Couple Things with Shawn and Andrew - 76 All Things Baby

Episode Date: July 28, 2021

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With Sean and Andrew. A podcast all about couples. And the things they go through. Today, we are talking about pregnancy round technically three. Yes. But long term, round two. So we have put together a list of questions here that we're just going to talk through. See how this one differs from the previous one and see how things are going because it's definitely been different. It has has been different in probably every possible way. Literally. We are having a little boy. We found out around 20 weeks and 16 weeks.

And it made so much sense when we found out we were having a boy. Because from day one, my symptoms were different with Drew, I really wasn't nauseous. I had headaches with Drew and I was tired. But with this little guy, I felt super nauseous. I didn't have any cravings. I don't know. It's just like the original symptoms were completely different. I think something that goes untalked about and unexplained with pregnancy is pregnancy is very beautiful.

And there are so many people out there that love, love, love being pregnant. Because, and I am one of them. As soon as you become pregnant, something switches inside of you where you go into mom mode and you feel this like purpose and you feel filled and you feel so much love and all of these things. But the side that people don't talk. talk about pregnancy is a very very um i don't want to say isolating but kind of isolating thing and it's something that that's like a feeling that i struggle with because all of your hormones are changing and you're so exhausted and you're nauseous and you can't eat certain things and you can't do certain things and your your life is just consumed with the creation of your baby it kind of

isolates you from your community and your friend group and especially within the first trimester you aren't sharing the news with a lot of people so it it makes you feel distant it makes you feel distant from your your husband or your spouse sometimes because your emotions are all crazy and then later on in the pregnancy with your changing body and insecurities and just all of these things it causes a distance and i think i was i was really emotional at the beginning because one i was so ecstatic to be pregnant again and the fact that we were able to get pregnant again but two i was really scared because that was a hard part of our pregnancy with Drew was how we dealt with it and how I dealt with it with our friends and our family. And I was daunted by taking that on again. So it kind of

psyched me out from the beginning a little bit. What have you done differently for this pregnancy that you wish you would have done with Drew? With Drew, I learned that you really can't control anything. That is truly a miracle that is in God's hands. And you and I spent majority of our pregnancy with you worrying and in fear and with this little guy I feel like we're just we've been excited from day one which has been awesome we get a little like we get nervous for sure when it comes to tests or ultrasounds and stuff but I feel like for the most part we've just been happy and excited do you feel more prepared for this pregnancy I think so well yes and no let me say yes and no yeah I'm curious I feel more prepared for this baby I feel

less prepared for this pregnancy. I'm nervous for the next couple weeks, dude. Me too. When we got pregnant, I felt like I was like, oh, I know exactly what to expect. I know at week 30, I'm going to start, you know, slowly getting super uncomfortable and just all these things. And then starting by week 10, this pregnancy was completely different in every way, shape, or form.

And I was like, I don't know what's happening to my body. and so it feels like it's brand new which almost makes it harder because athlete mindset I'm used to like training for something and mentally preparing and since I'm mentally prepared for almost like the wrong thing

every single week I'm like oh I need to reset my expectations and redo my mindset what do mean the wrong thing like I keep trying to compare this pregnancy to Drews every week I'm like oh I remember at 36 weeks this happened so let's get ready for that whereas I have I still have yet to accept the fact that this is a whole new ball game yeah if you could drill down some of the best

lessons that you've learned from that first pregnancy like what would the specifics be to just not stress which is really hard but to truly not stress and just to let it kind of run its course and do its thing and just to be excited for baby and not to be so concerned with all the what ifs because when you have a kid every single moment of your life for the rest of your life can be consumed by a what if because you love your child so much and you want to protect them but on top of that just like little things for me pregnancy working out makes pregnancy so much better and easier um keeps me sane and I feel like keeps me healthy more Chick-fil-A.

Eat more Chick-fil-A. You've definitely eaten more Chick-fil-A. Or eat more ice cream. I don't know. Just give yourself grace. I feel like, again, I was so obsessed with everything.

