Dumb Blonde - Ask, Tell, Confess: Did I Really Make $100,000 In One Night?

Episode Date: April 3, 2026

On this episode of Ask, Tell, Confess, the Coven opens up about the real-life struggles that shaped them—dyslexia, autism, and deep-rooted trauma. Meme gets honest about having to rewatch and reread things just to fully process information, while Bunnie shares how those challenges don’t define your future.The conversation takes a wild turn as Bunnie answers questions inspired by her book—including the jaw-dropping amount she made in a single night ($100,000) and the complicated family dynamics she’s navigated along the way. From chaos to clarity, this episode dives into growth, resilience, and what it really takes to take control of your life.Watch Full Episodes & More: YouTubeSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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He said I'm dyslexic. It looked right. It looked great to me. You know, I learned something the other day about dyslexia because I never understood why I can't remember. Like, I admire the fact that both you guys can quote movies. And I can't quote movies. Like, I...

Isn't that ADD, though? No, so, like, it's a natural comprehension. It's just you comprehending something that you enjoyed. And I didn't know that in dyslexia, you can't actually fully comprehend things. without watching it like multiple times and I was never a kid to like watch a movie four or five times and they said that that was like I never knew that I just thought I was someone that just couldn't remember shit and they said no that's actually like you would have to comprehend that by watching it like

like how I how I read things you know I'll have to read something like four or five times to fully understand it and they said it's the same thing with movies I just thought dyslexia was reading only and I didn't know it had to do with like music and everything like that Aw. But you love music, though, don't you? Like, you can retain music. I love music, but I don't understand music. Oh.

Yeah, so, like, just the other day, you guys, this is going to sound so stupid. But, like, I don't hear words in music. It's more of, like, it's a collective thing. So I don't know what songs are about. I have to listen to it so many times to even be able to tell you what the song is about. I just learned the other day that don't rock the jukebox was literally about don't put rock and roll on the jukebox. See, I don't listen to songs. the lyrics like how people are like your lyrics change my life i i don't understand that i will sing a full

song and not couldn't even tell you what it's about yeah so my weird thing about music is i will love the shit out of a song and like the lyrics and the melody and all that stuff i'm a lyric person but i won't know who the singer is like i couldn't tell you who the lead singer of breaking benjamin is you know like yeah i couldn't tell what they look like exactly you know like i just never know who they are That was really cool because you will listen to a new song and you're like, oh, that lyric. And I'm like, I didn't even hear that lyric. I don't even know what you're talking about. But you listen to words so well.

Your comprehension of words is wild to me. It's my autism. Are we ever going to get an autism person on here? Yeah, there's a guy that wants to come on now that we're back like unsettled here. Our schedule time aligned in the beginning of the year. But he's like a local that like really loves your podcast too. Love that. Hello, friends.

We have been recording this entire time. Welcome back to another episode. Jason leave it all in of AskTale. Short and sweet. Ticado. What? Sticado. I thought that was a wine.

Sticado. I thought staccato meant like it's stacked. Short. No. No. I like that. I was in band. Is it Allegro that I'm thinking of?

That makes it like. No, no. That one. I just remember staccato. I like it. So yeah, Mimi was just giving us a lesson on dyslexia that you guys heard about. It's crazy. I had no idea.

I didn't know how many things it like, I, to this day, I didn't even know I had dyslexia for the longest time because I assumed the way that they described dyslexia was that you actually saw jumbled up letters or backwards. Like that every time I think about like dyslexia, I think about people who read backwards. Yeah, that's a minute. They're like, yeah, maybe like five percent actually. Yeah, that's like, that's such like a minute. So you see the word you just in your head say it wrong? So it's the comprehension. Yeah. So it's like retaining. Yeah. It's the retention of like what you're

trying to consume. But even then, yeah, there are many words like what I'm frustrating. Oh, it's so fucking frustrating. Isn't that like a wouldn't that be wouldn't just then people don't come for me. This is a genuine question. Wouldn't that dyslexia be a form of dementia? because you're not being able to retain information in your brain? No. So I can retain, but I retain it differently. Okay.

