Dumb Blonde - Morgan Presley: Sex, Love and Laxatives

Episode Date: September 20, 2023

The very funny Morgan Presley sits down in the hot seat this week to talk with Bunnie about her rise to social media fame and how she accomplished it by just being her goofy and totally authentic self. Morgan shares her story of overcoming parental trauma and a toxic relationship to having the confidence to post online and show up in a way that landed her millions of fans, along with a lot of buzz about her new look. Then, her man Lou joins the show and shares the story of their love and explosive Tinder date. Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comMorgan: IG | TikTok See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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is this thing on bonnie who used to be a former sex worker and now hosts the podcast dumb blonde most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit and i was like i want to be super hot make a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's wife that was my goal as a child and here we are what's up you sexy motherfuckers welcome to another episode of dumb blonde todayonde. Today I have my personal favorite TikTok star. I know that you're so much more than a TikTok star but I know a lot of people know Morgan Presley on TikTok. What's up baby? How are you? Not much. What's up? She's like with that kind of intro. No I'm doing good. You're always one of my

favorite creators because you are so funny, dude. Oh, thank you. Like your stuff is original. It's, um, uh, it's relatable, you know, as well. You're sitting on the toilet shitting, like, you know, all that stuff just really tickles my pickle. You just put the whole life out there. Yeah. No, I love that. Unapologetically. How are welcome to Nashville yeah it's hot here uh humid yeah it's humid because I'm from Vegas so my husband's like it's fucking hot and I'm like no no it's not Vegas is different it's dry heat no it's this is like humid yeah I don't know I think I would rather prefer humid over dry how about you I don't know I kind of like the

humidity yeah yeah because it like i like sweating yeah i feel good yeah and it like leaves a good glow yeah like dewy you don't feel like you're aging as you're sitting there no i wonder if that's like a scientific thing yeah it could be like humidity helps you not age we need to look that up yeah we do i think that's important to know i know because then i'll be moving yeah google that hayley google that for me and let me know i'd be moving from california. Yeah, for sure. Or be getting Botox. Well, listen, join the club, baby.

I know. I'm getting a head wrinkle. I'm like, I'm 24 years old. Why am I having a head wrinkle? Are you 23? Don't 24. 24? When's your birthday?

March 11th. I'm a Pisces. So you're a Pisces. I'm a Pisces Venus. We're lovers. Oh, yeah, we are. We're dreamers and lovers. That's why you're so creative

and artsy. Yeah. Makes me like being alone and I like creating. She's like, I hate, but I also need to be loved. It's just chaos. Isn't that such a fucking contradiction? I love being alone, but I need to be loved. Yeah. I want to know more about your story. Okay. You opened up a little bit on Tik TOK and you had talked about your family and i loved when you did that because you know nobody knows the girl behind the i don't want to say facade but i feel like we're all putting on a little bit of a facade on our social medias because that's who we are we're just grandiose personalities and we just have to you know we want to make people smile we don't want to go on there and show the ups and downs and you know, the, the, the two real, like we want to be real, but not too real. Um, so you

were talking about, take me back. You grew up in Pennsylvania. Yes. I grew up in Pennsylvania. Um, and I grew up in a little, little trailer with my family there. Um, my dad, he was a truck driver and my mom didn't work. Um, then we moved to a little bit of a bigger he was a truck driver and my mom didn't work. Then we moved to a little bit of a bigger house. Him and my mom had like this really rough relationship. That's something I didn't talk about in the TikTok. When you say rough, what do you mean? It was very like verbally abusive. It's hard to grow up in a house full of parents that argue. That was one of the reasons why I left home at 14. Yeah. I was so tired of hearing my parents fight. Yeah. I mean, the same thing happened for me. I was 17 and like, as soon as I got the chance to leave, I did.

Yeah. Yeah. There was no way I wanted to stay there. I didn't even have like a job and I left like an hour from home, didn't have a job or anything. And I just saved up my money and left. Cause that was like the best thing that I could do for myself I feel like we don't talk about verbal I feel like everybody zeroes in on physical but like emotional and verbal abuse even if it's not directed at you you're growing up in such a chaotic household needs to be talked about no and it like it also warps your idea of what love is right which you Which, you know, like, fucked me up for a long time. Oh, I bet. Yeah.

I'm sure you're still processing it. My mom, like, chuck a big, like, ceramic rooster into my dad's head. And they were, like, tussling on the ground. And they never thought that my brother and I saw it. Yeah. We would, like, hide behind the doors and, like, crack it and see what was happening. And I don't think they ever like knew that we were watching that and seeing it but yeah we were like completely aware of it that's gotta be tough yeah and then

it's like you almost feel like you have to pick sides of the parent totally it's like you know it's like you want to be mad at your dad but you also love your dad but you want to be mad at your mom for saying this to your dad I know exactly how it it is. And it just, it gets to a point where it's just too much. Oh, it's an overload. Yeah. And like, that's how it was.

My brother was like on my dad's side and like the arguments and stuff. And I was on like my mom's side and that's just how it was. Like we were completely like divided. Oh no. I hate that for you guys. It is what it is. It's all right. I don't even talk to anybody in my fucking family.

Sometimes that's the better route literally that's what i had to do to keep the peace in my fucking head was just cut everybody off and just fucking you know i have no and if that brings you peace and then that that's what you need to do yeah i didn't talk to my family for a few years but recently i came back around and started talking to them and my dad apologized for you know whatever happened in my childhood and are your parents still together no they divorced whenever um like right after high school because they wanted to stay together for the kids you know time i think that's the biggest mistake that parents make totally staying together for the kids yeah pretty much damage them more than if you guys split up and were happy and can learn how to co-parent together a thousand percent

like i remember sleeping at my grandma's house like i saw this tiktok it was like you don't know you don't know parental trauma unless you stayed with your grandma and i was like damn i stayed with my grandma we put our stuff in trash bags and left oh yeah i hate that so you said that you saved up money so you still went to school during all this. Did you graduate high school? Yeah, I graduated high school. I went to college for only like five days before dropping out. Yeah. But I just tell me to wait to don't don't skim over that so fast. Let's talk about it. So you went to college and you what college did you go to? I went to a community college. Okay. And I got there and it was weird. Like I remember like getting my Starbucks before school in the morning. And this was like right when the semester started, I would like sit in my car and I would see everyone so excited to

go inside and I would go into my class and I would just be like what am I doing here like I don't I don't even have like an idea of what I want to do with my life I was sitting in this classroom learning fractions again for the 50th time like what am I doing like it's almost like we're programmed yeah like you have to go to college. You have to do this if you want to be successful. Yeah, that's exactly what it felt like. And also, like, I hate being a people pleaser, but I wanted to please my parents. Right.

