Dumb Blonde - Stomping on Butterflies

Episode Date: April 24, 2024

Bunnie has some things to get off her chest this week! She lets loose and bares her soul about everything that's been on her mind lately. She and the gals - Meme and Hailee - dish on their love for the Patreon tribe and gear up for the next season of Bunnie XO. Bunnie also recounts her favorite run-ins on the red carpets of the CMT and iHeartMusic Awards. She talks about confronting weird online trolls head on and spills the tea on her family issues, from emergency plane landings to her father Bill.Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comMeme: IGHailee: IGSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit. And I was like, I want to be super hot, make a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's wife. That was my goal as a child. And here we are. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers welcome to another episode of dumb blonde today we're doing things a little bit different i have a lot of shit i want to talk about and i was like you know what i fucking need an episode where i just talk about shit i don't ever do that no better time to talk shit than with your best friend. I'll probably get canceled 10 times, but I don't give a fuck. I'm about to speak my mind today. I told Mimi, I was like, I'm not allowed to have time off because every time I have time off, it gives me

too much time to get into the shit. Yeah. Cause I don't get, listen, I will pull up motherfuckers. I'll pull up virtually. I'll pull up fucking in person. My husband has to stop me sometimes. i'll pull up virtually i'll pull up fucking in person my husband has to stop me sometimes yeah no he's like bunny you're fucking 85 what are you doing you're not gonna go pull up on somebody and beat them and their mom up and i'm like yeah i am imagine the g-wagon literally so anyways hi guys how are you good how are you i'm good i good. We have Haley's on the mic, but I wish you guys could see her right now because this is so fucking hilarious. Can we get a dumb blonde cam going? She is behind the scenes right now.

I look like Thomas the Train. She's behind the scenes. Doesn't want to be on camera because she doesn't have makeup on. Well, you just asked me five minutes ago. I mean, i figured you would have just joined in on this fucking convo but i like her off camera better it's fucking hilarious wow no i used to do that with mimi with propaganda and it's actually i love the mystery voice that just comes from behind the scenes i'll do it every time is she your new producer are you the new producer that gets gonna get paid 50 grand a year yeah she's like fuck doing makeup yeah no i'm not paying a fucking producer 50 grand a year that's

crazy to me that's like a month yeah it's crazy oh yeah 50 grand a month sorry not a year yeah no i was like that's cheap let's find one of those yeah i started pricing that i said yes to that yeah no some of these people like this one girl like i'm not gonna name drop her or anything but like i sent her the workload like what it entails she was like that's just a lot excuse me what can i just tell you guys the reason why we have kept such a tight circle is because anytime we try to let somebody else come in on the team these motherfuckers don't want to work or they keep tabs i had okay that was okay i had a photographer one time that literally when she would shoot me she would start a stopwatch yes and when she left she would stop it and count that do you remember also when that other videographer would count the the time

she waited for you to text her back as work. Yes. Even if she was at the nail salon, if she was waiting for like two hours for a reply, she would count that as work. Yes. And then that same videographer wanted me to give her Best Buy hours because she was working at Best Buy and she did not want to work. Like when you're a creative, you don't really have like a nine to five monday through friday but you do

get two days off you know but and you also have freedom to like pick she wanted her schedule to be fucking nine to five i don't even wake up till two like what are you talking about honey anyone the whole point of like the creatives is it happens anytime yeah yeah you're not clocking in and clocking out of a job like this yeah so it's been needless to say it has been wild building the dumb blonde team and i don't like bringing anybody in because it just fucking scares me because people really don't give a fuck it doesn't matter how much you pay them and i pay everybody very well yes and then they get mad at me when i fire them and they go and talk shit online but it's like i have a fucking business to run dude people don't understand that it's business yeah it's honey i love you and i love you

but if and i love jason but if we bring anybody else in you're literally dealing with mimi yeah that's and that's how my husband runs his business too exactly they don't have access to jay every two seconds it's crazy so like there has to be the divide between the two yeah well and there can't be emotions in business exactly you know and you and i have had to have conversations sometimes where we're like okay hey look we're gonna have this conversation but we're gonna leave our emotions at the door friendship stops business starts and we'll turn it back on when we're done absolutely and a lot of people don't understand how to do that hayley's learning how to do that now i feel like the dark days is what is what uh got ours yeah got us through it yeah i feel like everyone has to have any of that yeah but like

we've had those plenty of times you know and it's just it's how you come out on the other side of it is how and how it's handled during it is what matters. Mimi and I have a, I don't want to call it a come to Jesus, but we have a sit down every six months to just check in for sure once a year. But every six months we have to kind of come back to the table because the business is growing so much that we have to be like, okay, what can we do here? Like we have to, you know, make sure that we have that open line of communication. And a lot of people when you're running a business, don't want to communicate. And it's really hard.

People don't know how to have uncomfortable conversations. No, exactly. Without it being confrontational. Exactly. Like you have to learn how to talk to people without wanting to fight them. And that's been the bit that me becoming a businesswoman has taught me so much because I am from the streets, bitch. I'm ready to fucking, let's fucking throw down with the hoe down. And when you become not like,

you know, not trying to throw this out there when you become worth so much. Yeah. You can't do that. No, because that person is literally waiting for that moment. They're like, here's my payday.

Absolutely. And also I would like to credit H because I am so much calmer than i was fucking 20 years ago yeah i was a piece of shit human 20 years ago i tell everybody that i'm like bro i was not a good human my husband is very vocal about how he wasn't a good human like you know fucking as you get older you grow yeah that's why like when i see these bitches that are fucking from my past in comments that i've grown up with like or even women that i've literally maybe hung out with once in my fucking 20s when i was snorting eight balls and shoving cocaine up my ass and fucking popping pills and like being a wild fucking hyena they're

like yeah she's her she's a fucking terrible human it's like bitch yeah i was i was 20 fucking years ago how what does that say about you? Fucking 25 years later, you're in somebody's fucking TikTok comments talking shit about me. Show me you haven't grown, bitch. So, yeah, we have a lot to talk about today. And bitches from my past is one of them. We'll get into that in a little bit. But I have a whole list.

You've got a list. I've been watching you add to it. Yeah, I was like, you know what? If I'm going to do an episode like this, I'm going to do it right. have a whole list a whole bunch of watching you add to it yeah i was like you know what i'm if i'm gonna do an episode like this i'm gonna do it right and i don't think a lot of people get to hear me just actually talk about our life and like be candid about it and i was like the podcast is the perfect place for that because i feel like i've built such a safe community with everybody and dude our patreon those bitches are fucking lit dude i love them like that is my tribe dude really know who like goes hard for you in there i mean they are my babies i will i want so i think

what i'm gonna do and i haven't i going to bring this up to you on the podcast. Mimi hates when I do this. I was in the chat talking to the girls the other night because I am always in my Patreon chats talking to the main attraction. And I talk to the ringleader ringleader tier two because I love those girlies, too. I was thinking on tour because I want to meet all the girls in the ringleader and the main attraction. And I know it's going to be impossible to get like one place to put everybody together. They were saying, do BunnyCon.

You know, like I thought that would be a cute idea way down the road. But I was thinking we're going to be on fucking tour. We're bound to hit a city near every one of these girls. We'll just put them on the list. The majority of them already have tickets and just bring them side stage and get to meet them at every show. I think that would be so awesome

because that's how much I love these bitches, man. They fucking ride for me, dude. They ride, bro. No, it's wild. Their TikToks crack me up. Oh, I love them. And they don't have to do what they do and they really fucking do it, man.

And I'm just like, I don't know how to accept that kind of love it's kind of hard for me i'm like the grinch over here it just makes my heart get bigger and bigger because it's just so sweet that these women are just and men there's men in there too dude we've got a sprinkled amount of men in there yeah they're all about it bro no they're great except for the one that keeps fucking sending the dick pics who is that guy why don't i ever captain hook you didn't see the dick pic no i'll show it to you it's in here i'd like to see captain hook it's a big old curvy one oh those are the ones that freak me out the curvy dicks

yeah what are you rubbing kidney like what's it rubbing which fucking intestine is it yanking on poking you in the ovary you can't be you can't have a dick that big and have it curved too like a little one that's cool it's like a little toy in there but a big one like that's that's raking out uterus as the old why are we doing this again okay all right that took a turn i listen you want to see this picture yes airdrop it to me right now. Oh, I have. I didn't fucking save it. It's in the, um, you know that there's like air. Well, you have to approve it. You have to approve it on Patreon for it to be. Cause he tries to send it in the chat.

Yeah. He was trying to show. We're going to nickname this guy, the cuddle. Because he just wants everybody to see his wiener. And I think he just wants to be cuddled. You know, is this like modern day, like flashing? You know, like. Haley said, aw.

What the hell? Yeah, modern day flashing. Yeah. A drive-by flashing. Poke your eyeball out. That's what this is. All right, hold on. I got to find it.

Moderation hub. It's in the moderation hub. Hold on. I got my bifocals on. Got to put my bifocals on gotta put my bifocals on i can't see hold on god your eyes are so pretty oh there we go ready i'm ready turn up the brightness golly and i'm the one who wears fucking bifocals wow I mean props to you I know I mean listen

I'm proud for him but this literally looks like a forearm it looks like a baby arm I'd like to see the face well his name is Hugh nevermind Hugh never mind yeah his name is Hugh all right so yeah guys please stop with the fucking dick pics man yeah um but I wanted that brings me to another subject I wanted to talk about

I have you guys a lot of you reaching out to me talking about the sound on the podcast. I have crawled in Mimi's ass numerous times. I have threatened to fire people. Yes. And I have a team that handles the audio. We listen to it on our phones also. Yes. Every day when it drops, I literally pull it up to make sure everything's okay. Sounds perfect on my end.

Yeah. So we're not trying to gaslight here, but the problem is you. I'm just kidding. We're thinking that it might be the type of phone that you have. Phones or where you're listening it through or something. Yeah, or like what streaming platform you're listening to it on. Because I've pulled up other podcasts too, and they really hype theirs up. Yeah.

