Dateline NBC - Return to the Lake
Episode Date: February 18, 2025Exclusive new details in the case of Susan Smith, who murdered her two young boys in 1994. Craig Melvin speaks with David Smith about his ex-wife’s recent attempt to be released from prison. ...
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Tonight on Dateline. So many people still think about them.
How I wish I could tell them.
I miss you so much.
Whoever has my children, please bring them home.
It was the story that broke America's heart.
She said a man forced her out of the car and sped off with the children.
Susan is distraught. She's crying. The tears seem genuine.
I believe David's words come out of her crying. The tears seem genuine. I believe David
Word is coming out of her mouth. Then the news no one could believe. Susan Smith has
been arrested. Some of our agents were just sobbing when the car was pulled out of the
water. Now Susan Smith breaks decades of silence. Should she be released? Susan doesn't pose
a danger to society. She lied and manipulated everybody. They can't let her out. Susan doesn't pose a danger to society. She lied and manipulated
everybody. I can't let her out. You don't believe that Susan Smith is remotely
remorseful. Right. A powerful new interview with a father whose loss still aches.
You're not gonna make me bitter. You're not gonna make me mad at the world.
You're not gonna win. A mother's unthinkable crime,
a father's unforgettable courage,
the case of Susan Smith.
Tonight, a revealing new look.
I'm Lester Holt, and this is Dateline.
Here's Craig Melvin with Return to the Lake.
A manhunt is spreading across this country for a man who pulled a carjacking Tuesday
night.
A mother's nightmare came true in South Carolina.
Tips continue to come in, but there's no sign of the 14-month and 3-year-old brothers.
Tonight, the tragedy that gripped a nation 30 years ago and still won't let go.
Why do you think people still care so much?
Because we all united with the hope that we would find those little boys.
2 brothers missing for 9 agonizing days a nationwide
manhunt
a heartbreaking it.
And the mother at the center of it all speaking out for the
first time in decades.
speaking out for the first time in decades. While the father continues his fight for justice.
Would you have been better off had the state executed her?
Wow. For myself, yes.
Because I wouldn't have to be dealing with what's coming up now
in the future.
It all started in the tiny town of Union, South Carolina.
A rural community, textiles and farming were the big businesses there.
It had just a few traffic lights.
Churchgoing neighbors would wave on their morning walks.
The people here are friendly.
Harold Thompson grew up in Union and is now the mayor.
They're willing to help in any type of situation.
You know, we've got a lot of volunteers, people get along with each other, no big problems or issues.
But that all changed the night of October 25th, 1994.
Around 9 p.m., a young woman banged frantically on the door of this house.
Homeowner Shirley McLeod answered.
She just wasn't physically able to hardly stand up
and took her to the couch and asked her to tell me again
what she said.
And she said, he's taking my children.
He's got my children.
Shirley's son immediately called 911.
Some guy jumped into a red light with her car.
And he's got the kid?
Yes, ma'am, in her car.
I don't know if she's really hysterical. Get him going, Pam. I got two kids. car.
The woman at the door was Susan Smith, a shot quiet 23 year-old
brunette who worked as a secretary at a local textile
company.
Tiffany Moss knew her from school.
What was she like in high school.
She was just you know nothing extra popular or anything like
that, but you know she was just a friendly high school girl.
Susan and her husband David lived in Union and had 2 little
boys Michael 3 and Alex 14 months.
It was just your your typical little boy toddler you
know precious, playful, sweet. But now they were missing.
Sheriff Howard Wells raced to the scene. And when I walked in Susan was seated on
the sofa there in the living room. He talked to Dateline in 1995.
I knew time was of the essence and so we went right directly
into the
informational stage of trying to find out what happened.
Susan told him she was driving with her boys that night to
visit a friend named Mitch Sinclair and stopped at a red
light. She said that's when a black man suddenly accosted her with a gun.
After giving her statement,
Susan called her husband David.
What do you remember about that?
I remember it was around nine o'clock
and Sheriff Wells said that your children have been taken
and we're at the McLeod residence.
You need to get here.
And when you get there, what do you find?
Susan is in the living room, and when I walk in,
she's just distraught.
She's crying.
What was she saying about what happened?
That I was at a red light,
and that a black man jumped in the car,
made me drive, and then forced me out of the car
and drove off with them and still in the car.
The sheriff put out an APB while David and Susan went on camera
to appeal for help.
I was stopped at a red light and just out of nowhere,
this black guy came up and just opened the door
and jumped in the car and he had a gun and he had it pointed in my side and told me to drive and so I did
and when I tried to ask him why he was doing this or whatever he just told me shut up or
he'd kill me. So I just kept driving, driving and my babies were in the back seat and they
were crying and I tried to tell them everything was going to be okay.
She said she drove a few miles until the man told her to stop.
He told me to get out and I said, well, can I get my children?
And he said, no. He said, they said, I don't have time for that.
And they were just crying.
Do you want to make a plea to if anybody sees this story
or this person?
Yes, if anybody sees anything that looks unusual.
I mean, this is a black guy with two white children.
Obviously, they're not his.
You want to make a plea as well?
Not just if anybody sees anything whatsoever.
Please contact your local police department
and inform them of anything that looks unusual. Please contact the local police Department and inform them of
anything unusual please.
For sheriff Wells it was an all hands on deck moment he
sprang into action ordering his deputies to hunt down the
carjacker and find Michael and Alex.
We are hoping that he's going to be as good as his word that
he will not harm the children since he did not harm her.
that he's going to be as good as his word, that he will not harm the children
since he did not harm her.
But what police hoped would be a quick search
stretched into nine days that captivated the country.
We'll take you inside the investigation
with newly unearthed audio tapes.
How do you feel today about it?
Well, I feel better now that that came out,
but still worried about everybody else. I'm not about it. How do you feel today.
Revealing jailhouse letters and exclusive interviews.
I used to sit and look at the back of her head
and think about killing.
You want to do that.
All from those 9 fateful days and the unspeakable crime that
left everyone asking one question.
Why why on earth it was intense for those 9 days within it
went thermonuclear. In the early morning hours of October 26th, deputies scoured South Carolina searching
for a kidnapper.
Said it was a black male driving a burgundy protege.
Affirmative.
He had two juveniles with him.
From what I understood these were small children.
Sheriff Wells asked Susan for a more detailed description,
and she was happy to comply.
She came in between 3 and 4 in the morning,
met with a composite artist on day one.
Susan described a tall black man, 30 to 40 years old, wearing a knit hat.
The sketch was disseminated widely through the throughout
the state.
Jeff Bailey is the current sheriff of Union back then he
was a young deputy just starting out.
And we were looking through files and probation pro who had
a criminal history of child molestation or you know crimes
against children we're trying to put that face together with pictures that we had.