Like, they wanted me to go to college, you know, because, like, my parents didn't go to college when they were young. They didn't want me making that same mistake. And my older brother was already in college. And I didn't want to be the person to be like yeah I'm gonna go move out and work odd jobs until I figure out what I want to do it just sounded stupid right you want you wanted to please your parents but at the same time have a game plan yeah well clearly that didn't last long only five days no that's fine I actually went to college for to get my prereqs to be a dentist

yeah and I went there for a week and I was like I can't even stand the fucking sight of blood what am I doing here literally I pass out when I see blood too I don't blame you yeah and then they told me the suicide rate of Dennis and I was like oh god I'm already heard about that isn't that like some of the highest like yeah which is I have no idea I have no fucking idea but honestly I had this Dennis his name was Dr. in Vegas and he was fucking insane the The dude would like, he would like do stuff in my mouth. And like, if I was bleeding, he would be like, your blood smells so fresh. What a psycho. And then he told me one day about how he used to wash his horse naked and like, it was crazy. And then fucking, I guess he had a house next door to the fucking dentist place that he worked out of. And

he used to throw rocks at little boys to like try to get them to come in his house yeah no it was i've the i've had really jeffrey domino's going on had a really weird experience with dennis so yeah i was just like you know what after a week i was just like you know when something's not for you you're just like no my heart's not in it i'm not gonna it. So you gave up going to college after five days. What do you do after that? Well, that's when I decided to move to Orlando. So then I went to Orlando. I got a job working at Ulta because I was like, well, I like makeup. I can do this, I guess. Worked there. Then I went to Dior. I did makeup for Dior for like a year. And then

I ended up getting fired for break dancing like how rude you know I mean who doesn't want to bust a worm I know that's what I did I literally busted a worm to Michael Jackson that's hilarious I thought it was funny and I was wearing like a Dior dress yeah like that's what you have to wear the uniform yeah and I like so I worked at a counter but there was also a manager for like the entire department there was also a manager for the entire department store. Yeah. And the manager for the department store was like, yeah, do it. Kick off your heels and go break dance. So I took off my heels, and I just started doing the worm. And then apparently someone from my Dior counter recorded me and sent it off to the manager

of the whole thing. What an asshole. Yeah. And then I was too embarrassed after she was yelling at me, and I just quit. And I was like, well. It probably triggered your childhood trauma. Yeah, literally. Getting yelled at. I was like yelling at me and I just quit. And I was like, well, it probably triggered your childhood trauma. Yeah. Getting yelled at.

I was like, I can't even be myself. I'm out of here. But yeah, then I didn't do anything. And then COVID started. And then that's when I started doing TikToks. Yeah. That's just crazy how life is. You go from working at a Dior counter to millions of followers on TikTok.

Which is so weird. Like, I don't feel like I have followers on TikTok like I keep trying to explain this to people but I'm like I feel so freaking normal yeah like so normal that it hurts like I don't feel like I have any type of clout whenever people are like oh my god I love you I'm like why yeah I love that though no I love that and that's why everybody does love you because you are so relatable. Take me on the TikTok journey. And is this, are you in a relationship during this time? Okay. Cause I have seen, can we talk about that relationship? I don't want to be disrespectful. Yeah. Okay, cool. Yeah. So talk about the relationship and then how you got into TikTok

and how you found out that he was cheating with okay yeah so basically that started in 20 2014 uh-huh oh okay wow and so you guys were together for a long time this just wasn't a flash in the pan no it was seven years wow yeah um that's who i moved out with whenever i was 17 so he was like what? Fuck it. Like the things with your family, it's rough. So we'll go. Was he older? He was a year older than me. Okay. So yeah. So when I was 17, he was 18. That's how we were able to get an apartment because he was a year older. Um, but yeah, we moved to Orlando. Um, I don't know. Things just started getting weird whenever I started doing Tik TOK. Um, I went through like a little, like, I don't know, just started getting weird whenever i started doing tiktok um i went through like a little like i don't know like a phase of just like wow i can be myself again like i can you know do whatever i want so i cut my hair i dyed it brown um i gained a little

bit of weight as well over covid like who didn't yeah we were sitting there eating the whole time nothing we could say we're all locked in a house yeah um. But I remember one day I was walking by his gaming room. He was a gamer. Red flag, by the way. Don't do that. My husband's a gamer. Oh, never mind. But yeah, I was walking by his room and I heard a girl's voice and I was like, okay, that's weird. But like, I'm not the jealous type where I'm going to be like, you're streaming with a girl, like you're done, whatever. But the way he was talking to her was like the way that he would talk to me, like before things started getting weird. Like when we first met, like that flirty, whatever vibe. And he's just doing this with you in the house. Yeah. That's crazy. I know.

And I was like, Hmm. So I talked to him about it and I was like, I feel uncomfortable the way you were talking to her. It's not that you were talking to her. It's just the way. Yeah. So I can tell, you know, it's like the woman's intuition. You can tell when something's weird. Absolutely. So he was like, OK, like I won't talk to her anymore if it makes you uncomfortable. And I was like, cool.

You know, whatever. A year goes by. I walk by his room again and I hear the same girl. I could tell it was her voice. A year. A year. Goes by. So he never talks to her again in front of you.

But I don't know right yeah so so what i found out he was doing is he would come check in check in on me at night make sure i was asleep and then go talk to her because i started staying awake for this like he would check on me i would pretend to sleep i would get up go to the door and hear him talking to her wow and i would sit there and listen in this conversation, but the disrespect, but the restraint that you have, dude, I would have fucking flown through that door so fast. I know it was hard, but like, I felt so stuck. Cause I was like, this is like most of my life. And this is the end of this person. I don't know myself. I can't get out of here because I had like maybe a hundred thousand followers. I didn't,

I wasn't getting money, you know, like I didn't have the income to just go. And I wasn't. It seems to be a theme of you in your life peeking behind the door watching people hurt you. Yeah. That's a good point. Wow. No, but, um, yeah. So eventually, um, hold on. Let me think of where this is going. You would wake up and oh yeah yeah so he would be talking to this girl um and I obviously couldn't leave because I didn't have the money for it um but yeah one day he said he was going on a beach vacation and I was like okay like he did that a couple times before where he would just go clear his head without me and I was like okay so I was going to LA he was going to a beach beach house thing um his sister actually sent me a snap like a snapchat like a screenshot of him with some girl

why did she do that just to tip you off yeah she was like hey like something's happening I don't know if you guys are broken up or what but he's with this girl wow yeah so when I came back to LA I was like okay well shout out to the sister though no literally she even to this day still messages me and checks in on me and she's so sweet that was his little sister too i think she was like 16 at the time but yeah major respect for her um but yeah after that that's whenever i decided to like get up and move um he also left he moved in with her you're leaving out a major part yeah but i didn't find out yet oh okay i didn't know so i'm like waiting with like bated breath yeah so

basically how i found that out um you know after a breakup you you creep on someone yeah for sure so i went on his instagram i saw a picture of them together and they were celebrating her 18th birthday a year after this had all been over. Yeah. So I was like, okay, so you were talking to her two years ago, which means she was 16. And how old was he? He was 20, 22. I couldn't imagine.

