Dumb Blonde - Gabbie Egan: A Trainwreck on the Right Path

Episode Date: March 22, 2023

In this episode, Bunnie welcomes Gabbie Egan: bad ass mama bear, TikTok sensation and Tie Dye Queen. Gabbie opens up about her upbringing in North Carolina as an only child, becoming pregnant at the age of 13, as well as her experiences as an adult with religious trauma from her past. She also discusses how joining the army led her to meet her husband Cody, and how she went from selling t-shirts with a friend to opening up her own storefront with a huge following online.  Gabbie Egan: IG | TikTok Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Get those dollar bills ready. She's got an ass that shakes like Michael J. Fox so get up there and throw throw throw them dollars dude that is fucking iconic what's up you sexy motherfuckers welcome to another episode of dumb blonde the internet spoke and i listened miss gabby egan is in the motherfucking house baby what's up i'm here i was late i was 30 minutes late um and i'm glad that i'm here though thank you for having me on dude your hair looks so cute i was just telling you that it is so adorable yeah thank you my hair girl kills it shout out meg yay and we just found out that meg and mimi who's was my hairdresser turned manager were friends yeah which is like a small world fucking so small dude yeah

that's crazy yeah well so what's been going on with you? What are you guys doing out here in Nashville besides the podcast? Last night we went to Broadway. Oh, shit. It wasn't what I expected. I don't think that we really fit. I think it was because it was like a Monday night, though. And it was just like everybody was like 45 plus. And it was like, you know, like we weren't vibing with everybody in there.

So just we weren't fitting in. It was old people hour. Yeah, it was. Nobody was getting down. Oh, oh damn it nobody was boot scooting boogieing you mean the fucking bachelor portrette parties that run around with dicks on their foreheads and white boots weren't fucking running around down there no that happened oh dude every fucking day i thought like literally everybody's got a dick on their forehead how did i go on the one day where it's not like popping like i yeah that is crazy. So what was it? It was Monday night.

That's probably why. Yeah. It might be a little. Are you guys staying tonight? Are you guys? Yeah, we're staying tonight. Yeah, it'll probably be a little better tonight, but it gets better towards the weekend. I know like Kristen and Whitney and all them are out here right now.

I don't know if you know who they are. They're other TikTokers. No. Oh my God. She's like, nope. I know. Jacinda's always trying to like tell me. She's like, you know, this person, this person.

And I'm like, no, I think I live under a rock sometimes but I'm getting better like at trying to figure out who people are and like yeah so who's Jacinda to you so Jacinda is someone who I met online and uh she also she makes I make t-shirts and she makes t-shirts yeah we're gonna talk about that yeah yeah so I have a little list of notes over here yeah we like connected over like her trying to like help me with my business because she's been doing it for five years and she actually uprooted her whole life and like moved down to kentucky so now she lives five minutes away from me and we kind of help each other run our businesses it's really cool oh don't you love

that that's what mimi did for me man she fucking owned a salon and i literally in 2018 i was like i want to start this podcast and fucking, you know, I can't pay you right now, but one of these days I will be able to pay you. And she's like, fuck it, let's go. And we've just been together ever since. So that's a beautiful friendship. Yeah. That's awesome. That's actually like really beautiful. Yeah, no, but that's cool. That's what Jacinda did for you too. It's pretty crazy. I know. It's kind of like hard to like, sometimes when I really think about it and I think, well, she has kids too yeah so like she uprooted like her husband her kids and like but I'm really excited because she lived in the middle of like buttfuck nowhere Pennsylvania like there was like

a sheets and like a red light like there was nothing for miles so now she gets like blowouts and like has like appointments and stuff and I love like seeing her like grow and flourish it's pretty awesome. That's a real friendship. Yeah. You know, you guys lifting each other up. So let's just fucking dive in because I, I Googled you last night and today a little bit and just to get some cliff notes and stuff. And you have lived a interesting life. Yeah. I mean, it's fascinating. Yeah. It's pretty insane. I love the way you carry yourself. I don't even know how I carry myself sometimes. I don't know. Like, I don't know. I feel like

I still haven't found myself and like, I still don't know what I'm doing. And I like, I feel like I'm a train wreck, but I feel like I'm on the right path. I just don't know what I'm doing. You're genuine though. Yeah. That shows through. And I I try like I try to be genuine and sometimes it's hard because I do try to like fall into like you know I try to like be what I'm not supposed like or I'm trying to like keep up with trends or like keep up with how I'm supposed to be relevant or whatever right right but honestly like my content does the best when I'm just yourself raw literally same yeah no I totally understand that I do I love the way you carry yourself and I've watched a Content does the best when I'm being raw. Literally. Same. Yeah.

No, I totally understand that. I do. I love the way you carry yourself. And I've watched a couple of your videos that you've made this past few weeks. And I was just like, I think what the Internet is missing these days is that genuineness that you have. Like not everybody's always trying to, like you say, impress everybody. And with you, it's like what you see is what you get if you don't like it fucking don't let the door hit you on the way out so i know that about you yeah and it's it's kind of been like a really hard journey of getting to this point in my life

because i did like for a long time really care about what people thought about me yeah and like it just took me like it took me getting pushed to the point where i was like fuck it like i'm just gonna be whoever the fuck i'm gonna be and everybody in my life who's like close to me all support me like they're all like cheering me on and encouraging me and like wanting to see me do great things so why the fuck do i care about these people who i don't even know fucking exist really because they're just watching me on the internet like you can block me you can never see me again if you choose to but you stay and you choose to watch me yeah and be toxic yeah no it's like obviously you like me a little bit yeah around like you're paying my bills you want a hug I know you want a hug

I know totally okay so let's talk about it so where did you grow up so I was actually born and raised in Fayetteville North Carolina I lived there for 20 years okay so you are from North Carolina awesome and how was your childhood growing up? Talk to me about it. Cause you did get pregnant at 13, right? So let's talk about the childhood a little bit. Yeah. So, uh, my parents had me late in life. I was an only child and my mom and dad were 40 when they had me. So when my mom was 40, my dad was 41 and, uh, I was the one and only child growing up. So I was kind of like their spoiled little baby. Uh, my dad was 41 and I was the one and only child growing up. So I was kind of like their spoiled little baby.

My dad, he played like professional basketball whenever he was younger. So like he became a college coach. That was his job. And my mom was a real estate agent. So like we weren't really struggling. We were like middle class or lower middle class. And I had a nice life growing up. Yeah.

