Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 31: Brooke Finally Breaks The Silence On Her Ex-Boyfriend EP 31

Episode Date: April 21, 2023

Tana talks about completing 75 days of sobriety and expresses her fear of drinking again. They discus their plans for Coachella and how much money tana spent spent on the event in the past. The two talk about the lineup and their feelings about certain artists. Brooke mentions that she wants to try molly at the festival. Brooke shares her feelings towards her last relationship and leaving her toxic ex. Watch the podcast on YouTube: https://bit.ly/CancelledYouTube Don’t forget to subscribe to the podcast for free wherever you're listening or by using this link: https://bit.ly/CancelledWithTanaMongeau If you like the show, telling a friend about it would be helpful! You can text, email, Tweet, or send this link to a friend: https://bit.ly/CancelledWithTanaMongeau Follow Tana on IG: @tanamongeau Follow Brooke on IG: @brookeschofield Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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episode. I am too. I'm excited that you chose right now to drink for the first time. So today is day 75 of 75 hard and I am enthralled. am just I'm beside myself drink up oh I was gonna I was gonna do this whole speech about how like life has been so good and I feel like I found myself and you know that but now I just want to try I think it's been amazing I think that you have like really really grown into yourself 75 days of Yeah, we were just sitting here talking and I said dichotomy and you were asking me to explain it to you. And when I was...

She said it was the juxtaposition of good and bad, right? Or opposites. Good and bad is kind of wrong. Like it's just, it's more like yin and yang type of thing. Well, I told her I don't know what juxtaposition means. But I was saying that directly after this episode, I'm going to go back to just being being so stupid I feel like I've been so

smart and sharp for the past 75 days I'm eager to see if like if you're gonna be like an extreme drunk or if all of a sudden you're gonna be like really like I don't know why you would be composed but I know that's the thing I'm actually really scared to drink for the first time and like bring it back into my life because I felt so great But so bored you know Do you think that you'll carry this like do you think you'll Try to be sober more often or like try To drink less absolutely I think that bender wild

Tana has to be put to rest Because she's gonna put Herself to rest if she doesn't chill I think so Too we were talking about it on camera We were talking about it the other day And I was saying like well you could Just go out and like drink Two drinks but I do understand that it doesn't work

That way for some people I suggested she Get on like some Sort of antidepressant you're not even depressed But that makes it so you can't drink more than two drinks Really why I don't know I just get like so ill Like you feel sick when you're on antidepressant Like if I drink more than like three Drinks i will like be throwing up for three days straight is that

true is anyone else here on antidepressants i can drink so much on mine wait natalie walks in here a few minutes ago we go or tana goes should we have a glass of wine natalie goes i've had three she just came from work Are you scaring The shit out of me right now he's sleeping Sitting up with his eyes closed and it's like Actually a very scary thing we have a giant Live studio audience today we are joined with Amari Isabella Ashley Ty

Ari Natalie and Trevi and Oscar and Aaron It's making me nervous we have a mic over there if Anybody does want to chirp in or chime In just make it good because God, it'd be awful. You know, why did I look right at you, Ty, when I said that? I was kidding.

Ty's funny. I feel like he's going to have some good one-liners for us. Yeah. If you have anything good and you want to throw it in, guys, let us know. I think I exhausted all my jokes before you got up here. I was like testing things out and I could tell it was really funny because Ty was laughing at all. We have such an amazing set of topics today, though.

I like a lot has happened in the past week which I'm really excited to dive into I know that so basically today is day 75 of 75 hard and I've always planned to have a sip of a drink to celebrate on day 75 but now I'm sitting here and this glass of wine is in front of me this is crazy I feel nervous and I feel like it's a little sad. I'm like, rest in peace, like sober Tana. Obviously Coachella is coming up. I'm like, and I'm going to Vegas this weekend. You don't want that to be your first like major drinking episode though,

because that could make it bad for a lot of people. A lot of people will suffer. Jeff was telling me yesterday, like he was like, I just, he was like talking about how I'm going to be crazy at Coachella. And I was like, yeah, I really, I don't want to be like awful for you it is great sometimes i feel like coachella can be like it's really spread out so i almost feel like you know when you day drink and you drink all day long and you almost feel like you're just not even drunk anymore yeah but i she's like no yeah but the person i become at coachella last coachella i was dude like we've

been adding up the prices of things and last Coachella I was just like so drunk and like very much in a mindset of just like fuck it like we ball that's always kind of how I've done Coachella because I always get we ball like that's always how I've done Coachella because I want to go you know what I mean and I'm like oh my god I want to go let's do it and I like purposefully will be good for a couple months before and then no I'm gonna like ball out and this year I didn't really want to go it just ended up like happening for work and so i've been having page really like actually tell me how much how much things cost and like that is it is easy sometimes to just like okay like this and this and like like not realize how much you're spending but it is crazy

that's why i'm not going this year because i was like if there's not someone i actually not one person on the lineup i want to see Why am I spending So much money And you I know you spend Way more than I do I spent $50,000 On Las Coachella I don't even have $50,000

Which is so Fucking Fucked up I just That's insane That's really sad The teachers like Who listen to this podcast

Are like That's what I make in That's what I make in three years I know I don't deserve it though I'm so open about that I've always said You deserve it I mean

No like a stupid Vegas hooker Turned influencer Does not deserve to make the amount of money I make You're not stupid But if I'm gonna say that I should like give to charity So maybe I'll do that later Okay we'll do that after this

Anyway have a sip Do I drink? Yes Cheers Should we like Should we establish something Before like Should we get into it

You know what Natalie Just told me I think I have to do it Natalie just told me That she already emailed The brand of wine We're drinking To tell them that

We could give them An exclusive For this episode Natalie that's so lit Yeah but I said Now's the time to say We'll keep it out If you don't

Me forgetting about Dizzy Wait Oh I said her second name Her next to Dizzy No wait that's so oh my god This is insane this is insane Okay what are we no no what are we cheersing to No I'm just smelling it oh well I want to Okay you go ahead smell it Let me know when you're done I'm so scared

Cheers to cancelled podcast Launching worldwide and hopefully For the next couple years Tonight at midnight Yay I'm so excited but also cheers to 75 days of sobriety I'm actually very proud of you And you are amazing and your reputation Has shown for it

Are y'all ready for awful me Like No like literally no Like Chris Miles if you're watching this like shut your phone off you know i forgot what wow oh no get it in there Oh god I'm kidding Dude we were just Downstairs and I FaceTimed Hunter

And I was like It's day 75 And Hunter flips The camera And just puts on The I hate people I love them Video on his TV

As a reminder Amari just made a joke Like what if She just already Started downstairs And she came upstairs And was like I hate people

Absolutely What if I told you guys Right now I was just drinking the whole time No y'all would know unfortunately that's one thing about me is I just can't hide it Like hats off to the people but that I honestly will say that that sometimes is a blessing because I'm a little different now but I feel like I used to be where you couldn't tell where I was drunk And I would be saying things I shouldn't say, but in like the same way, yeah. And it would get me in trouble.

