Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 54: THIS FIGHT ALMOST ENDED OUR FRIENDSHIP - Ep. 54

Episode Date: September 29, 2023

On this episode of Cancelled Tana and Brooke talk about a fight that happened on tour that almost ended their friendship. They touch on their dating life, wanting to move to New York and dealing with stalkers. Control Body Odor ANYWHERE with @lumedeodorant and get $5 off off your Starter Pack (that’s over 40% off) with promo code CANCELLED at https://lumepodcast.com! #lumepod Tana Mongeau Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tanamongeau/ Tana Mongeau Twitter: https://twitter.com/tanamongeau Tana Mongeau TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@tanamongeaulol Brooke Schofield Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/brookeschofield/ Brooke Schofield Twitter: https://twitter.com/BroookeAmber Brooke Schofield TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brookeschofield1 Brooke Schofield YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzCVovj7tfqnV2lIkaVk35A Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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If you have questions or concerns about gambling or someone close to you, please contact Connex Ontario at 1-866-531-2600 to speak to an advisor free of charge then mgm operates pursuant to an operating agreement with iGaming ontario hello and welcome back to the cancelled podcast i'm like a mouse we are so excited to be back i feel like just the two of us we haven't sat on this couch in a minute we've been stacking episodes because of tour but today we are back in it and ready to go yeah we leave again in what two days in two days dude the tour life is getting crazy like i don't even i come here you know what's funny about it is it's like it really isn't like a tour it like technically is because we're going like a lot of different places yeah but it's

like we come home we come home but i've just been like not coming home like just oh yeah that's true you stayed what you went to new york yeah i went to new york for like nine days i want to talk to you about the fact that i literally think we need to move there i would love to move there i would love for you to move there so then it's like oh i have to move to new york it's work and we have a studio we know we could film that uh i feel like it would be really good although now is not the time of year to move to new york i know it's gonna get cold and maybe i won't feel that way but i've just like i'm so finally i think over la yeah we had a long talk about this last night actually we really did it happens to everybody like you were saying you expected it to be kind of like a gradual shift and really it's just like you wake up one day and you're like holy

exactly like i really thought it would like over time i would get slowly over it and i just woke up one day and i was like oh my god this place and i think even the way that we've been touring in all these normal cities like just really opens your eyes to like nowhere else in the world is like this place at all and like it's funny because if you watch any place or any like movie or show that like shows la it's always like it seems like a parody vibe but it's like no that's really like what it's like here yeah we even were talking about that on the last episode a little bit or two episodes ago by the time this comes out like your encounter with like a fake la person and how people like are here you know what i mean yeah it's just like i never want to see another influencer again i never want to go to a tiktok party and have tiktok beef like i swear to god i woke up one day and i was like i'm 30 like that's how i feel you're not 30 and you're well like a

way is away for from 30 but i understand what you're saying where it's like i i do the same thing like people would be like do we want to go to like this birthday party tonight and i'm like i can't go there like i am 26 i've been here for 10 years it hasn't felt like that until as of recently like i'm just like Oh I live in LA Like whatever But like It helps that you're sober So you can see it For what it really is

Versus like Feeling like it's fun When it's not Yeah and I just feel like I woke up one day Like even just within The sobriety And I was like

I need like a change of pace Like I feel like I've hit my like Ceiling here Like I've done Everything I need to do It could also mean That you just like

Need some time away Like maybe it's like It's not that you're done With it forever But like Maybe you need a second to like try something else out I say we go to Nashville for like three months Nashville would be such a slay I think the issue about the other cities that aren't New York I'm really sold on New York is like there's just like not enough work there like I would just be in Nashville like fucking like husking corn like type shit well like you know I mean if you think about it like fucking like husking corn like type shit. Well, like, you know, I mean, if you think about it, like what?

Like we just we could do this in Nashville. We could post a photo in Nashville. We could post a YouTube video in Nashville. Like, really, there's lots of work. That's true. But like just New York, there's so many other. I would love to go to New York. I think that would be amazing.

God, we should have done that like right now so that we could be there for like two months and then come back in time for it to get like frigid. Maybe we go right now. I have to bring Mur murph tana and murph really bonded last night tana was like a little cat mom you were so happy to see me and your cat become like friends i'm really afraid of cats she's not scary she doesn't attack i know but did you could you even notice that if she like put her paw up i would like jump like yeah i'm like that with other cats too because you don't know what another cat's gonna do but i know that she would never like bite or do yeah i've just been attacked by so many cats i don't think cats like because cats are like well cats can sense if you're scared too so then it

like makes them like crazy i guess that's true and i feel like cats are mischievous and i'm mischievous so cats are like no fuck that like i'm i can like i'm the only mischievous person oh you think that's what it is i i just think i'm a dog person, but I was bonding with your cat. I haven't seen you really since we were on tour because I went to New York and we'll get into all of that in a little bit. But I got back yesterday. It was the first time I've seen you since our literal biggest fight we've ever had. It's like actually really crazy and i guess they'll like

probably see it whenever like the tour footage comes out so the thing is is we're shooting a tour documentary right now so not only did we have our biggest possible fight ever but it was on camera and that's a little crazy honestly i'm like ashamed of how this went down it was like really like a little like it's embarrassing it's we're like think like screaming slamming running crying like yeah it was like oh my god like we both need like think everybody at the house of blues like turning around and being like what the fuck is going on in there yeah like we had a wwe smackdown proper in a green room at the house of blues in cleveland i will say i think it solved like i think it did what it needed to do we always do this dude and that's how i know that we're insane

first of all we get in this i'm i just i words can't express how big of a fight this truly was and an hour later you come to my hotel room and you're like look at this tiktok and everyone was like you'll see it's like too much to really explain but like the like catalyst of all of this was like some comments that he made about tana's jorts that she was wearing the fight was a real fight about and it was not about jorts at all but like i kept throwing little jorts jabs in there like we were like you know we we just got into it about some discrepancies of touring and people don't realize how hard it is to tour together as well it is with anyone it's

literally like a relationship like you and i have to both have our standpoints and how we want to travel and how we want to do the show and how we want to do everything and kind of hit a 50 50 compromise in order to make everything work and obviously there are bumps in the road with that and we're learning how to navigate those so we can tour forever so yeah we were we were fighting about some like real shit i was using the jorts to like get my anger out about like something else you know what i mean like i was using the joy like that they were disguised as jort comments but really i was just fucking furious at you this this all just sounds so fucking stupid we're like we're so grown and then it's like grow up like hearing this but we always try to kind of coordinate our outfits

for shows. And just so it's like, you know, because we can have really different styles sometimes. She'll come down in like a fucking floor length gown and I'll be wearing like a tank top and jeans. And I'm like, you couldn't have told me. Exactly. So we had a show where I was giving like Nessa Barrett core, like for love and lemons dress, like big leather boots. And you were like in jeans and like a corset or something yeah so i was like maybe we like talk about it next time right and so i had shown you

my jorts a couple cities i can't even say the word like i never i'm never i'm never saying the word jorts again but i'd shown you my jorts a couple cities prior and you were like oh my god like i have jorts too we could match and i call you for my hotel room and i didn't know she was mad at me for like something else so i call i facetime you and i'm like should i wear my jorts like i don't give a fuck about your jorts i'm gonna drag you by your jorts downstairs and then that was jorts comment one and then i shit you not for the rest of the day i think you made 45 comments okay but like here's the thing i didn't think it was like i thought they were like light-hearted but since you we

like you were already kind of mad at me i feel like you took them as like okay this is like she's weaponizing the jorts and and in my head i was like okay this is like a light-hearted way to like like fizzle out like the other aspect of this fight like i swear to god we'd be at the meet and greet and someone would be like every time anyone said anything to you to me you'd be like and she's in her jorts when it finally like like came to like be an actual fight tana's like and you can't shut the fuck up about the jorts i'm like i haven't said shit about the jorts i'm like i haven't said anything about those jorts and then i go in my tiktok drafts and i had been making like a day in the life tiktok when i tell you every single clip i

reference the jorts in some way and this is just in the tiktok like at a certain point you stopped calling me by my name you started just calling me like jorts is over there like i changed your name in my phone to jorts mcgee and i don't think i've ever ever ever been the type of person to get mad over some shit like that because we always talk about that like we have certain we always make fun of each other like lip flip haha yeah we love to make fun of each other and we always talk about in our friend group and i wear jorts we'll have a little bit you know what i mean like at someone and then they get so mad about it so it's like funnier to just keep fucking with them yeah so i'm i'm very much the type where it's like fuck with me i'm never gonna get mad and that was the

first time i felt like lila like i feel like lila's the type yeah like she's so sensitive over like like stuff that's totally a joke and i literally was like if you bring up my fucking jorts one way i can and i can never wear them again like you actually changed my outlook the jorts it was never about the jorts but i just i'm like you guys just stay tuned and you'll understand yeah you will see in the doc what our actual fight was about but we had a heart-to-heart yesterday and we worked out the little um kinks in the jorts it's just yeah i can actually never wear them But we did like We just We had jorts gate And then we just