I was six months into my second job.
As daylight broke, reporter Heather Hoops Matthews
drove in to work at WIS-TV,
the NBC affiliate in Columbia, South Carolina.
How did you actually hear about the case initially?
I walked into the newsroom in the morning
and the assignment desk said we
hear there are 2 children missing in Union.
Grab a photographer and go what are you hearing what what are
folks say at that time I remember thinking how shocking
that was.
You know that's terrible surely we're going to find the kids.
As Heather and the other local reporters began digging around
Union. They started to learn a lot more about Susan and David
Smith.
What were your impressions of them initially.
I thought that he was very loving to her I saw him put his
arm around her and and I just remember thinking how nice that
was.
Both Susan and David had grown up in Union
in modest church-going families.
How did you meet?
We were both working at a local grocery store.
Winn-Dixie.
Yes, Winn-Dixie.
And then we just got to talking like teenagers do.
Small talk soon led to dating.
And the young couple married in 1991.
Susan was 19.
David was 20.
And then Michael was born.
And I was head over heels.
My first son.
Then came little Alex.
Tell me about Michael. Tell me about Alex.
Michael was the more sensitive one.
His feelings would get hurt easy when you scolded him. He was
very protective of Alex at the daycare.
I'm even at home Alex was more around but just more mischievous.
Susan later left her job at Winn-Dixie and got a position
as a secretary to the CEO of a major textile company in town.
Says she was an attentive mom.
She always made sure they were well-dressed.
Whoever was taking care of them while we were at work,
she made sure they were in good hands.
But not long after Alex was born,
David and Susan's marriage started to fall apart.
I was a lousy husband.
You know, there was infidelity.
But there was, you know, infidelity on her part, too, after mine, but...
You're both cheating on each other.
Right.
Yeah.
The couple separated in the spring of 1994.
By the next fall, David had a new girlfriend, Tiffany.
Yes, the same Tiffany who knew Susan in high school.
We met after my first year of college
when I started working at Winn-Dixie.
And he was an assistant manager there.
What drew you two to each other?
I just remember the day that I started
when I walked in the door and I saw him stocking shelves.
And I was like hmm.
Susan had started dating someone else to Tom Finley a
co-worker at that textile company.
But what the boys missing David knew he had to be there to
support his wife anyway he could.
As Susan and David got their message out to the media,
deputies and volunteers widened their search
to the woods surrounding Union,
with blood hounds on the ground and helicopters in the air.
Everybody in the state of South Carolina
knew about it as soon as it happened.
Mark Keel is now the chief
of the South Carolina Law Enforcement Division, known as it happened. Mark Keele is now the chief of the South Carolina Law
Enforcement Division, known as SLED.
But in 1994, he was attending law school
and working as a pilot.
So he joined the search team.
And we were up flying the next morning
and looking for that, searching for that vehicle.
You're flying around South Carolina.
What are you guys looking for?
Where are you looking?
We started from where she was carjacked
and we were flying every route that you can imagine.
The manpower is overwhelming.
Reporter Heather Hoops Matthews began following along
with the search teams.
My videographer flew in a helicopter with them
as they flew over Long Lake
and I stayed down on the boat ramp.
What were your folks at law enforcement saying initially to you?
They said they were searching that area because it was close to where she called for help,
you know, knocked on the door.
As the search expanded, so did the media coverage.
What happens to that small town?
It was a multiplying effect.
First, there were six journalists,
then there were 12, then there were 24,
then it felt like there were 250.
The streets were lined with satellite trucks.
A carjacker with a gun took her car
and whiffed her two small children.
The gunmen did not harm them or ask for money.
Soon it will be 24 hours since they last saw their mother.
Union was now in a hot media spotlight,
but still with no sign of those little boys.
With time slipping away,
police released a new bit of video
to jumpstart their investigation.
Would it work? work.
October 28 1994 a Friday Michael and Alex Smith had
been missing for 3 days the family released this video of Susan with the boys celebrating
Alex's first birthday.
What did that do for the story.
I think the release of the images of Michael and Alex
swiftly added to the interest in the story and I remember
watching it in the satellite truck over and over and over
and thinking surely we're going to find Michael and Alex. What started as a
small-town carjacking is now a massive search first spreading into four
surrounding states now nationwide. Police are receiving calls from all over one
tip every minute. It hurts all the way to the heart and I'm a grandmother
and I said what if that was my children what if it was my grandbabies. Everyone in the
community came to look for Michael and Alex. People were on horseback looking for them
and they were you know people just looking everywhere trying to help to find these kids.
While David stood by Susan,
his new girlfriend, Tiffany, joined the search.
What do you remember about that eight or nine day period?
Just looking everywhere I went,
looking for her car,
looking for this composite drawing of this black man,
looking for Michael and Alex.
I mean, that was all I was doing course then I started
having to hide out myself too because the there were certain
media that were
coming after me and harassing me.
Why were they harassing you
because they have found out that I was
the one the girlfriend and
said they started want to talk to me and
say what I had to say.
Meanwhile police blasted that sketch of the suspect
everywhere.
After the sketch was drawn and it was distributed.
The black people of our community were our greatest
asset.
They came forward and told us who they thought that look
like.
One officer went to the home of a man who resemble the suspect.
We asked him where he was during this time, but it's so
easy to check out. We checked it and he was where he said it
was.
A big disappointment for investigators, but the tips kept
pouring in a robbery in a nearby state.
A man fitting the description of the carjacker has been
spotted 100 miles north of Union
in Salisbury, North Carolina.
A sighting in a national park.
Someone gave a report of a child crying
in a national forest in North Carolina.
That was going on at the same time.
And a man seen running just miles
from where the boys disappeared.
Anything to give us a clue. all of them turned up nothing.
How low could you get in those shops you can get is low issue
will get we were generally flying, you know 300 foot
above ground up to 1000.
Where there moments we did spot something we did see something
no, I mean we spotted cars that you know we're the same color
and you know that were similar but not
what we're looking for.
As they continue to pursue more than 700 tips police developed
other theories about the case could someone who knew Susan be
behind the kidnapping.
They questioned friends and co-workers including
that new boyfriend of hers, Tom Finley, family
members too.
You start finding out an abduction case, a high percentage are family abductions.
You have to look at family to find out what is the motivation here, why or who would have
been behind it.
Investigators wondered whether Susan and David's pending divorce might have played a role.
We had to look at all the possibilities of who may have been involved, of whom it would have benefited from abduction.
Including David Smith. Susan had custody of Michael and Alex.
Could David or someone else have conspired to have the boys kidnapped. Everyone was a suspect in this case until we could narrow it to a single individual
or whatever.
