Dumb Blonde - Bunnie & Meme: Crumbs and Condoms

Episode Date: September 27, 2023

Bunnie and Manager Meme answer Patreon members questions this week, talking about everything from Bunnie's vitamin overdose to what life is really like on tour, meet and greets, what it's like to work together as a team of powerful women and how they stay healthy(ish) on tour. And yes, they talk about favorite sex positions too.Meme: IG Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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is this thing on bonnie who used to be a former sex worker and now hosts the podcast dumb blonde most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit and i was like i want to be super hot make a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's that was my goal as a child and here we are hello babies welcome back to another episode of dumbumb Blonde. We are in Vegas. We are on tour. We are doing a fill-in episode because our fucking guest today flaked. We had this planned for a while now. For, you know, I mean, like really set in stone for the past week and a half, two weeks.

Yeah. And, but we've been talking to this person for months yes about this and um today's the day of i text her yesterday and didn't get a reply but i was just like that's how she is you know and i'm not gonna be up her ass i'm never gonna be up anybody's ass to be on my podcast if you want to come come if not no pressure you know so i was just like very sure that she was going to show up because I was like she's got to be way more professional than this and um still hadn't heard from her woke up got started getting ready sitting in hair and makeup and then an hour before she's supposed to be here she lets me know that she hasn't even gotten into town and pretty much didn't give me enough time to even book another guest.

Yeah. I mean, I would have loved to ready right away. Right. And I mean, I would have loved if she would have just texted me yesterday. I'm like, hey, I'm not going to make it because that could have given me 24 hours to get somebody. We could have definitely found someone. Yeah. gonna make it because that could have given me 24 hours to get somebody else we could have definitely found someone yeah and so you know it is what it is but i'm never gonna just change my

fucking schedule around for somebody else ever again no like we i don't think anyone realizes like the extent of what had to happen for us to get here too like let's talk about it real quick okay so not only did we have to leave vegas the night of one of my husband's really big show here drive eight hours to salt lake because on a bus it's way longer yeah it's plus two hours plus you're going uphill so for some reason we were on the bus for like almost nine it was crazy pulled in that morning at like 10 a.m got up i was still feeling like shit because i've been fucking battling sick a week now no i've been sick two weeks really it's been two weeks you gotta think all the way back to texas before then i was sick yeah wow um so yeah battling sickness woke up trying to feel better, got ready, did my meet and greet, did not stay for my husband's show just so that we could turn right back around.

Jump in a car, jump in the fucking Bronco sexy taxi and fucking drive six hours back to Vegas so that we could make it here to have a day to rest and then get ready for the podcast. Yep. And mind you, it's not just me that I have to worry about. I literally have Mimi and Haley in tow always and security. It's a whole bunch of us. Yeah. Like I had to move my whole team and I just feel I'm not mad, but I'm just to the point where I'm just like I had to move my whole team and I just feel I'm not mad but I'm just to the point where I'm just like this is just not fair yeah it's like I think it's one of those like you can't do anything about a situation yeah just sort of like fuck man so we're gonna try to make the best of it yeah but in the midst of all this chaos Jeffffree star is meeting us in i can't wait montana tomorrow and by the time this comes out you guys will already know that so we can talk about it but

we are so fucking excited he's excited we're excited everyone's all excited all of this was jeffree's idea yeah we were just like we'd love to link for a podcast and he's like no bitch he's like no no we're not just gonna link for a podcast i'm gonna fly to a show in the next state over come hang out with you hop on your tour bus wake up he wants to get out of bunk guys yeah he goes do you guys have room for me yeah we're like uh even if we didn't you could sleep with me jeffrey okay come on jeff um but yeah so so Jeffrey's coming. We're really excited. Super stoked about this podcast. He is just a gentle soul.

Yeah. Like I feel like he gets portrayed not anymore. Cause I think people are finally getting to see that. I don't want to say healed. Cause I don't know about his journey yet, but the, the grown Jeffrey, like grown,

the grown Jeffrey, because back in the day he used to get such heat for how he was and i really think that he's just a gentle soul dude like i don't get any bad vibes from he's very true is what i would have to say he even did that with like the beauty industry when it was like reviewing makeup he didn't give a fuck what anyone thought yeah or who the makeup brand was he has to be a capricorn moon we're gonna do his birth. I can totally see Capricorn traits in him. Yeah. I think so.

Yeah. But yeah. So we are about to hop on a private jet tonight. First time. It's going to be Haley and Mimi's first time. I'm terrified too because it's an air coffin. It's like a tuna can. Oh God.

You guys are not even going to. Dude, getting through the door is a hassle. I'm going to have to like squeeze through the door. It's not a tuna can. Oh, God. You guys are not even going to do getting through the door. I'm going to squeeze through the door. It's not even a door. It's a hutch. I don't even know why people think private jets are so cool. They're really not. And the only got the ginormous private.

Right. And we're not we're not that rich. This is a loner anyways. So thank you. El Bandito. Shout out el bandito tequila i'm sober but they loan my husband is not and they loan us their private jet whenever for the tour because they're sponsoring us so shout out to them shout out el bandito we love you guys but there was no way that we could have done trisha's podcast no and gotten to

fucking montana by the time the time getting there time jeffrey's getting there that jeffrey's getting there's no flights so my husband had to line up a private jet for his wife to get back you know so there's just so many there's so many moving parts and the more i think about it the more annoyed i get but it all works out in the end and hopefully she will come on the podcast and hopefully i'll get to you know do some stuff with her but yeah i get it it is what it is shit happens yeah it's unfortunate but we're making the best of our day so we had a really good idea and i want you guys to maybe put in your two cents for this but for the month of october i was thinking about not having any guests and doing four murder mystery podcasts. I'm so excited.

I have chills. I don't even know how to do a murder mystery podcast, but I'm going to fucking figure it out. Oh, man. Oh, my gosh. I need to listen to Morbid. We should all choose our favorite murder and cover it. And then what do we do? We just talk about it?

Yeah. Okay. We just lay out how it happened, what happened, happened what was the conclusion we go through the entire thing i don't know if i have a favorite murder you don't have a favorite murder that you've kind of like followed along like the oj one you don't have like fucking i do i did follow the oj one the madoc where what did we watch the other day i don't know i just always get so i don't know people scare me like i can't believe people are really that sick you know what did that what was that documentary we watched and he was a clown oh john wayne gacy yeah that was crazy yeah no for sure well i'll just do our our research and we all get to choose one yeah or if there's a murder you guys want us

to cover put it in the comments because that's what we're going to do for the month of october so no guests yep you get just me mimi and hayley if we can get hayley on okay so let's talk about this since she's not here oh we're talking about it so last night we decided to take edibles and get in the jacuzzi no not we they me decide we're going to take edibles and get in so we take the edibles these are the same edibles we took at the movie theater the other day and i took one and a half and she took a half so we're in the hot tub and i don't know where the switch flipped at some point but we're on well first of all you're on edibles in a hot tub i mean yeah i yeah, I feel like the heat wasn't. That would give me a panic attack. Yeah, well, her boil. Crab boil.