So I can retain it really well in other ways and not like it's how you retain it. So like me, if someone physically is showing me how to do it, I'm going to retain it so well versus like how I retain like a paragraph or like, and I learned songs like or movies and stuff like that is like I don't retain the movie the same way you would. like you or you would like you would watch that movie and you would enjoy it and like you would remember a line from the movie.

I remember a form of it, but I don't remember it like you would because like I don't know if you ever noticed. If I say a movie quote wrong, she under her breath will like say it correctly. I like has her autism. Yeah, because like it has to be the same pitch and the same like. Yeah.

I know. I remember everything. Like, I've been quoting movies since I was little. Me and my brother do that. I got that from my dad. Like, I will quote it, but it has to be the exact same tone pitch, like breaths in between, like, I don't know. Yeah.

Bothers me. I get it. I get it. I'm like that when I read the Bible. I have the hardest time retaining information when it comes to the Bible or if I'm in school. Put me in a fucking classroom environment. I won't learn anything.

Yeah. Yeah. If I don't enjoy it, I do not soak it up. Like, I can't soak it up. So I wonder if that's a form of... Have you seen the interpretations of the Bible? Like, you can get like a... Like, they have one that's in like girl code and stuff.

Oh, that's so funny. Or like, G&B Bible. I would do great with that. I would get it more. I would get it more. Anytime I listen to, like, my pastor, preach in the Bible, I'm lost. I don't know what... I don't know what you're saying.

Yeah, the King James version, I'm trying to figure it out. Although I do love a good soul. Psalm. I'm still in the beginning chapters. I haven't graduated into the depths of Psalm because I can't get through it. Psalms. But I literally, anytime I try to like listen to the Bible, it's like spiritual warfare in my head. I just cannot retain it. But I can listen to Joyce Myers or like our girl, Pastor Kim, preach all day long and retain it. Listen to one of our sermons this morning when I was doing my faster cardio, you know, so. Yeah, it's how you retain. Yeah. That's cool. Yeah, I feel like it just takes what works best for you.

Well, guys, we are back in action. And there was a post that I had put on Facebook a couple weeks ago where you guys had like a bunch of questions about the book. So we're going to spend the remainder of this Ask Tell Confess answering all of your questions for the book. And then are we going to drop the pod with Bill? I need to edit it a little bit more. I was so nervous interviewing my dad.

And this is back in the day when I was not as great at interviewing as I am now. And I really, I watched that podcast and I just cringe because I'm like, God, I blew an opportunity of a lifetime interviewing my own father. And I just. Well, didn't you say also like you, you didn't want to like, like rustle any feathers too? Yeah, because we fight all the time. So it's like if I wrestle any feathers and I wouldn't hear from my dad for a year. You know? So it's like I had to really walk on eggshells in that.

podcast, but we're going to release it, right? We should release it sometime this week after this Astell Confested out. That would be great. Yeah, yeah. Um, so do you guys want to look at, look at the post and we'll start asking some questions? All right, cool. I do know that there, there was, um, a post that had happened that somebody had posted about, um, how much money I made a night. Um, and there was a lot of people who were like, I don't believe that she got paid a hundred thousand dollars somebody said um you know she openly admits that she was an addict and um why would anybody pay that amount of money for an addict and i was like what a strange thing to say i was like first of all if you're in that industry and you're a millionaire times whatever

most of those men are addicts themselves you don't realize how many men that are CEOs are addicts And I need to clarify to you guys. I didn't make that every fucking night. You were asked the question, what was the most amount that you had made in one night? And that's what you answered. Exactly. Not every night. Exactly.

And I actually kind of like held back because technically, if you think about it, if I had a sugar daddy that gave me $300,000 in a span of like a year. And I only spent the night at his house one time. That is me making 300 grand in one night, technically. I mean, there's just so many technicalities. But like, the people who are like, oh, her story is fabricated or she's embellished her story, I literally have witnesses for every part of my life that are very vocal online,

one being an ex-husband who knows everything about me, who has literally corroborated all of my stories because he saw how much money I fucking made. He was running, scams on sugar daddy's with me. You know, I wish I could make, if I was going to make up stuff about my life, it would have been way fucking cooler. Because I don't think my story is that cool, you know?