I know there's one podcast my husband listens to, and he has to turn his volume like really down well that's what people say they have to do with us too and i'm like i don't listen on the radio you know there's a lot of static sometimes on the radio so maybe i don't know like we made sure like i literally came to everyone who has a hand in audio and i was like everyone has to be at this decimal i don't care who you are what you are where you're putting it because you know some ads that are like not us like spoken ads yeah they can send it at whatever fucking decimal and i was like nope like you know in commercials when you you guys ever been watching tv like a super bowl or something hulu has the loudest commercials and it's to get your attention and i get it it's a shtick but i'm, I don't want us to be like taking the heat for someone else who's just trying to like get the attention of customers.

Like that's not the fucking point. Like you're pissing me off. So everyone has like a minimum now that they're allowed to send their audio in at. So everyone has to be at a 10 decimal. Yeah. No one can go over. No one can go lower. The audio in these headphones right now sounds crisp.

Crisp. Crisp. Crisp. Crisp. Crisp. the audio in these headphones right now sounds crisp crisp crisp how'd that sound nice crisp just making sure you're awake so yeah um maybe i don't know find a different platform or try to like, I don't know. Like stream it on something or like if it's your phone, it could just be your speaker on your phone. Yeah. You could have some crusties in there. Yeah. Suck the dust balls out.

Clean the makeup out of your speaker. Exactly. I promise you, it's all the same and I can't do any more about it. Maybe it's like, please it's all the same and i can't do any more about it maybe it's like please stop getting me in trouble every time i get a fucking review or a fucking someone says something someone says something i'm like motherfuckers i'm like what is happening i will say though like one comment about it out of the millions of yeah for sure i was like okay but i still like i still would like the people to know we listen to you like no matter how many people come to me about things which as far as the sound goes i probably had maybe five to six people come

to me about it but it still like makes me go like hmm like what the fuck is going on because if you know i want to always make sure everybody has a pleasant experience with this podcast so the bunny xo show's coming back, baby. Are you guys excited? Woo! Woo! Woo! Woo! How'd that sound on you guys' speakers? How was that for the speakers, guys? That hurt.

Jason, we might have to turn that all the way down so we don't scare people. If you're listening to this with kids, I'm so sorry. They're awake now. Ruptured an eardrum. Yep. We're excited, though. Bunny XO Show is coming back. We're going to shoot it differently than Meet the D4s.

Meet the D4s is more vlog style. Bunny XO Show is more. So we are officially making this season two or three. I can remember two i think right or three it might be three it could be three because we did like the welcome back but we did do as many interviews i feel like i would like to love love love to make this a season two premiere because it's our same producer who did it the first time we love andy and i feel like we could officially make this a season two and we wipe the other one as the meet the d fords and everyone got to see our little growing pains between the two shows but there will be a separation yeah no i love it um i always have

fun with the bunny xo show because we get to control the narrative so you guys tell us in the comments of this um podcast what you guys would like on patreon what you guys would like to see um as far as like episodes for bunny xo show because i think we do what eight to ten we do eight and if you guys remember like the first season we went to like batting cages and i found out that i am have way too much ptsd for fucking batting cages rage rooms oh yeah no i'm sorry not batting cages rage rooms and uh what else did we do oh we did do batting cages yeah yeah it was fun no i actually loved the batting cages it was the rage rooms i didn't like the rage room yeah it was too violent the

shooting the guns yeah yeah what else did we do we shot andy when he was in the oh yeah yeah when he was a dinosaur. That was my favorite segment ever. Love it. You hit the car on the rock. Oh, you scraped the Mercedes. That I still haven't fixed. What else have you done to the Mercedes? Then what did you do to it?

I forgot. You jumped it. I know. I remember. I was on the phone with my abusive ex because he had, i can't even believe i'm gonna tell this story he feels like i or his perception of our relationship was that he never hurt me so they never do yeah this is we're talking about a guy who slammed my face and a fucking um into a gear shift gave me a black eye and immediately looked at me and said,

that's not for me. You know, so he threatened to go on a podcast and like talk shit about me and my husband, which is whatever. Do what you got to do, boo. I'm like, nobody even knows who you are. I've never said your name. He's like, everybody knows who I am. I'm important.

And I'm just like, yeah, okay, dude. So I was pissed off because i was just like how are you gonna fucking just keep minimizing the trauma you put me through like this is fucked up this isn't fair and i'm driving with mimi and hayley in the car and fucking somehow i missed an exit and ended up in the airport fucking pickup line drop off and i'm going like i'm pissed and i'm used to driving my my g wagon or the bronco and every time i get in this fucking bins it's like just so low to the ground and i'm going probably like 55 to 65 miles per hour thinking it's still the freeway probably 65 and we hit this fucking speed bump so hard that the car fucking flew and we all just sat there in silence.

Turn the radio down. We were airborne. Literally, we were airborne for a good, I don't even know. All four tires off. All four tires off. And we hit that fucking ground, dude. So fucking hard.

And I was just like, I am, I can't drive this car anymore, man. Like this car is just not. Your rights have been revoked. Yeah, literally.

I'm not a car girl. I can't do it. I don't know how I had the Camaro for so long. Yeah. Which I still have the Camaro. I cannot fucking get rid of it. Does somebody want it? Just keep coming back.

This is car. I have given it to two people and they won't take it like legit sign the title over to them and they just don't take the fucking car I'm like Jason wants that car now and I was like give it to him I couldn't have it give it to him I don't care we'll figure it out we'll figure out something dude like I'm fucking tired of it we're gonna sell the engine out of it right now i think is what we're doing just just part it out that's what you need to do yeah this is like last time i did drive it because remember when one of my cars broke down yeah you got up to 40 and the whole thing went listen that car has been around that car was with me before i got with jay yes it's literally like my abusive ex my dad had one

the new midlife crisis camaro oh we love fucking life tattoos midlife camaro yeah we love him we love hayley's dad so yeah that's what happened with that but dude we've had so much more shit happen since then like fuck it's been you guys it's only april yeah and i feel like we've lived a fucking lifetime yeah this year's been yeah just the past three and a half months this year's been insane actually we almost fucking died in a plane oh god twice i did not think it was gonna make headline news international news crazy dude so it was so funny i was on the canceled podcast with jay with tana and brooke and it was the sweetest thing because i'm annoyed like every and i love don't get me wrong i love the press thank you guys for

giving us the time of day and doing what you guys do but it like gets to a point where it's like i can't post anything without it becoming a headline and brooke was like goals and i was like no baby i wanted to tell her right then like no fucking way like it's not goals like it's really cool at first because you're like oh my god you know and then after a year of it you're just like damn it dude like what can i post without it becoming a fucking headline? Yeah. And, um, and I, now I'm learning more and more why people who are in the limelight don't fucking post and you don't know anything about their personal life because

it's really crazy how much the general public just, they're watching devours it. Yeah. It's wild. So I did not expect that to go fucking nationally viral even my husband was like I'm getting interviewed and I'm being asked about the airplane and I'm like I'm so sorry I'm so sorry now my new thing is with Jay and I he'll be like let me know what you did before I hear about it in the news because I beefed with some fucking ewok on fucking and I didn't even beef with her

dude we'll talk about the ewok in a minute But yeah so He was like let me know what you did before it fucking becomes Headline news and I'm telling you today I'm just gonna lay it all out there I'm not gonna fucking I'm not this is no holds bar Like I've been very Politically correct for a long time Mimi's face right now she's so stressed

Out but I got some shit to say And I'm just tired of some certain of certain things and i think it's okay for me to vent yeah it's your brother i rarely ever do this so yeah but anyways we almost died in this fucking airplane literally we're on this plane and i already had a bad feeling about it i just when jay told us we were leaving at seven o'clock the next night i I immediately told Mimi, get us other flights. Cause I don't, for some reason, just something gave me anxiety. And I was just like, Oh, I don't know. Like that just, I don't normally get anxiety like that about

flying, but I was just like, I don't know. It's too late. It was, what was the excuse I was using, but I just had like butterflies in my stomach. So Mimi found us flights and stuff like that. But then I was just like, when I woke up in the morning I was like I'm tired it's just I hate going through the airport process checking bags and the only flights out of there were LAX through one airline at a very specific time it was so difficult like yeah damned if you do damned if you don't right so I was just like fuck it we'll just fly with them and when we were driving there we pulled up and Haley was like oh look it's a rainbow it's beautiful and i was like yeah that's a good sign that something nothing's gonna be wrong with this airplane and i never say shit like that because i'm yeah because i

literally i never say shit like that because i am such a words are spells kind of person but i just felt it and sometimes when i have visions if i don't talk about it they happen so yeah so i always say them out loud right so sometimes i pick and choose and i'll say something out loud in hopes that it's just me being fucking a weird anxiety bitch we get on this plane and the feng shui of the plane is already off jay said at the minute he stepped on that plane yeah my husband walked in the plane and he was like wait what my seat is the seat that he normally always sits in was on the opposite side. And he just felt weird. And then the staff was not that great. They were not terrible snacks. Besides the snacks, they just weren't warm and welcoming. And before you're about to have

your life in two people's hands, you would like them to be fucking warm and welcoming. And before you're about to have your life in two people's hands, you would like them to be fucking warm and welcoming. And they just weren't. And I just put my headphones on and kind of like laid down in my seat. We take off. And when we take off, they keep like, if you've ever been on a jet, you can feel when they break and we're like elevating,

elevating. And then all of a sudden we just break. And then it's like, it was so weird because it got like eerily quiet and it was just like we were all taking pictures of the sunset too yeah everybody was taking pictures of the sunset and then i have my headphones on and i see boss and our um our security run up to the pilot and when he runs up to the pilot i can see him talking to him and then he comes back and he looks like he's seen a ghost almost like he looked really flustered and so i moved my headphone thing to the side to hear what he was saying i said what's going on

and all i hear boston say is something's wrong with the plane we have to emergency land jay just goes well tell him sooner than later i was like what and i'm just like bro like first of all tell us to put our seat belts on they didn't make any they didn't even they made no announcement they just fucking told our security who is the worst human being to fucking give any sort of news like that too and fucking let us just sit there oops sorry hold on oh let us just let us just sit there in fucking silence and stare at each other yeah so for like 20 minutes we're just in this fucking airplane not one person saying a word we're just all like looking out the window texting my family goodbye and that i love

