Dumb Blonde - TBT: Viking Barbie

Episode Date: March 6, 2025

Is there anything Viking Barbie can't do? She's a rapper, singer, gorgeous vixen dominating Only Fans, and she even seems to live a parallel life as Bunnie. This week, she jumps on the mic in the new studio to talk about her healing journey, what it's like having millions of people interested in your life, realizing her value, and how she and her bf Aaron met.Viking Barbie: IG Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Bonnie, who used to be a former sex worker and now hosts the podcast, Dumb Blonde. Most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit. And I was like, I want to be super hot, make a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's wife. That was my goal as a child. And here we are. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of the Dumb Blonde podcast, but we are in the west coast studio today and I thought to myself I was like who would I want to be my first guest on

The podcast in the new studio and it would have to be one of my dear sweet friends I like to consider her like one of my best friends Viking motherfucking barbie is in the house, baby. Hello. Hello. No, I'm really not a talking to a microphone now. Yes. Yeah. She did a podcast last week and she was looking like Ricky Bobby. Yeah. Try to chase the microphone with her mouth. So for those of you who don't know who Viking Barbie is, um, because there are some people out there who don't know who your beautiful ass is. And who think we're the same person.

Yeah, this is who you guys think is always me. She did a song with Jay. She redid Creep with Jay, and she's the hot blonde that's in the video. She's brunette now, so if you're watching this video, just picture her with blonde hair and it'll all make sense. Bunny beat me up and told me I had to dye my hair because it was her thing.

Yeah, I was like, don't be like the parrot. No I'm just kidding. Inside joke guys. So tell people who you are. I am scholar, a gentleman. No I am well getting over being sick so excuse my man voice but yeah just I sing I do comedy Shakespearean things you know everything I don't even know what I am anymore I know like you're just such a smorgasbord of everything but I've always loved that about you because that's how I am like you can't put us into a box like I hate being in a box besides being insanely beautiful you have a great personality you have you can fucking wrap your ass off which most people don't know that but you can also sing too hold on one second can you see the

fly now I see the fly I've been watching it distracting okay um you can wrap your ass off you can sing your ass off you fucking are hilarious you do these skits on Instagram You're huge on Instagram. How many fucking followers do you have on Instagram on one account? I think it's like 11.3 and the other ones 3 million and then so like other like 13 million Yeah, a lot of motherfuckers checking out your titties I do that as well. Yes I show those as well.

She's definitely in the adult industry and if you guys are not subscribed to her fucking OF, you guys need to go shout out your OF real quick. Um, it is actually Viking doll dot private. I know Viking doll dot VIP. And the reason it's Viking doll is because Mattel came for me. They sent you like they sent me a cease and desist, right? Then they went and we didn't desist. So they ended up going to Only Vans

and making them shut me down, which is kind of shitty because there's actually somebody on there using my name. There's a lot of girls who use Barbie. Yeah, and I'm like, hey, why is it me? Bloody favoritism. No, but I mean, Nicki Minaj built her whole fucking brand off Barbie. Yeah, but she has a deal with them. Same thing happened to her.

I found out, believe me, that was the first thing, you know, not that I'm on that level to where I should like, well, Nicki Minaj, you know, like she's like, bitch. Yeah. But yeah, so I don't know. They definitely came for me for that. They came for me with something else. One of my other like merchandise things. So when I do merch, I have to like figure out like how to get around that just sign biking

or something like that yeah you can't do the Barbie anymore it's crazy I hate that so I think what is really cool about a lot of the girls that are in the industry that people don't know you know like you have this crazy story of recovery and redemption and just pretty much like being a phoenix that rises from the ashes. So can we like take it all the way back? Like let's talk about dad, let's talk about where you grew up,

let's talk about- This is where she Barbara Walters me guys. The trailer part of Barbara Walters baby. Let's go. Well, you know, I've risen from the ashes multiple times, I guess, because you think you're done, but it always kind of comes back around, and you're just like, it never ends.

We obviously know that. I was born in Texas, San Antonio, Texas, which I actually just got a house over there, too. My mom was a stripper. And my dad was like, he was a bodybuilder, but he was like a, I wanna say career criminal as well. You know, I guess I've described the story before, but he did, you know, a lot of wild things.

My mom helped. And then- Accomplices. Yeah. Partners in crime. My mom helped and then, um, accomplices, partners in crime. And I think she, well, she had me around 19. So, you know, it was like a pretty young, you know, wild family. And I got older. Um, we moved around a lot. They kind of split up because he was dealing with some stuff with like the mob and she didn't want, um, me to be involved with that.

was dealing with some stuff with like the mob and she didn't want me to be involved with that. Basically what had happened was the CIA or whoever was dealing with the case came and and she heard him say like, Oh, they better not come looking for me because they might find me. And like it was when he was like supposed to get on the stand for some stuff and my mom was like, Yeah, we're gonna go. This is my exit. Yeah. So we left for a while and then I went to go stay at some family's house. And then my dad came and got me. We moved to California and my mom was gone for a while and then she came back and my dad started doing movies. So he ended up being in like Batman and Robin bulletproof.

Okay. But don't blow over that. What was your dad in Batman? He, Bulletproof. Okay, but don't blow over that. What was your dad in Batman? He was Bane. Yep. Yeah. She's always like, yeah, but he did Batman and da da da da. I'm like, no, no, no, let's talk about it. Yeah, he was Bane in Batman and Robin,

the one with all the veins. Yeah, so that was a pretty cool experience. And yeah, where was I? So we're talking about dad. Dad started doing movies. You guys moved to Cali. Yeah, and then he passed away around the time I was around 12.

Actually, I want to say like 11. And then my mom and I ended up moving to the Valley, and she remarried. And then stuff happened with that. She remarried again, so there's like two relationships and then I ended up at around 17 like running away from home and When did the drug addiction start She gets like me whenever she starts talking about her childhood she gets really uncomfortable Well, she's not the one who's talking about her childhood.

No, I have to do it too. And I literally do the same thing. You do. I start getting like all uncomfortable. Yeah. Because I'm like a sensitive hoe now, you know, with all this stuff. Yeah. We're going to talk about all that because we're both on healing journeys and Lord help us.

Yeah. It's like, how am I supposed to like, um, mask up? You know what I mean? And like, you and lord help us. Yeah it's like how am I supposed to like um mask up you know what I mean and like you just berate you know barricade through this. Um so yeah I uh where was I? Dad passed away at 11. Yeah so my mom ended up remarrying a few times. I ran away from home which I think that happened with you too. Um I was like 17. Now our lives are so parallel, it's crazy. Like it's just weird. Yeah, like definitely like symbiosis in like a lot of ways. Even the relationship we have,

which is kind of weird to me, the same age difference, the same kid, the same like, it's just like a very interesting thing. So yeah, I basically ran away, I was with some boy, you know, because that's all that I wanted to do was live in a romance novel. Me too. Yeah, so.

Boys were always my fucking weakness. Yeah, I mean, I wish I would've banged around a little bit. Just saying, I was thinking about that, I'm like, man, I could've banged some beautiful ones and then I was just like in one for eight years, you know? And no offense to him, but you know, he was cute at 18 or 19 eight years you know and no offense to him but you know he was cute at 18 or 19 but you know they get old long in the tooth. I hate it. Some of the dudes I like back out I'm like how are you so bald now like it's

just so crazy. Yeah you're just so cute it's like what happened. I hope he doesn't see this. I feel bad. She said what happened? But yeah, we were basically using partners. But just like, it was fun at first. You guys were using what? Using partners, because we kind of met in this, I was in a relationship that was normal, we met, he took me away from that relationship,

we ran away, we were doing a bunch of coke, we were staying in seedy motels, I was stripping with a fake ID, which I was kind of doing that, but when I was like, I wanna say the first time I stripped was like at 15. So like it was kind of that kind of relationship, and it was all a blast.

