Dumb Blonde - 2023: Recap

Episode Date: December 6, 2023

Bunnie reminisces on a few more highlights from 2023's episodes with guests including Christen Whitman and Whitney Wren, Hawk, Viking Barbie, Holly Madison, Taylor Austin Dye, Josh Wolf, Jason Alexander, Jeffree Star and of course Jelly. Enjoy the controversy, the crazy, and all the heartwarming moments in between. Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Here are some of my favorite moments from this year. Do I dare call you guys the villains of TikTok? Or what would be a good word to describe you guys, Kristen and Whitney? I think villain is a great thing. I'll go with that. My dog's name is Villain. There's nothing wrong with being a villain. Oh, no.

I find absolutely nothing wrong with that. My dad passed away when I was 12. But I'm really close to my mom now. I'm sorry to hear that. My mom just passed away last week. I couldn't imagine going through that at 12. That would suck. Really hard. Yeah. Especially, I mean, nowadays, society and boys, they don't know how to treat women. It's hard growing up without a dad to show you how you should be treated I feel for you guys having to date in this era because I thought boys men Whatever you want to call them or fuck boys when I was growing up You guys are like in the microwave era where everything's replaceable. Everybody wants everything right now Everybody looks up to this like you I mean someone could be prettier nicer funnier have more money have more followers

There's always more options them. No, options. They'll never know what they have. They just constantly want to look for more. I mean, girls do it too. It's harder for us. Do you have people who try to date you guys for your social media presence? But we can tell who. You can tell. How do you tell?

What are the signs? They're saying that we had people signing NDAs to hang out with us. I have bitches sign NDAs to hook up with my husband and I. So there's nothing wrong with that. Oh, well, they think they're all that they think they're famous we don't think we're famous but we definitely know we have a name i have a page of 23 000 people that completely shit on me i know i'm known how does that make you guys feel to know that these people are literally tearing you apart and just saying the meanest things lying outright because i they've done it to me too you guys are babies you know you know? Like you're, when I was 21, I was like fucking Lindsay Lohan. I was snorting fucking eight balls of cocaine off

strippers' asses. I was fucking robbing motherfuckers for their money. Like I was doing crazy shit. You guys are fucking kids. Like all these people that are fucking talking shit about you guys, what were they doing at 21? Sad. I would wish no one else to go through it. I'm glad me and Whitney are the ones that get it because we really can laugh it off anyone believes it or not but i've been in the position where i have tried to take my own life because i was bullied really bad in high school but nothing will compare to how i'm being bullied now that website is a reflection of how those people feel inside my baby girl is in the house jade amber what the fuck is that baby hi sorry mom's sitting right here and i'm just cussing left and right she does too it's okay so I was in Charlotte and I was working at Hooters but then I got fired one day oh no

because how do you get fired from Hooters I know it sucks because like Hooters was following me on TikTok and everything like we were having conversations like dang what happened Hooters of America had called Hooters and I was the one that answered the phone like hello this is Hooters of Charlotte they're like can I speak to the manager on duty? So I give them the phone. I'm like bartending and I'm just starting to think like, what? Am I in trouble? There was this video that I had posted about this customer.

He was just being very snarky, very like rude. Not the snarky. Oh, I hate that word. It was something about the tipping and he was just being an asshole basically. Right. So I made a video about it. The reason why I got fired is because I was in my hooters uniform and i was talking about a situation which was fine until i called him a dick and that's what got me fired they were just looking which is so crazy

to me because i've been a hooters advocate since day one i made videos about how to get hired at hooters like i was a hooters girl, like advocate, seriously. So excited to have Prince. And a lot of people ask me like, where did you get Prince's name from? It's like when you're picking out baby names and you hear something that was like somebody you knew, you're like, no. I hate when people name babies

like grown ass men name like Walt. This is my son, Walt. You had nine months, you know, and that's what you fucking came up with. And you're stuck with that for the rest. No offense to people named Walt okay I know no offense to people named Walt but come on you don't want to see a little nine month old named Walt you know this is fucking weird that's what I'm saying so or Harold you know like like be so cruel that's weird we were at Walmart and there was this girl

oh like I know her from church or whatever i was like oh why don't you go say hi because like i didn't care like if you know her from church like that's a friend like go say hey like don't be weird he was like no i think it'll be weird if i say something whatever he started acting really weird which is what he always did when he was like talking to other women online and one time he was in the shower and i did what like would like to say a lot of girls do but some probably don't i went on his phone. Every bitch in America has gone through their man's phone. And if they said they don't, they're a fucking liar. I can't with the girls who are like, I don't do that.

I go through my man's phone still. And we're married seven years. And I love that motherfucker. And I know he's never going to fucking hurt me again like he did. So it's like, fucking, I still will go through his phone. Anytime. I'll fucking peek over while he's in bed. You know?

Like, I don't care. There's no shame in that. Like, we're females we're curious it's just what we do he was talking to the girl on snapchat and i like clicked on it i hate snapchat and she had like messaged him and she was like we have tiktok's favorite coffee house couple in the house i'm so excited erica and shane how are you guys doing, baby? Doing good. How you doing? I'm good. You guys finally made it here. How deep did your addiction get?

It went pretty bad. It turned out my drug of choice was meth. I used to smoke it. See, I used to snort it. The burn I was all about. Not me. I wanted to fucking fly like a kite. No, no.

Twist and turn. It was bad, no, it was bad. I knew it was bad. I'll never forget it. I just told Terry, she works with us at our cafe. I just told her this story the other day. I'll never forget it. Towards the end of my reign, right before I made the call that I was done and I wanted some help. I didn't know what that looked like, but I knew I needed help.

I'll never forget sitting there in this motherfucking bathroom at this hotel with a line of dope in front of me and every oh it gets me so emotional every time I talk about it because every ounce me didn't want to but I did and that was when I realized like I don't this isn't a choice for me this isn't like I know this is wrong and i'm not gonna do it it had gotten to the point where i didn't have a choice i didn't want to do it but at the same time you're doing it right you know and the willpower just isn't there and i'll never forget that same night i called my dad from the hotel room i didn't have i didn't have a pot to piss in i don't have no license i don't have no car no money no phone nothing I lost absolutely fucking everything I called him and he was like

well you know your mom said that we can put you in a hotel room tonight and then you can go to rehab tomorrow otherwise we'll put you in a hotel room tonight and then we just like we got part ways we're sorry but like we can't do this anymore i had broken into their house i had stole from them um i had stole from my siblings just strung out just doing i mean you're not you oh no especially meth meth is like it changes your whole brain meth and xanax are two drugs and i used to love mixing them it's really unsafe let's not do that i used to do eight balls of cocaine and come down with fucking bars of xanax dude yeah people are like you can't overdose on xanax i'm like yes you can yes you can and your heart can stop if you mix uppers with downers and

they also don't really tell you about that these days either and i don't know why today we're doing something a little different i have one of my dear sweet friends, Dempsey, in the house. What's up, baby? What's up, bitches? That was so aggressive. That was kind of hot. I don't ever get to see that side of Demps. I need to get some frustration out. Wait, what are we allowed to tell people about Cat Daddy right now?

Because everybody who wants to know Todd is Cat Daddy. That's what I call him. You know what? I'll give him full disclosure. That man is such an easygoing. Believe it or not, I've known Cat, and people are going to be surprised by this. I've known that man since fucking Shrimp BJ. It was since my whole internet fiasco breakup where I was like, oh, my God. First of all, why is his name Shrimp BJ?

That doesn't sound enticing. Because he's just a fucking shrimp, bottom of the sea cockroach. Was his wieners all shrimp? No. Porquito. Porquito pipi. Porquito. No, but I just, I don't know what it is.

