Dumb Blonde - MJ Fresh: Talks Toxic Exes, Custody Battles and Why She Won't Be Silenced

Episode Date: April 6, 2022

MJ Fresh is back and better than ever to give us a life update, and to call out some vultures in the industry. She and Bunnie talk about toxic exes and bad breakups, what life is like now that her career has skyrocketed, and how she got the confidence to speak up for herself without caring what anyone else thinks. Bunnie: Website  Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Is this thing on? Alright, gentlemen, coming to main stage next, this is Bunny. Get up there, she's got a tornado of titties coming your way. Get those dollar bills ready. She's got an ass that shakes like Michael J. Fox. So get up there and throw, throw, throw them dollars. Dude, that is fucking iconic. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers?

Welcome to another episode. I'm still trying to wake up. Another episode of Dumb Bl dumb blonde my baby sis is back in the house mj fresh baby mj that's the dollar sign dude not i don't think i'm the only one that's happy that you're back chach has not left her alone since she walked in i know i miss my little stink he even looked cute for me today you guys actually look like you go together the aesthetic is i know and when he first sat by me he was just like posed up so cute dude where the fuck do we even start

like last time you were here let's let's replay so we literally started from you and me being two completely different bitches first of all yeah completely different yeah we um let's see you were on season two so season two i, I was not on OnlyFans and I was just starting out with the podcast and you literally just flew out here. I was like, I'm going to try this. I was only coming for this. And then I was like, I'm going to go try this adult industry thing.

I don't know. Now I'm doing a fucking meet and greet for it. And you're like 1%, the top person on OnlyFans. I'm like, it's fucking nuts. No, it's crazy. Okay, so let's backtrack. Hey, Chach. He's knocking it off, buddy. Oh. I'm like, it's fucking nuts. No, it's crazy. Okay, so let's backtrack. Hey, Chach. Knock it off, buddy.

Oh, I'm just letting him live his life. He will fucking sit there and lick you the whole time. Chachi, lay down, honey. Okay? Yeah. He looks at you just like shit. All right, so let's fucking dive right in. Porn.

What's up with it? Fucking porn. So last time you were here you were like i'm thinking about getting into porn and i was just like you know what i support you girl and whatever you want to do and take it from there ah fuck i was literally like i'm so excited for this question i've been planning the porn questions since i got here and now i'm like i don't want to talk about it no i do want to talk about it fucking porn dude i don't know um i i at first i fucking loved it and i still do

like fucking love it like when did you start like when did you jump into it right after that the podcast was my first day i went there wow flew out and so it's been about what two years now yeah automatically i was getting booked with like browsers like vixen like big companies you know what i mean and i was like yo this is fun and i can like be creative and do my own thing like you know my own styles and shit and i was like this is like a good job to have and like oh my god i did not realize like how much shit you have to go through to commit to that yeah it's not as easy as just like jumping in and being like i'm a porn star yay what are some of the things that you have to commit to losing family like you literally lose family you have

people that don't mind when they think it's just like a little like like thing you're doing and a bad decision and you're like it's a phase this isn't a phase ma right it's like i'm actually like this i actually do this and it's like i've committed i've moved there i'm doing it and like people are just like no don't do it you gotta go through that and then you gotta go like oh my god i feel like when i'm first came on the podcast with you you told me everything not to do and i did all of that and i'm like fuck why didn't i listen and i don't ever when I give advice I give it I never give advice that I don't have personal knowledge on so it's like yeah something that I've been through or my girls have been through I'll always give advice but like if I don't know about

something I won't speak on it so no it was like you know just like watch out for people and you know stay clear like the toxic relationships stuff like that didn't trust everyone loved everyone um got the toxic relationship all the way through and yeah we're gonna talk about that like kind of i feel like set me free in the world and i did my little thing and now i'm back and people are fucking people are fucking crazy out here oh yeah people are mean and out to get themselves i met some of the nicest people that would give me the shirt off their backs and then i met some people that will live off cut your throat eat the food out of your fucking house you know what i mean like have you pay their bills and then turn around and shit on you for a shoot what was like one of your first scenes like what what would it let me feel

your emotions and walk me through your first scene. Your first professional scene. Chachi. I'm going to kick your ass, man. My first professional scene. She's like, let me think back. It's been a while. How many scenes have you done? A fucking lot.

It's like I want to be like the like porn MJ Fresh bitch on here. But I also want to be like a real ass bitch and talk my shit. Oh, no. We got a lot of shit to cover. People are going to gonna hate me for this but i really don't care because i'm no but whatever but tell my first scene i'm like so excited but i'm like i'm nervous and i went and did it his name was peter green fucking amazing guy love him shut up peter green fucking love him no um he he has like a girl they're having like a bit you know i mean super like hold on one second chachi get down oh i'm just vibing

with him i'm not even noticing i just don't want chachi i don't want his tongue to pick up in your microphone it'd just be him like snorting the whole time chachi come here come here you're not gonna be able to come to work if you don't know how to act bro come on get up here and co-host let's go come on oh my god okay have a seat all right so peter green was your first scene yeah so he made it super easy because like you know he's kind of got the same thing as me like you know a whole like different life at home like family and stuff like that you know um so it was like really easy to like shoot with him and okay i'm gonna keep it a bean to be honest with you when I first started in the industry I was on like Zans so I was like oh yeah I didn't

have no stress I was like fuck it I'm here listen the best time of my life that I don't remember was when I had a Zanex addiction okay so literally you don't remember shit you ruin friendships you fuck I'm sitting here like trying to remember how I felt and i don't know at all but i'm glad that i did porn because watching porn i could like see like how i looked and i was like i never ever want to do that shit ever again because i literally just looked like yeah just not how i look now you can't tell unless you know you're me but like i was watching it like yeah that's got to be hard looking back and watching yourself on camera just anyways i know i critique myself doing fucking only fans videos so i couldn't imagine porn is like high def and like just you see everything and it's just you're on a set like it's gotta be just

you could have like one wrong pubic hair and they're like flipping i'm like yo what the fuck oh but um no i but i loved it it was it was fun like i don't know the people were like super nice you know what i mean like you get on set and it's really professional there's like i hear my eye there's like um camera crews like you know i mean people all over the place like it's like super professional but then there's just like little things in the industry that aren't and it makes it hard on girls in the industry i feel like and everyone what would you say that i shut up and be quiet yeah what would you say are some of the things that aren't professional um and what do girls have jesse and motherfucking jones okay

if anyone's heard of jesse fucking jones is he an actor. I don't know. He told me that he was signed with a company. I'm not going to mention because I really fucking love them. And he told me if I call him out for stuff, I will never work for this company ever again. Nobody knows me that I might as well keep my mouth shut where I fucking belong. And I'm like, oh, because I'm not like big enough in this industry. Like these people are like they're vultures especially the men in that industry they are such vultures i mean look at all the shit that's coming out against ron jeremy's old ass he's fucking like 70 something and now all

this fucking shit's coming out that you know he was like just this fucking creep back in the day and i mean like hello it's obvious that he was fucking creepy as shit he i saw ron jeremy in fucking vegas all the time and he was always creepy as shit he i saw ron jeremy in fucking vegas all the time and he was always preying on like younger girls but i don't know yeah there's so much shit like that and it doesn't come out and like i two days ago like exposed some shit that i haven't because everyone's like don't do it don't do it don't do it what was it but the person the jesse guy had showed me a video of other girls crying on his phone that day. We went to go.