But anyone who may have had a motive, anyone who may have had contact with Susan, who may
have been a participant or whatever, sure, we looked at everybody.
Investigators gave David a polygraph test which he passed
what did the sheriff what did those investigators tell you
privately
their theories what they thought
may have happened.
I don't remember them really talking to me a whole lot after
I took the polygraph and obviously passed as I said
with flying colors.
Then suddenly a new tip from 3,000 miles away,
and this one sounded different.
We're working on some very promising, exciting information
right now, and that's all I'm going to be able to say.
Are you going to...
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Day six in the search for Michael and Alex Smith was Halloween, warm and sunny. But fear hung in the air in Union as parents and kids headed out to trick or treat.
They have a tradition of trick-or-treating in the downtown. Michael Cogdell was a reporter for WYFF,
the NBC affiliate in Greenville, South Carolina.
That Halloween, people were hanging on to one another and one another's kids.
They thought there might be a threat afoot.
I think everybody should stay close, but they're keeping an eye on you.
Alongside the fear, he saw something he didn't expect.
One of the things we noticed, this is a woman who has fingered a black man for this crime,
and you would have thought it would have torn that town apart.
Instead, it brought people together.
There was such love, blacks and whites, arm in arm, hand in hand, holding onto each other's
kids.
On the one week anniversary, Sheriff Wells had nothing new to report.
Well, we've looked at any possible motivation for this case and we have not developed anything
concrete.
What do you remember most about that period of time?
The media.
It was out of control.
Circus.
They were camped out at her parents' house where we were staying.
They were camped out at her parents house where we were staying they were camped out at the courthouse they would try to follow us I grew up in
South Carolina and remember the extensive media coverage and the endless
waiting I was a teenager and I like millions of other folks for days on end
glued to the television,
trying to figure out what happened to these little boys.
For you, day in, day out,
the roller coaster of emotions,
how did you grapple with it?
I just got up every day and did work whatever somebody told me to
do it was go for an interview it was to
take a polygraph.
He cooperated hoping law enforcement would stop looking
at him and find the carjacker I guess I was trying to get more
boots on the ground as you say.
The national search for Michael and Alex continued
while local investigators worked their way down the list
of Susan's family and friends.
They focused on her relationship with Mitchell Sinclair,
the man she said she was going to visit
on the night of the carjacking.
Sheriff Wells was especially interested in Sinclair
after seeing an interview he did with a reporter
for a current affair.
Truth will come out.
What is the truth?
Tell everybody what the truth is.
Exactly what the sheriff
says it is.
Exactly what the sheriff says it is.
Police questioned him several times. Turned out he wasn't even home that night.
Sheriff, has Mitch Sinclair now been eliminated
as a suspect investigation?
I'm not going to say he is any more or any less
than he ever has been because we still do not have
the information we need in this case.
Investigators were also taking a close look at Susan
as a mom and heard nothing but good things.
They never saw those children dirty.
They never saw her spank her children.
We never found one detrimental remark
towards Susan about those children.
Then on the eighth day, a true glimmer of hope at 3.30 a.m.
a call came into the command center a sighting of a young
boy who matched the description of 14 month-old Alex riding in
a car with South Carolina plates he'd been dropped off at
a motel in Washington state solidly right now.
Turns out to be leaving me that it might give us the direction
we need to.
Sheriff Wells appeared a lead.
We're working on some very promising exciting information
right now and that's all I will be able to say.
Susan and David rushed to the command center.
3 hours past the town of Union held its breath.
The sheriff Wells addressed the press once again.
Our hearts or for a while that we were close to
recovering the children in this case that did not happen.
The news was crushing the little boy abandoned in
Washington state was not Alex Smith after all.
It's very hard once you get your hopes up to come back and
then see them day.
Soon after what everyone hoped would be a joyous appearance by
Susan and David they came yet another anguished plea.
I would like to say to whoever
has my children.
That they please
I mean please bring them home.
I would like to take the time to plead
to the American public that you please do not give up
on these two little boys.
But almost as soon as Susan and David
finished their nationally televised plea,
the story took another turn.
That night, Dateline got a tip that crime lab technicians
were headed to Susan's home.
Our cameras captured law enforcement going into the house.
They took photographs, examined paperwork,
dusted apparently for fingerprints,
and went into the crawlspace underneath the home.
Can you tell us what you're doing?
The search ended about two hours later and went into the crawl space underneath the home. Can you tell us what you're doing? No, I can't.
The search ended about two hours later
with investigators carrying several paper bags
out of the house.
To outsiders, it didn't look like investigators
were any closer to answering the painful question,
where were Michael and Alex?
But for insiders, the investigation was becoming laser
focused on the only witness in the case, the woman at
its center, Susan Smith herself.
For more than a week the public saw heartbreaking scene 2
young parents pleading for their children safe return.
I want to say to my baby.
I am on the list.
But at the command center sheriff Wells had been verifying Susan's story and not everything checked out
There were questions about the traffic light. She said she was stopped at a red light
Intersection monarch and there were no other cars around
Information from the Department of Public Safety had landed on Sheriff Wells desk
He learned there was no way that light could have
turned red.
That cannot be a car has to be at the opposing light in the
intersection to make a light change.
Without another car the light would stay green.
The sheriff tried to keep his doubts about Susan story under
wraps but other officers were coming to the same conclusion.
What do you recall about how
members of law enforcement word we're talking about the case
there was a lot of
suspicion I would say as to what happened especially after
days that we had searched and look.
Chief Kiel who'd been searching for clues by, says too much of it didn't make sense.
Carjackings take place often,
but generally you end up finding the vehicle.
So as days went by and we didn't find anything,
the suspicion continued to grow.
While retracing the steps Susan said she made that night,
investigators discovered something astonishing that night. You were actually having her followed. Yes
Why because I knew she was running around on me, too
So you have your girlfriend at the time? Yes following your soon-to-be ex-wife, right?
The night that your boys go missing. Yes
going to be ex wife right.
The night that your boys go missing. Yes.
So we were wanting to try and catch her and so he could
counter see and so I put on my pia gear.
The ball had everything and set in the car watching when she
left work and have watched her when she went to the boys up
from daycare.
Tiffany continued to follow her her she saw Susan make several
stops with the boys in the car.
Then a little bit later she went home.
And then I saw the boys they were getting down out of the
backseat and she had Alex on her hip.
Tiffany then went to visit a friend nearby and when she came
back 45 minutes later Susan's car was gone.
So I kind of give up my PI search at that point.
Investigators couldn't find any witnesses who saw
where Susan went that night.
They were becoming more and more convinced
she was hiding something.
So they brought in SLED agent Peter Logan, a a polygraph expert to meet with Susan.