Flew home And didn't fucking speak At all Because I was going to New York And you were going to LA We went to New York For nine days And then I guess

We just pretended It didn't happen But like yeah Last time we saw each other We had like actually The biggest blowout fight We've ever had I think it was

You and I are both The type of people Who work so much better If we have time To cool off though So I think it's almost good That we had that like space I have like some

Emotional dysregulation That happens So i need a little time to like start to think it like is it logical or am i screaming over jorts yeah exactly i get that same i just needed to like calm down and then we like talked it out but it's so funny you guys i need to get this off my chest okay oh no i just want to i just want to walk and i'm happy for you okay i just want to say that before i even get into this i'm so happy for you but i just want to walk. And I'm happy for you, okay? I just want to say that before I even get into this. I'm so happy for you. But I just want to walk you even and the people through the feeling that I felt. Okay?

Okay. I get to New York right after George's Gate. Next morning, like, we fight crazy. She comes to my room and we have that little, like, look at this TikTok moment, which was just insane. Like, truly, like, both of us just like be mad longer like you two look insane yeah and then I fly out of Ohio to New York you fly home and so I get to New York and I'm getting ready you know I'm not really like thinking about our fight too much but it's there it's in my head you know and we're both mad at each other still you know and frustrated and upset you text me and you're like guess what just happened to me and i'm like oh

what bro i met adam sandler is the text i get from her and imagine you are so fucking mad at someone and then like you went home and you met adam sandler like i will say like my dick literally got hard at the thought of like me meeting adam sandler when i was already mad at you i i can't imagine i'm sure it was amazing i swear to god brooke i was speechless like and you know i this bitch is never can i can i tell you something crazy yeah is at first i lied at first like i genuinely was lying like i was already i was at the jonas brothers concert and i saw adam sandler's two daughters and so i was like oh my god like what if adam sandler were here so before i even saw adam himself i texted you i said adam sandler is here and i was lying i was literally lying you fucking evil bitch i was lying because i'm like tana is going to die die and then i like go to get like a drink or something and i

saw adam and i literally was sick. I took probably 60 videos of him. I am never speechless. And I swear to God, I didn't talk for two and a half hours. Like it got to the point where like Paige and Jeff and like people around me were like, can you put into words how you feel? Like, you know, do you want to talk about like, how do you feel? And I was just like, obviously, like if I can leave the current moment, I'm happy for you. I love Adam Sandler. Like, you know what I mean? talk about like how do you feel and i was just like obviously like if i can leave the current moment i'm happy for you i love adam sandler like you know what i mean hopefully

my time will come but just like the 48 hours being like our biggest absolute fight ever and now like you're meeting our idol without me and you're like texting me about it i'm like i wasn't even mad i was just like shocked at the state of events like the timeline was just crazy and you know what adam was wearing jorts no honestly saying i even met him is kind of pushing it i honestly i i said hi adam he said hi that was it i would stop talking to like people i'm like very close with to experience that and that's page was trying to like help me out you know being like it's not like they're having like a full-blown conversation. Like, she's just in the room with him.

She's just saying hi. And I'm like, I was just like, Paige, you don't understand. Like, that is my dream. I was so distracted by it, though. Could you smell him? After that, I could barely, no, I couldn't smell him. He was like, he was still, like, probably two arms length away. Like, I didn't, like, I didn't, like, get to, like, really encounter him. But it was just everything.

Because, first of all the jonas brothers concert in itself like that was such a like like inner child like healing thing i told this story on tiktok but like when i was fucking 11 years old this dumb reina in my class she told me she had jonas brothers tickets she said she had an extra one so i went home i i sobbed i was so excited i got completely ready i fucking shaved my legs everything you do when you're 11 years old and a jonas brothers concert is about to happen and she never fucking picked me up okay just go reina never came so were you still friends with her after no i was traumatized i was literally sick that's like horrible behavior where does she work i don't you're so bad like cynthia um no i don't know what happened to reina and

honestly like i forgave her in the years following but it was like really traumatizing and it's like so i was like oh my god i can't believe like live nation invited me i got to like go to the jonas brothers in this experience and then on top of that which was already a high adam fucking sandler's there i was the best night of your life yeah i had to tell you tell you about it honestly well absolutely i was i was going and i have high hopes that one day we're gonna like really get to meet him and actually talk to him and stuff i want it so i want i want to like god i just i wish like his daughters or something were like more accessible where we could like like this is gonna sound so fucking like stuck up and insane of me to say and i don't mean it like that but But just like in my entire life.

I've never wanted someone in the age bracket of his daughters. To be a cancelled fan more. Yeah and I can't imagine that like anyone's raised them. To be a cancelled fan. At all. Like they're doing perfectly fine. Like they are far. Not that there's anything wrong with being a cancelled fan.

But I don't think that that's the journey that they're on. I wish it was. But you know who was a cancelled fan. The two girls who were manning the little vip section that adam sandler was in super fans so did they let you know how that happened they let you in and yeah and then frankie was in there and i was i took a picture with adam i'll have oscar insert the photo but i took a picture like me pointing at adam and then i looked back on him later and frankie's photo bombing every photo that's everything i love frankie Jonas. He's so fucking sweet. He has Tana tattooed on his leg, which I forget about all the time. If I actually like tally up the amount of people who have my name tattooed that I know, it's like a

decent amount. And I just forget. Did he tell you who's doing that or he told you after? No, it was Christmas Eve. Do you think what kind of bet was that that he had to have lost? He posted something where he was like tattooed something like snow it's no offense stupid on him and i commented like my name next or something like something like that i don't really remember and i woke up on christmas eve i was in breckenridge colorado and i was like in my little pajamas and it was snowing outside and i saw that tiktok and i like lost my mind that's so crazy yeah i was like i was freaking out a little too hard i think it was a little i do wish you came to the jonas brothers that was really something else

i went to beyonce i think the day before you went you got to go to beyonce and you got to see the real show which was kylie jenner and timothy chalamet i never get some tea like this in real time absolutely ever so concerts have kind of we've been going to a lot of concerts lately and it's been like just like by luck like random people have just been inviting us to shit but it's been helping me so much with my sobriety because it's like concerts are such a good serotonin like actual fun like sober or not you know so i've been trying to just go to all the ones i get invited to and i get an email that's like boo who wants to invite you to beyonce like i've never worked with

boohoo so I'm like what the fuck like a huge slay I swear to god I think Tarte really did something for my like brand safeness a little bit like I don't know what they did they that concealer is taking me fucking home you know like just more brands that I would usually never work with have been reaching out since Tarte so I was like boohoo wants to take me to Beyonce and I'm like fuck yes let's do it and so they're nice enough to give me a plus one and I was originally gonna take Hunter and then I go to the boohoo showroom with Ari and we're like I'm picking out the boohoo clothes to like wear that night and we overhear one of the boohoo people reading the guest list of people who are going with boohoo to beyonce and they're reading it off and it is dead ass me my plus one um diera and ken which are like a family channel the boohoo staff and the city girls the motherfucking city girl that's it it's so it's essentially me one other like influencer

and her man boohoo staff and the city girls yeah so whoever made that lineup was like off of perk 30 so funny i love when like lucky accidents happen like not that it was an accident and so ari's there and he starts crying he he loves the city girls so much ari's like a city girl super fan it would have been so wrong to not take him yeah so i was like i'm not and and honest to god hunter in that environment just sounds like the worst thing yeah hunter is not a city girl so i was like ari let me make a wish you real quick i'm gonna take you with me let's go and it's so fun because like all the boohoo employees are kind of talking about like when they're gonna get there who's riding in

