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Episode Date: December 29, 2025

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You know how many other people would kill to have a group of friends that they could do that with? Yeah, 100%. Really be friends. Me, I would kill to have a group of friends that I could hang out with on the internet. Excuse you. I've never laughed at a thing you've said ever, so I would also kill for that. Hassan, you don't have time for me. Ladies and gentlemen, I hope you had a Merry Christmas.

We are back with another episode of the Fear Ann podcast, this time with a fantastic guest. We've got... Wait a minute. Before you announced the guest, you said, I hope everybody had a Merry Christmas, but we still got the Christmas decorations on. Yeah, because most... We're, you know, hold on, Hazan. Now, I know, I'm, I'm your, I'm going to teach you about Christmas. Uh-huh.

Christmas. Taylor Swift said you can leave the Christmas lights up until January. That's right. Yeah, you should be able to do that. And sometimes. Our tree isn't on them. Sometimes you can leave the Christmas decorations up through February. Yeah.

When this is coming out? After Christmas. Okay. February? No, no. No, no. No, it's literally, it comes out on. Monday.

Yeah, it comes out on Monday after Christmas. But I'm just saying that personally, sometimes I leave my Christmas decorations up until February. Okay, yeah. Maybe it's a little too much, but the holiday spirit, you know what I mean? Christmas is too beautiful and perfect to only celebrate it for a couple

weeks. Thanks. I continue celebrating even after the fact. All right, now we can talk about our guests because we got a wonderful guest here today. Will's looking real different because he's not here. Once again, mysteriously perished to a self-sug incident, but we got an incredible guest

here in his stead. Faces that, ladies and gentlemen, never fake the trick shot. You already know what it is. Absolutely. Well, welcome. And I'd say how was your Christmas? But technically, ladies and gentlemen, are we going to tell them that? Let's just fake it.

Let's act like we just did Christmas. I forgot your Christmas presents. Yeah, I know. I bought them, though. Well, I didn't get you one. I'll get you one. Yeah. I'll get you one.

So, Adap, I know when you came in here like, oh my God, Austin, it's a $500 cashmere sweater. Yeah, initially, that was my first thought. Yeah, and so I just want to let you know, this is Hassan's gift to me for Christmas. Oh. And I just want Hassan to know that I'm wearing it. I see that. Yeah, and I just want, because he gives

me shit, he's like, you know, Austin, you always leave your gifts behind, but I did not leave this one behind. I see that. Wow. It turns out this entire time, I was just getting him shit gifts because he would just not, he would just leave them behind. And he has worn this apparently twice.

And I actually did leave it behind Because I came back Behind where He doesn't live here I didn't realize that I left it here He lives in Oregon Yeah He flies in every week

Oh you fly in every week Every single week Jump on the plane Oh You know what I mean Yeah So I come in here every week But I actually really

I did leave it here actually I didn't realize I left it here Until I came here To I don't know what Cashman is supposed to feel like Honestly it feels like

It feels like It feels like It feels like a sweater. Can I be honest? Can I be honest this on? Yeah, I'm not trying to be that person. I know. Maybe if it wasn't waffled, it'd be softer.

Yeah, I don't know what's going on. Anyway, I actually left it here, and I didn't realize because I can't, sometimes I show up here and I'm like, you know, I got to go to the bathroom. So I just come to us. Oh, he will randomly pull up to my house to be like, hey, don't freak out, but I just got to take a mean shit. So the other day I told him. Randomly from Oregon. No, no. No, no.

Yeah, kind of. I mean, he'll be in West Hollywood. Yeah. Oh, okay. So the other day, I was like, I got to go to the bathroom. You know what I mean? You know, sometimes you miss time the coffee before the gym. You know what I'm saying?

You know? I'm too. Yeah. So I missed time the coffee and I was like, Hassan, I forgot something to your house. I didn't even know if I forgot something. But I just really had to use the bathroom. And turns out, well, I actually did forget something. So the story checks out.

Do you have unreliable friends who use and abuse you in the same way that he does? Like, maybe, I don't know. Maybe this experience that you've had as well. Because, like, Austin, this past week. It's true. Not two weeks in the past now because of when this episode's coming out, hits me up randomly. And he's like, hey, can my boyfriend stay at your place? Yeah.

And I was like, what does that even mean? Like, you've stayed at my place before. Like, you know you're always welcome. And it turns out he just wanted to not pay for a hotel room for his boyfriend. So he was like, no, like, can he stay at your place? Because I don't want to pay for a hotel room for him. He's just coming on his own. W coupons.

Yeah, no. You're just, it sounds like you're practicing financial literacy. Yeah. Oh, okay. So you do, you do see that as a positive. And he's also in sort of a vulnerable position because he can't deny my boyfriend access to his home

because then he's a homophobe. No, no, I don't have an issue with that. Like, no, no, the homophobe card, like, see, that's what I'm saying? No, he's kind of in a compromise position because I could really be like, yo, my boyfriend needs 50 grand. Wow.

What is he going to do? That's low-hanging fruit. You know what I mean? That's a way up. I'm homophobic. Like he thinks this. But it doesn't. I will always be like,

no, no, no, I don't like them. You know, I'll say that all the time. Yeah, yeah. And he just seems to not believe me when I say it. Yeah, no, I don't. Yeah, so I fucked his boyfriend. Oh, wow.

Oh, man. What do you mean? No, he didn't fuck. He couldn't even, he, have you seen his foot? There ain't no way he could, he's not fucking nothing with that foot. That is true.

Yeah. I would have fucked his boyfriend. I would have fuck Christian, but my foot was really, you know, It incapacitated me. It's really bad. Oh, wow. Yeah, that could have...

So you don't have any friends like that? No, I've never gotten putting that predicament particularly. That's fair. Have you seen his foot on social media? Wouldn't know. What do you mean? Did you see what happened to his foot? He posted his foot.

Oh, like how it's fucked up right now. Yeah, yeah. I showed it to him earlier. It's bruised down to the toes. I've never had something like that happened before. I'm going to say something. What? I think you should have kept it to yourself.

You put that fucking foot on there and everybody... I was just trying to... to enjoy my day and then boom that fucking foot it ruined all of our days every single person because we haven't seen that

oh my god I don't know either I think Hassan's on your feed more than the rest of us I think you made your page yeah I don't see that I didn't even know you posted it I didn't catch it and then followed by like a little

like a bunch of music boom boom and he was oh no you didn't see what you saw it no I didn't I don't even know what he's talking about anymore are there fan cams of his foot No, I don't think so. I think nobody liked it because it looks so, it looks so gross.

You thought it was informational? I thought it was informational. There was a weird, like, backtrack. It was like brat or something. There was no, that did not happen. You didn't post that? No, I did not post a fucking foot compilation with Brat playing in the background, which I should have. I feel like that's funny.

