Dumb Blonde - Sloan Bella: Mystical Mother

Episode Date: June 19, 2024

Bunnie sits down with mystical mother, psychic medium, and Master Astrologer Sloan Bella. Sloan opens up about her unique upbringing, discovering her psychic gifts, and her path to motherhood and spiritual healing. They dive into deep topics like past lives, soulmate connections, and communicating with loved ones who have passed. Later, Sloan does an impromptu birth chart reading for Bunnie and Jelly Roll, providing insights into their astrological personalities, compatibility, and future predictions. Sloan Bella: Website | TikTok Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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here we are. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of dumb blonde. Today, we have our mystical mother here, Sloane Bella. I know you've been called a lot of things, but you are our mystical mother. I love that to you. I love that. I'm so excited to be here. It's so exciting, dude. So I walked in Sloan has this package that she literally wrapped to the gods for me and we got it open and it was the most beautiful obsidian ball. It looks like my own personal eight ball. Like it is the most amazing gift I've ever gotten along with tons of other crystals and stuff like that. Like it was, it was really cool. For the new studio. I know. To raise the vibes and have it go really well. I appreciate it so much. Yeah. It was such a pleasure bringing it

because it came off my set to your set. Oh, I love that. Yeah. Came from my home to your home. Literally. It was one that I use that was out every day. So I wanted to bring it to you. Yay. When I find the perfect place for it in the studio, I will video it. I'll make a video and I'll tag you in it so that you can see where it's at. Sloan, I'm really stoked to have you here. Like I have, I've been nervous, not going to lie. Cause there's some things I want to ask you about, you know, Jay and I, and like just life that I don't know if I want the answer to, but it's like, you are the most honest trying to be person I've seen on the internet who just keeps it 100. I dabble in all things like, I guess you could say a cult and I'm obsessed with death and like, I love just

everything mystical. Yeah. And when you came across my radar, I was like, who is this woman? And then the more that I studied your story and got to know who you were as a human, I was like, this is my long lost sister. We probably are to some degree. Yeah. It's crazy. It's so interesting. Yeah. Because we both left home at 14, uh, just decided to up and go. I think you were in a warmer climate. I was not, I was here in Vegas. Oh yeah. No, I was in Toronto. So it was more of a stupid decision, you know, to run away with just the clothes you're wearing because it was pretty cold. Freezing. Yeah, it was October. It was our it was our Halloween Thanksgiving in Canada. So I remember what do you remember the day you decided to run away? Absolutely. Yeah, like I can visualize it and everything. And yeah, I did. I took a purse. I took my Marilyn Monroe book and out the door I went. I took a trash bag of clothes. Did you own a trash bag? Yeah. And

to this day, I pack up everything in trash bags. Doesn't matter how much money I went. I took a trash bag of clothes. Did you own a trash bag? Yeah. And to this day I pack up everything in trash bags. It doesn't matter how much money I have. I will literally throw all of my clothes from my closet in trash bags and just fucking, that's how I move clothes. Yeah. That's probably the best way to do it till you hang up. Yeah. You can hang them up. I mean, cause they're going to get wrecked anyway. So I've never understood people who fold their clothes and put them in boxes. Like if I can put them in a bag, dump it out and sort it out and throw it out and give it away. Yeah, absolutely. So I kind of feel like we do know each other in the sense we went kind of in two different directions, both sex work,

but a little bit different. Well, let's, let's circle back. Let's start from the beginning. Cause I want my, you know, followers who don't know your story to really get to know you, where you came from and how you came to be this just mystical mother. I love that you call me that. You are, you're right. You're just like, I look up to everything you do. I think it's amazing. Oh, that's awesome. Cause my greatest gift was being a mother. So that was the thing I was here to do. I love that. That's what I feel. Yeah. And looking back on my life, there was one thing and it was that. Let's talk about your childhood and where this all started and all that. Okay. So it's kind of interesting because I was adopted.

So you never really give much thought as to what happens because you don't remember. You're like a newborn. My mom had me and gave me up after she gave birth to me. And I went into the foster, I was in foster care for 10 months. So people I don't know were watching me. And it's, it's interesting because it didn't occur to me that that would be trauma until my son just had our second granddaughter and I'm watching her and she's not even the age I was when I was adopted and I see all the love that went into her and then I'm like I have no memory no pictures no memory none of that I mean you don't really remember but I can see with my granddaughter how loved she is so it it occurred to me this week looking at her because she's nine and a half months that she's so cute

um looking at her that did I recall like what happened in that time frame they say trauma starts at the moment of conception I'm pretty sure yeah they do there's a book I'll tell you I'll I'll get you the name of it I believe it yeah I believe it and I know I know people say because my parents adopted me at 10 months and my adopted mother, who was a nightmare for people who know, she was very well educated businesswoman, overpowering and crazy. Okay. Looking back on it, I think she may have actually had a few screws missing, but it was difficult. She told me something and she said she kept coming to the orphanage or she called it that so whatever the place that housed the baby housing place and she was looking for a child she was at 40 looking

for a child and she said I was the only one she came back three times and I was the only one that called out to her so that's karma right there next life I'm not doing that right very clearly well not not doing it do you believe that you signed up for that, though? Like you came here for that lesson or what do you think it was? I you know, I know people like to say that in the past few years. I've changed my mind. I believe I was kidnapped here, actually. Like I'm being dead serious.

I think I was hijacked here or maybe people change after they make the agreement. And then we're stuck in that until we're not. But I did walk away from it. I do know when you're adopted, you don't hold attachment to a lot because they, they, my family would say, you know, we chose you this and that, which technically, yes. And I think that led me right into stripping, honestly, because it's like, pick me, you know, pick me. And so I never correlated it, but I actually believe that now. And I found it extremely difficult. They were very educated people and well-schooled and very proper. And I'm sorry,

I'm laughing at that because I'm so not proper. We all have to laugh at our trauma. Yeah, I know. I really laugh at that. I was absolutely not proper. My mom was British. And you know, you had to sit down and wait for dinner to be served and clean the table. It's good etiquette. But they were so like, you need to marry a man and be a secretary. And I'm like, yeah, no. I'm sorry. No. Even at a young age, you knew that that's not what you wanted. No, no, absolutely not. When I was a little kid, I used to tell my mom, I'm going to go to California. I don't know why I had that in my head. And my husband's there. And, you know, and he was and he well, yeah, anyway, he was also Canadian. So it was really interesting. That too is karma. So the childhood stuff was good. I had the usual I went to private boarding school,

the usual for the British. Okay, I'll say it that way in Canada, boarding schools, I would get expelled. You know, I was naughty, uh, expelled, expelled. Then I went to private school, expelled, uh, you know, that kind of thing. And I would never stay in school. I wouldn't stay put because I couldn't grasp what they were saying. I guess if that makes sense. It was dumb to me and I was no good at math, but I was good at English. So I would stay for English and art and then gym and leave or what we call physical education and then leave and get in trouble constantly. And when I was really little, like first and second grade, you'll love this one. I know you'll appreciate this. Did you ever get yelled at in school for talking too much i i'm smiling because i got expelled from school

there you go i had to sit at the table and have wait till dinner got served had to clean up the table there all that nonsense literally like nonsense no it's crazy that's why i'm smiling because i'm just like i got kicked out of every school i went to i was called to nate i got expelled from school in uh kindergarten for ripping a boy's shirt off of him because he was talking shit about my dad. There you go. He deserved it. Yeah. No, for sure. But just listening to you talk, I'm just like, Oh my gosh, it was the same. It was the same. And what I found even more interesting, which is a psychic trait. So I was in school and I was no, my aptitude for math was ridiculous and it didn't have any and etc but yeah i mean i can count

money yes i can make money that's all that matters i'm like who cares who the fuck is doing algebra now in our 40s nobody exactly said no one ever yeah i used to argue that and get yelled at for that too but um i love you know i say what do? Actually, in astrology, you do kind of need algebra, but now computers do it all. Yeah. So I don't, but I did. I got humbled by that at one point when I was learning how to do a chart. But I was in a special class for, they now have like learning disabled classes, but I was dyslexic and ADD and a whole host of God knows what, ADD and a whole host of God knows what hyper, hyper person, right? And so I went to a special morning class. I don't know what to call it. I would use a derogatory term, but I won't. Kids in my class could not see, they could not hear. And I could do all of those things, but I was kind of raised through grade school in that class. So it really undermined my confidence. I didn't

think I was that smart because I was over here and the other kids were there, but I was able to read braille to little kids. That's what they had me in there for. So I was like, okay, like littler kids that were behind, they didn't have the, the school system that we have that our kids would have now. Right. So I felt not very smart, but I didn't care because I just wanted to be pretty because I had a mother that would say, you know, you look, insert insanity here. So it was very competitive with her kind of. And she was looking back on it. She might have been like a closet alcoholic, I'm thinking. And it was so detrimental. But she did teach me good things because she was a good businesswoman. She

was a strong, focused businesswoman and went through three separate careers late into her life. So that part was good. I knew that a woman could do that. She's super strong. So I like that. I took that part of it. And my dad was the smartest man I knew. Super smart, educated, so smart, could converse on anything, alcoholic and and crazy and so I kind of grew up in a house and I'm sure your other guests have said it but I call it covert sexual abuse because I didn't know the name for it but they took like the bathroom doors off so I had to shower in front you know so look at the life and then move into stripping you see so it's kind of a a way my parents took the doors off the hinges too but not the bathroom but to my bedroom and they nailed my window shut and put bells on the door like

you're a bear literally like i mean here she comes here comes this rebellious ass fucking kid yeah yeah that but just even having your privacy compromised at such a young age you learn one not to trust people nobody and, to literally skate on thin ice and watch like you're, you become like, um, it's like if somebody moves a certain way, you can read it. Like you can read. Oh yeah. No, I'm, I'm triggered by certain people. Like I'm always like, not so much now. Cause I don't care actually going through menopause. I don't care. Like I'm like, do what you gotta do. don't care when I was younger I was more nervous almost to the point of like not trying things you know hiding and staying hidden I also think it's a

psychic thing because the school I was telling you about with the weirdo classes uh sorry kids um the weird classes was it was because I was perceptually not picking up what other people did but I'm psychic right so they tried to correct that out of me I think did they okay so we're winding back when you had an encounter with your dad where you asked him um where do we go when we die yeah I asked him yeah I said what happens die? I was, I distinctly remember four turning five. And he said, you just, you rot in the ground. I hate when people say that. I think he was drunk at the time.

Yeah, who says that to a four-year-old? I was so traumatized. I ran up to my bedroom, hid under the covers. And I was like, hmm, what happened? So then I'm, then me personally, I'm thinking, well, then I should just die now. Because who cares? That's where I go. I'm like, if I'm going to personally, I'm thinking, well, then I should just die now because who cares? That's where I go. I'm like, if I'm going to get there anyway, then so it made me a little bit like suicidal

a little bit. Oh my gosh. At four or five? Yeah. Like I thought, why would I be here? Like, what is the point if that's it? And we just rot. I don't even want to play this game.

Like I remember thinking that. To think so deeply like that, too, at such a young age is wild. It's yeah, it was obsessive. Well, I'm OCD too, so it was obsessive thought rumination. But the next thing that happened is my dad's mom came to me, but I didn't know who she was. She was just a lady that appeared in my head. Was this the first time you had ever had a vision

or had you been having them before you asked him what happens when we die? I had been seeing aliens. I call them aliens aliens but i called them earwig men actually growing up because they look like big tall nomadic bedouin with the the tarps on them but they had like you know what an earwig bug is kind of yeah it has the pinchers okay yes they and the legs yeah the legs and the pinchers and they stand so these beings look like that in the face but covered in like robes and there would be around my bed every night so i was already waking him up with those stories um and he just thought you're just being a kid i went to no he thought they thought i was crazy because i was adopted they can then use

adoption against you because you're not theirs. You see? So it's like, you're crazy. So then the visits to the shrink happened. And I'm like, I can't help it. I'm sick. You know, I never denied it. I never tried to change it. I just said, no, they're earwig men. At first they looked for bugs and they weren't bugs. I said, no, these are men. And I always say, I thought they hid under the bed. They didn't in the closet. I didn't know where they came from. They were around there around there so when my I technically grandmother adopted but I didn't know her she died years before I was even born when she appeared I woke my dad up like I snuck down the hall tap tap tap he slept closest to the door so that's why I could get to him and I told him there was a god

that was what I said to him he got so mad i want a little psychic baby yeah i would love the shit out of a little psychic baby i'd be like i'd be like just oh my god he got so mad like he was like get to your room wake me up again and then the spanking started all of those things you know because they wanted me to shut up basically he was raised very religiously i guess and then as happens had an issue with it my biggest problem with religion is how can you be religious but not spiritual you can't i don't think it's well one's man-made to me right it's insane to me that people preach all this love and this and that but they don't practice it no they're that's man-made here and it's money. It's,

it's earthbound. So if you, you don't have to go to church, you do not have to go to church. I never went to church. No one, like my dad was off the church by the time I came along. So there was no church. I went with the neighbor kid a couple of times, but that was at her family's request when I stayed over there, but you don't need church. You either know there's a God or you don't. Yeah. I grew up in's a God or you don't. Yeah. I grew up in church and you won't catch me in one now. Yeah, I don't. Because I just think that the people there are just hypocritical.

For the wrong reasons. Yeah. And it's man-made. And it's skewed for them to control the masses. So it's a little bit of a hypnotic for the masses. And God is in you. Like your creator is with you. Period. You don't just end up here and need man to tell you what to do. Right. In my opinion. Exactly. And I just feel like Jesus was a

Capricorn. He was a hell of a lot cooler than people try to make him sound. He was not black and white. No, no, no. He got mad at people. That's what I always say to him. When people go, people say to me, how can you swear if you're spiritual? How can you do this? How can you do that? And I'm like, Jesus did. Like, what are you saying? He wasn't human. He was in human form. He was the son of God walking in a human shell like we are.

So I get to cuss you out because you asked me a stupid question. Has Jesus ever appeared to you? Not me, no. But I do feel the spirit in me and I can feel it around me. But no, I have not had that happen. I would love that to happen, actually. Yeah, that would be amazing, right? Wouldn't, but no, I have not had that happen. I would love that to happen. Wouldn't it? Yeah. I have, I have not had that happen. I have had, um, I have had visions though of when I'm talking to people who, who have illness, terminal illness, like they could

be my friends and actually they were my friends and I know they're getting ready to pass and this one friend in particular was very Catholic girl I saw like the Virgin Mary come around her weeks before she died that's how I knew she was going to die like I saw what she prayed to coming around her so I was like okay she will pass soon I didn't tell her at that time but I just knew it and she passed on Palm Sunday which which was really interesting. Yeah. We're going to dive into some death talk later on because I have been listening to how you have like predicted a few people's deaths and I'm like, okay, well I'm going to just

going to have a sit down with Sloan and we're going to talk about death. I don't pick that up around you, by the way. Thank God. All right. Thank you. Um, but, uh, so the circling back to, you know, you this four-year-old girl you're being told that what you're saying is wrong you're being sent to shrinks you're being spanked because of these visions you're having take me on this journey and how are you feeling like are you

still just like no i'm right or are you just like giving into like thinking maybe there is something wrong with you i always felt like I didn't belong with them but I don't know that I felt right or wrong about it I just knew right so I didn't even attach like a judgment to it I was like I just feel I kind of just feel like they can say what they want and I can say what I didn't argue except with my dad like you know it this went on from four to ten so it went on like six years and at the end of it if I even opened my mouth he would come flying at me across you know he would just like be like that's it and come he couldn't tolerate it um I wonder if you were triggering something a fear in him yes yeah maybe you were

sent there to for him I I think so because he passed, which my son hates when I tell this story because he's like, I don't remember. And I'm like, because he was a very psychic child, my Jason. But when my dad died, okay, in 2006 at the age 80 something, whatever, older, and he passed, he came to my son. I did not get the phone call because they're in Toronto and we're here so they were waiting for us to be awake after Christmas and my son told me before I got the call he came downstairs and he said you know that grandpa they only met him once and he goes you know that grandpa with the dogs it was poodles and I said yeah and he goes he's in my room and he said there is a god so he came through my son, which was tremendous for me.

And a nice acknowledgement. Confirmation. Confirmation. Yeah. Because when they cross out of the physical, we do go to different levels. So according to your belief system, like if you really want to go somewhere that isn't with God, you can go there. I mean, you're never stuck anywhere.

