Dumb Blonde - Season Finale: Trauma Dumps

Episode Date: July 2, 2024

As Bunnie wraps up this season and looks forward to the next one, she reflects on everything that's happened over the recent months, from Bill's passing and family drama, health scares, dealing with trolls, to the recent conversation about her and Jelly's thoughts on an IVF journey. She and Meme then lighten the mood with some neighbor news, who would play them in a movie, and awkward tampon-changing experiences on airplanes. Thanks for listening, and we will see you soon for a brand new season! Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Is this thing on? Bonnie, who used to be a former sex worker, now hosts the podcast Dumb Blonde. Most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit. And I was like, I want to be super hot, make a a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's wife that was my goal as a child and here we are hi babies welcome to the season finale of dumb blonde we have had a hell of a fucking week man month month yeah we're not even summing it into a week i don't know what you're talking about yeah june has been fucking brutal you guys like what what the fuck was in the sauce what was in the sauce what was in the sauce for the month of june i

don't like it it wasn't very it wasn't very it wasn't it was not giving this is not what it was giving i give up this month no it bro i had a fucking spider bite that got infected got bit by a spider got infected had to go to the doctor for it because we talked about this on propaganda but we didn't talk about this on yeah the podcast and then what happened after my tooth? I had an abscessed tooth that had to get fucking pulled. I had to face a huge fear this fucking... Would you like to show them the tooth?

Yeah, let's show them the tooth. Were you just walking around with my tooth? In your purse? I'm not taking it out. Oh my god. Let me look at it. This is my first time seeing my tooth since I've had it yanked out of my head. I have not seen this tooth. Thank you.

Oh my god, the cavity on that. Yeah. Dude, it's perfect. It's the whole tooth. It's a fucking perfect tooth. What a weird thing, you guys. I don't know if you can see this, but look at all that black in it dude that was gnarly hold on let me get a flashlight out to get the real fucking effect oh my god that is a huge fucking hole that is a hole oh that's what he said i mean they both could

have damn that cavity is like from the inside out. That was rough. I wonder if that's why you hadn't been feeling good. Yeah, maybe. Damn. You know that teeth look like crystals? You know like crystals that you would, like a tooth that's been outside of your head that doesn't have like nerves in it and shit anymore? They look like an amethyst almost. Okay.

Anyways, I'm fascinated with this tooth over here so yeah tooth got pulled what else happened mimi god oh we'll get to that in a little bit but chachi got sprayed by a skunk fucking the the podcast studio has taken forever literally forever to get done i just hope you guys know we're gonna trauma dump on you this fucking podcast i got rushed to the hospital me we had to go go straight to the er to the hospital hayley fucking uh was hitting on was hitting on the hose fucking the entire time like bro it has been a crazy month. It's been insane. Crazy month. I got fucking weirdo family members coming for me just to get two likes. People coming out of nowhere.

People coming out of nowhere. Weird. My weirdo ex still fucking starting his shit. It's just people. I feel, I don't know. There's something about this month. I feel like it's the middle of the year. Yeah.

Everyone has calmed for the first six. Yeah. And they're just riling up for the second. Yeah. I get it fuck them i don't like june's i don't either there's never been a june i like march is like a weird one and june is like yeah i don't i don't like it yeah go away no i don't like it in august is always weird too yeah it's august weird it's like summertime is i love spring i love fall and i love... I love spring. I love fall. And I love... Well, I love spring and I love fall, but anything in between is fucked up. Like June, July, August, go fuck yourself.

I'm good. It's hot here, guys. No, it's like walking in a hot air balloon. It is an oven. We're in Vegas right now. So it's beyond hot. We just came from LA. Had a great time out there.

I feel like my husband's on fucking cloud nine right now. He really is. He's like, I'm on a high right now can't take that from me and we're over here like fuck the world fuck it you know like we're just so literally that's so fucking that's so true bro it's we've got bill died what the fuck we forgot we forget about that bill died we have so much to cover this podcast and you went through it after he passed too bro because i'm not even going to tell you everything i'm still i'm going to keep some things for the pod or for the um book but yeah yeah last time we had talked the drama had just kind of gone down yeah you and suzanne were going at it and now it all came to light that's why yeah it's been crazy to say the least so why don't you tell everybody why you had to go to the hospital what the fuck happened memes

I still don't exactly know what the fuck happened but we I wasn't feeling good and we had gone to Erewhon and every time we eat Erewhon we get fucking sick so sick this is the second time we've eaten at arowan and we i fucking felt like i had the worst fucking nausea dude like i was going to projectile vomit the night before hayley couldn't stop shitting her butthole fell out yeah so we go there and i didn't feel great but i didn't feel like awful the night before and then like right before bed it just hit me and i like threw up and i was't feel great but i didn't feel like awful the night before and then like right before bed it just hit me and i like threw up and i was like oh it's whatever next day wake up just it was like pregnancy all over again it was just so much throwing up and i couldn't stop and i was just

taking zofran god no oh god absolutely not do that no i'll fire you you will be fired with no maternity leave i would quit i wouldn't i wouldn't even let you get there and be like by the way she has the longest fucking pregnancies yeah i told her i said please don't ever do that for two years long god it was long okay go ahead um and it just wouldn't stop and i took some medicine and then we went to the pool like nothing was wrong i was totally okay at the pool ate some fruit and then we when i got pedicures we come back and get the massage yeah we got massages we were trying to have like a girl day because we never have time to just like pamper ourselves and i was talking to you how nice it was that we like had a day for once like we just turned everything off and we just had a day and the minute we were done with the massage mind you it was a it was a

different massage like she got on the bed with me we did like she did a lot of there's a lot going on she was having me smell things it was a lot and i kept back to rewind who was having to smell things bro be happy you weren't in the same room with us i kept listening the lady would be like all right no smell this and i'm like what the fuck is going on yeah she would be like sniff this turn this way she did majority of the massage on my side like i didn't lay on my stomach you have any sniff essential oils yeah okay the lady tried to make me fucking have something and she's like do you like the way this smells and it was like a pungent lavender and peppermint and i was like oh i got the peppermint no i was like no i said do you have anything that doesn't have smells in it?

And she's like, yeah. And I swear to God, it took me three showers. I think she used like water resistant lube, silicone lube. Oh, she just lubed you up? Oh, it was great. It was great. And when I got back to the hotel room, it all just went downhill. I don't know if that massage knocked something loose along with like not feeling good for the day and I just couldn't stop throwing up I called Bobby up which is the nurse that travels

with us and I was like hey can you give me an IV with some type of like zofran in it and she came up and she tried I'm so thankful for her she tried in both my arms Bobby's our nurse that travels with us who gives jail as I god I I stood through being poked and she was just like I can't like she'd even gotten it in at one point and it wouldn't drip and so she took it out and I was like let me just go to the bathroom because I think I have to throw up and when I did all I remember is like you like spaced out you look like you were passed out yeah I think I may have like I was like I wasn't totally there and then all of a sudden I remember my teeth feeling like they were vibrating

like tingling all across my jaw and my hands locked like like this and I couldn't move and then Bobby came in and was like oh my god. I had no circulation in my hands. They turned white and purple. My toes turned purple. And my little squish over here called 911. Haley is so proud that she got a call 911 and was with her in the ambulance. Just so everybody knows, Haley took care of Mimi when she went to the hospital. Don't think that anybody else took care of Mimi. It was all Haley. I did not go.

She was a rider, man. let any don't think that anybody else took care of Mimi it was it was all Haley I did not go she was a rider man she would she ended up like this was a horrible experience for me because in LA the hospitals are just trash bro new fear unlocked yeah that's terrifying so I didn't know what was going on just to give some perspective I didn't know what was going on I didn't even know you were sick no and then how did I find out that you were sick I texted you and said Mimi's not feeling good uh we're gonna go to the hospital right and I was like okay I was like well let me know when you get in a room and I'll meet you there just thinking it was like her nausea again and then the next thing I know I text her like

you know 20 minutes later and I'm like how's our how's our baby and she's like well I called 9-1-1 EMS is here this happened in 20 minutes I'm down the hallway and I'm like what you said you're about to see you thought you're about to seize up and you said just call 9-1-1 yeah because I was like I'd never felt that before where your body just went stiff and I was like oh I think I'm gonna have a seizure and then Bobby like laid me down I don't even know where she laid me down at but like she got me onto the floor and was just like don't move like do not move so i ran down the hallway and i walk oh and then i get a text from hayley and the the ems guys are really cute and i'm like i walk in and like i'm worried about mimi her fucking poor little feet were blue

and she just was not feeling good and i was like damn dude like that sucks like i didn't know what was going on but then i i had to stay behind to talk to the people at the hotel because whenever you call emergency to like hotels like that paparazzi gets alerted because especially if like a person of interest is staying there they always want to get the first scoop yeah yeah so i'm like she's not on drugs she's not an alcoholic i'm like trying yeah yeah so i'm like she's not on drugs she's not an alcoholic i'm like trying to clarify everything i'm like she i think she's dehydrated and has food poisoning yeah and then they like parked the ambulance in the road so they like i just remember going over cobblestone it's like and i'm like why they park so far away because

they probably can't park in that drive because it's gonna oh that was so funny but they la hospitals are terrifying guys they literally pull you up and just dump you they don't they didn't do anything because they couldn't find my vitals like i him and bobby were going back and forth and no one could get my pulse they were like she doesn't have idols like we can't find it so they pull up so by the time hospital or from hotel to hospital they had nothing on me not a temperature they didn't give me an iv they didn't start anything and they according to hayley and the video she took they just dumped me yeah hayley fucking documented the whole thing yeah and they were like all right good luck and i'm like no i feel like i'm fucking

dying right now like i'm not okay you guys don't even have proper vitals on me and then bobby ended up ubering there and hayley and bobby got really irate with the hospital the i mean they were yelling at them bobby was like she's not okay like you have to help her yeah and every time i would call to check on you i'd be like are you guys in a room yet because i was going to come up hayley kept saying nope they have us in a hallway they have us in this thing and i was like dude what the fuck is going on i don't think we went back for like two hours i never ended this was cedar cyanide which is supposed to be one of the best fucking hospitals in la i think that's like where all the kardashians have they they literally just take you and put you like in a warehouse looking thing and just drop you.

Yes. That is so scary. It was very like, I feel bad for anyone who has to get care in that way. I truly do. Because had something actually been wrong with me because of my chest started hurting really bad. I was like, oh my God, am I having a fucking heart attack? And I think that's when they took me back or something. Because I do remember her putting stickies all over like my boobs and my legs and stuff but it was very i

don't remember that entire thing i remember like bits and pieces and like i start remembering more things until they like started giving me fluids i went through two bags of fluids so fast like i like sucked them down and then she gave me like morphine for the pain but they ended up saying I had a bacterial infection which they gave me no information about said I had scarring in my lungs and that I should see a primary when I get back yeah it was really high yeah Haley's like her white blood cell count is high and then two seconds later she goes it says leukemia. I was like, calm down.

Haley, calm down. I said, calm down. It's not leukemia. I said, trust me, if it was leukemia, they'd be rushing her back right now. Yeah. Leukemia. But yeah, I was like, no, that just means she's fighting an infection somewhere. Yeah no it was uh but yeah i don't know what it is you guys didn't fucking get home till like five o'clock in the morning five o'clock in the morning we finally got back to the hotel and we

ended up sleeping like about four hours just to get an ibm yeah that was so scary because you were so dehydrated no no because they didn't seem to care. There was no rush. Well, and that's just one of the fucking many things we have to talk about on the pod today. I don't even know where to start besides fucking just diving into stuff. How are you doing over there, Haley? How's your fucking June going? Rough.

