Dumb Blonde - Elle Apologizes to Dolly

Episode Date: June 15, 2026

(Originally aired: 8/12/24)Elle King is a boss, and leaves no stone unturned in her vulnerable conversation with Bunnie this week. Elle opens up about what really happened at the Grand Ole Opry performance that went viral, Dolly Parton's kind words that helped turn things around, and how she started her journey of healing and self work. She reflects on her unique upbringing as the daughter of comedian Rob Schneider, sharing both the fun and challenges that came with growing up in the spotlight. She also shares her experiences with motherhood, including the ups and downs with her baby daddy, and how these personal journeys have influenced her new music, including 'Baby Daddy's Weekend' and ongoing tour.Elle King: WebsiteWatch Full Episodes & More: YouTubeSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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And not to mention your dad was one of my childhood crushes. Oh, my gosh. El King is in the house, baby. Wow. I have been waiting for you to come because you do not have. know how obsessed I was with Deuce Bigelow. No, you know, I was in that. I did not know that.

A little foreshadowing. You're like, we're going to be friends. Oh, my gosh. Yeah, I was the little Girl Scout. I love that. I never even knew that. But I mean, I just, I'm, I've always been a, like, John Candy and, like, funny comedians were always my thing.

And your dad, like, I knew, I knew he was, like, the tiniest little thing ever. Oh, my gosh. But I was just like. If he finds this out, he's going to be like, I've still got it. Oh, no. Dude, Rob Schneider was like, it was Rob Schneider, Drew Carey. Like, I had a list of like comedians that I loved as a child. I always go for funny over anything.

Me too. I mean, I've dated all kinds of different people. But if you make me laugh, you get my heart and my vagina. And my vagina. I'm telling you, man, you make me laugh. My legs are spread wide open. Yeah, and like throwing like a neck tat, like sold. Oh, they have to have tattoos.

Yes. Do you have to date a man with tattoos or things? Can you date a man who has bear skin? I'll try anything twice. I love that. But I do tend to get along better with, I don't know. It just, I like people who have tattoos. It's same.

You can withstand, if someone's covered in tattoos, like, they can withstand some things. Yeah, they can take some shit. Or they've been through things, you know? Or they have that, like, rough around the edges thing. Yeah. I feel like if we're flesh all a mesh and I'm the only one with tattoos, I feel like one of these kids is doing its own thing and I like want you to be on my team you know like you need to be covered in tattoos too yeah definitely are you dating right now I am actually um back with my baby daddy

oh we're gonna dive into this okay hence the tour name right um yes yes and we broke up for um a year and I was going through really really insane postpartum and I don't even think that I realized I was going through it until I kind of got out of it. And we were already broken up. And he just kept showing up and we became best friends. And then through like custody and everything and working together and like a lot of therapy on my part, we like restarted our communication, our like respect for each other. And I just, I never stopped being in love with him.

And then finally he was just like, I wore the right set of underwear. And she's like, locked in. I love that. And we're doing really, really well. I feel, I love that you're talking about postpartum, though, because I feel like a lot of women in the spotlight. Like, you guys literally will have babies and then you're thrust back into the spotlight.

And it's like, you don't have time to heal. You don't have time to nurture yourself. No. And then the world wants to be mad at you if, like, you're not this picture perfect human that they've put you on this pedestal. Yeah. It's honestly like it's kind of fucked up because I I really struggled to get pregnant in a lot of different relationships. And now I know it's like God's timing is is not up to us. And even our baby's timing is not up to us.

And I think that like the pandemic, everything was shut down and I was able to like rest. I sold my house in L.A. I moved to New Mexico. I had donkeys and goats. And I got pregnant. And because I wasn't on the road, I didn't have all this pressure. I ballooned up. I got so heavy.

And I got up to 284 pounds the day that I delivered my son. And then... It was happy weight, though. Yeah. I mean, it was miserable weight. But it was also like, my body did what it had to do. And then it took me three years to lose baby weight. And the thing that made me so mad is, like, in this day and age, like, no way.

gives any credit for anything. I don't care how anybody lose weight. If somebody takes charge of their own life, not to anyone has to because I've been every single size. But like I worked really, really hard because I was so depressed. I started working three months after I had my son. I was back on the road and I was like trying to,

I like already stopped breastfeeding. I was so stressed out. And then I just started working out to try and get my mind right because I was like blue. I was really sad, really miserable. And then my song with Miranda drunk, like really went crazy during my pregnancy. So so many changes happened so quickly, so fast.

And then I don't know. I just like you'd think anything that I know about or had known about postpartum was like, oh, like you could like be kind of sad like for a couple weeks, a couple months after. And I'm like looking down and like it's two years after. And like I'm getting ready to celebrate my son's second birthday. and I'm not with his dad and I'm like I feel so lost. I tried a lot of different therapies. I tried like all kinds of like different psychedelic stuff.

I tried talk therapy. I tried everything. And ultimately I had to go through certain experiences on my own, some of which I didn't want to go through. But like life experiences. Like life experiences. Like, you know, I'm already kind of, I don't want to say like I'm sick of talking about like what happened in January and the dog.

incident. And I'm sure people are not going to like what I have to say about a lot of it. But like, I can already look back and be like, you know what? I have this good thing that came from it. This thing changed in my life. I was presented with an opportunity to grow. And I think that every experience is an opportunity for change. And change is inevitable. It's the blade that carves itself and or sharpens itself, whatever that quote is. And I really like that. that. But like, I know. When that Dolly incident happened, were you still going through postpartum? Was that part of it? Honestly, I don't, I think I'd kind of come out of postpartum and then everything that had accumulated, everything that I had just like sucked onto my life

in my like depression, all just kind of came to a head. And I think it was probably just rock bottom right i just if it wasn't that it was going to be something else and i just took for the first time like you know when i was pregnant like i was like okay maybe i've got this time given to me this was this year was the first time i was like i'm stepping i'm stepping away from this everyone's telling me to kill myself everyone's telling me to surrender my child and it was just so so wrong and you know if a man did it it would have been a completely different story but also like I've spoken to everybody and I've spoken to everyone at the Opry and they said that I'm not banned. And it's- Contra is forgiving.

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But at the same time, I went home and I was like, I never, I never want to cry like that in a car ride home. I never want to wake up feeling like that ever again. I never want to feel that shame. I never want to, like, you know, anytime Dolly Parton calls you is cool. But like, I didn't want it to be under the. of circumstances and like but she called me to make me feel better you know she's a sweet angel of a woman she's literally she's like proof of angels she truly is and um i think what that taught like i learned

so much from this experience and um like if i can come out of it literally anyone can and i've had so many experiences like that i hope i have less of them in the future i'm with you girl i'm I went through some shit this last week. I'm like, Lord, what are you trying to teach me? I know. Come on. My book of lessons is like getting kind of full. Yeah.

But I don't know. Do you believe in like many lives? Absolutely. I also believe in soul contracts and I believe that. Me too. Tell me what do you believe. Let me know. Okay.

So I believe I did. Okay, this is kind of wacky. No, I love it. I don't know people believe in this stuff. No, we do. I'm so into it. I'm very spiritual. Same.

very connected to spirit. I meditate. I've got guides. I love you. Sister. Yes. Where have you been? They're all over here laughing because I, this is me. Okay. Amazing. Okay, good. Then I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, you found your coven. Okay, great. I did this one reading, um, with a, with a woman and she was, it was called like a rose reading. I'd never done anything like that. And she went through some past lives. And because I'm clairvoyant and clersentient, I also don't talk about this a lot, but I, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't care. I have nothing high. And you are too? Yes.

Okay, I believe that. And I feel like that's why we're like supposed to be connected. I, it was like over the phone because it was during COVID. It was right before COVID when things were like starting to like get crazy. And she was explaining a couple of my past lies. And I could, I was like locked in with her and I could see her. Like I could see everything that she was seeing. And I'm everything lined up.

