Dumb Blonde - Kristi Howard: The Spicy Queen of Getting Banned

Episode Date: March 1, 2023

The beautiful Kristi Howard joins Bunnie this week to talk about manifesting a career as a social media star, even when no one was watching. She opens up about her sister's tragic death and h...ow it impacts her every day, what it's like to have millions of people watching your every move, why she loves sharing stories both in front of and behind the camera, and more about the new love in her life. Kristi talks about moving to Nashville, the Jenna Marbles comparisons and what's next for her in 2023.  Kristi: TikTok | IG  Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.com  See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Starting point is 00:01:45 What's up, baby? How are you? Hi. I love that. I had to get that out of the way. This is so iconic. I love that because I do that too. We were doing that last year with the Why Is It Spicy?
Starting point is 00:01:55 We were so fucking, that was like our jam. Yeah. So when I stumbled upon one of your TikToks and I heard you do it, I was like, this is my fucking people right here. I really feel like I don't do it that much in person I think I just like did it one time like in a video and people were like do that again and so then I would do it again and now it's like if I post a vlog or something and I don't do it people are like where's the high it was good and they're like I don't like it and I'm like okay fine that is that is so funny you know who you remind me a lot of um I don't know
Starting point is 00:02:24 if anybody's ever told you this but you remind me a lot of a younger Jenna Marbles. I get that all the time. Yeah. I've got that even before social media. Yeah. Like, when I was, like, 14, no matter what hair color, no matter what, I've always got that. And I personally don't really see it. I mean, I'm flattered.
Starting point is 00:02:38 Like, I love that because I watched her. She's a genius. But I never, like, watched her and, like, where it was where I would, like, want to, like, get her mannerisms and, like, that, like that. Right. You know, I don't see it. like where it was where I would like want to like get her mannerisms and like that like that right you know I don't I think it's more your vibe I think it's more your vibe where you're just like funny you'll talk about whatever fucking tampons yeah yeast infections whatever and yeah so like I think it's just your openness and your vibe that people are you know comparing that too but it's definitely she's a fucking icon. So we wish I was Jenna would come out of fucking hiding, man. I feel like she will eventually. I hope so. She's going to pop up on these hoes. Well, let's, I want to get to know you because,
Starting point is 00:03:14 you know, we get to see the person, um, on the camera that's on Tik TOK all the time. And, you know, I know as well as you know, that there's always a person behind that, you know, and I want to get to know that person so where did you grow up at uh I'm right from right outside of Atlanta okay a Georgia you're a Georgia peach I am yes my parents are very southern and like my dad's like where's your accent I don't know like even I went to college in Arizona and everybody met my parents and they're like why don't you sound like them and I was like my theory is truly because I feel like we were grown up with social media so like I've I talk the way of the people I watch and the people I you know I don't know yeah my mom like my oh eyes I say like old vinegar like
Starting point is 00:03:54 toilet like yeah like certain stuff like that I don't know I have words but I don't really have the like twang that they do I love it I'm from Houston I don't have an accent because I grew up in Vegas so if I do have an accent it's a valley girl accent. I love it. I'm from Houston. I don't have an accent because I grew up in Vegas. So if I do have an accent, it's a valley girl accent. Yeah, I always tell everybody I'm a valley girl because Vegas isn't a valley. So you grew up in outside of Atlanta. What brought you to Nashville? Literally nothing. Yeah. I didn't know a single person here and I didn't know anything about it. I'd never been. And I just wanted to move because I was living the same life every day. And I don't know. How old were you when you moved? This was two years ago. Oh, OK. So recently you didn't move. It was COVID like 2020. OK, gotcha. And I wanted somewhere
Starting point is 00:04:35 that was like driving distance because I am very close to my family. Yeah. So I was like Charleston or Nashville. I don't know. And so I just like got a really shitty hotel and I drove and I toured two apartments and I brought my mom back with me and I like convinced them and I told them you know they said we'll support you as long as you have a job like you know what you're gonna do and I bartended before COVID so my idea was oh Nashville like I'll bartend there when things open back up and that's so touristy like I'll make so much money but then social media started taking off for me so I never obviously never ended up bartending and I just started doing that well let's rewind because we'll get into the social media thing so growing up how was your relationship
Starting point is 00:05:12 with your parents um really good I feel like I've taken it for granted until recently um like I I realize now I'm saying how like a lot of my friends and stuff don't have like my parents are still together and they're both the best parents ever they've given me such a great life and I feel like I was never grateful for it until recently and like now I can really appreciate it and see it and see I just consider myself very lucky and I just I don't know I love my parents they're great I love that so there's no trauma no not yeah no not with my parents gotcha how long have they been together um i don't should i know that like i don't know she's like bitch i don't know just as fucking as long as i've been alive yeah my mom always says because my dad is like literally a sweetheart like i love my dad so much and my mom always says well he was a player before
Starting point is 00:06:01 like they dated for nine years before they got married. She's like, it took him a while to finally settle down with me. But now he loves me. He must be a Sagittarius. Is he a Sagittarius? He's a Taurus. Oh, OK. There's my whole team over here.
