Duncan Trussell Family Hour - 303: Shawn Pelofsky

Episode Date: September 1, 2018

Shawn Pelofsky, comedian and 1/10 of the jews from Oklahoma, joins the DTFH as Duncan continues his wanderings through the fields of grief. Shawn Pelofsky’s one hour comedy special STRETCH IT OUT! is now available on Amazon, iTunes, On Demand, Xbox, Google Play and Fandango Now. [Buy it on Amazon](https://amzn.to/2Nb2oBC) [Buy it on iTunes](https://apple.co/2O8XAfP) Check out Shawn's site: [hahachick.com](http://www.hahachick.com/) This episode is brought to you by [Squarespace](https://www.squarespace.com/duncan) (offer code: DUNCAN) and [Stamps.com](https://www.stamps.com/) (offer code: DTFH).

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And I just want to say it to your ears face. You're the one that I've been dreaming of If you're a first-time listener long-time listener mid-time listener half-time listener all the way around listener If you're one of the listeners that climbs underneath the time space continuum and just sticks your ear into this dimension and listens Hello, this is gonna be another episode about death and I get it. I know that for many of us Just the very topic of death just the very word death acts like garlic to a vampire it acts like one of those new bat repellent horns people have been hanging on the side of their house to keep the bats away

Which holy shit man not to like totally go off on a completely different topic But I don't know if you guys have been reading about the swarms of bats that have been descending on people's homes throughout the Midwest It really is a Shocking thing that teaches us so much about the unexpected effects of climate change. We've got Toddlers being carried off by bats. They found three young children who just Had their breakfast in a bat cave the bats had already started putting some kind of fungus on Them which to keep them warm. I don't understand it But when people were talking about climate change one thing I didn't expect

Was that the bats would start trying to steal and raise our children? We've got to really stop emitting fossil fuels or we're gonna end up having bat caves just filled with Toddlers and who knows why would they stop with the kids swarms of bats? I don't know how how many bats it takes to carry away a dog But I bet it's not that many In a grandfather. I don't know how many bats to carry away a grandfather probably a lot But we just we don't want anything, you know, you don't want anything to be carried away by a bat except for bats or bat food That'll be the subject of an upcoming podcast with bat expert

vicar prints from romania Death it's a force field. It's like the As I as I continue to sort of Ride down the river of grief And I sure as hell hope I don't sound like I'm like simpering or something like that because that's that would number one I haven't simpered in a while and I love simpering when it happens, but uh Or feeling sorry for myself because I certainly don't

but uh it when you are in grief when your parents die this like It's true that you enter into a zone that you don't stay in forever even though sometimes it might seem like that and it's interesting to watch the way my mind is reacting to it and just all the sort of ideas bubbling up out of the stinking peep moss swamps that is my subconscious and the fucking dreams are wild man the way you're uh subconscious minds start sending you these beautiful little letters to sort of Help you understand

uh What's going on down there and the subterranean layers of the south And uh, it's mostly good but it's weird and I think because of the laws of attraction and the basic sort of Tendency to draw people to you that are at your same frequency. I've been having the real Good fortune of uh having phone conversations with people who have also lost people recently

And i'm fine, you know, there's a lot of stuff you start finding out. It's like My what I have a pregnant wife a beautiful wonderful pregnant wife and Uh Now I've got like a backstage past pregnancy. I I didn't know so much about pregnancy like I had no idea That pregnant women Gained the ability to shoot lasers out of their eyes that can cause pretty pretty not like third degree burns But definitely burns the skin. I also didn't know that uh pregnant women have uh the ability to

Walk through walls. I didn't know that pregnant women could teleport all these things somehow. They just don't make it into the books about pregnancy Uh and a lot of things other things about pregnancy Maybe they make it into the books, but you don't hear about it for some reason, which is like pregnant women suffer, man They suffer it's a it's a it's a really Your body is just like suddenly becoming an An apartment to a new consciousness like it your stomach suddenly becomes like a bachelor pad You know, you suddenly if you're having a boy, there is like an action. There's a A a baby penis is in you now and a baby

A baby and I got a big a baby like a big head you know Yeah, and it's uncomfortable right and um It's like wow having a it's it's if you're a selfish person if you have selfish tendencies, which I certainly do Then uh pregnancy becomes like a pull-up bar for selflessness Because it's like You're you know, it's you got now you got your wife who has trusted you enough to let you you know

blast life producing seed into her putting her into a semi debilitated progressively debilitating state I saw this cartoon where like a baby is like a funny cartoon where a little baby's like punching a Like hugging a bladder That's what happens the the baby just pushes down on their bladder They can get like some sciatic stuff. There's like it's just uncomfortable. It's uncomfortable

um It's uncomfortable And you don't hear a lot of you know for some reason you know, I don't know Maybe it's just because I I haven't paid any attention to pregnancy throughout my life None there's as far as I'm aware. There's no pregnancy channel You know And there's no real courses on it. I don't think there are probably but I mean

I was I it's a long time since I've been in high school and let me tell you if I had to sit through like Here's what to do with a pregnant wife class. I would have tuned the fuck out For the whole thing because I would have thought I'm never gonna get married or have a baby So there's all this stuff and the same is true for death Like there's all this stuff that like that you just you just don't hear too much about and talking to all these people Either you realize all these things one people feel isolated

You know, they're like people who are grieving. They just feel isolated because they either have like siblings that they can talk to you but a lot of times because death is so unbelievably the death of a parent is so unbelievably apocalyptic Uh, it it it can like create some real rifts in families Because some people like I one of the ways I keep picturing death is like a windshield that

language just Smashes against like bugs, you know, like logic smashes against it Like just a it's like a fucking truck windshield and the the flapping duck of logic comes emerging Into the highway of the time space continuum and death just like smacks right into it splatters a little rational logical duck guts All over the fucking All over its windshield just turns on the wipers. It doesn't fucking care. Yeah, man

The grim reaper man driving a truck filled with dead bodies Smashing into logic ducks. That's what I'm talking about. That's what death is And so, you know people when they run into it Steam comes out their ears, you know, and except the way the steam comes out their ears is they You know, they they have they react. I react everyone will react. There's no way to not react to it It is like we can't get past it like I mean the thing I keep thinking about is like poorly designed video games, you know, like uh

A poorly designed video game. You're playing this guy. He's fucking muscular. He's got like Fucking guns or swords You know, and suddenly you're like find yourself at a fence That's like maybe waist high And beyond the fence is just this like beautiful expanse And you just can't go over the fence and you think to yourself, man, that's bullshit Like this dude was just like blowing up cars. He can't go over the fence. This is ridiculous and if the character was sentient and had sort of

gotten the idea that that he was a free roaming autonomous Being and suddenly slapped into a force field that he couldn't go past Then it would drive him nuts. It like that we had an ai living inside a simulation It would drive the ai fucking up the goddamn wall Probably to have to deal with the fact that there were certain zones that it couldn't cross beyond like why? There's not there's this membrane You know, remember that show under the dome, which is a based on a book a steven king book Where like suddenly this like sort of force field appears around a town you just can't go past it

And that's what death is only it doesn't appear as a sort of geophysical location. It's like It it's something that appears in in time and it appears it the moment that Our our consciousness leaves our bodies and so Uh, it's just we can't understand it. We don't know what's past it. It's a force field. It's a wall. It's a veil It's whatever you want to call it a fucking The difference between air and water or or or or this or you know earth and sky however you want to put it This is a zone That everyone will cross through but we

Can't and so grief and all seems to be combination of like The slow metering out of heartbreak, you know, it's like your body sort of allowing yourself to release the the the sort of like growing realization of the impermeability Of this particular zone, which is you're not going to text the one who has passed

you're not going to Talk to the one who's passed you're not going to touch the one who's passed Ever again in this physical form at least as far as we know and me just saying that I can feel it. It's like a Bubble it's like a you can feel this thing in you that just rolls through your whole body of sadness when you when you think about that and it's like physical and the quality of it is like not Unpleasant that's the really interesting thing that there's a sweetness to it. It's this love. It's like all the love It's the This is you know, one of the things christian had asked told me once

the longing Is the grace and the longing not just for god or for realization or for Someone that you're missing or for someone But but also for someone who has passed Is a strange type of connection a sort of psychic tendril that I think sort of Goes out of the time space continue them and connects directly with those that we have lost and that feeling

That's sweet feeling. That's the communication. I think it's the great eternal message that All of us in our own way are forced to either confront or ignore Which is that everything is perfect and that Source god whatever you want to call it God is good

and um You know, you can read all these various stories book of job. You can read the Taoist interpretations of this, you know, like uh Hey, uh God, I'll fuck this story up. Like there's some dude who's like, uh uh, I guess a farmer and He uh his son is like helps him around the farm and his son falls and breaks his leg And it's a disaster because who the fuck's gonna help him around the farm and so his neighbor is like, oh my god, this is This is terrible

And the farmer says to his friend, we'll see we'll see and then uh, some soldiers come by And they're like enlisting people for some war And they're like give us your son. He's gonna join the military. You could go into these brutal battles But his son has a broken leg so they can't he can't be enlisted. And so his neighbor is like, whoa, what great luck you have and The farmer says we'll see we'll see

