Dumb Blonde - Toxic Fairy: Beautifully Flawed
Episode Date: September 30, 2024The Toxic Fairy flutters her way into Bunnie's studio to talk about her rise to viral fame, her battles with anxiety, and the toxic relationships that shaped her journey. She gets candid abou...t her tumultuous relationship with Flyy, being blackballed online, MJ, Mop, being a mom, and how she dealt with being misunderstood and judged by millions. She spills on the highs and lows of internet stardom, the constant battle to prove who she really is, and how she is leveling up and fighting back against the haters. Watch Full Episodes & More:www.dumbblondeunrated.comToxic Fairy: IG | Website See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
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bunny xo me is this thing on what's up you sexy motherfuckers welcome hey hey baby welcome to another episode
of dumb blonde you guys know i don't do a lot of tiktokers anymore but there's one girl that
has always kind of had a special place in my heart and i promised her i think about a year or two ago i was like whenever you're ready
hit me up and i promise you can come on the podcast and she hit me up a few weeks ago and
i was like come on down baby miss toxic fairy in the house baby hi i'm so i'm happy to be here i'm
you have no idea like i love you so much i want to be just like I mean, you have no idea. Like I love you so much. I want to be just
like you when I grow up. I'm not even kidding. I love you. That's such a compliment. Um, you know,
because I think that you're such a strong girl and that's what I've always seen in you. And I've
always like, I get like between you and MJ and I know you and MJ had your beef in the past,
but I feel like MJ has grown up a lot, especially this year. She's had to grow up a lot. And I've
also had to watch you level up a lot too. You know. She's had to grow up a lot. And I've also had to watch you level up
a lot too, you know, just physically, spiritually, mentally, everything, the shit you go through,
you literally pour your heart out online. And I mean, if people are on TikTok, they know who the
fuck you are. There's no way they can't know who you are, you know? And I just feel like you give
so much of yourself online. And I just respect that because it really comes across authentically I feel like I'm really blackballed too in a sense like people
like people like act like people don't see me how you see me like most of the time I have a lot of
people who do support me like a lot of people love me like you know but a lot of people don't
love me and they the the um the perception they have of me is the complete opposite.
I can't explain it.
I think people are set on wanting to misunderstand you because you're a beautiful girl.
So that immediately makes people jealous, female and male.
Males because they can't have you, females because they want to be like you.
And a lot of people don't know how to be jealous of somebody and admire them.
So they are jealous and they look at them with hatred and I don't think that it's necessarily
that they don't see you I think that's why they hate you is because they do see you if they do
really hate you you know what I'm saying yes but I like the things that they like they say about me
um are the complete like opposite of what I am so it's like I have to fight
for my life all the time but it's I know doesn't it get exhausting it is and like yeah it does
let's take it back because I tried to like research you and I can't find like any backstory to you
like I don't even know like how did you come up with the name toxic fairy like where did you grow
up like how was your childhood so let's kind of bring it all the way back where did you grow up um I was born in
southern Illinois so I was born in Heron like a small town in Heron Illinois and my I moved to
Florida when I was like seven years old because my dad got a job as like a pharmacist in West Palm so we moved from the small town in Illinois to
Florida to get his job there and we lived in like a little one-bedroom apartment in Woodbine like
for a long time and um we just slept like on a mattress on the floor for a little bit till we
got our like house and stuff out there was it just you and your dad no my mom my mom and dad
they're still together for
like years, 30 something years. Are you close with them? Yeah. And they're still, they're still
together and they're just the cutest. I love them so much. And, um, I, I was like, I don't know. I
was always kind of like a bad kid and I regret how I treated my mom when I was younger growing up. I
love her now, but like if I could go back and treat her better yeah then I did I would I love her so much but isn't that the
beauty of growth that at least you can come back and be like you know what I treated you like shit
and I'm so sorry but I love you so much now no I love her so much I think that's like how mom and
daughters are in general because I know my 16 year old sometimes I want to wring her fucking neck
dude but then other times I'm like you are just I love you so much you can do no wrong yeah I hope my baby's not my karma because I love her so much and
I want her to just be a good girl forever she's so cute I can't wait to talk about her
okay yay now I can see your face I'm like sometimes I'll do that I'll be like
I'll be like this and it's i'll be like i'll be like this
and it's so funny maybe maybe you'll be like this lower your fucking mic every time we're good
there you go so you guys lived in woodbine you guys lived in a one-bedroom apartment mattresses
on the floor and then you guys moved up a little bit yeah we got a really nice cute little house
they still live in it it's like a two-story house in palm beach gardens and yeah they have they live a really cute life so but then when i turned um
i was like so fucked up as a kid like seriously it was such an asshole when you say you were so
fucked up what do you mean like attitude or like drugs or what um i didn't start doing drugs until
like i became a stripper like when i turned 18 okay we'll get there then yeah but um I was just
like uh rebellious yeah rebellious I was just so angry like a little like a little kid angry
but it's also probably because I have sisters and stuff like that that I love so much but they're
all my half sisters and I didn't live with them and stuff like that but I um I was always alone
as a kid and I was kind of weird like in high school and I'm like
middle school. I was like emo and I was different, but like, I wasn't even cute yet. I was just like,
and people picked on me all the time. I had a lot of people were picking on me and I didn't have any
friends. I didn't have any siblings. And I came out to Florida like alone. And it just like, I was
just such an angry little. So you half sisters where did where did they come from
they I have a brother and a sister that is my dad's kids and then I have two sisters of my mom's
kids okay they're a lot older than me and then your dad and your mom got together yeah they made
me okay gotcha but I didn't grow up with them okay so where do you think all that anger came
from because you sound like you have kind of like a
picture perfect childhood like yeah things were rough but at the same time you had your family
yeah I did I had my mom and dad but I do also feel like when I was younger they weren't as much as I
love my daughter and I'm like like um like hands-on with her and I give her a bunch of attention I do
feel I'm sorry mom I do feel like she wasn't really mentally there for me
as a kid like she was there but she wasn't there so like I felt alone like my whole like growing up
like literally alone like she was there but she wasn't you know what I mean sorry so she just
wasn't like a hands-on yeah no gotcha no well you know parents and it's no excuse because I feel
like we deal with this with our teenager too because Jay and I are on the road so much that we feel bad because we're like, we're not there for you physically.
You know, I don't ever want her to grow up and be angry because we weren't there.
So we really try to communicate with her.
But I feel like back then, like our parents, well, you're a lot younger than me, but I feel like our parents didn't learn how to start talking to children until recently, you know?
And so I feel like that left a lot of room for like speculation inside your
mind as a child of like, why isn't my mom here?
Well, she also, I think like she, since you had like a,
like she had like an addiction, but not like she, it was legal.
I think she had like a prescription and stuff,
but when you take Xanax and stuff,
like it's not really easy for you to like be like involved because like i remember when we were when i was had just moved
to florida and i was a little girl and it like it was so bad like we were watching um we were my dad
was watching the ball game and my mom was sitting at the table and she had like she just made
spaghetti and like we were all at the table eating but the game was playing my dad and like i remember this and then she just like fell face flirt first into
her spaghetti and like i had like was traumatized as fuck like the ambulance came and like i had to
watch her go on like a stretcher and she like that because she fucking passed out from the damn
xanax and shit it was just like crazy like stuff like that was like was traumatizing to me like
seeing her like abuse that stuff and i was and i wasn't aware of that that that was traumatizing to me, seeing her abuse that stuff. And I wasn't aware of that, that that was what was going on,
because I'm a kid.