I was obsessed with gaining the perfect amount of weight and eating the perfect amount of calories. And just like, I lost a lot of the joy of pregnancy and just life with Drew because I obsessed so much. And I think you just got to have to, like you got to have just more grace. I think embracing the chaos, like just having the understanding, hey, it's going to be wild out there, just got to ride it out.

I'm terrified and so excited for Drew. I, Andrew and I were talking about this the other night on date night, actually, last week. That my biggest fear when we went into the hospital to have Drew was what it would do to us. You were my world. And I couldn't picture sharing you. sharing us as someone else or how that would even work with your heart and it did it was difficult for a while just getting used to the transition but it's you me and drew now like it's it's us yeah and i'm terrified going into this little man of the same exact thing like you and her are my world

and i don't know how that expands i don't want her to ever think she's not my little girl and yeah i i I just don't know how to share. That sounds bad. I feel like in life you go through these phases of, I remember when my brother first went to college. Hungry now. Now. What about now?

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Oh hungry, oh Henry. You feel like you lost a brother and I remember when he got married and I was like, oh my gosh, he's not my best friend anymore as someone else's. And like there's always this fear of what the other side of this phase

is going to look like. And for sure with Drew that first pregnancy you're like I feel like we're losing us to a certain extent. your marriage it's like now we're going to be parents and not you know a couple it just that was my perspective and now I have the same thing of like oh shoot it's you me and drew and we're going to lose that a little bit but I think you always got to I guess tell yourself that the next phase

is going to be better yeah you know it's going to be better I definitely am sentimental though thinking about my dad is like this all the time he's like oh man this is the last time we're going to be together as a family or this is the last time we'll be in Nashville or whatever you know he's always like this is calling out these milestones in life and just to realize that this will be the last time these last couple weeks that we get to selfishly be with Drew and have that undivided attention for and with her I don't want to say I'm going to miss it but it's been great and I'm trying to I'm trying to soak it all up right now you know yeah yeah we will miss it it'll be better but we'll miss it well i am so excited i

am so impatient and i want to meet him so bad and i'm just so excited for our family to grow let's take it from the top what's up everybody welcome back to couple things with sean and andrew podcast all about couples and the things they go through wow wow today we're going to to be talking about baby moon with our first baby moon which is this new tradition that people basically say before your baby comes take a weekend if you're able to go on vacation awesome if you're not just take a weekend to yourself to be able to like celebrate this baby coming and to acknowledge each other and just kind of take a little step back and just breathe so it drew we went to portugal we spent a week just kind of like seeing the size of

sites in Portugal. We went to four different cities. We actually jumped over to Spain for a day. We had an awesome time, but we exerted a lot of energy, which was awesome back then, especially not having a toddler. We still had that energy. This time with this baby moon, I told Andrew, I was like, my dream baby moon this year is to go and sit somewhere on a beach and not move for four days. Just hand and foot catered to be spoiled and just to relax. And I think that's just because of our lifestyle right now. It's so chaotic with work and with Drew and with like everything that I just wanted a true breakaway from everything. Yeah.

And we were looking up different places in the rooms that we saw in Cabo, there was options to have a room with a pool on the beach. Yeah. And you're 20 yards away from the ocean. So we said that feels like it plays. And I was thinking through it. I was like, how nice would that be? I have to pee every 10 minutes right now. So it's like, how nice would that be?

To just pee in the pool. No, it's not what I'm going to do. To not have to like get in and out of the pool 10 different times within an hour and like trek to your room or whatever. This sounds super bushy, by the way. I'm very aware that this is like not, this is not real. But we basically got to like live in this hotel room and jump from like sleeping or waking up in the morning to straight into the pool, which like led all the way up to the master

bathroom and then take another step and we are on the beach. And it was just, it was just the perfect place to where we could be on the beach. We could be in the pool. We could be taking naps. We could be eating food and never have to leave our room. And it was just so incredibly relaxing. We pull up to these massive gates, so beautiful, uh, after having, I really enjoyed the car ride, just seeing the landscape and the mountains. And we drive through the tunnels in a mountain. We drive through a tunnel. And it was the most insane experience ever.