But I definitely do think like when you're an only child you get so bored and I really didn't have like I did have a lot of attention from like my dad but my mom was always busy working and I was with my grandma a lot and like I don't know I feel like I was always kind of like lonely as a kid and I don't know why and so as soon as I started getting male attention you know when I was like I had a great childhood but as soon as I hit like you know 12 13 and I started getting like male attention and these older boys were like starting to show interest to me that was where I want like I wanted I feel like I needed more affection or something you know what

I mean I don't know how to how to describe describe that. I get it. I totally understand it. You remind me a lot of Bailey. Doesn't she remind you of Bailey? Our daughter, you remind me of, that's Jay and I's, it's his daughter, but she's mine too. She's just my little bonus baby, but you remind me a lot of her too. I have some bonus babies. Oh, I love that. So hearing that makes me think like, oh my God, is this what she's going through? Cause she just turned 14 right now and she's starting to go through some shit and I'm just like okay this makes sense so keep talking you're helping me over here well no yeah like I feel like when I was younger um I was always taller than all the girls in school and so I was also like a little bit chubbier and chunkier than all the other girls and I definitely I didn't fit in like I was like the weirdo like I was the weird

kid like to be completely honest with you I was the weird kid and like I really didn't fit in like I was like the weirdo like I was the weird kid like to be completely honest with you I was the weird kid and like I really didn't fit into any like of the girl groups or like make any girlfriends in school like I was kind of like the weird kid out and I got bullied a lot in school too um so as soon as I started to get a little pretty and lose a little bit of weight and these men like these not men boys these boys gotta be careful the internet will come for you yeah let me chill out on that one um yeah when these boys would start giving me attention and like thought that i was pretty it's something that i had never had before you know and so like i really like fell right into that trap and so when i was 13 um like on the weekends it was like starting in sixth grade I don't know what

my parents were thinking or any of these people's parents were thinking they used to drop like sixth graders off at the skating rink and leave them from 7 p.m to 11 p.m to go like roller skating around and that's where I met my son's dad he was 16 and I was 12 at the time about to be 13 and I got pregnant a little different I think a 16 year old knows what's going on too I think so too now that I'm older okay I didn't I didn't know if that has been an issue with you guys because I don't really know that whole story yeah I don't like looking back it definitely wasn't like it was consensual right absolutely like because I wasn't you're 12

and what do you know you know like i feel like 16 you're a little bit smarter yeah like i was in seventh grade and he was like a sophomore in high school yeah you know when i was a sophomore in high school i knew what fucking was yeah you know like i knew what happened like i like i knew like i knew yeah like more than like a 12 year old he kind's almost like he kind of took advantage of your innocence. I don't know him. I don't know the situation, but from an outsider, just hearing that like 16 and 12 is kind of thick a little bit.

It's kind of gross. And it wasn't like a legal, like there was nothing, but the state did look into it. Like when my son was born. Yeah. The state did actually look into it and like CPS got involved. I actually just did a story time on tech. Talk about it i did see that we'll get into that real quick

so let's rewind let's go back to the skating rink you met oh yeah you met okay what's it are we allowed to say his name or baby daddy baby daddy number one like is he still around well i mean he exists and he's alive and living and breathing oh okay um but yeah so yeah we'll just call him baby daddy so yeah I met baby daddy at the skating rink and um she's like I don't even want to give him that title I don't want to give him that title really like all right sperm donor yeah sperm donor sperm donor I like that so yeah I met him at the skating rink and we started kick do you know what kick is the messenger yes the old school messenger yeah so like that was what we started talking on back in the day and it was like going back and

forth and um i would only get to see him at the skating rinks well then my dad he was a basketball coach and his team would travel like around and he would be gone for weekends and stuff and i had convinced my mom to let us start like hanging out outside of the skating rink. And my mom was like, no, like he's older. Like, you know, like, no. And she did know that he was older. But like, I don't know. Like, I don't think I don't know. I don't know.

I don't know. But, you know, she she said, yeah. And, you know, we started hanging out outside. And then we ended up hooking up one of the times that we were hanging out when my dad was gone you know and it really sucks because I was really like a daddy's girl growing up like my dad was my that sucks because like I never really thought about it that way I'm sorry I'm not trying to get emotional but no yeah okay breathe I was like really do it i know it's okay to feel that though like i'm learning that with my therapist you don't cut off emotions because that hurts you more just let it flow yeah like i um i was really a daddy's girl growing up

and like when i got pregnant it was almost like my dad didn't even like know he couldn't even like believe it like it was almost like a thing where it was like know he couldn't even like believe it like it was almost like a thing where it was like he thought i was on drugs like when i sat him down to tell him he was like what did you get caught with drugs like did you get caught with like you know you in trouble and i was like no like i'm pregnant and he was like oh is this like a joke like oh you're trying to mess with me you know and it was like no like this is like literally going on and it was almost like uh he had almost like no reaction know? And it was like, no, like, this is, like, literally going on. And it was almost like a, he had almost, like, no reaction to it because it was, like, not even the truth. Shocked. Yeah. And I just remember it was, like, the awkwardest time of my life

because my mom, she, she was trying to, like, you know, console everybody and, like, make everything okay. And which, obviously, nothing was okay. But she wanted to go on a walk outside, like, the three of us. So, we went on this long ass walk and walked around the neighborhood in silence and it was like that's how I went telling my parents that I was pregnant at 13 and honestly like my dad didn't talk to me I don't think for like a month after that unless it was like mandatory like I would go up and talk to him and he just had nothing to say to me it's, I think it was probably you're his baby. And he just, he probably internalized that and was like, what did I do wrong?

Yeah. Like, and I think he probably took that really hard. I don't think it had anything to do with you. Yeah. And I think a lot of people do like blame my parents, but I really don't think my parents, I know to this, like, I know my parents love me more than anything. Like, and they did the best that they could. This is their first time doing life too. Just like me. Like they are not perfect by

any means at all. Like my parents both get on my nerves. So to this day, like, but like they're human and like, I don't blame them for what happened. It's just kind of something that happened and I made the best out of it. Yeah. I did the best that I could with what the cards that I was dealt you know let's talk about it so you're 13 you're going into labor take me into that day well how was the first one how was the pregnancy did sperm donor stick around what did he make it hell no dude literally like so it's crazy because sperm donor so he as soon as I found out that I was pregnant, he was like relatively like, OK, about it. And I thought, OK, well, this is going to be like, well, that that was another thing I didn't at the time. I didn't know whether or not I was going to keep the baby, really, because my mom had given me both options. options so um I obviously like at the time I'm very pro-choice I'm pro do whatever the fuck you want but um I chose like I could not get rid of my son like I was like it just feels like I need to have him like for me in my head like there it just wasn't an option so I decided to move forward

and when I told him like hey I'm having this baby like my parents know like I'm probably never gonna see you again because my dad's probably gonna murder you um but he decided to stick stick around and like my mom still snuck us around to see each other he just wasn't allowed at the house and like my mom still like let us like go eat and like go have like dinner together so we could see each other but then he started like went off with his life kind of you know started dating girls at his school and dating girls that were easier to date you know and um well he didn't want to have the responsibility right so the whole pregnancy I was literally like having a mental breakdown I went into pre-term

