Cosmic Brilliance - EP68-Live As Your Highest Self, Rewire Nervous System, Angel & Guide Reading, Hints, with Queen Wortham

Episode Date: August 3, 2026

I am branching out now with fresh & talented guests who are grounded teachers, guiding people toward Remembrance (awakening) of who they are & what they are truly capable of. Today we have a special guest, Queen Wortham, who spent 10 years doing spiritual readings and has been public on YouTube for the past two years. I find Queen’s energy balanced and forthcoming, with a sincere, humble, and open approach that is inviting for a wider range of audiences. Many of you have extended family members who need someone they feel safe with while working through PTSD, challenges & personal healing. Queen offers a variety of spiritual skills for empowerment with practical & simple advice for self-healing. Queen Wortham is a mother, artist, Intuitive Energy Healer, Spiritual Teacher, & Coach whose abilities include empathic clear seeing, clear feeling, and clear hearing from higher realms. She helps people reawaken their intuition, heal deeply, and align with their highest path - sharing information from your spiritual guides and Guardian Angels. She can also access those who have transitioned for you to ask questions and speak with them! Our Cosmic Brilliance listeners have well-learned that to “graduate” from this Grand Earth Experimental game, one needs to integrate their wounds and master the key of “Dynamic Neutrality,” preferably while still in the body. I feel that Queen Wortham has the skills to assist you with that. I find her approachable and sincere, with a spontaneous, explorative flow style that even surprises her as information comes through.

Welcome to Cosmic Brilliance, folks, and welcome to first-timers as well. As you may know, previous Cosmic Brilliant shows have been packed with rare and uplifting education. Each show worth five years of research on positive updates, knowing thyself as a body within a soul, galactic history, truth disclosure, the law's creation and purpose for this challenging Grand Earth Experimental game and empowering reminders that you are all co-creator souls containing a spark of source. I am now branching out to fresh and vetted guests that are relatable teachers that are great at guiding the people who are curious and awakening. So today we have a new special guest who you see here, Queen Wortham, who has spent 10 years during spiritual readings and started on

YouTube, I think about two years ago, and now has this far away from 9,000 subscribers. Woo! I find her energy balanced with an open, sincere, and humble approach that is inviting to wider audiences. And many of you have told me I have extended family members and people that can't keep up to speed with a lot that's on our shows. And I wanted to bring forward someone that you can feel. safe with and working with PTSD, grief, and life's challenges, and who offers a variety of

spiritual skills and practical advice for self-healing. So Queen is my first pick after scanning and is a mother, artist, intuitive energy healer, and spiritual teacher and coach who is clairvoyant, clairsentient, and clairaudient. And for those that never heard those words before, that means clear seeing, clear feeling and sensing, and also clear hearing, especially when accessing higher realms. So she helps reawaken your intuition, heal deeply, and align with your highest path through accessing your extended, what I call team on the other side. And she also has great doable guided meditations, over 60. shows, short blurbs, everything, and they're all fascinating.

So we'll get into that later. Our listeners have learned that to graduate from this grand earth experimental game, one needs to integrate their wounds. And one needs, at least this is what I have learned, that how to master it is to get to the point of what I call dynamic neutrality, preferably useful while still embody here. So Queen Wortham is one who has the skills and dedication to assist you with that. And I so appreciate your spontaneous, explorative flow style. And I know you often surprise yourself with the answers you get. So welcome Queen Wortham.

Thank you. That was such a beautiful introduction. I really appreciate it. It's so nice to be here with you. And it's so nice to connect with your energy. And I'm so glad. to be connecting with your audience too. Well, wonderful. Okay, so what everyone's going to want to know first is, is your real name, Queen, and how did that come about for your shows? All right. So Queen is my chosen stage name.

My real name is Memory, Wertham. And it started out as something so different than what it is now. At one point in my spiritual journey, which started a long time ago, I came across the question, who are you at your highest self? And I really meditated on it and journaled on it. And what I came up with was this energy that felt very royal to me. And so I had that just as a thought, as a belief, something I would just ponder every now and then. And then kind of unrelated, I started, I was always an artist.

as a professionally and a teacher. And I started doing a series of paintings that was based on my daughter's work. And so I would take her drawings and really just copy them, but make them 3D. And so I would turn her little 2D drawings into something that was 3D and something that was really complex. And because I was using her designs, I felt like I didn't have the right to put my name on the artwork. And so I came up with the name Queen Wortham. And so it was like my alternative personality as an artist. And I did a couple of shows that were her work and my work side by side.

And in Queen, it fit with my idea of my highest self, but it also just seemed to fit because she was my little princess. And, you know, and I was the one in charge. And so from there, I turned my Instagram handle into Queen Wortham. and so, you know, for probably seven or eight years, I was Queen Wortham on Instagram just as me, you know, just as memory worth them and just as sharing my art and sharing my students' artwork. And so I, after 10 years of meditation, I spontaneously got this ability to hear messages from angels and guides. And so it started to get so good. that I started to entertain the idea that maybe I could share this someday.

And so it was a conversation that I was having with a good friend of mine after my husband passed. And he said, I feel so much like you on your highest path is this Queen Wortham character. And he just helped me flesh it out. You know, just by seeing it through his perspective, I saw that it was a way for me to share. share this new version of myself, but do it with a stage name, you know, where it didn't feel so vulnerable. And I think that's why a lot of people choose stage names. It just helps them create a new persona. And but as it turns out, that persona is really, it really is me at my highest self. It's accurate. I recognized you. That's why, that's why I, when I scanned you,

I went, you. Yes. Yeah. Yeah. And I, and I know that. it comes across as like I am the queen, you know, and in that is, and it's so not what it, what it means. It's just that I have found this level of sovereignty within myself, where I have found the royal child of God within me that is within everyone. And so through my coaching and through my teachings, I want to help people find that part of themselves too. Well said.

It's so fun. It fits. And, you know, I'd often tell people, I said, if you're getting. getting married, treat, make a commitment to treat your wife as a queen and your husband as a king, just as a metaphor, not for the ones that are playing that role necessarily on earth, right? So I get what you're talking about. It's a certain level. So anyway, thank you for sharing that. So let's start. People will want to get to know you. So let's start by sharing whatever you're comfortable with your upbringing challenges that lead to your spontaneous awakening in 2016,

I believe it was. Yes. So, yeah, not to get too far into the story and not too far into the darkness, but I, like most of us, grew up in a dysfunctional family with heavy alcoholism and, you know, definitely some neglect and abuse. It's the usual bunch of stress, you know. Parents getting married really young, doing the best they can, too many kids, just, you know, the financial struggles, the lot, a lot of stress in the home. And my mother was, you know, she left my dad and she didn't know how to fix the problem, but she had enough of a, enough of a vision that she understood that we needed to get into therapy.

And so by the time I graduated from high school, I had seven years of therapy under my belt. And I was paying for my own therapy in high school. And so I, you know, so I've really been into psychology ever since then. I feel like my brain developed along with all of these concepts. And even as a child, I just latched on. to it. I loved it so much the way that it just made sense of it. And, you know, in that Virgo moon, it's like you want to make sense of your emotions. And, you know, and I journaled a lot. And then on the spiritual side, it was actually my dad who he started bringing us to church during the period of the

divorce. And so I got really involved in, it was a non-denominational Christian church. And it was there that I had my first, my first spiritual experience. And, and, and it was there that I had my first spiritual experience. And I started in Sunday school one day, I started praying, and then I started feeling really sleepy. And then I started crying, and I didn't know why. And the Sunday school teacher came over to me and started praying with me. And next thing I know I was speaking in tongues. And then it was a church where that happened, but never did I think that that would happen to me. You know, I didn't really understand it.

This time I was nine or ten, I believe. And so, 10, that was 10. and and then it set off this chain reaction in Sunday school that day where a friend of mine who had spoken in tongues before started speaking in tongues and then another kid who had done it before started speaking in tongues and then it was like half the Sunday school. There were dozens of kids that were all in a circle hugging, crying, and speaking in tongues. Whoa!

Some can think that that's certain levels of possession. Others is it almost feels like a soul family comes together and is speaking light language. Yes. Yes. Now I understand it to be light language. Okay. Okay. Okay. I want to make that clear so because I know people have a reaction when someone says, oh, tongues, you know, like that kind of thing. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's what they called it. You know, that's what they called it. No, no. Yeah. Yeah. So that is really, so you had the spontaneous light language. Yes. From where you source from, but you had, gotten all that information yet yes yes not at all and i really kind of forgot about it as you know as an

adult and then it you know when i started doing this work after my spiritual awakening it suddenly became a lot more significant to me looking back on it and uh and so just to summarize the like the next big phase of my of my story is i you know i had children i met my soulmate we were we were together for I had my spiritual awakening when we had been together a little over 20 years. And he started to become sick. We thought it was just stress. And his mom had passed and he was going through a lot of grief after his mom passed. And so we just went through this period of crisis in our lives.

And I just went very deep, even deeper in my meditation. I'd been meditating for about 10 years at that point. And so I just got to this place. of surrender and a devotion to my path. And also just not knowing how anything was going to change. And I just knew that my spiritual path was the only, it just felt like the only way to go. And so I was attuned to Reiki. I had a kundalini awakening.