Can't do it. Little pussy's hot. Not the hot pussy. No, the crab boil. So she, I guess, panic set in. And I've done that before, though. I've been high. and then if i start having a panic attack it's really hard to come out of a panic attack you know what i mean like

i feel that completely i've been too high many of times in my life same 911 she just convinced herself she just convinced herself that she was having a bad trip and she said she felt like she was on acid her body was vibrating yeah and it was like which i believe her because when i used to have really severe anxiety my body would vibrate remember so i think when you get to a certain point of your nerves just being shot your body does vibrate well i was like offering all help possible she i was like i could hear me rustling around upstairs and i was like what are you guys doing she's like i have to sleep with hayley hayley's having a panic attack and i'm like oh this is my time to shine and she's like she's gonna be fine i said not for eight hours

in the group time she's texting me she's like show me what she's saying she kept like looking me in the eyes and was like we're dead and i was like okay so i'm also trying to fight my high and like stay high and good and happy and she was not making that very easy and she was like she was like look at me right now and tell me we're not being resuscitated oh my god and then she kept going look me in the eyes are you not looking me in the eyes i was like girl i'm looking you dead in the eyes right now i was like you want this banana but i went i got her banana i got her food i got her a cookie i got her gatorade water i offered benadryl i offered everything but when she was high she was like this is what was the most frustrating i was offering the help but she absolutely refused to take it and i'm like well

you know when you're so high you're better she said she felt like her throat was closing that's what i said benadryl let's give you a little benadryl it would also sever you up a little bit let's do something to help the situation and she was like one of those people was like no help whatsoever but i want you to help me but you're not helping me but i won't accept your help and i was like okay yeah no when i listen that's why i don't i can't do drugs literally that is why I don't do drugs because I have zero control over my fucking emotions or how I feel and the minute I get one bad negative thought in my head game over like literally I am that was my whole night right there I am up Schitt's Creek without a fucking paddle bro yeah it was just constantly she was like my mind's like moving

away from my body and it just keeps coming back and I'm like yeah it sounds like a good time to me I don't know why you're freaking out and then I turn on you're like Jay and Haley's like me yeah that's our whole relationship so true literally I turned on couples retreat and she was like this is demonic you have to turn it off I was like it's couples retreat with Jennifer Aniston oh my god demonic I was like no it's not you're like not really no no that is so funny but that's how you know that she was in a state of panic because that's how I get when I'm having really bad anxiety I literally feel like everything's demonic never doing drugs with Haley ever again yeah please don't she almost cried today when i

fucking hayley we love you but i love you so much she's so she's literally upstairs sleeping right now yeah she's gonna about to get locked in a private jet for an hour and a half if she has anxiety on this jet mimi done i i'm done i can't be in that same vicinity bro i'm bringing an ice pack i'm bringing benadryl. I'm bringing blood pressure cuff. Oh, we're just going to knock her out. Yeah. Like, take the fucking Benadryl and just don't talk to me until fucking we land, please. Because I'm already fucking scared as shit of these things.

I'd rather fly commercial than a private jet any day. Yeah, no, absolutely. Yeah, for sure. You're going to answer some questions now? Yeah. Let's do this. Let's do this. Let's do it. A lot of them asked me questions, too, which I thought was super sweet.

So on Patreon, if you're a Patreon member, you get to ask exclusive questions that we will answer directly. So since our podcast guest canceled, we went to Patreon, and you guys did not disappoint. So we're going to answer. All the questions. Yeah, we're going to answer as many questions as we can. For sure. How come you weren't able to make it to the Utah show? Well,

we just told you. Yep. By the way, we're in our West coast studio. If you can't tell, I love being here. It's like so comfy. The West coast studio is way more comfortable than the nashville

studio i feel like the nashville studio is like i feel like this is a mullet so it's like party in the front business what is it business in the front party in the back yeah so nashville is party and business in the front and the west coast is party in the back yeah no i love the studio i'm literally barefoot right now i would never do that in nashville no you wouldn't ever. Okay. Um, we're going to start out with your vitamin journey. Cause I was like the number one asked question. We just released a new podcast with Danny and everyone guys loved that podcast. It was crazy. Yeah. Everyone loved the interview with Danny. So we're going to circle back with that. And everyone wanted to know about your vitamin overdose. Yeah. I overdosed on vitamins. Yeah.

We went through that together. That was a day. Yeah. It was crazy. Well, it was more than a day. So God, I don't even let me let me gather my thoughts here on this whole spiritual journey that I've been on. I started it in 2017 when I got off pills and then 2018 when I got off alcohol um and my brain just was not right

like when you get sober after doing drugs for fucking 20 years your Xanax especially going cold turkey like I was gonna say the cold turkey you didn't just wean off no you didn't like ease into no you literally were just like done oh yeah I, I was done. So everything hit you at once. So everything hit me at once. And then also I went through that miscarriage with Jay that I talked about on TikTok in 2020. And anyways, starting in 2018, I knew that I felt off. So I had started venturing into vitamins anyways. I was trying to do like St. John's wort. I was trying to do like a bunch of other.

Sammy. I didn't do Sammy until about 2021 yeah but yeah that helped for a little while it's and it still does it's always a great 911 situation you know but I had tried everything I'm talking like b12 fucking

fish oils L-theanine and fucking just went through the whole list of things. And, um, after 2020, when I fell into my suicidal ideation is when I was like, okay, I need to get with somebody who could help me and like start testing my body and like test my blood. Because I could tell, like I would take St. John's wort and my eyes would be so sensitive to the sun and like I would get headaches and just vitamins hit me so differently than other people so I would take like um there's I think it's L-theanine that I took one

night I took a whole one and I couldn't even lift my arm off the couch I felt like I was on like drugs like it was so bad but my husband could take it and fucking be fine yeah you know and i was just like something's not right so i started uh visiting a holistic practitioner not danny um in franklin tennessee i think around 2021 and excuse me and they started doing like muscle testing on me. They didn't do any blood testing. So that was the first flag there because muscle testing is good. And for those of you who don't know what muscle testing is, you can literally take anything in the world, a product of any sort, um, and ask your body, you know, like this is water. So you can just hold it to your chest

like this. And there's different ways of muscle testing, but this is water so you can just hold it to your chest like this and there's different ways of muscle testing but this is how i do it and you can hold it to your chest and you can say you know does my body need this and your body you have to stand up when you do it and you close your eyes you say does my body need this and your body will lean forward if it does and it will fall back if it doesn't and it does work a lot of the time because you can fill the gravitational pull it's crazy but they also go through and they do like muscle testing with like how your hand reacts to certain things. So pushing on it and seeing the tension. Yeah. You ended up going to them, didn't you? Yeah. Okay. So, you know, I thought this was the greatest thing. I was like, okay, cool. Maybe I don't need to do the blood testing. Maybe I can just go straight into this and my muscle testing will do it. So they had put me on this regimen because they said that I had like, I needed to detox my body, which you do have to

detox your body a lot of the times, especially for gut health. So I started taking these detox vitamins and I'm telling you, I felt fucking amazing. I felt so good. And you know, after the three months was up of the detoxing, she's like, okay, we're going to go ahead and switch you. And I'm going to put you on different supplements. And I'm like, okay. So, and these, all these supplements that I was taking, by the way, are food based supplements. So it wasn't like synthetic vitamins or anything like that. It was food based. So I didn't think that I could get hurt, you know, by any of these at all. And when she tried to get me to get wean off of the, um, detox vitamins, my body went into withdrawals and I got super depressed and like my body was just, and I was just finally feeling good again. So I was like, bitch, I'm not getting off of these detox vitamins.

I want to keep taking them. And she's like, okay, well, they're just food, so they can't hurt you, you know? And so fast forward, I'm taking the detox vitamins for about a year. And, you know, they have like all the vitamins in it and stuff like that. And then I start going to Danny and Danny does my testing. So we start doing the blood tests and all that stuff. And, you know, Danny's like, you need to change your diet, blah, blah, blah. And at this time I was just like, I'm not changing my fucking diet. I can do this without having

to change my diet. Not that I ate bad anyways, but I did eat a lot of things I shouldn't have. And, um, she had added on some supplements to the ones that I was already taking because, you know, she was like, you need to get off of these. And I was just like, I can't. I physically cannot. My body goes through withdrawals, not realizing that if had I have just stopped taking them within a week, my body would have regulated. Yeah. But because I had such bad suicidal ideation, the fear of feeling that for a week is what had me in a chokehold. And I was just like,

I cannot go through that. Not right now. I'm too weak. Like I wasn't strong enough. Yeah. I was going to say strong enough to be able to make that choice. Dude, there was a time where I was so suicidal that I thought that, um, I wouldn't even make it to the next month. You know, I couldn't have guns in the house. Like it was bad. Like I would cry just because I felt so low, you know, like it was just the worst feeling in the world. So Danny's like, all right, I'm not going to fucking strong arm you if you're not going to stop taking them. That's fine. But you do need to lift your D and your B12 levels. And I'm like, OK, cool. I can do that.