Well, I just thought it was in poor taste. Why? Because I walked through that. Well, because I thought your foot was disgusting. Oh, I did. I'll be honest with you. You know what I mean? you have to tell him it was

I know it's disgusting your foot looks like shit even without the injury dog I did not post it because I thought it was hot they're like an old married couple if you haven't caught on with that it's a little crazy

I mean he knows that better than anywhere else they're the face boys are all in like a homo romantic relationship yeah do you guys ever get jealous of each other what do you in like do you have like phomo like if Ron goes to Home Depot with someone else oh no I don't

know, but I mean, it always ends up happening like that because we do group segments and we have things that are planned that are like very phase-centric, you know what I mean, where we'll be like all six of us in the group. And sometimes leading up to that, there'll be specific things where it's like, okay, it's a lot harder to go IRL with six people and six cameramen. So you break off in like, you were there for one of them at the sub-a-thorne with a cake, remember? and we were trying to figure out how we were going to go. Oh, yeah, that was complicated.

It's like Tetris. It's drama to figure out what Uber you're in. And Ron is, he's not a happy camper if he's not in the Uber he wants to be in. It's little things like that. He's not happy. It's never like serious, but it is like little things like that. Like it's like, okay, we're all leaving to this place. We could fit two base members and like two cameraman and one Uber.

Yeah. It's all going in. The cameraman really set it back. You and Jason. It'll normally just be whoever. is like there whoever's ready whoever's ready so silky's always last yeah silky that's the one thing we know for sir yeah he will always be less and then it's always but he'll act like he's getting in the car which is crazy and he'll be in the shower he'll be like save me a spot in the uber that's a

signature but then he'll be in the shower yeah it's definitely impressive is our silky uh i don't know because i got here a little bit late and he was here yeah that's true he did show up on time I'm always on time, but if I am running late. Wait, actually, what am I talking about? Cudy is I saying? Yeah, I'm always late. Yeah, I will always lie if I am running late. Yeah, he doesn't lie a lot.

I won't. You step. I've given up. You're very upfront. We have your location. Yeah. So we know where you are, but I hide my location. Yeah, why do you?

You also hide your location. I know why you're acting like you're innocent. Wait, I hide my location? Yeah. I thought it wasn't even know. I didn't even, I don't even know how to use it. I don't, I don't know. I don't want y'all know where I am.

Why? What the fuck? What if you die? Do you have any of your friends' locations? I have, yeah. I have some of my friends. Do you guys want to know where I am? Also, speak closer in the mic, right?

Marge? Oh, yeah, yeah, my bad. Yeah, I have some of my friends locations. Let's go ban for ban. Whose locations do you have on your phone right now? Let me look. Ban for ban. I have Marches.

I check on him sometimes. Make sure he's alive. Is that a location? Tara? Is Tara you me? What? No, no, no, no, I think you're misreading. That says, that says Alex's AirPod's Max.

Oh, this is Tara Uly iPad. I have Jason. Oh, I have Jason. I have Jason. I do not. I got Jason, too. I have Sakura. I forget who was I with.

Um, I was with, uh, I was with, uh, oh, I was with a, at Ludwig's birthday party. Uh, I'm going to share. Kai and Tens and we were trying to figure out if Jason was pulling up and what Jason was doing and this was before like him and Secora were like fully public and Katta's like wait I have his location I was like oh wait hold on I have Jason's location and we were next to each other and we just like we're like damn they're literally they're together wow you creeps wait there's how do you how do you even look at like your your locations like who has Ron has my location I don't have Ron's wait I'm I'm I'm

With Pokey. Pokey has my location. I have a few people that I don't know who they are and they have my location. Okay. Yeah, it looks like a lot of people have. So that's bad. You know what? For those of you at home, you should open up your phone to make sure that nobody's stocking you.

Who, how do you find what's the app? Find my friends. Yeah. I don't even know if I have that app on my phone. I don't. To be honest, I don't even really. I got some rairs. I got Tina Kinn.

That's a rare. Oh. I got freaking. So like, do these people like share their location? and like, oh, I'm running late to the show. These are just my devices? No, I just like checking on people. Oh, my God.

Are you going to check on me? I'd check on you, but then you're never shared. I think at some point. Why don't you call me out on that? I didn't want to bother you. Oh, I'm so busy. I don't know how you missed it because Marsh was here when I said all of you were hos for not sharing your location with me. And then Marsh shared his.

I check on Marsh all the time. I would have caved to the social pressure in that moment. I must not have been here. I won't make you. But normally, any other guest, I would be like. they have to share their look at Yeah, I need it But like I you know

I won't push that on you yet This is our first like one-on-one time Yeah, I don't have a lot In the Fear Am podcast I collect them like Pokemon Ohla, good days, Bonos Tardes Howestes?

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You might be the youngest one in this room. For real. How old are you? 28. Yeah, you are. I thought you were 29. Let's go. No.

Congratulations. It feels good, right? Yes. You're 28? Yes. I'll be damn. It's hard when you're wrong. He's 28, but he's been on the internet for like fucking 15 years.

Yeah, he has. I started making videos when I was a freshman in high school and like, yeah, 13. when I was 13, so I have the conversation with my friends all the time. Like, you know how dog years is different than, like, internet years is kind of like that. Because I've been on the internet for so long, I might seem like I'm older than I am. But I just started when I was really young. Like, I was vlogging with almost a million subscribers in high school in 2015. So crazy.

I wanted to talk about that. You won this year. You won breakout streamer of the year. Yes. Right? It's a streamwords. which congratulations, well deserved. Now, can you talk a little bit about that journey,

your journey through your career in the sense that, like, you know, you had some success early on, and then maybe you went through a phase where, you know, there were some trials and tribulations, but then recently, obviously, you have a tremendous amount of success. Can you talk about the resilience and, you know, of that part of your career? What? No, I'm just, I love the way you're asking this question.

It kind of reminds me of like, no, not at all, never mind. I was going to come. Never mind What were you going to say? Because I was going to talk about a little bit about the nuance of like Breakout streamer when you're someone That's had a career as long as you've had

It's kind of like like Brandon Frazier is like Yeah In every movie this year right And a lot of people did not know his name Even though he's had a very long career For a very long time And sometimes you just have a defining year Yeah

And I think it's I think you've had an incredible year I think you've done some really cool fucking shit But were there any like challenge because you've been in this for a long time and with that comes a lot of ups and downs. You know what I mean? So, like, where were you at before you entered into this, like, era were you like?

Yeah, I mean, it was challenging for sure being like a first generation content creator, like YouTuber, like on the scene. Like I moved across the country when I was 17 years old, 18 years old to go live in a house with a bunch of people I met on Xbox. So crazy.

Yeah. make call the duty videos and at the time that was unheard of and like an insane decision and everyone in my life was telling me no you can't this is so dumb i can't believe you're doing this what are you doing what are you doing and it was definitely an experience experience it was a lot of fun you know and i look back on it and it's like i'm like damn i can't believe i was that young doing all this and going through all this and you know being like 18 or 19 in that position is crazy and we're all experiencing it together for the first time you know what I mean and it was cool and you don't really think about it outside of the day-to-day like YouTube like daily

uploads this and that and um you know it got to a point where I loved making YouTube videos I always loved making content making YouTube videos and it slowly became something that I felt like I was obligated to do instead of something that I wanted to do and it was like a weird feeling and there was a lot of like issues at the time with phase and the founders and there was a lot of things going on in my own life um so i took some time away you know and i like some time away from the internet and youtube and went and like worked on myself and figured out who you know i am and what i want to do and really came back in when we relaunched phase with the new guys Yeah, you really had a glow up, too.