And I'm not saying, but I'm not saying that because I want people to be like, yes, your story's so cool. Like I genuinely feel like one, there are people who have been through way worse trauma than I ever have, you know? And I also feel like there are people who have been through way worse life experiences than I have. I just simply told my story the only way I know how. And I've been telling these same exact stories for years.

If you listen to the podcast, nothing has ever changed. Yeah. It's always been the same. So I don't know what to tell you. It's just new people finding it. Yeah. It is. Yeah.

Not knowing that you've already said this five plus years ago. Literally. Like I have always said the same shit. I think I did a podcast that was my. my fifth episode called I was a high price call girl. And I literally tell some of the- You know, that's how I found out that you were a call girl. What?

What? I'd been doing your hair. I didn't know what you did. I honestly, I don't think I knew what you did either when I first did your makeup. I don't know when I found out. I never, you had two phones. I got two phones, one of the plug, and what are the house. You would sit in my chair and you just had two phones.

I just assumed you had two phones. No, I think it was, I dead ass, I almost 100% found out when you dropped that podcast. And I think I was talking to like, Fifi. And she was like, did you watch a new podcast? And I was like, no, I had. And she was like, oh, she talks about being a call girl. And I was like, she's a what? That's funny.

I never knew that. I was like a year after I had met you. That is so funny. Well, I mean, you know, it's not something you go around. Unless somebody says, what do you? do for a living, I never would tell anybody. I think I just thought you were a model. Oh, on Instagram.

Naked. Yeah, no, same model. My first seeing of you was on that red car, on the red Mustang. It was my first time seeing you. And I was like, I want to do her makeup. She's hot. Wait. Oh, with.

Yes. But yeah, I saw it on his Instagram story. So just imagine if I wouldn't have watched his story that day, though. That's crazy. I know. Yeah. It's just crazy. It's all serendipitous.

But that's fucking hilarious. Yeah. I never know. We didn't talk about that. That's so crazy. They were like, we just, we just became friends. And it was like you would come sit in my chair every few weeks. And then I literally thought you were just a model.

That's hilarious. Yeah. That is so fucking funny. Well, yeah, I know I didn't go around announcing it. But if somebody asked me what I did for a living, I was always very honest with them. Like, if anybody was like, what do you do for a living? I'd be like, well, I, uh, yeah. Your dad.

do your dad for a living. I do your dad for a living. No, I didn't say that. But, you know, I was just very honest about it. Like, hey, I have Sugar Daddies and I'm a webcam girl or, you know, like I do a lot of online stuff because I did. That's how I booked my clients was online. So I just always kept it honest. That's crazy.

You know, thinking back now, it makes sense. It makes sense. Yeah. All right. Yeah, same. Our first photo shoot should have clicked for me. I meant fucking, I'm naked. I'm lingerie.

But I just thought you did sexy pictures. I had always done porn stars makeup. So like that, it wasn't anything like out of the ordinary for me. I've done everyone, everyone's makeup. So it didn't like, shock me. Yeah. You know, I just like, didn't know that's what you did. Yeah.

Well, and here we are. Here we are. That's great. Look at where the hoot got us. Yeah. Not, not really. A hard work got us here. but definitely sex. Sex work got my online following and then built the beginning of the podcast and then.

Yeah, I remember the turning point and you said, I'm going to stop posting my ass as much. And I did. All right. And you did. You really like, it was quick. Yeah. You know, that's another thing. Somebody said, I don't believe that she just woke up one day and stopped taking Xanax. I don't believe that she was really addicted. my personality is if I don't want to do something anymore, I will literally flip switch like that and it is done. And it's with anything. It's with anything. If you're done, you're done.

That's a perfect example of whenever I was like, you know what, I'm going to stop taking sexy photo shoots and I'm just going to change my content up. I literally, you can see it. If you go all the way back in my Instagram shit, you can see literally where it's like, naked pictures, naked pictures, naked pictures, close.

Content. and it just changes. And that's literally a testament to who I am as a person with everything that I do. And I did quit Xanax cold turkey. Do I recommend it? Absolutely not. Was it the worst fucking thing I ever had to go through? No, I've actually gone through a lot of stuff.