That is so weird. Yeah. And it just like, it made me angry not at her but at him i'm like she's a kid she doesn't even know yeah you know and it i i don't want to say i get where she's coming from but i kind of do because he was loaded he had money and this girl got like lucky in a way she was she probably thought that this is everything for her you know little like knowing that he was like manipulative and probably would cheat on her too like yeah I wish I could replace her with a newer model whenever she gets you know I just felt so bad

for her but I'm not the person to be like hey by the way like just letting you know who this person is like well that doesn't work anyways girls don't listen exactly and it's not my place to do that right you know yeah but yeah how are you feeling during this time just completely are you heartbroken or just pissed off she's like hell no no I wasn't even heartbroken like I would tell my friends during this time I feel like I'm living with a roommate you know like I had hit milestones with my tiktok like I remember I had a million followers I was so excited and I was like pumped and he was talking to her. And I was like, OK, well, never mind. So I went down the highway, blasted congratulations by Post Malone and living my best life.

But yeah. And whenever I left, I was happy and relieved. Yeah. That I didn't have to deal with it anymore. You know, he was jealous of you. No, I know that's what it was because he had been trying to stream like and be a professional streamer for years and years and years and years and it took me no effort to like well just being yourself because people love you for you being myself and it blew me up so quick so let's talk about how fast it blew you up like

so you get on tiktok in Late 2019, I think like October. Okay. Take me on that journey. So starting off, I was like, I did not know what I was doing. Yeah. Like I was, I don't know. I didn't even know how TikTok worked. But someone we mutually follow, Gary Vaynerchuk.

Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So I saw that he was like, get on TikTok. Like TikTok's the new thing. And I was like, sure, I'll listen. I've tried YouTube for years. It's not working. I'll try TikTok, whatever. Yeah. So I got on there and I posted my first TikTok. Like TikTok's the new thing. And I was like, sure, I'll listen. I've tried YouTube for years. It's not working. I'll try TikTok, whatever. Yeah. So I got on there and I posted my first TikTok. It was like this little like outfit, corny little outfit thing. And it got

800 views. And I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but like my YouTube videos were at like 1.2. Yeah. You know? And I was like, it's that easy. And I don't even have followers and I'm getting views on stuff. Yeah. So that's when realized it if you make good content and get exposure you're gonna blow up oh yeah for sure so I did those kind of videos for a little bit and then one day I was like you know what let's try to do something comedy so I put all my clothes on like hoodies whatever and I drowned myself in my tub my bathtub and made this like stupid joke and that was my first like viral video it hit like two million that was like in the second week doing TikTok and ever since then I was like interesting so I'm just gonna do relatable content that people love original yeah

and still be myself and it seems like people like me you know so that's I just took off with it and then within a year I hit a million followers I was I was posting like eight to 12 videos every single day. That's crazy. Well, it becomes a lifestyle. People ask me all the time. They're like, how do you keep up with all your social medias? And I'm like, it's work. It's business. No, if you look at it as work, you know that you have to do it. It's not just like, I mean, it is fun fun but it's your livelihood yeah it's your job yeah yeah for sure totally so you're getting gaining all this success on TikTok and you know you're pretty much like telling your story putting it out there you are very open about mental health and I know a lot of people give you a hard time because of how you looked before yeah and as to now can you kind of take me on that

journey and like how does that make you feel when people say stuff like that and then also you know why the transition with how you looked hmm so it doesn't really bother me whenever people say that they like prefer how I look before because I know I'm still the same person yeah you're still gorgeous shaved my head okay like yeah it doesn't bother me and also like I know that those photos were heavily photoshopped right you know like come on I was face tuning the fuck out of my face right um but but you're still beautiful you still have the same face like it's not like you look drastically different thank you yeah I like my new shaved head. Nice. I have fuzzy.

I wish I could shave my head. My head's too big. I have a Dominguez. There's no fucking way. I would look like fucking that dude off of, what is that fucking movie? Megamind? Predator. Oh.

I was going to say Megamind. Just fucking like big. Yeah. Whatever. Whoever has the biggest head, that's me. See, but then you could look like a cool alien. Yeah, literally. I don't know. My husband would be like just palm in my head. Yeah i don't know how the transition happened it just like over time

like did you just get tired of being like yeah every other blonde and like definitely because like inside i was like always this like super weird girl yeah like i have videos of me looking like with the blonde hair like dancing and like making cracking jokes and making the weird faces that I do but that was all behind like the camera you know what I mean and like if I ever had those videos no way would I post them you know yeah but like I was always the same person but now like I feel like the outside actually matches my inside right because like I'm just I don't know embracing it's just a sort of like liberating freedom yeah totally not having to be a stereotype like I honestly I felt better whenever I had gained weight and I had the grown-out hair and like

whatever versus like when I was a skinny little blonde like I felt better as the worst version of myself yeah that which is weird I understand that yeah because you have to it's expectations society puts such ridiculous standards on women totally it's like men can age gracefully but heaven fucking forbid if a woman gets a damn wrinkle or literally you know like it's fucked up I'm thinking about Botox because I have like a little tiny wrinkle on my forehead I'm like listen I'm all for maintenance I'm 43 yeah so I'm all see but you look like you're 20. I love you. In your 20s. We can make out after this.

OK. But I believe in maintenance because I started getting Botox in my 20s. And that's why I don't have wrinkles now is because I did. I got Botox. Yeah. Not saying that you have to go out and get Botox. Some of you bitches are blessed and fucking don't get wrinkles at all. But that wasn't the case with me.

My mom looked like Shrek. So I had to do everything I could do to fucking prevent that from happening. I don't have great genetics either. I heard at 25, that's when your body starts actually like decomposing and like dying essentially. So next year's the year for a little Botox. God, I'm like the grip keeper over here then. You look good. It's all the drugs and alcohol I did that preserved me. Did you ever get into drugs and alcohol yeah

can we talk about that sure um so i've been sober for almost a year congratulations yeah i've been sober for about i think like six or seven years now congratulations thank you so much it sucks um i know sobriety fucking sucks yeah it's the worst fucking thing i miss like the bar scene and doing the key bumps in the bathroom dude off the fucking dirty ass toilet yeah yeah my ocd is on overdrive right like crowded all the girls in the bathroom oh dude i would fucking snort coke off strippers that i didn't even know fucking see i never got the chance oh man well listen if you ever go back you got to do it at least once all right but don't do it now because drugs nowadays they're fucking just you can't trust you can't trust it yeah i know i used to give out fentanyl test strips at the bars yeah everyone if you're doing coke like make sure you don't got fentanyl like we

don't need any overdoses yeah for sure and stuff like that oh yeah take me on your drug journey so basically after the good old breakup i had never drank i was 20 20 21 22 i'd never drank before like he wouldn't let me so i went out to a bar for the first time whenever things started just falling apart he wouldn't let you he seems like a real controlling yeah like he wouldn't let me have friends i had this gay friend that like a gay guy he was so pissed so pissed i did was insecure as fuck yeah clearly like he didn't even have any friends. Like, shut the fuck up. What a turd. Yeah. But clearly he's fucking gaming with 16 year olds. Shows his mentality. Yeah. Anyways. But yeah, I started drinking for the first time. And then, you know, a friend of mine pulled out a little Coke bag. That was fun. Yeah, very fun.