Yeah, for real. If you look at pictures of me. Mark, pull up old and dad. Did you used to not look that good? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I had a, uh, what's it called? I was saying it's like a lesbian era. That's what everybody calls, calls, if you just look at in 2017, any photo of me,

uh, I had an insane haircut. That's me when I was still in high school in my mom's basement. That just looks like the, like the Maclemore haircut. Wait, but hold on, but, but. To be honest, like that, oh, no, no, there's bad ones. See, this is, this is one of the, like right there with the glasses. This is one of the unfortunate side effects. I mean, you do, you kind of do look like Rachel Maddow.

This is one of the unfortunate side effects of just, like, being online throughout a decade. The eras. Because, like, a lot of people that are just popping off now or just, like, anonymous still on the internet, don't realize that when you're putting all that shit out there, you're going to look corny. And many of the people who are putting themselves out there right now are going to look corny 10 years in the future. But they now are, they're fresh.

So they're looking back, and I know this, I'm defending you, because I have my own, like, 2016 era where everybody fucking constantly rails on me. Like, I got to make the rich pay shirt that I, that everybody loves posting about, or like I had my hat art, you know. I used to wear skinny jeans.

Like, I had the mumford of sons. I had the monged tight. That was last year. I honestly recently stopped wearing skinny jeans. Yeah, we told you, though. You have no excuse. We were trying to explain it to you in real time not to do that. They used to show my ankles.

You were doing it in 2020. I know it was bad. That's crazy. It was a bad. It was a rough time. Like, we were talking like 2015. It was a rough time. I had a problem.

I had a problem. You know, people do shit. People do shit when they're grinding, when they're trying to be a quote, quote, influencer on the internet. And a lot of people nowadays don't realize that, You know, that social media footprint is going to be out there forever. And that's what it is. Yeah.

And I mean, I've grown a lot over the years, especially obviously, as you can see. And a lot of it is documented, like from when I was a freshman in high school up until, like, my early 20s. But then I took some time away. And like I said, how to work on myself and figure out what I wanted to do. And went through a lot of, like, highs and lows. And now I'm here today in a spot where I feel like. I'm in a better place where I think I've ever been and I'm more confident and passionate about who I am

and what I do and driven than I think I've ever been, which is refreshing. And for me to have that perspective and look at it like that, I had to go from kind of having everything that I wanted to it all being taken from me and like losing it all. Yeah, that's right. Like literally like going and hitting rock bottom zero and it's just me.

It was just me for a while trying to figure out what am I supposed to do now? Like, what the fuck am I supposed to do all the time? Because Faze was fucked. Everyone had kind of like disbanded, and I was always just trying to figure out, is it, is it GGs? Like what? Like, there's no way. Because I still wanted, I saw a shit that I wanted to do. I still had a passion in me for making content that kept, would try this, it wouldn't

work, would try this, it wouldn't work, would try this, it wouldn't work. What's the craziest thing you tried or the cringest thing that you tried? I don't know about crazy. I was boxing for a while. Oh, that's interesting. I was boxing. Oh, you got into the influencer boxing shit? Yeah, I mean, at the time for me, it was like, okay, like, it's just like a win-win.

I get to be in the best shape of my life, learn a new skill, and I'll get paid to go do it. So I was boxing on the low, like I wasn't really posting about it or doing anything about it. And I had like a fight lined up and I was going to do one of those. I was going to do one of those influencer cars. I was going to fight Taylor Holder. But I fucked my hand up. And my hands are still both fucked up pretty bad. After the sub-a-thon, I went and got him checked out.

It's called not a carpal tunnel. It's the nerve from my elbow up through my hand is damaged. What? And I didn't. Yeah, yeah, it's pretty bad. Does it interfere with the trick-shodding? No, I could still game. I think it's a ramification from trick-shodding.

You know what I mean? And playing claw for years, like playing claw for years and gaming for years and then going and throwing like a thousand punches a day after never putting that impact on my hands is a little crazy. And I just remember one day after sparring, I took my glove off and I couldn't open my hand. Like my hand wouldn't open. Oh, my God. And it was terrifying. Yeah.

And it's gotten like worse over the years because I haven't really given it time to read. Like I'll still lift and put like pressure on it. I just need to get what's it called a the shot. It's like a steroid. I have lots of those right now. I'm full of them. What's it called? I was supposed to get the shark.

God, we got this. We got this. We got the start recovering steroid. President-owned. Predin his own. Prednisone. It won't be probably wouldn't be what they. Oh, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, um, um, um, um, um, um, um, um, um,

cortisol, yeah. Oh, dang it, but, I knew there's so, um, come on, come on. Come on, come, come. Come on, see, I told you, it could be a doctor. Dr. Austin, I'm only at nurse level. Yeah, but that's what I did for a while, like a good, like, I don't know, maybe half a year, year and was just training, locked in on that. Um, I tried to, like, come into the, like, corporate side of phase and help fix that.

So you were, like, trying to do the behind the behind-the-scenes stuff, too. With, like, it was weird. I was, like, trying to do that, but my hands were, like, tied the whole time, so it was, like, hard to try to do that. And then I tried to make my own YouTube videos on my own thing. And, yeah, it just was a lot of highs and lows. And then when we relaunched a new phase with all the new guys, I originally wanted to get back into YouTube and start posting on my phase adapt channel. That's how I started streaming. It's because I made a seven-day, or I made it.

a YouTube video about nicotine addiction and talking about how bad it is and how I interviewed like professionalists and like talked to a lot of people and went and got test done and everything like that you have this ends right here this man's got a problem now and uh I cut down I was on sixers that's probably why his bones are hurt I cut down I was on sixers all day and now I'm got good for you now I'm down to three oh my God that's why your bones hurt bro you're on nicotine well you know what you're sucking the life out of your bones and you don't drink enough water. Oh, my God, doctor.

Yeah. Come see me. It's not good for you. Come to my clinic. I just knew that it was not good for my health in any way, especially the extent to which I was smoking it. I would wake up. It would be the first thing that I would, I would, like, roll around in my,

yeah, I would have a vape. Do you weren't smoking cigarettes? No, no, I never was smoking cigarettes, which I think, debatably is better. Cigarettes are better than, like, the vapes. No. Uh, yeah, I mean, there's a lot of, yeah, there's a lot of, people don't realize it. Oh, no, no, vapes are very dangerous too, for sure.

They're not supposed to taste like pineapple, apple, like, watermelon, stuff. They put a lot of chemicals and there's a lot of carcinics. People are hitting that shit, like, it's better, though. And you smoke, like, you, the abundance that you're smoking that is a lot more than a cigarette. You have to step outside to smoke a cigarette. Yeah, yeah. You could hit a vape in a movie theater, yeah. You could hit a vape anywhere all day, anywhere.

It's the next, like, it's the next, like, it's the next. Were you ever vape-trick-shotting? No. No, no, no, no. You never got into that territory? No, thank God. You didn't have, like, the modifiers and, like, all the different things that you put on the vape? No, no.

