Ear Biscuits with Rhett & Link - Rhett's Deconstruction 3 Years Later | Ear Biscuits Ep. 369

Episode Date: February 13, 2023

It’s that time of year again to revisit Rhett’s deconstruction! Now three years later, having left the Boat of Belief and swimming in the Sea of Uncertainty, he discusses how he still has faith, but not in the terms of any given religion. From strange coincidences in creativity to differentiating what we want to be true from what is true, this episode is full of interesting perspectives. To see the conversation, check out Ear Biscuits on YouTube – episodes and shorts every Wednesday! https://www.youtube.com/@earbiscuits To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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I'm Rhett. And I'm Link. This week at the round table of dim lighting, it's that time of year again, man. Woo! Around this time of year, we like to give a spiritual update to each other and to you good ear biscueteer um how many years ago was it that we broke open the can of spiritual worms three years ago three years ago three years in 2020 before the world changed we uh came out of the closet, the spiritual closet, and told our story of who we used to be,

our background as evangelical Christians, and why that was no longer who we are, how we describe ourselves. It's who we were at the time. And of course, the journey continues. Who we were at the time. Yeah, at the time that we, three years ago, talked about it. But we weren't evangelical were at the time. Yeah, at the time that we, three years ago, talked about it. But we weren't evangelical Christians at the time.

And we talked about who we were at the time. Yes, exactly. Which was no longer Christians, especially of the evangelical American white church variety. But my point is, it's been three years since then so every year we give a little update you know

we just we protect a little bit of time for each of us to have our own episode where we can just talk about whatever we want to talk about

when it comes to like our spiritual journeys because it's a journey things keep things keep changing. Do you think it becomes less interesting every year? I have no clue.

I don't think so. I'm very interested in what you have to say today. I think that- Today's your day, man. This one might be interesting. Not because what I'm gonna say is interesting, but because I am going to say some things that I'm kind of like questioned if I should be as honest about some of the things that I'm thinking. Do it.

Because I'm afraid to lose credibility with people. Okay. But I'm just like, okay. Lose credibility with people. I'm just going to go for it. All right. Well, I'm not going to judge you. So kind of the way that I process this, you know,

when we prepare for this episode is I kind of look back through the year, and I, you know, I don't do super regular like daily journaling, but I do when there's something significant that happens or a thought that strikes me that I'm like, I kind of want to remember that, especially as it relates to spiritual things in this process of the way I'm thinking about deconstruction and the way I think about faith.

I have a little folder in my Evernote, the faith folder. Okay. Where I kind of catalog these things. I'm going to kind of keep track because I am sort of changing and continuing on the journey. And then usually because we do this in February

around Christmas, over a Christmas break, I start looking at this stuff and just kind of seeing, well, what patterns formed and what things happened. And there's a bit of a narrative that I think unfolded that I'm going to try to lead you through, right? Awesome.

It could get a little tedious. It could get a little tedious because I'm trying to connect the dots that have been connected in my brain. And also trying to be honest about where things are going. And again, I try to qualify things when we talk about these things as... when we talk about these things as, I'm just kind of throwing out some, like giving you as a person, as a human, as another human, just a data point from another human who is trying to figure out what they think

about the nature of the world, right? Not in a, I'm trying to change your mind, I'm trying to persuade you, because as you'll see at the end, I don't know exactly what I'm trying to change your mind. I'm trying to persuade you because as you'll see at the end, I don't know exactly what I'm persuaded of personally. It's just kind of like if we were friends sitting around a campfire and we were like, well, what are you thinking about spiritual things these days? I would lightly toss some things out to the group for consideration.

So consider it in that way. Okay? Into the fire that would just burn. If you don't like it, just throw it directly in the fire. Just don't throw me into the fire. Ooh, is that... Is there symbolism in that?

Talking about hell. Oh. Oh. So you ready? I'm ready, man. I'll give you a quick preview Even though I am definitely still not a Christian I'm realizing that I am a person of faith

And I'm figuring out what that faith looks like Okay That's the preview That's where I'm going to land. Just so you know. All right. Now I know. Wherever you're going, you better believe American Express will be right there with you. Heading for adventure? We'll help you breeze through security. Meeting friends a world away? You can use your travel credit.

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I don't want to trash the Bible and say that it's boring. But it's kind of boring, especially when you've read it, like you spent a lot of your time in your previous life reading it. And when you start from the beginning, especially, you know, that's why when you do like Bible in a year, there's a reading plan that doesn't just have you start from the beginning and try to get through the Torah because it's so difficult to do. You were so excited about it. It's a moment in time. It turns out that it was a very a moment in time it turns out that it was an it was a very

important moment in time and it did something um you know the the the logic behind getting the bible and you know the analogy i used last year was if you were raised in a religion where the lord of the rings was the text and then you left that particular religion. But it had defined who you were in many ways. And not just who you were, but who you are now. Because who you were is the largest determiner of who you are now. And so it would be like going back and reading about Frodo anew. Bilbo, Gandalf. And basically seeing how did these things that I read

and how I interpreted them, how did they make me who I am? And how do I see them now when I go back and look at them in a fresh light? But the Bible is not the Lord of the Rings link. It was not written for your entertainment. And so, but what happened before I realized I was getting kind of, I was slowly trudging through this is that what it did do is it kind of thrust me back into thinking about some of the issues that were the things that I was thinking about when my deconstruction was beginning. Okay. beginning. Things that I hadn't really thought about or revisited in a while because my deconstruction in particular started, it's kind of started at the beginning of the Bible. A lot of people have an experience in the church or they learn something that might impact their understanding of Jesus and then it kind of works backwards. For me, it happened with my changing of understanding of the beginning of the Bible and the nature of the Old Testament, which then kind of was the thread that I began to pull that eventually the whole thing fell apart. So going back to read those things kind of thrust me back into the latest in Christian apologetics.

