Cancelled with Tana Mongeau & Brooke Schofield - 60: Unpacking Trauma, Death, and Childhoods - Ep.60

Episode Date: November 10, 2023

On this episode of Cancelled we discuss Sam and Colby which brings up childhood trauma and friends that passed away. https://adamandeve.com Order is 50% off almost any item + FREE SHIPPING + RUSH PROCESSING Code is TANA Tana Mongeau Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tanamongeau/ Tana Mongeau Twitter: https://twitter.com/tanamongeau Tana Mongeau TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@tanamongeaulol Brooke Schofield Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/brookeschofield/ Brooke Schofield Twitter: https://twitter.com/BroookeAmber Brooke Schofield TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brookeschofield1 Brooke Schofield YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzCVovj7tfqnV2lIkaVk35A To listen to the podcast on YouTube: https://bit.ly/CancelledYouTube Don’t forget to subscribe to the podcast for free wherever you're listening or by using this link: https://bit.ly/CancelledWithTanaMongeau If you like the show, telling a friend about it would be amazing! You can text, email, Tweet, or send this link to a friend: https://bit.ly/CancelledWithTanaMongeau Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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And, you know, just that we have some unlock in case someone has to go out of town or someone has to do something, whatever. Right. Any hiatuses. Exactly. And so the last time we played Are You Smarter Than a Fifth Grader on Cancelled for like 20 minutes. People really enjoyed that segment. It was funny how stupid we all are. Ew. Not Brooke.

Super. Yeah. Thank you, Ari. She did just win. We'll get into that. You're right. No, you're right. You're right.

So I was like, it would be hilarious to do an episode like that. And it still would be. Like, it's the funniest concept. And I was like, let me pick my funniest friends to do an entire episode with obviously miss canceled herself brooks gofield ari entire hilarious lila is the funniest person we've ever met lila's the funniest person we've ever met and she's the best at the canceled live shows if we bring her on the stage like everyone dies everyone goes insane but we have such live shows if we bring her on the stage like everyone dies

everyone goes insane but we have such a consistent problem when she comes on the regular canceled podcast what is it she like won't behave like herself like she becomes this person that i've never met and like can't i won't i won't even say can't understand podcast etiquette can't respect podcast okay wait for the viewers can you let them know what podcast etiquette is essentially like if you're sitting with the four of your friends and you're all having a conversation and they're side combos or you're all talking over each other like that's fine like you're talking with your friends and everyone laughs but when you're podcasting you're listening to one person you're waiting for them you're you're if you're

good at it you're thinking yourself like yeah i was gonna say sometimes i don't wait just like now but no but just beyond that like you're not gonna say some shit if it's not funny if you think that one of us has something funnier to say we're gonna let the other one go like just so on and so forth we shot one episode of canceled us too and then the second one was supposed to be are you smarter than a fifth grader with the group and we all sit down and we're like hey everyone let's all not talk over each other let's just slay our conversation let's act like we normally do she brings in stassi bell we've got a we've got a third a fourth a fifth and side conversation the entire time like we weren't even here at all talking to the dog over there like daisy and the inside jokes i'm like the audience does not get it

and it's just so like it's just already so many people that like just them two together it's like 10 people added with us you know but i genuinely feel like the other 10 of our friend group could do it like you said it exactly right when you said like respecting the etiquette because it's like that's what it is it's like just complete disregard she's like fuck you guys literally we just kept saying to her like like please stop having side conversations with stassi about your hair care products and your quesadillas like i kept looking at her and saying please oscar's gonna have to edit this please please please like the people have to hear this please please the whole episode was trashed it was a whole two-hour waste of all of our time.

I had to give Aaron a bonus. We need bonuses. But look at us. We really care about what we're putting out. And we care so much about what we're putting out that we are shooting a third episode tonight, which will be just the second episode that the people see. Yeah. That one's going to live in the archives.

Brooke's editing her sixth episode of the night. You know. Brooke just went on Just Trish and it's a three hour episode and it comes out tomorrow and I haven't made any edits and I'm like oh my god I'm so scared I was telling her though like going on Just Trish is like I say shit on there like I would never say even on here I know but it's just like

sometimes you say shit and it's like god I just shouldn't even be talking about that in general yeah gorge well and you like forget a camera's rolling with her and you'll be like three hours deep and it's like i literally forgot the cameras were rolling and i'm saying shit the public should not hear at all at all i feel like with her she's just like it's like talking to your bestie because i feel like she knows like yeah and i really wanted to fill her in but i'm like they don't need to know that yeah you want trisha to know but you don't want trisha's audience to know yeah it was like just chatting with my girl do you guys think your audiences are like the same like is it the same vibration it's definitely a lot of the same people I love

vibration I don't know is it like the same like scariness is like she has the same fans because I don't cult like same energy I think Trisha's are more diehard cults and I think ours are like there's a little more men in ours there's a little more like i was gonna say i think she has more gays that's what i mean there's a little more heterosexuality in ours a little less than hers you know yeah for me ty yeah yeah it's somewhere here we've been fighting over the same road peptide lip balm for the last two hours please road please do you know that every time i dm road beauty and ask them to be on the pr list they straight up tell me like no we'd have no more space yeah because they're like bitch you

can't afford it yeah exactly why are you asking for a free lip balm no because they're always sold out the like flavors i want well what you think they're gonna whip up a new one for you they do for fucking every dick i'm okay ask it's so worth it that's so worth the ass like chaos so essentially we're on our third two-hour episode of canceled tonight we have all been here forever and we had to trash the last one not trash actually it's available on tana gone wild if anyone wants to go to the link in the description below or in my twitter bio um we will be selling that bat shit episode of are you smarter than a fifth grader watch me win it wasn't like it was funny everyone said funny shit but it's everyone talking over each other like it's not an episode that can like go on spotify that like my manager can like

yeah it's like when you're so disappointed yeah yeah. Yeah. And it's just like, you know what I mean? I'd click out. For sure. So today we're combining all of it. All the topics that we didn't do in the first episode, we're going to do now with them. Ty and Ari. And we're also all kind of getting drunk because it's so late. So I hope everyone's okay with that.

