Classic Audiobook Collection - Nightmare Tales by Helena Petrovna Blavatsky ~ Full Audiobook [horror]
Episode Date: December 4, 2025Nightmare Tales by Helena Petrovna Blavatsky audiobook. Genre: horror Before she became famous as the co-founder of the Theosophical Society, Helena Petrovna Blavatsky also turned her sharp eye towar...d fiction, producing uncanny tales that hover between ghost story, mystery, and metaphysical thought experiment. Nightmare Tales gathers a set of eerie narratives in which ordinary life cracks open to reveal doubles, strange echoes, haunted objects, and visions that refuse to be dismissed as mere superstition. In one story, a bedridden narrator in a somber Rhine town finds himself drawn into a disturbing account that blurs the line between memory and manifestation. Elsewhere, skeptical observers confront phenomena that challenge their certainty: a shadow-self that seems to act with its own will, a cavern that answers human voices with something more than sound, an encounter on the frozen edge of the world, and a violin whose music suggests an unnerving presence within. Across these stories, Blavatsky builds tension less through gore than through psychological pressure and spiritual ambiguity, asking what the unseen might demand of the living, and what a person risks when curiosity becomes invocation. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 00 (00:01:19) Chapter 01 (00:47:17) Chapter 02 (01:54:00) Chapter 03 (02:16:05) Chapter 04 (02:35:24) Chapter 05 (02:43:33) Chapter 06 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
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Forward of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Blavatsky.
Forward.
The world knows H.P. Vlovsky, chiefly by her encyclopedic knowledge, her occult powers, her unique courage.
This little book, composed of stories thrown off by her in her lighter moments, shows her as a vivid, graphic writer, gifted with brilliant imagination.
The student will catch glimpses of reality under the garb of fancy, and will know that only the hand of an occult.
cultist could have added some of the touches to the pictures.
The nightmare tales were rewritten during the last few months of the author's pain-stricken life.
When tired with the drudgery of the theosophical glossary,
she, who could not be idle, turned to this lighter work and found therein amusement and relaxation.
Her friends all the world over will welcome this example of gifts used but too rarely amid the strain of weightier work.
Annie Bessant
End of Forward
Section 1 of Nightmare Tales by Helena Pete Lavatsky
This Librevox recording is in the public domain
Read by Ben Tucker
A Bewitched Life
As narrated by a quill pin
Part 1
Introduction
It was a dark chilly night in September
1884
A heavy gloom had descended over the streets of A
a small town on the Rhine, and was hanging like a black funeral pall over the dull factory
burg. The greater number of its inhabitants, wearied by their long day's work, had hours before
retired to stretch their tired limbs, and lay their aching heads upon their pillows. All was quiet in the
large house, all was quiet in the deserted streets. I, too, was lying in my bed, alas, not one of
rest, but of pain and sickness, to which I had been confined for some days. So still was everything in the
house that, as Longfellow has it, its stillness seemed almost audible. I could plainly hear
the murmur of the blood as it rushed through my aching body producing that monotonous singing,
so familiar to one who lends a watchful ear to silence. I listened to it until in my nervous
imagination it had grown into the sound of a distant cataract, the fall of mighty waters,
when suddenly, changing its character, the ever-growing, singing, merged into other and far more
welcome sounds. It was the low and at first scarce audible whisper of a human voice.
It approached and gradually strengthening seemed to speak in my very ear. Thus sounds a voice
speaking across a blue quiescent lake in one of those wondrously acoustic gorges of the
snow-capped mountains, where the air is so pure that a word pronounced half a mile off seems almost
at the elbow. Yes, it was the voice of one whom to know is to reverence, of one to me, owing
to many mystical associations, most dear and holy, a voice familiar for long years than ever welcome,
doubly so in hours of mental or physical suffering, for it always brings with it a ray of hope
and consolation.
Courage!
It whispered in gentle, mellow tones.
Think of the days passed by you in sweet associations.
Of the great lessons received of nature's truths, of the many errors of men concerning these truths,
and try to add to them the experience of a night in this city.
Let the narrative of a strange life that will interest you
help to shorten the hours of suffering.
Give your attention.
Look yonder before you.
Yonder meant the clear large windows of an empty house
on the other side of the narrow street of the German town.
They faced my own in almost a straight line across the street,
and my bed faced the windows of my sleeping room.
obedient to the suggestion I directed my gaze toward them,
and what I saw made me for the time being forget the agony of the pain that racked my swollen arm and rheumatical body.
Over the windows was creeping a mist, a dense, heavy, serpentine, whitish mist,
that looked like the huge shadow of a gigantic boa, slowly uncoiling its body.
Gradually it disappeared to leave a lustrous light, soft and silvery,
as though the window panes behind reflected a thousand moonbeams.
a tropical starlit sky.
First from outside, then from within the empty rooms.
Next I saw the mist elongating itself and throwing, as it were,
a ferry bridge across the street from the bewitched windows to my own balcony,
nay, to my very own bed.
As I continued gazing, the wall and windows and the opposite house itself suddenly vanished.
The space occupied by the empty rooms had changed into the interior of another smaller room,
and what I knew to be a Swiss chalet,
into a study whose old dark walls were covered from floor to ceiling with bookshelves
on which were many antiquated folios, as well as works of a more recent date.
In the center stood a large old-fashioned table, littered over with manuscripts and writing materials.
Before it, quill pen and hand sat an old man, a grim-looking, skeleton-like personage,
with a face so thin, so pale, yellow and emaciated, that the lives,
of the solitary little student's lamp was reflected in two shining spots on his high cheekbones,
as though they were carved out of ivory.
As I tried to get a better view of him by slowly raising myself upon my pillows,
the whole vision, chalet and study, desk, books, and scribe seemed to flicker and move.
Once set in motion, they approached nearer and nearer,
until gliding noiselessly along the fleecy bridge of clouds across the street,
they floated through the closed windows into my room,
and finally seemed to settle beside my bed.
"'Listen to what he thinks and is going to write,' said in soothing tones the same familiar far-off and yet near voice.
"'Thus you will hear a narrative, the telling of which may help to shorten the long-sleepless hours,
"'and even make you forget for a while your pain.
"'Try!' it added, using the well-known Rosicrucian and Kabbalistic formula.
"'I tried, doing as I was bid.
"'I centered all my attention on the solitary laborer.
figure that I saw before me, but which did not see me.
At first, the noise of the quill-pin with which the old man was writing,
suggested to my mind nothing more than a low-whispered murmur of a nondescript nature.
Then gradually my ear caught the indistinct words of a faint and distant voice,
and I thought the figure before me, bending over its manuscript,
was reading its tale aloud instead of writing it.
But I soon found out my error.
For casting my gaze at the old scribe's face I saw at a glance that his lips were compressed
and motionless, and the voice too thin and shrill to be his voice.
Stranger still, at every word traced by the feeble aged hand, I noticed a light flashing from under his pen,
a bright-colored spark that became instantaneously a sound, or, what is the same thing,
it seemed to do so to my inner perceptions. It was indeed the small voice of the quill that I heard,
though scribe and pen were at the same time perchance hundreds of miles away from Germany.
Such things will happen occasionally, especially at night, beneath whose starry shade, as Byron tells us, we learn the language of another world.
However it may be, the words uttered by the quill remained in my memory for days after.
Nor had I any great difficulty in retaining them, for when I sat down to record the story, I found it, as usual, indelibly impressed on the astral tablets before my inner eye.
Thus I had but to copy it and so give it as I received it.
I failed to learn the name of the unknown nocturnal writer.
Nevertheless, though the reader may prefer to regard the whole story as one made up for the occasion,
a dream perhaps.
Still, its incidents will, I hope, prove nonetheless interesting.
1. The Stranger's Story
My birthplace is a small mountain hamlet,
a cluster of Swiss cottages, hidden deep in a sunny nook,
between two tumble-down glaciers and a peak covered with eternal snows.
Thither thirty-seven years ago I returned, crippled mentally and physically, to die.
If death would only have me.
The pure invigorating air of my birthplace decided otherwise.
I am still alive, perhaps for the purpose of giving evidence to facts I have kept profoundly secret from all,
a tale of horror I would rather hide than reveal.
The reason for this unwillingness on my part is due to my early education, and to subsequent events that gave the lie to my most cherished prejudices.
Some people might be inclined to regard these events as providential.
I, however, believe in no providence, and yet am unable to attribute them to mere chance.
I connect them as the ceaseless evolution of effects, engendered by certain direct causes, with one primary and fundamental cause, from which ensued all that fought.
followed. A feeble old man am I now, yet physical weakness has in no way impaired my mental
faculties. I remember the smallest details of that terrible cause, which engendered such fatal
results. It is these which furnish me with an additional proof of the actual existence of one
whom I fain would regard. Oh, that I could do so, as a creature born of my fancy, the
evanescent production of a feverish, horrid dream.
Oh, that terrible, mild and all-forgiving, that saintly and respected being!
It was that paragon of all the virtues who embittered my whole existence.
It is he, who, pushing me violently out of the monotonous but secure groove of daily life,
was the first to force upon me the certitude of life hereafter,
thus adding an additional horror to one already great enough,
with a view to a clearer comprehension of the situation.
I must interrupt these recollections with a few words about myself.
Oh, how, if I could, would I obliterate that hated self?
Born in Switzerland, a French parent,
who centered the whole world wisdom and the literary trinity of Voltaire.
J.J. Rousseau and D. Holbach, and educated in a German university.
I grew up a thorough materialist.
A confirmed atheist.
I could never have even pictured to myself any beings, least of all a being, above or even outside visible nature, as distinguished from her.
Hence I regarded everything that could not be brought under the strictest analysis of the physical senses as a mere chimera.
A soul, I argued, even supposing man has one, must be material.
According to Origins' definition, in Corporeus, the epithet he gave to his,
is God, signifies a substance only more subtle than that of physical bodies, of which at best we
can form no definite idea. How then can that, of which our senses cannot enable us to obtain
any clear knowledge? How can that make itself visible or produce any tangible manifestations?
Accordingly, I received the tales of nascent spiritualism, with a feeling of utter contempt,
and regarded the overtures made by certain priests with derision, often.
akin to anger.
And indeed the latter feeling has never entirely abandoned me.
Pascal, in the eighth act of his thoughts, confesses to a most complete incertitude upon the
existence of God.
Throughout my life I too professed a complete certitude as to the non-existence of any such
extra-cosmic being, and repeated with that great thinker the memorable words in which he tells
us, I have examined if this God of whom all the world speaks might not have left some marks of
himself. I look everywhere, and everywhere I see nothing but obscurity. Nature offers me nothing
that may not be a matter of doubt and inquietude. Nor have I found to this day anything that
might unsettle me in precisely similar, and even stronger feelings. I have never believed,
nor shall I ever believe, in a supreme being. But at the potentialities of man, proclaimed
far and wide in the east, powers so developed in some persons as to make them virtually gods,
At them I laugh no more.
My whole broken life is a protest against such negation.
I believe in such phenomena, and I curse them, whenever they come, and by whatsoever means generated.
On the death of my parents, owing to an unfortunate lawsuit, I lost the greater part of my fortune,
and resolved for the sake of those I loved best, rather than for my own, to make another for myself.
My elder sister, whom I adored, had married a poor man.
I accepted the offer of a rich Hamburg firm and sailed for Japan as its junior partner.
For several years my business went on successfully.
I got into the confidence of many influential Japanese,
through whose protection I was unable to travel and transact business in many localities,
which in those days especially were not easily accessible to foreigners.
Indifferent to every religion
I became interested in the philosophy of Buddhism,
the only religious system I thought worthy
of being called philosophical.
Thus in my moments of leisure
I visited the most remarkable temples of Japan,
the most important and curious
of the 96th Buddhist monasteries of Kyoto.
I have examined in turn Debutsu
with its gigantic bell.
Zionine, an arenae Yasserro,
Kai, Misu,
Higazi, Hong, Wanzi, and many other famous temples.
Several years passed away, and during that whole period I was not cured of my skepticism,
nor did I ever contemplate having my opinions on this subject altered.
I derided the pretensions of the Japanese, bonzes, and ascetics,
as I had those of Christian priests and European spiritualists.
I could not believe in the acquisition of powers unknown to,
and never studied by men of science,
Hence I scoffed all such ideas, the superstitious and atrabilius Buddhist,
teaching us to shun the pleasures of life.
To put to rout one's passions, to render oneself insensible alike to happiness and suffering,
in order to acquire such chimerical powers, seemed supremely ridiculous in my eyes.
On a day forever memorable to me, a fatal day,
I made the acquaintance of a venerable and learned bonds,
a Japanese priest named Tamura Hideeri.
I met him at the foot of the golden Kwan on, and from that moment he became my best and most trusted friend,
notwithstanding my great and genuine regard for him.
However, whenever a good opportunity was offered, I never failed to mock his religious convictions,
thereby very often hurting his feelings.
But my old friend was as meek and forgiving as any true Buddhist's heart might desire.
He never resented my impatient sarcasms,
even when they were, to say the least, of equivocal propriety,
and generally limited his replies to the wait-and-see kind of protest,
nor could he be brought to seriously believe in the sincerity of my denial of the existence of any god or gods.
The full meaning of the terms atheism and skepticism was beyond the comprehension of his otherwise extremely intellectual and acute mind.
Like certain reverential Christians, he seemed incapable of realizing that any man of sense
should prefer the wise conclusions arrived at by philosophy and modern science
to a ridiculous belief in an invisible world full of gods and spirits, gins and demons.
Man is a spiritual being, he insisted, who returns to Earth more than once, and is rewarded or punished in the between times.
The proposition that man has nothing else but a heap of organized dust was beyond him.
Like Jeremy Collier, he refused to admit that he was no better than a stalking machine, a speaking head without a soul in it, whose thoughts are all bad.
bound by the laws of motion.
For, he argued, if my actions were, as you say, prescribed beforehand, and I had no more
liberty or free will to change the course of my action than the running waters of the river
yonder, then the glorious doctrine of karma, of merit and merit, would be a foolishness
indeed.
Thus the whole of my hypermetaphysical friend's ontology rested on the shaky superstructure
of metam psychosis, of a fancied just.
law of retribution and other such equally absurd dreams we cannot said he paradoxically one day hope to live hereafter in the full enjoyment of our consciousness unless we have built for it beforehand a firm and solid foundation of spirituality
nay laughed not friend of no faith he meekly pleaded but rather think and reflect on this one who has never taught himself to live in spirit during his conscious and responsible life
on earth can hardly hope to enjoy a sentient existence after death, when deprived of his body,
he is limited to that spirit alone.
What can you mean by life in spirit, I inquired?
Life on a spiritual plane, that which the Buddhists call Toshita Davaloka, paradise.
Man can create such a blissful existence for himself between two births, by the gradual
transference onto that plane of all the faculties which during his own.
his sojourn on earth manifest through his organic body and, as you call it, animal brain.
How absurd, and how can man do this?
Contemplation and a strong desire to assimilate the blessed gods will enable him to do so.
And if man refuses this intellectual occupation by which you mean, I suppose, the fixing of the
eyes on the tip of his nose, what becomes of him after the death of his body?
Was my mocking question.
He will be dealt with according to the prevailing state of his consciousness, of which there are many grades.
At best, immediate rebirth.
At worst, the state of advici, a mental hell.
Yet one need not be an ascetic to assimilate spiritual life, which will extend to the hereafter.
All that is required is to try and approach spirit.
How so, even when disbelieving in it, I rejoined.
Even so one may disbelieve and yet harbor in one's nature room for doubt, however small that room may be, and thus try one day, were it but for one moment, to open the door of the inner temple, and this will prove sufficient for the purpose.
You are very decidedly poetical, and paradoxical to boot, reverence, sir. Will you kindly explain to me a little more of the mystery?
There is none, still I am willing. Suppose for a moment that that's a moment that.
some unknown temple to which you have never been before, and the existence of which you think you
have reasons to deny, is the spiritual plane of which I am speaking. Someone takes you by the hand
and leads you toward its entrance. Curiosity makes you open its door and look within. By this simple
act, by entering it for one second, you have established an everlasting connection between your
consciousness and the temple. You cannot deny its existence any longer, nor obliterate. You cannot obliterate,
the fact of your having entered it.
And according to the character
and the variety of your work,
within its holy prescenes,
so will you live in it
after your consciousness is severed
from its dwelling of flesh?
What do you mean?
And what is my after-death consciousness,
if such a thing exists,
to do with the temple?
It has everything to do with it,
solemnly rejoined the old man.
There can be no self-consciousness
after death outside.
the temple of spirit. That which you will have done within its plane will alone survive.
All the rest is false and an illusion. It is doomed to perish in the ocean of Maya.
Amused at the idea of living outside one's body, I urged on my old friend to tell me more,
mistaking my meaning the venerable man willingly consented.
Tumora Hidiari belonged to the great temple of Zionin, a Buddhist monastery,
famous not only in all Japan but also throughout Tibet and China.
No other is so venerated in Kyoto.
Its monks belong to the sect of Zinodoo,
and are considered as the most learned among the many erudite fraternities.
They are moreover closely connected and allied with the Yamabushi,
the ascetics or hermits, who follow the doctrines of Lao Say.
No wonder that at the slightest provocation on my part,
the priest flew into the highest metaphysics,
hoping thereby to cure me of my infidelity.
No use repeating here the long rigmarole of the most hopelessly involved and incomprehensible of all doctrines.
According to his ideas, we have to train ourselves for the spirituality in another world, as for gymnastics.
Carrying on the analogy between the temple and the spiritual plane, he tried to illustrate his idea,
he had himself worked in the temple of spirit two-thirds of his life, and given several hours daily to contemplation.
Thus, he knew that after he had laid aside his mortal casket, a mere illusion, he explained,
he would in his spiritual consciousness live over again every feeling of ennobling joy and divine bliss
he had ever had, or ought to have had, only a hundredfold intensified.
His work on the spirit plane had been considerable, he said, and he hoped, therefore,
that the wages of the laborer would prove proportionate.
but suppose the laborer, as in the example you have just brought forward in my case,
should have no more than opened the temple door out of mere curiosity,
had only peeped into the sanctuary, never to set his foot therein again.
What then?
Then, he answered,
You would have only this short minute to record in your future self-consciousness, and no more.
Our life hereafter records and repeats,
but the impressions and feelings we have had in our spiritual,
experiences and nothing else.
Thus, if instead of reverence at the moment of entering the abode of spirit,
you had been harboring in your heart anger, jealousy, or grief,
then your future spiritual life would be a sad one in truth.
There would be nothing to record, save the opening of a door in a fit of bad temper.
How then could it be repeated?
I insisted, highly amused.
What do you suppose I would be doing before incarnating again?
"'In that case,' he said, speaking slowly and weighing every word,
"'in that case, you would have, I fear, only to open and shut the temple door
"'over and over again, during a period which, however short, would seem to you an eternity.'
"'This kind of after-death occupation appeared to me, at that time so grotesque in its sublime
absurdity, that I was seized with an almost inextinguishable fit of laughter.
My venerable friend looked considerably dismayed at such a result of his metaphysical instruction.
He had evidently not expected such hilarity.
However, he said nothing but only sighed and gazed at me with increased benevolence and
pity shining in his small black eyes.
Pray excuse my laughter, I apologized.
But really now you cannot seriously mean to tell me that the spiritual state you advocate in so
firmly believe in, consists only in aping certain things we do in life.
Nay, nay, not aping, but only intensifying their repetition, filling the gaps that were
unjustly left unfilled during life in the fruition of our acts and deeds, and of everything
performed on the spiritual plane of the one real state. What I said was an illustration,
and no doubt for you who seem entirely ignorant of the mysteries of soul vision, not a very
intelligible one. It is myself who am to be blamed. What I sought to impress upon you was that,
as the spiritual state of our consciousness liberated from its body is but the fruition of every
spiritual act performed during life, where an act had been barren, there could be no results
expected, save the repetition of that act itself. This is all. I pray you may be spared such
fruitless deeds, and finally made to see certain truths. And passing through,
through the usual Japanese courtesies of taking leave, the excellent man departed.
Alas, alas, had I but known at the time what I have learnt since, how little would I have laughed,
and how much more would I have learned. But as the matter stood, the more personal affection and
respect I felt for him, the less could I become reconciled to his wild ideas about an afterlife,
and especially as to the acquisition by some men of supernatural powers. I felt particularly
disgusted with his reverence for the Yamabushi, the allies of every Buddhist sect in the land.
Their claims to the miraculous were simply odious to my notions.
To hear every Jap I knew at Kyoto, even to my own partner, the shrewdest of all, the businessmen I'd come across in the east,
mentioning these followers of Laosay with downcast eyes, reverentially folded hands and affirmations of their possessing,
great and wonderful gifts, was more than I was prepared to patiently tolerate in those days.
And who were they, after all, these great magicians with their ridiculous pretensions to super mundane knowledge?
These holy beggars, who, as I then thought, purposely dwelled in the recesses of unfrequented mountains and on unapproachable craggy steeps,
so as the better to afford no chance to curious intruders of finding them out, and watching them in their own dens.
Simply impudent fortune-tellers, Japanese gypsies, who sell charms and talismans and know better.
In answer to those who sought to assure me that though the Yamabushi lead a mysterious life,
admitting none of the profane to their secrets, they still do accept pupils, however difficult it is
for one to become their disciple, and that thus they have living witnesses to the great purity
and sanctity of their lives, in answer to such affirmations I oppose the strongest negation and
stood firmly by it.