And then next thing I know, I was getting really clear messages in meditation from beings, you know, the faces started showing up, the messages started showing up. and my husband was the only one that I told for a good two years. It was like our little secret the whole time that he was sick. And by the time he passed after that two year journey with cancer, I had over 300 hours of audio spirit readings recorded. Ooh. Yeah.

And not that age matters, but what age was this about in your life? So I was 45 when he passed and he was 47. And this was, he passed in 2019, early 2019. Okay. Yes. Wow. I have so much to say to all that too. Because as you know, being an advanced soul is when you look back at your upbringing, you know, as you can see all the soul agreements.

Yes. And even though your mom was kind of out of it in certain ways, she was smart enough to do, have you have therapy. Yes. Because totally, it makes you inquisitive, self-inquiry, self-referential at a young age, does all of that. kind of stuff. So way to go. Mm-hmm. Yes, yes. I really, I really owe that to her. Mm-hmm. Okay. So here you are taking responsibility, doing your inner work and,

and in your own words, accessing full consciousness, which is what we're all about. Like, that's so, and I loved how you say this, living as my highest self. Yeah, yeah, yes. So many people. as you mentioned, like what you went through with your husband, of course, are in deep grief, sadness, and you don't escape earth without having deep challenges and life triggers a lot of that. And so those seeking for a deeper understanding leading to a greater curiosity and spirituality, would you mind sharing what that part was for you? Was there anything else to add to that?

Because our already subscribers are very advanced. But what I'm wanting to do is attract ones for their family and other people. And I feel that you're both. I feel that you're an incredible bridger. Thank you. ...ability to do that and the love and passion and patience. So is there anything you wanted to add to that? Yes, yes.

I want to explain a couple of things that I've. think could be really instrumental for anyone who's going through a deep grief or a deep depression is I, you know, I realized by the time he passed, I was far enough along in my spiritual awakening that I understood that energy, energy and emotion are the same thing. You know, that emotion is, it is a certain type of energy, very influential energy. And when you're experiencing very intense emotions, there's an intense amount of energy there. And so I understood that in order to heal from this loss, that I had to feel my feelings. If I didn't feel my feelings, then they would get stuck in my body and they would have the potential to make me sick. And through

the cancer journey that I went through with my late husband, that was one of the things that became so clear to us that his cancer was a manifestation of suppressed emotions. So, you know, so we knew he had to move his energy. And then, you know, so by the time I was dealing with the grief, I had to move the energy too. And so I did my absolute best. It was like every time that I felt like crying, it was going to the emotional gym. I would just let it flow. I had tissues in every room in the house. And I would just make a sport out of it. If I had the freedom, I would go to the bathroom and get on my hands and knees and just like just act like I was throwing up like just trying to move as much energy as I possibly could just to cleanse myself of this. And it helped,

it helped a lot. It kept me functional enough. You know, I wasn't fully functional for a long time, but it kept me functional enough where I could, you know, keep feeding my kids and keep getting dressed every day. And then through that, what I started to discover when the, when the tears just wouldn't stop and those emotional waves just wouldn't stop, I realized that what I was feeling that felt so bad was actually something that had been there since before I ever met my husband. And it had, and I had stuffed it down. And so that was the next layer, you know, the next layer of my of my spiritual awakening to go really deep into those old wounds that I had somehow stuffed down and somehow continued to be functional in spite of it. And so I just continued to,

I continued on that road of discovery and unfolding, just moving the old stuck energy and discovering it and becoming, I call it shedding the light of awareness on it. And meditation, helps you do that so beautifully, just the extra space that it creates in your mind, it just lets the light in, it lets in the awareness. And so I just slowly, but surely just started to untangle all of the old traumas, all of the old abuse,

and continuing to journal, continuing to do spirit readings by myself, recording my experiences and listening back to them. And so I think of it as I have a little, diagram that I always refer to. I bet you like diagrams, don't you? Yeah. So. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yes, this is an ancient symbol. It's sometimes called the circumpunct. It's the symbol for the sun and astrology. And so I refer to this because I think that it's such a perfect visual to illustrate it. So the way I describe it is this right here is your soul. It's that drop of source energy. that comes out of the ocean of God. And so this is your soul at its purest form.

When you're a baby, when you're first born, you're just pretty much like this. You know, like you're just this perfect little thing. And you might have some old stories, but, you know, that will show up eventually. But for the most part, you're really pure. And that's why babies are so mesmerizing. Why we just want to stare at them all day

after they show up, you know, because they're like just God. They're just a little drop of God. And so this, out here, it could represent your body, it could represent your energy field, or it could represent the manifestation of your life as you know it. And so all of that crap, the trauma, the limiting beliefs, the just negativity, twisted ideas of what the world is about, that ends up right in here. And basically, it blocks the connection between that consciousness that is your soul and the

manifestation of your life. And so all of that meditation, all of the shadow work, all of the shedding light of awareness on everything that's been hidden, it's clearing out this channel in between this and this. And so there can be a clear connection between these two things. In time, it becomes more and more and more clear. Well done. And beautiful diagram, it's great. It reminds me of a cell too.

So it's. Yes, exactly. Because of as above so below is inside. so outside, you know? We need to define all terms for clarity's sake. So describe what you mean, which in our conversation, so that people don't get triggered, right? When you say Christ or Christos energy or those kind of energies, that all people of religions don't feel like, well, you know, I don't want them to get into their head about it.

I want them to stay open about it because how you and I use that is not just, about Yeshua, who's a buddy of ours, but just, just, you know, so describe your version of that for people as an introduction. Okay. So I'll, I'll start with what I used to think it was, and then what I have learned, learn to understand it as. So, so like I said, I was raised in a non-denominational Christian church. And so I was, you know, I read the Bible and I, you know, I had a basic understanding. of Christianity as it tends to be practiced, especially in the West. And so I didn't feel very attached to it. You know, as a young adult, I was much more drawn to just things that felt more spiritual

to me, things that felt more, really more neutral, you know, and more tied in with the truth, you know, what felt like the truth to me. and at some point I was exposed to the idea that all religions are paths to the same thing and that made sense to me

and that felt right to me and so I saw Christianity as a potential path to connect with God but definitely not the only path it was really clear to me that you didn't have to have a religion to connect with God

and in my connection to God just always felt so natural and complete and comforting. And it was just, I just prayed all the time. You know, just from the time I was a little girl, I just prayed all the time. And so, so I didn't really see how it, you know, how it fit into my life necessarily,

but I was just sort of neutral about it. And then my, my mother and my sister became, like they got back into Christianity. And they really, you know, I'm, I live in the Bible Belt in Dallas, you know, near Dallas, Texas. And, yeah, yeah. And so there, you know, there was a wave of fundamentalist Christianity that just seemed to come across, you know, come across my path. And my sister and my mother were suddenly really afraid that I was going to go to hell.

And there was, you know, just a lot of pressure put on me to, you know, like they were just coming to me all the time with all these Bible verses. And it just felt very judgmental and very ostracizing. and I started to develop this contempt for anything to do with Christianity. And so I was eventually just, I was able to clarify that Jesus was a great man. It's possible that he was the greatest man who ever lived, depending on what you're measuring him against. But he was just a man who was showing a path. He was showing a spiritual path to connect to God. and and so Christianity was just people's interpretation of what all of those all of those scriptures

meant and and you know and I believed and still believed that the the message was very twisted according to what served the government over the over the decades and centuries and so you know so that's just kind of where where I was with it for quite a while quite a while and then not too long ago, I mean, I say is maybe less than a year ago. Yeah, less than a year ago, I met my mentor, friend, coach, and now business partner. And he, and he's a shaman. And he, you know, we started working, we were working on his stuff. He came to me as a client first. And yes, so we were working on his stuff, working on my stuff. And I, you know, we just started going really deep and really finding just like my oldest.

stuff that was so stuck and he was really trying to help me clear just you know just stuck energy you know like stuck energy that that we could tell was getting in the way of me being able to create my business in the way that I wanted to so it was his suggestion he's like you need to connect with Yeshua and I was like what would he mean you know and he was like and so he explained to me that that there's the vibration of Christ consciousness and that's what Jesus was trying to teach. And we, you know, we did some research together. We came across a channel.

He shared, we got really into this girl's videos where she, in all of her meditation, she would first connect with Christ's consciousness. And she described it the way that I'm now describing it in my meditations, where it is a 12th dimensional vibration. It is the highest vibration that can be accessed from this earthly realm. And when you connect with it, it is a great protector, a great clarifier. It is like just such bright, fast-moving energy.

And the practice that I started doing was to imagine that energy as a river of light, just going through my world, going through my house, going through my heart, going through other people's hearts. And it was powerful. Like I just couldn't believe how intense it was to connect with that energy. and in the first when i really he said try to do a spirit reading where you are channeling through the messages of yesua you connect with it and see what happens and i was like that sounds really out there i was like i only you know i only do spirit readings on living people i've never tried to do

anything like this before he's living yes yes so yes so that's so that's the thing listen to this listen to this So when I connected that way specifically, like ask Jesus to come into my heart, ask him to speak through my throat. When I really connected with that, all of a sudden, I remembered knowing Jesus as a little girl. Yeah. I just like I remembered him like he was my uncle that I hadn't seen in 30 years. You know, I like, and I just burst into tears. It was like, I forgot about you. you know.