Aaron's like, I want to go home. I think, no, Aaron's fabulous. Aaron's drinking a beer Aaron's everything's happening it's great like not to out him at all it's November 1st he was supposed to be sober

he's having a beer he feels fabulous do you feel fabulous Aaron yeah I feel I feel amazing nope nope fabulous I can't say that

say I feel fabulous is that like a straight thing you can't say fabulous no I kept trying to make Jeff say I feel Gorgina this week and Jeff would not say the word Gorgina like Gunde has said. I'm like, hey, we didn't think he was going to wear those fits. He wore the fits.

Shut the fuck up. Honestly, yeah. Jeff is Barbie. I'm trying to just transform masculinity. Jeff was not Barbie. That's exactly why you didn't do it. For that reason. Gosh. Say I feel fabulous. Why? I feel fabulous. That's exactly why you didn't do it For that reason Gosh

Say I feel fabulous Why? I feel fabulous I feel like you're That's like a workplace Like you're like pressuring him to do this Oh like HR violation Yeah

I don't want no I don't want no Lizzo scandal So baby don't say it Just like eat the banana Just like eat the banana What? Like I don't know But i feel like that's touchy territory i feel like we shouldn't even get into that one it's been enough time right to just ask like what happened i don't know whitney honestly has like a funny bit about it like essentially i guess like someone was like

it was like they went to like a box situation where someone had to like eat a banana out of someone's vagina whoa and then liza was like now y'all eat a banana out of her vagina no someone like i like someone i don't know i don't know listen i wasn't i wasn't really keeping tabs there's a documentary about it now though right yes on hulu but one of those low budget one of those they made it overnight to get that bag one like the low budge one where they have like the the producer's cousins uncle sister that heard the story like halfway like tell their story do you know what do you know what ty and i've been doing in all of our free time not kidding all of our free time every second you and i get alone we've been watching special

forces oh slay with jojo miss jojo told us to watch that no yeah when jojo siwa came on the podcast she started talking about special forces which is a new show that she's on on abs abc and it's like an extreme game show right yes but even the way she explained it to us she was like like we that's how i thought i was like oh it's an extreme game show no i knew what it was like they put these celebrities in the military yeah like it's actually the most like people project vomiting onto their bodies it's the most it's the most insane shit i've ever seen i could go on it i think no one we know could i'm surprised she made it as far as rude it's so no grown men can't black china did it no but these like football players

are quitting like being like i can't do yeah i feel like it's so much also like a mental challenge and i would have been out of there i don't even think they would have let me go i think i wouldn't pass psych well it's also crazy because Jojo's just like this little girl and there's these grown men doing like the same exact shit as her, but she's like keeping up with like 35-year-old men.

But she's like an athlete. No, but they fly them out to like the middle of Switzerland. They take their phones. Jojo told us like each day, like we eat like a small portion of like eggs and like all the meals are like constricted, like the military, like they're eating nothing they're getting no sleep and they're they're

putting like 100 pound backpacks like you know the military backpacks like on them it's like negative degrees outside and then they're making them like jump into the freezing water in their clothes like push boats that are like 200 pounds like scale buildings like scaling buildings like all this it's the most fucked up shit i've ever seen it's giving american top model when they made entire made them scale the building how did she get away with that shit i see the clips i'm like what were we thinking sister she made these women these poor women walk down the side of a building like as if they were on a runway i can't make this up like can you explain it more brooke is that like no i'm just thinking like in general that show is so fucked up that's been a thing now we're like now in this day and

age people like break down america's top model and they're like this is the most like psychologically fucked up show like it would never ride now she'd make them cosplay different races that's what i was gonna say she was like do you like blackface yeah like she was and shoot like that like yeah and she'd be like you're not serving it's like yeah no she is isn't it giving like all the old shows though when you like y'all were younger like y'all i love to do that like age gaslight that's like he's you're what three years younger it is crazy like some stuff i'm like god i wish they could still do that because it was so funny she'd give them the most fucked up makeovers it'd be the most beautiful girl like think like scarlet right like long hair like fucking tear her like whatever like beautiful whatever and be like i'm

shaving your head i'm cutting off your eyebrows and i now serve i swear to god one time i saw them give a girl a gap they were like no they shaved their teeth not kidding no actual shit like that yes and like the shit that they would do to people on america's shannon special no bitch i just made that up wait did they did you make that up? Why did she just go along with it? Because I'm ever the bitch with the gap. Did they not give that to her? Like they put a fucking flathead screwdriver in her fucking... That's something that totally would have happened on that show, but it made me, it just cracked me up.

She was so quick to just back me up. That's a friend. That's a friend. That's a friend. She's like, they saw her from top. I swear to God. Brooke could start telling people that she was skydiving yesterday. I'm like, I saw her land from the plane. Like, it's just.

No, but there was actually a bitch with a gap. There was a bitch with the London look. Okay. I don't know where they came into her at. I don't know. It was funny. Wait, what I'm was is like there's so many shows when like i was saying when we're young when y'all were younger like they would say the most outlandish things that we cannot say these days even like 10 years ago we just watched a show came out 10

years ago and they can say like the most like out-of-pocket jokes and i'm so jealous seven years ago on television the r slur was completely fine like i was watching entourage the other day and like they just say it like it doesn't matter like a whole thing and all of the like family guy like simple life like the shit paris and nicole would say like you're fucking fat right you know that wait like they were like trying to cancel friends for being like not politically correct which is just your show

family guy isn't that where they say the most outlandish shit to this day is that fucked up because like Seth MacFarlane

just says I don't care which is why I love it so much and I guess it's like no one's really like acting it out and saying it it'd be different

than like Kim K going and saying like what was it what was it didn't they make selena gomez like or someone say the n-word now you're making shit up it was in a movie it was like it was a movie she did with the guy from and she's like in jail and they made her say it hereditary yeah with the guy from hereditary like he's also in that movie i saw that clip and like they made selena gomez is like act like her character can we talk about another

series that has been blowing my mind no america's next top model but sam and colby you saw yesterday you saw you haven't seen please what is it do you know anything about them or no quick backstory so sam and colby have been youtubers since i started like i've known them in the youtube the one who looks at chris miles with no tattoos colby's gorgeous tattoos i love him he looks like if chris miles took his tattoos i have a crush on colby brock pick Chris. America's Next Top Model, two photos. I'm like, and the final model is,

I don't know. Chris, that was your favorite bit. What? Do it. Like I say, do it today against Lila and Stassia's podcast host.