Oh. Which is, you know, again, apologetics is essentially the defense of the faith. And there's a whole apologetics industry. And it has changed quite a bit since I last checked in and since I was a student of these resources, right? Because there's just the content is so much more prolific. You're saying you were reading Genesis in the Bible and then you started reading what commentary on that now. Right.

But it quickly just became commentary about all of Christianity and like what's the latest in the arguments that are happening about different aspects of the faith on the internet between Christians and atheists and progressive Christians, et cetera, et cetera. And I was just kind of blown away, not surprisingly. Is this a blog still happening mostly in the blogosphere? No. Has it moved to Reddit? I mean, like, or Twitter? Like, where?

It's everywhere, but the place that it is the most accessible is YouTube. Okay. Because essentially you've got personalities who have set themselves up as, this is my position, this is where I stand, and they interact with each other across disciplines and across perspectives. And it's fascinating to me. I love kind of like watching it unfold because I feel like there's a little bit of me

in every single argument that I see, right? Because I was a professional Christian. I was an evangelical Christian. When I deconstructed, I kind of went through what I would call a mildly angry atheist phase, which is common to many people who deconstruct. And then I kind of backed off of that and kind of went into an agnostic place and I'm continuing to evolve, but you've got all these people that represent these different perspectives and I just like seeing them interact. And also having people publicly sort of change their minds is an interesting thing that I've seen happen too, which is something that happened to me. I like to hear that.

But as I kind of centered around one particular issue and reading about that, some things started to solidify, to become distilled. I don't know how I would describe it. About faith and reason that have helped me kind of look inwardly and kind of figure out why I think the way I think or help me organize some of my thoughts, which again, will get to what faith is at this point, how I'm leaning into that. And the event that there's so much discussion about, of course, is the resurrection,

the physical resurrection of Jesus, right? Because this is the central event of Christianity. This is the thing that Paul says that if it didn't happen, if Christ is not raised, then your faith is useless and we're to be pitied above all people. And, of course, if it did happen, then there's something to this Christianity thing. So it makes a lot of sense that people spend a lot of time talking about this. And a lot of apologists spend a lot of time defending it and trying to make a case for why it's reasonable to believe that Jesus actually raised from the dead. that Jesus actually raised from the dead. So in kind of looking at their arguments,

well, let me just newsflash, I'm still not convinced that Jesus rose from the dead. That's not what this is about. I'm not gonna go into why I do or why I don't believe it, but I'm not about to say that I've come to the conclusion that Jesus rose from the dead. I was very much sort of confirmed in my suspicion from 10 years ago that I don't believe that he did, and I don't believe there's a good case that he did. Okay.

But one of the things that I've observed is that if you really want to follow the argument, like if you want to actually consider the argument for or against the resurrection, there's a few things that you have to have at least some working knowledge of, right? Like you got to have a little knowledge or a little POV on the historical reliability of the gospels. You got to understand what extra biblical evidence there is. You got to understand a little bit about the history of first century Judaism. You got to understand first century Roman empire and how the empire was interacting with the Jewish people and how their laws were interacting and methods of execution and methods of burial, the early stages of the Christian church and how it grew and the testimonies of the disciples and all this stuff, right? That's a lot.

And it kind of hit me that most people and also most Christians, including me when I was a Christian, didn't have a working knowledge of these things, right? There may be like, oh, my pastor talked about it one Sunday or I checked in with a YouTube video or a blog. It was more common back in the day.

Where somebody who took the time to research all this stuff, somebody who is a historian, somebody who can read Greek or whatever, they have synthesized this information for me in a simple to understand blog post that makes me feel confident that I'm a Christian who believes in the resurrection, right? But really, I wasn't ever really following the argument. And I'm not even saying that even now I'm really following the argument to the degree that a lot of these people, these talking heads are. But yet, despite the fact that most Christians don't really follow the full argument

for the resurrection, the evidence for the resurrection, most of them, if not all, well, most Christians believe in the physical resurrection of Jesus. They believe that it happened. Sure. And it kind of hit me. I was like, but why? Okay, why is that? Well, because they have faith. They have faith that Jesus rose from the dead, right? Because typically the way that it worked for me is raised in a Christian household, you know, in a Christian community. I make a decision to become a Christian at a very young age when I don't have a real understanding of much. And then as you grow, you begin to build the case for your own faith. And then maybe there is a point that you have a crisis of faith

and you do some research in a particular area, but it's just to kind of confirm the faith decision that you already made. So this, and even if you're like, you are the most informed Christian on the face of the planet, and you're like, you are the most informed Christian on the face of the planet, and you're the guy that writes the book about the resurrection, the best that you can do,

and I don't even believe that this is possible, but let's just, for the sake of the argument, I'll be generous and say, the best that you can do is make a case for why it is reasonable to believe or even probable that Jesus rose from the dead, right? I don't believe that you can, but I'm just saying. If you make the case that it's probable that Jesus rose from the dead,

that it is the best explanation for why the early church got started, and it is the best explanation for the available evidence, at some point you still have to close the gap between probability and certainty with faith. Yeah, because there is not proof, 100% proof. You can't prove it. So at some point you have to take a leap of faith. And that really got me thinking about this concept of faith because I think there's a tendency for people like me who've not only deconstructed

but deconverted to just kind of just believe that you no longer have faith. That there's nothing that I think that is a leap to something. That I only operate under reason and logic, right? You tend to start believing that. But the thing that I'm realizing is that, well, I'm still human. And I believe that faith is a feature of humanity for most people. But what is it? And so the biblical definition, actually, in Hebrews 11.1, I think it's pretty good. So faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. That's the ESV. The NIV says,

now faith is the confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. And then if you're a King James person, faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. And I think this is, in popular culture, this is kind of how we understand faith. We don't really talk about it that much, but I actually think it's a great way of describing the way that faith operates in the world. So my sort of the Rhett McLaughlin version of this is, faith is a bridge we can use to travel from the limits of reason to a confident conclusion of what we hope to be true. confident conclusion of what we hope to be true. Faith is a bridge we can use to travel from the limits of reason to a confident conclusion of what we hope to be true. So if you're a Christian who is well-studied in all the evidence for the resurrection, you still got to get to the point where you got to want to believe that Jesus rose from the dead to make that final leap to it. It's

got to be this thing that you want to be true and then you believe it to be true. The desire for it to be true precedes the belief for it to be true. And again, I'm not singling out Christians because again, I'm gonna get to the fact that I think this applies to most people and it definitely applies to me.