Don't lie. You must have. I had, like, one of those big box mods years ago, for show, but I never was, like, doing tricks with it, no. I could see you doing. But it wouldn't mean. I could understand why it would make sense. With the glasses, like, from the glasses era, I could see you going. I probably tried, but then gave up with it.

But, I mean, I don't know. I just realized that it was not good, and I couldn't continue living my life like that. And, like, in no world is it healthy where the first thing I do when I open my eyes is, like, reach around my bed sheets and lower sour watermelon-flavored nicotine device. Yeah.

And, like, after everything I do throughout my day, it's like, you know what I mean? So I knew it was bad for me, and at some point that I was going to have to try to, like, like rid myself of it or you know just overcome this addiction and it just became a thing where I'm like okay I everything kind of lined up where it's like okay I can make a YouTube video try to promote the fact like that it's really bad for you push and go interview a bunch of doctors specialists teachers and try to like shine a light on how bad it actually is

like a seven day purge right yeah so to hold myself like accountable to the fact that I was quitting. I'm like, all right, I'm posting this YouTube video on my face of app channel. I'm going to be live 24-7 for a week on Twitch. And I wasn't really ever a streamer like that. I would do like random one-off streams here and there. But I'm like, all right, told myself accountable. I'm a stream for seven days.

And that's how it all started. Oh, wait, this was right around the election, no? Or no? This was in, this was last summer. June 23rd is the day I started. Okay, so it wasn't around the election. And the idea was, like, I finished the seven days. I make a YouTube video part two,

and then I start making YouTube videos on my Facebook channel again. Wait, did you do something, like, political as well on the last day? Am I imagining things? Because I remember banks hitting me up to do something, and I can't remember if it was for this or for something else. The last day was June 30th. I don't think that lines up with the election. No, no, no, it didn't line up with the election.

I'm just going to look through, oh, my God, I'm not going to be able to find this. But, like, I, yeah, I recall, I don't know if it was about this. Maybe it was about a different phase thing that they were doing. But it was maybe close to the debates or something. Yeah, it was. It was around the presidential debates. June, that lines up with Joe Biden, who was still in the running, I think. Yeah, Joe Biden came up on that debate stage, remember,

and looked like he was very, very old. Did we, even though he always was? I don't think we did anything. No, no, we didn't do it. We didn't do it because I was like, I can't. Oh, I remember us being in talks. Yeah, yeah. I remember us or like through Ricky being in talks about doing something, but never.

Yeah, yeah, it never ended up. It never ended up taking place. I think he wanted me to, yeah, he wanted me to, like, show. Were you in Vegas for the last? No, I wasn't, but half of the guys were. Okay, so he wanted me to do something in Vegas. He wanted me to travel to Vegas and, like, do a debate or something. Yeah.

Alongside the presidential debates. And I was like, I can't do that. Yeah, I remember we had, like, conversations about it. Yeah. Now I, now I... Okay. I remember this now. Okay, so, all right.

So you did the cleansing. And what did they tell you about, like, other nicotine products, though, like Zinn and shit like that? Or was it primarily focused on the dangers of vaping? Because I know that there's a lot of dangers of vaping. It was primarily focused on the dangers of vaping. and all the chemicals that go into these devices and how horrible it is for your lungs and your health and your blood and just like everything

and how it essentially ages your cardiovascular system. Like say I'm what, 28, if I consistently kept vaping and continue to vape the rate I would, my cardiovascular system would look inside, like if you lifted up a car hood, it would look like I was, 50 years old. That's crazy. That's crazy. And so you your life would be short. Yeah, you're just like speed running your life

essentially without realizing it. Yeah. And the effects don't really come to later, right? Yeah, the effects don't come to later. There are some extreme cases like I interviewed a kid who his lung collapse and I had to get rushed to the hospital. I interviewed a school teacher. I talked to doctors. I did a bunch around it just to try to eat. You know what's crazy?

In spite of all this, everything that you're describing, how dangerous this is. And arguably, like you said, even more dangerous than cigarettes, which is probably what you've already discovered by doing this documentary, is that people are just out there still without any clue that this is happening.

I mean, passing around the vape. Probably as we're speaking right now, people are listening to this. Hitting their vip. Yeah. Yeah. Like, they're hitting their vape and they don't realize, like,

how serious is. Like, they really, like, you know, imagine somebody smoking a cigarette. Like, you know how serious that is. Yeah. But with the vape, people are still doing it. And there's not, like, a big push. Like, people still don't get it because we haven't seen somebody, like, you know, get old enough, really, to die of some sort of chronic disease.

We're all the game. We're the guinea pigs. We're the test subjects. You know what I mean? And that was the idea. Like, one thing you have to want to quit to, is obviously the biggest thing about it. you have to want to quit and realize that it's bad for you. And two, me, like, going on the internet and advocating for how bad it is and saying that

I will quit was, like, a way of me burning that bridge. So it's like, okay, now I know I never can go back to do this. Or I'm going to look like crazy. People are going to forever look at me like, I am a liar. I built, you know what I mean? So that was like... Do you feel like there was resistance when you made a statement like that from people or they were like, nah, man, fuck you.

I love vaping, like the pro vapors. Did you get any negative feedback? I don't think there was... Any kickback from the tobacco industry? No, there was no, yeah, there was no big tobacco nicotine influencers that started going to war over these. I don't know if you know the history of cigarettes, but there's a history of cigarettes where, like, there was a time where science, you know, evidence came out that cigarettes were bad for you. There was a moment where people, there was like the tobacco industry spent a lot of money

to try to, like, to change that. So I imagine the same thing's happening with vapes, right? It's the exact same thing. Like, for a while, people didn't realize cigarettes were bad. And, like, this early 60s, I don't know what the timeline is. Yeah, because it made you look cool. Yeah, it still make you look cool. That's the thing with vapes.

It makes you look like a fucking dildo. It doesn't make you look cool at all. No, it's actually the lamest. Yeah, which is why it's like easier to. I mean, I'll be honest, I think it looks kind of cool. I've always wanted to be the guy. I think, I think cigarettes do make you look cool. Vapes, on the other hand, do not.

People, but for a long time, didn't realize the bad, like the actual consequences of smoking cigarettes until years later. And then they had to put all these warnings on tobacco when you sold them and stuff like that. That's how it is right now with vaping, and that was kind of just what kick started this whole thing. Was there any backlash to your donations to Palestinian charities that you saw at all?