Like it was really fun in the beginning. You know what I mean? Don't you ever think back like to childhood, or not even childhood, but those years, and you're just like, man, if I could just be that fucking carefree again. Yeah. Like I didn't have any anxiety back then. It was like just living my life like how how was it to wake up normal with no barely any trauma except for when my parents put me through. Yeah. The stuff mama used to make.

Right. Yeah. We just kept going. You know you just keep making more trauma. Yeah, you traumatize the fuck out of yourself as you grow up. Yeah. Yeah. So we mean it was fun and then it was fun until it wasn't fun. And usually that I mean, it was really when the opiates came in that it wasn't fun anymore because how old was that? I was. I want to say I started doing them around 19. And it was still kinda fun. And then because I was doing like painkillers, you know. And like. Lord D'Urves. Yeah but I started like, then I started kinda like

slanging from my house instead of going to the strip club and dancing and I had someone doing, like being a runner for me. And she would come and like drop it off and pick it up and like literally have pictures of me naked in my bed, just sitting there like a godfather with my coke bags, like just waiting. Like I just got super lazy, you know, like all I did was sit in bed, drink, take pills, do coke, eat.

It was fucking fun, but I used to eat so much when I was an addict and not even think twice about it. Domino's was my go-to thin crust pizza with their fucking chicken nuggets. Oh my God. Yeah. I mean, you, that's thin crust pizza with their fucking chicken nuggets, oh my God. Yeah, I mean, that's the thing. I just became like this shut in, you know what I mean? Because I didn't really wanna leave. I just wanted to be high.

It was pretty awesome. But then it's like over time, you just kinda start, everything erodes. You know, like the relationships erode. And then this relationship that was so great, he starts stealing coke from you secretively. And then you're're like wait a minute like I thought I could trust this person And there's all kinds of other weird shit that happened that I won't put him on blast for Unfortunately, I've only been like three dudes in my whole life, so everyone be like that's that one you know

He's like remarried New wife's watching this right she's like honey. I never knew yeah. Oh, she. He's like remarried. His new wife's watching this. Right. She's like, honey, I never knew. Yeah. Oh, she knows. I bet. But never. Yeah, so it's just it got really crazy. And there's just the strip club lifestyle and stuff like that.

I started dancing at parties that made it even easier for me not to have to like work too hard. You know what I mean? So it's like I go a couple hours a week and I make a couple thousand dollars and like I was not a hustler. Like I'm a hustler now when I got sober

but like I know you were a hustler, bitch. I was not a hustler. I was with drugs. Like I would do what I had to do to get high and I would like sell them. Yeah, to maintain your lifestyle. When it came to like stripping, they would just be like, I'm gonna be like, hey, you wanna dance?

Oh, no? All right. I would make $100, bitch, at the club. It was bad. And I was only 19. There was a problem. But once I started dancing, it was like they were at my, at my will.

It's like, I'm the only stripper you got. You better pay me. It worked out really well because I didn't have to hustle. But yeah, so that all transpired. And then I met a girl. We ended up hitting it off. I was dating a girl while I was with this guy. And she was a heroin addict.

And I ended up being sick one time and I just had to like not be sick. And she was like, oh I don't wanna give you. How many pills were you taking a day? The first round I was taking 40 pills a day. But. God. Norcos and then doing like probably about a gram of coke a day.

But I got clean and then I went and relapsed again. Wow. And then I was doing less. 40 pills a day. I, I couldn't, I would just get sick. So most I could do was like two or three a day. And that was my addiction, but 40 pills. I no wonder you couldn't shit. I couldn't shit off two or three pills. Shitting was but a dream. It was like, it was the thing that, you know, the wealthy only got to afford.

I was like, so yeah. So you got sick one day. I got sick and I was like, hey, can I use like your shit? You know, it's the same shit, you know what I mean? She's like, no, it's not. You're not gonna take this kind of thing. And I was like, yeah, just hook it up, I gotta go to work, give me a hit, one hit,

and I'll fucking go. And she ended up, I ended up talking her into it. You, I don't believe that, talking her into that. Yeah, and she still feels bad about it, but that's a whole nother thing. We ended up breaking up over a lot of, my mom going through my trash. There's a lot to unpack right?

but yeah, so You know so I took it and I went and that's when I was like, okay. Well now I can't get high on the pills What was it like hitting heroin for your first time? I honestly didn't like it It was too heavy. It was dirty feeling it didn't have that like crisp like, you know, if you like painkillers dirty feeling, it didn't have that crisp, you know, if you like painkillers, like that crisp, euphoric. Your eyes change color because it feels so good. And you can just clean the house,

that's how I feel, I get energy from it. Heroin's not like that, you're just like, chin to chest, you're out, and you're just basically numbing. Heavy. Yeah, and I didn't wanna do it, I was like, this stuff sucks. I remember saying that. And then when I went to go take pills, it was not working.

And I was like, OK, this sucks. Oh, no. So just from doing it one time fucked up your whole. Yeah, it fucked up my system. And then trying to take it away, even after one time, I swear it was like either the worst come down or you're already feeling symptoms I can't figure it out like it was horrible. That's terrible

So yeah, I started doing that shit and I was like and it eventually start liking it, you know But it's like you're almost liking it for what you think it is. It's kind of an abusive relationship You know like rather than what it really is like when you're sick, you're like, oh, I can't wait And then the second you get it, you're like that wasn wasn't even that great. What a fucking lackluster. Yeah. So she's like, drink, break my hair. It's also recovering. It's interesting.

And I think it's what makes you, especially to see how far you've come now is what I really want people to see. She's like, fine. All right. So you started using heroin and take me from there. And that was when I was like really like hiding everything, you know, because it was like before, when I was on the pills, the first time before I ever relapsed again and like got off, I would always tell people like, oh, I'm a junkie,

I don't give a fuck, don't ever come for me, I am never gonna rehab. I was proud of it, but once you quit, there's something that happens where, and why quit? I mean, I thought I was sober, I was doing cocaine every day, that was what I thought. My friends still- California sober.

Yeah, my friends still joke with me, you were never sober at that time, you were literally doing coke every day. I'm like, hey, that's like a cigarette, you know what I mean? Yeah. But for me, I got sober off the pills. They had caused so much problems and so much pain.

And so I was kind of embarrassed to tell anyone that I relapsed, I didn't want to tell anyone. So then it just got worse. And when you start hiding shit is when it really yeah You know why were you hiding it? Why did you feel it? Did you had you gone to rehab or do you had? No, how did you get sober? You just went to coke. Well, I had a miscarriage. Okay. Yeah But I didn't ever want kids I just like wanted to like have that one because like the hormones started kicking in right that shit will trick you by the way you're like you can stay pregnant for more than like six weeks like yours like how I want to do is be a mother my

mission in life so like I had this whole thing in my head so I was getting clean for that but it didn't like you know yeah pan out thank God though cuz I was can we normalize people not wanting children you know just pan out. Thank God though, because I was not the time. Can we normalize people not wanting children? You know, just to interject. I feel, I hate, like, people ask Jay, me and Jay, all the time, they're like, are you guys ever gonna have kids? And I'm like, no, I don't fucking want kids.

