Christ With Coffee On Ice - the world lies to us ft. carew ellington
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Hello everybody. Welcome to another episode of Christ with Coffee on Ice.
I am your host, Allie Yost, and we are back, y'all. It is season three. I'm so excited.
I don't know which episode this is going to be in season three, but y'all, this is still my house.
Like, if y'all are physically watching right now, this is still my home, and I'm kind of like living for this.
Y'all know I got my orange couch, which I love. It's been such a staple for my podcast.
But what the heck? My living space? I mean, it's adorable. I always knew it was adorable.
But I love this. I'm also not sitting on the couch alone.
if you're physically watching, you know that.
But if you're just listening, you don't know.
We have Karoo with us right now.
Karu-Eleington.
How are you guys doing?
We love Karu y'all.
Oh, my gosh.
Let me just go on and on about him for a second.
So we've been connected on socials.
Stop it.
We've been connected on socials for like, I don't know, maybe a year.
But we've never really like gotten to know each other.
And so the Lord has really just orchestrated this friendship so beautifully.
He's like my little bro.
He's like my little bro.
And we've only been hanging out for like,
a week, but it's been so special, like just being in community.
We've been laughing.
We have been laughing so much.
I'm going to be laughing through this whole episode.
I can't wait to giggle.
I think we all need a little giggle.
It's the holy giggle.
It's the holy giggles for me.
Before we even film this like an hour, an hour before this, y'all, we were literally
belly laughing.
Yeah, on the floor.
On the floor.
Rolling.
I have not done that in like a year.
No, it's been so healthy.
It's this friendship bringing back joy for me.
It's giving joy.
It is.
Yeah.
So we're so grateful to have you here.
Thank you for having me.
Also, y'all, if you don't know.
I mean, Cruz got, he's got merch, which is incredible.
It's Christian-based merch and it's fire.
It's convicting.
It's convicting.
Don't hide me up, y'all.
And he's also got his own podcast, was just called the Secret Place podcast.
And I also was on there too.
So we're doing a little swap right now.
If you haven't listened to it, it's available on Spotify, Apple, anywhere you listen to podcasts,
including YouTube.
So y'all need to check out his podcast too.
But I love the unity.
It's giving the body.
It's giving the body.
If you do not support your friends like this, because we don't need that.
we do not need to hype ourselves up.
We need to hype our friends up.
Yeah.
And your friends should be the one hopping you up.
Not you.
Yeah.
It's giving.
And it's refreshing because I feel like we've gone so long.
Trying to do it alone.
Having to hype ourselves up and like promoting our own brands.
It's exhausting.
It's like it's fine, but it's exhausting.
And so having that support from multiple people in your community, it's almost like it's
crazy.
It's like foreign because it's like you've really been the one to support yourself through
Christ, right?
But when it comes to like marketing and all of that stuff, it's just it's fun to
have people in your corner that are like, bro, check out. Like the same way we look at it. We got Ashley's
book behind us right now. Ashley Hetherington. She just came out with a book. She's an author. She sold out
at freaking Walmart and Target and number one on Amazon. But like fun. Like let's just support
each other and love on each other. That is real brotherhood and sisterhood in church. Like in the
church. And let me just tell you all in the social media realm, in Jesus name, you guys are going to
start seeing the actual real, when I say real Christian influencers, because many people want to say they're
Christian influencers, but the real ones are going to start supporting one.
another. It's the fruit for me. It's the fruit for me. So you're going to see every one of
your favorite Christian creators, the real ones calming on each other because I'm tired of us trying
self-seek and self-serve. It's time to start serving your brother and sister and Christ and
edify because we cannot do this alone. It's Avengers for me. And the thing is, is like,
you know that like, I guess it's kind of in the world like this saying, but like there's enough
success for everyone. Like a lot of people like to use that in the business world and stuff. But
when we talk about our God and we talk about his blessings, he is an infinite God.
Like for us to even put limits on the Lord in our minds like I don't know like some of us might be guilty of that of I am of being like well they got all these blessings why don't I but like their blessings don't take away from the blessings that the Lord has for you like he is infinite so like supporting you and loving you is not taking anything away from what God has for me and my business and anyway it's like at the end of the day all of this is just to glorify him like we truly should be this is biblical and said in I don't know which Corinthians first or the second Corinthians.
I need Ashley Jones.
I know.
We need.
She is our, she is our like, what is the word?
She is just the stricture.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Like she has scripture.
She's our scripture.
Gridden on her heart.
Ashley Jones, y'all, if y'all don't know her, go follow her.
She stands on business.
Your spiritual big sis.
She's amazing.
That is her handle.
Your spiritual big sis.
She's incredible.
You guys are actually probably already familiar with her because she's lit up this podcast.
She's come on it a couple times already.
But where was I saying with that?
Yeah, like he's infinite.
Like his blessings are infinite.
And so supporting your brothers and sisters in Christ is actually what the Lord calls us to do.
We're supposed to be doing that.
We're not supposed to be just like preaching the gospel and doing everything on our own.
It's like we are actually also supposed to be unified as a body.
Right.
The body of Christ.
The scripture says it's not good for man to be alone.
It's not just talking about in a relationship of being with husband and wife.
It's talking about community.
And there's a scripture I can't necessarily remember where it is.
Where's Ashley Jones?
We have our Bibles literally right here.
Yeah, yeah. But I think it's Moses and the Lord says there's a battle happening below the ground.
He says, as long as you lift your hands up, lift this staff up, then you guys are going to win the battle.
So as he lifts his arms, the battle begins, you know, they start to win, they start to have the victory, but he gets tired and his hands start to fall down.
And then they start losing the battle.
But his friends come around him and hold his hands up for him.
That is the power of community.
That is what it's about.
That is what the body of Christ is about.
It's to come and rally around you when you're exhausted for you to see.
see the victory. Yeah, and that's what God wants us to do. And we're not supposed to be alone in anything. Yeah.
And that's why we have so much joy. And the cool thing that I feel the Lord doing too is like,
and actually Ashley Hetherington, I point because she's here. Ash, do you want to come in and say hi
real quick? Come here. She's here in my house. It's giving. Yeah, it's giving we all live together,
but we've literally in. Ashley's right here. I love this woman so much. I'm telling you, we have
literally died laughing the last couple of days.
I did not know I could have this much fun.
I've not had this much fun in so long.
Like such a pure way.
It's been so pure.
And like, I mean, Ashley, you have a brother, but like I don't actually have a little
brother.
I've always just had a sister, which is great.
I love my Ashley.
I have so many Ashley's in my life.
But my biological sister, Ashley, love her.
She's more than enough.
But I have never had a brother.
So it's just sweet.
Yeah, it's giving brother in Christ.
