Dumb Blonde - 65: Dumb Blonde: Baby Girl Bella- Sex Work, Fem Dom & Spirituality

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Starting point is 00:03:03 What's up you sexy motherfuckers? to another episode of dumb blonde today i have one of the top girls and only fans on my podcast and i'm really excited because she's super inspirational and she has a story that i think everybody needs to hear so baby girl bella's in the house hello hello thank you for having me dude thanks for coming what's up with those hooters they're beautiful they're about two and a half months old now. Golly, like you are. She's so tiny. I mean, she is a baby girl, Bella.

Starting point is 00:03:30 Let me tell you. But her tits, how heavy are those? Six pounds. Dude, each? No, it's okay. I was like, holy shit. How many cc's? 1,200.

Starting point is 00:03:40 And I, so I had my first augmentation two years ago and i was at 375 you know living the life like but i honestly i had big boobs before then so it just uh it shaped them better and then i love them i thought and then i was like oh man i just want bigger ones because i'm in the industry and i like sat with that for a while and like i literally even like meditated on it because i'm like man i don't want i'm not giving the industry forever i wouldn't want to do something that was specifically for that i'm not that type of person either and then one day i'm just like uh this model bambi blacks has some like 2700 or something and she was like talking about it in group and i was like you know what i'm gonna get some bigger titty i was like you inspired me

Starting point is 00:04:18 no i just had my implants taken out in november and i was out of the industry i wasn't doing anything and now that i'm doing only fans again i like, I want my tits back. Yeah, but it made you sick. I watched that. Yeah. Well, it did make me sick, sick. It just, I, I suffer from severe anxiety. So I don't ever like to say that I had BII or whatever it's called because I don't want to ever mislead anybody. I didn't have all the symptoms that these women have. And apparently the BII is a real thing because all these women have it. You know BII is a real thing because all these women have it. You know, I don't think they're just making it up, but I didn't have those symptoms. The only thing I had was severe anxiety and my left one was hurting really bad because I had a

Starting point is 00:04:54 scar tissue. My implant had folded inside of me. So I literally had scar tissue, but yeah, I want some new tits. And looking at these, I'm like, dude, give me some new tits. I can't say i'm not they're amazing so let's let's get into your story a little bit um where'd you grow up i was born in wisconsin i grew up mostly in good old arizona um i just recently moved um from arizona to california though and i'm i'm loving it do you love callie yeah it's just i don't know it's just a different energy and everyone honestly talks so much shit about it. I'm like.

Starting point is 00:05:27 I love Cali. Yeah. I was like. I heard some of the coolest bitches come from Cali. I just think like they knock it because they can't try it, you know. Right. They're like, oh, it's so pricey. And I'm just like.

Starting point is 00:05:36 You're like, whatever. I'm living the life, bitch. I'll take it for the ocean 10 minutes away or whatever. So you grew up in AZ. You know, tell me a little bit about it um i want to set you on this path in life it's like i don't necessarily think that you know everything i mean everything in your um beginning when you're younger does have an effect when your childhood trauma is real yeah but it's like i wouldn't say like oh this should happen to me so now i'm a sex

Starting point is 00:06:01 worker because that makes it like a negative connotation i get that um but i believe the things that have happened in my life have happened for me to be where i am now because like i'm literally living the dream job like yeah like i got i got to all afternoon i'm gonna i get i get to a beautiful girl after this and like i get most importantly like i love that i'm not in in the industry like i really love like the independent um creativity that i get to have and like especially with only fans like um like i was telling you i've been doing this for like four years i was doing snapchat before and uh just like all the how was snapchat for you it was it was fun yeah not not as lucrative as only fan right like a joke it's like a monster of their own like it's i i couldn't believe it but yeah

Starting point is 00:06:47 i still can't believe it i'm just like we're blessed yeah like honestly anytime i see any girl coming on anything i was like any honestly i'll be real anyone who's in our industry doing independent um work like you have such an abundant uh opportunity online like there's always something to do like make something and i know it's hard because especially a lot of us in the industry have you know um mental disorders oh yeah struggle with that and i struggle with anxiety and depression i don't say that i i don't as much now just because i don't identify with it i have right a little spiritual awakening and everything okay i want to hear about yeah definitely um but yeah so in the beginning super traumatic childhood my dad passed away from a heroin overdose when i was eight years old um then my parents my mom my stepdad got arrested uh for drug trafficking