what car like if jt and karisha are to ride together or not or if they're taking separate cars and all this shit happened ari's just eating it up you know what i mean because it's like just seeing like idols like move in real life fuck you for meeting adam sandler is like crazy and we get there so a suite at a concert is like relatively small so it's like just us and the city girls and the boohoo people and like whatever we're all like together and i didn't really say any words to the city girls i think i offered them like one of my chairs and they were like yeah i want that chair and i was like take the chair like have the chair but i realized that where our suite is is directly in front of like where beyonce's guest list enters to like

see beyonce you know what i mean like the people so like when like how when we went to zach brian like there's the area that's like literally in the middle of the crowd that like if you're on that artist guest list like you watch it from like there you know and i realized that our suite is directly next to that and i realized that because i see justin bieber and hayley like entering and walking up and i'm like oh my god and you know i'm just the believer in these uh gag yes they just celebrated five years congratulations sincerely and i realized that we now have this front row seat to just see all of the celebrities like going oh and that's like the best too because it's like what you can't how are you gonna get in if you don't pass me exactly so i'm just sitting there like watching and i see zendaya and tom holland she's like towering over

him it's so changed my whole perspective on he's like on her back like it changed my whole perspective on like short king of it all i would be with the short king i don't even care like i think that like maybe after seeing that i'm kind of okay with that you know what i mean like just it's it's kind of sweet and and then i noticed that there's like 15 bodyguards like surrounding like three people and i'm like what the fuck is going on who is it and i'm like freaking out and it's it's literally like 10 fucking inches from me and i look up and in between all of the bodyguards is kendall jenner holding hands with kylie with Kylie Jenner and Timothy just walking with them. And I'm like, oh, my God, I'm literally getting a front row seat to their like debut.

Right. Fully. Fully. Yeah, because that was the first time that like Wimbledon or whatever. Not Wimbledon. The US Open hadn't happened yet. So this was like their debut as a couple. So I'm gagged boots.

I literally thought Timothy was like a videographer, though. I'm not even going to lie. Like, yeah, because if you see Kylie in front of of you i don't think you can even really see and he was just in like all black in like a hat like he kind of blended in with the security and then i was like oh my god that's literally timothy chalamet so fucking hot and what was funny is this whole that whole group was like moving like secret service like up to the fucking beyonce guest list and then trailing behind them like three minutes later is just a lone Travis Scott. A lone Travis Scott.

And I was like, there's no. Poor Trav. He's better than I. Like I could never like. I wouldn't come within one billion miles of my ex. And especially if my ex had a new sexy, sexy, sexy, sexy partner. I think Travis is so sexy too. They're just sexy in different ways.

And I obviously the co-parenting of it all probably changes people's like perspectives on like being able to be around do you think that they co-parent though I can't picture like Travis picking Stormi up I don't know I don't know either but Travis comes over to talk to the city girls so I'm like watching him talk to them and I'm like trying to get the tea and like whatever and like listen and it was just yeah I don't want to like i'm i'm walking a thin line right now like i get scared when i actually feel like i'm exposing some real celebrity tea and like they're gonna yeah i think it's but it's better sometimes to stick to what like the public already kind of knows yeah but i said otherwise people are gonna be scared of us forever i spent the

entire concert watching beyonce through kylie and timothy's eyes and it was just great and i love that i remember uh i saw a concert one time that chris jenner was watching too and i was i was trying to experience it as chris jenner exactly like when we went to billy eilish and justin bieber was there i literally don't think i looked at billy one time i just watched at all and they were all cuddled up watch it i like i love how much people will talk about how like justin hates hailey and then like did you see what he what he posted for their five year yes his caption like how sweet it was and like the words he chose i'm like he loves her i think they're i think they're perfectly fine and the world just has so much to say you know what i mean i know do you

think they just laugh about it i wonder she's so much better than me someone says like the most minor thing about me like and i'm like yeah like i'd be like actually like questioning my man me too i'd be like why don't you look at me like that yeah that's right i moved into a new apartment finally have windows finally have light murphy can see outside and that canceled revenue is a banging i went to your apartment yesterday and my job was on the literal fucking floor it's so nice it's a very nice apartment i'm very excited about it i feel so happy there but i did have like a funny realization the other day as i'm driving through the parking garage and i almost get hit with a bright orange lamborghini

and only one motherfucker has a bright orange lamborghini just like the funniest person to accidentally live in my building ever harry jowsey harry jowsey is your neighbor what do you think's gonna come of that probably nothing imagine i'm like come downstairs that would be such a sight living in an apartment building with people that i could oh my god yeah that was like like honestly brings me back to the dorms like oh that used to be so fun being like okay yeah i'll be up in 20 yeah that's a slay like it was so fun i keep saying to tana like i wish everybody could move all into my building and then we could all just live there and have our different places i think after this house i am going to become an apartment girly

like just because the security outside and the stalker just to have to pay for your own security versus just like that coming with the apartment is crazy yeah like it's just it would save me a lot of money and and stress and just living in fear 24 7 i feel so safe i can watch anything i want on netflix now without having to think about like is someone gonna murder me my last apartment actually i never told this story on canceled because i was scared but i got literally attacked in the elevator at my last apartment by like this stupid fucking idiot steroid fucking stupid guy what happened you know you don't know this story he he's like something's definitely like a little off i remember when this happened but i don't remember the story i would always see him like following me like if i got out like to check the mail or something like i would see him like

linger and wait around for me to get in the elevator like he would like not go up to his apartment so he would always like hang around and be watching me so it's already like kind of weird and then one day he like pulled into the garage and i pulled in behind him because it was open obviously because he had just pulled in and he stopped and he's like waving out the window like looking at me funny and i'm like what the fuck like so it's just weirded out and i went i was parked all the way on the bottom floor of my old apartment and so i waited in my car for like 15 minutes because i just had a weird feeling and i was like i just don't like want to encounter him in the elevator at all so i waited until i knew he would have been in his apartment he was

on p2 i was on p4 i was all the way on the bottom there's no reason we should run into each other in the elevator yeah the elevator opens and he's in it and so he like waited in the elevator yeah he waited 15 minutes i sat in my car so he just went up and down and up and down until i finally called it down to p4 immediately i just went crazy i was like why the fuck are you in the elevator like i just waited 20 minutes to avoid you because like i i was scared i was like what like why did you wait for me i said that i was like why did you wait for me he goes starts freaking out saying you don't fucking live here i'm like this is my garage opener that's my car that's my parking spot this is my apartment like what do you mean i don't live here good for you for like because i always say that like when guys are staring at me or guys make me uncomfortable it's so hard and

scary to like stare back or confront them back but like it's what you know i had to i'm in the elevator so then i tell him too i'm like don't pretend you don't know i live here because i've seen you following me i saw you do this i saw you do this i've seen you a hundred times being a fucking creep which is a terrifying encounter just alone in an elevator yeah so then i immediately i call like my building manager in the building i lived in was like not secure at all like there's one girl who works there and i'm not kidding she's had so many family emergencies that i can't imagine she has any family members left oh my god she has never ever i could literally tell her like someone just smashed all four of my windows in and held me at gunpoint and she'd be like okay well i'll see what i can do about it later like it was so bad

so i told her about it and she was like okay i'll have a talk with him i go what do you mean you're gonna have a talk with him he just fucking screamed at me scared the shit out of me i went and i went into the lobby because i didn't want him to know what floor i lived on and he followed me out into the lobby he's like wait like he just was like freaking out i would have called the police that's terrible yeah no so she was like i'll have a talk with him i go what do you mean to have a talk with him so then another crazy because la police i always talk about this and i'll get into this in a second because i have a whole tangent but they just don't care at all unless like somebody literally shot you like they're not coming yeah another girl in my apartment complex has another has an encounter with him like that but he

literally shoves her in the elevator and because like something like she was like he said she was being rude or something he they have this whole altercation she tells the building manager about it again just says oh I'll have a talk with him then he keys her car nothing doesn't get evicted and then on the day that i'm moving out i have my movers come and i'm letting them in it's like three movers and me and i had had like one interaction with him after our like first really bad thing where it was just like kind of pleasant i just like gave him a head nod he gave me a head nod and i was like whatever i'm just not gonna like deal with this guy yeah so i was like you know what i'll just be nice i got in the elevator i go excuse me and he goes do you not fucking know elevator etiquette why the fuck are you getting in if i haven't even gotten out yet

like what like why the fuck just like starts going crazy and he's like he's just how old do you think he is i don't know he's like this gym guy like so clearly on steroids like something's like so wrong with him and my movers are with me and he's screaming at me and go what the fuck so i texted a building manager It was my last day So I had nothing to lose I go I promise you