Haley doesn't even have makeup on right now she's had a rough month dude bro i'm fucking pmsing me too i just wish it would just start already yeah i don't i don't know if if everything's this bad or if it's just i'm pmsing and it's just all coming to it i'm like four days late and i think it's a straight it's just you might be pregnant they already ran that i know for a fact i'm not okay they already ran that in the hospital i'm not gonna have a fucking panic attack no me too you know so bill let's talk about bill i'm gonna keep it as you know fucking kosher as possible with that situation but my dad passed away May 8th which was crazy it was um I feel like I had so much to say about it and now it's just kind of like

life has humbled me in a way and I'm just like with that whole situation it's just like it's just so hard like where do you even start so last we left off with you guys on the stomping on butterflies podcast if you haven't listened to that episode go listen to that you would know that my dad like just took off on me when i was at an award show and i hadn't talked to him i did not talk to him again after that i've never talked to my dad again yeah after you guys's last conversation which we addressed on there it went silent yeah we didn't talk to each other and it's crazy to me that the minute he gets back to Texas he dies but in my care he lived he and he was strong yeah he had put on weight yeah he was

out doing things scooting around yeah it was crazy but um you know my I had heard from a family member that my dad was in the hospital and that he wasn't doing good. And this was like maybe a few days after he had gotten back. Yeah. He went into the hospital for what he what I believe they were saying like treatment. Yeah. But it wasn't like he just went to the hospital. He just went to the hospital. And when he was there, he requested that nobody tell me why he's there or relay anything back to me, which is crazy to me because this entire situation of us not talking to each other was because he came to me and told me that his wife was abusing him, you know? And I rightfully so as his daughter stuck up for him and he turned on me because of that. And I didn't even stick up

for him. Like, yeah, I'm going to fuck you i'm gonna you up it was like you you're putting your hands on my dad like that pisses me don't be together yeah you said that you were like then don't be together go back home yeah like what are we doing here like this guy's dying like let's make his last few weeks our months memorable so um the family member relayed that to me and I was just like whatever dude and I just kind of sat idly by and didn't know what was going on and that family member kept me in the loop and then I guess like a week later the family member said like your dad's really not doing good he's not doing good at all and by this time I'm starting to get mad because I'm like his wife I text her and I'm like how dare you take my dad from me and then not only

that but my dad's so sick that the the last conversation I'm gonna have with my dad is me being mad at him because you fucking took this man from me while he's sick and she's like why don't you just call I'm like I have called and nobody's answered the fucking phone. I've text you and nobody's replied. And we kind of had words back and forth. And I was just like, there's a special place in hell for women like you. I was like, how dare you come in between a father and a daughter and you ruin this, you know, these moments for me and my dad. And I think a few days later, Suzanne Suzanne his wife and I started talking again and we were kind of like not at each other's throats but just kind of like I just wanted to know if my dad was

okay I just want facts yeah I just want facts yeah so she's like well we're going home and the doctor says that you know people need to come and visit him but they have said this about my dad a lot yeah but I wasn't going to invite myself because I don't want to intrude on my dad when he's not feeling good and show up and he'll be like get out you know while he's fucking yeah feeling good um so they said my my little sister um was going to go up there and see him and my brother so i didn't realize the severity of it and i did again i didn't invite myself because I was just like, whatever. You know, if my dad wants me there, he'll text me. But no one explained the severity to you. Right.

It was a very like, you should probably just come. Yeah. Yeah. It wasn't like, hey, he's got hours left to live. It was like, you know, just come up when you can type of situation. And I'm just like, OK, well, I'm in L.A. I'm here. I'm doing this.

Like nobody was really telling me what was going on and I don't talk to my little sister we don't communicate because I cut her off so the only person I have to go off of is his fucking wife and so anyways fucking um the morning that we had just got back from I think LA or something and she hit me and she's like you should you need to come see your dad today I'm like okay say less I'll be there so I start looking for jets and start you know trying to get a private jet there our manager our tour manager Ron was you know sending us quotes back and forth and we were about to lock in a jet and as soon as we were about to lock in a jet she texted me and she says or she called me and she said, he just passed away. I don't think people also realize

how close, like when I say that she had her phone confirming the jet and I interrupted her and said, Hey, Suzanne's calling. That's how close, like this wasn't casual. This was like, no, I'm coming right now. Like I will be there kind of situation. And that that's wild to me. That gives me chills to think about. Yeah, no, it was a really fucked up situation that, again, his wife put me in and I'm not here to play a victim. It is what it is. And then, you know, my dad passed away and, you know, there's some things that happened afterwards that were really fucked up that I'm'm gonna save for my book that you guys will be able to read in the book but let's just say Bill threw

in one last low blow that you know shouldn't have happened and it just it was all really fucked up and um I really feel like Bill has been trying to make it up to me now that he's passed away he's reached out to Amy Boleski I say reached out like he's alive and gives to me now that he's passed away he's reached out to amy boleski i say reached out like he's alive and gives him a call but he's like visited amy boleski and like is like bugging her like hey hey tell my he she he showed her a vision of him like being on vacation and he's like wearing a beach shirt and stuff like that and then he also has gone to sloan a couple times and sloan's hit me and she's like, hey, man, your dad is like here. And, you know, this is what's going on with him.

And because of what he did, I banished him from my house, my house, any energy around me. I told him I do not want to see you. I don't don't come visit me because I can feel I started to feel my dad whenever there was a brief moment after he passed that I couldn't feel him. And I was really confused. And it's been different with my mom and my dad, because when my mom passed, it was like, I felt so much love and she would send like really glowing lights. Yeah. It was like glowing lights, like colorful lights. And like, she, she would show herself through music and songs and like lights. I woke up one night in the middle of the night and I had like all these crazy lights on my, um, TV. Like it was really crazy how much my mom wanted to just,

I don't know if it was thank me or just let me know that she was okay. And that's all died down now. And I can still feel her whenever she comes around and stuff like that. Um, but it's not as intense as it was the first two weeks of when she passed with my dad, it was like, everything went really cold and it was almost like no feeling. And that freaked me out because me being such an in tune person with this, my spiritual side, I was like, where is he? What is he doing? You know? And my dad was super, super like Christian, but he was also the biggest fucking hypocrite. So that scared me, too, because I'm like, damn, you know, like what? You know, what if he didn't make it to the freaking high heavens?

And I still don't feel like I feel like he's still walking this earth somehow. And Haley and I went to a psychic out here in vegas before my dad had died and she said to me i said do you sense any death around me and she said actually yeah i do and she said um your dad is going to be in the in between right and walk the earth until you forgive him he's not going to be able to go to the light until you forgive him. He's not going to be able to go to the light until you forgive him. And at that time, it was before he had really fucked me over, but it wasn't like another fucking blow to the fucking chest like he did. And so I was like, what is she talking about? I forgive my dad.

I don't care, whatever. You know, he'll be fine. I'll talk to him in a couple of days or something. That's how I was thinking, you know. And so it's been really crazy. how I was thinking, you know? And, um, so it's been really crazy, but he, so he's been like showing himself as butterflies and it's been crazy, even though I banished him. And I was like, I don't want you around me. I don't want your energy. Do not come around me. I don't want visions from you. No dreams, no nothing. Like stay the fuck away from me. And, um, I'll go

outside and I'll sit down. And like one one night one day a butterfly came and landed on my knee one day he knows you won't stomp on butterflies right and one day another butterfly came and sat next to me and each time a butterfly comes to me they're prettier and prettier like the one landed on jason's nipple yeah while we were swimming butterfly landed on jason's nipple like not around it literally on it yeah i have a little video of it yeah and then one time i got out of my car the last time i came to your house and there was one that was all around me as i was trying to walk into your house oh yeah maybe because you told him not in your home so he's just hanging outside yeah so he's outside right so the butterflies were like beautiful and that was a moment and they were around for a few weeks and stuff like that.

And then now I have a fucking pet deer that has appeared out of nowhere. She's gorgeous. She's so sweet. There's two of them. Actually, there's like a bigger one that looks pregnant. And then there's star. I've nicknamed her star. That is kind of like she looks like a baby. I don't know if she's like not just a small dog. Yeah, she's Star. I've nicknamed her Star. That is kind of like, she looks like a baby.

I don't know if she's, like, not fully. She's a small doe, yeah. Yeah, she's cute. But, like, she comes up to the fence and, like, hangs out. Just looks at you. Even though it's haughty right there. Doesn't care. Literally, no fear, nothing.

And I have this on video. You can go on my backup TikTok, ohheyitsbunny, and look at these videos. But, like, this, I've, I've fucking bought deer feed and fucking made a tree feeder on the tree and filled it with all the food. Yeah. Like she comes around and it's crazy because my best friend Tasha moved to Nashville. So she's in Nashville now. And she had came over to hang out with me for the day. And I was telling her about this deer when we were out shopping and you know,

it's one thing to hear it. Right. But we're in the backyard and we're sitting there and we're talking and I look at her and her eyes, she looks like this. And I'm like, what? And I'm looking at her and I'm like, I don't want to turn around. It's probably a fucking Hornet or something is on my head. Like I'm just freaked out. And she's like, let's look. And I turn around and the fucking deer is literally just fucking stand sitting there looking at both of us for like from the backyard did you see that angle that i had yeah like just sitting there looking at us and i'm like okay i was like well they're star i was like that's the fucking deer i'm telling you about so i think bill's coming to me and all these animals and insects

and why can't it be a possum no why can't it be a fucking crow bill true you've told them what you want no i told bill i said i will forgive you if you show up as a crow and you are my pet until then go fuck yourself what if like when you get home there's just a crow and it's like hola ah i'd be like forgiven forgiven Bill crossover you're fine go to the light like literally but you know there's just and you guys will hear the whole story whenever my book

comes out next year of what he did and I'm just at a place of peace with it now I'm not mad at my dad but I don't love him right now either so I don't know what that place is. You know, it's just kind of like, I think the problem is, is when you, there's always one parent who you, no matter what type of relationship you have with them,

they're always the stronger one. And they're always like the cooler one, or they're the one that like, you know, that you look up to and you admire not not saying that i really looked up to my dad but i never realized what a fucking weak man he was and i think after he died i put him on such a pedestal and then after he died and all this all this shit happened i just was like what a fucking weak dude dang like that that the facade was shattered yeah yeah no it was like I just was like dude like you are everything that I hate in a man wow and it was just like it was a realization and I don't know if that's part of grief you know you guys let me know if that's part of grief or what but I'm just more like disgusted with the human that he was and I just don't respect it yeah wow that's

crazy to think about yeah I just don't think that um a dad should ever make a daughter feel the way my dad did no his whole life not at all not at all but again it's all you knew yeah so like that's another hard thing is like until you've gotten to this point in your life and now you have jay and you have your own family you've created you were like oh that's not how you talk to kids yeah like we all are breaking these generational curses and like even now when i talk to my kids i catch myself slipping up how my parents would speak to me. And I'm like, wait, that's not normal. Like, don't do that. And then I have to reel that back.

And, you know, so I completely understand that. Isn't it crazy how kids of your own are so healing? Healing is fuck. Yeah. Even though I did not physically give birth to Bailey, that child is mine. And I love her like she's mine and she's healed so much and like made me realize so much was wrong with my fucking childhood yeah not saying I'm a great parent because I Bailey's had to go through some shit with us man Bailey was there

when I was getting sober Bailey had to get there was there when me and her dad were both getting sober um figuring out how to be parents like she was literally our first child yeah no you you guys were kind of thrown into a child who could already speak back to you yeah which is hard because at least when they're younger um i will say it's a little bit easier because you can make those mistakes yeah and that child can't be like yo motherfucker uh which now i couldn't imagine getting my children how they are now. That would be wild. So most definitely she was able to come to you guys with opinions and feelings.

And that's even harder to navigate because that's already set in stone. Yeah. And you guys didn't create those emotions and those feelings and those personalities. So you guys kind of had to like. Well, also, she came to us with a shitload of trauma. Yeah. And then we also had all of our trauma so we've literally had to figure out how to navigate through trauma i am such a different parent now than i was when we first got her when i when we first got her i was

like i was kind of like i don't want to say like how my stepmom was because she was fucking ridiculous but i was like very structured very very scheduled, like fucking, uh, dance class this day, fucking softball this day, soccer this day. You know, like I tried to keep her busy because I just never wanted her to have to sit and think about all the shit she's been through, you know? And like, well, I always had her on a schedule and now I'm just like, I'm actually turning into like the cool parent, you know? I'm just like, whatever, dude. All right. I don't care. Fucking go do what you got to do.

Do what you, yeah. Do what you have to do. Yeah. Just do what you got to do, live. And now she's got a little job and shit. I'm all proud of her. I know. She's all grown up.