But then it got to a point where, I don know in my head i was like coke is gonna help me focus and it is gonna help me wake up in the morning and it is gonna help me get creative because i thought it did coke made me shit that too like every time you know everybody who's doing bumps of cocaine they've got skid marks and yeah i know for sure you are going straight to the bathroom and taking a dump yeah that's literally what it was like. Take a bump, you go shit. Yeah. Take a bump, take a dump. Literally a bump and a dumpy.

Yeah, exactly. But yeah, I started like doing coke in the mornings to like. Good Lord. Be creative and shit. You're a fucking savage. Yeah. It was bad. I had to be shit faced to do low. See, that's what, I mean, at first.

Yeah. But then I was like, this is helping me like. I love you. Get into my zone. She's like, i found a positive and a negative literally um but then you know you start hearing the birds your heartbeat's like god you can hear your heartbeat in your fucking ears that's the worst dude um and then like start drinking mouthwash to calm down literally occasionally i would go on vendors with my

friends you know like a couple days straight drinking and blow. But I never really liked doing that because like the voices. Yeah, no. Terrifying. No, it's brutal. And the last time I did coke heavily, heavily at least, I was at my house on a bender with one of my friends. And I had been doing a snorting lines of Adderall, snorting lines of coke. Damn.

And drinking heavily. Your heart was like, which way is up? It was fucked. It was like two days um and then i tried to go to sleep and that is the worst feeling in the world when you just want to sleep on drugs and you can't yeah that's why we used to drink mouthwash because it had alcohol in it oh that's smart no i mean is it but your breath is gonna smell great i mean is it smart or is it desperate maybe a little bit both iconic yeah um but yeah i remember like laying in bed and i don't know if i was overdosing or what this was but i felt like this is gonna sound absolutely batshit crazy but i felt my soul like leaving my body like i was up there yeah and i would have to like keep coming back to consciousness to like

suck it in almost oh and it happened all night and i remember like i've never prayed before but i literally sat there and i was like listen if i fucking wake up in the morning like i will not do this shit again because i literally thought i was dying like i could feel my heart and like my soul was leaving and that was so scary and i woke up the next morning thank god and i woke up and i just started crying i was like i cannot believe i'm here like that's crazy yeah but yeah that's when i was really like okay you have an issue yeah and you need to cut it the fuck out sometimes we need hard lessons like that yeah i was on a bender one time so fucked up in my house by myself i tried to smoke cocaine like it was crack

you're done that's what we draw and i've never told anybody that but it was one of those vendors where you just get weird you know and it's fucking i think i was digging in the carpet and found like a couple like fucking just hard rocks that hadn't been broken up that i could snort and tried to fucking smoke them and i was like smoked a fucking two packs of newports that night and i just remember thinking like i can't live like this anymore this is fucking gross you know carbon from the outside you're like what the yeah fuck yeah like looking back on it it's wild i love that you had enough um you know self-awareness to be like this is not how i should fucking live yeah no it's it I think it really hit me I was gonna go see my dad I've never told anyone this but I was gonna go see my dad and I went over and I was

even fucked up when I would go see my family um and I remember my dad hugging me and he was like I can't feel anything but bones and that just broke my heart I was like I didn't even realize that I was getting like so skinny yeah and until he said like I can't feel you I can just feel bones it broke my heart yeah so dad kind of indirectly saved you too yeah yeah totally like just feeling how sad he was like he didn't even know what was going on but right just even hearing that I was like okay like I can't have my dad say that to me but at the time I was like that's a compliment because we're so sick our eating disorders were like no literally nothing tastes as good as skinny literally that was another reason i did it too i was like i don't want to eat so

see the thing is is i wouldn't eat while i was on it but lord when i came down literally pizza fucking the dominoes a pizza uh chicken kickers were my thing i mean i was fucking robust for a coke addict yeah okay like just pleasantly plump. I know. I could even eat on it sometimes, which was disappointing. I'm like, come on. What's the point? So on the road to sobriety, how easy was it for you to quit?

Were you able to just wake up and be like, you know what? I learned my lesson. I don't want to do this. Or was it more of like it was kind of a process? Yeah. So it was cold turkey. It was not a process at all. I'm the same way. Once I'm done with something, I'm like, fuck process. Yeah. So it was cold Turkey. It was not a process at all. I'm the same way. Once I'm done with something, I'm like, fuck that. Yeah. Literally. Like

once I put it down, I didn't pick it back up. And that's just that good. I'm so proud of you. A lot of people can't do that, you know, but whenever I say people are like, how did you stop doing pills and stuff? And I'm like, I just didn't want to do them one day. And I never did them again. If in your head, you don't want to do something you just won't you know what I mean yeah if you're like I don't want to do this shit anymore I think it's where you get to a point of just being so disgusted with yourself and you're just like what in the fuck like who am I what am I doing I'm better than this I'm smoking cocaine rocks you know like with carpet fuzz on them you know like I can't do this it's not worth it come on all. So let's talk about sobriety. We had started touching base on that and I told you how much sobriety sucks.

Yeah. How's your mental health since getting sober and moving to L.A.? And how did you get to L.A.? Let's get there. So basically a lot of my friends, not only friends, but sober friends live in L.A. Right. That's awesome. Yeah.

So it's good to have like a good community around you but also I was flying to LA like constantly I was like this is so much money like thousand dollar tickets back and forth like from Florida yes Orlando Florida so I was doing that and I was like I'm just gonna move and even before I or whenever I met Lou I even told him I was like listen I'm moving to LA.A. You can come with me. You can stay. It's up to you. He decided to come with me.

Yeah, Lou is here. You want to bring Lou in? Come on in. Come on down, Lou. You guys are so cute together. Thanks. So you're going to sit right there and then you can adjust the microphone to your liking and we'll kind of ease you into the

story so we okay we got lou's microphone working so i don't know if you guys heard before or not but we're bringing lou in because they met um in orlando before they moved to la and they were just telling us about their first night their first date meeting on tinder take it from there baby all right so we're talking lots and lots of talking and then was it sexual talking of course yeah baby no so this is exactly what happened um so it's really weird i came from overseas because i just got out the army right so i moved in with my brother because he was having a hard time because of my whole family situation. Right. And next thing you know,

I put on my Tinder bio. I know it's kind of silly to put it in your Tinder bio, but I put, just looking for friends, I just moved here. Aw. But next thing you know, it's just like two in the morning,

she's just sexual innuendo. Innuendo, innuendo, innuendo. I'm a send, like you know like the little gifs? I was sending like little sexy gifs. Well, she gets the point of Tinder. Tinder is like an app to like fuck. Yeah.

