Coffee Convos with Kail Lowry and Lindsie Chrisley - 106: Monica The Medium, Life Exhaustion, Miscarriage
Episode Date: November 21, 2019This week, Kail & Lindsie are in San Diego recording with special guest, Monica The Medium. Monica shares with us how she is able to communicate with "the other side", and how she discovered her g...ift. She also shares some insight into exposing frauds in the business. Monica helps Lindsie and Kail address some of their hardest struggles with people, and also performs readings on both hosts, talking directly to deceased family members, including Lindsie's grandfather, and Kail's great grandmother. Both Kail and Lindsie get perspective on family drama, & Kail gets insight on her mom. Monica also senses a baby energy in the room from both girls, which brings up the conversations of miscarriages & a termination. They talk about the uncertainty of Lindsie wanting to have another & what Monica sees for Kail's future with children. Kail's dog Bear makes a surprising communication!
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okay guys kill fucked up welcome to coffee combos podcast are you doing it
okay fine she can't do it this is like being what is it called like peeing in
front of people like stage fright hello guys this is kale and hey guys this is
kale and Lindsay with coffee combos podcast and we are here late night with
Monica the medium so hard for me to do I don't know are you saying I'm more
talented than you evidently got it got it well welcome Monica thank you for
having me thanks for coming on and welcome to San Diego I live here so this
is right we actually have not seen outside of these walls and I feel for
you cuz so there's so much to see here I know I was really excited because I go
to we go to LA a lot like I hate it so coming to San Diego I heard it was
gonna be like a breath of fresh air I was about to say that it's exactly and
it's not it hasn't been because we actually haven't gotten fresh there's no
fresh air here can we open a window like cheese we've been in stale air right
all night so um yeah it's been it's been fun this is what always happens I
feel like we travel and like we go these places and then people are like oh you
guys get to go to so many cool places and we're like yeah but we actually just
went to a hotel yeah like we don't ever go do activities it would be cool if we
got to go like maybe from like out riding roller coasters or like something
cool we should schedule one extra day to like maybe go eat at a local place or
like go somewhere not an extra day but even like dinner we get time slots for
dinners yeah well I'm sorry you guys haven't been able to explore no it's
fine we'll we'll get there one day one day now you haven't used to come back
right exactly exactly well the real question is which city has the best
hotel out of all these hotels that you see that's what I'm curious we haven't
stayed honestly I'm not gonna lie to you alpharetta has been the greatest I mean
embassy suites has been very comfortable for me it all stays at the embassy
suites every time it's legit it just is central location that's where I'm
running away to that's your I will go to embassy suites because they have
continental breakfast so like at least I'll be like that I don't ever have to
leave the place well there's like a best buy across the street and I think a
staples right so it's literally and a golden corral so if you're into buffets
then not after the conversation that we had with Larry on the podcast I will
no longer ever touch a buffet Larry is an executive producer for Team Mom 2 that
everyone loves and he's basically like my dad and my lawyer and my boss my
therapist all mixed and so yeah and lovely I learned today that I am the one
that calls him the most out of everyone so now I feel slightly bad that's a
not enough to change out of all the moms that's great Kale's got this whole
different persona on this episode because she's actually holding the mic guys
and do not normally do no I have it on a stand on the desk but I'm so bloated
that I have my pants unbuttoned and I'm leaning back couch because I haven't
drank enough water I flew yesterday and then I drank four coffees back to back
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come champagne and combos not cocaine and combos okay so okay so please tell
us like how you got involved in mediumship like is it something that you
like mediumship isn't that what yeah and have you known that you've had this
gift like your whole life just tell us like about yourself totally so my name
is Monica most people call me Monica the medium I lucked out with the
iteration there but yeah I was always intuitive and empathic growing up but it
really wasn't until high school that I started to feel and hear and sense things
around me that I later realized was spirit communicating but at the time I
thought I was like okay either I'm crazy I'm sick I thought maybe I had a brain
tumor like something is going on that's not right there was even a period of time
that I was convinced that that I had feelings for this girl's like yeah
that's it I must be a lesbian like I'm gay that's for sure happening because I
would get choked up and emotional around this one girl every time I'd be around
her and then later found out she had lost her mom when she was a child so it
all kind of made sense right yeah but I was just really confused for so many
years kind of being like what's going on with me what's happening but then once
I really realized that all of these things that were happening that there
were other people like me that have experienced similar things and I heard
about what mediumship even was and what mediums do I was like whoa I totally
relate to that and I mean it yeah it was just a long journey I remember I
remember looking up online like what does it mean to hear voices in your head and
I mean you can guess like how schizophrenic I mean yeah I guess what my
reaction I'm like I'm bonafide crazy but I later found out I was like oh no this
is dead people talking to me so I had suppressed it for a while but then when
I finally accepted it I've been doing it ever since so when you say dead people
talking to me like they're actually saying something or they're they're
channeling energy that you're picking up on um so it's it's so the way that I
communicate with spirit is I hear feel see sense and then sometimes I just know
things so I use the different Claire so Claire of annoyance is when you see
things in your mind's eye kind of like a little movie playing it's not HE
television I always joke I wish it was it's kind of more fuzzy but I will see
things I'll hear things but in my thoughts voice so that's hard to
distinguish like what are my thoughts versus spirit communicating and it's a
whole process and I'm not hearing full-blown sentences the way when we're
talking it's not like that it's not like this black and white process it's me
putting together what like it's putting together puzzle pieces so what I'm
hearing feeling sensing etc putting that together to then interpret the
message for you and I also have my signs and symbols as part of my spirit
dictionary like which is what I call it so those are things that over the years
I've learned that when spirit shows me X Y or Z I know that that means whatever
like that but I just know how to interpret it now so they work with my
signs and symbols off my frame of reference someone is communicating with
you mm-hmm how do you know they tell you who they are like how does that so so
look I'm the first one to say I wish it was as simple as them holding up some
sign being like I am the brother you know my name's John I died it like I wish
it was that clear it's not always that clear they do communicate a ton of
information but I don't always know exactly who it belongs to or who's
coming through until we kind of start to put that together so with this many
people in the room like I was saying that's what makes me nervous because if
I were to focus on you guys trying to connect to spirit and all of a sudden
you know some Joe Schmoe comes through that's telling me he got shot or
something I'm like who the fuck does this belong to sorry are we allowed to
curse okay cool I don't know who that necessarily belongs to it first which
can be tricky especially when people are really closed off to what I do they're
super skeptic they're starting to put up the wall I'm all about like yes be
skeptical to a point but then there's another side of it where if you're too
skeptical then nothing can come through because you're literally blocking your
energy it's like a wall that I can't get through so it's very rare but I've had
like in my whole career as a medium maybe like four people that nobody just no
one came through and I think it was because they had just really like kind
of like bad vibes coming off of them being like I don't even yeah just so
what happens in a reading like that if nothing comes through like what do you
tell the people oh god well luckily so a couple of the times it had happened it
was because they were just so against it I I don't know why they were even there
then but the other times it had happened was actually for one woman her son I
knew that he was there she had lost her son and he was trying to come through and
I could feel him but then it was like nothing else was was happening I was
like I'm so sorry like I know your son's here but nothing else is coming through
like I feel like so bad because that's all she wants is to connect this poor
mother who's lost a child but turns out like so this what we can do either one
you know we can reschedule or two it was back when I no longer do private
