Emergency Intercom - Seasonal Depression Rules!

Episode Date: September 17, 2021

While your favs were at the VMAs walking the carpet Enya and Drew were running sway from that heavy feeling by attending the reptile convention! No really, seasonal depression is back and we are finally getting a little serious in this episode about what it means to be struggling for us. Follow Enya on Insta: @EnyaUmanzor Follow Drew on Insta: @DrewPhillips09 To listen to the podcast on YouTube: bit.ly/EmergencyIntercomPodYT Don’t forget to subscribe to the podcast for free wherever you're listening or by using this link: bit.ly/EmergencyIntercom If you like the show, telling a friend about it would be amazing! You can text, email, Tweet, or send this link to a friend: bit.ly/EmergencyIntercom Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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You ran and put on that half of the necklace. Cause you know. Where's your half of the necklace? You just ran and put it on. Where is your half of the necklace? And I know exactly what happened. When we were in the bathroom, you saw it on the bar still. And you were like, I'm going to fucking put it on.

So I could like say something mean. No, that's exactly. I just wanted to say that. You were gaslighting me. You literally go out of your way to gaslight me every single day. Wait, what was it the other day that you were seriously gaslighting someone? And I was like, Drew. But I don't remember who it was.

It was probably you. I mean, I literally gaslight everybody in my life. No, it was like someone else. It was like Christian or something. But you were like fully, Christian was like, you did this. And you were like, are you kidding me? And you like actually started gaslighting him. And I was like someone else. It was like Christian or something. But you were like fully Christian was like, you did this. And you were like, are you kidding me? And you like actually started gaslighting him. And I was like, Drew.

No, that's me. That's me as a person. I gaslight. And I actually practice what I preach. We've gaslit our followers into enjoy being gaslit because someone made a comment where I was like, I just don't feel like they're gaslighting us as much as in the last episode. And like as if it was missed. Speaking of comments, though, I posted a TikTok and someone was like, like, why do you think, bitch?

Like, someone said, okay, why wasn't Enya invited to the Met Gala? Bitch, why the fuck do you think? Like, I think it's beautiful that our followers like ride for us like that. But, and I'm not saying this as of like, tell me I'm important, but like we are not important. No, literally I've been struggling with that so much more recently. Yeah. Especially the past week. Yeah. Like I genuinely mean nothing to no one yeah which like i shouldn't i shouldn't base my importance on that at all but like i do point blank period i do and there's no there's no changing that and yeah i'm just unimportant to the industry which yeah i guess let's re like

phrase that it's not that we're not important like i know that for you guys we are important and obviously like it's one of the reasons i keep fucking doing what i do is because i know that like i i'm not super insecure like i do have confidence where i'm like i think what me and drew provide for like the internet and especially the influencer safe space is safe space especially for the influencer space is very important but yeah to the industry we might as well they don't give a shit about us literally they don't care they don't care and i was i was telling you this morning i was like like i know in my entire life with every fiber of my being i will never ever be invited to the met gala like

it's just not in my cards like i don't i don't have that look i don't have that energy to give like i'm not made for the red carpet whatever but like i was like i was having fomo i was like how fun would it be if i like got dressed by someone i know watching it i was like stop wait we need to like go out to a really nice dinner or something so i have an excuse to put on like my best dress and like get all like prettied up we should hire a um what are they called a dresser um a stylist yeah we should hire a stylist for a day to style us in really really good outfits i can think of a few stylists i'm like i want you to put me in clothes because like you're good at what you do like uh the girls who dressed us

for mark the mark shoot yeah they are awesome they knew what they were doing chloe i don't remember their names but they are awesome like everyone they dress i'm like wow like you're you do a good job of like looking at the person and being like yes this is what you would wear i can't stand a fucking stylist who's like yeah here's your fucking bingo bongo fit like it has nothing it doesn't fit it's gross it's grumbly or like a stylist who is just like all right here's your like jeans and t-shirt you slay bye but i guess like some people want that so who am i some people want to be normcore um but you being like doesn't it look so fun to just like get dressed is literally like yesterday i went into looking at the met gal i've never watched the met gal in my fucking life but i literally watched it because addison ray and emma

were going and i like desperately i was like i need to know what they're wearing i like obviously i like knew emma would serve and she like looked beautiful and everyone honestly everyone looked beautiful like everyone gave I wish they didn't put Addison in a wig or I don't know if they actually cut her hair like that I couldn't tell but like regardless I was like watching it and I was like who the fuck am I to sit here and be like oh you're eating Cheetos in your bed being like oh why are they dressed like this yeah i was like and everyone does just look fucking good everyone sirs and you do have to take into account like yes of i understand the like historical importance of the met gala but at the end of the day like socially what the fuck is it it's like it's a party we are literally tuning in to watch celebrities walk down the hall in an outfit to go into a museum in an outfit and take pictures.

And then most of them go and change into a different outfit so they can go to a fucking party anyway. They put their uggs on. It is actually the weirdest thing. When I was watching it, I was like, I'm literally watching myself be not invited and be so unimportant. How you hate from outside the club if you can't even get in? I can't even get on the carpet outside of the club like that that's what the mad gal is it's like all of us watching and being like this outfit sucks this gives this lays honestly like everyone looked good though i was like all of y'all look like you smell good yeah it was like a weird theme in my head i was

like what would i do like people did old hollywood like billy did old hollywood old hollywood yeah billy literally looked like a fucking disney character um but like in a good way like looked like a princess she looks like a disney adult in a bad way derogatory disney adult derogatory no bitch she turned it look like it was awesome yeah meg's meg's look was also like slaying um looked good was giving old hollywood like i think that's like what a lot of people are doing do barbie barbara i can never say her fucking name never in my life i'm always like barbie barbara barrera ferreira like ferreira roche i do not i don't know why i don't know her name i think it's just barbie yeah i think it's barbie okay she looks good i'm like i like refusing to say it i anytime i talk about celebrities i get really fucking uncomfortable and scared because i'm like they're gonna hear

this they're gonna hear this and attack us not even they're gonna hear this i'm like i used to be a big shit talker so now i'm like scared anytime i say anyone's name because i'm like i used to be someone who didn't have a therapist and would like go on weird tangents but i'm a changed woman now so shut up um yara i i don't know anyone's name i'm like literally trying to like find their name i just know the dress they wore yeah i just know the dresses everyone wore but like there were certain girls who were giving like everyone looked good but certain girls i was like oh i want to wear that i saw i saw the tiktok last night that was so funny it was like i swear to god camilla cabello and james corden or whatever his fucking name is saw like a hollywood executive commit like a gnarly murder or crime. And they were just given careers after that because like they give nothing ever.

