Dumb Blonde - Nikki Lipstick gets SUED by Chanel & Takes Back Her Power!

Episode Date: June 30, 2021

The moment Bunnie has been waiting for has finally arrived - the fashion industry icon and her long lost soul sister Nikki Lipstick is here. In Part One, She and Bunnie also talk about surviving beauty school, the good ole days of MySpace, Nikki's cupcake pasties that went viral, and why she isn't too big to sit in her living room and sew her clothing herself. She talks about overcoming legal and industry challenges and thriving in a man's world, and why no matter how famous she gets, she is always just a beach kid from San Diego at heart.  Bunnie: www.dumbblondeunrated.com Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.com Nikki: Website | Facebook | Twitter | Instagram  "You have to show up for yourself." - Nikki  "If you do something with your heart, no one can take it from you." - Nikki  "When you can dream something that can heal you, that's the gift." - Nikki  See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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all right gentlemen coming to main stage next this is bunny get up there she's got a tornado of titties coming your way get those dollar bills ready she's got an ass that shakes like michael j fox so get up there and throw throw throw them dollars dude that is fucking iconic what's up you sexy motherfuckers welcome to another episode of dumb blonde you guys i got a motherfucking boss in the building and i am so fucking stoked about this interview it has been two years in the making and she's finally here. And I'm just like, I want to cry. Oh, I love you so much. Like I have seriously been waiting for this moment. Like I made it. I'm with bunny. I cannot believe it. Wow. Fucking Nikki lipstick is in the

motherfucking house. You guys, I mean, I feel like we need like a fucking, like a standing ovation, dude. Like, Oh my gosh, you're so sweet. So fuck. And fuck this is like you're like miss la to me dude you got me out of the house like wow you did that it only took me two years but you know baby steps okay baby steps dude i there's like so much i want to dive into with you so i feel like we are like long lost soul sisters we are because literally i used to have a clothing line called cupcakes and chronic how cute and you and I were supposed to do, even though you probably didn't know it, we were on so many of the same bookings together and I always flaked because I had fucking like anxiety and I couldn't do it, you know?

And so it was always like we danced around, around each other and I knew it. You probably didn't, but I knew it. And I was just like, one day, one day I'm going to get her in my fucking claws and just fucking get her in front of me and just pick her brain. Well, it all happens like when it's supposed to like right on time and you really can't rush things. That's what I've learned is just patience. Absolutely. You know, like I'm always gunning it, like always wanting to like go, go, go. But when you wait for it and it happens magically, then it's just like, so bomb. It's like like perfect so let's start diving into some stuff for people who don't know who you are and they would have to live under a

fucking rock to not know who you are what it what is nikki lipstick um a vibe i don't know that's such a kind of a mood um at this point it's like a little bit beyond me as like a person yeah um i'm just grateful to be a part of this and to like still be here and still getting to do, you know, the clothing and now makeup. You know, just dreaming. And that's the thing is like, yeah, I'm just really grateful to like be here and being alive. I get it.

So, OK, let's start. Where did you grow up? Have you always been an LA girl? I'm born and raised in San Diego. Everyone thinks I live in LA. I come here, I do my circus tricks. I throw my parties. I, you know, we have our factory now in Los Angeles. So I come, I work, I play, and then I run away and hide in San Diego. I love that. No, that's so cool because that's kind of what I do with Nashville. Like I'll come out, I'll, I'll make my appearances, do what I gotta do. And then I go home and I retreat and I'm a fucking recluse.

Like I do not leave my, you can ask my best friend. I do not leave my fucking house. Like you're not going to catch me anywhere. Tell me about baby Nikki. So you grew up in San Diego. Um, yeah, just literally like a beach kid um best life ever San Diego is so beautiful and I'm so grateful to be from there and you know we're an hour hour two away from LA so I would always come here to kind of be myself and dress up and because it's so conservative

in San Diego I can't really like be in my latex outfits and like going crazy that's why I wore my little outfit for you today I'll literally get arrested so when I come to LA I can be my like you know big pink self or whatever I want so were you always interested in fashion oh yeah oh hell yeah I was like in high school my math book like I would have like Vogue or fashion magazines in my math book like just studying, like truly just so obsessed with it. Being 5'9", like I think you always kind of have that dream of like, you know, the supermodel is in like the back of your head, like every girl, you know? Yeah, yeah, yeah. And so I just was always enamored with fashion.

