Dumb Blonde - 62: Dumb Blonde: Keta Musik- From Addiction to Songbird

Episode Date: September 9, 2020

Keta Musik and Bunnie talk about Keta’s come up from her fight with addiction to becoming a successful musician.  Keta gives a sneak peak of her amazing talent as well as some details on her upcoming project with Jelly and Viking Barbie.     Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.com Takeaways: Bunnie met Keta through her friend, Viking Barbie, and they instantly clicked and have been friends ever since Jelly, Viking Barbie, and Keta are working on some new music that Jelly is producing Keta has always loved music and moved to LA when she was 19 years old She met Viking Barbie in an AA meeting and they became great friends They started writing a song together and instantly grew an appreciation for each other’s talent Keta was born in a small town called Red Bluff, CA She got put on parole at 19 and bought a trailer and was selling meth to make ends meet She got suspended from school for getting into a fight and got into an accident when she borrowed her neighbors quad and was out riding in a field. Keta flipped the vehicle and fractured almost everything on her right side.  She received settlement money and started selling drugs She quickly realized she didn’t want to be a drug dealer and that she needed a lifestyle change; LA was her way out When Keta got to LA, she was 19 and one of her “friends” got her into a sticky situation with drugs once again Keta grew up without structure and had to figure out most of her life on her own She learned how to boss up and take control of her life through dancing Keta’s drug addiction nearly ruined her life. She got sober for a while and would then spiral out again Between meth, heroine, and suboxone, her life was a constant roller coaster dealing with addiction Keta even got arrested for trafficking heroine at one point Keta’s constant battle with drug addiction and breaking the law led to her finally getting into rehab and seeking professional help The first week she was in rehab, she actually got kicked out for fraternizing with another patient After leaving the rehab facility, Keta asked to be referred to another place because she knew she would die if she didn’t take getting sober seriously She was 3 years clean and relapsed The one thing that stuck with Keta throughout her life struggles was always music Keta really respects independent musicians who have to work hard and pay for everything they put into their music The music industry is a beast; it can be a shady, scary place Bunnie and Jelly want to help Keta bring her music to the forefront and allow herself to be creative in the way that she wants If you’re struggling with addiction, Keta says just hold on and pray. Spirituality is a huge thing that can help you through anything in life.  Never be afraid to ask for help.  Don’t give up on the work in progress that you are- life gives us beautiful things in unexpected ways.    Quotes:  “Every time I started shooting drugs, God arrested me” – Keta “I’m a professional partier” – Keta “I felt like I was Robin Hood; I would rob from the rich and give to the poor… and I was the poor one” – Bunnie “[Music] was the light at the end of the tunnel” – Keta   Mentioned:   Keta Musik Instagram | Twitter   Viking Barbie Instagram | Facebook | Twitter | YouTube   Check out Bunnie: Instagram | Facebook | Twitter | YouTube | OnlyFansSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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What's up you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I am chilling in Vegas right now. Came back home to get some of these podcasts done. But on my way down here, actually she's been with me for like a fucking... Yeah, you're not getting rid of me. I'm just, I'm attached now. I don't know, we just met and we've never separated. It's like every relationship I've ever been in. I got my girl am kata music here how are you doing baby i'm doing the best i'm

with you i'm sorry i love you i love you my pussy later what probably so i don't know if you guys are familiar with kata but you guys are going to be familiar with kata um jelly is actually in the studio i think we're allowed to talk about this. I think I was on my heart smile. Yeah. Jelly, jelly. Um, and well, I took an interest in her and her best friend, one of her best friends, uh, Viking Barbie, Viking Barbie was on, I think episode five of my podcast. She was like one of the first people to come on my podcast. And that's how I ended up being introduced to you was, um, you know, via the interwebs. I don't know.

I feel like all of us internet girls kind of just bond with each other because we get it. Unspoken love that we have for each other. Yeah. And so I was introduced to her from Kaylee, who is Viking Barbie. And ever since then, it's just been like, we've just been super cool. And then we actually got a chance to meet and it's been game over since then but uh her jelly and kaylee have been in the studio working on new albums together and i'm really excited about this because jay's