But like Camilla, like you have to like the, to be the best. I mean, to be on top of the world, the way she is, like she has to be making something appealing to somebody like the masses. So she's good at that.

But like, I'm going to admit, I like kind of like her new song. I love her new song. Don't go yet oh normani looked so fucking good normani is one of the sexiest women to ever walk the fucking face of this earth and her actually now we can transition to the vmas we're becoming the fucking buzzfeed oh my god we're literally just we're like we're being ultra like ah tv we just had the most like teenager week of my life that i've had like two i i literally sat in the car i was like i can't remember the last time i gave the a fuck about the vmas but i think since i had such bad fomo

yeah i never get fomo and he's like the last person to get fomo i couldn't give a fuck what anyone's doing like i always have fomo literally if my friends hang out without me like i will jump off a bridge like i don't care like i will write them in my suicide letter but not actually you don't worry about me i'm good no i'm actually gonna fucking kill myself but like each show. Like, um, but you know what it is? I think because now, like because of the past year of my like new burning love for New York, the fact that it was all happening in New York is what like made it FOMO for me is because I'm like, this is like, I,

one, I just left and everyone, then everyone got there. So like, it was like breaking my heart. Cause I was like, dude, I like could have been like hanging out with like a bunch of people i know in a city i fucking love yeah um so that

was one and then like i just like love that city and i like want to move there at some point so i'm just like watching everyone like run around and have fun and do all these things and then i got a fomo but it was really weird because i never got it and it was like making me really upset because i was like I could never give a fuck what anyone's doing but I think that's specifically when it's in LA because I'm like that's embarrassing like why are you

running around I'm like why are you running around and then New York is like you're supposed to run around so seeing everyone run around I was like I want to put on an outfit and go outside running around. And I see like a little cat. Like a little cat.

But yeah, I was like, I don't remember the last time I cared about the VMAs. And then we got home and I literally like watched everything. I was like, why am I not there? Again, why are we not at the VMAs? We should be at the VMAs. The VMAmas is like weirdly embarrassing i don't want to go i don't want to go but i want to be invited so i can deny it it's like embarrassing to not be invited like i feel like at this point fdv is like yeah yeah

whoever whoever whoever y'all just please put it on your story so we get ratings please please please please but like the i like i'm like why wasn't i there like specifically because everyone was there like yeah that was it i just couldn't give a fuck but i did watch all the performances and like first of all this is wait before we get into the vmas can we just say what we did instead of being at the vmas oh okay so literally we are fucking actually weirdos. Like, all of our friends, all of our, like, acquaintances were, like, in New York at the VMAs, like, having a blast. At Fashion Week. At Fashion Week, just, like, turning up, turning looks, like, just living an influencer lifestyle. And me and Inya were literally at a fucking reptile convention. Like, a reptile convention

looking at lizards and snakes all day literally and i wouldn't change it for the world someone was like getting glam done and we were like driving an hour to fucking anaheim to go to a convention and while somebody was walking the carpet i was literally holding a fucking skink which i genuinely wouldn't change for the world no it was the most fun thing I've ever done in my life. It was fantastic. I touched so many, like, animals. I genuinely found my people. Like, those are my people.

And, like, one day when all is said and done and I get, my whole career is ended somehow. Maybe I can go back to the convention and raise my lizards. You know what i just realized like us being here like being like we're not important to the industry blah blah blah and then like i know our followers are like y'all are like are important we love you bitch we saw some of y'all at the convention that's why you think we're important because some of you motherfuckers are the freaks who are going there with us the weirdos too so but that's okay we cornered the weirdos of the internet. We're just different. We're the wallflowers.

We're all different. We're all different. We're the popular loners. Everyone knows us, but we don't want to associate. I like do so badly. Like, I'm like, okay, I'm like 23 and I'm over being a loser. Like, I want to be important. I know.

We'll get it this year. Don't go yet. Oh, hey. 2020 was supposed to be our year you know what it is it's because I'm like as much as I'm a fucking bitter hater piece of shit bitch I feel myself kind of shedding that a little bit and like

being like you know I really am like replacing the part of me that cringes with the part of me that is cringy like I'm letting go of being cringed and I want to be cringey. Yeah. I just want to have fun.

Like, like I said in the last episode, the world is ending. It's time for me to have fun. I don't have any more time to hate. I've spent my whole life hating, and now I want to have fun. Invite me. And they're not gonna,

because we literally just, like, we're like, y'all are fucking inviting everyone anyway, because you don't get fucking ready. We're just bitter. We're just bitter. Like, please invite us. Please. Please. Please invite us. Because I know

one motherfucker. You know what it is? I know one motherfucker from MVT. MTV. MTV is listening to this right now. Bitch, I know you hear me. I'm looking at you in the fucking eyes. They're like, I'm literally a free intern. Send us out.

You're so annoying. You can't even see him. Drew's pranked us that he got her. Drew's pranked. I have such a bad time with animals. Like, I fully, I give them the gender I want them to have. Like, that I feel from them. Because they can't speak it.

She's so fucking alive, it's actually weird. I hate it. Come on. You have to take her up to the alive. It's actually weird. I hate it. Come on. You have to take her up to the camera. It literally looks like you're playing with fucking lint. And then everybody listening can't see what you're doing. Oh, actually, the funniest story about this, you can't see her. Why is it not focusing?

You have to do like the beauty girls. Oh, my God. You're pissing me off the way you can't figure this out. No, it's working. So there's my spiny man so here's my spiny mantis her name is goji um she's in her second stage evolution one day this week i'll wake up and she will be a beautiful spiny flower mantis fully mature um we have like a we've already built like an awesome relationship

like we love each other and i think she recognizes me she's a bug and she knows me and i give her her food and she loves me yeah that's my story that's my mantis um but our friend tavia got the same like kind of mantis hit me she put my she she wanted to touch me no you literally they're scared of the shade and they'll like start attacking your hand um but our friend tavia got the same mantis and drew and tavia were told that because they're female mantises they can't fly and when we were at the convention like tavia took her mantis whose name is reena out and she took reena out and reena was fully fluttering wings but they were like oh the drew and tavia took her mantis whose name is reena out and she took reena out and reena was fully fluttering wings but they were like oh the druid tavia were like oh she can't fly though and i was

like oh okay but she was fully fluttering her fucking wings and when we left the convention tavia and uh tavia took her mantis out and had it on her arm and we were walking to the car and that shit literally fucking flew away. It flew away in the parking garage and like flew directly into a wall and fell to the ground. And we were like, oh. We were all in shock. Like we were walking and Tavia just goes, what'd she say? She was like, I didn't think she could fly.