labor when I was 33 weeks uh I think because of how stressed out I was, I was, yeah, no, that was like the most traumatic time of my life. And I blocked a lot of it out because it was, it was rough. It was rough. So he came back. He like, he left me and like, didn't talk to me, blocked me on everything for majority of the pregnancy. And then right. Fucking douchebag. Uh-huh. Yeah. And then right before I had my son and I was like, you you know his due date's approaching he hits me up and he's like i really fucked up like i want to get back with you and of course me i'm like i've been waiting bitch you know i've been waiting for you so baby having a baby i know and it's embarrassing but i mean it's not embarrassing you were so young and you didn't

know it is not your fault right i literally like wanted him more than anything which is like looking back like i was so desperate for him like because I wanted my son to have some sort of like normality and like I just was desperate for it and so whenever he came back I was like oh yeah come back like you know like yeah we can make this work like we can try to see what we can do or whatever like this is when the c-section is gonna be because I had to get a planned c-section because at the time I was only 13 I wasn't really done growing yet yeah so I had a contracted pelvis and my son couldn't like fit through my birth canal so they're like we're gonna go ahead and like schedule you for a c-section because we don't want to risk him getting stuck and then either something happening to either like y'all it's just a high risk case so we're just gonna do the c-section yeah so that's a lot of that is a

lot girl to go through at such a young age baby like how were you feeling mentally like just like how did you process it did you have anybody that you could talk to? Did your mom help you? Like, did you go to therapy? Did anybody help you work through all that? Yeah. So at the time, my cousin, Corrine, um, she's 10 years older than me. So, uh, she lived right down the street and she was going through like, she wasn't pregnant, but she was going through like really hard times with her boyfriend who she had been with for a while. And she was like madly in love with, and he was like cheating on her and like being a complete douchebag so I'm 13 and pregnant I'm her cousin I'm like you know available all the time she like leaned in on me I leaned in on her she took me on

so many adventures when I was pregnant to keep my mind like taking me to like the mall and like to get pedicures and like shopping like she she was your angel i don't think i would have been able to get through it without her genuinely and i don't talk to her that much anymore and that makes me emotional too but you're carrying a lot i know i need to go back to therapy again another therapist listen baby i'm going to a therapy camp in march so don't even play it therapy doesn't end oh Oh yeah, for sure. They have them out here in Nashville. I'll tell you about it.

If you ever want to go, it's like a, it's a week long trauma thing where you go for six days, you turn your phone off and you just work on yourself because I'm telling you, baby, that shit is fucking, it's priceless to be able to work through all the shit you've been through. And I can tell you're still hurting really bad.

Oh yeah. I'm sorry. And if we had a napkin hurting really bad. Oh, yeah. I'm sorry. Look at me. And if we had a napkin, I would give you one, but we don't. I'm so sorry. I got Chachi. You want to wipe your tears with Chachi? This is washable and reusable and recyclable.

So, yeah, we got toilet paper. That's what we're working with here. We are trailer park around here, okay? Oh, me too. So it's cool. Good. I just want to hug you baby gosh here's some some stuff for your tears i really didn't think i was gonna cry or i wouldn't have paid to get my hair and makeup done today no you're good and you know what listen

that's just part of your genuineness and i think that's why people love you so much because you're not fucking here to just be this billy badass like you have pain that you're fucking still working through yeah and i think that's so admirable that you can wear your heart on your sleeve like that so i think that people think that like i am faking it or like that's the majority like people think that i'm putting on a persona or whatever but i think that a lot of people think that is because i don't really talk about how much i'm hurting online yeah well you can't yeah people eat that up. They fucking use it against you.

Yeah. You know? Yeah. And also who wants to fucking cry in a camera? No. I understand there's every now and then you need to fucking have a good cry, which I never have yet. But if there's some people who like to cry on the camera a lot and I just don't understand it,

you know, like, yeah. Like when I'm crying, that's like the last time I want to post a video like yeah genuinely like honestly I think that's more real than anything you know yeah so I'm just doing my best so let's take me to your your delivery you're going in for delivery baby daddy called said he wants to get back together yeah so uh my son's dad like a week week before my son was supposed to be born,

swoops back in and he wants to be in the room for the C-section. And there's only one person allowed in the room because it's like an operating room or whatever. And my dad was the one who wanted to be back there. And I chose. Dad warmed up to you during the pregnancy. Yeah. He was really supportive. Yeah. My dad was really supportive. Go dad you during the pregnancy. Yeah. Yeah. He was really supportive.

Yeah. My dad was really supportive. Go dad. God over it. Yeah. He used to take me to ultrasound appointments and buy me snacks and food. And like, he was honestly great. Like we love dad.

Once he actually like got over it, like it was great. But, um, good. I could only pick one person to go in the C-section room with me. And it was between baby daddy and my dad. And I picked my baby daddy like an idiot so he went back there with me and like was able to like watch you know my son be born and all that stuff um I wish I would have picked my dad that's okay though yeah and I know that my dad doesn't like resent me for that or anything like that but I do wish that I

would have picked my dad or like my mom or somebody else because I think they deserve that yeah I don't think that he did deserve that yeah I don't think that he did and my son like literally is one of the best kids in the entire world like and I know that's biased like every mom says but like my son is like so sensitive and he has emotions and he's in. I'm sorry. You're OK. You don't have to apologize. He's just like such an asshole for like not getting his shit together. So nine years later, even after me allowing him to be around still, even after everything that he's done to me, there's an open an open line of communication.

Like my son has his own phone, doesn't call still doesn't pick up the damn phone and it's like what are you doing dude like this is the best kid ever he's smart kind sweet caring he's in touch with his emotions he's like awesome you know and he just doesn't care he just had a new baby you know got married has a new family and it's like hey yeah just forget about the one that you started with right I know I keep getting off track no you're fine you're totally that's what the podcast is all about and that's why I always try to rope you back in um you know some men just don't get it and they're never gonna get it and you're never gonna get the apology or the person that you want so So it's like, you know, your baby boy has you and that's all that fucking matters. He's got mama bear who

loves the fuck out of him. And you know, I, I know it sucks not having dad around, but it's probably for the best because he might hurt him more just being around. He doesn't seem like the type of human that can, you know, keep a relationship going. So the consistency, yeah. And that's what's important is the consistency and it's like either like be involved or don't be involved but like you being in and out is kind of a problem because then it's like when is my dad going to call like where is my dad like what's going on when can I see him and it's like I don't have these answers dude like he doesn't talk to me like I don't know what to say how old is he now he's nine oh yeah so he's like he's so smart it's crazy he's like his whole own human with his whole own personality and it's crazy how fast kids just grow up yeah so you're what hold on i'm trying to do the math here you're