She got a job, bro. It's crazy. Yeah, we are. We're going to go visit her. That would be so much fun. Yeah, we'll all do it and embarrass her. It would be great. I told her I'm trying to get them to fucking make me my own special non-dairy non-sugar thing so that whenever i go i can actually like have

some yeah name it after you yeah she's like they looked at me like i was crazy whenever i told them that and i was like well tell them i'm an almond mom okay so that's what an almond mom is right yeah super healthy or whatever that's funny yeah no she's great. But speaking of kids, let's talk about our IVF journey that my husband decided to tell the world, tell the world. Like it's so crazy because we started this IVF journey in 2019. Nobody knows that. I've talked about it a little bit here and there, but I haven't really like told you guys like Jay and I really have always kind of wanted a piece of us. And we kind of go through stages where we're like, yeah, we really want to be parents. And then we're like, no, you know, there's stages where you're like, absolutely not.

And so in 2019, I did go to the doctor, the fertility doctor that we're going to see now. fertility doctor that we're going to see now. And, um, they had me do that test where they test all the stuff in your ovary or not your ovaries, your fallopian tubes to see if you're able to have an egg carry down or if there's any blockages because I have had an abortion and two ectopic pregnancies. So when they did that test, they fucking shot the shit through me and it was the worst pain I've ever gone through in my life. You guys have probably heard me talk about this. If you're a long time listener, if not,

then this is why I'm recapping it for all the new newbies. And, um, it was just the most painful thing I'd ever been through. And they were like, this is what childbirth feels like. And I was like, Oh fuck.

No. I was like, I never want to go through this. This is fucking horrific. And I went home that night and I just, in 2019, I was going through my suicidal depression and my ideation and still figuring out sobriety. I had just stopped drinking a year before and I just wasn't ready. I was like, you know, Jay and I were healing from the situation we had just gone through, um, with the affair and it just was not a place to raise a child. And I feel really bad that, you know,

Bailey had to go through that with us and we did it as best we could with her, but trying to get pregnant and do IVF in 2019, there was just way too many things. We were not stable financially. We were not ready to, I was still working, you know, like there was just so many factors of like, Hey man, maybe I don't want to bring a child into this world, you know? And you know, you guys have seen how much we have grown since from 2020 to 2019 to 2024 is a world of difference. We are not even the same humans we were in 2019. Um, it, we are just trying so hard to keep moving forward and just keep doing new things, you know, and this journey with the IVF, we sat down a couple months ago and, you know, I was just like,

I feel like I've accomplished so much in my life and I feel like the only thing that's left is to really just raise a baby and garden like I'm in my baby mama gardening area yeah you know and um Jay was like when I sat him down I was like how do you feel about having a baby? He's like, I would love to have a baby with you. And that was not the response that I thought that he would say. Yeah. And, um, I was just like, wow, really? And I was like, have you always felt like that? And he's like, yeah, he's like, I will always have a baby with you. He's like, if you want to have a baby, cool. If you don't cool, he's like, whatever you want to do. And so now he's like really excited about it because he's really excited. I mean, like he's so excited about it.

So we were going to keep this private from the internet because like how the internet is, they love to ruin beautiful things. And I told him, and I had even kind of hinted about it on the Tana Manju podcast on the canceled podcast. I said, if we did get pregnant,

I would pull a Kylie Jenner and not tell anybody till the babies were there that was me already hinting like hey yeah we're we're on this journey you know but you know people don't know how to read between the lines and you can't read people's minds so um you know when jay went on the bus and with the boys podcast he came home you guys were all sitting there yeah and what happened you he just was like so there's something i gotta talk to you about i don't think anyone in the room was ready for him to be like and i told them yeah and all of us were like you told them and he's like on the podcast yeah and i was like our mouths dropped because we were like one we should have done that on my podcast but we love the boys and we'll let them have that and they're the sweetest to us always

but two I was like motherfucker we weren't gonna tell anybody like I was really gonna stick to this like I was not gonna tell anybody but then I started thinking about it because at first I wasn't mad but I was like fuck how am I gonna just you know contain this and not let it how are you gonna navigate right now navigate it so people aren't just so crazy about yeah and just throw the misinformation everywhere right so um then i thought about it and i was like my husband is fucking excited to have a kid with me like how cool is that and if he wants to fucking scream it from the mountaintops fucking let him you know it doesn't matter how i feel about what other people think because i just know how fucking evil the internet is yeah and so i reached out to the boys and i

was like hey i know that jay told you about us doing ivf or whatever can i please have that clip and can i please drop it so that I can control the narrative on that? Yes. And they were like, absolutely. So when the podcast dropped, I, um, I posted the clip myself because I wanted to have the control of that narrative of our child that is being, you know, in the process of being made. and um you know when and i'm gonna do this without using f-bombs as much as possible but when that clip dropped we got so much fucking love i mean the fact that so many people were so what are you guys laughing did i so much love so much yeah but i was talking about when i get to the haters but yeah so much fucking love and just so such a sweet, such a sweet response of just overwhelming love.

And it was amazing. Acceptance. Acceptance. Yeah. And anybody that's dealt with infertility or having a hard time getting pregnant, like that's all you want is like people rooting you on. You know, it's a very fragile situation. You don't know how people feel unless you've been through that. Yeah, absolutely.

And then I get sent, you know, all these comments and just people talking shit and somebody saying that, oh, now she wants to have a baby for content. First of all, do I look like I need to have a baby to get views, motherfuckers? No, no, I don't. first of all, do I look like I need to have a baby to get views, motherfuckers? What the fuck? No, I don't. Oh, she just wants to be like Trisha Paytas and try to change the narrative of her life. First of all, no disrespect to Trisha. I love her, and I love that she's in her fucking baby mama era, and she's crushing it, dude.

But what narrative do I have to change on my fucking reputation? Yeah, exactly. Nothing. You know what I'm saying? And then there was another person like oh she just wants to capitalize and make money off the baby do you not think i'm not fucking rich already not that you wanted to hide the babies how much more money do i need what what is a fucking kid gonna bring me that i don't have already you know what i'm saying and it's just

shit like that that i was just like this is disgusting it is and then people are like oh she's too old to have a baby and it's like travis barker is fucking 50 years old and just had a kid like what are you talking about why do you guys pick and choose who can have babies and who can't yeah it's fucking weird get the fuck out of my pussy hole how about that who's got a teenager we do and guess what she is ridiculously hard to keep track of and if I Didn't have life 360 on my phone I would never know where this kid is the entire family and I have life 360 And my husband actually uses it more than I do. He knows where everybody is at every time, which I think is so funny

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and knowing that our daughter is okay at all times means so much to me knowing that my husband made it to another city when he's on tour them being able to check on me and know where I'm at what if my battery is low on my phone they tell me to charge it if they're missing me they send me a little I love you message like it's the cutest app and I absolutely love Life360. I never want to live life without it. Family proof your family with Life360. Visit Life360.com or download the app today and use code BUNNY, B-U-N-N-I-E, to get 15% off. That's Life360.com, code BUNNY, B-U-N-N-I-E.

College degrees are pricey, but with low tuition and our $2,500 back-to-school scholarship, WGU makes it possible to earn your degree at a price you can afford. Apply today at wgu.edu. I said I wasn't going to cuss, but it's just so fucking weird to me, you know? Yeah. And so for that reason, you know, we are are i'm just going to be honest with you guys i am not going to carry the baby and then there was a page that said that i cheated on my husband and said that i got pregnant and my husband is only staying with me because um i'm having the baby and he's going to take care of some other man's child and that his

song I am not okay is about that oh like this is the type of shit that I've had to deal with okay I'm just like this is fucking weird I'm not having the baby I am not carrying the baby I am not mentally well enough to let my hormones get out of whack I have gotten to a place where I'm not mentally well enough to let my hormones get out of whack. I have gotten to a place where I'm even keel. My anxiety is finally good. I don't have depression. Of course I have down days and you know, stuff like that, but nothing like what I went through in 2019,

which scares the living shit out of me. So we're going to go the surrogate route and there, there's nothing wrong with having a surrogate. I would have trouble carrying a baby. I have lost many babies, you know, and I don't, one, we don't have the time to go through that. New to my schedule does not allow for me to fucking have a miscarriage or another topic pregnancy or whatever.

And the crazy thing is, is I just went and had all my blood work done with my doctor. And my doctor told me, if you want to carry this baby, you are more than fertile to carry this baby. We just have to figure out the tube situation. But she was like, you are nowhere near menopause girl. You are juicy. You are ready to carry this baby. Juicy. What a word. Yeah. She's like, you're juicy. You are ready to carry, carry this baby, do whatever you want. And I'm just like, I don't think I can mentally handle that. I really don't.

It's rough. No, I saw what you've gone through. Yeah. It's fucking rough. Mimi hit one of her biggest lows after she had cash. Yeah. After I had my son, that was the, my postpartum almost took me. Yeah.

For sure. That was rough. Like, and not only post, like, I guess boys and girls or pregnancy one, pregnancy two hit you so much different. Cause my first one, I had a rough pregnancy, but my postpartum wasn't as bad. And then with my son, it was like my pregnancy was pretty okay uh but my postpartum like i had paranoia really bad like i always thought that people were gonna kill me like i couldn't go to remember the grocery store yes in the grocery

store i thought people like had bombs on them i thought i saw time travelers like i feel like i was almost hallucinating sometimes like i actually this is how fucked up the mental health system is i went to a mental health hospital because my doctor was like you're not okay you need to go be admitted and they were like you can either give us three thousand dollars a month yeah um and just do face times with a doctor three thousand dollars a month to do a face time with a doctor with multiple people in the session yeah and i was like i have to tell all strangers share with the fucking class my problems absolutely not not not the show and tell yeah mental health edition parade my fucking postpartum around um and then the other option was to like be put in in a facility and i was like the newborn at home i

can't do that the mental health crisis is so bad i preach about it on the podcast all the time like it is so fucking bad dude like i feel so horrible for people who really need to go and get help and there's just no help there's no resources nothing they want to either put you on a pill or fucking put you on the streets yep they do not care like it's just awful empathy in america is lacking there's no one there to help when you look for it so from here on out with the ivf journey um i want to keep it private i'm not gonna be one of these girls because we are going to be using my eggs and we're going to be using jay's sperm, and we're going to be doing an egg retrieval and I'm going to do a round of IVF. Um, but I don't want to be one of these women who's on there, you know, putting shots in my stomach and stuff like that. I just feel like

I love women who do that. Cause thank God I have gone down the wormhole of IVF. You've done all your research. I just, for me and our journey and because of who we are, I don't. And it's such a sensitive subject that it's like, I just want something that's ours. You know, you guys don't have anything that is private in your life. So I just want this private journey. So the next time you guys hear me talk about IVF or the babies is going to be when the babies are born, when we're introducing them to you, if we choose to do that.

Yeah. I might be one of these weird moms who fucking never, never shows my kid. I might pull a Courtney Barker. You never know. I'm serious. Like I just, I see what we have gone through with Bailey online and I see how fucking

Paris Hilton. I've never seen grown adults talk shit about babies the way I have seen them attack this woman who literally waited until she was 44 years old to have two babies via surrogate through IVF. Like this woman is fulfilling her dreams. She's being a mother and she's just the sweetest little human alive. And you want to talk shit about her baby's head? Yeah.

Like it's disgusting. I'm like, if anyone was to talk shit about my kids i would probably hunt you down like yeah i would like come for you so i couldn't imagine on the scale in which paris has yeah the amount of people who did say something is just disheartening but i see what we've gone through with bailey her teeth journey which ba Bailey's teeth are done now, guys. What the fuck do you got to say now? Her teeth fucking look great. Her smile's perfect. Yes.

But literally, you guys bullied a child from the time she was 10 until she was 16 on her journey with braces. Like, it's just fucking it's horrific. So it's like, I don't know if I want to subject our kids to that. No, you know, and I just don't think that it's fair. We're on the we're on the fence. I keep saying babies and kids. So I know somebody's going to pick up on that. We're on the fence of having twins. We think we want to have twin boys. I'm not sure we could have one. We could have two. We don't know what we're going to do yet. We don't figure it out when you get there. Yeah, we don't plan on implanting until February of 2025. So baby D Ford will not be here till 2026.

So it's definitely going to be a process. And I hope that clears up a lot of stuff for you guys, but it's something that we're really excited about and you know, we're going to do it and it's going to be fun and I'm going to figure it out. I love it. Yeah. You're going to be an uncle. I'm going to be an uncle guys.