I didn't know. They told me she wouldn't fly. And then like we all looked up and we saw this fucking praying mantis flying through the garage, hit the wall, fell to the ground, and we weren't in a rush. We were like, oh, the bitch is right there. Like, we'll just walk up and get her. We walked over there, and she was gone. Like, she had fully disappeared.

And we looked under all the cars, like, everywhere. And we looked for, like, 30 minutes. It was probably 105 in that parking garage. We were all sweating our asses off. looked for like 30 minutes it was probably 105 in that parking garage we were all sweating our asses off it was like fucking humid in there and i was like no like we have to find her i was like we there's no way we don't find her and then like literally 30 minutes passed me like dude the bitch is gone like she's fully she's fully gonna live her life in the parking garage like how sad is that um and then like literally right as we were leaving tavia like looks up at the ceiling at this like crossbar and she fucking

sees her mantis just like chilling on this wall and she's like wait is that that's her right and then i zoom up on the camera and i couldn't tell and she's like yeah that's literally it and so we like ran jumped on top of my car got her and now she's safe but like maybe made a good point like I got this shit because I thought it couldn't fly exactly like I don't want it to start fucking flying around my room and shit um that's kind of cool though yeah no the the owner I mean the girl who was selling them at the convention was like I just literally let my mantises like roam like they literally just like I'll let them free in my house for a week at a time and they'll collect bugs and then I'll call them or like be talking on the couch and they'll come back to me like they're literally like fucking dogs it's so I mean I wish I could

understand like how alive this thing is it like genuinely blows my mind it's like sentient like looking at it you're like oh that's literally a fucking bug but like no it like genuinely blows my mind it's like sentient like looking at it you're like oh that's literally a fucking bug but like no it like looks at you and shit it's so weird and it like dances to music you literally can't let it roam fucking free because it's a little shit out of it eat the fuck out of this is always such a pussy though like because when elisa had her lizard here like actually as well as in a pussy i think she's just like a freak but does it make sense that a cat would go after crickets instead of a lizard no i think they should eat lizards 10 out of 10 over crickets but elisa's uh gecko was in its cage we like locked us all away elisa set up the gecko's cage and like locked it

in there and we let azul out because we were like dude it's gonna freak the fuck out and she literally just started laying by the cage yeah she just like looked at it smelled it and was like oh okay like no cat instinct but then she heard the crickets and she was freaking the fuck out like but i think because she heard the sounds so she like knew it was a bug but she couldn't see it she likes bugs I think So we should give her your bug No that's my girl that's my girl Goji I love Goji

But yeah while everyone was at the VMAs we went to the reptile convention And then we came home and we continued playing Mario Kart For like the 8th hour I love Mario Kart And Mario Party so fucking bad And I shit on you I shit on you. I know it's so I shit on you playing games with Drew is literally see this is like when we were talking about how you can't

play fucking Catan with you because not only you cheat at Catan you can't cheat at Mario Party but you just fucking are the worst person ever. Inseparable. Drew winning is like I've never wanted someone to lose so bad. And I win every time. I don't know how. I prove my haters wrong. Like, my haters are my motivators. My motorvators? Exactly.

They're my motors. But, yeah, I just, like, without a doubt, every single time, fucking win. What is this bitch doing? I was going to say, I think she's having a hard time getting on the other side um but literally so if you've never played mario party it's a game made for fucking kids so it's like really motivated to make sure everyone feels like they're having a fair game yeah which never fucking works on me apparently i played against all computers last night and still got fourth place like i always get third or fourth place i don't know if i need to change the character i use i use monty

mo i don't know if i need to change that or what drew always uses shy guy and always fucking wins i just know it's just like strategizing and it's literally not and you have to you just have to like let it ebb and flow with the game and like just let it be. And when you win, you brag and make everybody mad. And then they start making bad decisions. The thing is, even when he's losing, he makes me pissed and he makes me like because at this point, I know he's going to win even if he's losing.

So I don't have an inch of hope when I'm playing that game. Literally, literally, I'll be like hopeless fucking portal of doom for me. You'll be like miles ahead of me in the game like winning and i'll be like i like i just like i don't feel good like i don't even want to play this anymore and then i come back and win but every time you're like you're like oh i'm not even stressed because i'm gonna win or i'm like uh like i just like haven't even been trying this game he makes you feel so stupid for winning too that's what makes it worse is when you are winning he's like yeah i just like feel bad like why would i want to win a stupid little game yeah

like at this point like it's so easy like i don't have to win anymore and he'll we'll get to the end and he'll have zero stars and like three fucking coins and i'll have like three stars and be like yes i fucking won and then he gets three bonus stars and wins i'm i almost just knocked your girl down she no she, she's good. She can be upside down. But yeah, I think we're just different. Some girls go to the VMAs and walk the carpet. Some girls play Mario Party for the third hour in a row.

I need to stream it. I'm going to stream it Thursday night. And it's also fucking crazy. I'm like, I'm going to stream Thursday night, guys. This is coming out on Friday it's also crazy because it's all for me it's all avoiding reality I realize like

I fully realize that like I am slipping for once we're both on the same path yesterday I was literally like I was like it's cause we didn't play Mario Party it's because it hit 8 o'clock and I wasn't sitting on the couch rotting into the middle playing Mario Party until 1 a.m.

No, yeah. I'm fully, fully slipping into this scary, scary depression. I feel good today. But yesterday, I literally was rotting. Yesterday, you know when we're both in like rut when all the lights in the house are off all day. Yeah, we didn't turn the lights on all day. We just existed in darkness. Yeah, I feel better today though, but it's happening.

You never know. It's happening. I know. I'm manifesting it. I was like, i could either be like slipping into depression or wake up tomorrow feeling fine but like it's always like in the morning i'm like if i wake up and keep myself a little busy i'm like okay i'm okay and then this second it is nighttime and i have nothing if i'm not distracted i'm like oh um why am I alive? What's the point? What's the point to all this?