producing it right yeah it's insane yeah somebody that insanely like it's yeah it's kind of surreal actually how did you get into the music industry how did you and viking barbie link up and all that stuff let's let's start from the beginning oh man there's so many aspects i can come at you right so we're gonna start with the music because all of you bitches i'm telling you right now go listen to i am kata music and viking barbie's music and stuff like that and you guys are gonna be in love because they are for the bitches let me tell you definitely so well my music story started uh probably when i came out of the womb you know i didn't cry i sang and so um she came out like so yeah no um i ended up uh moving to la true story one way greyhound ticket 40 in my pocket

to la when i was 19 and um you know i had of, uh, you know, there was a lot of learning that happened and we're going to talk about that. We'll like run through that process later. But like, so, um, I was working on an album, uh, and I actually, and she's pretty open about this. We're both sober. So she, um, she talked about her whole recovery process and everything. Yeah. So she and I actually met in the program of alcoholics, not allowed to say anonymous. And, um, uh, but yeah. And so we were friends like here and there kind of, kind of like a creeped on her from afar. I'm like, I want to be her friend. I didn't want to be weird. Right. Right. Didn't want to overwhelm. Right. You know? And so like, we ended up, uh, just like talking talking online seeing each other every once

in a while and like she just always had my best interest at heart like she was kind of blowing up on instagram at that time and i was like bitch what are you doing like you don't tell me our secret yes and like i was like what are you doing honey what are you doing you need to tell me like i need it um so i was like girl like i was if you, she's all shout you out, you know? And I was like, oh, I'll pay you. Like, I know how hard you work. And she's like, no, she was like, I got you. And I'm like, that's me.

You know, like I always got people and they don't got me back. I'm like, fuck. And I'm like, she's me, you know? And so I came back around and she had hit me up and she's like, hey, I want to write a song. And I know like, I was like, well, can you, you know, are you, are you capable? I'm like, cause it's not like everybody likes to do it, but if you don't have a natural ability, like it's like the dude on that reality show last night, I'm the king of R and B.

Like, no, you're not even the prince. Who are we lying to? You're the jester. She was being nice, but, um, oh, that was kind of mean spirited. she was being nice but um oh that sounded mean spirited it's okay it's okay so um so yeah i was like yeah let's let's get in there so i kind of introduced her to my people or whatever and we got in and she was like insanely talented and um she busted out singing fiona apple criminal i said i got little chills on my arms i was like like, okay, you can sing. And so, yeah, we just started creating from there. And it was like just like a natural energy.

We were sisters from like that. You know what I mean? Like it just worked. And we're both insane. So we get each other's crazy, which works too. Yeah. And so ever since then, we've just been kind of cranking it out. Yeah.

Tell me about the journey. You said that you moved to L to LA um with a one-way ticket how did that pan out for you oh man see I always get weird about starting at one place in my story because it never makes sense they're like but why you know I'm like listen I promise it all makes sense you know you tell the story from any point that you want to um okay so background uh where were you born I was born in a small town called red bluff california um i call it shit town america actually because like it's basically what it is a little bloop on the map nobody really knows where it is a little you know it's known for its meth labs and yes i

want to go visit no i'm just kidding no you don't be kidding. Yeah, so I still get back there every once in a while because I got family there. But I'm like, every time I go, I'm like, take me back. Thank God I made it out of there. Oh, my. Literally, that's exactly. And sometimes I'll see things like happening there. And I'm like, oh, my God, that could have been me. Right.

Like if I didn't grow the biggest pair of balls and been like, bye. What prompted you to grow that biggest pair of balls and get on that? Well, see what had happened is, uh, I had just gotten paroled. I was paroled at 19. And, um, what were you paroled for? Let's talk about all that. So honestly, like I got in trouble for a lot of crazy shit that like probably wouldn't have been like so bad, but, but um I was in the system so I was I grew up in foster care you know the whole nine and so um anything that I did was against a lot it didn't really matter you know once you're on probation as a kid like you're no longer a CBS case like if you don't if you fail at a foster home or if you fail at a group home or

whatever you're going back to juvenile hall like you're not you're not giving those kids no hope no hope like but you know what what happened was is I'd already failed so many times. I was like, I could, if this fails, well, just add it to the stack. You know what I mean? So it gave me balls. But, um, so I, um, yeah, I was living in a, I bought a trailer. Yeehaw. I like to paint a picture because everybody if you guys were to go to Kata's profile you would see this beautiful girl who's living an extravagant life who has it so easy and you know people just literally would look at you and be like she doesn't have a care in the world and not realize that when they open your book there it's that