20 i'm 22 22 yeah you're still a baby yourself too you have so much life to live girl it's crazy it's insane and you've already lived like a full fucking life i know that's amazing right now with these braces like i get them off in two weeks and i'm honestly i cannot be happier because i look like a child sometimes and i'm going through life with four kids and married and all that stuff and like people do not take me seriously and i think it's the rainbows too though like I do it to my damn self you know like no just always be you who gives a fuck they'll take you serious just let your let whatever it is you're doing speak for itself people will respect you no matter what um they'll have to respect you um so let's take it back so you just gave birth you're in the

hospital bed take me from there so yeah they uh the first thing that they do when you go in to get a C-section is they make you sign up with paperwork and then they bring you back like to this like prepping thing where you put like this like shower cap on and lay you down. And then they shaved my coochie for me. Wow. Yeah. I never had that time before. I need to go have a kid then get my coochie shave. It's way cheaper to do it on a salon or something but um yeah so they they did that and um then they wheeled me back to like the actual like operating room or no they wheeled me to another room to get my spinal tab um and those scare me god no dude it made my whole leg go numb I was freaking out literally it was so bad then I

started going numb and once I started going numb. And once I started going numb, they put the catheter in. And all of a sudden, the doctor had said that I was going to feel like an elephant, like sitting on my chest or something. And I did. And that was them like pushing my son out of the incision. And then he was born and I heard him start crying and he was into the world I was a mom and how did you did you feel like everything was worth it at that moment that you had gone through oh yeah yeah it was kind of like a surreal moment for me and I don't really know why like I have blocked some of that out like when I yeah I don't know why and that bothers me too but like when I

think back to that like I blocked so much of that out. And I think that it was because like, I was in, I was in like in that moment, like fight or flight, like, but I had to go, you know? And it's like, I'm one of those people who I'm very good at like masking my emotions. Like, so my parents were already so freaked out about me going in to have a C-section. My mom was like, you know, having a panic attack, like her 13 year old daughter's going in to have a major surgery yeah you know um so i had i felt like i've i feel like my whole life i've always had to put like a poker face on to make everybody else around me happy you know or make comfort everybody so i felt like i was the one trying to comfort my parents in that moment, being like, everything's gonna be okay. Like, see, I'm not even worried. But inside I was like scared. Yeah. I was scared. And you didn't

have anybody to kind of comfort the little girl in you. Yeah. And I feel like I don't ever, I never even allowed that little girl to even come out because she was always like, so pushed down by other people, like always hurting me my whole life almost. And I don't even know if that's the right way to describe it, but that's just, you know, what's coming, like coming out me my whole life almost and I don't even know if that's the right way to describe it but that's just you know what's coming like coming out of my head but you know so take me okay so you have the baby do you go and you stay with your parents after this yeah so um after I had my son we were in the hospital for like literally like almost five days wow I don't know why they kept us so long because with my daughter, they didn't keep us that long, but, um, they kept me for quite a while. And then they got us once we, once we got discharged from the hospital, I went back and lived with my parents.

Um, so we were living like in a two bedroom, like townhouse type of thing. And me and my son had our room and my parents had theirs and that's just how we lived. Yeah. Did you keep going to school and stuff? So, uh, I got pregnant at the end of my seventh grade year and I finished the school year out at the school I was attending. And then eighth grade, my dad, he was already like he has his master's degree. So he pulled me out and started homeschooling me with a Christian curriculum. And I took Bible class and stuff. It was really fun was it though yeah it was like so on top of all the other trauma you have you have religious trauma too

fuck yeah i have religious trauma out the ass really oh yeah my parents were pretty bible uh i grew up in the church uh lafayette Baptist Church. Wow. That's what it's called. And every single like, you know, Wednesday, Sunday, we would go out with like church friends. That's where I met my best friend of 20 years was in church. So, yeah. So when I got pregnant at 13, you better believe everybody in that church had something to say about it. So it's like you had to not only did you have to deal with feeling like you let your parents down and your dad down you had to deal with everybody else having a fucking opinion about you too kind of like how it is on the internet now too for you

yeah but i think that's why i'm like so okay with it yeah and that's why i do so well with it it's because my whole life everybody's been talking shit about me yeah so you might as well just fucking yeah get into gold yeah i've literally made it this far i can keep going you know uh so it was hard it was hard did you graduate from the christian school or how did that go sixth grade was my last year i did go to christian school uh sixth grade was my last year attending the christian school i got kicked out for getting a belly button piercing my mom let me get my belly button pierced and six you know what's so fucking funny seems to be the common denominator in some of your bad decisions we love mom but come on mom you do love mom mom I'm looking

at you if you can see this but uh yeah we do love mom but yeah she did allow me to get my belly button pierced and um I went to school I can't believe they kicked you out for that though no well i got kicked out of my christian school for spray painting my name on the back wall but it wasn't real spray paint it was fucking snow the fake snow i thought it would disappear it doesn't so don't ever fucking spray paint a fucking brick wall with snow because it'll be there and don't do it in your name oh my gosh i didn't know you could do that yeah no me either i did it though holy crap but yeah they uh they what was i gonna say uh they kicked you out for your belly button being pierced oh yeah dude um um yeah so the i had posted a picture after i got my belly

button pierced on facebook why did i have a facebook in sixth grade i don't know but um i posted a picture of it on Facebook and my principal, like one of the teachers had seen it or one of the kids was a snitch and someone snitched on me. Right. So I go back to school and the principal calls me into her office and she's like, lift up your shirt. And I'm like, what? Like, and so I did. And she was like, that needs to come out now. That's not appropriate. Like, all this, this, and the third. Calls my mom. We had to set up, like, a meeting at the school about it.

My mom tells me, take it out. Like, I'm not dealing with this. I kept putting it back in. And, like, they would do random belly button checks at school. Like, they would literally, like, pull me out of class. I feel like that would never fly nowadays. I think that's illegal. Yeah, I feel like that would never fly.

They would, like, call me out of class and take me to the principal's office to check on my belly button yeah that's weird that's kind of freaking freaky dude but and this was this wasn't junior high this was high school yeah oh sixth grade okay this was sixth grade and then your dad pulled you out in eighth grade yeah so uh sixth grade was my last year got kicked out of christian school went to public school seventh grade got pregnant gotcha okay gotcha when my christian school principal kicked me out of school she said you're gonna end up pregnant or something literally yeah yeah rubbed that in my face um tammy but yeah dude it was it was so i went to seventh grade was public school and then after that's when i got pregnant and then eighth grade, my dad pulled me out and homeschooled me. Okay. So did you homeschool all through high school?