Everybody's obsessed with, I don't want to say obsessed, but my love life, dating. I look at it like sex in the city. I mean, it's fun. I'm young. I'm a single mom. I'm just dating, look at it like sex in the city i mean it's fun i'm young i'm a single mom like i'm just dating you know like having fun but live it up this one takes the motherfucking cake oh call me i told uh demps last night when we were texting i was like every time i see you with cat daddy it reminds me of like pixie dust that's getting sprinkled around everywhere because you can just see the energy between you just lets me do my thing like we went to applebee's

i was like hold on let me put on my mullet and he loved it and he still wants to fuck you even in that fucking damn i asked him i was like would you bend me over backwards with that mullet on he was like you have no idea okay so when you guys are ready to make the of of content mimi and i will set it up and we'll fucking give you guys plots for each one of your videos. Can you imagine? Today, I have one of the more controversial TikTok stars sitting on my couch and I am so excited to go down the rabbit hole with her. Hawk is in the house, baby. What's up? Hey. How are you doing? Thriving. How are you? Baby, I am living. Blessed and living. I'm so happy you're here. Thank you for having me. The reason that I had left him was I got this, I had gotten this message from some random follower.

And it was, like, in detail what they were going to do to me. And, like, they involved my daughter. Wow. like they talked about like raping me and like just like the ways that they would murder me while my daughter would like cry out my name like it was the sickest thing I've ever received so I quit I called my mom I said mom I am going to die I am going to die like if you don't pick me up and um she did. Who was it? You never found out who it was?

It was just, was it somebody he was affiliated with or just, like, a crazy fan? I think it was a crazy fan. Wow. So, and I, like, I didn't want to go to the cops because I'm, like, I make, you know. Yeah. I make explicit content. They're just going to tell me it's my fucking fault. Yeah. I knew better. But tell me it's my fucking fault. I knew better.

But I was scared for my fucking life. So I left. And he and I have a great relationship now. We're both clean and sober. Yeah. And he takes her, you know, almost every weekend now. And he's a great fucking dad. He really is.

I love to hear that. We just weren't good together. Yeah. And that's okay. fucking dad. He really is. I love to hear that. We just weren't good together. Yeah. And that's okay. It was probably very passionate. Most passionate relationships are extremely toxic. Yeah. I feel like you can't have health and growth in a relationship.

Yeah. And passion. Like, it's, you have to pick, it's like one or the other, you know? Like, it's either get your back banged out and fucking argue all the time or fucking be straight and narrow. And, you know Like I just yeah. Yeah when we first met it was like a fucking fairy tale Like everything seemed too good to be true and like that's because you guys trauma bonded and love bombed each other

I'm sure i'm like so excited to dive into your story because I get to see you online and like you're just like so positive Always making me laugh always coming up with these like quotes and shit that you have and I just love it so I'm really excited to just dive deep into your story how are you I'm good yeah it's great to see you thanks for having me here are you good though because you had let's just you know she was my mom's sister she was your mom's she was they were blood sisters uh she had a several siblings but she she talked my mom's sister. She was your mom's sister. She was Zipper Blood's sister. She had several siblings. But she talked my mom into going to this church meeting thing.

She said, this man's got healing hands. He's known to heal people. You got to come. Is this after she was sick? This is while she was sick. While she was sick, okay. I mean, she even told my Aunt Karen. She was like, Karen, I can barely walk.

Karen was like, I don't care. We'll carry you in the church. Made a real big deal out of it out of it I'll never forget it was the most powerful moment in my entire life because I thought I was losing my mom it was all starting to come together for me it's got to be traumatic at five or six years old that's she was everything I didn't have a dad so I didn't have nothing else that's your mama man we went to this church situation his name was jesse to plan us i don't know if you ever heard of him he's a very famous in the whole christian thing um he called her out he walked down the aisle he said lord's gonna heal you tonight and he i got chills he got her up he said in the name of jesus you stand up right now and she stood up that was one of the first times

i ever saw my mom stand up all by herself oh my god calls her out in the middle of the ass where do you bunny this is 100 true i love puts his hands on her starts praying and ah shalala right yeah it's speaking in tongues right and next thing you know she falls out i'm like he killed her that's oh no well that's over emotions and uh you know a couple minutes later she got up and started running up and down the aisles of the church holy shit yeah that's like shit you only fucking hear about like i watched it happen like the benny hens and all that stuff you know i grew up with all that stuff around me too when my dad decided to stop being a rock star and wanted to go fucking full-fledged bible thumper so that's like stuff that you just like see on TV, but you actually got to see that

with your own eyes. It was crazy shit I've ever seen in my life. Does that make you a believer now? It did for a long time. And I was really cemented in my belief because I'm like, God showed me a miracle. It would be like the worst form of blasphemy to just ignore him after this. Like he literally showed me a miracle, but, gotta it's hard for me that's a the Christianity thing is real hard subject for me because it was forced upon me same you know so much throughout my life and I'm gay obviously I don't know if you guys knew that I didn't but I had no idea I know I know it's weird don't tell anybody did you always know that you were gay or I did okay so you were just born and i didn't know what it meant i just knew

that i was not interested in the boys at all yeah and i just i felt really uncomfortable but excited when i looked at girls right christy howard in the house what's up baby how are you hi i love that i had to get that out of the way so iconic i love that because i do that too we were doing that last year with the why Is It Spicy? Like we were so fucking, that was like our jam. Yeah. So when I heard, when I stumbled upon one of your TikToks and I heard you do it, I was like, this is my fucking people right here. And my, right when I finished my dad, that's when my dad called me and gave me the phone

call that she passed away. And it was literally so five days. I hadn't even been there a full week. The first day of my job in this place. And my dad's like, you need to get on a plane and come home. And I'm like, how am I supposed to get there by myself? I how do I what what do I pack? What do I do? Yeah, I like I just it was traumatizing. And I sat for like 12 hours straight in my room in Nashville. And finally. You froze. Yeah.

And I had no one come, you know, I didn't want them to come to me. But it's like if she were alive, she'd be the one that come to me and help me get my stuff together to go. So it was just so weird. What did she pass away from? Was it an overdose? She overdosed. I'm fentanyl. But like that bitch was strong.

Like she literally could take a a lot and I just you know she did heroin so when someone does heroin you know and they're active you know there's a chance yeah and all the time but in my head my sister Kat Howard was never gonna die like I knew I wasn't stupid I knew that that's what happened but you just really don't actually think it's gonna happen to like you and your family so i was just convinced like dude stop because she'd be like i'm so and so days clean and you just believe that and then it's just never it really never ends but then she passed away in the rehab facility or would the day already released oh it was a whole thing she was in a detox center wow and i had girls reach out to me and

tell me the full story after she passed because we only knew really nothing nobody was helping us at all and my mom was like batshit crazy like getting a detective like we need to get to the bottom of this why did the deaths in south florida they just kind of walk over them like they're nothing right especially like having to do with drugs i hate that because i feel like people who are addicts don't deserve justice we're like well what where was she what was the did anybody do save her what nobody was telling us anything it was so weird and so what happens was the detox center kicked her out but didn't like tell my parents which i guess when she's 24 they don't or yeah 24 i guess you don't have to notify the parents but my parents were the ones like paying for her to be there. So it's like, wow, you know, whatever.

So they apparently this place she got caught using. I think she like went out and like to buy Halloween decorations and got some stuff and she got caught. And one of the girls in there who called me after she died and explained I'd never met this girl before. She told me like, Christy, I knew something wasn't right. Like her lips were purple and they sent her out of there. They bought her a lift and they sent her to,

from a rehab to a detox center. And they bought it for her and put her in that car with her lips blue and everything. She died in the car on the way to a new place. I think you guys are just so fucking adorable. I love what you guys represent and I love what you do. Rhea and Amber DeMere. Did I say it right? Yes, perfect. You said it perfect. Yay for I love what you do. Rhea and Amber Demire. Did I

say it right? Yes. You said it perfect. Yay for me. Yay for me. What's up guys? What are you guys doing out here? They had a man picked out for you already? It was arranged. My cousins knew somebody and they just told my mom about it. Oh, he's a good guy. Great family, yada yada. And they showed me a picture and I told my mom, I was like absolutely not i was like hell no you know i'm like that's absolutely not even just a guy who's definitely not my type either yeah it's like you obviously you're like still in high school yeah not even processing like hey i'm gonna go be a wife no i can have kids and like you're supposed to be wanting to go off to college and yeah i didn't get to i didn't even get to process that first of all being gay and then

being shown this guy you're like yeah and i was like hell no did you have girlfriends through high school i did yeah so people in high school had ideas that i had i was interested but i didn't really get my parents weren't involved in my school stuff you know how parents get involved with and no parents about like yeah my parents never got involved with anything they were always working so i never they never have kind of like a different life at school yeah but her sister knew about it my sister did she was always supportive no yeah um so where was so then you met him at mcdonald's yeah no i did not what the hell where was it applebee's no let me before but before that my i said no and my father came

downstairs and i remember he said you're gonna go and he threatened me he pretty much was like I'm gonna beat your ass you're going you have no choice until this day he'll tell you he had no involvement in that but he absolutely had involvement in it don't you love how our parents gas no they always gaslight us always and we're into foster care at 12 I believe um and I started just rebelling horribly oh yeah like with drugs sex like all of it at 12 at 12 wow yeah I and I mean all my friends were doing it so like I wanted somewhere to fit in and that's how I fit in with them the outcasts always yes and I was just numbing you know it gave me I was drunk off of we used to drink like moonshine, like rubbing alcohol.