Like, I don't want to inflict the trauma that my fucking family did on me. Like, I don't want to be responsible for that. I don't think you would do that, but I definitely don't want to. Not now, but if I had a shit one out when I was 18, imagine that kid would be fucked up right now. Well, that's kind of where I was at.

But to be fair, I did detox solely for the fact that I was, so some points there. Yeah. A lot of women can't do it. A lot of people, drug addicts don't do that. But yeah, so that's why I got sober. And then I was like, oh, I can't tell anyone I relapsed. That's embarrassing I got sober and then I was like, oh, I can't tell anyone I relapsed. That's embarrassing after all that.

So I was going through the whole liar addict shit. The house was filthy. It was pretty gross. I mean, I'm already, I'm not gonna lie, I'm a bit of a slob naturally because my father was, I grew up with a slob. You know what I mean? And it's not even any shade.

It's like the man would piss in Gatorade bottles and throw them in the back seat of the car. Oh, so you were married to Jay. Yeah. All right, so your dad was Jay, sorry. No, totally reminds me of him a lot. But I would- This dude will piss in a bathtub.

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It's pretty bad. I couldn't imagine. I mean, there were moments where, you know, like I smoked what I thought was heroin off the floor, but it was like dog turds. I did that with cocaine. I would like rummage for cocaine rocks in my floor. I feel like everyone does that. At least cocaine doesn't look like dog turds. I tried to smoke a cocaine rock thinking it was crack one night.

Like this is how deep the f*****g addiction goes. Like you do weird shit when you're an addict. Especially when you're smoking the dog turd and you know it's not, you know it's not heroin. The little almond roca. I'm like, I know this is an heroin because it doesn't taste like it. I know it's burning weird, but I'm so desperate to believe it is. It might have a hint of heroin. Yeah, some heroin might have gotten on his dog.

So yeah, I mean, I've done all kinds of weird shit. But yeah, so it was just like, and you look at me, people are like, you're not a heroin addict. Like there's something like, I'm like, I think people don't realize like how we all look, you know, different. Yeah, just because you fucking have, your glow up is phenomenal, doesn't mean that you haven't been through some shit. That's why I wanted you to come back on the podcast because a lot of you guys don't know this,

Barb's was, the way I met her five years ago was she was like one of the first people on my podcast. She had like no hesitation, was like, yeah, I'll do it. And fucking so for that, I just always have loved you. And even for more reasons than that. But that was like the beginning of our love affair. And we also have a love affair where we exchange what's wrong with us every day.

All day long. Aaron's always like, it's kind of interesting. Like you wake up every morning, the first thing you say to me isn't good morning. It's like, oh, this is wrong or that's wrong. Last night I slept weird. My arm feels funny. I have a tickle here.

And he's like, I've never in the whole time we've known each other and you've not had something wrong. He's like, and now this is wrong or that's wrong. Last night I slept weird, my arm feels funny. I have a tickle here and he's like, I've never in the whole time we know each other and you've not had something wrong. He's like, and now you have Bunny and she can tell you all the things wrong with her. We just beat off of each other, but it's funny because we have a balance because I calm you down and then you calm me down.

I know, cause you sound crazy. Yeah. But it's like, but then I. You sound crazy too bitch. So like sometimes I'll be like, man, is this what it's like, but then I, so like sometimes I'll be like, man, is this what it's like? Cause this isn't possible. She can't possibly have all the, you know, yeah, no, it's totally, it's totally both of us. We are just, we put the fun and dysfunction. But yeah, so I that's why I wanted you to come back on the podcast was because I want,

now that I have all these fucking listeners and I just want people to get to know you again because I don't feel like anybody's going to go back to episode three and listen unless you guys want to. I think we did. I think like a few years ago in Nashville, but that was pretty far away. Yeah. It was not really like intimate. Yeah, it was. Well, that and I had you and Kata and it didn't really have like, I don't think you guys really

got to like, like get into detail. It was more of like just say how you doing We're dropping in the drops of music and kind of like touched bass So I kind of wanted to just deep dive with you so that people could you know get reacquainted, okay? So you're smoking dog turds So I do it on the mic people like it right jelly makes me burp made me do it on the mic. Some people like it. Right? Jelly makes me burp, made me burp in the mic when I was recording.

He's like, you have to do that. You always do that before you start spinning. So yeah, it was pretty gnarly. I mean, there was, there was maggots in my laundry. Like that's how, and most people, my dude's gonna be like, why do you always tell everybody all this? Well, why were there maggots in my laundry. Like that's how, and most people, my dude's gonna be like, why do you always tell everybody all this? Well, why were there maggots though?

What was happening? Because, well, I had a laundry pile that was all the way, in the kitchen, shoved against the wall all the way up to the ceiling. Like, because we just kept buying clothes, because I mean, I was stripping, you know, but I didn't wanna wash them. Yeah, I still don't wanna wash them.

The sink was right there, and so all the dishes were piled up, and the maggots got from the dishes to the laundry. Wow. So it was top tier. So you were living in a trap house. Yeah. And this is like the fourth one.

OK, so we would get a place, run it into the ground, stop paying rent. We would get evicted. We would find some way to stay there long enough, and then find another place, because I'd make just enough money. I always made enough money like Just to get a nice another nice place and I would always like, you know

You know smooth get my way in there and we dress nice that day and I'd put some tanner on my white face You know anything right and I'm trying to get adjusted in this fucking new studio over here so like we'd always find a new place to just destroy and every time we thought we're gonna keep that one nice, but it never happened. Um, and it's funny. I remember the last place that I, when I'd gotten arrested that we were living in, like the, the guys said, well, you just sit here in the kitchen. Let me know what you think. It was like a nice, like he had just done the house

up, walked outside and I was like, thanks, we're going to talk about it. Lighting up heroin smoking in the kitchen. This guy's outside thinking we're like these like great tenants. You know what I mean? And I was like, God, we were just the worst. It's crazy when you think about the shit that you do whenever you're under the influence. Yeah.

I mean, we got engaged like that and we had a whole wedding planned that no one could get ahold of me for to get flowers or anything. My mom had to basically like, you know, get me in a corner to try and get me to plan this thing. And I ended up having my wedding day while I was in rehab. So the day I was like, well, it's the day. I'm a princess. So how did you get to rehab?

What was that pivotal moment? I went with my best friend to a show, she worked with me and like we danced for these cops, believe it or not. I even remember that show, it was really fun. We were laughing, we were having a good time making jokes with these guys, they were cool, and then we left and we were counting money on the side of the street and other cops pulled up.

This was over in Fountain Valley in Orange County, and they were like, get out of the car, and we're like, oh, we're not doing anything, we're just counting money, we're dancers, and he goes, well, we're the strippers, there's narcotics, and I was like, how offensive. How dare you? Yeah, so my poor friend and her friend who drove us,

who was a preschool teacher that we were paying. Nice. And neither of them had drugs on them, they weren't there for that, you know? Meanwhile, I had heroin and coke on me. And I just bought a really nice, brand new 40 sack of black tar, you know what I mean? It was all shiny and new.

I didn't even get to dip into it. And the cop started looking. And usually I had my bra, he didn't even look at our bras. But for some reason, you know, it's like that universe thing, like it happened to be, and I was like, it's fine, he's not gonna look in this spot. And it was like, I would have never done that. And he found it, of course. Oh no.

Yeah, so that was a whole, fucking, it was the worst because I was- What, did you get charged? What were the charges? Possession of large usable amounts of narcotics, heroin and cocaine or whatever the judge said when I was partially deaf when he said it. I had like all the fluid coming out of my lungs

into my ears in court, I couldn't hear anything. So yeah, went to jail that night. My friend took my money to my boyfriend at the time. She's like, dude, she's like it was the weirdest thing. She's like, I went to go drop your money off and I hadn't seen you guys in a while. He was being so weird. And the whole thing came out.