readings but it's back when I did and so I was like either one I can refund
refund you or we can reschedule she's like no no we'll we can reschedule and
try again and it turns out that the reason that her son didn't come through
really like it kind of stopped was because I had another reading scheduled
right after where the woman was battling like stage 4 cancer had lost like three
of her closest relatives like had all these things that had happened and the
other son that was trying to come through earlier came in and he's like I
held back so that this woman could have all of your energy devoted to her and it
was like insane because oh I didn't get chills just talking about it because it
just goes to show how like they see the bigger picture and sometimes we don't
always understand why things happen or don't happen until after the fact so
that rescheduled session with the that mom who her son originally didn't come
through we reschedule it and it was the best reading ever so it was like what a
generous soul to be like no I'm gonna step aside and and let you focus your
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you when you see people do they look like people that might be stupid
question I don't think so not at all so when I do see them again it's not like
h.c. television it's more of like kind of fuzzy but I do get flashes of images if
that's the way that they like to communicate so some spirits I'll
only hear certain bits and pieces others will only work with me through my
signs and symbols that are part of my spirit dictionary others I will see
things others I will feel mainly so every spirit communicates differently it's
not up to me how they come through how they communicate and how they like to
work and it's also how I like to work too so it's a give-and-take but when they
do work with me clairvoyantly when I see things in my mind's eye they don't get
little bits and pieces I might see like facial features or if they were heavier
said or you know if they had a darker skin tone like I'll get certain bits and
pieces that you know will totally validate who who it is that's coming
through for a voice or like an image both it depends on how they communicate so
when I hear from them I might hear different words and stuff but again it's
not like full blown sentences but mainly signs and symbols so again like over
the years I've developed what I call my spirit dictionary so when I see two
holding hands that means that whoever's coming through they're acknowledging
their marriage that would have lasted for over 50 years that they worked the
other forever and usually they're coming through to acknowledge like either they
want to talk to that person who might still be alive like their significant
other husband or wife or that they are reunited on the other side so I know
it's a lot of craziness have you faced I know it's like so much I've been to
mediums yeah some have been spot-on some have been suck like you're not even
real because yeah what you're saying has no doesn't make sense to me at all and
still doesn't to this day like you know like sometimes like maybe it'll come
through later make sense later totally did so and I'm like okay no um have you
faced like your friends or family or anybody like maybe thinking that you're
crazy or do they all kind of support so every single person in my life when I
first I call it like coming out of the medium closet when I came out of the
medium closet and like announced to everybody hey this is a lot of them
already knew like the people who were closest to me but especially once I
announced like to extended you know family and acquaintances and friends that
weren't as close I remember the hardest part for me was really like you know I
had it almost like regain their approval so even the people closest closest to
me I remember them joking like are you like just crazy is this all in your head
like right it wasn't like I don't even know it was just like this evolution that
I had to go through where I had to kind of like show them no like this is
legit either they had to experience yourself yeah I really did I had a
regain like you know you already have your approval with these people that
love you and know you but then when you come out with this and it's kind of out
of left field for a lot of them even though I mean it was what I was
experiencing for years that was suppressing they are like I don't I
don't get this like I need to see it or I need experience and then they all had
those moments of like okay now I get it so yeah I think that other people that
you know maybe they want to change their major in college or like the certain
profession that they the field that they want to go into they could face the
same thing right yeah I mean that's the flip side of it is like other people
go through the same thing just not for a mediumship
yeah totally I think there is an element that is different because I feel
like no matter how many thousands of ratings I give how much healing I bring
to people how much good that I feel like I do share in the world I feel like it's
crazy because there's still so many times where every day of my life like
that's all people want from me and that's all it's exhausting like it's
exhausting yeah and I love what I do and I feel so blessed to have this gift but
I think that that is the hardest part is that you feel like you're almost always
on the defense because you feel like you have to prove yourself and you have to
defend yourself even if you've already proved yourself and so that is the part
that I struggle with because there are days where like I'm just tired or like
I'm going through my own you know my own stuff and and I'm like that's the last
thing that I want to do and if and if I don't then they're like oh that must
mean that you know you don't have this gift oh my god can you shut it off yeah
luckily I can and I've learned how to when I was first kind of coming into my
gifts and sharing it I didn't know how to really turn it on and off and now I
call it like turning off the lights or turning on the lights so I literally
visualize myself turning on a light switch and then inviting spirit to come
in and then when I'm not working I visualize myself turning it off and
I'm saying hey this is my time I'm off the clock don't bother me and I
literally actually can get through days sometimes there's a really pushy spirit
will that will still come through but I can actually get through days and like
be a normal person which is nice that is nice we were just talking about after
we recorded the last episode about how life can be so exhausting yeah and just
like you always sometimes feel like people just want something from you or
just that's all I feel my entire life yeah yeah people it's hard well I get it
because it's like that's what that's who I am that's what I do of course they
want to see the readings they want to experience it they and especially when
you're grappling with grief and like that's it is so weighing heavily on
your heart of course that's all your focus laser focused on what I have a
problem with is it's like you know the people who they don't even have anyone
that I mean there's literally maybe one great great great grandma that they've
had that's departed and they just they want it's almost like a party trick like
they just I'll pull it out because it's cool it's like I always say spirit comes
through the strongest for those who need it the most not necessarily who just
wanted to hear it yeah or just curious and so that's the part where I'm just
like oh my gosh oh and I'm like yeah that's the struggle when when you feel
like people just want things from you and I'm like does anyone wanted to just
get to know Monica it's like other than just mom oh yeah you feel that way
probably like medium people just want to get to know you for being on a show
what you can offer that oh that's so cool that you have cameras falling yeah
it's the same thing and like always want to know something or behind the scenes
yeah tell me what the gossip is it's like and then you're like does anyone
actually care to just get to know me right as who I am as a person like when
the camera stop rolling yeah exactly so it's the same thing right so how did you
guys connect mmm through through what's our podcast PR and Courtney she super
sweet she how did she know she she's been what she watched my show I had two
seasons of a show on freeform Monica the medium so she had watched my show and
she had listened to my podcast wine and spirits with Monica the medium which I
don't that's actually a really cute name isn't it yeah I was gonna say coffee
combos wine and spirits so yeah so she had I guess so she's been following me
and she was like my book just came out yesterday so she knew that I was
you so she knew I was gonna be doing press and stuff and she's like I want to
get you on a couple podcasts I work with yeah no she said that she like went I
think she's been to like one of your live oh yeah or something she went to one
of my events and then she sent me a podcast episode that you had done where
you had done a giveaway on I surprised people that's always so fun yeah so it
was like you did this giveaway for this mom I guess that had lost her four-year-old
son do you remember this episode yes I know which one you're talking about okay
I don't remember the details but I know which one you're talking about so so heavy
yeah it was a very heavy episode yeah and I was like crying at the end of it
but I was like oh wow that's nuts like yeah and she was just answering like yes
or no yeah questions and you cold called her I guess yeah literally out of ten