them i literally was texting kayla and i was like oh my god they have to emergency land this plane people think that we're being dramatic but it was like really scary let me just tell you guys you're gonna be able to see all this go down on the bunny xo show yeah we videoed all of it yeah yeah andy was there he he got all of it um so um yeah come to find out the computer malfunctioned and when a computer malfunctions on a plane the screen that they have to be able to see everything around them other planes fucking ufos anything fucking is completely black so he was blindly driving the plane yeah he manually ended up landing this plane and like here's another thing when he landed us you guys i've never come to that heart of a stop in my life yeah because i was uh sitting in a backwards

seat yeah so my whole body was being pushed forward and i'm like holding on to the table in front of me because i'm like dude it's not stopping yeah it took so long for him there was sounds too when we were up there there was like this beeping sound that kept coming on too i kept hearing it but i was like it's fine yeah it was crazy and the only reason boston knew to go up there is because we were all taking pictures of the sunset and then all of a sudden the sunset was on the opposite side of us yeah and he was like the plane was circling yeah he was like dude we just turned around and so they had already turned around and we're heading back without telling us yeah i'm like you couldn't have fucking come over a speaker

and just been like yo guys yeah everyone buckle up yeah something like it just a warning you know yeah would have been great but i don't know it everything worked out and we ended up having to fucking, it was crazy because, um, I got offered to do the CMT, um, backstage correspondent gig a few weeks ago. So we knew that we were heading there to get there the night before so that we could be there on time. And then Jay also had rehearsal the same time that I had to be on set. So we ended up having to stay another fucking night in LA and that pushed us to being late to my first fucking gig which i was so

nervous about um but i was so thankful because it turned out to be awesome they were amazing the women that we worked with were so cool i love the women team that we had oh my god they're just so awesome and cmt has been so welcoming and out of all of the fucking networks cmt just absolutely loves our family it's a warm hug i love it they are just the sweetest fucking humans they're the most non-judgmental humans yes and they like gave us a chance dude and it's just like i still can't believe it like it's just mind-blowing and the whole experience was so cool getting to interview keith urban like come on dude right keith fucking urban he told me he liked my hair he's hot the video i never understood the appeal of keith urban i'm sorry i just cut you off go ahead go ahead it's all right let's talk about oh you guys let's talk about your hair go ahead no i said it already my conversation was

done sorry i've never understood the appeal of keith urban until i saw him on stage and i was like it's the guy got it got it i was like he was dressing all black had his little sneakers on someone else said that they're like when i watched him play the guitar she was like oh that was it for me yeah we all went out there and watched it we're like our girl from mtv yeah yeah yeah jamie yeah she was fucking she told us that and i was like i don't know seen keith a few times and i just never saw the appeal and then i saw him on stage and i said i was like yep you're right he's fucking got that rock star thing with them. Yeah. I'm super sweet guy though. Um, Kelsey ballerini.

I am now known as bunny ballerini. We're more best friends and, um, I love her now. She's so sweet and that she's so, um, professional. Yeah.

She knows how to work a camera. She knows how to dodge questions. She's like, so PR trained. It's amazing, but such a sweet, fun loving soul, questions she's like so pr trained it's amazing but such a sweet fun loving soul you know like she really is um just a doll can we talk about the fact that you threw in he said bring it on home john b i don't even know what that means i've just heard so many

people say you gotta watch out of banks yeah and so then like we we dared her to say it during the interviews she was like okay kelsey throws something she's like oh bring it on home chompy well because she was talking about her boyfriend she's gonna have a she's good bro yeah i was like all right well here it is i also told her that they cut this out but i had asked her she had told me that there's tequila in her dressing room i don't think she knows that i'm sober um but i i was like I was like, you know, does tequila make your clothes fall off? And that was the first time I saw her get a little flustered and she was like, but she dodged it and answered it. Perfect. And then I was like, I don't know what, I just have word vomit sometimes. And I was just like, well, if you ever want to see a naked jelly roll to me, tequila makes his

clothes fall off because my husband had just streaked the night before or did something, you know, but she didn't know that. So she's probably thinking I'm offering my husband had just streaked the night before or did something you know but she didn't know that so she's probably thinking i'm offering my husband up on a platter and i'm just like no really my husband just gets naked every time he fucking drinks yeah outside of the forest or he was on a fountain outside yeah the night before uh for the iheart awards yeah so so sweet and then who else oh megan maroney my my daughter that's my daughter i love meg she is so fucking dude she's so pretty she's so pretty and she's just so cool she's like so down to earth versatile too because i feel like her little like look while you're interviewing her versus her stage we're just like i love that she can embrace like each look and

just like switch it up she's like a little chameleon yeah no and she's a doll baby like she doesn't take anybody's shit and that's one thing i love about her and i don't think people realize that about her like she really is like runs her own ship she's a boss she's a little boss baby but i mean she's my daughter so of course she's gonna be a boss and um she's just cool man and can we talk about the phone call can we talk are we allowed to um they cut this out of our interview but we called another country singer and it was the funniest thing he's like is she showing her tits like it was so funny dude like i we thought we were prank calling him. Yeah. Yeah. We thought we were prank calling him and it just to say that she got arrested.

Yeah. And I was like, I'm the arresting officer. And he's like, Oh, that's hot. And I'm like, or something like that. Or that sounds like a good time. In front of everyone. Yeah. This is in front of like all of this.

And I was like, all right, we're going to let you go before you incriminate yourself. All right. Goodbye. Someone hang up the phone right now. Hang it up right now. But no, that was so fun. But but yeah and then i got to interview daddy we got to watch his uh his uh performance and i had a megaphone where i got to go around and yell at everybody but you know what was really cool all the workers were such good sports yes i got to run around and hug all of

them and like take pictures and like it was so fun like i had a blast and i really hope that maybe next year i can come back and i don't know host the show or something no i'm just kidding but i would love to do the backstage thing again i think that's so much fun and cmt if you're listening i'll do it for free no i'm just kidding dude what's up with fucking bill Bob Thornton, though? King. Literally, right? Like, I love you. Are you going to say he liked your hair again?

Okay, fuck off. He did like my hair. He approached me. Thank you very much. I know, I watched it. Yeah, but he knew exactly who you were. Him and I literally turned and locked eyes. it was like for a moment i forgot i was married and i was like sashayed my way over to him like just a fucking little dork and i was just

like such a pleasure to me oh my god icon like i was like this is amazing because he's literally the only person i wanted to meet the entire time i know you went through all the chairs and then you're like billy bob thornton. Yeah. I was so excited. Like, I love all the country music singers too, but I've met all of them, you know? But to see like Jane Seymour and Billy Bob Thornton, they're like, they're fucking icons, dude. Crazy lineup they had of like. Seymour.

I'm sorry. Should I just give it a go? You don't know who fucking Jane Seymour is? Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman. Give it a go. Give it a go. Give it a go. She's been around for a long fucking time. She's done so much more than Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman,

but that's normally what people know her from. And I actually didn't get a chance to meet her. She was in front of me, but I just didn't want to bother her, you know, and be like, Jane, huge fan. But yeah. And she's gorgeous. Bro, how old is she? She has to be in her 70s she is give it a 73 yeah really she

looks 50 yes like she looks so good would never never guess how would i never guess that dude i hope that's me when i'm fucking 70 i want people to be like oh my god she looks 45 i don't know okay well we need to catch up you need to catch up on some movies from the 80s and 90s yeah i wasn't alive i always forget that yeah so yeah meeting fucking uh um billy bob was the highlight of my life yeah for sure i thought about him for days afterwards i love him i love him he's a fucking badass sweet he was so sweet just i feel like you know you do meet a lot of people and some people are like on their go and they're doing all this kind of stuff and like the fact that he like takes time

to like he speaks to you you know like you meet so many people and you feel like as if they're doing all this kind of stuff and like the fact that he like takes time to like he speaks to you you know like you meet so many people and you feel like as if they're just speaking yes and but like he really spoke to you yeah absolutely he's a sweetie pie but yeah so being the backstage correspondent was awesome and then i got to kojo too, I did. How could I forget Cody and his wife? I fucking love them so much. Kojo. He was such a good sport. Good one.

He's hilarious. He's funny. So funny, dude. Him and Brandy are just salt of the earth humans. Literally. And just so cool. And I was so happy that I got to actually see them not like doing something for the first time.

Because every time I see Brandy, I have such bad anxiety that when I'm around, um, when I'm at award shows, I kind of black out. If that makes sense. You've got like a screen up, right? It's just, yeah. There's a lot going on. Yeah. And there's a lot that goes on. And I accidentally did it to Flava Flav's wife too. And she got her feelings hurt and I had to grab her. Cause I heard her say, she didn't even say hi to me. And I had to grab her and I was her say she didn't even say hi to me and I had to grab her and I was like hey at these award shows I am riddled with fucking anxiety so please just get in my face and be like hey bitch you're also blind as fuck yeah people don't realize yeah you don't have your glasses on yeah you don't know who that is standing fucking 10 feet away yeah so if I ever see any of you guys out and you guys think I'm

giving you rest in bitch face i'm not i can't see you like literally if i and but i'm hoping to fix that problem because i wore contacts the other day and it was a game changer so i need to go get my prescriptions filled but yeah so in the comments of um the fucking you know the me being the cmc correspondent i got so much love and it was so cool but of course there's those few people that are like for somebody who doesn't like attention or swear she has anxiety she loves the attention and it's like no i love building my career working there's a huge fucking i'm not going i'm not going to be one of these people who and i've said this a million times who lets their fucking anxiety control them and for one my mom did that and look where it got

her she died at 62 a fucking agoraphobic and had a vast amount of health problems you can't say though that like how many other people celebrities have anxiety yeah like there's you could list off most of them most of them yeah i was gonna say most of them have anxiety yeah that's why we mask yeah anytime i see like someone's opinion of a celebrity or whatever if they had one encounter i don't judge them based off that one encounter because they could have been having a bad day they could have had anxiety they could have been having a panic attack and then that's what people base them off of i feel like that's i feel bad because i feel like i was prejudgmental like that until we got into the industry and i was like man those people have bad days too yeah you know like it just it fucking happens bro yeah it does for sure and i don't

think a lot of people realize how much we mask at award shows i have literally had to go in a bathroom and fucking do breathing exercises at award shows. I've had to leave. I had to remember I had to leave the ACMs last year because it was so hot. It was triggering me and I, my blood pressure was skyrocketing. My heart was wonky. I was spilled a drink on you. Someone's Bailey Zimmerman spilled a fucking drink on me and that fucking triggered my OCD. And, you know, like there's a lot that goes on that you guys don't see just because I'm smiling on a camera and I'm just trying to fucking be the best version I can be.