Starting point is 00:06:13 Yeah. All the Tauruses are hooting and hollering over here. And then my mom's a Libra. So she's like a peacemaker, I guess. Oh, balance. Me pretending I know about it. I know one thing about each sign. I love that. So what about siblings yeah
Starting point is 00:06:25 are you the only child or is there other was there other siblings no I have um a brother and as well I had a sister so my brother and I are 14 years apart my sister and I were 14 months apart so that's like a huge age gap but my mom had my brother when she was 18 and he never knew his dad so my dad basically like raised him um i don't know when my parents exactly met but um for the most part my dad is his dad yeah i don't think he calls him dad but like he is and um yeah and then my sister kat we were 14 months apart so she was always like the one grade older than me you know um and she passed away two years ago she actually passed away five days after i moved here to nashville so um so growing up were you pretty close with yours with cat because oh yeah we were
Starting point is 00:07:10 literally like like kindle and kylie like we have the same age difference as them that's what i always and we're the same age as them so i always would say like oh my god we're like the kindle and kylie the south like um and we just i don't know we were you know always really close especially when we were younger you know like I wore pink she wore blue but we were in the matching outfits we weren't twins but we always you know we're on every sports team together did everything like went into you know hung out with all the same friends stuff like that growing up did you ever get into like substance abuse or drinking or like what were your high school years were you like were you like the cheerleader or like describe to me what christy was like in high school so i like my sister was like my role model like what she did i would do but she would also
Starting point is 00:07:54 never make me do something really fucked up you know so she was 14 months older or younger older okay and you know she told me to do something i'm like okay sure like she does it it's fine yeah older okay and you know she told me to do something i'm like okay sure like she does it it's fine and so she kind of like got me into stuff but never anything bad like she never wanted me to do anything past like she you know she wanted me to smoke weed with her when i was really little and like she didn't even drink i don't know but she never would want me to go past that or anything it was always very motherly and protective over me but um i never realized how i guess like wild my life was growing up until now i talked about it to my friends and they're like that's fucking crazy like i smoked weed with her
Starting point is 00:08:31 when i was like 11 and 12 like holy shit literally 12 years old and it was probably like oregano but you know i didn't know but we would just get like high and be like weird little 12 year olds and smoke out of the sprite can and stuff like that how would you guys know to even smoke weed that young i was still fucking making my barbie dolls hump so no okay we did that too we really did do that um she played house in the with the neighbors with the neighborhood boys in the forts like that's what i was doing well um she always looked like 30 when she was you know like 14 15 wow she always looked so grown just an old soul she got double d's when she was in fourth grade holy shit and so i like whenever i was like in fourth grade i hadn't had
Starting point is 00:09:10 my period yet and so i was like where are mine when are they coming you know they're gonna be one day i'm gonna have big boobs they never came in so never got boobs but it's okay you're still hot but she always had like you know perfect teeth and huge boobs and like long hair and it was just like i don't know so she always hung out and like long hair. And it was just like, I don't know. So she always hung out with like older people and stuff like that, I guess. I don't know. She was just so cool. I was always Kat Howard's little sister.
Starting point is 00:09:31 Like no one knew my name. Like I was her little sister. She like ran shit and she was like known. Everyone knew her. She was like very popular around Gwinnett County, I guess. Oh, I love that though. And I just tagged along. Seems like you idolized her a lot.