thousand entries randomly draw winners when I do the spontaneous level calls
surprise for the winners and how do they how do you get their number like well
they enter and they put their name just their first name in their phone number
and so if they're the name that's drawn I called them I blocked the number but
they don't know who's calling but isn't it so awkward to end the phone call no
actually just be trying so hard to figure out how am I gonna end this
conversation it actually like I see what you're saying because like I that has
been a struggle in the past but now it's really not because normally my
energy just starts to naturally dip and like it would actually be doing them a
disservice if I try to keep going because it's almost like pulling teeth
because now I'm just exhausted and I just don't have the energy to connect and
this work takes so much energy so I'll just be like look I'm sorry like they
just understand like okay your loved ones are starting to fade my energy is
starting to fade and I'm gonna let them back up and they're just grateful and
they and then you're like okay it was great talking to you and I'm like yeah
thank you for yeah thank you for giving me giving me a pleasure to connect if I
was a medium I would be like hey it was nice talking to you see ya like
especially when something is so heavy yeah like losing a four-year-old like I
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details because you know I told you I don't remember the details her oh my god
I don't I don't want to cry her husband had accidentally backed over their child
coming out of the driveway and to this day is still probably one of the most
difficult stories that I've heard and that has come through from spirit um so
yeah delivering those messages is way harder than ending a call I mean that's
the stuff that I struggle with not wrapping up the reading right yeah how
do I deliver this message and and say it in as gentle as in as gently of a way as
possible because it's coming through for a reason usually it's because it's to
validate that it's them coming through like that is a big piece of validation
how did they die people want to hear that not because I want to make you relive
how your loved one passed right because there's no way I would have known that
that serves as a piece of validation for them so but it doesn't make it easy to
to have to share that information and and to even say that out loud is that the
story that you told me about yeah and I was literally crying oh it's yeah I've
seen it all I've had a woman who accidentally dropped her child off of a
ninth floor of a balcony and lost her child that way I've had I mean I've
had it all accidentally forgetting their child in the backseat in the car seat
and the car was hot it was the summer I mean every worst-case scenario you
could possibly think of I think I've seen it so it's crazy it's also caused me
to have bad anxiety in my own life I mean it's yeah knowing how many ways that
people can can die is definitely something that even though I'm not afraid
of death I'm afraid of the alternative of like being left paralyzed or something
I have really bad car anxiety and yeah so you stop doing personal readings and
then you just tell us about like how yeah so I do I do live events called
messages from above events where I give readings to as many people as time allows
and I also do the giveaways for my podcast and also just in general I do
free reading giveaways but the reason I stopped doing the private scheduled
sessions was because I mean the amount of energy and the toll that it would take
imagine I mean all those times of connecting with a parent who's lost a
child I'd be left like crying for four days after like the toll that it would
come also an empath so I feel the emotions of people as if they're my own
and it affects me so so strongly that it it would sometimes be dates even with
trying to cleanse my energy yeah where it would take a toll on me so so you can
just do the live readings and then well it and it yeah and it's also just how I
didn't want to burn out like I want to be able to share my gift and do this work
for a long time and so by eliminating the private sessions it allows me to get
to enjoy doing what I do and not like start to like dread doing it because I
started getting to the point where I was doing it six seven days a week all day
every day was so exhausted and drained that I started resent having this gift
and I never want to feel that way and I was starting to feel burnt out and I
was like no that's I don't want to feel that way so this allows me to still
share it but also take care of myself put self-care self-care first yeah for
sure just so important so what did you write about in your book just like a
whole lot of stuff and I brought you guys books is it a memoir no so the first
couple chapters I do talk about how I came into my gifts how I like just my
journey of my mediumship career and all of that and then I transition after the
first three chapters it goes right into what your loved ones in heaven want you
to know so it's really sharing like the reason I wanted to write this book was
I'm not gonna be able to ever connect individually with every last person I'm
only one person so even if you came to my events like you know I can only do so
many there it's just I'm I'm only one human being so I won't even be able to
go to every last city and all that all of that stuff so I wanted this to be an
easy and accessible way so that anybody who reads this book whether or not you
ever get the chance to win a reading with me or go to one of my events you
will leave from having read that book still receiving the same information for
the most part that spirit comes through time and time and time again with with
what are these you know these common themes these common topics and these
messages that they want their loved ones to really hear and know surrounding
different types of loss to help them move forward and really learn how to live
again and move and move forward even in the hardest of times where they're
grieving and know that it's that death is not the end so well yeah so cool yeah
so yeah does anything feel weird in this room to you yeah it's really warm in
here wait actually time out because we have one two three four five so many
people there's so many people it is distracting ten or eleven people in the
room right now yeah yeah so probably need to get but you said when you walked
in that you there was dead people a lot of dead people I mean I'm gonna try to
focus on you guys if because I was feeling a couple of things if there's
stuff that doesn't make sense just know that I mean it could still connect to
you and maybe like you were saying I know you've had experiences where it didn't
make sense later but with me usually it does make sense later at least I hope
cross my fingers that'll make sense later but if it doesn't it could very
well connect to somebody in this room so if that happens feel free to raise your
hand if yeah that's the case yeah but what I was I was feeling a couple of
things sorry um I sweat all the time yeah I like to write as I channel a
little bit so this might kind of jump back and forth I always like them to go
like I'm a little bit 80d but so is spirit so she and so they kind of jump
around so I apologize that we're gonna kind of jump around a little bit but I
will really do my best to laser in and focus on you guys this is where it's
gonna get really interesting this is gonna cry kill you just I don't want to
cry either be vulnerable I don't want to cry today okay so well well then might
not want me okay you guys got some crazy shit going on sorry um so let me tell
me something I don't know yeah no no as a disclaimer well first a couple things
a lot of mediums are also psychics and we'll predict the future what's the
difference let's clarify somebody who will you know connect with your aura and
tap into your energy and intuitively connect on a person a person energetic
level to start to bring through information of things that are either
currently going on in your life or coming up for you a sense a medium who's
just a medium they only connect on a soul to soul level so I have people yeah
dead people so I have to raise my energy energetic vibration very very very high
and spirit has to lower theirs and we meet somewhere in the middle in order to
communicate so but I'm connecting soul to soul I'm not tapping into your energy
and what's around you to connect with spirit I'm going to that specific okay
got it so I like to distinguish that because I personally while some mediums
do both I personally am not a psychic I don't predict the future do fortune
telling occasionally spirit because they see the bigger picture and they see
what's going on in your lives they'll say you know I see what's going on and
they might communicate something that's in motion or that's coming up for you but
again not me predicting the future it's because right that's what they see and
I'm relaying the message yes so just wanted to share that because a lot of
people be like so tell me what I'm gonna get rich or am I gonna win the lottery
I'm like look I don't have those answers I wish I did I'm sorry I don't but what
I can tell you is that you guys do have some loved ones around you it does get a
little bit complicated because I do feel like I am getting some feelings of
disconnect and I'll get this when there is half step X type of really like not
by a lot does that makes it like not a hundred percent biological so again that
gets a little bit confusing when spirit comes through say for example if a