And I asked her, I said, have I ever had a child in a past life? life and she said no. And, um, and so she said, you're going to have to make a sole contract with someone to bring, like, for this lifetime. And, um, I mean, I've even had like, like, psychics. One time I was pregnant before I had a miscarriage and he was like, have you ever had a miscarriage? And I was like, no, not that I know of. Like, boom, a week later. I had like, I had a miscarriage. And then the next pregnancy was missed. And, um, and so I think that I had to have a sole contract with, either my baby. I don't know how all of it works, but I know that like my baby chose me and I know that he's like destined to be here. But to do that, like I'm so into healing and I'm all into like

a lot of like spiritual stuff. So I felt like it's true. I saw something online that was like if you're ever feeling like called to a place, like you need to go. Yeah. Because there's something that has to happen there. I'd never been to Bali and I went, um, I went probably like, it was, like in January and I had had like two back-to-back miscarriages in September and like, oh yeah, end of August and into September and was still on the road like three days after, like bleeding on stage, everything. So sad and doomy, I can, it's easier now. That's your childhood trauma is to push through any sort of pain and not sit in it.

Yeah, it's because I don't, I can't. That's when I lose my mind. Me too. I don't want to wallow. No, no. I'm like, okay, what job can I do? Okay, what can I do? Like, let's make another album. Let's do something. And then I lose my mind because I'm not actually taking the time. My new thing, I said, I got to feel it to heal it. And so that's what I did. That's why I took time this year. I know I'm bouncing all over the place, but. No, no, I love it. And I'll draw you in. Okay, cool. Yeah. I went, I felt this like pull to Bali and I looked up this healing ceremony in the middle of the jungle. And I dragged my best friend. with me and she was like okay and even though she's like into like metaphysical spiritual stuff she was like this is like a little much and I'm like meeting with this healer and um she says to me she was I was like you know I had a miscarriage and like I really all I want to be is a mother and she said

well it's the soul is a boy and he'll come he'll come back to you and I said what do I have to do she said you have to make a sacrifice and I was like uh like quitting smoke And she was like, just looked at me and got up and walked away and then did this like crazy thing where they like whip you with flowers. It was beautiful and like poured all this like gorgeous water all over you. And then you like scream. And then they like paint like flowers all over you and they pray for you. And it was beautiful.

It was so incredible. And that year was when I got pregnant. And I had a boy. And it was just beautiful. I believed it. There's something so I think important about just like, what like your convictions are and what you believe in. And it's so simple as like the thoughts you tell yourself or the things that you say out

loud. All of it is energy. Oh, words are spells. Yes. Yes. I tell everybody that. It's everything that you like today I had a doctor's appointment and like I was really scared about it.

And I didn't even. Me too. I had one today too. What was yours about? Can we ask? I'll tell you after. Okay. Okay.

But I didn't want, I didn't want to like put negative things. Like I was I was so freaked out about. at it that like I refused to say like it's not going to be good. I just like I'm nervous. Yes. And I felt like that was better. I had one today too where I was finding out if I really had an aneurysm on my carotid artery.

Oh my gosh. I had just found out last week that I had one. Today I got the news that I didn't have one and I know exactly what you're saying because I never put when I prayed I wasn't like you know, God please don't let me have this. I just said whatever your will is. Yeah. And let me know what the lesson is here.

Yeah. And I never, you know, and I get that. I understand when you're so scared, your first thing is is you want to be like, no, please don't let the, you know. But I really was just like surrendered. And it was my moment to actually learn how to have faith. Yes. And it worked. And I'm telling you right now, if you don't speak those things into your life, not saying that it doesn't happen for everybody.

But if you don't speak those things into your life, you can definitely, I feel, change the energy or the trajectory of what's about to happen. And you can create that. Absolutely. That's like the whole thing about manifestation and which is something I learned about this year and I even just speaking it. Yes. Like I didn't realize what I was doing. Like when I took time off when I was thinking like, oh fuck.

Like I could I could go back to the world and I could have no fucking career. I could have no musical career. I could never play a show again. I could get dropped from my label. My management could drop me. and I started thinking, all right, bitch, what do you want to fucking do? Like, what would be cool? What would excite you?

Because I want to be, I'm a very passionate person. I'm a very hard worker. And I thought, wouldn't it be cool to play like a bad guy in a movie? I love that. You know, my dad's an actor. And I don't really feel like I get a lot of the nepotism stuff. And I feel it makes me sad for the people who do. That's one thing I've loved about you is that when I was researching your life story,

you're a lot like me. I didn't come from, you know, very much. But I always wanted to pave my own way. And you were just like, I want to make my own way. Yeah. I respect. I didn't really grow up with my dad. I grew up with my mom.

Let's touch on that. Let's go back and talk about that real quick. So you are a daughter of Rob Schneider. Yep. Daddy Schneider. And every time I say that, she blushes. And a beautiful Miss London King. Yes.

You know, and who was like a supermodel. correct? She's the coolest. You are her twin. Thank you. You guys are beautiful. You are her twin. I can see a little bit of your dad in you,

but you are her just, you know, reincarnated. Take me on this journey with your childhood because I don't think a lot of people don't know that your dad was not in your life growing up. No. He really wasn't. And it's interesting because, like, yeah, I was born in California,

but like my parents, they weren't married for very long. They didn't really know each other. And my mom had a son before me. My mom was a really, really young mom. My family comes from southern Ohio, like very close to West Virginia. And it's a super small town. I think it's like 1,800 people, which is like big for a small town. There's more than one stoplight.

Yeah. And it's a place that is and always has been my constant because my family moved around a lot. And my parents, yeah, they split. And I have, I would spend time with my dad, but my mom raised me, like always. My mom, single mom, until she met my stepdad, who also, he's my dad. Like, he totally raised me. Shout out to the stepparents. Yes.

I'm a step parent. Yes, you are. And they're so important. And I don't, I definitely wouldn't be a musician if it weren't for my stepdad. And he taught me everything I know about music. I mean, I'm wearing, he's got his own label, Good Times Rock and Roll Club. I'm wearing his shirt.

He's a screen printer. I want one. Yeah, definitely. They'll send you a whole care package and records and stuff. I would love that. And he's just like the most badass person ever. And my mom, my mom, I saw her reinvent herself like almost every 10 years because she was a fit model.

She was a model. She did some acting. And then she became like a, fitness instructor and she was like helping she was like really really really into health um and then when we moved to new york when i was about 12 years old we left ohio because my stepdad's from new york and um my mom became a dula and she like like my mom's pretty crunchy but she's the coolest like she encapsulated my placenta and i'm okay what is encapsulating placenta just for people at home who don't know what that is okay so the placenta is basically

Basically, it's like a filter, but it's also what gives all the nutrients and all the life from the uterus to the baby. And it's what's connected to the umbilical cord from the baby to the mama. And so it's, um, sometimes they call it like the afterbirth and it comes out after you have, um, after you give birth. Um, and we are the only, I don't, I don't want fact checkers to come after me, but I'm going to try my best. We're the only mammals that don't like instinctively or naturally eat our placenta or after birth. because it's like so full of nutrients. So I don't know if anyone's ever seen like a dog or a cat give birth, but like they eat it.

They eat the membranes off the, their puppies and stuff. I've seen it. Yes, because it helps them. And so some people say that, well, I mean, there's a lot of factual evidence behind it, but I don't want like super Western medicine people to come after me about that. Because I believe it. Everybody gives grace here. Yeah.

Okay, great. And so my mom cooks the placenta and then encapsulates it. And then the woman or the mother slowly eats it over time. What does it taste like? What does it taste like? Anything? Well, Dan, my boyfriend, he ate a piece of my placenta. It was cooked.