Starting point is 00:07:30 when i when i was in high school and it was just um just a lot of you know just abandonment and everything like that um and i still tried to do what i could and everything you know graduate high school into college and everything like that um then i had a friend i one of the biggest things i think that kind of impacted um just like my whole shift of getting into sex work and everything was i had um the first boy i kissed actually you know obviously way years later um passed away from a heroin overdose unfortunately so it's like a pattern kind of yeah yep and um i ended up moving across country to charlotte north carolina oh okay i love charlotte okay it's just like maybe it's just it's different yeah yeah it's different if you live there and um i mean i was really in the party scene and

Starting point is 00:08:18 everything and uh the guy was dating was just like a shit show and just very just brought a lot of like negative energy like into our environment and uh that's when I actually got into sex work though and I um I first did I did like a little bit of cam work and like modeling and stuff like that um but what made it to seem okay of like oh you know I don't judge people that do that to something of like oh I'm gonna do that is the guy I was dating uh did like gay porn like not super gay porn he he looked like he was in a fraternity so it was like that was like gay for pay yeah literally though so um yeah what's super crazy is he had like a like a kind of like sugar daddy guy out there and that's why like moved us out there and like literally we could we had all the money we wanted all of this living the life but like most things there's always something like behind the scenes.

Starting point is 00:09:06 All good things must come to an end. Yeah, with that, it was just, you know, a lot of just doing drugs and just partying. What was your drug of choice? I've had my phases, but I just, I used to, back then it was like, it was like Molly and everything. Oh God, I had Molly nights. I'm still literally, every time I have a panic attack, it brings me back to when I used to do Molly. You're just like, I think now I just might have a little too much caffeine. And I'm like, oh my God, how did i used to do molly and you're just like like i think now just my blow too much caffeine and i'm like oh my god how did i used to do that yeah isn't it crazy like when you're a kid you feel like you're fucking invincible and you can literally fucking just balls to the wall snort rails fucking take molly fucking shoot cocaine

Starting point is 00:09:37 up your ass do whatever the fuck now i fucking won't even drink a whole coffee no you know like i'm such a scary bitch yeah i like i I literally just started smoking like a very small percentage of THC again. Right. Yeah. I'm just like, oh, my gosh, how did I used to like smoke dabs and blunts all day? Yeah. I'm just like, whoa. No, I used to do fucking bong rips.

Starting point is 00:09:55 Like, how could I? I could never. I would end up in a straight jacket in the hospital. Who was she? Yeah. I kind of miss her. Yeah. I miss the girl that I used to be sometimes because i'm like god i was

Starting point is 00:10:05 so much fun yeah and now i'm like i'm tired right i don't got enough energy yeah um yeah but i also oh my gosh girl i used to drink a lot a lot and now i think of that too i'm just like wow like i just i love you feel like you were an alcoholic or do you do you ever think that you could really call yourself like a drug addict um not a drug addict definitely not and then alcohol i'd only say because i drank like every single day yeah i did too and but it was never i never felt that i needed it right and i never was more of a social drinker yeah it was just it was that like i used to dance so it's like of course i'm trying to get fucked up for that you know like um and yeah and exactly i need a drink to feel comfortable now now i realize i'm like oh my gosh that was what was giving me social anxiety yeah like so many people don't realize that because

Starting point is 00:10:48 it's so like socially conditioned that like let's go drink let's go smoke i used to drink all the time and then right before i stopped i started um right before i stopped dancing i would work sober and even when i was a working girl i worked sober everybody was so much more money do that dude and i'm just like dude it's just you you get to the point where you don't want to be fucked up anymore because you're like in control and you can control the the target yeah no exactly and i'm like if i went back to dance now after like just how i'm with only fans and stuff i'm like it would be i'd be that girl would be like want to dance want to dance like not a little bit like oh my gosh i need to like yeah no no no i'm just

Starting point is 00:11:23 giving what they want um so yeah with all of that um i got stuck like yeah no no no i'm just giving what they want just yeah um so yeah with all of that um i got stuck out there a couple years i finally got back to arizona and i also i was dancing out there for a while and the clubs aren't they aren't very fruitful where i was in charlotte at least fruitful i like that word yeah and uh but you know i got i got by i did what i needed to do i was like i need to go back to to Arizona. I don't belong out here. You know, I don't like any of this. So I went back to Arizona. I dated a guy who wouldn't let me work, you know, for a couple of months. Yeah. Yeah. And I'm just like, I dated a guy that made me delete my Instagram one time. I had like 40,000 followers. This was years ago. So it was huge. Yeah. He made me delete my Instagram and I did it. I look back to it now and I'm like,

Starting point is 00:12:04 why the fuck did I do that? That's what like every guy I dated before. I'm just like, oh my God, how did I let you do that? Like, what did, I'm like, you wish you knew me today. Or just childhood trauma. Yeah, exactly. Because you think at that point, that's your love. That's your love.