We got booked to do like content or whatever. I'm going to talk about it. And I don't give a fuck who's mad at me for talking about it, watching this. Y'all can suck my dick. I'm going to talk about it. Ayo, bitch. Suck my dick. He showed me a bunch of other girls who have like millions of followers and shit like that crying.

And he said it was because he was like laughing. He like it's because like i wouldn't fuck them and i'm like in my head at the time looking at it like damn that's a sloppy ass bitch like i wouldn't either like you know yeah until i'm the bitch in the video oh no yeah and then i was doing shut up these girls and putting the videos out or what was it i don don't know. I just remember he showed me that, but then that's kind of what happened to me. And then his exact reasoning was that reasoning. I don't know. I just kind of like added up, you know? Yeah. But it sounds like a narcissist. Yeah. But basically you're just like kind of put into a box of like, if you don't have hard, cold evidence on someone, you can't speak. Right right and i'm the type of bitch i'm from the

south you know what i mean i don't give a fuck i say how the fuck i feel if someone makes me uncomfortable i'm gonna tweet about it and let everyone know like i don't care i've always loved that about you that you've always stayed true to who you are hold on one second can we hit this fan right here i totally forgot to turn it off yeah that shows make my adhd go crazy yeah i was listening to it um no one thing i've always loved about you is you are no holds barred. And that's how I am, too. And a lot of people might come against you right now for being so upfront. And so this is what it is.

But in the end, people are going to love you for that because nobody is going to be able to get shit past you. You know, like you're just always going to tell it like it is. Yeah. I sat and I was like, you're right. Like there's but it's like not even that. Like've been through so much shit something like that for me is like i don't give a fuck you know i mean because people are like well why didn't you get police because like i don't want so much so did you guys make a video is that it was content day so we got booked for con because i've literally like been going through it so i just haven't been

like booking my own content yeah my agents kind of like bitch we need content for only fans like right he's been booking it for me and um so i'm like doing content with this dude all day and it's cool or whatever like i shot with him before and the same exact incident happened right but before like i told you i was on zans and stuff so i woke up the next day and i got it past you yeah and i'm like damn i'm just a fucking like i got fucked up like you know i blame me right and then fast forward homeboy acted like he didn't know me at first or didn't even remember he had sex with me before he's done me for a year straight you know what i mean yeah like you remember right but i mean i deal with guys like that in the industry

all the time that'll act like they don't know you and then they're like oh yeah and then they'll like mention like little tiny details where it's like how would you know that if you weren't looking on my twitter how would you know that whatever creepy ass dudes yeah and then um overall what would you say your experience in the porn industry has been like are you gonna keep filming are you gonna keep making videos yeah i think i just decided like i've been going through it trying to figure this whole thing like nine out like it's like a crazy like world to understand but i fucking have realized that i fucking love the industry i love being creative and doing my own thing and i like i love like my agent and like the people you know that i do know are good but i've like always just taken the bad shit and the bad shit

like hiding it and not speaking on it has like put me in this little box and like gave me like depression all kinds of fuck shit so I decided I'm just gonna get out of my fucking box if people drop me or don't book me because of it I don't give a fuck you know what I mean like before porn I was good and if after porn I'll be fine I don't care I just like literally I've realized I'm going to say and do what the fuck I want. And I don't care. Yeah. Because I did that before.

Remember, like before porn, that's exactly what I. And then I get into porn and I'm just like the girl next door. Yeah. No. Do you feel like they just try to silence all the women? I mean, because it's already a sexual industry. So you would think that they would be more open about like sexual assault and fucking the things that go on in the industry.

You think that it would like wouldn't even matter. Why do you feel like they're trying to keep you so hushed? I wouldn't like say like they, but there's just like individual people that everyone benefits off someone. Right. And no one wants anyone to fuck that up so everyone's like unless you have hard cold evidence don't speak or say absolutely anything because we don't want to risk you missing missing a shoot that i can't make money off of

right but then that means there could be 10 other girls in your same position that are too scared to speak on it right okay or you're not going to like the dude jesse i guess has a bunch of followers i don't fucking give how many followers he has yeah at the end of the day some fuck shit happened yeah and i'm gonna speak on it because i know myself i've i took like a year out of the industry because it like literally i don't even know i was like so like brain fucked by it like a mental break yeah and i went home and then i started managing a strip club that banned me let's hear about that club i'm banned again you went is it the strip club that you got fired from before when you were

talking about being when you were talking about it on the podcast or no i went back and they made me the manager and they put signs up of me everywhere the bitches i literally got so lost in the sauce of just like loving the fact that the bitches hated it because they're like yeah drawing on my poster like literally i'm talking high school type upset about it and i'm like i don't understand why i'm actually not doing anything but positivity for this fucking club yeah douchebags i feel like just people and i just am a nice person and then i go into like fucked industries and i'm like everyone's nice here right and i'm like wait a minute no why do you feel like the girls hated you so much was it because they they put you in that manager manager role and the

girls wanted what does a fucking strip club manager do just kind of i was a marketing promoting manager and basically i just like ran the social i they didn't have socials they didn't have right pictures of the club to even post on socials you're doing that a lot of like promoting i booked on your i booked the photographers i booked the girls i had to even book some girls that weren't even from that club because i couldn't you know what i mean yeah i made the outfits like i had the commercial done and i've contacted people like no not a single soul helped me i wasn't getting paid this whole time oh no yeah you gotta always get paid for what you're good at baby i just love being able to walk in there and i'm like i was banned here's my pictures

you know what i mean and then i'm like wait a minute i'm being used right now. No. Fuck. I know. It's literally. I hate it. MJ fresh life. Dude. So are we are we allowed to talk about the custody thing that went on on TikTok between you and your baby daddy? Oh, hell yeah. We can talk. Because you know what?