Is it also mostly positive? No, for the most part, everything that I saw was mostly positive for you. That's good. Yeah. Because, like, there was a time in place where for, I think, like, the last two years, there was definitely a time where, like, especially in, like, 2023 at the end of 2033 or in the, or even well into 2024, even after the election, like, you spoke out on that stuff. And people would just come after you very, very.

aggressively and there were a lot of people who were just like fuck you you're a piece of shit and they would say like heinous stuff but i do feel like the general attitude uh has has dramatically shifted uh in favor of the truth and in favor of justice uh for uh and in favor of like recognizing the humanity of palestinians so much so that i think it's like a lot more comfortable now for people to to you know speak on it yeah speak on it which is a good thing you're a big reason for that too which is um you know i mean like you you've seen how much of an advocate you are he takes a lot of shit openly you speak on and how much shit you get um yeah but i think that's what it is paved the way and that's why initially even going into the subpoena remember i called you yeah and i was

like what do you think about this because regardless i was going to do it um you know what i mean but i always just felt like uh with doing like doing like charitable acts and things like that on the internet I always had a weird relationship with because it felt like just that it felt like for a while a lot of people who would do stuff like that on the internet would do it for cloud like a reaction or like general feedback and stuff like that and I no there's always that performative element to it where it's like I'm doing this so you see it yeah and if it always has rubbed me the wrong way for many many years I kept private my my charitable contribution in general partially because of the potential backlash from powerful entities that might

actually get upset like one of the things I done was like I there's an Amazon labor union right and Amazon itself obviously is like the corporate structure is obviously combating the labor union didn't want anyone to unionize so that for that reason I made that charitable contribution to the Amazon labor union early on private because I didn't want want the bosses to find out that, you know, one of their top Twitch streamers was secretly funding and facilitating labor unions. And then it came out, luckily it came out after the fact, like a year plus after the fact, because they, uh, someone had done an investigation into, like, who was the top donors of the Amazon labor union. Well, at that point, I think it was like

fine. Because they had unionized. For founding kitchen, Hassan funding labor unions. No, but I know. But there is also that element as well Because like anytime you take a stance on any issue There's always going to be people on the other side That are either making money off of that issue continuing Or or you know Don't want even broad awareness Around the issue itself

Because it compromises their position Makes them feel immoral maybe And so there's that element of it too So these guys did a sub-a-thon Phased at a sub-a-thon It was pretty pop and it was all over the internet and everybody chose their own, everybody chose their own charity or, you know,

thing to donate to. And Adapt chose, what did you choose? Is it Gaza? The Human Development Fund. The Gaza Human Development Fund, right? For kids in Gaza, yes. Good for you. And he fundraised, what is it, $40,000, $50,000?

Right under $40,000. Okay, never mind. Okay, $40,000. And there's a video of it, actually, of the kids who, I guess, Faze Apex, who is, for those who don't know, OG Faze. He's Palestinian.

He is, you know, fans of mine already know he was the one who initially connected me with Norm Finkelstein, which is like a funny little side story.

Really? Yeah, Norm Friesolstein is a very famous a Jewish academic that has been the chronicler of like a lot of the stuff that's happened in Gaza for many, many years.

He's been blacklisted for it, but it was, it's just funny that like a faith Klan guy was the one who linked me up with someone whose work I admire. But in any case, he apparently he sent this video to you. Is that what happened? Yeah, he gave me, he sent me this with a bunch of photos and just updated me on like, hey, this is what's going on. This is what, uh, your donation like.

Can we watch it? Yeah, yeah, you can go out. Yeah, I want to watch it. I haven't seen it. Bro, there's a bunch of videos. Something you knew is something with it. Yeah. I got the ring, a sweet corner. They got this is everyone has met. Introducing the Swarama Day, a moment of comfort club and home. They got good edits too. Yeah. Yeah, right.

Look at that. Wait for it. It's really cool, man. We did this, man. And it's so special because it's really changing lights. Look it, it says on the banner, man. A fun day for children. Fays of that, you can kind of see it, bro.

It's so special, bro. That's so queen. That's so queen. Yeah, that's awesome. Is that not so cool, bro? Bro, you got to teach him how to trick shot. Right? I think, like, there needs to be a phase of that day where...

In Gaza. Yeah. I should have had that. But that's real, though, because, like, I was talking, and you know him as well. Yusuf, who is also... He turned 17 recently in Gaza, and he had both of his birthdays there, and he's still stuck in Gaza at this moment, I believe, unless he actually got. I was talking to him the other day.

Anyway, but he was in, it was in Gaza for the most, for all of the, you know, for the bombing and everything. And I, I talked to him quite a bit. And like, yeah, of course they have, you know, they play Valorant, you know, they, they are very tapped into all the drama and stuff. And it's always crazy because, like, dudes from Gaza will sometimes hit me up and be like, bro, is everything all right? And I'm like, everything all right, brother, you're in Gaza.

Like, why are you asking me if I'm doing all right? He's like, after Charlie Kirk got shot, I had like a bunch of kids from Gaza, DM me to be like, bro, you got to be safe, man. Like, shit's not all right out there. And I was like, you're in Gaza, brother. Like, that is definitely, it's definitely a different level of, of, of unsafety. Yeah.

So, but the reason why I'm bringing that up, up is because like is a testament to like how tapped in they are to everything that we're doing out here and the culture so have you met have you talked to anybody that's like big OG phase fans i mean i feel like there might be too young to know like the OG trick shots um what do you mean like OG phase fans like uh like the early phase fans like the the fans of the trick shots from any other people you talk to in Gaza um trick shot compilation in Gaza directly not not really no But over the years, yeah, like I've met people who all the time will bring up just the Call Duty era and the Trickshodding era from Phase Clan and how special that was to them.

And it's always cool to hear because it was such an important part of who I was in my story. And, you know what I mean? I still love trickshoddy and playing God. And it's cool to see that because of that I've gone to this point in my life. And now I'm at a point where I can do something like that. Yeah, that's crazy. You know, like give back and see and make a real impact on the world and like younger kids and try to help out in whatever way I can't.

You're on your like philanthropic grind. Philotropic. What's that one? Oh. Well, when you give a lot. Philanthropy. Philanthropy. And then when you're being philanthropic.

I had to look at you because I don't even know if I pronounce it. That's why I was like, philanthropic. Yeah. Yeah, no, you did. You nailed it. Philanthropic. You're like lacing. and education and, like, charity and everything you do right now.

Yeah, I mean, you're on a grind. I'm just trying to do my part, you know what I mean? And, like, I'll always use my platform and my voice to try to push a positive message. Yeah. And I mean, I still, that's why I always respect people who still come out no matter when it is and try to do their very best on the Internet, given the limitations that they have. Because people still are pretty ruthless about it. Yeah, I mean, I think it also, too, depends, like, and boils down to what you take the time to pay attention to, you know what I mean?

Like, if you are looking into it and highlight in your mind the negative feedback or the people that are sending you backlash or hate for whatever it is you're doing, opposed to the positivity, you're going to feel like shit, you know what I mean? I agree. I feel like I've been on the internet long enough, so it's easy for me to say that, where there's not. not a lot of things I could say or hear or read on the internet that will actually affect me. You know what I mean? Because I know who I am and like what I stand for. And I'll always choose to focus on the good things and the things that I'm grateful for instead of the negativity. Absolutely.

It's definitely the most like, it's one of those things that I think a lot of people don't realize because, I mean, we're very, we're very fortunate people. Like, we all won the lottery. We're winning the lottery every single fucking day, right? But, like, but there is also this, like, uh, uh, element associated with it that, like, most people don't talk about. Or if they do talk about, people will be like, oh, here we go again. Wows me, he's fucking rich assholes, talking about their problems. But, like, um, you only, you only get to, uh, you only get to a point in your career where you know how to, like, block out the noise and be steadfast in your approach. if you've already gone through the highs and lows

and I feel like because you've been around for so long that you've gone through many different phases in your career that you know exactly how to deal with that and you can be bold and you can be honest about what you care about and continue pushing through it despite the possible negative side effect and backlash.