You're going to be an uncle. I'm still going to be a working mom though, guys. Like do not think that I'm not, it's like jelly. Jelly has always uncle guys you're gonna be an uncle i'm still gonna be a working mom though guys yeah like do not think that i'm not it's like jelly jelly has always said you're not a you're not a um a housewife you're a homemaker he's like you'll make a house a home you'll make everybody you cater to everybody you serve everybody you do that he's like but you are not a housewife no you don't just sit in a house and you know take care of the babies like you get in trouble when you sit at home oh yeah i'm not allowed to fucking be on my phone no i'm not allowed like a five day limit by

six i'm like don't do it i'm getting better though like i do you not think last night you literally had to delete something fuck her and we'll get to that fuck her we're gonna get to that fuck her god you guys ever have this one twat that's in your life that you're just like bitch what you're like a fucking hemorrhoid you just never will go away you are a fucking hemorrhoid sticking out of my butthole dude yeah like it is so you're a bloody one that scrapes the turds chachi's butthole, dude. Yeah. Like it is. You're a bloody one that scrapes the turds. Chachi's butthole looks better than that. Chachi's butthole is crunchy. He's got a crunchy little butthole.

Yeah. So I hope that fucking, you know, gives you guys some insight into our IVF journey, because I know that a lot of people probably were like, wait, what? What is happening and what's going on? But, you know, we said we wanted to talk about tampons on a flight and i said i would talk about my tampon on a plane story all right let's talk about your tampon on a plane being fat on a plane is not fun secondly using a bathroom on a plane while you're fat is not fun i have found out that being fat on a plane in a bathroom trying to change your tampon is like the worst experience of your

entire fucking life and i will never ever i will do a diaper on a plane before i will ever change a tampon on a plane ever fucking again i had my leg up on the fucking wall i was trying to like open up as wide as i could to be able to fucking get the tampon in and those bathrooms are so fucking small they probably thought i was wrestling a turd because i i was fucking and i don't want to touch anything in there because they're just dude there was piss on the floor piss on the floor i can't handle it wet soggy floor with piss gross so i'll never go in the bathroom but listen when i got it yeah when i got the tampon in it didn't go all the way in we all know how that feels right i hate that and so it was like partially sticking out so i'm like walking

off the plane waddling trying to get to the bathroom and then it wasn't in there long enough to have collected enough and i had to just dry pull a tampon oh that's the worst i fucking listen i don't wear tampons i don't know how you guys wear tampons. I used to wear them all the time. And I used to love them too. But I just can't wear them anymore. They hurt me. They make my cramps worse. I think I'm either becoming allergic or like they're starting to hurt.

Yeah, that's what happens. Maybe it's with age. Maybe. Your little fucking hoo-ha gets a little more sensitive down there. It has to because these last couple of times I was even considering changing tampons because i was like they hurt me yeah i don't know what's going on yeah no same i don't know what it is but um i'll wear diapers all day long and if you guys follow me on tiktok you know that they have these fucking adult diapers that are super cute that black with like a little print on them with like little frilly little fringy frillies on them

and they're cute listen i have gone from wearing like 10 pads a day because when i first start bleeding i bleed a lot and i don't like to have a lot of blood just sitting there on my hoo-ha um i wear like two diapers a day like that's how good they are yeah i'll wear them when i sleep because i don't want to bleed and they don't leak yeah they don't leak you never bleed on the bed ladies ever i swear by those because like you know like the pads when you sleep they just don't catch like the blood rolls around i don't know it's hard yeah and i always have to be like jason ronchin she's my fucking blood out in the bed you know and like sometimes my kids crawl in bed with me i don't want to be fucking bleeding everywhere so i when you started trying the diapers i was like i'm fucking bed with me. I don't want to be fucking bleeding everywhere. So when you started trying the diapers, I was like, I'm fucking trying diapers.

Bad boys don't leak. They don't leak. And I've leaked on every mattress I've ever had. And it is the best thing ever. I'm telling you right now, ladies. I forget what brand we wear. Do you know what brand it is? I think it's like Always Nighttime Diapers.

Yeah, something like that. Go get them. Don't sell them out, bitches bitches because i need some too yeah maybe sponsor us yeah we'll talk about your diapers any day i'll i'll shit i'll take i'll do a photo shoot and i'm okay just sponsor me i don't care i'll do it should we yeah we should oh i'm up i got it yeah we definitely should photo shoot in diapers. If you ever had a movie written about you, who would you want to play you? Rebel Wilson. I love Rebel Wilson.

I love her name, too. Yeah, Jason called me Fat Amy for a while. How endearing. Yeah, no. Nothing makes your pussy wet more than being called Fat Amy. When I was all over blonde, I looked just like Rebel Wilson from Pitch Perfect who better be i don't know i have no idea who would play you what about you hayley probably melissa mccarthy oh i could totally see that bro we just watched unfrosted last night that was such a good movie yeah from what i saw it looked like a fucking just i don't know one long it was

a long snl i would probably watch it again i don't want can you re-watch movies i can't i once i watch a movie one time that's it i'm not watching there's no going back i can't watch it i would watch it again with other people unless because you vibe off of them not just by myself unless it's steel magnolias, Beaches, Pretty Woman. I love Pretty Woman. Yeah, like stuff like that. I'll watch it. Yeah, the classics I can watch over and over again.

I can tell you about Steel Magnolias. I've never seen it. I've never seen that. Excuse me? We have to make you watch it. It's happening tonight. We're going to have a movie. Whoa.

No, we're taking Haley to the bar to go see her little cutie tonight you wanted to fuck him a month ago she said that was month ago hayley oh man it's a good movie i they made me watch it in the salon one day and they were like it's a comedy that is not a comedy who said it was a comedy cassie somebody who didn't watch it to the end no no it's cassie i'm over there foiling falling just tears falling down as i'm trying to foil some fucking highlights i was like that movie will fucking make you just rethink your life have you ever seen beaches bro i asked you gotta give a little take a little you don't know dude craig robinson craig robinson came in to the fucking green room the other day and i was like oh my god it's

fucking craig robinson is that the guy who like let's blow this motherfucker down pookie yeah are you sure that's him isn't that that him? From Pineapple Express? Harold and Kumar? So she's never seen any Craig Robinson movie. And I was like, you've never seen Pineapple Express? She's like, no. I was like, you've never seen even The Office? I had to see if we're going to burn this motherfucker down, Pookie. I could have fucking done that TikTok with him and didn't even realize it.

He is, but I've never seen his movies. Those movies just didn't spark me. but the office man oh he's eating the drive-thru yeah yeah that's him i'm gonna burn this motherfucker down pookie god dang it why didn't somebody tell me i would have done that tiktok with him cut this out he was not very nice yeah he didn't seem nice no did you hear what he said great what he walked in and he looked at your husband he said something he looks at him turns to the guy next to him and goes where's all the comics at because he said hey craig sorry to take up your green room and then he uh the guy sitting on the couch next to me pointed at josh and he like kind of looked at josh and he shook his hand and then he stepped out real quick i was like okay sorry no jason leave that in

oh that's rude oh it was i was like oh okay it was very off-putting i thought like he would have like been like hey jay or like you know like even mgk yeah they're all standing right there yeah he was how sweet is mgk was like the little friend in the corner that was just like twiddling his fucking thumbs he really is just a sweetheart dude every video i have he's just standing in the corner by himself i just like i'm just happy to be hurt yeah the friend that's just happy to be there is mgk i love that no i love uh the friendship between him and jay i think it's really sweet they're like besties i know it's like little brother big brother yeah vibes all watching his little like show he was on

jimmy kimmel this week i know and them watching it together in the studio i know they're just so cute all right well we have two more stories to talk about would you like to go into our neighbors okay listen we have been undisturbed in our studio for years and we decided to you know move into this new studio which we knew it was going to be dramatically different because we're going from small little space we didn't bother anyone we didn't talk to anyone and we knew moving into this newer much larger studio you know we're probably going to get to know the people around us and sure enough we had to go in and remodel the entire studio so that and it wasn't just like a quick little remodel we're talking like the place was gutted and is brand new it's so fucking pretty i cannot wait for you

guys to see the reveal but that being said there's been a lot of workers there so the neighbors have become curious and we have befriended one of the neighbors we won't say where she's at because we don't want to get in trouble i told someone in the neighborhood i promised her i wouldn't throw her under the bus but she's been such a sweetheart and she kind of like fills me in on all the gossip that's going around in the neighborhood and um it started out light though it was like hey your construction worker left your lights on yeah it was like hey your sprinklers are on yeah it was very nonchalant until today today today I get a text message and I'm gonna read it for you guys word for word because i don't ever want to misquote anybody where do you even start yeah i'm trying to think

i said okay so she texted me she said hi um i know your schedule's crazy your two neighbors directly on each side of you along with the old owner to start that didn't help your move these people seem to be terrified of you being here i think it's comical they're either they either need to keep their husbands in check or it's fucking with their fake christian personas i'll fill you in when you get back and i'm just waking up to this i'm like oh good lord and i'm like it's just my studio i'll barely be there but once a month for a week straight to film and i could care less about anyone's husbands so they have no need to worry. And can we just, um, I just want to clarify and take this moment to say that most women who are in the adult industry or who have been in the

adult industry do not give a fuck about your husbands unless they are paying them a substantial amount of money. Yeah. Nobody's going to look at your husband for free, who, especially who's been in the fucking business for a long time and be like, i'm gonna try to break up that happy home we don't want your fucking problem okay stop the fucking stigma dude i'm tired of how like sex workers just getting the fucking shit into the shingle always so anyways she said lol i know that it's the house and the people you'll have there as well as that is what they're worried about they are so concerned with you your guests and who will be staying there that one has come to me and told me about and that's where i used to live in nashville hated it everybody there was

fucking pretentious except for a couple of couples people feel thought they were way more important than they were it's a shithole you literally pay so much money to stay in a shithole. So much. A slum. The fucking gym is like from 1984. Like there's nothing is updated. You just are literally paying for the name. But anyways, I told her what she said.

If what she said about you was true, it would have been done for a reason to fuck back with people who are assholes to you. If you actually did that. And I'm like, did what? Yeah. Like, let's get to the point. You know, it's very confusing because she assumes like, you know what she's talking about. And it's like, I have no idea. Yeah.

And she said she told me that you rode around in the neighborhood in your golf cart while wearing socks that said, fuck me and lingerie. You'd go to the store in a robe and G string. I asked her, is there a store? Why would you do that? It doesn't make sense. And she said, I can't see you doing that except to fuck back with people. You did bring up a good point about a gas pump video that I had where I am in lingerie. So in 2020, during the pandemic, a lot of the girls that were in sex work got on OnlyFans. It was life-changing. It was literally life-changing, life-changing. And I was able to retire from having clients or seeing clients in 2020. So really technically I retired from the sex industry in 2020, not what everybody thinks last year. OnlyFans, yes, i retired from the sex industry in 2020 not what everybody thinks

last year only fans yes it's still the sex industry but it's like it's a different level of it it's online you know so anyways um there was a time where all because i used to be an instagram thought i'm very open with everybody about that. And I used to do like these little stints because you do it to get views. So like in 2020, a lot of the OF girls were going to like grocery stores and lingerie. They were like, you know, it was like shock value. Was it right? Absolutely not. I look at it now and I would never do that ever, ever, ever. But I had fun. We had a blast making content back then and it was fucking something to do. So wild. while we're all locked away during quarantine yeah there's one video of me at a gas pump pumping gas in lingerie

with a jacket on or i no no i don't have a jacket on in lingerie and you know yes i did that in one video and the socks that say fuck me i was fully clothed in shorts and a fucking red. In your own backyard. Yeah, in my own backyard that I had worn to a video shoot that we had gone to that day. You know, so it's like people are just putting things together. I barely left my house because I didn't fucking care to even be around the pretentious people. You also weren't riding around on the golf cart almost ever. I never rode around on the golf cart. And she said that the lady said that I used to go and hover around she said you would ride around the pool area motherfucker i bought a fucking

blow-up pool and stayed in my backyard so i did not have to go mingle with the people there like i told i said lol my reputation precedes me i was like people make me seem way cooler when they gossip about me than fucking i really am in real life like i am so boring she's a very much of an introvert guys literally like i would never do that and i said lma i said laughing my ass off yeah that never happened she said the old owner also told her about the vrbo for some reason i thought i'm gonna rent out my studio to people and make it an airbnb i'm like no that's not anyone in the studio so anyways this was the kicker this is the one that really got me she said seems so because i said my reputation precedes me she said the old owner came to me and asked me at my mailbox and i asked if i ever heard of you. I'm so sorry.