And the point is it's just this like that the all the stuff that happens in time Is somehow Simultaneously incredibly important and yet Abjectly meaningless Like on the level of time, it's the most important thing. We must love each other and be kind to each other and compassionate to each other And somehow coexisting with this Is this

Sense that all of this stuff that we're in is just like vaporous fog being blasted out of a A smoke machine and some kind of interdimensional Dance club that we call human reality and and it's like it's cool and it's beautiful, but it's to become too obsessed with the light show is to miss out on the music and the music seems to be emanating in

Through a speaker that is connected to something outside of time. What the fuck did that mean? And that's what happens the window opens up and you see it. It's like We're you know, if this is as some say spaceship earth When someone dies for a second the The the door the doors of the spaceship quickly open up and shut and when they open up You can kind of like see

And when I say see I mean see in the way that you see without eyes And you and and and and you can hear and when I say here, I mean the way you can hear without your ears Because this thing is outside of time and so you get this like You brush against something That is so spectacularly Beautiful enormous spacious expansive Lovely

That you find yourself in this curious predicament of being heartbroken But also inspired And that is a pretty great place to be in and uh Though I don't think I don't necessarily want to stay here for forever

I'm I'm not like gonna rush out of it and besides it doesn't matter You're not gonna make you can't control it. So that's what all the people I've been talking to In my therapist and you know grief counselors are like, yeah, it's gonna come and go There's you can't do much about it. You're gonna be numb. You're gonna feel fine. You're gonna be heartbroken You're gonna be manic. You're all the shit and it's cool. The best thing is just to be like, okay, that's just this is where I'm at right now You know Some days you're gonna be fucking You know nick drake and some days you're gonna be paul simon

If that makes any sense, that's a 44 that's what a 44 year old would say Anyway, it's Bad, but it's not the kind of bad that people who haven't lost their parents think it is That's the hopeful part and I wouldn't even call it bad It's just a sort of unexpected education That I'm experiencing and because of that um, I'm gonna be talking about it a lot in the podcast and uh And and and I hope y'all understand that I'm talking about it not in the way that in the past

I have edgelord did as they say And it been like You know just because you want to be shocking or some shit But my feeling with it that this is like maybe even more shocking than that which is like it's not I guess The best way to to say it is to quote ramdas As always who said dying is completely safe And the great controversial thing to say is like there's really truly nothing to worry about when it comes to death

Like all the worry meant all the fucking worry about death. Oh god. I put so much fucking psychic energy into the bank account of fear of death throughout my life Jesus Christ I would be the fucking I'd be a rupert murdoch of like death billionaires based on all the fear I'd put into that imaginary bank vault and and

to like have that sort of Paradoxically the fear of death go away just by what we know watching someone pass who you've known your whole life It's it's a really fascinating thing. You're like, oh, it's I guess that's the other the gift they give you when they leave When they head over and uh, and I don't like you know, we have to use terms based in the time space continuum because that that's where we're at We use terms based on three dimensions. So they went here or they went there. I don't think that's really good descriptors, but We're in time right now. So we have to use those words But it's almost like when the bay door opens and your dad or mom drops their body and sort of

graduates it's almost like, you know in in movies where The the fucking door opens. There's this vacuum and all the shit gets sucked out of the spaceship Actually, you know that an alien I don't want to ruin it if you haven't seen alien. What the fuck? In alien they open up that pod door. I think she opens it to try to get that little skitter and Cunt out of there I don't remember exactly. I think she had to throw like something at it or I don't remember how she got the bastard out but the

This door this thing opens up and sucks out a bunch of stuff And not only does it suck out your parents But I think it also pulls some of your own darkness with it like some of your own density it's like that's the gift you're You're you're the one you love when they leave. They're like, hey, let me uh, what let me take your trash Let me take out some of your trash And then it's gone and so there you are grieving missing longing yet simultaneously a little lighter than you were before So that's where I'm at right now with it my sweet beautiful darling friends

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shawn pilotski It's the dunkintrussell film More mystery at all. Did you watch all those? Which ones? There's like a million. Yeah, but when the 20 year anniversary came around There was one that I think was like two days worth Where detectives got together and they brought in experts That handle trials and cases and murder cases. So they brought in like Uh, like expert investigators, but then expert, um, I don't I can't think of the correct word for people who analyze blood

I know you're talking about and and scripture and handwriting and in the end They all came together and decided that it really it came down to that it was the brother and that that was crazy. Yeah Yeah, I you know the the fascinating thing about those kind like It's weird when you get a celebrity Murdered person, you know, like somehow their murder Propels them into infinite fame. Yeah, and in the fame god, I hope that doesn't happen That's not what please god. Yeah, I've worked so hard. I mean, I guess like TMZ can't get to you, right? but like at least but like, you know, you you

See that shit in your it's one of the most bizarre fetishistic qualities of western society is our Weird addiction to what I think it was south park called murder porn Have you heard that? Oh, you've never heard that term murder porn I don't think I've heard of murder porn murder porn is forensic files murder porn is the first 48 murder porn is True crime murder porn is any time you find yourself watching a detailed account

of someone's uh murder and and you what you're and now it also that it's also in the continuum of um Uh, okay, so like in the old days we had freak shows. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. So if you were bored, I guess you go to a carnival and for 50 cents, right? Yeah You go to a fucking freak show and it's like the dude bites the head off the chicken the fucking um The the the the person who has too much hair on their body the mummified jewish guy

The the fucking uh, um The uh What are some other freaks that are classic like the the bearded lady? Yeah Uh, you know, and they're just called a freak show. Yeah, and then people would pay to watch those and then That was that was the entertainment. Mm-hmm You'd go in you'd sit in a seat with no guilt at all. Yeah, I guess And these people who are just people. Mm-hmm people with Hydrocephalic people or people missing limbs or whatever

People missing limbs that maybe have like a mermaid's tail attached. Yeah wheeled out on a stage Maybe they'd sing a little song right or like the the elephant man that whole story You know with the john maryk and the you know, and he has the he has the the uh The bag over his head. Yeah, like do you know what I mean? He had that like it was like a sack Yeah, that he had he cut and as a kid when I watched the elephant man movie I was mesmerized by that one of the best movies of all time It was mesmerized because it just you know, he was and it was his fork You know, it was like I'm not you know in the way that society treated him

Yeah, like really pulled a heart string in me and that was real I mean, that's like what it used to think if you were like that your chances in society were like not that great So how do you make money you go to the fucking carnival? You and you start working in the in the freak show and then suddenly you have the camaraderie of other people who have been Sort of ostracized by the normal genetic symmetry and then at least you have a family and so anyway Now we can't do that. So like if like the learning channel Had a show called parade of freaks. Yeah, and put the exact same people That they put on their show

In an informational as though it's like an informational thing, you know, like hoarders. Yeah, you know And so we sit and watch hoarders and we pretend Yeah, because the narration is being done in a kind of like info way like You know what I mean though the the should the story is being told in a kind of like But it pulls you in because it's something different and maybe something that That that your That is nothing close to the way you live or your lifestyle and it's unfathomable to think that some people could actually Live like live this way. Right. So, yeah, I could there's a total attraction in that. Right. Did you have did you ever watch the show obsessed?

That was on a&e. Wait, wait that one was about people with a ocd. Yes Yeah, I saw I think I saw that I saw some episodes of that That's the like the people who eat sofa cushions and stuff They do that, but they also like there was a guy who was so afraid of germs He didn't have any trash cans in his house and whatnot and they bring in this Cognitive behavioral therapist and she says and he's like this interior decorator and palm springs named scott and She makes scott. She she comes out of the bathroom and she's like scott This luck would have it. I was on my period and I used the towels in your bathroom to wash my hands

So um and you can just see like scott's head sever into gay space And she takes him into the bathroom Which he's already like mortified that she you know had taken her vagina in there whatever she had done And she makes him you take the hand towel and put it to his face And she's like scott scott put the towel on your face. He's like I can't I can't she's like put the towel to your face So he puts a little towel to his face and she's like scott She's like what what do you feel and he's like I feel uh endometriosis

Vaginal secretions fibroid juices. I'm like scott sure has a lot of uh things on like that's what he got from From that towel, but it was so Like that's incredible scott's face is like one of those gas Yeah, a lot of vaginal problems for a guy. He's got a very sensitive. Yeah, but it was chemical How we even knew what endometriosis and he goes I feel endometriosis. I was like, how does it get to your face? Holy shit, but it's it's something like you watch that and you're like you Part of you is kind of laughing. You're like this guy is ridiculous, but this is this own guy's Personal demon is these germs and you just you want to you watch these people and you're like, oh, I kind of feel good about myself

At least I'm not that guy. You can't have a trash can in this house. That's right. That's what it is Like we all huddle in our fucking living rooms We look at these people who are in a hell realm and have been discovered By some producer that's the other interesting thing is they have to cast this net somehow where they're like We need to find people Who are really really really doing weird shit and and and that means that there's pitch meetings Yeah, where someone's like, hey, look, I heard about this dude. Scott He can fucking detect endometri...