Starting point is 00:12:16 Your love language. Yeah. Trauma, yeah. So, yeah. And then I eventually luckily left him and I moved in with a friend. I was like, all right, I'm going to start camming, you know, like I'd done it before. I did webcam too. Yeah, because it's just like, you know, like, okay, it's going to be lucrative no matter what.

Starting point is 00:12:32 It's not popping. And I went for like a week and studied, you know, what was the best site to do and everything. So I actually started doing like femdom, and I kind of just fell into it. I cannot see you doing that. Really? But then again, I can see you doing it. Do tell. I've always been so intrigued by that lifestyle.

Starting point is 00:12:50 I had a real dominatrix, this chick from New York. But she's so sweet. And dude, like she's hot. And she's hot like in that fucking like just very poised. Like she's a real dom. Like where's the fucking black and all that. Like did she walk in? I was like, I'm horny. Yeah. by the time we were done oh yeah by the time we were done i was like dude

Starting point is 00:13:10 you're fucking hot and she's like dude you're hot i'm like yeah did we just become best friends i want to hear about your dom lifestyle um so yeah so what uh yeah i've always found myself more of like a switch like i don't really like like I have. Well, I guess I do have a preference. I have a preference for personal life. I have a preference for work. Right. And even that being said, though, I would consider my work life. I don't hate to say vanilla, but when I think I'm just more hetero, I suppose.

Starting point is 00:13:37 Right. I think I'm more sub because I'm such an alpha. Yes. I want to be tossed around in the bedroom. Yeah. Trap me, slap slap me pull my hair yeah that's how i feel but then like and then but then like the femdom on me comes out i was like oh yeah so what happened to those because um so yeah like my twitter is bratty bella that used to be

Starting point is 00:13:56 like my persona um drives from isabella james but i used to just go on cam didn't really know what i was doing and everyone was like oh you're so bratty that's good though because they like bratty exactly so it kind of just turned into like a femdom thing and i was on um i was on stream mate so i was all like oh my god this is bringing back memories yeah see i worked for my free cams i did my free cams i started that's the very first thing that i did but i did it because it was like uh just like the private sessions and everything and now i look back at it it's like i don't i do like doing private sessions i like sex with my members and stuff but it's different than like a whole cam to cam yeah but it was cool because i was like just like making fun of small dicks and

Starting point is 00:14:32 i'm like it's small penis humiliation yeah and i look back at the first time that i did that when i had like a like not femdom account yeah i was just like what the fuck is this guy so for everybody at home that's listening why don't you explain to them like what small penis humiliation is and all that stuff because some people have probably never heard of this and probably can't believe that this is actually a thing yeah so yeah because you wouldn't think um there's there's a fetish for everything in the world if you could think of it somebody has fetishized and has came to it yeah um so small penis humiliation is just guys some guys actually don't even have small dicks that's crazy but they're just they like that i've had a few guys with big honkers that

Starting point is 00:15:08 want you to tell them that it's small for some reason well yeah it's just like uh the guys that are into being subbed typically are very successful strong businessmen but they they like that other aspect just like we were saying that you know the reverse role so they don't have to they don't have to be the boss for once right so there's that and there's like come eating instructions because you know you can't unless let me hear about this i this i do not know about so what is this come eating instructions i just learned what a fucking joi was when i signed up on yeah she said oh poor baby yeah i mean because i didn't know what a joi was until i signed up on only fans and nobody would teach me what it was so i had to like start googling everything and learn on my my own but i've shit now i'll bang out a joi in no time yeah

Starting point is 00:15:49 there's so many like more um so what is come eating yeah so come eating i get see there's so many things that some guys because some guys would say like come eating joi like that's like a straight thing but to me that's like femdom you're literally telling a dude when he can come when he can come and what he can what he's gonna do with the come when when it is because to me uh guys want to do it but they feel like it's gay probably unless they have like a hot girl tell them to do it right you know like i think that's but then there's like ball busting there's just um just i really send it like so do they do they eat the cum is that what it is so just like they eat their own can't like lick it up bitch okay oh my god i'm making a new video

Starting point is 00:16:26 tonight yeah no but that's what i'm saying some guys that you know obviously it's not like a thumb down page but a lot of guys are super into it you know because it's like same thing it's like you're having i'm telling you how to jerk your cock off like let's just you know make it a whole thing so um but yeah so i but then i i did that for about six months and i met a girl um that got me into doing snapchat and i was like oh wow like being you know quote vanilla or just more uh typical stuff is just um a lot more abundant you know as me i was like remember i'm like i made 500 today yeah like so when you're talking about snapchat so you're talking about private snapchat premium yes and this was this was before fan centro was