You can kind of transition through different levels as you choose. It's your belief system. And he, obviously he crossed over to a dimension. I don't believe we go to heavens. A lot of the religions say you're here and then in heaven. That's not my understanding of it at all. So we go through different levels, kind of like school, but I don't want to say school, but different dimensions. Do you feel, do you get to pick them or is it just how you've lived your life, that lifetime and how you gave back and what you did that picks the level that you get to go to next? I, I'm not sure. You know, I can't really answer that because, um, when my son passed, I noticed the work that he was doing was work. He is working on the other side. And I had never seen that. But he shows up in a position of helping from the other side. So

he went right into kind of helping people, which was an interesting concept. Because some people I see that are in school, other people are just having fun. Some people are watching their families. Like when my dad passed, he was around me for 15 years. Like I could pick him up like that. You know, he was there. He's like, I'm here to help you because I put you through so much shit. He was watching. He was actually watching like what I was doing. I felt, I felt. And then suddenly the energy was gone. So they will transition. And when they either, and again, time is much different. Time is meant to keep us stuck here. We are kind of, I feel, I don't know that we all choose to come here. I have to say that. I really don't believe

that. I would love to hear your theory on that because I always feel like I have always, but I don't know enough and I'm always open to learning. I have always felt, but I don't know enough and I'm always open to learning. Yeah. I have always felt like I, maybe it's my way of coping with my trauma, but I always feel like I picked my parents and I needed to learn these lessons in this life. And that's what has made me the woman that I am today. Absolutely. I agree with that part of it. Yeah. When I look at that though, they tell us that, and I don't know that I hear that.

Sometimes I do hear souls are sent here to heal and to teach. I don't think that I'm one of those because I just refuse to say I came here. She's like, I am not of this world. I am not. I did not. But I do know they do. There are healers and teachers that come down as people to maneuver around people. Right.

healers and teachers that come down as people to maneuver around people right but I feel I know that kids can leave before the age of four if they don't want to continue on this incarnation so we have from birth to four and if you really don't want to be here I know the soul can leave easily obviously they're kids right they could do anything I feel like children are so much more in tune with the other side oh they are they live. They live more on the other side. They see, they, they have a whole thing. And then we're taught it's not real because if you knew it was real, you'd be like, why am I here? You'd be like, why am I here? And as you get older, more of your people are over there than here. You know? I mean, like when you get into your seventies, most of your friends or parents and siblings have crossed. So I actually believe some of us are, I believe the reincarnation cycle was hijacked, to tell you the truth.

So I believe some of us were forced into coming back here because when we crossed out, we went where we thought, but I think they kind of steered us down the wrong path like a kind of spiritual warfare yes absolutely I am not convinced we're all supposed to be here and a lot of new age I know you hear it all the time it drives me crazy yeah they say you can co-create I'm like tell the people in Ethiopia that they can create whatever life they want because they cannot because the whole country is gridded and the energy is blocked and stolen. So they cannot, neither can Haiti, neither can wherever, you know? Yeah, they can't. So stop saying that. Is it what only first world countries that we can do it? So see that's profiteering off of spiritual. So they

haven't had enough. I don't know. People just think it's nice to believe in. I think it depends on the person. And I think sometimes we jump into something. I'll tell you, I had a experience once with somebody who passed away unexpectedly and of an overdose and their sibling, when I saw the sibling pregnant, I knew it was their, I knew it was that person coming back because I dreamt it. Right. And I thought, oh my goodness. And all the way along in the pregnancy, I was like, they were deciding whether they were going to come back in because they wanted to complete the connection, but had OD'd. So they left early and then tried to come back in, but chose not to

be born. So that was a stillbirth. And I saw the whole thing. I saw the soul making that decision, like, you know, in the way of this person as a person, like, I saw it and I knew what was going to happen. I did not tell the person, but when it happened, I was like, yeah, I thought that was going to happen. So it's interesting. That soul made a decision first to come in and be pregnant, maybe to clear the karma with the sibling, you see, and just live in the tummy and then leave. So I'm not quite sure how it works, really. That's wild.

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i know i'm like let's talk about it baby so certainly back to your childhood you're growing up in this house take me on this journey like are you still seeing visions do you as a child do you start talking to them do you the way that it works for me is i'm very clear audience so i hear things and then i just blurt them out okay so. So that was annoying again. Hello, blah. Annoying child. So it's kind of like you had to learn how to wrangle it. Yeah. And you have to learn to know what it is because you can say something and think it's going

to be, it's a combination of feeling your body and wording. And the wording can come from outside of you, but it comes from inside of you. Like just say this. So when I say it, I get a feel for whether it's my crazy mind or if it's psychic. I also dream things, but not as much anymore. And I used to be what's called, I think they call it a trance channel, meaning I would, in order to connect with people that have passed on, I would step out of my body. So my physical would go to sleep and they would, they say it means they come into your body, but I was not coherent. Like many

a friend when I was a teenager say, you know, you just dropped off for 10 minutes there. Wow. Like I wasn't on drugs. Right. Contrary to what my family thinks. But I would step out and I was able to connect through that. And it has to do with the frequency of the body because it's very hard for them to connect with us and we have to heighten our energy to get out. So to actually do readings awake and like this to talk to people, it's kind of athletic with energy. You have to raise your

vibration up. So you kind of have to know how to do that or you get drained because your energy goes and then drops. So when I was a teenager I would just I call it stepping out I would actually this would shut down like this and I'd step out and I would see them and that first happened when my best friend passed on a motorcycle so I was like 16 turning 17 and he was 18 and I did not know he passed until I fell asleep for 10 minutes and saw him oh my goodness and so my boyfriend at the time said, you just were like acting like you were hugging somebody, but you weren't awake.

And then I woke up and said, oh, my God, and then had to track him down and find out what happened. He came very, very clearly to me. Oh, my goodness. Yeah, so I physically was somewhere else. It's the astral level, actually. It's out of your body, and it's right here. the astral level actually. It's out of your body and it's right here. Is it ever a scary feeling to be out of your body or does it always feel

peaceful? Oh, it doesn't feel peaceful. No. Okay. No, no, no. I mean, I don't know about then because I can't remember. Right. I had a lot of anxiety, but when I'm out of my body, I kind of, I call it like an airplane grounding back in. And sometimes it's very bumpy. You jolt in and other times it's smoother. But I call it grounding in like an airplane. Do you ever get scared that like your soul will get snatched while you're out of your body? How do you protect yourself?

I don't know. Yeah. No, I mean. I'm like fascinated. Yeah. They tell you. Teach me. They tell you how to protect yourself. I actually

pray to God. So I ask in the name of Jesus to protect me. Yeah. I wear crystals like I have all my jewelry is kind of crystal to align it so that they can't get into my head. You know, I kind of feel like I pray I go in nature. That's the quickest way I find. So I find grass and trees and usually a dirt trail and I start walking up it. I try to eat right. I don't get high or drunk because that will, because you won't even care. Yeah. So I don't do those, but I don't know that you can protect yourself if it's going to happen to you. Right. I don't know that you can. I'm not sure. I have always, ever you can. I'm not sure. I have always, ever since I was a little girl, and I've said this on multiple podcasts,

seen spirits and dreams. I've had people who have crossed over that have come to me that I didn't even know they had crossed over. So why do you fight it? I just, it's not that I fight it because I've actually made peace with it now. So it doesn't bother me as much. But I don't know if I, I never want to steer anybody the wrong way.

And I don't know if I am the right vessel for like anything other than myself. Okay. So that's perfect for now. That's perfect. Exactly. Okay. So first of all, when you read energy, you are just giving information like your phone, your phone, the phone doesn't judge me or you. If I'm calling you and I

scream at you, the phone is not like, Oh, I shouldn't have dialed her number. The phone does not know. So we are a wire. That's it. So if you have something to say to somebody, say it to them and just say, I'm giving you this, do what you want with it. Yeah. Because you hold, I don't care about being right or if, I mean, people can call me crazy. I had one woman insist I was wrong. I'm like, fine. I do not care.

That's fine. But I give the information if I get it and I don't judge it anymore. When I was younger, I might've talked around it because I'm like, who says some of this stuff? But yeah, no, you, if you get it, give it because they're coming to you because you can hear them. Yeah. So it's like driving to Vegas. You know how dark that road is at night. And if you see a light and your car breaks down, you're going to go to that house. Now, what if they don't help you? Right. So they want you to go there. That's why they're coming to you. They want you to do it.

And it is part of what I think you're here to do if you can do it. So whether you like it or not, like none of us grow up and dream. I did not. I've tried to get out of this. I don't. It's not. No. Yeah.

You're like, do you feel like it's almost like a, I don't want to say a prison sentence because that sounds terrible, but it's almost like exhausting. Yeah. It bugs the living shit out of me. And people yell at me. You know how they get at you online? Yeah.

Like a bunch of bitches. Anyway, no offense to the good ones. Troll ass bitches. But welcome to them. Yeah. That's what they are. But they say, oh, how do you, how come you get mad when people, you know, ask you for a reading? I'm like, I had people in my house from the age of 20 up until COVID. Yeah. Like my entire life. Has been just reading. Yeah. And they came to me physically, like, like they come to your studio.

They came and sat down. My grew up I mean decades yeah four decades like stop yeah you know and I'm I mean I'm trying to talk on a live show about something let's say and they're like do you do a reading I'm like it no go away no yeah you're like that's the last thing I want to do just let me do my thing it's like if you're a hairdresser and you go to eat lunch and then somebody's like could you just cut my back shut the yeah yeah like leave me alone yeah I totally so it's like that and other times I don't want to see things so there's certain things I don't want to see um and that again comes and it comes with the death of my son and when my stepson passed I saw both of those things and And people mistake it. They say you're not supposed to speak about something like that,

but I actually saw it. And here's what I learned from telling both stepson and son that they were going to pass. I didn't know which one of my sons, so I told both of my sons to hope that one of them listened. But here's what I learned. A soul is going to do what they're going to do anyway. And you can tell them, is that going to stop them? Now that comes into, we have no control

over our lives. So there's exit points in life. And I do know that we have three or four, like my son, Keith, he had several different exit points. What was so interesting, and this comes to your reading point, about 15 years before he passed I went to an astrologer friend of mine to ask business stuff for my husband actually and he was looking at my chart and my husband's like he kind of will look at them together and he says he says a bunch of stuff and he's like um you're gonna have a child that dies and I said right out of his mouth like almost the way I do it and I said oh no oh no, you mean my stepson? So he said, no, one of yours. And I never forgot it. I told John, my husband at the time, I told him this. And the minute our son

passed, this astrologer's name came right out of our mouths. Like we were like, damn. But I started to get the information about two months before. So it happens for me like that. And I blurted out like he blurted it out. He was that kind of a psychic. Like it happens for me like that and I blurted out like he blurted it out he was that kind of a psychic like it happened to me so never ask somebody something you don't want an answer for because you may get an answer you don't I was not expecting that I asked about business and his psychic side took right over even though he was an astrologer you see he immediately look wow and it was horrifying and then when my kids turned 18 I was like they're 18 I'm I was like, they're 18.

I'm good. You know, when they're 18, you think you're good. Yeah. Not so much. It can happen. And I also remember my husband saying God wouldn't do that to me again because it was his stepson who passed, who was nine months younger than me. So my husband had two grown kids when I met him.

So my stepson and stepdaughter are, I'm right in the middle of them. And I was good friends with my stepson. And I told my husband now, I said, it's not God who does that. We're not living on God's planet down here. That is not who is here. And souls have their own journey and path. So they will leave when they want, regardless of what we're told in society. You know, it has nothing to do with that so even if there is a murder uh you know something along those lines i don't know why that is happening because if i can't remember killing you when you kill me i'm just gonna come back and kill you again hello i'm coming after you again see you know i will never stop it so right as a soul, I'm coming back after your ass. Sloan's like, I got a vendetta. I'm coming back. I'm living as a Scorpio now. I'm coming after you. So I don't know that we even

understand karma except to say that it is balance. It is not vengeance. So people often say, you know, this one hit me. It's karma. I'm going to do this to them. No, it's balance. So maybe I need to learn balance. Maybe last life I didn't want children. And so this life, my son came to me who I wanted desperately and then he left. So maybe now I know that I'm balanced in that feeling. Do you believe in past life regressions? Oh, a hundred percent. Oh, a hundred percent. Yeah. I've seen past lives. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, I've seen them. Yeah. I always think I was like some regal queen. But then I also think I was like some fucking bad bitch warrior.

Yeah, you probably throughout generations, you know? Yeah. Well, you have class. And now it took a long time to find it. Well, no, you would. But you would be different. Your soul would be the same. So you would be in positions of power throughout your life to elevate other people which is what you're doing here you use a play on words calling

it dumb blonde because this stupid society thinks you're dumb hello not dumb yeah you know like anything but yeah and so you using the play to educate people it's in your face smack deal oh yeah no i'm very tongue-in-cheek with everything. I'm going to say it before you can. Yeah. That's oh, my God. Yeah. I will out myself on everything. So you can't get you can't get me. You can't blackmail me. You owe nothing over me. You said something in a podcast that I watched last night on the plane. You said, be real. Say what you want and get it out before anybody can ever have anything on you. And I was just like that. That's how I've lived my life. Absolutely. I love that you preach that to everybody. I do. It was hard. Now my husband is going to hate me for saying this. Technically ex-husband, but we all know John. So I'm going to shout him out. Shout out, John. Yeah, there you go. My man. Anyway, I met him in a strip club.

Okay. So yeah, we're going back to your childhood. I met him. I met him there and he did not want me saying that out loud. Now I'm like stripper, stripper, stripper. And so, yeah, it was funny because people carry their own shame about stuff.

And I'm like, whatever people's preconceived notions are, it's, they're going to have, you know, that from the internet, they call it. Absolutely.

She's an alien with, with, you know, a horn on the back of her head what they make up the wildest i fight them all the time i'm like fuck you fuck you and fuck you yeah like i oh i shut it down all the time yeah it's you know i'll tell you something i have a good message my my son keith that passed when we started my channel I got so mad at this woman she was trolling me I'm like I I'm gonna cross search her name I'm gonna find you or me I swear I'm gonna find your grandma I'm gonna find your aunts uncles your whole bloodline I'm finding I'm gonna find your car I'm gonna flatten your tires I'm gonna fuck you up so my son Keith he's sitting there and he was so he's a he was a Scorpio moon Sagittarius Scorpio

moon and he's sitting there and he's like oh wow that's emotional Sagittarius sun Scorpio moon yeah and a Leo rising so he also had swagger um and he was very cute and he said to me mom do you think Kobe worries about trolls I'll never forget it and I'm like I don't know I want this woman's number because I can't see straight because I'm so immature yeah and he's like no Kobe laughs all the way to the bank now stop looking for this woman and go film some more so I always remember what he said what would Kobe do yeah so that's what I say but he had to teach me that and he it was in 2018 so I was like okay I'll listen to you we love Keithy yeah he was so cute. And my husband's a Sagittarius. Yes, yes.

I love Sagittarius men. I love Sages. Yeah, they're fun. They're fun. And they can be, oh my God, they can foot in mouth and say shit. And you're like, did you just say that? Oh, yeah. Sometimes I have to tell my husband.

I'm like, what the fuck? Stop it. Yeah. Like, what are you doing? But he's so sweet. And just they are very diplomatic. Yeah, they want to have fun. Right. So they don't want to hurt you and make you upset yeah so that you don't have fun because they want to continue to have fun yeah and they also like childlike almost yeah

no Sagittarius is it's not of the earth Sagittarius is half man half horse so they live on the earth as a different species they don't feel like us number one okay people without sag and so they live down here and they shoot for what's unknown so they're always contemplating it that is what they do their whole thing is about the contemplation of why are we here yeah so even if they're the goofiest, stupidest, childish, you know, weed smoking, speaking about my Keithy at the time, but whatever they're doing. Sounds like my husband. Yeah. They're still deeply soulful and thoughtful about where we are and why we are here. Yeah. Oh, he's so, my husband is so deep. Sometimes I'm like, calm down, dude. I have to like bring them out of it, you know, calm down. It's not the time right now. Um, so let's circle back. So you left home at 14 and I heard you say that when you left home at 14, it was, it was

life changing for you and you had been through a lot when you left home. Can you take me on that journey when you finally decided to leave home? Yeah, it was the greatest thing. I know it pissed my family off. So I'm sorry. Sorry, not sorry. Sorry, not sorry. But yeah, I packed my little bag and I wore like pants under my pants. So baggy pants over my skinny pants and sweatshirts because it was freezing. It was October in Toronto, actually up north. And I went to school and my friend's sister drove me to the mall to the bus station and then I just got on a bus and went to Toronto where I had been we had moved up north and of course nobody would take me in you know how that

is um yeah they're like no you're not wayward child off the street and now and absolutely not so I ended up in the flop houses and you're going to love this. Maybe not, but they called them flop houses. Somebody corrected me and said they call them something else now, but where all the drug people go and I'm not going to lie. I liked LSD. Go ahead. You know?