They had literally drilled through a mountainside to build this resort. They had chandeliers hanging from inside this like tunnel slash cave that they had dug out just to build the resort on the other side of the mountain. Yeah, yeah. So we felt spoiled. we get to our room again we'll share footage of this uh but it was better than i expected and so we're in the car almost to the resort and we're like talking to our driver and we're like is this a good time to be here is it busy and he and he's like oh it's the absolute best time to be here there's nobody here and it's whale watching season which we literally had no clue of so sophie asked did anything

unexpected happen and the whale watching was one of them so we probably saw anywhere from 20 to 30 whales a day and the second thing was I believe it was the first day we got there no second the second day we got to cabo was we got a text message from my brother oh yeah and my sister-in-law has been pregnant we knew she was due around this time and he said that we have a baby boy was here that's right so it was so fun to This was a baby moon full of babies. We saw baby whales, which is awesome to see them prance around with her mom. We met baby cousin. And then the other thing that happened that same day, we found out we had a new nephew was.

Oh, I felt a baby kick for the first time. And he got it on camera somehow, which is crazy. Yeah. Yeah. It was just, it was a really cool, like, welcome to the baby moon because we are just celebrating. this baby so much, which is cool. We also talked about names, which is something we did on the last baby moon.

Honestly, the most special part, and I've shared this before, as I get older, I appreciate celebrating small things more and more. And so, like a couple years ago, the idea of a baby moon was so ridiculous and a honeymoon for a baby. Like, how weird is that?

But I realize now, and you actually said this when we're headed down there, what a special time it is for us to be able to celebrate this pregnancy and this child in a similar way we did and so that was really awesome and then on top of that I hadn't hung out with you babe as a friend yeah in a minute and over a year and a half yeah we've been co-parents together we've been you know spouses together we've been co-host together we've been neighbors and all these things but to have this time where it was just friendship with you and to hear you giggle, which happened a couple times, uh, it was just really fun. I mean, we do date night and we try to do date night once a week, which is, you know, sometimes really hard and we try to take little getaways and stuff. But having a somewhat extended period of time where we knew that Drew was in great hand,

she was with grandma and grandpa and I could get ready at night just for you and be able to sit there and have a conversation and not worry about listening to the monitor and which is all just a blessing i'm not complaining about any of that that's one that's the greatest gift in life it's nice to take a breath you know yes it was it was awesome to be able to hang out with you i will say closing out the baby moon summary again stay tuned for the actual footage of it uh on our main channel but back to the whole concept and purpose of us going on this trip we did it big because we had this weird setup with the NFL hotel points we would recommend uh in whatever way you're able to or can uh sell doing something like a baby moon uh it's just really fun it's really special again let's see

we have we've had multiple moms tune in and just say you know andria says she regrets not taking a baby moon um because it's just a it's just a fun excuse to be able to spend time with your spouse celebrate the baby and you don't have to do anything elaborate you don't have to go to another country you don't have to rent a hotel room you could literally just go out to dinner or go put putting or whatever it is but just make time that's intentionally uh set aside for the baby would you agree with that absolutely i think it's just removing yourself from the chaos of life for a split second and just being able to say okay this baby is another blessing to our And it's obviously going to bring more chaos, but let's just take a moment to say, okay, wow, look at all that's happened.

Let's celebrate each other. Let's celebrate the baby. And let's just smell the roses pretty much. Yeah. Today we are continuing our story about getting pregnant and miscarriage. We left off talking about kind of the aftermath of a miscarriage. and how it affected our relationship and just kind of our mindset going forward. Yeah, I do want to start off by saying that we have received so many emails.