I'm not knowing what's going on.
But when I got older, I understood why all of that was happening and stuff.
That's hurtful.
I know.
It's just stuff like that that kind of fucked me up.
Where was dad at when this addiction was going on?
Because you said he was a pharmacist.
He is.
I don't know much details about how she was on medications like that. like i don't know because i still haven't even asked but i was a
little girl so i wasn't aware i don't know how i think she probably just got to a doctor they're
probably easier to get back then yeah but she doesn't take anything now yeah so that's good
yay mom she's really good now mom's amazing and she's making up for it with my daughter like she's
so she's with my daughter right now but she loves my daughter so much and she's so hands-on with my daughter like she's so she's with my daughter right now but she loves my daughter so
much and she's so hands-on with my daughter and i think she's just like making up for
past time with my baby so i appreciate that and i love her i love her so much my mother
and i don't mean to put her down i know she's probably watching this i don't want to put her
down but it's just like the truth like how yeah and it's your truth and i think all that matters
from that situation is that your mom has changed she's changed you know she's gotten better and that's a testament to like what a good mom she is is that
she realized like hey I can't fucking be like this anymore I love her today and she's making it up
with Kalia right that's her name yes um so moving on how were you in school were you always getting
in trouble because if you were that rowdy how was school for you school was so bad like I was so I would go to
school I would skip school well actually let me take it back when I was in like kindergarten
I had like a bunch of one-on-one classes like I think they were like special classes or something
because I couldn't even like listen this was when I was really little I couldn't go in a cafeteria
without it triggering me and like making me like uncomfortable my mom would have to come and sit with me for the first couple days of school
because I couldn't even function in a freaking what's it called a cafeteria and then I had my
own little one-on-one classes with people when people were in regular classes like I'd be on the
playground while other people were in a class or something like that that's what I remember faintly and then when I went to middle school did you suffer from like anxiety I did I had really bad
anxiety I couldn't deal with stuff and I probably I don't know where that like came from trauma yeah
it's probably trauma could have been something that happened you know in your childhood or with
your parents or you know anything can trigger anxiety. So, and I think, I feel like,
how old are you? I'm 25. Yeah. I feel like 20 years ago, they weren't diagnosing kids with anxiety. You know, they were just, it was pretty much like you're a bad kid. Yeah. My dad always
said like, he didn't want me on medication. Cause he said the medication makes kids worse. That's
what he was saying. Yeah. But then when I got to middle school, I just didn't have any friends.
I had like one friend. I'm still friends now. Her name's Kyla and Susie and Amanda but that's a different story but um yeah but then
when I got to high school is when I just stopped I didn't do any of my school work
they would put the papers on my desk I wouldn't even do it like I flunked every single thing I
was just not school just wasn't your thing I feel like you you strike me as a creative
so I think like kids that are just naturally creative they have a really hard time focusing
in school school was never my jam either I literally was like fucking just I was there
and just going through the motions but it's because we have creative spirits where it's
like we just want to be free and we want to create like art and whatever that art is it
doesn't have to necessarily be drawings it could be be like content. It could be, you know, any sort of
art other than fucking learning two plus two or algebra or whatever shit we're being told that
we need to learn at that time. It's kind of like we have a fuck the system mentality. Right. Um,
so you were going through this hard time in high school and junior high and stuff like that.
When you graduated at 18, you decided just like, just like hey I'm gonna be a stripper I didn't end up
graduating I literally dropped out what uh what grade did you drop out in ninth grade
did your parents let you or yeah my dad was so disappointed in me he's like he even said but he
was telling me this at 17 years old and I thought it was a weird thing to say but he was right he's
like you're gonna have to fucking be a stripper or something because I don't know what like but
when he said that I wasn't even thinking about that but he said it like aggressively like mad
because I was just such a piece of shit and he was like you're gonna have to do that I was like
why would my own dad say that and then little like later on I actually did do that I might
have planted a seed and you didn't even know it subconsciously. Yeah. When, take me on your first night of
dancing and how you got involved in that. I went, I, on my first night of dancing,
it was my 18th birthday. And, um, I did such a good job. My first day I made a, I remember I
made a thousand dollars on the first night and I was just sitting in a booth, um, with the same guy
and he just like gave me a bunch of ones and it was a thousand dollars. And I was like, I was probably beginner's luck, but it was just the, I was like, I like this.
I'm going to keep doing this. That was the easiest thing ever. I worked at Monroe's
in West Palm beach. It was pretty cool. How are the strip clubs in Florida?
I don't know how they are now. Cause I haven't danced since before I got pregnant,
but I had a lot of fun dancing. I liked, I loved it, but there's just too much money to make on
the internet now than to go and give my energy to people in real life i make way more on the internet oh i know
and i mean why would you you know you don't have to go and touch people and and work all night long
and be in that environment breathing the smoke touch people anything i feel like i've changed
so much like i'm a completely different person with a completely
different spirit than I was back then I feel like I'm healing like you come on this earth
to heal and I feel like I I might not even have to come back to earth again because I've he I'm
healing at such a young age like I've seen adults still I can tell when someone hasn't even healed
nothing I don't think I don't want to come back here like to earth again so i want to just get it over with and like heal from everything do you
feel like you're you've kind of been tortured like a tortured soul on this earth since birth
yeah is that why you say you don't want to come back yeah i don't i feel like we're on a prison
planet like i don't want to be on this planet like again I want to go somewhere else I understand that 100%
um so when when how old were you when you had Kalaya I was 22 okay so you're dancing from 18
to 19 20 yeah so you danced from 18 till 20 yeah take me on that journey of just the hat is that how you met fly um actually no I met him when I was like I was 19 and um
he was on Instagram but he wasn't like popular on Instagram yet like he had like 5,000 followers
and we were friends for a while and then um we hung out like with everybody like with a big
friend group and um we just never like left
like stopped being friends and cool and then I kind of like I liked him and he didn't like me
at first how could he not like how could he not like you I don't know I guess because he was like
messing with a bunch of girls like a bunch of girls at one time like like a guy like does he
just had a bunch of hoes and stuff like that but i but before him
i was like i had just been getting out of a really toxic relationship right before i met him yeah
let's talk about that with this guy named devron he's horrible he's in prison right now for 15
years because he's such a piece of shit piece of shit how old were you in this relationship
18 19 like i just got out of it okay and um uh yeah he was horrible and abusive and disturbing
he literally used to beat the fuck out of me badly like it was so bad and um harassed me and
my family like threatened to kill my family all the time he'd break into my house and one time
my breaking point like i would have already been over him right like i had already been over him
but he you know how like i don't know if you you don't probably know but he would kept calling
me and calling me and like would manipulate me to get back together with him but I was already
like mentally checked out but this one time that I knew that I had to like literally leave him
alone forever is when he broke into my house on my 19th birthday and um he kept calling and calling
and calling and he was like I answered the no caller id and it and calling, and he was like, I answered the no-caller ID,
and it was my puppy, because I was getting a tattoo, I was getting a tattoo with my friend
for my birthday, and he was mad that I didn't want to hang out with him for my birthday,
because he had work, and he didn't, and I told him not to call off, and I wanted to spend time
with my friends, so he was calling me, and I thought he was at work or something, because
whatever, but then he breaks into my house, and I hear my dog screaming on the phone like like whimpering and I was and I was like is that my
dog he's like yeah and if um imagine what I'll do to your real family if um like after this or
whatever so I literally race home I have my dad meet me in my house this and that and then the
cops are like oh she's fine she's fine whatever they leave like because they saw my dog and they said she was fine but then when I got inside the house and told my dog to
like walk towards me she was dragging her back legs like she's literally paralyzed little pomeranian
puppy because he was jealous of my dog you understand what I'm saying like literally jealous
of her and she was just but there's a good thing after like praying and praying and praying over my dog and stuff like that,
she walked again after literally she was paralyzed and she walks again
and she lives at my parents' house.