I love the expression, like creativity. You can be whoever you want any day of the week and it was just always always my passion was it in your family or was it just like the lone ranger my mom didn't even wear makeup like she was so naturally beautiful she like didn't even wear makeup I am like this like clown the more the merrier just yeah I'm just like lay it on me yes exactly but I think being in dance and like, you know, dance recitals and all that stuff. So you were a little dancer? Yeah, yeah, since like two years old.

Like what kind of dance? Jazz, tap, ballet, hip hop. Oh my God. Like six days a week, every single day. That is so awesome. And that's why I do the clubs and stuff because it's like, you got to keep dancing like somehow and just opening that up for people and like dance is everything. like somehow and just opening that up for people and like dances everything.

So take me to the MySpace days. Cause that's when I literally fell in love with Nikki. I wish MySpace was today. And I try to keep like the most MySpace vibes that I can. Like my website literally has like a lips cursor, like literally coded from MySpace and I'll always, it'll always be, you know, that's where it was born. That oh it'll always be you know that's where it was born that's like the scene and everything that's where that's where it came from dude i remember you were like you were massive on fucking myspace it was crazy and i remember that myspace

was just really fun and like free and you could have music on your page and you were like the dj of your site like yeah you could really like yeah yeah. And that's what I hate about. Like I fucking hate Facebook. Everything got so stiff. It got so conservative and just so literally like it's so stiff that for me, like Instagram, like I rarely even post because I just truly don't feel that I can be my true self. So I'm like, I'll go to Twitter. Like Twitter is like the last freedom town. Yeah. Cause they don't fucking stifle everything we last freedom town. It's your jam. Yeah. Yeah. Because they don't fucking stifle everything we do. Yeah.

It's like pussy galore. Yeah. For sure. I literally saw a girl. I get horny scrolling through my feed. I'm like, fuck. Now I have to like. Now I got to twiddle the tracker.

I just saw some girl riding a big old dong the other day while I was on the airplane. I was like, fuck, here we go. I saw a girl put three pool balls up her butthole last night and I was like boyfriend look at this you have to see the talent you have to see why I have so much brain damage like just one scroll and it's like but yeah then you're horny and you're like now I have to masturbate I got my nails done and I got this one shorter just so I can touch my pussy and like not stab my boyfriend in the dick. That is game. Ladies, you got to get one nail shutter. Oh, yeah. And I'm always like doing stuff.

And then I'm like, I don't want to poke you in the dick. Yeah, no, for sure. So, OK, let's go. Let's draw it back to my space. Is that where you really feel like you started like branding yourself? I have no fucking idea how any of this happened, to be honest. Like straight up. Isn't that the best though?

It is like I have no fucking clue how I'm even here right now like it's just been honestly pretty pure in that sense where I'm just like awesome well yeah once I was like in college at San Diego State the like dumb bitch university and you did you went to college yeah for like one or two years and then I dropped the fuck out when I was like my space is here I don't need college like dropped the fuck out when I was like, my space is here. I don't need college. Like what the fuck? You know, I mean, there were other reasons that were not that fun that,

you know, why I left school. Um, but I was like, you know, I have to do this right now. I'm not wasting my, you know,

my, my space years on college. At least you were smart enough to recognize something that you had a tool and that you could see people literally will spend thousands of dollars going to college, getting fucking degrees that they don't ever use. And it's like, you were like, you know what? No, well, I was like, I want to do fashion. I want to make music videos. I want to do industry things. I got to go to LA. I got to run it back and forth. I know, I know where the action's at. I know, you know, yeah, my space is like opening up all these