Paige is like that. She could take like 30 shots and be like, I'm blacked out, but she's like perfectly fine. Yeah. And that's how you get yourself in trouble. Cause people will be like, you were sober and you said this.

I was not there for me. Like the mind stays before the slur. Like that's like, I'm going to start starting right now from that one sip. I think I am. You are a major slur Like that's like I'm gonna start slurring right now From that one sip I think I am You are a major slurrer But I've noticed

I started slurring recently Really? I'm a new slurrer Really? Yeah I like it I think it's quirky Anyway tell me what you've got

On our list of topics I have such a fucking Fantabulous list of topics I just remembered that You and i are in a fight you and i are in a fight yes but like a fight like a like you saved it for the podcast that's how i i can test the severity of how fighty the fight is because if you save it for the podcast like i'm in the clear you know why am i like trembling okay you guys i was tagged in a video the other day one of those videos where it's like you know like those celeb face accounts where it's like it shows the before and after of editing.

I was tagged in a photo and it was a photo of you and I. Okay. It shows like the before editing and after. Uh-huh. And you edited both of us. Bless your heart. You made my waist a little smaller. She made my tits smaller.

Wait, what? Show me the pic. I literally, the only thing that changes that you, you brought my waist in a bit. Do you think I was? My tits smaller Wait what Show me the pic I literally The only thing that changes You brought my waist in a bit But then made my tits Like way smaller I was like

I would never And have never And I put this Should we see if it was Paige Paige Wait show I have never And would never do that to you

Was I refining myself And your tits got caught In the aftermath No it was like Someone went in Blurred my cleavage Made them smaller I would never do that to you.

And I promise that. I want more likes. OK, that's fair. But I was just wondering if you had it out for me or not. I don't have it out for you. But this is the funniest thing ever. And it looks like I do. But I'm actually like not.

I really didn't do that. I don't know. I can't remember who sent it to me. Are you making this up? I would never make such a thing up. That's why she's getting the boob job. Yeah, Brooke, this is a perfect segue. You know what?

This is what did it to me. I saw this photo that you edited of me, and I thought my boobs should be bigger, so I scheduled my boob job. I can't believe you're getting a boob job. Okay, I'm not getting a boob job. Oh. Paige.

Paige. Watch my boobs get smaller. Or a fan account Like Tana Spendy Sorry Tana Spendy Girl these are on your feed Yeah but like from her I would never make your boobs smaller

And I mean that One sec Honestly that whole That whole segment Was worth her just saying that Anyway But speaking of You're getting a boob job

I don't know That I're getting a boob job. I don't know that I'm getting a boob job. Originally, here's the situation. You have the biggest, nicest tits. That's not true anymore. And there's, listen. Like, I'm wearing a mattress firm right now. You could shoot me in the tit and it would be like a bulletproof vest with how much is really going on in here.

Safety first. But I just don't. I mean, you know, I'm 26 years old approaching 27. OK. And they just don't hang like they used to. Gravity is kicking in. There's like a little bit of a stretch mark situation. They're like going right left.

If I lay down, one of them touches each side of the bed. It's crazy. I really want you to lay down right now and show us. I sent you guys a picture in the group chat. Did you? But I a trip i went to hawaii with a couple friends of mine and this girl was there and she had a similar situation where she like lost weight and her boobs just went down to her knees yeah that's kind of what happened to me and she just you know she filled him up a bit and she looks amazing and so i breast implants scare me like i would get any plastic surgery because i know like a lot of people have like the breast implant illness or whatever.

And it's like really. No, it's actually it's really common. A lot of people get it. Actually, don't you? Like what? I'm always dying. You want to talk about it at all? I'd rather have tits than be depressed than just be depressed with no tits.

That is a really good point. She said she would rather have Have tits and be depressed Than be depressed with no tits That's very fair So I don't know It's still a thought I haven't like scheduled it or anything

I just wish They still looked like they did Two years ago I am down to have a month Where we post on social media On our Instagram stories And we're like Taking a break from the world

Like really just like Want to meditate And like zen And like find God But we instead just get like Crazy BBLs And then we go to Korea And we go to the id hospital and i come back with like a new forehead like i want to go rogue on plastic surgery i think they would know yeah but i'll

just be like i'm just so woke now like just like not even that's what all these other bitches do i feel like i would have to tell the truth yeah that is like an important thing in life you know what i mean yeah that's really fair the other night we went to a Mod Sun concert. And backstage you were telling a story that was really, really, really funny. That I really, before we get into the Mod Sun concert of it all, because I'm sure I'm not going to get off scot-free. Yeah, and this is when we were at a Mod Sun concert. Let me just let that sink in, guys.

That was so fun, by the way. Like I was actually, like I had an amazing, amazing time. You know, I was so fun by the way Like I was actually Like I had an amazing Amazing time You know I was so So nervous to go I hadn't like Seen Mod Sun In like three years

Yeah And Listen I want you guys back together That's my personal opinion I don't know What the audience thinks But I don't know

I feel like sober Tana Sober Mod Sun Well You know Tyga and Avril are off somewhere Doing something I don't know What they're talking about But I had a great time Sober Tana, Sober Mod Sun. Wow. You know, Tyga and Avril are off somewhere doing something. I don't know what they're talking about. But I had a great time at the show.

But backstage, you were talking about something that sent your bank account balance under. Fuck. Dude. Okay. So I'm not the most financially responsible person in the world. Natalie can attest. I feel like the second i do a brand deal i have the money yeah okay and i don't you don't yeah a lot of brand deals that you do it's like net 90 net sometimes sometimes it's 30 days sometimes it's is that a litter box nope sometimes it's 30 days sometimes it's sometimes it's 30 days sometimes

it's 60 sometimes it's 90 and so I'll think I have all this money and I spend it like I have it because I know it's coming yeah but then inevitably like every couple months I'll text Natalie and I'll say is anyone gonna pay me like I don't have any money left yeah and she'll be like what was something seriously wrong with you but I realized I really had a problem the other day when my account balance went below zero. Okay. If it was just like a purchase of mine, it would be one thing. But what set you over?