Any man that can hurt a fucking animal is a disgusting fucking human being.
He is disgusting.
What did he end up going to prison for?
I think he went to prison for like drugs or something,
like selling a lot of drugs.
But the thing is the craziest craziest most disgusting part about that all is that when i told the police and i
tried to make a report about that they were like um the police were being so weird they're like
nobody was in the house nobody was there when we came like are you sure you didn't do that to your
dog like the police said that to me i was like what the fuck
is the like are we serious like they were never any help when it came to him i would have probably
died like if he did if i didn't get him away when it came to that was gonna that was my next question
when it came to the domestic violence did you ever tell anybody what was going on yeah i would
the cops would come to my house all the time and i would tell them and they would give me cards
he would run away from my house they never took it serious ever he's literally beat my ass with like a pistol
and everything like stomped me out like all types and i couldn't get away with from him because he
knew where i lived i was already mentally checked out and that was right before i met fly so like
how did you meet devron devron he was friends with um my ex-boyfriend Joelle at the time. And I was just like being
petty and was trying to go after his friends. Immature. I would never do something like this
again, but I mean, you're a baby. And then I just, it was just in the same friend group.
So you had moved out cause you said you called your dad to meet you at your house. So once you
started dancing at 18, you were like, I'm out of here. Immediately left my mom's house. Yeah.
Yeah. Well, I'm so happy that
you survived that relationship and got away from that dude because I mean and don't ever feel bad
for going back toxic relationships are so fucking hard to get away from because normally it's like
so passionate and then we just get um addicted to that push and pull and that passion and then
you know the fighting and you get addicted to just the pain
is yeah really generally what it boils down to yeah pretty much and it was just disgusting and
that's whenever after that literally like alex which is fly was in the like a program or like
jail or something with my the ex or whatever because everything's aligned like everything it's a really small world it's crazy
how everything is no I feel like that crowd that you hang out with is like everybody is with
everybody it's really wild literally so he was like locked up in jail with him or whatever that's
and that's crazy how they knew each other and stuff like that and then I was friends with Alex
for a while and then we started dating like after
a few months of like being friends. What is dating to fly? Because I, okay. And I just need to give a
disclaimer because I'm sure fly is going to listen to this. And I feel bad because I feel like every
time somebody comes on the podcast, they're talking shit about him. I genuinely, and I told
you this, do not have a problem with fly. I've met him I don't I've never been in his energy I don't like the things that he does but at the same time you know it's like
I don't know the dude so you know I'm not here to just constantly shit on fly even though fly
you know tries to talk shit and say that he never asks to come on my podcast but he does and he
asked again for him and Kayla to come on the podcast and I didn't even reply to him this time just because I just don't feel like his energy is extremely intense it's not easy
yeah be involved yeah and we'll talk about that in a little bit because I have seen some things
online um so I think because I interact with you I get all the Florida shit literally um so
you met Fly and did you like fall in love with fly
when you first met him or did it like have to grow? It had to grow. Like I was hanging out
with him for a little bit. Um, we were just all hanging out like as friends, we had like a big
friend group or whatever. And then we started to like, like be together. Like it came kind of
naturally. I mean, I liked, I had a crush crush on him or whatever like a little later after hanging out with him I guess we whatever but you asked how does it what is
dating to him like what do you like yeah like what is dating to fly well before he became
like famous he didn't have shit so he was actually like he was way different before like he was
nothing like he is now it It was a totally different version.
Like he's like, I don't know. Are you thankful that you got that version of him?
Absolutely.
That was, uh, and that was the version of him I made a baby with.
And that's, and if I didn't, I'm grateful for him because he gave me the, my biggest
accomplishment.
So if he did anything at all, it was giving me the most beautiful baby in the world.
And without him, it wouldn't have her.
So, yeah.
So you guys get into
a relationship how soon after that do you get pregnant um I got pregnant of like a couple
years after that okay when do you become toxic and when does he become fly because did you guys
start building your platforms together he he started building his platform before I did um
like with the Instagram like he started building his when he
was when I was pregnant so him Enzo and Red were all like doing um Instagram live and stuff like
that but I didn't want to be in the scene like I was just growing a baby we were in like a trap house
and I was just tired of hearing him fucking screaming on the live I didn't even care to
even be on social media at all what was your guys's relationship like before social media? You just said you guys were
living in a trap house. Was he like selling? No, he wasn't doing shit at all. Like I, the reason
that we were making money to be able to pay the rent was because I, I was working on Snapchat.
It was before OnlyFans came on, like had, it was a thing. And I was making money from a premium
Snapchat. So I was able to bring a lot of money in from, like, hustling guys all day on my
Snapchat, but our rent was really cheap, so, like, it was easy to make, like, $1,500, and then
they had a check from their dad passing, but it stopped when they were, like, what, 19 or
something. I don't know about that, but he, but the way that I became, like like my name, Toxic Fairy, we were tripping on acid.
Right. Like I never did acid before.
Like this was a crazy ass trip.
This was before I got pregnant, though.
This was just my username.
We were tripping on acid and I felt like a literal fairy.
Like there was something and I had my crystals all over me and I just felt like a fairy.
So I felt magical magical but I was in
such a toxic dark place in my life so I was still felt magical but it was still like toxic at the
same time so that's how I made that too I love that yeah it's cool it's kind of endearing yeah
um so you when you find take me on the journey of when you found out that you were pregnant um okay so me and Alex have been we're like fighting like so bad all the time it was horrible
we were always fighting and he wasn't an island boy yet right okay and he we had a really bad
Percocet addiction at the time because um he loves to blame this on me but I think that he like
doesn't remember that we did Percocets the same day.
It was introduced to us both at the same day.
Because our whole relationship, we were not on that, like, at all.
And then our friends came over.
Well, they're my friends.
Like, I'm not going to say their names.
But these girls of mine came to my house, and they had, like, Percs, like, and they gave it to both of us like on a plate or whatever they gave it to the
both of us at the same day and that's when we both got addicted to them so like he had but were you
guys dabbling in drugs before that like no well like i took like a xanax here and there but he
i don't even know i don't think he was i think he was doing xanax when i would do xanax but
we never were doing perks the perks is what made him an angry, crazy,
batshit fucking psychopath, whatever.
So like he would even think that I'm like thinking a thought like that I'm not thinking.
Like this one time I was thinking a thought,
not thinking a thought, but he was like,
I know what you're thinking.
And then literally folded the fucking mattress on top of me
and was like freaking out.
And I'm like, I'm not thinking about anything.
He's like, why'd you wipe your nose?
Why did you scratch your head? I know what those gestures mean. Like just losing his fucking mind.