And I just feel like the.
the Lord is, I heard you saying this crew, but he's just putting together so many amazing people
who love him, like in our lives. And like it was just Ali and I for a bit and it was great. But I feel like
God is just blessing us so much. And Cruz is part of that. I'm so excited for you all to listen to
this episode. I know it's about to be fire. And also I know you guys are about to have fun with them too.
But what I was about to say, because we've had this conversation before too, is that what I love,
this is so intentional from the Lord is when one of us are down for the count.
like truly under warfare or we're struggling with something someone is good though let me just
hop you all up on that like someone is actually solid enough to be like all right we're going to war right
now yeah i literally woke up this morning struggling so hard with my blood sugar like i was if i did not
have y'all i was going to fall into like it was going to be like emo era today like honestly
high key depression but we were like we are about to lean in we are going to pull you out of this
like in the way that i was communicating my voice and the enemy honestly every time we get on this
podcast y'all any podcast anytime we get on our platforms to spread the gospel there's always warfare
but specifically with the podcast so y'all better listen up because god has something in store for y'all
today i don't know what it is but you've got incline your ear i feel it yeah i never share my test
i'm on before online which is that wild that you were feeling that way before and you would are
it's the it's what we said on ggb which i will forever stand by if you've already committed and then you
get like you get spirit in the spirit it was confirmed
from the Lord, you're supposed to be doing it.
All right.
Let's not manipulate it and change it.
Like, oh, well, what if it's God protecting you?
Sure, yeah, that's a thing.
Yeah.
But if you felt in the spirit,
oh, in the spirit,
that this was going to serve the kingdom and you have to go.
And then you feel sick.
You feel, oh, I'm tired, blah, blah, blah.
Maybe I should just push it off.
Maybe it's like, no, push through that
because there could really be like an assignment from the enemy.
Like we say like, oh, it's not that deep.
No, it is that deep because actually you're about to share your testimony,
which is going to help set the captives free.
So we just are so excited for that.
And the enemy's not going to win, period.
And he didn't.
Because here we are.
Any water.
Thanks, ma'am.
Period.
See you, Ashley.
Love you.
Have fun.
Editing.
So yeah.
So on that note, that's crazy to me that you have not actually shared your testimony.
I mean, to be honest.
I mean, I've shared it to thousands, but online, I haven't just sat down.
And been like, this is my testimony.
Yeah, yeah.
Have you considered doing that on your own pod?
Yeah, I will.
You should.
But I'm doing it on here first.
Well, of course, and you're going to continue to share your testimony.
Yeah.
You know, on more podcasts.
I don't know why I haven't got online.
There's a reason.
Wait, okay.
I'm actually, it's crazy because I was going to do last week's episode.
I was going to make it my testimony.
But for some reason, I couldn't do it.
So this is intentional.
Like, for some reason it had to happen now.
There is no maybe in intentionality.
In the spiritual room, there's no way.
No maybe, bro.
There's also no such thing as coincidence.
Come on.
Like, that word doesn't exist.
Okay, so yeah, let's just, because this is the thing.
Let me just touch on the sermon real quick.
It's the way that when you're really, like, friends who are all in tune with the spirit, y'all,
because I was talking to Allie last night, and it's just the way that, like, if they want to,
your friend has something, it's like, already know.
They bring you, you already know.
It was amazing.
Okay.
And then we started saying the same exact thing in text at the same time.
Sometimes we didn't even have to say anything where I'd be like, so you know.
Like, you felt that.
And I say, I literally said yesterday.
I was like, I'm not even giving my testimony, you already know.
You already know it.
And I knew that he already knew.
Because I know dad, which I say, that's God.
That's father.
Because he is my heavenly father.
Dad already told you.
Dad already told you.
But that is, when we say, like, what would you want?
Like, if you could have a superpower, what would it be?
It's like, bro, we already got it through the Holy Spirit.
It's the same spirit.
And it can literally be like, boop, boop, boop.
And we are all connected.
It's the coolest thing I've ever experienced in my life.
And it really shows who's actually in tune with the spirit.
because yeah that's all I'm going to say about that no because sometimes you be having discernment and you're
looking around and no one else is feeling it and I'm like okay so how in tune are you with Abba as me because
why am I feeling this and you're not and people say like discernment is just like for example like speaking
in tongue some people every believer has discernment that's the thing it's not just like I can't
speak in tongues but I got the discernment I can't speak in tongues here my shikia
hooty I look that that was fake y'all that that was so that's showing y'all that people can fake it
online and just because they're doing all that. They can learn it without actually having the gift at all.
Oh. Okay. And then it, but you'll know if it's real if you have the discernment. That's the thing.
Right. Because you can't fake discernment. Exactly. And you won't be led to stray if you're
your discernment's actually in tune with the spirit. But many people are too lazy to get in the word to be
in tune with God to where they're being let astray online. Gosh. They ain't ready to talk about it.
That's real though. That's real. So it's really been refreshing with the time that we've had together
because it's like, dang, you really know the Lord. Because like the way that it's giving. What is it?
Telepathy.
Twinning them.
Yeah, yeah.
Anyway, so let's just get into your testimony, though.
Because we really have been hanging out for like the last week.
Yeah, yeah.
And we've been holding this back.
Yeah, I know.
Because we could have cracked this open like the minute we got in my car on Friday,
however many days ago that was.
We were just like, look, he's sitting there awkward.
Because we want to get there.
We want to talk about it.
So like that's like the first thing you talk about like as a believer.
It's like, so how do you know the Lord?
Yeah, yeah.
So that's our small talk.
It's big.
There's like, yeah, there's, because it's like when you're a believer in your,
your friends with actual true believers, that's all you talk about is Jesus.
Yeah.
And the thing is, it's not like we're saying, and did it.
It's like, for example, me and Ash went to, on a run today.
And before she's cracking up me, Jesus, would you just help us with these heels?
Like she's, she is one like a woman of God that will crack open prayer at any given moment.
I know you hear me, Ashley, hyping you up over there.
I've been meaning to tell you.
She's amazing.
She is.
She really be praying about anything and everything.
Yeah.
Everything she prays about.
She'd be like, guys, can we pray about this right now?
Pray without ceasing is what the word says.
Come on, it's biblical.
I mean, it's not saying that you have to, because many people think, oh, talking about, like,
what are you going to start describing his appearance and all this stuff?
Like, no, it's literally inviting him into the littlest moments of your life.
Yeah.
When you're cooking, hey, Jesus.
And I love your videos that you post that you do, like, those of like, hey, Jesus.
Like, this is me.
Yeah, my journaling to Jesus.
I love those.
Those are really powerful.
Yeah.
Keep doing them.
I haven't done them in a minute.
But I...
This is the Lord telling you right now that you need to.
I know.
I love that.
But anyways, y'all want to hear my testimony?