I was afraid to even check. I went in to my little Bank of America app and I'm like, what did it? You know, what pushed me over? Netflix maybe. It was a little girl I'm sponsoring in the Philippines for $30 a month. What? Like, out of the goodness of my heart, I started sponsoring this little girl. It's only a dollar a day.

I'm crying. but i need a sponsor so like what she didn't eat this month she ate but I couldn't wait I'm seriously crying her name is Marianne she's 45 pounds and I literally I'm not did you just say goals

no fucking way so Marianne had prime rib prime rib oh my god oh my god oh my god anyway i'm working on my spending habits listen better her than me okay i wasn't spending it wisely hopefully she is in the last episode we were kind of just talking about my love life and how i was like

you know being a little too close with my fuck buddy and whatever and then i was telling you how i went on a date with a different guy like right before that are you still do you still feel that way about this fuck buddy or are you we'll get into that we'll get into that but um right after we stopped filming the last episode my fuck buddy sent me a selfie with the guy that I went on a date with and they were together and like hanging out and like talking about see that shouldn't have to happen in one of the biggest cities in the world you know what I mean I think that's an us problem Like I think we are doing something wrong For sure I'm for sure in my whore era

Okay Like And by whore I mean single By whore I just mean single Yeah I kind of feel that way too I'm like having fun I'm finally back dating again And like

Mentally like okay So I'm That's how I feel Like I'm just having fun I'm dating and I'm having a good time you know what I mean I do agree but I just want to make sure we could eventually get back to you going to a mod son show I said I'm having I'm having a good time okay what kind of good time exactly like a good nostalgic time back together It is nostalgic Like I

I kept saying this The other night Because we obviously Before the show Were spending a lot of time With like Maude's friends Who I like love And

His sister And like everyone And I hadn't seen them I was Telling Maude this I was like I've never had a breakup With someone

That was clean Other than you I love a little Chit chat with my exes Post breakup I love a little Reduce, reuse, recycle Run it back you I love a little chit chat with my ex's Post breakup I love a little reduce Reuse recycle run it back turbo I love a little

Moment like that you know what I mean And Maude is the only person I've ever dated Where it was like we broke up and we blocked Each other and by blocked each other I mean he Blocked me and We listen I get it we Never talked again you know So it is nostalgic and I kept saying that

the other night that I felt like we just like transported back to like 2019 in a good way well that's what's good about a clean break I almost feel like you guys can just pick up right where you left off there wasn't all this like messy well yeah yeah except for the songs and the videos yeah oh oh and his engagement to someone else you're so right but he's i i just feel like he's such a good guy for you why because i don't know he's my only mate or like the only boyfriend i've seen you have where i'm like wow this guy like might make her better like he's like he's sober he's really nice he loves like he's so good to all your friends he's just like a good guy he is a good guy i know that any of your other exes weren't, but like some of them had some like, you know, deficiencies.

For sure. I mean, yeah, I'm really happy we went to the show. I wouldn't hate to see you guys reunite. Obviously, you know, that's going to be ultimately up to you. Did he sleep over last night? Why would he? I have no idea why you'd ask that speaking of your exes jake paul has a new girlfriend and she looks exactly the same as josie conseco i guess that would mean the paul

brothers have similar taste in some regard right yeah i actually like hot take here um i really kind of ship it like i think as much as i can think so too, because they're, I mean, she's an athlete. Like, really an athlete. And I think that's really cool. Like, to see him not with, like, an IG baddie, not with someone in the influencer. She is an IG baddie, but she is also an athlete. Yeah, and not someone in the influencer space.

I think he's an athlete now, and I think it's, like, I think it's dope. You know what I mean? I don't know. I think with his last ex-girlfriend, it was hard for me to be more like Peaceful about it because there was a time where I felt like there was a bit of crossover and

Back and forth with her and I So it was like I would see that and kind of just be like You know what I mean I get that I have a major Issue or like I Think it's it hurts more to see your ex move On with somebody who like is in any way similar To you or like She's not but like does the same thing like you know you know what i mean like i would rather

then move on with somebody who's so opposite for me so i can be like oh my god i never wasn't their type i will never be an olympic skater you know and i can sleep you will not but we we did get skates i got us skates you got us rollerblades well they were gifted but they were gifted by my soulmate's best friend they were and which is just like that's why he's my soulmate like why would you let your best friend give me roller skates you know that is that is major boyfriend stuff i have a lot of random shit if you're ready to get into like red you're ready to get into random shit absolutely i actually want some off-camera opinions on this as well. Paige has a theory that has been altering the way I sleep at night. Do you want to, do you want to, you don't want to come on like this, do you?

No, that's not fair. I love like this. That was a low blow. Oh my God. And the way she assumed, she said, you don't want to come on like this. Well, if this bitch doesn't have like a smoky wing and a blazer on, she's not coming on anybody's podcast. You know what I mean?

Paige has this theory that all men cheat, that all men would cheat. There's not a man out there in the world that wouldn't cheat if they were. And her theory, she attests this theory that if Any man any boyfriend in the world is Locked in a room with Margot Robbie he's Cheating I'm letting him cheat then but I Think I do oh well of course she's Saying if he makes a move on him every Single man ever is folding every time

And Margot Robbie can be replaced Obviously with his number one Celebrity crush yeah so I think I do Like I don't want to agree because I Like I want to believe in like true love And like whatever but I I think Specifically like right now like with Social media and everything like in

Recent years now it's almost like it Feels impossible like maybe back in the day when there wasn't as much opportunity like you couldn't just like access as many people as you can now and like you can't sneak around and sneaky dm somebody i will say i have like i feel like i've been in well a one singular relationship but in that whole time i couldn't have even thought about it because it's like i'm so obsessive that i'm like i can't i don't think about anyone else but i don't know i don't know i would like i'm cheating but we all knew that yeah i have like a that's like a major conflict of interest in like our friendship because i'm so i am so against cheating and you're just like

a cheater wait i thought i thought you just said pick me choose me love me i thought you just said that she just said that i have been loyal and i've been loyal in a few relationships in my life i'm loyal to you i was loyal for a cheater but then when i said it i'm a pick me if you were like oh my god i look fat today and i was like yeah you look fat today would you be like that's, my God. I know you would never cheat. Like, literally, I know you wouldn't. I'm kidding for the most part. I've been in several relationships where I haven't cheated. I believe that about you.