I insulted both masters and pupils, classing them under the same category of fools when not
knaves, and I went so far as to include in this number the Sintos. Now,
Sintoism, or Sinsiu, faith in the gods, and in the way to the gods, that is, belief in
the communication between these creatures and men, is a kind of worship of nature's spirits,
than which nothing can be more miserably absurd. And by placing the Sintos among the fools and
and knaves of other sect I gained many enemies. For the Sinto Canuzi, spiritual teachers, are
looked upon as the highest in the upper classes of society, the Mikado,
himself being at the head of their hierarchy, and the members of the sect belonging to the most
cultured and educated men in Japan. These Canuzi of the Sinto form no caste or class apart,
nor do they pass any ordination, at any rate none known to outsiders, and as they claim publicity,
no special privilege or powers, even their dress being in no wise different from that of the
laity, but are simply in the world's opinion professors and students of a cult and spiritual
sciences. I very often came in contact with them without in the least suspecting that I was in the
presence of such personages. Two. The mysterious visitor. Years passed, and as time went by,
my ineradicable skepticism grew stronger and waxed fiercer every day. I have already mentioned
an elder and much-beloved sister, my only surviving relative. She had married and had lately gone to
live at Nuremberg. I regarded her with feelings more filial than fraternal, and her children were as
dear to me as might have been my own, at the time of the great catastrophe that in the course of a few
days had made my father lose his large fortune. And my mother break her heart. She it was that sweet
big sister of mine who had made herself of her own accord the guardian angel of our ruined family.
Out of her great love for me, her younger brother, for whom she attempted to replace the professors that
could no longer be afforded. She had renounced her own happiness. She sacrificed herself in the man
she loved by indefinitely postponing their marriage in order to help our father and chiefly myself by her
undivided devotion. And oh how I loved and reverenced her, time but strengthening this earliest family
affection, affectionate, as such, can be a true friend, an affectionate relative, or a loyal
subject, utter, whether consciously or unconsciously, the greatest calumny and lie.
To say that a materialist grows hard-hearted as he grows older, that he cannot love as a believer
does, is simply the greatest fallacy.
There may be such exceptional cases, it is true, but these are found only occasionally
in men who are even more selfish than they are skeptical, or vulgarly, worldly.
but when a man who is kindly disposed in his nature.
For no selfish motives, but because of reason and love of truth,
becomes what is called atheistical.
He is only strengthened in his family affections,
and in his sympathies with his fellow men.
All his emotions, all the ardent aspirations toward the unseen and unreachable,
all the love which he would otherwise have uselessly bestowed
on a suppositional heaven and its God,
become now centered,
with tinfold force upon his loved ones and mankind.
Indeed the atheist's heart alone
can know what secret tides of still enjoyment flow
when brothers love.
It was such holy fraternal love
that led me also to sacrifice my comfort
and personal welfare to secure her happiness,
the felicity of her who had been more than a mother to me.
I was a mere youth when I left home for Hamburg,
there working with all the desperate earnestness
of a man who has but one noble object in view, to relieve suffering and help those whom he loves.
I very soon secured the confidence of my employers, who raised me in consequence to the high
post of trust I always enjoyed.
My first real pleasure and reward in life was to see my sister married to the man she had
sacrificed for my sake, and to help them in their struggle for existence.
So purifying and unselfish was this affection of mine for her that
When it came to be shared among her children, instead of losing an intensity by such division, it seemed to only grow the stronger.
Born with the potentiality of the warmest family affection in me, the devotion for my sister was so great that the thought of burning that sacred fire of love before any idol,
save that of herself and family, never entered my head.
This was the only church I recognized, the only church wherein I worshipped at the altar of Holy Family.
family affection. In fact, this large family of eleven persons, including her husband, was the only
tie that attached me to Europe. Twice during a period of nine years had I crossed the ocean with the
sole object of seeing and pressing these dear ones to my heart. I had no other business in the
West, and having performed this pleasant duty I returned each time to Japan to work and toil for them.
For their sake I remained a bachelor, that the wealth I might acquire should go undivided to them
We had always corresponded as regularly as the long transit of the then very irregular service of the mailboats would permit, but suddenly there came a break in my letters from home. For nearly a year I received no intelligence, and day by day I became more restless, more apprehensive of some great misfortune. Vainly I looked for a letter, a simple message, and my efforts to account for so unusual a silence were fruitless.
"'Friend,' said to me one day to Murrah Hideieri,
"'my only confidant, friend, consult a holy Yamabushi, and you will fill at rest.'
Of course the offer was rejected with as much moderation as I could command under the provocation,
but as steamer after steamer came in without a word of news.
I felt a despair which daily increased in depth and fixity.
This finally degenerated into an irrepressible craving,
A morbid desire to learn.
The worst, as I then thought.
I struggled hard with the feeling, but it had the best of me.
Only a few months before a complete master of myself,
I now became an abject slave to fear,
a fatalist of the school of de Holbach.
I who had always regarded belief in the system of necessity
as being the only promoter of philosophical happiness,
and as having the most advantageous influence over human weaknesses,
I felt a craving for something akin to fortune-telling.
I'd gone so far as to forget the first principle of my doctrine,
the only one calculated to calm our sorrows,
to inspire us with a useful submission,
namely a rational resignation to the decrees of blind destiny,
with which foolish sensibility causes us so often to be overwhelmed.
The doctrine that all is necessary.
Yes, forgetting this, I was drawn into a shameful, superstitious longing,
a stupid, disgraceful desire to learn, if not futurity, at any rate that which was taking place
at the other side of the globe.
My conduct seemed utterly modified, my temperament and aspirations wholly changed, and like a weak, nervous girl,
I caught myself straining my mind to the very verge of lunacy in an attempt to look,
as I had been told one could sometimes do, beyond the oceans and learn at last, the real cause
of this long, inexplicable silence.
One evening at sunset, my old friend, the venerable bonds,
Tamura, appeared on the veranda of my low wooden house.
I had not visited him for many days, and he had come to know how I was.
I took the opportunity to once more sneer at one whom, in reality, I regarded with most
affectionate respect.
With a quivocal taste, for which I repented almost before the words had been pronounced,
I inquired of him why he had taken the trouble to walk all that distance,
when he might have learned anything he liked about me,
simply interrogating a Yamabushi. He seemed a little hurt at first, but after keenly scrutinizing
my dejected face, he mildly remarked that he could only insist upon what he advised before.
Only one of that holy order could give me consolation in my present state.
From that instant an insane desire possessed me to challenge him to prove his assertions.
I defied, I said to him, any and every one of his alleged magicians to tell me the name
of the person I was thinking of and what he was doing at that moment.
He quietly answered that my desire could be easily satisfied.
There was a Yamabushi two doors for me, visiting a sick Shinto.
He would fetch him if I only said the word.
I said it, and from the moment of its utterance my doom was sealed.
How shall I find words to describe the scene that followed?
Twenty minutes after the desire had been so incautiously expressed,
an old Japanese uncommonly tall and majestic for one of that race,
pale, thin, and emaciated, was standing before me.
There, where I had expected to find servile obsequiousness, I only discerned an air of calm and dignified composure, the attitude of one who knows his moral superiority, and therefore scorns to notice the mistakes of those who fail to recognize it.
To the somewhat irreverent and mocking questions which I put to him one after another, with feverish eagerness, he made no reply, but gazed on me in silence as a physician would look at a delirious patient.
From the moment he fixed his eyes on mine I felt, or shall I say saw, as though it were a sharp ray of light, a thin silvery thread, shoot out from the intensely black and narrow eyes so deeply sunk in the yellow old face.
It seemed to penetrate into my brain and heart like an arrow, and set to work to dig out there from every thought and feeling.
Yes, I both saw and felt it, and very soon the double sensation became intolerable.
To break the spell, I defied him to tell me what he had found in my thoughts.
Calmly came the correct answer.
Extreme anxiety for a female relative, her husband and children,
who were inhabiting a house the correct description of which he gave as though he knew it as well as myself.
I turned a suspicious eye upon my friend the bonds,
to whose indiscretions I thought I was indebted for the quick reply.
Remembering, however, that Tamora could know nothing of the appearance of my sister's house,
that the Japanese are proverbially truthful and,
as friends faithful to death, I felt ashamed of my suspicion.
To atone for it before my own conscience, I asked the hermit whether he could tell me anything of the
present state of that beloved sister of mine.
The foreigner, was the reply, would never believe in the words or trust to the knowledge of any
person but himself.
Were the Yamabushi to tell him the impression would wear out hardly a few hours later,
and the inquirer find himself as miserable as before.
There was but one means, and that was to make the foreigner myself see with his own eyes,
and thus learn the truth for himself.
Was the inquirer ready to be placed by a Yamabushi, a stranger to him, in the required state?
I had heard in Europe of mesmerized somnambules and pretenders to clairvoyance,
and having no faith in them I had therefore nothing against the process itself.
Even in the midst of my never-ceasing mental agony,
I could not help smiling at the ridiculous nature of the operation I was willingly submitting to.
Nevertheless, I silently bowed consent.
Three. Psychic Magic
The old Yamabushi lost no time.
He looked at the setting sun and finding probably the Lord Tindio Dai-Zo, the spirit who darts his rays,
propitious for the coming ceremony.
He speedily drew out a little bundle.
It contained a small lacquered box, a piece of vegetable paper.
made from the bark of the mulberry tree, and a pin with which he traced upon the paper a few sentences in the Niden character,
a peculiar style of written language used only for religious and mystical purposes.
Having finished, he exhibited from under his clothes a small round mirror of steel of extraordinary brilliancy,
and placing it before my eyes, asked me to look into it.
I had not only heard before of these mirrors, which are frequently used in the temples,
but I had often seen them.
It is claimed that under the direction and will of instructed priests,
there appeared in them the Dai Zin,
the great spirits who notified the inquiring devotees of their fate.
I first imagine that his intention was to evoke such a spirit,
who would answer my queries.
What happened, however, was something of quite a different character.
No sooner had I, not without a last pang of mental squeamishness,
produced by a deep sense of my own absurd position,
touched the mirror, that I suddenly felt a strange sensation in the arm of the hand that held it.
For a brief moment I forgot to sit in the seat of this scorner, and failed to look at the matter from a ludicrous point of view.
Was it fear that suddenly clutched my brain, for an instant paralyzing its activity?
That fear, when the heart longs to know what it is death to hear?
No, for I still had consciousness enough left to go on persuading myself that not
nothing would come out of an experiment, in the nature of which no sane man could ever believe.
What was it, then, that crept across my brain like a living thing of ice, producing therein
a sensation of horror, and then clutched at my heart as if a deadly serpent had fastened its fangs
into it.
With a convulsive jerk of the hand I dropped the—I blush to write the adjective, magic, mirror,
and could not force myself to pick it up from the settee on which I was reclining.
For one short moment there was a terrible struggle
between some undefined and to me
utterly inexplicable longing
to look into the depths of the polished surface of the mirror
and my pride, the ferocity of which nothing seemed capable of taming.
It was finally so tamed, however,
its revolt being conquered by its own defiant intensity.
There was an opened novel lying on a lacquered table near the settee,
and as my eyes happened to fall upon its pages, I read the words.
The veil which covers futurity is woven,
by the hand of mercy.
This was enough.
That same pride which had hitherto held me back from what I regarded as a degrading, superstitious
experiment caused me to challenge my fate.
I picked up the ominously shining disc and prepared to look into it.
While I was examining the mirror, the Yamabushi hastily spoke a few words to the bonds to Murah,
at which I threw a furtive and suspicious glance at both.
I was wrong once more.
The holy man desires me to put you a question, and give you at the same time a warning,
remarked the Vons.
If you are willing to see for yourself now, you will have, under the penalty of seeing forever
in the hereafter all that is taking place at whatever distance and that against your will
or inclination, to submit to a regular course of purification, after you have learnt what
you want through the mirror.
"'What is this course and what have I to promise?' I asked defiantly.
"'It is for your own good you must promise him to submit to the process,
"'lest for the rest of his life he should have to hold himself responsible
"'before his own conscience for having made an irresponsible seer of you.
"'Will you do so, friend?'
"'There will be time enough to think of it if I see anything,'
"'I sneeringly replied, adding under my breath,
"'something I doubt a good day.
deal so far. Well, you are warned, friend. The consequences will now remain with yourself.
I glanced at the clock and made a gesture of impatience, which was remarked and understood by the Yamabushi.
It was just seven minutes after five. Define well in your mind what you would see and learn,
said the conjurer, placing the mirror and paper in my hands and instructing me how to use them.
His instructions were received by me with more impatience than gratitude,
and for one short instant I hesitated again.
Nevertheless, I replied while fixing the mirror,
I desire but one thing,
to learn the reason or reasons why my sister has so suddenly ceased writing to me.
Had I pronounced these words in reality,
and in the hearing of the two witnesses,
or had I only thought them,
to this day I cannot decide the point.
I now remember but one thing distinctly,
While I sat gazing in the mirror, the Yamabushi kept gazing at me.
But whether this process lasted half a second or three hours,
I have never since been able to settle in my mind with any degree of satisfaction.
I can recall every detail of the scene up to that moment when I took up the mirror with the left hand,
holding the paper inscribed with the mystic characters between the thumb and finger of the right,
when all of a sudden I seemed to quite lose consciousness of the surrounding objects.
The passage from the active waking state to one that I could compare with nothing I had ever experienced before
was so rapid that while my eyes had ceased to perceive external objects
and had completely lost sight of the bonds, the Yamabushi, and even of my room,
I could nevertheless distinctly see the whole of my head and my back
as I sat leaning forward with the mirror in my hand.
Then came a strong sensation of an involuntary rush forward, of snapping,
off, so to say, from my place.
I had almost said from my body.
And then, while every one of my other senses had become totally paralyzed, my eyes, as I thought,
unexpectedly caught a clearer and far more vivid glimpse than they had ever had in reality,
of my sister's new house at Nuremberg, which I had never visited, and knew only from a sketch
and other scenery with which I had never been very familiar.
Together with this, and while feeling in my brain what seemed like flashes of a departing consciousness,
dying persons must feel so, no doubt, the very last vague thought so weak as to have been hardly
perceptible was that I must look very, very ridiculous.
This feeling, for such it was rather than a thought, was interrupted.
Suddenly extinguished, so to say, by a clear mental vision.
I cannot characterize it otherwise, of myself, of that which I regarded as
and new to be my body, lying with ashy cheeks on the set he, dead to all intents and purposes,
but still staring with the cold and glassy eyes of a corpse into the mirror.
Bending over it with his two emaciated hands, cutting the air in every direction over its white face,
stood the tall figure of the Yamabushi, for whom I felt at that instant an inextinguishable, murderous hatred.
As I was going and thought to pounce upon the vile charlatan, my corpse, the two old men,
the room itself, and every object in it trembled and danced in a reddish-glowing light,
and seemed to flow rapidly away from me.
A few more grotesque distorted shadows before my sight,
and with at last a feeling of terror and a supreme effort to realize,
who then was I now since I was not that corpse?
A great veil of darkness fell over me, like a funeral pall,
and every thought in me was dead.
End of Section 1.
Section 2 of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Blavatsky.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain, read by Ben Tucker.
A Bewitched Life, Part 2.
4. A Vision of Horror.
How strange. Where was I now?
It was evident to me that I had once more returned to my senses.
For there I was, vividly realizing that I was rapidly moving forward,
while experiencing a queer, strange sensation as though I were swimming,
without impulse or effort on my part, and in total darkness.
The idea that first presented itself to me was that of a long subterranean passage of water,
of earth, and of stifling air,
though bodily I had no perception, no sensation,
of the presence or contact of any of these.
I try to utter a few words, to repeat my last sentence.
I desire but one thing to learn the reason or reasons
Why my sister has so suddenly ceased writing to me
But the only words I heard out of the 21 were the two
To learn
And these instead of their coming out of my own larynx
Came back to me in my own voice but entirely outside myself
Near, but not in me
In short they were pronounced by my voice
Not by my lips
One more
rapid, involuntary motion, one more plunge into the Samarian darkness of a, to me, unknown
element, and I saw myself standing, actually standing, underground, as it seemed. I was compactly and
thickly surrounded on all sides, above and below, right and left, with earth and in the mold,
and yet it weighed not and seemed quite immaterial and transparent to my senses. I did not realize, for one
second the utter absurdity, nay, impossibility of that seeming fact.
One second more, one short instant, and I perceived, oh, inexpressible horror when I think
of it now.
For then, although I perceived, realized, and recorded facts and events far more clearly
than ever I had done before, I did not seem to be touched in any other way by what I saw.
Yes, I perceived a coffin at my feet.
It was a plain, unpretentious shell, made of deal, the last couch of the pauper,
in which, notwithstanding its closed lid, I plainly saw a hideous, grinning skull.
A man's skeleton, mutilated and broken in many of its parts,
as though it had been taken out of some hidden chamber of the defunct inquisition,
where it had been subjected to torture.
Who can it be, I thought.
At this moment I heard again,
proceeding from afar the same voice, my voice, the reason or reasons why, it said,
as though these words were the unbroken continuation of the same sentence of which it had just
repeated the two words to learn. It sounded near, and yet, as from some incalculable distance,
giving me then the idea that the long subterranean journey, the subsequent mental reflections
and discoveries had occupied no time, had been performed during the short, almost instantaneous
interval between the first and the middle words of the sentence, begun at any rate, if not actually
pronounced by myself in the room at Kyoto, in which it was now finishing in interrupted,
broken phrases, like a faithful echo of my own words and voice.
Forthwith, the hideous, mingled remains, began assuming a form, and to me,
but too familiar appearance.
The broken parts joined together one to the other.
The bones became covered once more with flesh,
and I recognized in these disfigured remains,
with some surprise but not a trace of feeling at the sight.
My sister's dead husband, my own brother-in-law,
whom I had for her sake loved so truly.
How was it?
How did he come to die?
Such a terrible death?
I asked myself,
To put oneself a query seemed in the state in which I was to instantly solve it.
Hardly had I asked myself to question when, as if in a panorama,
I saw the retrospective picture of poor Carl's death,
in all its horrid, vividness, and with every thrilling detail,
every one of which, however, left me then entirely and brutally indifferent.
Here he is, the dear old fellow, full of life and joy at the prospect of,
of more lucrative employment from his principal, examining and trying in a wood-sawing factory
a monster steam engine just arrived from America. He bends over to examine more closely an inner
arrangement to tighten a screw. His clothes are caught by the teeth of the revolving wheel in full
motion, and suddenly he is dragged down, doubled up, and his limbs half-severed torn off
before the workman, unacquainted with the mechanism can stop it. He is taken out.
Or what remains of him.
Dead, mangled.
A thing of horror.
An unrecognizable mass of palpitating flesh and blood.
I follow the remains.
Weald as an unrecognizable heap to the hospital.
Hear the brutally given order that the messengers of death should stop on their way at the house of the widow and orphans.
I follow them and find the unconscious family quietly assembled together.
I see my sister.
The dear and beloved, and remain indifferent at the sight, only feeling highly interested in the coming scene.
My heart, my feelings, even my personality seemed to have disappeared, to have been left behind, to belong to somebody else.
There I stand and witness her unprepared reception of the ghastly news.
I realize clearly without one moment's hesitation or mistake the effect of the shock.
upon her. I perceive clearly, following and recording, to the minutest detail, her sensations,
and the inner process that takes place in her. I watch and remember, missing not one single point.
As the corpse is brought into the house for identification, I hear the long, agonizing cry,
my own name pronounced, and the dull thud of the living body falling upon the remains of the
dead one. I follow, with curiosity, the sudden thrill and the instantaneous perturbation in her
brain that follow it, and watch with attention the worm-like precipitate and immensely intensified
emotion of the tubular fibers, the instantaneous change of color in the cephalic extremity of the
nervous system, the fibrous nervous matter passing from white to bright red, and then to a dark red
bluish hue. I noticed the sudden flask of a phosphorus-like brilliant radiance, its tremor and its
sudden extinction followed by darkness. Complete darkness in the region of memory. As the radiance,
comparable in its form only to a human shape, oozes out suddenly from the top of the head,
expands, loses its form, and scatters. And I say to myself, this is insanity, lifelong, incurable,
insanity. For the principle of intelligence is not paralyzed or extinguished temporarily, but has just
deserted the tabernacle forever, ejected from it by the terrible force of the sudden blow.
The link between the animal and the divine essence is broken. And as the unfamiliar term
divine is mentally uttered, my thought laughs. Suddenly I hear again my far-off yet near voice
pronouncing emphatically and close by me the words,
why my sister had so suddenly ceased writing.
And before the two final words, to me, have completed the sentence.
I see a long series of sad events immediately following the catastrophe.
I behold the mother, now a helpless groveling idiot in the lunatic asylum attached to the city hospital.
The seven younger children admitted into a refuge for paupers.
Finally, I see the two elders.
A boy of 15 and a girl a year younger, my favorites, both taken by strangers into their service.
A captain of a sailing vessel carries away my nephew, an old Jewess adopts the tender girl.
I see the events with all their horrors and thrilling details and record each to the smallest detail with the utmost coolness.
For Mark Well, when I use such expressions as horrors, etc., they are to be understood as an afterthought.
During the whole time of the events described, I experienced no sensation of either pain or pity.
My feelings seemed to be paralyzed, as well as my external senses.
It was only after coming back that I realized my irretrievable losses to their full extent.
Much of that which I had so vehemently denied in those days, owing to sad personal experience, I have to admit now.
Had I been told by anyone at that time
That man could act and think and feel
Irrespective of his brain and senses
Nay, that by some mysterious and to this day for me
Incomprehensible power
He could be transported mentally
Thousands of miles away from his body
There to witness not only present but also past events
And remember these by storing them in his memory
I would have proclaimed that man a madman
Alas, I can do so no longer, for I have become myself, that madman, 10, 20, 40, a hundred times during the course of this wretched life of mine have I experienced and lived over such moments of existence outside of my body.
Accursed to be that hour when this terrible power was first awakened in me, I have not even the consolation left of attributing such glimpses of events at a distance to insanity.
Madmen rave and see that which exists not in the realm they belong to.
My visions have proved invariably correct.