And I'm gonna talk about how I see that manifesting itself in me. Hmm, yeah, it seems like someone may say, yeah, but you can become convinced of something. Like you can make an argument. You may not want to believe that Seinfeld is the best television show of all time, but if you listen to enough arguments, you might become convinced of it,

even if you didn't want it to be better than Friends or whatever your problem is. Yeah, but that's an opinion about a show that requires taste. I'm really just saying that it seems like, well, can I be convinced of something that I didn't want to be true, but then I changed my mind,

and then I... It's not really what I... So I'm just kind of pointing out that a lot of people would think that. I think that about some things. Yeah, but I think you're talking about a preference. I also think when it comes to belief of something where there's not 100% proof, I think that about some things. Yeah, but I think you're talking about a preference. So I think- I also think when it comes to belief

of something where there's not 100% proof, I do believe that like people believe what they want to believe. Like it's at the deepest level. Maybe it's something they need. So you're agreeing. I am agreeing with you, but yeah, I was kind of exploring the other side of it. Well, I think a good way to figure out what part of faith, what part is the bridge, is to think about what reason is.

So reason is to think, understand, and form judgments by a process of logic. So when people are using, now first of all, humans are really bad, including me, Now, first of all, humans are really bad, including me, really bad at being able to parse between where we're using reason and where we're using intuition or where we're getting into matters of faith. especially individual people and individual communities are imperfect and prone to value their own intuition too highly and also be led by their own bias and so good science is about isolating the bias and trying to use as pure reason as possible as pure logic as possible to come to conclusions that we can be confident in, things that we can prove. That's why if you're studying some chemistry, some aspect of chemistry in the United States and in China, well, if the conditions are controlled, you're going to come to the same conclusions.

But if you're studying theology, you don't have to be in China. You can be across the street. The Presbyterians and the Baptists are across the street from each other. They're studying theology. They're coming to vastly different conclusions about some fundamental things. And that's because matters of theology get into matters of faith,

which gets into matters of preference. It gets into things that you want to be true and moves beyond things that you can prove to be true. And this is a little bit of an oversimplification, but it's one of the reasons that we have, we don't have, I mean, yes, the past three years may challenge this particular view, but we actually do have one set of facts. There is a set of scientific facts that exist, whether or not you're in the group that has them or you subscribe to them. I think we all kind of agree that there is a truth out there that corresponds to a scientific

reality. Getting to the bottom of that has gotten more difficult with polarization, et cetera. But the incredible diversity of faiths, Christian faiths alone, Christian denominations alone, but then add religions, it's a testimony to the fact that people are coming to conclusions based on the things that they want to be true, based on this faith decision that sends people in so many different directions. It doesn't keep bringing people back to the same conclusions. It keeps splitting people up and moving people away from each other when it comes to these faith issues, right? I mean, we've personally experienced that with growing up in a church, that there was a difference of opinion that led to the formation of a new church.

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What is it that if everybody kind of wants different things to be true, as is evidenced by all these different faith perspectives, what is it that determines what someone wants to be true? And I'm convinced that in large part, it is a combination of circumstance and disposition. Okay. And this is why for the, you know, even today, but definitely for most of history, you just believed what your parents believed and what your community believed and what the people in your culture believed. That's why religions are centered regionally, right?

Mm-hmm. centered regionally, right? Because people are being influenced by a combination of circumstance and disposition, which tends to run in patterns regionally in groups of people. And I don't think that there's, I don't think that this is, I don't think this is a bad thing. I just think that it's something to understand about,

like it's something that I'm understanding about myself because especially as it relates to Christianity and my deconstruction. So there could be one view that I could take of myself, which is, oh, I was so brave in being in this environment where everybody believed this same thing and I decided to challenge it and follow the truth wherever it would lead and then to break out of this community because I had the courage to do it,

the courage of my convictions to follow this. And I'm some enlightened person who stepped out of this type of belief. I do not believe that that's what happened in any sense of those words, because I believe that I came to where I'm at right now based on a combination of my circumstances and my particular disposition and how those things interact with one another, right? Yeah. And so, and I also think this has a lot to do with how individual Christians respond to what's happening in the church when it comes to deconstruction in general, right? So, the church is registering that some shit's going down, right?