I didn't cheat on Maudson. I didn't cheat on Brad Sousa. You should have. And I should have. And that's really what I learned. You literally should have. I will say I've only ever cheated on someone if they were like super emotionally abusive or like awful yeah because i have a problem with breaking up with people like if i break up with someone

and they're like no i'm like okay so but then i'm like okay okay yeah um yeah which is not good and i have grown from and i don't think i'll ever do it again i would like to think there are people out there that won't cheat like i'm hopeful about it because if i get cheated on again honestly in life i think i will probably die but i'm not opposed to getting like a divorce like if someone cheats on me i'll get a divorce and i'll get married again that's fair would you get married multiple times i think i will get married multiple times i don't think there's like no i actually don't think there's that's on my list of things Get married multiple times I don't think There's like no I actually don't think There's I that's on my list of things to Ask you about I don't think that's like

Shameful really like especially today I Love like Pamela Anderson I love that I Think she's what she I think she's the Blueprint well I've always said this but It wasn't until I was at her premiere Recently and watching her documentary That I had like an out-of-body moment Where she was like,

I think life is just about love and just like try it. And just like if it doesn't work, like just keep getting married and married and married. And I was like, whoa, I did love that because she didn't get like give up on it. And she was still hopeful each time, whereas like a lot of people would be like, I give up. I hate that. And that's how I am. Like, I think I would get married.

And as long as it was good, it was good. And I would do my best to fight for it. But if it doesn't work, then it doesn't work. And then I'm not I I don't think I would get married And as long as it was good it was good and I would do My best to fight for it but if it doesn't work then It doesn't work and then I'm not I I don't think I get discouraged like I've Been cheated on I've been in such toxic relationships I've been like but I love love So much and I feel like I'm the type of person

That is very hyper aware of The fact that every person is very Different is completely different I agree with like And obviously trust issues are a thing And I have those but I still think I Can go into everything new whether It's friendship or. I agree with like and obviously trust issues are a thing and I have those but I still think I can go into everything new whether it's friendship or anything like that with pretty open arms and recognition that each person is different. I feel I agree with that.

Like I assume the like or like I just assume everyone's going to be good until they show me that are bad. Exactly. Like I don't I don't go into a relationship thinking like oh he's going to be just like the last guy Yeah I probably should Yeah

They're all the same No one's gonna be like Your last guy Speaking of that Something happened Something did happen Oh my god So this past week

So I went on the Zach Sang show Yes you did And I fucking love Zach Sang But Amari doesn't Zach Sang's on my shit list right now

And When I say that I'm not even talking personally Like he is one of the few Like interviewers That I looked up to for a long time Like the first time I ever went on his show I definitely felt very like

Undeserving Of being on his show He's a legend He's like He really is like a legend At like what he does he's like the best Interviewer he's amazing getting the opportunity To go on his show never doesn't feel

Out of the ordinary and very exciting And I'm very grateful to go on it because it's like who'd you Have before me Ariana Grande like I don't yeah Necessarily it feels Like a big deal yes exactly Thank you the drinking I'm already Dumber no You're not no for sure like no you're

Just like when I was just saying all Those things about like marriage and Whatever like the two last brain cells I Have are like fighting I can feel it It's kind of scary so he invited me on a Show the other day and I go over there And I'm so excited and I sit down and I Feel like when I go on shows like that

Also versus like maybe an influencers podcast or something like that, I become a little less reserved because I know that if I'm going to talk about something that people really want to know about or if I'm going to talk about something that's a hot and heavy topic or if I something I would want press around even or just anything in general. I'd rather do it there than anywhere else. Yeah. So and I kind of feel like Zach knows that like he knows me pretty well and we're pretty good like friends off camera. So I feel like he knows how much I love him and I'm excited to come on his show. So I feel like he knows he can ask me anything and I'll like just give him my honest, honest answer. Like so I sit down and we're

talking about nice things like sobriety and um you know life and cannabis and canceled and all that type of stuff but then he kind of looks at me and he asks my opinion on being friends with David Dobrik while I'm friends with Jeff and normally when people answer that I will give a pretty PR trained answer I've talked about it a lot with Jeff on his podcast but I don't just need to be going around on every podcast like making that my thing because it's not really like that's Jeff's journey and you know what I mean like I'll touch on it but it's like I don't really need to give my like full fledged opinion but I was like listen if you're asking this right now I'm gonna answer it here over anywhere else so I kind of give my

Answer and how I feel and whatever and Then I think you gave a really good I Mean you did a really good job I just Gave my honest answer or like Disrespectful to anybody and I think That you like yeah handled it well I am But I do it from as a viewer anyway I Felt like it was kind of trying to stir

Up like a controversy or like be Problematic yeah and obviously I was Kind of dodging stir up like a controversy or like be problematic yeah and obviously I was kind of dodging that and giving my best possible answers but I feel like after he saw me kind of openly answer the David question like with full force he felt comfortable enough to kind of fucking like be able to ask me anything um I I don't even necessarily think it's because you answered it like that I think he um he went into that interview knowing exactly what he was gonna ask you and like how he was gonna make the interview I mean that's why he's so good at what he does is he makes the

interviews viral and he asks all the like hard-hitting questions which is great yeah until it's at the expense of somebody else of course yeah and I didn't really know that was going to happen And I also go into interviews like that Kind of knowing like things might not be cut Like I kind of have to just answer With my best possible answer Because a friend who's an influencer as a podcast Might be a little more lenient in allowing me to make edits

Whereas a big established show This is a little more like a traditional media You kind of know what you're signing up for Sitting down on a more traditional media show That they kind of have full jurisdiction on If they wanted to literally use you saying I can't answer that Like you know what I mean

So I felt like it opened a door for him to ask me About my opinion on your previous relationship Yes And we've talked about it a lot off camera Obviously Zach and I Zach was a big pivotal point in you guys even getting together and your breakup. Yeah, he had a lot to do with like our like the beginning of our relationship because he was very, very close with my ex. And then I was like close to Zach.