Starting point is 00:09:44 So did you? So smoking weed, did that turn into anything else or was it just always partying um like you know I never even to this day I still try and get myself into it and I I can't and I like people always suggest it for me with my anxiety and stuff I'm like y'all don't understand like it makes it worse and I'll try like gummies I'll try everything it doesn't mean I don't do it I still do but like yeah I can't get into it but um I became more of I'm like the drinker and she's never she never really liked drinking like she just got to did other things but I only would drink but even when I think back about all the parties that like I'd be a freshman at and there'd be all seniors like I don't even
Starting point is 00:10:19 think that like what was I doing like was I even drinking or was I just weird and talkative like I was so outgoing when I was around her and growing up and now it's like such the opposite. It's weird. She was your safe space. Yeah. I feel like I have to have a drink in my hand to like be in public or be anywhere, which might be a problem, but like I just don't go anywhere, you know? Yeah. So do you struggle with anxiety or, or let's, we'll reel it back. But you said that, um, so Kat was 14 months older than you so you guys both graduated or she graduated then you graduated and then you moved here or what happens after she actually didn't do high school the way I did so this was like when we were young
Starting point is 00:10:58 and when she was a freshman in high school no I was a freshman and she was a sophomore she i think got kicked out i don't know she got kicked out of a lot of places we went i was always moving schools but lived in the same house because i would just follow wherever she went my mom would pick me up and say we're going to somewhere else so the next day i'd be the new girl was she just like fighting or it was like it started as in like her having a pink strip in her hair and then it started as in her calling a teacher a bitch like it wasn't ever anything that was like yeah that warranted the punishment we first started at a private school so like the things we were doing were insane like people i don't know and it wasn't even bad and i just get picked up from carpool and be like
Starting point is 00:11:36 okay where are we going time to meet new friends here and here and like you know she'd walk in somewhere and make friends by the end of the day where i was quiet and was like i don't know but she would just introduce me to people and stuff like that yeah but um yeah so anyways high school we were in a new high school and she didn't last very long i don't remember exactly why this time but she always went to like alternative schools at that point um she would be like in and out of rehabs and behavioral places and since she was under 18 she would like have to stay in them rehabs just for her behavior or for substances so that's probably when like all the substance started gotcha so how i said she was really pretty and like looked you know whatever so when she was 14 she dated an 18 year old and his dad was like a
Starting point is 00:12:22 doctor but his dad was like really like a sketchy doctor like was prescribing people things they shouldn't like he would like one of those doctors he did it like in his house it was something really weird like i know his license is taken away now oh my gosh so he the son those are the most dangerous doctors it literally blows my mind to this day yeah no it's crazy and so the son would like get stuff like I literally am going to sound stupid, but like triple C's like cough syrup. OK, yeah, yeah, yeah. Skittles. I don't know.
Starting point is 00:12:49 Yeah. So I remember that's what he would take and he'd give them to her and he would just, you know, she was just 14. Like I can't remember my brain when I was 14. Like I was weird. I was a different person. And she said yes one time. And then like, you know, it led to other things. And she said yes one time and then like, you know, it led to other things.
Starting point is 00:13:10 And then eventually, you know, her body would start hurting and she'd move on to more hardcore stuff. Right. And it was always. So she did develop a habit. Yeah. And it was weird because I personally never knew anyone that did any of that stuff or I just I just didn't understand it. So to me, I just didn't get why, like, what are you doing? Like, you have everything handed. You're beautiful.
Starting point is 00:13:29 You have everything handed to you. You're watching your idol. We have great parents. We had a great upbringing. Like, why are you doing this gross stuff? Like, that's my head what I was thinking. Well, it's got to be hard as a child, too, to watch your idol go through that, you know? Yeah.
Starting point is 00:13:43 Like, you really cherished your sister so to see that and not be able to help her probably was took a pretty big toll on you yeah for sure yeah and she'd just be like embarrassed she'd be like you think i want to do this my like i'm in pain she would wake up with like nightmares and i'd be you know like 15 and i'd be hear her screaming and getting sick like dope sick and i just go wake her up I'd be like what are you doing and she'd be like I'm hurting Chrissy I'm hurting I'm hurting but I don't want to use like sweats and I did not know what was going on because I wasn't educated about this at all and I don't think my parents really understood what was happening either it was just so it just developed
Starting point is 00:14:21 into this huge thing that no one could ever you know yeah and that was when she was like 14 and you know she battled that never went away for I mean it's the rest of your life you know when you're an addict you're always gonna fight that even when you're clean you're always every day like it's just from then on it just kind of went not downhill she always was the same bright full person but it went from me live like looking up to this person I idolized watching her be so confident and cool and like so popular to being the person I've never met anyone but her who's hated themselves so much she just like was so insecure and just like it just wasn't herself it was so weird yeah and I felt like she just started then envying me and being jealous of
Starting point is 00:15:04 me because I was going to proms and I was doing foot going to football games and having friend groups and she was we were the same age and she was just having to fight every day and just get sick and it was like it flipped and it was probably like you know really hard for her and sad did they ever find out like if maybe she was battling like bipolar disorder or our whole family has like mental illness like we're all like same same sister. All of us. Every single my mom, my brother, my huge advocate for speaking about mental health because I have battled suicidal depression and anxiety to the point where I couldn't even.
Starting point is 00:15:39 What's up? No, he's snoring. He's sleeping. His name's trash. What is it? Chachi he's snoring. He's sleeping. His name's Trash. What is it? Chachi. That is so funny. Trash.
Starting point is 00:15:51 Is it really loud? Baby, you got to wake up. Sorry, he's asleep in my lap. You're Trash? Me as a dog? That is funny. I think we need to name our next animal Trash. That would be awesome.