She didn't even know I was doing heroin. And she's like, I always just thought you had really dirty fingers and I couldn't figure out why. Oh no. It was like, there's just so many things. And then she was fucking pissed and I had really dirty fingers and I couldn't figure out why. Oh no. There's just so many things and then she was fucking pissed because I'd been lying to her and then he was acting crazy. She said it was because he needed the drugs and I had them on me or whatever.

Oh, he was Jonesing. Yeah. Damn. And then my mom came and got him and she took him off. She's like, you're going to rehab kind of thing and and he was like he's a cancer. He was like, okay Didn't even like really fight it. She strip searched him my mom and he's a full-grown man and he was like, okay She's like, let me see the shoes and he was like So like when I was getting out of jail she was like well I took your boyfriend off to rehab

So we're we had to find you a place and I had getting out of jail, she was like, well, I took your boyfriend off to rehab, so we gotta find you a place. And I had no intention of getting sober. I was like, I am not fucking getting sober. Like I just wanna like get high again, even though I've been kicking for days in jail. And it was like, they arrested me before the weekend. It was a three day weekend. I didn't even get, like, it was literally like five days.

And it was. What was that like? Horrible. It was the worst experience, like the worst detox. Like the moment I got in there, there were girls in there that had actually, you know, they're drug addicts too or whatever, they had been through it. Like, oh, what are you kicking?

And I'm like heroin. And she's like, oh, okay. And she's like smoking or shooting. And I was like smoking and she's like, oh, you're fucked. And I was like, what do you mean? She's like, it's way worse detox. She's like, it gets in your bones, it gets in your lungs, it gets everywhere. She's oh, you're fucked. And I was like, what do you mean? She's like, it's way worse detox. So it gets in your bones, it gets in your lungs, it gets everywhere.

She's like, you're gonna. Then shooting it? Shooting's way cleaner. Wow. Yeah. I would never known that. Yeah, so I didn't either. So I was sitting there like, oh, cool. Yeah, thank you, bitch.

Thank you for the anxiety. Yeah, this is what I get to deal with. And it was just like days of just being like puking and shitting. You don't know what to end up putting in the anxiety. And it was just like days of just being puking and shitting. You don't know what to end up put in the toilet. You're completely just hallucinating. My skin was coming off. It was weird. Talking after you're getting over as sickness too is like,

hold on, I gotta pull my shorts out of my vagina. These shorts have been doing this to me all day. It's been very uncomfy. How is those shorts I'd wanna be in your vagina too? Oh well, come on down. So yeah, I detoxed for a few days and it was horrific. Went to court, threw up the whole way to court on the bus. Everyone was lifting their feet

because the whole bottom of the bus was full of my puke. Oh no. Which, you know, their guys were on the bus too and they're all hitting on me still. They're like, so where are you going? I'm like, dude, are you fucking serious right now? Guys don't care. They're like, fucking just give it to me.

Especially those types. They were like giving me little, you know, they had like little pencils they had like smuggled. They were giving me like their number to write them. I was like one was cute, but the point is, right up your alley. There was some potential there. No, so basically I got to court,

like I said I was deaf, I could not hear. It was so weird all the shit went into my ears and I was throwing up on the courtroom floor. I was locked with another girl. And he was like, man, everybody, even my public defender, she came to my cell, this woman that's a public defender, was like, I want your mother's number. And I was like, what do you mean?

She's like, I'm gonna call your mother. Your teeth are gonna fall out. It was the weirdest thing all these people actually gave a shit that you usually don't. You know what I mean? Well they could see that. I think they could see, well first it was my first real offense.

Right. And I was attractive, you could tell, and you could just tell I was on that road. Right. You know what I mean, and they were just like, fuck this girl's gonna fucking ruin her life. Yeah. And she ended up calling my mom and telling her everything.

And I was like like this is fucking lame I'm a grown-ass bitch. What's happening? and so my mom was waiting when I got out of jail and then she basically convinced me to go to To Orange County, which is where I'd have to go to court all the time. She's like you can't leave Orange County You'll never go to court. You're gonna get you're gonna reoffend, you know, right? And so I'm like, that's awesome that your mom had your back. Yeah, she really did you can't leave Orange County, you'll never go to court. You're gonna re-offend, you know? Right. And so I'm like. That's awesome that your mom had your back.

Yeah, she really did. And I was just like, oh fuck. You know, like of course my mom didn't know what drug addiction was like that. Like her alcoholism is drug addiction. So we were all at the thing and she gave me like some wine to sleep. Which I mean, I probably needed to be honest.

Right. And she's putting me in rehab. She's like, you're going to rehab the next day. She's loving you the way that she knew how. Yeah, she was trying to figure out how to like knock me out because I was still kicking. I remember sleeping in bed next to her and I was hallucinating so bad

that I thought we were on a pirate ship and the sheets were like the masts and I was like you're not able to sleep. You know what I mean? Because you go from being on heroin to being highly alert. Like your brain doesn't sleep anymore. So it was just the weirdest.

It's like it puts a cloak over you. Yeah, so she was trying to give me, she had like little pills too, she was like, take this, I'm like giving me shit. I think she was trying to keep me from taking off. Right. So we ended up, some lady in the lobby told her of a place called the Rock Center.

And it was like, in Garden Grove, it was like this low bottom indigent rehab, it was a really dope place. I had a blast. It was basically like being in a co-ed, like a college full of dirtbags, you know what I mean? Which is perfect for me, we had a really good time. That's what I tell everybody whenever my parents

admitted me into the mental hospital. I was like, I found my people. I had the best time there. It was so fun. I was like, I found my people. I had the best time there. It was so fun. Everyone was like, I was the craziest person, which kind of was a letdown, not gonna lie. At first I was like, now I'm like super sane, but like at that time coming out,

like I was on another level. Like everyone was like, whoa, like they're making, but they're like, dude, you're not gonna make it. You're about, you're like a foot out the door. There's no way you're not gonna get discharged. You know what I mean? And they were just, because I was like, dude, you're not gonna make it. You're about, you're like a foot out the door. There's no way you're not gonna get discharged. You know what I mean? And they were just, because I was like, in there just, I was weird for one.

I said weird shit, like really weird shit. I talked about death a lot. I did a lot of like burning myself and like telling people about it, which is not, you know. But I was trying to like kind of fill that void. You know what I mean? And the boys there weren't that cute, but they all looked cute to me at the time.

