Dumb Blonde - Trashley Part 2: Meeting Wifey, Sobriety, Healing

Episode Date: March 23, 2022

In part 2 with Trashley, aka Ashley Clark Huffman, she walks us through some of the lowest points of her addiction and family drama and how she came out the other side to find her wife and get back on track, with millions of fans cheering her on. Trashley and Bunnie talk about some of the not-so-glamorous sides of the sex work industry, and Trashley talks about how she deals with the backlash that comes from telling the world just how many people she has slept with.  Trashley: TikTok  Bunnie: Website  Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.comSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. Today, I have a TikTok sensation in the midst. Do you want me to call you Trashly or do you want me to call you Ashley? Yeah, well, I'm happy to be here. He missed, you know, his turn. I was like, wait a minute, you're supposed to turn right right here. He just kept going. So I was about to reach for the handle and there was no fucking handle on the inside of the door. I remember he just kept, he didn't say one word to me. Like his complete, like his whole demeanor just changed.

He ended up going to, I don't know where the hell it was, but it was out in the middle of nowhere. All I remember was like there was storage, you know, storage units. And is this thing on? All right, gentlemen, coming to main stage next. This is Bunny. Get up there. She's got a tornado of titties coming your way. Get those dollar bills ready.

She's got an ass that shakes like Michael J. Fox. So get up there and throw, throw, throw them dollars. Dude, that is fucking iconic. He, you know, raped me so many times. I don't know. I lost count how many times. And I was. He, you know, raped me so many times. I don't know. I lost count how many times. And I was fighting back, you know, and I kept thinking, like, if I'm going to die, I'm going to die, you know, fighting back. Yeah, for sure. Get his skin under your nails and shit.

So that's exactly like I started, you know, hitting and screaming and punching. And, you know, I had scratches from, you know, him, you know, on my face. I remember I even scratched myself um you know there I had scratches from you know him you know on my face I remember I even scratched myself you know and um this happened this went on for maybe like five or six hours oh my god and he was like okay well I'm just done I'm done I'm done with you I'm done with you just shut the fuck up I'm gonna take you back I was like um okay so I'm sitting there and he was like if you make one sound I'm not going to take you back so I just sat there and shut the fuck up like I said and he you know lets me out and at this time at this point I was already on punishment you know with the halfway house because of a mix-up a check situation. So, um, I was on restriction and I had

to be back in the halfway house at right after, you know, like four o'clock, like four 30 was the latest. And at this point it was like either six or seven o'clock at night. And they probably think I went AWOL or something. So I remember when he dropped me off, I was walking back and I was like crying and everything. I was like, what the fuck? I have to come up with an excuse. Like they're going to end up sending me back because this is my second violation. And my first violation was just like not even a whole week ago.

And the house mom already doesn't like me. So I remember walking in and thank God it was this one girl I forget her name but she was always so fucking nice to me and I was like oh thank god and that's exactly what I said when I saw her I said oh thank god and she's like what the hell happened like she can tell like you know I you know something happened but I didn't tell her what happened I you know said you know I after during my lunch break I wasn't feeling good. I went, we can only go to one hospital at the time. Um, because you know, we're still property of the state.

So I said I had either like a really bad ear infection or, um, a toothache or something, but I was like, I had to go get it checked out and I wasn't really, wasn't feeling good. So I went there and it was a long ass wait and when I was coming back I got jumped that's what I said I got jumped by a couple girls I don't know where my papers are I don't know if I left them at the hospital or anything so she was like okay and she was like well let me you know I thought she was gonna drug test me but she didn't but she had me below and me, you know, I thought she was on drug test me, but she didn't, but she had me blow. And of course, you know, I don't drink, you know, at that time I gave up the alcohol. So, um, you know, I blew and I was, you know, blew zero and she was like, okay, well, um,

she's like, I'm going to have to mention this to them. She's like, but I'm just going to say, you know, that you were at the hospital and you told me you were going and, you know, um, because know, that you were at the hospital and you told me you were going. And, you know, because after when you're at the hospital, you have to call them to tell them. Yeah. And they have to come pick you up. So she's like, I'm just going to say that, you know, you forgot to call and you just, you know, walk back. So that's why you really I'm like, OK, that's fine. And she did.

She kept her promise. She didn't say anything. But that's a lot of trauma to fucking have to hold inside and not be able to tell anybody like that seems to be like your go-to is just to not tell anybody and to hold it inside yeah I was used to it like you know anything that would happen even to this day like I well not so much not maybe not so much today but you feel like TikTok's been a little bit of therapy for you to be able to get out and talk about it. Have you ever really sat down and talked to anybody

about your trauma and tried to sort through it? Um, so when we, when we got sober, um, and we'll get to that too. We got sober in December, 2018, you know, we were at methadone clinic and I, one of the stipulations is you have to do counseling. So I did counseling for like two and a half years. But I didn't tell her anything. Now that I'm thinking of, you know, thinking back of it, I didn't tell her anything about my life. I was, you know, passing drug tests. I was doing my groups and my meetings.

You're just kind of going through the motions. Yeah. And you weren't really that's a lot of trauma you're gonna have to unpack it because I'm about to be 42 and literally for my birthday I'm going to a retreat in Scottsdale to where they put you through therapy from Sunday to Sunday for seven days straight 12 hours a day where you can just work through all of the shit that you've had to go through in life wait a a minute. I think I heard about that. It's a Marilyn Murray is the lady's name, uh,

who it's called the Murray method. I just, when you deal with so much trauma, like you have, and obviously like I have too, and you don't address it, it comes out in other ways in your life. I never dealt with depression until I hit 40 years old and it's been brutal the

past fucking year and a half dealing with it. And I just don't want to deal with it anymore. Like I want to heal from it. I'm tired of all my trauma holding me back. So you'll get to that point in your life where you're just like, you know what? I want to go talk to somebody because I'm ready to really heal. You know, us Aquarius, we think we can just do it on our own. And we're a gangster.