So me being the fucking hedgehog that I am was like, you know, I took a B12. I took a half a B12 and I was like, OK, I feel great. I took, you know, a vitamin D and I did that until my body couldn't feel it anymore. So when my body when I would start feeling a little off or not as good as I felt before, I would take more. So I ended up taking like I would wake up it's like a handful and take like i don't i mean there's a fucking tiktok if you look on my tiktok page where i do a day in a life of a gold digger and you can see every fucking vitamin that i take i mean it had to have been like 20 yeah 20 a morning yeah that i would take i was taking like five of them you

were buying them in like the ginormous like containers too. It was bad. It was really bad. Um, and so one day I was, I just wasn't feeling good and I just started not feeling good at all. And I felt like I was getting tattooed by Ash. She had flown out to finish tattooing my, my thigh. And I kept like, it was like restless arm syndrome. And I was like shaking and I had to make her stop because I just felt like, so like, uh, you know, it was like, you want to And I was like shaking and I had to make her stop because I just felt like so like, oh, you know. Yeah. It was like you want to jump out of your skin and your muscles don't feel good and all that. That's a fucking warning sign that you're overdosing on vitamins.

But do I pay attention? No. I'm just like, oh, let me take more. Maybe I'm just not feeling good. Yeah. Maybe I'm just not feeling great. So I wake up the next day and I had talked to one of my therapists at the time and they have this super vitamin that's called, um, Oh my God. I cannot think of the name

right now, but I can see the picture of it. It's like Declan. Is that what it's called? That's like the name for it, but it's a vitamin b is what it is but it's like prescription strength the vitamin b lord so i wake up the next day and i'm like okay i'm gonna try this because i tried it before and i thought it was great but it's methylated and like it's it's good for you so i'm like i wasn't feeling great but i was just like whatever took all my vitamins and then popped that half of that b to that b vitamin and And I started not feeling good, but I was like, Hey B, you want to go tan? Cause I was like, if I don't feel good, let me just go tan. Maybe it'll lift me up, whatever. We are halfway in the car. It's me, Chachi and Bailey. And I'm like,

Bailey, something's wrong. And you know, Bailey's poor sweet Bailey is just like, she tries to hold it together. You know? And she's like, you're okay, mom sweet Bailey is just like she tries to hold it together you know she's like you're okay mom let's just get to the tanning place you know and we get to the tanning place and I'm telling you I feel like my soul is being sucked out of me I can I keep getting like tunnel vision my heart is fucking racing through the roof fucking I feel like I'm gonna throw up I feel like I'm gonna I want to lay down on the ground and fucking just die like it was so bad but I was like you know what I might my kids here like I cannot fucking do that my dog's in the back so I go inside I tan almost fucking die in the tanning booth but come back out and Bailey's still in there and I text Jay I was like I have to go to

the hospital I'm about to call 9- And he's like, where's the kid? Are you OK? Where are you? And I think he was like across town or out of town. I can't remember. But I was like, Chachi's here. The kid's here. I don't know what to do.

He's like, baby, if you're really feeling that sick, call 911. So I call 911. Ambulance pulls up. They're like, you're in tachycardia. Your heart rate is so high. We've got to take you in right now. I'm like, my kid's here. My dog's here.

And Bailey's like, it's fine. I'm going to call the neighbor, have the neighbor come get me, whatever. I literally had to leave Bailey and Chachi in the middle of this fucking parking lot. I felt so bad. They would not let her come with me. And I'm in the back of the fucking ambulance. They can't get a needle in me because my veins are so restricted just from, uh, being overdosing. And they're like, you know, are you, did you, they, they kept asking me if I took like an EpiPen because my adrenaline was so high and they could not get my heart rate down at

all. They were pumping fluids in me, could not get my heart rate down. Finally, I asked for some Benadryl. I was like, can I have Benadryl? They're like, we can't give you anything while you're in the ambulance. But when you get there, yes. Because I had not knowing I had been overdosing on vitamins for a couple weeks. And anytime I had this feeling, I would take a little bit of Benadryl and it would calm me down. We get to the fucking hospital. The hospital fucking gives me Ativan, which let me tell you, I was flying high. You said that was true. I was like, this is all i needed

how hey i was like it felt so good i hadn't been that high in fucking forever and i was like god this is why i used to take xanax and they're like you're just having a panic attack and i'm like no sir yeah this is not a panic attack i've never had i said i i've lived with anxiety my entire life i've never had a panic attack like this. He's like, no, it's a panic attack. Would you like an Ativan subscription? An Ativan prescription? And I was like, I would like one. Yes, but I can't have one.

You know, I was like, no, because I don't want to even open up that fucking can of worms. So we go home that night and I'm like, something's not right. I didn't have a fucking panic attack. I know my body. I went to my doctor again uh doc felix we love doc felix you guys have seen her on the podcast had her draw my blood immediately the day after i got out of um the hospital test results came back i had overdosed on vitamin d and b12 they were hospitalization levels and she was like i don't know how you didn't cause like permanent damage

to your heart which i think i have was that the day that you were at the house and she came to the house? Because remember, that's the day we really like narrowed it down. Yeah. To the fact that you were probably overdosing because you thought you were having pots because when you would stand up, your blood pressure would just give out. Yeah. And then Dr. Felix came to the house and we went through all your vitamins and i had called a friend of mine who owned a nutrition shop and i'm like hey like this is how much she takes these are what she takes and he said i know like ginormous bodybuilders that can't even take that

yeah and she's taking that daily yeah and then doc felix doc felix ran some tests that's when she ran some tests yep and found out that That's when she ran some tests, yep. And found out that I had fucking overdose. Yeah, those levels were just crazy, unreal numbers. Yeah. So I immediately stopped everything. Yeah. I fucking went cold turkey again. That was the last day you took it.

And let me tell you, I feel better now. It was almost like I needed that macro dose. Please don't do this at home. It was almost like I needed that macro dose of vitamins, though, to like jolt my body and back into i don't want to say normal because i'm never going to be normal being when i'm sober or maybe i'm just never normal and that's why i fucking use drugs i don't know but you know what i'm saying like fucking but or any of this normal i mean no but i just i'm not right

in the head.com at all like something's wrong with me i wake up some days and i feel amazing and then there's other days like today i just fucking i'm tired we're bipolar do i feel like i'm bipolar you're bipolar i don't i when i used to do drugs yes because i had extreme highs and extreme lows but i don't think you're around me all the time like be honest do you do i have extreme highs and lows or am I just you're pretty neutral I'm pretty until someone pisses you off right and then you're like fuck you yeah but I'm pretty much more of like I don't want to say high strung because I'm not high strung but I'm more of like just super in tune with my body and I know like when something's off or when I don't feel good or if I haven't slept good or, you know, I'm just super sensitive to life. So, yeah. Do you think that is being sober or were you like this prior?