But to my narrative of woe,
I had hardly had time to see my unfortunate young niece in her new Israel-lite-ish home
when I felt a shock of the same nature as the one that had sent me swimming through the bowels of the earth as I had thought.
I opened my eyes in my own room and the first thing,
I fixed upon by accident was the clock. The hands of the dial showed seven minutes and a half
past five. I thus passed through those most terrible experiences, which it takes me hours to narrate,
in precisely half a minute of time. But this too was an afterthought. For one brief instant,
I recollected nothing of what I had seen. The interval between the time I had glanced at the clock
when taking the mirror from the Yamabushi's hand, and the second glance seemed to me merged into one.
I was just opening my lips to hurry on the Yamabushi with his experiment,
when the full remembrance of what I had just seen flashed lightning-like into my brain.
Uttering a cry of horror and despair, I felt as though the whole creation were crushing me under its weight.
For one moment I remained speechless, the picture of human ruin amid a world of death and desolation.
My heart sank down in anguish.
My doom was closed, and a hopeless gloom seemed to settle over the rest of my life.
Forever.
Five.
Return of doubts.
Then came a reaction as sudden as my grief itself.
A doubt arose in my mind, which forthwith grew into a fierce desire of denying the truth of what I had seen.
A stubborn resolution of treating the whole thing is an empty, meaningless dream,
the effect of my overstrained mind took possession of me. Yes, it was but a lying vision,
an idiotic cheating of my own senses, suggesting pictures of death and misery which had been evoked
by weeks of incertitude and mental depression. How could I see all that that I've seen in less
than half a minute? I exclaimed. The theory of dreams, the rapidity with which the material changes
on which our ideas and vision depend are excited in the hemispherical ganglia is sufficient to account
for the long series of events I have seemed to experience.
And dream alone can the relations of space and time be so completely annihilated.
The Yamabushi is for nothing in this disagreeable nightmare.
He is only reaping that which has been sown by myself,
and by using some infernal drug of which his tribe have the secret,
he is contrived to make me lose consciousness for a few seconds and see that vision,
as lying as it is horrid.
Avant all such thoughts, I believe them not.
In a few days there will be a steamer sailing for Europe. I shall leave tomorrow.
This disjointed monologue was pronounced by me aloud, regardless of the presence of my respected friend the Bonds, Timura, and the Amabushi.
The latter was standing before me in the same position as when he placed the mirror in my hands and kept looking at me calmly.
I should perhaps say looking through me and indignified silence.
The Bonds, whose kind countenance was beaming with sympathy, approached me as.
he would a sick child, and gently laying his hand on mine and with tears in his eyes said,
Friend, you must not leave this city before you have been completely purified of your contact
with the lower Dai Jin's spirits, who had to be used to guide your inexperienced soul to the
places it craved to see. The entrance to your inner self must be closed against their
dangerous intrusion. Lose no time, therefore, my son, and allow the Holy Master Yon
to purify you at once.
But nothing can be more deaf than anger once aroused.
The sap of reason could no longer quench the fire of passion,
and at that moment I was not fit to listen to his friendly voice.
His is a face I can never recall to my memory without genuine feeling.
His, a name I will ever pronounce with a sigh of emotion,
but at that ever-memorial hour when my passions were,
were inflamed to white heat, I felt almost a hatred for the kind, good old man.
I could not forgive him his interference in the present event.
Hence, for all answer, therefore, he received from me a stern rebuke,
a violent protest on my part against the idea that I could ever regard the vision I had had,
and any other light save that of an empty dream,
and as Yamabushi is anything better than an imposter.
I will leave tomorrow had I to forfeit my whole fortune as a penalty, I exclaimed, pale with rage and despair.
You will repent it the whole of your life if you do so before the holy men has shut every entrance in you against intruders ever on the watch and ready to enter the open door, was the answer.
The Dai Jin's will have the best of you.
I interrupted him with a brutal laugh and a still more brutally phrased inquiries.
about the fees I was expecting to give the Yamabushi for his experiment with me.
He needs no reward, was the reply. The order he belongs to is the richest in the world,
since its adherents need nothing, for they are above all terrestrial and venal desires.
Insult him not, the good man who came to help you out of pure sympathy for your suffering,
and to relieve you of mental agony. But I would listen to no words of reason and wisdom.
The spirit of rebellion and pride had taken possession of me, and made me disregard every feeling of personal friendship or even of simple propriety.
Lucky for me on turning round to order the medicant monk out of my presence, I found he had gone.
I had not seen him move, and attributed his stealthy departure to fear at having been detected and understood.
Fool, blind, conceited idiot that I was. Why did I fail to recognize the Yamabushi's power,
and that the peace of my whole life was departing with him from that moment forever?
But I did so fail. Even the fell demon of my long fears. Uncertainty was now entirely overpowered
by that fiend, skepticism, the silliest of all. A dull, morbid, unbelief,
A stubborn denial of the evidence of my own senses, and a determined will to regard the whole vision as a fancy of my overwrought mind had taken firm hold of me.
My mind, I argued, what is it?
Shall I believe, with the superstitious and the weak, that this production of phosphorus and gray matter is indeed the superior part of me?
That it can act and see independently of my physical senses?
Never. As well believe in the planetary intelligences of the astrologer, as in the Dijs
of my credulous, though well-meaning friend, the priest. As well confess one's belief in Jupiter
and Saul, Saturn, and Mercury, and that these worthies guide their spheres and concern themselves
as mortals as to give one serious thought to the airy non-entities, supposed to have guided
my soul in its unpleasant dream. I loathe and laugh at the absurd idea. I regard it as a personal
insult to the intellect and rational reasoning powers of a man, to speak of invisible creatures,
subjective intelligences, and all that kind of insane superstition.
In short, I begged my friend the bonds to spare me as protests, and thus the unpleasantness
of breaking with him forever.
Thus I raved and argued before the venerable Japanese gentleman, doing all in my power to
leave on his mind the indelible conviction of my having gone suddenly mad.
But his admirable forbearance proved more than equal to my idiotic passion, and he implored me once more, for the sake of my whole future, to submit to certain necessary purificatory rights.
Never, far rather dwell in air, rarefied to nothing by the air pump of wholesome unbelief, than in the dim fog of silly superstition, I argued, paraphrasing Richter's remark.
I will not believe, I repeated, but as I can no longer bear such uncertainty about my sister and her family, I will return by the first steamer to Europe.
This final determination upset my old acquaintance altogether. His earnest prayer not to depart before I had seen the Yamabushi once more receive no attention from me.
Friend of a foreign land, he cried. I pray that you may not repent of your unbelief and rashness.
May the Holy One, Kwan-on, the goddess of mercy, protect you from the Zins.
For since you refuse to submit to the process of purification at the hands of the holy Yamabushi,
he is powerless to defend you from the evil influences evoked by your unbelief and defiance of truth.
But let me at this parting hour, I beseech you, let me, an older gentleman who wishes you well,
warn you once more, and persuade you of things you are still ignorant of.
May I speak.
Go on and have your say, was the ungracious assent.
But let me warn you in my turn that nothing you can say can make of me a believer in your disgraceful superstitions.
This was added with a cruel feeling of pleasure and bestowing one more needless insult.
But the excellent man disregarded this new sneer as he had all others.
Never shall I forget the solemn earnestness of his parting words.
The pitying, remorseful look on his face when he found that it was, indeed, all to no purpose,
that by his kindly meant interference, he had only led me to my destruction.
"'Lend me your ear, good sir, for the last time,' he began,
"'learn that unless the holy and venerable man,
"'who, to relieve your distress, opened your soul vision,
"'is permitted to complete his work,
"'your future life will indeed be little worth living.
"'He has to safeguard you,
against involuntary repetitions of visions of the same character.
Unless you consent to it of your own free will, however,
you will have to be left in the power of forces,
which will harass and persecute you to the verge of insanity.
Know that the development of long vision or clairvoyance,
which is accomplished at will only by those for whom the mother of mercy,
the great Kwan On, has no secrets,
must, in the case of the beginner, be pursued
with the help of the heir-gens, elemental spirits, whose nature is soulless, and hence wicked.
Know also that while the Arahat, the destroyer of the enemy, who has subjected and made of
these creatures his servants, has nothing to fear. He who has no power over them becomes their
slave. Nay, laugh not in your great pride and ignorance, but listen further. During the time of
the vision, and while the inner perceptions are directed toward the events they seek, the die
Jins have the seer when, like yourself, he is an inexperienced Tyro entirely in its power.
And for the time being, that seer is no longer himself.
He partakes of the nature of his guide.
The Dij Jin, which directs his inner sight, keeps his soul endurance vile,
making of him, while the state lasts, a creature like itself, bereft of his divine light,
man is but a soulless being.
Hence, during the time of such connection, he will feel no human emotions, neither pity nor fear, love, nor mercy.
Hold, I involuntarily exclaimed, as the words vividly brought back to my recollection the indifference with which I had witnessed my sister's despair and sudden loss of reason in my hallucination.
Hold!
But no, it is still worse madness in me to heed or find any sense in your ridiculous tale.
but if you knew it to be so dangerous, why have advised the experiment at all?
I added mockingly.
It had to last but a few seconds, and no evil could have resulted from it, had you kept your promise to submit to purification, was the sad and humble reply.
I wish you well, my friend, and my heart was nigh breaking to see you suffering day by day.
The experiment is harmless when directed by one who knows, and becomes dangerous only when the final precaution is neglected.
It is the master of visions, he who has opened an entrance into your soul, who has to close it by using the seal of purification against any further and deliberate ingress of
The master of visions forsooth, I cried, brutally interrupting him, say, rather the master of imposture.
The look of sorrow on his kind old face was so intense and painful to behold that I perceived I had gone too far, but it was too late.
"'Fa well, then,' said the old Bonds, rising,
"'and after performing the usual ceremonies of politeness,
"'Tamora left the house in dignified silence.
"'Six. I depart, but not alone.
"'Several days later I sailed,
"'but during my stay I saw my venerable friend of Bonds no more.
"'Evidently on that last, and to me, for ever memorable evening,
"'he had been seriously offended with my more than irreverent.
my downright insulting remark about one whom he so justly respected.
I felt sorry for him, but the wheel of passion and pride was too incessantly at work to permit me to feel a single moment of remorse.
What was it that made me so relish the pleasure of wrath,
that when for one instant I happened to lose sight of my supposed grievance toward the Yamabushi,
I forthwith lashed myself back into a kind of artificial fury against him.
He had only accomplished what he had been expected,
to do, and what he had tacitly promised. Not only so, but it was I myself who had deprived him
of the possibility of doing more, even for my own protection, if I might believe the bonds,
a man whom I knew to be thoroughly honorable and reliable. Was it regret at having been
forced by my pride to refuse the proffered precaution? Or was it the fear of remorse that made me
rake together in my heart during those evil hours the smallest details of the supposed insult
to that same suicidal pride. Remorse, as an old poet has aptly remarked, is like the heart in which it
grows. If proud and gloomy, it is a poison tree that pierced to the utmost, weeps only tears of blood.
Perchance it was the indefinite fear of something of that sort which caused me to remain so
obdurate, and led me to excuse under the plea of terrible provocation, even the unprovoked
insults that I had heaped upon the head of my kind and all-forgiving friend, the priest.
However, it was now too late in the day to recall the words of offense I had uttered, and all I could
do was to promise myself the satisfaction of writing him a friendly letter as soon as I reached home.
Fool, blind fool, elated with insolent self-conceit that I was. So sure did I feel that
my vision was due merely to some trick of the Yamabushi, that I actually gloated over my coming
triumph in writing to the bonds, that I had been right in answering his sad words of parting,
with an incredulous smile, as my sister and family were all in good health, happy.
I had not been at sea for a week before I had caused to remember his words of warning.
From the day of my experience with the magic mirror, I perceived a great change in my whole state,
and I attributed it, at first, to the mental depression.
I had struggled against for so many months.
During the day I very often found myself absent from the surrounding scenes,
losing sight for several minutes of things and persons.
My nights were disturbed, my dreams oppressive, and at times horrible.
Good sailor I certainly was, and besides, the weather was unusually fine,
the ocean as smooth as a pond.
Notwithstanding this, I often felt a strange giddiness,
and the familiar faces of my fellow passengers assumed at such times the most grotesquist.
test appearances. Thus, a young German I used to know well was once suddenly transformed before my
eyes into his old father, whom we had laid in the little burial place of the European colony some
three years before. We were talking on deck of the defunct, and of a certain business arrangement
of his when Max Gruner's head appeared to me as though it were covered with a strange film.
A thick grayish mist surrounded him, and gradually condensing around and upon his healthy countenance
settled suddenly into the grim old head I had myself seen covered with six feet of soil.
On another occasion, as the captain was talking of a melee thief,
whom he had helped to secure and lodge in jail,
I saw near him the yellow villainous face of a man answering to his description.
I kept silent about such hallucinations,
but as they became more and more frequent, I felt very much disturbed,
though still attributing them to natural causes,
such as I had read about in medical books.
One night I was abruptly awakened by a long and loud cry of distress.
It was a woman's voice, plaintive like that of a child, full of terror and of helpless despair.
I awoke with a start to find myself on land in a strange room.
A young girl, almost a child, was desperately struggling against a powerful middle-aged man,
who had surprised her in her own room and during her sleep.
Behind the closed and locked door I saw listening an old woman,
whose face, notwithstanding the fiendish expression upon it, seemed familiar to me, and I immediately
recognized it. It was the face of the Jewess who had adopted my niece in the dream I had had at Kyoto.
She had received gold to pay for her share in the foul crime, and was now keeping her part of the covenant.
But who was the victim? Oh, horror, unutterable, unspeakable horror!
When I realized this situation after coming back to my normal state, I found it was my
own child-niece. But, as in my first vision, I felt in me nothing of the nature of that despair
born of affection that fills one's heart, at the side of a wrong done to, or a misfortune
befalling those one loves. Nothing but a manly indignation in the presence of suffering inflicted
upon the weak and the helpless. I rushed, of course, to her rescue, and seized the wanton,
brutal beast by the neck. I fastened upon him with powerful grasp, but the
the man heated it not. He seemed not even to feel my hand. The coward, seeing himself resisted by
the girl, lifted his powerful arm. And the thick fist, coming down like a heavy hammer upon
the sunny locks, fell the child to the ground. It was with a loud cry of the indignation of a stranger,
not with that of a tigress defending her cub, that I sprang upon the lewd beast and sought to throttle
him. I then remarked for the first time that a shadow myself, I was grasping by
another shadow.
My loud shrieks and imprecations had awakened the whole steamer.
They were attributed to a nightmare.
I did not seek to take anyone into my confidence,
but from that day forward my life became a long series of mental tortures.
I could hardly shut my eyes without becoming witness of some horrible deed,
some scene of misery, death or crime,
whether past, present or even future, as I ascertained later on.
It was as though some mocking fiend had taken upon him,
himself the task of making me go through the vision of everything that was bestial, malignant,
and hopeless in this world of misery. No radiant vision of beauty or virtue ever lit with the faintest
ray these pictures of awe and wretchedness that I seemed doomed to witness. Scenes of wickedness,
of murder, of treachery, and of lust fell dismally upon my sight, and I was brought face to face
with the vilest results of man's passions, the most terrible outcome of his material earthly
cravings. Had the bonds foreseen indeed the dreary results when he spoke of
digens to whom I left an ingress, a door open to me? Nonsense! There must be some
physiological, abnormal change in me. Once at Nuremberg, when I have ascertained
how false was the direction taken by my fears, I dared not hope for no
misfortune at all. These meaningless visions will disappear as they came. The very fact
that my fancy follows but one direction.
that of pictures of misery, of human passions, in their worst material shape, is a proof to me of their unreality.
If, as you say, man consists of one substance matter, the object of the physical senses,
and if perception with its modes is only the result of the organization of the brain,
then should we be naturally attracted but to the material, the earthly?
I thought I heard the familiar voice of the bonds interrupting my reflections.
and repeating an often-used argument of his and his discussions with me.
There are two planes of visions before men, I again heard him say,
the plain of undying love and spiritual aspirations,
the efflux from the eternal light,
and the plain of restless, ever-changing matter,
the light in which the misguided Dijins bathed.
Seven.
Eternity in a short dream.
In those days I could hardly bring myself to realize,
even for a moment, the absurdity of a belief in any kind of spirits, whether good or bad.
I now understood, if I did not believe, what was meant by the term,
though I still persisted in hoping that it would finally prove some physical derangement
or nervous hallucination.
To fortify my unbelief the more, I tried to bring back to my memory all the arguments used against faith
and such superstitions that I had ever read or heard.
I recalled the biting sarcasms of Voltaire, the calm reasoning of Hume, and I repeated to myself ad nauseum the words of Rousseau who said that superstition, the disturber of society, could never be too strongly attacked.
Why should the sight, the phantasmagoria rather, I argued, of that which we know in a waking sense to be false, come to affect us at all?
Why should names who since we see not fray us with things that be not?
One day the old captain was narrating to us the various superstitions, to which sailors were addicted.
A pompous English missionary remarked that Fielding had declared long ago that superstition renders men a fool,
after which he hesitated for an instant and abruptly stopped.
I had not taken any part in the general conversation.
But no sooner had the Reverend Speaker relieved himself of the quotation,
then I saw in that halo of vibrating light which I now noticed almost constantly over every human head,
on the steamer, the words of Fielding's next proposition, and skepticism makes him mad.
I had heard and read of the claims of those who pretended to sear ship, that they often see the
thoughts of people traced in the aura of those present. Whatever aura may mean with others,
I had now a personal experience of the truth of the claim, and felt sufficiently disgusted
with a discovery. I, a clairvoyant! A new horror added to my life, an absurd and ridiculous gift
developed, which I shall have to conceal from awe, feeling ashamed of it as if it were a case of
leprosy. At this moment my hatred to the Yamabushi, and even to my venerable old friend the
bonds, knew no bounds. The former had evidently, by his manipulations over me while I was lying
unconscious, touched some unknown physiological spring in my brain, and by loosening it had
called forth a faculty generally hidden in the human constitution. And it was the Japanese priest
who had introduced the wretch into my house. But my anger and my
curses were alike useless and could be of no avail.
Moreover, we were already in European waters, and in a few more days we should be at Hamburg.
Then would my doubts and fears be set at rest, and I should find to my intense relief that,
although clear buoyance, as regards the reading of human thoughts on the spot, may have
some truth in it, the discernment of such events at a distance, as I had dreamed of, was an
impossibility for human faculties.
Notwithstanding all my reasoning, however, my heart was sick with fear, and full of the blackest
presentments.
I felt that my doom was closing.
I suffered terribly, my nervous and mental prostration becoming intensified day by day.
The night before we entered port, I had a dream.
I fancied I was dead.
My body lay cold and stiff in its last sleep, whilst its dying consciousness, which still regarded itself as I,
realizing the event was preparing to meet in a few seconds its own extinction.
It had been always my belief that as the brain preserved Heath longer than any of the other organs,
and was the last to cease its activity,
the thought and it survived bodily death by several minutes.
Therefore I was not in the least surprised to find in my dream
that while the frame had already crossed that awful gulf, no mortal ever repassed,
its consciousness was still in the great twilight,
the first shadows of the great mystery.
Thus my thought wrapped, as I believed in the remnants of its now fast-retiring vitality,
was watching with the intense and eager curiosity the approaches of its own dissolution,
i.e. of its annihilation.
I was hastening to record my last impressions,
lest the dark mantle of eternal oblivion should envelop me,
before I had time to feel and enjoy the great, the supreme triumph of learning that my lifelong
convictions were true, that death is a complete and absolute cessation of conscious being.
Everything around me was getting darker with every moment. Huge gray shadows were moving before my
vision, slowly at first, then with accelerated motion, until they commenced whirling around with
an almost vertiginous rapidity. Then as though that motion had taken place only for purposes
of brewing darkness, the object once reached, it slackened its speed, and as the darkness became
gradually transformed into intense blackness, it ceased altogether.
There was nothing now within my immediate perceptions,
but that fathomless black space, as dark as pitch.
To me it appeared as limitless and as silent
as the shoreless ocean of eternity,
upon which time the progeny of man's brain is forever gliding,
but which it can never cross.
Dream is defined by Cato as,
but the image of our hopes and fears.
Having never feared death when awake I felt in this dream of mine,
calm and serene at the idea of my speedy end.
In truth, I felt rather relieved as a thought,
probably owing to my recent mental suffering,
at the end of all, of doubt, of fear for those I loved,
of suffering and of every anxiety was close at hand.
The constant anguish that had been gnawing ceaselessly at my heavy aching heart
for many a long and weary month
had now become unbearable.
And if, as Seneca thinks, death is but the ceasing to be what we were before,
it was better that I should die.
The body is dead.
I, it's consciousness, that which is all that remains of me now, for a few moments longer,
am preparing to follow.
Mental perceptions will get weaker, more dim and hazy with every second of time,
until the longed-for oblivion envelops me completely in its cold shroud.
Sweet is the magic hand of death, the great world comforter, profound and dreamless as sleep in its unyielding arms.
Yea, verily, it is a welcome guest, a calm and peaceful haven amidst the roaring billows of the ocean of life,
whose breakers lash in vain the rock-bound shores of death.
Happy the lonely bark that drifts into the still waters of its black gulf,
after having been so long, so cruelly tossed about by the angry waves of sentient life.
Moured in it forevermore, needing no longer either sail or rudder, my bark will now find rest.
Welcome, then, O death, at this tempting price, and fare thee well, poor body, which having neither sought it nor derive pleasure from it,
I now readily give up.
While uttering this death chant to the prostrate form before me, I bent over, examined it with curiosity,
I felt the surrounding darkness oppressing me, weighing on me almost tangibly, and I fancied I found in it the approach of the liberator I was welcoming.
And yet, how very strange.