The thing is like, what's even more fucked up is I, I think about this a lot and I don't know about for you, but something about like, I'm trying to think of how to word this. Cause we were just talking about like the past two weeks, how we were like, yeah, I feel literally nothing. Like I don't feel anything. I feel very numb and I don't care. It's all avoiding like that feeling yeah it's all like my brain like our brains without us thinking twice about it i think going into like almost like defending mode of yeah like avoiding that feeling and just being like oh like i'm okay i just like don't know

like i just don't care like i'm not gonna, because for me it's like I don't, if I think about it, it'll become my reality. I'm just going to push it as far away as possible and just like do my silly little task in my video games until it hits full force, which is just like the worst advice ever. Yeah. But yeah, just it's been happening.

The happening. The happening. The happening of the depression. I literally, I do think Christian was just asking the other day. He was like, oh, do you guys think you have, like, seasonal depression? And I was like, no. But then I thought about it. And last year, just like this year, around this time, it's always like I hit a wall. And I'm like, why do I feel like this?

And, of course, there are always, like like little things that I could be sad about. Whether it's like my fucking imposter syndrome attacking me or like any other. Oh my God. Literally the imposter syndrome has been hitting. I know. I genuinely think that's why I feel this way. Like the past like two weeks is like fully just like not thinking highly of myself at all. Like seeing everybody do everything that I want to do and me thinking highly of myself at all.

Like seeing everybody do everything that I want to do and me not being able to do it because for reasons I don't understand. Also, like just not being able to understand why I'm not in these positions is driving me insane. I mean, I understand like why I'm not because I literally don't fucking do anything ever. I know, but, it's like the idea where some people are like, the only like thing standing in your way is like you. And I'm like, no, because if I think like that, then it becomes a perpetual cycle of like, I'm the, I'm the problem. I'm not enough. And I'm standing in my way.

And it's like, dude, these are like, as much as I like to think that I have control over my mood, I don't, it's like genuinely probably going to be something I battle for the rest of my life. And it's, that's not me being like pessimistic and being like, this will never end because again, it ebb and flows. And sometimes it's like harder to deal with.

And sometimes I like, I'm so like consumed by my day to day life. And maybe I am in a good state that I, it's, it's doesn't even cross my mind and i'm like oh i could be like this forever but that's like not true and i think even for people who are depressed like there's who don't deal with depression they have their own battles battle of something like that but it's just like a little more intense when it is depression because like depression is followed by like insecurity and

like lack of motivation which fuels the insecurity which fuels the depression and it's like these like big vicious cycles yeah vicious cycles that are like much harder to get out of than you think and then especially when you're in like a position where a lot of what you do is based on like you personally and how you portray yourself publicly. It becomes an even tougher game, especially when you see people who are really good at doing it, who maybe even express going through the same thing. Then it can even fucking double down on how shitty you feel because you're like damn i know like 80 people in this business who talk about suffering from like depression and anxiety and all these things but like how and they're also not even medicated for it so it's like fuck and they're still like doing it yeah they're still on top of the world and it's like okay so this is just what

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I remember this one time we were on tour. We didn't have any guitar picks and we didn't have time to go to the store. So we placed an order on Prime and it got there the next day ready for the show whatever you're into it's on prime for lifers me and my depression are for lifers no i had that thought today or i think i put it on my finsta story last night i was like we both posted on our finsta stories at the same fucking girl we were alone in our bedrooms in our fucking feels. I was like, please, god damn it. I genuinely, this cannot be for life.

I literally, this cycle of highs and lows. Not even highs, just baselines and lows. I really cannot go through this. I mean, I literally am going to figure out a way to fucking deal with it. Or it'll just like fix itself or i'll literally be do the smartest thing and fucking medicate myself but yeah i don't know i just like was really i was can't do the like the like dips yeah it's so annoying but i i was like I think about this a lot because I find myself craving being like 14 to like 16 again or like 13 to 16 again really often.

Not because I'm like, I miss being a teenager or whatever, but I'm like, oh, because I felt like such intense emotions through those ages. But the intense emotions I felt weren't good it was like really really dark spots in my life and i like crave those moments but it's because like you get addicted you get addicted to that feeling and also if you're somebody who's like really struggled with depression you have this false sense of what being happy is in your head you're like oh like happiness I'm sure when when I feel happiness I'll know it because I'll be in the moment and I'll feel so fucking good and it'll like last for more than like a day and like it'll be like for like months

I'm just every day I'm happy and I don't feel like this and like this isn't a feeling I have to battle but then because like I think about it like a scale like I like to think like the most intense feelings I've ever felt were sadness and that's why it's really hard for me to feel good is because like my peak of emotions has been like this intense despair that most people especially by my age shouldn't have experienced so then when i'm in a moment where i'm like this should be happy and like the most fulfilling moment for me right now at this age it's not nearly as joyous or like as intense as that sadness was so it's easy for me to feel like those moments are nothing yeah just like which is fucked up like fully just being jaded to like everything oh my god sorry sorry i thought you caught a bug oh no my phone was falling but yeah like i i find myself just like when i get into these like really low lows

like that i'm like starting to like dip down into like it feels like i'm just like it like i'm not experiencing life at all like life is experiencing me i don't know how to word it i know like it's literally you're going through like the motion i call it like survival mode yeah exactly it's like okay wake up eat stimulate brain go to bed and then that's like the three things that i like focus on throughout the day is like okay like i can't feel anything so like i'm gonna play video games all day and live in this fake reality all day until like i figure something out figure it out which is such a toxic cycle because you just like because when you're in when you're just not doing anything you're not doing anything to better yourself and like yeah and once you're like leaning into it it's easier for it to

consume you but like yeah you have no motivation to not do that and then again if you're someone who's struggled it like is almost appealing because it's just that comfort I was about to say it's like when you're in a bad relationship and you know you should leave but it's like I have comfort here like I know this feeling. Exactly. I was about to just say, like, and also it doesn't help that, like, it's so comfortable to just, like, lay in bed all day and be sad all day. And, like, it's just, like, it really is, like, an addicting feeling where, like, okay, like, I know that, like, I'm sad as fuck. And I know how it feels to be sad as fuck and it's just like comfortable

to be there like it's just like i'm it's familiar um yeah which is so fucked up like literally evil and i don't know it's like again it'll it's like something that passes but you know what like for me is the like when i get into these like funks me calling my depression a funk i'm like when i get into these funks um but when i get into it probably the worst part for me personally is like those false highs i get from like work 9 p.m no from like 9 p.m to like 12 p.m is like randomly I'll get the spike of energy where I'm like that shit was fake like I don't feel like that anymore like I feel so fucking good like I want to go out like I need to leave the house right now like I like need to get dressed I'm gonna put on an outfit I'm like and I'm like in this like false like almost delusion

of it being lifted and then I like just crash really hard by midnight and then i'm like back into it you wake up and the first thoughts are negative yeah that's when it's fucked up that's when it's fucked up it's like literally when the very first thought in my brain when i wake up in the morning is just negative it's like like i i always used to like when i was like struggling with like my mental health like in high school and shit i was always like to like when I was like struggling with like my mental health, like in high school and shit, I was always like, girl, like shut the fuck up. Like like the first like I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. Like, no, that's just corny. Like you have to get out of bed.