Do you feel like you were very hypersensitive? Cause I know you were, you didn't start drugs till later on in life anyway. So I feel like during, but I don't know if anyone's really normal when they're a teenager. Cause we have like hormones and we have all those kinds of things. Cause like my husband asked me often like when did the depression hit yeah it's like you weren't always like this and I was like well that's true because I don't remember ever having depression right when I was a teenager but also we're becoming who we are now you know that my depression didn't kick in until I was in my early 20s my I didn't get depression until I was 40, right. A day after my 40th birthday, I was like, happy birthday. Here you go. Literally. Yeah. Um, I've been like, I think I'm 11 years in

now. Yeah. I wonder if it's like a, just a chemical transaction. I don't even know if it was like, I never really got sober. There's only been a couple of years. And even then during the years I wasn't smoking, I was drinking. wasn't drinking i was smoking yeah and that's been since i was 13 you know maybe 12 13 is when i really started smoking weed and then into drinking as a younger teen and then you know so on and so forth i don't think i've ever like not had advice yeah truly except for maybe the last the beginning of this year from when i almost died in december to i would say probably like april ish i was sober i didn't like it yeah i don't want to know it's being sobriety sucks it is the worst fucking journey you'll ever go on yeah you have to get

it's i'm literally raw dogging white knuckling life every fucking day and it's there's so many times that i'm like dude if i could just fucking have a drink but i can't just have a drink i have to drink the entire bottle and you have that addictive personality down for three days and then i want to fucking pop xanax and then i maybe even do a line of coke you know so it's like my mental health is not well enough to be to ever get back on that bandwagon. I feel like I'm stronger when I'm sober because I just have the way I can just be like, Nope, not doing it.

Yeah. You know, absolutely. But yeah, since that happened, since being overdosed on vitamins, I haven't taken any like here and there I will, but my body's just so sensitive and I'm just,

you'll never take what you had before. No, fuck no. But my body's just so sensitive. Anything I did, it turned off. Oh my gosh. Yeah. So that was my overdosing on vitamins journey. That was a journey. No, definitely a journey. What has been your favorite city to visit on tour so far? That's I, when people ask me that it's so hard to narrow

it down. It's like asking what's your favorite song because I love each city for different things. Yeah. So I've had a lot of fun in each city yeah there's something different that we've gone and like done we don't always get to go out i don't think people realize how fast we're moving either because sometimes we're pulling into a city nine o'clock in the morning sleeping for you know a good little bit then getting ready starting the show and jumping right back on the bus and driving again like there's no we're not even in the city for 24 hours yeah a lot of the times like there's no days off in between your city to city super fast yeah we did that the other day when we did the vegas to utah to vegas oh yeah in 24 hours we pulled out

here at 2 a.m and we pulled back in here at 2 a.m yeah it was so crazy like exactly at 2 a.m i thought that was really crazy um that's something that fun that we've done on the tour so far i think something that was fun that we did was the white house that was really that was so cool i was actually surprised at how dope dc is yeah it's actually like a really cool little city yeah maybe just from what we saw as a tourist you know but i thought it was like super clean and like nice and just really liked it i loved the downtown area loved jet skiing yeah the jet skiing was fun that was so much fun yeah we got out uh me maui gracie and bunny all got out on jet skis oh and jb and just tore up the fucking lake that was and it was in oklahoma first off

didn't know we were going to be on a lake in the middle of oklahoma yeah we woke up and just i walked out to let chachi out and there's a lake yeah so she texts me she's like we can jet ski i was like well okay i want to tell you why we were so excited to jet ski we went to fucking new hampshire which i love new hampshire where we stayed it was really cool they had a lake there too and everything New Hampshire has a fucking rule that you have to take a 90 minute test and you have to pass this test or you can't ride on the fucking jet ski you're basically getting a license to operate a boated like boating vehicle yeah but I fail every test i ever take because i have fucking add you know and i just either i just zoom through shit because i can't comprehend it so i was like i'm not doing this and i'm so glad we didn't because the boys went and failed and wasted their fucking time yeah so

it was like i knew that was gonna be me yeah but i wasn't gonna do it and actually waste my time doing it but they had the best sugar-free ice cream there oh my god it was like, I knew that was going to be me, but I wasn't going to do it and actually waste my time doing it. But they had the best sugar-free ice cream there. Oh my God. It was so good. Yeah. No, this place that we did end up getting a jet ski. We were like,

do we have to take a class? And they're like, no, you have to watch a two minute video. And we were like, done. We were like sold, sold.

Gonna do it. Yeah. So that was fun. I think just every city brings their own vibe. Casey was fun. even though their security there sucked oh it was crazy the meet and greets have been really fun bro the mean greets another person asked about the meet and greets let me find that question yeah because we can just wrap this into two what is the best part of doing the meet and greets i will say this will be the only meet and

greets i'll ever do i wouldn't say that maybe we'll do like a Q&A meet and greet where you like yeah if we okay so if we can redesign the meet and greet where I can spend more time with people yes I will definitely do that we are literally limited to less than an hour yeah we're limited to less than an hour and the way they wanted me to do it was like shake people's hands take are we allowed to say this or is live nation gonna kill us no no what i don't think so you don't think we're allowed to say it or i don't know it's just it's not for me because i want to make everybody feel cherished and i want to take time with them and you know like i want make sure they're heard if i could do like an open forum where everybody that comes just sits down

and asks me and jay questions or me and the crew questions and we can just spend that whole hour with all of you. I would love that. As opposed to getting one to two minutes with each person. Yeah. You know, and I. And some people take up more time and then you feel bad because that's now intruding on the people who have been waiting in line just as long, but they might be in the back of the line. on the people who have been waiting in line just as long but they might be in the back of the line and like it is it's rough because it's because you care honestly because you do want to hear what people have to say and like spend that time make them feel like it was worth it i can't even

believe people come and fucking stand in lines and wait to talk to me and take a picture with me and fucking have spent the money in the heat fucking bring their kids there was a grandma a grandma who was hot by the way she was fucking fucking bring their kids. There was a grandma, a grandma who was hot, by the way, she was fucking, I couldn't even believe she was a grandma who walked in with what four or five of her grandkids. I was just like, man, this is crazy. But my favorite part of the meet and greets is, um, getting to just be in people's energy. Yeah. You know, I love being able to meet who supports me because to me they're the

ones that inspire me you know like fuck me inspiring them like i do what i do for the people who are like go bunny go yeah and like we wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them yeah absolutely so it's just been it's been fun it's been an experience but like i said this will probably be my last meet and greet. So in this style. Yeah. In this style. Cause if we ever decided to do it again, please don't not buy tickets because of that.

Please buy them. No, it'll be a better experience. Maybe like with the podcast or something like that, we'll be able to do like, you know, like a hour meet and greet after the show or before the show or something agreed i've loved meeting everyone i think it's been really great you know everybody's been such little angels i only picked this one because of what happened last night oh god would love to hear if y'all have had any psychedelic experiences and i remember a long time ago on one of the podcasts you told a story about like you had seen something

or done something that made you see stuff yeah in a well i've done acid twice i think and the first time i did acid it was a great trip and like we fucking laid on an electricity box we laid outside on an electricity box in a fucking apartment complex and stared at the sky and i saw angels and then i had sex on it with my ex. It was fucking amazing. God, sex on acid is actually pretty fun. We stared at my panties for like two hours. Oh, because they were like in a neon light. And then the second time I did, or actually that was the second time I did acid. And then the first time I did acid was a good trip. Um, but my ex that passed away, I, he looked like the devil to me and it scared me

so i was like i gotta go and i just left him there i'm tripping on acid by himself yeah and fucking me and my girl just left but yeah it was a good time i've never had a bad experience with acid ecstasy and molly on the other hand but those aren't hallucinogenics though those are just fucking dirty drugs i don't like them at all um i accidentally hallucinated on dayquil the other hand but those aren't hallucinogenics though those are just fucking dirty drugs yeah i don't like them at all um i accidentally hallucinated on dayquil the other day how nightquil okay yeah i could understand dayquil i'm like how no i took way too much um i was sick as fuck i was really trying to get better and then i just started to hallucinate it was bad everything was just like melting in on me yeah you and the fucking melting i don't know how you tolerate it dude yeah when i had shrooms the other day it felt like my face