Let me tell you something. I've thugged through it. But this shit, I can't thug through. I'm telling you right now. So you have the internet kind of in an uproar right now because of how many people you're saying that you slept with. Yeah. How many people is that? Close to 60,000.

That's a fucking crazy number. That is. That's a lot. Because I have fucked a lot of people too. But that's really not. And mind you, like, obviously I went to prison out of those 20 years.

I went to prison for eight years. Right. I mean, that's not a lot. Like when you are literally on the streets, work in the streets, you're turning tricks like left and right. 10,

15, 20, 20 a day. Those are 20 different people a day. So it's not. And my wife knows about it she did the same life you know i just i i believe you i just think that it's because people that aren't in the life they don't understand it you know but and i thought that was out of all the things you've said that's what the internet wants to fucking get right like she's fucking shitting diapers and fucking pretended she was dead like and you guys want to

fucking trip over the number of people she slept with she's told you that she's fucking been in the industry like i just don't understand it right um so when did um your drug addiction get really crazy um in november 2016 okay, and you were out of the halfway house. Oh yeah. I was out of the halfway house. I married, I was married at this point. Um, I already had my three other three babies. So you have five total or four total. Okay. So, you know, my son, he lives with his, you know, at the time he was living with his grandma. Then I had my four minor children and i was married out but our marriage was the shit right he slept upstairs i was downstairs in the well your choice of men

hasn't been great and that's due to your trauma at all so um at this point after i had my last son um in march of 2015 i think i was going through a postpartum depression. I didn't even know. So I was loading up on Xanax, Klonopin, but, but my Suboxone doctor was prescribing it. Oh yeah. They prescribed me Xanax too. Back in the day, that was like the go-to like, oh, you have this. Okay. Here, take fucking pop a Xanax bar. If I popped a bar now, I'd probably fucking shit myself. Like there's no way I could fuck it. And I used to tell you one night i took 15 bars in one night i overdosed of course but i mean they we didn't know about xanax back in the day right like that you know like nobody educated us on it exactly so we were kind of like the test

monkeys yeah yeah yeah and i i loved i loved my xanies nobody Nobody like I absolutely loved them. And I remember, you know, after a year of, you know, my rendezvous with, you know, Xannies, not my job, so on Suboxone, I ended up getting in contact with one of my cousin's friends. Okay, his was mikos and the day that i started hanging out with mikos my life completely turned upside down it seemed like you know um the day that i hung out with him was in november 2016 it was like a week before um thanksgiving and i started i smoked meth yeah um well i didn't smoke it then I had a rendezvous with meth too yeah it was just that was like our drugs of choice back then yeah thank god there was no fentanyl because I would have probably ended up fucking hurting myself yeah yeah yeah and you know I

I guess I just fell in love with meth like that I loved it and it was weird because uh the people that I was smoking around with I was the only one laugh I would laugh so much so hard I don't know why but it was it was fucking weird but I would just laugh for hours and hours hours every time I smoked meth so like I I enjoyed myself and and um you know I remember thinking like I and I left for a week I left my kids at home I left my husband my husband at home um but I didn't feel bad about him I felt bad about my kids yeah so I'm like I told Miko so I'm like I'm I have to go back home like you know I miss my kids and blah blah blah and so a tweaker world is a whole different world yeah oh yeah and so I um my husband knew that I was sleeping with you know this guy you know and

I texted him I said look I'm I'm not coming back home until you leave because at this point I tried to leave him like three or four times in the past. And he would always say that he was going to kill himself. So I would always stay around because I didn't want that to happen. Not that I cared. I mean, I didn't care. It was just a form of manipulation. Yeah.

I just cared about my kids' feelings. I didn't want their feelings hurt. So I remember, you know, texting him like, I'm not coming back until you leave. So he texts me back a couple hours later. He's like, all right, my mom's coming to pick me up, you know, come down here. Cause the kids are going to be home by themselves. So I, me goes, I tell him, well, let's go. And he's like, are you serious? I'm like, yeah, let's just go. So I, we ended up going down to my house and my then husband was walking out the front door and then my then boyfriend was walking in the back door um all my kids were still up and uh my oldest

daughter was so glad that my husband had left like she did not like him was he abusive yeah but he he was more like um you know go to your room stay in your room kind of thing you know what I mean like he um and it got to the point to where I just got so fucking sick and tired of it and that's when I tried to leave him so many times and then he would make me feel bad you know what I mean so um when I left for the week I just I was not planning on coming back until he fucking left there was no way that I could do it because I felt like he literally drove me crazy like I really feel like he really did yeah um so when Miko's moved in that's when you know I started smoking meth every single day all day smoking crack doing coke um eventually and you were still turning tricks yeah yeah sorry it was not me that was chachi

that's how he feels about crack okay so you were still turning tricks yeah and um and then when did you lose custody of your kids so I lost custody four months later in April of 2017 okay um when did you and wifey meet we met in October of 2018 okay gotcha two weeks after I got out of prison okay so you lost custody of the kids and then where where's Ashley at now so i lost custody of them um because i ended up going to jail so i didn't actually lose custody but what happened was children's services came because they knew i had warrants out the police unfortunately knew me the sheriff knew me i had warrants for child endangerment because a month before then I was pregnant and I went to the hospital because I was having a miscarriage and my and Miko's he was there supposed to watch my kids he wasn't