His face is like a... his face is a... His face can feel endometriosis. Yeah, he can... yeah, his face knows It's his face is like a fucking microscope. How do you get a variant cancer on your face? Ask Scott. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, right. And then they're like, all right. All right. That looks good. That looks good So let's do that or like another way to put it is like so Now I don't know the statistic on this but on any given day There are a certain number of children around the planet who are murdered unfortunately There's that many people and on any given day and probably in America

There's a certain number of children who because of neglect or abuse They drop their body and so when Nancy Grace had that show Right. She was having to pick Which murdered children to put on the show and you you have to watch that because She is it's like and I don't think she gives a shit Nancy Grace. It's I it's all She gets the viewers people want it but people so wrapped up and interested In cases and things like that. I personally think because I I myself I'm a little guilty of that and you know what I was really guilty of when the three girls in Ohio

Were discovered One ran out a man. It was an Amanda not Amanda Bynes. That's that um Amanda. Why am I freaking? I cannot remember I've read two books, but there was a couple years ago the three girls that were kept in that house in Ohio By a man for for 10 years And one like broke out with her child and the neighbor Like helped them out of the screen door. Oh, yeah. Yeah, I know you're talking about. Yeah And the guy's name was like castra like his last name. He ended up hanging himself in jail But if you read the books one girl wrote michelle night wrote the first book

And she was the first one that was kidnapped and then it wasn't till like years later came the other two women and then they co-wrote A book together and when you read the details Of of what went on in that house, but even when it hit the news I think I was working in Boise or something and I just watched cnn Just kept it on and it was the same report Over and over and I just stood in front of the tv crying because I just couldn't believe that society

Failed These three women. Yeah, and that neighbors sometimes people would see like young girls with this man and wigs on And sunglasses by the trash can yeah, and nobody said shit any police his daughter would come over For like a brunch and he'd have them locked up in different parts of the house Yeah, like how are you somebody's daughter that you don't know That you haven't even been through your father's house that you can't sense But he would lock them in a van with helmets over their head And the detail and the horror of this and then you see something like the 12

I'm not an alarmist. I promise everybody But then you see like the 12 kids that were in california With the father and the mother the turpin family where they had they all look like they're in the band the monkeys Yeah, and that guy held his that guy held 12 kids. He had them handcuffed To bunk beds and this was going on for a very long time Yeah And what I think is this is going on in america and there are so many more Of these and that I feel like like I want some military or trooper

I want people knocking on people's doors You know why I think people love watching this shit and reading it and why I love watching and reading it You know and and and is because like in a in a what like all of us In our own way Because we're incarnated temporarily in a dimension where there's so much suffering Our handcuffed to a type of bed that we created like we're all trapped. We're all freaks We're all in the corner. We're all backed into a corner and dealing with our own imprisonment Uh our own you generally self-imposed imprisonment. Yeah is way more difficult than it's almost than watching like, you know

another like a hyper Intensified version of what's happening to almost every single person which is that like we're all like if you scan your life You're attached to some shit like in that case those kids were literally attached to a fucking bed By a lunatic like that dude had to go on amazon or go to some fucking weird shop and buy 12 pairs of handcuffs in a monkey's hairdo and like first of all Like how do people it's like I know when I walk into a room I scan that room fast and even when I'm eating or I'm out or even when I'm doing comedy

I can tell you I can see people's energies. I can see things going on and I'll tell you When I when I feel something is wrong or off I'm watching because I'm aware And I'm not walking around with my head up my ass But I think people are so self-involved don't pay attention and meanwhile in your neighborhood Is this person who's moved to not just one but he moved over a period of time with his wife to like four places They took their kids to disneyland. Someone didn't notice Maybe something was completely off. Well, did you see the um That there's a I think it who was it uh, Alfred Hitchcock directed a

I can't remember what it's called. It's very sad. It's a documentary on the holocaust And what they did was they had the uh, now we're gonna get really hilarious. Let's just We went for kidnappings to the holocaust Welcome to how comedians talk to each other If you aren't depressed now, you will be well, let's see what happens the the um, so so they uh, they essentially in this village Next to one of these horrific camps

they Went into the village and they got everyone who was living in that village And they parade they made them walk in front of a table And on that table was like a lamp made out of human flesh Like all the horrors that have been happening right next to them that they were pretending weren't happening And and they did that to like show them like hey look look and then if you want to go further back To to another time when you like one of my favorite verses in the Bible is when jesus is being crucified

I love it because it's one of those verses that you hear And you hear it one way at first at least for me and then over time you you realize In a different way, but so you Christ says Father forgive them. They don't know what they're doing. So when I first heard that I thought it meant They don't know who I am. Do you know who I am? I'm the son of god. They don't know who I am, right? Well, that's just one level of it. There's a deeper level. Oh, yeah, which is they literally Don't know what they're doing. They're like rumbas

they're just Like spiritual machines that are kind of stuck in a pattern of denial In acceptance and they have no idea what they're doing meaning like we have to forgive them because they are Unconscious, they're zombies. They're sleepwalking. Are you gonna like there's there's a And in the courts, it's called temporary insanity where someone Does a homicide and they're shown they were like on their Verifiably weren't there. They had a fucking seizure of insanity and they did something rotten And they came out of it and they're covered in blood and they're like, what the fuck did I do?

so that's Temporary insanity and people get off on that if you can prove it and it does fucking happen, right? It does but I hold those people who lived near those camps I mean, what did they have to do make the knock worse? Like how can you ignore that? There are people human beings, but then again people don't value human beings people I would say probably value animals more than they do human beings and I I'm witness to that and I'm I'm That like really pushes on my sensitivity chip because I see people And it why are we on this world if we can't help one another and just be kind to one another

I know the business that we're in comedy and it's this, you know Get up there make people laugh Which is almost another type of service that you are at least providing to people no matter how dark or whatever's going on inside you You're up there to almost provide a service for people either to forget about what has happened to them that day Or maybe what's going on with their life. Yeah, and maybe bring a moment of joy to them Absolutely. I mean, yeah, that's is the the The thing one of the things I've been thinking about a bunch lately is this

I have a guru named Corole Baba and he is dropped. You have him too. What just get real Ah My guru's Neiman Marcus Duncan close But the the one of the things he said is very simple, which you know people would come to him and they would say I want to develop I want to raise my Kundalini and that's a way of saying like sometimes like when you get around like Really really famous people Um

Like once I got lucky and was sitting next to Deant word, which is this like amazing band. I don't know if you know, they are on on the plane but in like, you know, like you're sitting next to them and you're trying to identify how much of This is my own projection onto them and how much of them is actually like radiating some kind of crazy energy Well, that's that's Shakti is what it's called or Kundalini energy. And so like Ram Das One of my teachers had radiates that's a thing you can cultivate And um, but when you get around really really famous people, they have this radi they they radiate this field of uh, Oh, I know that very well. Yeah

You do have a wonder my dogs Oh your dogs Duncan's number one fans apparently are I thought it was gay man, but now it's Duncan's dogs. Oh, they're so cute Well, my god, I mean to me it's like I'll tell you if like, I mean where I'm at in my life if like Gay men and dogs Love you. You're doing something right. I hope so when but but the the So You know, when you get around someone who's like severely famous, you know, who's like really done it

Then there's a term that one of my friends Jason Lou have used. I hope I don't I don't know fuck up the way he said it, but it's called warping the room So you get around certain people and there's a warp around them where it's like, you know, it and you'll always see it It's like no different than when you put a magnet down and and it draws like uh Magnet next to anything metallic and it draws it to it. It's magnetism is what they used to call it, you know, and that's called Um, there's lots of different names for it shaktipa Kundalini energy so people would go to neem curly baba and say, how do I raise my kundalini, right? And because people want that for a lot of different reasons

They want it because it will make you famous. They want it because it will make you money They want it because it will give you power over other people It'll allow you to read people's minds like that thing you're saying where I can see someone What's within them, you know, that's that's like one of the what's called a city and you can you can get that You can really work on that to the point where you can like look into someone and see what they're thinking And then if you're nefarious you can use that against them and that's called sorcery But anyway, neem curly, I was gonna say that starts to like become sound a little bit like witchcraft that you can figure out Well, it's it becomes, you know, it becomes a type of witchcraft or it just becomes a thing it just becomes a

You know in the west we have different names for witchcraft So in the west we'll call it neuro linguistic programming and lp or something like that We have different names for the exact same phenomena But so people would go to neem curly bell and say how do I develop this and he would say feed people Feed people you want to you want those powers go feed people and so I think about that a lot because it's so simple and and and and so when you say oh when i'm doing comedy You know i'm giving some you're feeding people right and so the more that you do that and this is The more a comedian does that and does it successfully

Then the more they're going to start generating this aura of magnetism because you know i mean not to like Blow smoke or anything shan, but when you walk into a room people gravitate towards you people want to look at you You know how to do it if those are bill collectors Every funny person i know Has developed a type of and i'm you can use this language for here we call it talent It's a city which means that if you want to When you're in a group of people Whether it's on stage or not on stage you can start doing a series of