Starting point is 00:16:04 I like that. I actually don't mind it. It doesn't bother me at all. No, we're huge advocates about mental health on this podcast because, you know, I have battled it for a long fucking time. My mom was fucking diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. So I get it. You know, mental health is a topic that really needs to be talked about way more than it is. You know, so do you battle with anxiety and stuff like that yeah I have terrible anxiety was this before after your sister's death which we'll get to that a lot of people ask me that but it was before um I think a lot of people think that it didn't start till after no I would think that it would start before when you saw her
Starting point is 00:16:42 start crumbling and felt helpless yeah and it made me I feel like I always had her with me going places she wasn't ever present anymore she was always off places so it made me just like go from kind of being enabled by her literally like she was like a mom to me um to you being her caretaker almost yeah and then I just like didn't know how to speak to people and didn't know how to like uh like I don't know I just started getting nervous about going places without having someone next to me when I was grew up only having someone next to me I didn't know anything else so it just made me like a really like socially awkward person and very like just anxious about everything I do um and I used to not be like that at all so Yeah, it's trauma. It's just, you know, what you went through is trauma. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:17:27 So do you think that you moving to Nashville was you kind of trying to get away and separate yourself from your sister? Yes. Which makes me feel like shit. Because the last year of her life was out of every single year ever was the least close we've ever been. And I hate that because even when we had each other blocked, were in fights, didn't speak for weeks, whatever, I still, you know, we'd still come back or whatever. And it was like the longest period of time we'd gone not being okay.
Starting point is 00:18:00 And I really hated that. And we resolved things before she passed, which thank God, but she was begging me to come visit her. okay yeah and I really hated that and we resolved things before she passed which thank god but she was begging me to come visit her and I kept saying I don't have time because she was in a rehab in South Florida and I was like I don't have time to visit you like I'm trying to move I just like don't have time for all that when you're clean like we can talk I was just like annoyed and I was I get it and so you know I carry that guilt with me but at the same time like I I don't know.
Starting point is 00:18:28 She always, like, had this thought that she thought that I hated her all the time. Even I go through all her journals. And obviously, I went through, like, her texts and stuff. I had to delete all her nudes before my parents got her phone. That's, like, shit people don't think about. That's a good sister, though. Yeah. My mom was like, can you get in? My mom, like, doesn't know how to work a phone and, like, any technology.
Starting point is 00:18:39 And she's like, can you find her passcode? Passcode's my name. First thing I guessed. And then I was like, I went straight to the camera roll. And I deleted all her videos and all her pictures. Oh, shit would do that for me yeah absolutely you don't think about but like yeah because my mom's like trying to snoop through stuff I'm like uh-uh you don't she doesn't need to see yeah yeah you saved your mom a lot of extra heartache yeah so you moved here for two days and then what are five days you had been in Nashville for five days yeah what happens walk me through that so I was here for two days and then what are five days you had been in Nashville for five days.
Starting point is 00:19:05 And then what happens? Walk me through that. So I was here for five days and I agreed that my parents agreed that I could, they'd help me out moving here if I was in school. So I was still doing online college trying for like the hundredth time. Um, and then I got a nanny job and it was my first day ever on the job. And I finished by 1130 a.m. Like I started like 6 a.m. to 11. It was just like a trial thing. And my right when I finished my dad, that's when my dad called me and gave me the phone call that she passed away.
Starting point is 00:19:34 And it was literally so five days. I hadn't even been there a full week. The first day of my job in this place. And my dad's like, you need to get on a plane and come home. And I'm like, how am I supposed to get there by myself I how do I what what do I pack what do I do yeah I like I just it was traumatizing and I sat for like 12 hours straight in my room in Nashville and finally you froze yeah and I had no one come you know I didn't want them to come to me but it's
Starting point is 00:20:06 like if she were alive she'd be the one that'd come to me and help me get my stuff together to go so it was just so weird what did she pass away from was it an overdose she overdosed I'm fentanyl but like that bitch was strong like she literally like could take a lot and I just you know she did heroin so when someone does heroin you know and they're active you know there's a chance yeah and all the time but in my head my sister Kat Howard was never gonna die like I knew I wasn't stupid I knew that that's what happened but you just really don't actually think it's gonna happen to like you and your family so i was just convinced like dude stop because she'd be like i'm so and so days clean and you just believe that and then it's just never it really never ends but then she passed away in
Starting point is 00:20:54 the rehab facility or did they already release oh it was a whole thing she was in a detox center wow and i had girls reach out to me and tell me the full story after she passed because we only knew really nothing. Nobody was helping us at all. And my mom was like batshit crazy, like getting a detective, like we need to get to the bottom of this. Why did the deaths in South Florida? They just kind of walk over them like they're nothing. Right.
Starting point is 00:21:15 Especially like having to do with drugs. I hate that. Yeah. Because I feel like people who are addicts don't deserve justice. We're like, well, what? Where was she? What was the? Yeah.