So, Karu, how did you find the Lord?
How did you know Jesus?
Like, how do you know Jesus so deeply?
Yeah.
Let me just be real.
One, y'all, I mean, I grew up in a Christian home, but it's just giving hypocritical.
I think a lot of people, there's a difference in the testimony.
One, there's two things you got to do whenever you start following Jesus and whenever you become a Christian.
One, you have to believe in Jesus.
Two, you have to make them load of your life.
So in a testimony, there's two parts that happen.
many people leave at the first part they believe in jesus but even the demons believe so if you're believing
in the word i mean it is so easy to believe in god you walk outside who the freak else created this
creation that's it's obvious he's there believe okay just because you say your christian does not mean
you have to believing isn't enough no you have to be submissive and make him lord of your life that
means lord of your mind of your thoughts lord of your eyes the things that you're watching
Lord of your ears, what you're listening to, Lord of your mouth, what you're speaking, everything.
And people aren't willing to do that.
So for me, I grew up in a Christian home.
Y'all, I was homeschooled until like third grade.
That's why I'm a little bit weird.
That's why.
But let me be real.
I mean, my parents did an amazing job.
It just created a Christian atmosphere.
Which I got to meet your parents and they're lovely.
Yeah, they are.
I love your parents.
Your mom is great.
Yeah, they have hearts of cold.
She's the biggest heart.
They're meant to do ministry full time.
They created an amazing atmosphere of, you know, just raising a child upright whenever I was little,
but I'll get to that later of like how that changed.
Whenever I was a kid, again, I had two siblings, so my brother is 25 now.
We're all 18 months apart.
And then my sister is 23.
It's her Jordan year.
That's the only way I remember.
I mean, we were all super close.
And I think what had us so close was because my mom homeschooled us and my dad was like working.
So my dad was like our principal is what my mom would say.
funny and my dad was like working so much but at the end of the day they still brought the lord back
and there's just this like community with the family is like a tribe like in the word you see like
I believe your family is your tribe your family is your community but the thing is it all flows
from the parents and many parents don't want to live that out not saying mine didn't but I'm just saying
in general my parents are amazing at that time I didn't realize it we were like highkey broke
like there's like a lot of times that we would like get made fun of and I'm not saying this is like a
sob story, but like we'd get made fun of for like, we'd go to Arby's, like after church on Sunday,
and like, it would like me and my sister would like have to split like a drink or something just
because of like, you know, money issues and stuff. And it's crazy because at that time,
regardless of the money and financial situations, we were so happy. We were so happy.
And I guess just as time went on, my dad started, I guess leveling up in his job and like,
we ain't rich, but it's just praise God for hard work and dedication. We,
got to move to another house and I mean finances were still hard but you know the Lord saw us through
and we went to public school so I was in third grade whenever I went to public school and my mom
went to public school and became a teacher she's a first grade teacher and I'm just going to be real
ever since we went to public school it just feels like the enemy just kind of infiltrated our household
okay he began to pervert our thoughts our mind because when you're in homeschool you're so close
with your family it's like it has a purity to it there's a holiness
to it. But whenever you are like opening your, your home and not staying guarded, because what happened
with my parents is obviously it's hard not to let your guard down. I mean, I'm 21 years old and like,
I don't even have like, I say a real job. I mean, social media is a real job, but like I can make my
own hours. It's hard to stay in tune with the spirit. And my job is Jesus, you know, like to,
to follow him every single day. And it's just kind of to where you allow the enemy to like compromise.
You know, you start compromising and get distracted so that the Lord just begin to.
to be more less of a, you know, living life in tune with the spirit 24-7.
Yep.
To more of just like a Bible study on like Easter or like a Bible study at night.
You know, we would occasionally do that, but it didn't feel real.
So it's kind of like getting a little lukewarm.
It's getting really lukewarm.
Yeah.
And just throughout that, I mean, it's just a lot of stuff y'all in middle school.
Like, yeah, we ain't going to talk about that.
Yeah, we don't have to dig into that.
Yeah.
So going into high school, I'm going to say when my story really started because I just feel like in middle school,
you just don't even really know what you're doing let's just be real yeah but i have like a very
like obsessive personality so that's why if y'all do know me like i'm obsessed with jesus like i'm
working on how i present that because sometimes it's a little bit crazy but um oh i don't i don't think
that really yeah i think it's great some people say i'm an extremist no you think they're hating i
don't think there's such thing as being an extremist when it comes to jesus
Like we're the only reason that we're alive and we have a chance.
Like he's, no, what I want to say is he's the only reason that we even have a chance in
are alive right now.
So why wouldn't we be extremists about the man who literally saved our souls?
We're talking about the fate of our eternity.
I'm sorry, there's nothing wrong with being extremist about that.
I mean, he's literally saved you.
Yeah.
So I want to rebuke that right now.
In Jesus' name.
Amen.
No, that's good.
So whenever I started going to high school,
When freshman year, I began to just, like, find, I've always, like, had just a spirit of insecurity.
The spirit of insecurity has been so heavy on me as a kid.
Like, it's not something that just came always feeling insecure about every little thing.
And freshman year, I was just like, okay, well, I'm going to start finding my worth in, you know, just hanging out with, like, older kids.
My brother was a senior, so I just wanted to hang out with, like, older kids.
And that, like, kind of put me in, like, the party scene of, like, smoking, drinking.
How old were you?
I mean, when you're a freshman, what are you, like?
It was freshman.
14?
I don't know, 15. Yeah, 14, I guess. Oh, okay. And also, let me, let me touch a little bit on this because I feel like somebody needs to hear this. I was introduced to porn whenever I was in sixth grade. So was that, that's crazy. Is that 11 years old? Yeah. Whenever I was 11 years old. And I have, like, you're not even a teenager yet. I wasn't even a teenager. I have the whole video on that, if you all want to see that. But it was just like, I didn't even like, it was just like thrown into my face. That's like a big issue with public school. And it is the real world. But, like, I have the whole world. But, like, I don't know.
like you're like oh you can't shelter your kids of the real world yeah but you have to keep a
holiness in your family and you have to bring it back because we go out in Nashville we go out to the
city we see it but we're on guard where we stand ground and we don't back we don't you know a lot of
people want to conform to to satan into like I saw a video this it was like a lot of people want to
conform to secular music and a lot of people want to conform to the world but like no one wants to
conform you know to Jesus no one wants to conform to christian music and I just believe the Lord's like
reclaiming his line and
It's like, why is that?
Like, why are we so comfortable with conforming to everything else under the sun except Jesus?
It's the flesh.
Because it's the flesh.
And it's because Jesus is the way, the life and the truth.
So anything outside of that, like the flesh is, it's just easier for the flesh.
Yeah.
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It honestly just proves his existence.
It proves his existence.