there's pages that they're gonna take out of it that's a testimony to their stories you know but that's what so I know that it seems like we're jumping all over the place but really this is all coming full circle to fruition so you guys can hear about you know all the success that has come her way after all of the struggle yeah so what prompted the move was I was selling meth out of this trailer of course because that's you know those were my options though like I literally like I sold like i was in an accident when i was a kid and i had those uh like structured payments yeah let me hear about this accident because i just learned about this accident yesterday yeah i had no idea well we're going everywhere there's so much there's like so she's like tell that story i'm like girl we got juice like i got juice for

days like i don't know how we're gonna fit this all in so um yeah i got suspended from school for getting into a fight and like while my parents were at work i went over the neighbors and borrowed their quad and like fucking they had just like built houses on these plots and they dig this hole that's called a perk test to test the well for like you know chromium and mercury and shit like that but it's a big ass hole and the weeds had grown up in it it's down the middle of the country and I was going like 50 without a helmet just like ripping and running out there and I flipped it like three times and I broke pretty much everything on my right side and like almost died it was it was a long recovery crazy but so I got this settlement money and I was like I'm selling that because they didn't want to give

it to me till I was like 30 and I'm like I'm broke now yeah give it to me now I just got out of jail like I have no prospects and so I bought it and I bought a bunch of meth that was I always wanted to be like this Tony Montana yeah I always have like this inner gang no I think all of us like girls that grew up in the streets yeah we want to be we are bosses so we live that lifestyle right but I'm a terrible drug dealer I'm way too i'm a terrible drug addict yeah i'm both both of us i think i'm a terrible drug dealer because i am a drug addict and also i'm nice like i want i want everybody to get high i'm like here you go you can just have it i'm like wait where my drugs go so yeah i realized that wasn't for me when everybody started trying to rob me and i i say trying because there weren't any successful ones but um i was like people that

i grew up with. Yeah, the meth game is shady. Yo, people that I knew since I was eight were like just coming out the left side, and I'm like, we want your meth. Nobody has my back here. Like, what the fuck am I doing here?

And so like, well, that's another story. So I got hit. Like, a friend hit me up. But it's all coinciding. Yeah, it all crisscrosses. Yeah. And so like,

I got an opportunity to move LA and it moved to LA which actually wasn't the opportunity I thought it was but it was like my way out and so I moved but yeah so that's how I ended up coming to Los Angeles so what happened whenever you got to Los Angeles oh we're gonna go there oh yeah okay how old were you when you got off that bus it was I was 19 i was 19 i had just 19 and green that's how we like them i was 19 and green and not only was i green like i grew up in prison basically you know what i mean so i didn't have any family i didn't i didn't know what the fuck was up like i barely knew how to make my bed like nobody they all you know what i mean like

there wasn't really any um nurturing if you know what i mean nobody taught there wasn't really any, um, nurturing if you know what I mean? Nobody taught me shit. So I'm out in LA and like somebody that was supposed to be my friend gets me caught up in some like gorilla pimp situation. I'm like, motherfucker, can I catch a break? You know what I mean?

Like I went from one hell to another. That's exactly how I felt. And then when I went out there to get sober, I was like, I'm quitting drugs. And she's like, you want some meth? And I was like,

sure. You're like, yes, please. Um, now I do red flags feel like home. Red flags feel like six flags. So yeah. So how long did that situation? So you were a working girl. Yeah. Me too. Everybody on my podcast knows all about that. Um, you're a working girl. You had a pimp that was pretty much, you grew up without structure. You grew up without the love. So in some aspects, it's kind of like Stockholm syndrome, where you love that person because they're protecting you and they're guiding you and stuff like that.

Well, I realized he couldn't leave because I made the money. But most girls don't realize that oh i did awesome i realized um as soon as i was able to dance i was like i'm not doing this anymore and he was like all right because i i mean like i really i i spoke about this before i was like something changed and i was like i hold all the power yeah it's me all along like the Wizard of Oz moment you know and I was like I run this shit so yeah I um ended up starting dancing I got out of that world which I'm how did you get away from him finally oh man um so like I said I was working in the strip clubs. I'm great. Uh,

uh, Orange County, California. And I met somebody at a club who was very well to do. And like sugar daddies, but it, but it was like, he was kind of like a Prince charming,

you know what I mean? Like, um, and I really did love him. Yeah. Like when we were together, he ended up being really like a lot, like,