We interviewed him back in 2000.
Soon Smith showed up with her family.
And I introduced myself to her.
Agent Logan quickly built a rapport with Susan and asked her
if she would agree to a polygraph test she said yes.
Then there comes a point where Susan says to you
that she thought that she was probably a suspect.
When she said that to you, what did you think?
I said, don't worry about it.
I told her not to worry.
I was trying to, like, help her pass polygraph test.
I was telling her, like, to think about a field of daisies,
an autumn day in the fall, to calm her down,
to pass the polygraph, because I wanted us to get past that.
When she first sat down with Agent Logan, he took it slowly.
I realized that if Sue and Smith didn't talk about this,
that we may never know what really happened.
So my first polygraph that I did was to determine at that time whether or not the carjacking was
truthful
He didn't tell her the results instead. He said she'd done enough for the day and sent her home
But it didn't take long before rumors that Susan failed a polygraph circulated through the small town of Union
When you had heard that she had failed on this polygraph testated through the small town of Union.
When you heard that she had failed on this polygraph test
would would you talk that up to.
I didn't put a lot of weight into it.
Because to me she just had her children or children ripped
away from her.
Snatch from her.
How how in the world would she be able to pass polygraph.
Susan was supposed to come back the next day to continue the
polygraph but that didn't happen.
She didn't want to come in for the interview so I phoned her
at home.
Agent Logan shared with Dateline this newly unearthed
tape of that call.
Hello soon.
Well that's good, I'm concerned about in this one how you're doing. Well that's good, I'm concerned about you just want to know
how you're doing.
Then he brought up a rumor he heard that Susan told her mom
she'd failed a polygraph he tried to reassure her saying
the results were inconclusive.
I don't want you to misunderstand anything or
anything like that. Yeah. So.
Well, it does worry me.
Yeah.
I'm trying to, trying not to think about it.
Yeah.
Well, you know what the bottom line is, and we talked, is sensitivity.
Every mom who's missing their kids got sensitivity.
He asked her to write down everything she could remember from that night.
She agreed and said she'd meet with him again the next day.
I enjoy talking to you and hopefully you get some
little help out of it.
Okay, I want to feel a lot better than I do know what
they're yeah well that's good that sort of bottom line.
Yeah.
When Susan returned the next morning to continue a
polygraph agent Logan gently explained that part of her
story did not make sense that the light would not have turned red.
I said, is there some reason that you have not been truthful
about this light that happened somewhere else?
It could have happened somewhere else.
She initially denied it.
But then she said, the agent was right.
The carjacking had happened somewhere else,
15 miles away in a town called Carlisle.
I said, well, let's go to Carlisle.
So I got her out in the car and took her in the sled car.
I said now you tell me exactly where you were when the carjacker came out and got in your
car.
And she had some hesitancy in actually picking out the exact location but she did.
He asked her why she didn't say it happened in Carlisle
from the beginning.
Her explanation at that time was that, well, I knew I
shouldn't have been in Carlisle.
That people would question me, why was I in Carlisle
riding around?
She told him that when she was 18, she had an affair with a
married man who used to live in Carlisle.
She said we used to park in the woods down in this area, and
that's when she went back. By the time Susan and the agent left Carlisle. She said we used to park in the woods down in this area, and that's what she went back.
By the time Susan and the agent left Carlisle,
it had grown dark.
So he told her to go home
and write down exactly what happened at this new location.
I knew at that time in my heart
that she would probably tell us the truth,
but I wasn't sure under what circumstances.
She trusted me, I thought at the time,
she trusted Sheriff Wells.
So, Agent Logan alerted Sheriff Wells
that Susan had changed her story.
Then, they put their heads together
and came up with a plan for the next day,
a carefully orchestrated dance
that would lead to an unimaginable admission.
There was a shockwave.
It's like the place was struck by lightning.
["The Night of the Dead"]
["The Night of the Dead"]
["The Night of the Dead"]
November 3rd, 1994. For nine days days Americans had been glued to
their TV's hoping for the safe return of 2 young boys.
It's been real difficult and that morning Susan and David
Smith appeared on the today show.
I think what's going on more than anything is the lower.
The public had no idea Susan had changed her story, but it was
clear feelings toward her we're shifting Katie Couric asked
about the police search of her home the night before.
Were you there at the time and do you know what they were
looking for.
No man was not there and I do not know.
I did agree, sign a form for them to do that.
I was aware they were going to do that.
How do you all feel when you hear that some members of the public think that you might
have been involved?
Well, my first reaction is it hurts to know that I would be accused or even thought that I would ever do anything to harm
my children.
David spoke directly to his boys.
And mommy
believe that you guys are OK and that yours and that you
will be coming home soon.
We're not going to give up until we find you.
Just hours after that interview, Susan handed agent Pete Logan a written statement
of her new version of the car jacket.
Logan recorded their interview that day.
How do you feel today about it?
It didn't happen there, but it happened somewhere.
How do you feel, how are your feelings today?
Well, I feel better now that that came out,
but there are still worries made about it.
Agent Logan says he could tell she was getting tired. It was
time to set in motion the plan he and Sheriff Wells had worked
out.
He asked the sheriff to come into the interview room and
explain that Susan had changed her story pretending the
sheriff didn't already know.
And so we that in there for maybe a couple minutes and
discussed it.
And then I left on the pretext of somebody beaten me
with the idea that the sheriff would would talk to her to see
how he made out.
Susan repeated her new story that the carjacking actually
happened in Carlisle
that gave sheriff Wells an opportunity to pounds.
I told her that we had that intersection under surveillance
has that suspected drug drop site
and that it could not have happened there as she said.
This was a bluff there was no surveillance and she says why
do you say that and I told I said there's no way because we would have seen.
With that
Susan Smith completely lost.
She broke down started sobbing she cried she said she was so
ashamed and then she asked for my gun.
And I said why would you want to do that if you wanted to
kill herself.
And I said but why and she said you don't understand. My children are not all right. That was the first incriminating statement that she had made.
After nine days of intense investigation, hundreds of tips, and a search that consumed
the country, Susan Smith finally told the truth. She'd killed her two young boys.
When I walked back in, Susan was on her knees
and crying hysterically with her head in the chair.
And the sheriff had told me that she had admitted
that she had let the car go in the lake
with her kids in the backseat.
They gave her a pen and paper,
and she wrote down her confession.
I dropped to the lowest when I allowed my children to go down that ramp into the water
without me.
She told the sheriff where to look for her car.
A few hours later, divers found it at the bottom of John D. Long Lake, two small bodies
strapped in car seats in the back.
Sheriff Wells alerted the press.
Susan Smith has been arrested and will be charged
with two counts of murder in connection
with the deaths of her children, Michael III
and Alexander, 14 months.