watching them he fell asleep and it was fucking winter and my kids were outside so the police were called so I get charged with child endangerment so did he though but um so children's services came because they knew that I have no family to take the kids so they're like well you know somebody needs to take the kids so Michael came got the kids um so I still had custody but he just had them because you know I was in jail so at this point between like April 2017 until December 2017 I was in and out of jail like in jail for a month get out for a couple weeks in jail for a month that sort of thing right um so then december 17 or december 2017 comes around um that's when my brother gets out of prison he gets out december 27th the one that molested you yeah okay he um he was in there

for eight years so he gets out he goes he goes, um, you know, to my aunt's house the very next day after he gets out. I did see him, you know, the day that he gets out at my aunt's house. And the very next day I, for some reason, my PO decided to do a house check at my aunt's house out of nowhere. And my aunt called on me I know she did yeah I had horns out and she knew um which is fine I'm glad that she did so I ended up going to jail and that's when I had to do my year you know they were like well we could put you back on probation I said no I just want to do my year get this shit over with because I'm tired of being on probation with you guys just having it loom over your head yeah so um all right so where did we leave off i'm so sorry we had to take a quick break bathroom break oh yeah so um you were talking about okay

you were smoking meth and you had went to the hospital with mico's okay got you guys got charged with child endangerment child Yeah, child endangerment. The baby's getting taken away. Yep. So that's what it was. Okay. So I had warrants out for child endangerment. CPS came, had Michael come down and get the kids. I went to jail. So between April and December 2017, I was in and out of jail. Then my brother gets out, obviously. Okay. Yeah. So my brother gets out and the very next day he gets out I end up going to jail so which I feel like was like a true blessing especially everything that happened when he got out um so my oldest daughter was with my aunt Tricia okay when I went to jail right because I didn't, my, my daughter would not go with

Michael. She refused to go with him. So she, you know, had to go with them, um, or with my aunt. So when I was in prison, um, this was like maybe two months before I was released from prison, my aunt decides to drop my daughter off at her dad's just out of nowhere. And my daughter at this point, she was 12 years old. She didn't know anything about her dad. She's never met her dad. She don't know anything about her dad. And this is the one who he was just like a flash in the pan. Yeah. Okay. Has the seven kids. Yeah. Okay. Gotcha. Yep. So, uh, he just didn't have anybody in your life that you could really count on yeah ever nobody and you know now that I'm thinking you know back on it I

think that my aunt and she didn't tell me um why she did it well actually I never even asked her because you know it's really not important but um she I feel like she did because she did that because of everything that was going on in the home and she, but she didn't want me to know what was going on in the home. Um, so my brother was living with my aunt with his daughter and his daughter at the time was like 16. Um, and so it was my aunt, my brother, his daughter, which was my niece, and then my cousin, Valerie. So she ends up moving back to Ohio from like Idaho or Utah or wherever the hell she was for five years because my grandma was like really sick, you know, and she was dying. So her excuse was, well, I'm going to come back to Ohio and help take care of Ashley's kid. Okay.

So she comes back. And so they all, you know, were, my family smokes meth. That's what, that's just what they do. Even to this day, they smoke meth from the moment they wake up till they go to bed. Like it's a normal thing for them, just like smoking a cigarette. So I guess. Some people can do that. Yeah, I know. And it's a normal thing for them just like smoking a cigarette so um I guess people can do that yeah I know like they and it's crazy some of them look so young yeah like it's like meth preserves some people it's crazy and so I remember when I had gotten out of prison

of and this was in October, my cousin was telling me all these crazy stories of what was going on, you know, with my brother and with his, his daughter come to find out, I guess she, my cousin walked in on my brother and his daughter having sex. Oh. And so she says she kicked them out and, but my aunt allowed them to live on the property in her camper after all this happened and we'll come to find out my cousin was sleeping with my brother so she was like jealous or something mind you she was like in this meth induced psychosis yeah meth makes people do weird yeah yeah so i guess she got jealous or something cause he wasn't paying attention to her. And I don't know.

But, um, so I guess along the lines, my brother gets his daughter pregnant and, um, my aunt was starting to buy baby stuff for them. Like she didn't do anything. She didn't call the police. She didn't do nothing about it. And I don't know if she had like an abortion or she had like a miscarriage, but I know like she doesn't have the baby. So I guess word got back to his baby's mom, what was going on. And she's the one who pressed the issue of pressing charges. And so when I had gotten out, I was released in October of 2018. My brother was still out, you know, and all this crazy shit was still going on, but his daughter wasn't in the home. Like his daughter was, I don't't know I guess she was rightfully so right exactly

and um so but my brother never like and I was you know smoking meth with him and all this stuff and he never wants me to pass at me or anything the one that abused you yeah well it's because you were older right right he only likes underage girls apparently well come to find out i guess like when he got arrested he got arrested a couple months later um i guess the detective looked on his phone and he had video footage of him drugging or getting high with his daughter and you know raping his daughter and had there was two other guys in the film you know in the video that was doing the same thing to her. Oh my God. Taking turns.