um, cause like as things progress, like I realized like as things progressed like i realized like i didn't like it was too much for me he wanted to get married and i got married to him and so i married this millionaire whatever basically yeah it was not a bad thing though i always tell my the biggest thing i preach to people is never apologize for what you have to do to survive we've all done shit that fucking either one we're not proud of or two just was a stepping stone for us to have to get to where we were right well when you understand me and you understand my character it's like when I left that relationship like I was like yo like I'm not making you happy like

you're fucking miserable I don't want to hurt you like yeah I don't want anything from you like you can have everything that you know what I mean like take it I don't want anything you don't have to give me any money like I just want this to be over so that you can go on and be happy and I can go on and do drugs and ruin my life. I didn't know that at the time that that's what I was going to do, but that's definitely the road I took. How old were you whenever you guys decided to get the divorce? 23. 23. So what's 23 year old Kate like? Oh, she's a, oh man. I was, I was Hollywood and it up. I was rich bitch. It wasn't my money, but I was like, I was like draped in Tiffany's and you know, it was just like, I had never seen that life before and everybody wanted me, you know?

And I'm like, oh, I'm a train wreck, but we'll just crash together. And so, um, yeah, I just was kind of living like that young lifestyles, the rich and the famous life, you know know for a while and um there was a lot of partying and a lot of just being dumb and fun so your drug addiction where did that take you um how dark did it get oh um uh the lights almost got turned out completely yeah you know it's the best way that i can say it and, so I'm always kind of a teeter-totterer. Like, I used to always wish, I'm like, why can't I just, you know, go balls to the wall

like everyone else and ruin my life quickly so I can pick it up? Because if I'm not in- I swear to God, that's kind of how I think too. Yeah, I'm like, fuck man, why do I take so long? How am I such a control freak that I can manage a full-blown drug addiction for years? You know, and people'm normal i mean they always think i'm a little crazy i do it too yeah so um yeah i was able to manage for a long time what were you doing what was your drug

of choice well it started off with just you know math well no okay so when i got it's one thing the pimp did for me he was like you're not doing meth anymore i'm like yes i am he's all no and i was like oh okay he's like here here's heroin no he didn't do that i'm actually got sober for a while um i got sober for a while but then like shit was like swirling down downhill at the end of us being the other and me marrying the other guy so i was kind of like oh i was doing heroin when i was early married to him i forgot I would like go hide it and I'll go smoke it in the bathroom and like so um yeah so I'd started but I would always have suboxone and I would like do it for a week and then I'd kick it and then I'd be cool for like three weeks because I was still like flying out to auditions I was like you know being courted by Sony Records like I'm doing all this crazy great shit but I'm on drugs like and so yeah so um then uh she got really dark and i

so you went from suboxone to then i was just well i remember having the thought i was like it sucks the boxing's some serious yeah i'm like this really sucks kicking all the time so why don't you just do drugs until you're done and i'm like okay i love i love how your little angel and your double on your shoulder just like do you just do them if you're gonna do this shit then you do it right you know and I'm like all right so I did a lot of drugs and then I ended up um oh I ended up getting arrested for trafficking is what happened I was giving to somebody a ride I was giving a ride that was it and I got caught up in the wrong place wrong time and so i'm in fucking lynwood man oh i don't know what you want to go to lynwood

and so i'm like kicking in lynwood get out i'm like i'm gonna turn over my life and then when as soon as i get out like this chick's in the fucking cell with me so i'm uh it was some uh what were you trafficking heroin okay gotcha so you went from suboxone to heroin i was doing both of the same thing like you can't get high when you're on suboxone so i like always have suboxone so like when i ran out of heroin i could just kick it and like be a normal human for a couple weeks so yeah at that point there were that was after the thought why don't we just do drugs and i'm like all right all right, let's do it. And so did you ever shoot it? What did you do?

So that's so every time I started shooting drugs, God arrest me. That's how I feel. Yeah, seriously. He's always got your back. He's like, no, because I can maintain my addiction as long as I'm not shooting up. Right. As soon as I start shooting up, whoa, I'm a burn. Show up at your house fucking at 3 a.m.

Wrapped in a blanket with cigarette holes in it. Like, I'm a burn show up at your house fucking at 3 a.m wrapped in a blanket with cigarette holes in it like i'm a fucking mess man like you do not want to be my friend when i'm when i'm in my addiction i'm not laughing at you i'm just your face while you're telling this right now it's like it's my dealer we'll call him z my dealer he used to be like bitch you have to call me before you show up here but i knew sometimes he wouldn't answer because he didn't want to deal with me because i was really that big of a mess. So I called him to hang up, called him to hang up, called him to hang up, and then showed him to me like, I called you three times.