If real, final death takes place in our consciousness, if, after the bodily death, I and my conscious perceptions are one,
how is it that these perceptions do not become weaker?
Why does my brain action seem as vigorous as ever now, that I am de facto-difference?
dead. Nor does the usual feeling of anxiety. The heavy heart, so-called, decrease in intensity.
Nay, it even seems to become worse, unspeakably so. How long it takes for full oblivion to arrive?
Ah, here's my body again. Vanished out of sight for a second or two, it reappears before me once more.
How white and ghastly it looks, yet its brain cannot be quite dead, since I, its consciousness,
still acting, since we too fancy that we still are, that we live and think, disconnected from our
creator and its ideating cells. Suddenly I felt a strong desire to see how much longer the progress
of dissolution was likely to last, before it placed its last seal on the brain and rendered it
inactive. I examined my brain in its cranial cavity, through the, to me, entirely transparent
walls and roof of the skull, and even touched the brain matter.
How or with whose hands I am now unable to say, but the impression of the slimy, intensely cold matter produced a very strong impression on me in that dream.
To my great dismay, I found that the blood, having entirely congealed, and the brain tissues having themselves undergone a change that would no longer permit any molecular action.
It became impossible for me to account for the phenomena now taking place with myself.
Here was I, or my consciousness, which is all one, standing apparently entirely disconnected from my brain, which could no longer function.
But I had no time left for reflection.
A new and most extraordinary change in my perceptions had taken place, and now engrossed my whole attention.
What does this signify?
The same darkness was around me as before.
a black impenetrable space extending in every direction. Only now, right before me, in whatever direction
I was looking, moving with me which way soever I moved, there was a gigantic round clock,
a disc whose large white face shone ominously on the ebony black background, as I looked at its
huge dial and at the pendulum moving to and fro regularly and slowly in space, as if its swinging
meant to defy an eternity. I saw its needles pointing to seven minutes past five. The
hour at which my torture had commenced at Kyoto. I had barely found time to think of the coincidence
when to my unutterable horror I felt myself going through the same, the identical process that I had
been made to experience on that memorable and fatal day. I swam underground, dashing swiftly through
the earth. I found myself once more in the paupers grave and recognized my brother-in-law in the
mangled remains. I witnessed his terrible death, entered my sister's house, followed her agony,
and saw her go mad. I went over the same scenes without missing a single.
detail of them, but alas, I was no longer iron-bound in the calm indifference that had then been
mine, and which in that first vision had left me as unfeeling to my great misfortune,
as if I had been a heartless thing of rock. My mental tortures were now becoming beyond
description, and well-nigh unbearable. Even the settled despair, the never-ceasing anxiety I was
constantly experiencing when awake, had become now in my dream and in the face of this
repetition of vision and events as an hour of darkened sunlight compared to a deadly cyclone.
Oh, how I suffered in this wealth and pomp of infernal horrors, to which the conviction of the
survival of man's consciousness after death, for in that dream I firmly believed that my body was
dead, added to the most terrifying of all. The relative relief I felt when after going over the last
scene I saw once more the great white face of the dial before me was not of long duration.
The long arrow-shaped needle
was pointing on the colossal disc
at seven minutes and a half past five o'clock.
But before I had time to well realize the change,
the needle moved slowly backwards,
stopping at precisely the seven minute end.
Oh, cursed fate!
I found myself driven into a repetition
of the same series over again.
Once more I swam underground
and saw and heard and suffered
every torture that hell can provide.
I passed through every mental anguish
known to men or fiend,
I returned to see the fatal dial and its needle.
After what appeared to me, an eternity, moved as before only half a minute forward.
I beheld it, with renewed terror, moving back again, and felt myself propelled forward anew.
And so it went on and on and on time after time in what seemed to me an endless succession,
a series which never had any beginning, nor would it ever have an end.
Worst of all, my consciousness, my eye, had apparently acquired the phenomenal capacity of trebling, quadrupling, and even of decouplating itself.
I lived, felt, and suffered in the same space of time in half a dozen different places at once, passing over various events of my life at different epochs and under the most dissimilar circumstances, though predominant overall was my spiritual experience at Kyoto.
Thus, as in the famous fugue in Don Giovanni, the heart-relixtrous.
rending notes of Alvira's aria of despair ring high above, but interfere in no way with the
melody of the minuet, the song of seduction, and the chorus. So I went over and over my
travailed woes, the feelings of agony unspeakable at the awful sights of my vision,
the repetition of which blunted in no wise even a single pang of my despair and horror,
nor did these feelings weaken in the least, scenes and events entirely disconnected with
the first one that I was living through again, or interfere in any way the one with the other.
It was a maddening experience, a series of contrapuntal mental phantasmagoria from real life.
Here was I, during the same half a minute of time examining with cold curiosity the mingled remains of my sister's husband,
following with the same indifference the effects of the news on her brain as in my first Kyoto vision,
and feeling at the same time held torture for these very events as when I returned to Conchartagnan.
I was listening to the philosophical discourses of the bonds, of every word of which I heard and understood, and was trying to laugh him to scorn.
I was again a child, and a youth, hearing my mothers and my sweet sister's voices, admonishing me and teaching me duty to all men.
I was saving a friend from drowning, and was sneering at his age father who thanked me for having saved a soul yet unprepared to meet his maker.
speak of dual consciousness, you psychophysiologists.
I cried in one of the moments when agony mental,
and as it seemed to me, physical also,
had arrived at a degree of intensity
which would have killed a dozen living men.
Speak of your psychological and physiological experiments,
you schoolmen, puffed up with pride and book learning.
Here I am to give you the lie.
And now I was reading the works
in holding converse with learned professors and lecturers
who had led me to my fatal,
skepticism. And while arguing the impossibility of consciousness divorced from its brain, I was shedding
tears of blood over the supposed fate of my nieces and nephews. More terrible than all I knew,
as only a liberated consciousness can know, that all I had seen in my vision at Japan,
and all that I was seeing and hearing over and over again now, was true in every point in detail,
that it was a long string of ghastly and terrible.
still of real actual facts.
For perhaps the hundredth time I had riveted my attention on the needle of the clock.
I lost the number of my gyrations and was fast coming to the conclusion that they would never stop,
that consciousness is, after all, indestructible, and that this was to be my punishment in eternity.
I was beginning to realize from personal experience how the condemned sinners would feel,
were not eternal damnation, a logical and mathematical impossibility,
in an ever-progressing universe. I still found the voice to argue.
Yea, indeed, at this hour of my ever-increasing agony, my consciousness,
now my synonym for I, had still the power of revolting at certain theological claims,
of denying all their propositions, all save itself.
No, I denied the independent nature of my consciousness no longer, for I knew it now to be such.
But is it eternal withal?
O thou incomprehensible and terrible reality!
But if thou art eternal, who then art thou?
Since there is no deity, no God,
Whence dost thou come, and when didst thou first appear,
If thou art not a part of the cold body lying yonder?
And whither dost thou lead me?
Who am thyself?
And shall our thought and fancy have an end?
What is thy real name, thou unfathomable reality,
An impenetrable mystery?
Oh, I would fain annihilate thee.
Soul vision, who speaks of soul,
and whose voice is this?
It says that I see now for myself
that there is a soul in man
after all.
I deny this.
My soul, my vital soul,
or the spirit of life,
has expired with my body
with the gray matter of my brain.
This eye of mine,
this consciousness,
is not yet proven to me as eternal.
Reincarnation in which the bonds
felt so anxious I should believe
may be true.
Why not?
Is not the flower-born year?
after year from the same route. Hence, this eye once separated from its brain, losing its balance
and calling forth such a host of visions, before reincarnating. I was again face to face with the
inexorable fatal clock. And as I was watching its needle, I heard the voice of the bonds,
coming out of the depths of its white face, saying, In this case, I fear, you would have only
to open and to shut the temple door over and over again, during a period which
however short would seem to you an eternity.
The clock had vanished.
Darkness made room for light.
The voice of my old friend was drowned by a multitude of voices overhead on deck,
and I awoke in my birth, covered with a cold perspiration, and faint with terror.
Eight. A tale of woe.
We were at Hamburg, and no sooner had I seen my partners who could hardly recognize me,
then with their consent and good wishes I started for Nuremberg.
Half an hour after my arrival, the last doubt with regard to the correctness of my vision had disappeared.
The reality was worse than any expectations could have made it,
and I was henceforward doomed to the most desolate life.
I ascertained that I had seen the terrible tragedy, with all its heart-rending details.
My brother-in-law, killed under the wheels of a machine,
my sister, insane, and now rapidly sinking toward her end.
My niece, the sweet flower of nature's fairest work,
Dishonored in a den of infamy,
The little children dead of a contagious disease in an orphanage.
My last surviving nephew at sea, no one knew where.
A whole house, a home of love and peace, scattered,
And I left alone a witness of this world of death, of desolation and dishonor.
The news filled me with infinite despair,
and I sank helpless before this wholesale dire disaster, which rose before me all at once.
The shock proved too much, and I fainted.
The last thing I heard before entirely losing my consciousness was a remark of the Bergmeister.
Had you, before leaving Kyoto, telegraphed to the city authorities of your whereabouts,
and of your intention of coming home to take charge of your young relatives,
we might have placed them elsewhere, and thus have saved them from their fate.
No one knew that the children had a well-to-do relative.
They were left paupers and had to be dealt with as such.
They were comparatively strangers in Nuremberg,
and under the unfortunate circumstances you could hardly have expected anything else.
I can only express my sincere sorrow.
It was this terrible knowledge that I might, at any rate,
have saved my young niece from her unmerited fate,
but that through my neglect I had not done so, that was killing me.
Had I but followed the friendly advice of the bonds to Moorah
and telegraphed to the authorities some weeks previous to my return,
much might have been avoided.
It was all this, coupled with the fact that I could no longer doubt clairvoyance and clear audience,
the possibility of which I had so long denied,
that brought me so heavily down upon my knees.
I could avoid the censure of my fellow creatures,
but I could never escape the stings of my conscience,
the reproaches of my own aching heart.
No, not as long as I lived.
I cursed my stubborn skepticism, my denial of facts, my early education.
I cursed myself and the whole world.
For several days I contrived not to sink beneath my load,
for I had a duty to perform to the dead and to the living.
But my sister once rescued from the Popper's asylum,
placed under the care of the best physicians,
with her daughter to attend to her last moments,
and the Jewess, whom I had brought to confess her crimes,
safely lodged in jail, my fortitude and strength suddenly abandoned me.
Hardly a week after my arrival I was myself no better than a raving maniac, helpless,
in the strong grip of a brain fever.
For several weeks I lay between life and death, the terrible disease defying the skill of
the best physicians.
At last my strong constitution prevailed, and, to my lifelong sorrow, they proclaimed me,
saved.
I heard the news with a bleeding heart.
doomed to drag the loathsome burden of life henceforth alone, and in constant remorse,
hoping for no help or remedy on earth and still refusing to believe in the possibility of
anything better than a short survival of consciousness beyond the grave.
This unexpected return to life added only one more drop of gall to my bitter feelings.
They were hardly soothed by the immediate return,
during the first days of my convalescence, of those unwelcome and unsought-for vision.
whose correctness and reality I could deny no more.
Alas, the day, they were no longer in my skeptical, blind mind.
The children of an idle brain begot of nothing but vain fantasy.
But always the faithful photographs of the real woes and sufferings of my fellow creatures,
of my best friends.
Thus I found myself doomed whenever I was left for a moment alone
to the helpless torture of a chained Prometheus.
During the still hours of night as though held by some pitiless iron hand, I found myself
led to my sister's bedside, forced to watch their hour after hour and see the silent disintegration
of her wasted organism, to witness and feel the sufferings that her own tenantless brain
could no longer reflect or convey to her perceptions.
But there was something still more horrible to barb the dart that could never be extricated.
I had to look, by day, at the childish, innocent face.
face of my young niece, so sublimely simple and guileless in her pollution, and to witness by night
how the full knowledge and recollection of her dishonor, of her young life now forever blasted,
came to her in her dreams as soon as she was asleep. These dreams took an objective form to me,
as they had dawned on the steamer. I had to live them over again, night after night, and feel the
same terrible despair. For now, since I believed in the reality of searship and had come to the
conclusion that in our bodies lies hidden as in the caterpillar, the chrysalis which may contain
in its turn the butterfly, the symbol of the soul, I no longer remained indifferent as of
your to what I witnessed in my soul life. Something had suddenly developed in me and broken loose
from its icy cocoon. Evidently I no longer saw only in consequence of the identification
of my inner nature with a dyed gin. My visions arose in consequence of a direct personal psychic
development. The fiendish creatures only taking care that I should see nothing of an agreeable or
elevating nature. Thus now, not an unconscious pain in my dying sister's emaciated body, not a thrill
of horror in my niece's restless sleep at the recollection of the crime perpetrated upon her
an innocent child but found a responsive echo in my bleeding heart. The deep fountain of sympathetic
love and sorrow had gushed out from the physical heart and was now loudly echoed by the awakened
soul separated from the body.
Thus had I to drain the cup of misery
to the very dregs.
Woe is me.
It was a daily and nightly torture.
Oh, how I mourned over my proud folly,
how I was punished for having neglected
to avail myself at Kyoto
of the proffered purification.
For now I had come to believe
even in the efficacy of the latter.
The Dige gin had indeed obtained control over me,
and the fiend had let loose all the dogs of hell
upon his victim.
At last the awful gulf was reached and crossed.
The poor, insane martyr, dropped into her dark and now-welcome grave,
leaving behind her but for a few short months, her young, her first-born daughter.
Consumption made short work of that tender girlish frame.
Hardly a year after my arrival I was left alone in the whole wide world,
my only surviving nephew having expressed a desire to follow his seafaring career.
And now the sequel of my sad-sad story is soon told.
A wreck, a prematurely old man, looking at thirty as though sixty winters had passed over my doomed head.
And owing to the never-ceasing visions, myself daily on the verge of insanity, I suddenly formed a desperate resolution.
I would return to Kyoto and seek out the Yamabushi.
I would prostrate myself at the feet of the holy man.
I would not leave him until he had recalled the Frankenstein he had raised,
the Frankenstein with whom at the time it was I myself who would not part
through my insolent pride and unbelief.
Three months later I was in my Japanese home again,
and I at once sought out my old venerable bonds.
Tamura Hidieri, I now implored him to take me without an hour's delay to the Yamabushi,
the innocent cause of my daily tortures.
His answer but placed the last.
The supreme seal on my doom, and tinfold intensified my despair.
The Yamabushi had left the country for lands unknown.
He had departed one fine morning into the interior on a pilgrimage,
and according to custom would be absent,
unless natural death shortened the period for no less than seven years.
In this mischance I applied for help and protection of other learned Yamabushis,
and though well aware how useless it was in my case to seek efficient cure
from any other adept, my excellent old friend did everything he could to help me in my misfortune.
But it was to no purpose, and the canker-worm of my life's despair could not be thoroughly extricated.
I found from them that not one of these learned men could promise to relieve me entirely from the demon of clairvoyant obsession.
It was he who raised certain dige gins, calling on them to show futurity or things that had already come to pass,
who alone had full control over them.
With kind sympathy
Which I had now learned to appreciate
The Holy Men invited me to join the group of their disciples
And learn from them what I could do for myself
Will alone, faith in your own soul powers
Can help you now?
They said, but it may take several years to undo
Even a part of the great mischief, they added.
A Dai Ghin is easily dislodged in the beginning
If left alone, he takes possession of a man's nature
And it becomes almost impossible to uproot the fiend
without killing his victim.
Persuaded that there was nothing but this left for me to do.
I gradually assented, doing my best to believe in all that these holy men believed in,
and yet ever failing to do so in my heart.
The demon of unbelief in all denials seemed rooted in me more firmly,
even than the Dige Jen.
Still I did all I could do, decided as I was not to lose my last chance of salvation.
Therefore I proceeded without delay to free myself from the world,
and my commercial obligations,
in order to live for several years an independent life.
I settled my accounts with my Hamburg partners
and severed my connection with the firm.
Notwithstanding considerable financial losses
resulting from such a precipitate liquidation,
I found myself after closing the accounts a far richer man than I had thought I was.
But wealth had no longer any attraction for me,
now that I had no one to share it with, no one to work for.
Life had become a burden,
and such was my indifference to my future
that while giving away all my fortune to my nephew, in case he should return alive from his sea voyage,
I should have neglected entirely even a small provision for myself, had not my native partner
interfered and insisted upon my making it. I now recognize, would Lao say, that knowledge was the
only firm hold for a man to trust to, as it is the only one that cannot be shaken by any tempest.
Wealth is a weak anchor in days of sorrow, and self-conceit the most fatal counselor. Hence, I followed the
advice of my friends, and laid aside for myself a modest sum, which would be sufficient to
assure me a small income for life. Or if I ever left my new friends and instructors, having
settled my earthly accounts and disposed of my belongings at Kyoto, I joined the masters
of the long vision, who took me to their mysterious abode. There I remained for several years,
studying very earnestly, and in the most complete solitude, seeing no one but a few of the members
of our religious community.
Many are the mysteries of nature that I have fathomed since then,
and many a secret folio from the library of Zion-Een have I devoured,
obtaining thereby mastery over several kinds of invisible beings of a lower order.
But the great secret of power over the terrible Daig Jin I could not get.
It remains in the possession of a very limited number of the highest initiates of the Lao Zay,
the great majority of the Yamabushis themselves being ignorant how to obtain such mastery over the dangerous elemental.
One who would reach such power of control would have to become entirely identified with the Yamabushis
to accept their views and beliefs and to attain the highest degree of initiation.
Very naturally I was found unfit to join the fraternity,
owing to many insurmountable reasons besides my congenital and ineradicable skepticism,
though I tried hard to believe.
Thus, partially relieved of my affliction and taught how to conjure the unwelcome visions away,
I still remained, and do remain to this day, helpless to prevent their forced appearance before me now and then.
It was after assuring myself of my unfitness for the exalted position of an independent seer and adept
that I reluctantly gave up any further trial.
Nothing had been heard of the holy man, the first innocent cause of my misfortune,
and the old bonds himself, who occasionally visited me in my retreat,
either could not or would not inform me of the whereabouts of the Yamagushi.
When therefore I had to give up all hope of his ever relieving me entirely from my fatal gift,
I resolved to return to Europe, to settle in solitude for the rest of my life.
With this object in view I purchased through my late partners the Swiss chalet in which my hapless sister and I were born,
where I had grown up under her care and selected it for my future hermitage.
When bidding me farewell forever on the steamer
Which took me back to my fatherland
The good old bonds tried to console me for my disappointments
My son, he said
Regard all that happened to you as your karma
A just retribution
No one who has subjected himself
Willingly to the power of a Daij Jin
Can ever hope to become a Rahat, an adept
A high-souled Yamabushi
Unless immediately purified
At best as in your case
He may become fitted to oppose
And to successfully fight off the fiend
Like a scar left after a poisonous wound
The trace of a Dijijian
Can never be effaced from the soul
Until purified by a new rebirth
Withal, feel not dejected
But be of good cheer in your affliction
Since it has led you to acquire true knowledge
And to accept many a truth
You would have otherwise rejected with contempt
And of this priceless knowledge
acquired through suffering and personal efforts,
no Daiggen can ever deprive you.
Fare thee well then, and may the mother of mercy,
the great queen of heaven, afford you comfort and protection.
We parted, and since then I have led the life of an anchorite
in constant solitude and study.
Though still occasionally afflicted,
I do not regret the years I have passed under the instruction of the Yamabushis,
but feel gratified for the knowledge received.
of the priest Tamura Hideyeri
I think always with sincere affection and respect
I corresponded regularly with him to the day of his death
an event which with all its to me painful details
I had the unthinked-for privilege of
witnessing across the seas
at the very hour in which it occurred
End of Section 2
Section 3 of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Bilvatsky
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The Cave of the Echoes
A Strange but True Story
Footnote
The story is given from the narrative of an eyewitness
A Russian gentleman
Very pious and fully trustworthy
Moreover the facts are copied from the police records of P
The eyewitness in question
attributes it of course partly to divine interference
And partly to the evil one
HPB
In footnote
In one of the distant governments of the Russian Impeachment
of the Russian Empire, in a small town on the borders of Siberia,
a mysterious tragedy occurred more than 30 years ago.
About six versts from the little town of Pei,
famous for the wild beauty of its scenery,
and for the wealth of its inhabitants,
generally proprietors of mines and of iron foundries,
stood an aristocratic mansion.
Its household consisted of the master,
a rich old bachelor, and his brother,
who was a widower and the father of two sons and three daughters.
It was known that the proprietor,
Mr. Isvertsoff had adopted his brother's children, and, having formed in a special attachment for his
eldest nephew, Nicholas, he had made him the sole heir of his numerous estates.
Time rolled on. The uncle was getting old. The nephew was coming of age. Days and years had
passed in monotonous serenity, when, on the hitherto clear horizon of the quiet family appeared a cloud.
On an unlucky day, one of the nieces took it into her head to study the zither. The instrument being of
purely Teutonic origin, and no teacher of it residing in the neighborhood, the indulgent uncle sent
to St. Petersburg for both. After diligent search, only one professor could be found willing to trust himself
in such close proximity to Siberia. It was an old German artist, who, sharing his affections
equally between his instrument and a pretty blonde daughter, would part with neither. And thus it came to pass
that one fine morning, the old professor arrived at the mansion, with his music box under one arm,
and his fair Munchin leaning on the other.
From that day the little cloud began growing rapidly,
for every vibration of the melodious instrument
found a responsive echo in the old bachelor's heart.
Music awakens love, they say,
and the work began by the zither
was completed by Munchin's blue eyes.
At the expiration of six months,
the niece had become an expert zither player,
and the uncle was desperately in love.
One morning, gathering his adopted family around him,
he embraced them all very tenderly,
promised to remember them in his will, and wound up by declaring his unalterable resolution to marry the blue-eyed muncheon.