So courts already said don't talk about it. And he's still talking about it. So why the fuck can't I talk about it? OK, so when you were here last, I think that you revealed who your baby daddy was but he was like nowhere involved in in what's his name again your son's name in princeton's life and like you hadn't even talked to him or couldn't get a hold of him or something like that i forget like he just was not in he yeah completely just like shut me out like i'm not the dad one day right the next day i am the dad but you'll never see him again if i get him all this stuff so i'm like yo you got a lot going on buddy and so i'm not

going for child support nothing i'm just yeah you do you and i'm not gonna fight with anyone about my kid because you know what i mean we're good over here baby um and so after that podcast dropped i saw him with jeffree star right was it jeffree star when he because he's a clout chasing bitch okay fell off from vine well i wasn't gonna say all that out he's broke as fuck you know what i mean i have so many people who hit me up he tried to sell him equipment too didn't work out all types of shit where he's just like but he came out scamming and stuff and now as gay right that was before that and then i yeah i guess he had a little clout chase from jeffree star came out as gay got another clout chase did you know he was

gay um i didn't know he was gay i wouldn't put it past him but i think it's disrespectful as a motherfucker if you come out on father's day you can make your coming out day any other day than my day you know what i mean but i do you think that he just did that for clout or is he really out here dating guys and girls too but now he's shunning and talking shit on jeffree star oh god he he is the type person who doesn't he doesn't know who the fuck he likes yeah i don't keep up with him so no all i saw was the tiktoks somehow he ended up in my fyp a couple times when you guys were going through that uh like you know back and forth on tiktok of course i'm always gonna side with my bitch yeah and i'm pissed because i literally could have made so many more videos that would have just literally made him look like shit i have files of it and then i sat there and i looked at it and i

was like you know what no i could be in the room playing fucking patty cake with my kid or i could be sitting here making tiktoks talking shit about it and then my kid can go back and see that one day yeah and then know that about his dad so what had happened okay so he came he was hanging out with jeffree star he fucking came out as gay and then all of a sudden he decided he wanted to be father of the year so this fucking guy yeah decided all of a sudden out of nowhere my family's really fucked up too yeah shout out to y'all weirdos same um yeah no very like very weird and um they would like get up they're clout chasers too honestly and they're family yeah they would literally like text him and be like um you're right she's so mean da da da da like what the fuck you don't even you got his number

out of my phone he doesn't even know me like you don't mean or know his kid like he doesn't want shit to do with you guys literally had like a i have friends go out of their way to make accounts to dm him from the industry girls in the industry going out of their way to dm and try and hang out and shit like that my baby daddy and oh i i work with mj so i know how she mother is not i'm a good motherfucking mother like yeah you know what i mean and all these people are reaching out trying to like talk about me i'm like and then he now is at a point where he's trying to send it to me like hey just letting you know shut up yeah like you're trying to protect me or what yeah like i wouldn't trust him you can't't trust somebody who flip flops is hot and cold like that.

He's the type of person. He's an opportunist. Yeah. How do you say that word? Opportunist. Opportunist. And if he one person from his past text him or anything, he jumps on it immediately and makes a big scene and has to be on like gossip channels about it.

He has a YouTube video now that some well some guy some kid randomly decided to make a t-talk youtube about me and him i think that's complete bullshit i'm out the drug i think that's complete bullshit this guy just randomly decided to have a t-talk about us yeah what is i'm pretty sure i don't i don't know i'm like fill me in i'm too old there's like people there was like um twitter pages that were talking about it some kid on youtube made a youtube video about it like yeah he was like posting screenshots and shit of him and the social worker talking like tell me how this is fucked up though i told that social worker i have no idea who that man is i was sleeping with everybody i

don't know who my baby daddy is that's what i said because i didn't want him involved right so could you have a paternity test the state was supposed to make sure that that was done that was in the paperwork because the only thing he even jumped in like or anything he involved in throughout the whole thing with princeton he went to one court date which was the very last court date and they had no probable cause i didn't do shit wrong i had marijuana in my system right which i just came from la that day because some this my family like come find out where the people that did it to me wow um yeah i found that out not too long ago and hurtful and grandma i thought grandma was cool i thought grandma was cool too she had grandma turned i was just talking about my sister talking about that with my sister on the phone And then I thought grandma was cool. I thought grandma was cool, too. She had to turn. Grandma turned.

I was just talking about my talking about that with my sister on the phone today. I was like, it's crazy because the last video was like Nanny made my underwear. Yeah. It was stripping. OK, porn. I've never seen more evil people in my fucking life. It's like that. They think I like rolled off into hell or something.

I'm like, no, I just didn't leave me much of shit. And I have a kid and I'm gonna take care of them. Yeah. You know what I mean? And just because you're not doing things the way they did them back in their day doesn't mean that what you're doing is wrong you know but they don't even know what they're doing because they've never even left the state right you know what i mean like they're everybody's got a fucking opinion until you know about everybody else's business until it's theirs yeah nobody wants an opinion about their own business yeah exactly i'm like what the fuck like my dad's a fucking pastor and a crackhead how the fuck does that work yeah like but gonna tell me i'm a bad mom huh no i just do an industry there's so many we never got we never got into your dad

on the other on the last podcast he's a pastor and a crackhead i don't talk i literally just we've never had a relationship he was like abusive i I guess. And then I grew up a little bit and wanted to meet him. Something probably Princeton will do too one day. And then I just saw his true colors and I was just like, fuck that all together. But then porn and now out of nowhere, he's coming out the cut, upset. That has all the other kids because I have a bunch of brothers and sisters. So he has them all thinking I'm like the spawn of satan that was terrible and i'm like okay buddy so going back to this um custody battle how did it settle how did it end are you cool are you guys cool and

co-parenting i got my full custody back because i didn't do anything fucking wrong i mean so they did take custody away from you they took my kid away from me no they put my baby in a home and i got to see him once a month or twice a month like every month oh my god why didn't if he was trying to be father of the year why didn't they give him custody um i guess there's no dna test there's no way to they legally shouldn't even have been allowed the state to contact him yeah you know i mean how are they even allowed to like can you turn around and sue them if you wanted to i don't know it's literally like this it's so fucked up to a point where like i don't even know anymore like how to explain things yeah or go about them other than just like run away from them because i'm like what the fuck right like that shit i went home because i'm like this is i'm not doing

anything wrong you know i'm not on drugs i'm not doing it i'm legally just doing a job where i signed w-2s so i went home second i got there they hit me with a drug test marijuana in my system but i just came from a legal state and everything. And they even said themselves, they were like, we've never seen this many people on a case. We've never seen this many lawyers, nothing. Like I willingly went to classes and did all that shit on my own. Like no one had to like normally they said like moms will wait to be told to do the classes or parents. But I just went ahead and did them. I was like, whatever fuck gets my kid home.

Like, you know what I mean? Yeah. Get my fucking baby to me now. You've been taking care of that baby since he came out the womb yeah i mean i literally am like on my own with him now like it's just me and him out here like doing life because i'm like you know like i get it i dress differently and i act differently and i can't say big words but it's not like i'm a bad mom you know i like just i'm different and i don't know people just judge my parenting and that's People just judge my parenting.

And that's one thing. Judge my parenting. Call me every name in the book. But to like involve like a state like that, South Carolina. Right. Like like super conservative. We'll never probably ever legalize marijuana. Like, oh, no, the Bible Belt will never Bible Belt.

