Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 36: Tana responds to Idubbz’ Apology Ep. 36

Episode Date: May 26, 2023

Tana and Brooke talk about flirting within the friend group leading to awkward situations. Tana is paying to look for love on dating apps, possibility of being homeless, and responding to Idubzzz apology. Adamandeve.com is offering 50% off just about any item! Plus FREE SHIPPING! This is an exclusive offer specific to this podcast so be sure to use this code TANA to get your discount, 100% Free Shipping and get it fast with Rush Processing - Code TANA! Tana Mongeau Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tanamongeau/ Tana Mongeau Twitter: https://twitter.com/tanamongeau Tana Mongeau TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@tanamongeaulol Brooke Schofield Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/brookeschofield/ Brooke Schofield Twitter: https://twitter.com/BroookeAmber Brooke Schofield TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brookeschofield1 Brooke Schofield YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzCVovj7tfqnV2lIkaVk35A Watch the podcast on YouTube: https://bit.ly/CancelledYouTube Don’t forget to subscribe to the podcast for free wherever you're listening or by using this link: https://bit.ly/CancelledWithTanaMongeau If you like the show, telling a friend about it would be helpful! You can text, email, Tweet, or send this link to a friend: https://bit.ly/CancelledWithTanaMongeau Follow Tana on IG: @tanamongeau Follow Brooke on IG: @brookeschofield Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge. i'll never do this again you will take tana's word for it she's never going to smoke before the podcast again we just did 10 minutes where she just decided we're just going to trash all of it hello and welcome back to the canceled podcast i'm violently violently high and i need to power through this i need to like third eye this like limitless pill blue pill like i convince myself i'm not high do you need a sip of this alani nutrition are they paying you no you've been doing so many free brand deals lately you guys brooke but how funny would that be if i was just dude brooke will like do things in life where it's

like hey person can you do this favor for me and then if you do this favor i'll do this brand deal so she'll be on her instagram like doing a giveaway for like tickets to something but it's like in exchange for someone like spying on her ex like no payment okay she tried to horn swoggle me into doing one the other that's not true i i pulled up my camera to film my own brand deal and she tucked her little head into it so she just happened to be in it and then she and then she literally had a stroke you're so sick you're lying and everybody knows you're a liar this is not what happened it was after the leo skeppy episode we're sitting here with leo like taking selfies whatever and she's like what's up guys we're gonna be giving away five free tickets to the next canceled live show which by the way doesn't exist oh my god it

doesn't exist and i'm like bitch do you know how much money we can make to do a giveaway for a company i'm not doing this but it was so worth it to me. Do you know how many times I've told her TikTok that I quit vaping because of Ripple? Which I did, by the way, now over on my TikTok. That's what friends do for each other. It is. Speaking of friendship, I owe you an apology. No no fucking way it was forced out of me by the

comments never see i'm just kidding that's not true oh however i was getting like a fun apology she's just saving her ass so you'll keep loving her on the road but actually i got my karma okay so i'm i'm like in cahoots with jeff on this episode talking about how you hooked up with this man i knew you didn't do it i thought it was like a funny haha bit but i don't think i realized in the moment how it was affecting you okay do you think that if that happened off camera just in a normal conversation the next day you'd apologize to me for it no no i'm just kidding no i well because it is frustrating but i just always thought you didn't do it so i thought it was just like a funny thing and it is it's funnier than i feel

like i led on like even in the comments there were a lot of people really like really feeling bad for you and like like condemning and i understand that it's like you know what i've taken away from the situation is is that it's a complete gray area like i have no idea who said what and who it's an entire game of telephone yeah so like it eventually just became a bit and it's like funny but i felt like in that episode i was like hot so a lot of people kind of thought but i i am in a situation similar right now and it is very frustrating to me so now i i am sorry this wow that really did come full circle it's the worst it did so i'm going to tell you about it you know my guy

friend group okay like my little guy friends i'm always with them i go out drinking whatever probably this fought in my house on friendsgiving it was one time i'm just kidding i love them they're like my favorite guys i go out with them all the time i just feel like it's just like that's my group okay probably in the last like year they integrated like a new little member okay it's another guy sweetest guy okay and he knows my ex-boyfriend so him and i would like chat about it i would like confide in him about things like when we were still together and then obviously after we broke up and he was so sweet like he's just like you don't deserve that like this is

horrible really like just really helping me through it and i was like this is the nicest guy yeah i have you want to share your nickname for him what's his nickname i don't have a nickname for him is he oh fuck yeah but we can't call we can't say his name okay moving forward i had i started talking to a new guy and i was like telling him all about that too and like he was just like he's my he's my buddy okay he's my friend somewhere along the way it became a joke like that i would be like oh my god this is my boyfriend like oh my god my boyfriend's gonna be there like joking about him the same way i would do for like anyone like the way i acted with hunter was like

how him and i would act with each other and it was like mutual it's like a joke we had it would be like come sit over here like my girlfriend like blah blah fun banter yeah yeah and it's he was doing it just as much as i was and i don't know if that's normalized behavior and like the rest of the world in friend groups but i like i do that like i'm validating you i don't know if everyone else does that but like it's just fun to pretend people are yeah there's probably like there's probably like three or four other guys in the group that i do the same thing with just because it's like i know i would never hook up like fun flirting but you're never gonna it's funny and it just makes it fun because it's like you know like i knew this man was like

there was no there he's way too nice i will say with those people like 12 shots and you might yeah well that was that was the fun of it all so we would get drunk and all of a sudden we'd be like jokingly like flirting with each other and that was like it was funny i'm out on easter okay i go out on easter with all the guys whatever um we're at one place and then me and this guy and one other guy uber to melrose place okay just like a little bar we drink all night all of us are just like drinking whatever i end up getting a little too drunk okay and i take myself home okay my phone's on six percent i'm like i can't last out here and i need to go home a couple weeks later i'm sitting down with the guys he's not there i go where is he and they go brooke you need to relax like you are creeping him out so

bad he is literally scared of you like he doesn't want to be around you because like you've you've taken it way too far and i was too that's a murder suicide right there i'm telling everyone it gets so much worse boom boom boom boom i'm not kidding and i'm immediately spiraling because i'm like what the fuck like i i know when i'm taking a joke too far you know what i mean and it was so mutual like he was doing it if not like more than i was probably i was just so confused and like if he's saying i made him uncomfortable i'm like i don't want to like discredit him who am i to say i didn't but i'm like you were joking about it too yeah I spiral about this for weeks okay I'm like do they elaborate at all like the guys no because I was like what am I

gonna I was embarrassed I'm like wait what the fuck like I was just so weirded out okay so I'm like spiraling about it for weeks and up like Joe's birthday is coming up okay okay so I'm like oh my god I don't even want to go like, I don't want to be around him. Like, that's so weird that he like, he genuinely thinks that I'm like obsessed with him. And I'm like, what the fuck?