Starting point is 00:17:05 around so this is i missed the whole fan centro thing i don't even know what the fuck that is it's it's just a website that you can sell your snapchat your private instagram now they have everything only fans of because it's competition oh gotcha but only fans been around for a while i had it but just in like the last year it's become really really huge thing yeah or it's like i never would have would have guessed that yeah but snapchat snapchat used to be the thing and um you know it's cool because you're like i don't have to be live and i can do this i can do whatever i want on my page yeah and just like anything else it's promoting yourself so you are your brand that's what i always tell everybody everybody messages me every day for only fans advice and i'm just like you are your brand you have to invest

Starting point is 00:17:43 in yourself you have to promote yourself yeah that's that's you could literally have the most amazing hottest tape ever and no one's gonna care unless you know how to promote it absolutely and that's always such a letdown too if like when you make something like super fire and you're like why did i hate that yeah i didn't mention that i did anal yeah like i didn't the captions are like the that's it yeah you really have to like have a great caption that just makes people want to it's like an erotic novella yeah no like we are literally like writers it's crazy there's sometimes like me and my girls will sit because they all

Starting point is 00:18:16 have only fans also we'll sit here and just be like okay what's the caption gonna be like and we have to sit there and one of us will be like okay i got it or the other one will be like i got it and we'll like write it out and then we'll say it out to the person they're like yeah we love it so yeah i go i go on like porn hub and stuff oh my god that's a good idea and then like sometimes i write it we're just teaching your ways i'm like busty blonde no some of your captions are fucking great it makes me want to buy some of your shit yeah what's going on under this fucking little price well i've been yeah so i didn't um okay so i'll get to this part so snapchat i did that for i did that for a good like two

Starting point is 00:18:51 years before i started making like really good money from it and what happened is that yeah so you used to have to use like um google wall even like paypal and all that and like so our accounts get shut down all the time and yeah i don't you think that for us girls in the sex industry we get fucking hated on by huge corporations every fucking day yeah no we um honestly like we don't do anything wrong we literally it's a job like any other job we're bringing people fucking happiness that's why i'm like i'm like i consider myself helping people you know like i'm like i help people masturbate and like i'm especially especially like we're in our own home like yeah even people that are in a professional in the industry like you're not you're not hurting anybody you're not you're not like

Starting point is 00:19:31 look at child here's my tits yeah it's insane and yeah we we get discriminated because sex yeah you know there's people but there's way worse things in the world that could be going on like you know fucking just murder murders all the look at all the pedophile shit that's coming out right now the child trafficking and all that stuff but yeah it's insane it's um always so i've i genuinely i'll be straight up years ago my ex kind of forced me into prostitution i almost got sold into sex slavery so i've been on all ends of the spectrum where I did that. I did. I had sugar daddies and everything. Yeah, me too. Not that I got sold into. I pimped myself out.

Starting point is 00:20:10 Oh, no, girl. I did that too, though. I was one of those renegades who was like, you know what? Fucking God gave me a gift, and I'm about to use it. So here we go. So I did it where it was forced. I did it where it was voluntary, and then I do. When it was forced, how old were you? Can you talk about that situation a little bit?

Starting point is 00:20:24 So I was in my early 20s. Was it was was it more like a manipulation or was it like yeah okay yeah i wasn't like uh i wasn't like a pimp off of like craigslist or anything right it was it was the guy that i was dating who um who had the sugar daddy and everything and we didn't need the money or anything and i was just like oh i fucked up on xanax i just i was like how does xanax phase myself i i was prescribed it and after all for years and yearsanax i just i was like i had a xanax phase myself i i was prescribed it and after all for years and years and years and then i finally got off of it thank god yeah and it's just like i'm just like oh my gosh no wonder like i just like thought things were so okay you know it's like i know but at the time i'm like i'm in another state i'm like you know he paid

Starting point is 00:20:58 for my rent like i owe him like you know i was like well you also probably wanted to feel like you were contributing yes exactly he was bringing in so much money i know how that feels too yeah and so and you know it's forced and then i actually uh had this guy who was like oh i want you to be on tour with drake and all this shit went up with him to new york and he was grooming me to to you know to sell me and everything and the fact that i just had such a big mouth and the day he was actually going to take me to get like my pictures taken or whatever for this and like he like had me delete my face or like deactivate my facebook he just wanted you off the face of the earth yeah i couldn't find you exactly and um that's so scary that there's people out there like this yeah and like just make it

Starting point is 00:21:38 seem like normal and then like you know it's so like oh you know you you party and drink too much that's why you look older and like all this stuff was like not even true. Right. And so, yeah, like we stopped to get some food and he heard me overtelling some guy. I'm like, I'm gonna be on tour with Drake or, you know, some whatever tale he was telling me. And he's like, nope.