was melting off of it she's like it feels so good i'm like i will fucking go to the hospital don't if something starts melting around me i'm gonna freak out full panic fucking i just embrace it i knew i know it's not forever and i know I only have it temporarily, so I embrace it and enjoy it. You're a fucking psychopath. Literally. There's something wrong with you. I've been telling her that all morning. I'm like, something's, you're not right. I know. I was like, dude, I took one and a half of what she took and she lost it. And I was like, I barely feel high. You're like, I'm going to take more. you're like i'm gonna take more i was i was about to if she wouldn't have made the trip so bad man it was just constantly like look me in my eyes and i was like no fucking weirdo she's like laying in bed dude she'd be like sound asleep i'd hear her start snoring and she would just

sit up she would just sit up be like do you think we're dead god go to bed you freak i know i literally for like an hour i was like can you just close your fucking eyes like just just it was so funny because i could tell mimi was high too because she kept texting me she's gonna go to sleep soon she she's she's really gonna go to sleep i was putting into the universe that's where i was like please someone make her go to sleep just smash her head three hours in of just her freaking out and i was like i just want to enjoy my high yeah like yeah yeah please never give her that shit again because she was so sensitive today i said something to her this is what i was telling you guys earlier that i fucking forgot she was she's not communicating

today because she's not all at all so she kept going in to do my eye and i thought she wanted my lid down and like we kept we danced like this for like five she wasn't telling you what she wanted and i'm like i finally looked at her i'm like what do you want like what tell me what to do and she started crying i was like hayley you cannot be this sensitive baby i was like you are fucking go to sleep go to sleep go to sleep sleep it off yeah um what's the hardest part of working together hardest part of working together we're all women we all have emotions that's how i feel i've cried like five times already in the past like three weeks yeah i don't think there's any hard part i i we're pretty even keel you know we work together so perfectly yeah i know like we're great everyone just

acknowledges each other's emotions and we just move forward i just cry a lot i think that situation that happened with hayley was that last year or the beginning of this year it was like a couple months ago was it a couple months ago that situation that happened with hayley last season on meet the d fords was real and i think what she had to learn was how to communicate whereas you and i have already learned that because we've been working together for so long you know how i am like if you talk to me we can figure anything out anything anything you just have to be honest one don't let you find out from someone else right and like that's the most important thing like don't go and tell other people how you feel like you need to come to her about it first yeah and like i'm kind of the same way i'm just like if i'm doing something

wrong yeah just talk tell me don't go tell other people that like and just be open about your feelings yeah like just fucking be like hey this isn't this is how i'm feeling about the situation i'm like cool at least i know where you stand and it's either gonna be let's do this or let's do that you know there's no there's no wrong answer to come to me and say some, you know, cause I don't feel like I'm their boss. I feel like we are a well-oiled machine. We're all bosses. We're all like business partners. Like you and I specifically, like we're business partners. No, like we work together and we have been working together for six years now yeah like it's just this is we've made this happen yeah no for sure and I just think that we just enjoy each other's company so much you know like not everyone can say that I have

like since being in the industry saw so many people who work together and who like have businesses together and it's so sad to see them not be able to even be friends outside of that yeah that's weird i don't want to work with people like that yeah like i like having friendships within business and i know that's not always like the best thing to do but like i feel like it brings you closer because then you both care just as much about the situation well that and it's like you guys have both have goals that you're working towards that you're trying to help each other succeed. You know, like when I started building my brand,

I even told Haley and Mimi, like, this isn't just about me. Like, I want to put you guys on my Tik TOK. I want to help you guys with your brands. I even told Mimi the beginning of last year, I was like,

you have to make a Facebook page. I was like, she made me make another Tik TOK. So I was like, Tik TOK is just not like a thing like i just do for fun she's like no bitch and i was like okay i'm like make another facebook yeah you know like i want you guys to build a brand together so it's not like only one of us is shining like that's why like hayley can't go anywhere without somebody being like you're bunny's makeup artist and nobody video oh yeah or the rib video or and people know mimi as your daughter that and i'm so tired of that that and they're like oh you're her hairdresser oh you're her manager you know like people know

we we're just known that where there's one the others are absolutely you know so and i that's how i had always envisioned literally and that's how i had always envisioned our business to be was everybody building a brand because what good is it a lot of people don't bring their makeup artists and their hairdresser and their manager in the limelight and i just think that's weird because everybody you you cater to the thick alternative goth girls who you know like our moms and like you have your own little niche hayley has her niche you know and then i have mine so it's like why not hit all three bases yeah in the same group absolutely and you know who kim always did that with her hairstylist and makeup artist i feel like she never like shadowed them she was always like

i will help support you in whatever way i can even when they've like launched their own products and stuff she's been a part of their launches and i think that's so cool that she didn't just like turn her back towards their businesses she was just really like how can i help we all gotta eat yeah we're literally all just trying to fucking build something you know and I think all boats float. So I love that. Yeah. What is the most valuable lesson you've ever learned? I know mine. Go ahead. You go first. Um, having, being comfortable with uncomfortable conversations. Cause I'm able to apply that in every aspect of life from business to relationships, to parenting. I think that is the most important thing I've ever learned because

I was the worst at that. I always felt like, and you say it best, is that not all conversations have to end in confrontation. And I'm like, God, that is the truth. Like it is totally okay to speak to people and have like resolution at the end of it. And I think I was raised so like no forgiveness, everything's going to be a confrontation type mentality that it took me until I was like in my 20s to finally be like yeah and oh owning a business with that and having like seven employees under me where that look at me towards like advice and like conversation yeah i had to learn that like if i'm going to come to them and tell them how to be better i need to be comfortable with

that without thinking they're going to quit or be fired or whatever and also be able to take criticism in return exactly i always i always like end a conversation with like well how can i yeah do better in my part too like i would never come to someone and be like you're doing this wrong without being like how could i have helped that situation yeah because that's just as important i need to know not everyone's comfortable coming to someone else and being like these things bother me about you. Yeah. Well, I mean,

you are other people. Not so much. I had a breakdown with Mimi like two weeks ago. I was like, you're leaving tour for a month. Jay's manager would never do that to him. It was a month. It looked like a lot of numbers on the calendar.

Okay. I was like, bitch, you're leaving me. Like, and Mimi came in just bawling her eyes out i'm like mimi it's fine i'm calmed down now like she wasn't at the time yeah cried in front of the whole band yeah but even like when i'm upset about something i'm not like

attacking anybody i'm just kind of like freaking out like what am i gonna do without you you know like i don't know what what are you gonna do without I don't know I'm still stressed about my hair in Texas so I have no fucking idea I'm gonna figure it out okay um but yeah no you have to have those conversations but biggest lesson I think I've learned that's such a good question because I've learned so many lessons in life um I don't know I think maybe how to be grateful and humble and that you don't always have to be seen to be heard. You know, like I feel like when you're young, you're just all over the place. And I was I was all over the place. I was very flagrant and obnoxious. And, um, you know, nobody was going to tell me shit. I came from the bottom and I fucking had a lot of fuck you money, you know, and I could do whatever I wanted to do. So, and I still have fuck you money. We're laughing because it's a song, a song we heard the

other day. I was like, this is, this is my new fucking clap back for the haters. But I think there's a way to still be soft and humble and grateful so that life keeps giving back to you. When you are pompous and arrogant and have a shit attitude like I used to have when I was younger. You know, life humbles you. And you find out very quickly that, one, that shit can all be taken away at any time. Two, none of it means shit. So it's like, you know, just be humble. Just be grateful. And the universe and the Lord will always provide for you.