We had like very close friends and we would all hang out together. So that's he was like one of the first ones who was like you need to date this guy like he's amazing and so he was like i mean he was very much also a part of our relationship you know we would like if we went out to dinner we would go with them and like yeah he was very involved in the whole thing yeah and so or god and then he was very involved after the breakup also like very um i mean of of course, I would talk to him about it because it was like a very specific situation. If you didn't see the Zach Singh episode. I basically just he directly asked me about how I feel about the situation of Clinton Kane's parents allegedly being still alive and Clinton placating that that placating the opposite of that online yeah so obviously that's like a big part of his narrative my ex says or all his music is about his family being

dead and they are allegedly alive and I I feel very strongly about this and I think that's maybe why Zach was like oh I'm gonna ask Tana because he knows off camera Like nothing has ever made me sicker In like the Hollywood space Story than that I think Um first of all I I mean I'm not mad at you Obviously I think you spoke about

It like very well and you spoke About it with me in mind which I appreciated I'm I don't feel necessarily the same About like the Zach situation just because he I have been very adamant about like not wanting to talk about that online like at all okay if i if i wanted to talk about it it would be a big story i could talk about it here on canceled i would have come on here the first episode and just laid it all out yeah that's a good story yeah it's a true story and it's a good story netflix even i just love that joke and if i wanted to do it i was going to do it and a good story netflix even i just love that joke and if i

wanted to do it i was going to do it and i feel like i've been i've gone back and forth like there's been moments where i'm like i i'm i'm fully saying that online yeah and that's i get so like fired up and upset about like everything that happened in the lying and like manipulation and stuff and i get like like high on it and i'm like oh I'll say it online but at the same time it's like it was such a traumatic situation and I was so sad about it that I was like I don't want to talk about it online and ultimately I decided like if I'm gonna go up and down about it so much I'm never gonna say anything publicly about it myself because yeah and that's why I tried to speak as much as I could from my own personal thoughts on it yeah and not yours I never want

to speak for someone I loved the way you spoke about honestly like I felt like you did a really good job and I mean that question was a bullet point on a piece of paper to ask you that day and I that's what I don't appreciate is like I wasn't there yeah and I understand I wasn't there and it drags me into it when when Zach particularly knows I wanted nothing to do with like carrying out like that story yeah telling that story I wanted nothing to do with that yeah and it was not only told but told with my name attached to it attached to it and like it as my relationship story and I wasn't there to speak for myself I don't appreciate that at all however I will say I feel like relieved about it for sure like I don't want to ruin anyone's reputation I don't

care like what they did to me I wouldn't do it to you I wouldn't do it to anyone in here like well it's a fucked weight to carry I think to know that and know that people don't know that you know what I mean and even I found myself like feeling that way I referenced it on Zach saying but even like seeing Alex Warren like feel some type of way it affected a lot you know how it affected me God and everyone knows how it affected me specifically Zach knows how it affected me everyone knew and like everyone here can attest like it was a really traumatic and like horrible situation yeah so like obviously i'm i'm better now and like i feel okay now and like i i have to talk about it now because it's like otherwise the only narrative that's out there i have nothing to do with yeah but i just i think it was slimy the way that it came about for sure

and you obviously have your truth and your side to that story and that is completely on you if and when you wanted to tell that you know Yeah there are like elements to that Obviously that I'm never gonna say Like at all Yeah But what I was trying to say before Is like I do feel like Some sense of relief

Just that like I'm like okay Okay Well the truth always wins You know That was so much of it Like of course I was really really sad About the breakup

Like as anyone would be In a breakup But like I couldn't say anything online about like what happened I said I said he cheated on me yeah and that's like that's a hard enough thing to deal with and then yeah but it's like the way that I reacted to that breakup and how much it affected me did not match he cheated on me you know what I mean and like there was it was this huge like extreme like lie situation that was like so much bigger than that. And like I couldn't talk about it.

So now I feel a little bit better that I can be like, OK, this is why it was so crazy. Yeah. And I think that all Zach should decide. We both kind of knew that at some point it was going to come out. And at some point you and I would have this conversation. Truthfully, Ifully I wanted almost Not that I never wanted it to come out In my perfect world I wanted no one to ever know about it

I don't know why I feel that responsibility To like protect him or like Salvage his reputation but I do It happens when you love someone But if somebody were to talk about it I truthfully I wanted it to be Zach Because I was like he He was really close to the situation and he's somebody

who loved clinton so like that mattered to me because it was like that affected how i felt about the situation yeah it's easy as an outsider to be like he's fucking insane that's crazy like he's horrible yeah but like somebody who knows him it's like different sorry now i'm gonna sad oh i love you don't be sad you could be Marianne I can't afford Marianne I love you Natalie taking

up the star bro branding while you're crying sorry but no I'm glad like I wanted it to be him i just think um it just like i just didn't want to be attached to it at all and so it sucks that like he chose your episode my best friend in front of him it felt like yeah just slimy i agree i actually i fully agree and i would say that to zach's face and i would say that now and even after i left i called you and i told you what happened you guys don't know so i don't want to seem like you have any responsibility in it at all because

like tana called me right after it happened she was like just so you know like this is what was said and zach is a good friend of mine like and so i like she told me she was like it's pretty bad like just warning you and like she told me she's like i i weighed in on it and i gave my honest opinion whatever and so i separately reached out to zach and I was like, hey, like, I don't appreciate that being your choice. Like bringing it up with you. I agree. Because it's totally within his right to tell that story. That was his best friend.

Like Clinton was one of his best friends. And Clinton went on a show. And he lied to all of us. Like, yeah, it was so Zach was completely Within his right To talk about that It affected him directly And it Like his show

Was the way I found out That's the way Everybody found out Yeah But Choosing your episode Was Didn't leave a good taste

In your mouth Made it about me And at that time I didn't even know How about me it was You know what I mean Yeah And then

He told me he cut it And then it came out anyway He didn't tell me so Zach's encounter Motherfucking days no I mean like Listen whatever like Again I thought I should feel no responsibility To protect anybody's like Reputation it's yeah it's stupid

But but I've been there And I understand that Zach himself didn't Ever respond to me I Relayed the message to somebody He cut it and I Understand that Zach himself didn't ever Respond to me I he Relayed the message to somebody that he cut it And I was sleeping fine at night thinking like Okay like I can live another day without having To worry about this story like yeah And from the beginning you and I've kind of