It was cooked. He was like, this is the closest I could be to a cannibal. So, you know, it's like guys with neck tattoos who are funny. I don't know. What are you going to do? They're wild. You're like, let's make another baby. Yeah, exactly.

And, but it made me feel, like when I took it, it made me feel like kind of anxious. And I don't know. I always feel like I'm like letting my mom down because she's this like angel, angelic. Like she, I was a V back. So she had a C-section with my brother. And then she had a natural birth with me. And she said it was an orgasmic birth. There's a, there's a document.

I love mom. I know. Oh, my God. I know. I love mom. She's right up my alley. Yeah, she's wonderful. You guys would love each other.

And she literally made me and Dan watch this documentary called Orgasmic Birth. And I was like, cool, Mom. Tell me about this. Orgasmic births. I've never heard of this. Okay, okay, great. Neither had I. No, actually, I'd heard of it my whole life because my mom was like,

I had an orgasmic birth with you. I was like, Mom, stop telling people that. Words every kid wants to hear. Yes, but it was like, it's basically the whole, like, idea of it, from what I took from the documentary, I was like, I'm not having that. That's not me. I was like, cut this puppy out. You kind of like get yourself into this state, and I was just watching that show Too Hot to Handle where they had energy orgasms. Yeah, okay?

I love that. So I don't think it's that far off from that. So you get yourself into this state of, like, relaxation and you're connected with your partner. And then I guess you have this, this, like, flush that's like an orgasmic release of, I don't think it's like a sexual pleasure, but watching that thing, like, you know, you can learn a lot from reality TV. I can understand now how it could be this, like, orgasmic feeling of, like, oh, my gosh, combined with, like, I did it and, wow, my baby's here.

Just pride and joy. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like, it makes me think, like, do what? I want to try for like a V-back if I have another kid. Like, I don't know. It's, there's a lot of things.

Most likely if I were, I would be like, cut this fucker out. That's how I was in my pregnancy. I still think it's a beautiful thing to think about. So, I mean, you know, I'm scared to death of natural birth. That's why Jay and I are doing IVF and we're going to get a surrogate. But because I also have issues too. And I just at this age, I don't have time for miscarriages and, you know, stuff like that. So, but yeah, women who give birth, man, you guys are fucking.

savages, dude. That is the most barbarically beautiful thing that a woman can do. And I mean, you guys are literally just pushing a soul out of your body. Yeah, it's pretty wild. I mean, I had a C-section. I freaked out on the table. I was screaming, I can't feel my legs. And I was screaming for that. I was like, I literally, like, it's so me. They didn't even let my mom come up, but they because it was during freaking COVID and so I was like give me literally give me drugs where is Dan screaming for him to come in there um poor Dan's in a corner somewhere I know he's like what's going on babe um but it it was it was cool I just I feel like I won't do anything that my parents ever expect of me and I felt kind of sad and um I don't know I'm just like a different

person and I definitely have like a very different destiny but I also thought like because my pregnancy was so hard and intense. Like, and before Dan and I got back together, I wanted another child. And I asked my sister, I was like, because she's had three kids. She got her tubes tied, but she can still towed it. Yeah. And I was like, I love that. I was like, hey, like, would you carry baby for me?

Like, it wasn't even two seconds later. She's like, if you pay for a tummy tuck. It's like, that's good. Like, that's cool. I love that. But, yeah, I was like looking up like, you know, cryobanks and everything and um i i think that surrogacy is so beautiful and like what a gift i i hate it when i see that people like get anything negative about how they choose to be healthy

how they choose to welcome children into this world it it should only be like i've chills me it should only ever be celebrated because again to bring it back like you have no fucking idea what someone had to go through to even get to that point to make that decision. I just think we live in a world where it's like a fish tank and some days you're the fish that gets picked on and it's like they will zero in like when you went through the Dolly situation. I remember it broke my heart and I reached out to you because I was like she doesn't fucking deserve this. I've met you. I've felt your energy. I'm like she is the sweetest fucking soul and that's why I reached out to because I wanted you to know like you're not alone but this online shit man, it's bad.

Like it is mob mentality and it's millions of people mob mentality that just have a fucking It is. It is because there's no recourse. No. So if you say something, nothing happens, you know? Like I thought like after all the stuff from like early 2000s with like the Perez Hilton's and all of that just like horrible, horrific bullying like and then I thought maybe like, okay, no more bullying is like a thing like no. And the saddest part about it, which is the only way that I can still have a fucking Instagram, it's like, okay, that person who's saying that is hurting.

Yeah. Well, you have to post and ghost. That's what I do now. I mean, yes. I had to learn that in the last six months. Well, you can't look at it, right? Nope. I just, and I'll look at the first five.

And then I leave it alone for a few days when I'm feeling a little bit stronger. And then I'll go back in. And if there's some, by that time I'm over that post and it doesn't mean anything. delete or block, you know, if I need to. But yeah, I just post and ghost. And it's been the blessing for my mental health, dude. You have to because, I mean, like most days, I'm like, I don't want to do Instagram. Yeah.

And I used to love it. I used to love it because I actually interact with my fans. Yeah. And then some people would comment like, hey, you're getting like 150 really kind things and you're only interacting with the person who said something mean. I get that too. And it's weird because like, you know what? that's fucking true.

That's so true. Why? And then people, they want that. They want to fight. It's so weird. You can't win. You cannot win.

It doesn't matter. And they're always wittier. For some reason. They will come back and say some of the craziest shit. And you're just like, son of a bitch, you know? It's really,

really wild. I just go straight for like the your mom jokes. Yeah. It's so. Me too. I do that. That's my whole thing. Like,

you're such a whore. I don't be like, that's not what your dad said about your mom. Or, you know, like, I'll say something like fucking funny. said last night.

Okay. So stupid. It's like, so stupid. Yeah. No, seriously. So let's circle back to your childhood. So you grew up in Ohio. And I think a lot of people were like when you did, and we'll get into your album and

stuff like your albums and stuff like that. But when you did cross over into country, did you get any kind of pushback because people were like, oh, you're not country. But really, you are. You grew up in a rural part of Ohio. Yeah. I didn't actually get any pushback. I think, um, I think because I connected with.

country fans. And the biggest pushback was that, okay, when I would get really drunk, like, if anyone were to ever meet my brother and see us together, like we say the billy comes out,

like my hillbilly comes out. And so when I'm drunk, like, I like become this like reit-tating fucking, you know, Hillbilly. You know, Sesame Sam. Yes. Yeah. And, um, but no one ever takes the time. to find out where someone's from.

No one ever takes a time to find out their back story. It's like all they see is like she was born in L.A. Her dad's Rob Schneider. She's like, God forbid you find out that like I'm also Filipino and my family is hillbilly as fuck in a nice way, you know? Who's Filipino? My dad's Filipino.

Wow, I never know. So I had two very like different. I spent a lot of time with my dad's mom, my grandmother. Yeah. She's from Manila and I had a really large like Filipino family in Northern California. Wow. And so my dad would always be working,

but my grandmother, she would fly at like 60-something years old. She would fly from San Francisco to Columbus, Ohio, pick me up at like four or five years old, fly me back to San Francisco to spend a weekend with me, fly me back to Columbus, and then she would fly back to San Francisco. And like, that's grandmother love right there. That is.

And she taught me a lot about family values. I love Filipino culture. I love the Filipino food. Me too. Yeah, it's so good. So good. And so I had that. And then I had this like very like super American Midwest like country family life in Ohio.

But I was like a rebel. Like I got kicked out of school in second grade. I was always in trouble. I was like friends with all the bad kids. Where do you think that rebellious street came from? Do you think it was from your father's absence? No. You know, it could have had a lot of a lot of that.