Was it very hard to go through? Absolutely. I literally used to live in hospital rooms. The only way that I got through that the Xanax withdrawal was, um, with children's Benadryl. Do not listen to me. Do not take doctorate advice for me. I'm just telling you exactly what I had to do to get through it.

Stopping Xanax can make you have seizures. It can do a ton of stuff to you. I am thankful and lucky that I was not one of those people that that happened to. But yeah, I literally looked at my husband. We were on the Yellow Wolf trial by fire tour. And I looked at my husband. I said, I don't want the stuff in my bloodstream anymore. And he was like, Benny, you're not going to be able to not take Xanax because he saw what a bundle of nerves I was.

And I was like, okay, watch me. Like, anytime my husband says I can't do something. Oh. That is my favorite thing to do. Like, I love to give him, just make him eat his words. And I don't know why, because we don't have that type of relationship. But it's like, it's almost like, oh, you don't believe in me. Okay, cool.

I got this. Yeah, because he said the same thing about podcasting. He's like, we'll see how long you stick to it. And you said, yeah, I was like, bet. I got you. Yeah, because he was just like, you're not going to stick with podcasting. And I was just like, we'll see. Here we are.

Look at me now. Look at me now, buddy. Now you're telling me do you want me to retire? I'm like, just because you want to retire doesn't mean I want to fucking retire. He said, all right, that's enough. All right. Who wants to ask the first question? I want to ask the first question because this got asked multiple times.

They want to know if you, and I know that this is kind of like a weird way to question it, but did you cut anything? out of the book that you didn't want in there. Because I know once it got sent to the editing side of things, that's where that changed. Yeah. No, I don't think I cut anything out of the book. I put so much into the book that I could have probably had. And I could probably write another book about like situations in my life.

So no, I didn't cut anything. But the editors did. The editors cut so much. Like there's, I have to ask you. I text you. I'm like, hey, did this make the book? Yeah. Because I can't even remember.

Like you read so many versions of it that you almost forget with. or you and like things that you've lived through and that sort of thing that I even some times have to be like, wait, let me go search the final copy because like even in my phone, I have like seven copies of the book. And then you have to go to the final and be like, did that even make it? Yeah. Yeah. You just did that the other day?

You're like, did that part make it into the book? And I'm like, no, it actually didn't. Yeah. Yeah. So no, I didn't cut anything, but, you know, the editors did. And listen, they did a great fucking job because people are still buying the book. 100%. Yeah, Carrie's fucking amazing.

We find out tomorrow. We're still number one, five weeks on New York best time seller list, and then we find out tomorrow if we made it to the sixth. Who's got a question? Go ahead, Haley. Got one. Okay. Has anyone from your past reach out to you and apologize?

When's the last time you spoke to baby sis? That's crazy. She's actually been texting me this week and I won't reply to her. I just have no. I really meant it when I said, everything that's in that book I'm leaving behind and I did like I don't want to revisit it. I don't want to talk about it once we're done once it's done you know doing its thing. I just don't want to associate with any of the any negativity from that book.

Now people from my past yeah, Matteo has reached out to me. He said he read it. He loved it. He's always been so fucking supportive. I love that dude. Polly is fucking one of my biggest fans. I love him to death. Polly wants to come on the podcast so bad guys.

It was great. He wants to come on the podcast so if you guys want Polly on the podcast so you can actually hear real stories of, you know, shit that we used to do together. Let me know. We might consider it. Has anyone apologized? Has anyone apologized?

No. I mean, why would they? They would have to admit wrongdoing. Uh-huh. And they would have to feel guilt if they ever did. And I didn't write the book for people to have to reach out to me and apologize. I'm fine with not getting the apology that I deserved because I've literally done everything I've wanted to do in life.

And if it wasn't for the hurt and the pain that I went through, I wouldn't have forged through everything that I did. So I'm thankful for all the lessons that were sent to me. And I don't need the apologies. Jaime, you got one? Yeah, I have one that I read earlier. It was really good. Okay. So you wrote the book for you. What's the, like, who's this book for?