So I would go to Miami and hang out with my friend winter in Miami in her apartment to get away from
him. But I guess like during that time I was going back and forth from Miami and like fucking being
in an abusive relationship with him, I would like escape by getting an Uber to Miami. I guess I was pregnant while I was there, but I couldn't tell.
But I felt nauseous and stuff like that when I came home.
We were falling out.
I wanted to leave the situation already.
Was it physically abusive?
Yeah, but we were both abusive to each other, if I'm going to be honest.
But still, he would provoke me to be like that.
I'm going to defend'm gonna defend myself of course
but um he I found out I was pregnant after I wanted to leave you know and then um I went to
the hospital um and they just told me I was pregnant because I felt like sick so I went
there and they told me that it's scary it's like oh fuck and I'm not gonna get
an abortion right now so I'm just gonna
keep it was fly on board with you keeping the baby yeah yeah but it was just like the worst
time ever to have a baby but then it became the best time ever and I'm really glad I had her
take me on that journey so you find out you're pregnant you're trying to get out of this
relationship but you just found out you're pregnant so do you feel kind of like you're
stuck or do you want to do you feel like this might be like a saving grace for you guys
no I didn't feel stuck I literally was like I'm for my baby I'm gonna get out of this shitty
apartment that we're in you got to go find a job you got to go to work you got to get your
shit together but I'm not paying these I'm not about to do snapchat premium pregnant like i'm gonna go to my mom's house i don't know what the fuck you're gonna do
but you gotta figure it out and you need to become a man and you need to get your fucking life
together and i'm gonna choose this baby over you you have to get the fuck so then he had like this
guy in north carolina that liked him a lot and his name was chico he's a crazy man but if it wasn't liked him a lot like yeah like
he was like a groomer like he was like a an old guy that told him told the boys that they could
like um stay with him up in north carolina and that he knows it i don't know is he so cute is
fly gay no he's not gay okay he's like he's gay for pay like gay baiting but i
don't know maybe i don't think he is not maybe i don't think he personally is but it looks like it
but i don't think so yeah there's just been too many situations with him and other men that just
leave room for the imagination i think since he made like a lot of money off of it that's what
he did it for but i don't know he says he says he's not. Did you ever sleep with Red? I hooked up with Red when I was,
when before we had a baby, it was like around them when we were all in our friend group or whatever.
He, we were sleeping at, I wasn't dating Alex at the time. Like we were just still all friends
or whatever. And then he had like some girl, he was fucking some girl um and me so he's like annoying and um I was sleeping over at Alex's house this is
bad but I don't really care I was sleeping over at Alex's house and they had like twin doors like
literally you could walk into his room from his room and I was like I fucking hate this kid like
he's fucking a bunch of people like a bunch of girls he doesn't take me serious whatever so I was drunk and I went into Frankie's
room and I was like I'm gonna go lay in your brother's room because you keep snoring I remember
it vividly I was like you keep snoring you're not waking up you're not talking to me and I'm gonna
go sleep in Frankie's room because you're being loud right so I go and lay on Frank's bed and I
was like do you have a blanket that I can use on the opposite side and
he's like yeah and he gives me a blanket there's like a throw blanket and he gave to me and I'm
laying all the way on the edge of the bed right and he's like not doing anything but then he grabs
me and then he started started to kiss me or whatever but we didn't have sex that's it didn't
work because he didn't it's like so it didn't work tile dysfunction at such a young age
at such a young age i'm not kidding so no we did not fuck but we kissed yes gotcha um everyone says
we fucked but we didn't like well i feel like it's kind of a thing for them too because i think mj
went through that too with them it's like a weird thing that the brothers have where they hook up
with each other's fucking girlfriends yeah i don't know i i it's just it's fucking weird
right but whatever didn't mj say she like mistaked him for his brother mj said that she thought that
red was alex i'm like get the fuck out of here there's no way they don't even look that much
alike yeah not at all i'm like mj i love you stop it right now but that's definitely a rumor though
like when they're saying oh you fucked him i did not fuck him i literally didn't i just gave you the whole rundown of how it happened like we probably would have if it would
have worked but we didn't so no gotcha i appreciate the honesty um so going back to you you told him
hey you need to get the fuck out of here you need to grow up you need to be a man he went to some
groomer's house in north carolina and you went to moms yes i went to moms and grew the baby in peace okay and he went to north carolina and was in like a um
a trailer park with like rats and roaches and he was living with some like guys who smoked meth
and shit i wanted him to get the fuck away from me dealing like not being a man like he needed to
be a fucking man like he was i'm not i definitely chose kalaya over him and then yeah so he went out there and was making money from like a vape shop
or something but he wasn't even talking to me my whole pregnancy he wouldn't talk to me he's like
you made me come out here you left me so he wasn't there for you when you were pregnant no and he
wasn't there when i had her either so I gave her my last name but then
we got back together um when she was like two months old got back together when she was like
two months old I moved out to North Carolina he started making money on Instagram like Instagram
live he was like having people send him for promos so he was started like pick up a hustle somehow
was making good money so he put us in an apartment and I wanted to go home really bad I wanted to come back to Florida really bad yeah North Carolina
and Florida are two different yeah I was like I can't be here yeah like we got to go so then we
drove my little piece of shit Kia Optima broken down piece of shit you had a car though I know
but like at the time it was like struggling to get back to Florida it was horrible it was hot
baby and we had a little baby.
No, it was just like fucked up the whole shit. And then we got home and then we were bouncing back and forth from my mom's house to his mom's house until we like figured it out. And then we
started to stay at Airbnbs. And then that's when that whole thing where they like got a viral
TikTok was at an Airbnb that we stayed at. That's where everything. So they blew up when they got
on TikTok. You guys kind of like all blew up everything. So they blew up when they got on TikTok.
You guys kind of like all blew up as a family,
I guess you could say, on TikTok from the Island Boy song.
Was it, I'm an island boy, that shit?
Yeah.
So you guys have this little baby.
You guys get this viral moment on TikTok.
You've pretty much been in the trenches with this man.
Yeah, we tried to make it work. Like obviously when I went there there wasn't there my whole pregnancy you tried to make it work came back home
and then when he blew up that's yeah did he just change completely after he blew up like can you
take me down that road yeah he um we well what happened is crazy we were together after he blew
up and then he started I remember
you guys being together I think that's when I started following you yeah we were together but
then um we got into a fight because it was I was getting really toxic because I was still suffering
from postpartum depression with my baby she was like not even one yet or like she's just turned
one yeah around that time she just turned one and I was getting really pissed off that he was leaving and just not
including me I didn't feel included at all like I didn't have anyone to watch Kalia at the time
to being like do the things that he was doing because I was breastfeeding and I was just me
and my baby that was it I didn't trust anyone at this time anything like that and he was just doing
things he went to his first show he didn't invite me he didn't want me to come and his I'm sure that
his mom would have watched her that like so I could have gone for a few hours but he was like
no I don't want you to come he would just go do a bunch of things and not include me and that
shit drove me crazy I was like why are you not including me whatever so then we got in a really
big fight and then I posted his number on Instagram live.
And I was like, call this fucking clown.
Like everybody blow him up.
Right.
And then you're, and then you got to love toxic man.
She don't give a fuck.
She'll stand on business.
Right.
And I was like, okay, everybody call this clown, whatever.
And then MJ got his number from my, from my post.
He flew her out or whatever.