But genuinely, like these past like two years, that's like been like a very big part of like my depression is just like struggling first thing in the morning. Like the very first thought that enters my head is just like negative like it's just like it's either like negative like about my life or negative about like what i'm doing today or negative about the people around me or like just something like wanting to flake even if it's important and being like i don't care like i don't care if this doesn't work like the day we went to the reptile convention sorry um i literally woke up and i was like i don't need to go like i i like i'm doing this for what like i don't like i don't want to leave my bed i don't want to leave my room and then you know what's a fucked up thing

that i feel like like depression can do to you is convince you that this is like a symptom of being like overworked or exhausted. So like you, your brain tricks you into being like, you know what? Tomorrow I'm just going to spend the whole day laying around, not doing anything. I took a photo today. What?

Just like literally like, it's like you're, you haven't worked at all. Yeah. Like I haven't been doing anything. If anything, I like, I need to like,

I need to find motivation to work so that I can have all these things that I like dream of, but it seems like such a big task. And then I like exhaust myself mentally from that weirdly, or I don't know. It's like, my brain is like, you need to rest. And I haven't done shit. I don't need to rest. Like I rest all night. I don't fucking need to rest.

I don't need to spend a whole day resting resting but like i get tricked by myself into doing that and then it like spirals into something and then next thing i know it's been five days and i like haven't showered for three days and i'm like sitting around like barely eating and i'm like oh oh this is this is i fell for it this is not you got me you got me it's Depresiana Depresiana Grande got me again Depresiana Grande it's Ariana Grande's sister personality ego

her other ego it's like how Beyonce has Sasha Fierce Ariana Grande Depresiana Grande it also doesn't help that my fucking therapist isn't in town Mommy I'll be a therapist Shut the fuck up

I'll be it Come on talk to me Come on talk to me please Open up to me If a therapist did that they would like be arrested Can we do like a fake therapy session where I'm your therapist But don't talk about anything real Yeah okay

You want to know how they always start? What's's on your mind no that's not how it ever goes it's like i just like obvious sides of someone who has not been in no i have been to therapy in my high school years just had an adult a gnarly situation with that so i just avoided it um but yeah therapy is the best thing I've ever done for my life like literally I buy so much stupid shit and like I was thinking about this morning when I was putting my shoes on I was like this is one of the best like purchases I've made because I like didn't really want it but like I wear these shoes every single day and that's exactly how I feel about therapy is this one of those things I was like I didn't want to do it people were telling me to do it I really didn't want to do it but i did it and now like i literally cannot i genuinely don't know

who the fuck or where the fuck i'd be right now if i didn't start therapy six feet under oh you'd be in the grave you'd be dead i was like really bad like i needed one so bad like i was i wasn't like a bad person or anything but like i, I can't, I like can't believe I was. Functioning like that. Functioning without one. Yeah. I was like, so whatever.

That's a different conversation. Um, but so they always go like this. It's like, hi. And I'm like, hi. And then it's like a moment of silence because I literally never know. I've been doing it for like almost three years and I never know how to start she's like hey she's like how are you and I'm like oh I'm good this is this is this is like and then I just like say all these like things yeah and then she like is I dude I talk so much in therapy like it's always like

actually go ahead like speak because but I do that in every conversation. I, like, always am talking. It's, like, actually something I'm so embarrassed of. You got a lot on your mind. No, I just have a big fucking mouth that I need to shut the fuck up. Like, especially in our podcast scenario, I find myself, I'm like, I'll literally be, like, going and realize I've been talking for four minutes straight and drew has not gotten a word and then i'll just like get really quiet but i'm bad at picking what time to get quiet yeah like i don't do a good job of passing over the conversation i fully go through every single thought that could be had about the topic and then i'm like and then you take my topics that

i wanted to talk about and then run 14 miles with him and i'm like oh you know what it is too is because we plan out the topics and then my brain is like just on full like remember to say it remember to say it remember to say it so i have to say it because if i don't like it will be gone forever yeah um Hi. Therapy bit. Go. Hi. Hi. How are you?

Are you the therapist? Wait, am I the therapist? I'll be the therapist. We have to train Drew into going back to therapy because he's had a traumatizing event with therapy. And you need to know that it can be a safe space. Okay. But that's probably the only time in my life I've had luck is getting a really good therapist on my first try. And like you need to know that it can be a safe space. Okay. But that's probably the only time in my life I've had luck is getting a really good therapist on my first try. You got Azul. He's a pretty boy.

He's really pretty. He was a piece of shit for like a year and a half. He was the worst cat ever. Okay. I'll be the therapist. Wait. Is this our first session or like have we been like doing this for a while? This is our first session.

Okay. Hi. Is that how you would say hi in your first session? I'd be like, what up? I'd be like, what's up? Hi, you sound straight. There's a lot to unpack there. There's a lot to unpack there.

Should we go in there now or what? Should we do it now or what? Should we start now or later um all right um hi um so what brings you in you said in your email to me that this is your first time coming back to therapy in quite some time um was there anything that maybe sparked that interest i just don't believe in therapists you know you may find that a lot of clients of therapists walk into it with that feeling because there is such a harsh stigma on therapy and there are many people like yourself who have had um negative interactions with therapists but i would like you to know that

a part of this journey it would be my job to make sure that you feel comfortable and safe in this space that we're creating together well i like being touched i like being held and comforted physically can you do that for me sadly um that is not something i'm capable of doing seeing okay um he obviously is a narcissist with like self-loathing. I just started saying random shit. You're the therapist that starts talking to herself. Dude, I literally, I was actually talking to my therapist about how I think the words being thrown around on the internet are so funny. Because it's like a 14-year-old being like, actually, I believe that this is like signs of being a self-loathing, narcissistic, like, go-maniac.