Even more.
That's embarrassing.
But anyways, going back, it's just embarrassing.
So, yeah, y'all, I developed a porn addiction whenever I was in, like, sixth grade.
That's crazy.
Honestly, I can't even imagine, like, being a teacher, like, knowing that there could be children that you're teaching at that young of an age that have been exposed to and impacted by porn.
Yeah.
Like, that's just so twisted.
No.
It's just so evil.
Well, it's normalized today.
That's the thing.
So I think a lot of teachers don't care.
Like, they're not ready to talk about that one either.
So just honestly dealing with that.
And it became to just be, it was like a normal thing, y'all.
Like, porn was just like a normal thing.
Like, and I still think in today's culture it is.
Like, oh, yeah, I'm just watching this like normal.
Like, you feel like zero conviction about it.
And like, I mean, I would go to church camp and like, you know, sob.
I felt the Lord's presence.
I said I was saved.
I got, you know, baptocon.
I was like in third grade.
And that was me.
No, I always knew Jesus was real, but I was never willing to make him Lord of my life.
Like I obviously believed in him.
But my actions didn't align.
I believe that's what.
a lot of people are falling into now with the lukewarm believers is they believe you know jesus is
real and all these things but like even the demons believe so you're no better than a demon and i will
live off that scripture yeah and i think honestly like what really truly keeps you lukewarm is still
like mixing in sin though you know so it's like you still were impacted and felt jesus because he's
very real and his presence is is real no matter if you're living a sinful life or not but the thing that
keeps you lukewarm is also allowing sin to be present in your life
life yeah you can only drink from one so yeah in freshman year i just begin to be in that scene and then
sophomore year the lord he just he moves in such a mighty way and such a crazy way and even at that time
i wasn't living for him i would claim to be a believer but i wasn't actually living for him it's just crazy
how he's actually guiding us he was guiding me and he knew the anointing in my life of the time but i
didn't come on so i i began to run cross-country and track and i became to be really good at like
my mild time was like 434 like not that i'm
remember but it was like not that i remember but it's exactly four but uh to my calculations you can look
it up no i'm kidding but uh yeah it was like getting really good but i was so obsessed so that was my
new obsession was to run tracking cross country and i began to be really strict on the things that i ate
and it developed into a really bad eating disorders to where i weighed 120 pounds and i was six
foot almost six two and i remember going to the doctor like multiple times a month saying i felt so
dizzy like i thought i was low-key dying i'm not even going to lie and finally the doctor just put me on
a medication they put me on an ADHD medication instead of getting to the root which that's what
the world does is instead of getting to the root they patch it they just put a band-aid exactly they take the
symptoms away i know in covering symptoms actually creates a bigger issue way bigger and that's a
word for somebody on here and i begin to like take ADHD medicine and it covered like you know
the symptoms of me like not eating but you weren't healed
I was not healed and it created like an addiction and it created depression.
And you're now reliant on that medication to be healthy.
Yeah, exactly.
And yeah, that was like the next, you know, where I find the worth and all this stuff.
And it came to the point where I was like timing like when I would like take the medicine so that it would peak in a race.
And that's giving drug addict.
There was one time I knew that I needed to get off that medicine whenever I almost like felt like I was having a heart attack in a race.
And I was like, I cannot do this anymore.
this is like going to kill me.
And it was actually like a regional race.
It was getting so bad.
The obsession with like sports and being the best was getting so bad.
I remember I took like two laxatives before regionals.
The next day, timing, I don't even know if I ate.
I might have eaten just like something really tiny.
Then I took ADHD medicine, whatever, Vivance.
It's like a stimulant.
So it gives you energy.
And I ran the race and I barely could finish the race.
That's where I passed out.
Like it got bad.
Then I had to go to the ER.
It was crazy.
That's awful.
That's the point that I knew, like, I needed help.
And so I decided I was going to get off that medicine.
And then I remember I was in weightlifting one time at school.
And I just went off cold turkey with that medicine.
I literally wanted to unalive myself.
But, I mean, I've always wanted to do it now.
But, like, at that moment, like, I remember it was just, like, the darkest time.
I don't have, like, any memory of that time.
It's, like, blacked out.
It's getting trauma.
It's trauma.
Yeah.
And I don't remember anything.
But I just.
And I just.
some people around me to be like you need to eat but there's no like my whole life there's like a
lack of understanding yeah you need to read the word you don't celebrate hell and do all this but like why
tell me why but no one wanted to explain why so that's why i was living lukewarm and that's why i finally
am living for jesus now because he've told me why it makes sense there's so much proof to it and
so yeah i got off that meds and it was just miserable so i just left school that one day and
then just like fast-forting on i got into like a really
toxic like a relationship then I found my worth in that girl and then then I ended up I'm not going to
get into that but just I just want to share with you guys because my testimony literally covers like
everything relationship issues drugs alcohol like addiction literally everything so there's nothing
that's why I'm so passionate about Jesus because there's nothing that he can't heal you from
I've literally experienced almost everything and he's delivered me from it every single time
and he's continuing to heal me he's continued to deliver me because the process of sanctification
is deliverance.
Yep.
And I remember junior year, it was like right before COVID.
I started social media, and I wasn't even allowed to have social media at the time.
And I posted like a thirst trap video, and it went viral.
And I was like...
How old were you?
This was senior year, you said?
No, this was junior.
So let's say 17.
Okay.
It's giving underage.
What are you doing thirst trap?
It's giving underage, but it's also giving wanting affirmation for others and showing
insecurity. Yep. And post that video and just imagine like me having to tell my mom, hey mom,
I have 50,000 followers like on TikTok, which that was before TikTok was huge. Yeah. But this just,
I just want you to like hone in like really close on my story to see like how insane our God is as
in, okay, what is the coincidence that I start social media right before, you know, COVID? God is wanting
me to have a falling for some reason. I did not know why. So yeah, begin posting that and on social media,
begin gaining followers and followers and followers and followers and that just pumps my head up like bro it's
giving airhead like I'm surprised I didn't float away and then also to touch on like in high school
y'all I was literally so mean to everybody and that's one thing the enemy like tries to bring up a lot
is like me bullying yeah everyone in my past yeah like it was bad but it's because I was insecure
and that's something Satan will try to bring up is your past and I don't know if anyone is dealing with
If you haven't been personally attacked by the enemy, specifically by him throwing your past in your face, you're lying.
Like, there's just no way.
Like, he will do that continuously.
Like, even I have an example of somebody who is, honestly, they're not a close friend.
They don't know who I am now.
They knew who I was before Jesus.
And it's like, you know, they're sending me pictures of a version of myself from before I knew Jesus.
And they're like, who's this?
And I'm like, I don't know.
I don't know her anymore, you know?
Yeah, yeah.