If I don't find out That this guy gets evicted Like I'm literally Gonna personally like Smash all four of his windows And keys 100% Like everybody is unsafe

Like all the girls Who live in that building Are unsafe Because he's attacked He's attacked me Another girl Keyed a girl's car And hasn't gotten evicted

What the fuck do you mean That's awful That's actually fucking awful Like she just does nothing about it and so i was like scared to live there but i didn't want to talk about it on the podcast because i still lived there have you ever on the podcast talked about your weird stalker no but i'm still a little freaked out about that because she i know she watches the shit are you ever gonna see her again probably not i guess i can this story to me is fucking mind-blowing i just want this apartment in general like this apartment like it was such a nice apartment but the whole like everything about it was just like a little like

something was off yeah and i had met this girl like she was moving in and i met her outside and so she she was like oh i just moved from out of state Like I gave her my number because I was like oh you're New here like I just wanted her to have like A contact or whatever she started Like texting me constantly and stuff and I was just being Nice to her or whatever yeah she would text Me randomly she had a cat so she was like oh I Got like this for your cat like can I come

Drop it off and she'd come over and like stay for Hours and I was just like oh like Okay like whatever yeah at that point It's still just kind of like oh maybe she yeah and she Was so nice like it was fine But then she would like randomly say stuff Sometimes or I was like um like You're lying what was like she would like make

Up stories like she'd be like yeah like I saw Noah back today I literally saw Noah Back today and he like asked me for my number and I said No and then like like just like all this stuff That I'm like that didn't wasn't she like low-key beat No yeah And now'm like that didn't happen wasn't she like low-key beat no yeah and no like noah beck didn't ask for her number yeah the only reason i'm saying that is because of what you're gonna say that like proceeds she was nice and like honestly harmless i never like we didn't really get to know each other it was just very much like she's

my neighbor whatever and one time i'm leaving and i'm like i usually have the other brook watch my cat because that's the easiest but she doesn't live like nearby so it's like hard and I want Murphy to have somebody who can just like come down and check on her easy yeah so I had this girl watch my cat and I was like can you just like come downstairs feed her you know like yeah that's it like she lives upstairs all she has to do is come downstairs feed her maybe play with her for like a second some neighborly shit yeah I was only gone for a couple days yeah I come home after being gone and she first of all the cat doesn't have any water and i'm like that was literally your only job was to give her food

and water and weren't your like clothes no yeah so then i go i'm like that's kind of strange whatever i go upstairs and she had tried on my clothes because like the way that i like i know where every single little i know every single pair of jeans i could close my eyes and name them all in order like i know everything about your denim rack means a lot yeah and so like they were like rearranged i was like oh did like she tried on my clothes and so it's like kind of weird yeah really weird no that's that's that's it for me that's where i'm done so then i'm like oh like that's kind of awkward but whatever like maybe she wanted something to wear and it's like whatever she's watching my cat you can wear a

fucking outfit so then but but i had a two-story apartment there's no reason she should have even been upstairs yeah so then i come downstairs and i'm i turn on the tv and my recent youtube searches are brooke scofield drama clinton kane brooke scofield like she was searching me on my own and you're sure that wasn't you off of xanax i know i'm positive i forget where i was but i was somewhere or i think i was in no it was like we were on i think we were on a trip somewhere but it's like there's no reason i would never search those things and so i was like first of all how does she even know my last name like yeah i've never shared any information but i don't i didn't tell her i had a podcast i didn't tell her social media i like she knew nothing about me also like clear your search history if you're gonna do that yeah and so i was like that's kind of strange

and i was like you're searching me in my own house whatever then i go to drive my car i can't reach the pedals and i'm like this bitch drove my fucking car she has the nicest car too there's no reason that she should be driving my car but she drove my car and my cat will push things off the counter so i had my keys like tucked away in a drawer meaning she had gone through all my drawers found the keys drove the car and at this point i'm telling you like file a police report this girl wants to wear your skin like a fucking onesie she's a murderer i think just you know how i am like the level of paranoia like if i see two if there's two stalkery red flags in a row like that's it for me like i think this person is gonna kill me like whatever you continue to engage with her i know but because again it was

another thing where it's like okay i still live in this building I run into her Constantly by the way I've never seen hardly at all another person who even lives in this building But I see her constantly she's everywhere all the time Didn't something happen with like Dior or Chanel and then you went to her apartment Oh she told me she was like yeah someone had um broken into my car This is crazy she was like someone broke into my car they stole three ramoas they store stole my do our bag they stole this this and this and i'm like okay that's crazy she would like tell these elaborate stories like to get me to because i never would respond to her and she would get like say things that i had to respond to she'd be like oh my god i just got robbed and i'd be like oh shit she did she did get robbed she sent me a video of her getting robbed

but i'm like ramoas do your bag i happen to remember that she had sent me a photo of her apartment and she had no furniture like just a mattress on the living room floor and our apartments were like really nice apartments there's no reason that she should have no furniture and that's like serial killer to me like I don't know not having no furniture I'm not saying having no money is serial killer but moving into this nice ass building having only a mattress on the floor. And not even bothering. And she had told me like random stories. Like she told me how all of her exes

had a restraining orders on her, which is already like, why? And just like weird vibes. So then like, even after this whole car driving thing, she asked me to watch her cat. And then I was like, perfect. I'm going to go through all her shit fully. I'm going to go through her her shit fully i'm gonna go through

her entire apartment bouncing it off like i have to like let the way that this makes me feel like out physically and so i was like because she had gone like she had like been so invasive in mind and i'm like okay like perfect i want to go see what this girl's about crazy that you went like how to catch a killer on this bitch like get the fuck out of her apartment bro no but but tana i i go in there when i tell you there is not one item she's lived there for six months not one item but a mattress nothing no clothes no nothing her cat does i i texted her and no wonder she was trying on her aritzia jeans i was thinking about stealing like taking the cat honestly and i know that sounds so horrible but i was like the cat like the cat had not one toy nothing to scratch cats like get whisker fatigue and they can't like eat out of

certain bowls like they have to be like she just the cat was suffering and i was like oh my god it cannot live in these conditions like there's no there's nothing for it to jump on there's no furniture nothing it's just a mattress how the fuck have you lived in an apartment for six months with no mattress and who the fuck stole your ramoas and your bag if you don't have a couch so i didn't even have anything to go through because she had nothing in her apartment except a cat and a mattress now have you like it's at bay right like like are you like do you talk to her like it's i like i don't know i would still run into her and say hi and like i feel like something definitely is like maybe wrong with her a little like i think she's just like socially like a

strange person but it just really weirded me out i was like and i try to have empathy for people that are like that in like socially but those people to me are the people who end up being stalkers yeah that's the thing and i'm i'm the type of person to end up getting skinned alive because i have too much like empathy for the people who like gave me all the signs like if she's fucking wearing your clothes and searching your name and driving your car like why are you engaging with her so but i was just so non-confrontational and i was like i knew i wanted to move out anyway so i was like i'll just like ride out my lease and now i'm fine but she's asking me like yeah where are you moving i'm like i don't know like can i tell you what this just reminded me of yeah that i've been meaning to talk to you about but i've just been internalizing it because i'm not even kidding you

i do not possess the bandwidth to allow something else in my life to make me paranoid or stressed or anything of that sort right like I'm not kidding you I've been just like pretending this isn't happening to me right with my stalker right now and what's going on right now like I am at capacity I will get into that in a second yeah because a new development happened last night that I just really don't like a couple months ago you know I was really struggling with my relationship with alcohol and even just relationships with certain people and environments I should or shouldn't put myself in or so on and so forth right and there was a day where I had just made a array of horrible decisions like I just went out all night and this was kind of at the very