I hadn't at the time. I knew of your husband because we love country. So she told me who you were and showed me a podcast clip of yours. She apologized for selling the house to you. Apologized for selling the house to me, but had no problem taking our money. Yeah. And even took it at a lower price.

We fucking bargained the fuck out of them. And wouldn't get out. And would not leave once we fucking bargained the fuck and wouldn't get out and would not leave once we fucking sold the house to them i heard the podcast clip from her and truth be told i said to myself wow a normal person not another fake christian here i told her unless you're going to be running around naked in the front yard filming for only fans which she had told me about your only fans i didn't see a reason that she needed to apologize to the neighborhood about you. Two weeks after she told your neighbor about the VRBO and OnlyFans, she also told her that she and her husband lifted up a carpet in the house before moving and carved scriptures onto your floors underneath so that they could save you and your husband.

Yeah. floors underneath so that they could save you and your husband yeah sounds like witchcraft to me what part of the bible are you carving shit into floors trying to bless people that what that's scary that's so scary honestly like someone thought someone actually sat down at their kitchen table with their family and says you know what we should do we should carve scriptures it'll save them i mean they believe the thought process alone behind that is so fucking weird to me i can't understand that no so guess what your girl's gonna do she went immediately into action by the way this like this all happened in real time this morning and she immediately i don't understand when motherfuckers are gonna learn that if you're gonna hate on me i'm going to turn your hate into money always i will always always be an alchemist and transmute all the negative energy

that you put towards me and shove that shit right in my bank account in my pockets you know what i'm saying like so what i am gonna do is i got with my contractor and i said i want to pull up all of the carpet in our house to see if they really did that and i need the carpet needs to be changed out anyways so fuck it out with the old and with the new and we're gonna film it for the bunny xo show because i really want to see if these people are that sick and if they are guess what they can live with the embarrassment of it being online because you don't fucking treat people like that especially when you've never shook their hand you've never been in their energy like i'm just so tired of of square ass women who have

nothing but skeletons in their closet and do the weirdest shit all the time coming for people who are in the spotlight who have done fucking only fans who have been in the sex industry and trying to fucking put a scarlet letter on our back yeah we don't fucking deserve that dude not all of us are bad people are there a few absolutely but there's a few fucking weirdos in your crew too you know what i'm saying i've met more straight women who are the biggest fucking liars and hypocrites than i've ever met in the fucking adult industry some of the best women i've ever met and the coolest women i've ever met are in the fucking adult industry preach yeah and i'm just tired of it so we gonna see you gonna learn today you're

gonna learn today about our new neighborhood i feel like we should get a golf cart for over there and just go fucking joyriding and just terrorize the neighborhood oh my god we can put jason in lingerie and make him ride around in it you know what's fucked up is we even sent flowers to the neighbors down the street because they lost their daughter and like you know literally we're like sent them like hey you don't know us but we're just thinking about you and like this is what you guys do when we move in the fucking neighborhood not saying that they're the ones who talked about it at all but like we don't know for sure but it's like the neighborhood that you're moving into yeah it's just like golly we live in it's just crazy so yeah welcome to the south bitches bless your heart

now we gotta get into the story about my sister we have one more story guys all right guys all right so moving on from fucking our eventful morning let's go to our eventful night my sister is a cunt okay and i'm done being nice about it dude like i don't know i let me show you something of how many fucking receipts i have and how much proof i have on this woman that look at this i recorded a fucking screen look at this i could literally go on for hours about this girl but I'm not going to I'm just gonna get into the basics and just kind of like show you guys like hey this fucking girl is crazy like literally I could just keep going keep going keep going keep going I have a half sister that is literally a half sister. The only reason why we can even be called sisters is because we have the same mother. I have met this woman four times in my life.

I've seen her four times in my life. I'm trying so hard to like be diplomatic about this. life I'm trying so hard to like be diplomatic about this I've met her four times in my life and it started when um I was like 20 something my sister reached out to me after she knew that I had found my mom I had found my mom around 22 years 22 years old and we had started talking then of course here comes fucking what can we call her let's call her something because i'm never going to give her a platform because that's what she wants she even said to me last night send your trolls for me i need the views like yeah bitch we know you post and you get two likes i know let's call her marjorie i love marjorie let's go with marjorie marjorie all right so here comes marjorie no why didie. All right. Here comes Marjorie.

No. Why did I have to pick the longest name ever? Marge. Here comes Marge. Large Marge. Here comes large Marge. Okay. Just barreling in.

Hey, I'm your sister. I want to have a relationship with you. I, you know, and to me, that was cool when I was 22 because I had grown up in such a fucked up environment with my dad and my stepmom. And I have a baby sister that I actually love my baby sister. Her and I just don't see eye to eye. She just she does weird shit, too. But it's on a different level. I don't like her.

I love her. I don't like her. So facts. My older half sister. I do not like her. Do not love her. So that's where the difference is. Anyways, I want to have a relationship with you so i'm like fuck yeah i got a sister like oh my god

we're gonna have a fucking a relationship we're gonna be family i'm gonna have a big family that i didn't know about well i fly her out to meet me it happens pretty quickly and she's on the internet calling me a bro cooker. But I'm sorry. When I was 22 years old, I had more than she's ever had in her fucking life. Didn't have it like I have it now, though. You know, I started from the bottom. Now we're here.

And she fucking gets to Vegas. I fly her from Houston to Vegas. And this is when I actually had to work and suck dick for my money and fucking like go to the club and stuff like that. So I didn't have a ton of money saved up yeah so I spent like six hundred dollars on our plane ticket and I get her to my house and I noticed that she's like fidgety and she's like rocking back and forth and she's like fucking just being weird dude come to find out the bitch was methed out she She showed up at my fucking place, methed out.

She was at my house for a fucking hour. She was at my house for a fucking hour. And you know what this bitch fucking says to me? I need to go home. I can't be here. Excuse me, what? After I had just fucking flown her out that night to fucking come see me.

And I'm like, okay. I'm fucking come see me. And I'm like, okay. I'm like, are you sure? I'm like, do you want to lay down? Do you need me to go get you some meth? Like, what do you need me to do to make you more comfortable?

Cause I mean, I was with the shit I was doing Xanax and fucking cocaine. I got it. I was like, whatever. I'm just trying to bond with her dude. And she's like, no,

I have to go now. I have to go now. And she's like one of those people who like cries and screams and freaks out and everything's about her. And I was just like, good Lord. Okay lord okay i'm like let me get you home so i had to call one of my sugar daddies and have him book her a fucking flight home she went home literally she had stayed in vegas 12 hours went through that stint with me and fucking flew home that night what the fuck i go in my room after she's left and the bitch has stolen so much clothes for me

went through my closet when i had to like run to go pick up the money from my sugar daddy and stole so much shit for me dude and that is how the start of our relationship has been oh my gosh i didn't know any of this that is crazy yeah yeah went and stole a bunch of shit fuck marge we're talking about a fucking 30 year span here now 20 years right because i was 20 so yeah 20 year span here and fucking our entire relationship has been like that she has come to me and said hey i you know i want i love you i want to be your friend i want to be your sister just, I love you. I want to be your friend. I want to be your sister. Just let me love you. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. She had five kids, lost all five of those kids to the fucking state because of what of a fucking piece of shit human she is. And I, as her sister who barely even fucking knew her said, I'll go to court and get custody of your kids for you. Just

tell me how I can do it for you. She disappeared on me. Couldn't find her. She didn't call me for a year. Never knew where she was. Whatever. Comes back in my life. I want to go to rehab. I need to go to rehab.

I'm like, okay, whatever you need, Marge. I'll fucking put you in rehab. Bought her a ticket to come to me to put her in rehab. She fucking flaked on me. Disappeared for a year. Didn't hear from her again. Calls, fucking calls me up a year later. I love you. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that. I'm on drugs. I'm this, I'm that forgive me. Went and saw her

in fucking Texas and fucking hung out with her. And like, you know, had a really cool night with her one time and fucking, you know, we had a blast and that was like the one time we sang karaoke. And like, we actually like, that was the one time that we acted like sisters. So I held on to that for a really long time. She did fucking weird shit. And then like she would try to get in between me and my mom's relationship all the time. She'd be like, mom loves you more. It's because you're the you're the favorite child. You're this.

You're that. Weird. I just fucking my mom has never been in my life. You know, like my mom left me on a fucking doorstep what are you talking about you lived with her and grew up with her what do you mean favored child yeah and i used to just put up with it all the time because i was just like you know i get it she's hurt she's grown up from a fucking crazy fucking family which is my fucked up mom on her side of the family and i just have always forgiven her and every time she comes in my life

she does some fucking weird shit and she hurts me this went her and every time she comes in my life she does some fucking weird shit and she hurts me this went on and there's so many more fucking stories I could go into but I'm just gonna leave it at that which I have receipts of everything 2022 is this before my mom came to me yeah I think it's right before or right when I got around the time with my mom um I found out that and another thing that my fucking half sister does is she will fucking leech on to anybody who has access to me like she will friend fucking Jay's brothers she will fucking friend like she's a super fan and she was trying to fuck one of the artists who um was one of my friends and his wife. Literally, they lived with us and it was embarrassing.

And she was like trying to meet up with people at truck stops and have sex with them. And, you know, I'm hearing all this shit and fucking next thing I know, I have people messaging me. Hey, your sister's selling merch with your name on it. And I bought merch and she never sent it to me. Shut up. That's when the fucking last. And there's so much more. selling merch with your name on it and i i bought merch and she never sent it to me shut up that's when the fucking last straw and there's so much more i'm just kind of carp cart what is it compartmentalizing everything to just kind of get it over with story a little because i'm compressing so much of this story dude and i finally had enough with her I think it was either 2020 or 2022. I think it's 2020 that this happened. And I have messages that I can read to you right now that I'm just going to kind of give you a little bit of the gist. So you guys know that, you know, I'm everybody knows that when I say something, you can fucking take it to the bank. I don't fucking lie. I don't have a reason to hide shit. I said, you do realize that blank blank is married to one of my best

friends, right? Marge, I've given you so many chances. All you do is embarrass me. She said, huh? I said, so you're meeting dudes at trucks, truck stops. You're saying blank, blank and blank. You're in blank, blank and blanks inbox and whoever else will talk to you. You're trying to make merch deals behind my back she goes what are you talking about no i'm not and by this time i had already had screenshots and so much shit yeah i knew that she was fucking lying all she does is lie all this fucking girl does is lie that's all she knows how to do it's the meth meth mentality they're just fucking liars i said before you lie to me you might want to rethink that she said meeting people at truck

stops what the fuck does that even mean i said people are sending me screenshots of everything Before you lie to me, you might want to rethink that. She said, meeting people at truck stops. What the fuck does that even mean? I said, people are sending me screenshots of everything. Blank, blank. I gave her a name of somebody. I said, have you ever met him? No, I have no reason to lie. I said, you're making deals with so-and-so for merch.

What's that about? And she's like, that's not how it went at all. I said, I'm listening. How did it go? And then she starts explaining this story to me. And it's just fucking lies. And I'm like, you know, so-and-so is married to one of my best friends. Right. And so-and-so is one of my good friends. I said, you are just so embarrassing. I said to be all over any of these guys in the scene is humiliating for me. And, um, hold on. I'm trying to, trying to skim through these through these. This is her talking about the dudes,

which I don't want to focus on because I don't want you guys to figure out who it was. I said, I said, Marge, I feel like every time I let you in my life, you're always doing some weird shit. When the fuck does this stop? She said, thanks. I said, are you ever just going to be my big sister? I said, don't thanks me. It's not time for you to start throwing a pity party for yourself. You're just never fucking cool. And I'm over it. She said, thanks. I said, bye, Marge.