Christos lineage actually. Yeah. It gets into a whole other thing. Yeah. Yeah. So when I was a little girl, what I was connecting to was the Christ consciousness. And I just, I was just thinking of it as a man who used to live. You know, like I didn't, you know, I didn't think of it like that.

But what I was connecting to was really it, you know. And so it's just, it's a very particular vibration. And I believe that that people's devotion to that vibration. and all the prayers, all the just millions and billions of prayers that are going into that energy, I feel like that's also what we're connecting with. Yes. And, you know, and so it has a very particular feeling and in a very particular consciousness. And it's just, it's so powerful and it's really so pure.

And to me, it feels so universal. It's very crystal and pure, powerful, compassionate, unconditional, unconditional love. Yes. Yeah. Yeah. It's the highest, it's, if you think of it as like the highest aspect of Yeshua or however you want to call it, because that's all another story into itself. But if you think of it as the higher self, it's the exact saying that you and I are promoting, which we'll get into is I feel the most, one of the most important thing is to do what you have been describing. And because you've been through it and are going through it, to, me means that you are integrating, working very hard and qualified to teach it, because I'm not interested in someone who's just sharing philosophy. They need to know how to back engineer it, unravel, and do that. So that is a beautiful explanation.

And Christos is non-denominational, actually. Yes. So that's a whole other class. But I wanted to make that clear. So people who weren't sure they're connected to Yeshua at all. That's very different even than the Christos energy. And it encapsulates anybody. It's not about religion.

It's about the higher laws and spirituality. Yes. So anyway, I just wanted to make sure because it's obvious you're Southern Texas. I wanted to make sure you weren't getting stereotyped by clarifying these terms. Yes. So, okay. So next question around this. so we are very excited about you teaching and helping with bringing people connected to their higher self

and what I wanted to ask you is who and what are you generally accessing guardian angels main spirit teachers of clients higher self source of all that is which is everything you know like just so people get a frame of reference I call them my team so whatever whatever works for you. Uh-huh. So generally when I look into someone's energy field, the divine intelligence that I feel like I'm getting in touch with, it comes to me as beings, you know, and some of them are angelic. Some of them are just like a little ball of light.

Some of them just look like humans. Some of them literally are just humans that knew that person in this lifetime. and they've passed on, you know, parents, grandparents. And what I have come to understand it as is it's like they are a higher vibration of us. And each one of them represents a different aspect of what we are being called towards. And so I perceive it to be, you know, different faces and different personalities and different voices, but they're all reflecting back what is inside of the person and what that person is being called towards.

And then above them, I'll see bigger angels. And then I can even see things above that, if that's what my attention is being called towards, if that's important in order to bring through the correct message. But I really- Sending masters all kinds of things. Yes, yes. So I really see it all as. fractals of source energy.

And so I feel like if I could just continue to go out further and further and further, I would reach pure source energy. And then also if I go further and further and further into my heart, I reach pure source energy. So it's very much as above, so below, this is the microcosm. That's the microcosm. And then in between those two is, you know, us and these little avatars. well said well said beautiful okay so let's go into the purpose of life because that's a big one for people and for me just short i found the purpose of life both from source and everything can for me is

summed up um soul evolutionary growth and maximum experiences for greater wisdom integration that would be my good words what what was yours be like the purpose of life is expansion there you go yeah yes and that that is a phrase that I got from Abraham Hicks that I'm I'm a person who has logged a lot of hours listening to those Abraham Hicks talks that are on YouTube and and those were the words that that she used and that just to me that just sums it up queen said create I love how she simplifies things right I back engineer everything get too detailed. She just simplify.

Create expanses in your mind throughout the day. Breathe, very important, in space so higher guidance can come to you. And the thought you receive dropping in will come to you fully formed and feels different than your own thoughts. It is a combo of belief in creating space. Focus on prioritizing the divine source within you, strengthening that connection based on integrating your mind, heart, emotions, and actions. Bingo! Let's move on.

So subscribers who have listened to Cosmic Brilliant shows understand that the key to graduation in this game, like I said, is respectful, dynamic neutrality, which does not mean necessarily you condone the action. I just want to be clear about that. Humans on Earth need to use discernment. Okay. So on Queen's Channel, she took a pretty wild step and started spiritual reading of what was going on behind the souls of key political figures and famous actors. And of course, many people have put these beings on pedestals and they're still in the middle part of the power game, not at the top, just so I'm letting people know that.

But often what you saw, queen, heard and were told, surprised you. And it required, after you being so much in the light, working through that and cleaning out your own stuff, it required you mining the dark that they were also infected by. Literally, it's a word, infected. And that we have to wake up that. Nobody wants to look at that, but we have to wake up the ignorance in order to fully heal. So do you want to share anything? You can mention maybe initials.

I don't like a lot of names or anything that you feel or anything that was surprising to you. Or have you noticed, like many do, like parasites on people, especially in bars, influences. I don't like to use the word demon, but I found out they actually do exist, live off you, you know, blah, blah, blah. So not going super deep, but just also that that is what you see. Because one of the things I was impressed about you is you, is you have. had not, from what I could tell, previously even studied all that stuff so much, and you handled it authentically, beautifully, held your own and neutrally. And I was very impressed by that. Thank you. Thank you. So, so yes, it was suggested to me by a good friend of mine who

is the co-owner of a YouTube channel that I should do spirit readings for celebrities to grow my audience. And if it had come from anyone but her at any other moment than the moment she said it to me, because we had just finished a seven-day meditation retreat together. So we were both like high flying. And when she said it to me, I was like, that's like the craziest suggestion I've ever heard. And it's so, so opposite of anything I ever imagined myself doing on my YouTube channel. But it just felt like there might be something to it. And so, you know, I really had to wrap my head around it. Shortly after that, I did my first celebrity spirit reading, which was on Jennifer Lopez.

It was just one that I just felt, you know, my heart said yes to it. And I was so surprised looking into her energy field, how much it just felt like looking in anybody else's energy field. You know, she just had stuff from childhood, things with her parents. She had a grandfather there who, you know, had passed on and was guiding her. and it was so, it was just so normal, like compared to, you know, just everything, everybody else's energy field that I had seen. And so I saw this opportunity to really put, put any celebrity into this, like, down

to earth, you know, just to be able to see, see the celebrity, like, as a cute. Off the pedestal, please. Yes, yes. Off the pedestal. And not worshiping them. Yeah. And then, but also not demonizing them. Right.

You know, just to see them, like, they're such easy targets being in the public eye, and it's so easy to look at what they're doing and judge everything that they're doing or come to conclusions about this tiny little piece of information that is being presented to you online. And so I really liked the idea that it would be humanizing these people. And then I also saw that, okay, if we're able to talk about these issues that everybody experienced, experiences, but talk about it on a platform like where everybody can kind of relate to it, you know, like everybody knows who this person is. And this could be something that could just really make, make the whole thing make sense to people. And so, you know, so I was into that

idea, but there was still just something about it that felt, it felt too risky. It felt, it felt very superficial in a way. Like, it kind of seemed like I was like fishing for attention. And I don't know, I just wasn't, I just wasn't quite settled with it. So I did that one celebrity. liberty spirit reading and then probably like seven or eight months passed and I didn't do anymore. And then I just, you know, I'm always going deep in my inner work, always trying new methods of meditation, always just going deeper and clearing out my psyche. And I'm integrating some of my spirit guides, getting new spirit guides who really have always been there, but I just wasn't able to see them.

You know, so just always advancing on my path. And I hit a point where I was ready to just put myself into. the arena as a YouTuber. And I started going live twice a week and I started doing spirit readings for strangers in a group. I'd never done that before. And so every week I would do one live celebrity spirit reading and one live audience reading. And, you know, maybe like three or four people would show up at a time. But if they put their message in the comment, I would get really clear messages and it was great. You know, it was amazing. And so yeah, so that's that's where it was a year ago that I did that that next round of celebrity spirit readings. And then that brought in a lot of

new clients, a lot of new people, a lot of new energy. And that's when I met my my friend and guide and business partner. That's, you know, he found me through one of those celebrity spirit reading videos. So, you know, and then I took another break because really it's like when you're really pushing the edge of something new like that, it's like you have to like recalibrate. You have to come back and like let your nervous system calm down. So it was such a huge amount of exposure and I just had to withdraw again and just kind of go back to the love and life. And so, so it was him that started encouraging me to do the dark figures. And when he first brought it up, I was like, oh, hell no, like that is not, that is not my world. I'm like, I've purposely stayed away from the news and, you know,

completely avoided all current events for like 10, you know, really ever since my spiritual awakening. And so, so once again, it took me a long time to wrap my head around it until it started to feel like, okay, this is a calling. I'm really, really understanding. Like, this is where, this is where my channel needs to go. This is where I find the people, like the people who really, really need my help, you know. And so it's like these, the people I'm meeting now, my, you know, my following has, it's five times what it was just a couple of months ago. And, you know, and it started when I started doing these really dark. figures. And so I feel like the people who are coming in, the people who I'm like catching with

this hook is the people who like they want the truth. They want to live a life of truth so badly, but they are so just, they're caught in the darkness. You know, they're really, they're caught in their own illnesses and their own toxic relationships. And so many of them are caught in this, like, addicted to the negativity that's coming across their feeds. in social media. And in a constant state of low-grade panic, just feeling like the world is falling apart. And in,

but at the same time, they know on such a deep level that there's a way out and there's a solution. And, you know, so they're spiritual people, but they're just stuck in the muck. And that's who I'm finding, you know? And it's like, it's been amazing.