And then they, he was having like a secret relationship with her off the rip like off the rip and I was like I felt lied to because every time I text him because I thought
we were just like in a break and he was like no because he had a bunch of girls over but I didn't
know moved out then yeah I had my own apartment at this point um uh which it sounds like you
needed your own apartment just yeah I had I had my own place but i was still going over there like every every day yeah but um he then he dated the girl but i was like why are you not admitting that
you're with this girl but i had to find out because i seen a video of her um saying oh me
and my man or whatever and i was like your man i was so confused like because he was lying about
it and it was so quick they got together, they were in a relationship quick as fuck. And, like, the day that she flew there, they got together.
And I was like, what?
So that's whenever I pulled up there, and I was, like, trying to get in there and, like, do that thing.
But it's okay.
I love MJ, but she makes some of the dumbest choices.
She's cool.
Like, I don't have a problem with her, but she's a big – like, she broke the fuck out of my heart for a little bit.
But I'm healed from all that, but that was when –
I feel like she did you a favor. she did look she got her karma no yeah she
definitely did me a fucking favor because the best thing that ever happened to me was him leaving me
the fuck alone didn't he fuck selena powell while he was with mj2 or something like that
i don't know yeah probably yeah that was like whole thing too, that they had like a huge fight
about that. Um, so you're raising this baby. What kind of dad is he amongst all the chaos and like
all the shit that you guys go through? Like, you know, what kind of dad is he? Is he at least a
good dad to Kalia when he sees her for five minutes once a month, if she's lucky? Sure.
minutes once a month if she's lucky sure literally sure no no he's not there is speculation online that you only have kalaya like what is it once or twice a week and that his mom has kalaya all the
time can you sorry it's okay every serious question i ask he's over here just fucking sawing logs
no it's okay um no what and what he's over here just fucking sawing logs no it's okay
um no what and what is your relationship because his mom's kind of getting exposed right now online
so let's talk about that too what what is your relationship with her has it always been this
crazy with this woman so yeah no I don't that people that's what I'm trying to tell you people
paint me out to be the worst shit ever the people in our community go live every single
day from the moment they wake up to the moment they go to sleep I only go live sometimes like
if I wanted to go on live all the time like other people but when I'm with my daughter I don't go
live most of the time because I don't I like to spend time with her so I'm only going on live like
twice a week and so people only see me when I'm not with her like you know so they're like thinking oh
this girl must be with her not all the time but never with her because she's never with her on
live or something but they're not processing that i don't go on fucking the internet every single
day and they're not in my life they don't know what the fuck is going on no she gets her every
friday to sunday that's it like that so it's friday saturday sunday out of the week because
she asks
me if she's like, I want to take clay here. I want to be with Kaliah. So yes, that gives me an
opportunity to work instead of me going to, uh, getting a job and having to work seven days a
week and not, and putting her in a daycare and stuff like that. I'm blessed to have a good
support system to where I can have some open time to take to work for my daughter. Cause I'm only,
I'm a single mother mother i'm doing it myself
so no she doesn't have her 24 7 that's a lie i love my daughter i love spending time with my
daughter she's my everything and that's where i hate when people have my mothering fucked up
and yeah she's getting exposed right now for being like crazy to these to the young girls or whatever
amina and like i and actually mj talked about it when she came on the podcast a couple years ago,
and nobody believed her. They were like, you're talking bad about this guy's mom,
and she came with receipts too. Nobody was trying to hear it. Now, all of a sudden, Coco and Amina
have all these receipts, and people believe it. Right. Well, she is undeniably being mean to the
girls or whatever, but personally, and I'm not saying
that's right, I have receipts that I can read our messages from last night about, because there's
this video circulating that everyone knows that she was fighting with, like, her sons in front
of Kalaya, and Amina was holding Kalaya, she was probably, like, one at the time, so this video's,
like, two years old, and someone was like Kalia saw this and
stuff so mind you when she would take my daughter to see him on the weekend this was two years ago
whatever um they weren't telling me that any violence and fighting were going on so I'm
thinking she's safe no one's reaching out to me that this is happening nobody let me know that
my daughter was witnessing these things because I would have came and got her so I'm gonna read you
what I texted
her last night because people are saying oh of course she isn't she's going to keep letting her
see her and she's going to put up with this stuff just so she can have a babysitter but people are
not understanding that I'm setting boundaries behind closed doors and I didn't have to talk
about it on live I could talk about it right now but I didn't want to go live and talk about it
like of course she doesn't want to talk about it I didn't want to talk about it on live I could talk about it right now but I didn't want to go live and talk about it like of course she doesn't want to talk about it I didn't want to talk about it
at the time so I think people also need to realize that this is Kalaya's grandmother it is you know
and so I'm gonna read you um I sent her the thing and uh that someone posted it says see the video
yeah but the video's deleted but um everyone seen it it was basically just how Kalaya was in the
background of the brothers fighting so I texted her and I said I didn basically just how Kalaya was in the background of the brothers
fighting so I texted her and I said I didn't know that Kalaya was involved in any of these situations
I don't like Kalaya hearing these words or being involved in this kind of drama at all I should
have been called to pick her up I've never known Kalaya was involved in these situations I would
have got her I never want to want her in this kind of yelling and let alone physical violence
she shouldn't ever have gone through stuff like this I'm wondering why you guys didn't call me anyone of any by anyone of any of this was
happening in front of her this is absolutely wrong and I don't know why I wasn't contacted
she says Kalaya wasn't there that night I don't know why you're saying she was and then I slowed
down the video sent her like the act like the proof of her in the back and I said Amina is holding her
in the back right there and she goes she's seen all of us argue I said yeah she's seen all of us
argue like trying to justify and I was like but not like that I said nobody's perfect but this is
too far she said um okay do me a favor don't send me more videos whatever so I'm just gonna see where
I'm gonna go to the point where I'm setting the boundaries I said I don't want her to hear or see anyone physically fighting or screaming for hours. Yes, you can say
she's heard us all yell. She has, but nobody's perfect. But to an extent, and I have been working
on myself. Kalaya hasn't seen me ever in an abusive situation except when I was with her
father and she wasn't even talking yet because I got out of that. Me and my daughter have a peaceful
home. We live in a peaceful environment, just the two of us.
I don't put her in those situations.
So that's when she goes over there,
she gets put in those situations that I wasn't aware of.
Sorry, the dog's hair is in my damn throat.
And also I told her,
since people think that I talk shit about Kayla all the time
and I'm in on it.
We'll talk about Kayla too.