I have two beautiful transgender models standing right in front of me. However, both of you have a pee as a brain. You can't shut the fuck up. Lila, as hilarious as you are and gorgeous as can be,

you failed me this week and I'm extremely disappointed. Stassi Bell, you're just her sidekick. Who's moving on to next week's episode? Oh, we're bullying. Neither of you. Please post this. Here's what I'm going to say say this is all getting left in no no this is all getting left in but we love you guys like i i would die for

them it's just like in a setting of seven people on canceled it doesn't work but and that's not why again that's not why i'm annoyed you can be good or bad at this shit. It's that I'm saying, please stop having side conversations. Oscar's going to have to cut that. Yeah, and then looking at me directly in the eyes and continuing to do it. It's the disrespect. It's the blatant disrespect. For the podcast

etiquette. Do you know what? It's a real thing. Speaking, sorry, Lila's going to hate me for this episode episode but it's too funny it doesn't matter what i watch do you know what she did the other night i'm scared i just have a couple stories about her blatant disrespect be careful be careful red is having a field day with lila right now i would die for her i'm serious if anyone that's my friend so i can say these things you know what i mean yes and she's a great friend in her regard but when it comes down to the little things my poor girl can't get it um so the other night she comes here right and we're having this

is like three nights ago we're having like a very chill night you know like we're all sipping red wine getting in and out of the pool like just smoking like it's like it's me ari lila isabella and ashley right and we're all just kiki-ing and giggling and Lila drops her she first of all she calls her weed plug has him drop off a wax pen to her here right and then she gets in the pool and she drops it in the pool and you know Lila it's a whole episode like I draw my brand new wax pen how else is she gonna pay for it other than all the things reddit says she's she's so upset about her wax pen and you look at her and you're like put it in rice as as you do as one does when something goes water yeah an electronic item goes in water you put it into rice right a weed pen well yeah because

any electronic gets water you put it into rice we're just trying to help her out. And just, yeah, just some advice. Just so shorty stops. And as you know, Lila Gibney and Isabella are on very thin ice with their patience with Lila. The way we love Lila is not, you know. Yeah. And I get that. They're my childhood best friends, my roommates. They love, like, you know.

We love them. They're special. They love who and love them they're they're special they love who they love yeah their family but like they just don't deal like we'll like laugh at lila's shitty shit like they're just like fuck that you know and but recently we've all come together we're back on our family shit as much as we can be okay and and so even just seeing everyone like have like a pool night like together like ashley and lila like swimming splashing like hanging out i was like wow this is beautiful you know and lila finally leaves the house and you know ashley is like she's so meticulous like

the pantry is fucking alphabetized like shit is fucking color-coded like she knows when a fucking pin drops in this house which is great because shit i'm leaving crunch drops on the floor someone's got to do it she walks into the pantry and she notices oh no ashley do you like bug do it to me like whatever ashley has this bag of like 25 whole foods Foods rice. It's the Trader Joe's jasmine rice. That's really expensive. No, richer than that. I'm not kidding. It's like $25 rice. It's open and there's rice

everywhere all over the pantry. And Ashley opens a bag and pulls out a chlorine covered wax. And I just want everyone to understand this. I didn't even think to put like a separate bag of rice. This is what we said. Whose is it?

What about whose bag is it? Well, she knew who's at what. Like, it's not your Jasmine rice. At all. No, no, no, no. And do you know what's funny too? It was Ashley's all along. There were 10 boxes of minute rice next to it.

Like, she had to choose the fucking. Oh, no. I told her verbatim as I walked in the pantry and I was looking at all like the almonds, the flowers. She has them in the nice containers. And I was like looking for the rice one because I knew she would just plop it right in there. So then I was like, and I look to the left and I see the bag right open. And I go, where'd you put it? She goes, it's in there.

I go, that's disgusting. She goes, it's in there. I go, that's disgusting. She goes, it's gonna get boiled. I go, boiled? That doesn't mean the chlorine and the weed and the metal toxins aren't in there. And think about Ashley Schwan's like fear of weed. Beyond that, I'm not even joking. You, the pantry is sectored into like four. Like there's Amari,ley me bella there were peanut butter on the walls in between the sectors like she was eat lila was eating

all my ritz sleeves were open there was peanut butter on the wall i was what do you have to do with your hands for that peanut butter and that's saying a lot if you think it's like reckless. Okay, this isn't a lie. Let's do our campaign. We love her. I would drive for her and she's like, fuck. I do love her so much. Every once in a while

I'll read something and I'm like, how do people think anything bad about her? But then I'm like, oh. Well, that's also just like my cousin on his, my cousin the other day

we were on the phone and she was like, you know, like the only one that's not really crazy in your friend group is Brooke. And I go, who? No, I was just telling them like the intro to the Trisha episode. She goes, I just love you because I feel like you're so chill.

I go, oh, no. Like, that's just the last word that anyone would ever use to describe me. No one has mastered their image like Brooke Schofield. She reads the Reddit. She sees your problems. She fixes it. No, I don't. I don't mean for it to be that way I've actually always thought that it's crazy

It actually gives me a little bit of panic Because sometimes I'm like, oh my god They really have it so wrong But it's like You're just as crazy as us It just manifests differently Yeah And you're just so pretty