mother was coming through they don't come through like as I'm the step mom so
sometimes I'll get mom energy if it is a step mother or a brother when it is a
half brother does that make sense so if that doesn't have happened please clarify
for me or at least I'll ask you but I was answer yes or no yeah just yes or no
and if I need help then I'll ask you why I'm getting what I'm getting
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I promise you and your friends are going to be obsessed you so I was getting a
couple of different things that are were around you and I will also say as a
disclaimer at the reason I get nervous of reading people who are famous is
because obviously I'm sure I don't I'll just be disclaimer I saw you on the 16
and pregnant years ago I have not continued watching the show yeah so I
haven't kept up but I I never even no offense I never knew who you were they
said that you were the part of the Chris Lee family I heard about that show
never seen it so I don't know anything about you guys other than what I saw on
your 16 and pregnant episode like but however many years ago but yeah so that's
a long time feels very specific I get nervous reading celebrities because
they work off my frame of reference and spirit dictionary there's only so many
things I can get they can't give me your like specific late in memory of oh when
I was five and I had my dog with missing eyeball and toenail or whatever like I
can't get that if you're saying I'm only gonna believe this if she brings that up
like I just can't so if there are things that have already been out there
that's why I don't like reading celebrities cuz a lot of shit about you
is out there that you can find that you could find and and that's why I don't
like doing readings for celebrities because people come out and they attack
me and I'm like God spirit works so hard so did I and now you're discrediting it
so I just want to say that as a disclaimer for anyone listening I don't
know what's out there about you guys but I'm really we don't either you don't know
either we don't really either I haven't been on you all today I love that no
that's the best way to go about it so but I will say that it say that as a
disclaimer because I know that that is an inevitable aspect of being someone in
the public eye but I'm just gonna open it up to spirit so this is what happens
when I start to channel spirit I turn all red my ears turn red you look fine I
start to like I can't catch my breath and a lot of things are happening so I
don't know who this is which one this is but I am having a super strong male
energy that's coming forward I do want to say that this does feel like a
grandfather energy that is stepping forward he feels like he he's kind of
sassy like a little bit funny he's a funny guy I don't know if he would have
necessarily believed in this here in the physical world because he's kind of
showing me my symbol of like you know you wouldn't like you couldn't pay me to
believe in this this is crazy I wouldn't believe in it until I'm actually
coming through come kind of a vibe I do feel like I want to say I'm with you but
I let me just sorry this is what starts to happen sorry I need like 10 seconds just
to clear up all my crap so I feel like I've never been more quiet my life it's
okay okay so don't puke on me okay sorry so I feel there's a grandfather that's
stepping in for you I want to say but it feels like feels like paternal side of
the family so I feel like dad's dad that makes sense he crossed over is do you
also have grandfather that's crossed over mm-hmm yeah but on mom's side of the
family I'm gonna throw up yeah mm-hmm okay because there was no another
grandfather that just came in now yesterday was veterans day so I know
this is a common thing people are like oh everybody's military but they are
showing me military connection I feel like they're piggybacking so it's
sometimes when I'll get that it means double connection so both of you might
connect to that so is this grandfather military connected perfect yes I also
was feeling because especially because yesterday was better and stay was yours
also because I was feeling that double connection there so they're both coming
in I do feel like I don't want to get emotional but I'm totally gonna get up
usually I try to keep my emotions out of it but sometimes it's okay we're
emotional people to inevitably mm-hmm sorry you guys have both been through like
a lot of a lot of hard stuff in your lives and I feel like you're very
evolved old souls so what they're showing me is that like this lifetime like
this journey to earth schools as which is what you know I call it and what they
they refer to it that coming here into the physical world like this is you know
our opportunity to go through the lessons to help our soul grow and learn
and evolve from and that sometimes you kind of both of you question why is this
shit so fucking hard why is life so why is it that it feels like everything that
could always go wrong goes wrong and why is it so difficult is because this I
honestly feel like you have at least a part a part of your soul has already
lived so many lifetimes that this is one where it's kind of like you're getting
your last lessons and because of that you have to go through some of the
harder shit makes sense so very very evolved soul journeys here and I feel
like part of the struggles you've been through is truly because it's like
checking off those last things on this the earth school syllabus you know right
and so that's that's I and I know it's people always are like what you're
telling me like I chose to go through the hard shit in my life like that I
decided that I want to go through difficult times maybe I did actually you
did so on a soul level we do choose what things the good the bad the ups and
downs ugly you know all the all the shit that we go through we choose to go
through that for the evolution of our soul and for the the growth of our soul
so I was getting that with both of you now what I was feeling with these grandpa
grandpa saluting and I just want to focus on one one at a time this is a
random fact but I was hearing it very very strongly one shows me larger ears
and they're laughing about it and I was getting receding hairline so am I feel
like I might be over here did your grandfather have a receding a bit of a
receding hairline now maybe bigger ears was he also maybe hard of hearing
slightly because sometimes I'll get that symbol if it's not larger ears might be
I'm unsure but he had yes but did he have larger ears okay because it might be one
of the others I just want to check so if it's that then that's where it is I want
to focus on him for a second he makes me feel like you have been you have been
literally freaking out no it's okay it does feel like it's been over the five
so they work with me in five ten fifteen twenty so it has been over five years
since he's passed correct yeah might even be closer to ten years it has been
quite a quite a bit of time maybe five to eight nine years I don't know been a
bit of time though but I do feel like on the earthly perspective like a lot of
the family still feels like it was just yesterday since he was here understand
that yes and are still really missing that presence because I feel like he was
like really the the patriarch of the family and really had such a strong
presence within the family you understand that yes now I also feel like
the first thing that he's coming through you would understand that he might have
not believed in this here in the physical world or maybe because he's
laughing he's like I would again I wouldn't have believed in this shit this
is this is not small I like this is crazy like he's so but he's excited to be
coming through is there a religious thing are you super religious or you know
like would he have been like very they're shining praying so was he super
religious or in the church end of his life okay because that might have been like
towards the end of his life well I was just getting the feeling that some
people in the family including him made might have been wary of mediumship or
this type of stuff because of religious beliefs you understand that it's just a
symbol that I'll get if it's like oh you know we might have not been super open
to this because we were afraid because of what the Bible said or whatever right
okay but the the way that he's coming through is he's like now I realize that
that's not the case that you know there's no like rejection went into heaven
because of whatever faith you're in or what you believed in or whatever and he
now sees that this is legit which is super cool and what he's coming through
though is there does feel he is so safe and at peace and I feel like there was
sickness towards the end and I also feel like he brought me up to my head and we
might be blending a little bit so if this doesn't connect to you I might be
picking up on you but I felt like there was some sort of memory loss dementia
Alzheimer's stroke like there's feeling of something up in the head you
understand that where he wasn't fully with it or fully there at the end you
understand but he wants to acknowledge that he knows of everybody who would
have been around his bedside and who would have spoken to him and whispered
in his ear at the time me his passing me so you did that did you actually sit
next to him and speak to him or whisper in his ear because I got this feeling
of I wouldn't have been able to maybe physically respond but I want her to
know that I heard her you understand that yes so he heard everything you would
have said or whispered to him or whether it's in your head or out loud or in