So I show up to this birthday party. Like I'm outside of his window and he just, I know he thinks. No, it was just so weird. Like it was, it was such a joke. And I thought it was obvious because I'm talking to him about my ex.

I'm talking to him about the guy I'm currently seeing. Like, and you're not bucking him or trying to. Yeah. And I've never, I've never touched touched him I do not have the man's phone number me last week yeah I do I'm sorry see it was very clear I wasn't actually interested in him like I've never asked for your number I have never talked to you outside of this environment like I thought it was just obvious anyway doesn't matter I show up to Joe's birthday party, okay? And this guy, he's with his new girlfriend.

His new girlfriend happens to be someone that we all know very well. And she's like just a friend of ours. She's been around forever. But she just so happens to be someone whose ex I hooked up with before I met her. Okay? So that's backstory. I am not kidding. He comes up to me, says hi, says hi whatever i'm like this is not the

time and place to like confront him about it so whatever comes back up 10 seconds later hand in hand with her and says hi to me all over again like he's never he didn't say hi to me at all and i'm like what the fuck like he's trying to show me like i'm with her kind of thing and i'm like kind of weird like i don't care that you're with her because i never cared about a weird energy but why am i also the girl like come on let's go say hi to your friend no no yeah but it was i was like you just said hi to me and now you're gonna pretend like you didn't just so you can show off like that you're with your girl like i promise you i don't care because i never cared about you so do you think that he he genuinely

thinks that like do you think he was like that's not here brooke back off no yeah yes maybe like i don't know at this point i'm still feeling bad and it's just like weirding me out okay there's another girl there who used to hook up with him okay and she was hooking up with him like around the time that we were all just like hanging out and he would always tell me like brooke she is insane like she's stalking me like she shows up everywhere i am she's so pda like i'm i'm scared of her like that's what he told me about her and i'm like it's weird because now he's saying that about me so i go to the girl and i tell her about it how many shots so many okay and i start talking to her about it and she goes no like he said all those things to me about you she said he told her that that night at melrose place i was begging him to come

home with me literally begging him so bad that he was like literally running from me he said i was following him around everywhere and i was making him so uncomfortable mind you we went there together like following him around is crazy we showed up together i was hanging out with my friends at the place we i came with my friends i have never begged a man to come home with me in my entire life tana marie i don't know where you have i'm like what the fuck so now I'm like this he's making shit up like literally he made it all up because he's like telling actual lies the entire day they're like if I look in their direction they'll like grab each other's faces and make out and start cracking up and I'm literally like smoke is coming out of my ears because I'm like I don't want him I never wanted him and they're

like they're trying to like do this to be that girl like you think that it's a real situation because you like the guy and he's convinced you of it and you think this bitch wants your man yeah and it frustrated me because knowing that he said that he said i'm begging him to come home with me and stuff he probably said that to all my guy friends by the way joe included which is embarrassing he probably said that to his new girlfriend do you want everybody to die i want him dead do you want i would be the joe part of it all is like i i like that's what's frustrating for you i actually like joe is in this friend group he knows how i act when i'm actually like upset i was stalking him for sure like he knows like that's not my behavior with somebody that i'm actually interested in yeah but it was

just so frustrating but i was like just like trying to brush it off or whatever just it was so obvious that they were like trying to show off their relationship in front of me and i'm like i don't care so a couple nights ago i run into them again and she is doing her rounds she says hi to me like like normal whatever but i'm just like still so annoyed at this situation because yeah like even seeing her face makes her crazy and i'm hearing all these things like just little things here and there that he's saying that happened that literally never did and i'm like he is such a like liar and i know he lied about the other girl too because i'm like he made her sound so crazy and i know he just says that about people

now so his girlfriend does her little rounds and she shoves past me and she goes to her friend like let's go see our boyfriends let's go see our boyfriends like skin to skin contact like shoulder check shoulder checked is like pushing it but she was like so clearly like trying to get me to hear her because I didn't react at first and she said it again louder she goes back to my boyfriend back to my boyfriend i i literally wanted to set the place on fire like i would be seething i it's so like it really isn't that big of a deal it's not her fault because she probably genuinely thinks that i literally am obsessed with her boyfriend and that's fair like she i know she believes that probably to her core and so it's really not her fault but on his end it's like what the fuck have you like if you see him alone are you gonna like

cuss him the fuck out absolutely because i'm like first of all he knows like god i want to be there for that i want front row seats wwe c geek i'm not kidding a list of a hundred fucking liars i can call if that's the mood i'm in i am never ever going to be yeah like i would i was never into him like that so it just is so fucking frustrating and i'm like fighting for my own life and embarrassed in front of my own fucking friends not wanting to go out when he's there because he made up this elaborate story and it's so fucking frustrating and now he's our next caller imagine he just phones in dude that's fucking awful i would absolutely just kill all parties i would i i feel like i've been all parties in this situation i can

confidently say i've been him i've been her i've been you it's just so infuriating too because he knows like he was so i thought he was the nicest guy i thought so highly of him i literally was like oh my god he's the sweetest he was too nice for me to actually be interested in i'm not kidding and he knows my experience this last year with liars and now you're gonna lie that's on my name to him about that yeah so it sucks horrible is it forgivable or you hate him forever no i hate him forever i understand and you know what he's fucking three feet tall i'm obsessed with those tiktoks where they explain things that would send a victorian child into a coma and i just want to see if the canceled crew can do a speed round right now we are calling in for page and we're just gonna go back and forth and back and forth guys one of these days we're gonna have page on but she has to be like blown out fully

done blazer on like ready she won't just pop in but blown out like back blown out i don't know why if a victorian child saw me right now they would die so thank god i just have the mic wait is this on okay she's like testing the home depot lighting section oh yeah they're like what the fuck is that wait when was did they have lights in the victorian era definitely not right it's like candles but if you ask me gun to my head when the victorian era What the fuck is that? Wait, when was it? Did they have lights in the Victorian era? Definitely not, right? I think it was just like candles. No, I think they did. But if you ask me,

gun to my head, when the Victorian era was? I mean, either. Is it like Bridgerton? Thomas Edison. Do you know one time I wrote an entire essay on how Benjamin Franklin

invented the light bulb? Wait, and Thomas Edison did? You're talking to the wrong person. What did Benjamin Franklin do? I think he was a president. Electricity, right? With the key and the kite. No, who's the wrong person What did Benjamin Franklin do? I think he was a president Electricity, right? With the key and the kite

No, who's the other guy that did that? I'm like, Sir Isaac Newton Nikolai Tesla? Thomas Edison? Michaela Testa? Thomas Edison did the light bulb And Benjamin Franklin discovered electricity But do you see how I could get the two mixed up?

Absolutely. I don't understand at all. Benjamin Franklin. Invented energy. I can't even remember. Invented energy is crazy. No one invented energy. Good God.