And so good at explaining well and like you'll slick back a bun and throw on an aritzia earring and it just it gives different you know i think i just don't i'm not as like like vocal about it but like you guys get it yeah like you're crazy it doesn't manifest publicly yeah god damn i wish it did like fuck jesus that's just me no i can tell that sometimes sometimes people will be like she's nothing like she used to be i'm like no no you just didn't know i also think that like so much of public perception is based on like looks yeah like obviously duh but i'm saying like like if you came on here with like my track

out like situation like it's staying closed like it wouldn't like it's that's the one thing in my life i have control over yeah you know and you say it's like brushing my hair your hair is always gorge your skin's always gorge your earrings are always on you have a cute outfit on your always thank you so much they said i look like that girl the spider girl put the image on the screen who's spider girl she still can't stop reading reddit again it's to her benefit everyone just the only reason i've been like if y'all are watching and i'm like this it's because the reddit threads about my chins have been so extra crazy there's like 150 comments about my face and how i've done so much again that's exactly why y'all have to stop reading reddit like who like what these fucking

user 1004 think about your face is so mentally unhealthy first of all you need to relax aaron what would you do if at the top it said like like it was like his profile can you look at what they said about her no you gotta go to the third photo i've never really followed her so i'm not pretty sure her history is botox like this let me tell you my issue with this well i have a i have quite a few but it's always the people who don't fucking know what they'll be like oh my god it's so crazy how much botox she's done to her lips and you're like it's like right you can't fucking do that me with six botox lip lips you know what i mean i'm like yes it's all coming i have i see photos of me every day like where my face is just filled to the gods and i look absolutely like like like a

blow-up doll and nobody said shit to me then but now they have so much to say it's the 12 year old haters honestly someone someone's saying i went to my injector and she's just wilding out putting it everywhere i'm like i don't even know who my injector is if i listen to every comment on my face this is beyond your age i think but do you guys remember when heidi montag let me tell you about this it's actually can you look up right now heidi montag surgery so i can show ari it was crazy she did all of it at once heidi montag was on the hills this was again before youtube like this was the biggest they were the biggest people in the world and all these people had so much to say about her face and she was like the most beautiful girl ever

she went and got 14 15 plastic surgeries in one day no but like actually not kidding she got like her chin sawed off like two nose jobs like an eye lift like all in one day boob job like all this shit that's horrible what's her doctor's name no but i'm saying like that's what this shit like does to you like reading this shit like if i've read what everyone has had to say about my face over the last fucking 10 years i would be heidi montag getting 40 surgeries oh but it's like like i can't change the length of my face people it's all it's always the chin i'm like i was i was born with this chin he got her chin sawed off i have this this is my chin it's just like it just shouldn't reading and they'll be like like it's always things that

aren't done they'll be like oh my god like her jaw her chin her same everyone thinks i've had like way more work done than i have yeah i mean it's like all i always admit to what i've had done i'm so vocal about it and it's making me not want to because it's like not you throwing it back in my face you've never been under the knife gorgeous why the fuck are you like yeah i've never had a surgery under the knife except for my life but it's like it's like when i think about reddit and when they do that it's like oh my god i forgot about that you're just perfect but it's like what i think about is like the people that are calling me fat probably are 10 times fatter yeah there's always people that don't even have like a profile picture on there like can't even and you just can't let

thousands of people weigh in on your face and like it really doesn't like hurt me it just it makes me so mad because I'm like who raised you or we gotta talk to people like that like I've never left comments like that in my life

Ernie even if it's like a spam account that you're using like what like desire do you have to do that so bad to create a spam account

do you think they like like hit send and then like yeah do you think it's because we're sitting here right now

saying yes and we're validating no matter what like people just comment on public figures and people i think and i i say this with grace because i feel sorry for people without like lives to live but i think like we're not doing that because like we are fulfilled in having like a full-blown life and friends like if you're at home alone in nebraska and you have no fucking friends not nebraska sorry sounds like a great place seriously i want a house there but i'm saying like do you know what i mean like if you just have no one you feel like fulfilled in being

a part of commenting on someone else yeah because it's the only thing you have i guess like yeah i just i want to like i want a whole documentary on like the psychology of a troll that oh my god dylan danis hosting that's actually a genius idea hilarious is he a troll though or is he was he just trying to win the fight he's a troll is he a troll okay with all of his fights like everything i don't know back to sam and colby i want to sorry sorry no i loved every second are you kidding this is the best podcast ever the last episode gave me so much like gratitude for this sam and colby's show so they are youtubers whatever they they're their videos have always done well but they started to really get views when they started ghost hunting right

and like they just go do like silly shit ghost hunting but then people were really into it so they started getting like all the monitors all the like electronic items to do it like high budget like whatever and they went and filmed this series recently where they stayed at the original house of the original conjuring like we're seven days just them summoning ghosts, bringing in all these people that are like, do that for a living, like mediums and like...

Like psychic type shit. I think I'd be pissed if I were a medium. I'd be like, why'd you do this to me? Swear. Especially the ones, I could see the ones over there. It's like, girl, beat it. Jeez, don't. but it was like nuts because

they're in this conjuring house and it's not like they're just sitting there in corners there they have all these things and they're talking to the spirits and like tana was telling me the whole time i was like don't i was like i don't believe i don't believe she's like watch just watch and like every little thing they do you're like holy fuck there's no way and it's like the conjuring house you get it and then when you see like bella porch and larry like people we know in there and like larry's face like down to his ankles like scared so it's like 11 million views in one day like would you go it's actually it's actually funny at tana ween colby asked me to go do something with him like this he was like please be in a salmon colby video and do it but i get so weird about don't bring any of that shit back here i get

weird about inviting spirits in and like i believe in mediums after the jojo siwa experience at her house it changed my whole life on mediums like forever but anyways so they're like so good at like debunking every thought you could have of like, why isn't this real? Like they'll film it all. And then they'll like, see like, what are all of our questions? Like how, how do we like ensure that this is real to the viewer? Like they brought in these people, right? They, it's such a long explanation, but yes, they brought in these two people who work

at the conjuring house. And they were like, five years ago, we found out that if we hold hands we're able to like talk to ghosts right and they'll literally be right here in front of you conjuring house with like all the ghosts in the fucking world you know but they were like let's just try something well yeah i think people like because people come there for tours and like it's so many people have died there and shit whatever well it's like a guy and a girl and the guy had died right and came back to life or something that's not what you were telling me the guy the duo that does this yes but even just beyond that like people come like all over the world to the conjuring house because allegedly it's like one of the most haunted places in america and they found out this