Yes. That's what Caleb says. Yeah. But we're going to get to Caleb. I was kind of hoping Caleb was with you today so I could put you guys both oh my god I wanted to bring him I wanted to bring him so bad and he was like but I was like I don't know it might not be bunny's favorite no he wouldn't be my favorite I would definitely I wanted to tear him a new ass actually because I just got cheated

on by a bitch at Pizza Hut okay let's talk about it moving on so you got baby back everything's good there yes are you still are you living in South Carolina no I had a house everything perfectly I just went to LA not too long ago to like do my re-entry into the industry you know I'm back I mean I would never regret for a second what happened yeah because losing my child I 100% I think was I think i was maybe a little selfish in aspects of my life and now it's like i live constantly like that could happen yeah not even by the state but just like in life you know and like so now i live every day like if he wasn't there because that like going through that is like the worst fucking feeling ever like you know i

mean if you weren't a good mom, you wouldn't have cared. Yeah. To see the hurt on your face, talking about your family and talking about this whole thing that happened like that shows that you're a good mom because my mom fucking left me when I was three months old and didn't even have as much fucking pain in her face talking about it. You know, so that shows a lot of people that like kind of know about like everything that's been going on i've said that like yeah that a lot of moms have like like caleb's mom for example

left him and stuff and he's like because i tore myself down for so long like what am i doing wrong maybe i'm a bad mom maybe i'm not deserving of him like going through that made me really honestly think that i just wasn't good enough and like now like recovering from that like I still am like battling to see that I'm a good enough mom and I'm like I am it was probably fucking traumatic it probably gave you post traumatic stress from all the shit you had to deal with no I don't I don't even trust my son around like daycare nothing like nothing at all because I'm so terrified someone's gonna like take him from me you know yeah I feel like there's better ways you should go about things like that. If you don't agree with someone's parenting, you don't take their fucking kid from them.

No. You know? Especially because you always took care of your son. And I, yeah, they said even the lady that was in contact with, whatever the fuck he calls himself. That's baby daddy. I didn't want to say his name because i call him sperm donor at this point he doesn't deserve the cloud it's been two years and he's

now that we know he's such a clout chaser he doesn't deserve the clout so we don't even know none at all literally none um but yeah that shit like traumatized me 100 i feel like there should be like you had to go through that sis like for real that shit is fucking terrible I can't believe he would do that to you and I sat my with no intention of even fucking really taking care of the kid for him it's not about Princeton for him it's about showing everyone because it came out it was all fine till I called it out on Twitter yeah maybe that's why everyone tells me to shut the fuck up but I called out on Twitter because I'm like this man's sitting back living his best life I'm just watching him like purchase things and do his little like cloud chases and do good and i'm sitting home fucking changing shitty diapers so i called it out and i realized the only time he

cares is about control damage on social media that well that's what narcissists do that was so you calling it out on twitter was a blow to his ego so he had to do damage control and make you look like the bad person so that it didn't hurt his ego yeah you know what i'm saying the thing he's like why don't you stop posting and go get your kid back i can't just go pick him up you know i'm in my classes i'm doing my thing but i'm not gonna let you sit here and like completely you already i already have thousands of people now or like at the time i'm like trying to tell because they put me in psychology all this stuff because it honestly i think they drug it drug it out so long because they couldn't find a probable cause that and they're getting paid for this you know the state gets paid for whatever they're doing there's got

to be something because they drug it out way too long but he even like said things that were just like why don't you just go get princeton and i'm like i can't just go like pick him up i gotta go through classes you know like i was the only mom that my caseworker said she's ever seen requests as many visits she's like I was like knocking down doors like I was at every visitation on time afterwards like is he seeing the kid now after all this never done DNA test and that is same from two years ago it's not a goddamn thing I've even so all that for nothing i've even forgiven and texted him and been like listen like you know one day like you're gonna have to answer for this and i'm kind of in a position where i'm kind of like alone you know like i don't have my family

anymore i've completely given everything into dropping so i can commit to my career and provide a good life for my kid and so it would be nice to have a little bit of help and not even a text nothing nothing it's like he only gave a fuck when dss was involved to try and fuck it up for me more because i think he was four kind of like yeah in a fucked up way to say it kind of for me not having princeton yeah but just to make his child's life like that's an evil human being to make a little boy go without his mom to just fucking be able to cause issues on social media literally just to get the clout on social well i mean i don't know if it was for that or if it's because he just he genuinely doesn't i guess want that well people make mistakes you know things happen we didn't

like plan it but it happened and i took responsibility for it like i'm not out here forcing anyone you know i could legally you know make this person be involved but i'm not doing that instead i'm doing a couple bullshit tweets cool ignore it and keep scrolling yeah you'll save yourself a bunch of lawyer fees and all that shit well that and don't do a whole fucking smear campaign to just not be a father i could understand if you were trying to be a dad but yeah when it's all said and done after all the bullshit you did, you didn't even step up. It's like so many people afterwards. I'm like,

does people not like see the bigger picture here? Cause like first you got DSS telling you you're a bad person, bad mom, dah, dah, dah, dah, right?

Yeah. Then you've got now Brandon thinking about himself and not the thousands of people who saw what he was posting, sending me death threats. So hold on a second. He changed his name. No, his real name okay but his fake name we're gonna bleep his last name out i can't i don't know if he's like a rapper

dj only fans i have no idea what he does anymore he does absolutely everything in their grandma yeah um let's not say his name because we don't even want to give him the clout or the subs this podcast is booming so much that bitches will go over there and fucking oh yeah no fuck him unless you're going over there to talk shit fuck him yeah i don't post i don't even talk shit to him on social media anymore because i'm like fuck that like yeah don't even who cares i feel like cool you fuck jeffree star but like i have an ex who actually i found out i feel like jeffree i love jeffree and i would love for jeffree to come on the podcast whenever he wants um i found out that i have an ex I love Jeffrey and I would love for Jeffrey to come on the podcast whenever he wants. I found out that I have an ex who fucking Jeffrey star sucked off and he said it was

the best blowjob he ever got. And the dude's not even well, I didn't think he was by at all. And then after him and I had been dating for like three months, he tells me that. And I was like, what? Like, if I can. But also there's a part of me that's like, it's Jeffrey fucking star. I don't care who you are. He could suck me off. Jeffrey, I don't give a care who you are. He could suck me off, Jeffree.