Yeah. I love that drug. But I ended up in houses with like, I'll say the needle people, the people that use the needles. And I was so OCD that I couldn't stand it when they would, I did not do that. But when they would shoot up, they just leave the needles in the cigarette ashtrays on the floor. So I, like the good OCD girl, would pick everything up and wash them. And I, that we didn't know about AIDS exactly yet at that time.

But it was that year that it was, it was like an 81. It broke. And I was already doing that, but I couldn't stand that they were going to put it back in their arm from the ashtray. That drove me nuts. Like even I was like, no. And I looked in the paper for a job. So I was always looking in the paper and there was this club and it was called the Fillmore's

West, not East. And the owner, he was looking for cocktail waitresses. This is before Tracy Lord's. Okay. So nobody was checking ID. No one cared. Nobody cared. And so I went and met with him and I had no money to buy a little, he wanted us in a bathing suit with little heels. I had no money. So he gave me a hundred bucks back then and I could have just bailed, but I didn't. And I went and bought it at Capizio's you remember that store it's a dance store so I went and bought this little shiny gold shiny little bathing suit and these little shoes and I went and I started waitressing and then I met one of the strippers and she was like I need a girl we're going to Fort Erie for the weekend she goes you want to

do it I'm like not really I don't think so I'd have been like how much yeah yeah well then she says she says um she goes well I have some clothes for you and I'm like not really she goes well it's whatever she said and I'm like okay I'll go the most terrifying thing because it was horseshoe tables back in the day yeah with a whole bunch of people and you're completely naked. Like you've gone on stage and you're complete. And I was like, I did not understand what they were looking at.

I was that immature. Like I knew I had a body and I know that people look, but I was like, I don't. How old you are? 14? 14.

Oh my goodness. Yeah, 14. It was a little bit. Yeah, it was a little bit horrifying. And then when I came on those men though, well, I don't think they, well, I mean, I looked young,

but maybe they thought I was, I don't know what they thought they know assholes those men know yeah they probably knew I was and I was terrified I was traumatized and terrified my friend was like doing all kinds of things up there and I was like I'm not making those faces like I'm not gonna go were you still a virgin no okay no Okay. No, no, thank God. No, I knew people, but I mean, you're 14. What are you getting out of it, really? Yeah. You know, it takes till you're probably 20 to understand what you should do, or at least

I felt. Sorry for such a personal question. Yeah, no. I was just trying to see where you were at. Oh, no, no. I lost my virginity young. I learned at age 10 that men would pay for that kind of thing. Like if you take your shorts down, always the stripping, they'll give you money.

So how old were you when you lost your virginity? 12. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness. That is so young. No, I'm not. That's no judgment. That's coming from a place of love.

We have a 16 year old. I would, my heart would break. Yeah. 12. It was a kid my age. So like, yeah, it was not an adult person. Right. Yeah.

Young little boyfriends. I'm like, okay, I'll try that. Oh my goodness. And I was like, I. Like, yeah, it was not an adult person. Right. Yeah. Young little boyfriend. So I'm like, okay, I'll try that. Oh my goodness. And I was like, I don't get it. Wow. I was like, no, really. I was like, I don't, it took me years. And then when I had my kids, I was like, I get it.

So for me, it was about having my children. Yeah. That was important. The other stuff I could do without. Yeah. It's never been about the sex for me. Yeah. You know, after the stripping life, I was like, I hate everybody.

Don't try to kiss me. So you said at a young age, you learned that men would pay for things. Did you have men paying you for things? Oh, yeah. Neighbor men. Yeah. Really? Yeah. I would wear little shorts out and stuff and they'd call you over. And, you know, five bucks if you show me what's in your shorts.

So I did that. I've got to say I did it. But I was 10 and I knew better. Did I? Did I not? You're a show me what's in your shorts. So I did that. I've got to say I did it, but I was 10 and I knew better. Did I, did I not? But you're a child. That's not your, that's not your responsibility to know.

It isn't. Yeah. Those men that are disgusting. And you'll love this. It was the girl scout troops father. Who else would it be? I just got goosebumps. Yeah.

I will fucking kill a motherfucker. Do like, I'm laughing. Just fucking piss me off. Yeah. No, they're really weird but our whole society they are yeah weird isn't putting it nicely well i look at it and i'm

like you're married you have your own kids looking back at it now you know um my abuse as a child came from both my mother was abusive sexually as well so when i talk about that a lot of people are very uncomfortable with it even my husband would be like well maybe she just didn't know what she was doing I'm like come on what would she do she would check my crotch when I came in the door so she would put her hands down my pants and check yeah yeah and like put her fingers in you yeah yeah that's what I lived with that kind of stuff yeah so and when you tell people they're like I know it yeah yeah that's what i lived with that kind of stuff yeah so and when you tell people they're like i know it yeah i know no it would so you run i mean i never did that with my kids i was always knocking people don't do people don't do i won't even bailey i don't even look at her when she

showers at me no that was she not that woman knew what she was doing oh she knew she was trying you know what it was she was trying to have power over you yeah oh yeah she would do stuff like cut all my hair off and then tell my dad i did it no i didn't do you think that's why you have short hair to this day i wonder because i've had it long like yours and then i'll cut it short right now i don't want to go through the grow out stage oh no it's the worst there's that i don't know how i'm going to appear on camera like well luckily there's like wings and extensions and everything yeah you could do that when it gets to about here I may try to grow it out but I have a little face I love your short hair though yeah your look is a vibe and I would told you when you 60s vibe yeah 60s but I love it yeah

it's like very twiggy yes yeah I like that kind of thing I love that I think I mean when my mom cut my hair it was like I had long hair and she would just cut like you know so you look like an insane kid that your brother cut your hair off by accident she's just jealous of you yeah it was I had a horrendous stepmother too she didn't do the things to me that yours did but she beat me and emotionally physically that's the same she probably wanted to do something else and couldn't you know take you down that way yeah horrific horrific left a huge scar yeah it it was interesting because um that has to be a mental illness though like you for sure you just can't be mean to any sort of child on a continuum is fucking wrong with you yeah i can never know your. I could never. Your face is hilarious.

No, I love you. Oh, my God. No, I'm the same way. When people talk about my trauma, I get really giddy and nervously laugh. It's a trauma response that you have. Oh, absolutely. But it's just, you cannot be mean to children. If you're mean to children,

you are a fucking just piece of shit evil human being. You're a weirdo, yeah. Children are the most innocent things on the, on the earth. They, they don't have, you don't have any recourse really as a child. I mean, my kids, my kids had a lot more recourse. Like my Keithy, if you, if you told him, no, you couldn't go out, he would turn around and say, I'm going to tell people you did. You Michael Jackson me at that time.

And I'd be like, don't laugh his ass off. Don't do that. It was like 10. And I said, what did you just say and he'd go ha ha ha and then you know so the kids got more brash as they got older but for my generation because keep in mind I'm almost 60 which we know but which I speak ad nauseum because I can't believe I'm here uh it it's very humbling to grow old like yeah everything you thought you were when you're young and it wouldn't go away, it's gone. Whatever it is, you look in the mirror and you're like, who is that? A different person, you know, just so different. But for me, it was very hard with my mother. And

I remember running away at 10, running away at 11, running away at 12, my dad would find me. Obviously, I didn't get very far. I mean, who are we kidding? And the other thing that I learned from my childhood was to be a distance runner. So when they would start, whatever it was they were talking about in the home, I would leave when I was five, put on sneakers and go out the door. Cause back then we all took the subways in Toronto. We all took the buses. That wasn't abusive. Like all the little kids went in little groups and it wasn't like today where you're like, get off the subway. You'll be kidnapped. And we drop our kids everywhere and micromanage. It was not like that. And I wasn't the only kid out, you know, all my friends,

you know, and we lived in a good neighborhood in Toronto, shout out to Lawrence Park. And we lived there, but I became a cross country runner to get away from it. So I always had practice and I just have used that to cope my whole life. And it's been the biggest blessing. I would advise people with anxiety and trauma exercise. It is a blessing. Like it comes first in my life, period. I preach that all the time. Whenever I was gone through, whenever I had just gotten out of a severely abusive relationship and I first got with Jay, my body was in fight or flight. I didn't know what was going on at the time. And this was right before I started hitting my spiritual journey. And I would wake up at, out of a dead sleep at six o'clock in the morning, throw my shoes on and go jog. We'd be on tour and I would

jog around the hotel that we were in. Like anywhere we would go. If I started having a panic attack, I would just go jogging. Like it really does reset. It saves your life. Yeah. Saves your life. Did you ever take the, I took Klonopin for a while. Did you? Oh, I was a Xanax addict.

I didn't do Klonopin, but give me a little Xani Bonaduce and I would be in heaven. I did the Klonopin. I love Xanax. Yeah. I was so bad. I was having like 200 panic attacks a day and I was always in the emergency room and I thought people were poisoning my kids too I always went to the emergency yeah I'd run straight there like they're gonna help you me too they lock your ass they give you Xanax yeah and fucking Klonopin I went so much the doctor told me he was like he didn't call me bunny but he said

Alyssa because that's my real name yeah he said Alyssa you can't keep coming in here he's like if you're not gonna take the Xanax do not come back in here. Yeah. Cause you're not dying. Right. Yeah, exactly. Stop it. Yeah. Yeah. I would be, I would be so crazy that I was actually, and it can be spiritual because in the midst of my panic attack, I was, I'm super psychic. Like I would see any kind of energy around me, anything good, bad or ugly. Yes. And that would freak me out. Yeah. So I would go places and see things like I went to Disneyland with the kids and I would seeing like demonic. And this is true. Like my, I think Keithy was like three and we were with Tanner and Jason, their little friend. And I was looking around and

I got stuck in one of those cars you drive and I'm like, I can't. I would see something coming at me. And it's because I was so open that they will utilize that if they're a little bit dark to come in and torture you. I'm convinced of it. I'm convinced of it.

You can hear in past podcasts where I don't want to keep circling back to me, but it's like the shit you're saying is giving me confirmation that I'm not crazy. You're not crazy. How many times have I said that my panic attacks, I would look at people and their faces would look like they're melting?

Yeah, changing. Because what you're seeing in the midst of a panic attack. I can see people's eyes change too. Well, you're seeing a lot of people have attachments. You're actually seeing that. So call it non-human entities attached. I don't go as far as to say they're all demonic unless I can tell by the shape I see. Right. But people walk around with things on them. That's why addicts can't get their drugs up

because they have attachments on them who like the drugs. People don't get that. Addiction is a frequency, not a mindset. It's not a lifelong a lifelong thing i know dr drew will yell at me no i love that it just gave me goosebumps it's not a it's not a lifelong thing it's a frequency once you shift the frequency you can remove the addiction you don't think about it because you don't live in it wow it's family patterning you may come from a family that has a habitual habit of living at that frequency but that's not it's not like your gene pool is white. No. Yeah. I don't believe that. Of course I go against medical science here, but yeah, I don't believe I think that everything is, I love Eastern medicine. I don't like anything about Western

medicine. No, it's very damaging. I had my kids, my husband delivered my kids. I did not go to a hospital. I took no drugs. I was fucking savage was savage oh god because childbirth is barbaric yeah i haven't had children this lifetime because i fucking am so scared of it like it's so barbaric it it is but it was interesting i think i might have died during childbirth you could a lot of people still do believe it or not it's's pretty intense. It's a pretty intense thing. And, but I really enjoyed it. I weirdly, I wanted to feel my children. I spent so much time numb that I actually wanted to feel them. Mimi has two kids. She's like, no, don't like that one. Do you? Poor Mimi over here is like, I can feel her butt cheeks clenched over

here. I know. They're like, I remember, I remember feel her butt cheeks clenched over here I know they're like I remember I remember saying just before I pushed my first son out I think I'll go to the mall and look for a pair of shoes oh my gosh John's like you're not going anywhere I'm like no really we can hold this off till later like then I was like you have you're into it then yeah that part I was in uh yeah and uh you both my kids were like nine pounds so it was little baby turkeys yeah goodness little watermelons oh my goodness long 22 inches long and i was like it's watermelon they were it they were watermelons yeah goodness and you did that just fucking just fucking shira over there i just gracious i that's my ocd once my mind sets to it, I'm not changing. I will not change.

I get it. Circling back to you did this first gig when you were 14. Yeah. Did you jump into full-time dancing after that? Pretty much. Yeah. At 14? Yeah.

Yeah. No one, no one asked for, I mean, I had ID that didn't say I was 14. It said I was 16. Not much better. Right. Still. Yeah. Still.

And in Toronto, the clubs clubs and I went to the Fillmore's East at that time so it was the same owner but I applied there as a dancer kind of behind his back right when he found out I was dancing he never looked at me or spoke to me again the owner of that club like he literally shut me down I guess he didn't expect whatever. And I'm like, well, the money is good. Well, I feel like men in that industry are such creeps. Misogynistic. Right. So he probably, to you, you were a waitress, so you were innocent and you were pure. Yes.

And then when you crossed over, you were just like the rest of them. Yeah. Like that in his mind. That's how. Yeah. Yeah. I had the greatest time at that club though. was yeah it was i loved dancing yeah it was so fun and but but i also was shocked some of my friends would get pregnant and they would make more money pregnant and that freaked me the hell yeah that freaked me out um there was weird shit that would go on in the booths this is before

this is before girls had to pay to work in a club I quit when I was 23 because I'm not gonna pay to work in a club like yeah it's work why am I paying you like the house fee yeah so we didn't have that when I did it but we did tip the DJ at the end of the night because he removed whatever was wrong with your body with lighting the importance of lighting yeah um so he would do that but we didn't have to pay the clubs like they were looking for girls there was such a stigma to it so we got paid quite a bit which was really good and i traveled from here and i went to florida so i worked toronto california florida and it was a shock when i

came to la because the clubs where liquor was served were all, I mean, were, sorry, all nude was just beer. And then full nude was no alcohol. But Toronto, it was like anything goes. Like huge clubs. Everybody's drunk and God knows what. And this is where I drew my conclusion that most men are gay. Because they would come into the clubs and they had their young men friends with them, but they had their rings on.

So I saw so much of that, it really jaded me. Like I was a jaded bitch after that. Trust me. My next book that's going to come out after this book, that's my life story. I've already decided I'm going to call it Little Black Book. And it's literally going to be just everything about dancing and escorting and everything. See, I didn't quite do the escorting a couple of times, but I could never show up on time. That's why you're an hour early today. I'm like, for Bunny, I'm showing up. I'm like,

yeah, I know. I'm like, I will be there. Well, first of all, the time said central time. So in my mind, I'm like, what if I make a mistake and it's not really central? So I'm like, in my mind, I'm like, what if I make a mistake? And it's not really central. And so I'm like, I'm checking with I'm calling john. I'm like, it's central time. What is it this time? Yeah, like, stop calling me. I'm so sorry. It's a two hour difference. Yeah, no, it's too I have to look it up, though, because my mind will go off running. And then you'll be like, where is she? But it was so fun. No, I'm glad I got here. I'd rather be early. But at that time, I was so like ADD that I couldn't commit. I could barely get to a club, you know? I could barely get there.

All over the place. Yeah, no, I was just very much on the go. I still carry, I traveled like that. I still travel like that. I'm here, there, and everywhere. So it was hard. And the dancing was easy because I do one set. And at the time in Toronto, we had to go on stage for three songs, clothes, underwear, nothing, right? And you could

table dance. Do you remember when you had to carry the things on your head? No. Oh, yeah. Okay. We had like boxes. They did not have, you could dance in the horseshoe, but for people at regular tables, just like this, we had like boxes. So you'd go, the guy'd buy a dance, you go pick a box up and stand there and dance in front of them on the little box in your heels no never had to do i said but i everybody always says that i glamorize being in sex work and it's not that i glamorize it i literally grew up in vegas yeah where fucking sex work is glamorous yeah it's not it's not yes when i was dancing it was like the anna nico's, the fucking Pamela Anderson's, the Carmen Electra's.