But it's like even something as simple as that where no, I'm not saying that that person was necessarily a demon, you know, or like worshiping the devil.
But the enemy really will use anything and anyone to try to throw your past in your face.
Because to that person, that's just a picture of me from like a couple years ago.
But to me, I remember exactly where I was.
I remember exactly what I was feeling.
I remember all of the struggles, the hardships, everything.
Like it's like it's giving when you smell a smell that like brings you back.
Like that's like the same energy.
that having that picture sent to me,
did for me.
So, yeah, so anyway, with him,
with him throwing your past in your face,
like, it's just, he, he, there's nothing new that he does.
Like, it's giving the same old,
like, he'd be doing that for all of us.
I don't know whenever,
everyone's going to understand that we literally,
if you are a child of God,
have authority over Satan.
So if he's continually bringing your past,
you know, back up in your face,
it's because he's scared.
The reason that he's bringing all of these thoughts in your mind
to be stressed out and overwhelmed about and all these, you know, toxic people in your life,
it's because he's stressed and he's scared because he knows through the power of the Holy Spirit.
You can rebuke him so quick.
Luke 1019 says, don't rejoice because you can trample on snakes and scorpion, but rejoice because your name is registered to heaven.
Jesus literally said Satan felt like lightning.
He's beneath us.
Right.
Don't even rejoice because of that because he's so beneath us and below us.
Right.
And we just have to understand that he is scared of us.
So instead of, it's just like reverse psychology, whenever these things are coming on onto us, rebuke it.
it's not you.
Yeah.
All that,
you know,
that past and he wants you to feel that shame,
but it's because he's literally scared of you.
And to be honest,
that version of you in the past wasn't a threat to him.
So obviously he wants to take a version of you today.
That is a threat to him and bring you back to something that ain't going to threaten him.
Because like,
what?
Why would he bring you back to a version of you that would kick his butt?
Yeah.
Like,
he's going to try to bring you back to a version of yourself that loki served him and didn't,
like,
threatened him.
Yeah.
It's not like you were glorifying God.
It's not like you were glorifying the kingdom then.
Yeah.
So it's like just taking his confirmation.
that wherever you are in your life right now,
if the enemy is truly trying to take you back,
like you better know that that's because you're exactly
where you're supposed to be.
And you are literally making him shaking his boots.
Come on.
It's something to bring back the authority in the church.
Yeah.
The authority of scripture.
Yeah.
You know?
I mean, it's crazy because the word literally says that in Hebrews
that Jesus provides a way out of every single temptation.
He does.
Every single one.
And he shows that in the wilderness,
the fact that the Holy Spirit sent Jesus out into the wilderness
to be tempted for 40 days.
And he fasted every time that saying came to.
him he apparently it was the desert really the desert wilderness i don't know i think i said it once in a
video where i said i think i said the forest and people were like alley was a desert it doesn't matter
honestly regardless of what it is it's giving insecure with trying to correct y'all so much anyways
but also does it matter he was tempted in the middle of nowhere can we say that for 40 days okay in
the middle of nowhere it's just like why why everybody want to correct you i don't know some people
just want to be they just want to sound right it's just even if even if i was wrong y'all get it though
He was in the middle of nowhere and vulnerable.
Yeah, and every single time.
Whether there were trees or sand.
Yeah, it's just like, y'all reaching.
Anyways, love y'all.
And it's just like the fact that-
It's not the ones listening right now.
It's the people in my comment section, like on the internet.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
These people who are listening, bro, their family.
Yeah, I know.
I love y'all family.
Yeah.
If Ali says y'all family, they're family.
And, yeah, I mean, it's just the fact that every time that Satan came to Jesus,
first off, he was fasting.
Mm-hmm.
So you're not going to defeat the enemy if you're not fasting.
Yeah, I just learned that.
I just fasted for the first time.
I said that on the pod in the last episode.
I shared with them my experience of fasting for the first time.
Yeah.
And it was so powerful.
Yeah.
Like the way that I hear from the Lord's so clear.
And the way that I like saw the enemy so much clear.
Yeah.
And discernment.
The discernment was the only reason we're filmed the way we are now was because we
fasted before this trip.
Sirens are going off.
Right.
So that's what's so cool about fasting is it's not just in it.
Yeah.
And honestly,
everyone's experience with fasting is so different because I've gotten mixed reviews from people
saying that they actually don't get anything until after the fast.
They get things both during the fast and after or just during, like, whatever.
But the cool thing is that the fruit be fruiting, even far after the fast.
The fruit be fruiting.
The fruit be fruiting and it don't go nowhere because it's crazy because I was like really
truly hearing from the Lord so clearly during my fast, but it hasn't stopped since I fasted.
It's crazy.
It's really good.
And then the next thing that Jesus did every single time was quote scripture, you know,
back to Satan.
And I saw a video you posted in one of your episodes of like, you know, you quote scripture,
the enemy and it's like well he might quote it back at you but just you know miss you know misinterpreter
like just change a little bit because like he'll give you a half truth half truth is a whole lie yeah
come on yeah so yeah um so you were mean to everybody in high school i was mean to everybody in high school
and if you're listening and you're from high school i formally apologize and i literally love you so
much like please forgive me i'm you it's born again he's new and the thing is but you can't even argue
like people just look for something to be mad at like on my social media at this point
if i really wanted the views i would go back to what i was doing it was getting me
a lot more views, but Jesus, I mean, he, I'm sold out for him and I literally love him.
And I just want to hear a well done.
My good and faithful servant.
That's why I just got to be bold.
It don't matter what anybody else is.
I feel like that's what's so similar with our testimonies is that we like had a
following and we had success and we had all of those things before we had Jesus.
Yeah.
And it's like, honestly, our lives would be a lot, I don't want to say easier.
Easier in the world maybe to just keep doing what we were doing.
From the outside perspective, yeah.
Right.
But it wasn't fulfilling us.
And actually we were so empty.
Yeah, no.
We're getting to that point of the story.
we digress so i started social media y'all and i just began to start you know living for myself
in every way that i could it became to the point to where like i would go to social media like
every single day post as many times just until i get something viral to where it began to be like
an idol and a lot of people say like today now does crew how do you not care about social media
so much because i once cared about it so much it kept me up at night yeah i once literally would
wake up in the middle of the night like so often to see if a video went viral but that's on
Jesus is power. I mean, I'm a living proof. If you're not living proof, then did Jesus even work in your life?
He wants to work in your life. You just have to be willing and it's costly. Yeah. Like we always talk about it's a
sacrifice. You have to lay down your life. The more that you lay down, the more he can enter in. Yeah. And I feel
like it sounds really dramatic to some people who maybe like haven't actually like laid down their life
completely or like, I mean, literally die. Like give your life. Yeah. It sounds dramatic, but it's like,
you don't understand how beneficial it is for you to do that though, to literally lay down your life.
and give God your entire life.