Literally, I don't give a fuck who you are. Like, you know what I mean? I think it's also like, that's where I feel bad for Jeffree Starr. Probably fucked up. He deals with people that are like, just leeches. Leeches. That's probably why he lives in fucking Wyoming now and doesn't fuck with anybody. He literally, did you know that he started like a yak farm and does not live in la lives in wyoming just fucking does his own thing that's how i feel i'm like yo i want

to go to a fucking field somewhere in a house where no one's around and just live yeah like i'm so fucking sick like oh i even threw some shit no i really i did when i first came on this podcast i was like so hey bitches that's why i didn't even take my meds today because i'm like mj be fun mj be fun don't be depressing don't be be real mj like people care about you they're invested in you yeah i'm just always so like if your heart hurts fucking it's okay to say it this is a fucking i love bringing girls like you on the podcast that everybody looks at like oh my god she's so beautiful. She has the world at her fingertips.

She's in the porn industry. She's fucking, you know, got everything she could want. And then people get the stereotype where they're like, oh, she could never battle mental illness or her heart never hurts. No, motherfucker. We're real humans. We go through a lot of shit. Yeah. No, seriously. the fucker we're real humans we go through a lot of shit yeah no seriously like i feel like

the girls in industries like this go through probably more more yeah and we're not minimizing anybody's trauma but we're in the situation where we're in more position and we put ourselves in more of a position to get hurt if that makes sense and it's like then also you're on camera all the time so you always have to have your personality and your smiling sense and it's like then also you're on camera all the time so you always have to have your personality and your smiling face and it's like you're trying to like heal from traumas but smiling and laughing all day and it's like that's not how you heal you know like there's we're like circus clowns no literally there's literally like i've heard so many talents say like like tell me stories and stuff and they're like I'm not their stage name they

say their real name because they everyone feels like you have this like mask on in the industry I feel like that's why I'm dude I'm so honest and open with my battle with mental illness literally there's been so many podcasts that I've done that I I've thought about killing myself fucking before the podcast you know because I'm battling with such bad depression or there's been podcasts where I've had to cut them short because I'm having a panic attack. You know, people, some people in the beginning used to be like, why do you chew gum? Because I have anxiety, you know, people don't realize that even though we're in the limelight and I talk about this on my Tik TOK too. I'm a Tik TOK or now. I know you are doing, you're actually killing it. I love it. I love you. You are a fucking TikTok queen now.

I figured it out. I figured it out. But I talk about it on my TikTok because people are like, you wear a pound of makeup and you're always working. How are you depressed? Motherfucker. That is depression. Depression has no face, you know?

So I love that you're coming on here today and that you're being 100% MJ because last time we got, you know, you got the face. I watched it and 100% MJ because last time we got you know you got the face I watched it and 100% I was like how cute yeah like well and also you've grown you've grown up I mean two years in the industry that you're in I mean you've been through some fucking shit I thought that I had seen the world and been through it when I first met like first came on the podcast now I think I have been through it and seen the world because I've been in some that's why i love bringing you back on and i want to always bring you back on because i want people to see that i love being here i feel fucking like i feel comfy and normal here i'm like thank god like people i don't i'm not about to like pop my coochie out

okay great awesome no i don't want that i want i want people to see your heart you know even though i fucking like love being you know i mean i love being a good time that's me but i'm just like you don't have to be on all the time i feel like i'm healing from like losing the fam still got the talks okay let's talk about the toxic boyfriend so when last time you were here you were single right caleb wasn't around then i had never even had a boyfriend in my life i had two girlfriends and that's it. Okay. So his name's Caleb, right? Caleb Duggan. Okay. First and last. California pizza. Oh.

If you ever want to go. And if your pizza's late, it's probably because they're in the back fucking. So let's talk about this. How long have you guys been together? Off and on. About two and a half years. Yeah. So like right after.

Yeah. So I remember when you guys first got together, I was just seeing the TikToks. And actually, yeah, yeah. I was saying that you guys were making tiktoks together and i was like oh my god mj's in love you know and then fucking fast forward to just i don't even know a couple months he did some fuck boy shit and like cheated on you how many times has he cheated on you now you're lucky he's not here everyone gets to say it's not cheating because i'm in porn but it is cheating i hate that i've been cheated on if somebody to omit information about a situation is manipulation and manipulation is lying lying is cheating hello cheating for me

is everything i don't give a motherfuck because I, I'm into like threesomes. I'm into absolutely everything. So I'm an open minded person. I love like you and jelly roll have like, you know what I mean? Other people. And so like, yeah,

me too. Okay. That's all right. I can't do that now in my relationship because he's fucked the trust up so bad to a point of like, you know what I mean? I can't even enjoy it how I want. I don't understand how men do that.

You can literally, my husband, we've always had a free relationship. I don't like saying open because fucking people are weird my husband we've always had a free relationship i don't like saying open because fucking people are weird they're like oh you guys are swingers no i i'm allowed to be with other people my husband does not want to know about me being with other people he's fine with not knowing about it he's like as long as it's not emotional and you're only having sex i don't give a fuck what you do just do it i on the other hand want to know what

my husband's doing so yes if you fucking find a little the last like on Instagram oh yeah for sure so if you find a bitch on tour that you want to fuck all you got to do is call me and say hey babe there's a cutie here and he's always like that's not true you would never be like that and I'm like try me no literally that's I swear to god I'm'm like, people are people. We make mistakes. You're going to go to a bar one day. You're going to accidentally like a picture on Instagram. You're going to accidentally kiss a girl.

I'm not going to like ruin my family and my relationship because of an accident. And also because of the industry we're in, we get it. We see so many married men cheat on their wives, dude. It's like, but them lying about it is grimy. It's lying for me. Right. I'm so sick of everyone fucking lying like people just fucking lie especially caleb my husband had a whole affair behind my back for a

year with one of his ex-girlfriends and then when he got caught he told me i thought you would be cool with it what part of i want to know everything that you're doing before you do it? Fucking. And it was emotional. Like, you know, like I, the girl spilled the beans. She sent me all their Snapchats, their text messages. Fucking she would record him. But just like randomly one day? Well, so Jay and I had split.

God, Mimi always knows the dates. I don't. I think we split in 2018. he had me knows he yeah she knows everything so he had left um the house and never came back um i went to california to go see one of my sugar daddies came back my whole entire house was packed up he had moved out i waited for two weeks tried to fucking you know reconcile with him find out what was going on but in my heart i knew something was going on i couldn couldn't figure it out. He had told me I was crazy. Gaslit me the entire time. Told me. Oh, yeah. We're always the crazy. We're always the crazy ones. Feeling always been right.