I think now that I'm a mom, like if I hear of something with a child that is acting out, my first thought is what needs are not being met of the child, not, oh, that's a problem kid. Oh, that kid is a fuck up. And I was labeled as a really bad kid, but honestly, like, I didn't have like a massive amount of structure. My mom was a hustler. My mom was working. she was she always had three jobs she was always traveling my mama go back and forth to Hong Kong so he spent a lot of time with my grandparents in southern Ohio and um that meant mama

and papa mom mom and pop-ball yeah i did my research yes and um and so i don't know and then when i would if i would ever spend a summer with my dad it would be on a movie set and i i would just get lost in the shuffle and did you ever feel like you guys could connect or it was just more of like not till i was much much older i feel like and this is not an excuse for dads at all but i feel like dads have a hard time relating to younger kids i think i not all of them it's hard i think dads who make the choice to connect with their kids um do and um my dad and my relationship is like a real big evan flow like right now we're not flow in. I disagree with a lot of the things that he says. And it, he is just, I don't know,

you want, you can want someone to change so much. And ultimately, like, all you can't, you can't control anyone else's actions. You can't control people's feelings. All you can control is how you react and what you do with your feelings. Absolutely. And sometimes, I fucking boil up and I boil over and I fucking bust my lid. I'm trying so hard to not. be that way because I feel like that's how I'm wired the same way and my dad and I actually have the same had he just passed away in Mara May it's it's okay um he and I had the same type of relationship where I feel like I was always the one to tell my to give it to my dad you know because nobody else did but I was always the one that was there to be like no you're wrong no you need to change this no

and even in the end it just it never got through and you try every different angle I would try letters. I would try soft. I would try yelling. It's just like, well, see, look, you're yelling. You're yelling. Or like, you can't even stick up for your, it's like, what? Like, it's psychotic. And I mean, it's that generation of men for some reason. They're so fucking toxic and they're cool being toxic. Yeah. They don't, it's everybody else's fault. Everyone else is the problem because they're like perfect and they're right. And they're not. And they're like so smooth in their delivery too. You're just like, show some fucking emotion. Yeah. That is. You are wrong for that.

It's so fucking weird. And like, ultimately it made me a very strong person, but I'm also an extremely anxious person too. And like- You grew up with OCD, correct? Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. When did that start? Like, when did you start realizing like, hey, I have an issue here with this?

Because I'm OCD myself. Okay. Well, I have, my OCD comes out in like very mild Tourettes. And I twitch constantly. and oh my gosh i'm like so embarrassed about it it's beautiful it makes me mad because people are like she's tweaking online it's like motherfucker like i used to be fucking tweaking and nobody said shit then now i'm fucking sober and now my turrets are fucking coming out because i'm not even taking like medications for it

because i'm just trying to like come into my womanhood and like be myself and it's like my hands twitch and it's it's so that my facial ticks don't go crazy but um my oCD i was diagnosed when I was like in sixth grade because I had this whole like number thing and this touching thing. I had to touch everything with two fingers like really intense stuff and I was like a compulsive eater.

So and that was like something that my the people, a lot of people my family had like big issues with. And it's like, well it's got to be hard, you know, because your mom was a supermodel. I'm sure your mom probably dealt with her own issues

with eating too because being in that industry there's no way that you can't. Cutthroat. So cutthroat. and she had to stay a size six consistently, or she would not get it, not get work. Yeah. But my mom, see, my mom spun it in a way

where she took her struggles and all the pressures that she felt her whole life. And she spun it into always telling me to love myself and like she had a chubby daughter because I felt like both of my parents had their, like, obsessions with eating. I'm probably going to get so much trouble for talking about this, but like I don't care.

My mom will be proud. I was going to say, I think that people need to hear this because not enough people do talk about it. You know, my husband struggles with the same thing, and he's very open about it. And I think that there's a large number of kids that need to hear this too.

It's hard. It's so hard. And like you think about, you know, all the things that someone could get addicted to. And ultimately, like, one, I've been addicted to all of them. Two, it's really, like, it started with food for me and compulsive eating because it was like where I found comfort. And both of my grandmothers, they were, you know, like, they were huggable.

They were heavier women. But they had so much trauma that they grew up with. And, like, my grandmother saw her freaking brother get beheaded in the war in the Philippines. Oh, my goodness. So she would eat and she would feed me, you know, she would feed me, like, lots of food. And then my grandmother, like, she had also a love language, too. 100%. My grandmother in Ohio, my mom all like, she could cook like nobody's business.

And she would just like, baby, you want more. You want, let me feed you. And it was just so good. And I would put sweet cream corn on top of my mashed potatoes. And that's what I would eat. That's literally still to this day my comfort food. Sounds so good. It's so delicious.

Sounds so good. But like maybe not good for you, but I guess subjective, right? And so I was like a really, really heavy child. My dad said I meet up fat camp. I mean, yeah, it was rough. And then I got in trouble one year because I, I sprained my ankle and I didn't lose any weight. So it's like, very toxic and very silly. And like, it's got to be, how old were you when you got sent to the fat camp?

Is it okay to call it a fat camp? I mean, listen. Hey, I called it that and that's what I went to. I just want to make sure I don't insult anybody because I feel so bad, you know, weight camp. It's awful. But like, the F word, the F word is like, is so triggering for me. And for me, too, because of my husband. and I've seen the effects of that word on people and it's so awful.

And so I never, you know, I just want to make sure we pronounce it. It's so awful, but like that's where he sent me to. Yeah. I remember him like, how old were you? I was, I went two summers in a row. I was 11 and 12. And it's like, um. What do they do in these camps?

They literally like, you get like a slice of turkey and like steam vegetables for like every meal. And they make you work out all day long. That's not healthy though. No. And you need way more calories. and that to make your metabolism. Yeah, and also you need fucking therapy.

Like, you need to talk about it. There it is. And you need to figure out, like, what is causing you to eat? There's no therapy in those? I never, I never had therapy. Like, they did things that were like, it, adults went there too. And, like, I think some people saw results. Because they were starting themselves. Yeah.

I mean, it wasn't, it wasn't, it wasn't, and there was a lot of other stars kids who went there. So that was sad. And, I mean, it was just like, dark. That's got to be traumatizing. That probably had to start your anger towards your father too. Oh, yeah, 100%. But like, it got to a point where like I never, I didn't want to spend a summer with him. And like when I got, I got kicked out of almost every school I went to, I got kicked out

when the first school that I went to in New York City was a school called York Prep. And I don't know, I was probably, I was, I refused to wear the uniform. I would like yell back at teachers. And it was, I just, I always. had problems with authority. Me too. I got kicked out at every school I went to too. See?

I get it. But we're not dumb. We don't have a lack of intelligence. We probably just learn a different way than any kind of box structure that most people can, you know, function in a one size fits all. I think us as children, types of the types of women that we are, we also learned at a very young age that we were surrounded by people we did not want to be like. Yeah. I know that my family, I was just, I looked. around at everybody and I'm like, you toxic motherfuckers.

Not saying I wasn't, but I was just like, man, I am here to break a cycle. Yes. And I think that's, even though we didn't know that's what we were doing at such a young age, we're like rebels without a cause, but really we did have a cause. We were sent here to shake shit up and break some chains. Yeah. Even if it hurts, because unfortunately we're also strong enough to be able to handle and carry that burden of hurt because in some like dark, twisted knife way, like,

it will continue to push us. And I mean, I believe it that God never gives us anything that we can't handle. And sometimes it feels like, are you sure? Yeah, last week. That's how I felt. I was like, you really, we good? Like, what's happening? Yeah.

But I don't know. I think that now that I'm like less destructive, I can see, I can see the blessings and the lessons in things much sooner. And I mean, like literally as these words are like leaving my mouth, I'm like, listen to that bitch. Like listen to it. Yes. No.