That's the problem is like, even when I want to learn, like there's some, there's a book. Oh my God, I'm so stupid. See, this is what I'm talking about. I need to rebrand. When you want to bet on sports, play it on a field or ice or course.

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If you have questions or concerns about your gambling or someone close to you, please contact ConnexOntario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge. I had an epiphany the other day. And like, I was looking in the mirror and I was in this pink lightning bolt covered jumbo Billie Eilish era sweatsuit. And I have on no makeup and like a track is showing and like it's just just anything bad you could really imagine was going on, you know. And I was like, I want to marry like a sexy, sexy rich man who's smart. And I'm not presenting that like i'm presenting like hooker you weren't presenting hooker but you were and then i'm presenting

loud dumb hooker when i talk no i feel like you sometimes you really turn it on like those those really expensive men we were with in arizona i feel like you were very like eloquent and and ingenious i was in a lime green bikini with underboob doing it's so true maybe it was just a contrast because lila was there that's true lila's always good for kind of you know what i mean but it's just like i need to rebrand like even today i was looking at photos of sophia richie with scott disick and sophia richie with elliot grange and like literally the rebrand of the century and she's just like she's the it girl she's doing it so well that you look at it and you believe she's always been like that yeah fully well she kind i mean she is lionel ritchie's daughter yeah

she's always been classy but i just mean like i need something i'd like you know what i mean like i'll be here you're already going through kind of a classy rebrand like i want to be in a ballet flat reading a book mysterious as fuck button blazer i don't want to swear i should i dye my hair brown yes no definitely not but other than that like it's just i don't know i feel like you could do it so you you're trying to trap a not trap okay trap is crap trap is crazy you're trying to land an elliot grange type it's not even just the men of it all it really is just like I feel like it's time for a rebrand but then today I was like hacking in a five-star restaurant and Ari was like don't worry about your ballet flats like it's like your like

personality yeah you're doing for life I don't know I don't know I think you could do it sobriety's helping I think a diva cup would send a victorian child into a coma um what what did what do you think they did for their periods do you think they just like free bled into their bed that's what i do when i want mine to be over everyone does that see nope nope nope rebranding you're right here fuck in prison what do they do too i think they are allowed to have like pads and stuff in prison they're not it's the learning curve what do you think would send a Victorian child into a coma, Brooke? A strap-on? Wow.

It's a child. Oh, we did it again? We did it again? I thought we were playing a Victorian person, not a Victorian child. What about you, Paige? I'm going to go the easy route and just say chewing mint gum and then drinking ice water. Oh my God, they didn't have gum. ice well well maybe who invented ice god one day was someone in like alaska and they saw ice on the ground and they were like this would be so lit for my orange juice in a cup

like who who took it there no one puts ice in orange juice first of all who really took it there i don't know but it happens like because i at one point was just an outside thing it is there's so many things that are like that like i think theovan just did a bit on that like who decided we should have chairs for the first time like all of a sudden something one guy was like i don't want to stand anymore i think about that all the time like if evolution and like things were in my hands the wheel wouldn't even be invented right now yeah that's the thing like thank god for smart people because like literally i'm not i'm too lazy i'm not out discovering we came from like grass and dirt and we have like wi-fi literally it's so bad because i look back on people like thomas edison

are you okay yeah babe your hair looks amazing. Sorry. Oh, my God. I'm never entering my Sophia Crane era. Maybe next year. I look back on people like Benjamin Franklin, and I think those fucking idiots, like they just came across the light bulb. But when you really think about inventing a light bulb you've got to be a genius he tried he tried like like thousands and thousands of times before he

was successful yeah you're gonna sit here and criticize him you're doing like peppa pig tiktok calls that would send a victorian child into a coma i feel like the world has evolved so much but you're so right imagine that too just like i'm gonna make it brighter in this room like nighttime and i'm gonna dedicate my whole life i know it's really sad i feel like we might just come to a halt eventually because like people are gonna stop trying to discover shit now it's just inventing things and then robots are going to do it all it's so true robots are going to do everything oh my god i'm sorry i saw someone fight a postmates robot the other day swear to god swear to god like this i saw one that had the name you know it was unfair advantage it was unclear who

won dude have you ever been on so many drugs that you like would fight a Postmates robot? Not recently, no. But in your life, like I resonate. Have you seen that video of the guy eating the guy on the side of the road? The Miami zombie? He did bath salts and then he literally ate a homeless person. Do you know that that kind of went viral around the time in my life where like bath salts, like if that story didn't come out

like i probably like i just tried salvia and like what's the like fake weed like spice and like all those things like anything you could get over the counter that's like like i probably bath salts were probably next yeah i'm really glad you didn't shout out that guy because we probably wouldn't be sitting here right now yeah not all heroes were capes what did you randomly remember oh something that like everyone in my high school would do when we would party and like it just like now that i'm an adult and i can look back on this this is not normal at all and like i had that thought for like the first time the other day like this is fucking absolutely insane so obviously as like teenagers you drink right yeah like you're gonna go out with your friends you're gonna drink like you're gonna experiment with that type of shit but at all of my like high schools like big

parties like if there was a big party people would get a cooler and they would go to the store and they would buy like a bunch of hawaiian punch and like soda and whatever and like every alcohol and make a common like jungle juice like a jungle essentially but then someone would come in and everyone was aware of this this was not a drugging situation someone would come in and take like 15 20 25 xanax and crush them up and pour them into the like cooler of jungle juice and it was called zeus and everyone just drank it and it was like i can't wait for the zeus on saturday night like x u i c e what the fuck like looking back like there's no way everyone's high school just like did that right that is this is so crazy and i would do anything for one more cup i just feel like how can they make sure like what if like one glass is more concentrated than the others or like like how do they make sure it's like evenly distributed

well like you know how if you put like kool-aid powder into like clear water like eventually all the water will be blue okay yeah i guess like what if you have like four glasses and it's like really like four bars when you want to bet on sports, play it on a field or ice or course, BetRivers is the place. Over, under, money, line, same game, parlays, it's all fine. You'll put a smile on your face. Bet on the sports you love with BetRivers Sportsbook. Take a chance.

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I've been trying to find love again. Okay. Rebrand and kind of, you know, maybe go for, you know, the goal is always

a normal nice guy who has his shit together and he's successful. But I don't seem to attract those in my daily life. So I feel like I have to almost like outsource. Which would be Hinge.

Yeah. And so I've been back on Hinge. I'm actually paying $49.99 a month right now. This is not a brand deal. By the way. Like at all. And it really should be. It's so embarrassing.

It really should be. Hinge sponsor us. For Hinge Unlimited. So I can like set all my preferences. So that I get like my perfectly cultivated man. Like an insane person. Uh huh. And I've been having no luck.