method of when they hold hands like a ghost they can hear the ghost like walking through the room and then they can like sit there and go through the alphabet and get the ghost to like knock for like certain like letters and like numbers and spell out things like so it'd be them standing there holding hands and they kept like showing to debunk it like they'd be like okay knock three times holding hands and then they'd be like keep knocking and then the ghost would be knocking they'd let go you couldn't hear it they'd go back you could you could hear it like and sam and colby did everything in the world to debunk it like went to other places to debunk it like made sure they could do it everywhere whatever we're having these ghosts spell out sentences in the documentary and

it was like the ghosts were spelling out messages from like colby's like dead great-grandmother that only colby would know like all this it's the most fucked up shit I've ever seen then they were asking other people in the room like Bella Porch to like like come here like you could feel the presence of like the ghost right and like she would go over and get like so scared because she could actually feel it like something would be there or like touch well and in the series you can see a ghost grab the shirt of one of the guys who are there and shut a door fully and it's just them alone in all cameras i think it's so believable as well because they're youtubers like it's not this whole television show they brought their cameras they brought their setup they their producer was off camera and a ghost like reached

out to their producer and he was crying they like cut it off camera like like it was like an assistant sitting in a corner but the one that got me like i want to tell you this especially like they were like they were in the house and they were hearing the knocking because it was like someone walking like and they'd be like abigail let's do this and they could they do it but they took the two like people that were connected the mediums to a random park they were like we're gonna take you somewhere are you down to go and the guy they were in the back of course you can do this in the conjuring house so show us you can do this in a completely random setting so basically took them to a random park

oh because they work at the conjuring house yeah it's like wow yeah literally took them to a random park they did it moral of the story

the person that knocked and came was a dead teacher that worked at the school one second away from where they were standing they looked it up they died

that person died on the exact same day as they filmed that and that's why they were walking around oh I just got full body chills like had the alphabet people the fucking mediums like sam and colby had their producers pick a random location that they all went to and they all like went there and then like they brought the mediums and they had the mediums were like trying to find a ghost they find a ghost they have all these cameras to detect it as well it's detecting it they have the ghost spell out her

full name and the date that she died like and like who are you and the ghost spelled out teacher and they were like what and the ghost spells out globe and then they google it and they find out her name she was a teacher at globe park high school she died that day where they were standing like all this shit like and she was just dude what the fuck High School. She died that day where they were standing. Like, all this shit. Like, and she was just, dude, what the fuck? And they didn't even know the day. The only reason they knew the day is they searched her name. And then they all freaked the fuck out. Even just beyond that, I've known Sam and Colby forever.

Like, I just saw Colby at Tannaween. And I was like, how are you? And he's, like, still fucked from that. Like, they're, like, such honest, like, good people that I don't, like, believe it's, like. Fake. Yeah. But it's hard when it's it's like supernatural shit and it's on the internet because you know like like you said 11 million people watch that in one day yeah regardless if it was real or fake 11 million people did a lot of people would lie but yeah and like like i feel like anyone oh my god jake paul five years ago like we're doing a seance but it's like the team 10 house like fuck but i'm just burn chef it's just david doberman

no but like i believe they're passionate about it i believe it's like i believe it i'm i believe in ghosts so much i'm like but but i feel like i i feel like they're like friendly in the thing they literally said we like we said, we can't physically hurt you. But we can scare you. But they said they like to... We can traumatize you. That evil in there is good. And they had these little devices

that could pick up on the waves and make out words. And these are devices that are like, not AI, but it's a device that picks up all the technological... An EMF device. Like radio, the EMF device. And it'd say words. And Colby was blindfolded at a bridge in the emf device at the house with noise canceling headphones in so he'd hear something and then sam would be at

the house and they would the ghost would be telling him like colby's hearing this right now and the ghost and the ghost with sam in the house would be like run, killer, murderer, run. And Colby's like at the bridge. Like so crazy. Bro, what? So this one time. I have to watch it. I was at Jojo Siwa's house. But like essentially like the most famous medium in the world was there.

And like comes up to me and is like, I have this message for you. And like essentially was just like, it was from my grandparents. And it was about shit that I like that happened to me when I was like five. Like it was all from my grandparents and it was about shit that i like that happened to me when i was like five like it was all about my grandparents and like like when i was like five or six no way like no ever i don't think ever like it wasn't even anything that i would think to tell my friends about it was like my grandma loved hummingbirds so she'd have hummingbird feeders so i'd like always go with her when i was like five to like get the hummingbird feeders and she just kept being like she's showing you a hummingbird she's showing you have hummingbird feeders. So I'd like always go with her when I was like five to like get the hummingbird feeders. And she just kept being like, she's showing you a hummingbird. She's showing you a hummingbird.

Like all this weird ass shit. Like at my grandpa's funeral, like all these butterflies landed on his casket. And he loved like yellow butterflies. And like, I'd never told anyone about that. And she was like, he's showing you a yellow butterfly. He's showing you that. Like, I was like, what the fuck? Like, how do you know that?

No, I, oh my God. It was the weird, it was, it was so bad. It was like what the fuck like how do you know that oh no I oh my god it was the way it was it was so bad it was like horrible yeah it was horrible like that type of shit that's so like precious and like amazing and I was just never looking for a sign from them I never had like thought like I was just like oh whatever like if they oh my god but it's like so fun to look for a sign it's like every time like i'll see like a butterfly i'll be like oh there's cooper like yeah so it's like really like oh like that's like amazing that someone told you that because it's like fuck like every now every time you see that it's like yeah you believe it for sure my the real thing um my mom i know i love when you

get emotional my that's why i love cancel we're slaying we're doing my mom's my mom's mom died when i was like nine or ten or something and like when they went through all her things it was like my mom's sister who went through all her things and she sold at a garage sale all my like what is was most precious to my mom which was like these angels that my grandma had had in her like little curial cabinet and she my mom was fucking devastated like because they were so important to her that like she had them her whole life like they were just these like little angels that were like she kept and her sister just sold them like because she just thought about being poor not to interject you please yeah because it's just like nothing's valuable but my mom my mom

is so sentimental and she was fucking heartbroken because those were her mom's like things and they were always in the family whatever and so she saw that my sisters or my mom is like just heartbroken over it and then years later we had this like we're any good no none of you were with me but um carrie she's like this foster mom who would like take us like all of us in the family and like from time to time she was taking care of like some of my cousins my mom went over there and she had all the angels no connection at all she had bought them she had bought them at the garage sale and just had them and then bond found out yeah and so my mom found them at um carrie's house like and it was so completely unrelated like she just happened to buy them at this random garage