I'm going to see what I'm talking about that too. I said, and when she's with you, this is me setting
boundaries. So people would think I'm not setting boundaries. I fucking am setting boundaries with
the child's grandma. Yes. Setting boundaries to reiterate, because this isn't just some lady on
the internet. No, this is my child's grandma. And I was setting boundaries of how I want my daughter
when she sees her. So I said, when she's with you, you i don't want i don't want her to hear
you talking about kayla i don't want her hearing cuss words um i don't want her to hear the word
ugly i don't want to hear the word fat i don't want to hear the word cunt we cuss all the time
like what the fuck that's not like that's inevitable but i don't want her to hear like
disgusting words so if you're taught so i was just saying we all cuss but like try to work on
yourself so this is me and then she was saying she's not going to hear it like she doesn't talk to me crazy like she does to other people you know
she does have a pretty solid relationship so she's understanding me she's not attacking me she's like
I'm definitely not going to um talk about Kayla in front of her I'm gonna not put her in those
situations anymore like so basically moral of the story I'm setting boundaries and people are
thinking I'm enabling it and that I'm in on
it and I'm always just trying to re guide her into a positive light and people think I'm on the phone
with her like fucking like telling her to do all this shit I also feel like the internet is like
it is such a mob mentality and it's like if you don't think and react how they want you to or how
they think you should it it's just all hell breaks
loose and you don't have to always respond to shit with anger you can you can do things in a loving
way and i don't think that people online understand that and i'm gonna read one more yeah i said i
don't want kalaya around anything that's going to cause her trauma if you can't be around frankie
or around alex without fighting with them do not involve kalaya in it see them on your own time
like basically like if you want to go see your sons, don't bring my daughter involved because
you know every single time it's going to turn into something, don't bring her into it. I said,
Kalaya has, I said, see them on your own. Kalaya never had a father anyway, so no need to bring
her around somebody who doesn't want to be there. It's life or peace is better than trying to bring
her around to see her father when it's extremely dysfunctional Kalia can always see you but I don't want her going around them so if you want to see
the twins then see them but please do not bring Kalia that's just like so people are thinking
that I'm like allowing this just so I don't I don't lose out on my babysitter like no I'm setting
my she's not even with my daughter right now she's with my mom because I want since she's going
through all this stuff I don't even want her to be around Kalaya right now because I want her to reflect on things and have some alone time
and maybe work through whatever she's going through. I don't condone any of that shit. I
want her to better herself. I care about the lady. She's a good woman when she's not like in a manic
episode. That was my next question is like, you have around Jenny how long? For like for literally six years.
Yeah.
So like, you know, the type of human that she is.
I mean, I feel like they have they have a really strange relationship.
Fly the twins and their mom.
There's a lot of disrespect going on with with that situation.
It's sad.
It's really sad.
Why do you think that is?
I don't know. Like because. OK, I'm not gonna lie like when I was dating Alex he's their energy is so intense that
it can take you it could drive you crazy so when I was dating him before I had my baby and stuff
he would make me crazy like that so I would be acting out of reactive abuse like acting he would make me lose my fucking mind like that like how she's going
crazy there's not like how she's talking to the girls or whatever but like when she's arguing with
them they'll take you there and like that's why I cut them out of my life because I'm not that
person to want to be arguing like that and like losing my mind like that so I think that like
I'm not saying it's their fault it's's everyone's fault, but because she can eliminate herself from the situation, but dealing with their, like, like them,
it's like kind of difficult to be normal
and not argumentative.
But when it came to Kalaya,
I always chose Kalaya over that.
So you just have to change.
Like you can't keep reacting like that.
Do you think that people also,
cause I've also seen this said that, you know,
you do say that talks are that the dad's environment's environment is toxic and not a good environment for her but then there there will be
lives where sometimes Kalaya will be on your chest and you'll be arguing with like somebody online
how do you think that affects Kalaya so no you have a good point but like it's not there's like
nobody's perfect and since I'm with her all the time like it's hard like when I'm
working and somebody triggered me I'm not like screaming in like a horrible like I'll raise my
voice a little bit but it's not like anything compared to how twisted and dysfunctional that
type of environment is like I'm not cussing saying the worst words in the world like I'm showing
emotion like an angry emotion right but I'm not saying like unacceptable horrible words in front
of her like i i know i'm not perfect but i'm not gonna like tear somebody down like call them ugly
in front of her or like punch somebody in front of her like there's different like yes i fucked up by
like yelling in front of her but it's just an emotion that we all have and that just happened
to be caught on camera i try my best to not put her in that situation but versus like physical
fighting and screaming in the horrible disgusting words for her ears to hear no thanks like yes i
do agree that me arguing with her with her on my lap while i was live a few times is like a few
times out of many days we've had beautiful days like it's just a you know i'm just
i'm just asking because i know people are going to bring it up so it's like we might as well just
address it yeah my my pov of it so um jenny jenny attacking these women how do you feel about amina
and these girls getting attacked by i wish so bad that she could find like she could not do that like I hoped I
want her to find like I want her to find like that peace in her heart not to do that like you
cannot like somebody but you don't have to make it like so like because look at what the situation
it doesn't have to be you don't have to wake up and do it like you can just like
hate her why do you think she does it is it to protect the boys or is she jealous is it because it almost comes across as like she's like jealous of these girls
I don't I don't know why that she does that because she's never done that to me like she's
never done that to me people think that I'm scared of her losing out a babysitter but I think that
she doesn't want she doesn't want to lose Kalia it's not you know what I mean so I don't think
that she takes you guys have a different respect yeah she respects me i respect her and what she does to those girls i
don't like it like i don't i don't sit up there and do that shit with her i always try to guide
her into a different light and tell her it's okay and that there's better things to like there's
other things to do you know like then do this i try to redirect her if she talks to me about it
i'll like she doesn't write those things to me but if she's talking about something I'll just
be like it's okay like don't worry about it just like trying to calm her down because it'll seem
like she's in like a state of mind where she gets stuck in that like vicious state of mind and she
needs to overcome that and heal like she needs to heal from something I'm not sure what it is
so take me on this journey with
okay you guys had broken up the MJ situation had happened and then Kayla enters the picture
and when that happened him and Kayla had dated for a little bit and then you guys tried to be
a thruple yeah well I mean was that real or was that you just coming in to fuck shit up because
you knew you could well because I feel like fly has a soft spot for you i've seen him go online and literally say toxic is prettier than kayla i mean
just the meanest shit that you could say to somebody who's about to have your child yeah
well then he wait no i think are you talking about recently you saw that yeah that was red saying that
that was oh that was red okay but i'm sorry it's okay no i just i know what you're talking about
no that was frankie saying that because he doesn't like her right now or whatever but um he has said that
type of stuff but then when he's with her he'll say that she's prettier it doesn't ever bother
me i don't care he's just like which it doesn't matter it's just disgusting what it's horrible
that's rough to do to two women yeah it's horrible it's horrible like it's like then
shoot like if he was to say that i'm sure that like she could just it like will fuck your head up like you'll just start comparing
yourself and it's just you know it's a fucking nightmare so were you and kayla friends before
she got with alex um no but she came the how i knew her is she was dating linda or whatever
and she came on a road trip with me and alex uh to um californ California when they went on the No Jumper podcast but she was around
us or whatever but we're never friends I I never like opened up to her because I just felt like
weird right I felt a vibe right yeah how do you feel about her now now that she's gonna be having
Kalaya's sibling I am happy that she's giving her a sibling because
so I don't have to do it I don't want any more kids like I'm happy that Kalia is going to be
able to have a brother she kept saying she wanted a sister but I I would have liked her it doesn't
matter to me it's not my world but I would have liked her to have a sister but it's it doesn't
matter and it's not up to me or what of course but I'm happy for her like I
actually genuinely am happy for her I if that makes her happy and gives Kalia a whole entire
freaking sibling that's awesome like I don't have a problem with it at first I was shitty
because I was like if this motherfucker is gonna take care of this kid and didn't ever take care of mine I'm gonna fucking
stand for Kalia but then I was like you know what it's okay like everything is okay like life is
life and I love Kalia enough for the two of us you know a leopard will change its spots before
it changes its habits so I'm curious to see how it plays out with um that whole situation but circling back to the thruple
situation what the hell was that um well like i knew i okay well because i watched this i was
like oh toxic what are we doing well i just like basically it wasn't real like i had been talking
to him or whatever because they to be fair like he kept telling her that he didn't want a relationship with her like he told her that multiple times he didn't want a relationship with
her and they weren't dating or whatever but she liked him whatever but it wasn't me like coming
in and wrecking like the happiest fucking home in the world like I had just been with him like we
had a whole fucking kid like whatever and then like they weren't even dating yet whatever so I
was like let's come in and like do like a publicity stunt like I just left my ex whatever it's a different story whatever I well
I didn't leave him he left me for another girl whatever cool who is that who is that I forget
what's his name um Tyler yeah but he left me for another girl whatever so I was like fuck it let's
make some money like I left we he left me for the bitch whatever and, and then I was, like, calling Alex, I'm, like, we should all just
go viral, and I would go viral, whatever, so I was down to literally just, like, do business
with them and stuff like that, but then me and Kayla got into a fight because we got too drunk
that same night that she, like, that I came there, the exact same night that we were supposed to just,
like, chill together, make money together, we got into an argument because I mean he came to my house and slept with
me like the night before that I came over but she didn't know that I guess and she was like I knew
that you did that because I told her and then she pushed him was like I knew you did that with her
and then when she pushed him that's like when we started fighting and then she left and that's when
like the whole like plot started do you feel a sense
of protection over alex at the moment like now i don't but like at that that in that chapter like
i kind of was like this is the father of my child yeah i was like why did she just push him but now
i don't give a fuck i have no when i tell you i have no feeling for him in my heart like whatsoever
not one nothing i don't give a fuck like at all and I'm so glad but I'm
glad everything like played out the way it is I'm grateful for like all the chapters of my life and
I don't regret anything but I'm so glad that it's over like I want to branch the fuck out like I
want to do different things and be happy dating mop is not going to change things for you. Can we talk about this relationship?