Yeah, y'all shouldn't know that. Like, literally, get off your goddamn iphone get off your iphone put your iphone down and just like go to a high school go to a high school football game right like enjoy yourself there without being so introverted not introverted but like introspective and like thinking everyone is looking at you because no one gets a fuck literally no one gets a fuck about you like i was that person in high school that like not in a way that it's like you're useless or anything but like literally it's like you know what it is people spend more time thinking about themselves than they do thinking i was about to say what it is

is especially i don't know if this is for everybody, but for me, the reason why I was so goddamn insecure was because I was the person judging everybody around me for what they did. Like everything, every move that someone made, every, every thing someone said, like whatever it was, like I was, I was the judgmental person. And then that made me believe everyone was doing the same thing to me when in reality no one is looking at you and having these thoughts and if they are that's their fucking own problem so like literally i don't know i take with that what you will like stop being so judgmental and you'll stop being so insecure and that's what worked for me is i stopped looking at other people

and giving a shit and that's perfect i think it's literally just also don't unless your life goal is to be like a therapist or a psychiatrist or work in the like that department you're gonna have a very hard time going through life if you look at everybody and start throwing on these labels and yet and diagnosing them when in reality like most people you meet will have flaws everyone you meet will have flaws not saying that like if you genuinely believe somebody is like an awful person and like doing bad things to you that you should like butt through and be like well they had a hard life or whatever not don't do that yeah don't give them excuses but don't look at your high school friends and unless they're like genuinely

being like morally corrupt to you and like hurting you if your high school friend is like maybe not super open about like their feelings or like doesn't like give the most in a friendship like y'all are so high schoolers i was like i personally gave nothing yeah no one knew nothing about me yeah like i literally not even until i moved to LA did I even start to kind of open up to my friends this just sparked a crazy thought in my brain but like I see a lot of comments like on whether it's our videos Josh's videos your videos the podcast Dana's videos whatever it is like I wish I had friends like this like I like I long for like friendships like this like when I was y'all's age I didn't have friends like

this like we did not have just like literally like as you mature and get older you start developing these relationships with people that have similar interests to you and like there's always time to make like fucking long-term relationships but like I only fuck with two people from my high school experience like and that's hunter and tag like those are my ride or dies like those are the two like people from high school that like know almost everything about me like those are the two people but we didn't start getting close until after high school like I was friends with them in high school but we didn't know each other until after high school and I think that's just like a thought to have in mind

like obviously don't stop putting yourself out there and like trying to make these connections but yeah I like I I can't speak from experience because I didn't have I can't speak from the experience of what having close friends in high school how that can benefit you but I didn't have that and I never but I guess the difference was it never bothered me because I almost, I knew I wouldn't be able to because like I had such a busy and like strict home life. Like I like didn't get to go out with friends because like my dad was just like always worried about us getting involved in shit. And like he didn't want that to happen.

And also on top of everything, like we had younger siblings and my parents worked all the time so i was always home watching my younger siblings like there was so much happening in my personal life that i like couldn't make time for that and i also did not crave that at all for some reason like i was i think i've always been like a really funny mix in YouTube of like being very extroverted, but not actually like it's like this like facade of like, I guess maybe it's different for us because like, I think I've, I don't know how to say this without being mean, but like, I think we work really well together in social settings, but I think apart, maybe I like can be solo in

social settings a little better than you 100 um and like i've always done a good job of like i think that's why i like marvelous mrs mazel so much is like i like see myself in that character a little bit of like being able to get in front of a crowd and like really thriving off of like attention and making strangers laugh and like talking to random people and stuff like that. But I would never go out of my way to do that. Like, and I've never been like that. I've never been someone to go out of my way to be put in a social setting or like social social situation as I've gotten older.

I've tried to do that. But as a high school, I literally could not give a fuck about having friends because for me personally I was dealing with so much like mental so so much mental like frustrations and like like my depression and like family life and all this stuff that the last thing I wanted was like to one get a random high schooler involved with my life even though i was a high schooler i didn't want to get anyone involved and like i wasn't a very open person so i was like all of my friends were very school-based and even in school i wasn't very social because again i just couldn't give a fuck i'm like that's another thing to be said said is like all these like friendships and relationships you have now. Like I'm only speaking to like young, younger people because it is a completely different.

And also it's a different experience for everybody. But like these relationships that you have now are kind of like forced upon you. Like they're just circumstantial friendships and whatever. And like you'll find your people like when you start living life actually whether that's like before college after i mean during college or like even after like that's when you're finding college you're still in a position where like these are people who are like available to you and you make the best out of those situations and not to say you can't find good friends out of situation but out of those situations because i have like cyrus a card like yeah like i know a

bunch of people from high school who i'm still like not the closest to but i like still like hold those relationships close to my heart because i'm like those people but even that was different because like those are like some of the people who i actually was emotionally vulnerable with but even that was after high school like like after high school, I built those relationships and like after I had myself figured out a little more, I was able to turn back and be like, these are relationships that I like love and like want to cater to. It's just like, dude, you're a kid. Like you don't, you have all your life to make friends.

And I know that maybe that's not what you you want to hear. What you want to hear. Especially if like the one thing you're craving. Is that social like connection. But it's also just like harder when there's social media involved. Because when we were 15. We weren't seeing like groups like ours. Like we're the same age as most of the other like friend groups on the internet right now so like and i think a lot of people because we look young it's easy to like or i don't know i guess i don't

know how like our viewers view us but in my head sometimes i feel like most of our audiences are age i feel like most of them at least like the the analytics on my video, like say that they're like older, which is awesome. Yeah, I feel like maybe because it's like. Like they grew up with us, which is so fucking cool. Yeah, but what I was trying to say is like, it's easy to like believe that you guys should have friends like we do but you have you also have to think about the odd fucking circumstances me drew and our friends fell into it it really is not common and it's also really not that common to have friend groups like ours no it's just it is a very not to be like we're so fucking special because we all have our issues and shit. But I've met many, many people who are in friend groups who do not function the way we do.

And we just like Josh said it perfectly one time where he was like in a weird way. I think we were all like without realizing it, looking for the same thing in a group of people. And we just got lucky and like fell together. Yeah. same thing in a group of people and we just got lucky and like fell together yeah um so really don't even like think you can have this because yeah it's unattainable like we're unobtainable like everything we do and say is just like you can't have it and that's why we'll be hosting the emmys yes that's our announcement for this podcast is we're hosting the 2022 Emmys. So excited. We're being dressed by Derek Glasgow. Okay, Derek. Okay. Why the fuck hasn't Derek hit us? I know. Like,

why hasn't Mark Jacobs hit us up again? Yeah. To send us. Mr. Mark. Marky Mark. We're thinking of you. We're the Mark Barbies. Like like did you forget about us we're gonna have a picture of mark up on the wall for the next episode and someone from the team is gonna send it to me he's gonna be like no no no no no no take it down blow them up one of the pictures of him just from under the glass and like put it up like how the fuck do they have that why do they have that derrick glasgow that's not his name it's probably like Blasberg or some shit like that. From Louis, or Fashion YouTube. Derek.