I love that. That was a good one. Yeah, that'll do it. Shout out Kim for asking that shout out kim um what's your favorite brand for clothes i chose this specifically for this reason so it says you know or is a lot of it custom made for you people do not realize that you were the like least bougie person i know literally and you have the most amount of money of someone that i know and she will literally order off of sheen

fashion nova and amazon all day all day all day long fucking i am my husband calls me cheap i don't i don't like to say that i'm cheap i like to say that i'm frugal there's a difference i am frugal what does that mean there's a difference between cheap and frugal. Let's see. What is the definition of frugal? Sparing. I am very sparing. Economical with regard of money or food. There you go. And what's the definition of cheap?

What's the definition of cheap? Low in price. Worth more than it is cost okay see i'm not cheap i'm frugal see i just won that fucking battle i need to i like right now i'm wearing a shirt off amazon jeans i found that were like fucking 20 bucks i think like i love cheap stuff because one designer shit does not fit me i don't like it it's fucking weird i've never nothing about i don't know i've never looked at a designer outfit and been like i want that shall we tell them about the leggings yes okay so here's perfect example mugler i fucking finally splurge and get some Mugler Mugler leggings. The ones that are see-through the ones that I wore to the Vegas show. If you guys go back on any of my TikTok Instagram, you'll be able to see them. Yeah. Not this Vegas show, but the last,

last year's Vegas show, the black ones I splurge. They're like fucking 800 to $1,500 a pair. But I love these fucking things so much that i was like i have to have them so i order the fucking leggings they get here i documented this on tiktok first of all they're like paper like nylon not even nylon is stretchy this shit was like paper tissue paper literally and you fucking put it on and they rip so all night long i had a rip in my fucking pants in the front but still that was your second pair that was my second pair yeah the first pair just split yeah i mean it just split and she was like what the fuck are we gonna do yeah but then you change my whole outfit yeah you had the second pair show up the

morning of yeah and as she's putting them on just an absolute run run goes right through the front yeah so i just don't see the point i think that does i even have an issue with designer bags now i kind of have a little bit of a fetish for them my husband created a monster yeah but my husband looked at me one day and was like bitch you make too much money to not carry a designer purse you're embarrassing i was like rude i was like bougie fucking roll bro like you guys have no idea my husband is the bougie one out of he is for sure oh thread count roll yeah like literally he will come in and be like the thread count on these sheets is not 10 012. and i'm like who are you I'm like he used to sleep in a fucking van with crumbs and condoms on the floor like what are you talking about dude oh Bertha was disgusting but yeah no he is so

picky about shit and I'm just like I wasn't gonna argue with him because I was like you know what I've fucking just deserve it I have a real problem with thinking I deserve things but I was finally just like you know what i deserve it let me go splurge and now i like love louis i love dior i've always loved dior bags but to me they're just not big enough to carry all the shit i need but yeah as far as like designer clothes the cheaper the better baby because honestly i only wear things once too so if i'm photographed in it or if i wore it on stage i've been given all my clothes to caitlin now yeah caitlin um she's like we got to check to make sure we don't wear the same thing sometimes yeah caitlin curtis on tour because you know she wears the same size as me the only like things you've

been custom your wedding dress recently was just custom the dresses that you wear on the red carpet are custom right but your everyday clothes your podcasting clothes even show clothes yeah there's very few pieces that are either high-end or custom yeah i've never wore a high-end pair of pants except for the muglers and i've t-shirts you're like new um body suits are nice yeah those are those are angel brinks and she fucking is just an amazing designer um but yeah now if you were to vegas you had someone right because that was like a big show for us oh and wicked lester clothing yes she has been designing a lot of my stuff she's been designing like a lot of the rock and roll stuff that i wear but those are like she's so dope you guys and she's very affordable so go check her out on instagram or her work is beautiful wicked

lester clothing man she's amazing and she's hot as fuck and she's like in fucking the uk and if you order something she'll have it to you in like two weeks oh this is just a quick question we're not going to go into detail but someone wanted to know the rowdiest crowd we've had so far we're just going to tell you our like favorite meet and greet was albuquerque new mexico yeah they're awesome you guys showed out the crowd was loud i mean that cloud i had to go i had to actually like go out in there they were crazy loud and everyone who walked through that door to meet you was just like amazing the most like a lot of days and days were there too and i loved them oh a beautiful experience love that but um this is

how do you manage to eat healthy on tour what do you do go ahead and tell them well i had to buy a fucking crock pot a fucking one what do you call it one skillet an air fryer i literally wake up every day and cook my meals every fucking day at breakfast i eat the same thing fucking lunch i'll usually try to like make something that i can like that will tide me over to the next day too lots of salads a lot i mean the if you want to eat right you can make it happen no i don't i don't think i've eaten one time at the fucking not at catering no never once catering's very hit or miss love you guys appreciate you guys for feeding us every day i ate the meatballs the other day they were vegan but it some of their food is good they had an eggplant lasagna the other day that actually

slapped like i went back for seconds really yeah i love it and then they do a lot of like chopped salads which i really love is like the pre-made so they'll make like an italian one that's got like the olives and the feta cheese and stuff like that and they have a salad bar every night um and they have a juicer which i have found out that i love juicing i'm buying one when i get home for the new house because it sucks when you do it yourself though i make it every day really yeah every morning i wake up and they have a ginormous basket and a juicer wow and i make myself a juice andy has taught me actually how to make a really good juice and make it make one with apples, oranges, and carrots.

Oh, my God. That's what we do. It's apple, oranges, carrots, cucumber, celery, beets, ginger. And then I add a little bit of paprika to the top of it. I think you got Mexican in you somewhere. I do. My dad's Mexican. Oh, okay.

Yeah. That's why you like all that shit. Yeah. I never knew Pops was Mexican. Yeah. He's the only white looking one out of the whole family it's funny to look at a picture because we're like on that side they're the garcias but my my grandma decided to you know fuck a white man and then they're the only ones that popped out with blue eyes um and blonde hair yeah and you look at charlie yeah when you look at them in like the lineup it's like they're just like the ones on the end that are just white yeah it's so funny to see my family

pictures summer that you just that was at the vegas concert she's summer rivera she's literally mexican you wouldn't think like i look pasty as fuck you would never guess that i have actually a good portion of i'm mexican so and i was raised in a very very very um dominantly hispanic community so like that's the food i was raised off of and like what we ate all the time and the barbecues that we went to and stuff okay next one love it but yeah that's how i ate healthy on the road she she cooks everything you order groceries too also groceries every fucking day it's exhausting to be honest but if you want to eat healthy you got to make

it work um if you could spend a day with one person from history just to pick their brain and be in their prisons dead or alive who would it be does it have to be a day or can it just be an hour because my love tank is on e i got one hour to spend it with anyone at any time any dead or alive person probably probably jesus damn that was a good one yeah or god like if i could ever get to him wow just like pick their brain just like what is this shit real like what's happening yeah what a good one yeah yeah i didn't go there she said yeah i didn't go there i went for like elvis you're making my smokers cough come back oh god yeah we need to clip that what did taylor

lewance say clip that what's your favorite sex position oh god i feel like this this question is just so overrated no i want to know you i don't i don't know yours um i know that you like it in the grave on the grave not in the grave god on the graves and you don't start that rumor beaten don't fucking start that room i don't like being beaten i like being tossed up though like beaten i'm an alpha female toss me around i would lose it. If I was bleeding? You can have love smacks. You're not getting full on fucking punched in your face. Who loves smacks?