After this he fell upon their necks and wept in silent rapture.
The family, understanding that they were cheated out of the inheritance, also wept.
But it was for another cause.
Having thus wept, they consoled themselves and tried to rejoice,
for the old gentleman was sincerely beloved by all.
Not all of them rejoiced, though.
Nicholas, who had himself been smitten to the heart by the pretty German,
and who found himself defrauded at once of his bell and of his uncle's money,
neither rejoiced nor consoled himself, but disappeared for a whole day.
Meanwhile, Mr. Izvrtsov had given orders to prepare his traveling carriage on the following day,
and it was whispered that he was going to the chief town of the district,
at some distance from his home, with the intention of altering his will.
Though very wealthy he had no superintendent on his estate, but kept his books himself.
The same evening after supper he was heard in his room angrily scolding his servant,
who had been in his service for over 30 years.
This man, Ivan, was a native of northern Asia from Khan Shatka.
He had been brought up by the family in the Christian religion,
and was thought to be very much attached to his master.
A few days later, when the first tragic circumstance I'm about to relate
had brought all the police force to the spot,
it was remembered that on that night Ivan was drunk.
That is master, who had a horror of this man,
vice, had paternally thrashed him and turned him out of his room, and that Ivan had been seen
reeling out of the door and had been heard to mutter threats. On the vast domain of Mr. Itzvritsov,
there was a curious cavern which excited the curiosity of all who visited it. It exists to
this day and is well known to every inhabitant of pee. A pine forest, commencing a few feet
from the garden gate, climbs in steep terraces up a long range of rocky hills, which it covers
with a broad belt of impenetrable vegetation.
The grotto leading into the cavern, which is known as the Cave of the Echoes,
is situated about a half a mile from the side of the mansion,
from which it appears as a small excavation in the hillside,
almost hidden by luxuriant plants,
but not so completely as to prevent any person entering it
from being readily seen from the terrace in front of the house.
Entering the grotto, the explorer finds at the rear a narrow cleft.
having passed through which he emerges into a lofty cavern,
feebly lighted through fissures and the vaulted roof,
50 feet from the ground.
The cavern itself is immense and would easily hold between 2,000 and 3,000 people.
A part of it, in the days of Mr. Itzvrstov,
was paved with flagstones and was often used in the summer as a ballroom by picnic parties.
Of an irregular oval, it gradually narrows into a broad corridor,
which runs for several miles underground,
opening here and there into other chambers, as large and lofty as the ballroom,
but unlike this, impassable otherwise than in a boat, as they are always full of water.
These natural basins have the reputation of being unfathomable.
On the margin of the first of these is a small platform with several mossy rustic seats arranged on it,
and it is from this spot that the phenomenal echoes,
which give the cavern its name or heard in all their weirdness.
A word pronounced in a whisper, or even a sigh, is caught up.
by endless mocking voices, and instead of diminishing in volume as honest echoes do, the sound grows
louder and louder at every successive repetition, until at last it bursts forth like the
repercussion of a pistol shot, and recedes in a plaintive wail down the corridor.
On the day in question, Mr. Itzvertsoff had mentioned his intention of having a dance party in this
cave on his wedding day, which he had fixed for an early date.
On the following morning, while preparing for his drive, he was seen by his family entering the grotto,
accompanied only by his Siberian servant.
Half an hour later, Ivan returned to the mansion for a snuffbox,
which his master had forgotten in his room,
and went back with it to the cave.
An hour later, the whole house was startled by his loud cries.
Pale and dripping with water, Ivan rushed in like a madman,
and declared that Mr. Itzvrtsov was nowhere to be found in the cave.
Thinking he had fallen into the lake, he had dived into the first basin in search of him,
and was nearly drowned himself.
They passed in vain attempts to find the body.
The police filled the house, and louder than the rest in his despair was Nicholas, the nephew,
who had returned home only to meet the sad tidings.
A dark suspicion fell upon Ivan, the Siberian.
He had been struck by his master the night before, and had been heard to swear revenge.
He had accompanied him alone to the cave, and when his room was searched, a box full of rich family jewelry,
known to have been carefully kept in Mr. Itzvrtsov's apartment, was found under Ivan's
bedding. Vainly did the serf call God to witness that the box had been given to him in charge by
his master himself, just before they proceeded to the cave, that it was the latter's purpose to have
the jewelry reset, as he intended it for a wedding present to his bride, and that he, Ivan,
would willingly give his own life to recall that of his master if he knew him to be dead.
No heed was paid to him, however, and he was arrested and thrown into prison upon a charge of
murder. There he was left, for under the Russian law, a criminal cannot, at any rate he could not
in those days, be sentenced for a crime however conclusive circumstantial evidence, unless he confessed
his guilt. After a week had passed in useless search, the family arrayed themselves in deep
mourning, and as the will, as originally drawn, remained without a codicil, the whole of the
property passed into the hands of the nephew. The old teacher and his daughter bore this sudden reverse
of fortune with true Germanic phlegm and prepared to depart.
Taking again his zither under one arm, the old man was about to lead away his muncheon by the other,
when the nephew stopped him by offering himself as the fair damsel's husband in the place of
his departed uncle. The change was found to be an agreeable one, and without much ado, the young
people were married. Ten years roll away and we meet the happy family once more at the beginning
of 1859. The fair munchin had grown fat and vulgar. From the day of the old man's
disappearance, Nicholas had become morose and retired in his habits, and many wondered at the
change in him, for now he was never seen to smile. It seemed as if his only aim in life were to
find out his uncle's murderer, or rather to bring Ivan to confess his guilt, but the man still
persisted that he was innocent. An only son had been born to the young couple, and a strange
child it was. Small, delicate, and ever ailing his frail life seemed to hang by a thread. When his
features were in repose his resemblance to his uncle was so striking that the members of the family
often shrank from him in terror. It was the pale shrivelled face of a man of 60 upon the shoulders of a
child nine years old. He was never seen either to laugh or to play, but perched in his high chair,
would gravely sit there, folding his arms in a way peculiar to the late Mr. Itzertsov,
and thus he would remain for hours, drowsy and motionless. His nurses were often seen furtively
crossing themselves at night upon approaching him, and not one of them would consent to sleep alone
with him in the nursery. His father's behavior towards him was still more strange. He seemed to love him
passionately, and at the same time to hate him bitterly. He seldom embraced or caressed the child,
but with livid cheek and staring eye he would pass long hours watching him, as the child sat
quietly in his corner, in his goblin-like, old-fashioned way. The child had never left the estate,
and few outside the family knew of his existence.
About the middle of July, a tall Hungarian traveler,
preceded by a great reputation for eccentricity,
wealth, and mysterious powers,
arrived at the town of P. from the north.
Where, it was said, he had resided for many years.
He settled in the little town in company with a shaman or South Siberian magician,
on whom he was said to make mesmeric experiments.
He gave dinners and parties and invariably exhibited his shaman,
of whom he felt very proud.
for the amusement of his guests.
One day the notables of P.
made an unexpected invasion of the domains of Nicholas Itzvrtsov,
and requested the loan of his cave for an evening entertainment.
Nicholas consented with great reluctance,
and only after still greater hesitancy was he prevailed upon to join the party.
The first cavern and the platform beside the bottomless lake glittered with lights.
Hundreds of flickering candles and torches stuck in the clefts of the rocks,
illuminated the place and drove the shadows from the mossy nooks and corners
where they had crouched undisturbed for many years.
The stalactites on the walls sparkle brightly,
and the sleeping echoes were suddenly awakened by a joyous confusion of laughter and conversation.
The shaman, who was never lost sight of by his friend and patron,
sat in a corner, entranced as usual,
crouched on a projecting rock about midway between the entrance and the water,
with his lemon-yellow, wrinkled face, flat nose, and thin beard,
he looked more like an ugly stone idol than a human being.
Many of the company pressed around him and received correct answers to their questions.
The Hungarian cheerfully submitted his mesmerized subject to cross-examination.
Suddenly one of the party, a lady, remarked that it was in that very cave that old Mr. Itzertsoff
had so unaccountably disappeared ten years before.
The foreigner appeared interested and desired to learn more of the circumstances.
So Nicholas was sought amid the crowd and led before the eager group.
He was the host, and he found it impossible to refuse the demanded narrative.
He repeated the sad tale in a trembling voice with a pallid cheek, and tears were seen glittering in his feverish eyes.
The company were greatly affected, and in commiums upon the behavior of the loving nephew and honoring the memory of his uncle and benefactor,
were freely circulating in whispers.
When suddenly the voice of Nicholas became choked, his eyes started from their sockets, and
with a suppressed groan he staggered back.
Every eye in the crowd followed with curiosity his haggard look,
as it fell and remained riveted upon a wizened little face
that peeped from behind the back of the Hungarian.
Where do you come from? Who brought you here, child?
gasped out Nicholas as pale as death.
I was in bed, Papa. This man came to me and brought me here in his arms,
answered the boy simply, pointing to the shaman,
beside whom he stood upon the rock,
and who with his eyes closed kept swaying himself to and fro like a living pendulum.
That is very strange, remarked one of the guests, for the man has never moved from his place.
Good God, what an extraordinary resemblance, muttered an old resident of the town, a friend of the lost man.
You lie, child, fiercely exclaimed the father.
Go to bed, this is no place for you.
Come, come, interposed the Hungarian with a strange expression on his face,
and encircled with his arm the slender childish figure,
The little fellow has seen the double of my shaman,
which roams sometimes far away from his body,
and has mistaken the phantom for the man himself.
Let him remain with us for a while.
At these strange words the guests stared at each other in mute surprise,
while some piously made the sign of the cross,
spitting aside, presumably at the devil in all his works.
By the bye, continued the Hungarian with a peculiar firmness of accent,
and addressing the company rather than anyone in particular.
Why should we not try, with the help of my shaman,
to unravel the mystery hanging over the tragedy?
Is the suspected party still lying in prison?
What?
He has not confessed up to now.
This is surely very strange.
But now we will learn the truth in a few minutes.
Let us all keep silent.
He then approached the Tehuk-Chinni,
and immediately began his performance without so much as asking the consent of the master's
of the place. The latter stood rooted to the spot as if petrified with horror and unable to articulate a word.
The suggestion met with general approbation, save from him, and the police inspector, Colonel S,
especially approved of the idea.
Ladies and gentlemen, said the mesmerizer in soft tones,
allow me for this once to proceed otherwise than in my general fashion.
I will employ the method of native magic.
It is more appropriate to this wild place, and far more effective as you will find, than our European method of mesmerization.
Without waiting for an answer, he drew from a bag that never left his person, first, a small drum, and then two little files, one full of fluid, the other empty.
But the contents of the former, he sprinkled the shaman, who fell to trembling and nodding more violently than ever.
The air was filled with the perfume of spicy odors, and the atmosphere itself seemed to the moment.
to become clearer. Then to the horror of those present, he approached the Tibetan, and taking a
miniature stiletto from his pocket, he plunged the sharp steel into the man's forearm, and drew blood
from it, which he caught in the empty file. When it was half filled, he pressed the orifice of the
wound with his thumb and stopped the flow of blood as easily as if he had corked a bottle,
after which he sprinkled the blood over the little boy's head. He then suspended the drum from his
neck, and with two ivory drumsticks, which were covered with magic signs and letters, he began beating a
sort of revale to drum up the spirits, as he said.
The bystanders, half-shocked and half-terified by these extraordinary proceedings, eagerly crowded
round him, and for a few moments a dead silence reigned throughout the lofty cavern.
Nicholas, with his face livid and corpse-like, stood speechless as before.
The mesmerizer had placed himself between the shaman and the platform when he began slowly drumming.
The first notes were muffled and vibrated so softly in the air that they awakened no echo.
but the shaman quickened his pendulum-like motion, and the child became restless.
The drummer then began a slow chant, low, impressive, and solemn.
As the unknown words issued from his lips, the flames of the candles and torches wavered and flickered,
until they began dancing in rhythm with the chant.
A cold wind came wheezing from the dark corridors beyond the water,
leaving a plaintive echo in its trail.
Then a sort of nebulous vapor, seeming to ooze.
from the rocky ground and walls gathered about the shaman and the boy around the latter the
aura was silvery and transparent but the cloud which enveloped the former was red and sinister
approaching nearer to the platform the magician beat a louder roll upon the drum
and this time the echo caught it up with terrific effect it reverberated near and far in
incessant peals one whale followed another louder and louder until the thunderous roar
seemed the chorus of a thousand demon voices rising from the fathomless depths of the lake.
The water itself, whose surface illuminated by many lights, had previously been smooth as a sheet of
glass, became suddenly agitated, as if a powerful gust of wind had swept over its unruffled face.
Another chant, and a roll of the drum, and the mountain trembled to its foundation with the cannon-like peals
which rolled through the dark and distant corridors. The shaman's body rose two yards in the air,
and nodding and swaying sat self-suspended like an apparition.
But the transformation which now occurred in the boy chilled everyone
as they speechless watched the scene.
The silvery cloud about the boy now seemed to lift him too into the air.
But unlike the shaman, his feet never left the ground.
The child began to grow,
as though the work of years was miraculously accomplished in a few seconds.
He became tall and large,
and his senile features grew older with the aging of his body.
A few more seconds in the youthful form had entirely disappeared.
It was totally absorbed in another individuality,
and to the horror of those present who had been familiar with his appearance,
this individuality was that of old Mr. Itzbertsov,
and on his temple was a large gaping wound from which trickled great drops of blood.
This phantom moved towards Nicholas till it stood directly in front of him,
while he, with his hair standing erect,
with the look of a madman gazed at his own son,
transformed into his uncle.
The seproprochral silence was broken by the Hungarian who addressed the child phantom,
asked him in solemn voice,
In the name of the great master, of him who has all power,
answer the truth, and nothing but the truth,
restless spirit, hast thou been lost by accident or fouly murdered?
The specter's lips moved, but it was the echo which answered for them in lugubrious shouts.
murdered murdered murdered murdered where how by whom asked the conjurer the apparition pointed a finger at nicholas and without removing its gaze or lowering its arm retreated backwards slowly towards the lake at every step it took the young itzvirtsoff as if compelled by some irresistible fascination advanced a step towards it until the phantom reached the lake and the next moment was seen gliding on its surface
It was a fearful, ghostly scene.
When he had come within two steps of the brink of the watery abyss,
a violent convulsion ran through the frame of the guilty man.
Flinging himself upon his knees,
he clung to one of the rustic seats with a desperate clutch,
and staring wildly uttered a long piercing cry of agony.
The phantom now remained motionless on the water,
and bending its extended finger slowly beckoned him to come.
Crouched in abject terror, the wretched man shrieked until the moment.
the cavern rang again and again.
I did not. No, I did not murder you.
Then came a splash, and now it was the boy who was in the dark water, struggling for his life in the middle of the lake,
with the same motionless stern apparition brooding over him.
Papa, Papa, save me. I am drowning, cried a piteous little voice amid the uproar of the mocking echoes.
My boy! shrieked Nicholas, in the accents of a maniac springing to his feet.
My boy, save him!
Oh, save him!
Yes, I confess, I am the murderer.
It is I who killed him.
Another splash, and the phantom disappeared.
With a cry of horror, the company rushed towards the platform,
but their feet were suddenly rooted to the ground,
as they saw amid the swirling eddies a whitish, shapeless mass,
holding the murderer and the boy in tight embrace,
and slowly sinking into the bottomless lake.
On the morning after these occurrences,
when, after a sleepless,
night, some of the party visited the residents of the Hungarian gentleman. They found it closed and
deserted. He and the shaman had disappeared. Many are among the old inhabitants of P. who remember him.
The police inspector, Colonel S, dying a few years ago in the full assurance that the noble
traveler was the devil. To add to the general consternation, the Yitzvotsov mansion took fire on that
same night and was completely destroyed. The archbishop performed the ceremony of exorcism,
but the locality is considered accursed to this day.
The government investigated the facts and ordered silence.
End of Section 3.
Section 4 of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Blavatsky.
This Librovoc's recording is in the public domain, read by Ben Tucker.
The luminous shield.
We were a small and select party of lighthearted travelers.
We had arrived at Constantinople a week before from Greece,
and had devoted fourteen hours a day ever since to toiling up and down the steep heights of para,
visiting bazaars, climbing to the tops of minarets and fighting our way through armies of hungry dogs,
the traditional masters of the streets of Istanbul.
Nomadic life is infectious, they say, and no civilization is strong enough to destroy the charm of unrestrained freedom
when it has once been tasted.
The gypsy cannot be tempted from his tent, and even the common tramp finds a fascination in his comfortless and precarctic.
precarious existence that prevents him from taking to any fixed abode and occupation.
To guard my Spaniel Ralph from falling a victim to this infection,
and joining the canine Bedouins that infested the streets was my chief care during our stay in
Constantinople. He was a fine fellow, my constant companion and cherished friend.
Afraid of losing him, I kept a strict watch over his movements for the first three days.
However, he behaved like a tolerably well-educated quadruped and remained faithfully at my heels.
at every impudent attack from his Mohammedan cousins.
Whether intended as a hostile demonstration or an overture of friendship,
his only reply would be to draw in his tail between his legs,
and with the air of dignified modesty, seek protection under the wing of one or other of our party.
As he had thus from the first, shown so decided an aversion to bad company,
I began to feel assured of his discretion,
and by the end of the third day I'd considerably relaxed my vigilance.
This carelessness on my part, however, was soon,
punished, and I was made to regret my misplaced confidence.
In an unguarded moment he listened to the voice of some four-footed siren,
and the last I saw of him was the end of his bushy tail,
vanishing round the corner of a dirty, winding little back street.
Greatly annoyed I passed the remainder of the day in a vain search after my dumb companion.
I offered twenty, thirty, forty francs reward for him.
About as many vagabond Maltese began a regular chase,
and towards evening we were in.
invaded in our hotel by the whole troop.
Every man of them, with a more or less mangy cur in his arms,
which he tried to persuade me was my lost dog.
The more I denied, the more solemnly they insisted,
one of them actually going down on his knees,
snatching from his bosom an old corroded metal image of the Virgin,
and swearing a solemn oath that the Queen of Heaven herself
had kindly appeared to him, to point out the right animal.
The tumult had increased to such an extent that it looked as if Ralph's disappearance
was going to be the cause of a small riot,
And finally our landlord had to send for a couple of kavas from the nearest police station,
and have this regiment of bipeds and quadrupeds expelled by main force.
I began to be convinced that I should never see my dog again,
and I was the more despondent since the porter of the hotel,
a semi-respectable old brigand, who, to judge by appearances,
had not passed more than half a dozen years at the galleys,
gravely assured me that all my pains were useless,
as my spaniel was undoubtedly dead and devoured too by this time.
the Turkish dogs being very fond of their more toothsome English brothers.
All this discussion had taken place in the street at the door of the hotel,
and I was about to give up the search for the night, at least,
and enter the hotel when an old Greek lady,
a fanariote, who had been hearing the fracas from the steps of a door close by,
approached our disconsolate group,
and suggested to Miss H., one of our party,
that we should inquire of the dervishes concerning the fate of Ralph.
And what can the dervishes know about my dog?
said I, in no mood to joke, ridiculous as the proposition appeared.
The holy men know all, Kyria, madam, said she somewhat mysteriously.
Last week I was robbed of my new satin police, that my son had just brought me from Brousa,
and as you all see, I have recovered it, and have it on my back now.
Indeed, then the holy men have also managed to metamorphose your new police
into an old one, by all appearances, said one of the gentlemen who accompanied us,
pointing as he spoke to a large rent in the back, which had been clumsily repaired with pins.
And that is just the most wonderful part of the whole story,
quietly answered the Funariot, not in the least disconcerted.
They showed me in the shining circle, the quarter of the town, the house,
and even the room in which the Jew who had stolen my police was just about to rip it up
and cut it into pieces.
My son and I had barely time to run over to the Kalinjikulosek quarter, and to save my property.
We caught the thief in the very act, and we both recognized him as the man shown to us by the dervishes and the magic moon.
He confessed the theft and is now in prison.
Although none of us had the least comprehension of what she meant by the magic moon and the shining circle,
and we were all thoroughly mystified by her account of the divining powers of the holy men,
we still felt somehow satisfied from her manner that the story was not altogether a fabrication,
and since she had at all events apparently succeeded in recovering her property through
being somehow assisted by the dervishes, we determined to go the following morning and see for ourselves,
for what had helped her might help us likewise.
The monotonous cry of the musins from the tops of the minarets had just proclaimed the hour of noon
as we descending from the heights of Pira to the port of Galata, with difficulty managed to elbow
our way through the unsavory crowds of the commercial quarter of the town.
Before we reached the docks, we had been half-deffined by the shouts and incessant,
ear-piercing cries, and the babble-like confusion of tongues.
In this part of the city, it is useless to expect to be guided by either house numbers or
names of streets. The location of any desired place is indicated by its proximity to some other
conspicuous building, such as a mosque, bath, or European shop. For the rest, one has to trust to Allah
and his prophet.
It was with greatest difficulty, therefore, that we finally discovered the British ship-channler's
store at the rear of which we were to find the place of our destination.
Our hotel guide was as ignorant of the dervish's abode as we were ourselves, but at last a small
Greek, in all the simplicity of primitive undress, consented for a modest copper-back
shish to lead us to the dancers.
When we were arrived, we were shown into a vast and gloomy hall that looked like a deserted
stable. It was long and narrow. The floor was thickly strewn with sand as in a riding school,
and it was lighted only by small windows placed at some height from the ground. The dervishes had
finished their morning performances and were evidently resting from their exhausting labors.
They looked completely prostrated, some lying about in corners, others sitting on their heels,
staring vacantly into space, engaged, as we were informed in meditation on their invisible deity.