Lots of books are being written. Lots of videos are being made, recognizing that a lot of people are reevaluating on a fundamental level the faith that they were raised with. And there's a few different ways that you could respond to that. Many Christians see it happening and immediately put those people in a box and say, those people are deceived. Those people are falling to the temptation of the world and worldly thinking and placing themselves above God. And they basically just sort of dismiss those people and be like, well, we'll pray for those people, but they're lost, right? That's a good amount of Christians would think that. I know some of those Christians. I also know many Christians who take it very,

very seriously and actually move beyond just thinking about how it affects other people, but have let some of the information that has come out and some people's stories and perspectives that have been put out there, and they let it challenge their own faith. And they actually do have some form of deconstruction of their own faith. They go back, they reevaluate why they believe what they believe. They reevaluate what parts of this are true. And many of them become a different kind of Christian, but at the end of the day, still will call themselves a Christian,

still have faith in Jesus, still believe in the resurrection, whatever, right? Yeah. And then there are people like me and you who threw the baby out with the bathwater, so to speak, and we've completely left it behind. And again, I think that most of that has to do with circumstance and disposition of these individual people and how they're interacting with this. So I'm not going to get into talking about, because you may be thinking, are you saying you don't believe in free will, like from a deterministic standpoint,

and you just think that it's just a combination of environment and DNA and people just are going to do what they want to, so nobody has any culpability for anything? I'm not saying that. What I'm saying is that I recognize in myself and a lot of other people that they're kind of just, they've got the faculties that they have, and they've got the disposition that they have, and new information comes in, and then they react to it to the best of their ability, and we come to different conclusions. And I think what that has done for me is that it's helped me withhold judgment from people. Okay. Yeah.

Because what else are you gonna do it's created a softness towards others and towards myself and when i say softness towards myself i say it makes me even more suspicious than i ever was about anything that i actually believe because i recognize that it's not like i have some really, really tied up, very, very reasonable, very, very illogical package of beliefs that I have assembled with great care and without outside influence. No, I've had lots of outside influence and I've had lots of outside influence interacting with the way that my brain works. And that's why I think the things that I think.

So when I'm able to see myself in that way, I can step back and be like, all right, well, can I, you hold things a little bit more loosely. Yeah. You hold your convictions about other people a little bit more loosely and you hold your personal convictions a little bit more loosely. Yeah. You hold your convictions about other people a little bit more loosely and you hold your personal convictions a little bit more loosely

because you recognize just how tenuous the whole enterprise is. Yeah. How much influence things you have no control over, how much influence it has over you. Yep. Right. So, and one thing it makes me

much less, it makes me want to be much less dogmatic in any conclusion that I come to. Right. But what does this have to do with the question of my faith. So again, going back to the assurance of things hoped for, essentially certainty of things that you want to be true. There's two parts of that. There's the thing that you want to be true and then there's the certainty of that thing. And I was thinking a lot about this analogy

that I've used before of me jumping ship. It's the analogy that I captured on the front of the cover of the album, me being in the ocean of uncertainty, and you see the ship of belief, which is characterized like Noah's Ark in the background. And you took your shoes off for some reason. Because feet, you know, people want to see feet. Some people more than others, but yes. Well, if you're going to jump in the water, you need to take your shoes off.

Everybody knows that. Just keep your pants on. Yeah, because what kind of shoes would you be wearing on your album cover? Exactly. Yeah. So I think there's more to this analogy that has been helpful in thinking about this aspect of faith because the way I characterized it before is that I was on this ship of belief and at some point I decided to jump off of the ship, just walking around on this ship. I was actually tethered to this ship by many, many different tethers. Oh, yeah.

And so I think for me, this is the way that it worked. And that is at some point at a very young age, I made the decision to become a Christian. So I was essentially kind of born onto the ship of belief, right? Yeah. Did make a personal decision, a few, you know, rededication when you're not sure about your salvation, all that. Multiple times I like really refastened myself to the, you know, put another clip in and refasten myself to the ship. But I also did things like, you know, join the youth group and then went on a mission trip and then started a Christian band

with you and then got involved with Campus Crusade for Christ and then started leading a Bible study and then went on a couple of summer projects and then went on staff full time and then married a Christian woman and then then married a Christian woman, and then started raising a Christian family, led a Bible study at that church. You do all these things, and every single time you do that thing to kind of throw yourself into the belief structure, you add another tether, and you look around, and you basically got this web that you've tied yourself to this belief with,

and it's very secure, and it's very certain. It's almost second nature. Yeah. For me, stuff started coming along and tearing at the ship a little bit. And with it, a tether would go, right? And over time, it got to this place where all my connections to the thing that I wanted to be true fell away. And I just found myself standing on this ship of belief and being

able to see it laid bare and to really look at it and be like, do you want this to be true? I talked about that in my first deconstruction account was that once the confidence in the belief went away, an examination of whether I wanted it to be true. And again, this is the kind of thing I can hear the old evangelical rep on my shoulder being like, ha, so it was about what you wanted to be true. I knew it all along.

He can say that if he wants to, but I'm saying that I believe that everyone is following what they wanted to be true. I knew it all along. He can say that if he wants to, but I'm saying that I believe that everyone is following what they want to be true. And the point at which you decide to jump ship to either another faith or to no faith at all is because you finally made a decision that there was another reality that you wanted to be true more than the one that you're currently tied to.

And at that point, I jumped into the sea of uncertainty. And I've been in that sea of uncertainty for basically a decade. But the thing that's been hitting me this year, as I kind of look through my notes and experiences specifically, which I'm going to get to, some what I might call faith-building experiences, I have recognized that I'm not just floating in the sea of uncertainty. I actually look down and see tethers to other things that I want to be true. Okay. And I am in the process of grabbing onto that rope and pulling myself towards whatever ship or island or whatever it is that's at the end of that tether of belief.

So are you going to tell us the tethers? Yes, I'm going to. So I've got an order that I'm going to kind of unfold this, but I've been having these conclusions about what is it that I want to be true? What is it that my faith is? And then I saw it articulated really, really well by none other than Rick Rubin in his latest book, which I'm going to read an excerpt from. I love that you read this book before me. You know, a lot of people have been talking about this book. There's a few clips of Rick going around, some viral clips, because he's like being interviewed by Anderson Cooper and he seems to be saying absolutely nothing and people are

kind of making fun of it. And people are talking about, oh, how he's, you know, he doesn't have any talent or whatever, because he himself said he doesn't have any talent. I don't care who you are. For me personally, this book was a masterpiece. Like I really think that as a creative thinker, this was, because it's not so much about my, it has nothing to do with my respect for his work or my knowledge of his work. I know a little bit about what Rick Rubin has done as a producer and the people that he's worked with and the albums that have kind of come out of that process. But to me, it's more somebody who understands a creative way of being, a creative way of living. Actually, the creative act, a way of being is the name of the book. And I listened to about five hours of this.