And, um, they couldn't find the detectives are still looking for those two guys. And one of them looks very familiar with the tattoos. And it was my older brother, like just the way they were explaining, like, you know, um, describing his tattoos. Like he has a bullseye in the back of his head. The guy has a bullseye in the back of his head. The guy has a bullseye in the back of his head that's in the video, you know, so put two and two together. Yeah. And, um, and I said something to his baby's mom. I'm like, cause she's still pressing the

issue. Even till this day, my brother got sentenced in August of 2021 to 12 to 15 years for all of that. But they're still investigating because there's um minor kids under 12 like under either I don't know under either 11 or 12 that's in those videos too there's pictures and stuff yeah so they're trying to find out who those kids are and my um I don't know why but I just have this gut feeling like my my cousin she has four girls she had four girls in the home and children's services came and took them and she even to this day my cousin will say I don't know why they took them I don't know why they took them and they're all girls and I just have a feeling that's the reason why is because of they were what they were doing yeah so you get out of prison

in 2017 October October 2018 2018 okay and then when did you meet Brittany baby girl over here which I love that you guys are bringing her on to your platform a lot more because she for the longest time she wasn't in front of the camera yeah she doesn't she's the total opposite of me she doesn't like to you know be she doesn't like to have attention on her yeah at all so um which she's turning red right now yeah as we talk yeah Mimi can we get her a microphone and get her on here? So we brought Brittany on the podcast. This is the other half of Ashley. So you've been bringing her on, you know, a little bit more on your TikToks and stuff like that. And you guys are actually coming under what Jay and I have to deal with every day.

You guys are getting fucking attacked left and right, right? For just being in love with each other. Isn't it extremely toxic? it's crazy like i can't post one thing with jay without somebody being like oh she's a fucking gold digger oh fucking yeah he needs to lose weight oh what is you know how did he get her and it's just like so much fucking toxicity but through it all it's gonna make you guys stronger yeah love is love it doesn't matter right like love has no fucking color fucking sex anything like that yeah so you got out of prison in october i keep forgetting fucking this up october 2018 when did you how long after that did you meet britney um two weeks i was staying with my aunt for two weeks she allowed me to stay there for two weeks um I remember I found her on Facebook and well I've seen her so were you just you decided you

were just gonna be gay or you just were like you saw her and you were like okay she's cute so when I was in um the workhouse um this was in oh my gosh yeah the beginning of 2018 like September 2018 we were in different pods she was in the pod across from me and I guess I was just in the bad pod because I have you know warrants and stuff out so they just determine like your level right you know so so she was normal you weren't so I remember seeing her and I remember um there was a girl that came from her pod I guess they got into a fight or whatever came over to my pod I was like hey who is that girl over there and I remember them telling me you know either Britt or Brittany or whatever um but they didn't either I

don't know if they told me her last name or not so I knew that I was going to prison and you know they told me her you know know, stuff that was going on. So I'm like, Oh, she's about to go too. So, um, but she never went, but, um, I lucky you. Right. Yeah. So when I got out, um, I was just scrolling through Facebook. I think I was like methed out or whatever. And I was just scrolling through Facebook all day horny yeah high on meth who can I fuck now yeah so I came across her Facebook and I was like she looks really familiar um and then I happened to just scroll through it and I seen like little older pictures of her um because when I seen her she she was, it looked like she was like strung out, you know? And when I saw her Facebook, she was healthy. So I'm like, okay, well kind of, then I put two and two together.

Like, oh, that's that girl. So I kept messaging her and she would not message me back. She just, why wouldn't you message her back? Talk, talk, talk in the microphone. I just, it's Facebook. So she's like I gotta play her she was creeping me basically yeah so I'm like okay well I just kept you know just kept messaging her I think for like a couple days and then all of a sudden she just like messaged me back out

the blue and um I was like well do you just want to go to the movies or something? And she's like, well, yeah, we can do that. And so I had a friend, Ron. He's, you know, I still talk to him, you know, sometimes now. But he picked me up and he knew, you know, that I, you know, wanted to meet her and everything. So we got a room, but he let me use his car and then go pick her up and the initial plan was to go to the movies but when I picked her up um you know we just ended up getting high and then you know getting high on meth what no heroin wow okay yeah she um she was sober had you used heroin before that? Yeah.

Okay. Yeah, so I, at this point, like, I was back and forth between, you know, meth and heroin. Speedballs, doing all that shit. Okay. Yeah. And so she was, like, sober for, like, maybe a year. Wow. And then I gave him a lot, and I fucked it all up.

Aw. Yeah. It's okay. It's not. It wasn't all you. Like, I had been having urges and stuff. Perfect opportunity, I guess. Listen, I've been sober since 2018, and it fucking sucks.

Yeah. I think about drinking all the time or fucking popping a Xanax. Like, it's, being sober is not fun. It's not. It's hard. I talk about it all the time. Yeah. It's definitely work every single day.

It is. You literally wake up and choose soberness. Right. It's not like, it's like, oh, I'm fucking sober, and it's definitely work every single day it is you you literally wake up and choose soberness right it's not like it's like oh i'm fucking sober and it's mary poppins and the fucking birds are singing no now you got to deal with your fucking mentally ill self and like deal with all this other shit that you have to deal with yes yeah that we ran away from when we were using or doing you know drinking so yeah no i totally that. So you guys hit it off. Yeah. I did some heroin together. Yeah. And so she came back with me to my aunt's house the next night and we stayed the night. And all of a sudden my aunt started tripping out because she they all were smoking meth downstairs

and they had a friend over this older guy um and she was trying to get me to hook up with him like oh you know he has money you know that kind of thing right and I'm like this is is this Trisha yeah oh lord and I'm like uh no and so you and Trisha have a toxic relationship yeah very yeah and so she I guess his his Harley Davidson glasses sunglasses came up missing or something. And she was blaming me. And I was like, are you fucking kidding me? Like, no, absolutely not.