scenes and these clubs and like all this stuff. And I was like, yeah my space is like opening up all these scenes and these clubs and like all this stuff and I was like okay this is definitely like so much fun yeah um so did it start as like a little clothing store in your house like how did it how did it literally started with pasties and um oh well I okay so I went to college dropped out was like I need to do nakey lipstick stuff immediately let's do this um and like I went to hair school because I was like I had worked for mac and chanel but I didn't have my license so I was like I'm gonna get the license I'm gonna have that um and get in the beauty industry and just start fucking it up yeah I went to cosmetology school too I got kicked out of two schools yeah I like almost did not graduate i was like that at five in the morning or whatever the fuck it's like

really fucking early going 40 hours a week and not getting paid for it it's like jail it was like women's prison there was stabbings and stuff oceanside college of beauty is legendary but also don't go there dangerous it's closed it was debauchery but it was fun as fuck and I met so many friends that I still have today from beauty school and we had beauty school dropout shirt and like that's how I met my best friend from a girl that went to school and they're lifers they're like yeah you're like we went to jail together we survived we survived and um yeah so from then on it was like I was I was doing hair and then I would be like making pasties.

Well, I took a cupcake pasty and I made it. I was like, I'm so crafty. This is so cute. And I put up my boob and I looked in the mirror and I was like, damn, that's so cute. And then I made another one and I was like, damn, that's so fucking cute. And I had a lot of friends that were like suicide girls at the time and doing their action. And I wanted to say like nude photography. fantastic love that for you but if you're like you know 18 something

years old just getting started out in modeling and you don't want to do like completely nude it's like here's a cutie little option like go crazy we have every different you know diamonds and this and this and this so I was doing hair and then making pasties at night. Right. And while I was like doing hair, I'd be like, I'm trying to cross my legs. I love your ass sounds like a fucking trash bag. The ass sound ASMR is like, God, OK, let me not move the rest of the podcast. Sorry. OK, so, yeah, so I was making pasties and I would tell the people like I'm doing their hair and I'm like, yeah, and I make past're like okay crazy pants like whatever you lunatic and I was like it's fine don't believe me but like I'm making those pasties and I had a picture of myself covered in blood with cross pasties and it hit tumblr and then I could quit my day job it was just so viral at that point

crazy that the internet has that it's so powerful's so powerful. People have no idea. It is the most powerful thing on earth. Tool. It's a wand. It's just wizardry. And it's so, so, so powerful. And for me, you know, I see so many people out there using it to kind of like, you know, be a hater or this or that. And I said, you know, but it's like, you know what?

If you use it for good, the opportunities in your life can just be so endless. Like you, if you're like. I got goosebumps now that you just said that. That's in your life can just be so endless. Like you, if you're like goosebumps now that you just said that, that's why I love like, even if I'm, you know, not online posting myself, I'm out there like showing love as much as humanly possible. And that's all I want to do. And like, why wouldn't you want to do that? It's like, you can make someone's day. You can save their life. You can be completely changed their mood, you know? And I'm so grateful for how sweet and loving like everyone has been to me. So you can really, you know, it is such a powerful tool.

And I just hope that people, you know, use it for goodness, like use it for kindness. I totally agree. I get bullied literally. I'm sure which you get bullied in your own way too. I get bullied every day online and I'm just like, these people are doing this for free. You're doing this for free. Like you're not getting paid to be a dipshit. Like what the fuck, you know, like you can totally use this to change your fucking life. And instead you choose to fucking be a douchebag. You chose violence. Yeah, exactly. No, it's crazy. So, okay. This picture went viral. Yes. The picture of the cross pasties went viral take me to the next step of this empire that you have come on brain fog come on brain cells like

let's find memory memory lane somewhere in there tap tap yeah okay so the pasties went viral and then so we're just like cranking those bad boys out by hand. And you didn't have like it was just you. It was just myself and like my boyfriend at the time. I've always had like a boyfriend helping me. No, that's good. I love that. Put that boy to work, baby. Boyfriend labor.