Starting point is 00:21:55 He's like, fuck this. Like you're leaving. Like someone's flying you out from here. Like I had too big of a mouth. He knew he was gonna get, he would get caught with you. Yeah, definitely. And like I look back and at the time, I even still don't even know yeah honestly and like i remember calling two my friends of course they didn't have money and then i called my boyfriend whatever he was at the

Starting point is 00:22:12 time who you know he was he actually didn't really want me to go but he was like you know whatever about it right he was actually about to go to ibiza like two days later i would have been so screwed he you know flew me back i went back to carolina thank god yeah who knows what you would have fucking ended up having to do yeah no like that and that guy raped me and he's like i could kill you and like nobody would know and just like that's terrible yeah and i just look back at it now i'm like man i think it's safe it's crazy that you can talk about that and i i had a couple girls on the podcast who the coolest thing that they said i i don't know if cool is the right word that I should use, but the most intriguing thing that they said was, you know, in our industry, you literally get raped and you have to get right back up and out there the next

Starting point is 00:22:54 day. You cannot sit around and feel sorry for yourself. So to see you sit here and talk about being raped and just not even bat an eyelash like that really shows the strength that you have. I don't think people in the world understand that girls in our industry how fucking strong we are yeah you know like we can't we don't play we don't let our heartstrings you know come out we don't let people see the all the shit that we've been through but just to hear you talk about that just so passe you know like i just want you to know you are loved and thank you we're so happy that you're here and that shit didn't you know fuck that fuck that dude hopefully yeah it's fucking karma oh yeah i mean all of them though um i mean honestly it's been a long ride and i just about a year ago i just started getting really into like meditation and stuff so i love

Starting point is 00:23:38 it you said you had a spiritual experience i had a spiritual awakening so yeah so fast forward to all that i um about so two years ago i started doing really well on snapchat so using fan centro and i like lowered my price and i was like you know one of the top girls on there um i got my braces you know i got my first boob job and everything and and then for a while it was like kind of slow because i let my public snapchat i had like 15k or whatever and And like, it used to be really, so I've always done just inner. Internet stuff. Oh, internet stuff.

Starting point is 00:24:09 But like just promo, like on Snapchat, promo on OnlyFans. Like I never had like a huge Instagram or anything. Right. So I'm used to that. I think that's amazing because most people make it sound like Instagram is vital. You know?

Starting point is 00:24:21 No, that's not. Yeah, that's not. I think, yeah, I think if I had one, you know, or like if my Twitter is what it says it was it was you know but like and honestly it's just i just do a lot of promo i buy promo and i just and i like and it's cool too because it's like i've been around for a while so it's like girls kind of like know me you have that trust and everything no i see you in the 75 up and club yeah i'm in there but i don't talk to anybody yeah i know it's good yeah it's why i mean i'm not too i'm don't talk to anybody yeah i know it's like it's good yeah it's

Starting point is 00:24:45 why i mean i'm not too i'm like oh my gosh like because i've been so yeah i've been doing very well for just like the last couple months i've just been like thriving so what happened though is i started i got in or i got only fans and then back in december like man i'm like i see i see girls making a money amount that i literally make every week now. And I'm like, I need to make that every month. Oh, my gosh. You know? Yeah. You know, I got – oh, so I got a coach.

Starting point is 00:25:11 And for two freaking months, I sat there and watched all these girls thrive in her thing. And I still was not making money at all. And I'm just like – I know. I'm like, I know this will work. I know this will work. Just got to, like, hang through. Like, she does. Like, I lowered my price.