Starting point is 00:21:24 Did anybody do save her what nobody was telling us anything it was so weird and so what happens was the detox center kicked her out but didn't like tell my parents which i guess when she's 24 they don't or yeah 24 i guess you don't have to notify the parents but my parents were the ones like paying for her to be there so it's like wow you know whatever so they apparently this this place she got caught using um i think she like went out like to buy halloween decorations and got some stuff and she got caught and um one of the girls in there who called me after she died and explained i'd never met this girl before she told me like christy i knew something wasn't right like her
Starting point is 00:22:01 lips were purple and they sent her out of there they bought her a lift and they sent her to from a rehab to a detox center and they bought it for her and put her in that car with her lips blue and everything she died in the car on the way to a new place oh my god in a lift and the lift driver i even tried to like get in contact with my mom couldn't find this person on facebook she couldn't find him like just to ask what happened I found the Lyft driver on TikTok and he doesn't speak English but he followed me back and messaged me and it just I mean there wasn't much he could tell me clearly but oh yeah because he didn't speak English yeah but still just like I went on detective shit like I was able to find out so much stuff and like get into all her iClouds and literally I like detective this shit because nobody helped us literally no one that's a good sister though.
Starting point is 00:22:46 Yeah. I'm sorry that happened to you. Like, I'm sorry that happened to your family. That's just all around hurtful. And I'm just glad that now you're using your platform for awareness. Yeah. Let's start talking about that. So what happens after her death and you coming back to Nashville?
Starting point is 00:23:04 How's Christy feeling um I'm okay I don't know I guess I just try and be normal um I really didn't like I was doing social media before she passed away right so it's not like I was trying to like use that to build no no no I'm just saying like that's not why whatever like so people i was vlogging that day because i do daily vlogging on like youtube or were you still doing well both but this was i just set my camera up the day my first day my nanny job and i do my daily vlog so i vlogged me that morning waking up and i wasn't expecting that to happen so people were like you know whenever i first posted a video of the day whatever people were like who like records themselves doing
Starting point is 00:23:44 this and i was like i didn't know i was gonna get that phone call i recorded myself because i do first posted a video of the day whatever people were like who like records themselves doing this and I was like I didn't know I was gonna get that phone call I recorded myself because I do every day that's your real life yeah and you see how I'm literally happy like I moved into a new city it's my first Friday night it was the first weekend I ever had I was like am I gonna go out with new friends like what am I gonna do and then literally my whole entire world flipped over just like that and it's and it's honestly people don't realize it's fucking therapeutic yeah i was going through this journey with my mom i vlogged pretty much all of it you know that i could put on tiktok and people would be like why are you vlogging your mom in this vulnerable state first of all my mom loved it and wanted to be on it and secondly
Starting point is 00:24:17 it was me trying to not only help people but to help myself in processing all of the fucking emotions that i was going through i don't even care if no one watches it or listens like i want it for my time stamp my fucking collection of memories you know and my sister hated being on camera like didn't ever let me because i always was vlogging on youtube and stuff didn't barely ever let me put her in anything just because she was so self-conscious about the way she looked and stuff like that and she just hated social media we were total opposites in that aspect and there's some vlogs and some clips and little things I have of her and I'm just so thankful that I was annoying and it would cause bites of me pulling the camera out and her be like put that down or I'm gonna leave like I swear to
Starting point is 00:24:58 god if you're recording right now to hear her voice yeah and I'm so glad I have all those clips and that I was annoying because now that's all I have left so that's why I literally record everything at all times what I'm doing and even people that have like shit on what I've done or what I do in the past they're all like that's really cool that you made that video like I recorded my whole senior year of high school and carried my camera around to parties and stuff and at the end of the year awesome yeah I always were you doing this for you weren't doing it for t TikTok. It was for YouTube? No, TikTok wasn't out then. I was just always doing, like I did Vines. I did social media.
Starting point is 00:25:29 I don't ever remember not like recording myself in my life. Like even when I had just like on MySpace. Like that's how far, like Xanga. Do you know what Xanga is? Do you remember Xanga? I was never on it. I always did. See, I'm like always late to
Starting point is 00:25:45 the fucking party ask her it took me forever to get on tiktok but once i figured that motherfucker out here i am you know like that's how i am with social media like i love it but it's like i i'm i think it's the aquarius in me i just don't ever jump on every trend yeah i wait to see like what it's gonna do and then if i can monetize off of it i will yeah so i that's i never got into the zinga or whatever yeah was it zinga what was it i don't know i was like way too young to be on it though yeah like i i just i shouldn't have been i love that though that you've always had that vlogger mentality though always i was just determined was your break um on youtube or did you your following blow up whenever you got on TikTok? It was TikTok but on YouTube. TikTok's life-changing. It is yeah but on YouTube I was like posting for years and it
Starting point is 00:26:32 wasn't growing. I grew a lot on Vine but then Vine died so thanks there goes that but I never stopped. It's crazy because Vine like blew the fuck up. Yes I loved Vine. And was insane and then as fast as it came it was gone. Yeah and I still don't really know why and was insane and then as fast as it came it was gone yeah and i still don't really know why it was gone yeah me either i thought it was so weird because i was on vine too but i never i i got on vine very late and then fucking as soon as i got on there it fucking went to shit so i was like god all right well you scared it away back to facebook you know whatever i was doing um so you know you're cut you came back here you are moving on and picking up the pieces of your life and tiktok starts blowing up what is what paint that picture for me of when tiktok
Starting point is 00:27:14 starts blowing up for you um well it actually blew up kind of before i moved to nashville okay cool so i'd say like in 2019 and god you were on it you were like one of the first people on it early like when there was I was like the oldest person on it like okay it was only little kids and it was when it was just dancing and I used to be a dancer so that's all I was just a dancing page I just danced and I think that's so funny to think about now but I loved that and then that's why I wouldn't get on TikTok yeah I was like motherfucker I'm 40 years old and now people still think it's like that and I'm like no no no now it's not no it's completely different TikTok. Yeah. I was like, motherfucker, I'm 40 years old. And now people still think it's like that. And I'm like, no, no, no, no, no. It's completely different. Yeah. But I loved I was like a dancing app. Oh, my God, I'm on it. So I was doing that. And then I got banned.