end where i was like okay i'm going i'm not drinking i'm going so many this was i yes it was within the same two days of the the ponytail where you know the ponytail is a crazy way of putting this but essentially i i was out all night i made horrible decisions i came back to the house at 2 p.m no sleep like clip-on ponytail in my hand like the night of the turks episode like oh we shot the turks up yeah because that's when you had that we shot the turks and keikos episode and obviously i was going through it i cried in that episode like whole nine and that night i went out and just like when i'm going through a lot like yeah when i'm going through a lot i know myself i'm very like i can either be super straight edge about it and like

smart about it or like i'm abusing substances and i'm awful and that i that was just the i'd really hit the ceiling of everything i was going through and i just really was not good to myself like that night yeah and i know that and i came back the next day and i had trevi over and i'm really really really grateful for trevi because i like i was at the point where it was like if i stopped drinking cold turkey i felt like i was gonna like have Trevi because I like I was at the point where it was like if I stopped drinking cold turkey, I felt like I was going to like have a seizure. And yeah, like I was just shaking and like withdrawing and like just a lot of really dark shit was going on that like week or month. And I was like, OK, I'm you know, I need to be sober and I have Trevi over and we're just having this deep conversation. And it's crazy the way our relationship has come so full circle.

Trevi and I like everything trevi went through with her struggles with alcohol and we we were just really talking about it and i i just i look up to her so much and i really like resonate with people who struggle with substance abuse and i always want to be there for people like that but i found myself in that situation kind of yeah i'm going to be there for me and i decide in that moment while i'm talking to trevi i'm like i'm going to get an iv right and this iv nurse comes over and she's giving me an iv and i'm talking to trevi just about like i think i want to be sober for a while like i just want to really get my life on track and like raw dog all these feelings and work through them and yeah instead of like drowning it out exactly and just asking trevi questions

like you know what i mean like what how do i wean off of alcohol like what do i do here like what's your advice you know and trevi just giving me advice and the iv nurse starts kind of chiming in like giving me all this medical advice of like what would happen if i went to the hospital for it or if i wanted to do it at home or you know all this just vulnerable ass advice and in my head i'm kind of like okay like i appreciate this but it was kind of a conversation i was having with just yeah it's kind of it's kind of like, okay, like, I appreciate this, but it was kind of a conversation I was having with just. Yeah, it's kind of one of those things where you'd rather somebody just not be even. But I am like crying and I'm down bad. So at the same time.

Yeah. So maybe she was just trying to be helpful. She's very motherly. And I'm like appreciating this at the same time. And I'm like, what a nice lady, like so on and so forth. The conversation eventually turns into her telling me that her husband had just died like a year ago from alcohol withdrawals like he went cold turkey and he sees and he died well that's not a good thing to say

so to somebody who's afraid of withdrawing and it's just a crazy coincidence like what are the odds that i'm having this whole spiral and she happened to yeah and this is the whole coincidence arc that we'd already talked about so i was like this is so interesting and then she's like I have a podcast about it like with my son and I'm like that's awesome that's really amazing that like you and your son are making a podcast about how you know losing your husband and father affected you and whatever and we just have this like two and a half hour conversation like the IV's done like she doesn't leave like so on and so forth I'm like oh I have a podcast like blah blah blah whatever and this has never happened in my life where an iv nurse is like we exchange phone numbers and whatever right and i really appreciated her no i didn't fuck with it which we'll get into in

a second i happen to have sex with another nurse of mine that's a that's another story um god damn it i'm good now i just want to say that i'm good now this was a dark couple months okay i give her my number and she starts texting about it and i respond a couple times because i'm like you know i just had this three hour conversation with this woman you know i text her my name and whatever i don't know i just want to show you the scrolls and i'm responding still but it gets to a point yeah it's giving psycho neighbor do you see these novels oh my god it's not that's like bad i hate when people make me regret being like like nice and and that sounds so bad because obviously you want to be nice to everybody but like when you know when you like really are nice to the kind of like strange person and then they end up

like making you regret it read you this one that i haven't even ever read until right now i'm a little high for my nighttime sleep meds but i was thinking about lunch do you want to do lunch for reals if you were serious i know you have a busy calendar we should actually put something down on the calendar whatever so i'm down for any type of food i'm a night also later like it's like it's a novel it's a text so big you have to click to open it about oh lunch oh maybe she's alone I know and that's where it's I know but you have to have some sort of like professional boundary I think well and then the other day I noticed that someone in my TikTok DMs is sending me all these TikToks oh it's her and

it's her and I'm just like obviously I know i'm easy to find and she has my name and so on and so forth but like and i want to be nice but it's just i don't have the bandwidth for the capacity of this potentially being like it's also just overwhelming like she knows you're already going through it like that's a whole additional now like thing you're thinking about i don't know i get like a lot of pressure from like feeling like i have to respond to people and like feeling like bad that i don't sit like i feel like with that neighbor like even though she was creepy as fuck i felt so bad and like she would she would text me and be like oh i bought i bought you this like i'm leaving this for your cat like i'm like get your cat a toy please yeah

she got me a gift card like a really like a big gift card and i was like thank you like it was she was nice that's why i felt bad but i just get scared because that's how things can just go so awry i don't know so like i'll keep you posted on the ivy nurse yeah see you're never gonna get skinned alive i might i don't know about if i am or if i'm not anymore i dude so i mean i've like alluded to it on this podcast a million times about how I have like a really fucking serious stalker right now and it's like the first time in my life where it makes my OG stalker genuinely feel like a piece of cake like I can take him like in comparison to this

person and their build and the things they've been doing and I don't know how much I've told hardly anything about like this this stalker started four years ago three years ago when i lived at weed lake like when i lived in the big like hype house clout house like fucking those houses when i lived there and i totally know that with only fans comes the ability of people talk to you all day every day and they think that they know you and if somebody maybe isn't mentally fully well they begin to think that they have like a really a real relationship with you that they're really dating you and that they they can show up to where you are and they whatever and i i know that's like i i feel bad even bitching about it because i think that is unfortunately one of the prices that you pay with something like that, you know? And it started with him really doing that to me and Ashley and messaging us like, like,

I know that Ashley went to some Korean barbecue and he sent her a photo of her across the street and was like, I saw you at Korean barbecue. Like, how are you? I did not know that. And so like a couple of days later or whatever, he sends a photo of him hiking the hill that our house was on with like a knife like knifing at like some rocks to like get through to where our house was and just sending photos of him like in the hill like dirt all over his face like scary like you know what i mean like i'm i'm by your house like and i'm by your house is crazy it's

one thing to be on the street and by our house it's like you had to like your house in the bushes in the mountains and there it's not even like a hiking trail it's like really getting there was like actually like you're in the fucking mountain like yeah mountain scary and so that's what I hire security at that point and then we have all these encounters where he just keeps showing up to like where we are and so on and I've noticed this pattern with every stalker I've ever had where they like go in waves like they'll be doing a bunch of shit like that and then go radio silent i would almost be scared when they're silent it's like where are you no and it's exactly it's like and then they come back and they start doing it again every time i've moved within the first month of me moving this person makes it so known that like i know your

new address and i know where you are like when i was living in david dobrik's house for like a little bit he like left a letter on the gate and like i remember that and i'd only been in dobrik's house for two weeks from like where i just yeah that's the thing like how the fuck are you finding that out what was the oh the pizza's here and i know that david's house is like that is like yeah you can find but even that like there was a security camera outside and he perfectly like walked and weaved to set the note like right where it like wasn't in the eyeline of the security you know what i mean yeah of the cameras then i moved to the next house same thing he shows up immediately and that one is like

nowhere to be found online like and i like do all this shit with my like people like with my team where i put my house in like an alias so like if you look up like tana mojo house it's not on like white pages yeah or like shit like that so it's like i'm doing all these precautions and he's still finding it immediately and like that house i hadn't even posted yeah it's almost like he's like looking at the view like looking at like and i hadn't even posted that house like ogden like i hadn't even posted it when he found out right and then so I'm just hiring 24 secure 24 hour security which is so upsetting because it's like fucking so fucking expensive and if you if you tally it out it makes sense why it's that much you're paying