Yeah. What was it that attracted you to him so much? He had such a cool style and like vibe and like Florida people don't have that. I'm sorry. Anyone in Florida, but like step it up. But yeah, he had like a really dope style. And he was also like in tune with his emotions and like he respected women. Crazy. Right. Right. So I was like this one right here and what attracted you to her uh honestly

she was a lot different like she said like all the people i've interacted with in the past um like platonic or not platonic they were they were just weird you know they didn't mess well i don't know if it's just because i'm anti-social with my capricorn abilities or whatever you want to call it i love that i'm a cap aquarius yeah yeah so next you know when i met her it was just so cap and pisces are soulmate signs by the way no that's the first thing we looked up we looked it up oh good yeah so next thing you know it was like really weird because like how you said you know it's that instant connection like even off the fact like i first stated hey i'm just here for friends nothing nature of that nature

or whatever right next thing you know she just like blended so well with me and next thing you know it just took off it just took off like when she threw out the first you know a little you know risky text i was like i'm receiving it so i get out okay yeah you know we're gonna roll the dice risk it for the biscuit yeah yeah why do you think i went and picked him up in the middle of the night come on right so it's five o'clock in the morning yeah you're like bitch i'm coming over yeah okay i'm picking you up so i hop in my car and i drive to him and i'm in the boonies of florida i'm like i've never been here before i'm scared anyways i park on this dark street turn my lights on and i'm sitting outside waiting and all of a sudden he comes up to me and he kisses my

cheek i've never even like met this man before but that was his promise to me he was like i'll kiss you on the cheek when i see you whatever oh make sure it's not some stranger i know right stranger dangers i was like okay she's like it's 5 a.m my motor's revved and ruined ready to go i'm ready to roll um but you can explain what happened when you got in the car oh lord so i don't even know how it happened like in her profile you know i was oh she smoked cigarettes i'm like okay whatever i smoke cigarettes not a big deal right i thought you know the whole memes of like some women having messy cars was like not real i thought i was like oh this is the misogynist thing i opened the passenger door and all you hear is arizona red bull

just trying to sift inside literally like i did not clean the car out for him there's red bull cans stacked bitch i love you that is she's like take me as i am oh yeah here we are i have arrived literally i didn't even like i didn't i wasn't even like oh just watch out for the kids like i just let them get in. The eagle has landed. Literally. I was like, here we are. Yeah, it was like, instantly I was like, this is my kind of woman.

He's like, I love a trashy bitch. Yeah, literally, I was just like, don't worry, I got you. I was like, you want more, bro? I was like, yes. She's like, you see my car, you should see my pussy. I love that. Just as chaotic. That's amazing yeah so you

guys go back to your place and what happens there the fun doesn't stop no we're like old people when we get inside i'm like this isn't my home would you like a pot of coffee we made a pot of coffee pot of coffee at 5 a.m yeah well you weren't on blow were you no okay of course not i was like a couple dates later okay yeah um she's like i was sober and somber yeah um but yeah we made a pot of coffee and then we have a similar artist that we love orville peck oh yeah yeah he's like our favorite so i had i had a record player i had orville peck record he used to be married to kat von d right i don't know i might be thinking of the wrong orville that's a different von d right i don't know i might be thinking of the wrong orville that's a different guy okay maybe i don't know never mind scratch that but i don't know roses is falling that's our favorite song and we danced and then we kissed so yeah then you know

where things went from there right this one oh my god it's like sometimes i have to wear a chastity belt around her it's really bad she's horny yeah that's good i don't even know if that's the word it's feral she's she's pice she's a pisces i'm a pisces venus i'm feral too like you i have you i have an insatiable appetite for sex like literally like the rob zombie song i know swear to god like it's just you can't stop it like i'm sure on the first day it was like 15 times good lord and you kept up yes lou i just got out the military i still had to stay on when i didn't have lou is the man i know i love that it was wild i was like so what you respect women you're fucking like no other yeah like you fucking hit the jack or you guys both hit the jack he likes

my trash yeah literally eat my trash literally shout out chelsea lynn he accepted me with four cats ah i love that yeah so but you guys also did something odd the first night too yeah it got shit got weird literally literally shit um so on first dates and just dates in general and around new people, I have like a fear of shitting. Like I don't want to like blow up my bathroom and then walk in. I don't know why. That's like my thing.

Now, listen, the most turned off I've ever been was a guy took a dump before he climbed his shit crumb ass into bed to have sex. And it's all I could think about. Exactly. Literally. I was just like, there's the point. You know what I mean? But I was so afraid. And I was like, could think about. Exactly. I was just like, there's the point. You know what I mean? Yeah. But I was so afraid.

And I was like, I had a studio apartment too. It wasn't like I had this big place where I can go like be alone. Like he's going to hear it. You didn't have a number two bathroom. No, he's going to hear it. You know? So I was like, or he pitched the idea. Like, let's just take laxatives.

And I was like, not drugs, laxatives, ladies and gentlemen. I don't know why gentlemen because i wanted to be comfortable and i guess the idea was that like if we're both just shitting so much and like interchanging in the bathroom then we're just automatically comfortable with each other were you guys still banging during this yeah i think so yeah yeah you guys are just little dirt balls i love it yeah i love it it's bad me and my husband are dirt bags too the laxatives didn't hit until like 5 a.m oh it was so bad the next day yeah we took so you guys literally just stayed together 24 hours yeah it was great but yeah we're just i

ran to the bathroom yeah he ran to the bathroom and he woke me up because like he was going going to go to the bathroom and like as soon as like he woke me up i was like oh my god i'm about to shit my pants like i'm about to shit what if one of you guys had to like shit in the bathtub while the other one was literally that was the fear it almost got to that point i have a drain i used to have a drain out on my balcony that was like the second idea i was like i'm just gonna shit in the drain and then like what like dump some water down oh god i don't know but yeah we were like interchanging in the bathroom for hours and it was just like booty freckles all over the toilet seat dude smelled like little pepper butt i love that that's what i call him i call him pepper butt because he has like little turds stuck on his

butthole all the time how rude so i mean that's love you guys literally had to fall in love at first laxative and it was just like so nice because like after that whole interaction it was we were so comfortable pooping you know what I mean like how can you not be yeah I mean literally you guys fucking opened up that door wide open yeah I love that though so take me on this journey you guys decide to stay together what happens after the first night um i think i think i took you home and then like a few days later we hung out again yeah so basically like we hung out the first day after that after a lot of pooping i was tired i was like all right

i mean you rammed her 15 times and shit your brains out. That's, you probably dehydrated. The bad thing is, though, like, as soon as he dropped me off that morning, or, like, that afternoon, I had a sift to go work with my brother. Oh, no. At a restaurant. Yeah. And I was just, like, in the dis- Because, like, I just got out of the army and everything like that. I was waiting for all my transfer paperwork.

So, like, just to help my brother out, because he was going through a really rough time. So, I was like, all right, whatever. I'll go watch this if I have to help you out, man. Whatever. So, I'm doing that. And I'm'm like half asleep just after hanging out with her and actually i'm like all right you know what fuck it dude fuck it then yeah yeah um and then after a few more times hanging out he literally moved in i love that yeah i was like come on yeah so yeah and then he moved in oh she's like yeah it was like after come on. Come, come, come, come, come. Yeah. So yeah, and then he moved in. Aw, she's like, come, come, come, come, come. Yeah.