It's a sacrifice, but it is so unbelievably rewarded.
Yeah, yeah.
Like, you are alive.
Yeah.
And living when you do that.
How we were literally created to live.
It's how we were wired to be.
Like, it was like what you had said yesterday where, you know, if you take a fish out of water,
like when you take something out of its environment that it was made for,
when you take us out of the environment of being in the presence of God
and truly being like connected like this with God, we just don't operate right.
We are depressed.
We are anxious.
We do want to off ourselves.
Like we don't have a lack of, we have a lack of identity.
We have a lack of purpose.
Like we just will have all those things because we are fish that have been taken out of water
and we're put in some muddy, mucky, gross pond.
You know, it's like he is the living water.
Like he is the truth.
And so when we are aligned with that, like we are walking testimonies of that,
Carrou because people look at versions of ourselves.
People could say, yeah, Carrou was a jerk to me in high school.
Yeah, no, Karoo literally bullied the crap.
out of me but like to see who you are now is so glorifying to God and only shows it just supports who
he is like he is good like he literally will transform us you are not that person anymore
amen is a testimony it's a testimony and y'all started you know just posting on social media and
that's where we're getting too on like you said it's not going to fulfill so we're feeling validation
through the internet and so much so that we're like waking up in the middle of the night to make
sure that everything's performing well because that's where we're where you're going to
your value. And I, y'all, there's so many influencers who are still doing that that you follow. And I think on that,
and you know, I know you can back me on this. A lot of people, you know, on the outsider perspective
on social media, think that people's lives are so glamorous and stuff. But some of the top, like,
influencer people that you follow are literally the most insecure people. They care so deeply about
views. They care so deeply about likes. A lot of times I don't even care about you. You're a number to
them. Yeah. And I know that stinks to say, but I was one of those people. So I can, I'm allowed to say that.
Right.
So you need to make sure that the people that you're following are leading you to Christ and not astray.
Yeah.
They need to be a brother and sister in Christ who are in tune.
Yeah.
And I think just having that discernment and like you can pray to the Lord about that.
He'll show you.
God, he'll show you.
You'd be like, Lord, if there's anyone that I'm following on social media, if there's
anyone that I'm letting influence my life, you know, through my eyes and ears, like reveal it to me.
And you will just start to have feelings that you don't really understand.
You're like, wait, why am I starting to feel this way about this person that I'm following?
I've felt that.
I felt that about a lot of people that I've been supporting and loving for plenty of years online.
And I'm not saying that they're bad people.
But if they're not pouring into you and if they are not helping you in your journey and just like, I don't know.
For me personally, I'm trying to be a better person every single minute.
Like every day.
I want the Lord to transform me.
I do not want to be the person I was yesterday.
If it's not pushing you closer to Christ, then unfollow.
We need to reevaluate.
Yeah.
And it might be hard, but like, it might be hard because it's actually the thing you need to do.
Yeah.
Even if it's a, I'm telling you, like sometimes in my walk, I literally just had to, this is recent y'all in just a few weeks. So I don't follow literally every single person. And I mean, even getting on this podcast, I told Allie like, hey, I was like literally jealous of your podcast. Like I was, like we have to be real. Yeah. Because I think many times, like with the comparison on social media, like anything that is not brought to the light, like anything in the darkness is either going to grow or it's going to die. It's time to bring, you know, the comparison, the insecurity to the light so Jesus can heal.
Yeah, that's what he did.
Yeah, I got deliverance on Sunday.
That was so, I've never seen a deliverance in my life.
And it was like giving charismatic.
You didn't see it.
You were gone.
Yeah, I know.
It was like really insane, y'all.
It was really awesome.
I was so happy for you.
I was so happy for you.
We can touch on that maybe later, but let's get back on track.
Yeah, yeah.
I'm so sorry.
No, it's okay.
We keep going off on an awful.
I mean, they're good.
Yeah, yeah.
It's a spirit going on.
It's giving mini, many sermons.
Yeah, yeah.
So, let me lean up for this.
So I started posting on social media and just my whole life I always thought like, okay, once I have this amount of followers or once I have this, then I'm going to be fulfilled.
And I remember specifically, actually I need to rewind real quick because I'm missing a key part of my story.
So I remember it was around when I had like 100,000 followers, 400,000 a little bit because of social media, I ditched all my friends.
I did not like, I was the literal worst friend.
I had literally nobody because I thought.
I thought I was the that boy. I thought I was like everything. It was giving God complex.
It's giving pride. It's giving pride. And I remember going to my mom's room and just praying like,
mom, would you just come and pray with me that, and keep in mind, I'm a lukewarm believer.
I'm like, would you just pray that I could have good friends, just a good community? I remember
us praying over that. And a week, if not days after, we got a call from one of my mom's
best friends. And she said, hey, Jennifer, I have a job.
opening at an animal shelter for Karoo and Abby that's my sister if y'all don't know her if they're
available to work there and we're like well i mean we're broke you know what i mean i'm not making any
money from social media so we might as well so we we our first day we of working there i remember
my sister like pointed out this dog to me and i was just like oh this dog's adorable and i've always
wanted my own dog my whole entire life i've always wanted my own dog and for some reason that dog like
stuck out to me so specifically and if you guys do follow me you know you know my story with naloo and i
came back home naloo sweet can we put a picture of her on the screen right here yeah send me one i can put
her right here okay yeah that's sweet i love her and i remember going home and it got to the point
to where i mean every single day i went home for honestly four days i was like sobbing for this dog
keep in mind this is somebody with a hardened heart miserable but crying over some random puppy dog like
I'm working out of shelter.
What are you going to expect?
You're going to see a lot of dogs.
But there was something literally like appointed about this one specific dog.
And my sister pointed it out to me.
And my parents were like, no, we're not getting a dog.
You're just going to, you're not going to take care of it.
And it's just going to, you know, be like every other animal.
And I was so determined in getting this dog.
Like, I was just sobbing.
I was like, I have to get this dog regardless of what my parents say.
So I posted on TikTok.
I said, if I can, if 200 people can send Venmo me a dollar, then I can get my dream dog without my parents knowing.
The next day, we raised like $1,300.
Wow.
And I said, Mom, sorry, we can't return the money.
So finally got my dog.
That's so sweet.
It's so sweet.
And just through that journey of, you know, just the Lord is of my dog so heavy to, like, soften my heart.
I love animals.
I love the he'll use anything.
Yeah.
It's insane.
And I just, I love animals so much.
And working at the shelter, which I literally cleaned up poop.
That was my job, was to scrape kennels and clean up poop.
and digging trash cans.
Kuru literally picked up poop in my house and I was like,
bro, I live in Honduras.