Always right. Never wrong. So fucking finally, after two weeks, I went to go see him at a concert and he treated me so bad. One of his friends told me if I were you, I would just go back to Vegasgas that instantly put a light bulb in my head that everything i had already fucking known was real because it was one of his friends telling me that so i fucking left the next day i packed up my house you literally just gave me goosebumps that's what his friend told me yes and it's like they confirm it right so i left and then of course fucking i'm back in vegas for not even two days and jay texted me i'm gonna tell you everything and he still didn't tell me everything but she did it's like pulling teeth

trying to get like that's the that was like your really really bad relationship yeah well that was jay that was my husband oh my god dude that's literally it sounds like caleb yeah he's jay i always say jay is a reformed narcissist when i I first got with jelly, he lied. He's going to kill me listening to this podcast. He fucking lied. He gaslit. He was a fuck boy and a half dude. And it took me leaving him and coming back and putting him through a fucking year of fucking torment, uh, before he really fucking changed. And he didn't change for me. He changed for himself and that's the key women are always like you need to change you need to do this you need to do that motherfuckers aren't going to change unless they want to oh yeah change for who they want to and

the number one person they want to change for is not us it's themselves yeah and he did it and he's reformed so i really do feel like people can change so let's get back to well good for you because listen i saw caleb like we we would break up i'd be motivated you know i mean pause i'd see him starting to do good and i'm like oh hell no motherfucker you did not just put me through hell for a year and you're just gonna go like be positive and good run it back so then he'll come back but then i don't know it's like a sense of like when's his birthday he's's a Leo. August 7th. Leo and a Virgo.

That's actually soulmate, Matt. You guys are probably twin flames. That's why there's so much pain there. It's no matter how bad he does me. It's like I see deeper in him because he was like a. So Caleb was a basketball star. You know what I mean? He was huge.

He was actually amazing. He was supposed to go to any college he wanted to. She said he was amazing. He was. And. But now go to any college he wanted to. She said he was amazing. He was. And. But now that was seven years ago. Right. He had pulled whatever bitch he wanted in high school.

Like he's the type of person that had that like pop moment. And then he had a bad thing happen in his life. He ended up doing things and he lost his scholarships and shit. Now all of his friends are signed off doing shit. And he's the one that always has to hear from everybody in his family and everyone around him of his friends are signed off doing shit and he's the one that always has to hear from everybody in his family and everyone around him like that's a hard pill to swallow yeah so he's always trying to like grab that back again then me and him date girls who's never responded him before responding you know what i mean i actually hate how bitches

are like that what the girl from pizza hut there's pictures of me and my kid all over the room like listen that's the one thing i told him so he really cheated on you with a bitch from pizza hut not that we're not california pizza but i don't want to even give that place that clout because i know they watch my porn in the back so i call it pizza hut because i don't care pizza whatever right and i don't shit on no one's job but if you are fucking on the job issues there okay well if you're committing if you're if you're cheating with somebody on your job then you deserve to get talk shit about you know yeah but like it's fucked up because he they didn't like so it was actually people from his work that told me yeah

and probably the most disgusting bitch i've ever seen and then it's so crazy because right after the cheating face up they never cheat up it's always down yeah no it literally cheated he cheated way down i think they literally just want the like they want the like because i mean who could he find better than me that he gets to feel powerful with right you don't have nothing in your bank account you live with your dad you're 27 years old you just said it though you just said it though when i asked jay one of the times i was like what what the fuck was it that you just fucking had to do that and he was like she just makes me feel good about myself he's yeah and it's like wait a second because i'm a fucking boss and i fucking run my shit it makes you feel like less of a man so you run to less of a bitch. And that's exactly what it is. Exactly.

Because you're so powerful in your own right that they need these little fucking hood rats that are just like that feed their ego. You know. Oh, my God. I swear. And at first I called this girl. Right. Called her literally just like, let me not be crazy. And on this girl, let me actually give this girl the benefit that let me try it the other way.

And so I call her trying to be a woman right yeah and i'm like listen caleb making it seem like you're this like stalker crazy i already know the situation they always do that they always make them seem like they're the obsessed one and i'm gonna go ahead and let this girl have a moment to say her side and then not have me be the crazy bitch that i am because she knows from being a pizza how crazy i fucking get and instead she lies and takes his and every bitch he's ever cheated on me with lies for him and i don't get it and i've i've been told because he plays victim right and he acts like he's scared of me and all this stuff what the fuck what are you scared about leave the door is open yeah walk out of it if you're so scared i'm literally eating this mic no you're fine i'm like literally like i don't people don't see like the bigger picture if a man's like so the victim

in this i'm controlling i'm crazy i'm all this stuff no i say what i want in my relationship i say how the fuck i feel and if you don't like it leave yeah he doesn't leave he stays right well so he loves you he does and i love him but and that's why i kind of like he fucks up because it it like helps his ego you know what i mean yeah absolutely i feel like it makes his ego feel good like oh i'm the man again just like high school you know yeah but it's like the people from his work were like well we thought you were like this like that's what he made them believe so they wouldn't snitch right and then when they did snitch they were like we only so his friends snitched him out once they found out that we were together i guess he had told him

like we broke up and stuff like that and then they all ended up snitching because he was fucking this girl in the back of california or pizza so the pizza place he worked there like his whole life kid all the way up until i don't know i guess until i made him quit i didn't know why i just made him quit i was like i just don't trust it like yeah he was facetiming me every day at work and i'm like nah i just don't trust it like i just saw some shit posted by shade room about um this girl facetiming her boyfriend all day at work yeah i saw that too i don't give a fuck like there's a reason she feels that type of way like Like, you know what I mean? And I just made him quit. And then he's always worked there. His house is next to there.

You know what I mean? And I don't fucking know. I guess this picture is all up. That's what I told him. I was like, I'm not mad that you did it. I'm mad you got it past me. Cause I'm good.

Like I'm really good. I pull mattresses out of walls. You know what I mean? I look for hairs. I take, I mean, anything you think of it, I do it. Yeah.

And he was like. Is the dick that good to be fucking running back to him? And that's what everyone says. No, it's just, I don't know. Like, I just, I've like cried with him. You know, he's like a, like, besides all the fucked up shit that he does to me, I sound like such a shitty, toxic bitch that's like i still love him but it's like i know he's not good for me i know but i know he does not good for himself right he

doesn't even know him and he's been through you're in love with the good parts of him yeah you're not in love with the bad parts of him but there's also you have trauma that needs to be healed because the way we love is how is things we weren't given when we were a child you know so you love him because he makes you feel good so good in certain times and then so terrible it's you guys have a trauma bond because you know yeah we bonded over like similar traumas but like the first night we met like because my brother passed away yeah and i met him we were like a we're honestly like a one-night stand like i was just home for covid and i'm like i'm going back to foreign soon my friends were just trying to make me and then this dude and i don't even know his name i texted

him next day i was like can you write it better than tesla like some rap lyrics or something being funny i think i was like drunk or something i don't know but i was just like so embarrassing and this kid like kept showing up at my house and shit you know like or i went to his house and then i wake up and he's making breakfast i'm like i'm trying to do like a little sneak out like what are you doing yeah like i'm on my like you know like my routine of life of like sugar daddies doing my thing like the whole you know like when i first got here and this man's like trying to cook me food and then like his homeboys like make a joke and he wants to like defend me and i'm like he gives you a sense of normalcy yeah i don't feel like i gotta play my role so much with him like i can fart and not worry about him judging me like he'll sit there