I don't know what to tell you. I really didn't look. He's like, I don't know why I didn't come through. And then like after I did that like three times, he's like, you're doing something. I'm like, I don't know. So you ended up in jail in Linwood. And then what happens after that? It was my first offense as an adult.

So my record was wiped. So they ended up giving me like some little slap on the wrist program for being an addict and i don't know why i did that i am because at the time you felt like you were just an addict so yeah i didn't really want to accept the fact that you were an addict you know yeah i was aware i just wasn't thinking about right exactly yeah i was like we'll deal with that later yeah like this whatever i'm just in jail so like a fucking three days after i get out of out of jail i'm back you know four sheets to the wind like and i get in a car accident these guys i went to go see the client she needs to write a fucking book like this would touch so many people though we're in the standard hotel. We get kicked out.

I love this room. I have done eight balls of cocaine off the walls in the standard. That's like a druggie hotel. It really is. People don't realize it. It's like supposed to be like higher class, upper class or whatever. And it is not,

it is like a fucking ritzy motel six. It is. Seriously. I'm going to tell you the untold story of the standard me here so um we had this client that so like my bag was like getting clients high and just chilling with them i'm a professional partier so like i after i got out of that scene i was like these dudes will pay you just to do drugs right oh yeah i tell a lot of people that i tell a lot of people especially being a working girl you're not having sex with everybody.

You're literally a therapist, an hourly therapist. Right. And they pay you to come and they pay you to leave. Exactly. And to keep your mouth shut. Yeah. Yeah. And so this guy, he would just give us a bunch of money to do drugs with him.

But then he checked out of the room, but he left it open because he was on crack and he was paranoid. And so you just like go from expensive motel to millionaire. It no i know it's amazing i was just about to say dudes that have so much fucking money are crack addicts yeah like you would never even believe the shit that i mean i've seen and you've seen yeah these motherfuckers and i'm talking like people that you would never that you see every day on tv that are crack addicts like it's crazy dude like the worst kind functioning the fbi is outside the window you're like no bro like they're not like i'm back yeah come back i need more money so you gotta stay chill at least for another two hours so many of those situations oh it's bad like hands up on the ground like full blown you're like yeah

bruh you're like nobody's outside the window honey no a matter of fact yes they are i need another 10 grand right i'll get rid of them i'll hide you from them only real working girls know no um yeah all right so the standard and so this is still 23 year old kata you're just going through 20 and years years have passed by now. 25-year-old Kate. 25-year-old Kate is still getting high and just robbing tricks. I don't know, robbing tricks, getting them high. I was robbing tricks. Sorry.

I didn't rob anybody. I did. I was the one who robbed everybody. I have a conscience about things. And the only reason why, I would do bad things, but then bad things would happen to me. And I'm like, no. That always happens to me.

But let me tell you the reason why I never felt bad for stealing money from these guys that were literally drugged out I felt like I was Robin Hood I would rob from the rich and give to the poor and I'm the I was the poor one and I was gonna give to myself and half these motherfuckers had wives yeah they deserved it so when we just did that video with jelly and them getting you know we don't want to reveal but you guys have to watch it spoke to me because that's really how i was i was like you know what you're cheating on your wife you deserve it yeah so um i like them when i like for them to call me back though too oh no they always called me back they were always when i robbed them they were always so up they never knew it was me oh that's smart you don't do it while they're awake is this incriminating how many years it has to go by there are nobody pressing charges they have

to press charges i feel like they're gonna be like bitch i knew it i knew it was you there has to be a victim for there to be charges and they are they're never gonna tell them themselves that's what when i say rob them i'm not meaning like actually go into their safe and steal their money you're you're let me not use that word. You're co, I was going to say coercing. You're coaxing them. You're just like,

yes, baby, you want this? Okay. I'll go get this for you. You know, I need X amount of dollars for this. So I'm not talking about straight up going in their pockets.

Okay. Well, I definitely have worked, worked a dude before, you know, exactly. I think they like it. Like,

I don't know. they love it. They love it. There's such a weird, yeah. All right. So anyways. So I get in this car wreck and I break't know. No, they love it. They love it. Like, there's such a weird, yeah. All right. So anyways. So I get in this car wreck and I break my back and like.