We'll come to find out he misplaced them. He found them the next day. But she kicked me out the next day because of that, right? She made that the excuse to kick me out. But she just wanted me gone, you know? She's just a mess. Yeah. And so I, you know she's just a mess yeah and so i you know she lived in she was living at the time with a friend of hers and um she ended up getting a job at taco

bell and you know they were hiring and um i'm like i don't know if I can do do that you know but I pushed her until she did and she did so I you know my fucking brother dropped us off you know in Columbus at her friend's house or whatever and I got a fucking job at Taco Bell yeah but there's nothing wrong with that yeah it's not but I just i think like i just wasn't ready i wasn't ready to get clean i wasn't ready yeah for a job for nothing so you guys were deciding at this time that you wanted to start getting clean and start doing things the right way well at first yeah and then when we got our first paycheck that's when party it's time to splurge yes that's exactly what. We got our first efficiency apartment though.

But it was with the money that she had saved prior to meeting me. So we got the efficiency apartment. And so with our first paycheck, we were supposed to save to pay our rent for, you know, in a couple of weeks. Well, that didn't happen.

So we got, you know, more heroin and, you know, Zanny's. My didn't happen so we got you know more heroin and you know zannies my thing was zannies and um yeah so memories yeah and i ended up we got us when we got got fired from fucking taco bell because we came to work high yeah um shocking that they would write you guys like right what do they expect well i was high she wasn't high right you're guilty by association yeah poor britney yeah and so that night we went back home and um like i ended up overdosing on heroin or xanax um on both all of it yeah it was a mixture of both yeah and that's scary yeah when i woke up i was she narcan luckily we had narcan wow yeah but i woke up my whole body

was completely like on fire and i was like what the hell is happening and she's like it's the narcan i said no i've been narcan before and this never happened to me like I was freaking out and um I guess it wasn't arcane I don't know so you have overdosed before yeah yeah this was like my probably third time overdosing um the other times like one other time I got an arcane and that was in December 2017 and that's when that was the last time that i hung out with miko's okay you overdosed on meth or it was on heroin okay um and he actually they narcan me but then i wasn't waking up so he was dragging me outside to leave me outside in the alley and i woke up and i woke up to him dragging me and i'm like what the fuck is happening he was

like oh i was putting outside because we're calling the ambulance you know but we can't be in here because we have drugs and stuff in there i was like oh what the fuck ever and i was completely soaked like they must have like threw water on me or whatever and it was snowing outside so thank god i fucking woke up otherwise i would have died from hypothermia um but that was the last time you know and coincidentally and this is not i'm not trying to be a dick or anything but you know february of what 2021 he overdoses somebody leaves him outside he dies wow karma yeah chromatic that's crazy so i remember when i woke up from her narcanomy i told her i said look i'm not doing this anymore like I'm I don't want to do this I remember and I know a lot of people probably think I'm full of

shit but I remember seeing my mom my dead mom and dead grandma like literally looking down at me and it scared the shit out of me and like I remember telling her I was so petrified I'm like I don't ever ever want to see that ever again. So they were just looking at you in disappointment. Yeah. And it scared me because I knew they were dead. I was like, why are you, why are you here? Am I dead? I thought, you know, what the fuck? And then I woke up and I told her, I said, I mean, we just got to, I got to go to the methadone clinic. There's just no other way around it. I got to get fucking clean. Yeah. And so we walked to and in front of that fucking methadone clinic. We didn't have a car.

We didn't have nothing. We were broke as shit. Didn't even have enough money to our name to take the fucking bus. And the methadone clinic was like, what, two miles away? So we had to be there. And it was freezing cold. Yeah. We had to be there at like.

But you guys were so determined and not so beautiful. And you guys did it together. That's even more beautiful. Yeah. Well, she stayed clean the whole time. You know? I had a couple sips. That's all right.

We know you're hard-headed. Yeah. Yeah. And I remember, like, we, like, worked, you know, our asses off, you know, from that fucking moment forward. I remember, you know, we moved from that efficiency you know, from that fucking moment forward. I remember, um, and we moved from that efficiency fucking apartment to a one bedroom. Right when we got the one bedroom, like a month later, I got my daughter back, you know, my oldest daughter back from her dad. And,

um, well, he just couldn't handle her anymore. You know, that's just what it was. And which is fine. Like I, you know, I was going to go, you know, get her back custody back and everything. I, it was just a long process to do that, you know? Oh yeah to go you know get her back custody back and everything it's just a long process to do that you know oh yeah and once the kids are caught up in the system it's like the system is such a fucking joke yeah oh yeah like it's just crazy that they do more harm to children than they do good yeah they absolutely they take kids away from fucked up families and give them two more fucked up yeah like it's like what part of the game is that right it's crazy exactly and i remember you know after we got her now britney doesn't have any kids right so i come

with like a shit ton of baggage okay and you probably give her a lot of what she's wanted you know jay came with two kids yeah yeah but it's but it's also like a lot of i don't know i just feel bad because i feel like I'm like, I don't know. You feel like you're undeserving of real love. And somebody who's actually going to stick by your side and love you no matter what. Maybe. Yeah. I don't know.