Starting point is 00:25:23 I took, like – I had a lot of videos and stuff. like just like giving too much and i just i only had like 400 subs like right which is why like but you don't really i i learned very quickly that you don't have to have a lot of subs to make a lot of money that's what was i didn't know i didn't know how to hustle with them right to really give them what i wanted and really understand like price points and stuff like that nobody they don't have an only fans class and they have like you know all these girls have like i haven't watched yours and stuff it's like you say as much but you you have to experience it you have to do what works for you because what works for another girl another girl can have a bunch of nudity full videos on her page and still make you know x amount but then you know

Starting point is 00:25:59 another girl can do it and it doesn't work right it's just like a lot of girls that have big platforms like you like some of them don't even do hardcore stuff because they they just do underwear pictures you know it's like and they still can make like fucking uh what's that that bitch's name the fucking ring girl i forget her name uh fuck i forget her name she's uh like one of the ring girls for the ufc okay she makes fucking bank dude on all she does is like post pictures in her bra and panties yeah and i'm just like geez because it's just something else lucky you yeah this one girl spread my butt cheeks in the morning you know she's over here in a fucking bra and panties and i'm like fuck you no i'm just kidding i don't spread my butt cheeks in the morning i spread them at night yeah i'm just kidding gotta get

Starting point is 00:26:39 that uh atmosphere um yeah but no you're so right. Like, it doesn't matter, you know. Go ahead. What were you saying? So, oh, yeah. So, finally, I started just kind of doing my own thing. Like, kind of stopped doing some of the things that she told us to do. And I still am so grateful for her. Like, it's still a great group and everything.

Starting point is 00:27:00 But then it just, you know, started popping off more. And I just started, honestly, I started making more sex tapes. I've seen your growth. Even since you and I first started talking. I've seen the growth i'm like go bitch go it's like i think it's amazing and it's just it honestly it's consistency that's what a lot of girls think i mean and some girls like i i put out two videos every day um see i was doing three pieces of content a day on my free page i was pulling in that much money on my free page that was crazy but it was exhausting three fucking pieces of content a day like oh my god so i've i've gone back to at least one or two pieces a day and then just try to like you know do things in between you know like yeah little things yeah oh yeah yeah exactly that's really that's where the best thing

Starting point is 00:27:41 is like doing engagement because the guys really want that and like some girls that's the thing people do all different kinds of stuff it's crazy and it's just it's like it's a little world yeah you can do whatever you want to offer and that's what's exciting to you sometimes you know guys are like why don't you offer this for this really cheap price blah blah blah like because that's not me if you want me to do this that's how much it is yeah yeah that's a custom yeah that's a cut like not just your your recommendation yeah what is the weirdest thing that you've ever been requested on only fans or maybe not even on only fans in your career because i've had some weird shit like when i did webcam i had a guy ask me to hang myself

Starting point is 00:28:17 oh my god he said he would pay me to hang myself from a door and just like not die i don't know but i was like i'm not gonna try it because what if i don't fucking live to tell the story you know um i mean i just like i've had guys like fuck their asses with baseball bats for me what yeah and i'm just like i didn't know you could do that i didn't know you could he wasn't ready like oh my god a baseball bat like how do you figure out your assholes that big oh man just like hopes and dreams i can't poop okay so i could never even imagine shoving a fucking baseball bat up my ass well no i see like uh you know they have um bad dragons like hanky's toys that are

Starting point is 00:28:56 not even that long they're just so thick and i'm just like and guys are just like ram me i'm like why do i see this on twitter listen any of my fans are watching this right now i love you guys because you guys don't fucking do this to me yeah oh yeah my guys are just normal they're just like fuck they're vanilla i guess you could say okay so any weirdos i did i made a small penis humiliation video one time nobody bought it oh no i was like okay these are not my fans yeah i'm not doing this again yeah i just started like i have mostly sex tapes i just started i used to always just be solo and i'm like you know what like i have guys i just want solo stuff i'm like i make fucking amazing solo content so it's just like finding that difference and i'm like i would always just want to like you know put yeah put all

Starting point is 00:29:39 like small pieces but i'd be like yeah the like subset of people actually request that so yeah so i just like offer as a custom because then it's like hey it'll be you know have your name in it or whatever too so so you have an interesting niche on only fans can we talk about it what yeah it's uh the stepbrothers yeah so you cater to that's a fantasy that people have and it's a you know obviously it's a real thing um you know can we talk about that it's like very taboo and people are very into that um yeah so actually one thing that and i'm not saying uh or like not not saying or anything that i had a type of relationship like that in the past but um what i had mentioned before with my coach is she found as interesting is that um a lot a lot of sex work is uh you're able to use it to heal

Starting point is 00:30:22 past trauma so you know so people that's such a cool way can you say that again for everybody um i've used sex work to heal my past sexual trauma like yeah completely especially with the femdom thing because i was involved in that uh the like gay for pay like so i didn't mention it was like a like sadomasochist thing where like he didn't have they have sex but he like abused the the sugar daddy and daddy. And he drank his pee and did just crazy violent stuff. When I was a working girl, I had a client who always wanted to get beat up and kicked in his balls. And I never did it. I always brought other girls to do it for me.