Like, so you get to choose every single one of his traits and you still can't find one? Yeah. And Hinge has been successful for me in the past. I've been in a Hinge relationship. Yeah, you're good at Hinge. I have like trouble following through and you're really good at that.

I have to put them through an extreme screening process before I'll actually follow through but that really requires like a lot of patience absolutely it's like a side job like you know what I mean because until you meet them and click you're like yeah I'm just always on my grind baby but for some reason this time around I'm just attracting the most like awful guys like I've had I had so many like trying to think I had someone slide in and tell me that he wants me to fund his short film and gave me an entire pitch on why I should fund his short film I mean at least he's like he's shooting for the stars that's admirable I respect it but that's just like absolutely insane I had another guy like we facetimed

and he basically tells me this entire story about how like he met me at an la party and i was cussing someone else out on the phone and he like thought i was gonna be like a giant fucking awful bitch but like went on this like two minute tangent about how he thought i was going to be like an awful bitch these are his words he probably thought he was giving you a compliment yeah like he was and it was just like insane jobless like half of the arkansas like whole nine like i'm really just like not lucking out at all on hinge oh man and i get a message the other day on instagram okay and this guy says hey my ex-girlfriend cheated on me with over 15 guys half of which i knew personally worked with or had beef with suff Suffice to say, this absolutely devastated me, and she continues to torture me in sadistic ways, even though I've cut off all contact.

She's a big fan of you, and I was wondering if I could take you out on a date for the sole purpose of driving her nuts. P.S. We've also matched on Hinge before. We've actually matched twice. That means someone along the way unmatched. Right? You can't match twice.

I think they. No. Not on Hinge. Oh, no. The story unfolds. Here's the thing. I almost like feel like that. I would do that.

That feels like philanthropic. So I tweeted a screenshot of his message. I know, but how horrible is that? You just put him on blast. And now you probably made his situation worse. I didn't put his. Yeah, you did. You put and now he probably made his situation worse I didn't put his um yeah you did you put his face in his name no I didn't put his name yeah you did no I didn't you totally did okay well you put his face his his picture someone sent someone sent that to the girl to be honest with you I'm sorry that's what I do that's if you're sending me a dm like you're sending like that's what I do

there's gonna there's a chance that if it's insane like that, it might end up on my fucking shit. But I posted it because I've been just posting on my Twitter like chronicles of me like failing on him. So I posted it just like as a joke. And I thought all the responses would be like, yeah, that's insane. Like, that's so weird. And all the responses were like, go on the date.

Yeah. I mean, theoretically, I thought he was hot if I hearted him on him. Maybe that's the beginning of like a real love story. Like I feel like he could it could be like, oh, let's just do this to make someone mad. And then you guys actually just fall in love. But here's my only issue. 60% of those situations, I might be her. Like and I ride even just now I was reading his message.

I was like, he cheated on me. Like I ride for women. But imagine like your ex, like if you're her like idol or she looks up to you or whatever, like imagine Chris Miles goes on a date with Miley Cyrus. You would kill yourself. That's kind of what I'm saying. Exactly. That's exactly what I'm trying to say.

Like if some like if my ex went on a date with my fucking idol, I would fucking kill myself. And Miley Cyrus was a bad example. He literally dated his sister. Yeah. Like I want to be riding for my girl You know Oh

So you're sympathizing with her situation Yeah like I almost feel terrible to do that Because I think nine times out of ten I'd be her in that situation But remember you're rebranding Because like why'd you get cheated on 15 times Okay Fuck

Oh no Oh no I shouldn't have said that I don't necessarily mean that like i do agree it's never the woman's fault a woman has never been at fault i think cheating is ultimately wrong but i think that there are situations where you can be in an emotionally abusive relationship that's harder to get out of i'm like yeah it's emotionally abusive all right but you're no but i'm saying like a guy can be like fucking awful and terrible and it's hard to get out of a relationship and sometimes maybe one cheat will do the trick i love how tinks is like writing a book right now like if i wrote a

book i'd write that in the book yeah maybe maybe hold off for a second no i do think there are situations where cheating is okay but at that point it's like why don't you just get rid of them absolutely but i know it's harder than that so should i go on the date i'm not gonna i think you should go on the date but will he even still have you yeah i wonder i guess we'll find out i feel like he's probably a little upset i would go and i think that it's gonna end up being really great and you guys are probably gonna fall in love i've done that where i like go out with a guy just to spite my ex or something and then i end up like in love with him instead that's valid but would you actually go like imagine getting ready and going to sit down at a restaurant like would you

like i'm i'm sincerely like debating it yeah free dinner that's true that's oh it just sounds you're literally a billionaire like a free meal it sounds so awkward and awful so we've discussed pool boy a lot on this episode or on on this podcast honestly in general we talk about him literally every single episode the appeal of pool boy is that like he's like your boyfriend for the day like he's just very he's just a sweetie sweetheart and like yeah you just it's like you get your fix if like you wish you were in a relationship yeah it's important to have people like that yeah he's good for it but recently he broke the fourth wall by telling me about another girl okay I can't say who but he did it like literally we were just together and he just brought her up and was like yeah I'm in love with her and I was like you can't do that

like it's a like neither of us want to date each other but like you can't do that. Like it's like neither of us want to date each other. But like you can't do that. Because in this moment in time, we are dating until I leave your house. Yeah. Yeah. And I was just like, you've ruined the allure. Like I think that you can completely be friends with benefits with someone and fuck buddies. But I'll never allow that. But then again, that's why I date all the people that I fuck because I like let it progress.

But like it can't be that homey. And then you just have sex. Yeah. To me, that's's like i don't know anyways well i was not upset about it but i was like hmm kind of weird for a second until i just did the exact same thing to him so what happened tana sent me a little tidbit of information the other day that led me to believe that a guy that i used to see was messing around at the same time with like somebody else that he was like me yeah that makes sense and I had the spiral of a lifetime and in my bed oh pool boy's in my bed

so when I sent this text to you and keep in mind I'm trying to let my girl know what's good like if this man's playing her she's he's playing playing us. Like, you know what I mean? If he fucked you, I was so glad you sent it to me. But I happened to be with pool boy at that given moment. Yeah. Fully like he's he's next to me, but naked. OK. And I I'm not kidding.

I have the spiral of a lifetime. I am like, do you want to look at what I sent you next to fully? Fully. Show it to him and everything. I mean, because now that's just that. Now that's the vibes. Yeah. I start literally crying. Were you naked? Fully.