I just, I just feel so bad because I'm like, you know, she doesn't have no kids. She doesn't have no ties. You know what I mean? No, she has responsibility. But you know what I mean? Yeah. And here I come no ties you know what I mean no she has responsibility but you know what I mean yeah um and here I come along you know I you know she gets me a job and then I have her lose her job you know and then here all my kids are coming in the picture and you know like I I don't know sounds like you feel like you don't deserve somebody who loves the shit out of you right she's there because she wants to be there

she doesn't have to be there but she chooses to be with you every day it also gives me more drive to stay sober also yeah see so in a way you're helping her and you're feeding her needs while you're doing the same for her and that's what a real relationship is is you guys heal together people think oh relationships are built on passion that's all I used to ever do. I used to fucking be, my relationships were hot and heavy and fucking, we would fucking fight. That's all we did, you know? And then I got with Jay and Jay and I went through our own shit. You know, it was really hard and painful in the first three years. And then after that, we just figured it out and we grew together and we bettered each other and we healed each other. And that's a real relationship. If you guys and we bettered each other and we healed each other and that's a real

relationship if you guys aren't bettering each other or building something together what are you guys doing right you know yeah exactly and now you guys are fucking sober you got all of your fucking kids back i was like so invested in that so she had put that on tape i was rooting for you every time i was like go bitch go I was so excited I even like got teary-eyed whenever you fucking finally got him back and I just you know I'm so proud of you guys dude like I love what you guys are doing over there and just you're not just educating women about being strong and fucking getting through you know prostitution and stuff like that you're educating them on so many levels of other things,

of same-sex couples, of being a mom, being an ex-addict. Like, there's just so much shit that you guys are doing over there, you know? And I want you guys to know, do not let these fucking haters bring you down. No, we're not. I know how you – I get it. And I love talking about haters because it, like, you know, fuels the drama or whatever like that. But I just want you to know you're doing something right.

People throw rocks at things that shine. Yeah. And whenever you trigger somebody inside their spirit, that's when they spew vomit. You know, especially if they're like not doing good or they're, you know, half these people are probably addicts that are fucking leaving these comments and stuff like that. So yeah. Fucking miserable. When did TikTok come into play for you oh god okay so because you got like what 1.6 million on one and then you have another do you still have your backup account my backup is like 300 and some yeah 340 something yeah i so i downloaded you

know the app of course like with everybody else like with COVID right yeah I feel like 2020 either made or break made it you made it or you you fucking just fell off yeah like yeah and so I you know was just making just like you know random TikToks every now and then you know talking about mostly I was talking about either like my weight loss or you know my drug addiction and stuff and then I remember coming across um a few profiles you know profiles second page it's whatever videos um and these young girls who are you know sex workers but they're like you know glamorizing it which yeah you know let me say this this. Okay. If, if what the fuck is it called? Oh, F if Oh, F was a part of my day back in the day, I would have absolutely a hundred percent took it on it. Right. Like there, but there, and there's nothing wrong with it. Yeah. And you know, it just, I understand, but it is sex work.

Yeah. And I, I agree with everything that you say about it. Like, it's sex work, no matter what you do. If you're sucking a dick on camera, you're, you're a sex worker, you know, and a lot of these girls are just like, Oh, no, I just do internet. Like, no, you're, you know, we're all in the fucking, we're literally hoeing ourselves out for a dollar. Everybody can see our holes, you know? So it's like, yeah, no, I totally agree with what you say yeah I don't and I and you know I my intention was to never like make anybody feel bad for what they do or anything I just feel like I was reading through like comments and stuff like oh you know how do you do this how are you doing that you know like oh you make so much money yeah you make so much money

on there and but that's not how it is for everybody, you know? Um, so, and then I kept thinking like, that's not how it was for me. Like I sure shit was not bringing in $50,000 a month and I sure shit was not, uh, you know, enjoying myself, you know? Um, and it, you know, there was a few times where i did come across like clients that were really nice you know and all we did was literally talk and he'd pay me you know hundreds you know thousands and it that was once in a blue moon right you know see i was telling mimi this before you got here i was like it's so cool to have her come on because her and i were in the same industry but just in two different i I grew up in Vegas. Everything in Vegas is glamorized.

I've literally lived in the casinos. And fucking made so much money off fucking dudes. So to me. I don't mean to glamorize it when I talk about it. But it's like. I just grew up in a city. That literally that's what it was based on. But that doesn't mean that there wasn't fucking downfalls.

And that I didn't get fucking beat up by tricks or fucking I've never been raped. Like there's shit that has happened. But I love that people get to see the raw side of the industry coming from you because you really fucking lived that, dude. Yeah. Like they don't understand what it's like to fucking open a car door, not know the person and fucking get in.

Like that's just that's next level shit. Yeah. I have so much respect for you. I'm like, my hat goes off to you. Yeah, it definitely wasn't easy. And I, you know, I still have, you know, like my friend Kelly, she's still out there, you know, she was in a lot longer than me. I have so many girls that are still in the game back home and I love them. I go, you know, if Iie whenever Cheyenne whenever she comes and hangs out with us every time we go to Vegas my ho friends are always popping up but you know what they're the most loyal they are bitches dude and they're like they get you because they've lived your life with you you know so all right so you downloaded TikTok in 2020 okay so then I you know um I remember coming across a couple you know girls videos and stuff and I'm like you know this is not you know how this isn't real how it is right so um I remember

um and I I kept thinking to myself like I'm going to end up you know talking about you know the trauma behind it yeah but I just was too scared to do it because I'm like, I feel like if I do that, because nobody knew what I was doing. Nobody knew that I prostituted. Like it wasn't obviously like, you know, clients and stuff, you know, but my family. Yeah, you're a secretive motherfucker. You hold a lot of shit in. Yeah.

So my family didn't know. And, you know, like I had like, you know know friends and stuff like that and um you know from high school and they didn't know like nobody fucking knew unless you were my client you did not know that I prostituted so I kept going back and forth whether or not I wanted to do it and then um I remember you know I you know was working at the hotel and I'm like, you know, I'm just going to fucking just do a fucking video and just see, you know, where it goes. So I remember doing that fucking video. Oh my God.