And when you're in it, it is so hard. And I trust me, I get it. Like I said, I just went through it. But it is like amazing what the mind can do. Because what the mind believes, the body will follow. And I always tell people that. And words are spells. And like, it doesn't matter what you say.

If you say, you know, like, I feel like I'm going to die. Like that. I have a problem saying stuff like that. Like when I don't feel good, I'll be like, I feel like I'm going to die. And then I have to correct myself and be like, no, no, no, I don't mean that. You know, like, you have to really be careful with what you say and what you put in the world. Definitely. So, going back, so you had said that you did not want to, you got to a point where you stopped wanting to go and spend summers with your dad.

Yeah. I mean, like, he was filming this one, like, prison movie in like Stockton, California in a prison. Yeah. I was going to say there's not very many cool hang spots in Stockton. And I had- Shout out the Diaz brothers. I had already started getting tattooed, and it was like 108 degrees, like, every single day. So I was having to wear sweaters because my dad was, like, very anti-tattoos

or, like, any form of self-expression that differed from what he wanted for me. Not that he ever even thought about me, but... You're killing my fantasy of rob here. I'm so sorry. It's over. It's done. It's over with. I'm so sorry.

I'm T-M-L all day. Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm T-Mell all day. But, yeah, I just. just like I would get in so much trouble. And now like a massive part like of like I guess little t's that have turned into massive paranoia. Paranorma. Wait, paranoia. Yes. What's paranormal? I don't know. I was going to say, is that like ghosts or something? I don't know, but like it'd be a ghoul like dogning. I like spend one day in this like witchy house. It's cool. And I don't remember what I was talking about.

Oh, dad. You had to wear sweat. covering the tattoos. And so, like, I didn't want to be, oh, okay, okay, my little teeth. So I would get in so much trouble if I ever, oh my gosh, if I ever messed up a shot or if I ever was like, like, an arm in the camera or, like, if I ever was talking, like, I would get in fucking trouble. And, like, I spent, you know, I'm really putting shit out there right now. But, like, my dad forgot about every single birthday.

Like, I spent my 18th birthday in a summer school, like, class with, like, algebra one. Because if I didn't take it, I wouldn't graduate. And they brought me cupcakes and I came home. My dad forgot my birthday. It's okay. I read an entire, yeah, it's totally hurtful. But, like, you know what? That shapes and molds you.

I put every ounce of my being into my son's birthday. Like, every birthday, even for my friends. Like, every birthday. because I know how it feels to be forgotten on your birthday. And that's so sad. It's like, come on, it's my one fucking day. It's my one day. Give me that.

Yeah, give me that. And so, like, I stopped wanting to go. And then I got kicked out of school in New York in six or seventh grade. And my mom was like, I am done with her. I was being bad. I got my tongue pierced. My mom walked in on me and a boy. And she was like, she's, she's, she's, she's, she.

in her shit. Yes, and my mom is tough. My mom like, she doesn't give up on me ever, but my mom was like, she's fucking your problem. And he was like, what do you want me to do with her? And he was going to Amsterdam, so I was 14. Oh, no. And he took me to Amsterdam. And he, I mean, I think we all can tell when he's just going, my dad hired this, um, a 21 year old, sweet, sweet. She was an Indian young woman. She was a virgin. And her name was almond. And she was, um, and she was. She was lovely. And every single day I'd say, let's go to the flower markets. And I would be like, oh, yeah, wow, look at those tulips.

And then I would dip back behind. I'd like watch her freak out looking for me. And I'd go straight to the red light district. I still, to this day, roll the best joints ever. But like, I wanted culture. I wanted to see things. And I didn't want every single day I would ditch the nanny. And she didn't want to lose her job, so she never told my dad.

Oh. So I basically just spent however many months we were there in Amsterdam. I mean, I would go to like my home school teacher. I was like, I don't even, I was learning some Dutch and French or something. But like I never paid attention. I can always distract somebody. Like I had this one tutor. I'd be like, oh, you're into Dungeons and Dragons?

That's cool. Like I don't really want to learn about like science, man. And then, you know, like one time we went to any time my dad would like have me on a trip. he would like forget that he had me. And so he, I know, I know, because he's not a great planner. Is that, that's the least of his worries. Yeah. And so he took, he took me to Russia and with him.

Oh no. I was probably 18. Actually, but the thing is like, I refuse to like waste a trip. Yeah. So. I love that even at such a young age, you were like, motherfucker, I'm here to live. Yeah. Yeah.

We were in Russia and he was like in a basement. for like getting ready to do some TV show. He had two security guards. And I was like, hey, hey, we're in Moscow. Like, I'm not sitting in this basement TV studio. I was like, I'm going to go out. And he would always just be like reading something. Like, whatever, take one of the security guards with you.

I was like, great. So this like beautiful Russian, like, tuxedo fucking wearing, like, young, handsome security guard. I was like, what are you doing Moscow? And he's like, do you like the ride rides? And I was like, I fuck. love rides takes me to an amusement park rides all the fucking rides with me is in like photo booth pictures with me takes me to get like the big Russian hat and then like I had I started to lose some of my like teenage weight and um I he was staying with like this very my my dad was like there

for this like really rich lady and she let me buy this like La Perla gown and like heels because they had some fashion show and I was like I'm sorry. such a tomboy, I don't know how to walk in heels. And there was like 25 steps down from this party. And the guy was like, Nikolai, he picked me up, walks me down the steps, opens the limo with me in his arms, and like sets me down. And I was like, yeah. Thank you. Thank you. Did you and Nikolai ever hook up? No, no, no, no, no. But, you know, I think of him fondly. It's just like, that was like my bodyguard moment. What's baby daddy's name? Dan, you're not listening. Dan, you're not listening right now.

We're never going to Russia together. Yeah. Yeah. Fucking Dan, Dan's like, we're never going to Russia, babe. Damn it. Damn it, Nicolai. Get telling that Nikolai story. That or he's going to be like, next time we have sex, call me Nikolai.

Okay, I love that. I love that. Babe, babe, just pick me up. I love that. So circling back, though, you did say that your stepfather influenced your trajectory into music. Take me on that journey. So my stepdad, his name is. Justin, and he met my mom. He was the lead singer in this rock and roll band in Columbus

called Bob City. Amazing rock and roll. And my mom started dating him, and her best friend was dating somebody else in the band. And so I just... We love band boys around her. Yes, yes. And I just had like rock and roll people all around me. And he still to this day has the best record collection I've ever seen. And like, he, he came into our lives when I was like, I don't know, maybe six, six or seven. And I remember being like so young and like he didn't care, sticky fingered kids and all just like, he would let me go through all the records and he'd be like, you like that? Listen to this. Like my, my, some of my earliest memories of like singing along to music is like my first like time singing like into a hairbrush in the mirror is like Captain and Teneal,

love will keep us together. It's because he had all these. these records. And he would just, he would say, like, he still makes, like, new music Friday playlists that he, like, sends out to all of his friends because he just has the coolest taste in music. And he just shaped me. And so when we moved to New York, my mom always had me, like, you always have to have some kind of extracurricular because she, I think she knew, like, academics were not going to be my, you know, the foot that I lead with. So I love that the foot that I lead with. So I was taking violin at four years old or I, you know, anytime I wanted to quit something,

she'd be like, you can quit it, but you have to replace it something. I tried ice skating, like ice sports, not my thing. Summer, like water stuff, that's me, but frozen stuff, no. And or like piano, vocal lessons. And when we moved to New York, his best friend and one of his bandmates, Yalkeem, super talented guitar player, he taught me how to play guitar. And it was just kind of on from there. And the way he taught me, it was just like, he's like, I can't teach you how to read music,

but I can teach you how to play all your favorite songs, and I can help you, like, learn how to sing along to it. And that's how, because I think also because I studied Suzuki, which is an ear training method on violin, I think I'm more attuned to stringed instruments. So I can kind of pick up like almost, you know, like a guitar, a bass, a violin, a mandolin, and banjo, anything, and kind of finally around. That's a talent, too, though. That's a talent.