Just kidding. No, but just, you know, I appreciate so much anybody that's like believed in this at all. Yeah. Been a part. So we were doing that by hand. And then the first like thousand dollars I saved up I said I want to make my crop top line because like what's not cute you know yeah crop tops are so cute and cozy and comfortable I wear them every fucking day it's just like cozy and yep exactly right it's so cozy and cute. And I had like 15 designs and you know, that was kind of

like, um, I really had to be like, Hey, uh, this is, you know, stretching that a thousand dollars super far to do 15 designs. And I said, trust me, like, trust me. I know it in my heart. This is going to be like it, you know, I was like, you know, so I'm working and that's another thing, like working with guys behind the scenes in business. Like, unfortunately it is a man's world. It is. That's something we always have to strive to just, you know, you have to show up for yourself and you have to say like, no, listen, like this is it. Like, believe in me.

I'm not, I'm not a dumb bitch. Like I'm not just a dumb bitch. I'm not a dumb blonde. Right. I'm well, I am, but I'm also like, my friends are like, how are you so smart and so dumb at the same time? I'm like, I don't know. It just fucking works. But I'm so glad that you said that it is a man's world because legit it is. But I feel like now in 2021, we're starting to take over. Oh, I mean, what's up guys. Just wanted to take a moment to

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like, no, these are my ideas. They're valid. And I know my worth and my power and just believe in yourself and just like not give up. Absolutely. So yeah, I was like, yes, trust me, let's do this. So those 15 crop tops came out and that was just like it, you know, that was just like crazy town. Well, you kind of had your own stamp, you know, you like, you did the like, you know, the upside down crosses, the Barbie. Yeah. Well, yeah, that was like the doll cult idea is like, you know, there's this Barbie. We all love her, but like, we don't have to fit in society's mold. You know, society is always going to be throwing these things at us. Oh, like your shirt, your skirts too short. You're

this, you're too much makeup, this and this and this. And it's like, actually, no, like we can be, I'm going to hike my shit. I'm going to literally like flash my pussy all around town because I don't care. And so, and yes, it's like now again, we get to like push those molds again and be like, no, actually, Barbie can have tattoos and Barbie can be this way and whatever we want. They need to make a tattooed Barbie. They do. They need to make a bunny Barbie. Let's do it.

Let's do it, Mattel. I'm just kidding. We'll do our own. Yeah, let's do it. But yeah, so. So the crop tops started selling. The crop tops went crazy like that was our our big like boom heyday with the like we had a fucked shirt by chanel i ended up getting a cease and desist which was really funny because i worked for chanel

and at the time i was actually homeless like living in a hotel and then i would get all glammed up and like go sell chanel makeup and be this like and they have the balls to hit you if I can cease and desist I mean that's when you know you made it though yeah like hi when you got that cease and desist were you just like I framed it I was like fuck yeah let's go but also working for Chanel taught me so much of like how to be so great with your customers and just every single day I am like up till four in the morning like we are best friends you know these aren't customers these are my besties like we're and people can feel that giving each other therapy like you know um people can feel that because that's how I built my fan base is literally talking to each and every fucking person that I

can granted now I can't really keep up with all of it so I have people helping me but it's like just that core fan base of even just replying to people in your comments makes people I mean I genuinely love everyone so much like I am not faking it like I love the shit out of everyone like they heal me they cure my depression they have been there for me in so many ways and times where my life was just completely fucked. Literally. Like that's why I made the shirt. I was like, this is fucked. Like we're all fucked. You see now. Like, um, but yeah, that was a fun, fun time. It was like when it just was like so new. When was it that you saw this kind of snowballing and you were just like, holy shit.

The Tumblr days were just major. I think for a lot of things for music as well, there was a lot of like like, underground music blowing up. And I love that. I love the bedroom creative culture where everyone can just be their own, you know, icon. Yeah. And do whatever they dream about. And I want people to do that again. Like, I really, really want them to, like, keep doing your music. Like, if you're in your bedroom, like, making music, do it.

My husband's been in the industry for fucking 15 years. Like keep going. Like somebody is going to, all that hard work does eventually pay off. Yes. It's just really hard and takes a lot of patience. So Nikki lipstick was the first one. And then you branched out to start doing the dolls cold.

Doll. Doll. Cool. Is like the movement. Doll. Cool. Is like the everything where everyone can be a part of.