Starting point is 00:27:52 And this was, you know, before when I was complaining about getting banned on TikTok, you know, my friends are like, why do you even have that app? That's literally a little kid app. Yeah. And this was like even before COVID. And then COVID happened and everybody got the app. And then I you know know but I was still the only person from like my town or whatever that had TikTok so people like knew I had like grown a following on the second account and then as soon as you know COVID everybody started getting it uh my second account got banned and I was just so annoyed because now everyone has it and now like I finally built a following yeah yeah and so that's why I was like I got banned a few times too it's so dumb and I was like I'm just gonna give up on this and I wasn't
Starting point is 00:28:28 gonna make another one but it's like what I like to do so I made a third account and I just made my username queen of getting banned and I think that's so dumb I didn't put any thought into it and then of course that account blew up and now it's like I'm stuck with that username like if I change it I just I mean you're able to change it but I feel like it's just like who I am now like yeah you can't once you start branding yourself you have to keep that and I made it as a joke so that's why I just I just don't have this connection to it I see a lot of other people who have kind of bit off the name too yeah you started a trend with that and it actually got my attention too whenever I first stumbled upon you I was like queen of getting banned like why is she getting
Starting point is 00:28:59 banned you know yeah I like went on your page and stuff and I was like oh she's cute and I haven't been banned in like a while so people are like, what raunchy shit do you do? And I'm like, it's not bad. I just used to dance and get banned. Oh, no. That's it. I literally do nothing. I breathe and exist on that app.
Starting point is 00:29:14 And I fucking get banned. I've been banned. I have account warnings on both. Oh, me too. My main account, I think we're at, what, 2.7 now? I've been banned three times. Like completely taken away? On that same account, yes.
Starting point is 00:29:25 I haven't gotten banned on my backup account yet and we just hit a million over there but yeah yeah i have a backup or spam account too yeah you just put whatever on there yeah and that account gets better views than my fucking main account because people like i put hours into my vlogs and stuff and then my backup one is just me like literally talking yeah on the toilet same so stupid and people are like we like this better yeah like why no it's crazy the same fucking shit happens to me so what has tiktok done for your life like as far as changing it you don't have to obviously be a bartender no and i'm glad because now i'm so like i just can't even imagine doing that um because it's a lot of socializing literally like my job when i was bartending was to like talk to people now i do cocktails i don't even know how i did that for that long
Starting point is 00:30:09 yeah i don't i hate talking to people besides having like one-on-one conversations like this being in a fucking bar now like i'm sober are you sober or do you drink or i drink yeah what are you drinking right now this is like an alani seltzer they sent it to me no i love it i don't drink like alone i only drink when i go out and love it. That's awesome. I don't drink alone. I only drink when I go out. And I only go out with my boyfriend. I don't ever go out other than that. Are you in love?
Starting point is 00:30:31 Yes, I am. I think I saw a video that popped up on my FYP. And you said that you guys are in a long distance relationship. Yeah. So Walt's been my best friend since high school. Walt? I love Walt. I know.
Starting point is 00:30:43 That is awesome. You look like you would be with a Walt. What it just fits the aesthetic I think no I always roast him for his name um I love it but he's like literally this like he's like happy to be alive like he's like happy I don't know he has like no like mental illness and like no who are those who doesn't have like family drama like family trauma or like fucked up like nothing i don't know and i know that like everyone says everyone has secrets but he literally is clean has nothing and it's so weird to me and we're like polar opposites but it works we were best friends since we were like in middle school when i was new um to my high school or well i moved to middle school and um we were just friends i dated someone
Starting point is 00:31:24 else for seven years and he was still my best friend and then after my sister passed away we started dating because I was dating someone else and just the way he was there at my house just as my friend more than like my actual boyfriend was I just started looking at him in a different light and like I've always loved him but like I I just I don't know I fell in love with him and I I don't know if it was like my sister bringing us together or what but we yeah i don't know we were friends first but now we're dating i love that so where does walt live he lives our parents houses are like five minutes okay gotcha so he's from georgia also yeah but he just interviewed last week for jobs here in nashville so excited are
Starting point is 00:32:00 you guys ready to take that next step and like live together? Yeah. I've always said like, I want babies. I want to get married and like stuff like that. Yeah. But now that I like hear it, I'm like, oh, no way. Yeah. You're like, no, let's wait. Give me 10 more years, please. I love that.