I was like, and I didn't bang any of them, but I wanted to make out with all of them. I was like making out with everybody. I was like trying to keep myself. You're like, I just wanna feel something. Yeah, give me something. And then, you know, at that point I ended up I ended up making it part of the reason was because they said I wasn't gonna Make it and I don't like anybody telling me what I'm not gonna do

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b-u-n-n-i-e for 365 day returns plus free shipping on your order. That's Q UI and CE Com slash bunny to get free shipping and 365 day returns points comm slash bunny Um, I ended up at the sober living upstairs. I managed the sober living which is basically you just log people in and out It's not really managing it, but I was like in charge. So I was actually trusted which was new got a little car Where's your boyfriend at this time still in rehab. Oh yeah, that guy, she's like, I was making out with the dudes because I was, but yeah, I was, I was so on another level and, and it was funny because we dropped him off at rehab before we went to take me and me and him were making out in the lobby. I had vomit in my hair from, and he was like, I love you. And I was like, yeah, you know, like this whole thing. was like, I love you, and I was like, yeah, you know,

like this whole thing. And then like I got to rehab and I was devastated. All I talked about, I love you, and you're the love of my life and all that shit. And the second like we hung out and I was sober and like I was just like, he would do weird shit. He gave you the ick. Yeah, and it was just, it was messing with me

because poor thing, he really did love me. You know what I mean? He was like, he, everything was fine. He didn't change You know I mean like but I was just like I didn't feel it all anymore like the veil was lifted Yeah, I was like I never had fallen in love with him I knew I wasn't even when we first started dating I knew he was just pretty and he was and he was fun right I mean and he was wild like me But I was like,

with the drugs, you think you're in love. You know what I mean? So I was like back to that, where I'm like, I don't wanna have sex with you. You know what I mean? Like, and I didn't know. I don't wanna go back to smoking cat turds. Yeah, so, and I probably that had something to do with it.

You know, like subconsciously, you know, you're like, oh, I don't wanna go back to that life. Right, well it just reminds you of all the shit you just went through. Yeah, so I ended up meeting someone else there and then we ended up together and that was like started out really great We were both sober. We both sponsored people. We both did like the whole thing And then you know, he started going out, you know, I mean and that that's when things got shitty, you know what I mean? Because I wanted to stay sober.

I even relapsed on alcohol with him at one point, and then I was like, I don't wanna do this anymore. First of all, I'm the designated driver. This isn't what I wanna do. We would go out and I would drive, and he would get to drink, and so I was like, this isn't fun for me, right? You know what I mean? So I was like and then he started getting worse

He started doing other things and he brought coke home and I was like, okay, I'm done. Well, it was just a fucking spiral So I literally was like I'm just gonna like we're gonna stop. You know, I mean altogether And actually I think he pushed it even further. He disappeared one night and he never did anything like that And so all night long I didn't know where he was, but he was definitely like a puppy dog type, so he would hit me up every once in a while. Most guys just disappear. I was like, I could get ahold of him enough

to know he was alive and I was able to get out of him where he was. So then I came and grabbed him. What was he doing? He was working the WeHo crowd, and some guy, they were doing a bunch of fucking meth and the dude was paying him to hang out. I don't fucking know.

You know what I mean? He was getting the old trombone. No. I don't think he was doing that. But you know what I mean? I know shit gets weird. You know what I mean? On meth especially.

With dudes. They say you're only one unit away from an experience But yeah, so I was like but either way the thing I was concerned with was like why is he out on it? What's going on? So, yeah, you know and I went a full borderline episode which I hadn't had in forever You know, like I'm like I waited up with the extension cord. I'm like beating him with the extension cord I was going losing my mind and then I like because he triggered your abandonment issues. So bad. And then I started doing the self-harm thing in myself in the bathroom.

I was like, what is happening? Yeah. That's when I was like, no more alcohol, nothing. I'm even going to stop doing it. We went back to meetings. And then it came back around again. It kept being like me trying to save this person who was just constantly going out.

And I was like, I had to basically make a choice. You know what I mean? Like either I stay sober or this guy's gonna take me out. You know? Which was the best decision ever because then I was able to like actually work on me, kind of because I met someone else instantly. But that's a Libra thing.

There's a Pat, no, it's a trauma thing. So the guy I'm with now, I met right out of that relationship. And we're actually like business partners and stuff. So it's like it works really well. Warbucks. Yeah. Shout out Daddy Warbucks. Daddy Warbucks.

And, you know, it just kind of works out because we're both, first of all, he doesn't, he's basically me with a penis. How did you meet Aaron? Are we allowed to use government names? He hit me up on Instagram and I had like 5,000 followers and he was like. Yeah, let's talk about how you got into your insta-thought-dom.

Yes, so he was like, hey, why do you only have 5,000 followers? That's such an Aaron line. And I was like, and I thought he was gonna hit on me and he wasn't and he was like, I have this thing I wanna start that's like a Snapchat premium where you have like multiple girls

and like they pay for your Snapchat and you could get like $10,000 a month. And at that time I was like $10,000 extra a month. Like man, I was like jerking dudes off for that. You know what I mean? I was like, but dudes off for that. You know what I mean? I was like, but you know. Eww. Um, only jerking off though.

Only the hand is a slut. Nobody here judges. Only the hand is a slut. I like to touch Erin with it. Like it's your wooden paw. Like it's made of stone. I'm always like, I'm such a clean girl with this hand. That's all right.

I was not. Yeah. Um, so yeah, he, he always like, I'm such a clean girl with this hand. That's all right, I was not. Yeah. So yeah, he was like, well, would you do a Snapchat takeover for me? He had a big Snapchat that was like 80k Snapchat, which was huge at that time. And I was like, I don't know what that is, but I'm willing to do it.

And he's like, you just go on there and answer questions and do whatever. And he's like, you should have millions of followers. They're really hot. You could make money. And I was like, you know, he's like, you just go on there and answer questions, do whatever. And he's like, you should have millions of followers. They're really hot. You could make money. And I was like, he's like, he's like, you want to make some money? He was the first dude that actually saw

your value monetarily. Yeah. And yeah, because nobody else saw that. I was over at the strip club, shackled for some pussy. Like, I was like. So. Full, Pete the Full. Yeah. Had my little blind man glasses on.

Yeah, so he was like, you know, let's, he's like, let's work on this. And he's like, grow your Instagram. And I was like, he didn't even know what to do at that point with the Instagram. You're like, okay, how? I know, I was like, how do I do that? He goes, well, take some good pictures.

And I was like, okay. And he's like, not the ones you're taking. Those look terrible. He's like, you gotta go to like a really good photographer. Like he was trying to guess. And so I started Those look terrible. He's like, you got to go to like a really good photographer. Like he was trying to guess. And so I started lining up photographers. I started like just posting pictures.

And then he made a separate account. That's where Viking Barbie account was born. Like I had the Kaylee account. Then he made the Viking Barbie account. And he's like, what do you want your name to be? And I was like, well, I usually say Viking Kaylee or Viking Barbie. Like I've had that a bunch of times.

Yeah. And it used to be Norco Barbie. So I think we can just do Viking Barbie now. Yeah. And so he was building that one. I was building it. And we were like both. And then I just started doing both.

And it started like it grew. I did a- Expeditiously. Yeah, it grew. It started with Karma RX. That's my wife. We love Karma. Shout out Karma.

I met Karma through Kayleigh. Yes, and she was the first collab I did, girl, girl. He's like, oh, this chick's making like 60 grand a month, you know, or 40 grand a month on Snap. He's like, this is the person you should talk to. She's dating a friend of mine or something, and I was like, okay, I'm down. You know what I mean?

So I met her, we talked on the phone for four hours the first night We talked now and like we were like basically in love And so it was like when we met like we were just inseparable ever since I mean, it's been like six years You know, I mean and we're just constantly like, you know, which karma and I have the same birthday. So it makes sense Yeah, she literally is a day before me. I have a thing with I'm a Libra so No, but you're a Scorpio Libra that's why you're a cusp. Every single astrologer is like you're basically a Scorpio. Yeah I can see it. Yeah so that that happened then my accounts started growing we start bringing

other girls on. I start he goes hey I don't want to be the weirdo who's like training these girls would you be down to manage them. I don't want to be the creep. Yeah I feel weird doing it. They're going to think it's like a weird thing. He's like, he saw me managing the stripping agency for the guy that I was working for. Yeah. He just like went like little Donald Duck eyes.