It was like after her second date. She was just like, oh, hey, I really like you, da, da, da, da, da. But, you know, are you cool? Because, you know, with her prior history, my prior history with dating, we both are like kind of sketchy with dating. Yeah. So she was like, you mind taking it, like, if we take it a little slow, like going a couple of dates first. Not even the second date, we get coffee and then she turns and she's like, I can't wait.

I'm sorry. Do you want to be my boyfriend? Yeah. And then we moved in shortly after that. I think those are the best relationships. My husband and I got married a month after meeting each other. If you know, you know,

you know what I mean? Exactly. Yeah. You just gotta follow it. Yeah. Especially for people like us who are fucking anxiety ridden and, you know, dare I say mentally ill.

Cause we all have a little bit of it. Um, you know who your person is and who you feel safe with exactly that's a feeling that you never want to let go exactly i remember telling you that like on our first date i was like i've never felt like so safe and comfortable like on our first date usually i'm like anxious and like shaky and i can't think straight but like i was just comfortable it's like i already knew you for like years yeah It was really sad to hear, like, a lot of her background story. You know, like, I remember.

You don't mind me saying that? Yeah. Okay, cool. But, like, one time, I think we were in bed watching The Price is Right out of all things. Just watching The Price is Right. Bob Barker. Yeah. I love him.

I always wanted to go on that show. Yeah, we were watching that and then eating, like, what, Guy Fieri or something? Yeah. It was so weird. Guy Fieri. But, like, I went, like, you know, to do, like, the arm over so she can, like, you know like you know lay on your whatever and she flinched a little bit and that shit broke my heart you know like that shit broke my heart because like she was saying i grew up watching that always so when i like when she did that i was like no no no drop like literally drop everything pause the tv and

like comfort her immediately yeah because that's the type of person i am well now i am because i'm not gonna lie we all have problems yeah. Yeah. For sure. Yeah. So you were in, you grew up in an abusive home also? Oh. Yeah. His is worse than mine. I'm lightweight champion over here. Yeah. I come from a Puerto Rican background.

So like. Oh, they're wild. Yeah. So like. Spicy. Yeah. So one, it's like for men in Puerto Rican cultures, it's like, or just Hispanic cultures and all.

You guys know what I'm talking about. It's like like you're not allowed to really speak your emotion you know and then my puerto rican mother on top of that it's her way or the highway you know i remember being not even five years old seeing her put hands on my brother and i'm not talking about like hey bend over let me spank you i'm talking about hands on my brother you know she put me through a wall put him through a door. That's what your scar is from. Oh, yeah. I got a hammer mark right here.

Yeah, it's like the two little things of a hammer. Yeah, the teeth part of the hammer. Golly. I got this scar on my, is it this cheek or this cheek? This one? Yeah. Yeah, I got the scar on this cheek from my mom, you know. But, you know, it's weird.

Because, like, even though I know I'm affected, I try not like think that way yeah no i understand because like i know a lot of people in my like my personal life like i know a lot of dudes that were like girls and everything like that that you know oh my dad yelled at me and they just hold it in they victimize themselves yeah you can't do that negative dark person you know me i took all that and i was just like you want to what with my mom it did take a long time I'm not gonna lie she's the only reason I talked to my mother today you know but like with my father for example RIP whatever you want to say uh with him it was like really weird because like I never blamed him but he would always like text me or whatever like hey I'm sorry for leaving da da da da and I'm like dude for me personally I just I don't know if it was

just like a weird button in my head but it just clicked one day whereas it's like no dude you're a sick person yeah you know because like energy doesn't lie yeah because like i have three brothers you know and we all have like my oldest brother we have the same dad different mom my middle brother we have the same mom different dad so one it already sucked for me when my parents were getting broken up because it's like mental tug of war game. Right. But like me, my older brother, that's the one I moved with in Florida. We had a wild conversation at the bar out of all places.

But hey, that's where the best conversations happen. Yeah. And I remember we were like, sit faced. And he asked me, he's like, hey, what do you actually think about pops? You know? And hey, I'm gonna tell you, honestly you honestly like i told him i was looking dead in the face and i was like i'm sorry to say it but our father because when things got tough for you what did he do pick up and leave when stuff got tough for me what did he do pick up and leave like yeah you can you know be apologizing all you want but the fact that he never accepted

responsibility yeah is what bothered me the most right but then you know after like drugs alcohol and like that being intensified because like i was doing all that probably like at 12 14 drugs and alcohol yeah wow it was bad like i started drinking probably like at 12 you grew up in florida no i grew up actually in buffalo new york okay yeah my father's from q gardens queens but yeah i know i grew up Buffalo, New York, so it was like really wild. Yeah. And I don't know how it started. It all started probably with my uncle being like, hey, here you go, kid.

Wow. And it just went downhill from there. But like I was telling her, it wasn't like I wake up and I need to drink at that time in my life. It was more like I wake up and like all the depression and all the suffering that I was going through, it was just like the alcohol would help numb it. Right yeah serotonin but i think that our stories like connecting on the first date like really brought us together too well you guys are healing each other's childhood no literally we're healing each other's childhood trauma relationship trauma yeah that's the biggest flex i always tell everybody the biggest flex of a real couple is it's not how much money you make not how many goals you achieve it's how much you guys can grow

together that's the real flex because so many relationships these days are fucking so toxic and people thrive in that and it's like why do you want to live like that break these generational curses and actually like make each other better humans. Exactly. You know, so for you guys to be able to do that, all from a fucking laxative Tinder date. Yeah. I love you guys. Definitely healing my inner child. Like I think this past Christmas is like the first Christmas that,

you know, we spent together and she bought me a gift and that was the first time anyone got me a gift. I'm not even going to lie, 26 years old and I'm bust crying like a child. And I was just like, no one's ever been this nice to me in my whole life. So thank you. Thank you for that. So yeah yeah you guys can feel your chemistry through the screen like you guys look like you have so much fun and just really enjoy each other and i love that you love her for her and you just let her be herself because i've been watching her for a long time you know so i got to see before you came in and then um after you came in and just

seeing the smiles that you guys both put on people's on each other's faces is just amazing in itself so yeah it's really cool super weird because she was like when we first met she was telling me like like she doesn't tell people she does like tiktok i don't even know because i like me i'm like a hermit yeah i don't go on the internet none of that yeah especially in la you can't because everybody's a fucking clout chaser i'm from the west coast so i know no because like that's what she was telling me like one of her biggest concerns were when we were like actually going through the process of like the first stages of dating yeah she was really scared like oh is he just a clout chaser i'm like girl i'm not gonna lie to you i don't like no disrespect i don't know who you are yeah but not in a bad way that's great though but it's like i'm not on the

internet you know and then like the reason i started tiktok was because she told me to do it yeah well yeah you can do this together you're creative like let's let's kill it together yeah um but yeah i've so many experiences where people have just used me as a sugar mama essentially and i didn't know because i was blind and fucking stupid yeah i'm out here spending money on people like fuck those i'm just trying to be nice but yeah i mean you're a giver i that's how i am i love whenever i first get with so i mean i still take care of my husband to this day but when that's like our love language is like let me just pour myself into you i'll give you every fucking bit of it's just so fucked whenever you do that and then you realize that people don't have the same heart as you yeah yeah they're just doing this because they know i will yeah they're taking advantage of

that is the worst so you guys picked up from orlando sorry i'm smacking him because he's over here no song do you guys see me shaking him i'm like shut up um so you guys what made you move from orlando to la was it your for your friends so i I mean not only friends but I had had this idea like before I met him and that's when I told him like as soon as we met hey I'm leaving LA you can come you can stay that's your choice and he decided to come with me um so we started looking for apartments and all of that but I really just wanted to get out to LA because I was first off there's just all my family and I feel like I have so many connections in Florida I just wanted like a fresh page right so um that's like the main reason I went out to LA

plus also like the opportunity out there, which doesn't really exist yet. Yeah. But yeah. LA is not like it used to be. Yeah. LA used to have a sparkle to it and it just doesn't anymore.