Had a conversation about how I always will say to you I don't think that You should feel a guilt Or a weight on your shoulders To protect Something that is so awful and don't think that you should feel a guilt or a weight on your shoulders to protect something that is so awful and could potentially inevitably come out I know but I understand I know that I shouldn't but the way like what I know is so different than like what I feel if it were any of you guys like if it were you like it doesn't matter what you did to me like if you did the

worst possible thing to me in the world it's not like i would still never want something to come out that could ruin your whole like career yeah like and i still loved him i had a good relationship with him like he was he was a good boyfriend which made it was so much that's what was so horrible about it like and it it is scary that someone can be such a dichotomy of two things Of two things Where they can be such An amazing person In one light And then you find out These awful things

Yeah And I also understand Completely what it's like To love someone so much That you're wearing These rose colored lenses Of I know how awful It is what they're doing

But I love them so much That I still want to Protect them at all costs Yeah and just any person Like any emotionally Abusive relationship Or like toxic relationship I mean you've been in

We like once you've been in it You can speak on it and understand it But if you haven't like It's easy to just be like Yeah well any situation Like that too like if you can step out Of it with an untainted mind you could Say cut and dry and black and white

This is what I would do and this is how this Should go but then when your emotions become so involved It creates Like a fucked up mess and that's why That's why I've always felt so passionate about it Because I can't see it from an outsider perspective And my thoughts are how can you do this to My best friend and how can you do this to

Well you guys are all so good about it listen At any point Someone could have made a video it would have been a viral video. I thought it was going to be Lila. I thought it was going to be Lila. I thought it was going to be Lila. Tana offered me, like, so much money for it. I offered her so much money to let me.

But here's what I'm going to say. Not, I don't think I'd profit a dollar if I made something about that. When I was saying that, I meant that in the regard that, like, I truly, and I still do, feel so passionately about airing that out as hard as I possibly can. And that's why, you know, it was so hard for me even on Zach to not go in on how I feel. Because, you know, I can look at it without having been in love with this person and be like, fuck you. That's the thing. I think that's the point I was trying to make before.

It's like, if I were an outsider and this were happening to you yeah for example I would be like run for the hills what are you talking about he is insane like whatever but yeah but love comes in the mix and yeah and it was there was so many like yeah there's so many factors to it that like I mean I'll never explain I never plan on talking about it at all to begin with but it just sucks now because there's this whole story like I'm getting tagged in these tiktoks all day people are messaging me like why are you still talking to him and stuff and i'm like it just like it just the whole situation like sucks yeah but but i think you're gonna end up being with someone really amazing and i think you're gonna have a great relationship and move on completely and i think so too and honestly i've been doing

good i think that's why it bothers me so much is like I've been doing I've Been really doing good honestly and Honestly ever obviously I think every Person after that is an upgrade but I Think you've been really taking it there With your potential suitors yeah and Listen no shade to Zach saying I love Zach saying I think he's amazing but no

I'm serious I well I feel Like I just really went in on him like I didn't mean For it to be like that I just I hate I hate that I have to talk about something I didn't Want to talk about I hate that The way I wanted the wine Oh no I thought look It I thought she was doing this

You can't have the wine I don't even need the wine I think now that it's out there it's good that you said how you feel about the situation. And this is my special request for the people. It's not going to help me or make me better if you make if you bully him or me. Yeah. I think no one is bullying you because How could you and I hope that in The future moving forward you can know that

Anything that does come To this person is not a situation you Created in you were Dragged into you know But it doesn't make it any easier And this is Your hot crier I look like fucking Jabba the Hutt when I don't mean to be like

A baby You're bitch It's your hot crier. I look like fucking Jabba the Hutt when I cry. I don't mean to be like a baby. Bitch. I just hope you know, like on a complete side note, if this ever happened to me, like I always say, oh, I'd fuck his dad. Oh, I'd fuck his brother. Oh, I'd whatever. It was crazy. It was pretty crazy.

But I'm glad now because I feel like I looked really crazy for a long time. Everyone was like, girl, like, are you good online? And I was not good. And that's I think that that as well. Well, hold on. You look hot. I know this is going to end up in a photo dump. You're going to be like, yes way.

That as well from a best friend perspective. I never thought you looked crazy online because if someone cheated on me, like, you know how I acted even when Brad cheated on me. Cheating was the least of my worries. I literally didn't even care about that. But there's a part there's a part of you that with your best friend you're like you know what i mean i wanted to be like yo like this is why she feels you know what i mean um that's always gonna be a thing it's fine now we're chilling things are good now i mean but it it's a heavy situation you know was really heavy. And honest to God, some good stuff came out of it.

I'm not sure what yet, but probably something. I'm like, Marion is getting sponsored. Marion. Marion. Isabella, thank you Your foundation matches So are Honestly your foundation matches Like when I cry like that

It's like I don't tan my face So my skin underneath here Is like three sheets A second ago I just told you I thought Lila was going to be The one to break it Would you like to hear something funny

That Lila did That I caught her in today to lighten up your mood? Maybe I would love that. Um, who could help me tell this? Sorry guys. That was like really drama.

Brooke, don't apologize. I think that it's like, I just appreciate I appreciate what's real as is no matter What I would rather someone be completely real And completely honest about whatever it is whether it's funny Real or it's real real and I think that we

Had to address that today you said downstairs you were like I talking about this in front of a live studio Audience like might be a fucking Thing but we all because I knew I was gonna Stop because I always do but honestly At the same time like we all were there for you and around you and in the group chat when this situation was happening and we all feel the same way so yeah you know we're all here for you and i am like that's the problem

lila would she do texted, don't cry. I love you. I think you should leave the tear. It's camp. I'm stunning. Lila texted the group chat. And I don't know if you saw this text a couple weeks ago. And she goes, I'm so happy.

Trevi, come here. Yeah, come. Come here. Come here and tell this story. I think Trevi will just do it so much more justice than me.'re at um dinner at harriet and it's what is it trans day of visibility you know marsha molinari h wood group the whole nine the dolls are dolling and lila talks in the group chat she goes omfg omfg i like submitted everything to warren lentz a few months ago i finally got verified and i think like a few people sent in the chat they're like whoa congrats because like they're you know how she was verified before and like got deleted

oh i i thought she was verified what so she isn't she was never her new account well her like what seventh new account oh i think a few people were like wow congrats like that's really cool like she just like really see and the thing about lila is that i feel like she once she says the lie it's the truth no she believes it every time it's the truth and so do we we eat it up every damn time i've done it i was so hard that i believe myself no wait not a good not a good yeah and lila if you're watching this i'm so sorry but like it's just too good um my new favorite thing is like whenever i do something bad, I'm like, I look at her and I go like, you wouldn't do this to me. It's so gaslight.