It has been amazing. And I wanted, I just intuited all this stuff. about you right but I wanted you to explain that so you don't get stereotyped as a groupie like yes doing this for the money so I was pretty sure that was the case with you when I scanned you but I just wanted to make that clear because there you can look at them as just targeted individuals too and so to me you went from light light channeling and reading truth truth to two truth disclosure that actively needs to be looked at neutrally?

Yeah, so there's the saying that I really believe is true that when you, when you hate your enemy, it's like drinking poison and believing that it's going to poison them. And so, so you are just making yourself feel bad, first of all. Like, you know, if we're talking of everything in terms of vibration and how the vibration that you are emitting and the vibrations that you're consuming, how it makes you feel, then focusing on anything that makes you feel negative emotion is bringing down your vibration. And when your vibration is lower, then you are a vibrational match to things that are also matching at that lower vibration. And so that's so that's the first thing that happens. is you just bring yourself down. You know, you put yourself in a bad mood.

You start to convince yourself on a nervous system level that you are not safe and the world is not safe. And this is one of the many ways that we create our reality. It's just through creating our experience by the vibration that we are committing to, that we're committing our focus to. So that's the first thing that happens. and then our thoughts are sent out. So this is what I believe. This is what I've seen going on with the energy.

And this is the simplest way I can describe it. So our thoughts are sent out. There's an electrical energy that our thoughts, that our thoughts create. And it's sent out into the quantum field or into the universe. And then we receive back energy. And it's more, it goes into the heart. and it's more of a magnetic energy. And so it's like this conversation that we're always having with the universe.

And then our bodies are an instrument to interpret that energy. And so we are just creating through that cycle. And when hundreds of thousands or even millions of people are thinking, the same thought that has the same vibration and sending it out into the universe, the like vibrations, they have a resonance with each other, and they start to collect. If the vibrations that are sent out are twisted up with lies and resentment and hate and trauma and just all of these things that makes the, makes the energy very scattered, slow moving, twisting in weird ways.

Like it gets all caught up. And we create what what some people have called pendulums. So there's a book called Reality Transurfing and they talk about the pendulums, like pendulums of thought, we have pendulums of thought all around us. And I really believe that that's what we're experiencing when we say entities or demons. They're actually just these really intense clusters of energy. And death.

Yes. materialization of one's own thoughts and patterns and denied aspects that need healed. Yes, yes. So we are feeding these negative pendulums of hate. And when we are repeating these same hateful thoughts that other people are also repeating. And I think that so many people who are in the public eye, they end up getting surrounded by this negative energy. and depending on how strong they are in their minds and you know and in their spirituality depending on how strong they are they can like really get caught up in it and they can make them feel bad about themselves and it can make them a vibrational match to more negativity and so

so that's what we're feeding basically you know when we when we jump on that back that bandwagon of hate not only we're hurting ourselves but we're feeding something that that has been building for so long and it we're basically just making it more powerful make it more powerful more confusing and in affecting the world in such a negative way that will that you know will never have firsthand experience to see how it's working out but that but I really believe that that's what it's really what we're seeing in the in the world right now like with the everything going on that is that is negative and destructive with wars and government that it is pendulums that have gotten out of control they're actually creating it because you

and I both know that one being in the light and I'm not talking arrogance I'm talking humble with source connection for the benefit of all can counterbalance thousands yes so so they're just contributing and then you have everybody addicted on anxiety medication because they're freaking themselves out from the addiction of that. So that is really important to talk about. That could be a whole other show, but I also wanted to let people know that you also have several levels of truth disclosure and this is the truth of the dark disclosure, you know, disclosure.

But I will say done fairly, even though it affects you strongly because you're watching all of it. I mean, for me, I've dealt with it for, I mean, research it for so long, but I can see the purity in you because you come from a pure place and you're like, okay, guys, I got to just breathe. It's so much. It's so much to process. It's a, whoa. It's so authentic. I'm like, yeah, because that's what most people, you know, that are discovering all of this and it's not pretty and their first thing is ignoring it. Yes. The fine line between right now there's not a lot of excuse left for ignoring.

And for us to transition into which we are the golden age, we must face our inner work or judgment. So I have found the best way is what I call Aikido, which is instead of saying, you know, excuse my course language here, folks, instead of saying, you're an asshole, get out of my life, you know, blah, blah, blah, blah. You're not going to do it. You go, I see that you're still entertained with that idea. But you know what? It just doesn't do it for me. So no, thank you.

I'm going on my way. And they don't know how to deal with that because you're not, you're not punching him. You're not fighting them. I'm like, I'm tired of people saying there's nothing I can do. I have no power. That's because you're ignorant. Because you're ignorant, folks. So what she can teach, what she can guide you through,

and all of that is going to be self-empowering. So you understand, and we'll get into Joe Spence next, you understand that true spirituality and true science are a marriage. Mm-hmm. Yes. And they haven't been taught in school. With feeling negativity towards what's going on in the world. And in the, you know, that you're basically doing something negative.

I want to add a couple of things in there because I, because I think that sometimes people, hear that and they think like oh so I'm just supposed to ignore it I'm just supposed to act like it's not going on and and I really want to specify that I don't believe that spiritual bypassing is a is a good way to go at it if it's not spiritual bypassing can be an excuse for people to actually ignore what's going on with other people and ignore what's going on within themselves and so so you can't get there too fast. It can be the goal. That can be what you're shooting for. You could get there several times a day. But the truth is, if you are continuing to be triggered by this emotionally and

it feels wrong to turn away from it, then the more emotionally triggering it is, chances are there's something there for you to work out. And many times it's a reflection of what is going on within you. You may feel like you can't forgive the president, but what's actually going on that's making it so emotionally triggering for you that you haven't forgiven your father, you know, like just for example. And so when you address those issues with your father, you know, what's just hiding underneath it, then suddenly it's so much easier to look at the president with with neutrality. And then you can get up to those higher vibrations. And so that's, that's one thing I wanted to say. And then the other thing is that one, like a very powerful tool that I have found to be able to make sense of all of this is rather than, rather than staying in the vibration of shame and guilt, like guilting others, shaming others.

And you just end up being very stuck in those low vibrations that the most powerful antidote I have found is just compassion to like not necessarily forgive, not say, not, you know, not just say what you did is okay. but to understand that this is a human who had challenges and that there's a, that there's a soul in charge, if there's a higher self in charge, who sees more than we can see from our human perspective. And so it's just like opening up your mind enough where you can find that place of compassion. And that Bray Brown says that compassion is the antidote to shame. Frequency is everything. coherence is everything. So if you're not in coherence with the frequencies you want to go through, you have to

off-gas them, fix them, transform them. It's like a balloon, right? You can't wait in versus higher. So this is cosmic law, science law, and I so appreciate how you share that because those are very, very important points. And since we're talking about anxiety and fear, a subscriber wrote in named Ton, who is a real loyal subscriber. And he said, what is your understanding of the concept of fear?

And how can one train to become more resilient and let go of it? Okay. So a simple way to think of it is that, you know, it's something I've heard before, that there are only two energies and it's love and fear. And everything goes into one of those or the, the other. And it's more complex than that, but I think that that's a good starting point to understand that fear is the opposite of love. And then I just happened to have my diagram that shows the vibrational scale of emotions. Oh, yeah. So, you know, are you familiar with this? Oh, yeah.

Yes. Yeah. So on the vibrating. I got it. Yes. Yes. It's important. You, the map of Contest is, yeah, and I love the rainbow with it because you start, when you see the correlation to the, to the chakras, it helps for, it helps to make it all make sense. So, so on this, fear is one of the lower vibration emotions, but it's actually not as low as guilt and shame. And so, so that guilt and shame, whether it's directed at yourself or towards somebody else, it is the lowest, slowest, moving vibration. And it makes, you feel like you're down here. And, you know, like you're down here. You can't see anything. Everything's piled up on top of you. You can't move. So that, and that's where like depression,

you know, depression is really, you're just really down, down in here. And so fear is more up in the power chakra. And so fear can be actually a fairly comfortable, it's like you can stay there. You know, you can stay there for a long time and you can stay functional because it fear will at least give you the, the power to protect yourself or to run. You know, so there's in or to, you know, like it, I guess it, it, it also gives you the power to fight, you know, like you, it's not. Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah. So, so it's, you know, so just to understand it as a frequency and it's something, and it's a frequency that you put yourself in with, your thoughts and with your point of focus. And you are still in the lower chakras. And so you're basically

just very connected to the earthly experience when you are in fear. And then I think it's so interesting that anger is right here just as you start to reach the heart chakra. Yeah. And so anger is a very fast moving powerful energy. And it's you get angry when you actually start to experience. emotion over something, like really start to own the way that you feel about something. And it can be this beautiful jumping off point to get to these higher vibrations. And, but so many times people will get into anger and then they get just straight back down into the guilt and the shame, whether they feel guilty about the way that they dealt with their anger or it gets them in a fight and they just get like so they start to feel so powerless fighting with this person who,

you know, who won't come around to their way of thinking. And so I call it the low vibration loop when you get up to anger and then never go above it. Right. And so and then you've said you've said the word neutrality many times, like looking at things neutrally. So neutrality is up in the throat chakra. So you have to have a certain amount of neutrality to be able to speak about things with truth.