Yeah. I respect that though. That's what I think being so young in the space on the internet taught me. You know what I mean? like without even really realizing it like I remember being young and when I at first when I was like a kid the shit did affect me I would read comments I would read tweets and I remember being really like sad over certain things or like bothered by certain things and letting things

get to me and you know it's just like something that came with time and yeah you know that's what I try to let all the newer guys the younger guys who are part of phase I'm around every day try to like help them understand and like show them you know what I mean you don't have to shine light on this or like feed into this yeah the more you feed into it the bigger it gets 100% I mean like the more you show people that like this is a string they could pull on you the more they're gonna pull 100% so there is um so you think you feel like is the the new phase right now is going through uh there there like a lot of the new guys are with the exception of, I guess, Ron, going through their first, like, big peak in their careers, right?

Like, they're, you know, getting propped up. They're super popular. They're killing it. And I feel like it's great. One of the best feelings of all time when you're at the top of your game, right? When everyone is, like, there's always going to be highs and lows. There's never, it's never, you're never always going to be at the top of your game. It just doesn't work that way. That's not how time works. There's always going to be, like, newer people, fresher faces, younger talent. And do you, like, do you help fear them through the drama and the other issues that come along with it in the process? Yeah, 100%. I mean, initially, that's really what I was trying to really do, just be there for all of them on, like, a human level.

You know what I mean? And, like, help them as people grow. Because there's a lot of things that come with this. that you don't, you got to find out as you're playing the game, you know, that you're like, oh, this is like this, this is like this. And, you know, there's a, with being young, you know, having that much influence and access to resources and money, you know, there's a lot of things that come with it, a lot of good things, but there's a lot of bad things and there's a lot of people who come in your life

who try to take advantage of that, you try to ruin the wrong way. So I will just always try to be there for them to make sure. that they don't go through or get some of the same scars that I did when I was their age going through this and make some of the mistakes that I made. I do feel like the new phase guys have been fairly careful about making sure that their footprint is not like devastatingly bad or they're not like being harmful in their output in general not to get too woke with it but like that's one of the things that I have appreciated as far as like the way that, you know, Jason and the way that even like Ron and to a certain degree Lacey, maybe not as much, has been, has not taken that same route that like other content creators have, especially in the space that we're in where they're not like trying to max out on as much drama as possible and like being as big as a nuisance as possible.

Like I always, you could, like I joke around and I say like Ron is like a nuisance stream. You know, you know, the concept I'm talking about, like, obviously, like, kick streamers and news and streamers. Like, people like, what's his face? Don't say that about my Ronald. Yeah, they, they fucking. That's my favorite streamer. He was my most watched in 2025. Isn't that funny?

The kid with a busted-ass face that, like, fucked up as McLaren? Jake Dordy. Jack Dordy. Yeah, Jack Dordy. Yeah, Jack Dore. You know his fucking name. Like that. He's got a gay brother, you know that?

That's, I did not. Yeah, that's why he can say the Effsler. Yeah. Well, yeah, yeah, that's right. He said that. If I could say that's slur for every gay brother I have. And I joke, but in essay, Ron is like, I know. But I don't think Ron is like that because he does actually have, like, timing and talent, and he's actually very funny.

I hope he never hears me say this. He's so unbelievably talented. Yes. And he doesn't even realize, like, for your red carpet. He's so good. That little butt head. For your red carpet, like, he was so nervous. He's nervous every year.

And so stressed. Like, he's always, like, he gets in his head and he doubts himself. And he's like, but he's so quick. Yeah, but he's literally the perfect person for that. Yeah. And I sit there and I tell him, I'm like, Ron, you understand, like, I couldn't, like, dream of a better scenario to, like, drop you into where you could be yourself and shine and show everyone and entertain people and make them laugh than this. And he did a great job last year. He did an even better job this year.

And he's the first person that I've ever, like, brought back intentionally with, like, I don't know if I can ever get rid of him. Because he's so fucking good at it. He's so funny and so... And he reaches across all the aisles, too. Like, he knows... And even if he doesn't know the person, you have no fucking clue, he doesn't know the person.

Or he, like, leans into it, so it's, like, funny, you know? He's so funny. I'm gonna play this... I want you to play this clip that I'm pasting, copy, pacing to you right now. It's a TikTok clip. I want you to...

He was so funny. I didn't, I haven't said this anywhere. I don't think you'd get mad at me. But he, uh, he called me, like, day of the show and I was pissed at him because I was like, Ron, I'm so fucking busy. He calls me Day of the show. And he was like, QD, I don't get it.

Like, if you're letting everyone stream, like, you know how I let people stream their red carpet this year? He was like, then what, like, what makes me special? Like, what makes the red carpet my spot special? And I said, Ron, you're fucking wrong. Like, what do you mean? He was like, yeah, but everyone's going to get viewers. I said, no one's going to get as many viewers as you. Like, you are the stop.

Like, you're the main show. And he was like, he was like, oh, I guess, like, gets in his head a lot. Was he nervous about, like, the fact that, like, it would not perform? Yeah, that it would perform as well because everyone would be streaming it. And I'm like, you don't get it. I want you to play this. People are anticipating. Yeah, you're the entress.

I want you to play this clip that I saw my time, my 4U page, like a while back when he wasn't even live streaming on his stream at all. He was just like fucking around with rage. And I think this is like a little bit of a testament to how, how fast he is and how quickly he can snap into making content, not just for himself or for other people as well. Oh, I've seen this. This is hilarious. It isn't in your ear.

If it isn't in your nose. Oh, what's that down below? the key. I'm gonna give you a riddle and you have to solve it. Or the key goes to the bottom of the pool. Okay, okay, I'll solve it, I'll solve it, I'll solve it. What goes up, what goes down? What makes you sad when you've got a frown? What makes you have a frown in a town that you're not used to being around?

Crocodile. The answer is stable, Renardo, because I'm... Crocodile. ...with the key. I'm looking for a quote. A very direct one. What has four eyes? What has one guy?

Despite all the hate in the chat. All the hate in the chat, what is the quote of the guy? Hitler. The answer I was looking for was stable Leonardo, what made you wear glasses? If it isn't in your ear. But like, that was off the cuff. Like, he just came in. He handcuffed himself to rage.

And then he was just, like, dropping riddles off the cuff. And it's like, I feel like a lot of people don't understand or take for granted. Like, you know, it does require a level of understanding your presence on camera and being quick on your feet. feet to be able to just like, you know, drop that and be able to make content for other people. So I really appreciate his, his talent. All right, having said that, let's get into some drama. Oh, okay. Oh, shit.

Locking. Rank the, the new phase streamers go. No, we're not going to make you do that. I can't do that. I can't do that. It's so evil. Yeah, you can't fucking. You know you got to rank.