And he was like, hey, could you do that for me? Dollar signs. Yeah. So I started doing that, training the girls, teaching them what I do, showing them how to grow a brand, all that stuff. And I just knew, like instinctively, with this job, apparently I was really good at selling

and getting creative ideas, like I'm very creative. I'm just not good at ripping people off. I wish I was, because I would be so much, I would be richer, but I'm just not good at it. Like I'm very, what you see is what you get, and like, this is what I got to sell, you know, you're not gonna see me trying to trick you. You know what I mean? Dollar for a pussy lip. Yeah, except for when I say it's the gardener. You know what I got to sell. You know, you're not going to see me trying to trick you. You know what I mean?

Dollar for a pussy lip. Yeah, except for when I say it's the gardener. You know what I mean? Yeah, it's really not the gardener, guys. Jay and I did, we used to do what you guys do. We kind of ripped it off of you guys whenever I had the OF when I first started it. Oh, I watched it.

And it is so funny. Oh, I watched it. And it is so funny because people are like, that's not fucking the bell boy. You're like, yes it is. Yes, he's 400 pounds, K guys. It's a fucking, you know. It's a fantasy.

Your foreplay. It's a fantasy. You know, Johnny Sins isn't a plumber. Right. You know what I mean? But you know, it's kind of one of those, yeah, anyways. He was down to do that stuff too. You know, like do shows with me and stuff,

which was pretty cool. I mean, why wouldn't he be? Some guys are not like, I'm, you know, I couldn't do that. It's like weird or like, you know, but he's kind of a freak, you know. Right. He will never tell anybody. He's like, shh.

But he's got Scorpio Venus, that's all I'll say. Yeah. So he's like down to do that stuff, it works out. But yeah, we grew the brand together and It just kind of took off from there. We had violent summer. She got huge We at the time we had worked with like Allison Parker. She was huge at the time. We worked with her and then Yeah, it because I've took a code out Emily. Yeah. Well snap started dying

Yeah, and I remember just thinking like oh Okay, what are we done? Yeah, well snap started dying. Yeah, and I remember just thinking like oh, okay You know, I'm not I don't trip though. Like I'm just kind of like alright onto the next whole thing Yeah, what else do I do? You know and like I wasn't we're good at selling ourselves Yeah, I mean and the reality is like I was making so much money though That's the one thing that was a little scary because I was like, oh, how am I ever gonna make this much money? This is like ridiculous money. He's not tripping because he's a businessman.

So he's got like five things he's doing. You know what I mean? He's not even worried about it. But definitely I was a little bit like, okay, what do I do next? And then OnlyFans and all this stuff. And so we did our own platform before we ever went on OnlyFans. And we were gonna die on that hill. You know what I mean? With Nudies, right? Yeah, we're not doing OnlyFans. And we were like gonna die on that hill. You know what I mean?

With Nudies, right? Yeah, we're not doing OnlyFans, it's all about Nudies. So we still have Nudies, I still proposed everything. You get all the videos for like a monthly and all that stuff. But then I was like, hey, can we get the girls like a free OnlyFans at least? You know what I mean? Like they're missing out on some money

and then he agreed to it and then we all had like, so now it's just a whole thing. Just a whole fucking snowball of money. Yeah and then I started rapping, which I know surprised people but you know. Actually you have a song with Tech Nine. Like let's not fucking diminish it. You have a.

I did a cover with Jelly Roll. Hello, I mean we don't talk about Jelly Roll here. I'm just kidding. Yeah no it's one. just kidding. Yeah, no. It's one. Just kidding, daddy. I love you. Yeah, but basically, like, and Crooked Eye, he's pretty dope.

He's like more of an underground type dude. Yeah, I think he did something with Buzz Believe too, Dirtbag. Yes. And I really want to get back into that too. I've been working on some stuff. But I kind of took a hiatus to heel. Yeah, let's talk about that. So I think what is so beautiful about this story too

is not only have you fucking completely changed your life around, now after getting sober, becoming a businesswoman, fucking buying you know, buying a house, doing all the things that fuckin' upstanding citizens do, you are now on a fuckin' healing journey. And I know everybody, I think it's like the cool thing now for everybody to say I'm on my healing journey, but it's like, when you're on a healing journey,

that shit's not fuckin' easy. No. It's brutal, it's terrible. Like, I literally did my first fuckin heart chakra cleanse this week and this shit really works dude. Like, it's fucking crazy. Let's talk about your journey. So, I started about a year ago.

What had happened was I kept going to therapists and they kept diagnosing me. Like I would talk my way into a new diagnosis every time I walked in and I was like you know you've been diagnosed with what go ahead and tell people I was diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder which I was which was news to me because I was like what I'm not the good guy though you know I mean like and I? Spoken like a true narcissist. Right. So I never willingly went out.

I guess during my bad years when I was on drugs, I did mean things to people, but I've always been trying to help everybody. But I guess I didn't know there was other things, like the way I am in relationships and the way I deal with a partner and things like that. So I was shocked, but I was willing to accept it. You know what I mean? I was like, all right, this is what I am. And then I started kind of accepting this story

that was being told to me. I was like, oh, you're borderline, you're a narcissist. This is what you do when you're this way. This is what, you can't be cured. This is who you are I hate that too And that's why I've never gone to get diagnosed because I'd probably have the same diagnosis as you but I just never wanted to Believe that that defined me. I mean and neither does any other narcissist but the point

I'm the good guy. This is the thing if If your mind, and I've told you this before, I've said this to you before, if they have to use a placebo study every time they test a new drug, and the people that have the placebo effect, it's actually not that different. They're like, well, it was slightly elevated in the non-placebo group. Your mind is powerful.

That tells you how powerful. I mean, they've done studies where they've had someone work out out and then people pretend to work out in their mind. And there's only slight difference in the people who physically did it. Oh, well, fuck, I'm going to start doing that every day. Start imagining.

Give me one of those VR things where I'm just like. No, it's a real thing. So I was like this, if I keep telling myself this, it's really going to be real. It's going to be ingrained. I started reading books about it. I was obsessing over it. Then I started noticing the behaviors being my out.

You know what I mean? Where I'd be like, well, I'm just a narcissist. You know what I mean? And it was kind of funny and all that stuff until it's not funny because you're having a bad day or you're having like, you know, and then you start like, it's because I'm like this. It's because this is who I am, you know?

And then you're treating everyone around you like shit because they're like, oh hey, can you maybe take accountability? And you're like, I don't take accountability, I'm a narcissist, haven't you? It's like, you know what I mean? Like it becomes a story, you know? Right.

So I met this guy, Glenn, who obviously like you, I introduced you to too. And he does like nervous system, like work on your nervous system and he doesn't believe in any of that shit right and thank God yeah because it's bullshit guys and I don't want to like I know I'll get heat for this because there's so many people are like no it's not a choice and it's not a choice to like have those traumas but I do believe and this is my belief and this is what I

learned from him is these are trauma responses and everybody can have a pattern of behaviors from these trauma responses. Absolutely. And I believe that too. So and you can, you know, it's like, oh, the gray matter of the brain is, is affected. If you're a narcissist, there's things that can improve gray matter, right? You can do anything you want. You are the master.

You're the alchemist. You could do whatever you want. No, like will whatever you want manifestation, we'll talk about it today. So I started going, I'm not those things. That's a behavior pattern. And we started, yeah, I was over here sipping on some scissors. It's a lot when you talk about your whole life, dude, it's crazy. It's been a while.