They appeared to have lost all power of sight and hearing, for none of them responded to our questions until a great gaunt figure, wearing a tall cap that made him look at least seven feet high, emerged from an obscure corner.
Informing us that he was their chief, the giant gave us to understand that the saintly brethren, being in the habit of receiving orders for additional ceremonies from Allah himself, must on no account be disturbed.
But when our interpreter had explained to him the object of our visit, which concerned himself
alone, as he was the sole custodian of the divining rod, his objections vanished, and he
extended his hand for alms.
Upon being gratified, he intimated that only two of our party could be admitted at one time
into the confidence of the future, and led the way, followed by Miss H. and myself.
Plunging after him into what seemed to be a half-subterranean passage, we were led to the
foot of a tall ladder leading to a chamber under the roof. We scrambled up after our guide,
and at the top we found ourselves in a wretched garret of moderate size, with bare walls and
destitute of furniture. The floor was carpeted with a thick layer of dust, and cobwebs festooned
the walls and neglected confusion. In the corner we saw something that I at first mistook for a bundle
of old rags, but the heap presently moved and got on its legs, advanced to the middle of the room
and stood before us, the most extraordinary-looking creature that I ever beheld.
Its sex was female, but whether she was a woman or child, it was impossible to decide.
She was a hideous-looking dwarf, with an enormous head, the shoulders of a grenadier with a waist in proportion,
the whole supported by two short, lean, spider-like legs that seemed unequal to the task of
bearing the weight of the monstrous body.
She had a grinning countenance like the face of a satyr, and it was ornamented with letters
and signs from the Koran painted in bright yellow.
On her forehead was a blood-red crescent.
Her head was crowned with a dusty tarbush, or fez.
Her legs were arrayed in large Turkish trousers,
and some dirty white muslin wrapped around her body
barely suffice to conceal its hideous deformities.
This creature rather let herself drop than sat down in the middle of the floor,
and as her weight descended on the rickety boards,
it sent up a cloud of dust that set us coughing and sneezing.
This was the famous Tartmos, known as the Damascus Oracle.
Without losing time in idle talk, the dervish produced a piece of chalk,
and traced around the girl a circle about six feet in diameter.
Fetching from behind the door twelve small copper lamps which he filled with some dark liquid
from a small bottle which he drew from his bosom,
he placed them symmetrically around the magic circle.
He then broke a chip of wood from a panel of the half-ruined door,
which bore the marks of many a similar depredation,
and holding the chip between his thumb and finger,
he began blowing on it at regular intervals,
alternating the blowing with mutterings of some kind of weird incantation.
Till suddenly, and without any apparent cause for its ignition,
there appeared a spark on the chip,
and it blazed up like a dry match.
The dervish then lit the twelve lamps at this self-generated flame.
During this process, Tautmos,
who had sat till then altogether unconcerned and motionless,
removed her yellow slippers from her naked feet,
and throwing them into a corner,
disclosed an additional beauty,
a sixth toe on each deformed foot.
The dervish now reached over into the circle
and seizing the dwarf's ankles,
gave her a jerk,
as if he had been lifting a bag of corn,
and raised her clear off the ground,
then, stepping back a pace,
held her head downward.
He shook her as one mite a sack to pack its contents,
the motion being regular and easy.
He then swung her two and a little,
fro like a pendulum until the necessary momentum was acquired. When, letting go one foot and seizing
the other with both hands, he made a powerful, muscular effort and whirled her round in the air
as if she had been an Indian club. My companion had shrunken back in alarm to the farthest corner.
Round and round the dervish swung his living burden. She remained perfectly passive. The motion increased
in rapidity, until the eye could hardly follow the body in its circuit. This continued for perhaps
two or three minutes, until gradually slackening the motion, he at length stopped it altogether,
and in an instant had landed the girl on her knees in the middle of the lamplit circle.
Such was the eastern mode of mesmerization as practiced among the dervishes.
And now the dwarf seemed entirely oblivious of external objects, and in a deep trance.
Her head and jaw dropped on her chest, her eyes were glazed and staring, and altogether
her appearance was even more hideous than before.
The dervish then carefully closed the shutters of the only window, and we should have been in total
obscurity but that there was a whole board in it, through which entered a bright ray of sunlight
that shot through the darkened room and shone upon the girl. He arranged her drooping head so that the
ray should fall upon the crown, after which, motioning us to remain silent, he folded his arms
upon his bosom, and, fixing his gaze upon the bright spot, became as motionless as a stone image.
I too riveted my eyes on the same spot, wondering what was to happen next, and how all this strange ceremony was to help me find Ralph.
By degrees the bright patch, as if it had been drawn through the sunbeam a greater splendor from without, and condensed it within its own area, shaped itself into a brilliant star, sending out rays in every direction as from a focus.
A curious optical effect then occurred. The room, which had been previously partially lighted by the room, which had been previously partially lighted by the
the sunbeam grew darker and darker as the star increased in radiance, until we found ourselves
in an Egyptian gloom. The star twinkled, trembled, and turned, at first with a slow gyratory
motion, then faster and faster, increasing its circumference at every rotation, until it formed
a brilliant disc, and we no longer saw the dwarf, who seemed absorbed into its light.
Having gradually attained an extremely rapid velocity, as the girl had done when whirled by the
the motion began to decrease and finally merged into a feeble vibration, like the shimmer of
moonbeams on rippling water. Then it flickered for a moment longer, emitted a few last flashes,
and assuming the density and iridescence of an immense opal, it remained motionless.
The disc now radiated a moon-like luster, soft and silvery, but instead of illuminating the garret,
it seemed only to intensify the darkness. The edge of the circle was not penumbrous,
but on the contrary, sharply defined like that of a silver shield.
All being now ready, the dervish, without uttering a word, or removing his gaze from the disc,
stretched out a hand, and taking hold of mine he drew me to his side and pointed to the luminous shield.
Looking at the place indicated, we saw large patches appear like those on the moon.
These gradually formed themselves into figures that began moving about in high relief in their natural colors.
They neither appeared like a photograph nor an engraving, still less like the reflection of images on a mirror,
but as if the disc were a cameo, and they were raised above its surface and then endowed with life in motion.
To my astonishment and my friend's consternation, we recognize the bridge leading from Galata to Istanbul,
spanning the golden horn from the new to the old city.
There were the people hurrying to and fro, steamers and gay kikes, gliding on the blue,
bosphorus. The many colored buildings, villas, and palaces reflected in the water. And the whole
picture illuminated by the noonday sun. It passed like a panorama, but so vivid was the impression
that we could not tell whether it or ourselves were in motion. All was bustle in life, but not a sound
broke the oppressive stillness. It was noiseless as a dream. It was a phantom picture.
Street after street and quarter after quarter succeeded one another. There was the bazaar with its
narrow-roofed passages, the small shops on either side, the coffee-houses with gravelly-smoking
Turks, and, as either they glided past us or we passed them, one of the smokers upset the
Nargile and coffee of another, and a volley of soundless invectives caused us great amusement.
So we traveled with a picture until we came to a large building that I recognized as the
palace of the minister of finance. In a ditch behind the house and close to a mosque, lying in a pool of
mud with a silken coat all bedraggled, lay my poor Ralph. Panting and crouching down as if
exhausted, he seemed to be in a dying condition, and near him were gathered some sorry-looking
curds who lay blinking in the sun and snapping at the flies. I had seen all that I desired,
although I had not breathed a word about the dog to the dervish, and had come more out of curiosity
than with the idea of any success. I was impatient to leave at once and recover, Ralph, but as my
companion besought me to remain a little while longer I reluctantly consented.
The scene faded away, and Miss H. placed herself in turn by the side of the dervish.
I will think of him, she whispered in my ear with the eager tone that young ladies generally assume
when talking of the worshipped him.
There was a long stretch of sand in a blue sea with white waves dancing in the sun, and a great
steamer is plowing her way along past a desolate shore, leaving a milky track behind her.
The deck is full of life.
The men are busy forward.
The cook with the white cap and apron is coming out of the galley.
Uniformed officers are moving about.
Passengers fill the quarter deck, lounging, flirting, or reading.
And a young man we both recognize comes forward and leans over the taffrail.
It is him.
Miss H. gives a little gasp, blushes and smiles, and concentrates her thoughts again.
The pictures of the steamer vanishes.
The magic moon remains for a few moments blank.
but new spots appear on its luminous face.
We see a library slowly emerging from its depths,
a library with green carpet and hangings and bookshelves around the sides of the room.
Seated in an armchair at the table under a hanging lamp is an old gentleman writing.
His gray hair is brushed back from his forehead.
His face is smooth-shaven, and his countenance has an expression of benignity.
The dervish made a hasty motion to enjoin silence.
The light on the disc quivers, but resumes it.
steady brilliancy, and again its surface is imageless for a second.
We are back in Constantinople now, and out of the pearly depths of the shield forms our own
apartment in the hotel. There are our papers and books on the bureau, my friend's traveling
hat in a corner, her ribbons hanging on the glass, and lying on the bed the very dress
she had changed when starting out on her expedition. No detail was lacking to make the identification
complete. And as if to prove that we were not seeing something conjured up in our
own imagination. There lay upon the dressing-table two unopened letters, the handwriting on which
was clearly recognized by my friend. They were from a very dear relative of hers, from whom she had
expected to hear when in Athens, but had been disappointed. The scene faded away, and we now saw
her brother's room, with himself lying upon the lounge, and a servant bathing his head,
whence, to our horror, blood was trickling. We had left the boy in perfect health but an hour before,
and upon seeing this picture my companion uttered a cry of alarm, and seizing me by the hand dragged me to the door.
We rejoined our guide and friends in the long hall and hurried back to the hotel.
Young H. had fallen down the stairs and cut his forehead rather badly.
In our room on the dressing table were the two letters which had arrived in our absence.
They had been forwarded from Athens.
Ordering a carriage I at once drove to the Ministry of Finance,
and a lighting with the guide hurriedly made for the ditch I had seen for the first time in the shining disc.
In the middle of the pool, badly mangled, half-famished, but still alive, lay my beautiful Spaniel Ralph, and near him were the blinking curs, unconcernedly snapping at the flies.
End of Section 4.
Section 5 of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Blavatsky.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Read by Ben Tucker
From the Polar Lands, a Christmas story.
Just a year ago, during the Christmas holidays, a numerous society had gathered in the country house, or rather the old hereditary castle of a wealthy landowner in Finland.
Many were the remains in it of our forefathers' hospitable way of living, and many the medieval customs preserved, founded on traditions and superstitions, semi-finish and semi-Russian, the latter imported into it by its female proprietors from the shores of the Neva.
Christmas trees were being prepared and implements for divination were being made ready.
For, in that old castle there were grim, worm-eaten portraits of famous ancestors and knights and ladies, old deserted turrets with bastions and gothic windows, mysterious somber alleys and dark endless cellars, easily transformed into subterranean passages and caves, ghostly prison cells, haunted by the restless phantoms of the heroes of local legends.
In short, the old manor offered every commodity for romantic horrors. But alas, this once they served for naught.
present narrative these dear old horrors play no such part as they otherwise might.
Its chief hero is a very commonplace prosaical man, let us call him Erkler.
Yes, Dr. Erkler, professor of medicine, half German through his father, a full-blown Russian
on his mother's side and by education, and one who looked a rather heavily built and ordinary
mortal.
Nevertheless, very extraordinary things happened with him.
Erkler, as it turned out, was a great traveler, who by his own choice had accompanied
one of the most famous explorers on his journeys around the world.
More than once, they had both seen death face to face from sunstrokes under the tropics,
from cold in the polar regions.
All this notwithstanding, the doctor spoke with a never-abating enthusiasm
about their winterings in Greenland and Novaya Zimla,
and above the desert plains in Australia where he lunched off a kangaroo
and dined off an emu, and almost perished of thirst during the passage through a waterless track,
which it took them forty hours to cross.
Yes, he used to remark,
I've experienced almost everything,
save what you would describe as supernatural.
This, of course, if we throw out of account,
a certain extraordinary vent in my life,
a man I met of whom I will tell you just now,
and it's indeed rather strange.
I may add quite inexplicable results.
There was a loud demand that he should explain himself,
and the doctor, forced to yield, began his narrative.
In 1878 we were compelled to winter on the northwestern coast of Spitzbergen.
We had been attempting to find our way during the short summer to the pole,
but, as usual, the attempt had proved a failure, owing to the icebergs,
and after several such fruitless endeavors, we had to give it up.
No sooner had we settled than the polar night descended upon us.
Our steamers got wedged in and frozen between the blocks of ice in the Gulf of Muscle,
and we found ourselves cut off for eight long months from the rest of the living world.
I confess, I for one, felt it terribly at first.
We became especially discouraged when one stormy night the snow hurricane
scattered a mass of materials, prepared for our winter buildings,
and deprived us of over forty deer from our herd.
Starvation in prospect is no incentive to good humor,
and with the deer we had lost the best Plot de Resistence against polar frosts,
human organisms demanding in that climate an increase of heating in solid food.
However, we were finally reconciled to our loss and even got accustomed to the local,
and in reality, more nutritious food, seals and seal grease.
Our men from the remnants of our lumber built a house neatly divided into two compartments,
one for our three professors and myself, and the other for themselves,
and a few wooden sheds being constructed for meteorological, astronomical,
and magnetic purposes.
We even added a protecting staple for the few remaining deer.
And then began the monotonous series of dawnless nights and days,
hardly distinguishable one from the other except through dark gray shadows.
At time the blues we got into were fearful.
We had contemplated sending two of our three steamers home in September.
But the premature and unforeseen formation of ice walls round them
had thwarted our plans.
And now would the entire cruise on our hands,
we had to economize still more with our meager provisions, fuel, and light.
Lamps were used only for scientific purposes.
The rest of the time we had to content ourselves with God's light,
the moon and the aurora borealis.
But how described these glorious, incomparable northern lights?
Rings, arrows, gigantic conflagrations of accurately divided rays
of the most vivid and varied colors.
The November moonlight nights were as gorgeous.
The play of moonbeams on the snow
And the frozen rocks
Was most striking
These were fairy nights
Well, one such night
It may have been one such day
For all I know
As from the end of November to about the middle of March
We had no twilights at all
To distinguish the one from the other
We suddenly espied in the play of colored beams
Which were then throwing a golden rosy hue
On the snowplanes
A dark moving spot
It grew
And seemed to scatter as a
approached nearer to us. What did this mean? It looked like a herd of cattle, or a group of living
men trotting over the snowy wilderness. But animals there were white like everything else. What then
was this? Human beings? We could not believe our eyes. Yes, a group of men was approaching our
dwelling. It turned out to be about 50 seal hunters, guided by Matalus, a well-known veteran
mariner from Norway. They had been caught by the icebergs just as we had.
"'How did you know that we were here?' we asked.
"'Old Johann, this very same old party, showed us the way,' they answered,
pointing to a venerable-looking old man with snow-white locks.
In sober truth, it would have besiemed their guide far better to have sat at home over his fire
than to have been seal-hunting in polar lands with younger men,
and we told them so, still wondering how he came to learn of our presence in this kingdom of white bears.
At this, Matilis and his companions smiled.
assuring us that old Johann knew all. They remarked that we must be novices in polar borderlands
since we were ignorant of Johann's personality and could still wonder at anything said of him.
"'It is nigh forty-five years,' said the chief hunter,
"'that I have been catching seals in the polar seas,
"'and as far as my personal remembrance goes, I have always known him,
"'and just as he is now, an old white-bearded man.
"'And so far back as in the days when I used to go to sea,
as a small boy with my father.
My dad used to tell me the same of old Johann,
and he added that his own father and grandfather too
had known Johann in their days of boyhood,
none of them having ever seen him otherwise
than white as our snows.
And as our four fathers nicknamed him
the white-haired all-knower,
thus do we, the seal-hunters, call him to this day.
Would you make us believe he is 200 years old?
We laughed.
Some of our sailors crowding round the white-haired phenomenon,
on plied him with questions. Grandfather, answer us. How old are you?
I really do not know it myself, Sonny's. I live as long as God has decreed me to. As to my years,
I never counted them. And how did you know, grandfather, that we were wintering in this place?
God guided me. How I learned it, I do not know. Save that, I knew it. I knew it.
End of Section 5
Section 6
Of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Pilvatsky
The Slibervox Recordings in the Public Domain
Read by Ben Tucker
The Insouled Violin
1
In the year 1828, an old German, a music teacher,
came to Paris with his pupil and settled
unostentatiously in one of the quiet
faux-Borges of the metropolis.
The first rejoiced in the name of Samuel Klaus, the second answered to the more poetical
appellation of Franz Stenio.
The younger man was a violinist, gifted as rumor went, with extraordinary, almost miraculous talent.
Yet as he was poor and had not hitherto made a name for himself in Europe,
he remained for several years in the capital of France, the heart and pulse of capricious continental
fashion.
Unknown and unappreciated.
Franz was a Styrian by birth
And at the time of the event to be presently described
He was a young man considerably under 30
A philosopher and a dreamer by nature
Embed with all the mystic oddities of true genius
He reminded one of some of the heroes in Hoffman's
Quante fantastique
His earlier existence had been a very unusual
In fact quite an eccentric one
And its history must be briefly told
For the better understanding of the present story
born of a very pious country people in a quiet berg among Styrian Alps,
nursed by the native gnomes who watched over his cradle,
growing up in the weird atmosphere of the ghouls and vampires
who play such a prominent part in the household of every Styrian and Slovenian in southern Austria,
educated later as a student in the shadow of the old Rinnish castles of Germany.
Franz from his childhood had passed through every emotional stage on the plane of the so-called supernatural
He had also studied at one time the occult arts, with an enthusiastic disciple of Paracelsus and Kunrath.
Alchemy had few theoretical secrets for him, and he had dabbled in ceremonial magic and sorcery, with some Hungarian zygans.
Yet he loved above all else music, and above music his violin.
At the age of 22, he suddenly gave up his practical studies in the occult, and from that day,
though as devoted as ever in thought to the beautiful Grecian gods,
he surrendered himself entirely to his art.
Of his classic studies he had retained only that which related to the Muses.
Utepia especially, at whose altar he worshipped,
and Orpheus, whose magic liar he tried to emulate with his violin.
Except his dreamy belief in the nymphs and the sirens,
on account probably of the double relationship of the latter to the muses
through Calliope and Orpheus, he was interested but little
in the matters of this sublinary world.
All his aspirations mounted like incense
with the wave of the heavenly harmony
that he drew from his instrument
to a higher and nobler sphere.
He dreamed awake and lived a real, though,
unenchanted life,
only during those hours
when his magic bow carried him along the wave of sound
to the pagan Olympus,
to the feet of Utupi.
A strange child he had ever been in his own home
where tales of magic and witchcraft grow
out of every inch of the soil,
a still stranger boy he had become, until finally he had blossomed into manhood without one single characteristic of youth.
Never had a fair face attracted his attention. Not for one moment had his thoughts turned from his solitary studies to a life beyond that of a mystic bohemian.
Content with his own company, he had thus passed the best years of his youth and manhood, with his violin for his chief idol,
and with the gods and goddesses of old Greece for his audience in perfect ignorance of practical life.
His whole existence had been one long day of dreams, of melody and sunlight, and he had never felt any other aspirations.
How useless, but oh, how glorious those dreams!
How vivid!
And why should he desire any better fate?
Was he not all that he wanted to be, transformed in a second of thought into one or another hero?
From Orpheus, who held all nature breathless, to the urchin who piped away under the plain tree,
to the naiads of Killeroys' crystal fountain,
did not the swift-footed nymphs frolic at his beck and call
to the sound of the magic flute of the Arcadian Shepherd,
who was himself?
Behold the goddess of love and beauty herself descending from on high,
attracted by the sweet-voiced notes of his violin.
Yet, there came a time when he preferred syringes to Aphrodite,
not as the fair nymph, pursued by Pan,
but after her transformation by the merciful gods and to the reed,
out of which the frustrated God of the shepherds had made his magic pipe.
For also with time, ambition grows and is rarely satisfied.
When he tried to emulate on his violin the enchanting sounds that resounded in his mind,
the whole of Parnassus kept silent under the spell,
or joined in heavenly chorus.
But the audience he finally craved was composed of more than the gods sung by Hesiod,
verily of the most appreciative melemon's of European capitals.
He felt jealous of the magic pint.
and would fain have had it at his command.
Oh, that I could allure a nymph into my beloved violin,
he often cried after awakening from one of his daydreams.
Oh, that I could only span in spirit flight the abyss of time.
Oh, that I could find myself for one short day a partaker of the secret arts of the gods,
a god myself in the sight and hearing of enraptured humanity,
and having learned the mystery of the liar of Orpheus,
or secured within my violin a siren,
thereby benefit mortals to my own glory.
Thus, having for long years dreamed in the company of the gods of his fancy,
he now took to dreaming of the transitory glories of fame upon this earth.
But at this time he was suddenly called home by his widowed mother
from one of the German universities where he had lived for the last year or two.
This was an event which brought his plans to an end,
at least so far as the immediate future was concerned,
for he had hitherto drawn upon her alone for his meager pittance,
and his means were not sufficient for an independent life outside his native place.
His return had a very unexpected result.
His mother, whose only love he was on earth, died soon after she had welcomed her Benjamin back,
and the good wives of the Berg exercised their swift tongues for many a month after,
as to the real causes of that death.
Fraustino, before Franz's return, was a healthy, buxom, middle-aged body, strong and hearty.
She was a pious and a god-fearing.
soul too, who had never failed in saying her prayers, nor had missed an early mass for years
during his absence.
On the first Sunday after her son had settled at home, a day that she had been longing for
and had anticipated for months in joyous visions, in which she saw him kneeling by her side
in the little church on the hill, she called him from the foot of the stairs.
The hour had come when her pious dream was to be realized, and she was waiting for him,
carefully wiping the dust from the prayer book he had used in his boyhood.