People always ask you, like, why did you write the book? Yada, yada, yada. But like, if you were to paint the picture of the avatar for this person to read, like, who's this book for? This book is for anybody who's ever had trauma inflicted on them that they didn't ask for. and I know a lot of people get stuck in victim mentality, and it's very easy to do. I've caught myself doing it a few times, and instead of, I've said it before, we're not responsible for the trauma that's inflicted on us, but we are responsible with how we deal with it. And I truly hope that this book can show people, like, it doesn't matter how many people told

you that you're never going to amount to anything. It doesn't matter if your parents didn't love you properly. it doesn't matter if you know you got beat up by a boyfriend um which you know nobody should ever have to go through domestic violence but it doesn't mean that you have to still be that person that was in any of those situations you can change so many versions of yourself throughout life look at madonna she's literally reinvented herself and she's fucking like 70 now right yeah with a face how many fucking facelifts has madonna had i need to know because fuck Like I would love to sit down with Madonna.

Jay Shetty just did. And that was the first podcast that I was just so jealous of. I was like, damn, I wanted that one. But yeah, that you can change all the versions of yourself to become who you want to be. And it doesn't matter if you want to change yourself every fucking year to evolve and to grow and to be the human that you want to be. That's who this book is for is for people who need that extra push and that extra reassurance of knowing that they're going to be okay. and that shit happens life happens but that doesn't mean that you have to let it you know make you a sour person like that yeah you got any more memes oh yeah oh go ahead let's see I'll

read some too somebody said you don't need a facelift well too late that was the first comment I saw um so was any of it too painful to go through and what about it was like um the most traumatic you feel like reliving in this book because I know that there were times that you would write and then just kind of have to put your phone down. Yeah. I don't know if it was like traumatic, but it was just like, I'm so over everything that I've been through and I don't want to keep, I don't want to live there, you know? And it's like writing the book was very cathartic, but there was times where I was just like,

golly like you know i think the the hardest chapter for me to write was my dad's that was like my hardest chapter because i'm still not over bill's death yeah like i it was almost like a force processing that you weren't ready for oh i was robbed you know i was robbed of my dad's last moments and i just feel like the people who were around him the minute he died didn't deserve to be there i feel like my dad left this earth probably more scared than he's ever been and nobody was there to comfort him. And I think, you know, just that chapter was really hard to write. But everything else, it was more of like exhausted from telling the story.

Because I've been telling these stories forever. And I think it was more of just like ready to just get it over with. You know, and when you're writing chapters of a book, you get so consumed in it. and you're just and I was writing this on my notes pad too so trying to write and do voice text on my notes pad was like it just got exhausting and there was times that I just needed a break because I don't like tapping into anything emotional I'm very I'm a very cold individual I'm I'm very cold when it comes to past trauma I guess you could say I'm very warm and loving yeah to the people in my life you're such a loving person homie yeah I'm very warm and loving to the people in my life but when it comes to

like my old past life. I'm just very cold about it and just like matter of fact like this is what happened. You know? And so yeah, there was the chapter of my dad, but everything else I just wanted to get it out. I do feel like with writing this also and this is unlike other books because when you're writing autobiography, it's it has to be very technical because you knew that this book was going to be under a microscope. People are going to want to find flaws in it. They're going to want to find discrepancies in it and like you, I appreciate how particular you were with your wording even. It was like, I can't say it that way because people could assume it meant this and that's not what I meant. And so you would go in and you would rewrite these things so that it came across

exactly how you meant it to be. Yes. And I do want to, there is one discrepancy in the book that didn't get changed that I had asked to get changed was when I, the first version got written, I was talking about Whataburger in Texas and Julia. My ghost writer is from New York. So they have White Castle. And for some reason, she thought I said White Castle when I was talking about something. And they kept White Castle in the book. And I'm like, no.

Like change that. I asked like three times for it to be changed. And that, that just slipped. But other than that, everything else was fucking perfect. That's crazy. Yeah. Somebody wrote in and they said, would you ever want to have a relationship with your sisters?

And the answer is no. I don't. I have tried numerous times. If you guys have not listened to the podcast where we talk about Large Marge, that's my oldest sister, who literally is on TikTok right now, which she's not talking shit. Thank God.