Starting point is 00:32:15 But you never know when you guys move in, you might get the bug, the baby bug. Yeah. No, I just have I just got a pet cat and I can't. Soy sauce, right? Yes. Yes. One of my followers named her. I love the name I
Starting point is 00:32:26 think that's awesome I did see you hanging out with our uh dear sweet friend dimps how was that yes isn't she fucking hilarious she's insane she is but like in a good way right the same as she is online oh no definitely she has just a little drop of golden sun yeah and she has this whole community that just like hates her and i had do you have one of those no i don't either but i just learned and like this year a few months ago and people were so upset at me for hanging out with her which i think is like oh i'm at they were talking about trying to cancel me for having her on the podcast and i was just like and i just still can't figure out why these people are she's just and she's just a normal person. These people are sick.
Starting point is 00:33:05 And it's like I tell everybody, I won't even say the website's name on my podcast. Oh, sorry. No, we'll bleep it. Because I don't ever give them any clout. It's literally a place of people who don't belong anywhere. So they fucking have, they just see them swim in toxicity. And they literally just have found their beehive
Starting point is 00:33:23 of just toxic bullshit of just tearing people down and it's just disgusting it's literally just i don't even go on that website i can't it's crazy because none of that hate reaches me unless i go and i look for it that's how not powerful that site is it's literally a bunch of people that are just bound to that one place because nobody wants to deal with their fucking bullshit you know but it's like they're pretty scary you know like a lot of them have really came after a lot of creators and it's just sad like why is it so personal to them I don't know and I don't know how it's legal yeah I don't know how it's legal or how that site is even available to be up I think it's gonna take them really hurting somebody before
Starting point is 00:34:05 they'll even look at that website to get it taken down yeah because it's unfortunately i haven't even had that bad stuff that i saw about me but one little thing like drove me into because you know tiktok kind of like doesn't people can be mean but it kind of limits out things that people say yeah so i don't really get that much hate and hate that i do oh no i live in my nice little pink bubble i don't laugh with it i'm like like people please roast me because i can tell that it's like a good like you know oh yeah you're right whatever it's nothing like actually deep and on that thing like i only saw it because people were emailing me my business email like oh no they follow me too and they're like hey like i love you and i just want you to know that people are saying this
Starting point is 00:34:41 and like sent me the link and i was like what and then it's like they know everything everything and or think they do about my family and stuff and that's the scary thing that's the scary thing is that these people can say whatever they want and it's solid and if you try to defend yourself against them then you're the bad person you're the bully like you're supposed to let these people just punk you like I don't care the way I have every time i do a podcast drop or i announce who's coming i do it just to stir it up because literally their hate gets me so many views and downloads that it's like i just use it to monetize off of i'm like keep talking about me baby yeah you know like i don't care what you say about me the more shit
Starting point is 00:35:18 you talk about me the more it's going to make people curious so bring it on i luckily don't have a page yet i do not want a page so if any of you fucking shit bags are listening, I don't want one. Okay. I don't want one either. Please. I literally will cry. But I mean, if you guys do make one, just know I'm still going to make money off of it. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:35:35 Even more money than I already have. Get my name out there. Yeah, exactly. So what can we expect from you for the next year? Like going into this brand new year you know 2023 what do you have any goals that you want to reach anything exciting um I don't know she's like bitch I'm taking it day by day leave me alone yeah I don't know I just this is all so cool to me it's what I've always wanted to do um and like even when it was like weird that I made YouTube videos like no one
Starting point is 00:36:01 did like I never stopped it just became the thing where like I was the girl that carried the camera I never that was just my thing that was like my comfort thing I loved editing videos and then I started doing weddings and then I started doing you know sports videos and I never do you think maybe because you were so socially awkward that having that camera in between you and other people I love telling stories through my camera I never spoke about my sister's addiction or her story ever when she was alive but when I was in like eighth grade was the first time I did my project on her. And it was when she was in a rehab and I made like a whole video and I did a voiceover to it. It was in eighth grade and my language arts project.
Starting point is 00:36:35 And I shared her story and I wrote like a letter to her, like a letter to my sister. And it was like that. And I presented it to the class. And then I would just, you know, start doing like visual stuff. And I just like that. And I presented it to the class. And then I would just, you know, start doing like visual stuff. And I just loved that. And I loved even for like birthdays, just making montages. And I cinematic I would, you know, take out a loan to get a camera. And I would just I just love telling stories through video and video creation. And you're amazing at it. Well, thank you. But then I would do weddings and stuff.