sale and then now like then years later she was like taking care of like our family and i think she just gave them back to my mom but it was like the craziest thing like my mom oh my god you should just my you know my mom is it's like i actually thing like my mom oh my god you should have you know my mom is it's like i actually like that's what makes me believe in shit like that like i like i've told like everyone about like that story at the boat yard with like wait you know what happened with like the the air what's the thing called with the air thing that you put your hand over when you wash your hands yeah the air dryer and like that and like things like that like me what happened what oh my god this is like the craziest story i swear to god on the planet and it's like and you don't have to say names like honestly so

i was at i was picking up my grandmother she went on a cruise and i was on about to get on a flight to australia and i'm like going in circles around this like boat yard like carpool situation so I'm waiting to pick her up and then there's a you know those park bathrooms with the solar and yeah like no one really uses them like no one like cares for them they're just there so I pull over we're in like a park like a like whatever definitely have had sex in one like yes exactly like one of those vegas ass shady parks with your so my biggest best friend for that because no one else has ever had sex and so that and i swear like uh like i don't even know if i could cry anymore about it but

it's literally the most like one of the most fucked up things i went in this bathroom okay and i'm peeing and my mom always told me if i like heard anything like messed up it was my dad because my dad passed away so if i heard anything scary she'd be like it's your dad he's trying to say hello not to scare me and i believe that i really do and so i was in this bathroom and the only like closest person that has ever passed recently was one person so i literally was just like is this you like and i so i, so I'm peeing and I hear the go off for the hair, the hand freshener,

the hand thing. Hand dryer. Hair dryer. Hand dryer. Hair go off. Why would it go off? I'm not even near it. And I was just like,

peeing, peeing, peeing. And I was just like, I was like, Cooper, is that you? And then it goes,

and I swear god dick and like they don't even do that they go like so like was malfunctioning and people always say that they like make something malfunction I'll never ever be the same after that I'm gonna tell you something

it went and I sprint out this bathroom and this lady that I'm talking to about how long it takes goes, are you okay? And it's still going to go. Do you hear that? And she goes, what's that? And I just left and I called Hunter immediately. And I literally just like, I don't even know how we got here.

But like that shit is so real. No, just signs are so signs are so real. And it was one of the absolute most fucked up things that ever happened to me and now i forever know that like someone and he's always here all right yeah and like i i think that's the only way settling it's the only way to really get over grief is to like because you go through all the stages of grief obviously damn who would have thought this episode would have gone there but you go through all the stages of grief obviously like the anger the you know you're upset you miss them whatever and then eventually after you get through all the stages of grief, obviously, like the anger, you know, you're upset, you miss them, whatever.

And then eventually after you get through all stages, the only thing you really have to live for is hoping that they're watching over you. So you live for a sign or you live for like, you know what I mean? Yeah. That's all I look for in anything. It's like, it's like if it's there, then that's how you know that like they know that you're there just like missing. Like, yeah. Like just thinking about that. Yeah. I don't know. then that's how you know that like they know that you're there just like missing like yeah like just thinking about them yeah i don't know i remember so many times in my life that i've been like mad

at someone being dead like my best friend tristan who died like just like i'll be so mad at like like why are you gone i hate that you're gone i'm so like mad that i'm happy and you feel so guilty for being happy because you're like oh my god i'm happy and then you died yeah and then it's like those are the only things like essentially get you through that that's why i got the four leaf clover tattooed because his last name was green and then he would always say like even when i'm gone like if you're anywhere like if you see a four leaf clover think of me like blah blah before he died and so when he died there's this park in vegas it's in summerland and there's four leaf clovers like all over where the park is so we'd always go there and we'd like that's where like

we put some of his ashes like everything and so he would just always be like whenever you see a four leaf clover think of me and then he died that's where we did that so then even to this day like if i'm somewhere there shouldn't be a four leaf clover and i see one always be like at least you're there yeah he's there and that's what i had to know is like they're there like that means something and it's damn salmon colby like it's never a coincidence like they're they they are there yeah i'm done with that but should we pour a glass of move and unpack other topics honestly though like it's like i love you i hope i'm not i hope I'm like when I come back I'm not like I feel like that would be so frustrating

to not really be able to communicate or like to be able like I don't know if I would want to see if I died tomorrow I don't know if I would want to be able to see you guys people would know the signs that you're giving you know if you were trying to show someone a sign that it's you they would know yeah but like I picture

like the movies you know when you're like watching from the outside and you're watching everybody like live their lives. That would be like, that's what I, my like biggest fear is like watching life go on without me and everybody just be chilling. Yeah, but you obviously, if you had passed, you were in that state, you would understand like I'm in a different place, which you hope is beautiful. I know, where do we go? I don't. I always.

Because we like when I always used to be like, I'm going to die tomorrow. Like when I was always trying to kill myself or always trying to die. That was like my biggest hope. I'm better now. It's wrong. Not die tomorrow. Overdose was my goal. But I'm saying like that was like my goal at that time was not my goal to die.

But I'm saying I genuinely wanted to die and felt like I was in a die every day. So, yeah. And so my my goal at that time was like, fuck, I hope I'm gone. Like now I'll stop. Now we got to like a Mari would know or like people that I could give them a message like, who cares if shit went on, you know? She just pops up. She's just playing hefner i'm like bitch you better haunt

like i'll miss you oh my god it's happening to anyone i wonder what kind of sign you would send me she would definitely send like no i i've thought about that a lot do you know this is like the yeah should we change yeah honestly we can't yeah it got dark halloween anyway so do you think betty white is still with us is betty crocker like do you know who that is yeah the bitch on the on the is that that's a person right she was cooking. Okay. Quick story. Randomly in Vegas, we would always pass her house

in my neighborhood and my parents would always be like, where is she's real? In Vegas. So, quickly, quickly. It was Halloween last night and we bought all these full-size candy bars

to hand out to the trick-or-treaters because like everyone, like all the kids fantasize about that and you talk about that. Like growing up, like you want to go to the houses of the rich people who have the fucking big candy bars hand them out and whatever so we like bought those to get out 50 downstairs yeah i know i had four before i got upstairs well so isabella was like yeah growing up like gladys knight lived down the street so we'd always go to her house and get like a thousand candy bars

from her house and you're like saying the same thing essentially like betty cro Knight lived down the street so we'd always go to her house and get like a thousand candy bars from her house and you're like saying the same thing essentially like Betty Crocker lived down the street what was trick-or-treating like for you Brian? I feel like Joe Dirt lived in my neighborhood wait razor blades were in my shit shit no like it was always like we would honestly trick-or-treating

was insane for my family God bless this woman she's the most fabulous woman in Las Vegas her name's Amanda Caretas she threw The most and I love Her talk to this today if she sees us Love you of course she throws the most Fabulous Halloween