Well, she was talking shit under one of my ex-husbands posts. And I caught that. And I cut her off after I paid $10,000 for her to have fucking emergency surgery, bought her every fucking thing for her brand new apartment because I was so happy. She got her own apartment. Paid her rent multiple times. she went and talked shit about me again under one of my exes it was like my birthday and she's like oh i forgot on purpose and it was just like bitch i you know like what the fuck yeah i'm like

come on come on like what more can i do for you do you want my fucking you want to cut my skin off and wear it you know like but on her her ticot bio right now it says here i'll read it to you verbatim what it says actually so i'm not misquoted god i haven't seen this you haven't seen it oh yes i'm marge this is in her pot her ticot bio yes i'm marge from bunny exo's podcast the villain in her story the big bad christina her very much estranged entitled big sister who is toxic okay all right yeah so that's okay absolutely not i didn't not want a relationship with her. I have tried for 30 something years to just have that girl. I've only met this woman twice in my life and have done so much for her. And I don't, when I say that I've done

stuff for people, it's not to throw around the monetary face value of it. It's to say like, what more can I fucking do for you to make you happy and to make you love me properly, you know? So, and as far as my little sister know, I don't want a relationship with her. I love her. If anybody, no human in the world can make me laugh the way that she laughs. She's so fucking funny man. But she is just, I got to choose my words wisely here. She is just, I just feel like our soul contracts are fulfilled.

And I feel like I came here to be her big sister. and she came here to be my little sister and we both taught each other lessons that family isn't always blood. I'm not a victim with my sister, with my little sister at all. I don't want to seem like that. But she just, it's,

she's not easy to get along with. She's very all over the place. And I just, I don't have time for that inconsistency in my life. Doesn't serve a purpose. No, I just don't have time for it, dude. I'm fucking old as shit. last thing I want to do is if I can walk on eggshells around people I don't have to

like no thank you yeah I love I've always respected your boundaries when you're like you know what this doesn't serve me I don't need it yeah no and it takes a lot yeah I give 30 years for my older sister 30 fucking years I gave her so many fucking chances and it's like once I'm finally reached that point with people that's it so my little sister has texted me like three times and I just will not reply to her she's like I love you please on block me and I'm just like, you're not blocked, but I have nothing to say to you. We have nothing to talk about. Anybody else got any more questions?

Good one. Okay, go ahead. Okay, someone said, how did you get over surviving the trauma to living in the present without the triggers? That's a great question. It's a really good question. I don't think I'm wired like a normal human being. No.

No. I don't look back and be like, oh, my God, you know. I don't know. I just, when I'm going through trauma, I just know I have to get through it. And that's, I literally only just forge ahead. That's all I know how to do is to just keep going. I never stop and try to feel or try to, you know, when I did in 2022, when I did all that therapy, that's when I had to stop and feel everything. And that's why I haven't done therapy since because it was a year of having to cry, having to feel things, having to just hurt. And I just don't see the purpose. I don't see the purpose in feeling sorry for myself.

I can't change it. Yeah. So what, but what can I do? I can't control the past, but I can control my future. And I can control the outcome of how my life is. And that's really all I focus on.

That's incredible. It's kind of like, I feel like your past profession has kind of like helped you with that too. Because like you don't give the men feelings. and you're just through it. So I feel like that, I don't know if it helped. It was good practice.

Yeah. I think that came from having to not have emotions with my parents, though. I was always able to have separate church from state when it came. And I also think it's probably, you know, like when you are traumatized and we've all been through trauma in this fucking room,

you know, how do you respond to trauma? It's a great question. I'm not actually sure. How do you respond to someone? I'm like you. I won't talk about it. I don't like to relive it. I don't like I cut it off.

I think that's a tourist thing too. I kind of act like it doesn't exist. And I don't. Which is not healthy. We're not saying it doesn't healthy guys. My whole family is like that though. We don't talk about things. Yeah.

It's very like, even like when we had two deaths last year. Like we still like we won't talk about it the next time we're all together. Like my family's calling. constant like laughter because that makes you forget about traumas. And I think that's why I'm very, like the comedic relief is because I don't have to feel trauma or anything sad. Yeah. Yeah. I was always my dad's comedic relief too. I was always like trying to make him smile. I can even see that in your in like the relationship later on in life. You still, when he wasn't feeling good, you'd crack jokes.