someone 24 hours a day to sit outside of your house with a gun like it's not like I'm being like overcharged but it's just so frustrating and so then when i move from ogden to the next house and everyone's like you move so much yeah like duh and i specifically choose this house that is on a hill like every celebrity lives on this fucking specific hill it's very like hard to find hard to get to like yeah very like weeding and winding yeah and i picked this house with no backyard no separate entrances no like windows like there is one no service no service um there's there's um one front door like i'm not even kidding you if i was in that house and the house was burning down i would have to like jump off the balcony like like i'd probably die like there was no other like entrances there was just this one front door

and i specifically chose this house for like that reason like it just felt like fort knox like the way it was and then within like a week of moving in there under my alias there's flowers to my door there's a big fucking thing of flowers and at this time i'm like talking to this fucking tiktok boy and i'm so excited because i think he's like sending me flowers and all this shit of the i'm trying to figure out who these flowers are from for like days and i'm just like this is so weird because it's like an abundance of flowers like i want to know who they're from yeah and then i don't want to text the wrong boyfriend and be like thanks babe honestly maybe you do i think i would have sent them to all my boyfriends and be like oh my god so sweet so they feel threatened

i don't know how to say this but this person's initials is a really common acronym that you text like really really really really common lol wait what's his name i forgot it's something that you say all the time to the point that i thought it was like someone using this acronym oh in the thing you know what i mean and then one day it just clicks to me and i'm like there's no fucking way this motherfucker already found my house, whatever. Next day, a jar delivered to my door. And the jar is filled with all of these folded in half notes that are like reasons why I love you and like reasons to be happy.

And like, there's like a thousand. And I filmed this. Eventually, if I ever want to put it out there, I film myself like opening the jar and the notes, whatever. I call 911, I call the police. The 911 operator is so fucking mean to me i will never forget this day in my entire life like i call and they're like it's not a crazy boyfriend like are you sure it's not and i've had police i in just the dismissiveness

oh it pisses me off so bad i've had that kind of thing like the police are just straight up grilling me on the fact of like are you sure it's not like a boyfriend and then they find out what you do for a living and they're like well it's your fault you put your whole life out there like you know what i mean like blah blah blah i'm like what do you mean and so then i'm out What you do for a living And they're like Well it's your fault You put your whole life out there Like you know what I mean Like blah blah blah And I'm like What do you mean And so then I'm like Can you guys come by

Can I file a police report And they're like Yeah we can come Tomorrow between Five and nine p.m. And I'm like Oh I have to leave Like I'm getting on a flight

You know like Is there any way You guys could come now Like they just dropped it off Like right now Yeah like he knows Where I live fully Is there anything

I can do right now and they're like well it seems like you don't really care about it it seems like you don't really like what i'm like what do you mean i don't care about it like i'm just you know like this whole thing so when i hire security full-time again and it's so expensive and the head of my security is kind of like tana i'm sorry but no one's ever gonna care especially in la unless there is a body or a weapon and like that's just your truth and that's just unfortunately the life you have to live and then i post on my social media a couple days later that i'm really craving mango with chamoy and tahini but i don't have chamoy and a couple days go by and i'm getting my makeup done i'm sitting in the glam show with alexis and chris miles is over and i'll just never forget this because doorbell rings and it's an amazon delivery and an anonymous amazon delivery and it

is enough chamoy for a hundred people i'm talking really sweet leaders everyone makes that joke and it makes me sick like hunter was like i know it's not funny like no i'm not even kidding you it's like it's like 25 bottles of chamoy like this big and i'm sitting there and that's why you're so different than i me because i would have been like oh if you but if you but it is you're right it's it's scary and everyone is like tana your stalker did not send this like you were on xanax and you ordered chamoy on amazon like get a fucking grip and i'm like you guys i did not know like no like this is so you coded and it really is like i love to just like order some shit on amazon i'm sure there's been a couple things like throughout the years

that you might have like accidentally done to yourself absolutely but just no one believes me and i'm like i want to call the police and chris miles is like what are you gonna say call 911 and be like there's hella chamoy like honestly so true like oh my god there's chamoy on my doorstep yeah like no one's whatever stalker messages me a couple days later like did you get your chamoy and i'm like fuck everyone fuck you guys no one believed me so on and so forth this keeps happening now with like snacks and amazon deliveries and we we go into trying to get the am like calling amazon and like trying the flower companies and trying and all of it's anonymous and they can't track anything without a police report and so on and so forth

and they can't track anything without a restraining order. You can't give information out about somebody. And I can't get a restraining order filed for the life of me because this person also doesn't have a place of residency. They live out of their car and it's this whole thing. And then my security keeps saying, we think we're seeing this car drive by and we've tried to stop it down,

but it just drives away, whatever. And the police are never gonna serve a restraining order to a car like that's yeah it's just not a thing i've tried so many times so on and so forth i move into this house this is right around the time of the iv nurse i'm really going through it and i decide that i'm going to get an air like i've lived in this house for like three days and i decide that I'm going to get an Airbnb. Like I've lived in this house for like three days. And I decide that I'm going to get an Airbnb in Malibu. And just get the fuck out of LA for a second. Like as much as I can to my ability. Because I'm just working so much.

I really want to be sober. There's so much going on around me. Like I just needed no outside influences. You know? And I just needed to like be alone myself in like a little beach house. And just like have a couple days to like think and breathe. And I'm about to like be alone myself in like a little beach house and just like have a couple of days to like think and breathe. And I'm about to walk out the door to go to this beach house in Malibu. And I notice that on the doormat wedged into the doorknob, wedged into the front gate

doorknob and on all over Paige page's car page's car that was parked outside are these business cards with the name of the person who has been bothering me damn how do you have business cards he's saying on the business card that he's like a handyman and this is like his phone number and so on and so forth i know for a fact he's not and i think that this was his goal to get like maybe like i just hired a new employee robin like maybe to get robin to see it and think you like need one to like let him in or something or like something like that i don't know yeah all these business cards and it's also again just him saying like you've moved again and within the first week i know where you live like how are you finding out how are you finding out so fast whatever i go to the beach house in malibu and it's scary out there like there's there's not a lot of service like how are you gonna have all that money in no service

malibu and like it's dark as fuck like it's just like whatever like i'm out there and within my like first eight hours of being there he messages me drone shot photos of the beach house i'm staying in yeah that's fucking crazy and he's like it looks amazing like the view and that's the thing all of this is like the way he's like saying everything is like from a place of love like he's like my boyfriend like looks amazing are you enjoying the beach yeah that's the thing he's not like threatening in any way so that's why it's also kind of strange because it's like he maybe like maybe just thinks he's being like nice and doesn't realize like you know like that we don't know each other personally it's like scaring the shit out of me obviously and that's where it gets into like the whole thing whatever and so i'm like are you fucking kidding

me like i just want three days of peace i just wanted to like get away from my house and like hope nothing happens and like you know like are you fucking kidding me? Like, I just want three days of peace. I just wanted to like get away from my house and like hope nothing happens. And like, you know, like, are you fucking kidding me? Yeah. So we all leave the house and we go to dinner and we're at this dinner in Malibu. It was like me, Amari, Ashley, like everyone had like come out to the Malibu house

and we all decided to go to dinner. And in the last minute, Amari was like, I don't really want to go to dinner. I think Ty was going to dinner and he was like fighting with Ty or like whatever. And he was like, I'm just going to chill back at the Airbnb like and sit here, whatever. We're at the restaurant and Amari calls us and he's like someone just rang the doorbell like did you guys order anything did you guys order

postmates and i'm so on edge about the stalker as is you know what i mean i'm like no amari call the police lock the door like do whatever yeah and amari goes up to the top balcony and looks down into the road and fully just like sees the stalker in his car like we all know what he looks like we all know what his car looks like he's just sitting outside like he came and rang the doorbell amari like went to the doorbell and was like hello and could see feet under the door and he just said nothing and got back in the car and whatever and i'm like i have to get out of this airbnb immediately this is so fucking annoying i paid so much money to just have like a couple days of peace before I go on tour

and like relax and like whatever. So we come back there. I call my security to meet with me. We pack up the Airbnb and I get home to my doorstep and I feel like I get a notification that the doorbell rang. I'm trying to connect to the camera.