It was a Disturbia. Yeah. You literally have a copyrighted hand twirl. Like, like anytime I see anybody do this I'm like Ashley I even wanted to do one one time I was like fuck it I'm gonna do this too yeah and I I didn't sorry I didn't realize like I remember making that video and it was on my day off my wife was at work and I went to sleep and I woke up to like so many new fucking followers and so many messages.

And I'm like, oh, well, what the fuck is happening? I didn't realize that it was that video. And I was like, wow, it's that fucking video. So I'm like, OK, well, it's because people relate to real. Yeah. You can fucking sit up there and do all the fucking trends you want. But when you really talk some real shit, the universe grabs it. Yeah. You know, and the universe was in your favor. They were like, it's time for you to tell your story. It's time for you to start releasing some of this fucking trauma. Yeah.

Healing other people is healing you. Oh yeah. You know, absolutely. And I remember, you know, I did another video and then another video and it just took off. And I remember at this point, I was going through a custody battle with my, you know, three babies. So we already had a guardian that was involved in our case that I had hired. Um, and I'm thinking like, I wonder what she's going to think. Right. But I'm like, I don't give a fuck. Like she, what can she, what can she say? You're not doing it anymore. This is your real story. not doing it anymore this is your real story right and I remember after that took off um every single time I went to court like two times after that and every single time went to court she would always talk about my TikTok videos that was the focal point of every fucking in that

court hearing was my TikTok videos right and um you, you know, I, I remember her saying, well, you know, Ashley's doing all these videos talking about clients and prostituting and sleeping with prosecutors and doing this and that. And that's going to be so detrimental to her kids. And I remember sitting there when she's when she's telling, you know, talking like that for like a whole fucking hour about me. I remember I interrupted her and I told the judge I said that's not being detrimental by showing my kids that change can fucking happen and to teach them you know compassion and you know not to be a judgmental fucking prick like yeah this fucking guardian is yeah and I remember the judge was like okay well

you know we're just going to postpone this court hearing, you know, and all this stuff. So I remember from that moment on, like, I'm like, I'm just going to continue, you know, talking about it because, you know, there's people like her, obviously, in the world. That's just an asshole, you know? And. But this is your truth. Yeah. Why? So I did the same thing you're doing except I did it with my

podcast you know people used to try to shame me for being a sex worker when I got with Jay and you know Jay wasn't as big as he is now when we first got together we literally built our platforms together and people would be like oh look at her Eros ad because I was at Eros girl I had my ad on Eros and you know I know I didn't do back page but I did that you're not that that makes me better or anything like that but it was just I was an internet girl right now and um fucking they would pull up my ads and they'd be like look at this and you know like try to shame me and and Jay was just like tell your story yeah and I'm like nobody's gonna listen you know nobody wants to hear from a fucking hooker and he's like oh you'd be surprised and literally that's how my fucking podcast was born so you telling your story like that is like it's so fucking cool to me to see you doing that and the fact that my

daughter idolizes you that's crazy I'm like bitch you don't know how to idolize me like what the hell but she loves you and I love that because you literally are in the same you know we're in the same industry that I was in and you're telling your truth and I love that she like recognizes a strong another strong woman yeah and there's got to be millions of girls who you're one helping stay away from the industry and if anything if they do get involved in it they'll know what to expect you know about it yeah it. Yeah. And that's just my intentions. Like my intention is not to discriminate or to make anybody feel bad about their decisions or what they want to do with their life. Like I'm all for, you know, you want to do that by all means to do it, but just do it in a safe manner and just look out for signs of, you

know, like there's just certain, certain things to look out for when it comes to clients and you can just tell like something's just not right you know and I could always even like if I would go out there I can always tell right off the bat I can tell if you're not going to pay me I can tell if you're just going to bullshit me I can tell if you are wanting to rape me I can tell if you're just well you have you learn how to read people real fucking quick when you're in the industry yeah yeah so you know I but I also you know want to tell my story so that you know so that girls don't make the same mistakes I don't want my girls to that's why I am doing you know putting myself out there and you know doing what I have to do so that because I didn't come from you know money I didn't come from a family that loved me or anything like that so I'm trying to do you know things different with my kids so that my girls don't ever have to

think about you know doing you know that because yeah what would you do if your daughter ever came to you and said she wanted to do it? I don't know. I don't know. It's so hard, right? People ask me that all the time about Bailey. They're like, well, what if Bailey wants to go to the same rod as you? And it's like, one, I would never shame her. Right.

Two, the more you tell somebody no, they're going to want to do it anyways. And they're going to figure it out. You know, so I would just really try to be her voice of reason. If my daughter ever came to me and said that. Yeah. I think that I would ask her like, well, why do you, why do you feel that you want to do this? You know? Yeah.

And if she still wants to do it, I'm like, okay, well this is what you need to do. First off, you need to first off carry protection with you at all times, you know, and then protection. I mean like pepper spray or, you know, a knife, whatever you have to carry. You always need something. And don't ever sleep with anybody without protection. I don't care what they say, you know, just don't, you know, just don't do that. And, you know, I mean, I would totally support, you know, her decision.

It's not even I don't think support would be the word for us. It would be like, we don't have a choice, you know, because. They're going to do it anyway. Exactly. My little sister came to me like five years ago and was like, I want to start working. And I was like, no, I'm not going to help you. She ended up on Backpage and fucking doing shit like that. Not that Backpage is bad.