I've been going to LA my entire life. The energy there. Are you kidding me? I never had to be medicated and now I'm getting medicated I swear to god I told my husband last time we were there on tour Haley you remember this when we were out there I was like this city feels so sad there's something so dark about it somber and it's almost like Sodom and Gomorrah in the bible I don't know if you guys even read the bible and stuff like

that but it literally is just like la used to have this sparkle and like you would go there and like sunset would be glittery and hollywood and like it would just it was a different vibe and now when you go there it's just sad yeah it really is yeah like we've never like struggled or not i can't say we but i've never struggled this bad with like depression like i can't get out of bed i'm not excited to for my day to start yeah type of thing like in florida i would wake up and i'd be like i'm ready to go like let's film videos let's get creative let's go out for brunch whatever here i'm like uh dragging her out of bed sometimes yeah do you suffer with mental oh man we're both medicated oh man gotcha my story

is just uh it's bad you know from physical mental uh emotional verbal abuse of parents all the way to like um abusive exes and all that like one i like i was at that moment where i was like i don't want to argue so no disrespect to you i'm just gonna like put my headphones because i'm not really trying to argue you know yeah the same voice i'm telling you right now yeah and this lady you know the tall red bull cams full just cracked open like i just turned like this she just spiked it and that's how like in this year i have permanent like not permanent but like every so often like the ringing or what is that tinnitus yeah like just random all that uh when i was sounds like you dated women like your mom unfortunately yeah but um next thing you know it's just like really weird because after that

uh i moved to germany through the army but then germany was just a sit-so um that's when my addiction got really bad um and i ended up in a german mental institution in the long stool germany god what is that like uh so it was weird um because it was all during covid right so when they first like put me in inpatient or whatever you want to call it. What did you go in for? Was it drugs or just you were kind of like losing your mind? So it was weird. It was really, really weird.

Like I'm not going to sit here and say I wasn't addicted to drugs at the time because I was. What was your drug of choice? So it was a lot. It was either a coke, ketamine or dextromorphine, which is like, how do you call it? It's a high blood pressure medicine. Right. But if you take a certain amount, it makes youinate please don't do that good lord yeah i did a little disclaimer like please don't do it yeah um but yeah um and it would be times like for example

i don't remember september till january of 2020 or like 2020 yeah 2020 going into 2021 i don't even remember that the only thing i remember one day was texting my little group chat of workers i was with and i was just like hey guys i think i'm ready to get help you know and all my friends and i remember it oh i'm trying not to get sad about it um but like i still remember today like literally because like i was a sergeant at the time in the army whatever whatever so like a lot of times. That's amazing. That's not whatever. No, no, it's whatever. The army is overrated. I mean, but still.

Thank you. Thank you for serving our country. Thank you for the support. Thanks for serving. But what's it called? And I remember because like all these younger guys, they kind of look up to you when you're in those like leadership positions or whatever. So it's like a lot of the guys that are in those positions, you know, you got to hold

in the emotion. And one day, like I said, I just texted the group chat. Not even like an individual. I texted a whole group chat. Hey, guys those positions you know you got to hold into emotion and on one day like i said i just texted the group chat not even like an individual i texted a whole group chat hey guys i think i'm ready to get help and not even five ten minutes later every single individuals i mean individual that was in that group chat sewed up at my house you know and i remember the last thing i remember of that day before it was like blackening out you know the last thing i remember was i was standing outside in my back porch and snowing and everything everyone's like bundled up in germany too you know yeah and i'm out here and you know my jorts and a tank top like this smoking a cigarette and i just see like a family walking by and i'm just like you see that guys i just want to be like that

one day i just want to be happy i'm just tired of you know not knowing what the fuck's going on right you know and next thing you know i blink come back i'm in a german institution instead of the american one because uh it was you know covid and everything so they had to wait till the american side got desanitized the german side is scary oh i could imagine it sounds like a nightmare yeah german nothing in german sounds sexy at all it is terrible they talk aggressive like they're very aggressive humans it was super scary because the lady no offense to anybody who's german i'm just saying yeah it was super weird because like when i first get there you know the

nurse is like talking to me in german and i'm like huh and she's like saying it with a smile on her face with a big needle in her hand i'm like no ma'am what are you doing you know and she ended up taking i call it the it's like american horror story episode yes literally but i call it the kinky room i know it's not appropriate or whatever sorry um but i call it the kinky room because it's like little a hard table that they strap you down like the lady i was just asking i was like what is this yeah like let me know what's going on like i i don't speak german all i know is like hey can i come like can I get this? Yes.

No, that's the only German I knew at the time, you know? And actually, they put me there and then I'm sedated. I don't know. And then I wake up in an American one and they're like, how are you? I'm like. You're like, dear God, is this a fucking hallucination? Yeah, it was scary. Because like I said, you know, matter of fact, it was February.

I think it was February 24th. Yeah, it was February 24th Or whatever the day is before yeah, whatever day that is 13 No, February 14th Valentine's Day. Yes. Okay. Then yes day before I don't know where I'm coming with the 23rd No, that was last day. I OD sorry Sorry, I have dark humor right now you're good, but yeah no um like literally blink german institution no phone no nothing blink an american institution no phone no nothing blink i'm back home it's marks wow like what the fuck is going on wow yeah and at that point i was just like dog i am done yeah i have to stop or i'm going to die yeah but it didn't take me to my father who passed away from cancer or whatever um i know

still honestly he deserved it all right i'm joking i'm joking but um no like it was really weird because like my cousin he passed away from alcohol like that because his son um got i think it was weird his son passed away so he got into drinking all that and next you know my father right before you know that last i don't know what it is with people who are getting ready to pass over they just know you know and out of nowhere even though like the overseas call it costs like so much my dad called me called me not on Facebook nothing like actually called me off his number he's like hey kid I love you I will always love you just please promise me one thing and I was like what and he's like I need you to stop drinking you know and then two days later that's when my brothers called me and they were like hey pops is gone go wow yeah

and then i never like that was his gift to you though and his death yeah my mom i had a similar situation with my mom we actually got sober together we quit drinking together we're keeping each other sober so yeah well at first it was uh i'm so proud of you guys first it was her going completely sober in september but me it was more of a cutback but then like january of this year is when i actually like fully cut it off right it's hard alcohol is hard alcohol was last for me too like i could cut the pills out in 20 and blow in 2017 it took a whole year of and i think somebody drugged me and that's the only reason why I got sober off alcohol because I was so fucked up that this one night it was crazy. And it just took that one time when I was just like, you know what? I don't need this either.