Just because I'm, you know, trying to better my life doesn't mean that I don't have anxiety, but I am trying to be a better example for people who do suffer from mental health issues. Yeah, if anything, you're a testimony. Trying to be, yes, for sure. I mean, you are though, you've defeated odds of like people saying you couldn't go out and do those things. And you're like, fucking hold my beer. Four years ago, I would have never been able to do that. No. I almost turned down the CMT thing because I was riddled with anxiety. I was like, what what if i fail what if i don't do good just having to you know meet new people having to interact with and do interviews on the fly with people was extremely hard for me because even though i do my podcast it's definitely planned out i know what i'm going to talk to them about i know the talking points like these people i didn't know

any talking point. Like I literally just had to do it on the fly, which helped me because I realized that I can handle stuff like that. And I just, and I want to learn more and I want to grow, you know? So yeah, when I saw comments like that, I was just like, I need to address this on the podcast because it's just to the point where people just say whatever the fuck they want. Yeah.

And it's just fucking wild to me, man. Bandwagoners. Country. Bandwagoners. Country. Bandwagon haters. Country music fucking fans are insane. Some of them. Most of them are so loving and accepting, but there's that one batch of fucking hillbilly hobos.

There's not country. God. There's not country. It's crazy. But daddy swept the CMT Awards, which which was amazing two years in a row two years in a row bro man that's so cool crazy and then fucking did the iheart music awards which i loved the iheart of music awards they've got their shit together yeah that was a vibe they know what they're fucking doing yes yeah i mean the carpet so short quick yeah you're in

you're out let's maybe put some covering yeah not direct sunlight yeah it was rough scorching yeah a little tent or something would be nice yeah especially that la sun oh yeah you were in you were out you sat down the award show was hours. Yeah, and it was entertaining and fast. Like, they kept it going. Dude, Beyonce was there. Crazy. Fucking Beyonce, man. And she has, you know, people give her so much shit online, dude.

And they say, like, she's, like, this evil person, and she's this and she's that. But when you're in her energy, she really has just a very soft, sweet energy. Very soft. She's not aggressive. She's very just, very soft, sweet energy. Very soft. She's not aggressive. She's very just like almost shy. You know, like she doesn't, I don't think she even realizes, you know, who she is.

Do you think Beyonce knows she's Beyonce? Yes. You said yes. Yeah. I don't know. I feel like Jay carries the, I think they're like yin and yang you know like he's the outrageous sagittarius and then she's like the shy quiet virgo is she a virgo she's a virgo i love sZA she was so sweet so fucking sweet and so hot oh my god

first of all the shitter on that critter fucking amazing she's beautiful her face gorgeous just she is everything that like she just embraces so much feminine goddess energy like it just oozes out of her and she doesn't even fucking try she just walks and it's just like okay and like when you see sZA walk you understand why her music is so sexual and so sensual. Because that's just who she is. That's who she embodies. She is a fucking just cute little nugget. I love her.

So sweet. She got a lot of awards that day too. She did. She did get a lot of awards. Yeah. Yeah. I'm proud of her. And you met Green Day.

Oh God. I love Green Day. Green Day loves you. I asked them to come on the podcast. Listen, I don't have a lot of starstruck moments. Billy Bob was one of them. The next one before that was Green Day knowing who I was. They're like, oh yeah, we've seen you online.

I'm like, me? A little old me. I was like, oh my God, like it's just crazy you know so i asked them to come on the podcast so i'm gonna keep hounding billy joe yeah yeah i love that they knew you were yeah their guitar player is awesome too he always every time he sees us he's like hey guys what's up just always me and you were like fucking getting down our little teenage hearts oh yeah their performance she's behind us like recording yeah we're just fucking going bro our little emo girl You and me were like fucking getting down. Our little teenage hearts during their performance. She's behind us like recording.

We were just fucking going cam, bro. Our little emo girl fucking hearts were just so excited. I mean, that's Green Day, Dookie. God, when I ran away from home, I had that fucking soundtrack, our album on fucking repeat, dude. That was like the soundtrack to my life. I love how our childhoods are like coming back right now like yeah just did bam yeah and then we had green day and i'm like what is happening mob wives mob wife billy bob though like he he's such an icon through my life dude he was with angelina fucking jolie they were the ones who originally wore the blood smell her on him i tried tried. It was a deep whiff. I whiffed his soul whenever we hugged.

But yeah, good old fucking Billy Bob. I love him. But yeah, Green Day too. I love all them. So yeah, the award shows were fucking phenomenal. What else do I got for you guys? Mind you guys, like everything we're talking about right now is coming out on the new season of the Bunny XO Show.

So like you get to hear these stories. It's just like a teaser for what you're actually going to be able to see on the show and i think that's so cool because like yeah we're giving like the preview so there was a clip that was posted of laney and i and this kind of ties into this little tangent i'm gonna go on right now with social media is an amazing outlet to have. But at the same time, there are so many people who just want to tear apart happy things. And a clip of Lainey Wilson and I were posted and somebody was like, oh, my God, did Bunny say, well, I don't love you is a clip of Lainey Wilson hugging me, me thanking her for the flowers, telling her that she's a sweetheart.

But I forgot who posted it. I think CMT didn't catch that part, but they caught the tail end. And Lainey and I were taking a picture together. And she said, I love you. And I said, I love you. I said, I love you so much or something like that. Or you know I love you or something like that. And people were like, Bunny said that, Bunny's's jealous bunny said that she doesn't love her first of all who the fuck

is gonna look at laney wilson when laney wilson says i love you and look at her and be like i don't love you what are people are weird like people want to hate on me so bad that they make up shit people who leave comments like that kill butterflies no kill butterflies literally yeah you butterfly killer that's literally what i think i'm like you see something so precious and beautiful yeah and you stomp on it yeah no it's crazy so i just had to address that because i i fucking love laney laney is my sister we fucking have when they came out with that article and it hit the news and it was like bunny x i was jealous jealous of Lainey Wilson and Jelly Roll's relationship. And she makes a comment and was like, it's actually me who wants her.

Yeah. There was no better way to shut down a media source than to be like, no, bitch. It's me. Literally fucking Lainey is my baby and I just love her. But, you know, happy hoes ain't hatin' and hatin' hoes ain't hating and hating hoes ain't happy you know what I'm saying and be sure we should make that some merch dude it's a quote that I've fucking seen all over the internet but it's so real because you know I just was left to my own devices these past few days off it was rough I ended up in somebody's live because I don't have a problem

with TikTok gossip channels these creators there's a difference between putting up an article about somebody and discussing the article and the situation at hand and then adding in your own personal feelings and opinions to manipulate the masses. That is completely different. You know, so there, a lot of these gossip channels will be like, Oh, you know,

bunny did this and she's done this to me. And like, that's personal. That's not, you're not, you're swaying from the entire subject here. Now you're making it personal. And that's what I have a problem with is don't fucking lie to get views and to cut and to get monetary gain off of

my name that's trademarked or I will come after you and I have that right because I have worked my fucking ass off to fucking make a name for myself and I'll be damned if I'm gonna let some little fucking TikTok quote-un unquote journalist talk shit about my family and bully my husband. And like, you know, there's just so much shit that goes into it. So anyways, I posted this fucking I posted this fucking clip about OJ Simpson, which it's true. And, you know, it's a part of my past. I've never been ashamed of my past. And this other lady who has, um, we'll call her Ewok, this other Ewok that has a fucking Tik TOK journalist channel doesn't have a lot of fucking followers, um, do edit it. And I thought it was cute. You know, I thought it got like 2.4

million views and I thought it was a cute post, but she kept saying is it robert kardashian she put it across the front of the video where i had clearly stated in the comments and you know if she's a tiktok journalist she went through those comments but she saw an opportunity to get views cool baby do you do not care i put myself out there i i knew that was going to go viral i didn't care um so in the comments I just replied to her I said it's not Robert Kardashian I said it in my comments 20 times and I said it just like that like I've said to other people who have posted it and then she had picked a fucking picture of me that was I didn't like that I thought was hideous but I was like damn sis thanks for posted I could you have picked a better pick or lmao or like laughing you know completely being a smart don't choose the worst photo you can find of me literally

completely being a fucking smart ass being facetious and that's anybody that knows me knows that that's how i am right well apparently my crazed following i I love you guys, but you guys got please for the love of God. I love you guys. Do not bully people. Do not threaten their lives. Do not attack them. You can defend me without making somebody feel like their life is being threatened. And I guess this lady was getting a bunch of it. And I completely understand that. But instead of coming to me and saying, Hey, DM me, you know, you want to talk about me fucking DM me. I don't understand why motherfuckers don't know how to pull up. That is what I don't understand about any of the, this online world, because I'm different. Like I, if I have a problem with somebody, I'm going to go directly to them. When Holly had an issue with the Shanna Mochler podcast, I went directly to her as soon as I got home and fucking figured out that she was upset about the podcast, which Holly and I

have talked and she heard my point of view and I heard her point of view and we came to an agreement and I absolutely fucking love Holly and I adore her because that's what women do. You fucking talk about shit and you don't have to talk about it online you good I just want to make sure she checks okay periodically so that's what real people do you don't have to talk about shit online this this online world like does anything for clout and I don't understand that because I will shut shit down in a fucking heartbeat. And this lady made like two more videos and she's like, you know, trying to shame sex workers, which for one. Come on. I don't care.

You know, don't shame my girls. I don't care if you want to come to me, but don't try to shame sex workers. Don't fucking try to do low blows because that shit is where it gets again personal and it's like you're you're not sticking to the facts now you're letting your emotions override your business and that's not good honey you know so she's in the she's like maybe bunny isn't this um icon idol that you think she is she's threatening my life no i didn't even know this was going on yeah i had no i was was in my own little bubble, fucking in my backyard, meditating, just having a blast on my days off and fucking had no idea this was going on.