Yeah, me and him are just friends right now.
But you guys weren't friends.
No.
And I feel like when you guys go live,
I don't really watch.
I kind of tuned him out.
He's always giving, I don't know him.
Again, never met him.
But he, to me, seems like he has super dark energy.
He, I think, I mean, we're not getting along right now that's for sure I mean we're getting along right now like I spoke to him before I got here but like
for the past like ever since we went to Orlando we haven't really been getting along are you in
love with him um yeah but like it's I just want I't know. Like if I want things to change, you feel me? Like I want
things to change. And if they don't change, then I'm cool with being friends. Like I'm protecting
my peace more. You know, they say, if you don't find the lesson in each relationship that you're
in, that you're going to keep dating the same man in different bodies. I've heard that. And I just
feel like you're such a beautiful girl and you have so much love to give.
I do. And these boys do not deserve your light. You know, like you genuinely are just a good girl.
And I'm so happy you see that. I'm really grateful because you're so awesome. And like,
as long as like, I'm really grateful that you think that. Of course. And I see it in MJ too.
And I know people think I'm crazy for seeing it in MJ too.
But I mean, I was you guys' age too.
I know when I see a good girl who can actually really do something with their life.
And I really, truly believe that you and MJ are two girls that if you really fucking set
your minds to it, you both could conquer the fucking world.
And I hate to keep bringing MJ into it, but you guys are all.
I know that's your friend.
You know, and it's just like, I really genuinely feel like if you really put your mind
to something toxic you could fucking do it and you don't need these boys you could do it without any
of these boys you could have the boss of any crew but for some reason you just keep dabbling in this
Florida cesspool and I'm just like I'm I can't wait What did you call it? A cesspool? Florida cesspool. It's just toxic.
It's just like nothing is like good ever comes from it.
You know?
I just want to be treated right so fucking bad.
Where do you think that need for being,
wanting love so badly from a man comes from?
I don't know.
Like, I mean, I've always had my dad,
but like, so I don't know. I don't have daddy issues. My but like so I don't know I don't have daddy issues
my dad loves me but was he like very affectionate or like really always he was always working I
don't know maybe I was always alone as a kid maybe that's what it is my dad was awesome he's always
taking care of me he's the best yeah he's always maybe he was always like working like and not home
like I literally lived in Illinois without my dad for like a year when I was a kid it was just me
my mom and I was always I don't
know maybe I've just always been alone and you know like growing up but he was he loves me my
dad so I don't have daddy issues no I don't know well now that you and mop are on a break what do
you see yourself doing like do you ever think that you're just gonna have like a single toxic era
and just start running shit baby because I'm ready for that. Yeah. I swear. Like, I think that's what's going on.
Like, I think that's what's going on right now.
Cause we were so like fucked up and, but we're like, I don't want to like cut him off like
completely.
Like I want to be friends with him.
And we were all like, we had like, you're talking about mop, right?
Yeah.
We had a friendship like before we got back together.
Um, so I wonder if like we could be friends and I could, you know, I think that'll
come in time. I think when you've been with somebody and I don't know what kind of relationship
you guys have, you don't seem like you really want to touch too much on it. Um, and I don't
want to push it. If you do want to talk about it, that's fine also. But I think when you,
you're in such a passionate relationship with somebody, you have to give it time. You're not going to be able to just be friends off the rip.
You guys are going to have to let some time go without talking to each other,
engaging with each other,
not going fucking live with each other.
I think it just hurts my heart to see you get disrespected online like that.
You don't deserve that.
Or to see you crying online.
Like that's,
that's not good.
You know,
like,
and it's one,
you are,
like I said, are such a beautiful girl and you have such a beautiful heart. But two, there's not good you know like and it's one you are like I said are such a beautiful girl and
you have such a beautiful heart but two there's also you know a lot of girls that look up to you
and watching you just continually give your and I'm not here to lecture you I'm just here
no I need to like big sister you like watching you continually go out with these men that do
nothing but treat you like the bare minimum
right isn't your that's gonna hurt you in the long run that's not gonna fucking make you level
up in any way if anything is gonna chip away at your self-confidence and i think you need to just
fucking spread your wings and fly dude like you really need to like go into a cocoon and come out a fucking beautiful butterfly and
love, learn to love yourself without a penis.
I love that.
I love that.
You're a hundred percent right.
100%.
I think that's where I'm, I think that's where I'm headed.
Like I could feel it.
Like I feel good things, but it's turned 26 this month and I just want to focus on myself
this whole year being 26.
I promise you, I spent my entire twentiess and 30s, half of my 30s
fucking chasing men. And it got me fucking nowhere. It got me in a domestic violence relationship
where I could have died in a couple of situations. It got me becoming a drug addict. I was addicted
to pills and cocaine was my favorite and drinking. And I mean, we look back at pictures from fucking
seven years ago and I look fucking 10 years older back then than I do now. And it's like,
it's just crazy when you really just get rid of all the bullshit and you figure out like,
where is this coming from? Why am I attracted to this certain type of person? You know,
when I got with my husband, he was not my type, completely different human
than I've ever been with. And it, he was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.
You know, and did you meet him? I met Jay in 2015. Oh, I love that. Yeah. I met him in 2015.
And then we ended up being together in 2016 after my abusive ex went to prison.
And I just, you know, if it wasn't for my husband, you know, I would not be where I am today. And I
am fine saying that because he really made me want to level up and be a better woman.