Let me know. We act like we've even like touched on Fashion YouTube. That's why we're not. No, that's me this entire week. I'm like, I'm struggling with like, okay, like I want to be there. But what if I contributed to the fashion space at all i mean i'm serving looks today like i'm giving like what was supposed to be gave like i hit the yeah i think what it is is because we both like are like feel confident about the way we dress so we just believe we

should be there but that's literally everybody on planet earth like we are no different like i don't think you should be like i should not be in any of those spaces, but bitch, you have influenced the younger generation of fashion so much more than any, like I will say it with my fucking chest than any other fucking person on the internet period. What happens is these other bigger creators and influencers see the way you're dressing, mimic it, tone it down, take it for their own and they see the way you're dressing mimic it tone it down take it for their own and they get the credit but i mean that's just my point of view on it and i'm biased because i love you and i don't think you get the credit you deserve but thank you you don't have to take that you can completely deny and be like yeah you're completely wrong i i i don't know i think

like at this point i'm just like the internet is so big and i don't it's gone beyond it's it's beyond me so i don't know if like i have i don't know it's that weird thing of like i'm not trying to sit here and be like i i do things i i i don't know i i just think i don't fucking care i just like and i'm i don't i don't know that i care about wanting flowers for anything because a lot of shit i do is like i'm not doing it with the intention of being like of course sometimes when i post something i'm like oh i i just got this i should post it so that like i don't know like that's part of being an influencer it's like yeah you like you do a lot of i don't know that's a

whole other conversation i get very nervous about talking about this because I think, like, every big influencer is, like, doing their own thing in a way. But, like, obviously we're all being inspired by very similar things. And being inspired by each other, even. So it, like, kind of bounces off. But then you get to, like, the thing of, like, everybody wants to say who did this and who did that.

And then it becomes, like, this weird anger thing. Like, it's no longer a thing of like everybody wants to say who did this and who did that and then it becomes like this weird anger thing like it's no longer a thing of like i i got this from this person it's like someone could be like oh i got this from enya and then someone who doesn't like me could be like fuck her like i didn't get it from her fuck her like it's just like all this like rage but thank you very much and i like am very like flattered when people are inspired by me but yeah i don't know that i'm like necessarily catering anything to the world ever so i'm just like i don't like i i just want to be places like i just want to go just invite us just invite us just invite us we're like just invite us and then every time we talk about going to event we're like we got belligerently drunk we stole something we're evil we're obnoxious demon kill me slay me slay me bitch let me go here i go here i go bitch here i go um what else is there to talk about i was

gonna say something else and then i completely forgot but i think we i don't know this is this our first like serious episode where we talk about something like that i don't know we should put a trigger warning in the beginning though we should be like um depression depression yana grande is yeah it's always like like i i never i've found and I talk about this in like a YouTube video that I want to post but I find I'll say it here too um I find that like as I I don't know that I'm necessarily growing as like an influencer anymore again but that's like my imposter syndrome I like literally think by each year I'm like less and less important and hopefully by like the age 25 i'll just be like nothing to everybody and we can move away and i'll go like live in the fucking villages i'll go live in the pilgrimage um i obviously don't

actually want that i would like to be successful and like be like an actress or some shit at some point but whatever um as i like get older on the internet i don't know that i've ever been super super open like i i think i've done a good job of being like very expressive and serious about where i'm at in my life and the things i've experienced without being so vulnerable that i feel like everybody knows everything about me but as I got I've gotten older I've realized that I really cling on to the idea of privacy because I am not that as open as I've become I'm not that open of a person and I don't like people knowing everything about me even like people I'm very close to like I like I like save a bit of myself and like every interaction I have and as I get older it's weirdly harder to be a person on the internet for me because I feel like I'm like

giving less and less of myself which makes me feel like people are less and less intrigued with the idea of like keeping up with me because the thing I used to give was like myself yeah that's like something I've been like over the last two years just like completely just being unrelatable like not on purpose I just like or kind of on purpose like I don't want people to know to know these things and I think that's like a huge part of being an influencer though is being relatable and like um being vulnerable and whatever yeah i just like i'm yeah i have a hard time i just want to be uber a-list celebrity everyone knows everything about me even if i don't want them to and then but i also have 80 million dollars and can retire for the rest of my life and never say anything to anybody and just let people's opinions fester about me see i want like the complete opposite but kind of like i just want to be like solid enough and grounding and in life and feel like i can do whatever i want oh i don't

want that i was like i was like that was really off the wall and like probably the most like i was like we learn something new every day no i genuinely want to win the lottery and like probably the most like i like we learn something new every day no i genuinely want to win the lottery and disappear that's my goal i just want to be able to like oh my god i haven't been manifesting that recently actually i need to start manifesting that you were trying to manifest you winning the lottery since 2018 and you did it for two years and it didn't happen i just haven't been buying lottery tickets. That's the thing. I don't know if y'all know this about me,

but in my lifetime, I feel like you said it somewhere. In my lifetime, I will win the lottery and there's no way around it. It will be, it's just in my cards. I truly believe that it's in my cards. And eventually it'll happen. It'll become a reality and i'll be rich overnight and y'all never see me again i'll just move away and yeah that's gonna be my new

life i'll probably buy like i don't know where i'd probably live in a french prison countryside i'd probably buy a chateau you always say that it pisses me off because i don't want you to live in france because their time difference and like how long it would take me to get to France would like destroy our relationship. If that's what happens, that's what happens, man. For anything for my sheep. Anything for my sheep. My sheeple.