I do. I love it. It's great. I mean, I like all positions. I think sex is a beautiful work of art. And I feel like writing, I can get to show off my skills. Oh, the skills? Do you have form when you do it? I mean, yeah. I mean, you have to. I can get to show off my skills, you know, and you can just stare at me. Do you have form when you do it? I mean, yeah. I mean, you have to, I sit straight up. A lot of girls like lean forward and stuff like that, but I sit straight up and cause I have really good

control of my hips and my legs, but I love doggy style. I love, I like the one where you lay down with your legs spread and they like scissor in between. yeah it's hot i mean i like it all hang me off the bed slam my fucking head into a fucking bed frame i don't care just fuck me like literally that's how i how about you mimi i like a doggy she's like everything else is a little too much i think a better question is is how long do you like to have sex oh not a long time me either dude if you more than 10 minutes i'm like yeah i can do 15 you're pushing it okay like i got we got a whole lot of stuff to do i don't there's some dudes that like to go for like hours how ew why first of all my pussy hole can't take

that no there's no fucking way after a while i'm like it it fucking hurts it does it hurts and it just like it's like what are we doing okay yeah we were just like okay bro like hurry up let's fucking finish this up but yeah like those weird porn dudes i don't know if you ever had one of them i have they just sure haven't nope yeah the ones with like the weird flavor savers you guys know what i'm talking about not one of them yeah fucking they get weird and i bet i yep don't like it yeah just fucking slam bam thank you ma'am i love it it memorable, you know? Just fuck the living breath out of me. Leave me breathless.

Not leave me fucking just counting sheep and shit. You know what I'm saying? Oh, God. That's it. Counting fucking sheep. You know something? You're just passing the time like one. You're like thinking about all the shit you have to do you're like man i really gotta get laundry done just fucking to-do list like i just

cannot wait to leave what what is he doing back there okay i will give a tip that i have given to actually a lot of people if especially if you're plus size so this is for my plus size girls if you don't like to like she said she likes to ride like sitting straight up. I can't do that. I don't got like, that's just not going to happen. I have learned that instead of putting my legs over him, if I put them under his legs, then I have like the stability of it. And like you have total and utter control without using your hips. Over him? Like, like, okay.

So if you're a reverse cowgirl, okay. This is like only works in reverse cowgirl actually i should have like okay okay that i understand so then like his legs go over your legs versus your legs over his legs it's like a lot of girls will put their legs together and they will go over if you spread his legs and put your legs up and under his yeah you have full and under control and you don't get tired yeah i think that's how i ride not a lot of people do yeah i think that's how i ride reverse cowgirl anyways i like to switch it up i'll fucking shove my legs under their butt whatever i can do to fucking get to where i'm going you know you know what i'm saying just

straight under him too just bounce back on it oh man you guys are saving this podcast right now just to relisten to yeah our husbands are listening with their wives like hey honey let's try that bunny how has it been managing your sobriety on the road being like around a lot of people who do those things because i don't think a lot of people talk about how hard it is to be put in situations in which because a lot of people come up to you can I buy you a drink when we're at like an after party or something like that and you're constantly like no I'm sober how does that ever affect you is it hard or you kind of used to it now um it's never affected me because I'm so strong and steadfast in my sobriety like it's not even a question or I even have to think about it.

I don't care that my husband drinks. I don't care that people around me are drinking. I will say that you drunk motherfuckers look so stupid, though. And I'm judging every one of you all the time. I can't stand it. I'm just like, oh, God, you were so cute until you got drunk. You know, like girls and guys. She does.

I swear. Yeah. She'll tell me. She'll be like, oh. Yeah. It's just so gross the way people act when they're drunk. I just don't like it. And you guys might hate me for saying that,

but there's nothing attractive about a woman who is stumbling and falling all over the place and does not have herself together. And there's nothing attractive about a man who reeks of alcohol and just sounds like a jerk ass. The first thing she'll say if she hugs someone and she smells it, she's like, they smell like alcohol. Yeah, like I just don't like it at all um i and my husband don't think that i don't fucking tell his ass he was trying to get on the bus the other day with us she's fucking shit face

and i was like no i was like i love you but i'm not gonna drive eight hours with you fucked up i was like you go fucking razzle dazzle your other your own she goes are you gonna talk for the next six hours he said yeah and she's like you can go back to your bus yeah i was like i don't have time for that like love you but no it was like a long night too yeah everyone just wanted to go to bed and he comes rolling in yeah those are my favorite because it's like it's the end of the night the bus has already started up yeah we're already he's like this is your one chance to have all this on your bus and i was like go i don't want it maybe if you were sober and we could snuggle yes but fucking shit face jay used to get drunk

and come home and wake up the whole house it got to the point i wanted to talk just wanted to talk to people and i got to the point where i was like our daughter has to go to fucking school stop waking her up to talk to her in the middle of the night you freak um but no it never bothers me i i actually have pride in telling people that i'm sober it doesn't bother me i like it yeah i don't i just feel like it's such a personal decision that i made and like why not be proud of my sobriety yeah charlie and her assistant came to the vegas concert and she is just recently sober. Then like I think the last six months or something.

And someone was very much forcefully like, I'm going to get you a drink. And she's like, I'm sober. And he wasn't stopping to the point that Charlie then had to step in and be like, yo, motherfucker, she's sober. And I feel like that not everyone has your like your strong headedness of being like, no, fuck that. I'm not taking a drink. I'm not. You guys also have to keep in mind i've been sober since 2018 so that's what 1920 21 22 23 that's five years off of alcohol that's five years that i've had to just see motherfuckers act like idiots yeah you know so

it's like i just don't have a problem saying no and i don't like the way alcohol listen i love being drunk okay even i was the sloppy girl who fucking couldn't hold herself together or have a conversation videos of that yeah like i love being drunk i'm the happiest drunk i will make out with you i will slap your titties i will fucking just love you down i become a ball of love when i'm drunk i love being drunk i can't handle the way it makes me feel the next day i literally want to fucking hang off of a cliff when I fucking come down off of Xanax and alcohol. So I just made that decision that I don't ever want to be that girl. There was too many nights that I did fucked up weird shit when I was drunk and under the influence.

And I just don't ever want to go back to that girl. Yeah, I do that if I'm with liquor. I can't do that the day after liquor day after champagne. Yeah. Whole different story. We were in Texas. Got fucked up on a bottle of Prosecco. if i'm with liquor i can't do that the day after liquor day after champagne yeah whole different story we were in texas got fucked up on a bottle of prosecco and she was a beautiful beautiful night and i was able to wake up the next day and just keep rolling we did that in vegas the other night when we're in the um the casinos i was like prosecco if i have anything else i'm worth

nothing for at least a couple days 24 to 48 business hours yeah literally me the next question was how are we dealing being away from the kids that's a question for you i am not doing well this bitch started crying during a meet and greet the other day a small child walked in she was so cute and she was like four years old and i was just like i fucking lost it had a full-on breakdown had to roll into the bathroom and just like compose myself real fast and then i like i literally cried last night because jason sent me a picture of cash on the four wheelers he was like these are sick and he like was playing with it and i'm just like my babies and then olivia's lost a tooth since i've been gone too so she lost that her first tooth no it's her fourth oh no fifth one that she's lost

i have mom you shouldn't care if it's the fifth i care a lot if he says like if cash says a new statement i'm like yeah i cry a lot um but i'm doing is a crier she tries to say she's not a crier she is a crier yeah no when it i've learned that it's when it comes to my family i will cry at job she cries about other things too sometimes i don't cry as much as hayley hayley's done really good this tour i'm actually surprised you've cried more than hayley this oh no for sure in the past though we're i'm talking in full yeah i think hayley just gets us now so she's just like whatever except for today she did start

fucking crying yeah but she cried the other day drug induced what'd she cry the other day for i think it was when she was like coming out of that hangover when she had drank a lot then the night or the night of your wedding oh i don't know what was she crying about no the next day she got a little emotional but yeah she also was like not i don't think she woke up sober yeah she woke up still drunk did gabby's makeup i think drunk yeah got two ivs i woke up and fucking came on they came downstairs and they were on the couch and fucking all i saw was the top she looked like a condom like a like an uncircumcised wiener all i could see was the top of her head and like her eyes she was just curled up i was