You know you got to rank. I literally, ain't nobody paying for this shit. I literally did my Twitch recap. You could see. one through five they're all in there I know who's never one the most time watching Ron but I mean in terms of like watching Pacific Phase members it's hard because a lot of time I'm on camera with yeah you're alive during the day like by the time I end I normally don't stream that late into the night sometimes I'll go home and like it'll only

be rage who's live or Silky who's live you know what I mean and so I'll tap into their angry rage yeah but I I am a fan of all of them I love all of them I love all all of them equally, and I think they're all great in their own individual ways. And that's what makes our collective so special and our group so special. It's because we all are great in our own ways and can do our own thing, but then come together and have that, like, dynamic that we have where we can just have fun on camera. And, you know, it's a blessing.

Like how you were saying, we're all, like, so fortunate to be in the position we are. That's what I always remind the guys, like, whenever shit is stressful or people are tripping about this or that. It's like, yo, you guys understand we get paid to be on the internet, be on camera, and hang out with each other and have fun and laugh. Like, you know how many other people

would kill to have a group of friends that they could do that with? Yeah, 100%. Really be friends. Me, I would kill to have a group of friends that I could hang out with on the internet. Excuse you.

I've never laughed at a thing you've said ever, so I would also kill for that. Hassan, you don't have time for me. All right, so the end of the year is here. And a question I have for you is a New Year's resolution. It's kind of corny to do, but I wanted to go around and see what everyone's New Year's resolutions were. And a look back on some of the highs and lows of the year, the W's and L's of 2025, what you want to do in 2026. And I also want to ask you about phase in general, or phase New Year's resolution.

So let's start with you, adapt, not to put you on the spot. If you want, I can put Austin on the spot. Are you ready to go? I can pop it off. Tremendous at it brought. I haven't really thought about New Year's resolutions in terms of like, okay. Let's start with W's and L's of 2025 for you. W's and L's.

I mean, I feel like I've grown a lot as a person. I feel like I've mature. W growth. I won an award for streaming. I feel like I worked really hard this year and pushed through a lot, not just myself internally, but with Faze and all the guys. and being able to win back-to-back or the org of the year and breakout stream of the year,

it means a lot to me. It was really special. Getting to do some of the things I've done on stream, like there's been so many cool things I've done on stream that I didn't think were possible this year. And going into 2026, I am, I'm excited because there's a lot of things I left on the table, like a lot of ideas that I didn't fully get to hone in on

and, like, try to execute because it's some of those. one of those things where you have to really sit down and like give time to like plan it out and it's hard when you're caught up in the day to day of dreams and things like that so executing on some of those bigger ideas in terms of like resolutions I mean get back on a consistent schedule in the gym since I got sick over the sub-a-thon I haven't really been on like a good I feel that good schedule you know what I mean and I'm the type where it's like all right I can't just go hit the gym one and be like, all right, like, if I go to the gym, I've got to be able to commit to like, okay, I'm back on a schedule of like going five days a week, six days a week, eating, clean, eating good. So I'm excited to do that. I have a gym being built at the phase house right now,

a whole recovery area, and just get back on like a healthy schedule like that. Keep doing more of the same, really. All right, Judy Cinderella. My Ws are L's and then my resolution Is that what you did? Yeah. Okay.

I'll be honest, 20205 was not my year. You don't think so? It's been a bad year. Yeah. It started with my, so my L would be my uncle dying. Yeah,

God, that happened right off the cup. We would have to be a winning guy. Yeah, it was really sad. And she stayed and finished the dinner. We're like, you don't have to be here.

I was just in shock. Yeah. It was the whole thing. It's okay. It's all right. It was just, it's been a crazy. I don't think I had one month

where something like traumatic didn't happen in 2025. unfortunately. There's been like a lot of behind the scenes. Like I had a, I had a stalker show up with a gun. I had like all sorts of shit.

Definitely a bit of an L. It's been, definitely not a W. It was not my favorite year of all time. But I do think the Ws that I've learned a lot. And so that's exciting. I think I've, I think I have,

there's a problem with streaming that I think, everyone understands, but I have a really hard time like applying it where it's like you, you, as much as you want to be your authentic and true self, um, it's not like sometimes the healthiest thing to be. So even if you are upset, even if you are tired, even if you do have to, like, you have to suck it up and you got to put, you know, that showbiz baby and that is part of the job. Um, and I think I have gotten better at that. And I think it's just a learning curve

where you have to like slow down and like think exactly how you're articulating yourself. Um, and I think as crazy as it is, even though I've been doing this for six years, that was an epiphany that I had this year is just like slowing down with how you're saying things and like I don't know just being more responsible in that way and so I feel like that was a really good epiphany but I think going into next year my biggest thing is just a pelotonin more I love my peloton okay I'm very excited about that um it's good and maybe you can watch anime while you are on a peloton yeah yeah that's what does and so that and then I'm going to finish my cookbook in 2026, I decided.

And that's kind of it right now. Austin. W's and L's and L's and New Year's Resolution. Okay. W's is I actually did stream a lot more this year on a personal level. How many hours? I actually, I think I went up by like three or four hundred percent. Okay, that doesn't mean anything you had.

I don't know how many hours it was. Yeah, a lot more. You hit your 200. I've been in this industry longer than you have. That's not a tremendous amount of time. In one year, in one year, I have outstreamed you. Some of us are bitter. In one month.

Some of us are tired. How many hours did you stream this year? We go up, March, pull it up. Probably around like 2,000. I think that's unrealistic. I will never get there. That's unrealistic. My point is, I stream more, right?

That was a good thing. I sat down and I, for me, it was a personal goal. I have had, and my entire career, I have done shows. That's all I've done. and I've had an aversion to sitting down in my computer alone and damn look at that growth baby 2400 wow I think I streamed around the same hours

wow and you did a sub-a-thon I think 2,000 hours I streamed at least I don't know yeah I've done 2,409 hours streamed so anyway having aversion to sitting down alone I've always been surrounded by people in my entire career so I did that a lot more I don't like it I do not like it. It's hard. I don't like it.

I don't enjoy it. And it's very obvious. I do not enjoy it. I do not like sitting at a computer. It doesn't, it's not my passion. I've never been into it. But I forced myself to do it.

The L of this year is because I focused all of that energy into trying to do something that I felt very deeply uncomfortable with with and not something that I really enjoyed as much, but I felt like it was a necessity, is I stopped doing what I love to do, which is doing gay shit. No, shows. I really enjoy doing shows and content like that. And the L is, is that I think that, to move into my New Year's resolutions,

is to not let fear dictate my, the things that I do. I have a lot of things. And a lot of people, you know, a lot of people say, you know, I don't sit there and work. No, I actually do. He's busy. No, no, I'm actually busy ideating. There are so many things that I have in my, in my, that ideas and things that I have, that have come right and died before I allowed them

and I killed them because I was afraid that I didn't have the tools that I needed to make this thing as good as I wanted it. I was afraid that this thing would fail. And so in 2026, my goal is to just go for it. And this is why I admire you, is you don't let you have an idea, you take that idea, and you go for it.