Starting point is 00:37:02 And I realized like this is I want to be in the camera yeah I like you're like I'm the star bitch okay in the camera but I love editing and stuff like that too but that's why I was like I'm just gonna keep doing YouTube and try this and that's why when TikTok went off it was like the best thing that could ever happen to me because I got to do a little bit of both like I could edit and make you know cinematic shit but I could also just talk and be myself because i you know i am a personnel or whatever right but also i i like to do the other cool like vlogs and stuff like that no i love it i love your content it's always fucking entertaining thanks i think you definitely are on to something and you've found your niche and you have your hardcore you know cult fan base
Starting point is 00:37:42 i think all of us tiktokers have like a cult fan base that loves just us and like still shocking to me it's so cute isn't it amazing they will literally go to war for me so much love i don't have to do anything but if i get one hate comment i would just pin it and i don't say anything and why did they take the pin away i don't know i thought it was just my phone no they did it to me too because i used to do the pin of shame too yeah and i just let everyone else like but then that's why now I just respond to hate like with like positive messages and then I just let everybody else fucking handle the person because it's like the love outweighs the hate no matter what you know like it's always there's always going to be more people who love
Starting point is 00:38:17 you than don't and the people who don't like you always end up probably fucking loving you and they're your number one fans because they watch everything you fucking do yeah so it's like either way it's like motherfucker you love me you just want to hug come here yeah like hug a hater like our t-shirt that we had um so walt's moving in you're just gonna kick it next year you don't have any plans you're just like fuck it i'm just gonna fucking keep riding this wave i just want to keep i guess growing like i just never even when i didn't have views and stuff and never you know really grew a platform before i was doing this full time i never stopped doing it right like when people ask me for advice and stuff i'm like i just in my head
Starting point is 00:38:55 even though i wasn't seeing any growth and i was just doing youtube or whatever and even when vine went away i never stopped doing it even if i was posting facebook videos or whatever and no one was watching and people talked i never stopped because in my head i wasn't going to let myself this was the only career path i wanted to do right and even though no one around me i didn't know anyone personally who had like was an influencer or did any of that i wasn't going to do anything else i was so determined even if i was bartending and vlogging vlogging myself i manifested i wasn't gonna stop like i was only gonna do that and so I'm still, yes, I'm finally like doing it full time, but I don't think I'm ever going to stop wanting to grow. Like I'm very
Starting point is 00:39:29 hungry at wanting to do more and build, just be bigger and bigger and whatever that is. But yeah, as far as your brand goes, the sky's the limit. You can do whatever you want. Yeah. Unless I get banned again, but I always come back. It doesn't matter. You'll come back, baby. I know they always find me. Don't speak it into the earth. You just return to sender. You're not going to get banned again. Well, I'm so happy that you came on the podcast. And I can't wait to have you back. Why don't you tell people where they can find you?
Starting point is 00:39:52 Name out all your socials. OK. You can find me. What about OnlyFans? Do you got an OnlyFans? No, I don't. Damn it. I was hoping to see that hootenanny.
Starting point is 00:40:00 Is that my tootie? My cookie? Yes. Yes, for sure. I've never been on OnlyFans really yes oh well I have for years am I missing out a lot I mean you we'll talk about it whenever my dad is just so like sweet and I just don't want somebody like going up to okay no I didn't mean like that I don't want somebody going up to him at work and being like I saw your daughter on blah blah blah and
Starting point is 00:40:20 oh god yeah I mean don't do it if if you have a great I see I don't have a good family so I've got I'm doing fatherless activities because I have a terrible fucking family so if you have a good family and you have I didn't mean it like that now I feel like no no listen no I'm always calling myself I just picture my dad my sweet like curiosity like scrolling and be like oh my god no but it's definitely a bag you could get mama for sure i'm sure people would definitely see you stop tempting me i know i'm the devil i'm the devil on your shoulder right now um why don't you go ahead and shout out your social so people can find you okay my tiktok is do i look at the camera or am i looking at you you're looking
Starting point is 00:41:00 everywhere okay we never know where anything is oh Your camera's right there. Yeah, right here. My TikTok is queenofgettingband. And then my Instagram is Christy Howard and my YouTube is Christy Howard. And then I have Spicy Christy. I also have merch I just dropped. My social security number is... We need to know what your blood type is, all that jazz. I don't know it, but I want to know it.
Starting point is 00:41:21 Well, thank you for coming on. I really appreciate you being here. Thanks for having me. Yeah, can't wait to have you back. And thank you guys coming on. I really appreciate you being here. Thanks for having me. Yeah, I can't wait to have you back. And thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye.
Starting point is 00:41:31 Bye. I love that. I feel like... See, that was painless, right? My sweet dad. I know. We lost it. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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