And he was like, he was like, I literally, I've done this.
Yeah.
He's like, I've been picking up dog poop.
You don't want to know what I've had to do.
Anyways, so just through that process of, you know, I started posting with Nalu
and she began to be like the literal reason that I woke up.
It was becoming like that.
And people who follow on social media could think that, oh, when I post with my dog,
it's like fake or whatever.
it was genuine out of a kid searching so hard for a reason to wake up.
And the Lord sent that in a dog to soften my heart.
And through that, my dog literally changed my heart from being one of the hardest,
meanest persons to just like so just sweet and loving in like every single way.
And the Lord knew at that time I wasn't ready to receive him in that way.
So he sent my dog.
And just as time goes on, I just start posting, you know, with my dog.
And honestly, we just start blowing up.
Like we just start getting millions and millions of followers.
Oh my gosh.
Yeah, I know.
She's, she's...
Just because you're like, you have like this sweet companion and y'all are just like so cute together.
Honestly, it's Kuru and Nalu against the world.
Aw.
But I don't really post her anymore.
She's still alive, y'all.
Everybody thinks she's dead.
She's not.
You're talking about her like she's dead.
Oh, really?
I don't know why I thought that the story was...
Stop.
I thought this story was leading to her being dead.
Why does everyone think she's dead?
No, I don't know.
I was scared.
I think I was just afraid that there was going to be a really sad ending.
No.
I rebuke me saying,
that it's because you talk about her like she's dead but i was afraid that it was going to be like everyone
has been asking me if she's dead she's not dead y'all i just travel so much yeah that at the end of the day
praise the lord that she's still alive i was afraid that this was going to have a sad ending
praise god i don't know if i would be on this couch right now if my dog was like how old is she
she's four years old oh okay okay so um yeah no who's still with us anyways i just remember like
oh i just need more followers more followers more followers and just begin to be like more miserable more
miserable you know how it is and it's like okay well maybe once i get this certain amount of money because
obviously social media wasn't paying the bills so i started my own business and sold out literally overnight
like started making amazing amounts of money and then again it just stopped filling me and i remember
there's a specific time like one of my friends asked me to go and get coffee with her after church and i was just
like oh sure like yeah whatever and i was like i don't really have any any i mean i had friends like i don't
want to say I didn't have but it's just like it was me I was secluding myself I wasn't
open to my friends I still had some people in my life that were pouring into me but I wasn't receptive
to it and so I want to preface that and I mean I got coffee with her and ever since that day we hung
out for every single day for three months straight before she went to work to church camp
and in that moment like I didn't realize it was like the Lord in her that I was like attracted to
I mean we didn't date or anything it was just like a best friend like it was the Lord
the Holy Spirit in her that pulled me to her that was
What was gravitating you to her, though?
Yes.
The goodness of God.
Yes.
Yeah.
And it's so crazy.
So my story isn't like a one specific moment to where like Jesus met me, you know,
like when I was in the bathroom, like crying.
No, like Jesus slowly made me fall in love with him.
And like through, I had to experience somebody living so on fire for Jesus.
I had to experience his love before, you know, I would even receive it.
And I remember my friend went off to camp.
And I was like, wow, I've literally been in my word for three months and I didn't even plan on it because I just started to fall in love with Jesus.
It's really like the cool thing is, is like he actually just has to reveal to you his love.
And you have no other desire but to want more because it's that good.
Like he doesn't like make us fall in love with him.
He doesn't make us love him.
Like it's like he literally just shows us his goodness and we're like, oh my gosh, I love this man.
It's like once you taste, you crave nothing else.
You're like, wait, he's amazing.
That's why we're so crazy for Jesus.
Because he's the best thing ever.
He's the kindest person ever.
He's the sweetest, like, I can't even explain.
Lowly, humble, loving.
Honestly, I've been feeling it, like, I don't know if you, I've been feeling it all day where this is just me.
Like, I'm just like, I've just been resting in his presence.
Like, he's just so kind.
And I think he's intentional.
He's extremely intentional.
I don't think. Jesus is so intentional.
And just last night how we were all praying.
And we felt like a holy hush in the room.
Yeah.
And I just remember, like, I was on my knees, like, you know, crying out to the Lord.
And I just, I felt, you know, Jesus saying, just come get on the couch.
Just curl up on my lap.
Like, it's a father.
Yeah.
And I just got the blanket, just sat on the Lord's lap.
And when we were talking about being in tune with the spirit, like, this is another example.
Yes.
Because I felt the Lord tell me to just lay down, like, completely lay down on the floor.
And it was giving like, I'm just, like, in his chest.
Like, I was feeling that same sense of, like,
And we all were like, I feel like I was just resting in my dad's lap.
Or I feel like I was just leaning in his chest.
Like it was giving like literal dad just holding you and comforting me.
I said a lot.
I was like, I'm, I said, Jesus literally told me to come laying in his lap.
Everyone was like, what?
Like everyone was freaking out because it was the same.
It's giving in tune with the spirit.
And he's intentional with each of us.
He speaks to to each and every single one of us.
That's on being in tune with the spirit.
Separately, but together.
Exactly.
Yeah.
So yeah, with my friend, I, I just slowly like fell in love with Jesus.
and I slowly began to just be sold out with him.
And through that process, through that journey, like, I loved animals so much.
And there's a specific time in December, so I was just kind of growing in my faith.
But it was still giving, like, Jesus is so gracious because I look back at my story
and look back at times where I was a Christian when I first started following Jesus,
and I felt like the strongest believer.
He let me feel that.
He let me feel his love.
He let me feel so strong, you know, and so close him.
I felt him so tangible.
but I was like still living in a lot of sin but his grace is so sufficient.
Because I know in five years.
Five years I'm going to look back now and be like, dang, crew, you were doing that.
You still needed growth.
You know?
Yeah.
And his grace is so intentional and everything.
Because he doesn't see, like he sees where you're at now and he really is so proud.
But he also does see the versions of who will be in the future.
And it's like that's the grace.
It's cool.
He sees the anointing on our entire life.
Yeah.
And like that's the reason that he has so much grace for us.
It's literally so cool.
He's so good.
I know.
He's so patient.
It's just you don't even comprehend the Lord.
You just have to taste them.
You don't taste and see the Lord is good.
I started following the Lord and then just slowly fell in love with him, getting my word.
And that was how many years ago?
Three, four?
20, 21.
And then we had like a really bad tornado about two, 20 minutes from where I lived.
And there, it was very heavily like Hispanic community population there.
And just me and my dad were there.
for like two weeks after everything happened.
So we drove every single day just to like help, serve.
I mean, we did a go-fummy.
It raised like almost $40,000.
Praise Jesus.
Wow. Wow.
And in that moment, the Lord had built to me.