Starting point is 00:30:57 Yeah, whatever. Because I was just like, I can't just fucking look at this dude and punch him in his face for no... I'm not going to beat the fuck out of somebody unless unless i'm pissed and then that's another story but you know i always brought other girls and i would always tip them and see i know i love that i'm actually one of like one of the fears fearsome tiny i know you're not gonna abuse people and shit if they want it i love it yeah but it is it's like that like switch um of that so it's like you know i see the dom and you know yeah because it's like i had that and i'm like and's like you know i see the dom in you now yeah because it's like i had that and i'm like and i'm like now i'm in power you know and like i but that

Starting point is 00:31:28 it's like that i've worked through all that like so much and it has to be because of like what i do right so i tell other girls because i'm just like man like you know i've been there i've been there where it's like you cry all the time just because you think of like you know the past and everything but it's like it doesn't even even exist the only moment exists is the present and like we have like all the power to just like create such a beautiful life because i'm like the reason i mean besides like honestly anyone out there doing only fans consistency and hard work pays off like you're you're gonna get it if you want it but my biggest thing is like in the beginning years like i'm like i want to do very well and like i manifested it i had a vision board literally

Starting point is 00:32:02 everything i have on my vision board down to where i live down to the tesla i'm about to get down but down to the grocery store that i shop at i have all my vision board and like even i had like the numbers i wanted to reach on only fans and i keep changing them you bitches better start making vision boards tonight yeah i'm like i was always kind of like about it but i have it up and it's just no i love it so powerful i think they're awesome i want to hear about the spiritual awakening that you had okay yeah so uh this is about a year and a half ago and long story short i was dating a guy for two years um he was a millionaire but he was also a drug addict i feel like that always goes hand in hand yeah they get bored i've never i've never met a happy millionaire no not one and they create their own misery. Yeah. It's like you have all.

Starting point is 00:32:45 I mean, that's the thing. You know, obviously, material items don't make you happy. Or even, you know, being at the top of anything. At all. So what happened is that he got arrested while we were on this rave cruise and everything. Oh, God. Yeah. And it was just like.

Starting point is 00:33:00 How do you get arrested on a rave crew? That's like expected debauchery. No, that's what they're like looking for. But like, um basically we were in an area we weren't supposed to be at a time and i haven't told him like this is whack and he's like shut up and like he had yeah so yeah his thing was ketamine which honestly that was that was my thing i loved that i did it one time and it made me really horny and then i went to sleep and that was it yeah you gotta yeah you gotta like stay awake through it. But,

Starting point is 00:33:25 um, so I mean, and everything you do, it's like your environment and everything too. It's like, I was the worst drug addict. Everything made me sick. I was always rocking back and forth in a corner. Like I'm not a good drug addict.

Starting point is 00:33:35 I know. I'd be like in a ball. Like, okay, stop rolling now. My body is just not equipped to take drugs. Period. No.

Starting point is 00:33:41 And like some people don't realize that and they still keep doing it. Yeah. Well, that was me. I did that for fucking like a decade. then finally when i got older i was like okay you know what i'm not gonna do this to myself anymore i think it was kind of like a form of abuse you know i felt like i deserved it yeah um yeah definitely it was like a self-mutilation in a way yeah just that um self-hatred yeah absolutely something we all have to work through um so what

Starting point is 00:34:02 happened is he got arrested and it was just like really traumatic for me i was like this is when i first was like getting more into like self-help and just uh start seeing a therapist and stuff and it kind of just like set me back and um about a month after that just kind of being you know going and going with the emotions and everything i was just like messing around on youtube and i was looking at like um i'd been off adderall for like a year so i was like what are some some natural remedies for like focus and i was looking at like um I'd been off Adderall for like a year so I was like what are some some natural remedies for like focus and I was looking at like trying to just like just bettering myself and also I saw this girl that I followed about spiritual stuff and found out she was a complete hoax so I was like what's what's really going on terrible yeah and I mean that's why you kind of got to vet everything that's out there wasn't the one with pink hair was it Audrey

Starting point is 00:34:41 Kitching yeah yeah I was like i don't trust nothing from my space she blocked me because i talked shit about her on twitter it was all fake she's a terrible person but anyway so but i'm glad because everyone you know yeah has their purpose in your life and uh so i just kind of fell into the youtube rabbit hole and i found um specifically this dude aaron dowdy he has almost a million followers now and it's just like all that you know we're we're infinite spiritual beings have a temporary human experience and like he had adhd and got you know cured his symptoms or whatever you call it from meditation just all of this fell deep into the rabbit hole um was vegan became raw vegan quit smoking weed like cold turkey and you

Starting point is 00:35:19 know i was like smoking like a gram or more a day just stoned out on my mind i was like whoa like what about like yoga and you know meditation and i booked i booked a um a retreat to do ayahuasca oh my god my husband would love you yeah he got some right up his fucking alley he wants me to do that so bad it's wild what is it so i i want details so it's uh like it's plant medicine and it has DMT in it. And basically it's like, you know, we're born and we're all born just like pure love. And all this stuff that happens in our life kind of takes us away from that, which is like. So it's like the ego and then like the soulful self. Yes.