your heart spirit always communicates we hear your thoughts we know you're what
you say your prayers whatever and so he heard you he is so so so so okay now he's
so safe and at peace he is showing me that symbol that I was talking about
earlier the holding of the hand so that to me means together forever long
lasting love I do feel like there's high school sweetheart maybe even like they
he would have met his wife very very young is his wife still alive yes perfect
I do feel like she is going through a lot of stress or she's going through a
lot of maybe even some health issues there's some things that she's not even
talking about to everybody or that you might not know and so I'm not trying to
air her her shit at all but he's saying I'm watching over her and I want her to
know that I'm supporting her through all of this okay she sits at the same chair
and watches the same news program or reads the paper it's a symbol that I'll
get in the same chair every morning she has her routine that she would have done
with him and he's saying I'm still partaking in that routine now that I'm
with you in spirit okay um so he also wants her to know that the stress that
she's been under it's because she cares so much about everybody else okay she's
always thinking about everyone in the family and like her kids are her like
her her little cubs like you know what I'm saying like she protects them like
the mama bear that she is and I get this feeling sorry this is what happens to
start to spirit bomb it on you I get this feeling that I'm about to like
actually vomit I'm so sorry I don't want to make you anyone say I feel like the
hard part here is she is she wants to be the mama bear and take care of
everyone but she's also put in a very very difficult position because she
loves everyone and she knows that not everyone is seeing eye-to-eye in the
family right now and I felt like they just show me my disconnect so there's a
feeling where there's butting heads or fights or arguments and stuff like that
right now in the family and that your grandfather you know he loves all of you
guys but his perspective from seeing the bigger picture is like cut the fucking
shit out like I'm so like he's like this is the sassiness that's coming out of
him where he's like you know that this would piss him off to see what's
happening within the family right yes because and I don't know what the
situation is and maybe they'll communicate it I don't know but whatever
shit that's going on in the family he's like you guys are better than this and
I raised my children and I created this like I basically like was the head of
this family and I taught them better you understand that and he's not happy with
he understands why it's a very I don't know like convoluted situation everyone's
going through but he's like no like that's no excuse I want you guys to step
up and like work out your shit whatever way that is so feels like there's a lot
of tension within the family and it's literally causing this his wife it's it
is putting not just like a pain on her heart but a like a physical her whole
body is literally having a toll because of the stress and he said I don't want
you to I don't want to scare you but he said what it's doing to her again she's
torn in so many different directions so she's like she can't just support one
person she can't you know because then it will be upsetting someone else she's
she doesn't know what to do I feel like she's so overwhelmed he's like I'm here
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feeling of something with teeth or teeth issues or dentures or missing
tooth I don't know what's happening what's who's having teeth problems sorry
he had dentures oh okay that's usually not to like air out his laundry no it's
okay they laugh no they think it's funny it's just a symbol that I'll get I feel
like it's a double connection so he's showing me he was laughing and showing
me the dentures in the cup so that's connected to him but also somebody else
in the family is dealing with some teeth stuff so maybe it's his wife okay
perfect just they like to bring random little tidbits that just just to
validate that it's them and they see what's going on I was also feeling like
okay slow down
okay I'm not gonna lie I was a little skeptic no it's okay I'm not he was
saying that he's like I feel like I was a little harsh all he's so sweet he's
like there's a really soft spot for you specifically are you the oldest of the
grandchildren or something you are perfect because he's like he's like
showing me this feeling of like they'll just put that it's a special sign I'll
get whether if you're the baby or the oldest but like there's something
special about you why is it never the middle child
I'm not a middle child but I'm advocating no they totally speak to them but
it's just again my signs to acknowledge the special connection here and I feel
like he is saying you're justified in the way that you're feeling in the
position that you've been because you've been put in some sort of awkward or hard
difficult positions that makes sense but he's saying he sees and feels for you in
that situation but he said you have maybe a little bit more stability
like you're a little bit more like calm like you can process things or maybe
like talk through things at a calmer way than a lot of people in your family
and that it sucks that you have to kind of be the one that might have to be the
bigger person because you you're like always the bigger you're always the
bigger person is the feeling here is like you totally like you're always the
bigger person but the feeling too is that if you can allow yourself to be that
way like that that will make them very happy because they don't like seeing
everyone broken apart so you're not talking with like a lot of people in
your family or something or is there yes I'm not okay just feels like a lot of
disconnect there and it's and it's just really sad also he's he's showing me do
you have half siblings too or something is this like a big like Brady bunch type
of family I was getting my symbol Brady bunch like a lot of different people in
family I was getting this thing your okay so your mom your mom you have set mom
to yes your mom she have a sister that's crossover no no there's an op that's
coming through so do you have it that's coming okay you have an op that's on the
other side so it does your mom have a sister that's crossover so I think we
might be blending a little bit so I might go back and forth um did she pass
more sudden swift or unexpected was their impact related mm-hmm okay was this
car accident yeah okay um was it at the hands of somebody else someone else was
responsible like somebody else hit her or I don't know if it was drunk driver or
truck driver okay so I was getting this feeling of pointing the fingers so when
I get that symbol somebody else's to blame you understand that um I got this
feeling this was a long time ago or so many years ago yeah did you never really
get a chance to know her because she says I want you to know that I know you
even though you never got to know me and that I love you even though you might
have a feeling of like I don't even know you and I don't really care about you
not like you don't care but like no you know what I'm trying to say because she
is so much around you and again very similar such a you guys have a lot of
parallels in your family are you disconnected or is there a strange
myth in the family because I got this feeling of this sister especially being
like I again seeing why you have the opinions and feelings and thoughts that
you have in regards to why you might not be connected with certain people in the
family she's like you have every right to feel that way because of what's
happened I see that but at the same time they don't want you to live your whole
life look back and be like have any sort of regrets of things left unsaid or not
I don't know maybe making a net not to say that you haven't made an effort but
there just feels like maybe you shut a door that is maybe not necessarily ready
to be shut completely you have free will though so all the advice and the
guidance that spirit gives you they always say like you don't have to listen
so they just want you to know that okay so just understand that it's like you
have free will you don't have to listen to their guidance but I got this feeling
especially from this aunt like to not completely shut the door is it her sister
then is this do you not have a relationship with your mom I don't okay
because I feel like she this aunt this this is your mom's sister right yeah
because I feel like the way that she's comes in she's like I see and understand
why you feel the way that you do towards your mom but she's like just hear me out
for a second like you don't even fully realize the shit that your mother has
gone through that made her the way that she is you understand that and you might
hear bits and pieces but the same way that you're who you are because of your
challenges and struggles in life through relationships you have same thing with
her that makes sense and I feel like especially even with her loss like
losing her sister I feel like that also caused a whole freaking truckload of
issues for your mother you understand that that she never really fully healed
or really fully process that grief make sense yeah and I also feel like and her
father is also departed correct yeah that was the military guy his wife she's
still live no she's also crossover who's the Helen or H that's my great
grandmother okay who getting the greats um there was another woman is she is she
Helen her name is Helen shut the fuck crazy sorry I even shot myself sometimes