No, I homeschooled for eighth grade, had my son. He was like six months old. And I had like six. Yeah, he was six months old whenever I went to like public high school. Okay. When I started. So you did go back to public school. Okay, gotcha. Yeah. high school like homeschool community college type of thing like online program and I finished my last two years of school in one and I graduated a year early yay congratulations yeah so when did you have your daughter was that recently or so um after I graduated high school when I was 17 I went into the military so i went active duty that's all my notes right here um yeah i went active duty um i was a mechanic in the army for a couple years and that's when i met my husband and i was in the army for about

two years and then i got pregnant with my daughter that's amazing that you went off to the army you were just like fuck it i'm gonna go to the army and be a badass bitch yeah it was mainly about health insurance yeah honestly she's like i did have an agenda yeah it was like mainly about health insurance like i really like health insurance is really not affordable um and i'm really like thankful that i can afford it now but like most people wouldn't think to go into the fucking army you know like that's crazy is that something that you did want to do like or where do you really feel like you were forced into doing it I was sleeping with a lot of army men at the time um in my teenage years and so yeah she's like fuck it if can't beat him might as well join him yeah I was like fuck it

I'll join the army um I was already yeah in Fayetteville too for sure yeah dude yeah I was honestly like that's what I'm saying. I had a kid at 13 and then have been on a path of like, I feel like unstable relationships since then. And like, literally like, I don't know what my problem is, but yeah. Well, maybe childhood trauma, you know, that you got to work through. Yeah. And you know, what's crazy is like, whenever I say like, oh, I have childhood trauma, my parents are like, you can have the most perfect life and you're still going to have some sort of trauma. Everybody has it. It fucking, you know, we're not minimizing,

maximizing anybody's trauma. It doesn't matter where you came from. Shit's fucked up. The world's fucked up. Yeah. Shit happens. So, you know, it's not a bad thing. It's just shit you got to work through. It's just like stuff that happened. And yeah, it's, that's why like, you know, it's not a bad thing. It's just shit you got to work through. It's just like stuff that happened. And yeah, it's, that's why like, you know, when I talk about my issues and stuff, it's like with my parents, I feel like when I'm talking about things or like feelings that I'm having, they always think that I'm trying to like blame them for something. And it's like, no, I'm not trying to blame you. I'm just like reflecting on this because like for some reason it's a thought that keeps coming up, you know?

Like, and for me, like i like to talk about like if something's in my head like i gotta get it out or else i'm gonna go crazy yeah um so yeah i do think that like if you're not in therapy everybody should go to therapy yeah you know totally everyone should go even if you don't have issues absolutely i agree so you went into the army you meet your second baby daddy who take me on that journey. Oh yeah. So I was, um, I was 18 when I met my husband, uh, and he was 25 and he was in the process of getting a divorce. We met, we met on Tinder. We were both like swiping on Tinder, you know, um,

we matched. And whenever I first met my husband, like, I honestly thought that we were just going to like hook up because he really wasn't my type well I hate to say that because he is like he is my type you know but yeah like he wasn't really I was going for people who were like you know just like casual and he was kind of looked like he was looking for something more serious and um we hooked up I tried to ghost him and he uh had texted me like trying to hang out. I ghosted him again, like didn't want to hang out with him. Then he texted me. He was like asking me for car wash recommendations. Cause I'm from Fayetteville. Right. And I know all the good car washes. So I sent him one-to-one that was closed down, like the head, like the down, like closed down,

not in business. And he like called me and he was like, what the fuck is wrong with you, dude? And I was like, you can't like take a hint, bro. Like, I'm not interested. Like, stop hitting me up. Well, then from that, did you send him to one that was closed down on purpose? Yeah. Oh yeah. I don't know why. I thought it was an accident. I was kind of a bitch back then. Like when I was 18, I was hell on wheels. Yeah. Um, he called me, he was like, what the fuck? Like you sent me to like a abandoned car wash on purpose. I was like, yeah, like whatever so we started go fuck yourself Yeah, go fuck yourself but after that we like kind of started vibing because he thought it was kind of funny and like

You know, he thought I was just fucking with him. He like he thought it was cute and I was like, okay like you think my crazy's cute like whatever so we went to target together and Ever since then we've kind of been like inseparable. We were both really into like going to the gym and we were both in the army and we kind of just like started coexisting together. And that's just how it's been since then. Like literally Cody. Yeah. Awesome. Yeah. I did my research a little bit. That's amazing. So he's like your BFF. You guys have one daughter together. Yeah. We have one daughter together yeah we have one daughter together and then he has two kids with his ex-wife okay gotcha yeah i love that that's how it happens

though like when you don't plan on being with somebody you always fucking end up with them that's how it was with my husband i tried to one night stand him and it fucking here we are seven years later and he's my best fucking friend like love him to the moon and that's the thing is like people have seen like ups and downs of me and cody online and like i wish i would have never fucking talked about shit on the internet why did i do that but it's like now it's out there and i can't take it back and they're like oh like nobody knows what the fuck is going on behind the scene they only know what you show them yeah like you don't fucking know like cody cheated on her he cheated she cheated on him who fucking cares like yeah we

both did we both done cheated like what do you want us to do now like we're choosing to try to make things work we're choosing to try to like we're both like kind of fucked up he has a lot of trauma he hasn't worked on I have a lot of trauma I haven't worked on it's probably why you guys mesh trauma bonding too genuinely I think that and we're both at the point in our lives where we're both in therapy like actively in therapy and my husband is 30 years old never been to therapy never wanted to talk about his feelings I have heard this man talk about his feelings more in the past month than in the past five years I've been married are you guys doing like marriage counseling not together yet um he's like kind of like start like because he was really uncomfortable about

even talking to a therapist in the first place so he's kind of doing his own thing and like first and i'm doing my own thing and then hopefully a little bit down the line we can kind of do something together when did you get out of the army then and take me from there i got out of the army in um okay i got out of the army end of 2019 okay yes and then so you and cody both got out and kept moving forward yeah so he got out a little bit before me and then he continued well he was trying to get out of the army um and move back uh to where we live now which is like the cincinnati ohio area because that's where his ex-wife and his kids were living and he was trying to move back home because he wanted to be with his kids but he got out and there was a couple more months until I was getting out because I was getting out on a pregnancy chapter um and

so he waited until I you know got out and had the baby and stuff and then my daughter was like a month old and we made the move up to northern Kentucky and that's where we've been for the past three years yay and what are you guys doing out there? Just living life? She's like, where do I start? I mean, holy crap. I feel like I'm running a circus out there, honestly, like genuinely like running a circus. What's going on? So we've like moved three times in the past year. My dad moved up from North Carolina. He like retired. So he's living. Where's mom? My mom's still in North my parents are fucking nuts dude that's what I'm saying like at this point in my life I feel like I'm raising my damn parents like right my dad retired early and he's living in my condo that I have uh he's

rent free he's living the life yeah retired okay he's like yeah he's like it's your turn to take care of me now yeah so he's like you know my, he's going and getting bourbon at all these bourbon because we're in Kentucky. Right. Yeah. And bourbon's good, I guess. He's getting bourbon everywhere. My mom's in North Carolina still doing real estate. My mom just on a Tuesday sells her house and gets an apartment. My dad has to go down there and help her move. Like I'm running a tie dye studio. Are they split? No, they're not split. They're just, they're just insane. Okay. they're just insane okay they're just crazy like I don't even know I'm not even gonna ask well it's so my dad uh he retired early because um ever since COVID happened and all the colleges and sports like had to put all the

regulations on everything my dad got so depressed and uh my dad and my mom you have to remember they helped me raise my kid right so my dad and my son my dad is practically my son's dad i mean like literally has helped me raise him through and through like both of my parents have you know so close with him oh yeah so my dad after we moved up here my dad got really depressed and like he didn't have me or my son anymore basketball wasn't the same yeah yeah we do we genuinely do. He needs to feel like he's needed. Yeah. So, um, he decided, you know, after COVID kind of ruined everything for basketball and he was depressed. He was like, I'm going to retire early and I'm going to move up there. So I started moving all over the place, trying to find a different house for us to live in.