It's a great when you talk about your whole life, dude. It's crazy. It's been a while. It's a great story though. So basically he started like training me and reprogramming me and helping me reprogram myself to be like, Hey, these are these personalities of defense that are coming out to protect your inner child. It's not you. Right. And because of that, they're behaviors. And if they're behaviors, what can you do with behaviors? You can change them. You know, so I'm like, you know that I've basically just went into it.

Like I believe this wholeheartedly. I believe it as hard as I believed those diagnosis. She went into it a lot easier than I did. Yeah. She did not want to go into that dying light. She was just like, I was like, I'm just going to fucking, I don't want to be gentle. I don't want to be soft. I still want to be me, but not want to go into that dying light. She was just like, I was like, I'm just going to fucking, I don't want to be gentle. I don't want to be soft. I still want to be me, but I want to heal her.

And that's the thing is like, he even says, you know, he always says it to you. I'm sure it's like you get to keep those parts of yourself. Sometimes it comes in handy to be kind of a bitch, right? You know, those are protecting you in some way. It's when you're being triggered and they're coming out and hijacking you. And that's what happens when you're having a narcissistic injury, uh, narcissistic injury.

And that's what happens when you're having a borderline episode. Um, you know, it's your system being hijacked, you know, essentially. And, and it also, let me also add that like health and diet and things like that, like a huge part into it because it's hard to control your nervous system. If you're eating things, you have inflammation, whatever, but that's another day. Um, but yeah, so I mean, after about a year of going through his nervous system, like we would go into my timeline and like find these triggers and like do these meditations and like, I would just cry and it was like these crazy like releases and I would feel like a thousand pounds lighter.

And then I started noticing the things that used to trigger me in those areas weren't triggering me so much anymore. Yeah. Because I was literally being re-triggered from something that didn't exist anymore. It was old. It's crazy. But like this shit really does work. When I did that heart, um, chakra thing the other day, fucking I bawled my eyes out and literally everything that could possibly trigger me this week has came at me.

And I've, I've maintained my cool and like my piece about all of it. Like, it really does work when you are ready to just fucking submit to the universe, the universe has a funny way of softening you in the times that you need. Yeah. And you're never going to be like super, you know, bunny's never going to be like, Oh, that's not who you know, bunny's never gonna be like But you can control how you respond right and that's that is power Yeah, you know and that's what I've realized I've never felt more powerful than now like I feel like a fucking badass right being You know being able to control your emotions and your nervous system

Which I'm still trying to regulate my nervous system, but the emotions is just so powerful. When it comes up and you're like, you can feel where it's at, and you're like, ooh, what's that? And then it doesn't go here. And then I'm not going like, you're the problem. You know what I mean?

And that's what would happen when I would have a narcissistic injury, let me just go into that. You know what I mean? Somebody does something that I would perceive as a threat or disrespect or whatever, and it's someone that I'm supposed to love, and my eyes literally go black because I'm not there anymore. I'm completely in the moment of this person's hurting

my little guy, you know what I mean? They're coming for me and I'm, release the hounds, you know what I mean? And it's just like a whole, like, I'll look you dead in the eyes and be screaming, guttural, you know, like, you're nothing, you know? Just like insane. You are dead to me.

Yeah, like, and there's been a few times where I've done it over something that's so ridiculous. Yeah, that was my thing. I had the shortest fuse. It's so short, and Aaron was like, it was one time, and he just sat there and looked at me and he was just like, ah, I've never seen someone get so mad over something like this before. My husband had to calm me down a little bit earlier because like, like I said, this week has been

fucking everybody's been coming at me. But I mean, I think it was warranted me finally fucking standing up and saying enough is enough. But Jay has to calm me down sometimes and just talk sensitively he's like do you know who you are like you got to stop fucking responding to people and I'm just hard because you you feel even if you don't want to think like it has some like attack on you there's some part of you yeah that feels something well when people attack my business right and so that's not like you have you self-worth about right I mean so I mean there's so many things you can unpack. Yeah, talk shit about me all day

Don't care can fucking like come for my business. I'm like no. Yeah, no bitch That's what's taking you out of the out of the gutter though, right? Yeah, it's almost like they take family You might as well. Yeah, don't talk shit about my sister My mother yeah but yeah it's it's very much like crazy to be able to see someone and then they try and someone will try and argue with your fight with you like they used to and they can't yeah because you're just like you have a shield of protection here anymore like that person's not here anymore yeah there are some things I still bat

you're always you're not a hundred percent healing is a fucking lifetime Dedication process this shit. I don't know how people when they're like I'm healed because I'm never gonna be healed Yeah, well you're so The one thing about healing is you're self-aware now, you know what I mean? So you're able to go fuck I can't even act like this anymore cuz I right now you know what I mean? so it's kind of one of those things where it's like even Erin was saying like, Hey, you didn't do the dishes. Like it's your turn. And like, I,

I'm like a little brat. Right. I mean, don't tell me what to do. And I don't like to do things. I don't do chores. I don't care if we live in fields. You know what I mean? Like, you know who I am, bitch. I had maggots in the laundry. I smoked cat turds. So like I get that. And then he's like, hey, could you just do it? And he tries to ask me. And there's even that little moment

where I feel threatened and I feel it happen. I have that problem with authority, too. Yeah, it's like an authority thing. And men. I don't like men. This guy's telling me that I did something wrong. I'm bad is what I hear. But I know that's what I hear. And I know that's what I hear and I'm like, fuck, okay.

I'm sorry. And I'm like, but I say it. I say it, damn you. I think you and Erin, are you and Erin ever gonna get married? Yeah. When? I don't know.

I wanna be a bridesmaid. Yeah, I was. Just inviting myself to the wedding. I always joke. Actually, I wanna be the flower girl. I always joke with him when he wants to do another life step. He's like, we should probably get a joint account. And I'm like, when I get my money right.

And I've been saying that for years and he's just like, you. Yeah, it's like I'm done. That's like how J and I are. We fucking he's the same way a life step. I love how you said that when we do another life step. Yeah, I mean, and that's the thing is most girls would be jumping to try and lock this one down. Yeah, this dude's like he's just getting richer. Yeah, like I can't keep up with

them. Right? You know? Hello? Yeah, I know the feeling. I used to make more money than my husband. Now I'm like the peon in the relationship. Here's my measly million. Yeah. Fuck. It's all I got, honey. And, and I'm all for it, because then it's like, man, just think of it, you have to be a pretty big, bad motherfucking man to be able to submit us to begin with. Right.

And then also be in that masculine level so much that we're also kind of putting our feminine, even rich. Right. Like, I can't be rich enough. Right. I'm like, he's like, hey, babe, I just said yes to I can't be rich enough. I'm like, he's like, Hey babe, I just said yes. Like two more $20 million deals. I'm like, what?

Like how? You know? Yeah. No, I stopped. I stopped keeping. I was just like, go daddy, go. I'll take pre-fitty. Yeah.

I need my 10%. Yeah. I turn her in this bitch. Yeah. But the thing is like money has just never been, I should probably care about it more is the problem. Yeah. I'm going to start manifesting my focus been I should probably care about it more is the problem Yeah, I'm gonna start manifest my focus. I'm trying to take my focus off money I'm trying to be more in the moment and trying to you know

Cuz literally just my sign how I was born and I know everybody's like don't blame it on your sign But I was just born to work literally, you know, so it's really hard to fucking break that so it's like, you know Fucking I've just been money-oriented my entire life So this past year I guess I've really tried to like dial back and try to like take time off and try to fucking just you know Let my only fans go that was fucking hard, dude You know, but it's like as you get older and on this healing journey Shit that mattered to you just doesn't matter

anymore. You know, and you just want to be a better soul. It doesn't matter about material things. You can't take that shit with you. Also, I'm terrified of the universe. It's like, no, the, you know, she's a scary bitch gangster. Like seriously, people I have, you know, friends that I talked to that aren't there yet and they're just like, Oh yeah, but he still wouldn't do this. And I'm like, I don't want aren't there yet, and they're just like, oh yeah, but I still wanna do this. And I'm like, mm-mm, I don't want to play anymore. Yeah, yeah. She doesn't stop until you do what you're supposed to.