She said, thanks. Like, she just is a fucking weirdo. Whenever she gets caught, when she gets caught doing something, she doesn't know how to fucking be like, yeah, I fucked up. I would respect it if she was like, yes, I did it. And I don't know why. I'd be like, damn, you're a fucking weirdo but okay at least you're honest you know but like she will take it to the grave that she didn't do anything wrong when I have screenshots that I send her I said you will never grow up and finally I don't give a fuck you aren't my problem and I've given you so many chances

and uh this was in 2020 by the way it was in january of 2020 and she's like i love you i'm okay with whatever you want but i'm not okay with you not understanding me i said first of all you have never done right by me so it's only fair that when i see messages messages of you saying you're going to get me on board with things you know i'll never agree with is shady and i'm sending her screenshots of her making merch deals with people behind my fucking back like you're like here's the proof it's right in her fucking face right here literally i have it all so i said you're just super fanned out which is exactly what i've said right here i don't there's nothing i say about her that i won't say to her yeah you know what i'm saying

she's the opposite she'll go to the fucking internet and make up straight up fucking lies about me and then fucking will never say it to me never say it every time you've confronted her it's been like whoa what like yeah like as if you don't know even last night and i'm gonna i'm gonna get to you know last night or whatever but i'm just trying to show you guys like how much I've had to deal with her. I said, you're just super fanned out and it's embarrassing. I've already told you how many times just be my sister. You only text me about shit that has to do with my husband or you're trying to get money out of me.

I'm just over it. This is in 2020, guys. My story hasn't fucking changed with this girl. 2020 was when I finally had enough of her shit and I started telling her to go fuck herself. After fucking 15 years of other bullshit that she has fucking put me through i said i'm over it we've been doing this dance for 15 years already i said there comes a point when i have to say enough as far as the truck stop goes i apologize because someone was telling me you did then when

they saw my post was like oh sorry i thought it was someone else so i even owned up to whenever i said the truck the truck stop shit i said so i do apologize for that i said everything else isn't right i have a manager and people who i've signed contracts with for merch having you out here trying to make deals behind my back is just not right you know like i'm literally her like, just stop being a fucking cunt. Anyways, we don't talk. We don't talk for fucking, uh, 2020, wait, 2022. Hold on. I have a whole fucking screen recording of everything. Yeah, this is 2022. So for two years, we don't have any communication with each other because I don't want to talk to her. I'm just like, fuck you. We're done. I don't want to talk to you. I even posted on Facebook. I'm like this

because she no matter how long we've not been cool with each other, she will always be like, I'm Bunny XO sister. No, the fuck you're not. Yeah. You've never been a sister to me. No, you have never been fucking cool. You've never had my back. You've always one used me or used me for clout, which is what you fucking do all the time. So I didn't talk to her. She would text me. She would message me. I love you.

Blah, blah, blah. Then go talk shit about me online. Just always kind of lightweight bullying me. And I'm just fucking tired of it. And so April 2022, I get a phone call about my mom and I have to race to Indiana. You guys all know the story. If you've been following me, I have to race to Indiana You guys all know the story if you've been following me I have to race to Indiana To go see my mom

Because she's on a ventilator The doctor said she's dying So me being a nice Fucking Sister I hit her up I'm like hey Marge call me I need to tell you what's going on It's a 911 emergency.

Mom's in the hospital, you know, which I didn't have to owe her that because let me just tell you, this girl, this woman has done nothing but berate my mother. Tell her what a piece of shit human she is. Tell her that she's the reason that she's the way she is, that she's had a horrible life. She told my mom that she hopes she dies before she was sick like she's done so much fucked up shit to my mom but because i really thought my mom was gonna die i was like let me tell my sister because she deserves to know yeah this is 2022 guys i said hey sis i need you to call me it's important she so she had gotten a hold of me

whatever um and she was like hey what time will you be with mom what time and so any I told you everything is about her so whenever she hears about an emergency it's all about her like it's not about the person that it's actually about she somehow turns it into it's about her so she starts blowing me up after I I got off the phone with her and I tell her everything that's going on with our mom she starts fucking blowing me up blowing me up blowing me up I have to get out there to see mom I have to get out there to see mom I have to be with mom I have to be with mom and this is what I said to her I'm gonna tell you one more time I don't know what the fuck is going on I I'm here People are not telling me anything. I'm trying to fucking figure it out

And i'm the last thing i'm worried about is fucking how the fuck you feel Where the fuck have you been all these years? You know what i'm saying? You're lucky. I even fucking told you she was in the hospital The last thing you said to her was that you wanted her to die Trust me if something bad is going to happen, I will let you know, but I don't need your dramatic fucking pathetic bullshit out here while she's trying to rest.

This is why my mom's on a ventilator. If you want to come out here so bad, then get your fucking ass out here. Nobody's stopping you. You can come. Just stay the fuck away from me and don't fucking cause any drama or I will have you fucking kicked out of the hospital.

If you can get your ass here, get your ass here. But if you're waiting on me to fucking pay for it, then you're going to have to wait until we can figure out what's going on with her. And again, this is because she's literally blowing me up, blowing me up, blowing me up. Like I need to get to mom. I need to get to mom. And it's really not that she wants to get to mom. wants to come and be with me and that's like that's how she's always been she just wants to be next to me she wants to take pictures she wants to like have that clout and i don't ever want her around me after 2020 i was like i'm done with you i see

through you i don't want you near me i mean this is enough receipts already to show you guys what a piece of shit she is like i have this documented, but I have to finish the story about my mom and then we'll end it with what she did last night. And, um, she said, I know that I just don't want her alone. We're talking about a woman who has done nothing, but the, after those voice messages or whatever, we're talking about a woman who has done nothing but tell my mom that she's a piece of shit and wants her dead. She, it's not that she wants to be there for my mom. Like I said, it was for me. I said, well, that's nice. it's not that she wants to be there for my mom. Like I said, it was for me.

I said, well, that's nice. You care now, you know, my, my story has never changed. It's always been the same.

She said, ha, I've always cared. I just show it like she does. That's her admitting that she's a piece of shit. Yeah. Literally because my mom and her are the same. My mom was an asshole.

You know, my mom was not a very said that repetitive loving woman. And this isn't new information. She was not a maternal woman. No, you know. And yeah. So anyways, by this time, it's like May 5th. My mom's out of the hospital, whatever.

She's like, how's mom? I said, message her and ask her because I was done. Like I did my part. I let you know, whatever, whatever. This bitch, a couple of days later, messages me for fucking tickets to one of jelly's concerts swear to god all the kids are really wanting to go to the show in the woodlands um they're dying to meet you i'm super proud to hear of him in text on the texas radio um they're super excited to meet their aunt i said the kids are always invited it's i'd rather

not see you or deal with you though I don't have time for any of your shit these days at all and I just left it at that like let the babies come they can always come she said okay well then I guess they won't be coming sorry for bothering you I'll just tell them we can't make it they're 15 and 11 no worries I'll just tell them I was wrong about the show I said or have their dad bring them just because you can't come doesn't mean they can't you're literally depriving your children because you want to throw a fit. Literally. And then with every fucking thing that I post, I always send it to her so that she knows like, hey, bitch, I fucking don't like you. Apparently she was doing something online.

So I sent her what I had written to all my followers. And I said, she was doing something online so i sent her what i had written to all my followers and i said um it says i've been brought it's been brought to my attention that a sister i cut off years ago blah blah blah one of those i said stop acting like we have a relationship my husband doesn't know you i don't want you in my life i've told you you aren't allowed at any shows you'll be removed if you do come and stay the fuck out of our lives she hit me with a thumbs up god you know and i'm just like i said stop posting like we have a relationship again and i promise you you'll be removed if you do come and stay the fuck out of our lives she hit me with a thumbs up god you know and i'm just like i said stop posting like we have a relationship again and i promise you you'll hear from my lawyers because i'm so fucking sick of her she said i'm sorry you feel that way so like literally you guys know obviously it's just one of those relationships that's just not fucking cool like leave me alone i have set a hard boundary with her and she fucking treads over it all the

fucking time and i have so much fucking proof i keep going on about all the back and forth that we've had because i mean like look how long this fucking thread goes for dude but we'll fast forward to when my mom dies so that was 2022 that i left you guys in um may of 2022 now we're gonna go to oh and actually i was actually very nice to her because she lost the father of her children um even though she doesn't have custody and that man actually raised those babies and was there for them um you know when she when she hit me about it i was like i'm sorry to hear that like i love you and i'm sorry you have a heart yeah i do i have a heart i've always had a heart for her so anyways uh she was posting online back then that i was

like posting my mom for clout and shit which is crazy to me because my mom told me she wanted me to document her journey yeah she loved she even started a tiktok called bunny's mama go look at go look it's there she loved loved it loved reading the comments loved being involved like she loved everything yes about tiktok and just being being loved on social media just social media alone she just i met my mom through social media you know what i'm saying so old vanessa loved her some social media yes so anyways So anyways, I sat down with Jay and I was like, you know, I just found out my mom died on November 3rd. And before my mom had passed away, about three months prior, before my mom had passed away, they had told me in hospice, hey, we're taking her off hospice.

She's getting better. We don't know why she's not walking. She's kind of being combative because that's how my mom was. She was an old fucking hell raiser, man. If she, if you told her to go left, she'd go right. And there was no reason for it. And I was just like, okay, well, you know, I don't know. She started a bunch of like, my mom was very manipulative, started a bunch of rumors and like telling people I wasn't taking care of her in the fucking, um, in the hospital and like sending her laundry home with people to do, because she said my daughter's neglecting me, even though I would go up there and

see her every fucking week. It was just weird head games that she would play. But my mom was also very pilled out and on drugs. And I got to the point where like, I got her an iPhone and she told me it wasn't big enough. Like there was like a slap, little slaps in the face that kind of added up. Oh, beds. I mean, anything I could get her, it wasn't good enough.

And I just got to the point where I was just like, I had enough. And it was a lot because I, before I had to inherit full custody of my mom, I literally had only spent maybe three times with my mother. That was meeting long periods of time. No, it was meeting her and seeing her at two shows and that was it and fucking um she you know she just my mom bless her heart was

just not a fucking good human she had a lot of love but she had a lot of trauma and she just didn't know how to be and so anyways fucking uh i sat down with jay oh i had cut my mom off for like the last three months of her life because i had to throw up a fucking boundary with her i was like if you start walking i'll come visit you like you've got to start doing for yourself trying to give her incentives yes to be better because at that point in her life i saw this firsthand she didn't want to be better no at that point she really wanted i saw this firsthand she didn't want to be better at that point she really wanted to sit in sorrow yeah she was just like i'm just gonna fucking sit here and just feel sorry for myself so and i was very vocal about this on social media it's not

like i sat there and said i am the perfect daughter i am doting on my mother i was like nope i'm not talking to her right now you guys also didn't have a mother daughter relationship. That was my child. She a little backstory. You know, she did leave you on a doorstep and then didn't contact you again till you were in your 20s. So that's 20 years. You guys didn't see each other. Yeah, she wasn't my mom.

She was a she was a fucking headache you know that i inherited but i wanted to do what was right by her and at least hang out with her you know while she was i thought was getting better yes so when i got the phone call that she died we were all we were all shook we were like what are you talking about you guys just told me you were taking her out of hospice and she was doing better like the nurses called me every week i kept tabs on her i sent her fucking dr peppers and food every fucking week i knew exactly what she was going through yeah it's not like i just fucking left her to die by herself in a hospital if that was the case why wasn't mom talking to you and the nurses called you anytime there was anything anything and my mom specifically

said i do not want marge around yeah she's bad energy. I don't want her here. When she was in the hospital and she woke up off that ventilator, she said, do not bring her here. Do not. Anyways, fucking. I sat down with Jay and I was like, I really don't want to see this woman. But if I have to bring her here to say her last goodbyes to my mom, then I will. And Jay's like, it's the right thing to do.

Just do it. It's like a so be it moment. Yeah. So I hit her up and I'm like, listen, if you want to come see mom, I will buy her a bus ticket. And I'm like, and this is all documented. I can read you the fucking messages. I'm like, how are you? You know what?