Again, I do have the physical book, which I am now reading, following up the listening. But it is, the first pass of this book, I basically took in in one hike. One hike up a mountain in which I thought that I might have to call someone for help because my knee started hurting so bad because I have tendonitis. I thought I was going to have to get airlifted off of this mountain, but I made it, and it was quite an experience. Do you want to read it right now? Because I do have something I want to read.

I'm sorry, I just saw something I have to read. The very first thing. Nothing in this book is known to be true. It's a reflection on what I've noticed. Not facts, so much as thoughts. Ooh, I feel that. So, and I actually think that that is a, I could have said that at the beginning of this whole thing that I'm doing right now.

Because I wholeheartedly believe that the things that I'm going to tell you are not things that I can prove or things that you should even believe. Again, it's a data point to take into consideration. But early on in the book, he says something that I was like, oh man,, this is like one of the things I've noticed in the past few years is that I think this has been the case always. But I've just kind of as I've detached from a framework of faith, it's been a little bit easier to notice when I begin to see some synchronicities happening in my life. And again, I think that we're pattern forming individuals and that it's natural for us to see things and to begin to put these patterns together, whether or not they're there or not. And I think that noticing these patterns can be helpful, whether or not there's some other force involved or not. But again, I'm having these thoughts about faith, asking myself, what is it that I believe that I can't prove to

be true? And how does that interact with my life? And then, and again, we've already said that it is the evidence of things unseen, the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen. And here we are very early in the book, just on page 31, he has a short chapter called The Unseen. called The Unseen. Chapters are short. This one in particular, two pages. I'm going to just read some stuff I highlighted. The act of creation is an attempt to enter a mysterious realm, a longing to transcend. What we create allows us to share glimpses of an inner landscape, one that is beyond our understanding. Art is our portal to the unseen world. Without the spiritual component, the artist works with a crucial disadvantage. The spiritual world provides a sense of wonder and a degree of open-mindedness not always found

within the confines of science. The world of reason can be narrow and filled with dead ends, while a spiritual viewpoint is limitless and invites fantastic possibilities. The unseen world is boundless. The practice of spirituality is a way of looking at a world where you're not alone. There are deeper meanings behind the surface. The energy around you can be harnessed to elevate your work. You are part of something much larger than can be explained, a world of immense possibilities. Harnessing this energy can be marvelously useful in your creative pursuits. The principle operates on faith, believing and behaving as if it's true.

No proof is needed. No. So I'm hiking up the mountain. I'm listening to this. No proof is needed. And I'm like, this is, this is kind of remarkable in light of a couple of things that have happened to me over the past year. Okay. So I read, and I think I talked about this

last year or the year before I read Elizabeth and I think I talked about this last year or the year before. I read Elizabeth Gilbert's book, Big Magic, which is a great book on creativity. And she describes the creative process in a very magical way. And again, anytime somebody starts talking about magic, all my alarms go off. I'm a skeptic. All the red flags go up. I'm like, you've got no way of proving this. I'm not going to believe it.

She tells a story in the book about how she had a very specific idea for a book. Very specific. It was a character. It was an occupation. It was a location. It was a plot. And she abandoned the idea only to have it essentially done by someone else with all the same specifics being hit. And she ended up meeting this woman, and there's a story about it in the book.

But it's based on the idea that these ideas, these concepts exist outside of us. They are in the fabric of the universe, in the fabric of this existence, and we have the ability to tap into them. Not a new idea. Obviously, it's at least as old as the Greek muses in ancient Greece, where they believed that there were these gods and goddesses who had basically the power to inspire all forms of art and science and everything, right? There are these timeless truths and melodies and arrangements of ideas that existed that you can kind of tap into if you're a creative person. Now, this sounds like serious L.A. woo-woo new age shit that I'm not into, right? But it is an interesting way to think about creativity, But it is an interesting way to think about creativity.

And it's an interesting way to think about ideas. And so I think the way I interacted with that book when I saw it was, when I read it was, okay, yeah, there's probably another explanation for this. Like, I don't know exactly what it is, but I feel like I'm hearing one half of this. And there's probably a logical, reasonable explanation for how this actually went down. But it's cool to think about it in this way, and it's inspirational, and maybe it will unlock something in the creative process. And as a creative person, as a creative professional, this is an inspiring way to think about creativity.

Well, last year in the fall, no, it's over a year ago. So fall of 21. I was on, and I'm not going to say what these specific ideas are, because in doing that, I run the risk of trying to take credit for the ideas, and I'm not going to do that. And so I don't want you to be thinking about specific ideas. I just want you to be listening to my testimony of how these things went down for me. Okay. The first thing that happened was I was on vacation, and I was in the middle of a conversation with Jesse and my brother and sister-in-law, and I had an idea for a series. It was a very specific series. And I kind of just wrote it down. back to mythical and a team here at mythical has developed the idea and develop the idea in a much more specific better way than i had just sort of like initially sketched it out i never told anybody about it right i was like that's weird but again i was like

you know still it's coincidence, right? These happen. The coincidence has happened. We all work in the same place. Like, we probably talked about this. It probably just came up, and it's just like, now I'm seeing it, and now there's this pattern. Yeah.