Right. And so if you keep. You'll get every lesson over and over and over again. Over and over, and you'll have, it'll just hit you back to back, and people are like, everything always happens bad to me. And I'm like, that happened to me too. I stopped doing all that stupid shit and guess what?

Now my life is amazing. It really works that way. It's not like some woo woo, you know what I mean? So it's like, and the moment I stepped away and was like, I'm done with this person or I'm done with this situation and I really did let it go, everything, it was like just abundance, you know? But, and you know when you're supposed to let something go and they say like, you're supposed to let it go. Everything, it was like just abundance, you know?

But, and you know when you're supposed to let something go and they say like you're supposed to let it go when it feels like you don't wanna let it go the most. Like when you feel like you're holding on so tight, that's when you let it go and I was like, that's how it was for me with everything that I moved forward and let go of. Including my personality traits

that I thought were my identity. That's where I'm at now. I'm starting to break down my My aggression I guess you could say and trying to like mellow out a bit because I am so like just fucking Control type a personality is gonna be terrified of you Don't worry about it Not even that it's just that that's the next step in my healing is you know I've been working on all this other shit So now it's like it's time to to break down the shit that I've been holding on to for so long

You know you can apply also to you like remember that have you seen that thing where they're talking about a dangerous man is a man That has the ability to inflict Devastation but chooses not to I, it's no different for us. You know? No, we, I dare you. I've been throwing pennies in that wishing well many times, but at this point I'm like, I don't wish a bitch would.

Because I know who I am, I know what I'm capable of, and I don't wanna do it. I don't wanna be there. So I send everything out the way it is, and if the universe wants to send me somebody who want to play, no, yeah, no, I know. Trust me. This week has been fucking tested, but I think we've done great. I think you've done great on your journey. I think that, you know, you are a role model, like a lot of girls.

And I think what I love about you too, is you're always mentoring women. I love women. Yeah. You're always always preferably some Eastern European ones with large breasts. I would love to mentor those. I call her trucker Tom because she loves big, just jumbly wumblies. I do saggy or the better. She loves, she's like boobs. He loves them, but I do like, I love women in general and I think I've always been protective of women.

You are, you're a good friend. I feel like that's one thing that I've always, there's been moments I haven't been a good friend, so I'm not gonna say, cause we all do that at times. But I do believe that like these days, it's kinda hard to beat. Yeah. You know what I mean?

Like I'm there for people. I don't always, I'm not always calling you. I'm not the one who's going to be there all the time. Right. But I'm the one that if you need me, that's a person to call. And I think that's where it counts. Yeah, I love that about you, though. Yeah, I love that. I love everything you do. What do you what's next? What's next for you? Um, well, I want to start getting creative again. You know, I just wanna get back into my creativity. I did a whole astrology reading where we talked about my human design

and I'm very sacral and that's where creativity is and I haven't felt as creative during this whole healing process. So I'm trying to tap into that and meditate to like, come on, bring me the ideas. Get me back into idea mode because I'm such like an idea guy, you know? And I have been getting them again.

And I just have to jump on them when I get them because sometimes I'm like, oh, is that the one I was supposed to take, Laura? Come on, just do it, you know? Because sometimes when you heal, the thing they don't tell you about healing is how little you're gonna give a fuck about other shit that you thought mattered.

So like the money, the obsessively trying to be better than everybody because you think you have to. And like I just- Competitiveness. I just don't give a shit anymore. So I really need to find the desire to be creative and to do things because I love it and not from trauma. And I think a lot of us girls who've

Done really well in this world. It's a lot of trauma based girls Oh, go go go go go you know I mean absolutely I don't want to be unhappy I don't care how much money I have yeah over it. I love it though. I love what you're doing So you want to get more creative? What about music? I'm definitely going to be going. Uh, I just did a song with Savannah Dexter. I just have to get everything. You guys actually have one out on Savannah's Spotify. She did. I featured on one and she put it on. It's a bop you guys. I love it. It needs to go to tech talk.

Well, we're going to do a video at the same time for both our songs. So that's why I'm putting this one out. So we can do that. Even though she was like, oh my God, this song's a little racy. Of course, Saf. She's like our little sister that we're just like always fucking exposing her.

Like, come here little girl, get on this track. And she's like, what did you just say? Pay me, fuck me. Oh God. You know, Bravo's over there fucking sweating bullets. Just like, Oh shit. What did we fucking get her into? Yeah. But I mean, I just want to get back into it and I think everything will just kind of flow. I know that a barrier self got, you know, it got pretty big.

And it went viral on Tik Tok viral like a few times. Yeah. And it'll keep going viral. It's just one of those songs. You just post it. Yeah, this is you know my thing Oh, I know. I'm always telling her put put this on tik-tok go on tik-tok Here's a titty yeah, um, well, I just love you and thank you for being my first guest in the fucking new studio out here I love you, too. I thank you so much. Why don't you shout out where everybody can find you. Shout out your only fans again and all your Instagrams. So my only fans, Viking doll Viking dot or Viking doll dot VIP. Yeah. And then, um, and then my other account is Vikingbie.com. That's Nudies.

I've got a YouTube, Viking Barbie Music. And my Instagram is viking.barbie. So Mattel, leave me alone. Yeah, so they haven't came for you for the name on Instagram? Not on Instagram, because technically I'm not monetizing the name. Gotcha. So you're allowed to use a handle.

But once you start monetizing it, that's where they came from my my only fans But I feel like there's something I could do and this is the level Like can I change my name? To Viking Barbie, I mean Yeah, that would be a loophole around it. I will do it. Yeah, that's the level willing to be petty Like if it's your name is your name like what's Trisha Paytas doing with Malibu Barbie? Like she named her kid Malibu Barbie.

Right. So, so how is, you know, I think Malibu has accounts and everything. Malibu Barbie can't make money off her name when she's older. I don't know. I'm sure she will be able to, we have to look into that. We're going to look into that. What's your Tik TOK. So people will go follow you and you're on Spotify too.

Uh, Tik TOK I think is viking.barbie2. Yes. I don't know if they think. Just Google Viking Barbie. You'll see her beautiful vagina, her tits, all of it. There's a lot of fakes on there. Go to my verified accounts. Yeah.

Yeah, my, what was the other thing you asked? I think you're on Spotify, right? Under Viking Barbie. Spotify, yes. Viking Barbie, I don't recall. She's just here, ladies and gentlemen. She doesn't know what any of her shit is. Yeah.

Spotify, Apple Music, it's all over the place. They got some good James. Well, I appreciate you. And you need to come back in like another year. Let's not. When was the last time I had you on? Like three years ago? Two years ago?

Two? It was when we did. Music with Jay. Yeah yeah that was the old studio right yeah yeah I was actually when I came down that time I was going through the worst depression I'd ever had yeah I was like crying every five minutes that was so bad girl we were we both went through a really bad fucking depressive shit it was crazy I don't miss those. Me either, man.

I'm fucking so thankful. So thankful. We love you guys. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye. ["Dumb Blonde"]

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