We thank you for taking the time to sit down and share your story with us. And while a lot of these stories are not fun to read, much less experience, they're so meaningful for you to share and talk about the things you learned. Sean and I are so grateful. and we're trying to figure out a good way to like how can we responsibly help other people with with you know the stories that have been shared with us so I think one of the most fascinating things and interesting things that I have learned since having a miscarriage is we have had the pleasure of interviewing so many amazing couples on this show and I feel like every single person has a

different story whether it's miscarriage or broken families or blended families or adoption or infertility, I feel like, I mean, I hate to say that so many people and everybody goes through something, but just know that if you are going through something, you aren't alone because everybody is going through something. The hardest thing that we went through after the miscarriage was trying, was unifying our relationship again and being on the same page, whether it was because of emotional, you know, just hurt and pain from the trauma and hesitation with life and finances, we just couldn't get on the same page. And when we finally did, which was two years later, yeah. We were in a good space. We were in a good place. We were like, okay, I don't think

it'll ever be the perfect time as far as like finances and career, but we feel ready. We feel ready to kind of dive in and see what happens and so when it came to trying I don't think we did anything different except for we had talked about that for about a year straight I did everything in my power that I could to get my body ready I took the supplements I went and saw an acupuncturist which in my mind was like helping my body I went and did blood work to make sure everything was you know, all my levels for hormones and nutrients was right and I ate properly and I worked out properly and I just, I tried to prep my body to make sure that it was best set up to get pregnant. I think the biggest reason why we weren't ready as a couple in those two years to start

trying or for that uncertainty or for that next step was because you and I weren't on a good page right and i'm not saying like our marriage was bad or anything was wrong it's just when you aren't unified and in a healthy spot relationally you can't be in a phase of such uncertainty when it comes to a kid to like be each other's number ones i we weren't each other's like top supporters and teammates in those two years because we were budding heads a lot with such a big topic and a heavy pain and the loss that it wouldn't have worked

but when we finally got on the same page and started to really work on a relationship and work on us and started to have fun again and started to really be each other's number ones it seemed like the perfect time for us to bring in an outside uncertainty I heard an analogy there the other day of someone comparing

marriage to hunting. Okay. And no, in all seriousness. Yeah, I love it. Where you have one target and there's, you know, someone hunting from one perspective. And the worst thing that could happen is someone from another perspective also hunting or in this instance attacking an issue. So to your point of being on the same page, if you're both coming at something from the same direction,

From the same direction, on the same page, then the likelihood of someone getting hurt is way less than coming up. But if you're both hunting from opposite directions. Do you like my analogy now? Yes, I do. Okay. Good. When you did get pregnant, you didn't feel like you could celebrate. You said that multiple times.

Well, I mean, do you remember this? I mean, I remember vividly. I remember we had been trying and we kind of. It was kind of just like a, we're just going to go with the flow. And then if something happens, something happens. But we're just going with the flow. And we're over at our friends. When you say gone with the flow.

You know what I mean. We were over at our friends house, our best friends. And I thought I felt different, but I don't know. I think I was just in denial because of the miscarriage. Because the miscarriage, I just, I was in denial about pregnancy. I didn't, I didn't know how it was going to work. second time. Because when you go through something like that, when you go through anything traumatic in regards to a baby and a child, you kind of build a wall up around your heart because you don't

ever want to feel a heartbreak again. So I tried to remove all emotion and just kind of desensitize myself. So if I took a pregnancy test and it said positive, I pictured myself just kind of going void of all emotion. So we were over at our friend's house and And my friend and I, we were both trying to have a kid at the same time. So we were very aware of like schedules and cycles and when we should, whatever, be having a period or not. And I remember going over there and she's like, so how are things going? And I was like, well, I'm a couple days late, which I'm usually very on schedule. And she was like, you're taking a test right now.

And it was pizza night. So you're supposed to be making pizza and the boys were in the kitchen making pizza. and we ran back into her bathroom and she had pregnancy tests because they were trying as well and she gave me one and I was like I'm not it's not going to be positive even if I am pregnant too early and I took it in literally within 10 seconds of taking the test it turned positive which I actually haven't heard the the play by play on this and I just looked at her and I was like holy crap hold on but pregnancy tests are wrong. what?

No. No? No like that. So you can get like false positive sometimes where you could look at a test and it's like, oh, is that a positive? Is that a negative? But this was like in 10 seconds, it was like positive. Like the lines were as clear as they could possibly be.