So if you have a lot of shame and a lot of anger. wrapped up in your thoughts or your opinions, then you may be able to say it, but it's not going to come out as this clear, open truth that starts to happen at these higher vibrations. And then, of course, you know, there's love way up here when you're at a very high vibration. I think it's so interesting that joy is above love, you know, because with love, there's still a little bit of attachment, you know, like there's a good chance that you could get back down really quickly. And many kinds of love. Yes, yes. And then joy, joy is just like being like a little kid, you know. And so in a perfect world, we would all be flying up here all the time. And in this, it's a good point to, to aim towards,

but at the same time, we can't really expect to be up there all of the time. And so, so to answer, to go back to the question, you know, how do you deal with your relationship with fear? First of all, try to see it neutrally as an energy and also see it as a choice. And, and, you know, you have to hold on to the faith that these higher vibrations are always available to you, always. And so it's not always easy to do the spiritual bypassing and jump straight up here and act like none of this is going on. But what most of us can do every day is get to this place of neutrality, where you just at least can just feel kind of satisfied. Like, I'm not happy. I'm not sad. I, you know, I'm not, I'm not hungry. I'm not in pain. I'm just, I might be a

bored, but I'm neutral. If you can just get there, you're so much closer to the higher vibrations. And if you can, this is something I learned from Abraham Hicks, once again, that if you're in that place of neutrality, that's when you start practicing the affirmations. That's when you start focusing on the good and just really getting yourself amped up. And so, and if you jump off from there, rather than jumping off from those really low vibrations, you have a much better chance of getting up to those higher vibrations. And over time, you rewire your nervous system.

You rewire your thought patterns. And I've personally have gotten to where no matter how low things get and no matter how much I just have those moments of despair, I just bounce right back up. You know, I let myself feel it. And then I'm like, oh, I feel good again. What do you know, just like a little kid, you know? Yeah.

Well, you just brought up something interesting. because until they get programmed by five or seven, kids are very quick at shifting things, right? Oh, yeah. And I want to share with you because I don't know if you ever heard this, but I've shared it on shows. And to me, what you're saying and reminding us is some of the most powerful things for everything. But I had asked Eckart Tolle, so we know suffering has to do with emotions, but I feel it's something more. and because when you work with kids, if you don't over coddle them and you don't undercoddle them and you're just present, they're kind of throw it quick, right? So he said, correct in his, you know, very voice.

And he said, well, it is an emotion, but the suffering comes from the stories you tell yourself about it over and over. And you can see how that resets because the brain, all of his events. that even if we think we're clear two years later something gets triggered and the brain starts going blah and you have these self-righteous stories about how you're writing and you have to stop that you know once you stop that it's the whole thing's fascinating but anyway I thought that was very valuable so if you stop it's important that being said it's important to share your authentic story at least once with someone safe so it can be received and reflected back and worked on. But if it's someone like you're going on for 50 times or something, it's like recreating it,

recreating it, recreating it, anyway, right? And also, Town and others, Jerry Jampolski, an old client of mine and his wife, Diane Cherchione, they are very well known for attitudinal healing centers that they made across the world. One of their first books years ago is love is letting go of fear. So everyone could understand that. So all those things, and plus the brilliant things that the queen, of course, presented are going to be very helpful for you

to create resilience. But I also found resilience is getting to a point, it's not a race, because you have to go deep, you have to mind deep, but then getting to a point of how quickly you can re-center. Yes, yes. And that's one of the things we practice when it's in meditation, bringing your attention back to your spine. I think of the spine is the spine is the place of the higher vibrations.

And the spine is the place of the, it's the, it's the, it's the, um, the elect, the two electric poles with the soul in the middle. And so, so every time we practice going back to the higher vibrations or going back to the silence, going back to the silence, going back to, our hearts going back to that center point, then we are, it's like we're lifting a weight and we're getting stronger and stronger at returning to center. And so, so that's the resilience. You know, it's practicing going back to center over and over. And even if you feel like you're a bad meditator, like people say, because they can't stop thinking, you're still practicing going back to the silence over and over. And you're strengthening that muscle of returning to neutrality, returning to the center point.

And then you create the, you flex the muscle of resilience in that way. And what I feel in the energy is that the magnetizing force within you become stronger and clearer. And you actually start drawing in things that you want. You know, it's part of the manifestation process is getting really familiar with that center point,

with that point of purity within you. and in magnetizing in the things that are vibrational match to that. So beautiful. So beautiful. Let's just talk a little bit because he is a well-known, incredible accelerator. Dr. Joe Dispensea folks, who started off as a chiropractor doctor. Many of you have heard about him. Author, lecturer, meditation teacher focuses on neuroscience and neuroplasticity and personal transformation.

and another wonderful thing is he does vast research in his postgraduate work he did with brain and memory function and cellular biology, validating the real science of mind-body healing. So, Queen, you got accelerated by going to one of his amazing work charge. You want to share that with people, kind of what you experienced and how it accelerated you? Yes, yes. So I, like a lot of people, had heard of Joe Dispenza. I'd seen clips of his podcast interviews. And what he presents in his podcast interviews is really the science side of it. And but there was one point that I heard him say that in the research that he had done at his retreats, that his advanced meditators could get into deep delta state in two minutes.

and that caught my attention. I was like, what is he doing? What is going on there? So that was just a little, just a little memory that I held on to. And then fast forward, I was, I was just going through a phase,

ready to go to the next level on my spiritual journey. And I really, I identified that what I was missing was a community, that I wanted to find other people to meditate with. And I just assumed that it would be an in-person thing, you know, that I would find some kind of meditation center and start visiting there. And so I was open to the idea and I was praying about it and I was just asking like when it's

time, please lead me to the right place. And so I ended up finding a YouTube channel, tiny little YouTube channel. He had maybe, you know, he had less than a thousand followers. And in this guy's videos just really resonated with me. And so I just, you know, like you get with the YouTubers like you just like keep watching their videos over and over. And so he was posting every day. And after a while, he started talking about a meditation group that he was, that he was starting to organize online over Zoom.

So it never crossed my mind that it could, you know, that could be over, you know, that I would be meditating with people over Zoom. But I joined them for meditation and heard my first Joe Dispins a meditation. And I was like,

what are we listening to? Because they're weird. If you listen to them, they're weird, you know? Like he's, he talks like, like his meditation voice, it's like like a robot trying to do the voice of God. Like it's so strange, you know. And but he, but he does it on purpose.

He does it on purpose because he wants, he wants it to sound like nothing you've ever heard before. Right. And so, but, you know, but I had committed to this group and I was like, okay, let's just see. And by the third or fourth meditation, I could not believe how deep I was going and how powerful these meditation tracks were. And so not only was I meditating with a group and creating a bigger, stronger field, you know, together, but we were talking about our experiences afterwards. And so I got hooked.

I got hooked really, really quick. And people get like that with his, you know, the people in his community as millions of followers. And there are so many Facebook groups. where these people are joining together and answering each other's questions, and they're free, and I would highly recommend joining any of them if you want to know more about this path. And so, yeah, so I got way into his meditations. People in my meditation group, they were, you know, they were all going to his retreats. He holds them about once a month, you know, probably like at least seven or eight times a year,

if not 12 times a year. And so, you know, so I started hearing about these retreats. and to first hear about them, I thought that it was just way too expensive, just totally out of reach for me. And so I just instantly was like, nope, can't afford it. I guess I'll never do that. And then I started hearing more about it and more about it. And the thing that caught my attention that made me think that maybe this was for me,

as I learned that he teaches people how to heal. And so at his retreats, they're about at the advance week long, they're on average about 2,000 people, all meditating together in a ballroom, four or five hours of meditation every day and four or five hours of lecture every day. So not only are you going really deep in meditation, but you're learning about the science of meditation

at the same time, which makes it hit so much deeper. You know, just when you understand what's going on chemically in your body. Absolutely. Yes. And then about 10% of the attendees are there because they're sick.

And so they call them the healees. So we learn to be healies. be healers for the healies. And about day three or four is when you are adequately trained to go in and heal. And he explains the science of the healing. Like this is what happens to the healer. Like this is what happens with the healers energy. This is what happens to the healers energy.