Yeah. At 12 years old. Like falling downstairs. Like, but even younger, the first time I got drunk was eight years old with my sister because she was, she'd have to bring me to every party. Eight years old. Eight years old. You're drinking at eight years old. That is insane.

She had no guidance, clearly. I was raising myself. When I say that, I truly did it the internet spoke and I listened miss Gabby Egan is in the motherfucking house baby what's up I'm here I was late I was 30 minutes late um and I'm glad that I'm here though thank you for having me on I've been on a path of like I feel like unstable relationships since then and like literally like I don't know my problem is but yeah well maybe childhood trauma you know that you got to work through yeah and you know what's crazy is like whenever I say like oh I

have childhood trauma my parents are like there's no you can't you can have the most perfect life and you're still gonna have some sort of trauma everybody has it if fucking you know we're not minimizing maximizing anybody's trauma it doesn't matter where you came from. Shit's fucked up. The world's fucked up. Yeah. Shit happens. So, you know, it's not a bad thing.

It's just shit you got to work through. It's just like stuff that happened. And yeah, it's that's why like, you know, when I talk about my issues and stuff, it's like with my parents, I feel like when I'm talking about things or like feelings that I'm having, they always think that I'm trying to like blame them for something. And it's like, no, I'm not trying to blame you. I'm just like reflecting on this because like, for some reason it's a thought that keeps coming up, you know, like, and for me, like, I like to talk about like, if something's in my head, like I got to get it out or else I'm going to go crazy.

Yeah. Um, so yeah, I do think that like, if you're not in therapy, everybody should go to therapy. Like, you know, everyone should go, even if you don't have issues absolutely i agree we got a little trouble in the studio listen ma'am i'm just a party planner who the fuck is just in time how are you doing what are you doing baby did you ever go through a phase where you had fucking corn rolls no okay no i did struggle struggle got the corn rolls i know know he looks back. So did Daddy. So did my husband. Yeah, I know they look back like, oh, man. No, you know what?

Jay embraces it. What did you think? What was your initial reaction to the cornrows? I would have never dated him. I hated it. I was like, bro, no. Like, never do that again, buddy. So I love, we stan a king who BYOBs.

What is this right here? What are you drinking? Oh, Michael Jordan's tequila. Michael, like the fucking. Michael Jordan. Yeah, he's got his own tequila. And it's just, it's so far. That is awesome.

Would you like to try a cup? No, I'm sober. Would you like one? No, no one's drinking. No, go ahead. No, I love it. You feel like an alcoholic even more, man. No, I love.

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that's your whole personality there's nothing else special about you so yeah I get it but at the same time I'm like just fuck me I guess let's rewind it back real quick before we start talking about your wrestling and let's talk about this child bride thing oh we cannot just skip over that i always do though i drop it every now and then and then i keep moving yeah that's trauma you're like long story bro well we're ready so everybody get your coffee get your fucking crumpets and tea we are sitting down right now it's tea time okay all right child ride so how old were you um I was 16 technically the whole thing started when I was 15 but I was you know I I want to say like problem child but when I look back at it like was I really like I was sort of in the foster care system for a minute I was in the troubled teen

industry which like you know I don't know if you guys seen like that Paris Hilton interview that she did yeah speaking out it was literally that it was one of those places did you just start getting into trouble what was the i mean it wasn't even trouble i wasn't like i wasn't on drugs i wasn't like you know out here robbing people i wasn't rebellious i feel like i was just a regular ass teenager the way you would expect teenagers to be right my mom was really crazy so she was just i don't know she had me really i don't want to say really old but she had me at like 41 which in the 80s is like miracle baby you know nowadays it ain't nothing but back then it was a big deal i've got priscilla block in the house baby finally

i know finally we've been like trying to make this happen and you know life's busy no you bitch you are busy okay like i thought my husband was busy you're always busy like are you touring right now like what is I'm kind of doing it all um today is like my off day and I've written today I'm doing this podcast doing two podcasts today it's weird like my off days are just trying to stay in the Nashville thing you know it's it's been wild it was just embedded in you yeah from the start yeah so let's been wild it was just embedded in you yeah from the start yeah so let's talk about it so you your parents were going through a divorce you're going through your first heartbreak with that whole situation you come to Nashville the Taylor Swift

way yes what is how old were you I was 18 so I had my 18th birthday in Nashville wow so you were like fuck this I'm leaving fresh out of high school wow like packed everything and moved take me on that journey yeah so I moved out here um I had like a little Chevy Malibu that was like I literally had like junk tape around my car dude they last forever you know that that thing lasted me for a good while and so I moved out to Nashville and I found some Craigslist roommates and I moved brave yeah very brave I mean hey I was just still alive I am this is a different time though right like how long ago was this how old are you I am 27 okay yeah so it was before the real world got real weird yeah like the world was already

getting weird but it was before like it was cut your skin off and wear it kind of weird it was definitely still weird yeah um so anyways I went on craigslist I found some roommates and um ended up moving to I was living like near sylvan park so very nice area in nashville now yeah no I know but it wasn't that when I moved there Jay and I used to live in West 46 that was our first apartment oh yeah I love that yeah so you know I just moved wherever I could afford I think I was paying $500 a month um for my one bedroom and that's great in Nashville now I don't think you could even find anything like that no yeah no um so moved here and I you know like when I moved to Nashville I didn't know

anyone I just took a leap of faith and I was like I I believe in myself and I believe that I can do this as a career yeah so I came out here and just started working like every odd in job um I was nannying I was like the dog walker in the neighborhood you know like all the things I love that you had work ethic instilled in you though yeah well I had to yeah you know I didn't um I didn't have financial support from anybody so it was like all right get to going and I do think like I learned that from my parents and they're like you know what whatever you want go get it um so I just I started doing it all and um I just kind of found myself like just lost in it all like I'm this young 18 year old girl I couldn't get into the bar like where do you start

right like go to coffee shops go to church I'm like I'm doing all the things like where can I meet people um yeah like I remember I called my parents I was like I'm going to church today and they're like oh amazing I was like yeah I'm gonna go try to meet some people um but anyway I started just working and I was also going to community college at Nashville State I love it I love the drive yeah and I think that like for whatever reason like at that point I didn't fully believe in myself like I was like halfway in right so I was like you know and a lot of people kind of was like hey make sure like you have a backup plan you know and so I hate people like that yeah like just go for the gusto kid that's what i said that's what we tell our kid yeah like

go for whatever you want to do wholeheartedly go be the best at it yeah like if you want to be a mailman be the best damn mailman out there do it yeah yeah i agree so i um i just i started so i'd work i worked at this yogurt shop in hillsborough village sweet cc's and so I'd work, I worked at this yogurt shop in Hillsborough Village, Sweet Cece's. And so I'd work there from nine to five and then I would go to class from six to nine. And, um, I'm about a year into Nashville. It is just like not what I thought it was going to be. And so I called my sister that day and I was just crying and um I was like dude what am I doing out here like this is hell like I came out here to write songs and be a musician I don't even know how to start I'm drowning in work and school and she was like Priscilla you know if you come home

like you didn't you didn't fail like come back and I kid you not I cannot make up a story I was leaving the yogurt shop and I happened to be wearing a Taylor Swift t-shirt swear to god T Swift is very inspirational in your journey insane yeah I was leaving work that day that I talked to my sister and she was driving by and saw me and I'm standing on the street corner Taylor Swift was driving Taylor Swift oh wow yeah okay yeah so like my meltdown day I'm leaving Nashville what is this life um I'm walking out of work that day and happened to be wearing just one of her tour shirts and she was driving by and saw me and pulled her car over. The Brittany Jade in the house, baby.