Were you naked crying about one other man? Crying about one man to another man who was literally in my bed. I felt so bad. But like he was so helpful. What did he say it was like honestly it made me have like a whole new appreciation for him because i'm i swear to god it ended up being like the the bit of information was misinformed okay it wasn't it wasn't accurate it was a misunderstanding he wasn't seeing me and another girl at the same time it was like it it was not real but in the moment it was real to me so i'm like fucking just making the biggest scene ever and he poor pool boys sitting there like uh like what do we do

i'm like do i text him he's like put your phone down he's like do not text him like he was like you don't deserve that just so like sweet and he's like you're so much better than that like you should be with somebody like with all these qualities and i was like poop boy when you want to bet on sports played on a field or iso course bet rivers is the place over under money lines same game paul a's gets all fine you put a smile on your face bet on the sports you love with that river sports book take a chance must be 19 plus available in ontario only please play responsibly if you have questions or concerns about your gambling or

someone close to you please contact connects ontario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor In that moment, did that send him more to friend or more to like bae? Because it's like, you know what I mean? Like I could see my weird twisted brain being like, oh my God, you're actually such a good guy. And then I'm liking him more. No, I don't think it was one or the other. I think it was just like, I feel like it made us like closer like it's kind of beautiful emotionally because he was so he really helped me in that moment and like i mean it ended up not even being true anyway but

i was like how sweet that's hilarious but i did feel a little bad because i'm like how are we like what are we gonna do now like i just literally cried about another guy and then what you guys just went to sleep yep like that's honestly a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful story. Yeah. Like. I've never had that, though, because like usually I like all the guys I hook up with. It's not that I don't like him, but like he's just like. Like it's just it's purely.

It's very much just a. OK. Ritualistic, I guess you could say. so i take this as my sign from god to finally slide in this musician's dms and i think i have before and he didn't reply and i unsend it so this i know that by the way when i say i think it's just to like i protect my ego i say this to you all the time but like you can't unsend a message you have six million followers like they like they saw it you know what i mean like you shouldn't be doing that it's one of those things that just helps me sleep better at night you know what i mean and i'm not crazy with it like lila i feel like i've only hit an unsend resend a couple times in my fucking life

okay and i slide in on him and he responds immediately and we start dming and it's like super flirty and like funny and like voice memos photos it's an interactive set of messages you know what i mean and we're kind of like feeling each other's vibe a little bit you know and he's he's making jokes he's like it's just gonna end up on the podcast that clearly wasn't a joke i'm just like flirting back and forth whatever i think nothing of it we go to bed that night i'm keeping up with my regular roster at the time we wake up the next day and we have the canceled podcast launch dinner and i decide to kind of at the time bring tiktok boy as like my my date why did you literally act like

you were in pain when you said it because date such is a strong word he was your date i was debating between date and plus one but plus one's two plus one is crazy when you invited 60 people to that yeah like you know you get what i'm saying like i i bring him to the dinner yeah and we're sitting at dinner and we're vibing out and i'm you know him and i are talking chatting we're all just like hanging out whatever and then i gave diablo a plus one for dinner and things that should never happen sincerely and um he brings one of his friends Khalil whatever time goes by and then all of a sudden I feel Diablo creep up behind me and TikTok boy and he's standing there with the fucking musician that I was like and I'm I'm like holding hands

with TikTok boy like hold like it's very clear like he probably walked into us like you know what i mean like just making out yeah and like i turn around and we just make the most awful eye contact in the entire world like it's just like and i don't even know what to do i just start laughing and i'm like hi like how are you and it's just like so fucking awkward so awkward and so i'm like whatever it you know the cards unfolded that way maybe it wasn't meant to be i go back to dinner who fucking cares whatever and then i've like responded to stories before and it's all like normal interactions and whatever and the other day he the musician because it's been like some time now and And I was like, yeah, I might as well try to re-spark whatever that was. He posts a story of a flyer of like a show that he's doing in like L.A. that night.

And I was like, OMG, I want to come. First of all, I don't even like his music. I just I just want to, you know, I want to come support like type of that was my energy, whatever. Two minutes go by. And he messages me oh no buy a ticket buy a ticket no buy a fucking ticket and then i go to his page and he unfollowed me buy a ticket buy a fucking ticket he is so iconic for that like i it's not good because he did it to you but if he did it to anybody else i'd be like go off and i'm not saying

i'm against buying a ticket but i really wasn't like i was hoping we would go down a path where the energy wasn't that is insane do you think it's because he like he saw you with the guy and he was probably like oh she's a little slimy i don't know i don't know either do you know that that was an awkward night for him and i as well because as you may or may not recall he lived in the apartment directly next to my guy was also brooks neighbor he was my hot neighbor you've probably seen my tiktoks about him but it was really interesting because he had just moved out of my apartment complex so i took that as a sign and i made a tiktok about him as my hot neighbor and and then i had to see him at my at the launch party and i was like i just never thought i was gonna see him again

i think he was i think that you could definitely redeem that. And honestly, I think this is your story arc. I am done. I am out. Well, it was like in a really interesting dynamic we had because he thought I was two different people. He, when I didn't have makeup on and if we were like in the elevator together, no acknowledgement, like he would not say a word. If I had makeup on, he'd be like, oh my God. Hey, how are you? Good to see you.

I was so humbled by that. I was literally like, oh my God. Maybe he's just like a little. hey how are you good to see you i was so humbled by that i was literally like oh my god am i doing that much with the makeup maybe like one little screws loose up there no i think he like wholeheartedly thought he didn't know me when i didn't have makeup on and he did when i did yeah i never want to see him again yeah well anyway i'm like should we buy tickets and go imagine we just post on our story like that'd be funny for the viewers honestly really funny move though like because if if a guy was dming me just listen i'm always on your team i'm always on her team but if a guy was dming me and then i ran into him the next night and he was like holding hands with a girl i'd be like you little rat it's fucked up because i really wouldn't catch you on the flip maybe i would i guess i would probably think a little

bit differently and to be fair maybe i'm reading way into this and we were never flirting and maybe he just genuinely was like you guys were pals and then he maybe you posted like one too many things he didn't want to see he just just unfollowed you. God, that's so insane. Sincerely. Really bold move. I guess I'm never finding love. You're going to find love and it's going to be good and it's not going to be a musician. Death to musicians.

Do you think all therapists should be mentally ill? That's my opinion. That's my hot take. I think that if you are a therapist, you should have mental illness because how else are you going to relate to me and understand what I'm talking, what you're talking about? I don't want to talk to somebody who's never had a spiral like mine. Whoa. Like imagine.