Here, I'll just read you the messages really quick. I said, yeah, she passed away about two hours ago. I plan on having her cremated and buried next to her mom in Indiana. Um, this is her talking about, so this is me talking about my mom dying and she's talking about, she's talking about her baby daddy dying. Um, I said, I'm sorry. I feel so bad for the kids. This is just too much. Please don't hate me forever. I love you. I miss you. I'm sorry. My head is a mess. This is how she is. And like, I'm dealing with my mom's death. And I said, do you have a number I can reach you at?

I need you to get on the phone. Says ASAP. Please. It pertains to mom's autopsy. Because when my, I was so shocked at the fact that my mom died that I, I ordered a toxicology test and an autopsy that I personally paid for because I didn't believe it. I thought they overdosed her or something like was crazy because I was like, you guys just told me that she's getting better.

How is she dead? You know, like I couldn't believe it. It was really bad. So anyways, I got her on the phone and I told her, I said, Hey, I'll book you a ticket. You can come out here, whatever. Just send me the link, but let me know. Let me find out the process first. I've never dealt with this before. I'm sorry for your loss. She's telling me I'm sorry for your loss of our mother. I have to see her. Even if it's bad, I have to.

Thank you for understanding. Sorry you have to do this. I have to see her. I have to. Like, she's just so fucking dramatic. It's like, bitch, I'm booking your fucking ticket right now, dude. I said, okay, they said if you get here, she should still be viewable. Can I fly you out?

No, I don't have an ID. I need to get on a bus. I can't do a plane. I said, OK, I'll book the ticket myself. I'm heading. I got the dates that she was heading back, whatever. I said, I'm going to put you in a hotel by me, too. So whatever you need while you're

here, I got you. How am I supposed to get ahold of you? So I know when you're here, she only has a phone that works on wifi. I said, how do we get your phone turned on? Do you need the bill paid? Who's it through? She said, cricket. I said, what's your account number? I'll pay it. I said, you can't be traveling without a phone. It's not activated. I lost my phone last week, blah, blah, blah, like whatever. She's always got a story for why she has a new phone or whatever i said let me know when you're here anyways she comes to fucking and this is all documented too um she comes to nashville and this is where it gets fun and you guys got to witness this oh yeah so she comes to nashville and i don't want to see her she gives me bad vibes i don't fucking to see her. She gives me bad vibes.

I don't fucking like her. Instead of putting her in a hotel, I didn't trust her to be in a hotel. I was like, no way. If she damages it, it's going to be a lot of money. I'll put her in an Airbnb. So I explained to the Airbnb dude what was going on. I said, hey, my mom just passed away. Anyways, I have a cousin that lives in Georgia.

And thank God for my cousin, Brittany, because she is a fucking angel, dude. She has helped me with my mom. She has been there for me and I actually really need to do something nice for her. Maybe I'll buy her a car because she's been so fucking nice. I need to do something for her. Um, she's like fucking Oprah.

She buys everyone cars. I feel like she tried, she tried to buy this. Everybody needs it. Everybody needs a vehicle. She tried to buy this sister a car one time. Huh? Didn't you,

you tried to buy her. No, this was my, that was my other sister. Oh, I thought you tried to buy. I would never buy this fucking fallopian tube car ever there's no fucking reason dude not the fallopian i'll put her in rehab before i'll buy her a fucking vehicle um she needs fucking what is that shit the shock she needs a fucking what is it called no but there's that one where they where they drill a hole in your head she needs a phlebotomy isn't that what it it called? No, but there's that one where they, where they drill a hole in your head. She needs a phlebotomy. Isn't that what it's called?

Yeah. Yeah. Oh, a lobotomy. Yeah. I think it's the butthole. I don't know. Anyways,

we get her out here. I put her in this Airbnb, but I'm like, Hey Brittany, I love you. Can you come babysit? Can you come babysit Marge for me? And she's like,

I don't want to. And I'm like, cause she knows she's grown up with her. She knows what a piece of shit she is. Doesn't like her. Doesn't want it, but she does it for me. I'm like, please. And she's like, I don't want to. And I'm like, because she knows. She's grown up with her. She knows what a piece of shit she is. Doesn't like her. Doesn't want it. But she does it for me. I'm like, please.

And she's like, yes, I will. So she comes out because she's going to take my mom's ashes back anyways. I'm really weird about ashes. I cannot touch ashes. Last time I touched a dead body at a funeral, I went into a suicidal depression. I've talked about this on the podcast. My entire life is fucking documented. You know what I'm saying? So anyways, they're with her at the Airbnb and she keeps messaging me, which I can read them to you. They're in here, but I'm going to say I'm just

for time's sake, I'm going to save it. She's like, why won't you come see me? I just want to hang out with you. I just want to see you. And I'm like, Marge, you've done a lot of shit to me and I don't want to be around you. That's pretty much what i'm telling her like look i'm gonna send britney money to take you clothes shopping go clothes shopping go do what you got to do and i'll meet you at the funeral home when you go to see mom's body you got her a phone that's what i'll say i got her a phone i got her a fucking prepaid salted blake was like oh um are you just her her um yeah blake goes to drop a phone off to her and she's like oh what are you her fucking bitch boy yeah he was like i'm just dropping you off a free phone i'm just here to give you a phone that you couldn't afford and

so anyways she's complaining that i won't hang out with her which is fine i don't give a fuck you know like like i said i didn't want to since 2020 i have not wanted to fucking be around you because i just saw you for who you were and we meet up at the funeral home funeral home's there and she's like fucking eeyore and just evil and of course making it about her yeah i don't know if i want to go in here i don't know i don't know if i want to go here i'm probably not going to go to dinner with you guys like just being a fucking headache and I'm like okay then don't nobody's twisting your fucking arm I don't care realizes she's not getting anywhere with me doing that so she's like okay I want to go see mom's body whatever whatever something happened and my mom's body wasn't ready at that time while I was there or something I forget what had happened I I don't know. I think, did she go in that time? Either way,

she went in when she finally gets to go in and see my mom, she goes in and my mom is in, she has a ring on her finger and she has the dress on that she was sleeping in, you know, and she looked very peaceful. And this bitch goes into the morgue of where my mom is being body is being frozen, takes the dress off my mom's dead body and slips the ring off her finger and keeps it and leaves my mom laying there on the table completely naked and exposed to be cremated that way. and exposed to be cremated that way. I'm like, it just keeps getting worse. It's just wild to me, right? And we go to dinner, and she's just a bitch the entire fucking night. And here's where it gets a little tricky, because I still have, you know,

I hold in my emotions all the time. But somebody had said something at the dinner table about, you know, my mom and I and I just broke down. And this is where I fucked up because I showed emotion in front of her and she's like a shark in the water. And she saw how hurt I was about the fact that I did not talk to my mom for the first for the last three months of her life. So that's all she uses against me now. That's when she goes to the internet, she's like, you don't know what a narcissistic piece of shit my sister is. She left my mom to rot and die by herself for the last three months of her

life. Tell the whole story of what exactly happened, you know? So anyways, I'm sure you guys can feel my anger through the fucking microphone. Cause I'm so mad. So anyways, we're done with dinner. Cause I'm so mad. So anyways, we're done with dinner.

I say goodbye to everybody. That's that. I don't want anything to do with my sister after that. I'm just like even more, just like wash my hands of her. Don't want anything to fucking do with her. This bitch that night is sitting around the fire with my family. It's saying I'm Vanessa.

I'm Vanessa reincarnated. Like, Oh, just fucking doing the weirdest shit and screaming and crying and philip you know what hold please i'm gonna call my cousin i mean i at this point i think it's fucking church choir tabernacle you guys can see what a fucking piece of shit she is church choir tab on what what is church choir tabernacle what church choir tabernacle that one that one got me what is it god what is that anyways we're gonna get to the we're not done with all the weird shit she's done we haven't even gotten to last night no hello hi baby you're on you're on air right now you're on hi say hi to everybody cousin cousin britney hi everybody so i just finally got

to the point in the story with when we're not saying her name we're calling her marge okay so i got to the point in the story where you guys are sitting around the fire and she's saying screaming saying that she's my our mom so so tell me the story she she wasn't, there wasn't even a fire. We were sitting on the back deck. And she kept saying it over and over again that I am Vanessa. And then she went out in the yard and she was just sitting there rocking back and forth, laughing hysterically. And she kept saying it over and over and over. And me and my mom and my sister and brother sitting there thinking like nothing like i was gonna call a paddy wagon or something it was bad it was real bad yeah i'm sitting here i mean i'm sitting here and i'm

telling the story of all the shit that she's fucking put me through and i'm like the fact that i even have to sit here and fucking tell strangers what my toxic fucking family is putting me through because she literally has bullied me for fucking so long online i'm fucking sick of it dude it's just crazy go ahead i don't get it i really don't i don't understand um i know what happened when vanessa got sick i know what happened when she came there um i talked to her even before she went and asked her if she wanted to go i was like you know if you don't want to go to tennessee let's you know we can work something out of this what you want and she said yes yeah for sure and just everything has been so crazy

and now that i'm sitting here recapping it and just reading all of our our like dms and text messages i'm like this bitch is really fucking just crazy man like there's no reasoning with crazy no you can't it's like I can sit here and argue with this beanbag and I'd probably get a better response I love you so much Britt I'll call you later baby

alright bye she said there wasn't even a fire she's great she's fucking great. You will love her. So you guys will love her. So anyways, I washed my hands of my sister. I send her back to fucking from whence she came. And I get a fucking message from the Airbnb host.

This was like cherry on top for me. And guess what my sister did? This was like cherry on top for me. And guess what my sister did? She fucking stole like a $300 pillow from the fucking Airbnb. I mean, I didn't even know pillows could cost that fucking much. What was even worse is she stole it and replaced it with her crusty ass one she brought on the bus. Yeah, just the embarrassment is just so bad, dude.

So, of course, I fucking lost my shit. She texts me, I love you. Thank you for everything. Just walked out the door. I send her the screenshot from the fucking Airbnb guy. I said, this is how you thank me. I'm so glad I got to see you again because you proved to me that you are everything still that you were before. You have not changed because she said, please let me come see mom. I've changed. I'm not the same person. You have not changed one bit.

I've heard everything that you said about me. Oh, by the way, she was talking shit about me the whole time to the family while she was there. I heard everything that you've said about me. And I'm so happy that I did not spend any time with you because I knew in my heart that you're never going to change. You're going to die alone. Just like our mom did. I said, there comes a time in your life, Marge, where you need to realize that you are the problem and everything good that has ever happened in your life has left you because of the human that you are taking mom's dress from her dead body is absolutely disgusting there's something wrong with you amongst all the other shit you pulled while you were here but for the first time ever i'm not mad at you it doesn't hurt anymore because at this point it's par for the course for you and by the

way mom couldn't stand you she begged me not to let you come out here she couldn't stand the person you were she loved you but she didn't like you. So that's when I think my sister really realized that I was done with her. And sorry, I forgot this part of the story, so there's not going to be any visual for it because we had to add it in afterwards. But it's just extra notes for you guys to know. This is when my sister started talking shit to me online because she knew that it was like really done.

Like I wouldn't see her after. So I remember how I told you that she took the ring off my mom's finger. Well, she fucking posted a picture of a guy flipping off the camera. Why have I never seen this? Because I don't talk about it because she's just that fucking crazy. And she's post a picture of a man flipping off the camera with, and I'm showing this to Mimi right now, wearing the ring.

And on the post, she says, when your sister thinks she's allowed to have the ring off your dead mother's hand, I laugh knowing it's the engagement ring. Your father gave to our mother. This is like the shit she starts talking. And it was not the engagement ring that my dad gave to her.

And that ring was worth nothing. I was leaving it on my mom's finger because I have all the rest of her rings at home. My mom didn't have a fucking dollar to her name. Everything she wore was just sentimental. It didn't have any sort of monetary value. I got mad that she took the ring off my mom's finger because that was the ring I was going to let her be cremated with.

Yeah, it's like leaving her with her last things, her clothes, her ring. She continued on to say, it's like leaving her with her last things, her clothes, her ring. She continued on to say, I know because I lived with her growing up, I got grounded for wearing it to school. That's how much she lied, right? She said, you run around running your entitled mouth. Wait till you see what I got for you. P.S. Keep up the good work, only making my case stronger, Alyssa.