Like 31st days like not a Party it's a trick or treating party She will have Two semis roll in With about 40 golf carts coming off of them for all the families and we and we would go on this street called red arrow in red rock country club and we would all all the families like your family would get on a golf we would all get in the golf cart phyllis would be driving are you fucking kidding me and we would go down red arrow and he'd be like oh and he'd stop it because each house and each

house would be fucked up insane like i didn't live on red arrow yeah but that's just crazy within itself like living somewhere a that you know someone so loaded that they load out semi trucks of golf carts b the houses are so big that you have to go golf cart to like go like house yeah you can't just like and then like the rich like the best like the best houses they would show up babe they would have food trucks they would have they would have their whole house turned into a haunted house they'd have parties they'd have they'd have like the parents in the corner with like drinking they'd have the whole nine yards like it was fucked up do you ever like so i feel like you were born into like middle class

right he knows about the game he knows the situation he got the king size you were born into like like a higher my parents are divorced yeah so like one of them like i don't know what i would classify them like lower middle higher middle he's being humble I just want to know did you get full size candy bars like sometimes like we would go trick or treating some houses but I didn't live in a neighborhood where that was even I don't think that existed in Arizona

so where would you spend most of like your holidays or like where would you trick or treat at least like split in half every year was there a financial difference between mom and dad yeah like so like which was which my dad had more money so going with your mom it was like more normal uh-huh yeah yeah and then going with your dad it was like a little more yeah yeah uh-huh but not like i was like it's so because our friend group is made up of so many like classes. Like we all, like now we all live in LA and we're grateful to have found like jobs and

life here, but we all grew up in such different classes. We all grew up so differently and now you're the richest. So shut the fuck up. Do you know what I would do? I'm, I'm literally not joking at all. Like every Halloween was just like you,

like you'd steal a pillowcase yeah from the house always the pillowcase because the bag like honestly i just want to hear like brooke run me down 30th like getting ready for halloween to the november 1st i want to know how your halloween was at home no it was like i mean probably about the same i did pillowcase when i was with my mom. And just no money. So it's not like you had like a store-bought costume. So don't money hookers. Dude, and my mom was such a cunt. But I'm saying like, it's not about like,

where you're painting your face, you're dressed as a ghost with a sheet cut out. Right. Like you're not like, you can't buy a store-bought costume. My mom like randomly cared about like certain things. Like she loved, she always dressed us up for Halloween. Like I have like so many photos of us in costumes and stuff. She really cared about that.

Wait, oh my God. I have to tell you guys something so cool. Wait, I was going to tell you this on our solo episode. It's kind of related. But I just now, I've never seen a baby photo of myself that wasn't my, like that my grandparents didn't take because. And how old were you when you went to your grandparents? I was like 10 on so i've never

seen like obviously they had taken photos of me like i had photos like very little with my grandparents and that's it and i've never seen any photos of me taken at my when i lived with my mom when i lived with my sisters at all ever same it's like you you have that one and so yeah i have one baby i'll get into that but my mom like my sister or my mom has like thousands of photos she took photos of everything but i've just never seen them and my sister has them now so i made her send them to me the other day and she's she's like has thousands of them so she's going through them but i got she sent me 60 the other day and i got to see 60 photos i've never seen before in my life and it's so crazy because I'll be like

like for example we had a house that we lived or an apartment that we lived in that I have thought of and I picture it all the time I was four living there and I remember every single detail about it and I've never seen it and I saw a photo of it and I'm like it's exactly exactly exactly how I remember it ever so literal least favorite thing about my childhood trauma ex being adopted is A, I don't remember the majority of my childhood, like, at all, just because of, like, everything that happened. And then B, like, thank God for Deborah and Arash, there's a photo of everything since the day I entered.

But, like, I have one childhood photo of me ever. Ever. I love it though. And it's the cutest. And I'll never forget. I had the physical version. And one of the last times I saw my mom, she like got rid of it. So I couldn't have it, which was like so traumatizing.

I remember that. And then I was looking for it. And like, it was just so weird. And my, but my grandparents, Mr. Hummingbird and Mrs. Butterfly would take like a thousand, thousands of photos of me like as a baby. And my parents like had them and took them. But like when we fell out, like they like purposefully were like, you can't have these.

You know what I mean? Like so I don't have a single childhood photo of me when I know there's like thousands. And like they not thousands, but you know what I mean? Like just a normal amount. And like they won't give them to me. And it's crazy. And there was this one time I went to my grandparents house after I started vlogging and I took vlog clips of like all the photos around the house and like I'll forever be so grateful for that vlog because it's like the only like you have them in the vlog.

Yeah. Like it's the only footage I have of like childhood photos of me like ever. But it's the weirdest thing to like not know because like everyone else gets to just look at photos of themselves and i told my sister that i was like like because she was like not wanting to send me the photos she's like i'm busy i'm like i have never seen a fucking picture of myself literally i want to see that so when she sent him that was so exciting i literally felt like i was like watching a movie literally that's insane i literally have my like my like my belly button from when i was born like i literally honestly my mom does have those i'm telling you she holds on to like the most no no no no fun that's my baby teeth like where are they? I don't have my baby teeth. Fawn like really cared about all that shit.

