common. I know. I swear to God. The way I would spite fuck someone's brother because they were talking shit about me on their podcast is just dark. I was so excited to go back and talk about it and stuff like that. So we took pictures on the first date kind of thing, you know, because I was like, oh, I want to show this. You know what I mean? Like you want to be.

Yeah. So I feel like that's like where that all started. But yeah, I thought it would be a long time because we were like cool you know what i mean but yeah yeah i think the ending like honestly wasn't my fault and i'm just gonna say that here because everyone's like oh no it's really your fault but yeah i don't know how vindicated you're gonna be when you're vindicating yourself on tana mongeau's podcast no but like the last podcast he like admitted to like oh yeah because he like you know whatever it's like a whole thing to get into but he like screenshotted my text sent him to his staff he's

like yeah i probably shouldn't have done that you know basically like saying that i wanted them into. But he like screenshot of my text, sent him to his staff. He's like, yeah, I probably should have done that. You know, basically like saying that I wanted them fired. And I was like, show me a text. So you basically like lie, whatever. And I think he ultimately couldn't continue the show because he was the one that was like at fault. In the past, it was my fault. Right.

Like I called his like wife, like a secret. I did all this like horrible shit. No, horrible. Like I was not loving. I was unmedicated. I was like, not that this excuse. I was I was it was bad. I was horrible shit.

But like they would always continue the show. You know what I mean? So this was like something that wasn't that horrible. But because he was kind of like in my opinion, I was like, oh, he's in the wrong. And he can't like face it because he like lied about like me when I was a whole thing. To be fair, listen to it. You know, I'm still jacking off to the two time speed. I just can't.

I'm obsessed. It's ridiculous. But I need I need to educate myself more. Obviously, I only I did a take out to the sound. Like I haven't I need to fully watch that last episode. you did i didn't see it she commented on it fucking fake i did i live for your tiktok this was actually before i brought hunter on the podcast and i was like should we have a podcast and you commented like you guys should like something like whatever and i was like i was freaking the fuck out.

No, I don't remember. I know I comment. I just didn't remember like which one, but I know for sure. I look, cause I always,

I never knew what you guys were like dating, not just a couple, but you date it. I'm hanging. No, it's great. I just got brothers on.

No, I'm just kidding. I have a full boyfriend. So what you guys did date? No, no, no, we never dated. Like have a full boyfriend. So, wait, you guys did date? No. No? No, we never dated.

Like, never official. Oh, okay. Just cash. Not even cash. No. No, okay. No, you're right. You're right.

I don't, I mean. We have different perceptions of it. Yeah, right. You're right. No, bro. Oh, I've dated so many people that don't claim me, so. No, we actually didn't date. I was just vibing with Hunter.

You wanted to date him? It was before we knew who each other were. And we were just, we actually didn't date. I was just vibing with Hunter. You wanted to date him? It was before we knew who each other were. And we were just, we were like becoming friends. And it was just like. Yeah, I would almost look at it as like, I don't know. Man, my God, we're so awkward with this. Yeah, seriously. No, it was gone. Yeah, I don't know.

I mean, there was, and there was a point in time where I was like, Hunter's such a good guy. Maybe I need a good guy. And I like convinced myself I needed a good. And then I was like, this is like, I don't know. And then she's like, fuck this guy. He's a fucking asshole. Like. Really?

Cry me a river. Play the video. No. Roll the clip. How long ago was this? How many, like how long ago? It's crazy. Probably like 2017.

Okay. So that's like a while ago. I don't know. But I, but I do remember literally waking up one day and being like, this is, you know what I mean? Like when you're really attached to someone and you care about them or you're in a dark place and you're like, I've always been very wild with just hooking up with people and liking them.

I like everyone. I hook up with all my friends. I literally fall in love with someone just because they're, you know, I, and I was way worse about it in the past. You know what I mean? And I just like loved Hunter and what he did for me so much. But then I woke up one day and I was like, I want this person in my life for life. And like, they like the way the things we've been through you know what I mean like we're just so like family like it's absolutely I sound like someone who got friend zone but I swear no I mean I think what she's saying is like she she typically will just she does the sexual aspect

to so many people and just like well I'm loving this hand yeah she'll hook up with them and then like we'll go away yeah like, I care about her as a human so much more and I'd rather just keep the friendship and keep her as a person in my life because she needed that

so much more that she wasn't even aware of. Right. Yeah. You're not used to that. No, if I was busting it open for him, I would for sure get psycho

and lose him. So I need him so much that I have sex with him. So smart. I chose years ago to absolutely not. And you're honestly one of my only friends

I have. But you need that because I'm like so open to like yeah have sex with everybody but I think you do need people that are just like not sexual in that way

because then you like you as a person would get confused because I was like that too I was like oh I had sex with him I'm in love with him why don't they love me back

it's like no entirely exactly exactly and he's honestly one of my few friends I haven't fucked like I'm so grateful

yeah yeah that's good love that phrase yeah hey guys clarified right here right now no I love it

and then you feel like more stable and you feel more secure and I think that's good I think that's awesome and she hey guys. Clarified right here right now. No, I love it. And then you feel more stable and you feel more secure. And I think that's good. I think that's awesome. And she's like family. I'll literally do anything for her. That's amazing. And after someone rides for you for so long with nothing to offer them, you kind of realize they're there to ride for a while.

Yeah. And you shouldn't. You're there in the lowest points and the top points. And I think very often you see so many people there when you're at your peaks and not people that are there for you when you're in your low spots. That's so true. It's really hard. I don't think I have anybody. I'm trying to think. I'm like, do I and not people that are there for you when you're in like your low spots. That's so true. It's really hard. I don't think I have anybody.