Like it was a very taboo thing. It wasn't like it is now. Dancing was very like taboo and you know. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So yeah, it was for me too. It was like horror.

If, if one more man calls me that I will come. That is a word. I get that at least 10 times a day. Yeah. That triggers the shit out of me i laugh because well now i'm like it's miss whore to you yeah but i will scratch your eyes i make it into merch i make money off yeah yeah that's smart see i gotta learn because i get too emotional i go right into like okay no fuck yeah now now all the hate that gets thrown at you just

turn it into money into what i do yeah that's what i'm gonna do now yeah dumb blonde that's how i started that's why i'm saying literally people talking shit about me i know because it's like really hair color like and that's another thing with my mom growing up she wouldn't get me barbie i had to have skipper okay something happened to her when she was yeah i could somebody made her feel less than now now and that was what she wanted to project on you but my thing is is like you go your whole entire life till you're 40 years old, not having a child, and then you go get one and you treat her like this.

Yeah, it was very, it was very, yeah, it was difficult because you have nowhere to go. You have no family because once they cut you off, you're cut off in the adopted circle. I will say my cousins in the adopted family were always very kind to me. So I have cousins that are, they'd actually be second cousins because my first cousins are older because my parents were older.

But I have a brother that my mom and dad had after they adopted me, but he doesn't talk to me either. So yeah, I didn't even call when my son passed, which was interesting. Sounds like he's like her. Yeah. I would bet. Yeah. Without insulting anybody. Right. Publicly. So moving on, you said that you stopped dancing at 23. Yeah. What, had you already met John at that time? Yeah, I met him in a club.

Let's bring John into this. Yeah. Because you and John have a long, tumultuous, like, I don't want to say tumultuous, long. Oh, it's tumultuous. Okay. Long, tumultuous. We're friends. What kind of relationship do you think it is?

Do you think it's karmic? Do you think it's tumultuous. Okay. Long tumultuous. We're friends. What kind of relationship do you think it is? Do you think it's karmic? Do you think it's soulmate? It's soulmate. Now this is interesting because soulmate can be anybody. Yes. Your kid, your parents, your whoever. It's definitely both. It's 100% karmic because as I always tell the story, but it's true.

I was going to Florida to work. I worked in Miami. So I was going to Florida and I came into the story, but it's true. I was going to Florida to work. I worked in Miami. So I was going to Florida and I came into the club in the Valley. It was just a topless club at that time that I was in, in the, in the Valley, a real hood rat club, no offense, but it was anyway, I would just, you know, do the dance contest win and then take off because I'm so ADD. I don't want to stick around. So I was going to give the bartender money I owed her and I saw John at the bar facing the TV and when I looked at his back I kid you not and I was with my friend we were he came in the club

with me I said to my friend I said my little gay friend who was coming to Miami with me I said see that guy at the bar I'm gonna marry him like I knew it and I saw one dark-haired baby and one strawberry blonde on his back oh my god so that is actually how I introduced myself to him and he said are you high or would you like a drink he's like you are right up my alley yeah I saw my children yeah I saw them two boys and I saw Keithy Keithy's a strawberry blonde well he was a toe head at birth like a real toe head beautiful hair are you natural blonde I'm a dark dishwater blonde yeah and sometimes I'll go red sometimes you know what it changes but now I love blonde so yeah I'm a short-haired dumb blonde there you go not so dumb blonde yeah exactly stupid people and I have to say it we should put the stupid people show yeah But John was there. So

I was on my way. I was also married to somebody else at the time. It was a four month marriage. I made a mistake. And the voice in my head when I was walking down the aisle talked outside of me and said not to get married. And I ignored it. Yes, I did. Because we all do that. Because we think we know better. So I ignored it. I did that twice. Yeah. Did you? Oh yeah. Didn't you want to kick it? Before Jade, third time's a charm, baby. Yeah. Yeah, exactly. I was his second marriage and he was mine. But six months later I came back and I saw his friend in the bar. He was not there. So I said to his friend, can you call your friend? Because he said he'd be here. Like I was literal it was ridiculous and he came over and we started dating right then and we weren't really apart like and that was it this is year 37 and we've

only been divorced since October so it was I know I moved out why are you guys divorced you guys love each other I feel like so much love yeah I do love him he was was annoying. John, you're annoying. Knock it off. After two babies and a fucking lifetime together, stop being annoying. You delivered the kids too? Yeah, he did. He did deliver them. Cut John some slack, Sloan.

I'm like, oh, he's so funny. He now lives in our house with my grandkids, my son, and there's no room for me right now. Like literally to do my podcast. I'm down the street in my studio slash where I stay, but then I go there to see the grandbabies. I'm back and forth. I drive a lot, but which is good for my ADD. It's excellent. But what was so fascinating when I met John, this is true story. Our dads worked together and were both nicknamed Slim. Okay. Yeah. My dad was born in 1917 his dad 1912 but they work for the same company wow in the same line of work his mom her first name was Kathleen

my mom's middle name was Kathleen okay and we're all from Canada and the family's so I know it's karmic yeah there's no way our backgrounds are very similar what I think happened because I can't get away from them and I will pick men that are 20 to 25 years older and that is a sign of abuse like that does come from that yeah however I get their time frame and their culture like I'm not current I'm back then so all the tv shows they grew up with I get yeah how they your your adopted parents were also older yeah yeah yeah my dad was in his 50s and my mom was 40 and then I think turning 42 when she had my brother so she got pregnant right away pretty much there's two years between us so she got pregnant on her own after

she adopted probably because she was not as nervous about never having kids you know for her and it obviously it was karma because she felt the need to do it right to begin with you know so that was karma so everything was kind of my brother was a scorpio you know how that goes i love scorpio women scorpio men scare me yeah they can be they're they're my husband's a scorpio rising he's an aries scorpio rising and i'm just just like, you never know. And he's very psychic. And see, for psychics, and this goes for you too, you're what I call a sensitive. So you don't work professionally as a psychic. It's not your profession. But you operate psychically.

And not just once or twice. You do everything psychically. So that's a sensitive. So you do your business through your psychic ability. So most successful people do do that. They just don't counsel others day in and day out because it's not that's not what they're here to do. They're here to do this business, but use that insight. And John was very much like that. So I really appreciated it. And every every step of the way he's been on my

journey, like, like on our way here, my bra broke. So he drove me to Victoria's Secrets to get a replacement. Is he here in town with you? No, he wasn't. He's with the grandkids right now. But I'm like, we have to get a bra. He just looks at me. He's like, you have to catch the plane. I'm like, bra, please.

So he's good like that. But if I were to say, hopefully he doesn't get mad. But it was the alcohol like it's a lifelong journey with the alcoholism or the alcohol not not according to him okay but i feel that it's a problem so if you drink and you talk to me in a certain way when my kids are older i'm not going to listen to you it's a trigger for for you. Yeah. Yeah. He needs to understand. Yeah. It's a huge, and an abusive home where alcohol was, he did as well. Like he, his dad was very similar to mine. You guys are opposite ends of the spectrum though. Like he, he was more normal. Yeah. Well that, that, and he took, took it on. Whereas you were like,

absolutely never. That's how I am with like, I I'm sober how I am like I'm sober I won't do drugs I won't drink like nothing no we planned a drink uh for Mimi's birthday it's like a special occasion when is Mimi's birthday the 30th April 30th so April 28th we're gonna go out and tie one on but I have to bring my own bottles like I won't drink liquor at a bar because I don't trust it yeah like me they spike it yeah I don't trust it yeah maybe they spike it yeah I don't trust anything drink out of bunnies bottles literally yeah so you know it was just two different ways yeah it I once I had kids too I think that any kind of drugs or alcohol is off the table for me like I get very serious so I'm a mom that way you know women are caretakers so we hopefully

don't go down you know I didn't want my kids to see that from me yeah I'm not saying I didn't do drugs I did as a teenager but uh yeah so I finally got fed up with it but I'll tell you what I think really happened I've given it a lot of thought because he drove me batshit crazy a lot and was my best friend like he's the first person I call so it's I mean I love him yeah I just don't know what to say I did from the minute I saw him even when he's annoying and you know I put his name in the freezer yeah to block him he knows that secret yeah he used to throw his name out of the ice cube tray I used to put it in there freeze it so he wouldn't bug me and at least you didn't put him in a jar with nails and no no no of spices. No, no, no, no. I wasn't trying to kill them.

I was trying to back them off a bit. None of it works, actually, by the way. They're going to come forward if they want to, right? Yeah. But it's funny because we were struggling when I got pregnant with Keith in our relationship. And I wasn't sure I wanted another child. So I asked Keith to tell me if he wanted to come through. I wasn't opposed to not having the child or not. You know, honestly, that was my mindset. I wanted a career.

I was kind of selfish. I had Jason. I was good with one child, even though I saw two. And I really felt like Keith wanted to be born. So I had him and I'm is the best thing I ever did. He was my tie to learning things that my first son taught me different things but my Keith he taught me really huge lessons obviously he passed so huge lesson but when I separated from John and I planned and I didn't let on and then suddenly I just left he was so mad and yet he would show up for dinner the next night right come get me and I'm like I'm gonna have my independence over here because I was such a young girl too you know but after that it was six months later that Keith passed so I think Keith's birth was for us to work our karma out I think we completed that cycle and so we can be

really good friends now without having any kind of issues right you know I mean we can have issues but I have my own place right so bye um so I feel like John's gonna just be in your life for the rest of your life yeah he is yeah he is and it's I know you say a lot on your podcast because me and John were talking about this how people don't know how you're with Jay because it looks like it should not be according to them and their judgmental ass selves yeah John and I were always like that because he was much older judgmental ass selves yeah john and i were always like that because he was much older and so people people would say is that you're you're if our son is that your your grandson and your daughter it's like no i fuck him yeah i swear people people are stupid yeah no you know

not not everybody but there would just be random so we always looked not when he was younger but we always looked kind of now when you see us because he's, he's at that different stage in life. He just turned 78. So yeah. And, uh, he still can get you though if he wants to. So I'll give him that. But it's funny, your friends are your friends and it's timeless. Like whoever you love is who you love. There is no path for that. I always tell everybody when I met Jay, it was literally like my soul you love is who you love. There is no path for that. I always tell everybody when I met Jay, it was literally like my soul was like, there you are.

Yeah. Like I recognized him and I had known him in every other life too. And we have had the craziest relationship, but like that dude is my best friend. He's my John. He's my best friend. Even when I'm freaking mad at him,

like I could just put a fork in his forehead, which I tell him, I'm going to drive there and stick one in your forehead. Oh, don't be hurting John. Damn it. He'll love that you're saying that. But it's funny because he is my best friend. Like everything that I've ever done, my work, he's always there.

Like, and he can bug me while I'm doing my work, but he's still always there to pick, you know, pick it up. And he's really good. Our little granddaughter loves the shit out of him she looks at him like she knows him from somewhere it's the strangest she could like she's friends with me but wherever he goes in the room she's like it's so funny she just loves him yeah she just sees him and she checks for him like her little head pops out of your arm looking for him oh my goodness it's the cutest so let's talk about your kids yes because those are your light and you have said numerous times during this podcast that you came here to be a mom i did i didn't know it but i did yeah let's talk about it oh my god take me on that journey i loved being pregnant with jason loved

it like loved it i was like look i'm i pounds. I really did. I bet you were so cute though. Cause you're so tiny. No, no, I was a beast. It's like a wildebeest out there. But, um, my stepson called me a blueberry because I wore blue overalls and I was so huge. Like, I mean, my belly was like, it was hideous, but I mean, cute. It and I just absolutely I loved breastfeeding I breastfed for two years and and we we co-shared the bed the kids didn't have their own beds you know they they did but I brought them all in the bed with me and my son does the same so it's kind of cute um they all co-sleep co-sleep I think is what they called it we just just called it chair in the bed. But I just, it was the best experience of my life. It changed me so much. It changed me. It just, it was incredible. And then you become this like even more paranoid OCD person with kids. You're like, you know, you realize

you're responsible for it. Mimi's laughing over there. You're just like, no babysitters. I made all this. Yeah. Yeah. Family members only how she is yeah yeah family members only my mother in law my mother-in-law was on set you remember psychic friends network back in the day so we did my client reenactments that the show did Linda Georgian was a friend of mine and Dionne Warwick was the host that's the only way they put it on in the air but my mother-in-law would be in the green room and hold Jason and I'd breastfeed him between takes and come back. Yeah. I dragged her everywhere with me and she did it willingly. So yeah, it was the best. And when I got pregnant with Keith, it was, Jason was so lovely. And I was kind of mad when I got pregnant again, because it went so

quick that first two and a half years that I'm like, oh no, there's another baby coming. I don't, you know, like now I can't give to Jason because I'm now going to have two. So I was kind of mad at first, which was weird. And then I got into the pregnancy and both my kids told me their names at ultrasounds at six months. So I wanted to name both of them Matthew. Like I had that in my head. They're going to be Matthew something, right? I don't, I don't know why I just like the name. So with Jason, I heard Jason. So at six and a half months, I'm like, he's Jason. And then with Keith, I heard Keith. John's like, who do you know named Keith? I'm like, nobody. You're like Keith Richards. Yeah. He's born on the same day as my son.

Oh, December 18th. Yes. Oh my gosh. Good hit. That's crazy. Yeah. Keith Richards. Keith, he was not like Keith Richards, but he could have been maybe I guess. But yeah, when I got pregnant with Keith, it was so different because that was an extraordinary thing. When I gave birth to Jason, I flew out of my body. I was pushing. They said push. My mother, birth mother was there and she had a mirror. She's like, look, you can see. Like, I don't care. You know, my head's spinning around. And so John was there and he was holding me up and, and I'm push, push, push.

And I'm thinking to myself, this is actually hell. I need to get, I told John, go down the street, get that kid. He used to play baseball. I said, he sells drugs. Find him. Give me the drugs. But it's too late at that point. Anyway, I flew right out of my body. And suddenly I was looking above myself. And I saw Jason who hadn't even come out at age 19, handing John a little girl and she was Hispanic, mixed, saw a baby girl and she had wavy hair and she was a little toddler and he was hand like handing her over like it was over my body but I'm watching

it John's over there and I knew it was his granddaughter that's our first granddaughter baby Lila and I saw her when I saw her I went oh my god there she is she's here and she I described her John's like that's weird it was like the absolute description because it wasn't anybody we thought who it would be with and this that and the other and with Keith I was screaming as my legs were up and I was in the jacuzzi and something told me to get out of the jacuzzi because it didn't feel right so john's like don't push don't push and i'm like why the midwife was on her way it was christ almost to be christmas and he's like the head is purple i'm like so meanwhile the midwife gets there john actually did this i gotta give

him kudos for this he pushed keith's head back inside yes for the love of god yes no seriously i couldn't even feel it though because i was so like what's happening right i was just like you're but for him to even be able to do that he did it he jumped right that's one thing about him he's really good at that like if you're having an emergency he will stop and help you yeah and he doesn't care you can't leave this man. He has been all up in your hoo-ha, literally. Literally. Felt like a Mack truck after. But Keith was tangled down here and under here.

John untangled him. The midwife came in and so turned me. And then Keith was delivered. But then he had to go to the hospital. And this is an even funnier story, but not. So I'm there. And I don't have any clothes that'll fit so i'm wearing john's pants and i said you stay with jason i'm getting in the ambulance with keithy keithy went and our doctor was heidi fleiss's dad oh who was doing the movie and in trouble for tax evasion at the time so they banned him from the hospital oh no so then the

hospital called social services on us for having a home birth and all of that shit and little keithy had to stay there one week they want to make sure he was okay because he got strangled coming out but he was fine and he was nine just over nine pounds and he was in with the little like drug babies that were the size of your hand it was i was, like little, like not even a pound babies. And that blew my mind. But I was still like really angry that my Keithie was in there. So I go to anger first always. I'm like, well, fuck you.