He's like, crew, I didn't, I didn't call you to, you know, because I wanted to be a vet.
I loved animals so much.
I wanted to be a zookeeper my whole life.
He said, I called you to love on the broken.
That is why you keep, you know, loving, saving animals and loving, saving, going to the shelter.
Because you do have a heart for the broken.
You broken.
It wasn't even, I love you.
animals what it wasn't even animals it was about people and to go even deeper on that the lord has put the
Hispanic community so heavy on my heart because later on i didn't realize that like it is it's so funny
how how jesus works we had like a translator to go with our church and i was like i do not want to
translate it i want i want to do this i want to type it out on my phone even if it's hard because i want to be
intentional in this way and then like two years later yeah two years later the lord calls me to honduras
in the Hispanic community and now like i know spanish and yeah it's just crazy like to be able to like speak to
any person who's Hispanic, like, especially in the U.S., because we just, we need to do better in the states of treating our Hispanic community better.
Because they're like such an overlooked population and you have to see like where these people are coming from.
Like you would want to come here too.
And we were at Keynes the other night and one of the cooks was Hispanic and he didn't even know, like the people didn't even know his name.
Like he didn't even know English.
And I just got to talk to him in Spanish and just like, God bless you.
I'm so happy.
The way that he literally lit up so hard.
Because he felt seen.
Exactly. That's what it's about. Yeah. That's what that's the gospel. Feeling seen, feeling loved and finding hope. That's really what the Lord, having grace on other people. So yeah, just through that, the Lord showed me, you know, that my heart was for people. And honestly, even if you look back at my social media, which is crazy. And the times, like I said, I thought I was so strong spiritually. Jesus continues to have grace and grace and grace. But I say I truly, not even truly, I became so much deeper, deeply, really.
it's crazy in your life you know Jesus has continued to write testimony after testimony after
testimony because the last year I didn't realize I was living in a testimony of just moving to Honduras
and I specifically I went to Honduras last year and lived there for six and a half months and
I just out of a walk-up faith and I like it's just crazy how you don't even realize that the
Lord it's like working in that and yeah so we found the Lord we have a passion for okay so now
I want to ask you a question yeah okay so obviously the
the Lord has like, it was like you've always had this love for the broken in your heart.
And I feel like even with my testimony is very similar because I had my brand of like girly
pop and I really had such a love for people and specifically women.
Like I love pouring into women and like encouraging them, giving them hope and faith.
And so it was just, it was just a matter of the Lord just tweaking and just like turning the dial a little bit.
Or like we were going this direction and he was like, we're just going to go a little bit or this way.
Because it was like we really were on the right direction.
but it was like he just needed to kind of tweak our hearts a bit.
And so I love that.
And I want to ask you like, now that you see, you know, where the Lord is leading you in
your life, what are some of the biggest dreams?
What are the things that you really want to achieve in the name of Jesus?
Like, what is your mission with the Lord?
Like, where do you see him taking you?
Yeah.
With these specific things that you have on your heart for the broken, for the Hispanic community.
Like, what do you feel?
I'm going to say one, first and foremost, my end goal is to please.
the father. Of course. To please Jesus above man. And just honor him and obey. Right. Yeah.
I mean, the Lord has put the call like on my life to speak and to be an author. And there's been like
just a shift in like my social media and the stuff that I've been posting of just like I feel
the Lord calling me to like a higher standard. He's he's judging me at a higher standard. And like
as you grow with the Lord, you know, every single day of every single month, the standard just
becomes to be higher and higher and higher. You know, as children of the Lord.
we're pursuing that process of sanctification.
So for me, I believe that the Lord's calling me into the space of, you know,
speaking and writing books.
Absolutely.
Yeah.
And I really want to start a ministry and I see a lot of travel in your life.
Yeah.
Honestly, I really want to start an orphanage in Honduras in Jesus name, like a connecting one
from the U.S. to Honduras.
And I want to make it like accessible.
I haven't really told anybody this, but hey, girlie pops, what y'all?
Hey.
How y'all doing?
I want it to like make it easier for my father.
followers or even you guys to to travel and do mission trips in a safe way. That's really good.
And like even like if you like joined in like we can connect with our followers on a mission
trip. Allow the Lord because I've experienced how going to a third world country even for a week
literally transforms your life insanely and also transform the other people life. I can't wait to do
it. So that's what cross cultural ministries is what because we say oh we need to go Honduras or oh
we know we need to go to Honduras and Honduras needs to come to us. Because we both have
things that we can exchange from one another. That's right. That's really good. Crew, thank you so much
for sharing all of this. Yeah, of course. Thank you for being vulnerable. Thank you for like officially
sharing your testimony for the first time ever like on this podcast. Yeah, we're so grateful. I'm getting the
holy sweats right. We love you. Why? Why? Because you're like I shared a lot. The thing is is like obviously it's so
important for us to share our testimonies and our stories. But it really does like take us back. Yeah.
And sometimes that's hard. It is hard. Feel it and hear it. And like,
I mean, I was even just simply talking about it just from a simple picture of someone sending to me.
But it's like telling our testimonies is hard because it does take us back to like where we were at before.
But praise God.
Yeah.
And it's so important to share.
It's so important.
So I'm just really grateful for you for sharing it.
Well, thank you for having me.
Yeah.
I pray that there will be more podcast.
There's going to be more.
There will be more.
Joining it back in here.
I feel that in the spirit.
I know.
Me too.
It's giving duo.
It is.
It's giving Avengers.
Like we legitimately keep saying that.
But like the way that we have all been able to just be together and the way that the,
the Lord has truly specifically put things on all of our heart.
It goes back to the intentionality of him.
But it like, it's all so compliment.
It complements it's specific.
It's the way like randomly at my house like one night, I just like your name,
Ali Yos written down.
That's the reason I'm here right now.
It's amazing because I reached out and we're all.
Like we're on a team.
And I call Spider-Man by the way being in the event.
You're Spider-Man.
I don't know what I would be.
Black Widow maybe.
Wonder Woman.
I want to be a, yeah, Wonder Woman.
Wonder Woman.
I would be her.
Ooh, I would do that.
I love you guys.
Thanks for tuning in.
And Carew loves y'all.
I love y'all so much.
You can find him on TikTok, Instagram, YouTube.
Obviously, we already mentioned his podcast, but, hey, can we do something really cool?
This is my little outro.
Can we do something cool today?
Can we show somebody how cool Jesus is?
Like, can you go show somebody why Jesus is so cool?
Share his love, share the gospel.
And that literally is just spreading his love, spreading his compassion, spreading his goodness, y'all.
Let's walk a little bit more like Jesus today.
That's a goal that we should have for the rest of this week.
But I love you guys.
I hope that you have a wonderful weekend.
Happy Friday.
And I will see you guys in the next episode.
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