What's up? How are you? Hi, I'm good. Thank you for having me. I'm so happy to be here. That's part of your story. Yeah. People are going to do what they they're going to do, you know, but we can throw that disclaimer

out there. Smooth in the trap house. Um, and things just like really escalated. I remember my parents, like when I was in the hospital after that suicide attempt, it was I'm surprised they didn't. Because that was the I mean, I had taken pills and a couple other times, but that one was like really bad. Like I should have died. What can we can we talk about yeah I didn't know that was okay so I've actually never I've never told this like to my husband

knows I've told it to maybe a couple friends but I just don't talk about it because it's really fucking scary and people will be like oh my god Brittany you're bat shit crazy but that's all right we're all fucking crazy baby so I actually um it was like downtown I was in the city and it was more of like I was wanting attention for my boyfriend because I had went to go see him that night but I I had wrote a whole letter and it's weird because I don't remember writing the letter I don't remember no no I wasn't I had drank in a little bit of NyQuil but like not even a full bottle like my blood alcohol I think was like 0.03 when we when they brought me but um so I had walked three miles that night

with a knife in my pocket and the craziest part about this is I don't even remember like I don't remember grabbing the knife and carrying it with me the whole time was it a form of psychosis it was never talked about like that yeah it sounds like you might have I know and in some sort of like yeah and I think almost immediately after happened though my brain like was like no we're not remembering this and that's why I don't remember it so well but have you ever done DMT no I'm but it scares me because you I just i don't know why but it's so quick i think you know tell me your experience i need to hear it once and it was with todd snyder who is a singer-songwriter he did beer run i don't know if you that's his biggest hit you know do you know todd snyder he's a real funny guy but uh he had it was a pen so it was a vape of dmt and it only lasts 8 to 15 minutes one hit of it

wow so my experience we're sitting on his back porch and he is on the lake out in hendersonville on that back porch with the lake out there and there was a tree that would all of a sudden just start dancing for me oh my god and And so that was the coolest thing. And then I looked over to my right and God or whoever great spirit picks up the land and sets it down. And he said to me, see, it's like chess.

And I don't know. I just got goosebumps. I tell everybody that I'm like, I married a fucking rapper and he pulled the biggest okie doke ever on me a little bait and switch but you knew i was country yeah at least at least that was at least there and but that's another thing that another point that i'd like to bring up too is like okay yeah first i married a rapper but you are country as fuck like even in your raps like your raps have hints of country music in them when people sit there and say that oh he's

not country in us like how does that make you feel oh fuck him i swear this is not him putting on a front whenever i come to him and i'm like i'm getting attacked online he's like baby fuck him how how do you fuck him like that do you feel like you have something to prove? To myself. Right. You know, I had a lady left a comment the other day that meant so much to me, Mama. She said, I've been with you from the beginning. She said, and I remember initially telling people who you were and them thinking the sky was, that I was insane. And I said, well, I'd like to think that we proved them wrong, but don't really fucking matter. More importantly, we proved us right.

Right. Like, what really matters here? You know what I'm saying? It's like, I know how the internet can. That's why I try to do this with you all the time. I know how toxic the internet can get at times. But, man, I know what happens when I walk through the airport. All I hear is, where's your wife?

How's your wife? Tell your wife we're listening to the podcast every girl listen it's a trick now these bitches trick me I'll have a line of girls walk up to me and they're smiling and I'm like alright let's go I got female fans

you know and I'm all excited and they walk right up smiling and staring through my soul and then go is your wife with you? Let her say hi. And they'll go, oh, we like your music too. Your fan base is so rabid that they refer to my music as a two. They're like, think of that.

Like, and your music's cool too. Miley turned a hoe into a housewife. I'm like, oh, we haven't heard that one before. And you are so not housewife-ish, just for the record. I am pretty fucking housewife-ish. You are housewife-ish. I like that you said ish. That was honest.

I mean, I make a home. I make sure it runs very smoothly. You're a homemaker. I'll give you that. Yeah, I make sure it runs very smoothly. But you make hotels feel homely. You make tour buses feel homely. It's your spirit. It's the like, your spirit. You got a servant

spirit. Right. But you are far from a housewife. You know what I'm saying? I don't want your listeners to think this bitch is out playing tennis. I tried. I tried. And they would never tell me when the lessons were at the fucking clubhouse. Remember? You kept just showing up with a skirt and two TikToks.

Listen, all fucking content, baby. All content. I love you. I love you, baby. Kale Lowry, how you doing, baby? I'm good. How are you? Dude, I'm good.

So she walked in. She's wearing a Metallica shirt. And for those of you who can't see, I'm wearing a Metallica shirt myself also. So I was like, as soon as she walked in, I's wearing a Metallica shirt. And for those of you who can't see, I'm wearing a Metallica shirt myself also. So I was like, as soon as she walked in, I was like, fucking soul sister. I was like, yeah. I love that you have been so open with your mental illness battle because I'm very open about it too.

It's so hard. Talk to me about it. So last year, I would say around this time, maybe March, I just broke down. I was super suicidal. And between Kristen and one of my other girlfriends, they were like, we have to get you into the doctor. Like this, this can't go any further. We made an appointment. They put me on antidepressants and they were like, you got to try this.

And the first one didn't work. I had to be open for the next one. It's been really hard because I never thought that it would get to a point where it would be unmanageable. I was kind of just handling it myself and like going through the ebbs and flows with it. I'm on Lexapro now and it started working. I just felt like myself again and it was so crazy because I never thought that I would feel like myself again. I completely 100% relate to that. I went sober in 2017 off pills, sober off alcohol in 2018. Had my first bout of suicidal depression in 2020. When you, I say that you feel like your soul is tired yeah like you don't want to be here anymore it's a tired that sleep can't fix at all it's a scary tired today

I have one of my favorite guests back on the podcast and I'm so happy that he has blessed us with his presence again Mr. Josh Wolf is in the house what's up what's up baby can I say a hundred percent I love that yeah a hundred percent I I I that. Yeah. A hundred percent. I, I, I, I'm, I'm having more fun. And you know what? Like I, I thought I'd be done by now. No, you got a lot of life in you,

Josh. For an old dude. You're not old. Listen, your words are spells and you have to stop saying that. I'm crispy and young. There you go. Literally.

There's a, you, there's a fucking thing. They are. They have, there's a thing I have on my phone where i was getting into this rut where i was always saying i'm old i'm old i'm old you're right yeah dude i'm starting to think of all the spells i've cast on myself in the last two days yeah you gotta be my face frozen like that i'm sorry i was blown away for a second no you gotta be really careful with what you say because the universe picks it up and you're not old you're fucking literally on fire yeah dude not old young and spry fucking got a big dick not spry yeah dude

yeah come on universe yeah is it too late for the big dick part? Watch that motherfucker grow. Watch that shit in your tent tonight and watch it grow, buddy. I know gravity is working on my nuts. It's not working on my dick quite as well. You were just starting to dabble in shrooms, right? So you've evolved from just dabbling to full-on having tent sessions under your blankets. That's the name of my next album,

The Josh Wolf, The Tent Sessions. Underneath your fucking blankets. I was in Austin, Texas. I got off the plane and I just started to feel angry. I'm not an angry dude in my rental car, punching the roof of my car. Angry. Oh my gosh.