I'm going to get my kid out of here. And so Keithie came home and he was just so cute. And that changed my life too. But when I got pregnant with Keith going back, I'm always going backwards. That have a lot of cancer planets we do that we go forward and then we look back um astrology lesson yeah but when I got pregnant with Keith that explains why you say that you um came here to be a mother because cancer represents mother yeah like mom yeah I just absolutely it was I'm not saying I was the best I would chase those kids ask Jason like I my oldest son when he was being bad I parked my car kicked my shoes off and tackle

him on the street like I was that I feel like that's how I would be like that bitch you know people are like your mom it's like you were not going off with that kid I fucking told you no yeah and you know no I wanted them to stay away from drugs obviously obvious who you know who wants their kids on drugs said no one but when I got pregnant I it was St. Patrick's Day and I'd gone down and gotten I felt like having sex and John was with his friends so I went down to the was known as a bicycle club in Burbank and I dragged him away from his friends for a quickie on the living room floor and I literally heard ping I it was like ping you're pregnant and I just remember him saying I am not out of the room and I was pregnant I we couldn't know then right and then I tell the story but I really heard one's

coming and one's going so I didn't quite know what it meant but when I looked up when Keithy would be born and it was a Sag I knew it was his brother Jimmy so I didn't know the timeline but that was my first hit that Jimmy was going to pass and that was the stepson yeah he was um that devastated me like because I saw it and as a psychic person when you get that information it's almost like you feel you're causing it, but it's not that you're, you're getting the phone, like the strand of information first and you can feel it. And it's so, um, it blew my mind. It, uh, it fractured me. I was not normal after like I had a psychotic break. Um, like that's what they said. I went to the hospital and ran away from the hospital because I thought the doctor was an escapemental patient I mean I was out of my mind

like I was just like I'm not staying goodbye yeah I gotta go you because the voices in my head like now they were messing with me because I was so when when Jimmy died it it shattered me like glass and John as well I'll never forget it but as we got closer to the time frame I had the conversation with him because I kept hearing the voices so I thought I'll go to his work and just jokingly sit down with him because he we learned while I was pregnant he had a drug problem we did not know that I mean maybe his sister did but I did not know that other than weed I mean mean, whatever, but nothing serious. And he started doing the overdosing thing and this and that. And he did not look like it. He was extremely good looking. Okay. And tall and healthy looking and dance, you know, so he didn't look like he was destroying himself, if that makes sense. if that makes sense. And I went to John's work. He was working with John at that time. And I sat down with him and on his lunch break, he'd always tan out in the parking lot. So I was sitting with him and I'm like, you know, how do you want, how do you want to be buried? And he's like,

traditional Catholic. And he just answers that. Yeah. He just like, no, he was a double sad. She was the best. He was December 9th and he had a Pisces moon though. Sweet little Pisces moon, really sad for this planet, too sensitive for the had a Pisces moon though sweet little Pisces moon really sad for this planet too sensitive for the planet Pisces Venus yeah the nicest the nicest person the nicest kindest person Pisces always is and they take care of everything and everybody but it will destroy them too so mentally for him but anyway he told me he'd just gone to a wedding and he was wearing his dad's tie, which was the one that John wore to our wedding. So he said, yeah, I'll wear that tie and this, that and the other. So, you know, up then I was after Keith was born, I thought we

were safe again. This is my thinking I can control or that I understand. And I did not. They're going to teach you a lesson psychically every single time but it was Keithy took his first steps on the day his on the day his brother died so my son walked and our other son which would be John's son passed on that day and it just so drug overdose yep at John's work and I just I I heard the phone call coming in and I walked out the front door because I knew. I was told it would be by Halloween and this was October 9th. And I can't even describe it. I was not normal. Neither was obviously John.

And poor Keithy was 10 months old. So he never knew. He went through so much. And that was my first. I remember looking at the body in the funeral. It's not funny, but in the funeral home. And we have already established that you laugh when you're uncomfortable. It was so, I almost knocked all the flowers over. Like I couldn't get out of the room fast enough. And I was like, they didn't brush his hair. Right. He had long hair. He used

to wear it in a ponytail. And I was like, his hair's wrong. But of course you're dead so your hair is wrong like you're dead and um it was so traumatic for me and I had postpartum too so I had those two things and poor John he had to get up and go to work like he was supporting us at that time because I had stopped working pregnant with Keith and was looking after Jason and so he was a supporter. So he had to go back to work. And the thing about the grief that I found so interesting is people would call me from his work, like he'd forward the phones and I'd answer and they're like, yeah, how's Jimmy? John told me he was, you know, getting lunch when I stopped by and I'm like, he's actually dead. Like he would not say it for like a good, he was was he wouldn't say it I mean people knew obviously people who knew us but he wouldn't say it and poor Jason was three and loved his brother

before my Keithy came it was Jimmy who showed himself on my podcast and so I jokingly thought like is he her first dad because we were fighting at the time I'm like how about somebody else in the family never occurred to me that he he crossed my son over so he came to let me know I always saw Jimmy he showed me how he died much different than with Keith and with when Keith passed when I got that call from my other son Jason who did not know he was dead he just said his exact words 1 30 is it okay to say this yeah you asked about the kids so i'm talking about it but when jace called me i just finished working and he never called he used to text so i picked up for that reason you know how these kids are they don't want to talk to you yeah i've tried to get our kid on the phone all the time

yeah don't text me call me yeah they don't like that yeah the 30 year olds don't either yeah um 31 anyway he called me and he said keith hit the floor and i'm like he fell down the stairs like i didn't understand the motorcycle conversation and i said what are you talking about he said the motorcycle and i said where what hospital i went right to that he said chatsworth i said where desoto so I'm on the phone I have had a best friend so did he know or no he didn't no no no somebody had called him gotcha and said your brother was in an accident I heard from George because Keith had gone out to get the motorcycle John had COVID at the time was really sick George and Keith went out to get Keith's bike because it'd been in the shop so George was driving shout out to get Keith's bike because it had been in the shop. So George was driving, shout out to George, a Scorpio. There you go. Yeah. He's a November

4th Scorpio. Anyway, one of Keith's friends, he was driving Keithy's car and Keith was riding the bike home and they were going to the gym after that, like, like my kids do. And, uh, so George did not have my phone number or Jason. So he called our other neighbor, David. David called Jason. So that's how I found out and then said, call your mom, tell her whatever. But he didn't know he was dead. So David drove out before we got there. And then the police told David what happened.

And he called Jason, but I did not get that call. But I knew I went complete. I went numb. I don't have feelings. I laugh., I went numb. I don't have feeling. I laugh. You could punch me. I don't have feelings. Now I don't feel anxiety. Like, you know how it takes over your body. I don't feel that anymore, but I know I have it. Right. Mentally, intellectually, but I feel nothing physically. So I of course went to anger, but I drove down the street. I was calling the police and they wouldn't tell me.

So then David called me and sent me a pin to where Keith was. And I said, you need to tell me is my son dead. And he wouldn't answer. So I started screaming at him, you killed him. Like I just went right nuts on him, the poor kid. He hung up on me, ignored me, thank God. But he didn't want to tell me. That's what he said later.

He goes, I just didn't want to say it. You were driving. So I just didn't want to say it. So I what he said later. He goes, I just didn't want to say it. You were driving. So I just didn't want to say it. So I was on the, I was on, it's funny. I'd been on a group text, shout out to Carol. And she had said, let's, I had said, let's steal the bikes. And she was going to put them in her garage. And I didn't follow through because I called John and he said, they'll just get insurance

money and buy faster bikes. Right. So, and I didn't even know Keith had a bike until two weeks before he passed because I wasn't living in that house. And they shut the garage on me till I walked up on it one day. I saw Jason's bike and then I saw a blue one. And I'm like, whose is that? Because I know Jason.

I have the same thing with motorcycles. I will not let my husband have one. No, no, the drivers. No, this lady just, I have the video from a neighbor. Thank God. I had to do all the work though and the police thought I was crazy you're a crazy mom who loved your son yeah that's it I just remember pulling up and I saw the tarp and I went completely nuts they would not let me go near the body I didn't care I don't care what position my son's in he's my son i'm here to clean his life up and bring him in like that's my job and i'll tell you something i i

think of it it's to all the mothers that have lost i hope i don't cry anyway to all the mothers who've lost kids makes me um it's a full moon i'm going nuts but it's okay it's um it's okay to hurt this is a yeah it's very painful but obviously but to all the mothers it's a great honor to finish your child's life I learned that because I cleaned up and had help from so many people who helped me clean up my son's life um I felt like I had to like he was not finished and so I felt like I would do everything find out everything make sure all his friends knew how important they were to him and do things in his honor that's how I looked at it now that was it was um it blew my mind I was just like and I just

couldn't understand like people like the police were there I couldn't understand what they were saying I was like what the fuck are you saying and I could see him and it's funny the first person I texted was his ex-girlfriend they were not together her name is Paige I love her dearly I texted her I sent her a picture from across the street don't ask me why I did that she was with her boyfriend now and they have a one-year-old, 16-month-old child, really cute. And he said, she told me this after, he said, what's wrong? And she said, I think Keith died. So they pulled over.

She had the same reaction I did because he looked like he was sleeping. They covered him and his little socks were there and they were dirty on the bottom. And I was like, why are his socks? Because he used to run around in white socks outside on the you know how men are they just go out and she had the same same comment I just felt the urge to send her that I don't know I just had that reaction and she was yeah she would and then Jason pulled up he reacted the same way I did he ran out of the car it took three police to hold him back because he was going to fight them. He's like his mother that way when he's a guy.

And McKenna was there, my lovely little makeup artist daughter-in-law. And she was there. And I just watched her. She kind of slid onto the ground. She's a Pisces. She just kind of hit the ground. And Jason just ran like he was a quarterback like trying to get to his brother and they had to like you know push him like that and so it was

unbelievably traumatic i just changed the whole mood of the room but it was no that's okay it was so traumatic to me that i don't even know how to describe it. Like John didn't get out there to say, I just, and I remember calling him as I was driving up and I told him to shut up because he started crying like a wounded animal, not crying, wailing. The word is wailing. I couldn't handle it. Shut up, click. And he couldn't come because he was too sick. He had a fever and all of that. But I just, seeing it just blew my, like it just blew my mind. And so we waited. You wait, obviously, until the coroner gets there because they have to do what they do. And I was, George had gone.

George, because the police, he took Keith's car, his family took Keith's car to John's. And when the coroner put Keithy on the stretcher his eyes were half open like that's what happens when you die and his mouth was open so I I was above his head and his feet were this way and Jason was behind me in the corner and I sniffed for him I wanted to smell him he was not there I sniff I sniffed his mouth. I looked at, I was like a nut. I looked at his eyes. I had to take it all in because that's how I am. I have to find out everything, but I had to look at him. I had to see. I didn't have panic at the time. I was just numb, but I could not smell him. He was gone. Like he was out of the vicinity. Now I'm going to tell

a really interesting thing after that. The the next day my Jason was coming home from the gym in Burbank or wherever he was but I think it was a gym a lady hit him on his motorbike so I was in the emergency room with him she ran over his right didn't break anything but ran over the right side of his leg and wouldn't get off she was wearing a mask and an older lady and the lady behind her had to bang, bang, bang, and then help Jason. The day after that, Jason says he doesn't remember, but Kenna does remember. So Jason anyway said he had like a vision in our house and he saw Keith come in with his helmet on, go upstairs like he did.

And he turned to his dad and John said to him in this vision, this wasn't really happening. This is what Jason saw. And he said, doesn't he know he's dead? And John said, don't tell him. He'll stay longer, which would be exactly what he would say. And so Jason said, they sat there and Keith came downstairs, sat on our table. We have a low table and lounge table and he sat on it. And Jason and John and him were talking in this vision. And then Jason couldn't stand it anymore. And he said, bro, you died on a motorcycle.

You're dead. And he said, Keith looked at him and said, I'm not dead. And they they did what guys do. They stood up and these two would, you know, how guys are they fight like with their chests and stuff. And Jason said he like chest bumped him energetically and then got so mad he swooshed out of the room so technically Jason told a piece of Keith's soul that's a great illustration because he helped his brother leave like at least understand part of that because part we split into different energies

when we pass part of his energy went one way but part came home because he wasn't sure. Because we're not contained, see? So Jason actually did that. Jason has been a good medium since he was a kid. He's actually better than I am, but he will never admit it and will ignore this conversation for me saying that. And then that night I slept in Keith's bed and I felt him. Kenna came in the room.

Keithy's cat was there, Tulip, and I felt Keith come through me, but he was, it's fragmented. I knew he was hugging me, but his energy was all over me, and yet he was hugging me. It wasn't like I hug you. It's kind of like a tornado of energy. Yeah, like the static on a tv for like you walk through that and how that would feel it was like that but i knew it was him i slept in his bed and i just

said to john i'm gonna sleep in his bed and i went so that i could smell him because i couldn't smell him and that made me he had a very distinct my kids i could you know you can smell your children even with cologne on you can smell them and when was this when did this 2020 july 29 2020 yeah but keith keith i have to show you the picture he manifested on my live stream because i kept saying i can't feel him i i did i felt him move through me and i felt him when i was preparing his friends prepared the most beautiful send-off and celebration we did the service in the park guerrilla style because it was covid so like 60 people came in the park where he would work out during covid um the funeral home took his body across the street because there were no nobody

was allowed to view i threw a tantrum and said i'm bringing him home if we can't and so they moved him to a different area we signed waivers and everybody was at once was able to see him. And I was quite fine looking at his body because I knew he wasn't there. So it was very different than when his brother died because something in me thought he was still in there. But when I looked at Keith, he looked like my Keithy, skinnier because you lose your volume. But it wasn't like he's not there. because you you lose your volume but it wasn't like he's not there do you think it's because you had that maternal attachment to him that you feel that oh as opposed to with jimmy yeah oh definitely yeah i just knew he wasn't there so um i i looked at the body and i i actually took

pictures of him so that i would remember it and it looks like him sleeping like a little angel so they could not put clothes on him because his body was damaged tremendously from the motorcycle so they wrapped him and he looked like a little mummy it was so cute his little face was really cute so I saw that and he manifested I think it was Elvis's birthday somebody emailed me the other night I was talking about this so I have like your sets like a couch that was behind me and it had a blue throw on it it was in my other studio and they're they're all crying over here it made me cry too I am I'm sorry no don't apologize

for being vulnerable it's yeah it's the it the one way to get at me is to say something about my kids I will yeah or Yeah. Or, you know, like negative. I mean, but, um, Keithy came through. So I was sitting, so I sit at, at the kitchen table. The only thing I took in the divorce was my kitchen table where my kids sat. That's like, I lug a huge, big, fat, thick ass kitchen table around. Cause I'm like my husband, he's obsessed with our kitchen tables for some reason yeah because people sit there yeah and talk that's it so I my camera's on that my little so I had it there and the the two chairs were behind me and people started going look look what's happening behind you so I turn I can't see anything because the lights in my face and I don't see anything they're like there's the face there's the face and I'm like I'm live streaming

so I can hear them I mean see the thing and I'm like oh it's got to be Jim Morrison I'm screwing around I have a picture it's Keith's profile from his picture someone took a picture of me with it behind it and attached Keith's face beside it to show like he manifests he manifests all the time so I get comfort in that. Although I'll tell you as a medium who's lived through this, I still want my son here. There is nothing you can tell a mother or a person who's lost somebody that makes them feel better. So I don't even think I make people feel better when I tell them, if I tell them I, because I miss my son. So you can tell me stuff. Doesn't matter. I want my Keith here. I think your soul is always going to ache for him. Yeah.

I think that's, that's what I'm, that that's what I do. So, but it has brought me so many lovely people who, so many people reached out. Oh my God, I was dying. Like I, and so many people, I shout out to the, my friend, who Keith came to her and she painted his picture. And then she was a PI and she found every witness. So and set up everything I needed to take to court, you know, to try and figure out what happened. She did it. And she literally said.

Was it a hit and run? It was. Like my friend Stacy, who is a police of Los Angeles said it, it caused the accident. Like if you're on the side, they didn't hit him, but they pulled into his lane cause it was DeSoto. So six lanes going one way, going the other way. And Keith, he was going to the freeway. He was in the closest to oncoming traffic. The lady pulled to turn left and she went out like this, which caused him to move into the middle lane and i have him on the bike he's upright and fine like nothing is showing and then two houses later he hits a mailbox that

the person cemented into the ground and it all catapults him and cuts basically his this artery here and so he was dead and people kept saying oh your son was doing a wheelie no we hit the mailbox and when it cut him because it was metal and cemented when it cut him that's a death grip like that yeah that's what that is and then he hit a telephone pole and you'll love not love that but he landed outside a buddhist temple oh my gosh and so the monks were praying for him oh my gosh when. When I got there, which I liked. Yeah. Because my Keithy would like that.