It's not worth it. Yeah. So you guys have been sober. Yeah. I love that. It is very hard being sober because you have to get to know yourself and you have to feel things and that's never fun. Yeah. True. Yeah yeah i don't know

i don't feel like i ever used alcohol to like numb numb things i was just having fun i was being a girly pop i don't know going out drinking yeah i was a social butterfly too social butterfly drinker but i found out that i was just kind of numbing in a way um but making it fun you know but that was that's my journey not yours yeah um so being in LA and being so depressed do you guys want to leave LA I don't know I'm so like 50 50 like we've been going back and forth about it I feel like because we're in downtown LA like that's more depressing than other parts all that energy is around yeah exactly yeah he's probably i'm like should we just like cut this lease early go to somewhere else try it for six months get a short little lease and like

test out the energy somewhere else see if it's better ocean yeah or like by the ocean or something i don't know test out the energy elsewhere yeah and if it's still not good guess what i can leave go back to florida i can go wherever i want yeah you know i'm not held down i don't have roots downtown la is depressing every time i go there i always get a house somewhere else like in Malibu or like outside of yeah outside of downtown because I just can't handle it yeah especially if you're an empath you are just soaking in everybody's energy and I've learned a lot like with energies too and I know this does not apply to everybody who's going through depression or anything like that, but you can be picking up on other people's feelings and that can be

affecting your mental health too. You know, and I'm not saying that happens to everybody, but like, you know, thoughts that come in your mind can be other people's. And it's just because you're in that circle, that, you know, circumference of how many people are in fucking downtown LA. It's just, it's just it's i don't know it's so like messed up down there because my brain i feel like it doesn't get a break like our building is not like insulated at all so every car horn every car driving by every person talking outside i can hear it and i can't like i need quiet yeah to think and i haven't been able to think since moving to la we went like on a little vacation out to the desert and it was peaceful and silent and we didn't hear a thing and for

the first time since moving to LA I was able to think clearly yeah like I didn't have a brain fog wow and I was like I didn't realize it though until I got out there to the silence like whoa I can think yeah I even feel better mentally yeah like it's it's wild so like since doing that like it's really opened my mind like okay we need to get out of downtown something's wrong here and if we go elsewhere if we don't like it i'm leaving yeah it's like mental health is like the most important thing oh for sure you can't put a price on peace ever like you know if la is not good for my mental health fuck la i'll go somewhere else yeah you know vegas is right outside of la it's three hours away we were

looking in like uh the desert yeah out there we're like what if we get a little house in the desert we have a house in vegas um and literally i will fly there to get out of here just to have a mental break and going there is like i don't blame you it's clarity like and it's the energy in vegas is awesome it's changed a lot over the years but it's still you still have the west coast yeah but not all of the darkness that comes with la like vegas is still dark it's sin city and fucking everybody gambles there and there's hookers and blow and all that shit but it's more of like a fun dark if i can compare the two whereas it's like heavy in la like suffocating dark i'm like yeah no for sure it's like a lot of weird shit going on out

there no my my experience is weird i'm like i grew up in cities and everything like that so i don't mind the noise and everything like that oh well i mean you're from fucking new york bro and like you know you feel at home in downtown la like even when i was in the army you know like first place i got stationed was korea oh wow you know big big city over there like multiple big cities over there yeah and in germany i was like 30 minutes away from munich so it's like party every day you know yeah and you know when we got to la i didn't realize how much it affected her you know like it's like me like i said i'm used to it you know maybe it's the mental illness the thing the noises in my head whatever i don't know right i'm used to it you know right but when she told me that like she would she broke down one day and told me like yo i cannot take this place anymore and i told her listen man

i don't care if we go to echo park in california or we go to new york or we go to canada timbuktu you can tell me we're going back to your dad's house whatever you need me to do i will be there and do it for you that's a good man i know he'll just follow me anywhere ah that's what you listen i've been following my husband around for fucking seven years that's your person you follow him around literally little dog so what are you what do you guys want to accomplish in the next year into 2023 and 2024 you know when people ask me that question I'm like listen I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow I love the honesty though like I don't know I've never had a plan in my life I just I don't know what i'm doing tomorrow like i don't know what i love the honesty though like i don't know i've never had a plan in my life i just i don't know i have this is gonna sound crazy too but like i have the weird the weirdest trust in the universe and like it'll

send me an opportunity i'll take it that's her that's no literally i'm like opportunity it's gonna come my way i'll take it and i'll run with it yeah you know and it's like i don't know if i feel something in my heart that i want to do it i'll do it yeah i got thought about writing a book i'm like sure i'll try it if it doesn't work out it doesn't work out i'll try something else yeah that's my mindset i love that i don't have goals yeah well i mean you're accomplishing them every day running with the wind literally just trusting the universe has gotten you this far so literally how many followers do you have on tiktok 5.7 million go baby go i love seeing you win what about you lou i i don't know if i follow you yet it's weird i don't know i don't know if it's a good number or bad number but when did i start

august yeah i started in august of last year and i'm already at like 100k good so but she tells me it's great but i'm like i don't know what's good or not as long as you're going up and you're still trying and you're putting your all into it, that's all you can do. And I feel like it's harder for men to get followers too than it is for women because you know how our world is set up. It's just like, you know, girls want to follow girls. Guys want to follow girls, you know, and men have to have like a niche in order to get that online following.

Which is really great because all I do is dark comedy and cannabis. You know? I love it. You know? And everyone just loves it. Everyone loves it. So I'm i'm not complaining i love it i'm proud of you for trying hard and of course you know doing what you want to do and putting your full effort in and we're gonna make it one way or another so i think you guys are a great team thank you and i love seeing you guys happy i love seeing you happy thanks i love being happy too thanks i love seeing

you happy well it's that that fucking 15 times a night dong i mean who wouldn't fucking be happy crazy i mean i'd be happy with 15 times a night too um why don't you guys shout out your your social media platform so everybody can find you yeah so i'm morgan presley xo on everything uh on instagram at beautiful lou and on Tik TOK Lou to boo, but not your boo. Her boo. At Lou to boo. Just at Lou to boo. I love that.

Well, thank you guys for coming on the podcast. Thank you for having us. I can't wait to check in with you guys in like a year or two and see where you guys are at. I will. I will. I'll get your people,

my friends to get with your friends so we can be friends. Yeah. I love that. I love people to contact my people. There we go. All for it. I love you guys. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of dumb blonde. Yeah. Yeah. I love that. Get your people to contact my people. There we go. All for it. I love you guys. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of dumb blonde.

I will see you guys next week. Bye.