Yeah. Well, about three weeks ago? Yeah. I know what you're talking about. So, you know, we are coming up with ideas for videos that we're going to make that we're very excited to show you. We'll talk more about what that process looks like. And we've got a bunch of ideas we're very excited about, and just I'm so excited,

and I'll talk about how this all ties into how excited I am about what we're doing. But we're trying to kind of land on an idea for like a video, and I was actually here in the office office and I took a little power nap and I woke up and I had an idea for a video. And it was, it was such what I would call a dumb idea that I was afraid to even admit to myself that I'd had that. It was just like, that's a dumb idea. I'll never mention that to anybody. But it's weird that I had that idea. That's all I, that's what I remember thinking.

And I was like, I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna write it down. I'm not gonna tell Link about it because it's stupid. It's a dumb idea. And then, I think it was the same day. Same day, yeah. We have a meeting.

You were at the meeting. Yeah. Jenna was at the meeting, I think, as well. Or were you not? Maybe you weren't back. You weren't back from your trip yet. But TJ, who's leading this team, he's like, I got a dumb idea, but I love it. And he says the idea and I'm like, what?

Same idea. And of course- Very specific. And also, but again- And it was very dumb. He, and we're doing it. And we're doing it. His idea was, he had thought of it and developed it into like,

and this is how we would do it. Yeah, he's got more balls than you, I guess. And I'm so appreciative of it. And it's funny because I told him after the fact, I was like, you know, everybody left and he kind of stayed back for a second. I was like, hey, I want to let you know because he just started working for us. And I was like, what I did in that meeting may make me seem like a completely psychotic,

maniacal boss, and that I'm going to be the kind of boss that when you have an idea, I'm going to say, I just had that idea when I woke up from a nap a second ago. And I was like, I realize how that, and I promise you I'm not going to do that, but I was literally floored by the fact that I had this very specific idea that come to me in a power nap in another room. And then you come in and we have this meeting and he was like, trust me, I didn't think that. And so it was, again, it was this additional experience.

And then I go on the hike and I read the rick rubin book yeah the very next weekend and he didn't just talk about it explicitly in that chapter the whole book is essentially about making yourself the best possible antenna that you can be because the idea is that these these patterns and these ideas exist and you're tapping into them again this is some new age shit right it is yeah and um but again it's inspirational when i when i when i was listening to the book and now reading through it again it's like this is this the resonant frequency of this is my resonant frequency. But then, and again, I'm sorry that I'm going to be speaking in, I'm almost speaking like in code and vagaries. But we just had an experience this past weekend with some creative people where this principle of someone's ability to tap into something

that is definitely external, that is outside of them, was demonstrated in a really powerful way. And I was like, okay, all right. All right, Mr. Skeptic. Why don't you just release your grip on this a little bit because i'm so tempted to just try to understand what it is that's going on and maybe i'm just i think you can tell i mean just like the general principle of like uh you know having someone getting a sense of us. Like it was a new friend we made

who was like a very gifted musician and was able to translate... He can translate... Their experience of a person or us into music improvisationally. Yeah. And it was extremely moving. Very.

And also like very specific in shocking ways to the individuals who were present, given the type, like some of the music they played. Right. But also there was a moment in which like an album cover that had been created a few years ago for a moment that he had planned for in a specific month while we were all looking at a specific thing. And then he played the music and then showed us the album cover. And it was too much for me to handle.

As Rick Rubin says in another chapter, there become these things that you, that randomness doesn't provide an adequate explanation for these things, and you eventually sort of just acquiesce. I feel like... Yeah, there's something unseen happening. Well, so again, now this is, as someone who was a person of faith, a person of Christian faith, it's very different to be thinking about these things on this side of it because I am so ready to admit that there's nothing here, just so you understand. Like, I'm not trying to tell you that it's true. I don't think that it applies to you. I don't think that it's important that you understand it. I don't think I need to convince you to agree with me. I don't think you need to join a community in which we all believe this. I don't think that this determines where I go when I die. I don't think that I can prove

this to you. I don't think that this is a universal truth that applies to every single person. Those are things that I believe when I was a Christian. I'm saying there's some shit going down that is really has developed sort of a synchronicity and a frequency in the way that it's appearing in a way that is very much coinciding with where I'm at right now in my life. And one of the things that, you know, Ruben said was it's believing or behaving as if it's true. The belief, the proof is not really the important thing especially if it's not harmful because because i think that uh i do first of all let me just say that i think it's very important that we agree with things that are reasonable and logical and provable you know i would say that for instance

you know evolution common ancestry, the fact that we're all related, that we all came from the same organism. I think that's provable. I don't think that that's an opinion. I think that that has been demonstrated significantly through many different scientific avenues. And I think it's important to believe that. And I think that it is harmful to not believe that.

And that's going to piss a lot of people off because like 40 to 50% of the population in the United States doesn't think that's true. But I actually think it's harmful to ultimately not believe that. That's a podcast for a different time. But I believe that because I believe it's very reasonable and logical to come to that conclusion and it can be demonstrated through lots of different methods. But the stuff that I'm talking about right now, I'm saying it's out on that faith bridge. It's out on something that I'm not trying to prove to you. I don't think I can prove it to you, but it is me leaning into some sort of exercise of faith. And it's wild because of the way that it coincides with the way that me and you have been talking

and some of the things that have happened with us, specifically the way that we've been thinking about our creative destiny, for lack of a better word, and trying to continue to become more free in the things that we're creating and also more soul-driven in the things that we're creating and not just do what I feel like we... One of the things we've gotten very good at doing over the past decade is creating a really, really healthy business through creative pursuits, right? We know how to run a creative business very, very well.