So I was very happy that people, they went, they told me, they took me over there when I got there and they told me they were praying for him and they were chanting. You could hear them chanting. So he passed right outside of there and it was actually under a really beautiful tree. It's very odd, but I tried to observe everything that about it like every single element so that I know what I saw and I can understand it yeah I had to make sense of it absolutely I petitioned the court for three years and finally got all the police video cam so I saw every aspect of the damage done to my son all the the video. Now I can look at it. John does not want to look at it. Jason and I can look at it. But I had to look at witnesses and how they responded and people

around and I had to know. And I can actually hear through the video. He's friend David on the phone, the police are telling him and he's crying. And I can hear Jason screaming at him through the phone and I can hear him say, bro, why would I lie your brother's dead? Like I can hear Jason screaming at him through the phone and I can hear him say, bro, why would I lie? Your brother's dead. Like I can hear that conversation. So it's fascinating. It put everything into order for me. So I can see how it drives people crazy when they don't know, you know, what happened or they can't see it. So I advise people to get as much information as much as you can get, because even though you don't want to know it, it may help you understand a series of events at which will then help you process it. Absolutely. That's what I feel. No, I'm the same way. I want to know every aspect of

every situation so that I can either one come to some sort of closure in my own life or just know, it's just something about being an information junkie. I have to know everything. You need to know. Yeah. That's, that's the same with me. I needed to know. And then I needed to abdicate for my son. And I needed to, I throw parties to celebrate his transition, which is his birthday on the other side. That's how I choose to see it.

So I put a bench up in the park. That's what we decided to do as a family where he exercised. So I decorate it on the day he passed and we have beer and pizza parties. And on his birthday, we let off firecrackers. The neighbors call the police, but we do it every year. So that's what we do.

And his friends come and they always, you know, I get invited to all the baby showers. So I go as him. Yeah. If that makes sense. Yeah, absolutely.

For every single one of his friends and all their little kids. And it's, it's, it's a nice therapeutic for you too. Yeah. too yeah yeah oh no it's really great to watch these kids i wish i know he knows meadow that's my little granddaughter i know he knows her yeah yeah and my my other granddaughter did part of the eulogy at his funeral she was eight she stood up she wanted to oh my goodness yeah she did really brave. Cause I didn't want to stand up. So she did. Yeah. Really brave. Well, I'm thank you for sharing that with us. God, I just, your audience is like, Whoa, no, they love this. What do you mean? Before we get in segue into our next chapter of this, can I pee really quick?

Sorry. We're getting our lives together, Sloan.an yeah I'm getting mine together I dressed I'm like I'm so excited I arrived here dressed like a sane person sometimes I think I'm gonna look cute for somebody and then I'm like just stick with what you know works you look beautiful you are gorgeous I we we both we all all of us are gorgeous everybody's gorgeous they really are but we don't see it that way because we believe bullshit i do and you know what a lot of people are always like why is bunny nice to these people like i was on what somebody sent me a bunch of screenshots today from this um group that's on a website that fucking just does nothing but talk shit about people and they were like bunny is always just so nice to people who have mental illness and i'm like am i supposed to judge them am i supposed to make them feel terrible about themselves like that's not that's not what I'm here for I'm here to love

people and put a smile on their face and correct make them feel good about themselves that's an ignorant comment it's so fucking weird you would not believe the shit I have to deal with online it's crazy I get I get the yeah that one woman my PI was messaging me going I think this is her page she's sending it to me while I'm here and I'm like she's like you can tell she killed her son and oh my goodness to be famous I'm like lady I had no like in my head but you can't fight them back yeah because they tried to say that about us my mom died before an award show yeah and they tried to say oh was bunny's mom a sacrifice um and that's why jay won all the awards and i'm like my mom yeah like nobody wants her like love you mom but

no but that's not sacrificial lamb material that's you know like not happening no it's it it just it's weird and then they say things like you talked it and no that that's how i work that's what claire audience is you say things and it actually happens. So it was just horrible. See, so mine's the opposite. I have visions and if I don't say anything, it will happen. But if I do, sometimes it like changes the trajectory of it. It's really weird. Oh, that's interesting. Yeah. It's really weird. I tell them that all the time. I'm like, I have to tell you this because if I tell you it, then it won't happen. Okay. Yeah. That's, that could be also your OCD. Yeah. Making the deals, making the deals. But, um, I know with me when I call it psychic Tourette's, if I keep hearing it enough, I have to say it or it just eats me. And I wanted to warn both my boys and I didn't know which one

I, my best friend was a psychic and I went to her and I said, tell me which one of my fucking kids is dying. And she's like, I can see the chaos the chaos I can see the lady and it was a lady that pulled that we just found her taking me four years to find her we just I put her face everywhere online I got it off the would never know who she was but I got it off the police footage that's why I knew I had to get it so now we're tracking her this week my PI is going to call and then you can put you can press charges well she's going to have to say why she didn't stop she's all over my son's body an hour before i got there i have it on police or they didn't get her name nothing she's oh she stopped and then yeah she stopped there look her and her whoever she was with they're looking for shit all

over the ground and i'm like it and and then they're talking shit they're talking shit about george's family i have it on tape like i got the police footage i had to subpoena myself i had to research how to do that wow took me 18 tries but I kept going into court getting a subpoena I've been going down there and they're like denied and I'm like you motherfuckers I'm going back but I did it because I knew I had to see something on the footage and it's actually the one of our witnesses described her and said oh no she talked to the police and they didn't think anything of it he died six months after that from a fentanyl overdose. And so, but he described her. So when I saw her on the video, I'm like, bingo. Wow. Yeah. I have him on tape. So I taped everybody. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Poor kid

was Jason's age anyway, fentanyl. And he was just, I felt bad. He didn't stop because he said he was smoking weed when he was driving up the street. He't want to get busted but he did report her and then I can see her everywhere she's all over the body and the police says what's your name ma'am and she's like oh I'm praying and she pretends to pray I want yeah I want to kick the shit out of her well and that is horrific I watched it and they wouldn't let me know I would never be able to live with that. Like to go home and you're not a good person. Yeah. To go home and go to bed and know that you fucking killed somebody and you acted like you were praying over them.

Like she didn't, she didn't hit him. She pulled out. Right, right, right, right. Which,

so there was, she obviously knew she did something wrong. Yeah. She was investigating his body. Yeah. And then she went to help George. She got water. So I asked George's mom,

do you know this woman and she oh that's the nice lady that brought him water talking shit to the cops on her way oh that kid he comes from a shitty family and then she's like um yeah the mother she's a tall blonde i'm not tall i'm five six i'm average and i mean and then she's like the father's older and then the kid in the car is like he's like 80 i'm like how do you know who i am like they they obviously went on i i don't know but they bad mouth george and all kinds of shit and poor george was so traumatized because he was what he went sat with keith but anyway it was so but now i have her name so my pi is texting well you got to keep me updated on that and once you you know pursue it

and everything come back on the podcast, and we're definitely doing that. I mean. Hell hath no fury like a mama scorned, man. Let me tell you. No, this is Keith right here. This, he would hate it, but I hacked, hijacked his phone. Aww. And hacked into it. And that's the last picture he had up.

But he was six foot four and darling cute. Such a cute little blonde, green eyed, sweet child. Sounds like my type. Yeah. He would love him. he was so cute and he would he would have loved you he'd have been so excited because of your husband he would have loved that i love that his best friend's mom texted me oh my god keith would have loved jelly rolls music no yeah i love that because she's speaking of speaking of jelly roll yes you know my husband is obsessed with you and he has just been since last night just hammering me with please ask her these questions, please.

I need answers. And like he just really doesn't. He has answers, but he's just being kind. He doesn't know. He doesn't trust anybody. You know, you and Tyler Henry are like the only two that he trusts actually like, you know, please. and Tyler Henry are like the only two that he was actually like, you know, please. And then, so I made the mistake of, I just never want to, um, ever overstay my welcome with people's gifts, you know? And I just feel like it's, it's a gift and you know, like I don't ever want to

intrude. So with Tyler, I didn't really go in depth and I didn't intrude. And he was just, Jay was like, what do you mean? You had him for two hours and you didn't intrude. And he was just, Jay was like, what do you mean? You had him for two hours and you didn't ask him a fucking thing. And I'm like, well, not really. So we will do the complete opposite and I will try to ask you some questions. And, but you, so you pulled up our birth charts. Yes. Okay, cool. So you did our birth charts and I'm curious to hear about all this.'s go ahead okay well this is super interesting I'm gonna tell you something super interesting about your man first okay I'll go back to you're the host I should talk about you no I'm fine no talk about daddy since we just talked to daddy and he said don't forget me we're not forgetting you daddy can I call him daddy yes everybody calls him daddy roll okay yeah so the first thing I noticed

with him in this life and I'm going to say it straight out, no matter what he did, whether he's a singer, construction worker, I don't care what he did in this life. He was never going to be handed anything. His life is about building it for himself from his own constitution. So he wasn't going to, even if he was born into a Hilton family, he was never going to inherit that money because for some reason the karma in this life is you must do for yourself. It's about getting to know yourself in this life.

His chart is totally set up for music. But here's the issue. Everybody got an issue in astrology. Okay. Because he's a Sag rising. Okay. So that's fantastic. It's cute, but he has Neptune on the ascendant, which is musical sun and Uranus in the 12th house. He

actually channels the music he writes. So it comes to him in clairaudient form. So he understands what I'm saying because he hears the wording and puts it to paper, AKA automatic writing. Okay. That's what we call some people write like this when they're giving readings because it's automatic writing. So he could technically do that. He guides it towards music. Now, because Neptune, which is your Venus's ruling planet, okay, because Venus is in Pisces,

because Neptune is up there on his ascendant, he has no clear vision of himself. So I'm going to just word it this way. I know he's extremely sensitive. So let me word it this way. Anything about him in a physical sense, he does not see himself in that way. Whoever and however he shows up, I don't care if he shows up like looking whatever versus how he looks now, whatever people think. This does not matter to him because it changes for him when he sees himself. Obviously, he can look at himself. He knows who he is because he's, you know, gone by

a mirror like we all do. But I'm talking spiritually speaking, he does not see himself. So he is a chameleon in the way he moves. Now he seems, when I look at him, I could pretty much say, yeah, he moves. Now he seems, when I look at him, I could pretty much say, yeah, I recognize the look. Okay. I can see what he'd wear. I get all of that. However, on a spiritual level, that's not. He switches internally. Therefore, that's why his physical isn't important to him. It has to be pointed out to him. Now that's interesting because your chart is all about learning how to take care of self in this life in a physical way. So he would almost call you in to help him do that because it doesn't mean anything to him. And not because of anything he is or isn't. He could be the version of the perfect version of health right now, according to the public, because I know what the public says about everybody.

Yeah. They're a bunch of bitches. Yeah. Just shut the hell up. You know, it's always like, oh, you have blonde hair. Really? I never knew that about myself. Yeah. You know, you're. Thanks, Captain Obvious. Yeah. No, that's what I say all the time. Whatever. But he doesn't see himself. So when you look at a chart and you see that Neptune there, you understand, oh, this makes sense. This makes perfect sense. If he were too focused on self, he wouldn't be able to accomplish his goal. So he's come from a direct past life where the focus has been on just self, like whatever that means. I don't quite know what that means, but self. So he wasn't able to do the other things he wanted to do. And this is like a cycle of three for him in this lifetime. So he's accomplished it. And I'm going to tell you something else. I'm going to go out on a limb

and do one of my predictions. Okay. So within the next eight years, he's in another career. So the music thing is not where he's staying. Please don't say politics because that's what it's leading towards. Okay. Well, it's eight years from now and the music is not what he's doing. It's so clear. He's, he's complete. Okay. When we come in, you know how they say we have a purpose in a life and we have a goal. Okay. Mine was about my children.

Yours is to come through childhood and teach others through your candor and humor and truth and all of that. And you're doing it. His was to sing publicly, but he's finishing that from the most recent past life, which ended suddenly. Now this is even stranger. It ended because, okay, his wiring internally. So electrical system heart is very sensitive.

So that's what happened in the past life. He carries it into this life. That's the only reason you need to watch what he does. Cause like, let's say he did a drug like speed. I'm just making that up. I'm saying,'m saying oh what if don't go trolling us but if he was to do something that quickened the body this would be problematic for him because he's wired that way from the past life okay so there was an issue he carries that with him so the music had to come to clear that it's weird but i saw that when i was looking at his chart okay and so he has another

career it's about eight years from now. So this is 2024. Jump ahead eight years. And I think actually within five, he'll stop it. This music. Because as much as he's brilliant at the music, it's not actually what he wants. I don't know if he tells people. Tell the philanthropist at heart.

Okay. Yeah. It's not actually what he wants. So when it's not, I'm not saying it's bad. We're not saying that. We're not saying that, Daddy. But it's not what he wants. So he's not i'm not saying it's bad we're not saying that we're not saying that daddy but it's not what he wants so he's focused in a different direction that's what his soul has to do very powerful chart led by spirit the rulership of the neptune in the first house is placed in the 12th of past life so the first half of this life is completing that life you see yeah

some people have just one life some people have three in one life like there's three distinct karmic breaks you can see it in hand reading with people too i'm not good at that but palm reading yeah you can see where their life stops and starts and then it's a whole like they go left totally different he has that in this life so he will never you think you're rebellious he will never be confined by what oh yeah i say that about that's why not to cut you off yeah everybody says oh bunny's his handler i'm like do you think i can ever handle this man no no no fucking way oh do you get the handler conversation yeah okay shut the fuck up yeah i'm his handler i'm like you guys must not know my no no i can see it in the

chart i can see a chart charts never lie so when i look at a chart and then I pick it up psychically, I'm like, shut up. You're not telling that man shit. Yeah. No, no. Daddy wears the pants. I control the zipper. Yeah. That's it.

That's why they're calling you the handler. Yeah. You have hands and a zipper. Yeah, literally. But not the way they mean it. Right. Because they're so. Yeah.

But it's interesting because he will never, never, never. so yeah um but it's interesting because he will never never never he even if everybody says but you're a musician he will break that mold and say but i'm not i believe that one yeah that i mean he is but he won't stay stuck so he will already broke so many molds in within the music industry totally so i i 100 can but i mean he won't he'll probably sing for his loved ones and people but he will not be doing the tour thing because he's being guided in a different way it's completely spiritual completely from behind the scenes i have to remember this yeah okay that's exactly right yeah i gotta tell you something too okay so he's so cute he has a scorpio south node torus north node and the south nodes conjunct to saturn that's what i was picking up on the ending of the lifetime okay so meaning that life he didn't complete i'm not saying he died early i'm

just saying for whatever reason it wasn't finished and it there's a desire line so we came into this life the goal in life in a chart is to die without having a desire right like whatever like let's say you want to buy a yacht and you never did or something stupid like that never do that just fulfillment yeah it's correct and so his his goal in this life and it's very important because i'm sure he maybe feels bad about the way he was raised or whatever like what happened to him just the circumstances but he had to build himself because his north nodes and tourists never ever will a person with north node and taurus be handed like gobs of money and stuff unless they put into it themselves right that's the karma of that taurus earthbound monetary money build in one these are my tauruses right here yeah

and you two look like little tauruses wait what's your birthday oh May 18th you're early you're late well you're middle smack dab oh it's so interesting you two would be different huh yeah they're complete opposites yeah totally different you kind of have water in you somewhere she's a she's a whole Aries this woman right here is all Aries Aries yeah I did her chart and she's got like seven what's in water I'm not sure I'd have to look again it's been a while i see water sorry i see might be a water moon or something i'm not sure i'd have to see this one's quirky over here she's our gym she's pretty much a gemini yeah the quirky one yeah she's pretty much a whole gemini right here i compare her to our 16 year old daughter oh there you are you quirky girl yeah so it's interesting when you're looking at mimi's

chart and you say she's all aries that's called a stellium four more planets in the same sign yeah so so jay has a capricorn stuff i know i tell everybody that do i not say that i'm like i said my husband's a sag but he's really really capricorn which how forgive me for not being able to add, what is his age right now? Uh, 39. Okay. Then I'm going to tell you exact timing. So. 39, 40, 42. 42 and a half through 45 is when he's out of music and into the next career. Not that he can't do music.

I'm saying this is a choice. No one's saying, don't sing. You're not saying anything that my husband hasn't already said. He always says, I don't want to be 45 years old doing music. There you go. Yeah. Says it all the time. And he he's not going to i'm here to prove that but i'm like i'm like lord please don't let it be politics because he's really getting involved in like you know a lot of stuff and i'm like i am not meant to be a first lady okay yeah you are at least you'll be able to dress cute right geez um some of them dress cute but you're be cuter yeah of course i don't know if you can wear a crop top to the u.n. if anybody's gonna change yeah i'm a trailblazer yeah i would i'd

wear workout pants but you know yeah dress it up with heels like it's an outfit i love that that's my thing that's an outfit um yeah see it's jay has this this is interesting it could be politics but i'll tell you something it might be in a different way than we're thinking about it so it might be abdicacy something like politics but in a different way right if that makes his own version yeah no it it. Yeah, no, it could, because he's got Pluto in the 10th in Scorpio. He's got Saturn in Scorpio. And he's got the stellium in Capricorn. Capricorn always supersedes after, like, 40s, 50s, and 60s.