Actions that are kind of hypnotic that are going to induce a reaction that's going to make people laugh right That's a city you've developed this kind of thing and that comes from feeding people and the way you've been feeding people Is with your hilarious fucking comedy and so it's like comedians are always a little magical You know and some comedians are are dark Are sorcerers and some comedians are are like shamans, you know like if i've never met a comedian or a funny comedian That isn't magical. I've never met a of a hilarious person that isn't either overtly or subconsciously using a type of Power that in other parts of the world

Is always associated with magic. Yeah, but they don't call it that they just call it the sparkle the stuff Yeah, you know they call that talent. Yeah, right. That's what we call it here. Yeah. Yeah, it is it is not I mean you And now a word from This episode of the dtfh has been supported by simple Contacts that's simple contacts over at simple contacts.com Simple contacts is the most convenient way to renew your contact lens prescription and reorder your brand of contacts From anywhere in minutes. It's vision care for the 21st century. You need to renew your

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You would hope that that it's like you can attract People you know in this business when you get up there and you do your thing and you there's a vulnerability To every person that will stand on the stage. It's like you're naked and you're saying hey and there's that That that comic mentality, but I think people like this in general like I hope they like me I hope people like me And you put yourself out there and I Generally I generally do like people. I am a people person. I've always been

An extrovert I've always been outgoing and even when like I grew up do a different, you know, I grew up Jewish in Oklahoma There weren't many of us walking around and even then I was super proud and like for show and tell at school I bring a fucking dreidel with me and a menorah and I'll let you know the kids they all loved christ They all attended the church on the corner and I just stood proud because I was like well look at me I'm maybe a little different, but this is I embraced it and When you get on that stage, there is that whole Like part of you that you're just like well, I hope I can provide This service, but you know that doesn't that service doesn't come without judgment

So you put yourself up there and you hope that you can feed off Positive vibes and people and make people happy not everyone's gonna always agree with everything you say and You're gonna see the judgment probably more than you might see the laughs Well, it depends on what you're looking at. I mean, it's like that's the problem with comedy especially with comedy is like you have to like so you've got like, you know The double-edged sort of comedy I think as opposed to like other art forms is like I can like sit in my studio here and make music all fucking day and I can pretend to myself

That's some really beautiful music Duncan, right? It but because like there's some really good weed. Yeah, exactly. And let me tell you it's always the weed It's hilarious every once in a while like every once in a while, maybe I got a top dead hit. No, it was just the Jamaican roast You know what it's like when it's like two in the morning You're fucking baked and you're looking at your hands scrolling down. What you feel is like the like the the channeled divine Wisdom of the universe and then you like wake up in the fucking morning and look at it. You're like

I have to tell you though. I have only been high once in my life and it was I thought I was gonna die and it was in Amsterdam. Was it marijuana? It was full-blown marijuana And I you know, I thought because I I work mostly a lot on all gay male cruises and I perform on them and so I thought oh, it would be funny to open my show. I had my videographer with me I'm like be funny to open my show like Sean Pulaski's never gotten high in her life until today

And so I brought like all these props and things with me just in case it would be funny when I got high And we you know, we sat in that Amsterdam cafe It's just it was all it was all bad like I don't know why I became the carrot top of getting high But I logged all this shit with me And I get I literally Get there and I'm like, okay, you know, I was raised by Two parents that always like drugs are bad for you. Stay off drugs. You know, go go, you know get straight A's Become a doctor or whatever the case was and so I was always just I never really did

I mean I had alcohol and I would drink and party but Drugs just I never touched pot, but I thought okay. I'm in Amsterdam. This is legal. Let's get a really funny video And I had five friends with me and they brought me like a spliff And I did the the pop with the tobacco and it must have been about like three feet long this spliff I smoked the whole thing An hour went by I said this shit isn't working How am I the only person that pot does not affect? I've never had pot and I was literally like I was so nervous I was like shaking holding pot. You would have thought I was like

Like raping a full family like you the way I was so nervous that I was gonna get caught with anything So then they're like, okay, we went we got you we got you this stuff full-blown marijuana This should do the trick and then I smoked almost half of that And I was like, it's not working. So I don't know. I've been smoking for like three hours I mean and then at some point it kicked in and then all I remember is it You know, I remember grabbing props. I remember like doing that they filmed something and Then I remember blacking out

And then I remember walking and I could hear myself talking but I was like 30 seconds behind And I was comparing pounds to euros like who gives a fuck. Why am I doing that? Yeah, and I turned to my friend. I said am I high? He said yes. I said am I in Amsterdam? He said yes. I said am I walking? He said yes And then six hours. I was so fucking high. I was talking to trees I thought Kathy Griffin was coming to take my non-career. I had no idea. It was not a good experience You got paranoid about Kathy Griffin. I could you believe that? No, I can't believe it for sure No, because the mind is like so like you're like

The disc the discursive mind like when when you get stoned For the first time and you over you overdosed yourself And I sure did. Yeah, you overdosed and and like when you overdosed on marijuana What what happens is that part of your mind that like puts you in a bad mood takes over Because that part of the mind is wrong is wrong. I had five friends that watched me Over none of them are really smoking. Yeah. Yeah I had read like the pamphlets in the Amsterdam Cafes before that said, oh, you know, they had all these steps if you feel really high

Pour sugar into water. Have you ever fucking heard of this sounds like a bunch of hogwash? I mean, but I remembered that and my friends all went to dinner and I'm talking to a tree And I came in and then put the put the sugar I put pounds and pounds of sugar into the water No, nothing the video came out really funny. It did. That's great I can't find it. I don't know where it is. It was on like a DVD And I think my husband was the only one who ever saw it because we had just started dating at the time But I didn't do well and it made me it made me so nervous to ever like do it again. Yeah Well, you overdosed

Apparently, I mean, this is the fucking problem. I'm a terrible drug addict. Yeah. So yeah Give me all the heroin. I mean, I I yeah terrible. So my mom would say the same thing I'll never smoke marijuana. I did she tell tell the one time she like overdosed on weed and like, you know I had the spins and I was paranoid and it's like so I'll never do it again because marijuana is fucking horrible It's like that's like saying like, you know wine is like Poison because because once you drank three bottles of wine, you know, and you were you were vomiting for days another funny thing that you're saying Is like so many people would be like, you know, my parents they weren't into drugs, you know

They would just drink and it's like, oh, you mean your parents were doing the most destructive drug on the plan Yes, like they did a study They did a wonderful study this guy. And fortunately his name is professor nut, which is like brilliant fucking a noise Maybe he's like a sidekick professor ball. Yeah, I just like I know why does his name have to be like that? It's like professor bongo professor, you know professor Choo-choo You know, why does his name have to be ridiculous and he's a psychedelic advocate?

But regardless his data, you know, the research is good and he did he did this wonderful study to determine Like what's what's the most harmful drug? What are the most harmful drugs on the planet? And you know, you have these wonderful liquor. What is alcohol alcohol's the first and and you know, though It's it's you know, I think if we like compare like say Methamphetamine to alcohol methamphetamine comes really close but but if like methamphetamine were suddenly available For sale at like 711, you know, you could just go to 711 buy one of those shitty fucking hot dogs and like

meth crystal Then meth would make it above alcohol because it's the it's the availability of alcohol mixed in with it. What about opiates? What what about opiates? They're like a few down opi. Opioids are a few down. Yeah, because it's like what apparently What heroin Is doing to your body like to your liver Into your heart to your to your body Compared to what alcohol is doing to your body. It's way less bad for you

It's just really way more addictive and it like and and and and if you're measuring it outright. Yeah, sure You know alcohol fucks you up like they just did a study where they found out there is no Healthy amount of alcohol like you know that bullshit you read like yeah one glass one glass one I heard that I heard about that study. Yeah glass but then I turned I heard today another study It's like everyone's contradicting themselves are like if you have a little bit of alcohol and red meat That's oh, that's good for you like people. They said oh no the study was red meat and cheese So it's like is it good for you? Is it not I feel like every month Another study comes out to contradict the other studies and the previous study

So I don't even know what to believe anymore. I can just know that's like I'm going to try and live my life if I want to have a drink I do if I wanted to smoke pot I can I've been into the med men. Thank you On robertson and Beverly Hills. I have walked in there And I had ordered like I had gone in there and I I someone said oh you should take the cdc Mints, you know if you ever feel anxious or this this will help you calm down. It doesn't have any of the thc I went in there. I walked in with like a jone crofford hat on and sunglasses Yeah, I looked like an asshole

And I'm like am I buying drugs and they're like what and I'm like is the popo gonna come and get me and they thought I was crazy and they gave me the cdc stuff Didn't work or see look at me. I'm the worst drug addict ever you will never see me on intervention Good luck getting addicted to marijuana cdp. Yeah, I know it's terrible. Was it cdb. See that's how shitty I am Well, I took it and it didn't work and then I went back again And I got it with the thc Didn't work just made me nauseous. It didn't help me didn't help me stay calm nothing Yeah, it's like there's a I went to this cdc the center of disease control