Not everybody can do that. Jack of all traits, master of none. But that's fine. Yeah. It's okay. I feel like she's like my soul sister. Like everything, it's so crazy. It's a talent, though, because I actually was taught how to read music, so I can read music,

but I can't, if I hear something, I can't play it. So I've always been envious of people who can do that. I think that's such a beautiful thing. Well, maybe we have to start a band. I'll do it. I'll do it. And then we'll go on tour with Daddy Roll. Yes, yes. I mean, listen, I had fun on that tour. I loved it. It was great. And you know what? Oh, my gosh. When I saw you guys at stagecoach, like, he came, like, during the show, came over and, like, gave me a big hug. But that's, that's, like, that's who Jelly Roll is. We love El, man. You're just a little light, you know? You remind me of, like, fairy energy and don't take that the wrong way. No, I don't. One of my past, you know, I don't. One of my past. lives. She was like, you were Faye in like the beginning times of Earth. I love that. No, you do. You just have this twinkle about you. And it doesn't matter what you're going through. It's like

you are always just trying to make everybody happy around you. And I just love that about you. I feel like I was like, I saw a lot of things back in Hollywood where like you didn't get in trouble for how you treated people. And I'll never forget like seeing how. How you. How you're Like after someone got yelled at, for instance, how that made someone feel. Yeah. And I'm not saying I'm perfect. I'm sure there's a lot of people who have worked for me or be like, she's a fucking bitch. And I am not a perfect person.

I have grown a lot and I've eaten shelves of humble pie. But I really do believe, especially just for like where I'm at now, everything that has brought me to here, it's like all I can control is like my reaction. and I've been a very reactive person my whole life. But if I continue to put out what I hope to receive, then I can feel the path of my life and the trajectory of my joy going to where I hope it lands. And that's just like waking up, making choices. I look at my son lucky.

I say, we're choosing kindness today, buddy. I love his name. Thank you. So cute. We got lucky with him. I love that. And I think as unforgettable, giving as the world feels they love to see growth.

And I think them just hearing this podcast is going to change their entire perception of you. Well, thank you for giving me the opportunity. And like, I'm obsessed with you. Oh, girl, you come here anytime, baby. You can sit on my couch every year. I do not care. I always have space for you.

We have to see the evolution of growth. We really do. So see it next year. Yeah, seriously. So take me on this journey of your first album that you dropped in 2015. Like, what were the steps that led up to that? Because not everybody can just get. an album and a record deal and all that stuff.

No, it's pretty crazy. I mean, I've been playing shows since I was like 15 years old and my mom was always super, super supportive. And like, she would help me sneak into bars. She knew that I had a fake ID and like she, I had a talent for it. And like I had, I was, I started writing songs at like 14 years old. And then once I started playing the banjo, it was like, it was different.

Like I kind of stood out. And so I was playing country songs in New York and I was getting like residencies at like 18, 19 years old. And then this, a manager found out about me. And I had already left New York, was living in L.A., losing my mind going kind of crazy. Like, L.A. is not for me. I always find that fascinating because it's like most people who grew up in New York can't handle L.A. And most people who grew up in L.A. can't handle New York. Right.

I grew up in Vegas and L.A. So when I go to New York, I'm, like, overstimulated. Yeah. No, it can be a lot. Like, I don't, I, I romanticize about, like, New York. And I really love going back to visit now. Because my mom and dad, my stepdad, so live there. And my son loves going to New York.

So it's always, like, a really fun time now. I just don't, I got very accustomed to having, like, acreage, even if it's five. You know, like I have to have a four-wheeler. Right now I'm like, I cruise around the neighborhood. I don't have acreage, but we're buying another house. And I love four-wheelers and golf carts. And like I have a tractor in my East Nashville like yard.

Come out this way. You know what? We're looking. And it's like 20 minutes away from here. Yay. So it's really, really beautiful. I just, mama needs a pool. Yeah.

So I got to swim. Yes, ma'am. And, um, So I We were talking about that you get in your, you know You drop your first album music journey So I moved to LA and I just like

Was always playing shows I didn't, I wasn't signed nothing And then this manager Did your dad ever try to help you? Not to cut you off No, no, no, no, no You didn't want his help You were like that.

No, and honestly I didn't talk to my dad I go for like four or five years Without talking to my dad So I got signed I released my album, everything. Honestly, when I put out my record and people finally started asking about my dad, my dad called me and was like, don't fucking talk about me in the press.

Like, all right. Okay, great. But also it's like, get fucked. I don't care. Like, hey, listen, people have asked me about your fucking ass for years. And I'm like, you're talking out your ass and you're talking shit about, about drag and fucking, you know, anti-gay rights. And it's like, get fucked.

Oh, no. I never heard. that. I didn't know that. He's just talking about his ass and I want to use this opportunity to say, I disagree. I do not agree with what he says. I believe in all forms of love and I just believe in anyone finding their happiness and their joy in whatever way, whatever capacity that is. There are no politics when it comes to love. That's it. And so yeah, I wasn't, he never helped me. I never wanted his help. He also didn't have a very good reputation. So I didn't want, that was really it. It wasn't even like a lot of.

I was like, I've got to pay my own way. I was like, I don't want to be associated with him. And I'm going to get in trouble saying that, but I don't care. Good reputation as in like working with him. Like he just. Not nice. Right. Gotcha.

And so, and I wanted to be nice. I, my whole thing is like, I always want people to want to work with me again. And not everyone can say that because I'm not perfect. Yeah. And like, I've fucked up a lot. Like, we all learn and we all grow. Yeah. But my label hasn't dropped me.

And I, okay. So I went in, it was Christmas of probably 2014. I was maybe 22 years old. And I go into an empty office, and it was before Sony bought EMI. And this guy named Jake Gottman, I just went in with my banjo, and I played a song called Good to Be a Man. And he signed me right on the spot, so I got a publishing deal. He sent that song to Peter Edge, who's the chairman of RCA.

and I'd been kind of talking to some labels and everyone was sort of like dicking me around and RCA was like the first, I mean, mind you, they had Elvis and they had so many bands that, like, I really loved. And they were like always like full steady, like, always consistent. Never made me feel like they were dicking me around or anything or like weirdly courting me. They were just cool and great.

And I felt like they truly believed in me. Which is rare for record labels. Yes, which is very rare. And like, even though I found out that like men were getting $10 million deals, I didn't get a lot of money for mine. But I felt like they believed in me. And my first album had great success. It was a great album. Thank you.

X's and O's was awesome. Ain't nobody's baby. Yeah. Well, that was my shit, girl. That and mean was my shit. Mean is a great song, dude. Thank you so much. I love that.

Well, I'm trying to get back to that whole aspect. of like just writing, I don't know, it's hard. I think it was Bob Dylan, I don't know who said it, but you have your whole life to write your first album and then a year to write your next one. And it's just strange. And I got like a lot of nominations on that first album. I topped a lot of charts.

And then I kept going and like, it makes me uncomfortable to say, but I'm also very proud of like I've broken a lot of records. and as like, you know, I think back to like 11-year-old chubby meat, like, Ellie, like at Fat Camp, like, and people always saying, like, you're, you know, you're not going to ever do anything. It's like, um. You did it on your own, too. Yes, I did.

Eat it up. Suck it while it's soft. Yes. And I'm very proud. And like, I want my son to know that. And like, sometimes I think about, like, at what age do I, like, tell my son, like, son, like, don't Google me. Because stuff will come up.

but I mean, you can find out a mom that speaks her mind and doesn't take shit. I don't know. That's respectable to me. I don't have a problem with a woman who stands her ground. Granted, there's a couple situations that, you know, you've owned up to. Yeah. But just because your mistakes happen online and in front of people doesn't mean that other people aren't making similar mistakes behind closed doors. They just aren't on a fucking grand TikTok scale.