The last sentence started to like, like I'm, I'm less shocked by what you're saying. No, I want someone to be so smart and have studied spirals like mine, but they're perfectly sane. Yeah, but like imagine it had I never had a headache and you told me you had a headache. Like I would feel bad for you, but I wouldn't know what I was talking about. But I don't think a therapist's job is to empathize. I think a therapist's job is to give you thought-provoking tools in order to change the patterns that you want to change thought-provoking tools and thoughts

and sentiments okay yeah because i want empathy from my friends yeah i don't want my therapist to feel bad for me or like i don't or like i don't want them to feel bad for me i want them to to relate to me and understand what i'm saying and like and see why i did what i did but then how could you ever get better if you're taking advice was from someone who has the same issues as you because they now know how to fix it that's why it's so helpful honestly to talk to my mom whenever something bad is happening because i'm like i i need to talk to a mentally ill person because she's like she'll be like okay yeah i would do that too but this is what you should do instead oh yeah so anyway if you are a therapist and you have mental illness call me because right now my therapist literally my last one was like just get a new boyfriend

i swear to god that was yeah therapist advice you should go to my therapist that's not a good idea imagine us having the same therapist i'm like venting about you i would never vent i don't vent about you you don't give me that much trouble okay i want to do a hot take i liked your little hot take thing should should we make it a segment men should not hiccup ever i didn't know that i felt this way until the other night Hunter had the hiccups that is embarrassing but I'm a hiccup or I that's how I know I'm too drunk that's I'm honestly that night that I'm talking about that night that I sent myself home I had the hiccups and I was like I'm out hiccups are just weirdly overall so embarrassing it is when you have the hiccups

are you embarrassed I'm embarrassed I got the hiccups an hour later after thinking that about hunter so i got my karma yeah it is embarrassing but it's like i don't know i feel like it's a drunk thing like i get them when i'm drunk like really drunk i get them when i eat wendy's spicy chicken nuggets even one every single time without fail and like i had one i'm so yeah men shouldn't be able to do a lot of things i want to say this is 80 towards men 20 women as well though you should never use the phrase ps in any context other than maybe ironically like you're making fun of something or someone can you can you use it in a sense like Like what, like what provoked this thought?

I'll actually reference the exact Instagram caption. And if you're this person and you're watching this podcast and you might be, I'm really sorry that I'm saying this about you, but honestly you need to do better. The whole Instagram caption as a whole is actually like a serious problem that I want to unpack. But specifically the PS is what sent me over the edge. Low quality picture, high quality vibes hard eyes thank you

blank for always going above and beyond like they were out of place ps who am i seeing for the festival february 24th and 25th i don't even feel like they used it right ps basically just means like by the way i'm adding this like yeah but can you can you p.s can you p.s a question because it's like yeah like i don't think you should be able to i just like try to say it to me right now um you have to stop getting work done p.s your lip flip looks stupid see but that doesn't count because it's like sassy and ironic try to be like jet be genuine right now and say ps to me i can't and then no one ever should okay honestly that's so true no one should ever do anything that i can't do

when you want to bet on sports played on a field or iso course bet rivers is the place over under money lines same game paul a's gets all fine you'll put a smile on your face bet on the sports you love with that river sports book take a chance must be 19 plus available in ontario only please play responsibly if you have questions or concerns about your gambling or someone close to you please contact connects ontario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge olivia o'brien reached out to me via dm okay well that was helpful that she did it in there she finally went to the dms and she said i saw your podcast blah blah blah like i never saw them whatever i should have just left her on scene to really even it out it would have been really funny it would have been like a like a move that that guy would have done buy a ticket guy buy a ticket guy buy a ticket buy a ticket do you know my goal for the next canceled set we were talking about this the other

night is everything that has become like a bit i want to put on set like i want there to be a pool net for like pool boy in the back like a big red rock for he left me at the red rock like something hilarious like little trinkets from each of our little stories like a little picture of marianne in the back absolutely marianne in a frame i think it could be like a really sick way to do a set i think so too we should probably get that going i feel like people are bored of the couch yeah i'm just fucking homeless dude oh yeah so homeless i've been do you want to talk about that how you keep getting denied for a house honestly i might get so worked up i literally cry i've been touring houses for what feels like forever because i was looking to buy and then now i'm looking to rent and it's this whole fucking mess it's figured out now we are buying

soon worry about yourselves that they were gonna say that honestly i've been touring houses for what feels like this whole year like and i've just seen the same thing so many fucking times and i i recognize that i'm looking for a lot in a house like i need a master closet that's like the size of this fucking room because i have so many clothes i need a space we can podcast in because the goal is to eventually also have a living room not just a podcast living room that's really it i can't find it i have really high standards i want to live in either hollywood or sherman oaks like very specific areas there's not a lot on the market right now after looking and looking and looking i finally find a house and it is so cheap it is so under my budget it's thousands more square feet than i thought it is in my prime area it's five minutes from you it's five minutes from jeff it's

five minutes from everything i fucking do it's it has an entire second house that's like this upstairs office loft giant massive area that would have been an office and a set for canceled beautiful insane fucking house it used to be my friend's house i would go there a lot like i'm familiar with it i liked it as their house i want it as mine i'm stoked the master bedroom is beautiful there's a fucking espresso coffee maker in the wall in my master bedroom i can get unnecessary and for under budget do you know what I mean come on like I don't need that but like for under my budget I would love to have that thank you literally so much I apply for this house I have never ever ever been rejected for a house in my entire life at times where I had shit credit at times where I didn't have the funds to rent the

house that I wanted to rent like and was just like hoping they wanted to have me there even like after just content house eras everything like I've never had trouble renting a house in my entire life I finally find this house it's all over I'm so excited like what feels like literally six months of touring houses I finally found something with everyone paying me rent i'm paying like nothing it's perfect whatever i apply my realtor tells me like you might as well think you've gotten the house because it's like one of those fucking la mcmansion ass like they only really rent to like young people because like that's the market for it like yeah i could pay the year

lease in full if i needed to and just it wouldn't like the price is so good that it's sincerely like it's if they looked at my proof of funds they'd be like of course she can have this so on and so forth my credit is perfect now whole nine normally they get back to you in like 24 hours right and so my realtor she's like yeah you definitely got this she's rented me a million houses before you're fine whatever i start furniture shopping for this house like i'm like ordering shit and like about to send it there whole nine they make me wait seven days and they reject me no explanation oh people never do that if they reject you they're gonna tell you why no i don't i'm not in my experience

because i have been rejected like when i was i mean it's apartments so it's different but like they just reject you and say they took another applicant i understand that completely at an apartment or a leasing office but usually when you're like wanting to rent a house it's like one specific person and their reasoning usually as to why or like a lot of times people will want to make it mendable. Like, oh, your credit's not this good. Like, would you give me a bigger deposit? Yeah, that's what's so crazy. It's like they almost just like didn't want to. And my rental history is amazing. Like all of my landlords can vouch like so on and so forth. And then come to find out that my friend who used

to live there, he would throw like fucking ragers. So they basically just like don't want anyone young, like so on and so forth. But now I find out this week that they rejected a family and a single guy who offered to pay the lease in full who was a writer and like he would like stay up all night and like write and then sleep all day and they didn't want they told him they reached out to him and they were like we don't want someone in our house that's just gonna sleep all day in it okay that's weird but it does sound like they can afford to be picky because apparently it's in high demand. But then why the fuck is your house for rent? If you're rejecting families, you're rejecting people who want to give you the lease in full.