See where my jewish mind is always like do I have that? Jesus You know, there's like everyone that's the other thing is like because of this awful prohibition on drugs There is this assumption that everyone's body reacts to To marijuana or other psychedelics the same way like Everyone's genome is a little different. So people have different reactions to certain psychedelics. So it's like you know one of the Beautiful things about the fact that they've begun to study psychedelics again is that there's wonderful things you could do by just

analyzing people who have like Rough reactions to marijuana, let's say or to psilocybin and then would I be one of those rough reactions to marijuana? You might be you know, it isn't it's a phenomena that comes up where people are like, I can't get high and and it was so weird and what is that, you know, there's a lot of like Potential answers to that who the fuck knows from like the woo-woo side of things to like Something to do with the cannabinoid receptors in your brain and then and then and then maybe like the cannabinoid receptors Disappoint like what? You know, I don't know by the way, this is pure 100 percent bro science. I have a doctorate in bro science

who the fuck knows I've got a lot of I got a lot of friends who are like doctors and scientists and when this shit starts going they're just like What about chemical makeup of people? I'm sure that Plays into effect Of how people react. I mean like how does that explain? genetically If people become out if they've had an alcoholic parent and then they become alcoholics. I think that there's something Yeah, it's genetics. They were trying to feed so like now what they want one this

scientist I met at a psychedelic A conference was telling me that they're working on analyzing people's genomes and seeing if they can figure out what psychedelics are just Probably statistically not going to work for you. So if we lived in a civilized society where alcohol was Not the only legal Yeah

Route to shifting our consciousness through some chemical then Theoretically you could have a genetic test done and they would be able to tell you. Oh Don't take mushrooms. Yeah, you're gonna freak the fuck out every time because of this or that Now that's science, right? Now if you were to go to the other side of the charts to like the World where mushrooms are actually like a healing plant medicine and you look at the concept of the human entity Is a kind of temporal sponge that has absorbed a bunch of darkness and trauma then You could say well the reason you're going to have a rough time at first with the mushrooms is because All that trauma that's inside of you

You've been desperately trying to ignore with every single fucking drink you've been taking with every single shitty relationship You've been getting into and with every single fucking thing you've been addicted to with every video game that you've been playing and with every Sleeping pill you've been taking all that fucking darkness is going to be pushed out of your body by the The healing medicine and when that starts coming out you're gonna see it with your conscious mind And when you see it with your conscious mind, it's going to scare the fucking shit out of you And that fear is what we call a bad trip when reality You had a few of those

In the early days I did you know when I was still like purging myself of this shit and like it's kind of like A bad trip is a lot like eating Going to let's say I don't know fucking like Wendy's in panorama city. I don't know if you've ever been to the Wendy's in panorama city I can't say that I have no offense Wendy's in panorama city. I went there. I got I don't know if it was you And I don't know if it was let's just so forget it. I don't want to get sued by fucking Wendy's I'm just saying like it's like eating

A lot of really bad food and then Vomiting and looking in the toilet and being like, oh my god That was inside of me. And so that's a bad trip a bad trip does in a period of like Six hours what a great therapist is going to do over the course of maybe a couple of years Which is like very gradually allow you if there's something that needs to be released To release it whereas like a which is why it's great to the the model for mushrooms

Was usually there would be paired with the mushrooms a person called a shaman who would be there to help you Yeah, because that's why ayahuasca is so popular and people will just take trips and yeah and trip out on that I think i'm just too I think i'm just too nervous to do something like that. Oh, right. That's right Yeah, we're nervous and then and then you would say to your the question Why are you and who wants to be there? It's like I feel sorry for the shaman It's got to deal with all my neuroticist like I could just see that shaman like no, I quit I quit this one is too much. Baba Streisand is too much for me

I don't know why I made the shaman arab, but I just did that's it. I learned shaman's. Yeah, usually usually there are Shamans there are arab shamans I'm sure they're usually the ones like in latin america where people go to do the ayahuasca Well, we you know as comedians like you know, usually when I'm like Many comedians that I've met if have like a lot of pain they're carrying around Yeah, like they're afraid to put the pain down for a lot of different reasons And like one of the reasons they're afraid to put the pain down Is because they think if they put the pain down they'll stop being funny

And and I've like seen that many many times where comedians are like fuck that fuck that Like I don't want to be happy I don't want to feel good about life. I don't want to feel like all fucking like yeah, everything's perfect I love everyone because then how am I gonna write my fucking jokes My jokes are a deconstruction of fucking society motherfucker. And if they're not that they're like Based on a kind of like, you know, whatever. So the idea is like You know, if I remove the pain Then failure awaits. I don't know if that's you or not, but I know I've been in I've been that in that place before

This ridiculous idea that if you don't self-flagellate you're gonna be in some kind of like god will start hating you or something Yeah, I know I I I I have the capability of digging deep. I'm not afraid for people to know what who I am in my life. I don't I don't know. I'm I I feel like I'm an open book, but it also depends. I mean, I vary Who I'm in front of and what I'm doing and sometimes I just like to think off my feet. So it's not really diving Deep into me now when I'm doing material I can I mean I've I've got to say I've been really fortunate in my life as far as um Growing up and I had a good family And I worked really hard and I was a good student

And I I I always knew I wanted to make people laugh and I you know had thought like I wanted to do the whole SNL type of route and I love like impressions and and characters But as time's gone by and as I get older I do I experience You know, I I do experience more pain you have more life experiences And they're real and they don't prepare you for things You know, I used to think I'd see these eat true Hollywood stories. I'm like, I'm never gonna get there I'm never gonna get to the top. I don't have any true Hollywood story. I didn't I didn't do this I didn't get caught here. I wasn't arrested. Um, you know, this didn't happen to me. I didn't flee to Mexico

I didn't have any of this shit happened to me. Yeah, and Not in like a polyana type of way, but just I didn't have anything that I mean the worst that had happened Is that my parents got divorced after 30 years of marriage and it just my mom was how old were you? I was 20 About 21 21. I was like my first my No, it was like, yeah, my senior year in college What my first day my senior year in college I got the call I mean they were having problems and then that happened and it kind of took a toll

I my mother emotionally and for my brothers and sisters and I it was something that we Tried to help and Carrie and she never got rid of the pain and the anger And it it was hard and it was hard to watch and it you know You you watch something like that and then this year when my mom suddenly passed away And got really sick out of the blue. It was just that was very painful And i'm not afraid to talk about something like that. I'm not afraid to to tell people You know how that experience affected me and i'm not afraid to find jokes as well It took me a moment to find any humor and that

That torturous situation that I play over in my brain Every day since and it gets harder to hold my head up high. Yeah Especially since she was my biggest fan my number one supporter So it you carry that with you and I know you've got to understand this and it's I don't think anyone preps you they don't prep you for the loss Make sure of a parent and then there should be classes It's like when you go to college or even in high school how to balance a checkbook, you know how to balance your bank account um

You know how to how to purchase a house Yeah things that need people how to do your taxes. Yeah, and and another thing is how How do you deal With a parent dying or parents getting older help taking care of them And that's something just was so new to me. How do you deal with that? Like if you had to teach that class like if you had to write the course syllabus for that class What what would it look like like if like you had to teach a bunch of people who had somehow managed to get themselves in a

State of consciousness where they actually think their parents aren't gonna die Which is a lot of people What would the class look like? What would you say to them? Like how would you like teach that class? I think first of all What I noticed is that and I didn't really know much about this is like long-term health care Thank god my mom had something like that. I don't even think people even know many people are even aware Of that today. I mean younger generation. Maybe an older generation is where that is something It's like that sometimes I feel like could be a saving

Grace as far as if you are a child and then you become A caregiver your brothers and sisters and there's a strain and a stress That happens with family when a parent gets sick or someone has to take Care of someone so I think and you may think you've got this tight family and there's just camaraderie there But it can I think it can break a family apart destroy a family just break it And that that is challenging. Yeah, and I think if you go in aware knowing that the emotional stress of being witness to this and I think what's really important is is

If someone, you know, you see your parent, I mean it depends like we all can't call when Someone's going to pass away and sometimes it's just sudden and I've seen that too And I feel like, you know, you've got to really value The people around you and you can give everything you can give to that person because When it's gone Suddenly and it's done You go back and there's all these stages where you second guess god I wish I wouldn't have talked to them this way. There was that one time I did this and that's kind of the record

that I play in my head and there's not I mean, it's been about six months And I there's not a part of me. There's nothing about me. That's like I wake up and I'm like gosh, you know what I remember these I go over the torture and I feel like When someone around you or a parent is sick We're not you just you've got to like you have to surround yourself with people Who you love who you care and and you've got to take care of yourself

mentally and physically and How long were you taking care of her? How long well I wasn't like my mom had caregivers and we were all my sisters and brother we were It was like a it literally was Maybe like a seventh month period. It was like six months where she just got sick and um It just happened also fast when part of the blink of an eye. Yeah, and nobody knew the best of doctors

You know, we had the best neurologists in southern california and the testing the multi millions of dollars of testing man Healthcare is important. I'll stress that again Because sometimes that can help people Maybe they might not find the answers, but at least you're trying so You can find you can find that the message also Like, you know the class is like because if I was like help if I was getting to teach this class with you Like the first thing I would want to get out is like do mushrooms Do lots of them