Oh my God. And my hip, both my hips. And then I'm like all hemmed up and they got me all. I was in heaven. They gave me fentanyl. They gave me Dilaudid. They gave me so many drugs. But then I kind of got a little bit better and I'm back in my hometown because like, of course, I'm broken.

So like my mom came and got me and um we had repaired our relationship in that from that time on and and so um but I'm back in my hometown in my stomping grounds and like oh man so I like get two doctors to write me twice the scripts because remember when I used to do that back in the day the pill mills um they didn't know I got caught but and then nobody would write me scripts anymore uh but the thing is is they didn't know i got caught but and then nobody would write me scripts anymore uh but the thing is is they didn't want to tell them themselves so i didn't get it well they did it out here in vegas when it was like a huge boom in the industry you would you would go doctor shopping is what they would call it and i just turn around and just i sold the pills well you

so they have a list like an uh a dea list so like i had to kind of be smart about it, but the higher you get, the dumber you get kind of situation. So, and eventually like I fucking, it lasted for months, you know? And then they're like, this was just filled somewhere. We can't fill it again. And I'm like, well, I'm all covers blown.

It's all over for me. So I just did heroin. But, Fuck a pill. I need the real shit. Well, I would sell the pills and get heroin right i don't want these so um yeah i then i ended up getting arrested so we stole a house stole a house is this a trailer trailer no it was like

she said so we stole a house well nobody lived there and didn't look like anybody was gonna i suppose yeah i don't know we turned on the power and then they shut off the power because we didn't pay the bill and so like that's my most most like oh man so i had this guy come over and like rewire the box yo i live this weird ass life so when was the moment of truth for you when what got you to be like dude i can't do this anymore my body is burning out like my mind and my soul or um there were a few of those moments for me like so I got arrested out of that house again and I got extradited to Los Angeles County for the first charge because I didn't go to court so I'm like in LA County with LA County they arrested me with no shoes on like

with oh yeah they don't give a fuck yeah they're like they're like la county shoes a onesie like you know what i mean those gangster onesie wearing motherfucker i know and so um yeah i could tell these stories for literal days but like um i feel like we're gonna need a part two it's always gonna there's part five or ten we're gonna have kata be a reoccurring guest on the podcast for sure that stories but you know so i was i ended up back with that x which one the pen okay because when i was in la structure no because he owed me and i was in jail with no money and no shoes and i was like motherfucker it's your turn to show up and so like he did and then like i got all mixed back into it and like i ended up leaving him for good when i went to rehab and i like this is your first time going to rehab it's my first time yeah yeah it

should have happened long before that but it was like what was rehab like um i got i got kicked out the first week for fraternizing i don't know like you gotta go all right because you're not allowed to hook up with people or whatever even hook up we just like you know he just fingered me no we actually didn't even sleep together but like rehab is its own beast man it's like it's a little egregore like everybody's got their little fucking role to play and everybody's so sick yeah like everybody's sick everybody's like literally about to die so like you know like when you're in that broken space what do you want to do like cuddle just like well i mean that too but i'm talking about the outside people like they're all just like there's claws i'm doing here for the people who can't see me like everybody's

just kind of ravenous to be honest and i'm like you would think it would be a completely different environment girls are catty as fuck and in rehab oh jesus christ you're the first one you're fucking up no offense but you're like pretty much at the bottom of the barrel when you're my bottom must have been higher than there because they didn't like me i don't know she's intimidating and i'm like i weigh 120 pounds i'm cracked out i don't know what you see oh my god but um yeah so um remember leaving. Yeah. I got kicked out and I was like, okay, well like, um, can you guys refer me somewhere? They're like, it's the first time we've ever heard that. And I'm like, yeah, dude, I just like gave up my apartment, like my everything, like

my boyfriend, like everything. Like I'm, I'm going to die if I don't like get sober. And like, they're like, we can refer you somewhere. And I'm like, okay. So they did. And like, yeah, I ended up like getting like three and a half years. And then I ended up relapsing on. You got three and a half years in prison?