You're rejecting like. That is so weird. A tenant would just pay you rent and fucking, I don't know. Yeah, you would think that it's like if you can get like thousands and thousands of dollars a month. Why would you not? But I guess they can they just don't want from you so now i spent this whole week that i could have spent touring other houses that are now gone and off the market looking for furniture for a house that no longer

exists i have to start from the bottom up again like what's on the market again like show me new things whatever i feel like it's it's gonna end up working out you're gonna find something that you like more oh no this doesn't even end here. Oh no. I tour like 10 more houses. And that is just, it's a whole day. Like I'm pushing off work shit because I'm driving all around to like tour houses. And all I need theoretically is a podcast studio

and a decent sized closet. Finally, after like a couple days of like 10 houses, I come across this house. It's one street over from the original house. Perfect location. It's three stories it has an elevator it's still under my budget it has a movie theater an insane podcast studio space like outdoor capannas pool whole nine rooftop deck whole views of hollywood it's beautiful it's stunning it's there's an atrium like you walk into the middle of your house there's just glass and like a fucking tree it's beautiful and it's so under my budget again and

none of these other houses are these two are like extreme anomalies like right now the market is shit anyways you know what i mean i tour it immediately i'm in love with it the guy who like owns it and is like listing it out and whatever is there i'm hitting it off with him he's hot he wants to be an actor i'll fund his short film and we're touring this house we're walking around it's whole nine he tells me a clippers player lived there he'd love to have me so on and so forth i fall in love with this house i apply 24 hours later they tell me i'm approved life is so good i can finally stop the house hunting journey i'm shopping for furniture the house is brown there's gold hardware i'm looking at brown bed frames i'm shopping looking at nightstands oh this would go with the floor you know we took a 360

video i'm gonna hang my closet rack rods here oh the podcast studio canceled neon sign would look great along that wall there's a movie theater do i want love sacks or do i want chairs i'm having a ball all of this journey that i've gone through is just all worth it i have a dream home in a dream location at a dream price you know god gives his battles it was worth it you know i understand these are champagne problems and i sound very out of touch bitching and you know, but I'm, so excited. It was all worth it. I'm moving I can finally stop paying way too much for here life is good And what did he do? The owners of the house reach out to my landlord and I can't even say what they said because they said a slur

That's how bad this was They reach out saying just fucking kidding we googled her and we don't want a youtuber bleep living in our house something someone might call like a what the fuck someone who raises hell can you sue for like discrimination i found out that you can and it's so fucked because it's like I do not need to spend my time In lawyer fees on that I literally need to spend my time Finding a house

But for the satisfaction of it all Because they should not be able To get away with that Like just say Say you denied me for another reason Or say like Make up a lie Before you say that

That's so horrible I wrote them a three page MLA formatted letter As you should And sent it to them Like I'm furious And then I still came back Crawling on my knees

I'll give you the lease in full I'll give you more rent what can you do i'm so embarrassing seriously no why would you ever even want to be in that person's house oh because you need one i need one and it's perfect and i felt so happy like okay i loved that last house that i got rejected from but that was an anomaly i've never been rejected in my entire life like it's gonna happen again you're gonna you're gonna be like it's i'm glad i didn't get that one because i should have had this one. I don't think it's they will. They both might have just been like very much so too good to be true.

Well, that's the thing. It's not every time you say under budget, it's like, OK, yeah, someone else is going to get it. I completely understand it. Just I just wanted it to be me. And I get that like one YouTuber ruins it for all the YouTubers in the realty space. Like one influencer drives a

motorcycle off of a roof for a vlog and everyone wants to like or like whatever the fuck it is hard i understand it from their perspective too because it feels like a liability it's like you don't want the neighbors to hate you you don't want like and it is i mean it just sucks although there's never been any parties here like that's what i'm like it yes i'm a youtuber and yes I make crazy videos but I sincerely always have kind of for the 99.5 percent of my career done it outside of my house like I very much use my house as just like my little situation my little sanctuary the homies come over sanctuary is pushing it for sure the sanctuary is so pushing it sanctuary is pushing like I't done like molly off that counter but like you know i mean i don't know i hopefully it's gonna end up working out i know it is but it is frustrating because

you're like seriously like i can't catch a break and i'm just like i really wish they'd give me a chance i really am friends with like all my landlords when you want to bet on sports, play it on a field or ice or course. BetRivers is the place. Over, under, money, line. Same game, parlays, it's all fine. You'll put a smile on your face. Bet on the sports you love with BetRivers Sportsbook. Take a chance. Must be 19 plus. Available in Ontario only.

Please play responsibly. If you have questions or concerns about your gambling or someone close to you, please contact ConnexOntario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge yeah so i'm homeless and in 12 days pretty much maybe 15 it's actually 20 i'm lying i knew all along you're gonna end up having to do another month here which isn't the end of the world but it is frustrating because it is overpriced here and they're charging me month to month now which is like extremely more than it even was at its overpriced rate to be fair i started renting this house and the rental market was even worse you could come stay with me and murphy i

think i'm gonna have to i'm really like weighing out my options like it might get to that like shit in storage and i'm like couch surfing i would love to see you in an apartment like literally just living by yourself like not an apartment but like like like the penthouse that lila sent like huge high-rise like beautiful apartment big you can have all this space in the world but i feel like you just don't want to live i'm just not a and not even necessarily even if i could live in like a loft with one other person like it was a big one or some shit like i still just i don't know i'm such an apartment girl like i would love i would love to like reason like raise a family in like a really nice big apartment because it just feels like houses are so houses are more maintenance but i

like feeling like i'm in my own space there's no one above me there's no one below me like this is my house like i i don't know like i would just i feel so safe like i'm like there's someone above me and there's someone below me i don't know that whole tangent was probably pointless i've just been stressed of a lifetime this week trying to find a house you're gonna find one and it's gonna be great in a good price range that we can shoot cancel that that's how are we gonna build out a set in a rental house yeah not as build out a set like like get cute furniture, get cute props. Like I said, I wanted to do like shelving behind us with all the like trinkets.