Right. And yeah, and I'm so excited actually because today is like the first day we get it all back. And like I can go into that a little bit more of like getting it all back because once that big boom happened, then it's like the capitalism demon came in and was like oh we

see this is something that we can make money off and then the big bad guys come in and try to take it from you and I yeah that happened oh yeah that was yeah and I've been fighting the last five years can you talk about that yeah I can totally talk about it like I'm and that's why I'm so happy that I'm here and you're like liberating my story because yeah I was silenced and I couldn't talk about it okay so let's let's paint the picture for everybody so you hit a pivotal point of where you were just selling loads it's okay I'm over here making noises I don't know what I'm doing I don't know what to do with my hands mom um so you reached a pivotal point to where you were just selling fucking so much shit and you just became this boss ass bitch of this fucking empire that you literally accidentally made.

But because, you know, everybody just loves you and you're just a light, they're drawn to you. Um, you know, it took off and that's what was supposed to be in the world. I think if you do something with your heart and you're pure and you're genuine and it's in your heart, no one can take it from you. Really? They can try it really, really really hard so what happened who came in and tried to silence actually i had it coming from both sides where the factory i was with i got pushed out of there one year on christmas due to youtubers like taking over and like making ugly christmas

sweaters i had built like worked from you know my living room to like garage to attic to giant factory. Yeah. Then to be like, sorry, you were you're like, we're going to like, you know, YouTubers that you the YouTube boom. Right. They, you know, kind of took over. Right.

And it was like a nail YouTuber. I won't say any names, but making an ugly Christmas sweater. And they were like, we're going to do this job instead of yours. So I literally got like booted from my own factory. Don't they have contracts? Um, 40 designs. I mean, now I'm smarter, but like when you're, you know, just starting out and you're a kid, like I did this as a kid, like completely. And people know that see you as prey they see you as a baby bunny they see you as like oh she's a dumb bitch let's take advantage right and I'm so sad but I learned so much that um yeah now I'm the bad bitch and I'm weaponized and I know you know my shit and I know what to do and what not to do and that's just another thing is like the behind the scenes of dealing so got pushed out

of my own factory that was heartbreaking but at the, I was like, I want to be a designer. I want to do more than t-shirts. I want to be the Vivian Westwood. I want to know, you know, make it more couture. Yes. And so I was like, let's build a fashion house in my living room. I know how to sew. I sewed my dance costumes when I was four. Let's get the sewing machine back out, got the sewing machine back out. the sewing machine back out um I made these beautiful velvet sets that were just like my heart you know and when I'm sewing the velvet it like puts off this like sparkle so all this like glitter is like going and I'm going as fast as I fucking can dude like seriously I love your your aesthetic your mind is brilliant like thank

you it's crazy um when you can dream something that can heal you you know that's the gift yeah that saves you so instead of like yes it was sad and it was hard but everybody has a hard story life is hard you know I'm I can't be like boohoo you know I'm in my house sewing these beautiful things like that's the reality of it is like you can overcome anything but I was like let's just make it more beautiful right and so it wasn't a loss none of it was a loss it was just learning and moving on and growing in different ways and then I get to say like I'm a fashion designer like I sewed this by hand and it yeah and again so we had that same big boom with stuff that I was making by hand again so it was very humbling how hard

is that to keep up with the demand fucking hard like were you like I was fucking thing by yourself like nobody else was helping no like I literally beat fast fashion by fucking hand I am a beast I'm like and that's the crazy thing is I would be crying I would be like crying myself to sleep at like four in the morning and just like praying and being like please give me the strength to literally like not die and like keep going and I said I want this more than anything I want this I want to be a little old lady in my house one day like sewing this shit like please just give me that power and like keep me going and I just kept going and then from those sets I was able to save up and go to this

giant beautiful um pink house in London and she she was uh so sweet enough to welcome my best friend and I we got to go there and what's your best friend's name bae bad girl yeah shout out bae she's the cutie she's adorable perfect princess the most amazing artist and yeah so a lot of that too was me defending my friend uh when people came for our stuff i said hell no yeah i will fucking do whatever it takes to take you down like you're not gonna absolutely you can do whatever you want to me you fuck with my friend like you're gonna have some i'm the same way come for me all you want leave my family and friends exactly and so um yeah it's girl power absolutely absolutely that's girl power 100 and um and it's why i'm so thankful to be here even