But instead of Franz, it was his violin that responded to her call, mixing its sonorous voice with the rather cracked tones of the peal of the merry Sunday bells.
The fond mother was somewhat shocked at hearing the prayer-inspiring sounds, drowned by the weird fantastic notes of the dance of the witches.
They seemed to her so unearthly and mocking, but she almost fainted upon hearing the definite refusal of her well-beloved son to go to church.
He never went to church, he coolly remarked.
It was loss of time, besides which the loud peals of the old church organ jarred on his nerves.
Nothing should induce him to submit to the torture of listening to that cracked organ.
He was firm and nothing could move him.
To her supplications and remonstrances, he put an end by offering to play for her a hymn to the sun he had just composed.
From that memorable Sunday morning, Fraustinio lost her usual serenity of mind,
she hastened to lay her sorrows and seek for consolation at the foot of the confessional.
But that which she heard in response from the stern priest filled her gentle and unsophisticated soul with dismay and almost with despair.
A feeling of fear, a sense of profound terror, which soon became a chronic state with her, pursued her from that moment.
Her nights became disturbed and sleepless, her days passed in prayer and lamentations.
In her maternal anxiety for the salvation of her beloved son's soul
And for his post-mortem welfare
She made a series of rash vows
Finding that neither the Latin petition to the mother of God
Written for her by her spiritual advisor
Nor yet the humble supplications in German
Addressed by herself to every saint
She had reason to believe was residing in paradise
Worked the desired effect
She took to pilgrimages to distant shrines
During one of these journeys to a whole
chapel situated high up in the mountains, she caught cold amidst the glaciers of the Tyrol,
and redescended only to take to a sick bed from which she arose no more.
Fraustinio's vow had led her, in one sense, to the desired result.
The poor woman was now given an opportunity of seeking out in propria persona,
the saints she had believed in so well,
and of pleading face to face for the recreant son,
who refused adherence to them and to the church,
scoffed at monk and confessional
and held the organ in such horror.
Franz sincerely lamented his mother's death,
unaware of being the indirect cause of it.
He felt no remorse.
But selling the modest household goods and chattels,
light in person heart,
he resolved to travel on foot for a year or two
before settling down to any definite profession.
A hazy desire to see the great cities of Europe
and to try his luck in France
lurked at the bottom of this traveling project.
But his bohemian habits of life were too strong to be abruptly abandoned.
He placed his small capital with a banker for a rainy day,
and started on his pedestrian journey via Germany and Austria.
His violin paid for his board and lodging in the inns and farms on his way,
and he passed his days in the green fields in the solemn, silent woods,
face to face with nature, dreaming all the time as usual with his eyes open.
During the three months of his pleasant travels to and fro,
he never descended for one moment from Parnassus.
But, as an alchemist transmutes led into gold,
so he transformed everything on his way into a song of Hesiod or Anacreon.
Every evening, while fiddling for his supper in bed,
whether on a green lawn or in the hall of a rustic inn,
his fancy changed the whole scene for him.
Village swains and maidens became transfigured into Arcadian shepherds and nymphs.
The sand-covered floor was now a green sward.
The uncouth couples spinning round in a measured waltz with the wild grace of tamed bears became priests and priestesses of Terpsichore.
The bulky, cherry-cheeked and blue-eyed daughters of rural Germany were the Hesperides, circling around the trees laden with the golden apples.
Nor did the melodious strains of the Arcadian demigods, piping on their syrinxes, and audible, but to his own enchanted ear, vanished with the dawn.
For no sooner was the curtain of sleep raised from his eyes, then he would sally forth into a nearer.
magic realm of daydreams. On his way to some dark and solemn pine forest, he played incessantly
to himself and to everything else. He fiddled to the green hill and forthwith the mountain,
and the moss-covered rocks moved forward to hear him the better, as they had dawned at the
sound of the Orphian lyre. He fiddled to the merry-voiced brook, to the hurrying river, and both
slackened their speed and stopped their waves and becoming silent, seemed to listen to him in an entranced
rapture. Even the long-legged stork who stood meditatively on one leg on the thatched top of the rustic mill,
gravely resolving unto himself the problem of his too long existence, sent out after him along in strident cry,
screeching, art thou Orpheus himself, Osteenio? It was a period of full bliss of a daily and
almost hourly exaltation. The last words of his dying mother, whispering to him of the horrors of
eternal condemnation, had left him unaffected, and the only vision of her warning evoked in him
was that of Pluto. By a ready association of ideas, he saw the Lord of the Dark Nether Kingdom
greeting him, as he had greeted the husband of Eurydice before him. Charmed with the magic sounds of his
violin, the will of Ixion was at a standstill once more, thus affording relief to the wretched
seducer of Juno, and giving the lie to those who claim eternity for the duration of the punishment of
condemned sinners. He perceived tantalus, forgetting his never-ceasing thirst, and smacking his
lips as he drank in the heaven-born melody, the stone of Sisyphus becoming motionless,
the furies themselves smiling on him, and the sovereign of the gloomy regions delighted,
and awarding preference to his violin over the liar of Orpheus.
Ticken a Cyrillo mythology thus seems a decided antidote to fear, in the face of theological threats,
especially when strengthened with an insane and passionate love of music.
With Franz, a tepi proved always victorious in every contest,
I, even with hell itself.
But there is an end to everything,
and very soon Franz had to give up uninterrupted dreaming.
He had reached the university town where dwelt his old violin teacher, Samuel Klaus.
When this antiquated musician found that his beloved and favorite pupil Franz
had been left poor in purse and still poorer in earthly affections,
he felt his strong attachment to the boy awakened with tenfold force.
He took Franz to his heart, and forthwith adopted him as his son.
The old teacher reminded people of one of those grotesque figures which look as if they had just stepped out of some medieval panel.
And yet Klaus, with his fantastic allure of a night goblin, had the most loving heart,
as tender as that of a woman, and the self-sacrificing nature of an old Christian martyr.
When Franz had briefly narrated to him the history of his last few years,
the professor took him by the hand, and leading him into his study simply said,
Stop with me, and put an end to your bohemian life.
Make yourself famous.
I am old and childless, and will be your father.
Let us live together and forget all save fame.
And forthwith, he offered to proceed with Franz to Paris via several large German cities,
where they would stop to give concerts.
In a few days, Klaus succeeded in making Franz forget his vagrant life and his artistic independence.
and reawakened in his pupil his now dormant ambition and desire for worldly fame.
Hitherto, since his mother's death, he had been content to receive applause only from the gods and goddesses
who inhabited his vivid fancy. Now he began to crave once more for the admiration of mortals.
Under the clever and careful training of old Klaus, his remarkable talent gained in strength
and powerful charm with every day, and his reputation grew and expanded with every city in town
wherein he made himself heard.
His ambition was being rapidly realized,
the presiding genii of various musical centers,
to whose patronage his talent was submitted,
soon proclaimed him the one violinist of the day,
and the public declared loudly that he stood unrivaled
by anyone whom they had ever heard.
These laudations very soon made both master and pupil
completely lose their heads.
But Paris was less ready with such appreciation.
Paris makes reputations for itself,
and will take none on faith.
They had been living in it for almost three years,
and were still climbing with difficulty the artist's cavalry,
when an event occurred which put an end even to their most modest expectations.
The first arrival of Niccolo Paganini was suddenly heralded,
and threw Leticia into a convulsion of expectation.
The unparalleled artist arrived,
and all Paris fell at once at his feet.
Two.
Now it is a well-known fact that a superstition born in the dark days of
medieval superstition, and surviving almost to the middle of the present century, attributed all
such abnormal out-of-the-way talent as that of Paganini to supernatural agency.
Every great and marvelous artist had been accused in his day of dealings with the devil.
A few instances will suffice to refresh the reader's memory.
Tartini, the great composer and violinist of the 17th century, was denounced as one who got his
best inspirations from the evil one, with whom he was it was said in regular league.
This accusation was, of course, due to the almost magical impression he produced upon his audiences.
His inspired performance on the violin secured for him in his native country the title of Master of Nations.
The Sonad de Lable, also called Tartini's Dream, as everyone who has heard it will be ready to testify,
is the most weird melody ever heard or invented.
Hence, the marvelous composition has become the source of endless legends.
Nor were they entirely baseless, since it was he himself,
who was shown to have originated them.
Tartini confessed to have written it
on awakening from a dream
in which he had heard his sonata performed by Satan
for his benefit,
and in consequence of a bargain made with his infernal majesty.
Several famous singers even,
whose exceptional voices struck the hearers
with superstitious admiration,
have not escaped a like accusation.
Pasta's splendid voice was attributed in her day
to the fact that,
three months before her birth,
the diva's mother was carried during a trance to heaven.
and there treated to a vocal concert of seraphs. Malabran was indebted for her voice to St. Cecilia,
while others said she owed it to a demon who watched over her cradle and sung the baby to sleep.
Finally, Paganini, the unrivaled performer, the mean Italian,
who, like Dryden's Jubal, striking on the corded shell, forced the throngs that followed him to worship,
the divine sounds produced, and made people say that,
less than a god could not dwell within the hollow of his violin.
Paganini left a legend too.
The almost supernatural art of the greatest violin player that the world has ever known
was often speculated upon, never understood.
The effect produced by him on his audience was literally marvelous, overpowering.
The great Rossini is said to have wept like a sentimental German maiden on hearing him play for the first time.
The princess Elisa of Luca, a sister of the great Napoleon, in whose service Paganini was,
as director of her private orchestra, for a long time was.
unable to hear him play without fainting. In women he produced nervous fits and hysterics at his will.
Stout-hearted men, he drove to frenzy. He changed cowards into heroes and made the bravest soldiers
feel like so many nervous schoolgirls. Is it to be wondered at then that hundreds of weird
tales circulated for long years about and around the mysterious Genoese, that modern Orpheus
of Europe? One of these was especially ghastly. It was rumored and was believed by more people
than would probably like to confess it,
that the strings of his violin were made of human intestines,
according to all the rules and requirements of the black art.
Exaggerated as this idea may seem to some,
it has nothing impossible in it,
and it is more than probable that it was this legend
that led to the extraordinary events which we are about to narrate.
Human organs are often used by the Eastern black magician,
so-called, and it is an averred fact that some Bengali tantricas
reciters of tantras or invocations to the demon, as a reverend writer has described them,
use human corpses, and certain internal and external organs pertaining to them as powerful magical
agents for bad purposes.
However, this may be, now that the magnetic and mesmeric potencies of hypnotism are recorded
as facts by most physicians, it may be suggested with less danger than heretofore, that the
extraordinary effects of Paganini's violin playing were not, perhaps entirely due to
his talent and genius.
The wonder and awe he so easily excited were as much caused by his external appearance,
which had something weird and demoniacal in it, according to certain of his biographers,
as by the inexpressible charm of his execution and his remarkable mechanical skill.
The latter is demonstrated by his perfect imitation of the flagellé and his performance of long
and magnificent melodies on the G-string alone, in this performance, which many an artist has
tried to copy without success, he remains unrivaled to this day. It is owing to this remarkable
appearance of his, termed by his friends eccentric, and by his two nervous victims diabolical,
that he experienced great difficulties in refuting certain ugly rumors. These were credited far more
easily in his day than they would be now. It was whispered throughout Italy and even in his own
native town that Paganini had murdered his wife, and later on a mistress, both of whom he had loved
passionately, and both of whom he had not hesitated to sacrifice to his fiendish ambition.
He had made himself proficient in magic arts.
It was asserted, and had succeeded thereby in imprisoning the souls of his two victims and his violin, his famous Cremona.
It is maintained by the immediate friends of Ernst T. W. Hoffman, the celebrated author of
De Alexer de T. E.lexer de Tufel, Mr. Motton, and other charming and mystical tales, the counselor Cresspell and the violin of Cremona,
was taken from the legend about Paganini.
It is, as all who have read it know, the history of a celebrated violin,
to which the voice and soul of a famous diva,
a woman whom Cresspell had loved and killed, had passed,
and to which was added the voice of his beloved daughter, Antonia.
Nor was this superstition utterly ungrounded,
nor was Hoffman to be blamed for adopting it,
after he had heard Paganini's playing.
The extraordinary facility with which the artist drew out of his instrument
not only the most unearthly sounds, but positively human voices, justified the suspicion.
Such effects might well have startled an audience, and thrown terror into many a nervous heart.
Add to this the impenetrable mystery connected with a certain period of Paganini's youth,
and the most wild tales about him must be found in a measure justifiable, and even excusable,
especially among a nation whose ancestors knew the Borgias and the Medici's of black art fame.
3. In those pre-telegraphic days, newspapers were limited, and the wings of fame had a heavier flight than they have now.
Franz had hardly heard of Paganini, and when he did, he swore he would rival, if not eclipse, the Genoese magician.
Yes, he would either become the most famous of all living violinists, or he would break his instrument, and put an end to his life at the same time.
Old Klaus rejoiced at such a determination. He rubbed his hands in glee and jumping about on
his lame leg like a crippled satyr, he flattered and incensed his pupil, believing himself
all the while to be performing a sacred duty to the holy and majestic cause of art.
Upon first setting foot in Paris three years before, Franz had all but failed. Musical critics
pronounced him a rising star, but had all agreed that he required a few more years' practice
before he could hope to carry his audiences by storm. Therefore, after a desperate study of over two
years in uninterrupted preparations. The Styrian artist had finally made himself ready for his first
serious appearance in the great opera house where a public concert before the most exacting critics of
the old world was to be held. At this critical moment Paganini's arrival in the European metropolis
placed an obstacle in the way of the realization of his hopes, and the old German professor wisely
postponed his pupil's debut. At first he had simply smiled at the wild enthusiasm, the laudatory hymns
sung about the Genoese violinist, and the almost superstitious awe with which his name was pronounced.
But very soon Paganini's name became a burning iron in the hearts of both the artists,
and a threatening phantom in the mind of Klaus.
A few days more in they shuddered at the very mention of their great rival,
whose success became with every night more unprecedented.
The first series of concerts was over, but neither Klaus nor Franz had as yet had an opportunity of hearing him
and of judging for themselves.
So great and so beyond their means was the charge for admission, and so small the hope of getting a free pass from a brother artist,
justly regarded as the meanest of men in monetary transactions, that they had to wait for a chance, as did so many others.
But the day came when neither master nor pupil could control their impatience any longer,
so they pawned their watches, and with the proceeds, bought two modest seats.
Who can describe the enthusiasm, the triumphs of this famous and at the same time fatal night?
The audience was frantic. Men wept and women screamed and fainted, while both Klaus and Stenio sat looking paler than two ghosts.
At the first touch of Paganini's magic bow, both Franz and Samuel felt as if the icy hand of death had touched them.
Carried away by an irresistible enthusiasm, which turned into a violent, unearthly mental torture,
they dared neither look into each other's faces nor exchange one word during the whole performance.
At midnight, while the chosen delegates of the musical society,
and the Conservatory of Paris unhitched the horses and dragged the carriage of the grand artist home in triumph.
The two Germans returned to their modest lodging, and it was a pitiful sight to see them.
Mornful and desperate they placed themselves in their usual seats at the fire corner,
and neither for a while opened his mouth.
Samuel, at last exclaimed Franz, pale as death itself.
Samuel, it remains for us now but to die. Do you hear me? We are worthless.
We were two madmen to have ever hoped that anyone in this world would ever rival him.
The name of Paganini stuck in his throat, as in utter despair he fell into his armchair.
The old professor's wrinkles suddenly became purple.
His little greenish eyes gleamed phosphorescently as, bending toward his pupil, he whispered to him in hoarse and broken tones.
"'Nine, nine!
"'Thou art wrong, my friends.
"'I have taught thee, and thou hast learned all of the great,
art that a simple mortal and a Christian by baptism can learn from another simple mortal.
Am I to blame because these accursed Italians, in order to reign unequaled in the domain of art,
have recourse to Satan and the diabolical effects of black magic?
Franz turned his eyes upon his old master.
There was a sinister light burning in those glittering orbs,
a light telling plainly that, to secure such a power, he too would not scruple to sell
himself, body and soul, to the evil one.
But he said not a word, and turning his eyes from his old master's face, gazed dreamily at the dying embers.
The same long-forgotten, incoherent dreams which, after seeming such realities to him in his younger days, had been given up entirely, and had gradually faded from his mind, now crowded back into it with the same force and vividness as of old.
The grimacing shadows of Ixian, Sisyphus, and Tantalus, resurrected and stood before him, saying,
What matters hell? In which thou believest not, and even if hell there be, it is the hell
described by the old Greeks, not that of the modern bigots, a locality full of conscious shadows,
to whom thou canst be a second Orpheus. Franz felt that he was going mad, and, turning instinctively,
he looked his old master once more right in the face. Then his bloodshot eye evaded the gaze of Klaus,
whether Samuel understood the terrible state of mind of his pupil, or whether he wanted to draw him out,
to make him speak, and thus to divert his thoughts, must remain as hypothetical to the reader as it is to the writer.
Whatever may have been in his mind, the German enthusiast went on, speaking with a feigned calmness.
Franz, my dear boy, I tell you that the art of the accursed Italian is not natural,
that it is due neither to study nor to genius. It never was acquired in the usual natural way.
You need not stare at me in that wild manner for what I say is in the mouth of millions.
millions of people. Listen to what I now tell you and try to understand. You have heard the strange
tale whispered about the famous Tartini? He died one fine Sabbath night, strangled by his familiar
demon, who had taught him how to endow his violin with a human voice, by shutting up in it,
by means of incantations, the soul of a young virgin. Paganini did more, in order to endow his
instrument, with the faculty of emitting human sounds, such as sobs, despairing cries, supplications,
moans of love and fury. In short, the most heart-rending notes of the human voice.
Paganini became the murderer not only of his wife and his mistress, but also of a friend,
who was more tenderly attached to him than any other being on this earth.
He then made the four chords of his magic violin out of the intestines of his last victim.
This is the secret of his enchanting talent, of that overpowering melody,
that combination of sounds which you will never be able to master unless.
The old man could not finish the sentence.
He staggered back before the fiendish look of his pupil and covered his face with his hands.
Franz was breathing heavily, and his eyes had an expression which reminded Klaus of those of a hyena.
His pallor was cadaverous.
For some time he could not speak but only gasped for breath.
At last he slowly muttered.
Are you in earnest?
I am, as I hope to help you.
And
And do you really believe that
Had I only the means of obtaining human intestines for strings
I could rival Paganini?
Ask friends, after a moment's pause and casting down his eyes.
The old German unveiled his face
And with a strange look of determination upon it, softly answered,
Human intestines alone are not sufficient for our purpose.
They must have belonged to someone who had loved us well.
with an unselfish, holy love.
Tartini endowed his violin with the life of a virgin,
but that virgin had died of unrequited love for him.
The fiendish artist had prepared beforehand a tube
in which he managed to catch her last breath as she expired,
pronouncing his beloved name,
and he then transferred this breath to his violin.
As to Paganini, I have just told you his tale.
It was with the consent of his victim, though,
that he murdered him to get possession of his intestines.
"'Oh, for the power of the human voice!' Samuel went on after a brief pause.
"'What can equal the eloquence, the magic spell of the human voice?
"'Do you think, my poor boy, I would not have taught you this great, this final secret,
"'were it not that it throws one right into the clutches of him,
"'who must remain unnamed at night?'
"'He added, with a sudden return to the superstitions of his youth.
"'Frons did not answer, but with a calmness awful to behold,
He left his place, took down his violin from the wall where it was hanging, and with one powerful grasp of the cords, he tore them out and flung them into the fire.
Samuel suppressed a cry of horror. The cords were hissing upon the coals, where, among the blazing logs they wriggled and curled like so many living snakes.
By the witches of Thessaly and the dark arts of Circe, he exclaimed with foaming mouth and his eyes burning like coals.
By the furies of hell and Pluto himself, I now swear in thy presence, O Samuel, my master, never to touch a violin again, until I can string it with four human chords.
May I be accursed forever, and ever if I do.
He fell senseless on the floor with a deep sob that ended like a funeral wail.
Old Samuel lifted him up as he would have lifted a child and carried him to his bed.
Then he sallied forth in search of a physician.
4. For several days after this painful scene, Franz was very ill, ill almost beyond recovery.
The physician declared him to be suffering from brain fever, and said that the worst was to be feared.
For nine long days the patient remained delirious, and Klaus, who was nursing him night and day with the solicitude of the tenderest mother,
was horrified at the work of his own hands.
For the first time since their acquaintance began, the old teacher, owing to the wild ravings of his pupil,
was able to penetrate into the darkest corners of that weird, superstitious, cold,
and at the same time passionate nature,
and he trembled at what he discovered.
For he saw that which he had failed to perceive before,
Franz as he was in reality and not as he seemed to superficial observers.
Music was the life of the young man,
and adulation was the air he breathed,
without which that life became a burden.
From the chords of his violin alone,
Stenio drew his life.
and being, but the applause of men and even of gods was necessary to its support.
He saw unveiled before his eyes a genuine, artistic, earthly soul, with its divine counterpart
totally absent, a son of the muses, all fancy and brain poetry but without a heart.
While listening to the ravings of that delirious and unhinged fancy, Klaus felt as if he were for the
first time in his long life, exploring a marvelous and untravelled region, a human nature not of this
world, but of some incomplete planet.
He saw all of this and shuddered.
More than once he asked himself whether it would not be doing a kindness to his boy
to let him die before he returned to consciousness.
But he loved his pupil too well to dwell for long on such an idea.
Franz had bewitched his truly artistic nature, and now old Klaus felt as though their
two lives were inseparably linked together.
That he could thus feel was a revelation to the old man, so he decided to save Franz,
even at the expense of his own old and, as he thought, useless life.
The seventh day of the illness brought on a most terrible crisis.
For 24 hours the patient never closed his eyes, nor remained for a moment silent.