Like Theo Von said, how he has like all kinds of little trinkets behind. Exactly. Like maybe a neon sign if we're feeling spunky, like just more so not like three pieces of my couch, five inches from my couch. Sorry about this guy. Like,

you know what I mean? I would love like an area that just stay like how we have to move the cameras and shit. Like it would just be nice. No one wants to hear about this guys Like you know what I mean I would love like an area That just stay Like how we have to move The cameras and shit Like it would just be nice No one wants to hear about this This is such an off camera Conversation seriously I would have tuned out Hours ago

Sorry Matt Reif is ghosting us He is He I've never had someone like Dangle being on our podcast Like a carrot for a rabbit More than anyone

I feel like he made us feel like it was his idea and then now i feel like embarrassed how much we're asking him to come on it but it's like i couldn't agree more with the people want it and that's the thing is i will put aside all like pride and shame to make some shit happen for content that people want but it is getting fucking embarrassing it is like he's making us literally beg him to come on i would love to have him come on do you guys like guest episodes i feel like i see mixed reviews like sometimes people like them sometimes people don't we have like a plethora of guest episodes coming up like an insane amount and i like i'm scared that the people might like this but honestly why

would anyone like this more yeah not after this one i woke up the other day and like i said i've been having a really shoddy week when it comes to waking up to just bad news i woke it up pretty much every single day this week to bad news and the only day i didn't wake up to bad news i opened my phone and my instagram dms are just so much like mention you in their story mention you in their story mention you in their story and it's not like random people it's like news things and that's never usually a good thing like if i wake up and my instagram dms are like me being tagged in a bunch of fucking news accounts and like press thing story like I usually did something that I'm going to have to then apologize for I click on one and it says iDubbbz has

apologized to Tana Mongeau I'm like checking the date I'm like is this April Fool's Day like what's what's going on I just I sooner thought I would die before I would ever see anything like that and it's funny because like two weeks ago Oscar was like you would have the most viral episode of cancelled and like it could be good for you to have iDubbbz on and like try to squash beef I don't even know if you can call that beef or just talk about things like you know what I mean blah blah and I was like telling him like I would sooner have on Joe Biden like it and like it would. Like in the sense that like, I didn't ever think he would,

you know what I mean? I didn't want to like, Hey, like we've never talked one time, like ever, ever, ever. We've never,

ever spoken. And I guess he posted this apology video, apologizing for like a bunch of things he did in the past. One of them being the video he made with me or like to me or something. And I was like, damn, like I just never expected that and I don't know how I feel about it you know because like and I don't know how to say this I'm I'm not talking about anything in regards of the things he said but I'm I'm more so just talking

about like his actions to me like you know him showing up to my show him kind of putting me on blast him inevitably making me kind of canceled and lose subscribers and have to apologize and all that type of stuff I kind of think I'd like deserved that and maybe that's like dark like to say but like I don't feel like I'm owed an apology and maybe that's because I've accepted it so much that like people always ask me if you could go back in time and like make that never happen like would you and I always say no because I feel like at the time it was obviously a very Oscar goes cry like it was a very dark time period of my life when it came to like self-reflection and trying to figure shit out and like i think i would be a completely different person if i

didn't have that i think it like i was on track to just be so on my high horse and like egotistical and like nothing could go wrong that something going wrong gave me such a dose of reality that like this might not last forever like yeah you need to be held accountable for actions you I don't know like it like it made me do so much necessary growth and I think it also changed the entire trajectory of my career in life like I don't even think cancelled would be here if like I didn't get cancelled a bunch too and that was kind of the start of that to like yeah shape that brand for me like it wasn't like I went into this being like I'm cancelled like I'm scandalous like if

anything I wanted to be brand safe to an extent you know what I mean and just like everything I feel like it really shaped the course of my life and so I guess because of how much I wouldn't go back in time and like change anything I've never like felt like I like deserved an apology for that I was like I feel like you had that coming and like you know what I mean I feel like both things can be true at the same time like he can be wrong but it can also like have been not like beneficial but it was like a part of your little journey like it was important to the storyline i didn't think about that that those things can both coexist yeah you know in my head he still did something wrong he was in the wrong and he like shouldn't have done it but

that's not to say something good couldn't have come of it like out of it yeah i agree and just looking back as well i think even at the time I was more like you know I can't believe all of this is happening but like you were poking the bear like I was the one who mentioned him first and like at the time I had this boyfriend who was like so obsessed with him and I just like remember being like I don't I don't get this obsession and I just like voiced it so incorrectly and it's like bitch you had a stick and you were poking the fucking bear yeah like that those are the videos he was making at the time did you think I think I honest to god thought I was like just too small of a creator for him to like make a whole content

cop on because at the time those are getting like 40 million views and he's doing them on like I just never thought I was in that like caliber you know what I mean so then when it happened it was like oh shit yeah I don't know enough about it I. You know what I mean? So then when it happened, it was like, oh shit. Yeah. I don't know enough about it. I don't know what happened. That's fair. It's been, it's just been like, so I was like 18, 19 at most. Like when this happened, I still lived in Vegas.

Like it happened so, so, so long ago. So I think that's why I was so shook and like didn't know what to think. I wonder what, like what, what happened that made him feel like he should just apologize all of a sudden. In the video, he kind of feels like, I i don't know that's a part of his journey in the video he kind of talks about having like an awakening and like an essentially an ego death those aren't his words but like that's kind of what i took from that that like he now can like feel so much more empathy towards things he was doing and at the time he feels like he like didn't i believe in that i

mean good for him if he's really just like on some sort of growth journey absolutely honestly i mean i feel like it's right for him to apologize i feel like you just did deserve an apology whether maybe you think you deserved the video or not i don't know how to it's you know i don't i don't really you should have him on it yeah it was just it was one of those things where i was just really shocked and everyone's tweeting me wanting my response and I was like I'm genuinely like I have no words so it's taken me like a week to kind of form that and then I tweeted and I was like I wonder if he'd come on canceled podcast like I would love to like talk to him at length and then he messaged me and it's even just crazy like opening my phone and like seeing that we're

like messaging I'm like what the fuck is going on like i just it was not on my bingo card for this year at fucking all you know and i think he's gonna come on canceled and okay yeah jeff has offered to fill in for you on that episode yeah i would like that i honestly i had to google it like when you first said it because i was like i don't want to be so uneducated that it's crazy and it's it's not i was just not really in it and it's not even that I want to like bring light back to that stuff because it is like clear. It seems like we're both so far removed from all of that. And even like, you know what I mean? Yeah. It's like kind of just bringing it all back up again.

Yeah. But I think that at the same time, like that is why this is called canceled in so many ways. I've had so many scandals and they all are like, I don't want to dumb this one down to a scandal because it really was like intense like i feel like it's just so long ago that i've like really let that like let everything die you know sort of like reignite it all to me kind of also does feel like unnecessary and stupid and pointless yeah but him apologizing also was never a part of this yeah he kind of just for me he kind of got the ball rolling i don't know y'all wanted a response those are my thoughts i was gonna say slay i wish i I knew more. Yeah. On that note,

I thank you so much. I feel like it's almost better to end it now because if we just went back into like, I think Benjamin Franklin's stupid. It's a terrible podcast. So I think, I think that we should end it maybe on a serious note.

God, I really hope you guys still watch the canceled podcast after this episode. I really have faith in the edit. We're just, we're going to chop it up and screw it up. And it's going to be a decent podcast.

But I definitely might have learned a lesson today about smoking weed in a podcast setting. Sometimes it creates for the hoot. But today. But more often than not, it is a. There was no hoot in sight. There's a little hoot in sight. Well, I hooted a bit. Bye, guys.

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