There was a shockwave.
It's like the place was struck by lightning.
Thunder went over that crowd. Shock.
How did you find out that she had confessed?
When Sheriff Wells announced it to the public.
That's the way I found out.
Did you think initially maybe this was some sort of mistake, obviously?
They've got the wrong person.
No.
My thoughts were just, what is he talking about?
I didn't think it was a mistake.
I didn't think it was correct.
I was just like, what is he talking about?
You couldn't even get your head around it.
No.
The question of what happened to the boys had been answered,
but why it happened would take years to untangle.
A highly emotional trial would rivet the nation
and have neighbors taking sides.
What were people saying leading up to the trial?
You know, there was the question of,
do you think she should die for killing them?
Family secrets would spill out,
setting the stage for an emotional showdown.
You don't kill your children for what happened to you.
I wanted an eye for an eye.
I know what I did was so horrible.
It was a heartbreaking end to an already tragic story. The vehicle, a 1990 Mazda driven by Smith, was located late Thursday afternoon in Lake
John D. Long near Union.
Two bodies were found in the vehicle's back seat.
I remember Willard Scott crying on the Today Show during one of the weather breaks.
And I would like to wear this white rose this morning. For those two sweet children, we are so, all of us, emotionally involved in this story.
You're sharing this information with viewers, with viewers around the world as well. What was what was the initial reaction.
People are angry.
For the black community there was added rage.
Everybody's looking for black man and you know.
I hate this use this as a scapegoat you know to cover up
the incident, you know could have been anything else you
know, but this is the way she shows up.
Susan's attempts to blame a black man in flame painful
stereotypes union sheriff Jeff Bailey.
She deflected on to somebody else that she knew would gain
attention from the media and attention from law enforcement
is a black man that took these 2 white children.
Susan's brother Scotty address the racial issue at a press conference.
On behalf of my family, we want to apologize to the black community of Union.
I'm thankful, especially to many of my black friends who called me and, you know, to comfort
me and to tell me that they still love me. Amidst the tense climate, police drove Susan to the courthouse the day after her confession.
This is no overstatement at all.
There was a howling lynch mob of women waiting to see her.
I want your friend back!
You need to cry!
There was one woman leading that mob of outraged women.
They were just outraged, black, white.
And I remember she screamed at Susan, hold your head up.
Hold your head up, I want to look at you.
And that's when I knew this is going to fascinate the world for a long time.
Three days after Susan Smith confessed to killing her sons,
Michael and Alex Smith were laid to rest.
Their father David, inconsolable as he walked into the church to say a final goodbye.
No, Greg, it throws everything out of whack.
Forever.
It changes everything, having to bury a child.
And burying two of them, that the mother killed them.
I, I, I didn't know which way to go.
Scores of strangers felt his pain and gathered outside the
church to pay their respects.
You still can't you know grasping say why would somebody
do anything like that not alone a mother.
Nearly a month later even gathered the courage to face
Susan.
She just casually like you and I sitting sitting here, said, I'm sorry.
And that was about as far as it went.
Me?
Craig, I would have been around her ankles begging her
to forgive me if I had done what she did.
That was it?
That was it.
That was it.
Did she ask you to do anything during that conversation?
Did she ask for you to testify on her behalf?
Did she ask?
No, she didn't even ask for my forgiveness.
Did you ask her why?
Yes, I did ask her.
Why did you do this?
Why did you?
Why?
And she said, I don't know why, but I'm sorry.
David did not buy Susan's apology or her apparent remorse. And neither did prosecutors.
They believed Susan's actions were premeditated
and decided to seek the death penalty.
Despite her confession, Susan pleaded not guilty
to two counts of murder.
What were people saying leading up to the trial?
You know, there was the question of,
do you think she should die for killing them?
That got a lot of coverage, and there was the question of, do you think she should die for killing them? That got a lot of coverage,
and there was a lot of discussion.
Many in the community were uncomfortable
with the idea of sentencing a person to death,
especially a woman.
But the young prosecutor in charge of the case,
Tommy Pope, decided that shouldn't matter.
I felt like Susan got treated differently
than anyone else would in a similar situation.
And I was determined from a justice standpoint
not to let that happen.
Why do you think she was treated differently?
I think the problem was Susan reminded people,
and I say people, us jurors, law enforcement,
she could have been your sister, She could have been your sister she could have been your
co-worker.
Less than a year after she killed her boys Susan stood
trial for their murders opening statements of the trial of
Susan Smith.
Once again news crews from all over the country descended on
the small town of Union.
Main Street in front of the courthouse is shut down.
The prosecution was ready to present its case.
What did you have to prove.
So in South Carolina always tell people about death penalty
is like a murder plus in this 2 part trial first part is about
guilt. Second part if you're successful on guilt is the
penalty.
Prosecutors told the jury Susan's guilt was not in
question her handwritten confession made that clear then
they presented their theory of why she did it.
What made her kill those boys was the selfish desire, a
delusional desire, but a selfish desire to be with
another man.
but a selfish desire to be with another man. That man was Tom Finley, the wealthy coworker Susan dated
after her marriage fell apart.
The prosecution argued Susan was in love with him.
There was just one problem.
He didn't want kids?
Prosecutors showed jurors a letter Tom wrote to Susan
a week before she killed her children.
In it, he explained why he ended their relationship.
Susan, I could really fall for you, but like I have told you before, there are some things
about you that aren't suited for me and yes, I am speaking about your children.
The fact is, I don't want children and I don't want to be responsible
for anyone else's children either.
Prosecutors argued those words pushed Susan to murder.
You say, well, why wouldn't she just give away the kids?
If you give away the kids, you're a bad mother.
But if the carjacker takes your kids, you're a victim.
And if you're a victim, you're more likely
that Tom Finley's gonna come and rescue you.
The prosecution argued that Susan's carjacking story
was a cold calculated plan.
Her failure to try and save her own sons was proof.
I always tell people if she showed up at the House wet
injured, you know from diving out of the car if she'd gone
straight that House and said I've done a horrible thing you
and I probably never be talking about it today, but but she
fabricated that story and put that car in the lake.
Experts testified it took 6 minutes for Susan's car to sink
and played the simulation video for the jury.
You know as it goes down and the water comes through the
vents in the floorboard and it's coming up and it's coming
toward that camera and ultimately it covers camera
which I mean even describe it makes it hard to you know
breathe almost. Day after day David listened to testimony
about the deaths of his sons and each day he was forced to look at the woman
who killed him. As you sat there what's going through your mind? I don't know if I should
even answer that. Be honest though. I used to sit there and look at the back of her head
and then look at where the bailiffs were,
the officers were, and think about killing her.