Yeah But do it in a responsible way and and and not could have used some at that time Just mushrooms. There's a lot of different like access points to the transcendent that aren't just psilocybin But you know psychedelic there'd certainly be a psychedelic component to it But the other thing I'd want to teach people is it's The whatever you've created in your mind about how this is going to look That's not how it's going to look. It's not it's not what you expect

And then the other thing I'd want to put in people's minds is it's a million times less scary than you think it is it's Sad and it is Heartbreaking but your mind is created um, or at least my mind created, you know, the text of chainsaw massacre Uh, or that level of this kind of like, you know, hellraiser Thing when really what you're what you'll experience is the most natural thing there is Outside of birth, which is people have been entering this dimension and exiting this dimension

for a very very long time and um, so You suddenly begin to encounter something that's as natural as a river running downstream as a natural as wind blowing through the forest it's but also attached to it is all the attachment of the people who somehow managed to Trick themselves into imagining that we are here permanently. Yeah, and that's where you run into the light. That was me

That was me drama. I thought I thought I my I think my family is invincible And I don't know why I always thought I thought that about my grandma birthday. She died at like 98 my grandma rose died at 94 I have an aunt right now. God help us all and anna She's 105 wow And her husband uncle abe was in the holocaust. He had the numbers on his arm We were not allowed to ask uncle abe about the numbers when we were a kid But I used to make a joke because aunt anna. She is tough. She called me fat my grandpa's funeral in ninth grade I will never forget that

I'll hold a grudge and I will go visit anna, but I always say like oh my god You know, I said, uh, I say my uncle abe survived to holocaust ashowitz and anna because she She was she was tough You know, she was tough on him and he was just this sweet little polish man. Yeah, so sweet But anna no kids just keeps on going. Wow She's just and she's there. She's got a boyfriend In her, you know nursing home. She's doing it. She likes it here. Yeah Yeah, she likes it here. Some people want to stay here. Some people don't but but the the um

Yeah, that that uh that's To me It's amazing the way I love the west. I love technology. You know, you see all these fucking gadgets everywhere. I love technology Love virtual reality all that it's so incredible. It's so incredible but In the west there is this massive Blind spot

And that blind spot is our own mortality and we need the blind spot for um materialism to work like it does Because like, you know, like when you watch any fucking coca-cola commercial, right, which is a classic example of like Ridiculous marketing. There's like a great youtube Clip if you look up, uh Gixx spelled z i z e k Of course, that's how he spells it. Yeah. Gijek. Gijek. Is that one of the names on the cans? You're like, fuck you Gijek

I was just looking for john Gijek and um, he uh, he does a kind of like analysis of Different brands and he does this just fantastic deconstruction of a coca-cola commercial and coca-cola itself And so whenever we see a coca-cola commercial in general Uh, it's always like around youth Right and it's always you sometimes it's like a party. Oh, it's always a party. We're fucking partying. There's a barbecue It's all this fucking, you know, it's like this the impression that goes along with the branding Is that this is youth you're you're kind of drinking a party you're drinking

This is like almost like the fountain of youth or something It's like you're you're sipping the best times of your life in this can This is this amazing fucking thing and if you you look at like all commercials Outside of the ones on fox news which are designed for the geriatrics who are watching it You are like having all these fucking difficulties from like this dress level They've been getting from watching fox news for their whole lives if you fucking watch like most of these commercials They're all portraying

A dimension where we're immortal, right? Because for for capitalism to really work We need to put matter over soul, right? Like we've got to put like Stuff over like the transcendent. Otherwise, it's kind of like try to fucking convince somebody to like Get into debt to the banks Who is 100 percent certain that the body is a vehicle that they temporarily inhabit on a very long journey Which is the process of purifying what they are good fucking luck with that coat commercial, you know Good luck with that

You know like try to get across this idea of like you don't need to be in a hurry You know, you really don't you don't need to be in a hurry. You're torturing yourself and the reality of the situation is that you're Desperately trying to escape the reality of your own Mortality by going to these stupid parties And if you just sit in yourself and become what you are right now, which is perfect You don't need to drink coke. In fact, uh, it'll be the best tasting water You ever had in your life if you love yourself. Good luck. How does that fucking work?

So in the west we're all taught that uh, we we avoid death and the avoidance of death I think is great on one level because it gives us this till it happens, right? We get to enjoy this fucking cool-ass roller coaster. It's like party party party. Wait a minute. My fucking arm doesn't work Wait, what does that mean? Why is my arm not working? Well, it's because you have a degenerative neurological disease It's how you're you got six months to live. You're like, wait, what? Where's my coke? Wait, that was my coke drinking, Anne Here try Pepsi. Yeah Pepsi for people who's right, Anne has been paralyzed because they're slowly dying

Right. So yeah, this is the situation and this is the this is the grand conspiracy. The grand conspiracy is that we have been intentionally Misdirected from one of the greatest things that happens to us and because of that We've transformed that into the worst thing that can happen to us and now when it happens Families get ripped apart People are not prepared people die in shitty fucking medical conditions because they thought they were gonna live forever And and and it's a it's all I think blow back from Materialism which is like when you get taught that this shit goes on forever when it just doesn't it just doesn't and that's good

Yeah, I think it's important. I think it's important though to tell Especially in a situation like that in in those moments and especially if it's someone is Is is sick and they're dying in front of you. It's just you Get him a coat. Yeah, I think that's I guess what I should have done But I is that one of the things you beat yourself up about that you didn't bring your mom a nice cold glass of Coca-Cola I was like Shirley McClain in that hospital from terms of endearment. I was like somebody get my mother the shot And I feel like you know just to to to To express yourself. I mean that's one thing I've

learned I guess and I guess and also in the work that we do is Just be honest and And tell people how you feel and and I was very honest and told my mom How I felt and I I was there and that's what I feel that's very important Especially when someone's sick and if this is their last of days and they're trying and they're fighting a fight It's important that someone's there. I think human touch I know that's what I'd want And I and I would appreciate that and the hospitals don't make it easy for you

And I wanted like after I came out of the hospital. I was like god, I want to go to shark tank I want to invent a you know the the the um companion bed And it's a bed that snaps on to the bed of the person who's sick And dying and you can lay next to them and just like not be in a weird contorted body holding their hand in a chair So like there is that comfort level there You can't that they know that someone's there with them to help them To get through this because I can't imagine the fear That must go through people's brains

In a situation like this when you're in a hospital and there's strangers coming in and they're changing you and they're this and And and you're seeing your life kind of flash before your eyes because all of a sudden all these relatives are coming in To that you haven't seen in a while and I I I can't imagine how how fearful people must feel I think I would well the relatives also, you know the the training is like, you know The dying person as they begin to transition It seems that something kicks in and you see this natural process that are happening and But the living Oh my god, it's like

What what ends up happening is that they're because we are also terrified of our own death That when we're around a dying person We begin to project our own fear of death onto the dying person, right? And so it's no longer about the dying person the dying person becomes an extra In your movie about how you're terrified of dying You know what I mean? Yeah, and that's like it's like give give them the fucking spotlight Oh, yeah, they're about to fucking merge with infinity and you're the one who's like It's okay to cry by the way, you know, I'm saying like crying in front of them do all that stuff

But like it's a really in ps. I'm not talking about anybody but my own fucking self like when I my father passed actually On the 12th and when I was with him Uh, thank god for my teachers, you know, because what you did naturally what you're saying I was present I was there. I told the truth. I did this That is such good karma Sean because that's like a lot of people don't get that fucking chance You get one chance To swing at that fucking ball and most of us miss and that's okay

How many people miss but and that's okay because we you did your best you weren't taught you were afraid You went into fucking denial mode. You wanted to get out of the fucking picture. You wanted to run You were angry. You didn't do whatever. It's okay, man. No one taught you but man If just to say I was with my mother And I was present And I I was there with her and I was there with her to the point where I was so looking at in the face

That I thought about I wish there was a way to lay next to her in bed That is heroism of the highest level and sophistication of the highest level if you ask me I just think that's that's a that's heart Basically what it is. I wouldn't call it heroism. I just think it's called love. That's whatever hero says Every single well somebody get me a cape somebody get you a fucking cape and a trophy. No tights. I don't look good in those But yeah, that's a real hero and and and and they're in You know and that's like a gift so like you're you know, I think our parents give us like the can give us two gifts One big gift the big one

Our existence and the other one The way they teach us after they die Because that's the our parents teaches to talk and they teach us to walk and they teach us to drive and they teach us to ride a bike But then they teach us about impermanence and they teach us about impermanence after they drop their body And that's when the real lesson fucking starts and that's when you become a real human and it's a it's like the most heart breaking Heart breaking thing on one level but on another level it's like being granted admission into a secret society and suddenly being shown the scrolls that

Uh, a lot of people haven't had the chance to look at and your parents are showing you this and their body's not there but it's like they're still teaching you and you're like Really feeling that teaching that's the connection with them. You know and so now you're in a you know, so anyway, it's a it's a uh It's a um another thing that people can learn is what you know, when my dad was passing I called Well, he called me. It's so cool. I grew Marcus. He's been on the podcast a few times He just always calls it just the right time and so I'm sitting there. My father's sleeping. He's he's probably Less than like 13 hours away from uh transitioning and um