But sometimes business interests can be a counterproductive voice to creative pursuits. a counterproductive voice to creative pursuits. And they can compromise true creative vision and execution. That's a conversation that we've been having and trying to free ourselves up to actually create from the heart in a way that is very attuned to what it is that we feel we are specifically positioned and equipped to create. And then you add this aspect and the fact that this principle has already occurred, even in the process of this new creative thing with the whole idea,

the two ideas, the same idea being kind of dispensed at the same time. And I'm trying to reconcile all this. I don't, again, I, my sort of skeptical, reasonable mind is trying to like piece it together. And I think that, you know, one of our friends who was there this weekend, as I was talking about some of this stuff, I'm like, it's very challenging to me because I try to build a framework that I can explain and I can justify and defend. And I find myself moving into adopting a framework of creative thinking and faith, which is a word I don't even like to say that applies to me, I find myself doing that and it's very uncomfortable. It feels risky, right?

And it feels indefensible. And again, it feels incredible, like I'm literally losing credibility, right? Like with anybody, you've got the conservative Christians who would be listening, who would be saying, oh, okay, so you still believe some stuff and now you're telling us that we believe some stuff. First of all, let me say, yes,

your religious faith isn't something that I am, that I am becoming slower to judge, I am becoming slower to judge people's religious faith. Because I do believe there are many people who have a religious framework and it is very helpful for them. Like I said, I think there can be harmful beliefs within that, right? I think if you think that someone's lifestyle or someone's existence is a sin, that's a harmful belief, and I'm going to stand up against that. If your worldview embodies that kind of thing, I don't think there's an excuse for that. But if your worldview,

if the aspects of your worldview, even a Christian worldview, they contribute to all of us and the well-being of all of us, then I'm not going to argue with that. But for me, I'm riffing at this point because this is the point that I've gotten to where I'm like, ah, there's some stuff happening. I can't explain it. I'm leaning into it. I've never been more excited about my life and our career creatively. And I did not expect these things to coincide.

I always thought that these two things were separate. thought that these two things were separate. Back in the day, the way I saw creativity and the kingdom of God was the kingdom of God was something that existed that we were contributing to on earth and trying to fulfill the great commission. And God had given us the gift of whatever you want to call the gift that we have, the gift to make people laugh, whatever. He had given us that gift so that we could use it to grow his kingdom. Yeah. And I think that this is challenging that framework because it feels much more integrated and ineffable

and difficult to wrap your mind around because it's almost like the act of creation becomes the experience of God. There is something where it is direct. It is a direct connection that I can't take, translate, understand, and put into English so that I can get a group of people to understand it. It's just something that is experienced in these fleeting moments. And all I can do is lean into it and make myself more attuned to it. Yeah. What was the last thing that filled you with wonder that took you away from your desk or your car in traffic?

Well, for us, and I'm going to guess for some of you, that thing is... Anime! Hi, I'm Nick Friedman. I'm Lee Alec Murray. And I'm Leah President. And welcome to Crunchyroll Presents The Anime Effect. It's a weekly news show. With the best celebrity guests.

And hot takes galore. So join us every Friday wherever you get your podcasts and watch full video episodes on Crunchyroll or on the Crunchyroll YouTube channel. I have a lot of thoughts about this, like our work and the relationship with belief. So I can, I think I'll go back to all that as it relates to me. But I guess my one question I have, so are you able to say, you're able to say that you have faith? Like you recognize that you have faith. Like you recognize that you have faith. Are you able to say what that's in? Yeah, yeah. So yeah, that was a part that I had written down

I wanted to say and I completely forgot. So thanks for asking. You're welcome. I think, and I don't think this has ever gone away. So again, the way that I interpret faith is what is it that I want to be true? That I am living and believing as if it is true. Yeah. And even apart from these experiences, I don't think I've ever let go of the belief

that there is something beyond my understanding and there is an intention behind our existence. That's something that I want to be true. In other words, I want there to be a deeper intention and purpose and meaning behind our collective existence. And I don't know, again, big difference. I don't think I can prove it. And I'm not trying to. I'm just saying for me, I just have to be honest with myself and admit that I do want that to be the case. I want there to be some magic, right? And I want there to be, I wouldn't go as far as to say I want there to be a personal force behind it all

because I feel like that's too specific and also me trying to like put a label on it. But whether you want to call it source or God or whatever, there being some sort of intention that is involved in some way. You know, I talked at one point about, is the universe like some creative force that literally birthed itself as the universe? And all these pieces of matter, including me and you and everybody, it's like the universe playing, you know, the way that Alan Watts describes it is the universe is playing hide and seek with itself.

The way that Alan Watts describes it is the universe is playing hide-and-seek with itself. And so being like, oh, I'm going to make these two guys best friends, and they're going to have this parallel path, and they're going to create these things. It's more fun and more fulfilling for me personally to believe that there's some aspect of that that is true. I think that you're describing a connection. You're hoping for there to be meaning and an unseen realm that we can tap into. and you don't know if it's if it's personal if it's a personal god or whatever that is but i think you're describing an an openness and experiences where you have received something do you think that you want or have you started, have you ever realizing that the act of creativity is something that you were just doing that you seem to be describing that like you received a signal.

Like the way that he talks about in his book of like being that antenna. You didn't know those words at the time. But I think you're seeing that that's happened to you you have experienced that have you turned that around to be more intentionally what for some people might be prayer or um meditation or just like an acknowledgement um yeah but i don't think that that a lot of it was conscious. So, I mean, this whole book is about your life. And again, Rick Rubin's not the only one to ever talk about this stuff,

but basically meditation. Meditation is a part of it. Well, he's talking about acting on something that you hope to be true through creativity. You know, it's- But that's an exercise of faith. Yes. So to me, I guess what I'm saying is that-

Is it becoming more intentional now that you're coming to these realizations? Yes. And how? Yeah. I'm just curious. Yeah. Well, okay. So for me, I feel like a huge part of this, I mean, obviously me and you, we create for a living. And so we're like, we've been in this mindset for a really long time, but because we kind of create in this environment and it is this business, like I said, there are some things that have maybe caused us to not make as many connections in this way,

because who's got time for that when you're running a business? But the process of doing my own music, which was not intended to be a commercial success, I knew that it would not be going in. Right. And it was incredibly personal. And it was also very spiritual. Yeah. It opened something.