I get to the hotel room, no drugs. And I'm in bed and I'm just angry. So I say out loud at one point, Hey, cause I've heard about this stuff. And you know, I'd had somebody tell me you meet a lot of people you probably pick up energies

do you believe that stuff? oh absolutely so I was like I just said out loud hey if there's something in me on me please leave and it almost felt like I felt something okay

grip onto me so then I was like i said it out loud again because i'm not this dude i was like hey kind of joking you can leave me now right i ended up oh this was the craziest thing i was pushing down my arm and flicking i felt like so there was something in like i was physically wrestling with something that was in in like i was physically wrestling with something that was in me and i was trying to flick it out of my at one point i had ordered pizza before all this stuff happened and i'm angry pizza order i'm screaming get the fuck i'm arguing with this thing and you're not tripping not sober okay and in in like at one point, I made this noise.

I don't make noises. Like a growly, deep. And I was like, oh, fuck. And I'm screaming. And I hear this pounding. I'm like, get out of here. And then I just heard pizza. And I was like, sorry.

BRB spirit. I was like, leave it by the front door. I'm arguing with a demon. You know what I mean? But I'm flicking Flicking I'm sweating And I just fell back in my bed

Pool of sweat I felt a little lighter But still felt dark in the room And then about 45 minutes I shot up like it had jumped back into me. This is the two years of just clarity and almost like cleansing myself. And I was like arguing with this fucking thing again, pushing it out of my body,

flicking my fingers, flicking my fingers. And then it felt like somebody turned on the lights in the room and that like it was still. Wow. And I felt peace. MJ fresh baby. I said the dollar sign what you doing baby i'm so happy you're here i think you should tell the whole story so that people can hear your side of the story i was gonna have to get him back i

cheated with this twin guy so they put hands on their own mother yeah they put hands on their own mother they hands on me multiple times i was locked in bathroom and i actually like toxic i don't want to talk shit i know you guys have your issues like please don't leave me like every girlfriend i ever had like he does this and let's tell it like it is here i love people that i'm like i see potential in you you could be a good person you really loved that dude and remember i used to say why mj why i love i love problems because you were leaving him because he had hooked up with Selena Powell on a yacht one time. I accidentally f***ed his brother. Wait. Bitch.

What do you mean? They look identical. It was an accident. I didn't mean to. MJ, what the hell? It sounds really bad, but it was my toxic phase. He did not like you doing f***ing. Made you quit.

Well, there was two of them. Mine and Alex's guy even bought Alligator. Oh, God. well there was two of them mine and alex's guy even by alligator oh god but this boy can go online and literally be little women all day long fight with them cuss them out treat them terrible gaslight them and he's got a following like i don't understand that you were just recently supposed to go on cnwit's podcast can i can i talk am i allowed to talk like about it okay yeah she's always in my lives talking about it i I'm thinking, okay, we're on like a friendly basis. Y'all get turnt.

Like y'all are messy. I'm messy. Like it's cool. We're good vibes. A rapport. You felt like you guys had a rapport. It was cool. I can already tell she wants the messy vibes.

I'm like, okay, I'll give her MJ fresh. That's the dollar sign. So we planned it. We scheduled it. Normally when you do a podcast, you pay for a flight. Pay for a hotel. That's normal. Didn't get Caleb a ticket.

But she tells me this last minute. I can't like the flight's full. They are just now learning how pay for a flight. Pay for a hotel. That's normal. Didn't get Caleb a ticket. But she tells me this last minute. I can't, like, the flight's full. They are just now learning how to run a business, and they're going to fucking make mistakes. I didn't say nothing about it online. I didn't say nothing. Obviously, everyone's like, what's wrong? Well, okay, so you didn't say anything about it online, but.

I was getting there. I was getting there. I'm getting there. You did this. I told you. You told me not to. We go established. I don't listen.

Start a war were my exact words we didn't want beef with fly who said this what well kristen told you to talk your shit and the girl's like yeah talk your shit like she never posted that she just posts me looking like i'm trying to be messy i'm trying to come on the podcast i don't invite myself to shit what is it what's your tagline hey hey hey listen listen listen oh it's no hey. No, no hey. All right, let me redo it again, okay? No, you're good. We can just leave that.

Listen. Listen. Justin Nunley is in the house, baby. Middle name's Danger. Tell people where they can find you if they don't know who you are already. What's your social medias and plug those? Xvideos.com. Yeah. Is that even still a thing?

I used to upload my porn on there. Oh, it's still there. It's still there. I just used it the other day. While you were driving. Yeah, those little boxes that you can plug into your car. They be advertising it that you can watch Netflix on your screen, on your TV. People ain't watching Netflix on these screens.

No. They watching buttholes. I love a good model. Do you know everybody has their own unique butthole print? Yeah, it's like a fingerprint. Yeah, it's weird, ain't it? Do you know that you can have chocolates made into your butthole print? Yes, everybody sends me that fucking ad because they want me to do it.

We should do it. That should be an episode of me making chocolate buttholes. Who's going to make the mold? You on my butthole. You waxed my vagina before. She's waxed my fucking one pussy lip. She got one pussy lip. After that, I was like, I'm not coming.

His manager's like, okay. I think I worked 21 jobs fired from some of them quit some of them cut a guy's finger off at one of them wow yeah we gotta hear this story he's working at the Burger King you know the BK lounges Dane Cook calls it and I was working the specialty uh sandwich thing with the with the chicken sandwiches and stuff you know just doing my thing gourmet slinging that chicken. And he was working the front. They never put me on front, I guess, because they didn't think I was responsible. He came walking through the kitchen area to go on his break and he wound up, he shot me a bird.

I'm going to retaliate. Now we're friends, right? So I grab a knife, maybe, you know, 17 at the time. So the frontal lobe has not developed here, you know, of what could go wrong with me grabbing a knife, right? I've always been kind of jumpy, like if you jump out and scare me or whatever. I've got this knife up like this right here, and I'm walking into the break room. And when I did, he had an empty cup, and he acts like he's going to throw it on me. And I go, blood hit the ceiling. We have a man on a mission, Jason Alexander. What's up, baby?

How are you? Thank you for having me. Dude, thanks for coming. I'm like so excited to have you here. That's kind of what I feel like the type of people that are still around her now, providing her with things and then taking advantage of it when she's in a certain state of mind. I saw that up close and personal, you know. I saw a lot more that I won't mention, but...

Hollywood and the industry, I've grown up in it, is a different beast. It is not what people think it is. It is literally a puppet show with people that are being controlled and money. It's really dirty. It makes you feel gross when you really know everything that's going on behind the scenes. She was just there this past week for 4th of July when that whole TMZ thing came out with the basketball player, you know, she still calls me. Like the last time I talked to Brittany was like two weeks ago. We were listening to a phone. I record all the phone call conversations just

because of everything. Do you have one that we can hear a sample of on the podcast? Um, just so we can hear that it's her voice. You know, when it changed, I'll tell you when it changed. When I got her, when I went to the wedding, that's what you do. You crash the wedding and you're getting married to a guy, you know, zone in I'll tell you when it changed when I got her when I went to the wedding that's what you do you crash the wedding you're getting married to a guy you know zone in on this for a second because he says it so nonchalantly he's like you know you crashed the wedding but it's not just anybody's wedding it's Britney Spears wedding you know so were you guys talking right before Britney's we were because most people think that you're just this ex-boyfriend who came out of nowhere who has no communication with her and decided to crash her wedding. I saw you running around the house.

And I mean, you ran around the house a good while. I went to her room. It was locked. But she was nowhere there. Unless she was in the room. The only time that made me think that maybe she was there was when I was actually tackled at the end of it all. I was laying on the ground like they were giving me water because I was exhausted.