He calls me and I'm I say to him I just don't want him to suffer I just don't want him to suffer And uh, he says to me take yourself out of it right meaning It was such a perfect thing to say and it might sound like That's a brutal thing to say to somebody. He's he's like, but it's the perfect thing to say, which is what I was doing

Was really I didn't want him to suffer Not just because I don't want him to suffer because it was hurting me to see him suffer And I was trying to reduce my own pain right And and and so it's in in in what I needed to do Was not be there so that I could function As a force of like love and not a fear force. That's scared. That's fear. That's all fear I don't want him to suffer. I don't want him to hurt. I and then now I can now I can start panicking

Now I can start yelling at the fucking nurse Right. I did like we all do right You know, yeah, yeah, we do I did that We that you know, because it's all love but you're like, hey, hey, what the fuck what's going on here? He's he's hurting and they're like he's dying And you know, they don't they don't say it because their nurses and especially hospice nurses They're trained to be around people who are doing the Shirley McClain thing and they're trained to to to do to be compassionate to people in that moment of like

absolute panic But so take yourself out of it And then and then and then just think I'm just here for him. I'm here for her and What that ends up turning into is Oh They need chapstick You know, their lips are dry You want to put some chapstick on his lips because he hasn't been drinking water

You know what I mean? It becomes like very simple matte, you know, and that That's where you know, you get back on the track when someone's passing and That would be the other thing I would add get your fucking self out of it. Not not that that's it's okay It's like get out of your own way. Yeah, you know, it's you know to put it to like in the comedy The worst thing that can happen on stage is when you start Realizing you're up on stage and they start getting that weird fucking Temporal stutter where you're a few jokes ahead or a few jokes behind you're planning

What's around the next turn and then you're like that then you're gonna start stammering and then that can create a fucking feedback Loop that ends up in like a not great show The best sets at least for me are the ones where it's like You know, you're just in the moment purely and you're just uh That's how we should You know be with someone dying and and or be with someone living for that matter, you know, yeah I like that god. Why am I paying a therapist again? Because you fucking I just did I just this podcast every day. It's very healing though

Duncan and you have you have that spirituality and that energy about you and Uh as I was telling your wife earlier, I just I will reiterate that in this business. I think You know to find really good Solid people I don't think it's as easy It it's hard to find people that I could really say That inspire me that I believe are good good natured good hearted

And and have that light about them and and you are one of those people now if you were rich voss You would you would have I would have just ripped you an asshole. You would have gone through that And ended it with and you're not one of them. Yeah. Yeah That's true, and you're not one of them It's hilarious. You know what he said to me Rich boss, you know, many, you know, if you're a comedian you have been insulted by many many comedians Oh, yeah, you've been insulted by comedians in varying at varying levels of creativity in varying levels of like absolute perfectly sadistic

Darts aimed exactly at the center of your heart and what rich boss did to me was like when I this is when I was dating Natasha Legerro and you know, she's fucking like kicking ass and like just fucking Natasha, you know, like I'm do I'm like No, it's just it's like the part of the process where you're like, well, maybe I'll just start working at a fucking gas station or something like uh So we go to eat with rich boss and body McFarland and like, you know, like natural I'm just nervous around them and like I was nervous. I used to be nervous. You know, I was nervous around you You guys like when you're around like a really fucking

Funny fucking like you know, it was around me. Come on. Yeah. Okay. You're self deprecating. My tits aren't that big You're self deprecating. That's a lot of people are and and that's a another comedic trait and it's cool. But but uh um Come on so and I can remember like Uh, so there are there's that extra little bit of like fuck man. I mean, this is a kind of it's like a real comic and like I don't even fucking know. I said, oh, no, man. I should be fucking That's probably a mistake and Natasha's for doing great and like what I was already insecure And I so we have this dinner with them and I don't remember what the fuck I said

But I'm sure it was stupid because I was probably trying to impress Them and like so then as we're walking to the car Rich having identified my just absolute insecurity He says hey Duncan I'm like we're getting in the car. It's the perfect timing. He goes hey Duncan, you know where I've heard of you And I like oh, he's heard of me. I'm like where he goes nowhere He ended Hope you enjoyed this day

It hurt so bad it felt so good Fuck he thinks I'm a comedian. You know what I mean? It must mean he thinks I'm a comedian Yeah, he's got anointed most fucking comedians will not like have learned. I don't know. Maybe not. Maybe he does it to this day I don't know but anyway, Sean the the to get back to to what we were talking about before we're both in grief land right now and Um, are they gonna make that movie grief land They should stop singing on cars and la freeways. Yeah, they should man

they should because it's like it's a special place to be and And it's like and as a comedian to find yourself suddenly in the land of grief And then like to like know when you get on stage That in the audience for sure Is at least one or two people Who have experienced recent loss and certainly a lot of people who have experienced

loss and and certainly some percentage of people Who are desperately trying to avoid Thinking about that, right? And yet you've been trained as a comedian to tell the truth And you've been trained trained to like transform that truth into something funny And you want to get on stage and not do the hacky fucking thing which god knows I'm fucking guilty of which is to get up there and be like you're all gonna die You know go like blizzard king on them, you know

Shut the fuck up. You're not billyx. Get the fuck off Get the fuck out of here. You're fucked. You think you are no shit. We're all gonna die edgelord. No shit, motherfucker Boy, I'm guilty of that. That's lazy, you know, but to figure out a way to alchemically convert Death Into comedy. How's that working out for you? You know at I It really has kind of it it's fueled me to to be better

Just to try and stand out I feel like You know, I I deal with it every day and then when I'm on stage I think those are those moments where it's the one part of the day Maybe you aren't dealing with the grief because you've got a job Ahead in front of you and that job is the audience And you've got to dance like a monkey to entertain them and I think It's there's it's such a rewarding sensation

When for those moments you can just step back and be like hey I can get through my day and I can make other people happy and You can kind of go home and then maybe you go back to thinking about Things that have happened processing it, but I feel like a part like from from me I feel like now I've got some forces Behind me and I can see that happening and it's not just the force of someone

As wonderful and supportive as my mother It's the forces of mitzi shore who own the comedy store. I mean I visited her two days before she passed and It just and it was kind of right after my mom passed away. So it was watching two dynamic jewish women in my life that were like my tour to force like deteriorate and that was that was hard That was hard for me, but I knew that they

At some point they were gonna come full circle and surround me and I and I do feel that you feel mitzi with you I bet mitzi. There's no doubt. You know also feels mitzi with her vicki barbelak who's about to take all of agt I know and and someone told her. Hey, you know some medium person one of them said do you have a mitzi? Do you know a mitzi? And she's around you whatever the case is. I knew it and when I went to visit mitzi I told her I was I talked to her. I I talked to her for about an hour. I told her everything I was feeling Well, she loved you shan. I loved her. I loved her. I told her how much I love her

I told her everything she'd done for me and without her I would be I would not be anywhere she Is will always be an inspiration to me and She was my biggest supporter after my mother Like she didn't birth me, but she might as well have I mean I do feel like I lost two mothers this year, but two Man boy how strong of women they were and they never got to meet each other Which makes me crazy until now and now I think they have joined forces and I I can feel them standing behind me because Things are changing and things are a little bit different and I can see the energy

changing and I can see You know my career moving in a in a different pace that I had I have not seen before Well, I mean you just put the special out and you you this is like I somehow missed that Wow, I didn't connect that your mom and mitzi Wow, man that is Wow

I mean if folks those of you listening maybe not familiar the comedy store uh mitzi shore was uh I don't know how to put it. She was some kind of like I mean that thing we were talking about earlier shaktipa Yeah, like she had the jiu-jitsu on the coke. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. She was very powerful and um, she could see Inside of peak certain people this thing and once she saw it

You know, she would like She would just dedicate herself to like bringing it out bringing it out. She she was like Loved shawnt. She loved you shawnt like she you know because I was the talent coordinator there and I remember that she you like I loved her you Uh like eddie griffin. They were like, you know, there's just a few comics that she was like You know Her soul was like connected to their soul. It was powerful and it was an incredible thing to watch

Yeah, and um So how the fuck do you edit? A comp did you record the comedy special during this? year No, it was he it was about a year and a half ago. Okay, so it was before all this happened So you'd already edited it before I had edited it Um, and it just was in distribution with the company and they were working all the paper everything out So it was kind of on

Everything had been done. My mother actually opens my comedy special Um, and she I kind of like I kind of had put together An opening like larry david type of scene where I'm in the dressing room And uh, which we did shoot at the comedy store In the back main room even though I shot my special at a theater downtown Yeah, but we shot it there because it was too hectic that day But about like two months later we we shot that scene with my mom and I have my mom is you know, it just

To see to see her it's like memorializes her. I mean she now lives in infamy because my mother was a very funny woman And now everyone can can can see that Wow, man. Yeah And when you were shooting it with her, did you have any idea that there was this thing and Wow No, she had a walker and she was having problems with her back and her knees and she was trying to get this big back surgery You know in her 70s, which was really risky already and we were like, you know her body was kind of deteriorating for some reason she would