Yeah. That makes sense. It tapped into something. You know, and it's funny because you hear, even in this, it happened this weekend because there was this moment that Jesse and I had together this weekend where I said something to her. And she was like, I want to remember what you said.

It was just a phrase. And then I said it back to her. And then it hit me. I was like, that's a song. So you started singing it to her. No, but I was thinking about it in the shower on yesterday morning. And I just like started singing it

and the full melody of the song, verse and chorus came to me. Well, there you go. And I just recorded it into my phone and then picked it back up at the end of the day and wrote and just finished the song nice and it was like i mean that i mean again that can be just that could that there could be absolutely nothing inexplicable unseen supernatural involved in that process i completely acknowledge that.

But the framework of kind of leaning into this idea that like, oh, okay, this thing's coming in. Here it is. Turn your satellite towards it and take it in. Yeah. Because it's happening right now. I find that to be a very powerful act. And I think I'm okay with it being a spiritual act. It's very intriguing to me because, you know, my Christian faith was so defined on what I was to do and like my pursuit. Yes, it's like, oh, you know know god is pursuing you you just gotta answer the call you just gotta

open the door but for me it really came to all right yeah i've opened the door and now it's like what are all the things that i need to do certainly wasn't any surprise that I recall. You know, it's... I think that's what... I think that's what discouraged. In our tradition. Yeah. I think you being alone and receiving something...

And how can that be a dynamic relationship when you're never surprised by what you could receive from the other? And that's not all Christians. I mean, there's charismatic Christians who a lot of people receive things or whatever, but in sort of the Reformed circles that we, it's like you receive things through the Bible. We're very suspicious of anybody who receives something that didn't align with Scripture. And so it really stunts the process.

And so you just kind of develop this inability to trust yourself. And you're just like, well, I'm just a sinful instrument, tainted with original sin that needs God. And that's my only hope. It's kind of a catastrophic way to see yourself, you know, in many ways. Oh, yeah. to see yourself, you know, in many ways. Oh, yeah. So, yeah. So to answer your question, yeah, I am leaning into it, but it's more about it is sort of a trust, a very, like, slow-moving, careful trust and faith

that is rooted in stillness and listening. So one of the things that we've been talking about is, you know, we don't operate like your typical creative professional. We run a business. Our schedule traditionally has been very, very full and our creative time has been scheduled, which most creative people would say this is counterproductive because you can't schedule these moments in which the song's going to come to you in the shower. But we are prioritizing more of a stillness and a more of a passive and receptive posture to let these ideas come to fruition. And we're getting more protective about that. And we're going to continue to get even more protective about it. Yeah. And so to me, that's a big, that's a big, that's a big part of it.

And then we're also having discussions about what does it mean for us to use our creativity, not just to create things for people to enjoy, but also like what kind of healing can come about from the creative act? Yeah. Yep. That's a discussion that is starting and yeah and even good mythical morning um we've been talking to the team about

giving more over to them so that like the maximum amount of the show can happen to us. I think even if, if you think of it in terms of this conversation, um, it's like the best thing we can do is just to be like, uh, just to receive what comes from the show. And it might be,

you know, it, it might be a dumb food combination or some silly game or whatever it is. It's like, um, the more we're actually there for it and the more that we can, I feel like we're receiving something that we just, we turn around and authentically, joyfully process it and exude it. Just throw it right back out. You know, it's not like, we're no longer making this show that like, we've got to give you something. It's like, we've prepped this thing that we got to give it's like no we're we've created this playground this environment and this is what we're focusing

on now is trusting people to create an environment where we can be and trust that what comes out of that will will bring the most recent conversation, like you said, is healing to people. And it's been happening. It's just like understanding that dynamic is very exciting, even within the context of being behind that desk, because it's like, oh, we can even tune it, the whole environment and even tune it,

the whole environment, everything about it to give that even more, what people have already been receiving for years and telling us about. People describe to us the experience of that show in a way that we're still making sense of. Right. I'll talk more about that next week in terms of what that does to me on a soul level,

but I have no clue what's going on, but I know that it's good. I know that it's really good, and I think that's my teaser for me next week. But I just feel like that's why we're on the same page. We got this, there's this resonance that's like new and we're noticing it. Oh, yeah.

It's undeniable. Yeah. And it's, yeah, it's, when you're onto something, you can feel it. You know? When you're onto something, you can feel it. I think we're feeling it. Yeah. You know, so.

And boy, that sounds mystical. It's like, we're the ones saying this type of stuff? Well, we have gone off the deep end, man. I think, you know. We have gone off the deep end. I think it's just embracing that fact. And so my rec, of course, is Rick Rubin's book, which again, I think there's so many good books on creativity. And given the internet, people have very strong opinions about Rick Rubin, apparently.

But for me as a creative person who is trying to tap into more of the potential that exists, some of these principles were just very resonant. Why don't you keep highlighting stuff and then let me read it after you. I'm just gonna read the parts you highlight. Okay. I'm gonna listen to the whole thing. Smart. It's a record. See that, Link?

Oh, he, it's not necessarily. Oh, you think it's a boobie? Oh, yep. It's whatever you want it to be, man. This is a boobie and this is a boobie? Oh, yep. It's whatever you want it to be, man. This is a boobie, and this is a boobie without a nipple. Did I ruin it for you? Nope.

It's not something I will let you do. All right, I'm looking forward to hearing from you next week. In the meantime, join the conversation, hashtag Ear Biscuits, and let us know what you're thinking. How are you experiencing these things? Are we crazy? Call us. 1-888-EAR-POD-1. Hi, Rhett and Link.

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