It was hot that day. And everyone... No, and everyone no no i said how nice of them to tackle you and give you water i was like the security guard nice i was like can i get some water and the security guard went and got it and i'm like tied up like this and they're like pouring it in my mouth and they all go and they look at the window and i'm like as soon as i turned around it was no one there and i was like was that Brittany and no one said anything but um I you know I think it was I never saw her I saw Sam and I saw Kate what did Sam do when he saw you uh well I was in the back of the cop car at that time and the windows were tinted so I mean he I don't think he knew I was back there right I watched them all coming I just got his body language and just was like he's a bozo

he's a straight bo boat she has a type yeah tick tocks cosplay Queen Heidi how do I pronounce your last name is that LaVon or LaVon is that LaVon works yeah a lot of some people will be like lay down yeah I don't like let's fancy I don't want to mispronounce it so is it it's Heidi LaVon Heidi LaVon Heidi LaVon and James Ramsey what's up I'm so happy to have you guys here I know it's been so long, man. I feel like, uh, I feel like we've been talking forever. You are very vocal about like your drug use and like that. When did that start? A very young age. And like, I'm going to say it

right now. I literally, I'm extremely empathetic and feel and relate to people who are addicts. We are still addicts. We just chose something else to replace it with. You choose to work the hustle, bettering your life. I got, I got addicted to just a better, healthier lifestyle in general. It feels amazing. You never really think that you can get past that when you're so deep in your addiction and using. You just feel like you're drowning. I've tried everything. I've done everything.

When did you start? How old were you? I was 12. Wow. Yeah, in Fairbanks, Alaska, it's dark. It's desolate. You start smoking weed. That's just like the gateway thing. No, most people don't start smoking weed at 12. Oh, no, they. Yeah. In Fairbanks, Alaska, it's dark. It's desolate. You start smoking weed. That's just like the gateway thing.

No, most people don't start smoking weed at 12. Oh, no, they don't. Oh, well. She's like, you know, just the gateway drug at 12. That was normal. I felt like every 12-year-old was just smoking weed. And what happens after weed? What do you progress to?

Oh, you know, it was like ecstasy and mushrooms and like all that kind of stuff. It's funny, though. Some of those same friends that I like used to get in trouble with, I'm still best friends with them to this day. Same. And we all flip their lives around. Drugs bring people together. They do.

Tear gas thing. I ask about that all the time. I'm like, so people are just crying and puking. That's just what it is? It's so barbaric. Yeah. Well, you got to go through the CS chamber, right? It's tough.

And it's just basically to show you what CS gas feels like and give you confidence in your pro mask. So you put your pro mask on, pop the CS canister in the building. You're like, oh, this ain't bad. And then you take the mask off and it's like immediate evacuation of everything in your sinuses. Your eyes just are watering. You can't see anything. You're like trying to get out. The drill sergeants are just laughing. You know, the way my anxiety is set up there's no way there's no i'd be like just take me on a gurney right now i'm out it would have to be one of my dear sweet friends i like to consider her like one of my best friends viking motherfucking barbie is in the house baby hello hello no no i really know how to talk into a microphone now yes i ran away from home which I think that happened with you too.

No, our lives are so parallel. It's crazy. And symbiosis in like a lot of ways. Even the relationship we have, which is kind of weird to me. The same age difference, the same kid, the same like. It's just like a very interesting. Ran away. I was with some boy, you know, because that's all that I wanted to do was live in a romance novel.

Boys were always my fucking weakness. I wish I would have banged around a little bit um just saying i was thinking about that i'm like man i could have banged some beautiful ones and then i was just like in one for eight years you know no offense to him but you know he was cute at 18 or 19 but you know they get old long in the tooth long in the tooth i hate it some of the dudes i look back on i'm like how are you so bald now like it's just so crazy what happened yeah no he doesn't see this i feel bad most girls would be jumping try and lock this one down yeah this dude's like he's just getting richer you know like i can't keep up with him right you know hello yeah i know the feeling i used to make more money than my husband.

Now I'm like the peon in the relationship. Here's my measly million. It's all I got, honey. I should probably care about it more. Cause the problem I'm trying to take my focus off money. I'm trying to be more in the moment and trying to, you know,

cause literally just my sign, how I was born. And I know everybody's like, don't't blame it on your sign but I was just born to work so it's really hard to fucking break that I've just been money oriented my entire life so this past year I guess I've really tried to like dial back and try to like take time off let my only fans go that was fucking hard dude as you get older and on this healing journey shit that mattered to you just doesn't matter anymore you just want to be a better soul doesn't matter about material things you can't take that shit with you i mean if you don't know who this woman is you must live under a rock mrs holly madison how are you doing ms holly madison i'm

good thank you you know like you'll be surprised You'll see so many things. You'll see ones where you were a man. You'll see ones where you were a woman. I swear. So when you're getting hypnotized, like, what does it feel like? Like, is it just you meditating pretty much? Is that what it feels like? And just really, really relaxed. Yeah. And it was kind of uncomfortable, too, because I was going back to this one past life regression where I was male and I had this kind of like molestation experience and she was like well tell me what he did and I'm like no because it felt so real like I don't want to talk about it yeah that's crazy so when did you start your spiritual journey like have you always been like that or is it just something that kind of grew on you after I've always been intrigued by like really mysterious things since I was a little kid,

but I would say like 2017, I got really deep into it. Is there anything that happened like that kind of sent you on that trajectory? I know I got sober in 2017 and that's what sent me on my spiritual journey. The same year. Yeah. That's so weird. Something happened. Yeah.

We need to look at the planets in 2017 because it was a crazy year for me. Yeah. yeah we need to look at the planets in 2017 because it was a crazy year for me yeah I had had my son in 2016 and was dealing with a lot of postpartum depression and stuff so I think maybe that was kind of what got me into it was I was like talking to a lot of psychics and looking for answers and researching different things on YouTube and then I just got really fascinated with it yeah this is my loopiest interview I've I have an internet sensation. I don't know about that. You don't know. I think that you are an internet sensation. Thank you. Well, that's all that matters to me. The reason why I, Taylor, Austin, Di, by the way, guys.

Do you still battle with social anxiety? Oh yeah. Love that you're very open about it because, you know, a lot of people hide it and I'm very vocal about i have severe anxiety i literally have panic attacks all the time so to hear that you were suffering from that as a child is huge because there could be people who are dealing with their children going through it and you know for you to talk about it just probably creates like a safe space for everybody and music was my outlet i mean i truly struggled hard you know for years going to school. And then when I finally found that I could go and I could have my lesson during the day, it gave me that thing to look forward to. And even I got put on anxiety medicine in high school.

And, you know, I've been on it ever since on and off. So it's just something I've always struggled with. But, you know, a lot of people think that because I'm on stage and I see a lot of people and I meet a lot of people that that's not what gives me the anxiety. That's what, that's what brings me down from it. Like that's my happy place and my safe place from it. So. Ms. Dani Williamson. Oh, thank you. How are you doing baby? I'm doing great. Feeling good. Doing great. You have an entire supplement store. Ever since I overdosed on vitamins, I refused to take any store-bought supplements. Finally, Dani was like, you need to integrate magnesium back into your diet. She was still skeptical, by the way. But I went home and I was just like, you know what,

Dani hasn't steered me wrong yet. So I put the tiniest bit in. And when I tell you my heart palpitations completely stopped that night and stopped for months after. But magnesium itself has over 600 enzymatic pathways in your body. Your body needs magnesium desperately. We're so deficient in magnesium. We don't have it in the soil anymore, but it will calm your heart down, your heart palpitations, your high blood pressure, anxiety.

80% of depressed patients, the research shows, may have a magnesium deficiency, constipation, restless legs. I mean, the list goes on and on and on for the beauty, the power of magnesium. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another podcast today i have the enigma the social media enigma the queen of queens hi jeffree star baby thank you for having me dude this has been a long time coming i feel like you're so misunderstood i feel like with tiktok everybody's starting to get to see the real you or the grown you and i feel like with TikTok, everybody's starting to get to see the real you or the grown you.

And I feel like everybody's loving it and embracing it. Her saying misunderstood was the only time today where I felt like a tinge of wanting to cry. Aww. I love you. Guess what? You want a hug? Let's hug. Later.

Okay. Listen. But yeah, it's hard when you have success to say you feel any type of way because people equate money to you feeling fine Yeah, I didn't I never started the brand to make money right it grew insane and then I So started a brand because you came from nothing and you had something to prove Yes, you didn't want to be a piece of shit your whole or you know, whatever Uh, yes people a derogatory name that people were calling you. I totally understand. I've been a hooker my entire life. Now I'm a millionaire because I fucking work my ass off.