um because that is this my maternal grandmother great so mom's grandmother
okay because I want to make sure we're all still on the same page though so
that's perfect so they're talking about this slow down does your mom have a
drinking problem yeah okay because I got this feeling of she's not always really
fully with it and I also felt like that she struggles with some sort of mental
illness and again like when spirit comes through with that message it's not to
make like an excuse for them at all it's not to say like you aren't just
dividing your feelings but there's again saying there's a part of her that
that's the way that she was born like that that she really she tries and like
she still can't get a hold of it or control that even even after trying so
many different things to try to better herself and I get this feeling of like
at a soul deep deep deep down even if it's not even close to the surface at a
soul level she's a really good person deep down she means well right you
understand that and I know that it's been it's like it really is difficult
though when sometimes you have to in a way it's almost like losing a loved one
but that they're but that's not dead you know it's like it truly is like
grieving a loss of somebody who's still alive because this is the feeling that I
get there but it's literally just no those exact words came out of our mouth
earlier today ours today today swear like two hours ago crazy so it's like
validating again what you guys already know and feel but wanting to maybe give
you a little bit of a push again you don't have to listen to them you have
free will but a little bit of a push should be like maybe maybe there is a
chance maybe not now maybe not in five years maybe not even in ten years but
maybe in 15 years maybe something will happen where your mom will get clean or
your family issues like maybe people will start to come to but at the end of
the day I feel like this the same kind of common message of it might be
beneficial for you guys to be the bigger person so that at least you don't
have to live with any of those coulda shoulda woulda's regrets type of a deal
does that make sense like I I made my peace or whatever maybe you've already
gotten to that place that's fine but I just get this feeling of like don't
shut the door and that goes for both of you guys I also got this feeling of
baby energy that's crossed over so I know a lot of but there's more than one so
have you both lost baby miscarriage mm-hmm have you also lost a child because I
feel like there's more than one I love how I haven't even used paper yet but
the okay so I'm literally freaking out so you have a girl I feel like that's on
the other side I don't know you don't know has anyone else like has anyone
I don't spend this did you have lab dusting done slow down okay here one
second do you have two children on the other side mm-hmm there's a okay is
there a third that you lost is this one termination did you have a termination
okay was there even I don't why there's there's a lot of babies on the other side
was there a fourth mm-hmm okay um do you not talk about that no because I felt
like oh it's like I'm not really not like she doesn't think about me but it's
almost like hush hush or like I don't really talk about that so did you have
more than one termination no okay three miscarriages though and there's
termination but it would make sense that there would be four babies for you on
the other side yep okay do you just have one that you've lost because I do feel
like there's one for you there was a line of children though so spirit
communicates to me when they come through that and I'm not trying to get
political on anyone's anyone who's listening but they do show me that life
does that the soul exists from the moment of conception so well actually
even exists even beyond that they attach to the the human kind of aspect of it
from the moment of conception but and I even have a whole I talk all about this
in my book about miscarriage and termination loss because this is
something that so many women talk about and they feel afraid to to share or to
to bring the light there's still so much of a stigma around it but every single
soul that I have ever communicated with and same thing goes with these children
that are coming through is they want you to know that everything happened the
exact way that it was supposed to the choices that you made what especially
when it comes to things like when you do make the choice with termination that
they hold no anger there's no feelings of like you should feel guilty there's no
like anything like I'm mad at you nothing like that and then the ones with
miscarriage this was actually truly part of your soul growth that you were
supposed to go through these experiences to grow and learn from but also it was
not the right time you understand that sometimes they'll communicate that a
part of their soul will come back in the in the soul you know of a future
child of a future child other times that doesn't happen usually the parent
usually has like a gut into intuitive sense if that is like they're looking
at their baby they're like I just feel like there's a part of you that's
connected to the the child that I lost so usually the parent even knows even
without me saying but the the big message here though is that the soul
does exist and they grow and they learn and they go on and they are watching
over you just as much as a grandmother or grandfather they were just as much
around and even though I see children and babies that have passed in like blue
or pink depending on the gender their soul grows and and evolves the same way
that they're not just Goo Goo Gaga like they they know what's going on they see
what's happening they know why you made certain choices and decisions and
they're not upset about any of it they know that this was all part of a great
a purpose for both their soul path and their journey and also yours a lot of
times you agreed to that miscarriage even before you even came into this
physical world you understand that for that part of that what you learn because
even if you think about it now how much did you learn through that loss and that
grief of losing you know a pregnancy has maimed you who you are now make sense
and that's the message that I get I also was feeling with you with the you have
boy girl and they gave it to equal so I feel like there's two and two so there's
two boys two girls I don't know if you ever got a feeling about it or you got
a vibe about it I did talk to one other medium that's the same thing two and two
well I he only told me one boy one girl that he didn't tell me about that he
actually didn't pick up on four okay but he got one so I got boy girl too and
then they just show me my my minds I have my sign double that so they're like
two and two which is really cool you I feel like there's a girl that's on the
other side that is watching over you which is really cool do you have one
child that is here in the physical world yes do the miscarriage happen after you
have this child yes yeah because I feel like do you have a son I do perfect I
feel like this little girl she's like watching she's like that's my brother I
see what he's what he's up to and I'm so proud of him I'm so excited and I just
get this feeling of like mom just needs to know again it wasn't the right time
and that this all will make sense in hindsight I do feel like there's this
back and forth of whether or not you want to have more children or maybe like
you some some days you do some days you don't that makes sense but I do have this
feeling of like you'll know when when you know are you struggling with
fertility at all okay okay I get this sense of like the message here is even
though you've gone through loss that they don't want you to make that feel
like you have to rush that's what it is not like you have to worry about oh my
it's almost the exact opposite of like they don't want you to worry that oh I
might have some sort of issue or something going on that makes me have to
rush the timeline does that make sense just to go on your timeline and it'll
happen when it's supposed to happen okay I also feel like for you do you have
children too yeah oh yeah duh you were on 16 pregnant sorry that's I forgot
but did you have more children after that yeah yeah I was getting a three
connection here but I do get four so I do feel like there might be one more
child for you she's like no no I definitely want more it might be a while
but I do feel like there might be another one do you really want a girl
yeah yeah I hate to say this but it might be a boy again do you have a bunch
of boys three boys yeah and I got a text two days ago v texted me and said she
had a dream that I was pregnant with my fourth boy wow um I hope you're not
pregnant right now for your say no I'm not saying that you're pregnant right
now I'm just saying when if and when it could be five years be here I mean you
never know but I was getting a sense of there is a boy that's waiting to come
here so you have all these children that from associated with loss but there's
also one that's like I can't wait to come so use protection if you aren't ready
I'm not having another boy hey look I'm always the first one to say things can
change don't take this for like this is a hundred percent like it's gonna happen
Monica the medium said I'm gonna have a boy this is a hundred percent no it's not
a hundred percent you know it's not literally she just asked you today it was
two days ago that's crazy this is just don't freak out though because it could
very well I'm gonna throw you have the ability to change you're gonna what your