I'm trying to think. I'm like, do I have anybody that's been there for me at my low? Oh my God. Stop. That makes me so mad. I told Trisha today that after this podcast, I was going to be like so up her ass. Like I'm going to want to hang out.

You can hang out with us anytime you want. Every coming to Saddle Ranch. No, I won't take you guys. Shout out to David's house. Stop it. Oh my God. Let's do it. Let's do it.

Come on. I'm just the worst friend. Like I will say that. I'm just so bad can't. Let's do it. Let's do it. Come on. I also am just the worst friend. Like I will say that. Like I'm just so bad at like, that's why when people say they're my friends, I'm always like, like Gabby, whatever.

I was like, I don't have friends because I just don't hang out with people. I'm the worst friend. I'm really bad at like texting. I'm just like, I never leave my house. It's okay to be that though.

I don't think that makes you a bad friend. I think it's about finding people who accept you for like who you are. Yeah. I'm like a texter. Like I'll text you and be like, hey. Oh my God,

let's text. I'm just texting her. She's going to ghost me you are. Yeah. I'm like a texter. Like I'll text you and be like, hey. Oh my God, let's text. I'm just texting her. She's going to ghost me. Watch. No. I mean, I have definitely got canceled for ghosting people for sure. Like Nakata Avocado. Are you kidding?

I know. I don't think there's anything wrong with ghosting. It's like an anxiety thing. Like if you just can't text someone back. I know. I take no offense to being ghosted. Same. I don't know if it's because I'm a ghoster though.

So I have the other aspect of it. Me too. You know what I mean? But yeah. No, because I'm the same way. Like people are like, you should just tell someone how you feel. Like you don't like if it's because I'm a ghoster, though, so I have the other aspect of it. Me too. You know what I mean? But, yeah. No, because I'm the same way. Like, people are like, you should just tell someone how you feel. Like, you don't like them or whatever. Like, when I was, like, dating, if you tell someone, like, oh, you don't.

But I'm like, no, I'd rather just be left on read than be rejected. Straighten it along forever. Yeah. No, I'd rather. Straighten it along. Because if you text someone, like, three or four times, you get the hint. And if you don't, then you're like, there's something wrong with you. You know what I mean?

So, like, if I text someone three or four times and they don't respond, I'm like, okay, they don't like me. Like, I'm not, like, getting over it. Yeah, I know entirely. Look at our social cues. Just on fucking. Yeah, you should't respond like okay, they don't like me like yeah I know entirely look at our social. Yeah, just on fucking yeah, you should know No, I mean Trisha. I just looked at a little list. I made of everything. I want you to list. Oh my god I love this well. I mean just you know I just I mean you're

Oh, yeah, that's everything the outlet does no right sponsored by my church but oh yeah that's everything the outlet does that no right yeah put in the wall little lightning cable and it's so huge though but I love it so I know I take them everywhere it's like it's more a part of me because I mean keeping my phones dead ghosting people getting condemned so I'm trying my best you know yeah I mean I feel like I

we hit everything I could have wanted to possibly hit like we fucking killed it okay one final question why'd you get rid of Jordan we shared him as a manager for like a month why don't we just ask I'll ask you a question

that I think we both have the same answer to and then I'll have a few fun questions are we owed money by him no comment on that no I have no comment

you both are just like not no no i'm kidding i mean we can't professionalism and a manager is beautiful who knows right and appropriate nature i mean look your new manager got you this whole thing he does everything for me and he's the most professional fucking dope icon i love him that's it it's really funny because everyone does ask me obviously i was with was with Jordan for six, seven fucking years. You know what I mean? And I wouldn't change over the world. I learned so much.

And it was a big part of my life. Hunter knows. He was there and whatever. But sometimes people outgrow one another. Sometimes you also, you know. I don't know. I grew up and I realized what I needed, I guess. And it was just a different relationship.

And I wish him the best. Because you're on the layout. Right, right, right. Okay, we're done. We're done. My lawyers all just came in and started yelling. And it was it was just a different relationship, and I wish him Came in and started yelling so I think with that being said that's Coming in yelling who and you are so inspiring in so many ways as well so many things we talked about across this episode I'm just so grateful to you for being here. Oh, thank you Anything I just like I need a letter promote anything get some Trish skin, get some stream of music. The $250,000 music video you want to get on Spotify

and stream that shit. Like 70,000 views. I spent so much money on it. Yeah, I don't know. You can find me on what? Only Gans? Yeah, Only Gans. Should we fuck?

Come on soon. I don't even know what Trish is. I love you so much. You need to do a sex tape. I do think that. Okay, I love you too. I know we're just talking. My sex tape's going to be with Trish.

Thank you so much for coming. I'm down. I need that clown. Give me that tape. I do think that. Okay, I love you too. I know we're just fucking. My sex tape's in a real Trish. Thank you so much for coming. I'm down. I need that clown. Give me that clown. Give me an offer. I'm in. Give me an offer. Oh my God.

I think we should end the day. This was everything I could have ever wanted. I'm experienced now. I know how to do lesbian sex on camera. It's different than lesbian sex in real life. Wait, really? Wait, the way I want to end this podcast, I know how I want to know.

I'm sorry. Oh my God. I actually want to know. Tell me all about that. What's the difference? You know what, guys? Fuck it. We're leaving. Only hands, yeah. Hopefully Trisha will come back. Yeah. Oh actually want to know. Tell me all about that. What's the difference? You know what, guys? Fuck it. We're leaving. Hopefully Trisha will come back. Yeah. Oh my god, yeah. I love you. This is going to be fun. I hope it airs.

Sorry, Ethan. Please, I need a job. Oh my god, please. Do we? Okay, I need to fuck off. Trisha, God bless you. Bye, guys. Stay canceled. An emoji is canceled.