when i'm taking a shit and hold my hand you know what i mean like but then we'll fucking text a bitch while i'm like i don't understand how you can like love someone so much yeah that's me and do that yeah like i do porn but it's like when i'm on set like i don't like for me it's like business you know oh yeah i'm people don't enjoying it but i'm not feeling it like you know what i mean absolutely that's such a good way and caleb's dick is so much different than all porn dicks it's not a but i feel his dick you know like it's like i'm making love with that person yeah no to say that you enjoy it but you're not feeling it explain it's like hits the nail on the head people don't understand that it's a job you know like when we're in you know in this industry it's two

different people like you just said it's the lights are on the camera it's lights camera action and then it's the mask is off you know and that's what it is and people always want to use excuse well you're important it's only square people say that because like they don't understand i swear as people say i swear to god because i'm like i'm in porn but just like you know i mean the same way a male is going to get on set and have his wife and kids at home waiting on him. Yeah. The same way I am. Like, you know what I mean?

It'd be so nice to have someone you can trust. Yeah. To do those things. But like I tell Caleb, like, you know what I mean? After like when I do content, my agent books, my content, just so I don't have to like even DM guys and be like, hey, babe, like you want to meet up for content? Because I just know how insecure, like how Caleb is. Yeah. like you want to meet up for content because i just know how insecure like how caleb is yeah

so just to protect him from feeling anytime i've protected anything possible that can make him feel insecure or low i've even been like let's like brand the like stay at home dad not a lot of guys get your fucking job yeah i mean how many men how many men like get saved from the pizza hut and are like hey i mean save sorry i mean like you know take it for i did it with all of my exes jelly is the first dude i've ever dated that has his own shit going on and that is a boss everybody else i was mama bear and took care of them and fucking they were my little fucking cabana boys and i fucking just was the boss of the household that's how i am yeah i can't help it i can't help it i'm like well it's we're caretakers at heart you know because of how our childhood was.

So we just want to caretake and, you know, build people up. Yeah. And it's like even he just did this to me, too. Like I just found. Well, he lied about it for eight months. And I just when I got to L.A., found out about it because I literally like was there. How many times has he cheated on you that you can count? He only cheats with either super young girls or

super older girls how old is he because he has a mommy issue but he also has a i miss my high school basketball life issue um he's 27 and he cheats with how old um either they're like like old ladies like i'm talking moms with kids that are graduated from high school gross like me yeah well no no i'm talking no i'm talking about like like soccer moms type shit like you look like you know i mean you look like the sexy school teacher type shit like right they booked me for milf shit which i don't know how that's crazy i liked it because they were all like what the fuck why would you do that but i I was like, because I'm a MILF. And like, you know what I mean? I love it.

I love it. I wrote with it. But he'll cheat with MILFs. And then how old is the youngest that he's cheated with? So the girl from Pizza Hut, because the girl from Pizza Hut, this is the first time I've ever been able to get factual proof evidence. Any other time. It was just hearsay.

It was him admitting, oh, I kissed this old lady at a bar i'm not gonna ruin my family and like you know take my son's guy he calls dad out of his life yeah because of a kiss at a bar right but this time i have factual evidence and i'm like you can look me in the face right now and tell me like that this is the truth the full truth and you're ready to kiss your family goodbye if it's not 100 lied i'm like are you kidding me um but he's cheating on me probably other than like like fucking wise this is the first time i've had evidence but i've there's other situations that don't sit right with me that you know what i mean when you have like gut gut feeling. Oh, yeah. And it's like, you just know. Like, you just know your person.

And you know how they will act in a situation. And other than that, texting bitches. Like, it's just like. He's got a lot of growing up to do. He needs it. Not even for the sexual part of it. He needs it. How old was the girl at Pizza Hut?

She was like literally just graduated high school. Yikes. She was one of those girls that dm me all the time you look so pretty like that's scary that he's 27 banging fucking 17 or 18 year olds that's not a good thing right he can get in trouble for that i know and i feel like see that's the fucked up although i do like i'm young i like my men young so if i do it it's fine but right but i'm talking like 23 24 at least you know i could never bang an 18 year old there's no fucking way they look too young but like 24 20 25 just ripped and

shredded come on down swear no i see caleb has like this little baby face to him that's what i love like it's all like justin bieber hair like he's just like a little cute boy but i don't know where are you guys at now? So are you guys cool? Are you guys going to just be together and just ride this motherfucker out? She's like, I'm going to make him suffer. Honestly, I'm so shook about this one that I'm plotting. Yeah. I'm not jumping to like being crazy.

I'm plotting. Right. I'm like, I feel like either I can grow with this person and we can like you know i mean forgive and make it work like and because he has to figure out his insecurities yeah that's the biggest issue and i have to figure out nothing because i'm fine right no i'm just kidding i just i'm figuring out life and that's what i try to explain him is i'm like dude like you're 27 you've been through a bunch of relationships how old are you 22 i just turned 22 and it's my first relationship i'm like the mistakes that i've made you know

they're not like they're actual mistakes like the mistakes he's made he's done and made many times right he's lucky to have you he's lucky that you're your age and that you're so mature dude like most 22 year olds and he says that and then he'll turn around and do like cheating shit yeah and i'm like what the fuck well a leopard will change his habits before it'll change its spots so like i said men will only change when they're ready and he's 27 my husband it took my husband till about 37 to change wait hold on fuck how old is he hold on I got with Jay when he was 32 so Jay was probably about 34 when he really wanted to change yeah I think I think that like Caleb has a lot of growing up to do I think think 30 is probably about the time I could see him trying to change. I think right now he's still in his head like he has nothing to lose.

If we break up, where does he go? Right back to his dad's house? Right back to the pizza shop? Right back to the same place? But when he really loses you, he's going to fucking feel it. He knows right now that you love him. My thing is just like i all the so many guys just assume like like he does things like didn't plan my birthday you know like i plan like i

planned his birthday he sees all my friends how big i go for them and so i'm so my first birthday like no one did anything and so he was like you know like your next birthday i'm gonna go crazy yeah so my second birthday like with us together not my like second birthday, but me and him together, I'm like, you know, how many guys buy you a section at a club and some jewelry? A lot, you know, a lot. I could get a bunch of guys do that. And Caleb, I guess, overthunk it for so long or i'm not sure what excuse to use this time but i'm like dude all it was was some bologna in a blanket and some grass not one guy in the world's

taking me to a picnic you know like why do you think i date you different things obviously you know i'm dating a pizza boy not because his money you know like not because his looks not because there's not really much he has to offer but his heart yeah and then he cheats because he feels like he's gonna lose me and i'm not gonna stay with him okay well now you are because you're cheating on me with a bitch from pizza hut but i don't know i wish i brought i'm bringing caleb next time yeah i feel like you need to just have a little therapy sesh with him get him right yeah i would love to get wrong with him i would love to definitely meet him um what can we expect from mj in this next year coming up what does 2022 hold for you okay so last time i was listening to you i'm also checking on our food so just i'm listening