How quick could I get to her?
Could I reach her before that officer reaches me?
Or could I get to her before that person would jump
in front of me before I got my hands on her?
Yeah.
You wanted her dead?
I did.
Of course, David never acted on those thoughts.
He was hoping the state would put Susan to death.
But defense attorneys would have something to say about that.
They had a very different explanation for why Susan killed her children.
It is a story of a really complete
emotional collapse.
Susan Smith's lawyers had done everything they could to keep the death penalty off the table.
Was there ever a plea deal offered?
Absolutely, yes.
She would have fled guilty in exchange for a life sentence.
Lead attorney David Brugge.
And the prosecution said no and made the offer again and again and again. The defense saw just one option lay out the case for why Susan
should not be sentenced to death.
Most people think about Susan Smith, it's it's manipulative
it's conniving some of this described as pure evil pure
evil, yeah, the time that you spent with the preparing for
her defense what what was she like.
Yeah, the time that you spent with the preparing for her
defense what what was she like.
A lot of what I saw was that she was just in an agony of
grief and remorse and self loathing
grief for children remorse for what she had done.
Out of the gate they offered a very different explanation for
why Susan killed her sons what led led her to the lake is a story of mental illness.
It's a story of depression.
It is a story of a really complete emotional collapse.
They argued Susan wasn't homicidal that night.
She was suicidal.
To prove it, defense attorneys would present the details
of Susan's past attempts to take her own life.
Law enforcement agents were also called as witnesses
to share what Susan told them.
She mentioned to me that she had started down the ramp
a couple times herself to commit suicide with the kids.
She felt that was the best thing.
Agent Pete Logan spent days observing Susan
during the search for her boys.
He testified he believed her account
that she tried to take her own life as well that night.
She stopped both times and got out of the car.
And she said, I'll never understand why I reached in
and let the emergency break go.
The main thrust of her defense was sympathy, sympathy, sympathy.
They told the jury Susan didn't kill her children
to be with a wealthy man.
To be clear, there was a wealthy boyfriend.
Yes.
Okay.
You just maintain that it wasn't her affair
with the wealthy boyfriend that led to the murders of Michael and Alex.
It wasn't her desire to get back together
with the wealthy boyfriend.
That relationship was dead as a doornail
before this crime occurred.
The defense argued what happened at the lake
stemmed from trauma far older than a recent breakup.
It began when she was a child.
She grew up in a in a family marked by alcoholism and
violence and finally
her father did commit suicide.
Susan was 6 when he died.
He shot himself and then called 9, 1, 1, and screamed into the
phone to get them to come and help him that is what suicide is
like it's not rational people want to die and they want to
live at the same time and what she did at the lake really
echoed
the way her father left her when she was just a little girl.
The defense hired a renowned psychiatrist to evaluate Susan
and testify about her past.
This is a person
scarred by childhood.
Scarred by a disordered family, a dysfunctional family.
And the defense argued those untreated scars and depression
led to suicidal thoughts.
She is a child at age 13 was making childish suicidal
suicidal attempts with pills and again at age 18.
The last attempt so serious Susan was hospitalized
while you're dating even when you were married did she seem
like she was mentally ill at any point no
no depression. Even when you were married, did she seem like she was mentally ill at any point? No. No depression?
No.
No.
It seemed totally normal?
Yes.
And when you heard that, did you think, oh, well that might explain this or that might
explain that?
Or no?
No.
I don't...
Nothing gives you the right to kill your children.
Susan's attorneys presented even more evidence to shed light on her behavior.
It involved her relationship with stepfather Beverly Russell.
A father who seemed to the outside world what she had lacked in in her earliest years. But it turned out that
he had been sexually molesting her when she was a teenager.
Age at least at age 1516.
Susan reported the abuse to a teacher social services
investigated and Russell confessed but after a closed
court hearing,
no criminal charges were filed.
Russell did agree to move out and undergo family counseling.
After Susan's arrest, it was Russell who took out a mortgage
to pay for her defense.
Bev Russell's quite the interesting character
in all of this.
He's an abuser.
And oh, by the way, he hires you to represent her.
Yes.
Expert witnesses testified the sexual abuse
was a major contributor to Susan's depression,
promiscuity, and insecurity.
And it all came crashing down at that lake.
You argued there was another reason
that Susan snapped that night, this mounting fear that
her private life was about to be exposed.
What did she fear was going to come out?
Well, her ex-husband, David, knew that she had had this sexual relationship with her boss,
and it had also come out that this sexual relationship
with her stepfather had resumed.
In the year leading up to the boys' deaths,
the defense told the jury that Beverly Russell
had more sexual encounters with Susan.
And she is exhibiting the promiscuity the jury that Beverly Russell had more sexual encounters with Susan.
And she is exhibiting the promiscuity and the impaired judgment of an untreated incest
survivor of somebody who was left to figure out what had been done to her on her own.
The defense argued Susan worried it would come out during her divorce.
She was a single mother with 2 small children who is about to
be utterly disgraced and she could not could not
survive this and the children could not be left alone without
their mother and that is where
the suicide idea
came from.
The defense had done all it could to garner sympathy for
Susan Smith and rested its case.
But the trial would have one more twist at the last minute
the judge allowed jurors to consider a lesser charge.
It took the prosecution by surprise.
The judge decided to give an involuntary manslaughter
instruction to which suddenly took you from murder to like
5 year penalty or something and so that was a little nervous
time going to the jury in that first phase.
The courtroom was on pins and needles with the jury spare
Susan Smith's life?
On July 22, 1995, in the sweltering heat of a South
Carolina summer,
the jury and the Susan Smith trial started deliberations.
Do you remember what it was like, Tommy,
waiting for that verdict to come back from the jury?
It's stressful waiting.
You know, you run through your mind,
would I do this different?
Would I do that different?
But you have to kind of let that go
and just accept what comes.
Were you fairly confident that they would convict her?
I didn't really know either way.
That was the first time I ever been through a trial, especially one capital murder.
Just two hours later, the jury returned with a verdict, guilty on two counts of murder. At least she was gonna go to prison
that took some relief off of me.
And right on cue, Mother Nature offered the town
a bit of relief as well.
The weather broke.
It rained like I haven't seen it rain in a long time.
It was like a cleansing in that little town.
The prosecution had won the first battle,
but another lay ahead.
The penalty phase.
Given the evidence, given the confession,
given the mounting publicity,
how worried were you that she was, in fact,
going to be executed?
I thought it was so clear from the facts
that this was a murder-suicide attempt that was
Caused by mental illness that she was not gonna be sentenced to death
This time the defense could call character witnesses to testify people who knew Susan well
What was the strongest?
Testimony that you had I think the testimony about how much she loved those children
from so many people.