Starting point is 00:35:57 And just doing ayahuasca like brings you back to that. And like what like they say she's like, you know, an energy just like shows you like all this like just like who you've become basically you know like and it's kind of rough have bad like is it a bad experience or is it emotional is it like a up and down thing or is it like a completely downhill thing um i slept through all my ceremonies like that's how like they they say that sometimes it happens because that's how you need to be healed and i'm like it was because i did it for four nights straight it's down in costa rica and it's like really nice you know it's called rhythmia it's like nice resort and everything did it make you like did you have anxiety or anything

Starting point is 00:36:31 no like it was just all these people are literally some of them are vomiting some are crying some are screaming you know it is it's like a really really intense process because it's like you know just showing i'll be the one that's vomiting screaming and all of the above yeah it's i mean i'm surprised i wasn't but it's like I'll be the one that's vomiting, screaming, and all of the above. Yeah. I mean, I'm surprised I wasn't. But it's like sometimes they say the people that have had the like deeper trauma, like that's how it is. And they also say it's like healing your ancestral wounds. Because it's like all the stuff that happened like in our families in the past, like we still are like. Carry that.

Starting point is 00:36:57 Yeah. We're still carrying that. Even the karma. Carry that. Yep. Yeah. Carry that scar. So you're like, damn, like I didn't even think, you know, I did anything like this.

Starting point is 00:37:03 But it's like, oh, it could have been like your mom's mom or something like that so there's so much like spiritual stuff i'm so into it though i love it and i just think that you know people think because you know because i'm in sex work and i'm like this that i can't be another way and it's like no like you can can be any way you want to be spiritual women and the coolest women i've ever met are in sex work yeah. It's the square bitches that are fucking rude and judgmental and a bunch of fucking Karens. Like I swear to God. And it's the truth.

Starting point is 00:37:29 And that's because they have a bunch of unhealed shit and they don't want to deal with it. So they take it out on everybody else. But we're so in tune with our bodies and our souls and our minds that we're figuring this shit out. The hoes are winning. All right.

Starting point is 00:37:42 The hoes are winning, guys. I just want to let you guys know that. A whole life. So what can I expect to see or what can we expect to see from baby Bella for the rest of the year? What are you doing? I'm actually, I want to,

Starting point is 00:37:53 I want to start a blog based. I know. So, so like nineties, but I love writing and just to give my, you know, my fans a little bit more, but something just based off of like a,

Starting point is 00:38:03 my, my super boob adventures, you know? Cause it's like, it is just a different life. And what's so funny is, like I said, I've always kind of been packing it there, but I really wasn't, you know, like, and now I am. So I'm just like, ha, now I'm like what everyone's always kind of put me as, perceived me as,

Starting point is 00:38:18 even like in high school and stuff. I'm just like, I just love it. I love life. I can do that. Only fans all day. Dude, what do you think the lifespan on OnlyFans is? I don't like to think about it. I know.

Starting point is 00:38:28 At all. I know. She's like, let's not even talk about it. Yeah, because there's people who are like, oh, it's going to be shut down tomorrow. It's going to be this and that. And I'm just like, you know, anything could. Like, you could be working at a corporation for 20 years and they could boot you any day. Yeah, any day.

Starting point is 00:38:41 It's just like that. Just live every day. It's like the more happiness and more abundance there is of something something there's going to be the opposite end of that spectrum so it's like just pay your taxes and save money yeah honestly i love your views on life and i'm so happy that you came here to share your story i can't i want to have you back on definitely so you have to come back and see me and i want to just you know touch base with you but thank you so much for being here and do you want to shout out where people can find you because you don't have an instagram no instagram um they can't handle they really can't you can shout out your only fans and um yeah it's onlyfans.com backslash bracy bella

Starting point is 00:39:14 and my twitter is at braddy underscore bella 69 go check her out she's a cutie and she's a sweetheart man thank you so much for being here. Thank you. And thank you guys so much for listening to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye.

Dumb Blonde - 65: Dumb Blonde: Baby Girl Bella- Sex Work, Fem Dom & Spirituality

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