like you good she had to get two ivs yeah and tortle and vitamins and all the stuff it was wild those ivs are lifesavers though they are they're like shout out bobby haven't been able to survive without them because bobby has literally saved all of our lives multiple times literally i fucking have been battling fucking tuberculosis the past fucking two weeks yeah it's been brutal um what movie could you watch again and again i already know my answer steel magnolias beaches all this yeah it's more i like the old nostalgic ones i had never seen steel magnolias i don't know why i hadn't but we were in the salon one day and someone was like you have to watch it it's a comedy it's not a fucking

comedy it's not i'm back there foiling crying because of the ending and i was like who the fuck turned this on yeah who fucking said it was a comedy cassie okay she's never watched liar through yeah she's like well there's a lot of funny parts i was like doesn't make it a comedy that was sad as fuck um but no that's a good movie i do really like that one but man i could watch joe dirt like i swear i love joe dirt so much that i created a joe dirt if you've ever seen my son cash bunny cash bunny that has a long blonde mullet and is the most wild unhinged child you'd ever imagine no literally you manifested that i did for sure little baby dirt baby dirt how hard has it been mentally traveling on the road i also want to thank you for being honest in your mental struggles i've

just started therapy for past trauma in my life me watching your videos and listening to your podcast has helped me that's from tammy no i'm glad you're doing uh therapy tammy that's the best step that you can do um my mental health has been good like i ever since i cut sugar out of my life it has been a game changer i can control my anxiety now does that mean that it's under control no But does that mean like even last night I started getting overstimulated in the sushi restaurant and I have no idea why. I mean he was singing piano man. I mean, but it was the, the fucking sushi chef was, and some little Asian lady was playing the piano and the sushi chef was singing piano man and he kept singing it over and over

again. But yeah, I just got super overstimulatedulated but now that i've learned how to breathe and i kind of like i put ice on my chest ice is my number one savior yeah you grabbed your water and immediately put it on your chest and it was very short-lived yeah you were in a great mood like throughout dinner other than the sushi sucked but you just i think you learn how to cope with it and live with it a little bit better like i have a lot of anxiety because we're doing this whole thing with Jeffree star the next 48 hours. So it's like, you always want to be presentable. And I think I put a lot of pressure on myself mentally to always be the best at everything I do. So it's like, you know, I just want everything to be perfect. Um, but you, it's been really good and I can't complain. And I'm actually very surprised.

I thought my mental health was going to be a lot worse on the road i feel like you getting out of nashville and being forced into this lifestyle knowing that you can't just go home yeah by choice like you're kind of committed to these especially 15 meet and greets on there you know it was a lot and you have done incredible like i want to tell you how proud i am because I feel like you've done so fucking good. How many more meet and greets do we have? Let's not talk about it. Um, but honey, do you ever miss having your implants? I miss having the fullness and the roundness that I did. But other than that, no, I feel like they made me look so matronly cause I'm already a big bitch. Like I'm five, six.

People don't realize that you're tall yeah i'm five five five six everybody at the meet and greets is like wow you're taller than i thought you were i'm like do i look little everyone thinks you're like five three yeah no i've had people tell me that before they're like she looks like literally double zero five three like the tiniest little human and i'm like she's actually my height like yeah you're very like you're only an inch away from me like we are so similar in height that's crazy so what was the question though have you ever missed your implants oh my implants um yeah so i'm like five five five six i weigh 153 right now like 152 on a good day um but it's like any

sort of i'm built like a fucking linebacker so when i had those fucking tits on me dude i just started looking so matronly it took away from my waist because i already have such a short waist i love natural titties i think they're beautiful i love it elongated you because you were right that is a lot of boob and so from like boob to waist there was only a very small i would have to lift my tits up to see my waist like that's how bad it was yeah um but no i, I don't miss them at all. I just, like I said, I miss the fullness. I love my natural boobie girls. Like I love natural bodies now. Like you don't realize it because you will go through a phase. Some people will go through

a phase of like, Oh my God, I love the way fake bodies look. You know, if they're done right, BBLs liposuction and fake tits especially on the west coast that's all that's ingrained in our minds is that and you go through this phase where you're like oh god i just want to look like a barbie doll and then as you get older you want to go back to the naturalness exactly yeah i love girls with natural bodies i think they're beautiful i just love the whole natural aesthetic i feel like i love that that has come back because the bbl trend got really far some of them are brutal we love to play we like to guess yeah bbl or no yeah in airports when we come through like miami or la or vegas it's like oh you think she had a bbl i mean you can tell

some of them are really bad they're like literally folding onto the back of their legs yeah it's so wild no i'm so thankful that mine didn't turn out like that but i didn't get like a full bbl i literally just had him taken my hip dips and just put a little bit of fullness at the top so i you already had an ass i already did i had a big ass and so he was like i'm not giving you a full bbl he's like we're just gonna fill in your hip dips and kind of round it at the top yeah so the other night we were at the bar and i thought it was really interesting because i started asking because you know we're we're there's very little the men to woman ratio on tour is wild like there are only a couple of us and then there's like a ton of dudes right so i've gotten to know a lot of the dudes they're super sweet and respectful i

really have to say and commend them because they are very very nice people yeah i've talked to people about them before that like this is like a family they're like brothers to me but we did get talking i was like okay what's everyone's like types you know like what what is it and i was very surprised how many people were like we hate when we can see that a girl has had work done right i was like oh men love natural bodies no i I never. I guess it's different hearing it from the guy than just to assume. No, I could tell you being in the industry, men prefer natural bodies. Yeah, that's so crazy to me. Absolutely crazy because these girls are spending and going through so much trauma to look a way they think will.

It's because we're all conditioned as children to look a certain way and to look like the girl in the magazines to be playboy models to be you know the kardashians like they're just it's all programming and even the kardashians have started to reverse a lot of their stuff yeah most definitely absolutely so that those are questions yay we've been on here for a while well i love you guys and i hope you liked our fucking filling episode we have like two and a half hours before we gotta go. Yep. Two and a half hours to prepare. But yeah, let us know below

in the comments what murder mysteries you guys want to hear us talk about. This is gonna be my favorite series. I hope you know that. We're gonna start doing it every October. We're gonna film a couple of them in our dressing rooms and we're gonna have our new backdrops that we've been using. Everyone has complimented our meet and greets being the dumb blonde podcast studio.

Everyone has been like, that was the coolest possible setup you could have done. So I've really enjoyed that. I love it. And I love you guys. And thank you guys for all the support, especially on my Patreon. You motherfuckers. Like, thank you so much I can't thank you for being here every month month after month

and just supporting you know the whole brand like you guys are fucking amazing everybody that leaves comments online everybody that just shows us love there's a new bunny and jelly fucking Facebook group that has like 150,000 people in it that I just found today

I ran into it somehow and i was like this is so cool and the girl who's running it is actually doing a really good job you guys are you guys have such a cult following it's been really cool to watch that this whole tour we get so much love and then we also get fucking torn apart on other websites i know fuck them other websites it's just crazy love definitely outweighs the hate absolutely you guys have such a beautiful following and the people who tear us apart though are the ones who don't understand us yes because we're different they don't take the time to understand either they don't care they don't want to listen they just want to judge from our

outer appearances you know i'm an old whore and fucking my husband's a fat slob that's all they care about you know it's ridiculous. And it's just like, we're just so thankful for the people that love us. And that just really gave us a chance because in the beginning people didn't want to give us a chance. And now it's like to look at the snowball effect that's been going on the past few years. It's just really wonderful. And so thankful to be a part of it.

So thank you guys so much. And I love you so much. And I'll see you guys next week thanks for listening bye