No one's on the camera. So it's like someone carefully rang the doorbell, like not in front of the camera. And I get home to like six heart-shaped pizzas yeah i saw i remember because you left him outside and i saw the heart-shaped pizza so i'm like what the fuck is this he messages me like i hope you enjoy your pizza and so it's like what oh it's like i you oh that's so scary it like me i'm hoping it isn't scary and he is just like he

really thinks that you guys are in love but i mean i would be scared too but it just like it's not sustainable you can't be paying three or thirty thousand dollars a month for security like he needs to be arrested or at least like the police i'm trying not even arrested but like somebody just needs to like reprimand him in some way and be like listen this is not you can't do that and there's obviously like illegal ways to go about that like i could have my security like stalk the stalker and like show but that's like a whole thing where it's like you can't do that and so i hired a private investigator to try to like find him and i'm spending all this money and time on that as well which is just so frustrating like i like have because the police care so little that

i'm having to get a private investigator to like stalk him down and catch him stalking me down yeah so that you have evidence so that they care yeah yeah which is just fucking insane that like i can't just get a restraining order on this person and it's like they don't care and it's yeah but it is hard because how can you say like oh oh no he sent me chamoy and flowers and pizza like but yeah it isn't that way but i it is And so last night He sent me photos Of this like little Shed Shed He built

At least he's moving up But like Where is the shed Am I going to end up You sent in a group chat Literally today He's messaged me Good morning

Basic dance steps Hope you had a wonderful day My love I love you for being you He sent me like Weird sexual shit Tanamaria Mojo Wait It appears that the

shed is in in the house or in a backyard does he have a yard and like so maybe that's what he does for a oh he unsent those did he why did he unsend them I have it here I send them to Amari and all he says back to me is have you ever seen the movie the lovely bones okay why would he say that and i i literally i was sobbing last night wait i want to look at his um why would he unsend them can he see that i like looked at the message like do you know what i mean like when someone sends you like image sent and message requests are covered tap to see blurred image like can he see that i tap to know as long as you've've never accepted his message request. Oh, he follows me too. I wonder if he's ever messaged me. Why would he?

Just the shed of it all. Oh, he does. What did he say to you? Why does Tana appear as though she was edited into this photo? Sometimes he'll send random digs at me too. Like when I put the brunette hair on my story, he like randomly was like, now that I'm seeing it in the light,

you look like a five out of 10. I was like, so like. Do you love me or do you not? I don't know, dude. I don't know. It is. The shed is just really sending me over the edge. Like, what?

See, this would never be a problem if you just moved into the penthouse in my building and you just lived your little apartment life. And it just sucks so bad. I'm so safe now. Because I, like, love having a house. And I just don't think I can, at least in LA. Ugh, I want you to do New York. I want you to do New York so then I have an excuse to go to New York for like a month.

I have to bring the cat though. I'm learning or teaching her to learn or to walk on a leash. She's brilliant. Every time I talk about it, I get so stressed out and like paranoid to live my life, which I absolutely hate. And I hate it affects everyone else too. Like Paige was freaking out about her car and like. Yeah.

Wasn't he really creepy to Ashley too? Really creepy to Ashley. Like it's been like to me and Ashley for the most most part which and now we like live in the same house so it's like i feel like he's like oh my god yay because he was sending her hella mail to her apartment too at the time that he was sending me stuff so now it's like oh i can just do it all at one address like my girls are there and it's like oh my god i don't know oof i just really want him to stop do you remember on the last episode we shot together how i was telling you a story about how i saw a guy that i literally fucked at the gym and like he didn't

really recognize me without makeup or whatever and i i don't know if i had said that like i would hook up with him again but like at the time that i like that all happened i was saying in real life to like page and i think you i was like i would hook up with him again like i saw him at the gym like yeah well obviously because otherwise you wouldn't have hid from him so I tell you the story right and again I'm on my like weird coincidences shit I was like it's so weird that I was talking about him and then I see him at the gym and like all this shit and whatever and then the next day I woke up to him and keep in mind this man is not an influencer at all like he is like a childhood friend of one of my best friends like that's how I met him i met him in vegas like

very much vegas friend affiliated and then he ended up moving out here but he moved out here not to like be in the scene but then i think he like changed his mind he's like i want to be in the scene i want to be famous like whole nine right he went on another one of it's ari's childhood friend he went on ari's childhood friends podcast and told a whole and this podcast gets like a hundred views that was the guy yes he went right after i see him at the gym like randomly coincidentally had gone in that same week on a childhood friends like podcast and told a whole story about hooking up with me with like all these lies yeah and you know what's crazy is a girl that i know commented on it and was like

this is embarrassing or like something like saying something mean about you yeah like saying that it was like yeah she's like some vegas like sorry i met her i met her when we did i did the like evil on gorya thing in vegas yeah like she's just some like micro influencer in vegas who apparently just doesn't like me i don't know i don't know why she was like publicly mean about you i'm like god at least do it i think she fucks him oh so she was like no i think she's a boyfriend or she used to i don't i don't even know i just thought it was crazy i was like damn he goes on this podcast in the same week like it had to have been before i see him at the gym randomly and tell do you think he was like yeah and tells this whole story about hooking up with me and says

that i left my hair extensions in his bed now and i know we just sold the whole clip on ponytail story but here's the thing i have tape in extensions they're very hard to get out unless i'm like in turks and cacos underwater for a week they're not just coming out flying out the sex no i'm with him on this one i can't express to you enough how painful it is to me That he said this Because it is a blatant lie To get my taping out in Las Vegas

In dry ass weather Would never happen The sex was not giving Paris France France Rough Pull my hair

If I left it If a taping extension did come out I would right then and there Like put it into my purse Or throw it away I would never just leave it In someone's bed Yeah

And like You're not an animal i think it's one thing maybe for an influencer to say they hooked up with me and they already but to like make that be like the start you're trying to jump start your career like that yeah that's just embarrassed it's embarrassing in general to go on to a podcast and be like yeah i fucked this person i guess we do that never by name we don't never by name no i'll tell a story about someone i'm never gonna say their name i'm never talking about someone i hooked up with i said this to dave portland i'm never talking about someone i hooked up with unless they bring it up first whatever and it was just like so and ari was so mad and like defensive because ari like knows him and grew

up with him and was like you're not gonna do my sis like that like what the fuck is wrong with you but like how weird is It that like as I was talking About seeing this guy on the podcast it sucks That that's such a believable story Because like You know I would have watched that and been like yeah This checks out I'm there

I'm not maybe I would leave a hair extension in like Chris Miles's bed yeah but I would never Leave a hair extension in a stranger's bed And we hooked up like years ago one time yeah so like what are the odds that like the same time that he's moved to la it's been years later and you just happen to run into him in that same week that he happened to have gone on the podcast and happened to have talked about you and my biggest fear is like my vegas ex-boyfriend whomst i adore seeing that and being like what the fuck like whole nine

so like he deleted it i just thought it was a weird coincidence that i would like that is a weird coincidence ari and i went and um grabbed a drink before this and i was like literally making ari like dromey because i don't i hate going on dates i have to drink before a date and i know that's so bad but i literally have to because like just the mechanics of it like i can have a conversation but like the actual act of like physically getting there and meeting somebody for the first time and like all of that like makes me so nervous and anxious like i cannot handle it i'm going on a date but here's my issue i just recently told a story about this like stupid idiot rat on this podcast that ghosted me and i realized don't talk to a guy who just got out of a relationship okay that was a new rule i made

for myself uh-huh and then i set a date with this guy and find out that he just got out of a relationship like so and like a very serious one uh-huh so i'm like god am i gonna just set myself up for failure again i hope not i really hope not can we say what he does or like anything like that or no i've had a crush on him since i was 11 is he the park guy as well or no no okay just checking i i'm trying to like keep up honestly yeah i don't want to sabotage this you and i are really trying to be in our era where we stop airing out like our dating lives and talking about everything as much and try to rebrand and grow so i think you just go on this date and you say should should we role play?

These are my major concerns. I'll tell you what. Being an influencer. I don't feel like guys like you to be an influencer. But that's my job. But like, nobody, like, it's like, can I, what can I say that's not an influencer that's like not technically lying? I've been trying to figure this out for my entire life.