Okay. And I just remember standing there and I was like, holy crap. And she's like, she was freaking out, freaking out. freaking out and I was just like holy crap and that's literally all I could say and that's it sounds weird but that's literally all I felt in like a good holy crap excited holy crap like scared it was kind of in I want you to tell your side of the story from when I came out of the bathroom and I literally just handed you a pregnancy test and I was like here you go because the first time we got pregnant which was an accident

and we weren't trying, but it was still a miracle and a blessing. I was, I had every emotion in the world going through me. I was ecstatic. I was terrified. In my mind, we were having a kid and that was it. Like, our life had changed Trevor in that day. And when that kind of Cinderella story had been taken away from us, because it was like, oh, there are so many more aspects to pregnancy

than you ever were aware of, and so many different complications can happen. so many like so many things as soon as i got pregnant the second time it was kind of like this holy crap here we go again and i didn't want to act excited because i didn't know if it was going to last i didn't want to think one day forward because i didn't want to think of all the complications and the tests and like everything that was going to come of it i didn't want to you know be so elated didn't be like, oh, we're having a kid because I didn't know if we were. So I just, I felt, I just felt kind of, eh, I was happy. You don't get me wrong.

But I was like, eh. Like overwhelmed with. Yeah, like get ready. It's easier to like remain stoic and just kind of try to remain on one emotional plane and not get too high or too low because the higher and more excited you get. the more you open yourself up to like a deeper hurt right because it's like oh you know you and this is I didn't understand why people didn't tell their families that they were pregnant until like week 12 but it's like it is so much harder

to to retroactively or sorry to tell your family hey we have pregnant and then everybody celebrates and then that's all you're talking about because everybody's so excited and then you find out you have a miscarriage and and then everyone asked you about it or like it's those awkward interactions of like so how are you doing it's easier to just be like uh i'm struggling a little bit we'd have miscarriage like five weeks ago and they're like you know it's just that's an easier conversation than to have the celebrations and then have to go back and well absolutely and i have a bunch of friends who unfortunately have miscarried and lost beautiful babies and they're they're the same way they're like i didn't tell anybody that i

had a miscarriage because at that moment I didn't want to share it with the world I didn't want the world to just say I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry because you don't want to just refill that pain over and over again but maybe we're all doing it wrong maybe we all need to share it because like I said every pregnancy and every baby should be celebrated and if lost mourned the tradition or etiquette is to wait till you're 12 weeks pregnant not etiquette that's what people usually do because the majority of those miscarriages, like chemical miscarriages happen in the first 12 weeks. Is that right?

Correct. But I would say, ladies, if you get pregnant, tell the world. Those babies should be celebrated. That's what I'm. That's a really interesting thought. But you're also then asking them to open up to hurt. You don't get one without the other. But it also hurts no matter what.

And no woman should feel like they have to hide a pregnancy because it's not valid or it wasn't far enough along to be valid. You are pregnant. You were pregnant. And even if it's difficult to go through with the world, the world should celebrate that for you. That's huge. That's an interesting thought. I think there's a lot that goes in that. A lot.

I think for you listening, you know, decide what's best for you probably. Absolutely. But I also think following etiquette just because it's risky to tell someone before 12 weeks is dumb. Because, I mean, we are religious people. Think of how many prayers that beautiful baby could have in those uncertain weeks. That's a really good point. And think the support a mom could get to help her not stress out and live in fear for 12 weeks and try to keep this pent-up secret. And I just, I think that stigma is a little wrong.

But let me challenge you right now live. Oh, gosh. We've talked about how when we have our second, you don't want to share it for a while. I know. And I'm saying I'm wrong. I'm saying it's so natural to protect yourself just like talking about when we got pregnant with Drew how I didn't feel like I could celebrate

and I didn't feel like I should celebrate and I protected myself from that pain. Well, and I've said the same thing if and when we start trying again for our second kid I don't say trying again. You're so ridiculous. Are you talking about naked time? Naked time.

of course we've talked about and we start trying again if we get pregnant i probably want to wait longer this time to share anything but i'm challenging myself even and saying i think that perspective might be wrong because yes it opens you up to more pain and it opens you up to having more people i relive that pain by saying i'm sorry and that they're there they're there for you and they're supporting you, but maybe that's what we should do. Because, like you said, if we all just try to avoid emotion, I think we're failing to celebrate and mourn things that we should. What's up, everybody?