You know, she really was set in the mind like my mom was in a funny beautiful vain woman And she was like, I'm not gonna be in a wheelchair. And so I don't know why I made her harvey fire steam just now, but But you know she We were gonna get this surgery and she was set on that. So no, I did not know That something was happening Was it was happening then? Wow, see this is like the other thing. I'm so glad that you're Fine coming out and staying in it because it's like I'm you know where I'm at with it right now is like

You know There's like some stuff that I just I'm I guess I'm just afraid to say I feel weird saying but this idea of like when they pass When they drop their bodies Your life gets Brighter like it's like something gets added and and to it and it does and it's like I don't just mean like You know like the fact that suddenly like You you're you're getting a firsthand lesson and one of the most important

Things you can learn here, which is everything is impermanent That happens, but I'm talking about it Metaphysically feels like somebody is on the other side of the fucking stage Work in the fucking working the ropes and the police that wasn't there. I mean, I would hate to think that my mom The people just go to a place and pass away. I like to believe that You know, I've had a lot of friends pass away early I I have I've had my share of surprises and shocks through my life more than I ever wanted to see and not just relatives like close young friends, so

um You I want to believe and I have been a believer that there is an afterlife that there are people that there are spirits and hopefully that that's what surrounds me because I'll always carry my mom lives within side me I mean, she's not physically here, which is that's the hard part to handle there's so many things I want to share with her and You know, I I I do hope that she's she is her energy's here the uh This is this is something i'm realizing because like I've got this boy on the way

and like we've been doing it, you know, we did some ultrasounds and um uh And you know some one of my very dear friends like, you know, I maybe listen to the podcast I'll know he's like, you know careful with ultrasounds and like Just everyone knows like it's a it's a the place we're going to is a very sophisticated place it's not like, you know, the some some people get in trouble because That you can go to these private ones where maybe the ultrasound machines are a little

Stronger than they need to be and like if the brain is developing apparently. I don't know. Anyway, the point is it's cool, but So here you are looking at your baby, you know, and now with technology you can see the baby like very clearly and All the love inside of me is just pouring out looking at this boy and like, you know, my you know, I'll I'll put my head against there And stomach and I'll like talk to the boy and I'll like sing to him and I'll say I'm so glad you're coming. I'm so glad um And lately what I've been thinking is that's exactly what's happening with those who have passed Is we are in the womb of time and the ones that loved us are just outside the womb of time

In eternity and they're looking in at us here in this very transitory moment as we move through the material Universe and they sing to us and they like talk to us and the way they talk to us Is through synchronicities through dreams Through just this sense of like because I know my I know He can hear my voice unfortunately My voice is pretty bad

But like I know he can hear my voice and I know that he can feel feel me Like I know he can and I think in that feeling that we have with our our parents It's so interesting in the sense that there is an Undeniable presence and not just that there are these things that begin to happen that are just not Normal and they're not not normal in a good way there and and and so yeah, I don't I I don't just believe it like it's it's you know They are here and our

Denial of that Either because we've become terrified of that realization or because It's easier to believe that there is an extinction of the identity upon the expiration of the body or whatever Uh, I think Cuts us off from a very important data stream a very important um I don't know. This is the reason we pray to the ancestors. This is the reason that you know, I think it cuts you off from growing Yes

Yeah you just Gotta have an open mind and and embrace that there could be and that I'm I'm gonna go with that I think that they they do that the that mitzi and my mother and The people that I love are are with me because if not, I mean what I gotta What do I gotta think like oh, is it practical to be like you die?

You become and you go into the sand and you go and nothing happens I don't believe that how do you explain? Really good people like the best people dying young and I've seen the most incredible people be taken out And then the shit just hanging out live until they're god knows how old and I just feel like that's We need we need something good in the spirit world and that's what's Hopefully on that side. Yeah. Well, I mean we and it's the the I think being scientific about it being scientifically artistic about it in the sense that

If the hypothesis is that at this very moment We are in time. We are in an infinite being experiencing time in the form of matter and that All the people who've dropped their bodies That were with us are here because they're outside of time. They might decide to like I think of it in terms of like, um Dolphins

Come up for air go down into the sea and I think we come up for air Only the way we come up for air is we come up for time And we the way we come up for time is by manifesting a material body in this dimension and then we sort of take a big inhalation of Existence and then we go back down under and that's what death is and so that we don't really like separate from each other We're like a pod they call it a soul pod, but so if that's the hypothesis And you're beginning to get these hits these senses of like, oh, shit. I think my mom is actually right here I think my dad is actually right here

And then can we cultivate that in other words? What happens if instead of just like Thinking whoa, that was weird And then what would happen like if you I don't know made like a puja table. Do you know about that? No So a puja table is like you get a little part of your house And you get some candles and you put on on it like a picture of your mom people that you've lost And it doesn't just have to be built people are dead a little sanctuary a sanctuary Yeah, and then you a shrine a shrine. Yeah, and then you sit in front of that

Every day And you remember them And then see what happens. I like that. Yeah, it's a fun thing to do the experiment and just see what happens I do I do have a big picture of my mom In my living room and I stopped to Acknowledge her and talk, you know, I'll talk and be like, hey, you know, I'll say something But I think that's probably it's a very um

That's a I think that's a pleasant way to go about celebrating Fuck yeah, yeah, definitely. Yeah, right now what we do is we put up this fucking Concrete block and a goddamn golf course. Yeah, you know what I mean? We go over there and throw flowers in front of it and it's like, oh, yeah, that's where they are At the golf course that's filled with corpses. Hell. No, it's like Sean. It's you know, anyway, I am So excited for you and I'm so excited for what is in store for you and to like see this wonderful special

and to know that it is like happening You know in in in in this very magical time in your life this mystical time It's like no accident that all these things are converging, you know Wow, man, that is so fucking intense. It's like in the midst of these like monumental transformations Suddenly this incredible special pops into the world Congratulations, that's fucking cool. Thank you Duncan. It's funny when you're working on something for so long

You're like, well, when when does this come to light at the timing of how this is is kind of You know was kind of surprising because I thought, you know, my mom would be around to see because she was like When's it coming out? I want to see my you know, she wanted my mom liked a little soft shoe herself She was hilarious that way, but I'm very I'm very grateful and I'm grateful for all the support people like yourselves who I know it's uh, it's been hard for you too this year and I just I I think about that and I'm always here to support people and Listen, I think that's like another thing about when someone passes. It's like you just hold it inside You don't talk about it again. I think that'll just each you alive

and I I know women in general probably are better at talking about Loss and whatnot because we like to communicate a lot more than men might want to hold it inside and their feelings and process and it's it's it's all uh You know, it's I guess it's just part of adulting and adulting. Yeah, that's so funny adulting is another word for dying It's like the realities were all dying and it's like the yeah It's like just you know and everyone's just fucking scared of it

And then it's like when you the moment you like really come to terms with it and you start living in the land of truth It's like, oh my god, it's it's magical here It's beautiful here and to say that out loud and be like my god There's a celebration because my father died In a just the way he wanted to die and there's a celebration because your mother like she she died In a way where you were supporting her and there was this deep connection It's just like to say that out loud and like in the west. It's like god. No, man We got to fucking wear black and fucking the think of funeral music

You know once I was right Once I was riding around with a mortician. That's my theme music get out of my head funeral music Oregon I was riding It's like vampire music it's like the music we play for death is Yeah, it's halloween music. It's like why are we playing this fucking sad ass fucking music for something that is like a graduation This is a graduation from a class in the material universe and everybody's fucking Wearing black and playing organs and there's fucking candles flickering in the darkness and it's like this is insanity it's like this is a graduation ceremony and I think that

It's really beautiful to see you throwing your hat up in the form of this like Wonderful comedy special that you put up. It's really fucking cool. Thank you Duncan. Where can people see it? Well, you can catch my comedy special. It's called stretch it out And you can find it on amazon itunes on demand xbox if you're like 12 year old boy How dare you or my husband? And you get it on google play fandango now A bunch of places where you can just get entertainment. So it's pretty it's easy accessible. You can get it from your phone your tv Everywhere

Where are you you got any shows coming up? I do i'm performing Uh, well, you can always catch me at the world famous comedy store But I am performing at the Broadway comedy club on monday on labor day in honor of my friend poppy kramer who's a female comic who unfortunately passed last month, so Uh, I guess if you're if you know me, you may want to step back this year. I'm like everybody's dying So, uh, starting to put two and two together and then uh, yeah And then I'll be out in new york and then I head over to brazil, but that's just for fun

I'm gonna have all the links at uh dunkitrustle dot com Sean what an honor to have you on the show and thank you so much for spending this much time with memorally grateful Duncan, I love you. Thank you. I'm changing my name to jeez you right now as we speak jeez jack But jeez you jeez you oh, I get it. Ah, jeez you jeez. Sorry Sean, I love you. Thank you. Thank you Thanks for listening everybody and a big goodbye to august and hello september I'll see you swedish real soon. Hare krishna

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