That was a nightmare. And then my dad went and lived in our condo that we had so I love it they sound like my kind of people um so let's talk about this t-shirt business that you have so t-shirts yeah I started like drawing these stickers with one of my friends like back in the beginning of 2021 or 2020 I don't remember when it was but the stickers turned into me making tie-dye t-shirts but we're actually about to open up a storefront now too. So like, we're going to have an in-person experience anyways. Oh, you're going to have so many people going through there. Cause you have so many people who love you. I'm having a panic attack. It's going to be like a meet and greet every day for you. I know. I'm kind of excited about it. Yeah. I know. That would be awesome. I'm having a panic attack about it.

No, you're good. I know. Yeah. So we, uh, my mother-in-law and I we started tie-dying t-shirts in the garage just like we wanted to make like these um buddy shirts it was like a stony like marijuana leaf and we wanted to put it on a shirt and so we came up we drew the design on our ipad and like we were so proud of this like shirt we created and we were gonna hand tie-dye all of them and they sold out like wow so fast and so me and my mother-in-law were like well that was fun as fuck like let's keep doing it so we kept doing it and people really like tie dye like people talk so much shit like tie dye is out of style i don't think tie dye will ever people everybody wears tie dye yeah yeah it could be like

dark colors fucking 70s yeah literally like and even if you don't like it like you could have like a tie-dye something or a jammy shirt or whatever the fuck you know tie-dye is it's happy okay I like colors so um we just started selling t-shirts and it's turned into now I have like uh the back of one of my friends nail salons I rent the back of that out in like an alley and that's our tie dye shop. So we have like, we spent like 15 grand, like renovating this like literal literal hole in the wall and turn it into like this. Yeah. That's amazing. It was pretty crazy. I love that. I love what you're doing. I think,

I think the energy that you're putting out in the world is coming back to you, you know, like you're just trying to do right. And it's coming back tenfold. I'm trying. You're doing good. Thank you. Um, okay. So when did you get on Tik TOK? 2020, 2020. I feel like everybody and their mom got on Tik TOK in 2020. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So you got to take me on that journey with Tik TOK. Well, I mean like, I, I mean, I messed around with Tik TOK in like 2018. Like I, you know, whatever, but I didn't start like actually like posting consistently until I was I moved up to Kentucky and I was staying at home through COVID with four kids at 19 20 years

old um and I was so bored and like depressed and like I was breastfeeding my daughter she breastfed for like two years so that really like literally sucked the life out of me but um yeah so um what was i gonna say tiktok oh yeah she's like squirrel so i um i started making tiktok videos with my kids like throughout covid because i was stuck at like my husband was working at the time like full time and his so was his ex-wife so the kids would be with me because i was a stay-at-home mom home with the baby already do you get along with his ex wife? Yeah. For the most part, like me and her, like we're good.

Like sometimes she'd be coming at me crazy, but for the most part, we're good. Like there's no issues. I'm definitely never going to cause an issue with her and she doesn't want, she doesn't want issues either. So we're, you know, baseline. I love that. Yeah. Me too.

It's good for the kids. Absolutely. They deserve to see like, I always like, that's what I always always tell her is that like I want the kids to see us be happy. Yes. Like, you know, I want them to be happy. That's the most important thing. Yeah, absolutely. So squirrel.

We were talking about you were at home getting the life sucked out of your titties and you hopped on TikTok. Yeah. So I hopped on TikTok and my kids liked making TikTok videos with me. And so we would make like dance videos and like my stepdaughter and I would make like these skits of us like doing all sorts of things. And my video started getting like tractions and my video started getting traction and I just kept posting like and then I started like talking. And it was soon as I started talking and not using sounds anymore. That's when I just kept posting like and then I started like talking and it was soon as I started talking and

not using sounds anymore that's when I just blew up like it was like almost overnight I went from having like 10k to like 600k yeah and then it went from me having 600k to me getting banned on TikTok entirely they fucking do that all the time man yeah so i just restarted a new account and um within literally two days that account that i started got a million followers wow in two days wow i don't even know how that's possible and i still like have the screenshots of it yeah and everything because i remember like taking screenshots throughout the night of me like this isn't even fucking possible you have a crazy cult following like when i get on my lives and just say well who should i bring on the podcast

i mean i'm talking like gabby gabby gabby gabby i didn't even know who you were i know but like we had never crossed you know yeah tick tock fyps so i'm like who is gabby and then they started tagging me in that one video that you made and they were like she needs to come on the podcast and then i kind of went down the wormhole and I was like, I like this chick. I like her vibes, you know? Well, please don't hate me. But before I got invited on this podcast, I really didn't know who you were. And then you invited me on and I was like, okay, funny.

I'm going to go down this rabbit hole. And so, dude, you can totally edit this out if you want. But I thought that you were 28 years old. Oh, I love that. No, keep it in. in no do not edit that i thought that you were like 28 29 and i was like oh i'm so excited and my husband was asking me questions like oh jelly rolls wife or whatever like that's so cool like you know and um he was like how the fuck you don't know who these people are like what the fuck is like you living under a fucking rock well anyway it's so weird how tiktok is we just never crossed fyps yeah you're all over it now you're all over mine so it's yeah you know now you're all over mine too i think it's ever since i followed you though that now you're all over

mine but yeah it's pretty insane yeah but no i'm not i'm 43 so no dude i googled like how old is or no i didn't google that i said uh bunny xo i was googling you yeah that's what i was doing sneaky um but um i was googling you and it said all your facts about you and i was like which aren't facts i don't know who makes those pages you're not five nine no how tall are you i'm five five five six yeah because like i said five nine and i was like five nine yeah that's my height you know yeah no and i mean i wouldn't mind being five nine and I was like, five nine. Yeah. You know? Yeah, no. And I mean, I wouldn't mind being five nine, but like,

I don't know who does the online shit or where they get it from. They fucking said, my dad's name is like bill spills. And I'm like, that is really cool. But no, that's not his name. Like there's so many things.