He raved continuously during the whole time.
His visions were peculiar, and he minutely described each.
Fantastic, ghastly figures kept slowly swimming out of the penumbra of his small dark room
in regular and uninterrupted procession,
and he greeted each by name as he might call.
greet old acquaintances. He referred to himself as Prometheus, bound to the rock by four bands
made of human intestines. At the foot of the Caucasian mount, the black waters of the river sticks were
running. They had deserted Arcadia, and were now endeavoring to encircle within a sevenfold
embrace, the rock upon which he was suffering. "'What'st thou know the name of the Promethean rock,
old man?' he roared into his adopted father's ear. "'Listen then, its name is called Samuel
Klaus. Yes, yes, the German murmured disconsolately. It is I who killed him, while seeking to console.
The news of Paganini's magic arts struck his fancy too vividly. Oh, my poor, poor boy!
The patient broke into a loud and discordant laugh.
Aye, poor old man, sayest thou. So thou art of poor stuff, anyhow, and what'st look well only when
stretched upon a fine chromona violin."
Klaus shuddered but said nothing.
He only bent over the poor maniac, and with a kiss upon his brow, a caress is tender,
and as gentle as that of a doting mother, he left the sick room for a few instances
to seek relief in his own garret.
When he returned, the ravings were following another channel.
Franz was singing, trying to imitate the sounds of a violin.
Toward the evening of that day the delirium of the sick man became perfectly ghastly.
He saw spirits of fire clutching at his violin, their skeleton hands from each finger of which grew a flaming claw, beckoned to old Samuel.
They approached and surrounded the old master, and were preparing to rip him open.
Him, the only man on this earth who loves me with an unselfish holy love and whose intestines can be of any good at all,
he went on whispering with glaring eyes and demon laugh.
By the next morning, however, the fever had disappeared, and by the end of the night,
Ninth day, Stinio had left his bed, having no recollection of his illness, and no suspicion that he had
allowed Klaus to read his inner thought. Nay, had he himself any knowledge that such a horrible
idea is the sacrifice of his old master to his ambition had ever entered his mind? Hardly.
The only immediate result of his fatal illness was that, as by reason of his vow, his artistic
passion could find no issue. Another passion awoke, which might avail to feed his ambition and
his insatiable fancy. He plunged headlong into the study of the occult arts, of alchemy,
and of magic. In the practice of magic, the young dreamer sought to stifle the voice of his passionate
longing for his, as he thought, forever lost violin. Weeks and months passed away, and the
conversation about Paganini was never resumed between the master and the pupil. But a profound
melancholy had taken possession of Franz. The two hardly exchanged a word. The violin hung mute.
cordless, full of dust, in its habitual place.
It was as the presence of a soulless corpse between them.
The young man had become gloomy and sarcastic,
even avoiding the mention of music.
Once, as his old professor, after long hesitation,
took out his own violin from its dust-covered case and prepared to play,
Franz gave a convulsive shudder, but said nothing.
At the first notes of the bow, however, he glared like a madman,
and rushing out of the house remained for hours,
wandering in the streets.
Then old Samuel in his turn
threw his instrument down
and locked himself up in his room
till the following morning.
One night his friends sat,
looking particularly pale and gloomy.
Old Samuel suddenly jumped from his seat
and after hopping about the room
in a magpie fashion,
approached his pupil,
imprinted a fond kiss upon the young man's brow
and squeaked at the top of his shrill voice.
Is it not time
to put an end to all of this?
Whereupon, starting from him,
his usual lethargy, Franz echoed, as in a dream. Yes, it is time to put an end to this.
Upon which the two separated and went to bed. On the following morning, when Franz awoke, he was
astonished not to see his old teacher in his usual place to greet him. But he had greatly
altered during the last few months, and he had first paid no attention to his absence, unusual
as it was. He dressed and went into the adjoining room, a little parlor where they had their
meals in which separated their two bedrooms. The fire had not been lighted since the embers
had died out on the previous night, and no sign was anywhere visible of the professor's busy hand
in his usual housekeeping duties. Greatly puzzled, but in no way dismayed, Franz took his usual
place at the corner of the now-cold fireplace, and fell into an aimless reverie. As he stretched
himself in his old armchair, raising both his hands to clasp them behind his head in a favorite posture
of his, his hand came into contact with something on a shelf at his back.
He knocked against a case and brought it violently on the ground.
It was old Klaus' violin case that came down to the floor with such a sudden crash that the case opened and the violin fell out of it, rolling to the feet of Franz.
And then the chords, striking against the brass fender, emitted a sound, prolonged, sad and mournful as the sigh of an unrestful soul.
It seemed to fill the whole room and reverberated in the head and the very heart of the young man.
The effect of that broken violin string was magical.
Samuel, cried Stenio with his eyes, starting from their sockets,
and an unknown terror suddenly taking possession of his whole being.
Samuel, what has happened?
My, good, my dear old master, he called out, hastening to the professor's little room
and throwing the door violently open.
No one answered, all was silent within.
He staggered back, frightened at the sound of his own voice,
so changed and hoarse it seemed to him at this moment.
No reply came in response to his call,
naught followed but a dead silence.
That stillness which, in the domain of sounds, usually denotes death.
In the presence of a corpse, as in the lugubrious stillness of a tomb,
such silence acquires a mysterious power,
which strikes the sensitive soul with a nameless terror.
The little room was dark and Franz hastened to open the shutters.
Samuel was lying on his bed, cold, stiff, and lifeless.
At the sight of the corpse of him who had loved him so well,
and had been to him more than a father, Franz experienced a dreadful revulsion of feeling,
a terrible shock.
But the ambition of the fanatical artist got the better of the despair of the man,
and smothered the feelings of the latter in a few seconds.
A note bearing his own name was conspicuously placed upon a table near the corpse.
With trembling hand, the violinist tore open the envelope.
and read the following.
My beloved son, Franz,
when you read this,
I shall have made the greatest sacrifice,
that your best and only friend and teacher
could have accomplished for your fame.
He who loved you most
is now but an inanimate lump of clay.
Of your old teacher,
there now remains but a clod
of cold organic matter.
I need not prompt you
as to what you have to do with it.
Fear not stupid prejudices.
It is for your future fame
that I have made an offering of my body, and you would be guilty of the blackest ingratitude,
were you now to render useless this sacrifice.
When you shall have replaced the chords upon your violin,
and these chords a portion of my own self, under your touch,
it will acquire the power of that accursed sorcerer,
all the magic voices of Paganini's instrument.
You will find therein my voice, my sighs and groans,
my song of welcome, the prayerful sobs of my ear,
infinite in sorrow's sympathy, my love for you. And now, my Franz, fear nobody. Take your instrument
with you, and dog the steps of him who filled our lives with bitterness and despair.
Appear in every arena, where hitherto he has reigned without a rival, and bravely throw the
gauntlet of defiance in his face. Oh, Franz, then only wilt now hear what a magic power
the full notes of unselfish love will issue forth from thy violin. Perchance, with a
last caressing touch of its cords, thou wilt remember that they once formed a portion of
thine old teacher, who now embraces and blesses thee for the last time.
Samuel.
Two burning tears sparkled in the eyes of Franz, but they dried up instantly.
Under the fiery rush of passionate hope and pride, the two orbs of the future magician artist
riveted to the ghastly face of the dead man, shone like the eyes of a demon.
Our pin refuses to describe that which took place on that day, after the legal
inquiry was over. As another note, written with the view of satisfying the authorities had been
prudently provided by the loving care of the old teacher, the verdict was suicide from causes
unknown. After this, the coroner and the police retired, leaving the bereaved heir alone in the
death room with the remains of that which had once been a living man. Scarce a fortnight had elapsed
from that day, ere the violin had been dusted, and four new stout strings had been stretched
upon it. Franz dared not look at them. He tried to play, but the bowed
trembled in his hand like a dagger in the grasp of a novice brigand.
He then determined not to try again until the portentous night should arrive,
when he should have a chance of rivaling, nay, of surpassing Paganini.
The famous violinist had meanwhile left Paris
and was giving a series of triumphant concerts at an old Flemish town in Belgium.
Five.
One night, as Paganini, surrounded by a crowd of admirers,
was sitting in the dining room of the hotel
at which he was staying, a visiting card with a few words written on it in pencil, was handed to him
by a young man with wild and staring eyes. Fixing upon the intruder a look which few persons could
bear, but receiving back a glance as calm and determined as his own, Paganini slightly bowed,
and then dryly said, Sir, it shall be as you desire. Name the knight, I'm at your service.
On the following morning the whole town was startled by the appearance of bills posted at the corner
of every street and bearing the strange notice. On the night of Blank at the Grand Theater of Blank,
and for the first time will appear before the public, Franz Stenio, a German violinist, arrived
purportedly to throw down the gauntlet to the world-famous Paganini and to challenge him to a duel
upon their violins. He purposes to compete with the great virtuoso in the execution of the most
difficult of his compositions. The famous Paganini has accepted the challenge. Franz Stenio will play in
competition with the unrivaled violinist, the celebrated fantasy caprice of the latter known as
the witches. The effect of the notice was magical. Paganini, who amid his greatest triumphs, never
lost sight of a profitable speculation, doubled the usual price of admission, but still the
theater could not hold the crowds that flocked to secure tickets for that memorable performance.
At last the morning of the concert day dawned, and the duel was in everyone's mouth. Franz Stenio,
who instead of sleeping had passed the whole long hours of the preceding midnight
and walking up and down in his room like an encaged panther,
had toward morning fallen on his bed from mere physical exhaustion.
Gradually he passed into a death-like and dreamless slumber.
At the gloomy winter dawn he awoke,
but finding it too early to rise he fell asleep again.
And then he had a vivid dream, so vivid indeed, so lifelike,
that from its terrible realism he felt sure that it was a vision,
rather than a dream.
He had left his violin on a table by his bedside,
locked in its case, the key of which never left him.
Since he had strung it with those terrible chords,
he never let it out of his sight for a moment.
In accordance with his resolution,
he had not touched it since his first trial,
and his bow had never but once touched the human strings,
for he had since always practiced on another instrument.
But now in his sleep he saw himself looking at the locked case.
Something in it was attracting his attention.
and he found himself incapable of detaching his eyes from it.
Suddenly he saw the upper part of the case slowly rising,
and within the cheek thus produced he perceived two small phosphorescent green eyes,
eyes but too familiar to him, fixing themselves on his lovingly, almost beseechingly.
Then a thin shrill voice, as if issuing from these ghastly orbs.
The voice in orbs of Samuel Klaus himself resounded in Stenio's horrified ear,
and he heard it say,
Franz, my beloved boy,
Franz, I cannot, no,
I cannot separate myself from them.
And they twanged piteously inside the case.
Franz stood speechless, horror-bound.
He felt his blood actually freezing
and his hair moving and standing erect on his head.
It's but a dream, an empty dream,
he attempted to formulate in his mind.
I have tried my best, Franchin.
I have tried my best to sever myself from these accursed strings
without pulling them to pieces,
pleaded the same shrill, familiar voice.
Will thou help me to do so?
Another twain, still more prolonged and dismal,
resounded within the case,
now dragged about the table in every direction
by some interior power,
like some living wriggling thing,
the twang's becoming sharper and more,
jerky with every new pull. It was not for the first time that Stenio heard those sounds.
He had often remarked them before, indeed ever since he had used his master's viscera as a footstool
for his own ambition. But on every occasion a feeling of creeping horror had prevented him
from investigating their cause, and he had tried to assure himself that the sounds were only a
hallucination. But now he stood face to face with the terrible fact, whether in dream or in reality
he knew not, nor did he care since the hallucination, if hallucination it were, was far more real
and vivid than any reality. He tried to speak to take a step forward, but as often happens
in nightmares he could neither utter a word nor move a finger. He felt hopelessly paralyzed.
The pulls and jerks were becoming more desperate with each moment, and at last something inside
the case snapped violently. The vision of his Stradivarius, devoid of its magical straitivarius, devoid of its
magical strings flashed before his eyes, throwing him into a cold sweat of mute and
unspeakable terror.
He made a superhuman effort to rid himself of the incubus that held him spellbound,
but as the last supplicating whisper of the invisible presence repeated,
Do, oh, do, help me to cut myself off.
Franz sprang to the case with one bound like an enraged tiger defending its prey,
and with one frantic effort breaking the spell.
"'Leave the violin alone, you old fiend from hell!' he cried in hoarse and trembling tones.
He violently shut down the self-raising lid, and while firmly pressing his left hand on it,
he seized with the right a piece of rosin from the table and drew on the leather-covered top the sign of the six-pointed star.
The seal used by King Solomon to bottle up the rebellious gins inside their prisons.
A wail like the howl of a she-wolf moaning over her dead little ones came out of the violin case.
Thou art ungrateful, my fronds,
sobbed the blubbering spirit voice.
But I forgive, for I still love thee well.
Yet thou canst not shut me in, boy.
Behold!
And instantly, a grayish mist spread over and covered case and table,
and rising upward formed itself first into an indistinct shape.
Then it began growing, and as it grew, Franz felt himself gradually enfolded in cold and damp coils,
slimy as those of a huge snake.
He gave a terrible cry and awoke.
But strangely enough, not on his bed but near the table, just as he had dreamed, pressing the violin case desperately with both his hands.
It was but a dream, after all, he muttered, still terrified but relieved of the load on his heaving breath.
With a tremendous effort he composed himself and unlocked the case to inspect the violin.
He found it covered with dust but otherwise sound and in order.
And he suddenly felt himself as cool and as determined as ever.
Having dusted the instrument, he carefully rosened the bow, tightened the strings, and tuned them.
He even went so far as to try upon it the first notes of the witches,
first cautiously and timidly, then using his bow boldly and with full force.
The sound of that loud solitary note,
Defiant as the war trumpet of a conqueror,
Sweet and majestic as the touch of a seraph on his golden harp
In the fancy of the faithful,
Thrilled through the very soul of Franz.
It revealed to him a hitherto unsuspected potency in his bow,
Which ran on in strains that filled the room with the richest swell of melody,
unheard by the artist until that night.
Commencing in uninterrupted legato tones,
his bow sang to him of sun-bright hope and beauty,
of moonlit nights,
when the soft and balmy stillness
endowed every blade of grass in all things animate and inanimate,
with a voice and a song of love.
For a few brief moments it was a torrent of melody,
the harmony of which, tuned to soft woe,
was calculated to make mountains weep,
had there been any in the room,
and to soothe even the inexorable powers of hell,
the presence of which was undeniably felt in this modest hotel room.
Suddenly the solemn legato chant, contrary to all laws of harmony, quivered, became arpeggios, and ended in shrill staccatoes like the notes of a hyena laugh.
The same creeping sensation of terror, as he had before felt, came over him, and Franz threw the bow away.
He had recognized the familiar laugh, and would have no more of it.
Dressing, he locked the bedeviled violin securely in its case, and taking it with him to the dining room, determined to await quietly.
the hour of trial. Six.
The terrible hour of the struggle had come, and Stunio was at his post, calm, resolute, almost smiling.
The theater was crowded to suffocation, and there was not even standing room to be got for
any amount of hard cash or favoritism. The singular challenge had reached every quarter to which
the post could carry it, and gold flowed freely into Paganini's unfathomable pockets, to an extent
almost satisfying even to his insatiate and venal soul.
It was the range that Paganini should begin.
When he appeared upon the stage, the thick walls of the theater
shook to their foundations with the applause that greeted him.
He began and ended his famous composition, The Witches,
amid a storm of cheers.
The shouts of public enthusiasm lasted so long
that Franz began to think his turn would never come.
When at last, Paganini, amid the roaring applause of a frantic public,
was allowed to retire behind the scenes.
his eye fell upon Sineo, who was tuning his violin, and he felt amazed at the serene calmness,
the air of assurance of the unknown German artist.
When Franz approached the footlights, he was received with icy coldness.
But for all that, he did not feel in the least disconcerted.
He looked very pale, but his thin white lips wore a scornful smile as response to this dumb unwelcome.
He was sure of his triumph.
At the first notes of the prelude of the witches, a thrill of astonishment passed over the audience.
It was Paganini's touch, and it was something more.
Some, and they were the majority, thought that never in his best moments of inspiration had the Italian artist himself
in executing that diabolical composition of his exhibited such an extraordinary diabolical power.
Under the pressure of the long muscular fingers of Franz, the cords shivered like the palpitating in
of a disemboweled victim under the vivisector's knife.
They moaned melodiously like a dying child, the large blue eye of the artist,
fixed with a satanic expression upon the sounding board,
seemed to summon forth Orpheus himself from the infernal regions,
rather than the musical notes supposed to be generated in the depths of the violin.
Sounds seemed to transform themselves into objective shapes,
thickly and precipitately gathering as at the evocation of a mighty magician,
and to be whirling around him like a host of fantastic infernal figures dancing the witch's goat dance.
In the empty depths of the shadowy background of the stage behind the artist,
a nameless phantasmagoria produced by the concussion of unearthly vibrations
seemed to form pictures of shameless orgies of the voluptuous hymins of a real witch's sabat.
A collective hallucination took hold of the public.
Panting for breath, ghastly, and trickling with the icy perspiration of an inexpressible
horror, they sat spellbound and unable to break the spell of the music by the slightest motion.
They experienced all the illicit, innervating delights of the paradise of Muhammad, that come
into the disordered fancy of an opium-eating musliman, and felt at the same time the abject
terror, the agony of one who struggles against an attack of delirium tremens.
Many ladies shrieked aloud, others fainted, and strong men gnashed their teeth in a state
of utter helplessness.
Then came the finale.
Thundering uninterrupted applause
Delayed its beginning,
expanding the momentary pause
to a duration of almost a quarter of an hour.
The bravos were furious, almost hysterical.
At last when after a profound and last bow
Sini, whose smile was as sardonic as it was triumphant,
lifted his bow to attack the famous finale.
His eye fell upon Paganini,
who calmly seated in the manager's box,
had been behind none in zealous applause.
The small and piercing black eyes of the Genoese artist were riveted to the Strativarius in the hands of Franz, but otherwise he seemed quite cool and unconcerned.
His rival's face troubled him for one short instant, but he regained his self-possession and, lifting once more his bow, drew the first note.
Then the public enthusiasm reached its acme, and soon knew no bounds.
The listeners heard and saw indeed.
The witch's voices resounded in the air, and beyond all the other voices, one voice was.
was heard. Discordant, and unlike two human sounds, it seemed of dogs, the bark of wolves, the
howl, the doleful screechings of the midnight owl, the hiss of snakes, the hungry lions roar,
the sounds of billows beating on the shore, the groan of winds among the leafy wood, and burst of thunder
from the rending cloud, twas these, all these in one. The magic bow was drawing forth its last quivering
sounds famous among prodigious musical feats, imitating the precipitate flight of the witches
before bright dawn, of the unholy women saturated with the fumes of their nocturnal saturnalia
when a strange thing came to pass on stage. Without the slightest transition, the notes suddenly
changed. In their aerial flight of ascension and descent, their melody was unexpectedly altered
in character. The sounds became confused, scattered, disconnected, and then, it seemed from
the sounding board of the violin, came out squeaking, jarring tones like those of a street punch,
screaming at the top of a senile voice,
Aren't thou satisfied, friends, my boy? Have not I gloriously kept my promise, eh?
The spell was broken, though still unable to realize the whole situation.
Those who heard the voice, and the punchinello-like tones, were freed,
as by enchantment from the terrible charm under which they had been held.
loud roars of laughter, mocking exclamations of half anger and half irritation,
were now heard from every corner of the vast theater.
The musicians in the orchestra, with faces still blanched from weird emotion,
were now seen shaking with laughter,
and the whole audience rose like one man from their seats,
unable yet to solve the enigma.
They felt, nevertheless, too disgusted,
too disposed to laugh to remain one moment longer in the building.
But suddenly the sea of moving head.
and the stalls in the pit became once more motionless, and stood petrified as though struck by lightning.
What all saw was terrible enough. The handsome, though wild face of the young artist, suddenly aged,
and his graceful erect figure bent down as though under the weight of years. But this was nothing to
that which some of the most sensitive clearly perceived. Franz Stenio's person was now entirely
enveloped in a semi-transparent mist, cloud-like, creeping with serpentine motion, and
and gradually tightening round the living form as though ready to engulf him.
And there were those also who discerned in this tall and ominous pillar of smoke a clearly defined figure,
a form showing the unmistakable outlines of a grotesque and grinning,
but terribly awful-looking old man, whose viscera were protruding,
and the ends of the intestines stretched on the violin.
Within this hazy, quivering veil, the violinist was then seen,
driving his bow furiously across the human cords,
with the contortions of a demoniac, as we see them represented on medieval cathedral paintings.
An indescribable panic swept over the audience,
and breaking now for the last time through the spell which had again bound them motionless.
Every living creature in the theater made one mad rush towards the door.
It was like the sudden outburst of a dam, a human torrent,
roaring amid a shower of discordant notes, idiotic squeakings,
prolonged and whining moans, cacophonous cries of frenzy above,
which, like the detonations of pistol shots, was heard the consecutive bursting of the four
strings stretched upon the soundboard of that bewitched violin. When the theater was emptied
of the last man of the audience, the terrified manager rushed on the stage in search of the
unfortunate performer. He was found dead and already stiff behind the footlights, twisted
up into the most unnatural of postures, with the cat guts wound curiously around his neck, and
his violin shattered into a thousand fragments.
When it became publicly known that the unfortunate would-be rival of Niccolo Paganini
had not left a cent to pay for his funeral or his hotel bill,
the Genoese, his proverbial meanness notwithstanding,
settled the hotel bill and had poor Stineau buried at his own expense.
He claimed, however, in exchange, the fragments of the Stradivarius,
as a memento of the strange event.
End of Section 6
End of Nightmare Tales by Helena P. Blavatsky