You're a fucking sheeple. Damn, all the people getting vaccines, y'all are sheep. You're Sherpson. Y'all are sheep. That's a sheep person. But yeah, I literally, I don't fucking know, man. I could talk about this forever

but yeah i guess also i've said this before it's like i got a therapist now so i'm like i don't feel the need to like be on twitter express myself like that openly although i know like it was a safe space for people but i don't know as i've gotten older i'm like that's not my job not even that because i i like like doing it and not that it's like become embarrassing, but I'm just like, again, I like to reserve that for myself. And I also, I never wanted to be like a situation of people who look at my life and maybe want to be where I'm at. And like people who maybe look in and feel like I have everything they want

and see that I'm still struggling mentally I don't want that to be ever um like what's it called not disappointing but like like just them being like if she can't have it all if she has it all and like still feels like that what's the point of me going on like i never want that to be like the way it's oh that's literally just like brain chemistry shit your brain is off not everyone's is come on girl everybody feels like this man but yeah i don't know but again i i also understand that seeing someone like in me and drew's position and knowing that we still struggle could also be um like calming for your brain and feel good you drew's literally getting ready for his fucking

media and that's why he's like not saying anything because he's looking through his goddamn letterbox right now oh yeah oh yeah all right um with all that being said whoa that was a doozy man i know we started off so fun and then it got like deep episode let us know if you like that but if you don't like it don't fucking say shit because i'll slap the fuck out of you yeah um keep your negative criticisms and thoughts to yourself at all times i genuinely believe that like if you don't have something nice to say don't say no sometimes i i like to be told if something i'm doing is stupid i like need that because i like oh maybe i don't because i always think what i'm doing is stupid so maybe the last

thing i need to be told is like yeah reinforcing that yeah you're right you're dumb are you gonna go first or are you gonna fucking like sit there forever bitch i don't know i haven't watched anything i don't have anything we watched the arrival together oh yeah arrival yeah wait did we um okay i'm gonna say dude i think i like said these movies in my last fucking the last episode i talked yeah because i talked about the farewell i talked about arrival i don't know if i talked about letter room but i need to watch marriage story because the guy from letter room is in it what's his name adam driver elvira wait is this the same guy no not no you're thinking of marriage oh did i already said marriage story i meant to say like it's like it's the fuck sorry i'm like i i can't think of the

name of the movie it's fucking it's like a look into a marriage or something. It's like not, it's marriage story. No, bruh. Are you fucking kidding me? I can't think of the name. Wait, guys. Marriage HBO Max. It's like on HBO Max. Scenes from a marriage.

I need to see scenes from a marriage. Okay, no. Oscar Isaac is so fucking sexy like he literally is so sexy yeah see oscar isaac is in this is in the letter room too he looks so fucking sexy in it and then he looks so he's just sexy um but i need to see that movie but i saw the letter room and he was in that and not only is he sexy but it's good and it's a short film and it's like 30 minutes long and he's so sexy and it's like specifically just him in the whole movie so it's just watching like a sexy man be sexy oh nice nice nice nice nice nice oh and i started marvelous mrs mazel and i literally

fucking love it and i'm already on season two and they're in Paris right now um spoiler but I want to go so fucking bad um and I'm gonna die Mark Jacobs fly us out to Paris shut up go go for your thingy um okay well since I didn't watch really anything um watch um I just have a bunch of movies and some I don't feel comfortable suggesting because they're really gnarly. Do you want me to say my music? Yeah. Okay, here's my music. Oh, fuck. I, like, literally can't remember what I said last week, so I'm scared I'm gonna repeat.

But City Moon by Flux. so i'm scared i'm gonna repeat but city moon by flux yeah city moon by flux that whole album is really fucking good um i'm just so different and i listen to like like artists on spotify with like no fucking followers i'm just really different and then hmm i like i'm still such a bitch and i'm like gatekeepy as fuck and it's so annoying because i like don't want to do that but i love blossom deary so fucking much and i've as i was listening to marvelous mrs mazel they used one of her songs and i was like oh my god i love this so much and then i realized that that Marvelous Mrs. Maisel uses like a Blossom Deary song in every single episode. And it's literally everything I've ever wanted.

A show about a fucking female comedian. Remember when I told you to watch it and you ignored me? Yeah, I know. And sometimes like I just ignore people and it's good for them. Like it's good. It like reinforces you that the things you say as a man are unimportant. And that's why I do it. good. It, like, reinforces you that the things you say as a man are unimportant. And that's why I do it. Wow.

Seriously? What the heck? What the heck is wrong with you? Yeah, any Blossom Deary song, but Baby, You're My Kind and Hey John are my favorite right now. Saving All My Love For You. Was it, like, In My Shadows? Everything on the Blossom Deary S um, Sings album is so fucking good. You have been listening to that so much.

Yeah, I know. Sunday Afternoon, I'm Shadowing You, Somebody New. Is that Sunday afternoon? Mm-hmm. I'm on the highway, but I think it's Sunday afternoon. Um, and yeah, I'll stop there with music. Packed by Bags by Rufus and Chaka Khan. And that's it.

Yes. And like, because I've been re-listening to that. But yeah, I could go on about music forever. I'm kind of a nerd. She's a music nerd. Okay, so my movie that I say y'all should, or that I want y'all to go watch is House, 1977. Work it, the house. Oh, let me see the cover. Is this the one I'm thinking of? Yeah. Y'all, go watch. Is House. 1977. Work it. The house.

Oh let me see the cover. Is this the one I'm thinking of? Yeah. Yes. Work it. The house. I think it's like the perfect. Horror movie ever made.

It's like. Kind of campy. It's like. It is awesome. It's just really really good. And it's like a great start. To October. Spooky.

Yeah. It's spooky season. I was just about to say. And. Yeah. It was just done really well. And and if i mean i'm sure literally everyone listening has probably seen it because it's like so known but um go check it out if you haven't it's house 19 it's the name of it is house but to find it put 1977 um and then my music for the week is less talk, more rock by freeze pop,

um, botanic panic by Christopher, um, Magdalene, Mad again, Mad again. Um, it's from the cuphead soundtrack.

And then I literally didn't look at what you were touch it by Busta Cuphead soundtrack. And then... I literally didn't look at what you were looking at. Touch It by Busta Rhymes. Because I love the intro. Touch it, bang it. Oh, wait, is that it? Touch it, bang it, bang it. It's a dramatic...

Yep. That's my media for the week. Go put it in your playlist. Put it on your watch list. Get into it, yeah. Get into it, yeah. Get into it, yeah. Oh, also, final note, Doja Cat is a fucking born-to-be pop song. She is the next.

I mean, she's already the it girl. But she will be solidified in human history. She'll be around forever. She can perform. She can make a fucking hit. She's funny. There's not many people out right now that I can say that about. But with my whole chest, Doja will be iconic forever. She's full pop star.

Like, totally. All right. Bye. Peace out. Peace out. Outro Music