I climb into bed. I have no fucking pants on, just a fucking t-shirt. And this lady, I have 500 people messaging me. This lady's talking shit about you. And I'm just like, oh God, let me go fucking see what I did now you know and I'm sitting in her live and I'm just watching this lady for an hour pretty much call me a predator saying that I uh financed my daughter's truck which one I pay cash for everything two not that you guys need to know that two I have outright bought strangers vehicles do you think I'm gonna just finance our daughter's

car i mean i'm not just talking about just you but just people i haven't even met on fucking tiktok i bought them cars the lady who runs our facebook group i fucking bought her a vehicle you know like i could go down the list of all the good shit i do for people but i don't do it for clout and i don't fucking record it and i don't post it um just outright lying and so after an hour of this I popped up in her live and I said you're a liar let me on your live right now and that lady shut the fuck up is her energy went from fucking talking mad shit to fucking stuttering and I'm standing on business when I say that this is how everybody on the fucking internet is you guys are talking shit but are in your dms yeah a couple weeks before literally we love you so much literally there's a fucking lady who's talking about my energy is bad

and blah blah blah um because i fucking obviously because i didn't respond to her or something i have no idea but telling saying that i had a baby or Jay had a baby on me when he cheated on me like this girl has our entire fucking timeline fucked up. But I don't even care. She's got like fucking. I did some research on her and she's got a lot of hurt in her in her life. And I don't you know, I've realized a lot of these people that are online talking shit about people have so much shit going on in their own bodies that it just makes them feel better when they tear somebody else down. It's really sad. No, it's really sad. And that, that girl who is talking about how my energy is so bad and everything was literally just in my DM talking about,

and these are two separate people, um, talking about how me and Jay are a sacred couple and we have to protect ourselves and we're light and like, you know, but she made three videos talking shit about me. And then she made one where she's talking about, don't, don't call, don't talk shit about Benny being a sex worker. I was a sex worker. It's like, well, what do you think people are going to attack me for? That's the only thing that they can say. They can say my vibe is off. They can say I'm a a bad human even though they've never fucking shook my hand or been in my energy and they can say that i promote being a sex worker which i've never promoted being a sex worker you've talked about your truth so back to the ewok fucking i'm in her live and you can see it on tiktok feel free to go look um

i'm just like bro like what is going on like why are you always talking about me and she's like i'm not always talking about you and i'm like i just sat here for an hour and watched you fucking talk about me and really what it boiled down to and why this woman is so fucking mad at me is because she left a comment and i didn't see it because i get tagged in fucking five you don't even see mine sometimes literally You don't see mine. Literally. And I told her that. I said, all you had to do was slide my DM.

I said, what could I? And she said, I didn't like your tone on the comment that you left me. You can't hear a tone. The tone that she repeated in her own head. Right. That she read to herself. She said, you're talking down to me. Can you talk to me like I'm your equal?

I said, honey, I'm in your life. I'm treating you like an equal I'm like what are you talking about and then I realized that this woman just literally wanted to play victim mentality and I told her I said what this boils down to is you're mad that my fans are attacking you and defending me because you're talking shit about me I said if you're going to do this pop culture thing you have to make sure that you I don't know my exact words I don't want to misquote myself but it's online I said you have to

take what people say with a grain of salt I was like because if not you're not going to get very far we had a fucking conversation she tried to get me on the phone I was like absolutely fucking not I'm not doing that we I could tell just from her victim mentality that we weren't going to get anywhere I get off the live this girl continues to fucking stay on live and fucking says i

threatened her life she said did you hear that bunny said i'm going to be canceled the internet can say whatever the fuck they want about you and they say well you're a celebrity you're supposed to be able to handle it no the fuck we're not no the fuck we're not do you know how many people you guys being fucking humans do you know how many people kill themselves from being bullied a year literally i'm sorry i'm gonna stand up for all the fucking underdogs i'm gonna you're never gonna bully me you're never gonna lie about me or my family and i will fight till the end that's who i am i am all justice. I'm all for standing up for what's right. And I'm never going to let people just fucking keep shitting on people. It's not okay. You know, and you guys that are online trolls need to fucking take a look in your own lives.

Why are you so fucking sad? And why are you so fucking miserable that all you want to do is spew toxicity on a fucking keyboard it's the saddest existence ever it honestly like when you think about it these people truly like this is their whole lives it's their whole life they get a rush yes and we talked about that this morning when we were kind of discussing this situation was i i told her i was like because she got that little bitty bit of attention she's gonna live off of this for so long oh yeah no she's gonna make it her whole personality yeah oh she it's been three days and she's still going now her thing is is bunny was only nice to me because she was being screen recorded oh my god like no i am who i i love when people are like bunny is a bad human

just wait and you'll see i've been on the internet 15 fucking years when are they gonna see i'm i'm waiting yeah like what you see is what you get with me i don't fucking pretend to be something i'm not and i fucking all you gotta do is just leave me and my family the fuck alone and you won't get called out or you won't get fucking your videos taken down you are like the realest person on the internet sometimes a little too real you will literally say mimi gets mad at me i'm like really bad but like how do they expect it to be any different and in like any aspect if you're willing to put that on the internet what do you think's

happening behind closed doors like yeah you're you literally have put it out there since day one no it's crazy and now another thing that i'm catching heat for is because i'm proud of all i've accomplished with bailey bro that to me is the wildest shit ever it blows my mind how people are like can one minute be like you know oh my god you're a great mom which I don't live for those comments because that's not that doesn't do anything for me watching how much Bailey has flourished does but now people are saying i'm exploiting bailey or and first of all i don't make money off my daughter i'm not exploiting her you know two i this little girl and i have been through fucking hell hell together people say that you're exploiting her yeah when 90 of the internet thinks me or hailey is bailey

yeah yeah it's crazy what the fuck they don't even know who your daughter is yeah i'm like you literally don't show her often enough that people are stunned when she comes on we gotta have t-shirts made yeah damn she is grown up because she's not in every video she makes little appearances literally she'll do like comedic skits with me here and there that's it and then they're like all she does is bash the baby mama actually no we stayed quiet for almost a fucking decade and after what bailey's mom did to her last year fuck her she deserves for everybody to know what a piece of shit human she is and i fucking stand on that dude any mother that shoves drugs down their child's throat hoping that they end up just like them

and is it and is jealous of their own daughter does not deserve to be fucking protected ever ever I don't care who you are and if you think so then you don't need to need to fucking be following me if you think so you were just as bad my mom lost me because she was a fucking drug addict and she never deserved the forgiveness that she got but i gave it to her you know and hopefully somewhere down the line bailey will be able to forgive her mom and i hope and pray that one day bailey's mother will fucking become a better human just for bailey not for anybody else but just for fucking bailey because bailey deserves that but as of right now bailey wants nothing to do with her mother and if anybody listened to that fucking podcast with bailey bailey is standing in her convictions man yeah like and i know you guys are like oh she's only 16 you know she doesn't know what bailey knows what the

fuck she wants and i'm we're never gonna force her to ever have to have a relationship with somebody who abused her you also behind closed doors asked bailey and i can contest to this so many times are you sure you want to talk about this yeah you never once were like you're gonna sit on my podcast no she begged like how many times she would that come up to me like so when can i have an episode because she wanted her story because one she knew it was going to help other people who are in similar situations and two she deserves to tell her truth absolutely and i think people mistake us being open and honest about our shit because we want to help other people yes as exploiting ourselves and it's like i've exploited the fuck out of myself then because everybody knows i'm a hooker and it drives me crazy because

everybody will try to use my past against me but you motherfuckers would have never have known my past had i not fucking told you yeah no one's come up with any receipts of your past ever all because everybody will try to use my past against me, but you motherfuckers would have never have known my past. Had I not fucking told you. Yeah. No one's come up with any receipts of your past. All they go off of is what you've literally said out loud. Yeah. And then there's some people who are like,

I don't really believe her about her past. I'm like, if I was going to choose, I would have said I was a doctor. If I, you know, I would have said I was a fucking doctor, not a fucking hooker, dude, in Vegas.

When people say you lie about your age and you're like, why the fuck would I choose to be in my 40s? I'm like, yeah, I'll be eternally 37, you know, like, come on, dude. But yeah. So and I know that we have spent a big chunk of time on this, but I really think it's important to clear the air and just talk about things because I don't talk about a lot of on tick tock because one i know it'll go viral two i don't want all the outside opinions because i know i stand in my convictions i know who the i am and i think what makes people mad is that they can't waver me or shake me because i've been being called a whore since i was 18 years old you know like that it doesn't it doesn't hurt me you know and I think people try to come up with new shit to try to hurt people but what I do want to focus on is there are a lot of people who are not as strong as me that are on the internet and

they don't deserve to fucking be bullied even if you guys are defending me don't bully people because you never know where they are mentally yes absolutely that just happened to me with my car what happened when i posted my video and it got a million views and someone literally rolled up to gmc and was threatening the employees don't do that please don't i was just frustrated at the moment and i told my truth and it was saying bro i appreciate whoever rolled up and threatened employees yeah like you're a motherfucking g but don't do that please don't yeah like we love you and like i'll call you when i really need you i will pull up too but let's

talk about it first you know like you don't gotta be alone next time that's cool maybe message us and hey and tell us what you say she said it's cool but stop yeah yeah no we we thought it was great yeah but don't fucking do it you know like a heads up so i don't get a call from the owner of gmc who was like can you not have your fans coming in and threatening my employees where we have to call the cops yeah i'm like oh sorry yeah like they also leaked the um the co-owner's home address and he's been getting death threats oh when you dox people everything's fine but when my fucking following doxes people i'm fucking satan yeah i was like i we cannot control what these people do all we can do is ask them to not do that and

i've never once doxed anybody i've never condoned doxing the whole thing that happened with that dude who wrote a song about my husband. If that dude would have came to me and been like, hey, your fans are doing this. And all I did was leave a comment. I never fucking even said anything. All I did, this man made a song. Apparently, this is what he does for a living. And I'm fucking whatever about it.

Do you? But it was at the expense of my husband's weight. My husband doesn't show it to you guys, but I'm going to have a very vulnerable moment here. It hurts him. It does. That's why he's been off the internet for like fucking, what, three months now? Beginning of the year, he always switches.