plan and manifest to your heart's desires never know today's Tuesday that's
crazy she said I had the weirdest dream about you last night I went to visit
someone at the hospital and you were there with boy number four that's
crazy your ass better not be prego and I text you that is so funny and she
texted me and said she had a dream that I was in the hospital holding a baby and
it wasn't her it wasn't her well don't want to have a baby then just that might
mean that you know really double up on the protection right um but I guess you
have to have a significant other right oh my goodness that is so funny also not
true but hey you can do it however you want but I do feel like that eventually
there's a child waiting whether it's now or five years from now 10 years at some
point but again not set in stone it could always change but that as of now
that was what was coming through I was also feeling that there is a younger
male that's stepping forward and it does feel like there's association with like
an overdose connection do either of you guys this could be blending with somebody
else um to either of you guys have a younger male that's crossed over like
20 something year range overdose connection was his friend to you yeah
okay um see like that cool swag like I mean I thought he was like always had
like the cool sneakers and I just love them like as a friend like yeah not like
romantic but like a friend um but I was feeling like there that he had
struggled with addiction and that there was um this feeling of obviously you
didn't mean for it to happen but accidental overdose you understand that
yeah um and I do feel like do you still connect with his mom or do you have a way
to pass on a message possibly I mean just on Facebook okay well I just get
this feeling of like like my mom even though it's been years I feel like it's
been a while since he's passed yes it's been a while or is it more year one year
oh okay so maybe it's not my connection no there could be this is what I say
piggybacking so there might be grouping up so there might be more than one soul
that's using this opportunity to try to come through but it's still very much
here as well I just got this feeling he's so funny he's like sorry I wish I
could be in her brain no he's just like he's like move he he's just like smooth
and cool and like he's just a cool guy just so funny but the way that he was
coming is like I just need my mom to know that I'm okay because I feel like
she puts a lot of blame or guilt on herself of a feeling because I feel like
there was this she had to come you might not know this until maybe you have a
chance to talk to her but she had to make the decision to separate herself and
not support him financially anymore or or something like that and I just got
this feeling of like it's not her fault it's not her fault and like he's so
okay and he's so much watching over everybody alright guys I have a burning
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also got this feeling you guys have a lot of dead people I don't know who this is
for we're very interested there's a dog that's coming in and they bring me to
the stomach so I feel like there's something colon liver area intestinal do
you have a dog that's passed yes was he dealing with stuff in the stomach was a
boy yes male okay feel like there was stuff going on in the stomach or liver
or something internal intestinal something like that stopped eating and
wasn't it was acting lethargic all of a sudden and then I feel like you had to
make two certain decisions you have to put them down I did okay I feel like
you're struggling was this within the last year yeah okay cuz I just got this
feeling dogs come through the same way I did not know that I have a whole chapter
chapter what is it chapter 10 animals have souls too too in my book cuz they
come through people will cry more for their their dog than their grandma
or their mom so much same all the time but the dog is coming through I was
feeling the message that's coming in here they're showing me my symbol for
you made all the right choices so if you're living or you're experiencing
any sort of guilt of certain decisions or choices that you made or didn't make
around this dog's passing you need to let that go because again they have soul
contracts to just like the people they have soul contracts they have to do list
for the earth school for that syllabus you know the good the bad the ugly the
ups and downs that the things that they're supposed to go through and that
you're supposed to go through as part of their soul family to grow and evolve
from so anything that you might be beating yourself up over remember and
understand that this was all part of a greater purpose and this was all
happening the way that it was meant to you understand for you to grow and learn
from you understand that I also got this feeling of with this dog and
specifically did were you holding the dog or was the dog or were you petting
the dog when when he was getting put down okay cuz I got my symbol of she
was with me when I was being put put to rest and that my soul did not suffer and
I had a very seamless transition you understand that so you don't have to
worry if your dog was in any pain was this a big dog so almost feels like
super big dog um I get the symbol when they're like mini horse but not maybe
not that big but and was it a darker dog yeah they work off my frame of
reference so I can't get it perfectly is this little bulldog or something no I
got like flat nose but darker
it's like I don't know I'm not a dog expert so if I was a veterinarian it
would make my job easier when I when I bring through dogs um I don't I don't
know what that this dog is but it feels like a bigger dog it's like a people or
something it feels like a kind of like gets a bad rep sometimes yeah you know
what I'm talking about what type of dog is it okay just not part of my
spirit dictionary I apologize but I knew it's like this bigger dog and it was
showing me a darker like brownish black skin tone your fur and I got this
feeling especially with you being there at that time just how much that meant to
him that you were there you understand that and that you were with this dog
from when it was a puppy makes sense and that I feel like again this is where
there's a lot of shit that's happened in your life where you don't have as many
strong family connections your dog was really like your family and like your
baby and one of the few souls in this world that truly that you loved
unconditionally and that you knew had your back and was loyal and you could
trust that's why dogs are so great I mean all my animal pets are amazing that
way would chills but I got this feeling again with the whole like not eating or
something of I got this sense of like he wasn't eating or like all the like you
noticed some signs and then you beat yourself up of like I didn't bring him
to the doctor soon enough does that make sense so he wants you to let that go
because he's saying you because you have a busy life if you weren't maybe
traveling or working so much or this or that you think like maybe I would have
made the time to get him to the vet or whatever sooner and maybe we could have
caught this again all part of a greater purpose this was his time to go you
don't have to feel bad about that I also feel like he's showing me my symbol of
the new so do you have a new dog or did you get a new dog perfect so he's
wanting to acknowledge that he's so happy that you have this new dog you
don't have to feel worried or like is he gonna be mad that I got another dog
kind of the same way that people like will lose a baby and like are they gonna
be mad at me that like feeling like I replaced the bait no you don't have to
ever feel that way whether it's a dog cat human baby anything they always say
that and they also want you to know that the other do you have more than one
dog mm-hmm because I just felt like the other dogs they play with me so they
dogs are very much open to spirit they haven't been told that it's not real or
it's imaginary friend or whatever so your other dogs if you ever see them
barking at at something you're like what the fuck you're barking at and like it's
like literally like barking at the that's like everyday Kale's dogs crazy it's
probably because they're they're sensing the energy of spirit and sensing your
dog around and playing with them which is super cool I also felt like you were
just holding the collar not long ago or something literally I saw it outside
when I went to go get the landscaper was like showing me something and I
noticed his what his older collar was outside and I picked it up while we just
had a moment yeah and you looked at it and you read like you flipped it over and
you just had a moment yes that literally happened last week just know that your
dog was with you in that exact moment that you looked at that and that you
had that special moment was absolutely with you and and is so much around you
and literally I feel like this dog is such an old soul and such a beautiful
like like dogs can act as spirit guides I don't know if you guys know what
spirit guides are but they can really be like somebody who's like a mentor from
the other side for you and watches over you and helps you I feel like your dog
is involved to that point where he's like a spirit like a animal spirit guide
for you which is really amazing I know it sounds so woo-woo and so crazy but I
promise you it truly is something so special there and so much around and I
also felt like are you thinking of getting a tattoo in honor or in memory