You never lived with her. You didn't go through the hell she put me through that's her talking shit about my mom yeah you didn't even know her i didn't know her yet took her only miles from you and jelly and left her alone to die no family no friends just you down the road the last three months you didn't even see her you took my rights and hid them you you were living your best life and spent the last and spent her last three months you didn't even see her you took my rights and hid them you you were living your best life and spent the last and spent her last three months letting her die alone you have zero remorse for your actions walking the red carpet the next day my mom died november 3rd i had to go to the

cmas or c yeah cma awards with jay on uh november 9th or november 11th i believe it a week later. I didn't have a choice. That was my husband's first CMA. Like I had to walk the red carpet with my husband. And she said, while you pulled at heartstrings with your fake love for her, it's kind of gross. You push, you empower women bullshit. I want to show the world who you really are. They will see on their own. Does Jelly even know? Because that would be kind of hypothetical. I think she meant hypocritical of his music. He certainly has no clue the levels you have went. My husband knows everything about me.

Everything. Every time I fuck up, my husband is my biggest fucking writer dude. I could say something that just fucking was completely off the wall and get in trouble for it. Bro, he's the type that's like, if you really think two plus two is five, he will fight for you. But behind closed doors, be like we gotta talk yeah like but in that like he will always have your back and be like yeah two plus two is five you know like he's got you always but so as soon as my mom died then my sister goes onto my dead mother's facebook page this is where it gets really fun goes onto my dead mother's facebook page and says vanessa you promised me the house remember i have it on recording says this publicly i have a screenshot

she posts that on vanessa's facebook post it on vanessa's facebook i have a screenshot of it so does my cousin um and this is where it gets really fucking weird because then she starts having some one of her fucking weird online friends that she has a parasocial relationship starts like stalking me and my husband on Twitter and fucking texting me. She gave some she gives people my phone number all the fucking time. What the fuck? At the bus station on the way to Nashville. She gave somebody my fucking phone number. I remember that. Yeah.

Yeah. Like, it's just crazy the shit that she does. Right she's posting how she's gonna stay silent anyways she messages Brittany my cousin and she says all of you fucked up my mother's belongings bullshit the level of bullshit you all have she is so fucking ashamed of you for your disgusting behavior all of you it's going to civil court because my sister reaches out to me and she pretty much says to me and this is all in text message whoever was in charge of mother's estate let it get repossessed by the state if we're going to get any inheritance because that's all she cared about when my mom died first thing we are going to have to sue for it that is the first as

soon as my as soon as she got back from Nashville to Texas that's the first thing that was on her mind was an inheritance she said I'll be packing her belongings what's left anyway since my niece and her brother live in the house they took everything and stole her car I'll fire I'll file a report on the stolen caddy and they can figure it out. So my mom had a little house that was in Indiana and this house had no running water. She used to shit in a bucket. Like these are details I haven't told anybody because like a hoarder. Yeah.

Lots of stuff. She never, she didn't pay her bills. So she literally laid in bed all day. My mom didn't walk for a year before she even came to me. She would shit in the bathtub. She would shit in a bucket. Like she had like during the winter time, they had to like burn candles because they didn't have heat.

The house was so old that I think it is what really killed my mom because of the walls and the paint. Yeah, just the environment. So she didn't pay her the mortgage there. And what do they call those people? The taxes. Yeah, she didn't pay her the mortgage there. And what do they call those people? Taxes. Yeah. She didn't pay her taxes. That's what it was.

And somebody came in, an investor came in and bought like that block of houses because this is how like low income budget these houses are. Didn't they condemn the home too because of how disgusting it was? Yeah, because I was going to help my mom salvage the house. But I had somebody go out there and look and they just were like this house is not salvageable like you would have to demolish it and then rebuild is pretty much what they said so i was like okay well just know all this if she was around she was never around so i was like okay just let him condemn the house and you know my mom's here in nashville when she gets better we'll just buy her a new house in indiana that's how i was thinking because i truly did not think that my mom was going to pass away she had dm'd me saying she wanted to go to the house and i was like marge the house is condemned

i was like you can't go there they're literally i think at that time the the person was gonna like um take over kick her brother out who lived there and like they were taking over the ownership of the house anyway she's just literally going on and on about how she has 50 50 right she's gonna take me to civil court and this is like literally days after she just left nashville this is how much she flips on me and i just literally told her i'm like if you're feeling froggy leap bitch i don't give a fuck i'm like have your lawyer call my my lawyer and i said um i have paperwork signed as mom's power of attorney before and after death i have the paperwork that shows her property being sold because she didn't pay her taxes show me proof

if not it's okay because show me proof if not it's okay because you have now i said i think it's absolutely disgusting that after she dies all you care about is material things i now see why she never wanted you around you are so greedy but typical marge behavior so by all means sis go to indiana i told her go go to the house go get whatever you need um don't be surprised though when you find out you're homeless out there too because i knew she wasn't going to be able to get in the house no and i said you didn't even talk to her you told her that she you hope she died and never spoke to her again. What the fuck are you even talking about? I said, mom had nothing. You weirdo, Jesus Christ, your life is your karma Marge. And I see now why you've never done anything with it. Your intentions are just gross.

And she sends me a power of attorney saying that a quote off of Google saying that I didn't have power attorney. And I said, check the different types of power of attorney. Ding, ding. I said, mom has nothing. She has no estate. She didn't even have clothes when she came here.

You fucking vagabond. I've done talking to you. Go to Indiana, please. And find out for yourself. So she takes it upon her fucking self somehow gets to Indiana. And when she gets there, she has met with much resistance because my mom's brother was like

get the fuck out of here i don't want you here she went down there called the cops caused the biggest scene and guess what happened found out everything that i had told her already yeah and this is the shit that she does man i mean it's what is that quote if you you know expecting a different result like doing the same thing over and over and over again expecting the same result is literally it's psychotic like she cannot understand and you know sometimes you want to believe that it's you know the mom trying to tell her because that's what you're at that point you became the mother so you're met with the same resistance that Vanessa was met with yeah and it's like until someone else even says it like the aunt you know it's like I can't believe you I can't believe you like what yeah why why would you have a reason

to not be believed if we had anything that we could split I would have given it my dad passed away and I wanted nothing from him in his yeah you know like so if my mom had anything I would have given it all to Marge because I don't need it. I'm so blessed in my life, you know, but she just and I know that the way I talk to her is harsh, but it gets to a point where it's like you get so angry with somebody and you just cannot believe how outrageously deranged they are. Yeah. And like they are fine living in their delusion. And it is it's i don't understand it because i live in fucking reality yeah you're present yeah like we're here yeah other people they'd be living on a whole nother planet yeah so i just had to add that part in

because that was a huge factor too and then you know like i said she's still online talking shit to this day and claiming that she's my sister and you know now that it's been a couple days since we did that podcast i've calmed down a lot i'm sure you guys can tell a difference in my tone i'm also not pmsing but i just have had enough but even like you said today you know people are sending you stuff and it's like one day she hates you and then the next day it's like please tell her i love her yeah what is going on no it's weird and if people encourage her and and feed into that delusion i don't want you guys following me no not at all i don't want to be a part of it it's gross but i feel like birds of a feather flock together and people that are on her vibrational wave find her yeah you know so really yeah so if you associate with that woman

you are literally the same type of human you are on that same level yeah for sure so if you associate with that woman, you are literally the same type of human she is. You are on that same level. Yeah, for sure. So thank you guys for letting me talk my shit. Talk that shit, bitch. Talk it. Trauma dumps. Yeah.

So anyways, we're going to segue back into what she did recently so you guys can hear it. And I love you guys. And that is pretty much the last time I've really talked to my sister. I don't want to have anything to do with her. And a couple weeks ago, she starts posting about me and my mom again. But what's weird is she'll talk shit about me and then she'll post good stuff about me.

It's like you can see the fucking mental disorder online, which is fine. Do that. I don't care. But tell the fucking truth. Tell about how much i fucking helped you tell about like everything that i've done for you and it's just not going to be like that so i finally i hit her up last week and i was like this is because she was

texting me about my dad i love you i'm sorry you know doing the same thing she always does and somebody sent me a screenshot because there's family that follows her that fucking sends me everything that she fucking does sends me a screenshot because there's family that follows her that fucking sends me everything that she fucking does. Sends me a screenshot of her talking shit, saying that I was posting my mom's death for clout again. And I said, this is why I don't talk to you. I'm like, you're always fucking talking shit and doing weird shit. And of course, she's like, it's I'm allowed to have feelings. That's what she says to me.

And I'm like, feelings about what? You are so fucking weird. Like, what are you talking about? And then so last night, I get sent a screenshot again where she's like talking shit about how I'm a narcissist. I forget the post that she posted. I posted it last night on my fucking Facebook. It was like the weirdest. Like, it doesn't make sense when she

talks though yeah it's the weird thing she's just one big fucking run-on sentence i said she said i love when trolls think they know the truth about my sister bunny xo bashing me and running my name through the mud bashing me and running my name through the mud through the mud when truth is no one realizes that the no one realizes the depths of her entitled narcissism and the fucked up things she did to our mother and after her death. No one knows the evil side of her. I learned quick when she took our mother to Tennessee and left her alone to die for the last three months of her life

while profiting off our mother, poor bunny, with our mother's death using her for clout and views. I have my side and i will tell it what fucking side do you have what money did i make off of fucking talking about my mom's death i was talking i document everything thank god because nobody can ever fucking hold anything against me dude i've got it all documented i've got screenshots from fucking 1962 from before i was born you know what i'm saying like I went off on her last night and I was just like, why can't you just be my sister? Why can't you just love me? Why do you have to

always fucking act like this? And literally I think telling the story has healed me, dude, because I'm sitting here seeing how hard I have tried and she's just an unlovable. Yeah. Unlovable. There's people in this world, shockingly enough that are unlovable unlovable and then she's fucking like she's texting me in the middle of the night and i'm responding to her and then she goes on her page and she's like why are you blowing me up all night don't you have better things to do little miss famous it's like bitch i'm responding to you you keep telling me you're gonna speak your truth i'm like i'm like go ahead your lies can never fucking hurt me dude they can never hurt me you could you're so low.

You couldn't reach me with a fucking 10 foot pole. Anyways, thank you guys for letting me fucking get that out. Because now I really realize. It's a therapy session. No, it was straight up a therapy session. And I needed to get that out because this is happening for 20 years. And I've never just sat down and talked about it in one sitting. And now that I'm sitting down talking about it in one sitting,

I'll never talk to this bitch again. silence is way better than anything with her yes like i just don't care anymore there's no glimmer of hope no she's just a miserable wretched fucking soul dude and she's always gonna be like that and it's sad she is gonna die alone she has nobody dude and it's so sad i even told her in one text message i said i i go what's so sad is i am in a position to help you god has blessed me so much to where i try to help everybody in my fucking life and you literally are a snake that just keeps biting me and i keep going back and i keep going back hoping that maybe you won't bite me again and it's just yeah what is that insanity quote that is doing the same thing over and over again. Yeah. Or what did my husband say?

I have a snake. If you're holding a snake and you get bit, um, who do you blame? The snake or the man? Yeah. You got to start, but I got to start blaming myself.

Yeah. This is my fault that this fucking woman thinks that she fucking even is a pimple on my asshole. Yeah. She don't deserve you. God, not the mole in the hole. Listen, I't deserve you god not the mole in the hole listen i wouldn't want that as a mole in the hole that shit would fucking be flared up with like gangrene or something she would just be the worst wretched blue waffle oh god well i love you guys how long

was that podcast two hours for a season finale baby well guess what guys we got season eight coming up um it's gonna drop july beginning beginning of august season eight's insane you guys please hold on i can't even believe some of the guests we fucking have coming on the podcast we are also now dropping on monday yep we will be dropping on mondays now no more wednesdays baby yeah we're gonna make your monday so much better oh yeah you can start your week with us I love it set the tone I think it's gonna be great thank you guys so much for listening and I hope I you know I didn't fucking talk your ear off it's a trauma dump we needed it it was a trauma dump I think that's what we should call this podcast trauma dump trauma dump dumping trauma trauma dumps or how about trauma dumps? Because there's multiple dumps.

Got the shits. The trauma shits. I love you guys so much, dude. Thank you guys for everything that you do. And thank you for making this. Hey, stop rushing me off. We're at the end of the season. We're done.

Thank you guys for making the podcast as big as it is. Love you guys. Bye.