And like you were you were laughing before he was. Like it was just like you were constantly trying to make him feel good. Yeah. I just wanted to make him forget. where he was and I think that's how you are too. Jaime, how do you deal with trauma? Not in a healthy way. You're a cancer. You're a cancer though, so you feel all the emotions. I feel it.

I feel everything and keep it all inside until a lot blows up one day. You're serial killer type. Yeah. He's like one of these days I'm going to hook, God, broke up on some fucking stakes. She's in the basement. Right now as we speak. Yeah, I got to check on her. But yeah, not in a very high.

I also sweat a lot when I'm going through something, I notice it. Like I'll sweat and then I'll like, I'm also weirdly calm in very chaotic situation. That's trauma. That's trauma. Like car accidents or like anything major happening. Like I'm surprisingly not freaking out. Yeah. Every car accident I've ever been in.

I've always been super calm can have a clear conversation. My voice doesn't break up. I'm clear. I'm almost like clearer than I am now when I'm in trauma response. It's weird. Yeah. No, same. I feel like big traumas.

I'm more calm than small things. Like, I feel like I'm more expressive in a small situation and, like, an inconvenience than I am in something major. Yeah. Like a major situation. I'm like, nope, this is how we're going to fix it? And I'm like, super calm. It's weird.

I freak out of everything. Yeah. Yeah. Haley's burning the house down. Yeah. She don't care. Would love to hear about how Mindy and Andy are groveling since you've blown up and that you got to actually have closure with both of these bitches.

Andy died. If you read the book, you would know that Andy died from a fentanyl overdose. She actually died when we were on tour. And then Mindy, I haven't spoken to. Mindy has way too much pride to ever reach out, which that could be why baby sister is reaching out.

You never know. Never know. But I'd like to just not. Like, we don't need to rehash anything. Like, why now? Now you want to come out of the way of our? I know that the book's out.

Yeah, like, I'm good. I don't think there's anything we really have left to talk about. Even though Jay cheated, did you recognize that it was more about his self-sabotage than it was you? It was, there's so many layers to that affair story. Yeah. I only got to tell my perspective, but, you know, my husband has a crazy fucking story. And I really hope one day he tells it because you, guys would really know what we've been having to deal with behind the scenes all these years and like

people trying to extort us for money uh people trying to fucking kill him uh there's just there's a lot of crazy shit that has happened and it's not my story to tell but when he does write a book i promise you guys i'm going to make him tell the truth like he has got to tell everybody and i don't know if he well because my husband's not wired that way, but I don't know. Now that he saw how good this book did, he might want to. They're all trying to jump on the bandwagon now. And they said, maybe we should read one. Yeah. I'm like, you know what, you little fuckers. That was funny. There's so many layers. And yes, one of them was his self-sabotage. And also, dude, it's like I say in the book, we didn't know how to have healthy relationships. We didn't know what a healthy love was.

We still don't know what a healthy love was. We live our version of a healthy love. But I think everybody learns from their parents what love is and then you have to figure it out along the way what your version of love is and that was just figuring out life and dude second chances is great third chances don't happen although i've given my family so many fucking chances but in love i'm very strict when it comes to shit like you can hurt me once shame on you hurt me twice shame on me you know and it's like you as a woman you have to really know what you're willing to put up with and what your hard boundaries are. And every woman is different.

Some people are like, I'm out the first. If I think you're cheating on me. And great for them. I wish I could be that strong, but I cannot. And, you know, I just truly believe in second chances and my husband really stepped up to the plate. And he's just an amazing human. I love him to death.

He's just a little happy teddy bear. Oh, somebody said, when's the next tour Olympics? What a great question. I love that you've been around so long. that you even know about the Whore Olympics. I was actually just telling our girl Sam, who's here sitting in from Elite Customs.

They're the ones who design all my cars. Never. Unfortunately, there was a one time. Didn't we do it twice? I thought we did it twice. And then you had to go home for emergency. And that's when we stayed in the haunted mansion. Yep, yep, yep.

I remember that. We did. Oh, my God. We had it planned and everything. That's crazy. I think what people need to realize is, and literally we're just having this conversation, is when I started this podcast, it was all about sex workers. And that's the lifestyle I was in. And I wanted to let everybody know that just because you were in sex work didn't mean that you didn't have a brain and that you weren't a business woman.