so last time on the podcast yeah the goals that i said were the complete opposite of what i did but this time for me i'm thinking i'm just not like now that i've had all these experiences and shit i'm not gonna put myself in a box and i'm just gonna i'm gonna do more you know what i mean do more of mj yeah and not so much because that's what i enjoyed when i first came i was like mj merch you know mj youtube like i love doing stuff for me and i feel like i started doing too much for others yeah so i think 2022 i'm just doing for me and i'm gonna speak for me and all that and whoever the fuck doesn't like it yeah you know i mean don't book me yeah don't shoot with me don't i don't give a fuck you know i mean at the end of the day i will be booked at

the end of the day i what i'll do another fucking job i'll do 10 more things but i'm not gonna like when one door closes another one opens so even if somebody does shut the door in your face there's gonna be somebody else who's gonna be like dude i respect her you know i respect that she fucking stands up for herself i want her to be a part of my business you know right and i know exactly what it's like when i did fucking do it and everyone's like you know like yeah tries to like not favorite it tries to not retweet no like everyone in the industry is just like oh and i'm like um you know i mean yeah how many other girls have gone through this and felt like fucking you can't say shit or do shit no i'm like you speak up normally that would make me like even more scared to do it for future references but i'm like fuck that from now on i'm talking my

shit yeah and as long as i say it legal legally the right way politically correct and the only person who could tell me not to is the law and that's it yeah so you're gonna keep shooting porn yeah i'm here for the law that's why i went through all the fucking dramas to be able to commit because everyone's everything was trying to stop me like so now i'm like here committed i'm doing the x3 expo awards that's exciting that is june 6th and to june 8th yay and i've never been to one before so i'm like nervous that'll be awesome yeah and um don't be nervous everybody's gonna love you yeah i'm gonna just do something something ratchet and crazy and get people's attention you know what i mean do what i do best um yeah so just focusing on your career and just being a mommy and hopefully Caleb will get us

fucking shit straight yeah actually be able to experience being a mom on my own now because before I was with Sam and I've always had someone helping me yeah and now I get to finally parent my kid the way that I want to how I want to and I'm excited for that this year before porn before anything else I'm excited to start my life with my son and like break my family's you know family has traditional what is it generational curses yeah that's exactly what the fuck I'm breaking and I went through hell to do it but that dude if that's even if that's all you do this year is break generational curses and do self-love and heal yourself from the shit that you shitstorm you've been through the past two years that's a lot people don't realize working through trauma and working through so much

bullshit is one exhausting and two it's amazing because you just get a release and if that's what you focus on this year do it you know fucking build yourself up make yourself feel good and just be the powerhouse that you are. Cause you literally have, you're just holding the world by the balls right now. MJ, all you gotta do is just go out there and fucking get it. Yeah. I know. I just fall in line. I know I came to you and that's exactly what you said. And then I was like, that's what I'm going to do. And then I went out there and I was like, started cutting my nails shorter, started toning it down, toning it down. And I'm like, fucking A. I was like started cutting my nails shorter started toning it down toning down and I'm like fucking a I'm I was like watching our old video like you're like telling me like little tips pointers and I'm like I fucking didn't listen to shit and I probably would have saved so much

trauma if I did girl I'm always here all you have to do is text me I know I remember I was like going through it one night and I was like I'm texting bunny i literally was just like who the fuck do i text that i could trust so i was like fucking buddy what the she's i could tell anyone no i need you no i got you anytime and i can't wait to have you back on why don't you tell people where they can find you tell them your only fans tell them your instagram fucking instagram is always deleting you i know i just got deleted again dude i don't know who's dick i gotta suck this i'm getting deleted from fucking instagram but hit me up it's crazy because some of these girls literally have their butthole meat just swinging around fucking every day and don't get fucking

deleted but literally i fucking post anything that if my legs are a little open too much the fucking post will get fucking taken down no i'm not kidding i had to make my account private yep and i realized if you make it private you have better chances but then they just deleted me again so i'm i just now made all my handles dad's love mj fresh i love that that handle is actually fucking cute because i keep every time i switch my handle it's like either i get deleted or it gets taken from me. And then normally it's by people who are a little bit more poppin'. So I'm like, what the fuck am I going to do?

So I just like, whatever. I love it. I think that would be a cute merch shirt too. Dad's love MJ Fresh. I'm doing merch. I'm going to do MJ Fresh Comrags and MJ Fresh Walk of Shame shirts for the X-Biz Awards or Expo. I love that. I love that. i'm actually finally

gonna do my merch two years later i love it just whenever you know what life comes in seasons and you are 22 baby you have so much time ahead of you to figure out who you are to brand yourself to fucking make a couple hundred more mistakes when i was 22 i wouldn't even have my head on as straight as you do so my hat goes off to girls as young as you that are fucking full-time moms that are in the industry that are fucking have your own i mean i always had my own place and my own money and shit but i wasn't a mom and i fucking was a drug addict i fucking was addicted to xanax and fucking cocaine i was a wild i'm so i was like lindsey lohan i'm so fucking happy i don't have to grow up with cameras the way

that you guys have to you know you have your fucking head on straight. You're going to have ups and downs in life. That's normal. Just fucking ride the roller coaster, but just learn from it and just keep fucking going, dude. Just use every fucking brick that gets thrown at you as part of, to build part of your empire. Yeah, I know. I literally feel like that's why we bond so much too is because like you tell stories and shit like that and I like relate so much I'm like holy fuck like yeah you've been through it so I know that like that's kind of why like it's always a place of love whenever I give people advice because I don't tell anybody what to do I'm just like it's free will so if you know do what you will with whatever it is that I try to give you advice on yeah but I feel like you've

been through it and maybe if I would have like, listen, I would have. We never learn. No, you have to learn yourself. Yeah, for sure. Wouldn't take it back for nothing. But yeah, I realize some people are just crazy out here. So I'm just my my business and talk my shit on my own. There you go. Well, MJ, I love you so much. And I love you. And I missed you. I love you so much. I love you and I missed you. I missed you too. I can't wait to see what 2022 holds for me. And we're going to get you back on the podcast. Maybe we won't wait two years. We'll just do a yearly MJ podcast.

Yes. And just have you come in and check in. Or we'll do one with Caleb soon. Yes. Everybody loves you. Every time you come on the podcast, everybody is just fucking in love with you. And MJ's not on meds.

So it's like full on MJ now. That's why I'm like hitting the goddamn mic and shit. I'm ADHD as fuck. No, I love it. I'm so happy that you came and I can't wait to see what this year holds for you.

I'm happy that I came too. I missed you. Thank you. I missed you too, baby. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye.