Extra Dirty with Hallie Batchelder - Oversharing on toxic traits, sexy stories & girl drama *ft. Becca Moore*

Episode Date: September 24, 2026

Becca Moore is at the Extra Dirty bar! 🤸‍♂️ Fresh off of the Unwell Summer Games, Becca and Hallie sit down to talk about Becca's type in girls, how she navigated her coming out process, and her thoughts on having a very public relationship again. Becca and Hallie discuss bi-curiousness, Hallie's friends getting with Chad, and ALL of the sexual tension on the Unwell Summer Games. The girls chat older men, LA vs NYC, and Becca lists her top 5 things that are "for the girls" right now (get men out of elevators!) Enjoy!! Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

I feel like I'm not that then. No, no, no, you have, well, yeah, you have like a masculine energy. I have like a masculine energy. You do. That's why everyone thinks are gay. Dude, does everyone think I'm gay? Let's get Extra Dirty. Okay, guys, welcome back to Extra Dirty.

I have the Beck of Our on today. This has been a long time coming. I know. I've been asking you, you were almost my guest on stage coach, remember? No, I know. I kind of out. You were scared? I didn't want to do it either.

I don't want to do it either. Like live shows. I was like, you do, I don't want to do, like, I thought I might have to do a solo on. I had charity on. I was like, I could do it, but I'm scared to do live shows. I would have done it now if I knew you. Yeah. But I also was just so infresh to podcasting.

You were like newly coming up with your podcast. Yeah. That was a lot of pressure to put on it. I was like down though because I always like looked up to you. You did? Yeah. You're lying. We talked about this the other day.

Maybe I was drunk at that point. But I thought you were just like talking. No, I always like you were like one of the OG. TikTokers. Clip that. Put that in it. Put that in the promo. Well, can we talk about, like, how I, like, demanded to come on your pod on

accident because, like, I texted Hallie and she must have, like, skimmed the text or something. I was like, I'm a bad text. No, you're funny, you're funny, text her. But, like, I said, hey, let's do a pod. I was talking about my podcast. It was like, let's do a podcast. You can talk about Unwell games or whatever.

And one of my pet peeves is people asking to come on my pod. Yeah. So, like, that's just the background. I texted her being like, let's do a pod. And then I, you were like, yeah, let's do it. Let's do it. And then I was like, can you give me a date in time? And then I followed up and like, wait, I needed time.

Ha, ha, ha, ha. She thought this entire time that I was talking about her podcast. I was like, wow, she's so proactive and like, she really just like wants to come on the show. And like, I'm so appreciative of anyone that, like, wants to like come on my show. No, it gives me the egg that you thought that for weeks. Because the night before she texted me, she was like,

Becca, I cannot wait to have you on tomorrow. I was like, Holly, you're coming on mine. Well, to be fair, I thought like my team had confirmed it with yours and I Why would I be directly being like, hey, I need a date and time? Like, why would I about your podcast? Why would I do that to you? No, I know. I just thought you thought I was unorganized and I am.

I don't think that. I was talking about my own and she, you're, the funniest part is you're so nice about it. You're like, yes, girl, let's do it. Okay, like, let's do Tuesday at New. I wanted to have you on and I'm like, she's making my life a lot easier. Like, she just like wants to come on the show and talk shit. And like, you're one of those guests that I feel like would be so, I was so excited for you to come today because.

I just feel like it's going to be a silly episode. Oh, God, yeah. I mean, I'm doing like the walk of shame right now. Wait, we're coming straight from my guys, please. No, I got to go to my hotel. Wait, we're scared. We'll get into that after a little bit more one. Should we cheer?

Cheers. Cheers. What do we pre-game? Cheers. What do we pre-gaming today? My flight, I have to go to L.A. tonight, but also, can I just say something right off the bat? Yeah. I did not hook up with your brother.

People were speculating. I've gotten some DMs. I've gotten some texts. Unfortunately. Why do people think that? Because we, he posted a video of us making out. That's why. Oh, I get how people would gather that.

He posted that. And then I got texts from people from high school being like, wait, are you like back on men? And is it Chad? And it was like, no. I honestly think you have the same viewpoint of kissing that I do. I kiss girls sometimes. I kiss guys sometimes.

I think kissing so fun. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. It wasn't really. And you were sitting there. You kissed him right before that he played that video. I think the whole thing was that like Chad was like being jealous. of Tim broke, like as a joke. It was, I kissed him before that. There's worse where that comes from people. It wasn't just shown. Does it ever, like, give you the egg to watch your brother?

Yeah, I mean, I'll probably skip through those scenes on the way, on the summer games. Like, I was, like, in the tub when he was making out a suede and I was, and one of the producers was like, you were just sitting there watching? I was like a, no. I was, like, turning around because I was like, this, what's happening? Like, why are they making out right in front of me? But, like, I... The way that someone told you to get out and you didn't, like, immediate like a producer had a day. Like I thought like, because there was cameras everywhere and I was like, I really have to stay for this.

Like, no. I was, you're like, no situation I would ever be in a hot tub while my brother's like Mackin on some girl. Except you were though. Although I was. But it was like Swadey B and I love Swade. So I was like. Have your friends ever like hooked up with him?

Yeah. But I've hooked up with a lot of his friends. Really? How old is he? He's only two years younger than me. It's just hard for me to take him seriously as a character because he's so character. You know what I? Like I wouldn't, I love him.

But like, he's not my type. What is your type of guy? What is your type of guy and what's your type of girl? Okay, so my type of girl, I didn't know I liked girls until three and a half years, like maybe four. What was your like sexual awakening? When I saw my ex working on a music video set with me, like she was just, she was in all like boy clothing and she just looked really hot and she was being like funny and I swaggy. Yeah, like she was being really cool and like charismatic and I was like and it was like a lesbian shoot. Like it was like a lesbian music video. They brought me in to like say things that were for the girls. not the guys. And I started realizing like all the girls in the shoot were like really

feminine girls that were like girly and very like I never I just had a stereotype of gay girl because I'm from Ohio and like anyone that was out and gay back then when I was growing up was like very very much like very like butchy kind of. So I just never saw like an in between girl like that and all these feminine girls in the shoot with me that like were really fun and normal and like cool and like girly and they were all gay. And they were all like fighting. for the attention of my ex. Kind of like I could tell everyone. So you realized like the hot one in the room.

So I was like, my turn. Yeah, I'm gonna get this girl. And then we, yeah, we dated for a year. Did you go up that night? No, she like asked me on a date. Have you ever done anything with girls before that? No, never. Like, I-

Were you scared your first time? Yes. I do remember like getting on Reddit and looking up like how to eat a girl out and stuff, but I ripped the Band-Dade off. Honestly, what Reddit should be for. I know, I want, but it's way easier. But you've never, you have.

I've gone down on my girl. Yeah. Why he's... Okay, but you're not gay. You didn't like it? You didn't like it? Well, like, okay, so it was like performative. That's what you're saying. It wasn't performative. No, not on your...

But it was like... I didn't mean that in like a... No, I don't think you... Like, I'm just like, I think the right word would be it was just... It's hot. It was hot for you. It made sense. We're having a threesome.

So it definitely made sense. It was just a moving part. Were you scared at all, though? Yeah. It was oversimulating, honestly. I still get scared, like, even now. after I've like hooked up and dated other girls like because they're just so smart because you know it feels when a guy's like not touching the right part yeah so like I still get scared that I'm gonna

and is this like x-rated can I say what this is extra dirty name I feel like I feel like I'm not that good at fingering girls honestly I think being don't watch that if you're any of my crusts wait I like you don't look at that but I feel like fingering would be the hardest it is the hardest part I always feel so bad I'm like I don't know is this the right rhythm yeah I can't like I honestly don't even like fingering myself that's why I would know I don't think I would hear myself. Yeah, I would rather use a vibrator. So I would, every time the girl has a vibrator, I'm like, let's use that on here.

Yeah, it's like the cheek code. But I do, yeah, I haven't been with a guy in since, in four years. I think that I'm just like so defensive about my sexuality because I remember when I, I've been like, quote unquote, like straight my whole life. And when I came out and was like dating my, in that public relationship, all the comments were like, oh, a little straight girl. like exploring her sexuality. But it's funny because I wasn't, like I knew I loved her.

Like we were in a real relationship. Like I wasn't, it wasn't a phase, which is like the stereotype. Because I kept dating girls after that. No, yeah, you're by openly, right? And I just feel like why do people care who you're getting on? I know, but that's why when you came on my podcast, you could do whatever the fuck you want. That's what I'm saying, like, you have this like energy to you where like you really seem to not, I don't know if it's the truth, but you seem to like be very unapologetic.

and like not care. I am like that to an extent, but like at the end of the day, we're humans. Like obviously you're going to read 100 positive comments and get focused on that one negative one. Yeah. And to feel like people, you put yourself out there. Yeah. And people critique that.

And sometimes when I feel like I'm putting my honest self out there and people still critique it, I'm like, it makes me like kind of reflect like, am I a shitty person? Or am I doing something wrong with my life? I think the only time that it, like, affects me as if it's a little bit true. But the funny part I think about being by is that like both are true literally both are I like girls and I like guys like it's not it's just crazy to be by I'm like I know that people want me to be in a category and I do too you got like I feel like I wish I wasn't by no like I feel like you just like are you good no I'm an extension I'm like you're going

like whip out like a candy bar or something like I went out of my hair like I wouldn't be so fun right now dude I was doing the walk of shame this morning and I was in like a in like boots like heels mini skirt like slutty top I'm walking out my hair like I didn't have a brush makeup down my face and these two French girls were like smoking cigarettes and they're like baby you look iconic are you here for fashion week are you an influencer and I was like you guys are you like making fun of me because I'm doing the walk of shame right now and they're like what you look so cute I would never know and they were like exactly what you should be doing girl like live your life you're having the best day

That's the thing in New York. Like you really wear black, you know, patent leather heels up to the fucking V. And people would be like, she's serving cunt. I know because I realized like I was walking out. I was so embarrassed. I was like everyone's gonna know. And then everyone was wearing the exact same outfit I was. Yeah.

It's just all black, like, slutty outfit. So was everyone else. Yeah, you can kind of get away with like wearing anything. Yeah, literally anything. I felt like no one cared. Also like them saying that made me feel better about my like decisions because they really loved it. They were like, yes. And they were like older women.

But anyway, yeah, I hooked up with a guy last night. For the first time in four years. Did you have scleries today? I think I haven't given myself time to have scurries today. I'm not yours. I'm drinking. Literally. Let's just never.

Postpone the scaries, babe. You can't get the scaries if you don't stop drinking. But I think it was just like interesting because I've put that off for so. Or like I just never have really been interested in it. But I don't know. It was like a friend of a friend and it was just like, it was fun. Yeah. And he was so nice and it was awesome.

And when was the last time you hooked up with a guy before that? Three and a half years ago? Yeah, when I was like 24, right before my, I met my ex-girlfriend. I think the reason why you got like a lot of shit too is because you made, I think you made your relationship pretty public. Yes. And I, would you do that again? I should have learned my lesson. I don't know.

I think that. Because sometimes you're just like a lover and like you just like want to show like your audience the love you have with like that person. And it's like hard to like hide that aspect of your life. I can totally see a thing like that. We were both. We were both influencers. Yeah. So it made sense too.

I don't think I have thought about it, but I think I was behind the scenes, like, suffering from like a lot of depression because I didn't know that I liked girls and I was, I was feeling a lot of, not to get into like trauma. It's not that trauma, it's like, I felt a lot of like internalized homophobia because, and I was scared to tell her. Like, I was like, we would hook up and I would like it. You're gay. Yeah, like, I was like, because I felt like she was just so secure in her sexuality, but I felt like guilty every time I like enjoyed making out with her or hooking up with her or like when I felt myself like falling in love with her I was like oh my God I cannot believe like

do people think I'm crazy now or I don't know I just felt a lot of shame but I was pretending not that's the part I regret about it was online I was like I love that I'm by and I was lying I was like I felt a lot of shame so I think I would just I don't have anything against the public aspect as long as it's more authentic next time if I'm actually in love. Like I probably wouldn't like, I made it look very like easy and like fun and it was for the most

part but it was also like behind the scenes very confused the entire time. And that's the tricky part because I see some couples on the internet that share like both the good and the bad of their relationships and I feel... Yeah, maybe I wouldn't do. Yeah and I'm like you don't want this to like open like a public forum like for a conversation.

Your next relationship would you put that on the internet? I think I would have to because I have a podcast every week talking about my, I think I would, I'm sorry, but I would. I know, don't be sorry. I don't judge people that do that, but like I think about this a lot too. And I also do have a podcast and I talk about like all my life and my decisions. Yeah.

But like, I just worry that if I were to date someone and made a public and if anything were to happen. Yeah. Or if anyone do what I do the guy. And I think I would get so fucking ticked off by like people having their opinions that I don't even know what this fucking people are. Yeah. And also just, I feel like, I was just telling this to sway, actually.

I was like, I just feel like once you put a person out there, like, girls are so sneaky. I know. They will be like, I want that person just because you had that person. Yeah. And like, it's almost like a parisocial thing. Like, I want that person inside of me because they were inside of you.

Yes. And I think that you do need to be careful. No, that's not fine. That is a real thing. Yeah. You can make someone look smoothed over and like awesome when behind the scenes you're like, but I think that just goes back to like,

Did you want to even be with that? If you're breaking up, like, and someone else wants your person, you probably didn't want to be with that person anyway. Like, if they're, like, falling for a random girl that's a fan of you. No, I know girls that have gone through breakups and, like, the guys had gone on to, like, fuck and then date one of her fans. We have such an, like, privilege, like, awesome life objectively. Like, we kind of do.

And I think the price, I mean, like, my life used to suck. Like, I was a bartender. No, like, I had no job before. I was jobless. Yeah, it was very, like, bleak. Can we talk about that? What did you do before you started blowing out? Because your come up was like, quick.

Yeah, it was crazy. I've always been really headstrong about social media. Like, I've always been like, I love social media. I love telling stories. Yeah. And my friends would always say growing up, like, you're gonna be like a reality star or something. But then- And you are. I guess I am not.

We are not. We haven't even got into that after. I took a job out of COVID, which was like a recruiting job for like 40K a year, and I didn't want to do it at all. But I grew up really poor, so like any money was like awesome. So my parents were really proud of me. But then they, Barstall Smoke Shows posted me. And then I gained like 4,000 followers, which at the time, that was like a lot back.

No, that is kind of like, yeah. So the new job found my Instagram from Barstores. Like it was just people were reposting it, I guess. And then they called me and said that I had to make my account private and take down any like sexual photo. Even though they weren't even, it was just me looking cute. And they told me I had to take those down and change my name to Rebecca on Instagram to be more professional. Oh, you're working for that. I know.

And it was 40K a year. I could not believe it. So then I, like, I was like, I'm so sorry. I felt like the world was ending. It's COVID. I was like, if the world's ending right now, I want to post bikini photos. Let's go out with the fucking bang. The world is over.

I'm going to post like hot photos. I can just picture you like straddling like in a bikini and like having a mask on because it's COVID. And I will say I was like kind of face tuning. back then but oh I still face tune I do too I like smooth my face in like whatever I need to fix but oh I go I go deep into the I just can't do my body anymore because I'm like people can see you in real life and now for like I used to look so different on my photos but that's what I people used to warp their waist yes I used it looks like I did BBL I still like warped like certain things that just aesthetically I'm like the camera did not capture right that's

I'm saying like I look good in the mirror I swear to God you guys like but then I yeah I was So I took a serving job and then I made a video from my friend. Like I was like rating my brat date party dates that were like evil. And I was like 12 out of 10. But I thought it would be only for my friends. It was the first video I ever posted and it went viral. So I was like, fuck yeah. I'm addicted.

And I just never saw it. It gets addicting like the like. Yeah. So it's like, oh, at least because my family was pissed at me. My friends thought it was crazy for serving, waiting tables after college. And I got addicted to it. So I was like, at least I have an audience. that likes me.

You know what's funny? Like, I was a hostess and... I hate hosting. I was just like, I cannot do this. I think everyone should work in the service industry, though, because it is one of my biggest icks. One of my biggest icks with, like, a significant other two. I always look out for this.

If they're rude to wait staff. No. And they don't understand the flow of how a restaurant works, like behind the scenes. I know. I'm like, immediate ick, we'll never talk to him. I think that might be why you're normal, though, because you did work a service job because it humbles you to,

a degree that I have never in my life, I feel like I know about the human experience from working service jobs. I agree. Like it was, I know too. I know everything now. And just on Newtucket, too, is where I work. I can't even know. I was just yelled at. And I come from like a well off, bam.

But like to get yelled at by like other rich people telling me to like fuck off and that their chicken was dry when I'm like, you're the host. Like I'm not in the kitchen, yeah. Not my fault. I didn't cook. But it just it makes you have like exercise of a lot of patience. And when you're a host. It was like the servers hate you and the customers hate you.

So everyone fucking hates you. So your only friends there are the other hosts and you're miserable. Yeah. I hated it. I cried a lot. We're going to have to open the other bottle at some point. Did you get another bottle? I was like breakfast coming.

I got to live there. Wait, why am I? I feel like I do fit into your family so well. I'm like, yeah, I'm with Chad and hi. I want to be a sibling so bad. I have to say like you out of the whole cast, let's get into Unwilled someone's a little bit. I wanted. You out of the whole cast surprised me in like the best way possible. I think you are meant for a TV. Really? You're meant for TV. I was so afraid to tell you that I liked Andrew.

That's insane. I was really afraid. We kissed once. I always knew that me and my even first video I saw of you, I like followed it. I thought you're so funny and smart. But I always knew that we would get along. So I was like there's no world that I'm going to let a guy if we both like that because I also think we have the same time. So I was like, I can't, going into it because I wanted to be your friend, I just really like you. Yeah. So when I, I just, but I also liked Andrew and I had already talked about it in interview. So I was like, I have to tell you. But I remember how like genuine of a moment that was where you were like, that made me respect you even more.

You were so transparent. Yeah. And I feel like the show could have used a lot more of that approach. Yeah. Because you could have had the Carly approach. Right. All love to Carly. She's not watching this though.

I don't think she's, I know she's watching my show. But like all of. All love to Carly, but like she was kind of playing two sides of things. Yeah. Kind of bitter in the ass because she wouldn't admit it to anyone that she like, and then she would, we would see them in the corner. She's like, Tim. She's like, yeah.

And then she got mad at me for the Tim thing. And me and Carly had a direct conversation so I can, and like on the show so I can talk about it. But she wanted to sleep in my bed one night, but I told her I was like, I might make out with him. And then she got like really upset that I was going to hook up with Tim. And I was like, you have three different. God, how do you have three, you have like a monopoly on all the guys right now. No, like she had how many guys?

She's so hot. It's like, Carly, you're going to be okay, baby. Like, you're the hottest girl I've ever seen. So you're fine. Have you ever done anything else with him besides makeup? No, never. I wish. She's hot.

And I like that he like loves me. But honestly, being around him does make me feel like I am a little bit gay. You're like, I get why I'm gay. Hang on. Well, it's just like, I let that's why I love being by and I wish you were too, because when one gender, when one gender. I love sad. I could be a little by.

When one gender. I thought, I thought, I think that you could one day, but you don't have to. Whatever it's not. One gender, sometimes they drain you. So you get a break. Like, that's why I feel, because honestly, like, behind the scenes, the truth is, because I've had a half of that, maybe a whole glass of wine. I'm lying.

Oh, number two, babe. When I get my heartbroken from a girl, there is something even, or like, I don't know, having a crush on a girl and feeling like she's kind of playing you, it disrupts my life in a way that's like not healthy for me. Like it, like, I get more obsessed with girls where I'm like, I'm, I'm in love with them because like they're so more like three-dimensional to me than men are. No offense. Or actually offense, I don't really care.

But with men, for me, it's like me just playing because it's like I know that I can do no. I don't care. You know what I know. I notice this with you. But like, I feel like the best flirt, which I feel like is why all the guys like flocked to you like a fucking moth to a flame is because you took it so. Clip that. Yeah, clip that. They took it so you were like, I don't give a fog about if you like me or not.

I'm just going to be flirty and like fun. Like it was kind of like a side quest that you like didn't really care about. I wasn't always like this. I will say. I feel like it's just because I realize that I honestly think I'm probably going to end up with a girl. No offense. You're going to marry a girl. I would love to.

Yeah. I think that would just make. I think it's just hard for me. me to imagine marrying a guy and not like wanting to cheat on him with a girl. Which I thought I know that sounds bad but you could have like an open thing. Tim would definitely let you like hook up with other girls. No, no we're not doing that. I could don't want him to be open.

Would you do threesomes? Yeah. Have you done threesomes? No, but I want to so bad and I asked you like 300 times with three different guys. I was like just do it. But then I realized like I don't think I'm into like femme girls but I think I'm femme though. Yeah.

Look what I'm wearing right now. This is femme. I feel like I'm not that family. No, no, no, you have, well, yeah, you have like a masculine energy. I have like a masculine energy. You do. You, that's why everyone thinks you're gay. You do.

Dude, does everyone think I'm gay? Well, I would, yeah. Like, it is your, oh, maybe it's just my L.A. I'm like, sorry. No, no, I don't take that as a lock and insult. But, like, I, like, I've always wondered because I've gotten hit on, like, actually, like, really hit on by a lot of girls. I have a lot of girls with my DMs. And I'm like, are they, like, I don't.

They're like, oh, let's take you out. And I think they just assume I'm like, be out into girls. Yeah. Which I could be. But like, that would be hot if that wouldn't that be so hot if you're like secretly like into girls this whole time and you're like pretend? That would be like the hottest thing you've ever done.

Honestly, that would be that would be quite switch up. Honestly, that would make me be in love with. And I don't even really like femme girls like that. But I'd be like, you're the hot. That's so hot that you secretly are into girls. Anyway. If a mask girl came up to you, like do you don't feel anything for that? I guess I can't imagine it.

No, like, I get the attraction, which makes me feel like maybe I'm somewhere on the spectrum. When I was going on Unwell Games, we're nuts. I'm taking out. You're cracking me. I think it's because of the wine and I'm like hung over. When we were on Unwell Games and I told all my friends in L.A. are like gay girls. And when I told them I was going on, they were like, it's Hallibot. Like, they all think that you're gay, kind of.

Does that offend you? No, it doesn't offend me at all. Like, I just, like, I honestly take it as a compliment. It is. I feel like it kind of means that I have, like, because I'm, like, aura of me that, like, I could, like. Well, I was telling you on, when you were on my podcast, I was like, no one's going to be good enough for you, you know what I mean?

So that's why I'm like. Clipop. So I can send these all my crushes, honestly. I know I mean it. Like, I just, I can't really imagine. I don't know. Like, you're just too cool. Who do you think I'm going to end up?

with you know how like I love like Ariana Grande and they I'm like they no one's good enough for them I don't think Travis Kelsey's good enough for Taylor's I don't know I'm just like I think that my ideal world for you is single but like I don't know why that's not my ideal world though like I think my ideal world like I'm getting penetrated all the time yeah you're right you're so right but I just like it makes me sad when like my really cool friend like gets in a relationship and they kind of edges themselves down so I think that's my point like as long as you stay this and the boys silent the entire time. You can hook up with me. That's fine. I don't want to hear about it. I'm kind of at a phase right now where I feel like I only have the bandwidth for like

hooking up with people. Me too. But I do have like a crush right now. Who? Oh yeah. I know. Does he watch your podcast? No, he claims he doesn't know what I do. If he had a podcast, I would definitely be tuning and see what fuckery is up to. Literally, that's what I'm saying. Like, also like I'd be offended if he's like, like I talk about sex all the time. Like I would be like curious to know what, what is she talking about? She talking about me? I feel like we're having the same combo as on my podcast, but I really mean it. Like, have you, like, I want to be more like you where you're just saying things. I feel like I kind of throw spaghetti at the wall for getting those cameras here.

And then I get in trouble with the internet. How? But do you look at Reddit? Because I don't want to look at Reddit anymore. I don't. But some, like, around the annual games, I just like Googled my name just to make sure, like, there was nothing. I had a blast. And that's the reason why I did it again.

It was so, I'm, it was so fun. It was literally like, so fun. fun. Wasn't it? No, it was, it was just, I miss it. Like, I want to go back to camp. It felt like camp for like, with all over, and especially now that we're all closer. I'm like, if we could go back now, like, that would be so much more fun.

I wish it was longer. That's what I'm saying. Like, there could have been more like drama than it was longer. I mean, the fact that we, I feel like gave him a fucking show though. Dude, we did. And I love that you're the narrator. And then every time. Why am I narrating it?

Because you're like the unwell girl. Like, of course you are. And you're like, fun. You're the funny one. And I'm just like. trying to smash everyone and no one to smash me so I have to narrate the show I hope they leave in us like sharing Tim or whatever dude they have to keep that scene in if they don't would you be mad if I hooked up with him no not at all we're like very good friends that hooked up one time we make out sometimes when we're drunk because we like to make

how did you how did you hook up you hook up you stayed at my name tucker house had invited him he's friends my brother so it kind of adds kind of like a fork in the road there but he stayed there for like four nights I don't think it adds to work in the road because all of your friends hook up with Chad. That's a good point. Clip that. But not me though. Yeah, not her. Just to care.

I haven't. Also, me and Chad are more like best friends than like protective siblings. Obviously, in protective over Chad in a lot of different ways. But like, I don't give a fuck who he gets with. Yeah. If he wants to get with my friends, like as long as they're good people and he's not tormenting them or they're not tormenting him. Like, I don't care.

Like, do whatever you fucking want. Yeah. It used to be different when we're like in college and shit. Like, he would care if, like, God, one of his friends. But anyways, yeah, Tim, um, stayed for four nights.

And we had a flirty banter, but there was something in me that, like, didn't want to go there to the fullest. And then, yeah, and then the last night, I was just, like,

three sheets of the wind. He was three sheets of the end. And, like, he was looking good. And, like... He looks really handsome. He's so, and he's also,

the weird part about him is he's so smart randomly. Like, you wouldn't think it. I couldn't believe it. He's very bright. He's so funny, too. It made me be like, I went in being like, he's a good, he's a good friend. He's, he's so nice.

He's just so, like, we're acting like we're in love with, I'm in love with him, I think. No, like, we should have a threesome with him. No, that's insane. I kept trying to have a threesome with Andrew, and that would be like, you. No. You would be trying to do like, no. You said that in your confession. Because I didn't know him yet.

But he would want to go hiking and like. Yuck. Did you guys, like, hook up after? No. We've only met out that one time on camera. Do you think he's, like, watching this right now? Probably. Andrew, I do not miss you at all.

I'm pissed. I'm still pissed. Whatever. No, like. Seems like I do. He unfollowed you too. Yeah, he followed me after the show. Like, why?

Why is he doing confessions about me? Like, that's the annoying part. I'm like, you could ask me these questions. I'm a cast member. I brought him into the show. You know what I mean? Well, you technically did. Yeah, I gave you a little al-you.

That's what I'm saying. Like, he's welcome. He, if anything, he, like, owes me money. I'm all of that. And then just like, I'm so sorry, but a man, like, going on to be, like, He didn't get your humor and that was the biggest. That was like, I think that was the funny part for me.

I thought it was funny that he didn't get that I was trying to be funny. That was the funny part for me at least. Watching you'd be like, we're breaking up. You'd like, I can't be by breaking up your ex-boyfriend. And he would be like, oh, wait. I know, I would make him nervous, which I thought was like funny. So I went into Unwild Games being like, I hope they bring out a lesbian for me. They had a bunch of bisexual girls on the show.

I know, but they're not my type. Like I like a tomboy girl or, like a masculine girl like I don't know I just me well no you're five also we can never that's I feel like I'm all talking no walk because like if we got into a bed together well you're my friend I I wouldn't like I don't know I just couldn't do it to you now too late now we could have done it earlier yeah we could we could we can make out one night yeah we can make we'll probably will yeah but probably with him yeah definitely in the background like this well we did I don't know how you don't remember we did kiss him together I don't know how you don't remember that dude do you

Are you seeing my clips on this show? I am blacked out. I am blacked out. I was so drunk. I was so journey. Did you see the clip where I was in the room with Zara and Blake and I would like patting behind me? Yes, you were like, why were you in the bed? I go clivo. Were you a rebel as a child?

A rebel? No, you don't care about that. Like, were you a good kid? Were you a drunk kid? Like, were you like, like, euphoria? I wasn't drinking at. You were euphoria? Like, Roo.

It's cool. Yeah. I'm not kidding. I was really bad. I mean, once I discovered drinking, I was pretty great, but I wasn't, you're comparing yourself to Rue. When I discovered alcohol around 16, I was like, oh my God, I was kind of a nerdy kid growing up. Like, I loved theater. I've always loved, like, acting and like reading. So I was kind of nerdy, but I was always like, like, I was always like the one telling stories. And then I went to like a,

like different alternative middle school for like, like I was doing theater in middle school. So when I went to public high school, that was with all these really, like, cool, normal kids, I was like, oh, fuck, like, I'm not cool. Like, I need to get cool. So then I, like, learned how to be cool. And then I figured out that it was, like, drinking and, like, self-tanner and, like, makeup. And then I kind of, like, started drinking. What were you like?

I was a party girl. So I became, like, from nerdy to, like, I had a fake ID at, like, 16. Yeah. I started dating my boss of pizza players. Like, really? Yeah. Was your craziest, like, college story? I mean, I feel like you probably have crazier, but I've done some fuck out of shit and I said it all on the internet.

I was kind of slutty in college, but I got on a Greyhound to like meet a minor league hockey player. Is that a bus or like, yeah, it's like the cheapest, scary. No, yeah. It's like a cheap. I didn't even know. I know. No, I wouldn't be shocked if you strapped yourself to a dog and like you were on the highway. Yeah, I love minor league hockey players.

What can I say? It was like the cheapest bus because I was so. I was so poor in college and this is a guy. It was like the first time a verified like blue check mark guy followed me and he was so hot. I don't even know if he still exists anymore. He's dead. I like gone on the great hall bus with all these people that were like, it was very scary, like a dangerous environment. And I pretended like I drove there and I couldn't find my car or something.

Yeah, he should, you should if he had blue check. I just couldn't tell him. I couldn't tell him I didn't have a car. But that's like not create. I've done bad things. I just can't remember right now. Have you hooked up with like any like really famous people? I should be done.

That was weird. I used to make out of him. We'd never hooked up a... Good kisser. It was fine. Old. A little bit old. After, when we were making out, I was like, oh, I shouldn't know what this feels like.

Have you ever hooked up with an old guy? Because I have. Him. I mean, we didn't ever have sex. But what is it like? It was like a lot of, like, hanging fruit. Like, what do you mean? Like...

Like, what do their bodies look like? They're, like, bodies are... The guys I've gotten with... Early 50s. bodies are nice okay he was early 60s he was 59

yeah I told my parents because he used to he DM me out of the blue I told my parents and I thought they'd be like Becca do not go on dates with him do not do it and they were so excited they were like this is the coolest thing ever

but it was really cool I got to like meet a bunch of famous people I'm like drunk maybe you talk I mean I'm talking to you're actually from This show is about you, not me. Wait, I wish you lived in L.A.

Dude, do you not like New York? I don't like it. It's scary. It's freaking me out here. I don't know how you do this. Like, we were at that brand event, and you were, like, thriving, and I was like, I can't do this anymore. But, like, I go out all the fucking time, like, every single day, pretty much.

Yeah. So, like, when I go out, I feel like I know everyone. I do know. And I feel like it must be so awesome to be in a city where, like, you're, like, the star and that's, like, awesome. Really? You think that way? Oh, God, yeah. I think so. Maybe I'm so biased. I don't know. I'm gonna go with that. Click that. I take it back.

No, cut that. No. But like in LA, I think I'm, I honestly, this might make me a pick me, but I just like it better when I can hear what people are saying. Like I just like it sitting down. Like when we got, when we got drinks, like me, Tim Chatt, I was like, this is my dream. I just want to stay like that instead of. No, yeah. But we do a lot. We did that in New York. I know, but. We do a lot of that. But like then it's just loud all the time. This week is like a big exception.

I hope. Wait, I'm like acting like I'm moving here. Dude, I come to L.A. a lot too. I know. Now that we're friends, we can hang out. Yeah. I mean, I already don't want to leave you. I'm like sad.

Okay, keep going. You keep acting like the show is ending. I think it's because I know that today I'm leaving and I don't want to leave New York and why do you want to leave? Because I just got a flight at 9 p.m. tonight. I don't know. Maybe I'll stay. Well, time, you have to check in.

Are you going to make that flight? Yeah. It's at 9 p.m. No, I wish. We're talking about like flight logistics right now. I don't know. I don't know. Let's get back.

Let's get back to like the real stuff. We should do a podcast. Just together. Like on the side, we could both have one. No, I would love to. But what would it be? Like how would it be different? But do you feel like you like you like you like you?

Because I feel like every time you talk, I'm like, you're so funny. No, I think you're fucking hilarious. I love how you keep telling me to ask questions. You're like, you keep telling me to shut up and ask questions. And it's making me feel like I'm doing a bad job. No, Holly, you're doing a good job. I was doing a good job. I wanted to say.

The reason I'm saying that is because I was like interrupting myself. I was like, oh, you're turn to talk. I look over and you're like this. No, I'm like a little kid. No, I was, no, the reason I'm saying, okay, ask another question is because I was interrupting myself from complaining about it being over soon. Do you have any crushes right now? Let's just go into something.

Oh, God, yeah. Actually, I. I, you have a crush on everyone. You're like. I always. But then I get over it very fast. Like, do you still like Andrew? No.

Wait, I mean, I'm pissy right now. No. Me or him? I don't like Andrew at all. I don't think people understand. I'm kidding. Oh, no, I just, in the moment you had crushed Andrew, it's only been a couple weeks, so I was like, I don't know if you like.

We did, we kissed one time. We kissed one time. No, I think that I get like, I'm pretty avoidant. So I want to have a crush on someone that is more avoidant than me, I become obsessed with them. But same. Same. Yeah. Literally.

do even exist? Like the biggest complaint I get in all dating circumstances is always like, you don't text me back. Like, and it makes me feel like really cool, I guess, because I'm not even meaning to not do that. They're like I'm busy working. But then when there's like someone that I meet that is somehow, and we have a crazy spark and then they're somehow like texting me less than I am then. I'm like, wait, I'm sorry. No, it's my job to be. Yeah. So then I become obsessed with them. But I'm in a lucky headspace right now where everything is kind of a joke to me like I was telling my manager in the car here it was like I've texted like three people today that I'm in love with them but I'm kidding like I'm lying you know you

text the guy you last night oh god yeah you're why that I love him yeah he said I feel like kind of guys like eat that shit up they I think they just I that's it's a litmus test for me because it makes me know if they're funny or not what is litmus I don't know I just think people say that right it's something it's something people don't know Isn't like an energy? I don't know, Halley. Okay, I don't have all the answers. It's like a test to see if they are fun.

Yeah, so you kind of like throw like her balls at them and see. Yeah, I'm like I'm in love with you. Like kind of like, yeah. But the guy was like, I've Becca, I've been thinking about you all day. He was so sweet. But I had to like come out to him right before. Do you want to talk like TMI part? Yeah.

I had to tell him that I haven't been with a man in four years. And he was like, oh my God, he was so nice. But anyway, afterwards, a little bit of bleeding. And he was like, I didn't want to say anything. But yeah, you're bleeding? He was like, are you on your period? And I was like, no, no, I'm not on my period at all. Wait, fuck, did it hurt?

But he was really nice. I was, I guess I got reverts. So you don't do the shrap-on thing. Oh, yeah, I do. Yeah, so that's the weird part. So wait, why? You need thicker shrapons. Well, I haven't hooked up even with a girl since May.

You had a solid bit summer. Okay, I just said that then I realized, okay. Maybe that's not accurate. You had a make-out. I got to like prove space with someone else. Oh my goodness. You think it's bad to talk about that? I hooked up with a guy.

I don't think so at all because that's all I do on the show. Well, that is why you inspire me so much because you don't care, it seems like. I don't give, why would I care about someone I don't want to trade lives with? Their opinions. Chills. Hallie, honestly, chills. Like, you're so concerned about things. thinking about what I'm always concerned.

Like, come on. Like, it's just like a different thing about what they think about me. Let's bring up the spectrum again. There's fan and hater, but it's the same spectrum of like fan. I know because I'm not watching any- They still think about you just as much. Hate is love. It's the same- I just figure that up.

Hate lover the same ends the spectrum of like really crazy feelings. Yes, yes. Yes. I don't think anyone's ever thought about that before. I think we'll like that all the time. That's why I speak like this. Yes. Lip-ness.

Hate is love. So if anyone hates gay people, they're gay. They're obsessed with them. They're obsessed with the gay. I think they're gay. Have you ever gotten canceled? Yes. You didn't know?

No. Me and my ex were going through a breakup. And then I offered to say something that wasn't a little bit fabricated version of why we're breaking up in order to keep the piece on the internet. Because we were still hooking up. And I wanted to keep kind of dating her. But I knew. You know when it's like a, you know that you're not going to end up with someone.

but you love them and you want to keep hooking up with them. I, like, loved her. And so I offered to make up a story. But I said, I am a little bit, like, concerned about IVF. Like, I don't know. I was just like, I don't want a sperm donor of it all. It just was stressing me out. The person I was dating was, like, seven years older than me.

And she was, like, in her 30s, and she wanted a family. And I was, like, 25, 26. And I was, like, not ready for it. oh god like i'm getting tricked out and then but the funny part is we were she was so nice about it she's like oh my god sam like i'm scared too about that stuff don't worry about it but then we were breaking up for other reasons i offered to get on the pod and because everyone was very attached to the fact that did she co-signed like what you were going to say yeah so that's why there was like drama with that but but then did people not like the ivf comments yeah i just said like they were like i can't

like yeah i was like kind of carelessly talking about it in a way that i was I was like, I don't know, I just haven't unlearned like the heterosexual version of a family. But I, it's funny because it's not at all how I feel anymore. Like, I didn't really even feel that way. And it wasn't why we're breaking up. And we kind of pretended like that was. And I got a lot of heat to each other in private as well. Well, she did tell me it would go badly if I said that.

But she was like, if I'm there, it'll be good. And but she was like telling me like this is a good idea. Did you guys do like a public double video? Yeah. Both you on cam. Yeah. Like us on the partner. Yeah. And was it awkward? No, because we're still dating. Like we still stayed together after that for a couple months. Like behind the scenes and we like when I was getting canceled, we like

quarantined together in her house and she kind of felt bad. But she just kind of like let me take the fall. And I think that then it ended up people kind of realized by themselves. I will say like that was kind of fucking. up yeah that's just anyway but yeah that's the only time i've ever gotten canceled because they were videos with like hundreds of thousands of likes of being like Becca i know you don't believe in like um the family with like the two women but it is a real and i'm so happy i think you were just like speaking in a stream of consciousness but it wasn't even true like you didn't understand what you're maybe saying yeah well i knew i do that all the time and it gets me in trouble yeah

all the time but it's just it's i think the annoying part for me was it it's not how i feel all like i would love to i want to end up with a woman right now so do you want to have kids with a woman probably i don't want to have kids with someone like tim i love him though i'm just saying like you guys have a few kids though tim was a handsome guy i know but like do you ever worry that like because we're like online so much like are we ever gonna like find love actually i think about that every fucking day i look at the mirror like who's your like dream person for you and then wait you now it's your turn tell me but i think they the guy would have to be very quiet. The guy that I am up with? Yes for you. You think we have to be quiet? Yes.

Okay. Do you think they have to be... I think they're like hot and like fun, but like they love that you're the star. Like you're the star. Yeah. And they don't dim your light and they don't make you post, not post things that you don't want to post. I've been so keen about this since I've started social media and since I've started this podcast and like talking the way I talk. I never want to like get involved with the guy that's like, I don't like that you say that stuff. Mm-hmm. Or like, I don't like the stuff sad. Yes.

Or like, what's your body count? Exactly. That's a very, that's a very beta energy in my opinion. Yes. And isn't it hotter when someone comes in and they're like, oh, my God, you're so funny. Like, I love this. It's all a showbiz. It's a showbiz.

Yeah. That's what you guys were saying when I, like, made out with Chad and the TikTok when Zara was like, that's showbiz. I was like, you're so right. Like, it's like a cure all because it's like, it's not real. I think that that's when I feel myself feeling guilty for being a social. media person when I'm around someone yeah that should be a sign that they're not the right person because when you're like oh but I you're being defensive about it

you're like oh but I swear to God I'm I'm a normal girl I'm I think I don't if you're gonna like this but I think that your next person and your next girl should be off the internet not wait why wouldn't I like that that's fine with me no I think you need that for it to work you think because I post too crazy No, I just think, like you said to me, like, someone that's like industry adjacent that, like, kind of like understands what you do, but like doesn't want to be in the spotlight and just correct him. You're like, you don't think you need to be with someone that's camera forward. No, I don't think I, that's not attractive to me. I'm going to be honest.

Like, the people that I like become obsessed with are on social media, but they're not posting themselves. Like, I don't like it when they post themselves. Yeah. Like, I don't want them to be posting a reel. No. Or like, no, no. Yeah. But I want them to have Instagram so they can look at my stories.

But you know, I hook up with a lot of male influencers. Wait, let's play truth or drink. Okay, yeah, let's do that. Okay, yeah. Cheers. Okay, truth or drink. The most famous person that slid into your DMs. Amanda Seifred.

I love her. I drunk DM'd her the night of the nylon party. I was like, Amanda, I'm thinking about you and I'm drunk. And she immediately replied. I could not. I was like such a risk because she just followed me like a couple weeks ago. And she immediately replied. I'm sorry Amanda if I'm putting you on blast right now but she was like Becca I'm drunk to

LOL and then she's a vibe I didn't I did like a brand deal with her for no the housemaid I'm a fan girl I'm obsessed with her like no she's a vibe I like my favorite selen like but it was like me diny sweet in color and her and we what was that like we had to like act it was very would you ever ask I think it would be a great actor I think you would too because I think that you're like always in character. When you're like looking at people all the time, I feel like you're like so great at eye contact. I always want to know, do you feel like you're like intuitive? Like can you like read my mind or what? I'm like I read people very well. That's insane. I always know that you're reading me. But I it's not even in a scary way. Like I appreciate it. I'm like, well, I think I think eye contact

is like a very simple baseline form of respect. Yeah. No, but you have a different, there is something different about yours where you're like thinking. Are we like burning right now? I don't know. I'm nervous. And it is funny because I really have, like, asked you for a threesome multiple times. Yeah. But it was on the show, so it doesn't really count. It's like... You would actually have a threesome on the show?

Yeah. On the show. Manor's not like that. I know. Well, to me, the show was, like, not real. Like, I was, like, there to play. I was there to play, like, I don't really give fuck what the cash prize is. And I will say that again.

Like... No, but I didn't even win any money. I didn't even notice. I don't think I forgot. People keep asking me. All my friends keep asking me, like, how much money? did you in and I was like oh I forgot and they were like who won and I was like I don't know when I go I don't even remember who won do you is Jimmy or something I don't chat no no chat

see the fact that we don't even know I went had won MVP I went on the unworld show to fuck same so who is your person that you're going in that you were like in love with is it 10 no it was Bo what happened with Bo? I mean please just tell you never you never finished the story with me you never told me no nothing about Bo Bo it's a girlfriend or something Or Beau is like a girl he's talking to. I don't know. He moved very weird on the show in my opinion. Okay.

I'm sorry about that I'm using you as an example, but Bo is so normal kind of or like just like not like silly that I feel like that is someone that makes, would make you, like even when he was like, I heard that you're really crazy. I am really greasy. No, but he shouldn't be saying that. Like, I don't know.

I don't like it. But I always like, I'm very up front. I'm like, if you can't handle fucking crazy, then you're boring to me. I know, but then you still liked him after that, which I would too. But I was just using him as an example of like someone that would probably on accident dim your light because you want to be, because he's so hot. It's hard not to. Yeah. I also feel like he would tell me to like calm down probably in a lot of situations.

And I don't think you need that. I don't need someone telling me to like quiet myself. That's what I'm saying. You're so. Well, I think it's just rare to have like growing up when you're growing up, did you feel? like you had a personality that you had to dim down here's the thing or did you like create this personality no i've always not judgey i've always had this personality me and chat have always been like the life of the party like high school i was always having like the post prom like

like i had a cool friend group i was cool like i feel like i had great friends and but i was also someone that i was a chubby fucking kid and i think that's the only reason i have a good personality yeah i can stay somewhat grounded besides the fact that I was raised by amazing parents. But like, I know what it's like to be like the weird kid as well. So, you know. That's why we get along. Yeah. So it was a different way.

When I grew into like my looks and I lost some weight and people started to like me and give me attention and validation, yes, I was friends with like the cool girls. But I also remained friends with every single friend group. I was always kind to everyone. You are, like, in real life, I can, like, spoil it for you guys. People that are mean are, like, kind of stupid. And, like, you're smart, so you're nice to everyone. Like, I feel like being...

Yeah, I just, like, also just... I feel like I put on this, like, public persona on the internet where I kind of kind of play dumb and I kind of play... I don't think you play dumb, though, to me. But people, like, assume, like... Me too, though. So maybe I'm just... Anyway, people just, like, assume I'm, like, a bitchy person.

I don't know why. But I'm, like, not at all. I think that's done being intimidated by you. Like, I think that that is not real. and I get the same feedback. I feel like I'm a different scale than you. We talk about, we do different things online, but that's why I relate to you so much.

And I'm like, I'm really worried about you, like, stopping one day. I don't know. I don't think like that's up. But I will say, also, we never, like, I never had to change from being nerdy to, like, this personality.

I think I did that for, it got me quick validation, but it's not about your weight. Like, you've always had this, like, personality. Like, you have an aura. It's like not something. I had to be funny.

No, but how you didn't. It was when I was young. Well, okay. I went to an all-girls Catholic school and I went in looking like, you know, Susan Boyle. Like I went in with a short little haircut and I was really chubby and like to make friends, I had to crack jokes. But I think that you have a-cathic school, private, it was intense. I just think that you also have like a special gift and it has nothing to do with like what you look like. Like, it's not about what you look like.

You're gorgeous. I know when you're nine, you don't get that. I know. that's true and then i lost weight when i was in eighth grade so i was like what 13 12 12 13 and i feel like that's when everyone's hard to like me so immediately i put like value to like wait yeah so it's hard to unlearn that i don't really have an answer for that i can't fix that but i will say that it's yeah i can't fix that for you but anyways any other questions no no no i'm saying like that's not real though any other questions for me yeah

My turn. No, no, I'm saying I don't know what to say. Because I feel the same way, but different. Like, I was really ugly growing up. I had weird teeth and I was like... Dude, everything's fake about me. Me too. I have fake boobs, fake lips, fake hair.

Yeah, what have you gotten done? I have fake boobs. Let's start from toes up. Okay, that's it though. Fake boobs. I got lip filler. I get Botox in my lips. Like, to be like a lip-flip, yeah, but I want more filler.

I get TMJ Botox because if you can see my like old videos my face is really wide I grind my teeth at night so I have TMJ Botox have you seen my old videos my jaw was same bleach blonde hair yeah no but like unrecognized well like you wouldn't even know it's me you look a lot different you can I show like so many different faces no I know what you're talking about so many different faces that's when I followed you look at this no I know I know that you were about to show me that but i've already i know wait can i see what your personality was like back then i was this is when i followed hallie by i was kind of quieter she looked like this you're very hot like you're so hot it was a different it was like little boo boo hot you know

can i show you what ice so look like lupa you know those videos did liby liby liby lupa let me show you i used like Becca more i had like a list no you were fucking hot it was like the time like 2021 that's what can you give me your top five things that are for the girl Yes, right now. I feel like I need to hear it. Yeah, can I have red wine? Can I have red wine?

Yeah. I'm going to text so many people tonight. I can. I have a UTI. I forgot like the etiquette of like hooking up with guys. Like you have to pee after. I forgot that. No, it sucks, dude.

I fuck up all the time in that area and then I get into some trouble. Do you think that like when you meet me are like, are you going to end up with a girl or guy for me? I think I could see with like, I'm like having multiple wives. I know. I know like an eight bedroom house with every husband and wife. I feel like that's what I see for you. Do a further year old segment.

And let's do your top five things that girls can have that boys can't, your whole shit. Here's my thing. And I know that people think I'm joking and I know that it's like a character I do online. By now, I feel like you know that I'm not in character. I really feel uncomfortable when they're like, and I'm not even trying to be funny in the bed, like bed or like furniture, like couch. I'm like, stand. You can stand. The standing is for guys.

for guys, sitting is for girls. Because it's like kind of weird. Like, I feel like, because I'm with you, I'm thinking of him. But he texted me today and he was like, I want to hang out, but I'm like in and out of nap. And I was like, nap is for girls. So then I just saw a bigger picture. Even like when I'm, again, I hooked up with a guy last night. And I was like, the entire time he was sleeping, I was like, I don't know.

Like, you shouldn't be sleeping like that. Comfort in general is for girls. Cheers to that. say that. Sleeping is for the girl. I actually agree with that one. Because it's kind of, it's kind of weird. It's like, why are you dreaming right now? What are you dreaming about? Also, like getting hurt, like, sub your toe or like getting hit by a bus. Or like, things happening to them, like a girl like being mean to them or like just things happening to them. I'm like, that's for the girl. People interacting with them, I'm like, no. It's weird.

Ordering martinis. It's not discussing for like a gay man, but like for a straight guy, it's just it's almost like you're fine like have beer you're fine i really mean this like silverware it's like something about them like holding i think i might be gay like holding a spoon just like holding a spoon men have like such like a character that they're playing i feel like i feel like it's all fake and then when they like do something that's like comfort oriented i'm like it kind of gives me the ick i'm like oh this isn't real do you think there's things that men can have that we shouldn't Or do we even, like, unlock that door? Like, even being out on an elevator, I'm like, I think the thing about it is that you're out of control of the situation.

Dude, I hate the elevator. I don't like that. I don't think anyone talks about this enough. Like, I think they shouldn't be on the elevator. There's nothing more awkward than one, being an elevator or someone, especially a neighbor or two, getting your luggage off the boat. That, for some reason, really triggers me. Or like a man on a flight, even that. I'm like, how do you want them to travel?