And they can't understand that. Like they can't let go of that past, but they want to, you know, they don't want to acknowledge what I've done with my clothes on, you know? So I totally understand where you're coming from. So you knew just growing up in chaos that it was better to just push it down instead of react. Yes. Which was horrible for me later when all the like emotions and traumas and

demons were coming out and I'm in high school, my whole body's the cutting board. Yeah. I'm like fully. And like, I see, you know, secret one,

not like I want attention. Like, you know, it's, I feel like back in the day, mental health was not talked about. No one talked about it. Like how it is.

Yeah. And cookie cutter, orange County, no one was talking about feelings right it's like get the fuck over it you know everyone's all the husbands are cheating on the wives all the you know yes everyone's getting beat all these crazy things are happening and it's just swept under the rug and it's like the row housewives of orange county absolutely yeah i know it really is the west coast is a different beast people don't understand that unless you've

grown up on the west coast it's completely different way of thinking and way of living as like, you know, fucking Montana or fucking Wyoming. So I didn't untrain this behavior until probably like six years ago. When you were cutting, was that your way of just kind of like relieving the pain? And did your mom know? She didn't know for years. And then I slipped up and got comfortable and she saw it for the first time. What's up, guys? I'm so happy to have you guys on the podcast. So listen. So for the month of October, we are doing a murder mystery series and we are bringing on special guests. And Mimi and I put our heads together and we were like, who would be a perfect guest to have in this series? And Lauren, the mortician, baby, we fucking hit her up and she was like,

can we do it tomorrow? And I was like, absolutely. She was here, man. And here she is. What's up, baby? Hey,

oh my gosh. I'm so excited to be here. Have you accidentally ever left something on a body when cremating it? Yes. Is there jewelry? Yes. Yeah. I hate my life.

Yep. I did it one time. So every time we cremate somebody, we should look at their hands. We should, because sometimes they're in the body bag and, uh, I didn't. Oh wait, you cremate them in the body bag? I didn't know that. I thought they were completely naked. I thought they were naked and you just threw them in the oven. They're usually naked if they're in the body bag, especially if they die at a hospital or if they die after they have an autopsy. But sometimes they die, like maybe they're on hospice or they die at home and then they'll have their clothes on.

And we don't put them in a body bag. We just put them right in the cremation container. But I accidentally cremated somebody with a ring on and I had to call the family and tell them. And the son told me, he goes, it's okay. She got it out of a Cracker Jack box anyways. So he said it really wasn't that special. He said, I just, you know, I got so lucky. So lucky. I never did it again.

I was blessed that day. It just happened to be that one time. He just said, he was like, oh, not a big deal. But I was honest about it. And I told him because. He could have been a douchebag and been like, this was a diamond cut. He could have. I mean, right now telling you about it, I have anxiety because I knew that I still now

that I fucked that up and I still feel horrible. But he said he just, he said it wasn't a big deal. He said it was actually happy that it went with her because he said that was probably what she would want. So I got really, have you ever had to dismember a body? Thankfully not. That's a really big thing because I'll have families, they'll ask, they'll say, can I have grandma's gold teeth? Grandma always wanted me to have her gold teeth they don't teach me how to remove teeth in school can you picture me in the back with a hammer knocking those suckers out oh my gosh and I'll ask the families that I'm like no and if you want to hire a dentist that's fine they know how to do that you have to be so careful at the funeral home because desecration of a corpse is a really big thing so we always have to have

signatures that says it's okay to do something. I've also never removed breast implants. Really? Even for cremation? Because I heard they explode. They don't explode, but sometimes they can melt and then not fully melt away. So they get a little gummy, the forbidden gummies on the bottom of the crematory floor. So you just kind of scrape it out. But what I do remove from the body is uh pacemakers so you'll see those like under you know we remove those but we have signatures and I get permission and I tell them like so that they know what's happening back there thankfully I've never had to dismember a body yeah but no Jeffrey Dahmer shit going no love to hear if y'all have had any psychedelic experiences and I remember a long time ago on one of the podcasts you told a story

about like you had seen something or done something the first time I did acid it was a great trip we laid outside on an electricity box in a fucking apartment complex and stared at the sky and I saw angels and then I had sex on it it was fucking amazing god sex on acid is actually pretty fun we stared at my panties for like two hours oh because they were like in a neon light or actually that was the second time i did acid and then the first time i did acid was a good trip my ex that passed away he looked like the devil to me and it scared me um i accidentally hallucinated on dayquil the other day how nightquil nightquil i took way too much i was sick as fuck i was really trying to get better and then then I just started to hallucinate. It was bad.

Everything was just like melting in on me. You and the fucking melting. I don't know how you tolerate it, dude. Yeah, when I had shrooms the other day, I felt like my face was melting off of it. I will fucking go to the hospital. If something starts melting around me, I'm going to freak out.

Full panic fucking. I just embrace it. I know it's not forever. And I know I'll only have it temporarily. So I embrace it and enjoy it you're a fucking psychopath literally so he has orgasmed watching his parents slaughter a pig and then got caught masturbating and then she puts his fucking genitalia in boiling water like something was really wrong with her i think maybe she might have gone through some sort of sexual abuse or something. You don't get like that unless something happened to you. Yeah, absolutely.

So she's just traumatizing him back. There's a little touch of the psychotics in that bloodline. During their upbringing, Ed and Henry were prohibited from spending any leisurely time away from the family's rural farming property in Plainsville, which meant their only physical escape was attending school. However, Augusta would discipline her sons if they attempted to make any friends at school, which significantly impeded their social interactions. And Ed in particular became a victim of bullying. I was, I grew up in a really strict household and I was like, fuck this. I'm not fucking,

this isn't right. Today I have TikTok's spiritual advisor, Amy Bolesky. How are you doing, baby? Did I pronounce it right? Yeah, you did. You did absolutely. How are you doing, baby? I am wonderful. How are you?

I'm good. I'm kind of like the resident Air Force medium. I would read for everybody. In the meantime, I ended up having my kid, and then I ended up starting to have a lot of issues. It's okay. It's okay it's okay a lot of issues and i didn't know why what kind of issues oh bad ones like my vagina falling out of my body oh like bad like bad and this is after you gave oh after i had a kid like have you ever sneezed and your asshole falls out? Like, that's a whole nother thing.

Okay. I can't wait for those times in life. Oh, just wait. Oh. I can't wait. Are there any diaper? I had to make you laugh. Yes.

Are there any fucking diaper sponsors? Yes. Because we can, I'm just going to, I'm going to manifest a diaper sponsorship. I know. Please, Jess. No, you put on a glove and you shove it back in. Do you have anybody like that lost? Okay.

Only reason I'm saying this like Greg. Greg. Like around me? No, just somebody. I don't know. It's weird. Is there a Greg in the room? The only reason I said that

is because there was a name of Greg that popped up in my spirit box and then over here I drove by a building that said Greg on it and then I saw a street

that said Greg and there's another thing. So there's something to do with Greg. Greg? That's my uncle that died. I got fucking goosebumps. You were out on the bus talking about it when you were getting ready right now.

Greg. Hello, Greg. Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Hello, Greg. Dude, I got goosebumps. I guess that's coming up.

I need you to go back and be with him. Can you do that? Yeah, what's up with that? With my dad? Yeah, for Christmas this year. I know it's hard or something. He's on a kidney transplant list. That's crazy.

I'm shaking. I need you to go and be with him. And he's talking about being with him. Isn't that random? That's wild. Yeah, that is. I love my mom. We love that. She absolutely fascinates me.

And that's very rare because people don't fascinate me too much. But I am so curious about this woman, Miss Gabby Tuft. How are you, baby? I'm wonderful. It's so good to be here in Nashville. Oh, my God. I love it. I'm just like, girl, I need to just fuck a guy and get it over with.

She goes, get on Grindr. What's Grindr? And she looks at me like, what do you mean, what's Grindr? And I'm like, I don't know. Give me your phone. I've never been with a guy, and I over with he goes get on grinder what's grinder and she looks at me like what do you mean what's grinder i don't know give me your phone i've never been with the guy and i knock on this guy's door it's his apartment and he is handsome we didn't get down to actually him fucking me right because i was way too nervous i was gonna paint all over him and shit on the bed i'm like i can't i can't i've had poop balls fall out before. Oh, God. It's the worst. My worst nightmare. It is the worst. Let me tell you.