But the defense's most riveting testimony came from Susan
stepfather Beverly Russell.
He read from a letter he'd written to Susan after her
arrest in it. He acknowledged his sexual abuse and
apologized for the damage he'd caused.
Beverly Russell was a very, very flawed man,
but he still saw his responsibility to Susan
when this disaster struck and did what he could.
But the prosecution had a completely different take
and reminded the jury that Susan wasn't
the victim in this trial.
Her sons were. tape and reminded the jury that Susan wasn't the victim in this trial. Her
sons were. David took to the stand to share his fondest memories. How hard was
that for you? It was probably the hardest day I've ever had but it was it's been
among the top five. What do you remember about that experience?
I remember Tommy Pope just asking me a lot of questions
about Michael and Alex and about my and Susan's marriage.
I remember it seemed like I cried a lot.
Everybody was in tears.
It was so raw.
It was so powerful in its emotion its heartbreak in his heartbreak.
The prosecution wanted Susan to pay for the terrible agony
she caused and hope the jurors would too they deliberated just
2 hours before agreeing on a sentence.
Life in prison.
When the decision was read that Susan would not be executed for the crimes,
what was her reaction?
Well, she was relieved for her family,
that her family was not going to have to go through the whole gruesome process
of having a loved one executed.
But David was both angry and disappointed.
He still is.
It wasn't an accident.
She didn't kill them by mistake she took a life she should have
gave up her life for.
Leed prosecutor Tommy Pope says it was a hard loss to accept
but he has no regrets.
I mean I felt like we proved our case beyond a reasonable
doubt.
A few weeks after the verdict, Dateline's Dennis Murphy talked to 5 of the jurors.
Why did you decide to spare Susan Smith with your vote?
After we listened to everything and we got all the evidence, I figured that the deaf
family just wouldn't, that would be like an easy way out, to my opinion.
Would you say you all bought the defense presentation
of Susan Smith?
Woman with a lot of trouble?
I never went for the suicide part of it.
What do you hope will happen to Susan Smith?
I hope that Susan will be able to deal with herself
in prison for the rest of her life, knowing that.
But that life sentence didn't guarantee
Susan would spend the rest of her days in prison.
After 30 years, she'd be eligible for parole,
something David could not live with
and would fight tooth and nail to prevent.
She deliberately killed Michael and Alex
and they can't let her out.
In the years after his boys were murdered,
David Smith's heartbreak was so all-consuming,
he sometimes thought about
taking his own life.
There were a few times.
Take me back to one of those times.
You went back to the lake.
What happened?
I had my car lined up on the same boat ramp.
No.
Because I wanted to go the same place, the same way they did.
But I couldn't do it.
I prayed for the strength to do it.
There was a time when I was on their grave with a gun in my mouth,
praying to God to give me strength to pull that trigger.
But thank goodness he didn't do it.
Susan's life sentence didn't put David at ease.
She would still be eligible for parole after 30 years,
and it weighed on him.
Would you have been better off had the state executed her?
Wow.
For myself, yes, because I wouldn't have to be dealing
with what's coming up now.
I mean, Craig, I know that they said
she had a tough life growing up,
and I've never tried to make light of that.
But you don't kill your children for what happened to you.
I wanted an eye for an eye.
But the jury saw a difference.
At first, David put the thought of Susan's potential freedom
in the back of his mind.
He and Tiffany, who'd remain by his side focused on building a
life together. They married in 2003.
I saw how
dedicated and
faithful them.
Compassionate Tiffany was
to all of it and stuck by my side.
So I knew that I better make that jump before I lose it.
And while David didn't think he would have more kids, along came a daughter, Savannah.
How does something like that change you as a father?
When you lose two kids the way you lost them, how does that change you as a father? When you lose two kids the way you lost them,
how does that change you, the way you parent?
For me, it was a fine balance between being overprotective
and not very protective at all.
Not being part of their life
because you're scared to love them
because something happened to them.
As for Susan, her name still made headlines periodically, mostly when she found herself in trouble.
In 2000, two guards were fired and later convicted of having inappropriate relationships with her.
Susan was transferred to a different prison. She was also punished several times
for possessing illegal drugs.
What have you heard? What have you been made aware of?
Well, I've heard about drug abuse,
had, you know, sexual relations with guards,
but I would just hear it and then move on.
When you heard those things, did it surprise you?
No, no. Not at all.
Not much else was known about Susan's life in prison.
And then in 2004, Dateline producer Carol Gable wrote to Susan asking for an interview.
Though South Carolina doesn't allow prisoners to do on camera or phone interviews,
Susan was allowed to write letters.
Dear Carol, I received your letter and was glad to hear
from you.
The correspondence would continue for 20 years and give
a rare look into Susan's life in her own words.
When you wrote that initial letter to what we're hoping
to accomplish what I was hoping to do is to get some sense of
her point of view we heard lots about her. Many many people
are willing to talk about her.
But she hasn't spoken much about herself.
Susan would end up sending more than 50 letters, some casual
others more revealing.
I am not a horrible person Carol, a human being who made a
horrible decision I grieve daily for my boys.
In her letters Susan wrote about her struggles with mental
health.
I cannot remember a time when I did not suffer from depression
everyone has a breaking point, but not everyone reaches theirs.
I'm not trying to offer excuses for what happened, but neither am I this mean person who harmed her
children because she wanted to be with a man who didn't want children. She also said she attempted
suicide three times while in prison. When they found me there was a big puddle of blood and I'd written with my blood,
let me die. Carol, I truly did want to die at that moment.
As the years passed, Susan sent cards. She wrote about getting therapy, medication, and the job.
Right now I'm working in the school as a tutor. I teach math to students trying to get their GED.
Did you ever think especially early on in the back and forth
that she might have
an agenda with you.
Oh sure, I mean you always have to consider that as a
possibility, but over time she said the same things and then
change the facts then
change.
One thing Susan can never change is what she did at the
leak that night in a recent letter she included what she
says is her best explanation for what happened.
I never felt so completely alone as I did that night a bit
on my fingernails off when I got to the lake, that's when it hit me
how I was going to die.
Michael and Alex were asleep.
She said she stopped the car from going into the lake
several times before finally jumping out.
And then she let it roll in.
I never saw the car go into the lake.
When I reached the top of the hill,
I stopped and looked back, and all I could see was a dark lake.
You'd never have thought that two little boys had just
drowned at their mother's hand.
Susan says she accepts responsibility
for what she did.
David disagrees.
I don't think she's even, to me, been really sorry for what she did. David disagrees. I don't think she's even, to me,
been really sorry for what she did.
You don't think she's sorry?
No, not genuinely.
By November 2024, Susan was 53 and believed she was ready
to reenter society.