No, sober. Oh, got three and a half years, three years. Okay. I was three years clean off of sober, clean and sober. And like, I was doing like the square life. I quit dancing and like, I was a miserable man. I just wasn't from like, I quit dancing and like I was miserable man I just wasn't from like I don't know how I respect anybody with a job I'm like you yeah I don't know how people who do nine-to-fives I can't I'm literally incapable I'm a terrible employee I'm a great

boss um but like I've been fired from it I mean or quit within six months I have a six-month lifespan at any type of job I feel that on a hundred i feel that on so many levels i'm like i better figure out how to do something else because like this shit ain't working you know so yeah i ended up were you sticking to the music during all of this was that the only was that the one thing that stayed true to you a hundred percent like no yeah that was that was my like my light at the end of the tunnel like that's all i like i was working three jobs saving up for music videos like fuck it dude like the amount of the tunnel. Like that's all I've like, I was working three jobs, saving up for music videos. Like, fuck it.

Dude. Like the amount of work that I was working at a gym, I was working at a rehab. I was personal training on the side. I am not certified. I just look good, but I'll tell you how to make you look better. They're like,

are you personal trainer? Uh, yes, I am today. I am today. I am. I'll teach you everything. I know Google don't eat the bacon. everything i know google don't eat the bacon

that's all you don't eat the bacon don't eat the bacon bitch no yeah so um so the music was the only constant that you always kept up with it was just like your therapeutic yeah 100 i was in i was creating this album the entire time but when you're an independent artist and you're working fucking a nine to five job like that's just expensive like respect these independent artists hustle out here because my husband has done it you have no idea like not only the creative aspect and the paying for aspect but the business aspect and on top of it you gotta like keep your brain on straight at the same time and not lose your absolute actual because all musicians are insane and i don't care why you say no i always say that like we have to be able to dig to a and not lose your actual shit because all musicians are insane.

And I don't care why you say that. Oh, no, I always say that. We have to be able to dig to a place that is so dark and so deep so that we can pull it out for you as a gift to the world. My husband has done independent his entire career, 15-year career, and I have learned so much about the music industry in the past five years. I hate the music industry. It is a beast. Like you say,

it is a shady, scary fucking place. And nobody cares about the other person. You could be working with somebody and fucking they'll turn as soon as the album's done. And you know, uh, yeah,

I'm not going to go into all that, but yeah, I agree. It's just crazy. That's why I'm so happy that you guys are with us now because literally it's just a whole family vibe over here and you guys are going to be able to spread your wings and fly. Be the little

monarch butterflies that you guys are supposed to be. I'm super stoked because the quality of just the type of music that I feel like we're going to be doing is very in my vein. Kind of the music that I've always loved to do but never got an opportunity to do. Cause I've been in LA and just fucking pop.

All sex sells. And you guys are beautiful women. So they want, you know, the sex part. And I think jelly and I are trying to get the more gritty fucking your soul bearing side that, cause that to me,

that to me is so beautiful. You know, when a woman can literally bear her soul i was listening to kata sing the other day in the studio i told her this last night um she has the the type of voice that will invoke emotion in you like she hit this one note and i my eyes teared up and i got like this lump in my throat and i was just sitting there and i was like you know trying to squeeze my butthole together because I didn't want to cry you know but yeah but it's just so will you sing something for us can you wow please they've got to hear your voice okay she's like oh wow okay yes

here I go how does this mic sound on me it sounds good I want to I want them to hear you sing I did not prepare for this I didn't I didn't tell her uh that i was gonna do this but i really want people to hear seeing what you were singing the other day not only is she a great singer the bitch can rap it's fucking and she can write like it's just there she's a triple threat her and kaylee both it's just it's a phenomenon they're they're definitely both two people you want to look out for and i'm not saying that words yeah you're a wordsmith words are my friend just like my husband's a cocksmith you're a wordsmith he's a wordsmith he's a wordsmith cock wielding wordsmith that's exactly jay jay is so proud to have his cock all over fucking only fan so we just booze

daddy up and tell him he's a cocksmith now because you know it's the second thing but okay i want to hear you sing all right let me see if i can do it this sounds bad we're taking it out we're gonna do two takes you're fine you're fine okay baby i'm torn oh baby i'm torn oh baby i'm torn too oh I have fucking chills dude although we're distorting here most definitely we do not need to do a second take. That's so beautiful. I've been saying that. I'm like, but there's like, I can hear it distorting.