So like I didn't see her take her purse and pull out a debit card and go click on meta verified purchase. You're kidding. I watched her type in the numbers. No, no, no. I had to put a flashlight on my phone to help her take a picture of her ID, front and back. To get meta-verified. To get meta-verified. And then five minutes later.

So we can all congratulate her on being verified. And she, you know, it's just like I said said it is the truth like once five it only took like five minutes it was like a hop skip and a jump and there was a blue check yeah and she just she just looked at it she just like she got like a little emotional i was like babe that's fully like that mastercard did that like that was 7.99 yeah like you you paid for that by eating dara's world's pussy

do you know what i mean like that's not wait so so you can just pay 12 right now and get 15 oh i saw it lord. I'm like, Marianne knows I can not afford that. Seriously. Um, but anyway, so then it just happened. And then she was just like,

she texted, she's like, she's like, how do I make them think? She's like, how do I think, how do I make them think that like I got verified? Like naturally.

Wait, but why would we be impressed by that? I just learned this. I still believe the initials. Well, I mean, and it's so funny too because like warren lens for those who don't know warren lens is gonna send me a cease and desist but warren lens is a guy that works in this industry and he's managed creators and he's an amazing guy he just texted me the other day i'm going to church is there anything you need me to

pray for like that's the type of guy warren lens is like he's out he's out here first of all receiving that text a little backhanded like you're on your way to church and you're like hey tana mojo is there anything you need me to pray for i'm like yeah day 76 bitch but um and all of my best friends were going to be around for that but um he's just an amazing guy who works really hard and is very honest and like established in this industry to like throw him in on that to be like you're more and less and so specific like this is exactly where i did a few months ago he told me it would happen like right around this time i would get him i would get so embarrassed if i got verified right now and i think she honestly yeah because it has the little, but like her, I think she

like ran and like, you know, Lila, please kill me if I'm wrong. But like her being like, this is like insane. Like it's on Trans Day of Visibility. You know what I mean? I'm just sitting there like, you know, with my red ball. Wait, but have you ever? In a dream, if you will. With my red ball

in a dream. And watching him just down Marsha Molinari's tab. Sunny vodka, like the whole nine. Oh, no. That's kind of,

that's like, it's spiritual. It's an amplified version of, have you ever told a story? I know this is happening to you. Have you ever like, told a really exaggerated version of a story

accidentally in front of somebody who was there um i don't know she does that to the internet wait wait but what was the question i'll take it as far as like gaslighting the person who was there into like so like oh you don't remember that yeah i've had well i've had that happen where she'll tell a story and i'm like i'm like jay-z was not there like drake was not there or like and the words like he said that verbatim well i did not say that at all wait am i is there a group chat i'm not in this no this was in this this was in roach google trans day visibility scroll up no that's all right it is i it is absolutely in the group chat and you know honestly i can never

really talk about someone being dramatic or fabricating a story normally because i you know i'm drunk. I run. Yeah. You know, I'm president of that company usually. You just embellish a little bit for the fun of it all. And there's nothing wrong with that. And I'm just a very dramatic person. I sincerely will believe something like happened that way.

And it's like, which is just insane. I'm so drama. Lila, like if I'm the CEO, if I'm the CEO, Lila's the CEO. Can I please answer that? Can you hand your phone to Trevi? Mine. It's a picture of me and Paul McCartney. I want to ask her how she got verified on the mic. Oh my god. Wait. Honestly, can I...

No, like, congrats. We were just talking about it. Congrats. Put your phone like this. She declined. I know she... Like, that's... To call somebody and then not answer when we call right back why are you ignoring me loud just yell it wait lila i heard you got verified lila i hope you fucking choke and i hope you lose your blue check mark

can you believe you're the most sober one in the group maybe trippy wait what Lila, I hope you fucking choke and I hope you lose your blue checkmark. Can you believe you're the most sober one in the group? Maybe Trevi. Wait, what? What's the actual fuck? The second. You know, there's like a thing in sobriety where they're like, well, this is like very AA, but they're like, yeah, you might not drink, but you still act drunk. Really? What do you mean?

Like someone who's like no like um with your relationships like you still act like an alcoholic even though you don't drink like manipulative lying cheating those are alcohol those are all pre-existing symptoms yeah in my friend over here thank you trevi for coming in Okay Let's We're gonna do some Pop culture topics Get the tear gone Like hit a one

I can't It's just a part of me now I actually have amazing Pop culture topics for us today Okay This news that I'm about to Discuss for us to talk about today Came out maybe an hour ago

Oh And that's why we're gonna Take a break After this episode for anybody watching Right now too who is a little frustrated With the delay on these episodes we're Gonna get a little better with shooting More current because it actually

Frustrated me to the core downstairs Knowing that we are like talking about This within the hour and someone will Break it before us like yeah BFFs like Their turnaround time is like Before you even film the episode like I'm trying to get like do more over here Discussing this one okay yeah Kylie

Jenner and Timothee Chalamet wait what I Believe it but like I feel like Kylie's Like a like a and we air this TikTok. Just such a woman. Basically someone sent in to Dumois that Timothy and Kylie are dating and then all these people were saying making confirm it. What I will

say is I love that for her. I feel like it's like a good reset for everybody in her position to get like a good reset for everybody in Her position to get like a really Malnourished looking like little twinkie Looking I never thought Kylie would be Into the like dying men I could see it From her if you think about it oh that's

Look at her all her sisters just oh like Kim went to pee actually that's it Courtney to Travis went to Travis yeah Stassi and Jaden you know what that's it Courtney to Travis went to Travis Yeah Stassi and Jaden You know what that's it Perfect sense it's crazy the way that Like the type of men that people In Hollywood go for like almost become a trend

Like We do that oh for sure But like it we like we did That to them we were like I Love little malnourished looking like Sucked up little I just I've always been a kylie jenner stan and i yeah i should hate you for sure for sure um but something about stormy stalker something about seeing her go from travis to timothy like feed something in my brain you know yeah well You agree that Timothy goes

Timothy then Travis right I was more so just saying The dichotomy oh I thought we were rating them I think Timothy Is like way Better than I think they both are sexy Sexy sexy sexy I would And just in very different ways