I just, there was, I've known so many girls who have gotten hurt off of Backpage, you know? And that's why I kind of have like a distaste for it. It's not around anymore, but that's why I have such a distaste for it because, you know, just so many girls got hurt off of that website, you know, but she found a way to start doing it without me. And now she's strung out on drugs and, you know, living in a motel room doing stuff. And it's, I feel like I could have helped her in a different way. So I guess I kind of learned from that situation, you know, that when a loved one does come to you and they want to get in the industry, don't shun them or tell them no, but, you know, just try to help them as much as you can.

Right. What does 2022 bring for Brittany and Ashley? So like right now we, I mean, mean I got joint custody I agreed to join custody with my kids yeah but that's awesome that you did that though yeah and I did that for them yeah I did that for them but things aren't going like they should be um so as soon as we get back into town tomorrow I'm going next week to file for you know full custody and doing you know what's happening is he just holding the kids from you and stuff no so he's just not taking them to appointments he's not i did see that yeah he's he's a dad and i'm not i'm not defending him men don't know how to be caregivers they don't they don't but if you're not going to take them

tell me so i can take them yeah you, and he's just not doing that. And, you know, we have certain things, certain stipulations that's in the court order. Like we have a caseworker, like not CPS or anything, but it's like because my son has hydrocephalus. So he has like ADHD problems. He has like a lot of, you know, mental health issues. So he has a caseworker, you know, with the board of DD. And the stipulation in the court orders was you have to attend monthly zoom meetings so we can come together because his he has his communication

is shit you know but he is a man so i understand but you know co-parenting like you have to talk to me yeah he does not talk to me he does not text me back he does not call me my son's birthday was yesterday so i try to call him and text him like, Hey, you know, I'm going to tell, you know, Messiah, happy birthday. Nothing, nothing. And even the school even called me my youngest son. And, um, I guess my youngest son, he's on ADHD medication too, you know? And, uh, he didn't give him his medication that morning.

And they're like, well, we're trying to contact Ed. He's not answering the phone. And I'm like, wow. like wow so you know he's just not a lot of neglect yeah a lot and um i just i feel like i gave him the opportunity because i yeah he was doing the same thing prior to me agreeing to joint custody but i felt like maybe he was doing that because he just had a lot on his plate and he was just overwhelmed so now that things are changing and there's joint custody and I have them for a week he hasn't he has a week off and vice versa that maybe it'll motivate him to want to do things you know and give him a break during that week you know to where he can breathe or whatever but he's just simply just not wanting to do it. So I'm just going to have to do what I have to do. And,

um, you know, the guardian that was even over her case, she wasn't, she was a bitch anyway. Like she just did not do her investigation properly at all. Not the best interest of the kids. Yeah. At all. So, you know, I'm just going to file for contempt, file for emergency custody, do what I have to do, but I will get, I know that i'll get full custody back yeah are you ready for that daddy britney who's daddy in the relationship they both looked at each other they were like i think i'm more dominant yeah you're definitely more dominant yeah that's true i think it'll be me yeah than her but yeah she's she's more caring and

more patient oh very you know yeah the polar opposite of me but yeah um you know it's a lot i know it's a lot that's why i say you know like even with this joint custody like going from you know her meeting me to you know with no kids to one kid to then four kids, you know, and then I know it's a big, big adjustment, but she looks like it's worth it. All she does is smile when you talk about those kids. So, I mean, I don't see any sort of like regret in her face at all. So you, you guys just keep loving each other so besides that you're just gonna keep making content you're gonna get those babies back yeah we're moving yeah so our lease is up in june our house is like tiny it's tiny like yeah well yeah with fucking four kids you're gonna have

to fucking step it up a little bit yeah so we can't i can't do. I feel like I'm living in a fucking box. So we're, you know, going to get a bigger house and that's it. Like we're just going to just goal solidifying your family and just staying on the sober track and just making tick tocks and bringing awareness to people. I'm so happy that you came on the podcast today to tell your story. I mean, what a beautiful, dude, I want you to come back every year. Yeah. I'll just bring you back as a guest every year. Trust me, I will.

Yeah. Tell people where they can find you on your social medias. Okay. So it's Trashly Anonymous or is it Trashly underscore Anonymous. Okay. On TikTok or Trashly underscore Anonymous. One on TikTok or Trashly Anonymous on Jesus or trashly anonymous on Jesus Christ. Instagram.

There we go. Instagram. And I also have a channel on SofaDog. So that's like my, that's my baby right there with my channel. What goes on on SofaDog? So it's like something similar, like YouTube and like, you know, but they, I have editors that edit my videos and does all that for me. Um, but I with, even with YouTube, there's certain things I can't talk

about. Oh, I can't, I, I could never put our whole full podcast on YouTube without them, uh, taking it down or demonetizing it. So that's why I, my, you can listen to me for free, but I'm on Patreon. Right. And with sofaog, you know, I can talk about anything. I have full control over what I can say on there. And they're, you know, the creators on that app is behind me. They want me to, you know, talk about everything. So that's what I do. I mean, I wrote a book, but I'm not publishing it for legal reasons because there's certain

things on there that Ohio will, you know, secret indict. And I just don't want to go back to jail yeah they will do that so the book will happen in time oh yeah whenever the universe is ready for them so so right now it's just the you know the channel and that's it so i love it well thank you guys for coming on. Thank you for having me. I cannot wait to see what 2022, I keep wanting to say 2020, what 2022 brings for you guys. And I'm just, just know you got us rooting for you guys over here. Like we are literally in your corner, you know, just fucking go bitch go. I know, that's right. Thank you. Yeah, thank you.

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