Welcome back to a couple things. What's Sean and Andrew? A podcast all about couples. And the things they go through. Today's live stream, the purpose of it, is to answer all of the, questions you might have had about the gender reveal that we did, which by the way, was so much fun. This pregnancy has just been so different from the get-go that we saw it as like this little human's own journey and own celebration and everything is different because we're, I'm now

pregnant and chasing around a toddler and our life is different. Everything is different. So we didn't want to just repeat Drew's life. We wanted to do something different. So we decided to do the gender reveal and on top of that i was thinking about when i prepared everything for drew it was so excessive we bought 40 of everything in every color in case it was a boy in case it was a girl and with this baby we learned so much with drew that you just don't need a lot of stuff and i didn't really want to do the excessiveness this time so i wanted to be able to know the gender so we could truly prepare and, like, have everything ready. Gab Morad is asking, are you scared about athletic expectations from others for our son and for

Drew? I honestly feel more worried about Drew's expectations than the boys. Yes, I played in the NFL. Didn't have a stellar career. If you're new here, uh, you might not know about it. but I bounced around a lot. Sean has an epic, legendary career that I'm worried Drew might have expectations for.

So in my mind, I'm more worried about her. Yes, we talk about that a lot. We have a lot of worries and fears that society will put a lot of pressure on our little kids to be athletic and to follow in our footsteps. But it's a mission of ours from day one to teach them and raise them to be so confident in just following what it is they love that we won't push them to be athletic.

We'll be pushing them to try new things and to find something they love and to just kind of, whether that's being a pianist or a mathematician or whatever it is. We have no pressure on them. Caitlin wants to know if you're going to try for a V-back, Sean. I am not opposed kind of in the same. same category. Someone asked if my C-section scar hurts while my belly grows. Yes, it does. It like gets super achy. I feel like you've been more uncomfortable this pregnancy than my true. I got more. There's something going on up here. Yeah, I got more uncomfortable faster with

little man. He's very like dense and compressed, whereas Drew was more spread out. So like he's already sitting on my lungs and my bladder and like everything. I'm not opposed to a V-back. Everything so far with the ultrasounds looks good. There isn't any high-risk pregnancy alerts that we had with Drew. The only thing my doctor is concerned about is because Drew was so big for me and she got stuck in my pelvis that this would most likely happen again. So we're going to do another ultrasound closer to the due date to kind of like figure it out.

But I'm not opposed to anything. I don't really have a plan, whatever is best for baby. when Sean and I had the the 20 week ultrasound experience with Drew I feel like that changed our whole perspective whereas it was such a tangible realization that oh my gosh we're not in charge of anything this is all of our all out of our control all we can do is control our response right and how we deal with it and and I think it's in understanding that Drew's going to get hurt and there's going to be some things that go wrong and things I in our experience as parents

you want to control everything you want to control the schedule you want to control their diet you want to control who they're around you want to control what medicines they take and when you realize that you can do some of that some of the time but not all the time it's just having this humility and understanding and trust I guess faith it's how to having the faith that helps get us through that. Did I say that right? Yeah, I think it's the only way you can understand and make sense of everything because you truly don't have control over a lot of different things. Kaylee wants to know, were you disappointed when you had to have a C-section? Oh my gosh. I feel like with, she said, I feel like with mine, it made me feel like unworthy.

There were a lot of emotions going into the delivery with Drew because one, I was, I already felt guilty that she was high risk because I thought it was something that I did. There's a lot of like mom guilt that goes into the pregnancy process and delivery. And then I had my plan where I wanted to deliver naturally with no medicine and I wanted to just like do it that way. And after 17 hours, I decided to get an epidural and I felt so much guilt and like I was doing something wrong. And then when we ended up in a C-section, I felt even more guilty. Yes, I felt I went through the whole gamut. then when Drew came out, it's like the world stopped and nothing else mattered. I would do anything in the world to deliver my baby.

And if that's the safest way for her and for whatever little man needs, that's all that matters. Yep. I would weigh in, but I feel like my opinion is ignorant. I'm just glad to have met Drew. Thank you.