And also, we were having fun with the podcast. You know, the Whore Olympics was a wild fucking time. And shout out to fucking Lydia, Carissa, all those girls. who what's the daisy chick she's hilarious she's so funny yes she's still back in prison no she's back she's out now oh she's out yeah she's great no I love her she was fucking amazing like I met some of the coolest women who I still have relationships with um but the podcast has grown and it's become

something different and I mean even how I used to interview I've said crazy shit I've done crazy shit but I have always corrected my behavior and always try to become a better person and a better person at my craft when it comes to this podcast. So it's just you guys have literally seen me go through seasons. And that's, I think, what life is all about is just being able to evolve. I think what's really cool about you is like you'll start out with like the sex works and stuff like that. And then you'll reach the capacity of it.

You're like, okay, I completed that check. Yeah. What's next? And it's not so much that like you're like giving up on that part of it. it was like, no, I did all the big porn stars. Like we did the Hoar Olympics. Like you literally like did it all. And then was like, what's my next?

TikTokers. We went to TikTokers. And then you went into like the TikToks. And then now I won't have TikTokers on the podcast because there's nothing but drama. That fucking whole app is nothing but fucking drama. And then we moved on to just elevating guests and just keep getting higher and higher and higher. So it's like, you know, it's, I think the biggest thing when it comes to this podcast is we

never beat a dead horse. we know when to get in and to get out. And we don't stay there. We don't stay long enough to overstay our welcome. Yeah. And we're always constantly trying to figure out new things and, um, different angles, which is what you have to do.

So, all right, guys. Well, that was a fun little chat. Love you guys. And thank you guys so much for the question. There's so many more. So if you guys want us to keep answering questions,

just let me know in the comments. And I mean, we can make another episode of this, but we're moving on to ask tell, confess now from, Oh, wait. Are you going to sign? Are you going to do any more pop-up signings for books after you literally wiped out Walmart in an hour?

I know. What the hell, bro. I know. It was crazy. I think so. Maybe we can run around. Should we go do something after this? I have a bunch of books.

We can go somewhere. I don't care. Haley's over it. She's ready to go home. I don't know. We can run somewhere. I feel like a pop-up bookstore. Like, what's the one?

I don't know any. I don't know of any like, I thought there was a down-home one here. That I'm not, we'll call. We'll figure it out. But if not Thursday, I'm going to be in Murphy's Borough.

We can do something in Murphy'sboro. Everyone was begging Murphy's Borough. Really? You're in Murphy's Row back. Yeah. I need to, can we do a face on Thursday? Right before doctor,

you guys all want to go to Dr. Torales too? Let's do it. Mo's getting a facelift. Yeah. All right. Well, I'll go to Dr.

Carolas, and then we'll just make a day of it. Yeah. do it this weekend. So we'll do it on Thursday. I wanted a consultation with him. So I feel like can we all get all get booed consultations. I'm going to go in there and just be like, hey, we're all here for consultations. We all just walking topless. Fat transfer. He's going to love it though. Dr. Terolla loves us. Yeah. I love his facility. All right, cool. Yeah. So Thursday, we'll go sign a bunch of books and we'll let you guys know where it is. I had an idea where I

wanted to do like a scavenger hunt. I love that. Can we please do it in Murphy's, bro? I have like 10 books at home that I can sign that we can hide in different places. Let's do it with local businesses and we can support their businesses. Yeah. And go drop off books. So the people that would never have thought to go to like a local coffee shop or something can go there. Like little coffee shops are cute. Yeah.

I think that would be like all local own businesses. They have to buy a coffee and ask. And give them a code word. X. Yeah. Yeah. I love it. We'll figure it out.

We'll figure something out. But Thursday we will do it. So this will be out the next of the day after. Right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So they got to go find it.

Well, we're probably going to. announce it on social media. Yeah, it'll be on Instagram, Facebook, something like that. Well, if they didn't see it. We'll figure it out. Well, hopefully by the time you guys hear this, there's still some books left.

All right. Thank you guys for tuning in. See you later. Bye.