You know I feel like Kylie's kind Of the majority of her life With the people she's dated Had a type And this is like One of her first like Oh hey look I don't have a type

Well eventually she's gonna You know She's gonna like I don't know I think she's gonna go through Like a major rebrand Pretty soon here Do you think that this

Kylie and Timothy moment Kind of like Kendall And Bad Bunny How people are saying It's like a distraction what is she distracting us from I don't know like it hasn't even happened yet yeah something big's coming I don't know I don't think so because I don't know do you think she sent that into to moi Kylie was like honestly I'm gonna that would be so funny to like start sending

shit like I've never thought about the fact that i could so easily do that yeah you could i probably couldn't but you should be like oh my god i heard tana mongeau is dating kim and north got banned from tiktok no which is like that was like my favorite content ever ever funny ever i honestly i feel like that made everybody seek him in a new light i feel like everyone was like it's it's funny because like right now obviously tiktok is in that whole legal battle of getting banned or whatever it is imagine kim just bought the health if they ban tiktok i have no reason left to live seriously not at all speaking of the reason left to live trump was indicted okay i don't know if i know what that means the barbie movie's coming out man cut the fucking bit i need to black out this is just a joke by the way i just want to say

like very quickly the like heavily being insane after 75 hard is very much so a joke. And I feel like I learned more about myself in 75 days than I ever have. And I will take the things that I learned and apply them to my life. I will say, sorry to cut you off. Your, I don't know if you'll want to speak on it because it's like you. But I feel like every single thing I see of you right now, every TikTok, every podcast you go on, all the comments are like very positive and everyone is really team Tana right now. And they're seeing how smart you are and fun and grown. That's really nice.

And I really appreciate that. And I appreciate all the people saying that. She's like, that's so cool. But I'm shooting up in the back alley later no I think it has to do a little bit with your 75 hard obviously you've been smart all along but it's like but I do know I think it has a lot to do with my 75 hard I think that that side that people are seeing has always been and is a side of who I am All the time but That side can kind of Be overshadowed By a wild crazy Side and I mean maybe

A little more so than Deserved I guess because People like to see crazy Way more than they like to see wholesome and Grown so maybe I don't think so not right now But I think people like a good Story arc so people have been loving

This sober that's all there is right now I haven't been wild in 75 days and I Think I went on this journey because I Started off this January pretty rough Pretty crazy hey Ashley hey Ty I will Have a great time in Miami but sounds Horrible but I'm almost always I'm like I always agree with the internet

But like usually when like You're really crazy Or in some sort of thing It's almost the same in like Your personal relationships kind of thing Like when the internet thinks you've fallen off Like so do all of us I'll speak for me only but

Like right now what I'm seeing is like the same way All of us feel where we're all like oh My god love her right now and I think That that's why I was so afraid for day 76 because I don't want to feel like I Just like am erasing that you know you Aren't but you're not undoing all that It's like you know like I mean it is you

Were eating healthy the whole time but It's like it's like, you know, like, I mean, it is you were eating healthy the whole time, but it's like it's like that. It's not like one bad day of eating is going to just completely undo your 75 days. Like you're still going to you're still way better off than you were before. You look amazing. You're acting amazing. I feel like you're you're good to go. And I feel like if you just drink less often, I'm just be wild less often.

Just in general, I've enjoyed my little grandma era just in everything. And my mature decision making era, you know, actually think about the things I do and say before I say and do them. I think that one of my biggest flaws as a human and maybe I'm maybe everyone in this room has a different opinion on what it is. I'm like, I'll name them. Yeah. Is that I am so yin or yang. everyone in this room has a different opinion on what it is um like i'll name some yeah um is that i am so yin or yang i'm such a like boomerang with everything i do i'm either like working so hard or

i'm taking five days off like or i'm in a super toxic relationship or i'm like literally in the healthiest relationship ever. I'm wearing emo boots and chaps and nipple pasties or I'm in a suit and tie. Like I, you know what I mean? Like I'm, yeah, someone confiscate the bottle. Like I'm blacking the fuck out and wilding. I know what you mean. It's like, it's very like one or the other. You were kind of telling me this other day the

Other day because I said like just drink A little less and you're like no it's Like all or nothing I am such an all or Nothing individual with everything I do You know what I mean like I'm spending a Week of my life being so unfiltered and Rogue and saying the craziest shit or I'm like I just you know I'm just I'm

Beyond that like it's like everything I Do is so so you know I'm like, oh, I just, you know, I'm just, I'm beyond that. Like, it's like everything I do is so, so, you know, I'm spending $50,000 on Coachella or I'm asking someone to Apple pay me for a water bottle that they bought. Wait, there's a name for this. I'm like, is anyone here? I'm an extremist. No, I think it's like bipolar. Maybe, yeah. Like manic.

But manic is impressive no I'm listen Listen I'm in no shape To diagnose anyone I think things Like that usually come in waves it's just like I'm Very much like decisive and extremist On everything that I do and I struggle with that and everything like I'm either Eating a full pizza to myself

Or I want kale like it and there's No fucking in between and that's something I would love to work on and I Have no idea how so if anybody has no Moderation really I feel like yeah I'm Kind of well no I think I'm actually Opposite I think I'm always so Indecisive I never know what the fuck I

Want to do or say or and not even if It's indecisiveness it's just like still I just I'm really bad at balance I'm Really bad at a middle ground I'm really Bad at a 50 you know you just you Commit to whatever bit You know and but that can be scary And I would love to be able to change

That so I hope I can I would love to make an Active effort on that but it's it's one Of the few things about myself that I feel like I can't Like nitpick and diagnose And figure out like I genuinely Don't know how to change that about myself like I'm Either like I think someone's my soulmate or I want them dead

Like just everything I do Is so extreme Yeah and I don't know how to fix that and I would Love to but I don't know either well We're gonna keep you in check we're not gonna Let you get to the I hate people I love them um phase Ever again and it's

Gonna be good stay tuned for Me at Coachella um But this is a roller coaster Of an episode Yeah sorry this was a really extreme episode Sorry about that But all amazing topics And I love to talk my shit with you girl Me too

And Cancelled comes out tonight at midnight It's out in other countries right now This is the first time we've shot an episode of Cancelled Season 2 where an episode Is out already and There's no one else I'd want to do it with My girl I'm very happy that We're cancelled

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