I think we need to do a tick tock of like things that are online that we like, you know, like we should do that today after we get done. You should just like squash and rumors. You know, there's one page that says I've had a facelift, cheek implants, fucking a blepharoplasty. And I'm like, not yet, but I will where you get like the skin above your eyes cut, like just crazy shit. And I'm like, dude, I've had fucking lip filler, eye filler and fucking Botox. Like it's just crazy. The shit that people come up

with, you know? Yeah. They will make up anything that they can. Yeah, no, it's nuts. Okay. So we got off track, but, um, okay. So you got on Tik TOK in 2020, you gained 2 million, a million followers in two days. And then you just took it from there. Cause you do have this crazy fucking cult following. Like it's nuts. Like you could post anything and it's a million views. I didn't realize I had a cult following honestly, until recently. And I know that the views and stuff have been there and stuff. And like the followers have been there, but also like,

um, like a lot of other creators talk about, I do get stagnant. So like, I'll start losing followers and like all that stuff. But like, I didn't realize how cold my following was until, um,

recently where I've noticed that I have to really start watching what i say yeah and really make sure that i'm not talking about people um really make sure that i'm not talking about people um in any like negative light because people can take that so i mean even if you say something positive about somebody they'll still fucking twist it and be like she was being what's the word snarky right and like you know like all that shit and i just i can't fuck it they've done that to me and i the internet like love you but hate you at the same time it's like there's just those people on there who nitpick everything you do and you know it's like it gets to a point where you're like in a glass you know and you don't know which direction

to go because people are always going to twist whatever you say yeah you don't know what to do you're like yeah should i do this? Should I post this? Should I not post this? And it's like, no matter what I do, I'm fucked. So I'm just going to do whatever the hell I want to do. Did something recently happen that? I don't even know. Well, I mean, like recently, like I've had like a lot of like friend drama that hasn't

been online. Like I've just had like a lot of like of my friends be just like really shitty recently. And that's nothing that I'm like gonna go into real depth about but i have like people dude people do not know what the fuck is going on behind the scenes okay people don't and i people love to say that i'm the drama and that i love drama but i really am the quietest person like i have some like really shady shit going on in my life right now and i don't even know how to deal with it and like people online are like nitpicking at things and like trying to like bring things up and it's like filtering comments does

that oh yes can we please talk about this every fucking creator filters their comments every big creator filters their comments because i had to turn my filters on for the first time ever fucking and delete comments. When I was going through the drama this last week and people were like, Oh, she's filtering her comments. She's deleting her comments. Stand fucking straight.

I am. I don't want to deal with your fucking weird toxicity energy. Like it's weird. You have to go through and read that shit. It's not good for you. Yeah. If you don't want it there. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. I think that, shit. It's not good for you. Yeah, if you don't want it there. Yeah, exactly.

I think that, okay, I also, just like you said, I haven't started like filtering comments until recently. It's gotten worse like in the last fucking like month or two. Like it's crazy how bad TikTok's gotten, dude. But it's just because it's honestly just because it's annoying. Yeah. It's like why, like if you don't want to like just don't comment like don't leave this shit here for everybody else to read like fuck i think i saw a video that you posted the

other day and you were talking about like you your friend hasn't been in your videos or something like that and they're like coming for you is that what you're talking about the drama in your life well yeah so like we've had like a bunch of like shady shit going like with between me olivia and jacinda um and like a other couple of people who have been involved with it too but it's like um obviously like you know people go through rough patches and friendships and stuff like that but it's like people will like connect me to somebody and if they're not in my video anymore or like it's like where is this person and it's like they have a whole another tiktok account like yeah go ask them yeah if you're worried about olivia go ask her she just posted like two hours ago you know what

i mean so it's like i don't know i feel like i feel like it's just because i need to start like focusing a lot more energy like towards myself and like my small circle like which is like what's in my house like the people that are in my house it's your family yeah those are the people who as long as the people who are that are in my house and then the people who are in my circle circle like my small circle right outside of my house are good i don't need to fucking give a fuck about everybody else amen sister and i think that's where like a lot of my issues are coming from are from taking these outside voices from other people and like letting it fuck up, you know, my, my personal life, which is easy to do. Yeah. People will make you start thinking

shit and you're just like, well, is this real? Who am I? You know? Yeah. Literally I have, I've been, I've been going through kind of like an existential, not existential. I always say that like existential, what does that even mean? Uh, don't put me on the spot like that i think it's like so it's like something like like big like life-changing right x is now i gotta fucking google it hold on i'm sorry hold on you're good i'm like god damn it hold on define x how do you even spell it here we go define existential uh the climate crisis and an existential threat to the world concerned with existence yeah me affirming or implying the existence of a thing yeah okay so another word for existential is verifiable so if that helps anything but yeah

everybody that's uh welcome to your english fucking class today yeah i still don't know what i mean i still didn't understand it i'm just gonna go with what i said and i think it's like life changing and big okay yeah you're going through some sort of crisis that's making you want to change speaking of crisis can we talk about um your arrest in vegas what happened girl i still wish i knew um so yeah i mean like I'm open to talking about it now that I'm not getting charged With two felonies like I was really I wanted to tell you Bucky Bucannon And fucking Jack Buchanan They used to be my lawyers

They're amazing in Vegas So good Jack Buchanan he was my attorney in my case Bucky's his dad I think his dad passed away Well Jack whoever He literally was a killer Attorney Bucky's his dad. I think his dad passed away. Yeah. Uh, well, Jack, whoever, he literally was a killer attorney. No, he's amazing. Shout out Jack Buchanan, man. He's amazing. If you ever need a really good lawyer in Vegas, go to Jack Buchanan. Cause that motherfucker got me

out of a lot of shit. Yeah. Same. Um, but I was in James Leavitt. I've had a few lawyers out there because you live in Vegas part-time right I'm I'm from Vegas I actually grew up there so okay cool cool so yeah um I never have been to Vegas before that my first time ever going to Vegas was my husband and I's uh three-year wedding or I don't remember what year it was but it was in 2021 and uh so we go out to Vegas for our anniversary and we stayed at the Cosmopolitan and it was so nice and we got a nice room and we started drinking like immediately when we got there like 9 a.m and um drank all day and i mean i drank so much that day and i was fine went to bed at like 10 p.m because we had been up early drinking and woke up the next day ate a big breakfast like

huge breakfast at this buffet um the wicked spoon and then um after that we started going to like put our bathing suits on to go to like this pool club called called the marquee pool club and um anyways so we go in there i had two drinks two sex on the beaches okay i didn't i don't even think i finished the second one. I in the pool somewhere blackout and wake up in a straight jacket in jail and intake. Oh no. And I genuinely, people think that I'm lying. Whenever I say, I don't remember that I'm not getting charged with anything. Like, yeah, I could literally be like, I lied. Like it doesn't matter. They can't like re-pull it up or anything. Like the case, like it's dismissed. I don't know. What did they take you to jail for?