Tooth Fairy took those. Crack Fairy took those. Will the Tooth Fairy come to your house? Like at least a quarter. Again, like kind of my grandparents before they died, but they died when I was really young. Like there was like maybe one time. That's stupid. You don't have to try it. With my photos too. Like I, my parents divorced when i was really young like there was like maybe one time that's stupid you don't have to try with my photos too like i want my parents divorced when i was like 10

so i like literally don't remember them being together like happily like at all like i literally don't remember it but when i see photos like depending on the house and stuff i can kind of remember like it gives me memories which is different than yours you like have the memory before and then you see the photo to prove it i have such such a vivid like i remember everything i remember literally being like two i i would do anything for that no i mean it's bad in ways because like i remember all the horrible stuff but i also like yeah i every detail every like i remembered the sticker we had bunk beds in the room i'll show you guys the photo i remembered every sticker that was on the bunk beds it's so scary and i'm like in my head sometimes i'm like did i make that up or like did i have like a dream

about this because i don't know what it looks like and i moved out of that apartment when i was five and you saw the photo and i saw the photo it's exactly exactly right do you know weirdly i like all my dreams are based in my childhood homes is that weird like well you should look into like what that means i and i have i have a lot honestly but all my dreams are based in like anything that's related to like trauma with me like all my dreams are in exactly where you would know since you've known me trauma wise but like even just all my like i just had a dream the other night where we were all my childhood home like they're all based with like my current thoughts but in my childhood homes and it's so funny because it's like that's the only way i can remember them

because there's no photos but like i have such vivid dreams in them like every single night that's not perk 30 that's real that's real no i'll like have dreams actually like that where we're like i want i'm doing fucked up shit that like you know what i mean this life has brought us but in my childhood homes if we ever have like a show or anything along the lines even if we did it for like a youtube video i wanted to do this when i brought everyone home or like to meet my family a couple months ago but to i would die to go to the house that like i actually grew up in because you would have a same stroke same same we kind of did that for mtv we drove past one of my childhood homes i remember everything too and me and my sister like

so young like probably like i mean she was she was 10 i really remember every address i grew up at really like because i would always have to know my address because no one would like take me home or like whatever like i would always have to know my address no matter how young i was so i remember every address i grew up at and i would die i don't remember i don't remember i want to remember because i want to be able to look it up i mean i could say it right because i don't live there anymore but i mean i um she goes oh super should we unpack super it is a podcast topic yeah yeah what's going on at the super super what tana i have this problem the super problem the super it's a super problem super i don't know how to explain this like i get drunk i don't get drunk whatever the second i have one shot in me i start saying the

word super with everything like half a shot in me and like you'd be like yeah no let's not go there and i'd be like super no just now whatever the fuck i said it to super this super that super whatever if i'm sober i will never say the word and i can't make it make sense and then when you're super fucked up you go super super yes every single time i don't get it it gets like worse and worse you just say it more and more the more fucked up you are like chris was dying the other day because lila was imitating me being mad at him and she was like i just know when she's mad at you sober she's like chris i'm mad at you and then like drunk tana is like super fucking mad at you super like why do i do for that super crazy for that like i pick up the word super only when i'm drunk and right before we started filming

this she started saying super a little too much and right before we started filming this she started saying super a little too much and i got a little worried but she's super sober right now super enough to film this podcast it's my birthday this month i'm having a midlife crisis because i'm turning 27 and i therefore have three years to find a husband and be pregnant with my first child 29 is the age always do you know what i'm learning though is that like maybe it doesn't fucking matter it doesn't at all and i know it doesn't but i want that's my goal for myself is i want to have at least have somebody that i think i can marry by 30 my thing is is courtney kardashian didn't get married until she was 40 she's 40

years old she found the love of her life. She has hundreds of millions of dollars. She had other things to focus on. I don't think my parents had them when they were like 40. I do love that. So there's no rush here. But they also had you at a normal time. Yeah, but then they're also still popping babies out. I think my step parents.

Guys, they can also traumatize. This is my fear. My fear is that I want to have a few kids so if even if i have my first one by like 35 then i can i think i've been letting the fear of all this shit like plague me for the last like year yeah it is fucking stupid but i just i really it's it's just a goal thank god you're 27 making a lot of money being gorgeous for 26 more days yeah gorgeous you're 27 you're wait oh no

that was last year my golden birthday was last year oh too bad yeah you're the 20 you're 27 now gorgeous so but brooke's birthday always like starts a little you know corruption and we all just wanted to be here for brooke this year and she for sure cold shouldered us and told us that we plain flat out we're not invited this year smarter mentally and going somewhere to where she doesn't i can't the way she's appointed by my friends okay the way she acts is crazy everyone misses my birthday every year well it's you do have one of the harder birthdays in the year it is so i plan it around everybody always giving it's midnight and then it's brooke's birthday and no it changes every year and every year i plan it accordingly i ask everybody in advance

what what's the deal when's everyone going to be back i plan it based on that and then no matter what without fail every year everyone changes their plans so what ends up happening is is everyone realizes that they should probably get be with their family or also get in trouble but last year and i think the year before that it landed on 25th and 26th no it doesn't do that last year it was like three days away from thanksgiving still just fucked so fucked thanksgiving is such an important day for family thank god we celebrate you 363 days a year everyone lives 40 minutes away yeah but leaving the psycho families is like so hard like you do like you have to recognize your birthday around thanksgiving is so hard this year of course i recognize that but if i

say like hey i'm doing my birthday this day does that work for everybody everyone says yes and then changes it a day before decides they're not coming home that's not that's what i where the episodes i think i'm ready for your birthday i just have to like spend so much of my money to make her happy, like buy her something insane. That is not true. Does it make her happy? That's the last, exactly wrong. No, but I can't be there is my point. Oh.

I love you so much. It's just always right around Thanksgiving. Let's just be real. You already disinvited her. Yeah, no, none of you are invited for your birthday this year. It's so close to Thanksgiving that I'm just, no one's invited. I'm doing my birthday separate from everyone this year because I'm like, what am I going to do?

Plan a birthday party and have everyone decide not to come. I'll still pick a separate date to celebrate you and do anything. We always pick a separate date. Always. Like, we love you. We love you. We would die for you. We would die for you.

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reviving the vibes sorry for crying I love you all no reviving the vibes we love you I have so much more to say