They never are not successful later in life, unless they choose to, like, take off and not do it, right? Unless they're, like, stubborn capricorns and like fuck you i'm not doing it i have capricorn in my chart yeah you do um and so now the other weirdo thing about him is i i just i have to say this forgive me but i don't know about his love life prior to you or anything and i don't even care but he was like a ladies man huh he's always been a lady yeah that's what i try to tell everybody no no he listens to me women will stalk him find him yeah it's his and see people people it's his energy yes because he has mars in aquarius yeah that's friendly now listen when when you're a friendly man and you're not molesting somebody

yeah he's not creepy yes you're friendly women take that as're not molesting somebody. Yeah. He's not creepy. Yes. You're friendly. Women take that as flirting. Yeah. So they're like, Oh, he likes me. Yeah. And then he has to chase them away.

Cause he's like, cause of course with the sad rising, he's like, I just want to be their friends, but she like wants to marry me. So for you to marry him is super good because he ran a lot. Yeah. Well, he running and didn't give me an option.

He was like, I want to get married. And I was like, I do not. And he was like, you're going to marry me. And he was the first to say I love you to me. And I wouldn't say it back to him. And he got mad at me. He was like, what do you mean you don't love me? And I'm like, bro, we just started banging.

It's been two weeks. What are you talking about? Yeah, exactly. I'm going to pull up yours now, I can't keep it all in my head right now. I can sometimes, but not if I'm not studying a day in and day out. Okay. Let me just find you. Look, look who needs glasses here in a squinting and not admit it. I got my bifocals right here. Yeah. So do you? Yeah. I cannot see without them you're too young for that no I'm 44 that's super young super young um I'd love to be that again okay so yeah you look 44 so I love that no you really love that about you saying that about me what do I have to pay you nothing I was telling them that that when you weren't even here oh my god yeah I'm glad that you see

it in person and think it's okay you look even better in person I do telling them that when you weren't even here. Oh my God. Yeah. I'm glad that you see it in person and think it's okay. No, you look even better in person. I do? Yeah. Well, that's because I actually... Softer and like... Okay. That's good because I put effort into the makeup. You look gorgeous.

When I go on my own, it's like I've draggled in. Okay. So your, his Capricorn... Now, it's interesting because he had a vision when he saw you, meaning he saw... Okay. Like he knew there was a knowingness. We call that spiritual knowingness, clear cognizance, clear knowing. Okay, so he knew when he saw you. That's just it because you're, when we look at, see, look at you. This is crazy. Okay, so you're really Aquarius out, but you're Capricorn rising.

Now that is what gets you. Okay. So you're low cap rising. That part is what sits on his planet. So you do motivate him. So technically you could say that you motivate him, but it's because you can land in his thread of information. And I will say for you in the next couple of months is going to be a little bit difficult. I know you mentioned the new studio and you're doing another show, but you're going up energetically, like your chart is lit. So how do I want to word this for you? Letting go of things that no longer serve you, whatever that means. It could be a pair of like fuzzy boots that you wear because you love them or whatever, right? Letting go of things that no longer suit you and then kind of mourning the loss of who you were,

because you weren't quite ready to let go of her, but now you're over here. And so you're her, not her, but they're both you. So it's, it's this two timeframes sitting like that, very powerful aspects, a lot of money, you have millionaires, which is neither here nor there, but you have a lot of aspects and fascinating because your nodes are at 29 degrees. This lifetime, you had to learn how to present yourself in public because you were squashed in the last lifetime. I don't know who squashed you.

The mother wound is, you carry mother wound with you over several lifetimes. Okay. Several from what I could see. The mother wound is not over several lifetimes okay several from what i could see the mother wound is not what you think though it's more an issue of not abandoning your own femininity it's not like the mothers did to you but whoever were your mothers and this life that life and maybe like two back abandoned themselves as women and you chose not to yeah that's your mom definitely did she was a beautiful woman and just fucking let her whole life go to shit yeah see i hate that you

you watch that though more than one life that's why you could not in this life okay why you could not and it's so so funny because your mom's like doing this with her hands oh tell her to knock it off and get the hell out of here, Vanessa. She's doing, no, I don't even know her name, but she's doing this. And I'm going to say to you, it's funny because, okay, I don't know what area it is that you live in now, but there is a whole bunch of family stuff that you're going to dive into. Family genetics, the way the family worked, and part of where you're connected through history in your family. She's saying that. It was hidden from her. Your mother did not know her whole

background. Your mother was not privy to where she came from. And your mother, this is what they're telling me. It's no excuse for your mother's behavior. They like to come through and try to make amendments over here. But the way that I'm feeling it and i see her to the end of her life she suffered i see her kind of sitting like this and wringing her hands so she that the your anxiety is genetic all of that but she was hidden from her own life so she didn't understand that she couldn't feel who she was because it was hidden from her was there something like weird when she was born about i don't know if you've ever spoken about this. I've not heard you say it, but was she not told her history because she's, it's not what it is. So you can go back in your family, but it's not what it is.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know a lot on my dad's side. My dad, um, I don't know like a lot of that family, but my mom told me that I was born into just a bunch of Kentucky white trash witches there was like seven of them and they were just like all had gifts they all were like spiritual yeah she you got from her but no there's something hidden about it there's a tie to your family and it's I forgive me for saying this it's connected to war back in the time so when you say warrior but it's connected to like american war and i almost want to say in the appalachians i have no idea where that is really because i'm canadian huh where is that okay appalachians yeah but your family was connected to that so there's

there's hierarchy in the family unit and then your mother's side cast out over here i'm getting that and it makes her nervous that you're gonna find this out because it's gonna kind of sorry for laughing it's gonna kind of undermine who you thought you were not the witch part that's probably why you were pushed over here but um it's not what you think she was hidden your mom was hidden so they didn't tell her the full truth yeah even if they told her truth it was bits and pieces and not fully true. Can I stop finding out shit about my weird ass fucking family? Yeah.

I'm so tired of it. Like, why do I got to be the fucking gatekeeper for all this shit? You know why? Because you're breaking the cycle and the cycle is not, um, not throwing yourself under the bus in order to be harmonious in any kind of relationship. Being true to who you are

as a female soul. You had to master that. That's actually what you're doing. And the stark childhood is difficult for you. Now look at that. There's your Neptune in Sag. So you see your husband exactly who he is. Yeah. 100%. Now your stellium in Virgo, three or more planets, you have Saturn, Mars, and Jupiter. That Mars in Virgo is super hard. Super hard. Because regardless of what Jay is, he shows up like that in your chart. Okay. So it doesn't matter the sign that you marry, the energy shows up there. And so he's your third marriage, you said? Okay. So first marriage in astrology is the seventh house. So that was a whiny cry baby

man who was codependent and needed you to take care of everything okay yeah so that was the first one all of them second marriage is in the ninth house in a chart of a woman like if you do liz taylor you're going around the whole chart a couple of times like seven marriages right yeah exactly so you have to jump is the ninth house you have Libra in the ninth with Pluto in Libra. Control. Control issues. Dominant, possibly violent, but stalking. Okay. So that's second husband number two. Okay. So control over your energy. So that's probably why you split away from him. Husband number three. Big daddy over here. Yeah. Yeah. Neptune in Sag in the 11th house friends first okay always friends even if let's say something happened and no one wanted to have sex ever again friends yeah and that's actually extremely important friends and Neptune musical friends musician so you married a musician

also higher minded friends the two of you will go towards where you where you need to go, whether you think you will or not. Yeah. So it doesn't matter. Like you could say, I'm going to change my life. And I'm going to open up a chicken farm and raise chickens. And you're and you'll still end up where you need to be because of that. And it's a spiritual connection because it's Neptune. So a lot of times you're taking your glasses off looking at him going, I didn't know that about him. Like he, he surprises you. Yeah. That's how I am with his tattoos. Yeah. I'm like, when did you get that? He's like, I've had this bitch. I'm like, you look like, did you get that? Yeah. I always see a new tattoo on him every time. Yeah. Where do you see us in like the future in

the next like five years, Jay and I okay the next you're not in music that's what i'm i know yeah don't the fans are coming for me now no like bitch shut up um i feel like when i'm looking and i go around in my head there's a connection to europe with the two of you so i'm not sure what that is but i go around the world and then i go out of the country so is that what is in mind for you um i'm not sure yet but i mean i get a connection to europe out of the country. So is that what is in mind for you? I'm not sure yet, but I mean, I get a connection to Europe out of the country. So I'm pretty sure you're going to do something there. I don't feel you're going to stay in one place or another. So I don't feel there's a settling energy. And I feel the karma of the work. I can't see if it's politics, but I do know it's

a different career for both of you. And I do know you're going at it together. I don't see a divorce if that's what any crazy people are asking. No, we're not. We've already made a decision that no matter what we go through, we're sticking it out in this lifetime. Like we are in game for each other. Yeah, I don't see. Nobody's going to put up with him the way I put up with him

and no one's going to put up with me the way he puts up with me. Like we just get each other. Yeah, it's interesting. In the next five years, I do feel though like your career is going to change yeah as well and not i'm not talking politics with you you are going through it'll be the next 26 years of your life actually which is a long fucking time yeah you're going you're headed in a different way and i'm going to go out on a limb and say this you will actually

do this work at one point in your life period end, end of conversation, don't come for me. But I'm literally hearing that right now. That's what you're supposed to be doing as a healer. You're doing it in this capacity, but you're going to figure out a way to do it differently. Like not in a podcast way is what I'm saying. And actually it could be a group way, but it's a one-on-one way and you will do it. It'll come to you. You have guides around you and you have a lot of people. You have like wild lifetimes with very indigenous people. So meaning you have that in your background as well. So there's like lineage all the way. You have a lot of people around you, like from many, many, obviously it's many

lifetimes because it wouldn't be in the most recent three that you've been that, but you have that and you've always been like a medicine woman. so I feel like your career is going to go in that direction there's also something to do with art because it comes across as very colorful to me so I'm assuming art but it might not be painting art it could be a different expression I'm not picking up on I don't get any issues with health I do feel I, though, that Jay has to look at himself and ground into himself. Okay. Like, actually look at himself. By look, I mean understand he's a human.

Yeah. And step into it, which I'm sure he knows he is. He has to take his pants off one leg at a time, like we all do. Health-wise, how do you see Jay? I feel, actually, like he's pretty robust and consistent with his health. Like I don't see with him when he passes, it's going to be sudden. It's not anytime soon that I can see, but I can see like out. So he won't be burdened.

He has purpose right now. Not to say anyone who passes young doesn't because they do, but his purpose is still here. So I don't even get that around him. The only thing I would say is his wiring is very sensitive so anything that he eats drinks smokes ingests smells like furniture polish whatever he has to be careful and i don't know if he's aware of that because he kind of pushes himself without paying attention which is typical of sagittarius's they will push themselves into the ground even if they're like oh my foot's broken it's okay I can walk there he's very aware of it he has um atrial fibrillation okay he's had

to have his heart shocked a few times okay yeah it's his electrical system and I I don't think I get the electric I can see that that's from the past life that shows in his chart he came in with that his dad had it everybody in his family has it too yeah it's like I don't feel he's gonna pass what I feel with him though um he has to be very careful because he has triggers like sensitive food drink literally chemicals like he's sensitive and I don't know that he's aware of that he is well he's starting to be he's always thought I was crazy because I'm so like get my blood work done and only eat a certain diet and all this other stuff and he's always thought I was crazy and finally this year he has literally hopped on the

same train as me even going to the same doctors and trying to one-up me and get an even better doctor Gary Brekka yeah and get a better blood test yeah does he do that John does that with me I'm like okay but whatever so yeah so this year he's really like taking it in. Do you see or can you feel any more children around us? Okay. Can I ask you who Catherine is? That is my grandmother. Okay.

Yeah. Because I hear the name real strong. That's my mom's mom. Okay. Yeah. The name real strong. You liked her though, right? I mean, you like your mom.

I love my mom. Yeah. I didn't like her. like her i loved her yeah you know what i'm saying i didn't really know her okay because i feel i feel like you i just heard the name real strong so she's here as well because i just heard it god if it's not my mom it's the fucking her too well i think probably i think probably the secrets you're gonna uncover uncover have to do with her. She was very secretive. Yeah. That's what I'm thinking. So I'm, if I'm outing your family, like outing that you're going to find that she's going to come through and try to block it. No, no, no, no. You can't get me.

Yeah. I feel it's interesting. I feel you're a lot like her. Okay. I don't know what I mean by that. I'm not, I don't think I mean looks. I think something in you is a lot like her. You have, when you ask about kids coming to the family, are you talking about a male child? I wish. Okay. Yeah. I feel a boy child. Part of your karma with

fully understanding yourself as a female would be the concept of creation. And what is the thing that human female women can do, but to create life, that is the biggest form of creation. I just feel like I've been healing so much trauma with my parents that I finally am ready to be a parent. Like I've helped raise Bailey since she was seven. And I think that also showed me that, I'm not going to fuck up a kid's life too badly. You know, that's, that's your trauma response. You would never hurt a child that, that, that wouldn't, you'd be quite the opposite. Yeah. You're not going to be perfect because when they hit teenage years, you're like, shut up. Yeah. You know, that's how I am with Bailey right now. I'm a kid, please. But I feel like I've mastered, not mastered, but I feel like

I can do this, you know, and you can do it. And I just want a little piece of Jay and I together. And then the next best thing after that is being a grandparent. Oh my gosh. Because I'll be at the age to be a grandparent when they start having kids. So that'll be perfect. John was 47 with Jason and 50 with Keith. No. And he had kids at 19 and 20, 47 and 50. And now he's with them with the grandkids it's about he loves them so it's the best thing yeah no it's the best thing you can't beat that okay so i do have a question that we can do on record yeah so i i have been pregnant three times in my life oh my god i oh i wish i'd have said that to you okay go ahead what were you yeah i wish i'd said that to you

because you do have a girl on the other side and you're not going to believe i said that follows me everywhere yeah you have a little girl on the other side you told me you were pregnant three times so no one's going to believe that but i i wish i'd have said it but you do and she's growing up with you on the other side now let me explain this so sometimes we have children here and they pass and they reincarnate and they go somewhere else or they go in a different dimension and we don't see them. Miscarriages can happen like that. Sometimes you can be pregnant and the baby comes to experience your physical and then for whatever reason, their choice or yours, and I'm not sure which it is because it's different for everybody, they go on the other side but they grow up with you over there so they stick very close to their parent or parents depending their entire

life so they are like a certain age they go through all of the things and celebrate everything with you that's one child i see like that female yeah i've always said i have a little girl that follows me i haven't seen her in a long long time but before like you know probably like 10 years ago she was always she made herself and it was three years before that that you miscarried um i had so when i was 16 when i was 16 i got pregnant the first time i had sex and um i ended that with an abortion because i was scared i didn't know what to do i was a runaway and then after that i had uh 17 18 19 three years three four years after i had um an ectopic pregnancy oh that you can't do yeah, four years after I had an ectopic pregnancy. Oh, that you can't do. Yeah. Cause you die from that. I had two ectopic pregnancies.