obviously you have tattoos but are you thinking of getting a tattoo for this
I've thought about it before but like I haven't really put too much thought they
always say even the thought is what counts if you have thought about it or
if you decide to do that they always say thank you for even just the thought is
what counts you don't have to I also feel like there's this and I'll wrap this
up because my energy is starting to fade but I was getting this strong sorry
who's Rob Rob or Bob Robert Rob Robbie grandpa grandpa oh shit is it yes
but there's also Robin who's Robin my sister's mom no this is grandpa okay did
you say grandpa was Robert yeah okay um was this back from the beginning the
same saluting guy mm-hmm okay cuz he's coming in again really fast he just said
he wants to apologize on behalf of those that are still living that you have not
a good connection with so the stad's dad mm-hmm mom's dad okay I'm sorry I'm
blended I'm just tired your mom again they don't like to they're not making
excuses for him at all or for your mom at all he's not making excuses for her at
all but I feel like that he he has that love that he can see and understand why
she is the way she is you understand that she's alive yes I do feel like she's
alive so you don't know if your mom's alive or not wow um okay um yeah she's
alive and I feel like I don't want to cry but she again even though you might
not have a relationship with her the love that I don't know my god the love
or the tissues I'm sorry the love that your mother has for you even if you
never can like have a relationship don't ever for a second think she doesn't
love you because the thing that is the only thing that keeps her going in her
life because I feel like she's thought about ending it many times is the one
thing that keeps her going is even just the thought of knowing that you're out
there and wanting the best for you and knowing that she has grandchildren and
that there is a sliver of hope that you might connect or reconnect one day is
that's what's keeping her going because even if you've told her I'm over you I'm
done with you what's keeping her going is this sliver of hope that there might
be a chance that you could reconnect you understand and that every night before
she goes to bed what she is thinking of and praying for is your happiness and
she doesn't even care if you don't feel the same way for her because that's the
love that she has for you and she feels so much responsibility for letting you
down as a parent and I know that her her loved ones and her dad like they can see
what she's going through which is why they are able to tell me that is that I
see that my daughter experiences this on a day-to-day basis and that it eats at
her and that you might not fully understand and I and and they get that
and they see that and they you're totally justified in that but to know
that as humans and as souls that none of us are perfect and that we all have
this ability to change and grow from our past mistakes and that to still fault
somebody for all the years of past wrongdoings that that that is only doing
into service for you and your family and having any sort of ability to you know
be able to think of each other and or really on your end think of her in a
more positive light because I'm sure on the grander scale of things that's only
taking away from you that only is weighing on you and adding this heaviness
that you don't you know that you don't necessarily need to have I know it's
always easier said than done there's so many factors of all of this but just
knowing that wanting you to open that door possibly and and to maybe make an
effort that that might be really really really good for you and that it could
lead to so much good even though there's been a lot of bad make sense and and I
feel do you explain sorry I don't know what happened when you were 14 or
something 14 I don't know what's my favorite number oh 14 okay I just got
14 I didn't know exactly where that connected I'm sorry I don't know how to
interpret that I don't know how to interpret that but how far along were
you when you lost one of those miss the miss what was the furthest that you was
there like 10 11 weeks that yeah was that the furthest that you were like 11
weeks 12 weeks because I just got this feeling especially these these
souls that are around you these babies that you've lost that they work as joy
guides so I'll see that a lot where they'll swoop in and they'll be there to
one to try to bring a smile on your face and make you happy and laugh and I
just got this sense of like mom like she has a lot of hard days and she's she's
beats herself up and she thinks back on all the hard shit that has gone on in
her life rather than focusing and coming into that place of gratitude of all
that she has now and that she has gotten from as a result of her struggle and I
think you know that but sometimes it's easy to forget that yeah and that's what
they want you to focus on to allow joy to fully come into your life and allow
yourself to open up to receiving the good in your life because sometimes you
block it out a lot and I also feel like you have a lot of struggle with trusting
people and letting people in and there's this common theme of I deal with it too so
I understand you have control issues a bit or like that's hardly letting go of
controls hard for you and sometimes you've been self-sabotage and I do this
too where when good things I've never seen you do that when good things in your
life are happening you have this ability to shut that out and almost want to
ruin it for yourself because you're scared of getting hurt again and that
all results from what you've gone through as a child and so I'm getting this
feeling it's like working on yourself and healing through your own your own
crap that you've been through that's only going to open the door to feeling a
true freedom and happiness that you so deserve and that you know is there and
that you can really get in touch with but it's just almost been right at arms
like you know you haven't fully been able to grasp that you understand that and I
feel like they want that for you and they're working together to try to make
that happen for you and oh I'm like I could go on all night so I won't I know
these people their arms are hurting I get it tell us more I'm just gonna see if
there's any last thing trust me guys I get it I'm so sorry I had to tell I had
a television show for two seasons so I feel them for real I go long on certain
readings they'd be like you could have ended that an hour ago Monica and they
would get mad at me and I'm like I'm sorry it's spirit I can't help tell us
everything that you know no I literally we could continue we can hit the bar for
another glass of champagne after I'm there count me in sometimes the best
there sometimes the best messages come through honestly when it's already there
on on camera because truly there's a lot of stuff that they hold back not just
cuz knowing of maybe what you might not be comfortable with but also knowing who
else might be listening that doesn't want certain things to come through so
they won't even give it to me when all of this is airing dirty yeah so they kind
of cap it at a certain point but I just know that you guys are so so much so
much so supported and loved and watched over by your loved ones on the other
side I would try to you have a lot of laundry list I'm gonna try to make them
quiet down but no I I appreciate you guys allowing me to bring through your
loved ones I'm sorry that was all over the place and so ADD on my energy was
already low coming into this I apologize but I were way more like than what
people ever know I do know I'm talking about y'all with the ADD oh yeah I'm
super ADD but I was also like I mean I was already drained come they
told me like last like literally hours before like come do this podcast I
I didn't know so I was like fuck no no notice I couldn't get my energy off guard
well it's okay that's fine but I I feel bad because normally my energy is better
cuz oh we thought it was great no I feel like that was oh yeah I know cuz I know
what I'm like but I hope you guys enjoyed that if you have any other
questions for me about anything at all no science room spirit or certain types of
loss like I talk about it all in my book but I wish I brought you copies we can
go to the bar yeah I'm gonna go kill kills gonna go pee but can you tell us
where our listeners can find you on social media and where they can buy your
book yes at Monica the medium on Instagram Twitter Facebook all of that
jazz my website's Monica the medium calm and then my book is messages from
above what your loved ones and heaven want you to know just came out 1111
had to do the repeating numbers and I really wrote that book because again I
know that I can't reach every last person individually and I and I know
that this is why I'm here on earth to share what spirit wants their loved ones
to know in these common themes these common messages that come through and
so many readings time and time again it's because you know they want that
message out they want that to come across to the people who have gone
through certain situations these common things themes that are coming through
it's for a reason it's because again they see and have a perspective that we
do not once they're on the other side and that really ultimately I want people
to know that death is not the end that love never dies and that our soul truly
does live on beyond here on the physical world so I love that yeah thanks
guys thanks for having me I appreciate it all right guys that is all we have
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