Like, you can say a lot of things, though, because you're like technically like an entrepreneur. I'm not. You're a host yeah should i say that like but then it's like what do you talk about i'm like well right now you um culture yeah i've been getting spunky on hinge i've been telling people i'm straight up like a professional soup tester i'm not even actually kidding like i made that up oh i wish that sounds so good i love soup so i just have been saying that to people i've been like let's see what goes i'm just trying to find out if i'm self-harming by purposefully getting into a situation with another guy who just got out of a relationship feels like self-harm look at brianna and zach

bryan they're my like everything right now like i'm just like yeah that feels like a little bit of an anomaly you never i mean at the end of the, he's on a dating app and he's going on dates. And if he's not emotionally ready to be in a relationship, then he shouldn't be doing that. And that does fall on him. And well, that was the last guy, too. But it didn't did it make or it didn't make it like less upsetting for me in the end. Yeah, I think that's such a weird thing that people do.

Like, I'm not going to go on dates if I'm not ready to date. Yeah, I'm literally working a seat filler job right now where I like literally, I'm not kidding. You know, at award shows when like somebody gets up to like present or something and someone else's job is literally to just sit in the spot until they come back. That's what I feel like I've been doing for men. Like literally like,

Oh you, your girlfriend's gone. I'll seat fill until she comes back. Which is also just like, it blows my mind that people can be like 25 plus and not have the emotional maturity to be transparent about if they're in that place of life like it's like on a first date then say like listen i am just trying to like get myself back out there and get to know people like i just respect an honest person so much more me too i would so much rather know and then i can just

like operate accordingly but like dude it took me like fucking a year before i even like looked at another person after my breakup and then it's like maybe it's just a difference in like girls and guys yeah i feel like guys get like it's easier for them to just get back yeah i have this guy like recently like not recently like a couple months ago but you know it just it grinded my gears so the wrong way he was a really good friend and i started to develop a crush on him and we end up hooking up and then after we hook up he tells me like i'm i don't think i can handle being with you because your life is so public and you're like yeah but that's that's something that he knew before he hooked up with you so he should have said like he should have decided that before then and then i was like okay whatever and then we like hook up again and then

he's like listen i'm not in the place to be in a relationship right now like and i'm like that's fine like i get it and i can't date you anyways for so many reasons so it's like we need to just go back to our friendship and i'm like trying to revert back to our friendship come to find out a couple weeks ago he has a fucking girlfriend that's how it goes he's a fucking girlfriend i think i've seen this film like and it just like really frustrates me because it's like had you just been transparent and stuck just say you don't want to fucking date me yeah literally like why can't men just be like listen i can't date you like what like i know but then it's like would i rather somebody lie to me because sometimes i'm like oh like i would rather

just like no and i'd rather than be honest but then it's like if they were honest i would have been like i wish you just ghosted me no i would rather someone be honest. But then it's like, if they were honest, I would have been like, I wish you just ghosted me. No, I would rather someone be honest, tenfold. But then again, I think about it. And if I was them, I couldn't be honest. So I guess it's just like the discrepancies of dating. Same thing. Yeah. No, I fucking hate that.

I'm done dating in LA. Natalie, you know how Natalie will give the funniest delusions just to support you? Yeah. Natalie has this theory. One of the guys I was really really just like so into like earlier this year has a girlfriend now and same thing he like told me he couldn't whatever she has this like she adopted this like major big theory that his girlfriend does exclusively anal and that's what put her above me in this situation she's like i but she's dead fucking serious she's like i know

it like that's that's the only thing she has like on you is anal like she does anal the whole time did he want to do anal and you didn't know but she she adopted that by herself and just like decided that that was the truth and so now i'm like yeah there's his anal girlfriend natalie is so funny in new york city we got this fucking and i've never seen anything like this happen just just this fashion week this just happened we were eating at my hotel and this hotel is like if there was such a thing as a six-star hotel this would be a fucking six-star hotel it's so nice like shakira was staying on my floor like just all matthew mcconaughey was staying there like all these people and it was for fashion week you know it was such a vibe and we decided to go eat in the lobby

and the restaurant in the lobby only serves like caviar like it's like you can't even get some like fucking normal shit like at all and so we sit down and we're eating caviar and we have and jordan woods is sitting one table over from us natalie's like screaming the whole time too i'm just so mortified like bless her heart but oh my god and our waiter comes over and he is like the rudest waiter i have had in so long i feel like i'm really lucky i always get like really nice waiters and i like bond with them and it's like a whole thing and this waiter's so fucking rude and the service is and i like a slow service because if i'm going to sit down like i want to like like literally take it all in yeah but it's

like i ordered an iced tea an hour and a half ago and like it's not here and you've told me it's coming six times and like yeah it's just the service is just like horrible like horribly slow and it's not even packed like that so i'm like what the what the hell is going on you know and the waiter's just being so fucking rude and natalie orders a glass of wine and he he's like can you pick it up like can you pick it up so i can pour it to you but it's like super rude like it was like on the table and you don't want to pour it so she picks it up and it's like a big ass wine glass and it's not like he's pouring it for her to like taste it you know like he actually just pours her like a tiny tiny like sip of like a little more than like a tasting amount you know and she's like could you give me a little more like it's it's not a glass of wine

at all it is like a fourth of a glass of wine and other people have wine on the table that's been poured he poured it normally like it's just weird it's not for her to taste it it's not a glass of wine at all it is like a fourth of a glass of wine and other people have wine on the table that's been poured he poured it normally like it's just weird it's not for her to taste it it's like whatever and so she holds out her glass for him to pour more and he goes excuse me what did you just say to me like and like snaps at natalie so heavy you know what i mean and so then i like interject and i'm like hey can i should i go to the kitchen and get like what i like ordered like since it's never gonna come anyways like whatever and is you know he's like i'll get it i'm sorry we're slow like whatever he walks away and he comes back at the end when he brings us the bill and he like sits down towards natalie and he's like i just want to apologize for snapping at you i've never honestly

at least he like acknowledged it but i've never in my life had a way to like die on that hill like at that point like like yeah i don't know if i could admit fault in that situation like i that just would happen to natalie bowling like she gets a fucking waiter that like apologizes to her so funny the whole it was just the funniest thing in new york i don't know why it came to my mind but fuck him for real he was horrible you got me hungry i am hungry i have so many more stories to tell you from new york but i think i'm gonna save them because they all involve major celebrities and i don't know if i want to get myself in any more trouble probably for the best i just went on a first date and within the

first minute of sitting down the guy as we somehow started talking about sign language because it was super loud in there and for some reason i thought this would be like a funny thing to say i was like oh yeah i don't really know sign language i only know tree and i did this on the means is that is that tree this is tree i feel like there's got to be an easier way way to say it like you just say like i don't know i don't but i guess that's house he brought it up on like our second date he was like yeah on our first date you literally did like like i do the most embarrassing So do I and then I think about it so hard That's why I have to drink before because I don't

This is a real concern I have too It's like am I actually making my Personality better by drinking or am I just Not noticing how awkward I am Because I'm drinking whoa I don't know like is it actually like me Having more charisma all of a sudden or am I just Suddenly not as hyper aware of how incredibly awkward I'm being?

I will never have the answer to that. But let me know if you want to come me to come spy. Like, I will spy. I already said the same thing, but I'm going to be like so. And like. I did that. I have Lilac. He's so hot, too.

I don't like going out with hot people either. Because then it's like, then that's what I'm thinking about the whole time. Yeah. Well, you're so hot. He's so hot. I think it could be a slay. and this you might find love i'm trying to find love i'm shooting higher within the age range i've realized i think that's it if i'm dating in la at all i need to shoot higher in the age range but i think i'm done dating in la and

that's a big reason why i want to move to new york and find love yeah a whole new pool out there just completely different genre i am just i cannot date another person who is on social media who's been on a reality show who's done anything that's like in my realm like i'm just done i'm disgusted i'm celibate i agree well same i'm i'm like my boyfriend's a farmer my new one farmer boy brooke's been trying to look up horse riding lessons to get this man to really fall in love well i have to i have to leave and go on hassan piker's podcast and okay all he does is talk about politics and i don't know anything about him and he might really hate me but the only reason i'm going

on is because he's kind of sexy so we'll see if something goes he is hot as i'm saying i can't date another influencer bye guys hopefully we don't get killed Chao