My husband got off the internet because he is so tired of being bullied about his fucking weight. And like that makes me want to cry because he is the sweetest angel baby. about his fucking weight. And like, that makes me want to cry because he is the sweetest angel baby. And so when this dude came out with this song, it was just ill timing. And I left a comment and I said, this is, um, I forgot what I said. This is vile. That's all I said. This is vile. That's it. Didn't fucking report his video. Didn't fucking send people his way did nothing but what do people on the internet do they do everything for views so instead of him coming to me and my husband because he said he was a fan instead of him coming to be my husband and letting us fucking say hey man don't fucking do this we love this guy i just thought the song was vile this motherfucker makes a song about me

being a hooker which it was a great song i loved it i actually put it it's on my playlist yeah it's cool but stop no but it was a great song the dude's fucking talented but he fucking does the song but before he does the song he does this whole fucking intro where i told my following to dox him and he was getting death threats. I didn't know anything about it. Exactly. You know? And as soon as I heard about it, I was like,

what the fuck is going on? That's the worst way to hear about it. Literally. Just give like the GM guy calls me adult conversation. I immediately removed the video. Absolutely. You would have removed your comma or whatever, but it's,

or I would have posted, but by the time, but he had already fucking lit that fire so guess what dude do you no do you like i'm gonna let you have your 15 minutes you know i did a kanye i was like you know fucking i'm gonna let you have your 15 minutes but beyonce had the best album i'm just kidding you know but like by that time it's like one you don't want to help somebody who's lying and fucking trying to fucking turn his fans on you and you know it's just i don't understand the internet i hate it because i really like some of that guy's music too but it just shows like you can like someone's song but the person can be shitty yeah you know what i mean like it's it's

a true character of like the person i'm like man like you if you just shut your mouth having an adult conversation yeah this could have been pull up say something literally like i don't know why people are so afraid to to have one-on-one conversations when i because i know they're wrong yeah it would solve so much shit instead of fucking tit for tat and then i can't fire back because my fan base is way bigger and that'll just cause fucking complete catastrophe so it's like i have to just sit and take it and i've been doing this for fucking 15 years and i've this is the first time i've ever really gotten in depth and really spoke about it anybody that's followed me for a long time knows i'll say

shit here and there but like you know like enough is enough when I see it affecting my husband at home when I see that I can't even no matter how good I am to people no matter all the good I do I could fucking donate to charities which I do with my husband I could I don't document every fucking good deed that I do for people because that's not why I do it I literally fucking cash out people money all day long yeah my fans that are in my fucking dms asking for help dude remember the guy who pulled up to the photo shoot we've never talked about that bro and you were just like which one what's the highest tier i can pay you like the magazine salesman oh i'm like oh yeah you could have easily like you could have easily

made content out of that and all of us just sat back and was like no because that's not the point of it no not at all yeah you could and i even tried to get that dude to keep the money himself and not give it to the business i just send it to you and he's like no it's got to go to the business and she's like but i'll send it to you yeah i'm like i'm about to send you a fucking twelve hundred dollars bud what do you want or a thousand i forget how much it was. It was like $1,500. But yeah, and again, not tooting my own horn, but it's like my husband and I really try to make such a difference in this world.

And it's like the more love we try to put out into the universe, it's like the world is so angry and so heavy and it's just not okay. And I want to speak up about it. I want to find a charity that i can work with for bullying i have been in contact with the owner of cyber smiles but they are in another country so it's kind of hard to like team up with them but they actually want like america is also a place like you start where you you are right absolutely work your way out just like yeah you know he started his at the uh juvenile detention center that he was at that's where he started and i know his efforts are to eventually grow and stuff like

that yeah but same thing with you starting here and you've been through it with bailey and like i just feel like that's such a swept under the rug issue i don't want to sweep it under the rug anymore no it's not it's time to bring it to light because I am so fearful that my child has to grow up in this. Yeah. And I hope she's strong enough. I truly do that. Olivia is strong enough. And I don't know.

I'm worried about cash. Olivia. Cash will be the bully. Yeah. Okay. But Olivia, on the other hand, she's such a sweet little angel baby. I'm like, like god please don't read a hateful comment one day like she did recently get bullied at school and someone

told her that she looked like she was pregnant oh are you kidding me she's in first grade it starts i literally caught bailey went through it we were trying on shorts that same day it happened we were trying on shorts and i watched her pull her dress up and look at herself in the mirror and i was like no nope i said we are done we're getting out and I'm literally whatever you want to buy we can have like I know that doesn't fix the issue but I was just like we had to have that that makes me want to cry oh bro I literally wanted to throw hands with a seven-year-old so but you know that's learned from their parents absolutely and it's because people don't speak up people are like you know, don't waste your time.

Is it wasting my time? If maybe somebody who's getting fucking bullied gets to hear this podcast and hear all the shit that we're going through. Is it really wasting my time standing up to people who are fucking liars? Yes. Absolutely fucking not. If this can make a difference in fucking one child, human, grown up, teenagers, fucking life. in fucking one child, human, grown-up, teenager's fucking life. Anybody, dude, that can take this fucking podcast and know that there is somebody out here who,

three people out here who are advocating against bullies. And one of the main reasons I do advocate against bullies is because I used to be one. I was bullied as a child, dude. My first bully was my stepmother, you know? I got my ass beat from the time i was fucking five years old until i left home at 14 you were literally bullied within your home i beat up people because i was hurt and i was angry and i fought for all the wrong reasons and it's like

now that i've grown i didn't change who i was until after i got my ass beat again by my fucking ex and i went through that entire relationship. And when I got out of it, I was like, I thanked God because I was like, I needed that dude. I was a force to be reckoned with. You couldn't tell me shit. I treated people fucking horrible. I have been so vocal about that. And the minute I got out of that relationship, I wanted to make a difference in the world. I was like, I'm never going to let somebody bully me again. And I'm never going to fucking hurt people like the way I have. And that's why I stand up to these people.

A story that you fucking just to tie into the one with Olivia. Bailey was sitting on the back. I was at Sonic with all of her fucking friends. And she's sitting on the back of a fucking truck, and a car full of guys drive by, and they're like, you're all too big to be sitting on the back of that truck, on that tailgate. You're too big to be sitting on that tailgate. And when Bailey got home, she told me about it,

and I could tell it bothered her, and I was like, baby, I love you. You're beautiful. I always tell her, if you want to make meal preps, you want to work out with me, let's do it. I'll give you a workout plan, whatever. The next day, she came home and was like, I always tell her if you want to make meal preps, you want to work out with me, let's do it. I'll give you a workout plan, whatever. The next day she came home and was like, I was like, have you eaten? She's like, no, I'm fasting today. And I said, what do you mean you're fasting? And she's like, I haven't, I, she's like, I just, I need to fast. And I said, Bailey, you are fucking 16 years old, 15 years old. She's about to be 16 in May. I'm like,

you're fucking 16 years old. You don need to fast i said at your age right now your body needs food and it's just to see what she goes through and bailey gets the fuck bullied out of her online they come for her teeth all the time like it's so bad so saying all this i will always fucking protect my family i will always protect all of you who are my fucking following who are my family i will always stand up for what i can and what's right i also feel like you're a perfect person because of what you just said is that you used to be the bully absolutely and you are the absolute absolute perfect picture perfect example of you don't have to stay being the bully at all i feel like so many people get stuck in

their ways and in reality they're like i just don't know how to be anything other so for you to advocate and hopefully maybe if a bully is listening to this or watching this they take that into consideration that like you don't always have to be the fucking bully no that's not what people are saying and at any point in any time of your life you can literally change yeah just because you feel like this is who you are as a human by no means is that who you have to be the rest of your life absolutely i used to think that about myself i used to think certain ways and at one point i was like how can i be better how can i not be like this anymore and then i had the realization of like well fuck i wasn't born knowing how to walk and it wasn't born knowing how to drive a car all those things were learned so why can't i learn to be the person i want to be and that's exactly what you did

was hey i'm this person that i don't like right now and in your head you were like how do i become the person i want to be and that is a learned trait that is not something you are born with that's not who you are and it's not in your fucking dna you have to be sick of how you're feeling you have to be sick of the same shit happening you know if you always did what you did you're gonna get what you got exactly and it's like you have to change who you are you can't change without help no it what and if you can't afford a therapist go online read shit i have taught myself so much shit by just researching and applying it to my life. You don't need somebody to hold your hand if you really want to change your life. Give it a gook.

Give it a gook, baby. Gook on. I'm telling you, it will fucking save your life. There's some, there's so much stuff that I have learned through the years and applied it to my life. Fucking even breath work. Nobody taught me that. I fucking started meditating and learned it. You know, like you have to want to, you have to have a thirst for knowledge. even breath work nobody taught me that i fucking started meditating and learned it you know like you have to want to you have to have a thirst for knowledge and i'm an information junkie so i just consume consume consume and i love to learn and apply and that's really what you have to do in life and if you want to change the first step is to just say hey you know what i don't want to be like this fucking human anymore i want to be a better person it's the want to change literally

and then just start making small changes before you leave a fucking rude comment don't do it type it out type it out but don't delete it yeah there's so many times i go to like snap back at someone or say something and i know that i need to say it so i will type the whole thing out i've done that so many times but it got it out not me i say it she hits send i mean there's there's sometimes there's sometimes i hit send because i gotta but it is that's i clap back nicely though now but you don't have to do it all the time i normally just send them a picture of themselves zoomed in i do that on facebook that's my favorite that's what i do on facebook it's the people are like i just did it about an hour girl don't need to be wearing that and then i zoom in on their profile so if you're listening to this right now do not do what hayley does okay hayley is still learning it works okay can i tell

you guys the story of what happened the other day and like i feel so bad for this girl i'm going to show you guys this picture this is bullying right this like totally ties into what we're talking about i feel really bad shout out to hooters in murfreesboro because they did not deserve this oh this girl innocently posted a picture of herself and all they were doing was like hey come in i'll i'll this is her right she posted it on the hooters account no they posted it in our local murphysboro like just her community food yeah it's just her in a shop right and it just says hey we have ufc in right she's a cute girl yeah like she's adorable first of all why are you in the hooters fucking support group no it's not's not. No. Oh. It was in our local community.