She would argue as much at her parole hearing.
But David would also be there fighting to keep Susan in prison.
You don't think she's been rehabilitated?
I don't think she'll ever be rehabilitated.
The months before Susan's parole hearing were anxious times for David and Tiffany Smith. For almost 30 years, we've not worried about it.
And then for six months leading up to the parole hearing, it started eating away at
both of us because they could come back and say let her out.
What do you plan to say? I don't know for sure. Just speaking from the heart, nothing scripted,
but I just want to tell that parole board that they can't let her out. The day finally arrived,
a rainy November morning in 2024. David and Tiffany it was deja vu.
There are cameras
set up out on the lawn.
Everywhere.
But Susan would not face the cameras outside she appeared
virtually from prison where she spent decades. Her trial
attorney David Brock believes Susan should be released.
Susan doesn't pose a danger to society. I don't see what
punishing her year after year after year in prison does to
help anyone.
To those who would say
Alex deserve more than
2530 years for the murders.
Michael and Alex are beyond harm or help.
Susan's parole attorney Tommy Thomas told the board Susan's
untreated mental health issues led her to the lake that night.
It doesn't take away from the horrendous nature of the crime
she knows that she's guilty. She struggles with the guilt every day.
He said Susan would live with her brother back in union
and try to become a counselor if granted release.
I think that her motivation of being released is secondary.
To the primary goal of if she can maybe help
some other mother who is thinking of maybe the same things.
And then, for the first time since 1994, Susan Smith appeared on camera to speak on her own behalf. And I'm giving you that you like to change it.
And I love Michael and Alan.
The board asked what she would say to the law enforcement
community who worked tirelessly for 9 days to find her
children.
worked tirelessly for 9 days to find her children.
That I'm sorry that I really really and I'm especially sorry
to the.
I wish I could say that I really do.
I was really I did not
to get away with it really I really didn't. I was just scared. I didn't know how I could tell the people that loved him
that they would never see him again.
I didn't know how I could tell David
he couldn't see his son again.
Susan acknowledged she hasn't been a model prisoner,
but claimed she's changed.
I grew up, and I knew that I needed
to stop making dumb decisions. And I did. she's changed. I grew up and I knew that I needed to
start making dumb decisions.
And I did.
I just, I knew it was time to just
to grow up and do the right thing.
I just made a lot of
dumb choices and mistakes in here.
So I know I've learned from those mistakes.
In closing, she begged the board for her freedom.
I am a Christian, and God is a big part of my life.
And I know he has forgiven me.
And it is by his grace and mercy that I have a lot of faith.
And I live by that every day.
And I just ask that you show that same kind of mercy as well.
But the hearing wasn't over David and Tiffany we're about
to address the board.
They filed into the room flanked by family and friends
all wearing a pinned photo of Michael and Alex on their
chests. Tiffany caution the board not to be swayed by any of Susan's arguments.
All I can think about is how much she lied
and manipulated everybody
and that just makes me feel like if she could do that then
whatever she's told you today, I'm sure we're probably lost
as well.
And then all eyes were on David Smith. God gives us free choice and
she made free choice that night to end her life. This wasn't a tragic mistake.
It wasn't something that she didn't mean to do. She purposely meant to end their life.
I understand back in 95 that through the state's law,
life in prison meant 30 years of life.
But ultimately to me, It's only 15 years.
For child.
Her own children.
It's just not enough.
After 3 decades Susan's fate lay in the hands of the parole
board its decision was just moments away. After an hour of tense emotional testimony at Susan
Smith's parole hearing the decision came quickly in the end.
The board denied Susan's request. By that point, she had left the Zoom hearing. Once again,
David spoke to the swarm of cameras outside. Today, the committee made the right decision and
made the right decision and denied her parole.
That's how it was. You literally could feel and see the relief
off of both of us.
For now, Susan Smith remains in prison.
But going forward, she'll be up for parole every two years.
Every two years, you're gonna to have to deal with this.
Yes.
Have you made peace with that?
Yes.
How?
Because it's going to give me another chance to stand up
for Michael and Alex, to defend them, and try to keep the sympathy off of her
that she keeps trying to conjure.
And every time he goes up to the parole board,
Tiffany says she will be there with him.
How hard has this been on you over the last 30 years?
It's been very hard to start with.
It took a while for him to trust me again
because he had been betrayed so...
Awfully.
But I stepped beside him, threw it all,
to try to win his trust,
to show him that
I wouldn't do anything like that that's not who I am.
And then those in Michael and Alice was lost to me as well
because I've always loved children.
David and Tiffany's don't live in union anymore. They have a
home near Spartanburg where David continues to get up
every morning and work at a
manufacturing company. How have you been able to do it what
has been
the secret to not letting what happened define your life.
I was saying that
would be
my faith in God.
You know, I was mad at him for a long time.
Me and him have had some heated discussions,
but I never blamed him.
But the second was not letting her win.
You may have took my children,
but you're not gonna make me bitter.
You're not gonna make me mad at the world.
You're not going to make me take my own life.
You're not going to win.
Have you forgiven her?
Of course.
Why?
Because that's the way I was taught.
I had to forgive her because it was just
going to eat me up if I didn't.
It was going to hold me back.
But he says there's another painful struggle he faces daily, trying to
remember his boys. It's been three decades now. Are the memories, are they
still fresh or do they fade at some point? I've never really had any memories of them since they passed.
I was told by, you know, psychiatrists and stuff through the years early on that that
was just my self-defense system.
It was protecting me from myself, but that they would come back.
But Craig, we're here 30 years later, as you said,
and I still have very few memories of Michael Alex,
and that hurts.
It hurts.
You want vivid memories.
Yes.
Of course I want to remember.
I want to remember things I did with him.
But they're not there.
What do you think that is?
Do you think that perhaps that is...
to help you on some weird level or...?
That's all I can think it is.
It's my own mind protecting me from myself.
Because I still miss them so much
that those memories would just hurt too much.
And my own self knows that and it's just saying not yet.
In January 2025 David returned to John D long late the place
for this whole tragedy began.
Stopping at the memorial, the community erected for the boys
people still come here to pay their respects.
Michael now it's
touched
so many hearts.
The lake, he says looks a little different.
The first time I've been back to this lake in about 25 years.
For one thing, that boat ramp that Susan used is gone. To the eyes it's more peaceful, but to the heart it's still sad, sadness.
David listened to the quiet wind blow over the lake,
then shared a few final words for his little boys.
I'm so sorry.
I let your life end in this way.
Ah, yeah.
I'm sorry that your life ended this way. Ahhhh.
Ha ha ha ha.
I'm so sorry.
It's just such a peaceful place
to have such a horrific thing happen.
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