And so when I saw that in just being through everything I'd been through with losing my husband and the two years journey with cancer, I was like, oh, this is my path. Like I have to be there to help heal these people. And so, you know, so it was just getting so entrenched in that community was absolutely life-changing. But it was, you know, it ended up being the reason why I decided to have a YouTube channel because the leader of the meditation group that I had joined, you know, he had his YouTube channel. Never before did I think of having a YouTube channel before that. And I also found a place where I could teach and share my, you know, share the things that I had learned. And so for the first time, I was actually verbalizing two.

a group, everything that I had learned. And they were, they were learning so much for me. And they were resonating with my teachings and telling me that they loved my voice. And I was like, it was like my path started to be laid out before me. And so, and really his teachings, Joe Dispins's teachings are just so compelling and so fascinating. He's just, he's written some amazing books. So, yeah, so the week-long retreat, I could not recommend it. more like for it is just such an absolutely life-changing experience the the the energy that is created when that many people are going that deep in meditation day after day after day they actually have machines to measure the change in the energy of

the room day by day and they have scientific evidence to show the way that that the people are changing the energy in the room they're changing their energy in each other and one of the most profound things that I was not expecting is the piece that came across the group. It was a peace and coherence and harmony in the group like nothing I had ever experienced before. Anytime that you're with 2,000 people all at once, when you're very sensitive to energy, there's this chaos that you feel. There's chaos. You're feeling everybody's fear. People aren't trusting each other in a lot of situations where there are.

crowds like that. There's this, just like an intensity where people are really hyper or they're really drunk or, you know, there's just like loud volume. And it's, you know, it's a lot of energy to deal with. And so when I hear so many times people saying like, oh, I have social anxiety. I can't go to a Joe to spend the retreat. You know, I can't be, you can't be sitting shoulder to shoulder with people meditating, you know, for seven days in a row. And so, so I was so surprised to find the way that by the latter half of the second day, we all came into this level of coherence with each other. It was just a sea of peace, no matter where we were out on the street together, doing a walking meditation or in the room, we were just helping each other, talking

each other's just, there's just this like gentleness and trust and sweetness. And the only, when I've talked to people about this, that people who could understand, are the people who had been to like big music festivals where everybody is on drugs, you know, like where everybody like tunes into each other and they just like have this open-hearted surrender. But this was like that, but absolute sobriety. You know, there wasn't that wackiness that, you know, there wasn't the element of chaos that that you get when everybody's on drugs.

But this, the bliss and the love and everywhere you look, people crying and hugging each other, people having their spiritual experiences, people having kundalini awakenings. You can like actually see it. And by like by the middle of the retreat, we're all just being such weirdos. And you just like you start to get the message that like, oh, I can be, I can really be myself. I can be my weird self. I can feel all my feelings.

I can scream my head off if I need to. And nobody's going to judge me. And so people just start to open up. And it's so cool the way that everybody becomes. becomes beautiful. It's so like everybody's faces relaxed and then you're so high vibration that you can see the beauty in everybody. And it was like all of a sudden, every man was like the best looking man I'd ever seen. I was like, I saw that guy a few days ago and he did not look that good a few days ago. It was like everybody just started glowing. And there was just like their beautiful inner light started to shine out. And so that was the part that I was not expecting. that just, it just changed, it changed the way that I look at the world. You know, it's just really, really amazing. And I can't wait to go back again.

And yes, it is expensive, but it's a lot less expensive than a car or going to college or, you know, all these things that people see as, you know, possible goals. But it is like, it is worth it. It is worth every penny. Last year in 2025, while meditating in your car, repeating, Hooponopono folks, which if you don't know, it's the Hawaiian healing process. It's four-line process that both she and I use. And she was, it's basically go ahead and say the four lines. It's, I'm sorry, please forgive me. Thank you. I love you. Yeah. Okay. And so she was repeating

this in deep meditation in her car for 10 minutes. And then they want to you share that story. That's kind of wild. Yeah. So I just started to feel an uprising of energy. And next thing I knew, my whole body was just thrown back in between the two front car seats. So I was sitting in the driver's seat and there's a little space in between the two seats. And my head hit the back of the back seat. And I just flew. It was such a rush of energy. And at the Doja, Benzer Rootr, you see things like this happening to people, you know, like where they completely lose control of their bodies. But yours was almost like a levitation and a, in a jump or something. Yeah. I mean, I, it stands to reason to me that I kicked off with my, you know, with my feet,

you know, that I kicked off like, you know, from the floorboard. And so, you know, so I'm sure there was something physical going on, but it wasn't something that I had control over. It was like it just, it just went through me. so amazing. Yes. Yeah. And so, and that was many years after having an actual kundalini awakening, that first thing. And so that was one of the things that I talked about in the video that I released today. I just wanted to just share my experiences and the experiences of other people just to help people understand that there are a lot of variations in this. And but all of it is an opening and an uprising. And so in Joe Dispins' research

just shows and describe so clearly the way that these stuck clusters of energy, they are stored in the lower chakras and through the meditation process being devoted to our meditation process, we are clearing out the stuck energy and you feel it in all kinds of different ways, but the result is a literal healing of the nervous system because this stuck energy, it's liberated and it's used by your body to heal. And because it's coming up, that central channel, the effect on the brain is very, very strong. And then there's also just the heart coherence that you reach in deep meditation. And that helps to heal the brain too. And so after I had been doing the Joe Dispenza meditations really deeply for a few months, I spontaneously had the experience

of not having anxiety when I was walking out the door. You know, I was, I had been, I had so much anxiety and I would like start to feel an anxiety attack every single time I left the house, just gathering up all of my things. And it was just, you know, it was going through the process of my husband being sick and having little kids and all of that. And it was just all of a sudden I was sitting in my car seat and I was like, I don't feel stressed at all right now. And it was like a literal healing of my nervous system that happened just from all of the energy that I had liberated from those lower centers. I feel that so much of the anxiety is also coming from just so much data overwhelmed for people. Oh, yes. Yeah.

And just having no idea how to process it. Yeah. Yeah. And I think the younger kids are having the hardest time with it. And the younger children, because, you know, they're spending a lot of time on screens. And so they're not moving around as much. And I just think that a lot of star seeds are being incarnated into the very young generations. And so they're coming in very impactful.

very, very sensitive, and then they have no idea what's going on with the energy. And so, you know, that's, I think that has a lot to do with the, just the prevalence of suicidal thoughts in young kids because they are just so empathic and there's so much going on. And they're not, they're not getting those basic regulating things that have kept us alive, you know, for all of these, all of these thousands of years. You know, they're not getting the healthy food, the time outside, the sunshine, the exercise, all of those things that ground you. Yes, yeah, all of it. Crazy.

You have been very disciplined and very connected to meditation for a long time. What would your suggestions be to people? Because I love this quote, so I had to just copy it. A quote. Meditation is the work that creates the results because that's, is about you realigning with the cosmos, the bridge to your heart, your body, and earth. Mm-hmm. Yes.

That's hers, folks. You flatter me so much. Oh, no. It's so flattering to hear you repeating the things that I say. I appreciate it. Oh, my goodness. I'm not a flatterer. Ask my friends.

Trust me. I appreciate good work. And that was profound because you. So what would you? you have to say about meditation because people go, oh, yeah, I know I should do it or whatever. Blah, blah. Is it really that important? I mean, it shifted your entire world, right? Yes, yes. So I know it doesn't come as easily to some people as it does to others. And I believe that I reached higher levels of spiritual awakening in past lives.

and that has a lot to do with why I was so drawn to it. And like I know that, you know, as far as the stories that have come to me in one of my past lives, I was a nun. You know, so just so many hours every day in prayer. And, you know, and so it's like my soul is familiar with the whole process. Yes. And then just with me, the way I grew up, like part of my way of keeping myself safe is to be very introverted and very avoidant with the world. And so meditation to me was like just this perfect

escape where I knew that I was doing really important work and I was doing something very powerful. But it was also a way for me to just stop thinking about everything. And in my habit before I started meditating was just procrastination. And so, you know, procrastination, not accomplishing things when it was constantly causing me anxiety. that I wasn't accomplishing anything. And so, like, strangely enough, it was a, it was a way for me to continue to procrastinate, but not feel guilty about it. So, yeah, I think that that was a huge part of what kept me coming back to it and staying devoted.

Like, if I can't make myself do anything, I know I can at least meditate. I know that's at least something. And I know that the benefits to it are huge. And so, and it feels so good. And that's what I want to do. and I want to follow my bliss, so that's what I'm going to do. And then on top of that, when I started receiving messages from angels and guides and started to get to get very familiar with my spirit guides, it was like I was going to hang out with my

friends. You know, that's how it felt also. Oh, yeah, yeah. See, that's so great. Which reminds me, another skill you have, so many people are leaving their bodies at warp speed. It's designed. There's many reasons for it. We're not going to get into it in the show.

but they're leaving bodies. So it's leaving people with a huge sense of loss. And what I'm telling is you can communicate with them. Give them time and communicate. So one of the skills Queen has is. Yeah, like channeling you mean? Like channeling mediumship. You have sessions where you can communicate with your relative

or anybody else who's crossed over on the other side. Yes. And people are really resistant to doing this. but I've been to hundreds. I mean, and I feel, this is the first time Queen and I've talked barely in person. So, but she is very legit and very capable and has a purity and is the real deal and maintains humbleness. And you'll feel safe. So it's so healing to do that because grief, they, they, every time we feel grief,

it holds them back. Yes. First thing I can say that relates to all of this is that things start to shift when you understand that everything is right here. So in the quantum field, everything is connected. And so all of your loved ones who have passed are right here. All of the aliens are right here. All of your angels are right here.