you know talking with you and having you liberate our story is because that's what it takes it takes the other it takes the other you know the other bad bitch that has the voice and is like hey like you can keep going yeah totally you totally. You can keep doing this. Dude, you're, I can't just hearing that you sat in your living room, sewing all these fucking sets by yourself. And I started with volumes of your character,

you know, like that's crazy because most women wouldn't do that. They would just be like, you know, that's the thing. As I said, you know, there are people in factories making these clothes for everyone out there

buying them for $5. Um, I'm not above hard work i'm not above them i'm not above any of those people doing that i said if they're doing that i can do it too and i'm gonna you know and it was like a test saying this is really hard work these people doing this labor deserve wages that are livable absolutely and higher than that like i don't think that clothing should ever really even like go on sale or women's bodies, like the whole entire thing as like a femme movement. It's like, let's, this is quality over quantity. Like let's really appreciate like where our shit comes from, whether it's your food that you eat or the clothing on your body. Like, let's take a second and really really really

really really value where it comes from yeah because like I don't think people you know they're just like oh a new thing this a new thing that disposable like it's really not it's people behind the scenes blood sweat and tears yeah it is and um so if I can use my voice to liberate those people as well like I want to do that and. And it was a huge eye opener to be like, Hey, this is really hard and it's a lot of work and yeah, blood, sweat and tears.

I had a, I got a gash in the bottom of my foot. I stood up too fast and scissors went in the bottom of my foot and I still kept going. And like, like that's the thing. It's like your drive is dope. I love that.

It's a sickness. No, I get it. We're the same way in this, in this team. So I totally get it. We won't sickness no I get it we're the same way in this in this team so I totally get it we won't stop until I want to be the next female Howard Stern you are look at us look at us like we're like we're doing it like we really are and you have to give yourself credit you have to say like you know look at what you've done yeah for sure totally and I don't do that enough but that's what I have Mimi here for. She's always reminded me of that. So you guys went

to this house in London and then what happens after that? So we got to, you know, this big giant dream. So that was so healing. Um, and yes, again, the owner was just like, so kind and sweet to let us like go be these dolls and they got to do a giant mural. So beautiful. And that was kind of our like healing moment of like, they couldn't take it from you. Like you got to do, you got to do a giant mural. So beautiful. And that was kind of our like healing moment of like they couldn't take it from you. Like you got to do you got to, you know, live the life. And like at this point, are you thinking to yourself like I've I've made it. I made a name for myself. Are you are you like me?

Like no matter what. Yeah, I it's never enough. And that's the thing. I think it was it's like. Yeah, like I don't know if there's a made it moment I think you have a lifetime of let's do it you know let's do it let's see I'm not dead yet let's see if I can keep going I just want to keep going like I want to keep doing as much as I can and a lot of just a lot of learning as well but yeah so we had a lot of there was a lot of

nightmare to the dream that happened where it was like after a year of starting it you know there was a whole other um I won't get into it too much again because I am silenced and I'm not yeah I hate that for me too but now I'm not now I'm gonna talk about all I want you know I'm right I got fucking lawyers bro she's like I'm wired up I am weaponized beware fuckers like you're not coming for me again um so is it is it that people want your brand no well it's like it's if it's if something is out there that's popular that's part of well and then that's the sad thing and what I want to change is like it's not part of the industry to like see a woman doing um anything and being like i'm gonna take

that and i'm gonna you know make the money or steal the money or whatever you know and at the end of the day it's really not about money for me i just literally love doing all this i love making people feel cute and good and special yeah and but yeah there is the business side of it that's the ugly side of capitalism, you know? Yeah. Does that ever discourage you? Like, do you ever get to a point where you're like, fuck, man, like, I'm tired of this shit. I mean, I was like, definitely suicidal for a really long time. I mean, I was literally silenced in my dark, dungeon-y room being like, nobody knows my truth. No one knows my story.

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