Oh, okay. And someone, I'm guessing either was a manager or a host. Oh, they're the worst in the community fucking pages. Bro, this dude just. Dude. It's always men too. I'm talking these comments are all hate. It's because they secretly want her and know that she probably doesn't want them.

I went on Mr.ph's fucking profile first off he uses filters i do they all do yes his main profile picture has a filter over it and it's just i mean tearing this girl down to the point that like other girls got in that and was like shut the fuck up yeah like why are you guys coming from this girl literally doing a job that is our prime example of what society has become yes it is so sad it is so hurtful it doesn't matter her literally saying we have ufc on at hooters yeah it's crazy it doesn't matter how good you are it doesn't matter what you do butterflies yeah stomping on butterflies that's such a good fucking a literal analogy literally i have a fucking tramp stamp butterfly yeah on butterflies that's such a good fucking a literal analogy literally

i have a fucking tramp stamp butterfly yeah but like that's what i feel like is like they're so delicate beautiful creatures and there's always going to be that one little fucking kid who steps on this but it's gonna be that one caterpillar that hasn't gotten his wings yet that just wants to fucking shit on all the other ones this is i'm growing butterflies this is why i'm gonna grow butterflies she says she's growing butterflies so i hope you guys can take the lesson in what you know i had to use real life examples so that you could see the shit that we go through and um you know hopefully you guys can apply this to your life and moving forward because kindness really goes a fucking long way man like just telling somebody you love them or that they're beautiful or you know even if they're rude to you like that girl who fucking left all those fucking uh videos about me i told her i said i love you and i hope you

have the best day and i really mean it because it's just like clearly you're hurt yeah clearly well i she posted a tiktok where she said she has no friends. She has she couldn't get sad. She couldn't get hugs from her mom. So she became a sex worker because she knew at the end of sex that she would be hugged. And that really hurt me. And like, I wanted to message her and be like, man, I love you. And I want you to know that you're not alone. And I am your friend, even though you're over here talking shit about me like that shit fucking hurts me and i don't know how people can you know look at people like that and be mean to them even when they're being mean to you yeah i mean i don't mean to ruin the mood but do you really get hugged after i i was not for the hugs okay i was that offered what about i mean no i used to have some tricks that would get mad because i would get up and leave immediately what'd you say like a handshake what do they they dab up after or what i would always just hug them on the way out i would hug them oh thanks good game you know like high five yeah but i mean some girls that there are this is a whole nother subject but there are girls who do a thing called gfe which is girlfriend experience and you get the end they like fuck them without condoms and cuddle and i was never

into that i lied and said they would get girlfriend experience because i could charge more but when i got there it was a whole fucking shuck that i ran you know do you know they have websites that write reviews on hookers did you know literally yep yep yep yep they do i want to read these i wonder if our girl's on there who the one the one we found in vegas oh i love her i know where she's okay i love her i know i follow her i forget her name i should say hi to her and check in, right? Yes. Yeah. That was right before we hit the bump. She's our fucking adoptive hook. Adoptive hooker. Yeah. That was right before we went airborne. Yes.

I was after. Was it? Yeah, I was after. Because I was like, I've just had such a shit day. I'm like, I want to do something good. Sorry, my brain was a little discombobulated. Your brain is still fucking rattled. I'm pretty sure I want to do something good. Sorry, my brain was a little discombobulated. Your brain is still fucking rattled. I'm pretty sure you hit the roof.

I might have. I would also like to say Mountain Valley Spring Water. Would you guys fucking sponsor me? Because I have turned so many people on to this fucking water, and I literally deserve it. Whether you just give me free cases every month, I'm fine with that. We can finally set it up on the desk during the podcast

and not hide it. Yeah, do you hear that? Do you guys dream when you dream? Do you dream during the day or at night? What? Are your dreams during the day or at night both what are your dreams during the day or at night the dream itself yes on my one last night where i was pissed off at both of you guys during the day i rarely have during the day dreams and that's yours i've never thought about that always minor a lot during the day fucking minor a lot during the night actually i would love for mine to be during the day you guys left me i honestly don't feel like i look at the sky i feel like there is no sky in mine sometimes mine are always in like dark seedy like it's never a cool vibe i don't

have pretty dreams can somebody who is a listener dissect this for me maybe i'll ask sloan bella whenever she comes on the podcast um i my dreams are always dark and like, they're not happy there. That's always like just a nightmare. No, it's not a nightmare, but it's just like, I don't know. It's like if I'm in a house, it's a trap house, you know, like, nope. It's so weird. I don't have bright, happy, vivid dreams.

Sometimes mine's like my for you page that's how you explain my dreams it's weird i've seen your for you page it's weird yeah weird and random yeah yeah yeah all right well i just wanted to see if maybe i was just something was wrong with me have you guys ever seen had your phone in your dream yes no i was so mad i've never had my phone i always have my phone and i know i can wake myself or i can become conscious in my dream if i know my phone's not working last night when i was you guys fucking left me i couldn't find your location and because my phone wasn't working like because i i physically couldn't make the phone work i knew i was dreaming i was like

i knew these bitches wouldn't leave me i had to return a scooter paralysis though yes that's the worst that happens to me all the time ever one time it happened when i had a roommate and she had got a new mirror from a vintage place oh and i had i had sleep paralysis three times in one week and they were all so evil and negative and i said get rid of that mirror now yeah as soon as she got rid of it and didn't have it again i had an orgasm one time during sleep paralysis and i could have swore i was getting like banged by a demon you liked that what yeah i didn't mind the orgasm but it was a cemetery no it was in my bed in the middle of the day it was fucking scary and you can like hear like a growling sound it's crazy i've heard i've

heard scratching next to my bed yeah i've heard growling mine i just can't breathe like i wake up too i can breathe but i can't talk but then it just puts me right back to sleep like i i physically cannot get myself out of the sleep i haven't had a sleep paralysis dream in probably two years and actually maybe a long we're all gonna go home i know i hope not i'm wondering what i'm doing different that i why i don't have them anymore you're not taking vitamins like you used to i don't want them so you think vitamins cause sleep paralysis well you were overdosing on vitamins yeah and then before that was drugs you had a chemical imbalance every single time you've been clear these past two years of everything it's because i love jesus yeah all right well you guys

the time has come to tell you what bill cephas done. As if my father has not caused enough trauma in my life, he fucking wanted to go out with a bang and fucking just add one more piece of trauma on his way out. So... I'm sorry, I can't help it. Fucking Bill, man. So Bill and his fucking wife always fight. But that is my dad's love language. He loves to fucking fight and make up I guess and I get it because I used to be the same way when I was in my toxic relationships and I stay out of their relationship because if I do

anything to offend his new wife I will not be able to have a relationship with my dad, which has been the story of my life. And, you know, she started making me question how she was at Christmas because my dad wanted to stay and hang out with the family. And I look over and my dad's watching the, um, you know, the karaoke that's going on and she is in his ear screaming at him i mean throwing her body into it you could tell she was just christmas or thanksgiving thanksgiving uh and you could just tell that she was just fucking losing it on him and it was all because she wanted to go home and my dad wanted to stay and hang out with his family i don't know much about his ex or his wife. Um, so I'm going to be completely honest because I, I think that she's a great woman for taking care of my dad,

but I think she's doing it for alternative reasons. My dad is a slumlord. Bill has somehow acquired a bunch of fucking shitty ass properties. And I never knew how they met. But I did know that she was like living with some really, some really like overweight guy who couldn't take care of himself. And she was like his caretaker. And then she jumped ship and ended up getting with my dad. That's what I was told. So I've never really known how they've gotten together the past few weeks that have passed they have been fighting like cats and dogs my dad got news from Vanderbilt that they couldn't do

anything for him anymore and that he just pretty much had to wait it out and was gonna die soon so I told my dad make a bucket list whatever you want to do. I'll pay for it. Let's make it happen. And all they've been doing is fighting. And it's just been breaking my heart because I feel like if I was on my deathbed, the last thing I would want to do is be arguing with somebody like that is not what, how I want my life to end, you know, but I stay out of it because it's none of my business. I went over there one day and there was broken glass everywhere and I couldn't figure out why there was broken glass everywhere, but I didn't ask because again, don't ask, don't tell. I don't want to know.

Um, I get a phone call from his wife one night and she's like, I can't fucking take it anymore. I'm leaving your dad for the night. I need to go somewhere and reset. Mind you, my dad is in a wheelchair, cannot fucking take care of himself at all. But I thought that he was in the hospital because he had to get like some blood work done or something like that. So I was like, okay, go take, you know, go take time, you know, whatever you need. And I'll just go check. Yeah, he's under care. So go, go do what you got to do. She, she was mad because this lady has been helping my dad with this, uh, device that he has for like the past six months. And it's like this device to heal cancer. And she was giving him protocols and she's like, he doesn't need me. He just wants her and blah, blah, blah, being jealous of my dad trying to heal his body. And I was like, all right, Suzanne, whatever,

go fucking do what you got to do. And so anyways, I call my dad. Well, she wants me to call this lady, his wife. So I call the lady and I'm like, Hey, you know, she's like, I don't understand what's going on. I'm just trying to help your dad. And I'm like, I, I'm like, they've been fighting. I'm like, you know, until I call you back, let me figure out what's going on, you know, but until then maybe don't call my dad. Cause it's causing fights right now. Just getting her side. You know, I call my dad and I have this recorded. Like I, I record all conversations with my dad because, um, Jay told me you're going to regret never hearing his voice. So anytime I talk to my dad, I just record his voice. Um, because I just always want to have those memories.