They're right here cohabitating in the same space. they just exist at a different frequency. And so when you go into meditation, you are changing your brain frequency to where you can match up with them. You can meet up with them. And so it's just like a radio station. You know, you can just go to different stations and listen to different things. So it's just like that. And we can somehow wrap our heads around the fact that they're like Wi-Fi signals and radio signals going, you know, all around.

And we can't see them. but we know that they're there and we don't doubt that they're there. But just in the very same way, like heaven is right here. All the angels are right here. And your loved ones, they are an extension of you, the ones who are living and the ones who have passed on. They are a matching vibration to you. You're a matching vibration to everyone in your reality.

Technically, you would not experience them in this reality. If you weren't a matching vibration to them in some way, you wouldn't even know they existed. And so the same way that the angels and guides are aspects of you, everyone you know and love is also aspects of you. And everybody in your family, they're all different aspects of you. And so it's just because of that, when somebody passes on, they will be with you and can be with you as much as they want to or as much as you want them to be. and from their higher perspective, they are so pure and so loving compared to what they may have been in this lifetime. So even someone who is an enemy in the 3D, they can be one of your greatest allies once they pass on. And they can also be your assistant.

And there are so many cultures that have adopted this. That's what the altars are all about. the altars in Hindu cultures and in Catholic cultures, they are creating a place where you can connect with those who have passed on. And so what I've learned through working with my friend, who's a shaman, is that when you have 3D objects around you that represent that person and that make you remind you of that person, whether it actually belonged to them or it's just something that makes you think of them, you are giving them, you are giving them, them a place to be embodied in the 3D realm.

And their energy can be even more directly connected to the 3D realm. And if they love you and they want to guide you, then they are so much more powerful to do that. And so it's just a matter of becoming more familiar with them. And all kinds of meditation is just becoming more familiar. It's like a simplifying. It's a focus of your concentration. And then you become familiar with it through practice. And so it's something that's made a really big difference in my spiritual path just in the past year is reconnecting more deeply with my husband who had passed on.

And so as much as I was connecting with everybody else's husbands who had passed on, you know, bringing messages through all of them, I wasn't really connecting with him because there was just so much grief tied up in it. And, you know, and he would show up. We would have moments and I would definitely think of him. but I would sometimes I would even avoid thinking of him because the grief hurt so bad. And so, you know, so I was eventually guided to connect with him so much more deeply. And I created an altar for him and just started a practice where every day I would just ask for him to sit with me. And I would just feel how I was looking at him and he was looking at me. And it's evolved into something where I see that we were like two halves of the same.

person. We were so much soulmates or twin flames or whatever you want to call it. And in what I, what I believe, what the stories have come to me, you know, take it or leave it, that at one point, we were the same person that we divided and that we spent many lifetime side by side. And in the reason why we felt so connected when we met in this lifetime and why our marriage was so effortless is because we had been through that so many times before. And so now I am in the process of fully integrating his energy. I've taken on so many of his personality traits. Like he, I was always the introvert. He was always the extrovert. Now I'm so much more balanced. And I can just, I can talk to strangers in a way that I was never able to before. I even like, he was such an expert with,

he built sets for a living for photography sets. And he was such an expert just with like hammers and nails and in the drill. And now I'm like so much better at that stuff. It's so weird. And he was, he was an amazing musician, incredible singer and musician. I never sang with him ever, ever. Now I sing all the time. Like, I love it. Like, I've seen, I love it so much. And I think I'm just going to probably going to make an album someday.

Like, I don't, I don't really know when that's going to happen. But, like, I feel it so much. And so it's like, I've taken him on, you know, and I've just become this really whole complete person that I, that I, you know, I didn't even, I, I, I, I, I really, really don't like the idea that, you know, that two people come together and they create a whole. Like I think that that's kind of like a codependent model. But when it comes down to it at the end of the day, we really were two halves of the same person. And now we really are joined. And it has made me a totally different person. It's the law of one, too. We ultimately came from one

being. You are going to exemplify that this is possible because huge amounts of people are exiting, graduated, we're out of here. And a lot of people are going to be dealing with the grief. And to understand all these principles really helps. You still miss the actual physical, tangible body. There's no question on that. But this is so useful. And so folks, she can access anything on top of that.

Yes, yes. I can very much help people with this. I can help people see the sole contracts that went into the relationship. I can help them see the, see things from the higher perspective, see the ways that their lives have, that they have opportunities that they didn't have before and in that their lives are better in certain very tangible ways because of that person passing. And then on top of that, you can connect with them and allow them to help you. And so that, I mean, how incredible, how incredible to have allies on the other side pulling strings for you.

It's incredible. Queen, would you mind sure? sharing with our audience, how you determine whether something is in alignment with your higher self or not. I think you mentioned it's connecting to the high heart area. Would you explain that a little bit, please? Yes. So this practice is something that I consider the foundation of my psychic awareness. And to me, it's proof that we are all wired to be sensitive to non-physical energy and non-physical intelligence. And in what it is, it's a, it's a heart asking practice, tuning in with your heart practice.

And you basically just ask your heart yes and no questions. And in what you are sensing in the area of the heart, it's actually a full body muscle response. And it's known as muscle testing in chiropractic school. And so it's something that is, that has been studied down to a science. but it's so fascinating to me how many people don't realize the way that the heart is your connection to source energy and that it's always broadcasting information to you all the time and so the the hard asking practice is something that I've taught to so many people almost everybody can can just get it so quickly especially children and and so you just ask your

heart a yes or no question and you focus on this area of of your heart if it's a yes you'll feel an upward movement and it's a movement of energy but it's also a muscle response you can also feel your body come forward a little bit when you when you get a yes and so so in the most extreme response it just feels like happiness and we have all felt that just that moment of happiness you get really good news or there's something you're really excited about and it's an uprising it feels warm into your neck and it instantly makes you smile. It lifts up your energy. It makes you stand up straighter.

And so that is that full body muscle response. And it's your heart saying yes. And then when you get a no from your heart in the most extreme version, it's like when you get really bad news, you hear something awful. And there's a downward. It's like your body goes back. And there's like a constriction and a pinching. And you can feel it down into your solar plexus.

So that yes and no is giving, it's giving you. guidance all day every day. And when you tune into it, it is truly mind-blowing how much it's always there for you. That response is always there for you. And the more you get into it, the more it's so interesting, so interesting how like when I started to really, really master it, then I started to feel yes, but not yet, you know, an answer like that. Yeah.

Like, no, not today. And but ask again tomorrow, you know. And so that's part of part of the master. You keep asking the same question over and over. And you can also practice with things that are very neutral about like, should I have a second cup of coffee? And your body will really respond. You can actually hold the coffee, the coffee in front of you and feel the way that your body responds to it. You can do that with food.

And so the more neutral your opinion is on the topic that you're asking, I've found that the more clear the message will be. And so, you know, so it's just, it's something. to practice, but it's fairly easy to get in tune with it. And it's fascinating. It's fascinating the journeys that it will bring you on. You know, all of the, like there are times that my heart told me yes. And I just went straight into a shitstorm, you know, like just straight into things not working out the way that I wanted it to. But I knew that my heart said yes. So I'm like, huh, what's that all about? You know? And you know, you really start to see the way. that these things that are unwanted, that they're just custom made for whatever it is that you need

to learn next. That's the way that I know to this day, whether or not something's in alignment for me is I feel it in my heart is whether or not it's true for me. And so it's fun having friends who are psychic and like my business partner is also psychic. And if we just, if we just tune in with our guidance, we always get the same yeses and the same knows always you know and it does happen that that somebody will get a no while somebody gets a yes but everybody's looking at it from their own perspective you know so you have to listen to yourself no matter what no matter what anybody no matter what the yes is and knows that anybody else is getting

so it is like it is such in my experience it is such a sure fire path just listen to your heart and people say that but it is so literal like you just listen to your heart and it will guide you I'd like you to share how people can reach you, your contact, the different things you've offer, et cetera, et cetera. Yes, yes. Thank you for asking. So I am Queen Wertham on all platforms, and Wertham is spelled W-O-R-T-H-A-M. And I'm on, I'm on Instagram, and I have a YouTube channel that is growing.

And I'm also, I have a little, little bit of a presence on Facebook. and but I'm most active on YouTube. And then I have a website where so many things are going on on the website, which is just queenwortham.com. And I, my offerings are, they're changing very rapidly, but they're becoming more refined and just in a really short period of time. But as the YouTube audience is growing so quickly, my offerings are growing to match that.

And so, so if you want to work with me, me, you can start with a one-on-one spirit reading. And I offer readings that are as short as 15 minutes or as long as two hours. And you can also book 30-day journeys, 60-day journeys or 90-day journeys with me. You know, if you really have something deep that you want to transform and you know that you need one-on-one guidance. And it's like, I call it therapy on steroids. It's like, it can feel a lot like talk therapy at times, but then the deeper the packages, the more likely it is that we're going to be doing shadow work together and in really doing some deep, going deep with the healing modalities. And then in the shorter sessions, it's really just talking and then, you know, me pulling

through messages from your angels and guides. And so, so there are a lot of different levels with the one-on-one work. And then as much as I can, I'm trying to get people together in groups. And so I I love the idea of having a community where people can depend on each other. And so we're just at the beginning of stages of building those communities. So I just started a membership on YouTube. And if you join my membership on YouTube, it's like $8 a month. And you get 48 hours access to the new videos before they're released to the public. And some of my videos are really juicy.