Run. I think they should run. Greyhound. The animal kind of. The actual greyhound. Can we just have like a side podcast? It's like, we do it like every other week.

It's like easy. And I'll move to New York, whatever, fine. Well, they have a nice, beautiful office in L.A. But I think it's like not even like for the business side. I just actually want to ask you question.

I'm like interested in what your opinion. No, like if we just every two weeks like caught up and like what we did the past two weeks and like... Because I think both of us would have like would have good content. And I feel like sometimes I'm like when I'm talking.

to him it's like talking to like a different version of myself yeah it took me like a couple years ago or like yeah yeah like i'm interested in what you have to say about what i'm saying my worst sex story yes tell me the worst sex i've ever gone was probably on an that worst sex you've ever gotten gotten received engaged was um oh this one guy a few years ago like i met him out and And we're at like the Spaniard or like Fiddle Six or something like really college-esque. I love Fiddle Six. Fiddle Six is like very vintage.

College you point out like it is very reminiscent of just like post-grab. So we met there and I remember my friends being like don't engage with this guy. This guy was like flirting me up at the bar. He was, I thought I had beer goggles times 10. It was like it was like the drunk version of. Passion for Kiss to Hollywood 7 on Face app. Okay. At first, I was lost, but then I got it.

You understand. That's insanely. And I like, I love that. Passion for it. Okay, got it. I think my audience. Volume 2. That's so me.

But, yeah, volume. I love volume 2. But yeah. I'm like losing my hair. So my friend Lauren was like, you cannot fuck this guy. Lauren. Lauren, trigger one. He is the hairiest person I have ever seen in my whole entire life.

What, she cared about the hairiness? Like, his arms were hair. He had hair like, but he's like a boy. He was like a very fluffy animal. So when I'm going to go for a guy, like I don't mind that stuff. So it must have been crazy for you to have this reaction. Like, quick hair like, thick hair. Okay.

Like crazy. All over. It's like eyebrows. I don't know. He was everywhere. Too much. He was back. And then find that out till later.

But like hair. On his stomach? Well, I think that's not as bad as hair on your back. You're making me insecure about my back. Whatever, keep going. Do you even hurry back? I don't know, sometimes you have like peach fuds. It doesn't matter, keep going.

No, it wasn't like, I was getting defensive for a second. I was like, well, that's a normal human. No, I could braid his back here. No. So anyways, I go back to his place. He has like, uh, what's that controller thing that finance guys have? I don't fucking, I'm gay. I don't know.

I don't know. What do you mean, controller thing? But I just remember, it was the worst ex ever. Like, I remember he went down on me and I could feel his teeth. With biting your vagina. Yeah. And like, you know, when my guy thinks like finger length that is like really good. I'm just jabbing you?

And I'm like, that's like painful. And I could feel like. I hear you, my advice for guys. Think about what would be painful for you. Like hurt, like going like that. That hurts. So think about it. I need blue sheets.

Plaid blankets. Why would you choose that on like whatever website you're on to order those sheets? Like, why would you choose a blue pad? That's what you're fixated on after that whole story. Ha, but why? Why did you hook up with him? Is you hot? I was hammered. That's why I said kiss you passion stuff in Hollywood for. Are you ever like in love with someone?

I don't think I've ever been in love. I'm in lost every day though. The guy that you're telling me about. It seems like you kind of like him. I do like him, but I'm taking it slow with this one. What advice would you give me? Okay. Sometimes I really like someone. I'm like hosting the phone. I'm like taking control. No, I love it.

No. It makes my job easier. How do you cope when you really like someone? Because, like, there is someone in the back of my mind that I'm like, if you would just change your mind and like, it's a girl, if you would just like do this. Is this, you talking with person you like? Mm-hmm.

So, like, how do you, like, are you, do you, how do you get over that? I, when I'm locked in on the guy, I'm so locked in. Like, when I have a crush, like, I'm looked at the worst texture and like. But you're good with them. I'm really good at them. Same. Like, but like, too good. Like, I'm like, always available.

triple texting. I'm like, like, I will leave a party, I'll leave a function, I'll leave an event. Same. I get so fucking like tunnel vision for someone and I think it brings out the worst in me. Like if I was helped the other night with this one guy and I remember just like some girl giving your attention. I was just like. No. But I'm fucking hawk. Like absolutely not. It makes me fucking crazy. Like am I? I don't like, do I strike you with someone that would like be like that? No. No. That's the funny word. That's what makes me like. defensive about it because I'm like with this one person I am crazy like I'm like

obsessed with her anything she doesn't text me for a week and I it's like that would drive me on this guy won't text me for a day I'm like I'm like okay worst case exactly I'm like we hooked up so we hooked up like a couple weeks ago and then she didn't text me anyone I know a week no it's the mask as me and I don't think you know her but she's like just my perfect type of girl like and she's so awesome and like funny Like we've been talking for like a year, but she won't date me. Like she says she used to avoidant. And I'm like, I love that.

Like be avoidant because we'll never end up together. So I like it. But she posted on her close friend story, my mom's in the hospital. She had an excuse this entire time. And then- You saw it as an opening to be like, okay, I'm there for you. She's like, Becca, oh my God, I'm so sorry. The way that she was so like flipping about it, she's like, oh my God, I forgot to text you.

and then I'm like getting defensive because I'm like you know there are people that I like tell them I'm in love with them and I like hate the fucking fuck out of them so yeah it makes me feel like douche because I'm like why are you doing this to me like I love you like there's something about this random person that I'm like I like I like I like it that you're like doing this to me yeah and to everyone else I'm probably like their worst villain in their life like they probably tell stories about me and I'm like never talk to them again I just forget and I'm like it makes me feel like like it makes me feel like like a villain because I'm like do you know who the fuck I am like I don't text anyone back no I don't text anyone back either but then she doesn't text me for week literally she sends me that whole voice mom she's like Becca I've been oh my god I'm so sorry I was like how are you and then 10 seconds later I was like oh my god you're so good and I'm like you took like a week out to answer me yeah anyone else it would take me like month like that's my biggest fight with my friends is I don't know like my friends like my friends all plans and like this happened

me recently like my two best friends like they like got a house in the hamptons or something i'm like wait like why does that i include on this or like hallie we asked you like a thousand times like what you were doing for labor day my friends always joke like growing up they would always or like even in college i would joke like they would make a plan to go on vacation and then i would never confirm or deny in the group chat and then i would just show up so they would always be like how are you here you didn't even you never told us so we're both like tight as fuck i'm so type be like i'm i'm I just show up places and the people are like, oh, I didn't know you're coming. Like, how do I, like, not be obsessed with, like, a random person that doesn't like me back?

I want to know the same answer to that question. I don't know either, dude. Will you please come to L.A.? I really want to have a podcast with you. I don't say this a lot. I'm obsessed. I feel like we could end it here. You're doing cartwheels.

Dude, I'm, like, strong. I think I've just been still drunk from last night. No, I'm literally drunk and it was a shampoo factor now. I'm just like this. No, but I think I'm just like getting like, I don't want to leave you guys. Can we just like have a lovey-dabby, like, outro to this? Yeah. Just like cheers and finish our wine.

I love you. Thank you for coming on. Dude, Holly. I want to start a pod. We might be starting a pod too. Someone, man, piss that. All right. Love you guys and see you next week.

M-hmm.