No, it was great. I'm all singing this way. It was great. I love that. That gave me a loud voice. All right. So what would you tell people who are listening to this fucking crazy half a story? We didn't even get fully into

it we're saving more for later um but what would you tell people that are going through addiction right now that are feel like there's no way out that have probably been to rehab hold on man just hold on and pray lord i i like um hold on and pray because um i couldn't have gotten myself out of that space and like we didn't talk much about spirituality but there is man there's such a loving presence of something whatever you want to call it i'm not trying to discriminate because some people you know they i don't i don't it doesn't bother me to offend people when i talk about my spirituality i understand that some people feel different yeah but i've really i believe i have a very

complicated spirituality so they wouldn't understand it so no i get it i i always like to say i'm not religious but i'm spiritual hello yeah and heavily meditated and um i'm like god give me the words you know what i mean because that's a real moment um just ask for help please yeah like like ask for help if you're in a space like i had to ask for help and that was probably the hardest thing i ever had to do and it was through like uh i don't want anybody to have to get as broken as i did but i'm a firm believer that sometimes you have to be and another thing is uh like please do not give up on the work in progress that you are like, um, things show up in the most unexpected ways.

And, um, it's, it's so beautiful. Like when you see all of your hard work coming together and if you litter, like, dude, it's been, I've been at this for 11, 11 or 12 years. You know, this isn't some overnight success story. This isn't some, you know, fluke. Like I work my ass off and like, I've been through some shit, but the one thing I did, I was just like, I got nothing to lose. Like, you know, I'm going to fucking give this everything I have. And if I fail, who cares? I'm going to die anyway. You know what I mean? But yeah,

like ask for help. Please don't give up. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel for real what do we have to look forward to a whole lot of ass yeah yes um you know that's the thing i don't know you know what i mean she's such a gypsy she's such a fly by the seat of her pants i just want do like, so I've gotten really unattached from outcomes, really unattached from how it's going to happen. Really unattached from what I want. And I'm really, um,

accepting and trying to be in the vibration of, um, what is being, what's showing up for me, what is showing up for me. And I'm just being like, that seems interesting. Let's go try that out.

Like just running at it, you know? But I know music's going to be involved. I know that, like, that seems interesting. Let's go try that out. Like just running at it, you know? But I know music's going to be involved. I know that, you know, there's going to be a lot of living. And my hope is that. A lot of living and a lot of loving. A lot of living and a lot of loving, man. You know, like I'm at a point in my life where I'm just, I'm trying to embrace fully and still healing

and still like becoming the woman that I am. So I'm excited to see what I'm going to do next and, and still healing and still like, like becoming the woman that I am. So I'm excited to see what I'm going to do next. Cause even, I don't know. It's always a surprise. What about the dating life? Is Kate a single? Kate is single.

Is she ready to mingle with the dingle? I, you know what? I mingled a few times this year and I'm so sick of everyone's shit. Like I, I, I used to have this rule. I was like, I'm trying once this year. You get one shot. If it don't work, we're working the rest of the year.

One dong and you're out. Well, the thing is, is I don't like distractions and I don't like people wasting my time and I don't like wasting people's time. And so I'm just like, if I find somebody that like I really want to connect with and it doesn't work out, it takes a lot out of me to like invest like that so I'm like all right well we did that let's go let's go just work put our nose down and work and then if something comes along again then we'll see what happens but yeah yeah I love that so you guys hear that why don't you tell everybody where they can find you all your socials you can find me um on the instagrams instagrams instagram. Instagrams. At I-A-M-K-E-T-A-M-U-S-I-K.

That is, I am Kata Music with a K at the end. I always bust her balls. But she does it every fucking time. Wrong. This is wrong, buddy. She's like, why didn't this fucking tag you? I'm like, well, that ain't, it's not me. That's one of my fake pages right there. I'm I'm like why'd you do it with the k um and then where

else can they find you like where can they find your music right now you're gonna re rework your youtube channel yeah I'm reworking my youtube and I'm rebounding my spotify I love my old album if you want to go find it you can find it in my bio in my instagram um but it's uh i'm always just like are you does when i'm done with music i'm like all right i did that and i just like want to move on to the next that's how my husband is yeah like i don't even listen to my old stuff unless i come across it and i'm like oh it's so good yeah like who is this oh it's me it's me yeah um and is where can they find you on like youtube where's you and kaylee's videos who's it's they're on kaylee's they're on viking barbie so if you look up viking barbie on uh youtube

youtube you can go watch those these two hot pieces of ass fucking wrap their asses off and sing and stuff like that yeah yeah kate i thank you so much for coming on my podcast i love you this is gonna be the first of many that you'll be on. The journeys of episode one. Episode one, baby. Thank you so much. Of course. Thank you guys for listening to another episode of Dumb Blonde. And we'll see you guys next week.

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