And I called my dad and he's crying and I'm like, dad, what's going on? And he's like, you know, I have never told you this because I don't want to burden you. And I don't want to, um, you know, have to put this on your shoulders. He's like, but you know, Suzanne was homeless when I met her and I took her in off the street thinking that I could help her, which infuriated me instantly because when my dad, I first found out that my dad was married a couple of years ago, I freaked out on him. And I was like, dad, you don't know this woman. You just bought a house with her. I'm like, what the fuck is is going on and he shut me out of his life for like a year because I would not fucking accept his new wife there and you wouldn't have a relationship yeah he was trying to force me to have a relationship with her and I said I will

be nice to her but I'm not gonna fucking call her mom yeah and I'm not gonna fucking have a relationship with her because I don't have to my dad shut me out for a year and then the time the one time I did finally see him again was when I found out he had cancer and I flew to him so that was me seeing my dad after a year so anyways um I didn't say anything and I was just like okay well I was like that's that's kind of crazy dad because you made her the executor of your will and he's like well that's not gonna happen and I'm like what's not gonna happen he's like I'll take her out of the will and I was like well dad what do you need me to do I'm like you're at the hospital right now and he's like no I'm at home I'm like you're at home I'm like she left you yeah I'm like she left you at home by yourself and he's like yeah um and I was like okay well

I'm gonna come over but before that he had told me that she was getting really violent with him and that she's breaking stuff and that breaks my heart because my dad is so fucking like fragile and in a wheelchair and granted Bill is a fucking dick and he says mean things and I get it I understand that but it just all came together the broken glass at that point in your life yeah The broken glass that I had seen and all that stuff. So I, and just, it showed me her screaming at him at fucking Thanksgiving.

So it all kind of came to a head and sat back and I've watched how she's manipulated things. And like, she's a liar straight up. She's a fucking liar and she manipulates what my dad has a type. So it's whatever. And she takes care of him. So I'll give her that.

Um, he also said that like, she'll lock up his medicine and won't give it to him when he needs it. Granted, I have all this on fucking recording. So I race over to my dad's. I tell Kayla and Blake, I'm like, Hey, we're going to go get my dad. We're going to move them into our house. And, uh, they're like, cool. Let's, let's go. So I get to the house first. I walk in. Guess who's fucking there? Suzanne. She's there with my dad. And I'm like, oh, fancy seeing you here. But by this time, I'm already fucking pissed because I'm like, you're being violent around my dad. Like, I will toss you up like a fucking rag doll, you know. And but I didn't. I calmly and collectively sat down and I have this entire fucking conversation recorded. And I said, we all need to have a conversation. And my dad was like, well, I'd like to talk to you alone. And she's like, Bill, do you want to talk to her alone? And my dad's like, yeah,

but you know, is there anything you want to say? And of course she wouldn't fucking leave because she knows that my dad will tell me the truth about her. And I saw that she wasn't leaving. So I was like, we need to have a conversation all of us and we all need to be fucking real I was like dad if you don't want to be with Suzanne I will send her back to fucking Texas right now and you can move in with us and I just saw Suzanne's face fucking like she couldn't believe I said that to her but I'm like I'm thinking this lady's fucking throwing shit being violent with my dad like know, I thought I held it together pretty fucking cool. I said, Kayla and Blake are on their way over right now.

I'll move you right now. And my dad's like, well, you know, if we can work things out and need it there, we need a therapist. But if we can really work things out, then I'd like to stay with Suzanne. And I said, yeah, but if she's fucking throwing shit and being violent with you around, like that shit fucking infuriates me. This woman starts screaming at the fucking top of her lungs so bad that Chachi got up and chased after her because it was like the shrillest sound.

And I can't handle that because I grew up in a fucking house where there was nothing but screaming. She's running around the house. Bill, you're lying. I didn't do that. And then my dad looks at her and goes, I'm sorry, honey. I shouldn't have said that. Come back.

And I look at my dad and I go, Dad, is she throwing shit? Is she being violent? And he's like, well, I heard a noise. Like a battered woman, you know? Like he's covering for her. And I'm like, what the fuck? And Suzanne is still fucking screaming. So I said, Suzanne, shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down.

You two are acting like children. I was like, I can't fucking handle the emotional shit, dude. I was like, let's just get through this and figure out how we're going to get through this. That's it. That was the whole conversation. We ended up talking for like 15 more minutes. They made a game plan to get a counselor. Everything was good.

I had to leave to go to the award shows. I thought everything was fine. I text Suzanne later that night. I said, Hey, I'm sorry for yelling, but I can't, I grew up in a house where there's nothing but screaming. And that shit triggers me. I said, but I love you. And thank you for taking care of my dad or something like that. She texts me back. Everything was fine fine i get a text message i hadn't talked to my my dad in a couple days because i had to do the award shows the cmts all that stuff or no no i'm sorry we had done iheart awards and we were on our way to the cmts my dad texted me at five o'clock that morning before i get on the plane after the night we had of almost dying on the fucking plane goes down yeah and says hey i moved

back to texas thanks for everything and that's it that's all i said and i said what i said you moved back to texas without even talking to me and he was like yeah and what had happened was his fucking wife got her feelings hurt because I yelled at her because she was fucking screaming like a fucking banshee, and then she also saw that she had no control. Like, if I really wanted to separate her from my dad, I could, which I never would, but if she's fucking being violent, of course I am. So this woman loaded my dad up in a wheelchair in his van and drove him back to Texas and did not tell me they left me in a lease that I have signed for a year. Twenty five hundred dollar lease. They left me with a house full of furniture. I had just bought my dad a fucking five thousand dollar bed a couple of weeks before that. My dad, the entire month, the entire fucking time that he's been here

has not fucking paid for one thing so yeah and um I just told my dad I was like that is extremely hurtful for you to do that and I mean it made me cry it was so fucked up that I couldn't believe that even in you the fucking end of your life you will still abandon your daughter who has done nothing but try to be there for you for another woman like when do you stop hurting me for another woman that I she's lucky I haven't filed a complaint yet for elder abuse

I was gonna say all of us immediately were like is it really your dad texting you yeah I feel like she kidnapped him that's literally what i told jason i was like yeah yo so bill got kidnapped and he's like fucking excuse me i was like i mean not literally but kind of yeah i was like he left he's gone and he's like to where and i was like he's he's in texas and he goes do you know how long of a ride on someone's body that is yeah he's not gonna make

it much longer out there he completely changed being out here and flourished so much he did when i some weight when i got him in texas he literally was dying yes um here's my thing my anger is with Suzanne because she's a snake and I know that um but my dad allows it and that's why I haven't intervened yet because I'm not gonna put my dad's last few months that he's alive through hell be with her love her you guys have a fucking blast yeah and you said it that night too you said you guys should be spending these last days together doing and loving each other like doing things you love and just loving on each other like why is it right now that you guys are just screaming yeah that's not how he should be living his last days my I told my dad, make a bucket list. Whatever you want to do, I will scratch it off. My dad is so concerned with trying to live that he's not living.

He's trying so hard to stay alive that he's not living. Yes. And it's fine. I feel like I have cleared all my karma with my dad. I love him. And he's always going to be my favorite human in the world, but it's not okay for what he's done to me and how he's treated me. And that's not me having a victim mentality. That's me putting up boundaries. And I will probably not talk to my dad

again because of this. And I feel like it's her fault. And for that, I will never be able to forgive her. And I don't think I should have to. She has isolated him from everybody. My other sister, you know, just everybody. And she even isolated me from my sister because she told me a bunch of shit my sister said about me, you know, which she did say the stuff and then she took it back. But it was just like the shit she said was so hurtful that I was just like, bro, I can't let you in my life because you're a fucking liability. I can't trust you. You know, like I it's so sad because every person in my family, I cannot fucking trust them. Yeah.

The only person I could fucking trust was my mom and I didn't treat her great. And that's because I had so much resentment against her. But yeah. So there you have it guys good old bill sneaps that's your bill update there's your bill update old fucking old old fucking wild wild west wild wild wild wild bill hickok but yeah so that's what happened and you guys let me know your opinions because I'm really just kind of venting in this podcast. And that's another thing. My dad was like, you know,

she only needs like, um, X amount of dollars. I think it was like 40 or 50 grand to pay off what I'm leaving her. Yeah. Yeah. Bill's a slum Lord. When I say he's a slum Lord, he's a slum Lord. Um, and he's like, you could loan that to her. And I looked right at her. I said, I'm not loaning her a fucking dollar. i was like that's not happening love you but not fucking doing that yeah like it's been crazy dude it's been wild my i'm an aquarius we love justice you know we love to fucking fight the good fight and i don't know if this is the good fight and that's why i need you guys to tell me am i wrong for how i feel no no because you guys in the comments tell me i

would have already gone for her yeah i know we were headed to texas and i was like how far are they yeah like i really would love to but i'm not going to make my dad's last days fucking horrific you know like he's already fucking going through a hard time yeah he doesn't have a long time i even told him that i said dad i don't mean to be rude but your days are numbered why do you want to fucking use each one of these days just fucking being miserable and fighting like that's not fair it's not honestly he also hasn't come to terms with his oh yeah my dad will tell you he's not dying no yeah he does say that a lot and i'm just like i love you and i i'm a manifest queen myself but i mean

you fucking you can look at bill and just see that he's not yeah and the doctors had just told you like hey yeah we've done everything we can we've exhausted all resources he was given three months when you moved him here back in september that he's already lived twice as long as they said he was going to yeah for sure so so we'll see let me know what you guys think in the comments on patreon because i would really like everybody's perspective on it. Because, you know, I'm mad right now. So, of course, I'm going to fucking be ready to ride. But, you know, you never know. If Bill makes it another year, I might be calmed down by then.

I don't know. We'll see. But right now I'm just like, and I think it just triggers so much childhood trauma because I went through this with my fucking stepmom. I ended up having to leave home at 14 because of the woman that my dad chose yeah like this is and then the last girlfriend he had fucking was a fucking tyrant dude and literally fucking was just so mean to me and my sister and it's like every woman he gets with treats us like shit and he allows it. Yeah. You know?

So it's just like, what can we do? Well, I love you guys. That was a really therapeutic podcast. We got it all out there. How long was it? An hour and 53 minutes. We might not drop this.

I mean, I said a lot of shit. We might have to listen. We got to listen back to it. Listen back. Yeah. Listen back. We'll listen back listen. We got to listen back to it. I would listen back. Yeah. I would give it a listen back. We'll listen back.

And if we drop it, just know we probably cut out a lot of shit. Yeah. We probably did. Yeah. But you feel better. So that's all. Yeah. I do.

This was writing your comment and deleting it. Yes. Literally. Yeah. That's exactly what I did. Yes. Wow. Proud of you.

I love you guys. You got anything you want to say? No. You got anything you want to say? Don't stomp want to say don't stomp on butterflies don't stomp on butterflies bitches that's a good shirt are you gonna make it or am i you okay bye thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of dumb blonde i will see you guys next week bye