Exactly. Exactly. But America loves a comeback story. They do. If I didn't come back out the gate swinging and like with my shit together and putting on like great shows, I put a lot of effort, energy and money into like this, I have an opportunity. I have an opportunity to show that I've grown that I am better than ever that like that is not, that might be one facet.

Like my mess ups are, they are part of me and they are part of ultimately. I feel like I learn more. I always say like expensive lessons are like the best to learn. because like, ooh, I can't afford to make that one again. And so, like, they're a part of me. You know? Yeah. But, like, I can kind of look back and laugh and just be like, wow, that was like, that was so crazy.

And it wasn't even that long ago that I was like, I don't want to wake up. I don't want to fucking be here. Like, I don't, I should. Maybe the world is better. Maybe it is better off about me. And, like, to think, like, now I'm like, wow, that was pretty crazy. I was like, ooh, probably should have eaten that day, you know? And I feel like it's very much behind me and I feel so distance from it.

And I feel like I'm happier. Because you're not that same person. I'm not. And if Dolly can forgive you, the world can forgive you. Totally. But I also think that like there's such a massive part of that that like help me get to this like point where I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm not putting as much pressure on.

I was like, I had so much pressure that I was putting on myself to like lose all baby weight and like I was like just I was going crazy I was losing my mind and now I'm like you know what I think I'm okay I don't need to meet anybody's standards but mine I'm healthier than I've ever been you look beautiful thank you my brain is good I'm like I'm taking like healthy medication there's nothing wrong with antidepressants in fact they're great for you did you so did you are on medication did you were you taking it for your postpartum or did postpartum pause you get on them. I was refusing to take any antidepressants because I felt like there's all these weird things. I don't know if it's OCD or just like obsessive thinking, but like I really like I didn't want to get on it.

I don't know if maybe part of it was like I don't want to gain weight. I don't want to be sleepy. I don't want to feel like I can't create because I've tried to take a lot of like antidepressants before my life. And sometimes they made me feel like I couldn't create or anything. But I also thought that I had. had to be like high off my fucking mind to like make a record in a month in the studio with my friends. It's like that's actually like not conducive and it's not good for like anyone. Yeah. And you're a mom now.

And so I finally was like, all right, I reached this point of give me anything that will make me not feel sad. Give me anything that will make me feel more confident and less anxious because I don't want to feel like this. And I got to it and I figured it out. And like, I take any presence and I feel great. And like, I feel happy. And I don't know.

I just think that like when you- There's nothing wrong. If you need it, you need it. No, there's nothing wrong with it at all. In fact, I'm like, you should take therapy. And if you might need medication, you should take it. But I also like, I love Eastern medicine. I love acupuncture.

I think a massage goes a long fucking way. Talk therapy is incredible. even on the computer, you know? And like I just, like where I'm at now, I'm like, tell me what to do. And when it used to be like, I don't want to fucking hear it now, like, what works? Like, you know, like throw this noodle at this wall and if it sticks, like, I'll take it. Like, that's good. You know, I just want to be happy.

And I've learned that like if I can be the best person for me, that actually makes me a better mother for my son. Because I can't be doing any of this for anybody else. I have to do it for me because then I can be firm, steady, and grounded. And then when my cup is full, that's when I can give to other people. And I've just noticed that I can be so much more present and I can just be, I don't know, I wasn't such a bitch to Dan and he was like, he started to soften. Let's talk about Dan and lucky.

Let's talk about that area of your life. Oh, I love them so much. I'm obsessed. I see you light up. I see you light up when you talk about this. your stepfather and your mom. You just get this like twinkle in your eye. Family's so important to me.

And sometimes it's your chosen family, you know? Amen. I got my chosen family. Jay, Bailey, those are my chosen family. Like I just, I don't know what I would do without them, you know. They're like, they just become like our sturdy rock. And I think I was, I've been really selfish a lot, a lot in my life because I'm such a hard, hard worker.

But I didn't want to make a lot of the same mistakes that I grew up seeing. And, um, and so. So, like, again, like, this thing that happened, like, in January, like, it just, it just changed me. And I, I faced a lot of stuff from my childhood that, like, I felt like I could put to bed. And now I'm starting to, I've been, like, given this opportunity to, like, meet me where I'm at now and start working on these issues in my, like, adult life and, like, all my unhealthy things. And, like, you know, you're only as sick as your secrets, right? And so I'm like, you have to tell on yourself and you have to be honest and truthful. And like I said before, like I started to treat Dan how I would just hope that he would treat me.

Because we were, you know, fighting pretty bad. And neither of us, you can't be heard if you're not listening. And so our communication was really not in a great way. We were like speaking different languages and it was all rooted from a place of fear and all rooted from a place of hurt. Right person, wrong time. Yeah. And then once we started to like, hey, you can't talk, like we can't talk to each other like this. Like this is not okay.

Lucky can't be around this. And we just started to respect each other. And I think maybe there is some of that missing even in our prior relationship. And so this doesn't feel like we got back together. He kept saying, like, it's a new relationship, babe. Like, we have to take it slow. And I was like, let's get fucking buried. Let's get married right now.

And he's like, I want to take it slow. Like, we owe it to ourselves. And I'm listening to him. And like, I want him to be, you know, like, I want him to feel like a man and a strong man. And I think as someone who's a performer and someone who's, you know, I don't really like think of myself as like a famous person, but I am, you know. And you've earned it.

You've worked your outside, babe. But I know that it can, it can be like an emasculating thing to date, like, or be partnered with someone who's like a strong female, especially one, like, I've got a reputation that's like, oh, she's a badass and she fucking can really go toe to toe with the boys. And like, while that's all true, I also, I want to be like a soft, feminine, like, wife and, like, loving partner. And also have some love me.

Yes. Love me both. for both. And he does. And I need to love him and I need to celebrate his masculine. And I also need to totally celebrate my favorite part, which is his soft, silly, sweet. Because our, our, like, funny neck tattooed guys are usually the sweetest teddy bears. Yes, absolutely.

And that's what we love because we're tough as chicks, right? Well, I had to learn that with Jay, you know, because I came into the situation with just so much baggage. And I mean, I was like a fucking just like just a force to be reckoned with. And I came in and I just was so used to emasculating every man that I had ever been with. I make the money. Don't fuck, you know, don't. I'm going to fight, you know. And I finally, we, I don't think it's said enough as couples, especially when you are having communication issues,

to be able to sit down and look at each other and say, hey, we can't talk to each other like that. That changes everything. Yeah. And my husband and I had to sit down and do that. And we've had the best relationship sense. Communication is key comprehension is vital. And it's like you literally have to be in. You are fighting dragons with this person every day.

That is your fucking teammate, your fucking co-conspirator. Like you guys are literally slaying this thing called life together. And you guys have to be on the same page. If not, that ship's not going to sail. And it's a choice. I've struggled with like, okay, how do people get married? Like, what is it? How do you like really know?

And like, do you just pick? Do you just choose? Because that's why, like, when you're, when you're just talking about that, I'm like, hanging on everywhere. Because, like, you know, I think, I don't think Dan would be upset from, like, with me saying, like, you know, we're doing couples therapy and, like, we're trying everything. Yeah, I have done so much therapy. I just had a therapy appointment before you came in here.

Right. But that's beautiful. And, like, it's, it makes your bond stronger. And, like, honestly, we, I asked him, it was, like, such divine timing. this therapist who basically like kicked us out because I asked some of you go to a couple's therapy with me and we had gotten into like a big fight. That happened to Jay and us. Because he liked this booty girl on Instagram and I was mad.