It is the worst. They look like little M&Ms. Just little cookie dough batters on the bed. Yes. Horrendous. Yeah. But at one point, you know, I'm going down on him. And I'm kind of doing my thing.

And this is my first time doing this, right? Right. So you've never sucked a dick before? Never. Did you think you were doing a pretty good job I mean you had I asked him I said if I do something wrong tell me so no no no no don't even I'm okay yeah and at one point he goes so um yeah my girlfriend my ex-girlfriend she used to make me put her stockings on me. And I just was like, what? Not the dick coming out of the mouth. I just looked at him and I was like, be careful.

That's how I got started. He goes, oh, no, no, no. I have the country rap king in the building, and I am so thrilled and so honored, Mr. Colt Ford. Thank you. It is my pleasure. It is my pleasure. I don't know if I'm the king, but I'm glad to be here for sure, and it's cool to be doing this with you.

Do you ever feel like that? Do you ever feel like these people that you have helped is kind of like a stepping stone? Do you ever feel like they've kind of like left you behind even when they've gotten a little bit more notoriety than you have? Not really. Because I have never done anything with the intention of making sure you give me something back. But what's right is right, you know? There is that.

And there's some truth to that. And there's some people that I think could help a little bit more but right i meant a lot of them don't have the stones to do that or to buck the system so to speak and go i don't give a shit what you want i meant i'm i'm down with colton i want you to help i meant and so yeah there's times when i get frustrated with it because i'm like man i've done a lot and i feel like but i've got, I've never been on any award show. I've never, I've never gotten to do any,

I've never done any of that. Which they're not all they're cracked up to be. No, and I get that too. Just so you know. Like I said, I mean, it's easy. They're really hot

and it's like a freaking big warehouse. I mean, I've gone to them a bunch, but I just have never gotten to really play on them. I've never gotten to do anything. That's like a dream of an artist is to get to play at a show. Give me the mic.

I'm pretty good with just the mic. It'll be funny if you let me host it. I mean, like, you let me and Jelly host it. It'll be funny as shit, I guarantee you. Oh, dude, that would be hilarious. But, you know, I don't know. There's times when, you know, and sometimes you get alone and you go, man, I deserve to get that or to get at least give me a chance.

Yeah. Because for me, it was always, well, we're not sure if you're country. And I'm like, have you ever been to my show? My fans are the country of the country. And then it was like, we're not sure if you're country and i'm like have you ever been to my show my fans are the country of the country and then it was like well i feel like you represent the right trash country just i mean i'm like i don't know they were it was always like we're scared what if one person like i was at a station like my dad's really never heard me on the radio and he's 87 he's not in great shape that that makes me sad to go you know with all i've done to go man he's never really got my hometown radio station that that makes me sad to go you know with all i've done to go

man he's never really got my hometown radio station doesn't right never played me oh my gosh so it's like that that's yeah that's frustrating sometimes and i think at this point i think they thought i was a fad or it was something that just kind of caught a little niche and it'd go away you've been around for now now we're talking 15 plus years and multiple platinum and gold records. And now it's like, well, if they play me now, then they have to go, we were wrong. Yeah, baby. Today we are doing another true crime slash murder mystery podcast.

And we have none other than the unrecognizable Chelsea Lynn, baby. What's up, mama? I'm great. Thanks for having me back on the pod she's giving the child away and she's trading sexual favors for drugs at 11 at 11 years old because she has so much pain she's just trying to numb she doesn't know anything better nobody was there to teach her hey this is the right thing to do you shouldn't you know yeah you're 11 you should be going to school and fucking enjoying your childhood being beat by this grandfather and god knows who knows what the grandmother did because she's a raging alcoholic she literally had no place to go she had no examples of what to be like

and how to do better eileen warnos ended up dropping out of her school her grandmother died of liver failure and her grandfather eventually kicked her from the home at 14. Started to live in the woods, fending for herself through prostitution. She was prostituting at 14. Oh my gosh. I couldn't imagine. Where are you finding the people? Oh, easily. So sick.

Right. Grown men are disgusting. I think what needs to be talked about more is I have dealt with sexual advances from men since i was five years old it's disgusting i was playing in a boat in my front yard one time and a dude came up and started jacking off in front of me when i was five years old domer was honestly trying to hide it i don't feel like she was trying to hide right maybe not too well dumping boppy and taking cars domer's over here like digging graves for these people and eating them yeah and it's fucking them it's the car for me if i'm killing someone i'm not driving their car around no i'd be fucking petrified do you ever know what kind of drugs they were on because i feel like that does all also play a

role in like what mental state you're in i mean tweakers don't think things through very well correct you know is whack you never know man she's i mean it could have been because yeah like tweakers just like they don't logically think they you know they're just going to take this car right but not going through the whole scenario yeah right yeah yeah i don't think they ever talk about their drug abuse that's crazy they should and they were caught for it but yeah what kind of drugs i mean you look at pictures of her girlfriend and she looks like a crackhead yeah i haven't seen real i saw christina richie in the movie real pictures really so she might have been a crackhead we got dimps in the house baby hey how's it going

she's coming to fucking spill some tea today give some dating advice i mean who wouldn't want dating advice from the from the dimps the dimpsy todd probably fucking has nightmares at night hearing that in his mind it's not that bad is it a little bit yeah nails on the chalkboard thought it was gonna work out he was that companion that um anything that was happening in my life i could call and tell him all the good news the bad news i could share everything a lot of people don't know that you guys were talking for a whole year because you actually kind of just played it off like you guys were just friends I mean it didn't take a rocket scientist and not like figure that I was sleeping with the guy you know the internet likes confirmation because if not all they do is speculate there was a lot of problems in the relationship I don't need

people to nitpick apart our whole relationship because i don't know how it would be if he was sitting here i probably would tore his ass a new one in lieu of the circumstances that have happened absolutely we rekindled our friendship there was a time period where we took a break because he wasn't meeting my needs and it is so exhausting having to explain yourself in a relationship hey this is not working this is what i need you to do you know what i mean it's exhausting what needs wasn't he meeting uh physical and sexual yeah like he just couldn't just lay it down man oh no and i don't know daddy's got all that dick and doesn't know what to do with it hold on let me make sure i get this right because there's so many like accolades that come with this man's name now

two-time grammy nominated jelly roll yes did i do it right you did it right you know what i thought about though i'm gonna challenge you on this because i had this thought the other day about myself do you think that it's age that's made us this patient, right? Or trials and tribulations? Or do you think that this is who we always were and that God just finally softened us, put us in a soft enough situation to be who we were? I think it's a little bit of both. Because I thought about that. It's like where we are in our lives right now, we could be any person we wanted to be like at a time we could be out being the wildest we could have ever been we choose not to be at a time where we could be doing just you know like we we have access to so many things yeah that if

we'd had access to even four or five years ago we'd have jumped on probably but that's why and i feel like god didn't give us what we wanted at that time so badly because he knew we would mishandle it and i feel like you can't be this wise young because you won't live right you know so it's like i feel like we had to fucking make mistakes we had to be assholes we had to fucking hurt people we had to be hurt you know just to get to this moment and I feel like it's a little bit of age and I feel like it's also who we were it's just we that is what molded us I sure hope I hope Kev on stage fucking puts an organ behind you saying that like come on Kev on stage let's go baby that you're like oh that's that's deserving that's cool and it's kind

of a praise moment where just the you it's one night that we celebrate music yeah and it's kind of one night where the boxes don't really matter no more right you know and that's the hardest thing of the music business because there's so many boxes and then you know no matter what box you're in people don't think you belong in it right you know and i thought that was just me because i always get the you're not country stuff and it's like what i gotta do go fuck a goat you know what i mean god would it help if i told everybody bunny was my cousin bunny's my cousin y'all there's you know it's like fucking what do y'all need for me not first we're real cousins we're cousin cousins but it's like you know bad joke

but i'm from the south i can joke like yeah