Like, the case, like, it's dismissed. What did they take you to jail for? Did they tell you? So, no. Like, yeah. I mean, they told me after, obviously. But they told me that I was, initially, I've seen the security footage from the Cosmopolitan. Not good.

Definitely should have been taken to jail. I agree with them. Right. But, yeah, I've seen this. What were you doing? I was running from them. Oh. Faster. um but uh yeah i've seen what were you doing i was running from them oh faster but why were you running you just in a phone oh nice i would pay to see that footage i could honestly i'm so glad i don't even have a copy of that footage

but what were you running for you just fucking did you do something i don't know well so they they said that they initially security called the police because i was trespassing and i had gotten into an altercation with somebody at the pool and then they kicked me out apparently i was screaming and being disorderly at the pool right and then they kicked me out so after security like who was with you nobody saw my husband was with me cody what the fuck happened i know he he still feels so bad about this like he honestly has never forgiven himself but so we had we were having drinks and there was this group of guys and group of girls and there was a couple guys couple girls and like the girls had like kind of made friends with me and like we went to the bathroom together

and we're like joking around and stuff and they were trying to make plans with me to do something later that evening because they had like tickets to something and during that same time that all that had happened my husband was like caught up in a group of guys that were talking to him and then I like went back to the pool area and got in the pool and that's the last thing that I remember you just probably got lit they might have that or somebody might have put something in your drink that's what I'm saying like I only had two drinks and I don't remember anything and i was fighting people and like i my like this is why i don't drink anymore ladies and gentlemen yeah especially from bars you can't trust anybody bartenders fucking roofie people now i think that it was

because i have never like blacked out like that from alcohol before like i've gotten like really drunk but like i remember what i do like i can be crazy and i don't know like what happened but that was crazy they tried to book me or they booked they said that they were initially gonna just book me on trespassing but they booked me on felony battery on police officer two charges of that two counts of felony battery on a police officer for making sound like a bug and i was like bad i was crying in there bitch oh girl we all cry when we go to jail we all cry when we get caught they didn't give me a phone call at all oh they were trying to teach you a lesson they did girl they taught me a good one i'm never going back to vegas well you gotta come back come back with me i know yeah i need to go back to vegas for sure my husband and

i have been talking about it just because i had one bad experience. Yeah. You got to go experience it again because we, we love Vegas. We fall in love with Vegas each time, every time we go back, you know, like I don't want to live there ever again, but visiting, I'm just like, Oh, but what if they banned me from the strip for life? Can they, they can, they won't. It's like, that's called being blackballed. And it's very rare. The only people that they do that to are people who are scamming the casinos. Oh, so the, the paper that they gave me with a map that said you are banned from the strip is kind of a bunch of baloney. Um, well,

so if they did 86, you said, I'm going to refer this in my court case. I'm going to play this podcast. Casinos that they banned you from, or was it like they said, the strip, like they have a map,

the map, right. And the cosmos here and they put a red or was it like they said strip like they have a map the map right and the cosmos here and they put a red or not a red it was a yellow box around a whole area that i am not ever allowed to go back normally they ban you from like the sister properties so like yeah ban me from the cosmos yeah i barely made it out of the building when i was running you know what i mean like just ban me from that property i think you'll be fine if you go back in there, just don't cause a fucking ruckus, you know, like just kind of lay low. If you ever do go back in. Could you imagine next time? No, something else happens. Listen, I'm not going to give you advice. You do what you want to do.

Don't go back to those casinos. Um, so let's touch on your podcast. You have a podcast, right? Called the don't be rude podcast. That was like years ago. Was it? Okay. Why don't you do it? I think you would be a great fucking podcast host. Cause I'm like slammed. And because, well, I mean, maybe like, cause I see like, you know, you're set up.

Like I say, oh yeah, I could do it too. But also like. It's hard. People don't realize. It's time. It takes up a lot of money and you don't make money unless you fucking really work your ass off and know how to fucking turn that into money like they don't realize that podcasting is a fucking black hole yeah like literally everybody who's podcasting is either paying for it out of pocket or they have sponsors i don't have sponsors so i'm doing the other you

know and just i've been doing this five years and i'm just now last year and this year making really good money off of it that's see that, that's what I'm saying. You have to have the time to invest into like, just like TikTok for me. You know, I had to invest that time in the beginning. I didn't make a penny off of TikTok for the first year that I was doing it. You know, then I started making a little bit of money, but what does 2023 hold for you? What are you going to do this year? What do you want to do this year? If you could manifest you gonna do this year what do you want to do this year if you could manifest anything to happen this year what would you want to manifest she's like what do i want to do i want i want peace oh i need to really start prioritizing

peace in my life and i'm really like getting to that point like i want things that are gonna bring me peace at the end of the day i like i know that i'm a chaotic person and that'll probably never change when's your birthday march 7th pisces yeah i know that i'm chaotic but i do really like enjoy being at peace like with myself and like my emotions and stuff it's okay i'll be all over the place still but like i really do want to be being at peace, like with myself and like my emotions and stuff. It's okay. I'll be all over the place still, but like, I really do want to be like at peace with myself and like with those around me and like, just, I want to be in a peaceful place for sure. You are learning, you know, I mean, you're, you said you're what, 21, 22, 22. I mean, you've got the road is fucking so vast and so long of like how many people that you're going to become you know what

i'm saying you're gonna you're in your peace era right now next you know six months from now you're going to be in another era like you're just going to keep discovering who you are and i think that you're really fucking self-aware for a 22 year old like you you're very mature i try and i like one of my biggest things is like I really try to like self accountability. Like I always like to kind of like call myself out on the spot on things just because like I don't have time to like keep fucking up in life. Right. So I just like I don't know, dude, like I don't even know what I was talking about. Shit. I just want to say meeting you is just so I love your vibe. I love everything about you. And I hope that you'll come back like once a year and check in on the podcast. Yeah, for sure. Thank you for coming on the podcast, even despite all the crazy shit I was going through this week. Hopefully you

don't get hated on for having me on the podcast. You know what? They could fucking hate. I don't care anymore. I'm like, Jesus Christ. I don't think I did anything too bad. No, you're amazing. care anymore. I'm like, Jesus Christ. I don't think I did anything too bad. You're amazing. And I think you have a really, um, amazing story, but also just the way that you, like I, I said, you're just very authentic and endearing. And I think that, you know, people need to hear that side of you. I think people needed to see that you actually have emotions and you're not a robot that just fucking makes Tik TOKs. I forgot that I was crying oh okay the trauma but yeah no i am i'm glad that i came too because this definitely this is better than i expected so yeah i really appreciate you for having me on what you better come back i will all right thank you guys oh wait shout out where

everybody can find you oh all your socials you can find me on tiktok and instagram at baby egan or you can just literally google search my name, Gabby Egan, and all my show will follow. It's right there. You guys go follow her. You will not be disappointed. She's a sweetheart. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week.

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