And so we walked in, we sat like there could have been an ocean between us. And we were fighting and she was like, I don't think that. I can continue to see you guys, blah, blah. And it was not great. But then she emailed me and we weren't together, but we were like in a really great flow of things. And she was like, hi, I just wanted to let you know that like, I'm starting to take new patients again.

And I didn't know where you guys were at in your journey. And I was like, oh, wow, we're actually doing really, really well. And I asked him, I was like, hey, like, do you think you, like, want to, like, go to, like, couples therapy? And he was like, yeah. And I said, like, just as friends, like, just so we can help, like, our communication. He was like, yeah, I think I would like that a lot. And then like a week later, we were like back together.

And all you guys needed was a conversation. Like a conversation of two people actually wanting to listen to each other can change so much. And it's really, really crazy what happens when you put down the receipts and you put down the swords and you don't yell and you just like take a second. And like, that's not my strong suit. It is not my strong suit. I was made to fight. I grew up in a yelling family. That's just how we communicated.

And it wasn't even like, nobody wins in that. Not even the loudest person. Everyone just is like in fight or flight and shaking with adrenaline. It's like it's terrible. Yeah, it's crazy. It's not good. And I think we both grew up with a lot of that because that's, no one told anybody. No one told anyone that's wrong until recently.

now everyone tells you that you're wrong for anything that you do. Sometimes I'm kind of like, all right, enough. Yeah, you know. Yes, of course. But definitely the speaking softer to each other. We don't yell in our house. I think I've yelled at our daughter one time and she really deserved it. Yeah, like I just, we don't, because I grew up in a screaming household also.

So I can't, if you start yelling at me, I'm automatically shutting you out. Yeah. Like I can't listen to it. But also if you think about it, like even going back to like not toxic people, but like, you know who does win an argument? The calmest motherfucker. Because they'll piss you off even more. Yeah, because they'll get you.

Like, I'm like, what the fuck you do? You know, like any like teacher, like, I just think about like principals who are like, talk like this. I'm like, you fucking asshole. Yeah. But like, that's how like I want to be. But I also, I want to be the mom. It takes levels to get to that.

Yes. And I'm not there. Me either. Me either. Me either. I'm like, I'm don't start none. It won't be none. Okay.

Oh, I like that. I like that. I just want to be the mom. that like my son comes to no matter what if he gets arrested god forbid i mean i'll let him i'll let him sit i'll i'll keep that tradition of my family my mom said you get arrested i'll let you sit in there but i've never been arrested yeah i know shocker it's good that that is awesome i've been arrested so that's crazy how have you never got arrested i know i know i've been handcuffed twice but like i'm very smooth of my words if you need a love my husband's the same way he will he can get out of

handcuffs at any time i'm like you i believe that i believe that he's very very charming. He is. He is so fucking charming. I'm like, I hate you. He can get out of speeding tickets. I get them all. It doesn't matter. And you would think it would be opposite because they always say, oh, cops get let pretty girls off. I'm not saying I'm pretty, but, you know, just saying, just saying that it's

like a myth, you know, and no, my husband gets off on every ticket. They fucking stick it to me every fucking time, man. I only got one speeding ticket. Also, shocker. I know. And it was in my hometown. I get where they gave it to you, though. I know. She goes, I know who you are. But I still have to give you this ticket. I was like, damn it and then she came to the show

she even commented because I like took a video because I was like man I never get pulled over and I took a video of like uh oh she commented on it she was like I was going to gave a ticket but we loved your show me and my girls I was like $85 I love that that is so funny so what's happening now with Elle you

you are on your redemption tour what's it called baby ask the baby daddy's weekend tour Baby Daddy's weekend tour and I am just playing lots of music I'm about to finish my album. I have a lot of music coming out. I'm really, really excited about it. And it's, it's, I always say, like, this album is the most to me. But, like, I think anything that I'm working on is, like, where I'm at in my life. And I'm very proud of the music that I'm making. And I started making a lot of it before I, like, had a nervous breakdown this year. And it's

bringing me back to life, just like creating again and like having these like seeds planted and then making this beautiful album. So it's definitely going to be a little different than my last three albums. But I don't think that even though all my records have sound, they all sound like me, I don't think any of them have sounded like exactly the same. But like my music is a representation of where I'm at my life. And what is it more like? Is it country? Is it rock? Yeah, it's definitely a country album. But it's really beautiful and it's it's what country is to me and everything that I've kind of learned in the country world. And I feel like these are going to be the songs. Like I don't play every song from every album at every show, but there's a lot of songs on this album that like

I'll play for the rest of my life. And that makes me really proud and excited. And I'm also sitting on an album that I made when I was pregnant before I went to country. And, I'm like drunk and I don't want to go home. I wrote eight years before it ever came out. And so that that song taught me so much about the life of music. And so I'm also sitting on an album that's like really, really incredible. And I'm just waiting for the right time for that to come out because it's probably, you know, the best album I've ever made. Drop that shit.

I know, I know. What are we waiting for? I don't know. I think after this big, that big eclipse, right? Yeah. Everything is supposed to be like all the seeds that we planted. I don't know if it's the same for every star sign. But like a lot of things are coming to fruition from like the last eight years.

And so everything that I've been really, really working on is all coming to a head in a good way. And I think it's the same. If you believe in that and if you believe in yourself and if you are manifesting these good things that you're putting out in the universe, it makes so much sense if you're into, you know, astrology. or astronomy or anything like that, like how all this stuff can be coming. Even the crazy lessons that like I've learned this year. Like I feel like all these things are leading me to these manifestations of things that I've been maybe too afraid to try.

And like when I was thinking about doing like, I wouldn't it be cool, man, to be a bad guy in a movie? I did a movie. I just did like my first like actual like really, really cool movie. And it's all things like you just have to try and continue to put yourself out there. And like it's not the first. movie that I've ever done, but this is the first time that, like, I really prepared. I worked so hard to get it. And, like, all these things that, all these good things that are like,

hey, wouldn't that be cool? And just thinking about it and, like, putting it out and, like, dreaming about it. Like, that's manifesting. That's pulling it. That's inviting it. And I always say you have to make... Visualizing that it's already yours. Yes. And I say you have to make room in your life for greatness. And, like, you have to clear things out. You have to, like, cut things off. And that's how, like, you know, You have to clip like buds on roses sometimes. But that's how more. I'm not a great gardener, but I do have some roses. That's been on, I'm manifesting to learn how to fucking garden.

It's hard. I know. It's really hard. I can't even, I can't even fucking save a sunflower from the grocery store. Listen. I've tried twice. I, I, I've tried to like mulch and put, I'm trying to like, because what, like the, your house is a representation of your mind, right?

So I was like, my house looks like shit. So I tried to garden. And now all the grass is growing. up through the mulch and it's like, oh my gosh. Well, that's why you need landscapers. It's so hard. Yeah, you gotta have to have people help you. I know.

I know. I'm really trying to fight this stubbornness. Yeah, you can't do it all, oh. Yeah, I know. I think your lesson this year is you can't do it all, baby. Ask for help, Elle. Allow people to help you, baby. You need just, I get a fucking landscaper, okay?

It'll make you feel better. Okay. Yes. Elle, thank you so much for this conversation. Thank you. It was so sweet. And I can't wait to have you back and I can't wait to see this tour. I can't wait for people to hear this podcast.

I really feel it's going to touch a lot of their hearts and they get to just see a glimpse inside of you and I just, I love it. You're so beautiful and you spread so much amazing positivity and I just, I appreciate you. Thank you for having me on. I love you so much money. You're amazing.

We're going to make out after this. Don't tell Dan. Don't tell Dan. Don't tell my mom. Yeah. Shout out mom. Shut up mom. We love you.

Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dunblond. I'll see you guys next week. Bye.