You know, they're like really, really fun. And so that can be a fun perk. And then also with the YouTube community, we're going to be offering group meditations. And so we were, I did it three Sundays in a row. And that just like just about wiped us out. And so now we're just, we're kind of staggering it. You know, we're still finding our way. But, but you can definitely find out about group meditations.

And it's also group spirit readings. Like I'll, everybody will raise their hand who has a question. And I intuitively call on the. the people that I feel called on. And then whatever answer comes through for them, because of the resonance that happens at higher vibrations, what the wisdom ends up applying to, to everybody who's there in some way.

And it's a lot the way, if you're familiar with Abraham Hicks, the way that she has always done her conventions, it's the same kind of thing. Like she may only get to seven or eight people during the course of the convention, but the answers that come through apply to every person. and I attended one and that was really my experience. Like all my questions got answered by the other people's answers.

Because it's an collective consciousness. Yes, exactly. Yes. Yes. It's a collective consciousness. And the messages come through in such a, it's, you know, it's just this very clear, simple way and everybody interprets the words based on what it means to them. And, you know, and it's just something that I feel, I feel so grateful to be able to have

such a clear connection to this guidance so that I can channel this through for people. And so, and then I also have a group meetings and membership that you can access through my website. And that's a, that's a whole separate thing from the YouTube. And so if that feels better to you, then there are, there are free meetings and there are paid meetings that are smaller and more intimate. And so in that case, people can get their, you know, their question answered like a one-on-one, you know, you're saying it in front of you. of a group, but it can end up being a way to access my services for people who can't afford the one-on-one, and they can get just as much out of it. Plus, you've got the community energy

on top of it. You're just not offering enough. Yeah, I know. I know. I was in my business meeting today. I'm like, there's a reason why we have two memberships, right? Like, please tell me that you've got a plan for this, because it seems like a lot, but I'm trusting you. You know. Oh my goodness. All right, folks. So take advantage of that if it feels right. So I have one little last question. And then I will ask you to spontaneously, whatever you get from the collective out there, to lead a short meditation that you're attracted to. Yes. That sounds good. Okay, so one of my questions I like to ask my clients, and I'd like to hear your response of what you would say to clients or if you feel it's valid, is what is the best use of my sacred life force? What is the best use of my sacred life force?

Well, going back to what we said before, that the purpose of life is expansion. and that particular path of expansion is unique for every person. And in the same way that you get that yes from your heart, you get a yes from the things that feel good to you. And so sometimes what you're drawn towards feels bad, but if you just generally keep as a rule, what feels good to me is a yes for me, then that's, that is the simplest way

to make the most of your life. And you are like if you're feeling better, then that means that you are vibrationalally a match to higher and higher dimensions. And so it's just the simplest rule of thumb if it feels good, then do it. and in the, you know, the very next thing that people may say is like, well, drugs feel good, cheating on my wife feels good, you know, and, and I mean, this is a little controversial,

but even in cases like that, they're, you know, if you just, just know anyone's recovery story from drug addiction, how much it expands your consciousness and how, in how they didn't get to that place where it was time to go into the recovery path until things got really bad. And so in so in some cases following what feels good will leave you faster into something that is destructive. But it's, you know, but even in that case, it's something that serves your expansion and it is you're still following your life's path. And but in my experience, if you just go back to the heart asking, and you truly are going with what your your heart says yes to, then you're going into feeling good based on things that could possibly be bad.

It's not going to get nearly as bad. It's not going to turn really, really dark in the way that things do in, you know, in deep addictions. Yeah. And so, and I would, I would even say, I mean, because I approach things with unconditional love and non-judgment, I would even say that affairs are sometimes like huge passive. expansion for people. Divorces are huge passive expansion for people. And so even in those cases, like what what feels good, even though it may seem destructive on the surface, even though

everybody in your life may not like it, in my experience that is still pretty much what you need to do. It's what you need to do. Just do what feels right for you and learn to trust that inner guidance. It's your straight. It is your most direct path to expansion. I believe. That's good. Because not always feeling something and then thinking something is the same thing either. Those can be contradictory in terms like, no, I shouldn't do this, but I want to do it. You know, like that kind of thing.

Yeah, that's where the hard asking comes in really, really handy because your heart can see, your heart can see the past, present and future. Your heart's tuned into the way that it affects everybody else. You know, it's your most direct connection to the quantum feeling. of all that is and all that has been and all that will be. And so it has a much higher intelligence than the mind does. Yes. And folks, just a little sideways quick.

Quicky Stanford Research Institute and the Heart Math Institute. I visited and they've done extensive, extensive, extensive research. And they found out that the heart magnetically is 100 times stronger than the brain. Yes. I think all of you know by now, quote, that we have three brains. So we have the enteric in the stomach, you know, the instinctual hair goes up on your end, like, you know, run or something. We have the heart where I believe a major part of the source flame sits, especially the high heart. And then we have the brain, which we're right now working very hard on letting go of programmings and all kinds of.

things and elevating and then the pineal glands. So they proved that there's no question about the heart being. It's just I'm backing up. So powerful. Yes. Yes. So yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah.

So thank you so much for your generosity of time. Great ideas, great suggestions, great skills. I just love you. Yeah, thank you for having me. It's been so fun talking. Who would know you were an introvert? Yeah, I know. I've secretly been an extrovert my whole life.

I had no idea. We had to get you out of the monasteries for this. Yes, yes. Okay, so let's end with just everyone, you know, closing their eyes, sitting calmly, whatever you want to do, and you can lead us through a short meditation. Whatever you get is appropriate. All right. All right.

So this is the basic standard meditation that I do with all of my groups, but I channel it through. And so it comes out a little bit different every time. And what I would like to do is for all of us here who are present, watching this video, past, present and future, all come together right now and connect our energies through space and time. So we're going to start by. visualizing a bright bright light over the top of our heads. And this light represents the

consciousness of the Father's sky. So all of that energy that is in the stars, knowing that every star is actually a sun on its own. You bring all of that energy to that point of light, asking the Father's sky to come down and meet you. And then opening up your crown chakra to to invite in that light. Opening up the top of your head, bringing in that light, let it swirl around in your head, swirl around your brain,

activating your pineal gland, softening your eyes, softening your mouth, opening up your ears, bring that light down into your throat, opening up the throat chakra, and just letting it pour out of your ears, out of your mouth,

opening up your throat so that you can speak your truth. so you can hear the truth of others. Bring that light down into your heart center, filling your whole chest with this bright, bright light, and see the expansiveness of your heart as if there is a fractal copy of the entire galaxy right there in your heart. Fill that whole heart center with this bright, bright light from the cosmos.

Feel how much space there is there. Feel how much room there is to invite everything and everyone in. Bring that light down into your power chakra, the area of the solar plexus, swirling it around, giving yourself permission to act and do and be, giving yourself permission to follow your bliss and do exactly what feels right for you without apology. Bring that light down into your sacral chakra into the area of, of the hips, connecting yourself to pleasure in this life, joy, ease, connection with others, allowing people to feel you as you are authentically, and opening up yourself to feel the joy of

others. Bring that light into your root chakra, barrier of the perineum into your thighs, your knees, down into your shins, your ankles, and all the way to the bottom of your feet. And visualize the way your whole body is filled with light from head to toe and just let it activate every cell of your body, organizing the structures of the body, activating the healing energy of every single cell. Continue to bring that light into the floor,

down into the earth, and bring it down, down, down at lightning speed all the way to the core of the earth, where it meets with our mother earth. And visualize the warm, enveloping energy of a mother's love there, uniting with the wise protective energy of the father's sky. Those two energies are swirling together, just loving and creating. And now let's let that powerful creative energy bounce back up all the way back up into our hearts and visualize the way that you are connected to the sky

and to the core of the earth by two beams of light that meet right in the middle of your heart. This connection is always there for you. And once you practice it and you become familiar with it, you can activate it at any point in the day. It's anchoring you. It's giving you the feeling that you have a right to be here because you do.

Allowing all of that light from the Father Sky and the Mother Earth to pour into your heart. Now let's let that light spread out into your arms and out into your hands. Hold your hands out to the left and to the right and feel the way your hands are being held by me and by merrily, by everyone in this audience,

every person in this group. And we are creating a circle of light together with open hearts, the intention, to expand and love and learn and become the best people that we can possibly be during our time in this incarnation. And in this circle of light, we're creating a great big healing sphere, allowing in anybody else who is affected by our expansion, is holding them in our hearts and allowing ourselves

to become more powerful through this connection that we have to, each other and just hold this and visualize this and bring yourself back to this place anytime you need it and so it is and so it is good I tell you every time I put my hands out into the left and right I feel it I feel it I feel my hands being held and grabbed I don't know who's doing it but I feel it every single time oh you have secret admirers I guess so Yes, I'm very popular. Well, this was so fun. And I hope everyone enjoyed this and found this useful.

And thank you so much, Queen, for being willing to do this. And until next time, folks, upwards and onwards. See you later.