Oh, interesting. See, that is from the past life and the confirming that you accept your feminine self inside of you, your femininity. And so you're in this life as a woman, you see? So you experienced that from that life. So there's, there's two, you're also merging in this life. So you're becoming stronger woman and you're breaking family patterning and cycling and that's what you're doing wild yeah no that is what you're doing so the atopic pregnancy is just to let you know you can get pregnant and you're still a female believe it or not i know we have this war men against women that the government makes up anyway yeah souls come and go we switch colors that i do know because i've had past life visions and I'm a little boy in the South and I am a dark skin little boy and I'm

in my crib jumping up and down and there's shag carpet on the floor. Don't ask me when that was, but I see like a, like a thick carpet on the floor and it's weird. And I'm in like a nursery or something. So we do switch male to female back and forth. Oh, I've definitely carried some male traits for sure. I like, sometimes I tell everybody in this life, I'm like, I'm so glad I wasn't born a male. Cause I would have already gone to jail for murder. Ditto over here. Like I swear to God, I'm like, thank God. Yeah, I know it's hard, but we go in and out. We carry because we're spirit, which is neither nor we just are. And you come in, but in this life you wanted to ground into

female. So that's what you're doing. That also has a lot to do with the way that you choose to show up as a female in a physical sense. So you chose your look as a female. And that's just like I did, just like you two did. We choose our look and we choose to come into the world to express it in a certain way. Some women are making a statement in a different way. You know, like they're choosing to dress however it is they're dressing or not dressing. So you chose it. So it's to ground into that for you. So you're doing it. Like you're saying,

I am female this time. There's no confusing it with you. Yeah. Yeah. Oh no. I'm all confusing. I am all woman, baby. Yeah. So I wanted to ask you, I know everybody asks you about like the P Diddy's, the OJ Simpsons, the all that jazz and stuff like that. And I just. Bye O.J. I know. See you in hell. Yeah. Like, could care less about that, dude. But I want to know about like a couple other. Throw them at me. Okay. Princess Diana. Oh my gosh. Princess Diana. I feel such a connection with her. She was very publicly. What that is, is that's a very big aura that comes out because she was a public person. So she has to be able to connect with the public, one would hope. She was one of the first videos I did on my channel. She was very much, and I can't remember everything I said, but she's the one that

showed me that they trafficked children. She 100% knew about it. I don't feel she's reincarnated. I know some people think she has. I feel like she's in a dimension where she's actually doing work to help people understand that here now where I got confused with it because I liked Princess Diana but then I don't like what these people do because to be born into that family there's a certain ritual that goes on with those people I'm Canada I grew up around the Queen you know yeah we hear our nonsense over there um queen lizard okay i said it yeah i had to say she's something was off about her very off yeah but princess diana some charles i can't he's the evil i thank you yes all the indigenous kids in canada they flew over to kamloops and they just found the bodies this

year when i used to talk about it as a kid i was called crazy and called crazy before covid for saying it i said that queen took those kids and did whatever she did and they found those bodies from those schools they did find them in 2022 i think or 2021 whatever it was but you can look it up prince philip i've always gotten evil vibes from him just demonic they are demonic they sell out who okay just think about it we are free souls and we come into this life and we have these people that say they're royalty why what i'm sorry i just because i'm born here in captivity i actually believe that in captivity to them why do i have to listen to you they steal everyone's money they don't do anything i mean why do i care what they do who are they yeah you know I mean they

still the queen the queen of England still owns all the land in Canada we have like leases on our property allegedly according to paperwork like no one knows that but if you go research it yeah she made sure because we're still in the British I'm like no I hated I was kicked out of school for refusing to sing God Save the Queen oh eighth grade boom out yeah i hated her i used to say fuck her yeah nothing ever i've never seen her really just like i don't know you can just look at people and and tell if like their soul is like glittery yeah no no no she's not but it's indoctrination she did a lot of interesting things in her life as far as like the history and things that she did right but it's for a reason now princess die showed me specifically showed me maps and i did not know this i'm talking in 2018 i did the video

with her november she talked about the children being trafficked always brown skin babies and she's the one that said that that's why i said it i had no idea so she's somewhere helping i think actually helping expose it because i had no and you know how I got her I didn't care to channel her or not she wasn't on my list I was going through Chris Cornell and Chester Bennington that was on my list yeah but I was hiking with this guy and he was doing makeup for her best friend oh wow and so he was talking about her and it flipped into my head and then I went home and thought I'll do a video on her. You know, it was here nor there. It's just who I feel like doing.

And maybe I get it right. Maybe I don't. But she was very invested in that. And she actually, honestly, she was, okay, I'm going to say the word sacrifice, but she didn't. Oh God, please. But she was taken out. Yeah, absolutely.

She was absolutely murdered. And I remember, I remember going to pavilions in Burbank the day she died. I remember hearing it on the radio. I went, what? It just didn't sit right. And I mean, it was a lie. And they set the driver up too. They set everybody up like it was a payoff.

The other thing that I got from her, which I don't think I've read anywhere, but it was on the video I did, is that Dodi El-Fayed's father, so Mohammed El-Fayed, the Harrods owner, who she was engaged with at the time, he was actually there. I didn't know this, but when I channeled her, he was actually there when she was tested. What kind of people look up your hoo-ha to test if you're, get out of here. But you know, oh, they're just British, I heard. yeah that's abuse yeah hello but his father was there so somehow some way there was a deal made with them back then and I think they crossed him out of it and that's why he obviously his son died I understand that pain but he was so flipped out

because I don't think he thought it was going to happen because he had their word is what I got from that video right so they double crossed him too and I don't think I ever heard him say he was there but I saw him when I was doing that saw the queen mother I saw Diana's father I saw the queen and I saw uh Dodie's father like in just when I was like focusing on it do you think Charles is gonna cross over soon I can't believe he hasn't I mean I can't believe that that's him in that body I can't believe he hasn't. I mean, I can't believe that that's him in that body. I can't believe that Kate is missing. Yeah, she's missing. Like, I don't care what they say. She's not there. I feel even though she just did a video. She just dropped a video talking about how she has cancer. I'm also six foot five yeah can't you tell yeah you know I'm huge uh no I don't I know I I actually problem is when you play with gangsters they take you out like gangsters so I'm just gonna word it so they're spiritual gangsters in a way and not in a good way they are it's the same as ms-13 they're just like that but they put on a different hat and call themselves monarchy right i think they took her out i can't prove it i sound crazy but that's what i think and i don't think i i said

first when charles got in he wasn't going to make it like i mean is that even him or are they putting a corpse up there yeah i mean he the dude looks like he has fucking got two legs in the coffin already yeah he does his hands freak me out yeah his eyes yes if you just look at his eyes they're weird it's very weird and he i'm not gonna say it shut up say it it's fucking white camilla the side bitch yeah i know apparently they had a kid and i kind of feel like that's true i feel like she had a child like they say she had a child and i feel like she did and gave it up for adoption maybe some guy in Australia says he is now he could be crazy yeah could be cray cray yeah but I kind of feel like that might be his attachment to her because when you had some weird attachment yeah when you have a baby though with

somebody and let's say you have to give it up how do you not think about that yeah you know but I don't like her shenanigans and games so I've never liked her I think any woman that can um do what she did to a family and then marry into the family and expect everybody to call her the queen is just is insane yeah um all right so moving on from them yeah Marilyn Monroe oh god I do have a Marilyn Monroe okay you I do yeah years ago I wrote something when I was doing you know blogs on yeah I used to have a blog. Okay.

Yeah. That's how I started out. Okay. There you go. Confessions of a white trash wife. Oh, nice. Yeah. You're not white trash, but nice.

I mean, I came from it. Yeah. So they say, but is anybody trash? Not really. We're all gods, I feel. You know, even those that are acting nonsense. Anyway, I was thinking about Marilyn Monroe. Who doesn't love Marilyn? I fucking love marilyn yeah and yes they murdered her i've been saying that

since i was 10 i don't care they did yeah and it's obvious no one swallows 50 pills without water right if you've ever tried to swallow aspirin not 50 of them i can't i'll choke no they hot shotted her obviously in my opinion okay so i was channeling and i wrote this thing and people thought i was talking about myself i wasn wasn't. I said, I felt like Marilyn was born again, in Canada. Okay, like for real. And I felt like she was in entertainment. And I said something like I felt like she was a musician and she had two kids. Or I said entertainment, possibly music, something. I can't remember exactly what I said. this woman reaches out to me I said she's incarnated back down it's hard because psychics can feel them on the other side and here because we are both here and there so like when someone dies here we don't physically

see them but they are here and there so part of them is here we only bring a part down with us and we reside over there so they say anyway that's how I feel about it but this woman calls me and she's like I'm Marilyn and I'm like oh god the crazies are out anyway her name was uh is Sherry Lee Laird she was born in Scotland and actually interviewed for being Marilyn Monroe she had the dreams the memories the visions she's a musician from Toronto she's slightly younger than me like born in 67 I think and has two kids. And she, I mean, they say it's her. And when you look at the research, it looks like it's her. But I felt Marilyn had reincarnated back almost immediately. Yeah. She was like, I'm coming back. Yeah. I felt like that. Well, they took her out. That's a problem with murder. You get murdered and they

want to come back because they have to complete. So they either have to wait however many life cycles you may, you know, I may die, you may die. We might not choose to come back in with whoever we're with now. We might go somewhere else. We always say we will. But when we get over there, we make stupid decisions like being kidnapped over here. But right. Like who chooses certain things? Yeah. And I think our lives are very faded as opposed to free will. We have free will and how we respond. But nothing about what happens to us to free will. We have free will in how we respond, but nothing about what happens to us is free will. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Because if somebody starts a war over there and your family lives over there that they weren't supposed to start because of

their free will, now I'm in the midst of their free will. So now I'm on a different path, you see? So I don't quite understand it and I don't pretend to understand it and I don't have all the answers but with Marilyn I think she incarnated back and I really do believe that woman is her like when I look at her I get the distinct feeling that it is her yeah so you should look her up I will I will definitely it's an interesting thing I mean we all want to run around and look like different versions of Marilyn don't we yeah absolutely I mean yeah because she's the cutest. Um, well Sloan, is there anything you want to promote while you're here?

And Oh my God, just the fact that I got dressed and showered. Yeah. What do you do? Do you have any projects this year? I do. I, I, well, they're projects. I have to get a team. My young friend says I need a team. You have to, you got to get people who believe in you. Yeah. I have to have a team because it's so hard to even answer all the emails, but I'm back to my client. I still read clients day in and day out. One thing I would like to say on your podcast, because more people will listen. My calendar is not booked out for a year. I only book two weeks at a time because I don't want to be obligated to the reading if I change my mind because I'm ADD. Right. As I'm staring at the mic cross-eyed, but I'm ADD. So people always go, oh, your book for a year. No, I'm not. I would never do that.

That's ridiculous. Yeah. I mean, I know people do it. They say they're sold. I refuse to let my calendar get like that. Yeah, that would be. I couldn't. Can you imagine? No, I don't even like I have to plan a week in advance. That's it. Because I tell my team. Yeah, I tell my team. I'm like, talk to me. Let's get through this and talk to me about the next week after we get through this. Yeah. Because I can't do it. And if I have to set up readings and then you cancel and I have to send your money back back then six months. What? Yeah. But the projects, I hope to start this year. I am fit. I did finish my astrology book, beginner astrology. So I'll be doing the courses with that. And I have to film those videos when I get back. That's what I'm doing to correspond with the book.

It's like a astrology for dummies, for lack of a better word. But I love that people need it. Do you know how many people ask me all the time to how to read a birth chart and I'm like, I'm not your girl. Yeah. Sloan's your girl. Not your girl. Well, this book tells you step by step.

Like, what is your sun, moon and rising? Because a lot of people don't even know how to find that. I get that all the time. And it's your birth time. And no, you can't just make up a time to make it. I'm like, stop that. I don't know my time, but get out of here. No. So you can do sun on the ascendant and you can rectify a chart, but that's a lot of skill. So you have to really want to, and you have to do it by the deaths of people and injuries and illness and moves and things like that and then figure out what was happening so you work backwards and there's only very few practitioners that can do that honestly you know like that but anyway that's coming out and I want to start this is just my goal in the next year is to start my grief project

which is connecting with all of the people whose children have passed but I want to do it from the perspective of the children okay the siblings that are left behind and the backstories of the people whose children have passed, but I want to do it from the perspective of the children. Okay. The siblings that are left behind and the backstories of the people and how you handle the grief. Because I know I handled it so much differently, even than John. I'm, I was very, I was very public with Keith. It was the most public thing I've ever done. I couldn't shut up. It was weird. Other people get drunk and high. Other people shut right down and never come out of their house. You know, so everybody handles it different. And I also really want to tell people what to say to people because they say dumb shit. Like, and I'll just say this now. God doesn't give you anything you can't handle. Well,

bitch, I can't handle this. So, you know, like don't say that to somebody. Yeah, that's grieving or just lost their child. Yeah, you can't handle it. Who can handle it? It's like somebody having a panic attack and telling them to calm down. Oh, yeah, you can't. You can't calm down. Like, what do you mean? I'd love to. I'd love to. Teach me how. Yeah, I can't. I think I'm going to die and you poison me. And I'm in my underwear going to the hospital, running for mad dash. But that's one of the projects. So I just call it my grief project. And I've met so many people that are interested. And just doing my work. I mean, you know, just doing my, I still read people day in and day out, like usual. It's just like a hairdresser. I

get up and go to work and just cut hair in a different way. Where can people book with you? Like a hairdresser, I get up and go to work and just cut hair in a different way. Where can people book with you? When my calendar's open, they can. They book on my website, SloanBella.com, which we are redoing right now because it keeps crashing because the fraudsters are out. You know how they try to fraud in on your. Well, maybe not. I haven't had that done yet.

OK, yeah, they try to buy like $20,000 worth of something and then they jam it with little fake credit cards. And then, yeah then they jam it with little fake credit cards. And then it, yeah, they do it all the time. They do it to my side all the time. Yeah. So they, all the, all the companies that take the money have checks and balances. So it ends up shutting your website down, but they still do it.

Like they'll try it 160 times in a row. That's crazy. Who does that? Like who's got that kind of time? Yeah. That's wild. It's bots. I think it's bots they say, but yeah, that's what doing that's the project i'm doing yes sloan i am so happy

that we got i am so happy that was like what a two and a half hour podcast oh my god oh my god how great i'd have to do part one and two yeah oh my goodness yeah i'm so happy to meet you it was the best booking ever dude I could sit here and talk to you for hours and I told my husband last night I said this woman is going to be a lifelong friend oh good I'm glad yeah I'm so glad I'm so glad because I was so excited um my PR girl she was like here's a list of what what do you want to do well actually she tracked me down and bugged me I didn't bug bug her. She was bugging me. You heard that right, Mary. She was bugging. Yeah. Mary bug with her 10, 10 text messages a day. Yeah. And voice messages.

She was bugging me and I'm like, I don't want to do anything. I want to go hiking. And that's it. And then I looked at the list and then yours was there. I'm like, okay, if you can get me on Bunny, I'll do it. That's how she won me over. Because I'm like, I don't care. Then she called me and she's like, crazy. I just got you on Bunny. I'm like, shut the door. I was like, she was like, would you have Slum and Bella on the podcast? I said, I would absolutely fucking love to have Slum and Bella.

Oh, it was so great. I was like, I'm a huge fan. I was so excited. I was like, I'm so excited. And so now Mary's part of my team she worked her way in but yeah it was so great yeah she sent out of everybody she's like this one this one oh I appreciate you so much you remind me of just things that I experienced and you use your your experience good, which I freaking love.

And you're not ashamed of what you did. I have fought that. People are like, lower your voice. You have kids. I'm like, my kids know who the hell I am. How do you think they don't know who I am? Everybody knows who I am. And so I was just so excited.

I'm so happy. Thank you so much, Sloane. Why don't you shout out your IG and your TikTok and everything? Oh, yeah. It's all under at Sloane Bella. Any other version of my name is not me. Numbers in front of it, underscore. You know, I don't ask for money, just so we're very clear.

Do not do that. You do not have a curse on you. No one can take it off with money if you do. Oh, my goodness. It's a lifelong thing and you have to do it through your actions. Aw. You know? It's karmic. Yes, it's a lifelong thing and you have to do it through your actions you know karmic yes it's karmic if it's a curse it's family patterning through generational behaviors you have to choose to change the behavior wow no one's throwing do you think

that orange man bad would be alive if curses worked no right or bush or even obama any of them anybody whoever pick one they would not be alive yeah do you know how many people are out spellcasting against those people all day long yeah hundreds of thousands i'm sure there's an underground community out there doing it absolutely so they're not really that effective you can do it but it's manipulation of energy so it always goes back to you ten tenfold oh my god that's why i always say return to sender. That's what I do. I give it to God. I actually have, because my temper is so bad sometimes because I'm a little bit masculine too. I'm the same way. I resort to anger. That's my first. Yeah. I go right to anger. Before love, anything? No, anger. I punched you out. My reaction is fierce like that. Like,

just like, ah, but I give it to God. I'm saying, please, I can't handle this. So please take it back wherever it came from I love that yeah that's what I do well you're gonna have to come back and visit me I'm gonna come back and visit you it's gonna be so fun yeah thank you so much thank you for having me and thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of dumb blonde I will see you guys next week bye