So if you have to have a penis around, find somebody who pushes you to be a better woman
and doesn't try to bring you down. I want to attract that. Like I want that to just come to
me. I'm tired of chasing it. Like I just want whatever's for me to just find me while I'm
working on myself. I promise you it will come because I was exactly where you were.
I was, I had just got out of an abusive relationship. I was tired. I was like, I don't
care. I don't want to be with anybody. I just want to fucking be me. And then here comes jelly roll,
you know, and just fucking sweeps me off my feet unexpectedly. And I think when you finally get
really to that place, the universe will do it
in a time that is your time, you know, and even if it takes fucking months, just focus on yourself
because you literally have the world at your hands right now. You have an online presence
where you have people's attention. That is not fucking easy to do. People think that it's so
easy to do and that it's like, Oh, I can get online. I can make content. No, you can't.
You have to be charismatic and you have to have a certain thing about you and you have
that dude.
And it's like, why not fucking quadruple that right now while you can, you know, you have
the world that you're the world is your oyster and I'm done lecturing you.
No, I love that.
I actually need to hear stuff like that because no one's telling me that.
I've been waiting to get you here because I'm just like, man, I just have been wanting
to give you the biggest hug and just let you know like hey there
are people in the world that love you and I know that it can be overshadowed by all the fucking
hate that's online because trust me I get it too motherfuckers have tried to cancel me every other
fucking day but it's just like you have to know that the love outweighs the hate always um so
speaking of leveling up you have some merch hair
for me to look at yes can we look at it and then who's this over here john this is my manager john
john come on in john go ahead give it a cough i may yeah you're good buddy
i'm literally over here petting chachi and his hair keeps going in my throat dude i'm like coughing thank you john
okay so so what do we got well this is just um and i love that you're doing this because this is a
start this is just one of the first um pieces that we ever that we made so far but we're gonna
make different ones but it's cute this is just the first yeah like a you know i love it it's so
cute i love it i love it it's for you and then we yeah
i'll wear it on tour i'll make it a crop top awesome okay and then we have this i had made
a hot sauce too yeah for you it's um my husband loves hot sauce okay perfect so i'm gonna give
you one too and you want to yeah we'll do a review online okay awesome yeah yeah so what
made you want to do a hot sauce um well it was his idea we need to get some toxic outfits
like this yeah come over here john oh wait does he have a mic over there or where you can come
yeah trade we'll trade sorry we didn't know you were going to talk or we would put you guys next
to each other i love yeah he's awesome these so what was your question uh well what can we get
some toxic pieces like this?
I think these would fucking sell.
Yeah, so what we brought was a hoodie.
We did the first run of samples before we came up here,
and we kind of rushed them just to have something ready to gift you guys.
But we're doing a full spread.
We have 12 to 15 pieces we're going to drop.
So we have a full outfit, matching sweatpants, matching hoodie.
We have two different crop top
designs we're dropping cool um like we have three different hot sauce flavors that we're dropping as
well why did we decide to get into hot sauce well i think it's pretty cool and i love hot sauce yeah
well i was spitballing ideas with her and we thought it was like trendy and a little different
for like at least her community yeah i'm seeing like a lot of like bands in like the rock industry um drop different hot sauces and that's kind of where it was inspired but uh but
like in her world i don't really see anybody doing it right so yeah no i thought it was different
that's why i was like where did it come from i love that one more thing um most of the designs
were dropping caters to like all of her females audience. And there's really nothing to cater to the males.
So this is like another reason why.
You need to put toxic on a shirt for the males.
Oh, yeah.
We have that as well.
Yeah.
The dudes will wear the fuck out of you on their shirts.
Yeah.
My person, like my little character is me, but it's animated.
It's like a little anime.
I love that.
I'll put my glasses on and look at it whenever we're done.
Where can people go to buy this?
Is it launched yet or is it still? So we're done. Um, where can people go to buy this? Is it
launched yet or is it still, so we're thinking about launching like within the next month.
Okay. We're going to have, um, like a web store and then we're going to also drop it on the
TikTok shop. Okay, perfect. So no, we're not going to announce a website today. We don't have it yet.
Okay. So working on it. Okay. Gotcha. I'm just happy that you're doing this because this is a
step in the right direction of doing your own shit and it's gonna make you feel so good I already feel good I'm so happy
literally when you start getting those sales coming into and you see people repping your
shit dude it's a whole different feeling and it's gonna turn you into you're gonna be like
motherfuckers now what you're gonna have to level up to come and fucking even talk to me
so I'm trying to become less accessible too like I'm trying to get away from that community that I'm in on live like there's people on there
that don't even fucking deserve a platform and they're just on there and I don't want to associate
with it I want to not associate with them no more yeah no I love that and I'm really proud of you
for even just coming here today and telling your story and speaking your truth and just I love you
and if you ever need anything,
I'm always here for you.
Okay.
Thank you so much.
It was a freaking,
I'm so happy that you let me come on here.
I'm so excited and I love you and you're beautiful.
Dude,
I'm definitely in your corner and I'm rooting for you.
And when you buy it,
when you drop some merch,
I'll go on the website and I'll buy some too.
I love you so much.
And I'll wear it.
Yeah,
for sure.
Why don't you shout out where people can find you online?
Um, you can find me on tiktok at toxic virgo it's t-o-x-i-c-v-i-r-g-o and then my instagram is
toxic fairy t-o-x-i-i-c-f-a-i-i-r-y yay and i have only fans oh yes shout out how's the only fans
doing hold on we didn't even talk about this let's talk about the money maker oh because you know i
support my sex work sisters yeah i'm doing really good on. We didn't even talk about this. Let's talk about the moneymaker. Oh. Because you know I support my sex work sisters.
Yeah.
I'm doing really good on OnlyFans.
I just need to take it a little bit more seriously because I haven't really taken it.
I mean, I've been taking it serious, but the last time I really took it serious was when
I linked with Kayla and then we collabed on there.
So yeah, I have that on there.
But that's the last time.
Are you and Kayla friends now?
Or would you consider you guys
friends we're not friends but she thinks everyone in the fucking world thinks i have a problem with
her and everyone in the fucking world thinks i don't like her and she thinks i like her i don't
give a fuck you're gonna pay me to give a fuck to hate her like i don't hate her i'm proud i'm happy
for her happy congratulations on everything i just don't i don't i don't hate her do i like her
i don't not like her i just i'm not friends with her but i don't have a problem with her like at
all yeah like not one ounce in my heart looks at her and i'm like with any hate i don't hate her
like that's where people have me fucked up i don't hate her well you guys are gonna have to
raise these babies together too so i mean eventually i think that what isn't a friendship
will become a mutual respect of just being baby mamas together you know i think once her and alex
are done you guys will be able to really have a friendship you know if she wants to it doesn't
change anything you know for in my life but if she needs somebody like i don't know you feel me
but like i don't hate anyone I want my daughter to be involved
in her son's life. Like I would never like want anything more than that. Like I did see that
Kalia was at the, um, the gender reveal. Yeah. And I thought that was really big of you and sweet.
Of course. Yeah, absolutely. Thank you for coming on toxic. I'm so happy that you were here and
you're going to come back and visit me whenever you blow up even more and level up even more. Okay. I love you so much. We can come and just be like
brag and just be like, look now what bitches. I love that so much. Thank you so much. I'm going
to send you the link to these pants. I know I need this outfit. I need this outfit for tour.
Not now, right now. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of dumb blonde. I will
see you guys next week. Bye. Thank you.