You don't give a shit. And I also let, I also let, don't hesitate, just do it. I also let money dictate, I'm always like I want somebody I've lost so much money But I admire that And I say this privately And I've never told you

But I admire the fact that you will go out And you will lose money on something And you will just go and do it I that scares me And so there's a lot of things that I have never done Because I'm afraid to lose money on it And obviously like I have to be intelligent And I can't just blow a bunch of money on stuff

And I'm not saying you've been stupid Like you obviously But like there's a bout I want to strike a balance I did put on a production of the Wizard of Oz No, but like, I admire the fact that you go out and you do shit. I have things that I want to do, but I'm like, oh, I need to wait for the brand and sell it. That's a good, that's actually great resolution.

I mean, I think even to add to that, if I, even myself from my own experience, if I let, like, fear or self-doubt or discomfort ever dictate me in a way, I probably wouldn't have accomplished a lot of the things that I've done. And a lot of the bigger things that I've done, the bigger moments I have had over my career and with streaming, leading into it, I was hesitant and I was always like, do I do I do I? Almost always and then every time I'm like Just click the button, just hit the go I just need to click the fucking button And not think about it

The first like three months of this year Half the time I was streaming I still didn't know what I was doing Yeah, I'm like But just hit the button Just click the fucking button And that's why when people ask me They're like, do you have any real advice?

I would say just like literally just do it Stop thinking in your head Let's it Just click the button fucking do it. And it's obviously easier said than none when it's like so many people get in their own heads and don't let themselves reach their potential or even see the chance of the shock going in.

They won't even put it up. Yeah. They don't even put it up because they're afraid. Yeah. COVID broke my brain, not like the era, but like the era broke my brain because this is an era where you could sneeze and get 150,000 viewers. You know what I mean? And then you're constantly chasing that high, constantly, constantly, constantly.

constantly, and unless you can achieve that particular high, you don't do it. And so that, for me, in particular. And so, like, I've been constantly chasing that high, and you just will never achieve that high. You know, it's funny. I lost that, that, like, chase or desire ever since the first stream rewards, when I went from, like, 300,000 watching me one day. And then the next day, I went to 3K.

I was like, nope, that's just how it goes. And that's a healthy mindset. And I still, the reason why I sat at my computer and I was almost punishing myself in a weird way this year. I would sit at my computer. I'd wake up in the morning at 8 o'clock in the morning at like 7 a.m. or whatever for multiple days in a row. And I was like almost like, Austin, you have to do this. You have to prove to yourself that you can sit here alone and do this. And I was like punishing myself. I was like, I don't want to collaborate. I'm going to do whatever. But it's almost an L because it's like, wait, no, collaboration and doing the things

that made you popular to begin with. But it's good. You're training yourself. But I'm trying to do. I was trying to do that. But the L, like I said was like, I can't get away from what you're, you know. Yeah. All right. Before we wraps up, I'll give you guys my W's and L's of the year and my New Year's resolutions. W of the year, Zoramam Dhani, most impactful year that I've had politically in my entire career.

I've been doing this for like, what, 12, 13 years at this point, you know, played a role in getting the mayor of New York elected. It's a pretty solid thing, especially underdog, long shot, a person who has very close ideals and a very similar worldview

and very similar background. even to someone such as myself. That was a big deal for me, at least. And hopefully I'll be, you know, continuing on that journey in this upcoming year. That was definitely a big W. Watching people's attitudes shift so dramatically in the exact way that I said it would, whether it be on certain domestic issues or whether it be on foreign policy, like on Israel, it felt fairly lonely.

Obviously not with you guys, but like it felt fairly low. lonely in the space that I was, where a lot of people were just, like, fearful of speaking out, whether it be against the Trump administration, whether it be against Israel, whether it be against, like, the right-wing shift that I was noticing in the spaces that we occupy, people being very careless with their, with their language, people being very hurtful to others and the toxicity in the sphere, and the overall silence that I saw from many people who are like-minded individuals who were worried about getting harassed endlessly. now that's going away.

Now people are a lot more forthcoming about their worldview. And I guess the woke is coming back is what I'm saying. And that's a good thing. So that's another, I will say that that's another W. As far as L's goes, I think like there was, this was a very chaotic year for sure. There was a lot of, I mean, the year started off with my former podcast co-host trying to like, quote, unquote, end my career in the way that he spoke about it. And we didn't really ever broach the subject matter on the podcast at all.

Part of the reason was because, once again, the environment, the media environment, the landscape was very different as opposed to where it is now where, like, you know, a lot of things are considered established truths. And it started off with that bang and it didn't really go away, you know, that wave and wave after wave of harassment never really went away. the L's on that front were, you know, not as significant, but still hurdles that I had to overcome, and it was nuisances, it was annoying.

As far as New Year's resolutions goes, I think this upcoming year, it's the midterms. So obviously I have a lot of candidates that, you know, I'm in the tank for. But what? That's like, very, oh, I thought you were, like, wrapping up. No, no, no, no, he's ready for the midterms.

Yeah, I'm ready for the midterms. But yeah, midterms are coming up. Obviously, it's a big deal. Hopefully we'll be able to reshape American politics in a significant way that reflects on people's values and puts empathy first. But beyond that, as far as my own personal resolutions goes, I still want to, you know, take a step back and dial back on the maximum politics of it all because I've been doing eight-hour streams where it's all politics and I fucking hate that. I used to have so much more variety in my content. So I will be doing more collaboration. I'm going to be doing a collaboration with you.

I'm going to be doing a collaboration, hopefully with you guys as well. In the tub. Not in the tub, because that's my other new use resolution. I've got to get back on the health train because I look back in the beginning of the year and I was like so insecure and so I had so much body dysmorphia about where I was with my, with my physique, with my health. And now I look back at it and I'm like, damn, I was in fucking fantastic shape as opposed to where I'm at now with the injuries and everything else.

and I want to diversify the type of physical activity that I engage in as well. I can't be just playing basketball and fucking concrete, outdoor court anymore. You know, I'm a big boy. My knees can't handle it. My bones can't handle it,

as we've seen this past week. So these past two weeks. So, yeah, my news resolutions are focusing more on, you know, my bodily health, and also in order to preserve my mental health, trying to get back to doing more fun stuff, more fun content, collaborations, not expressly political things that I'm doing in the sphere. Absolutely.

I hear you on that. Are you going to accomplish it? Yeah, hopefully. We're out of time. But before we do that, where can people find you? What do you want to promote? You could just find me on Twitch, ADAP, Twitch, TV, slash ADAP, YouTube, Adap, TikTok, Adap. TikTok, Adap.

Instagram, Real, Instagram. I'll talk about the trials where Adav will put me through the ringer on nicotine addiction with all the information that he has. And Dr. Austin will write me a prescription about what I'm on a prostate exam. And nurse cutie Cinderella will also aid in a bet in the process behind the paywall at patreon.com slash fear. And thank you so much for your contributions, everybody. And we'll see you there. Peace out. That whole three days leading up.

to I was freaking out. I didn't know that. I didn't know. I didn't know. Was there any debate? You were like, I'm not going to go? Ah, no. I mean, a lot of people told me not to go, but there was just no way, especially because I'm like, okay, I'm going to keep, I took like three days, and it was 24 hours before.

And my manager and a bunch of my friends were like, bro, just push it today, push it today. And that would have. That flight, yeah, I know exactly the schedule. Their schedule was insane. That would have literally just fucked every. everything up and I would have felt awful. And I really, something I want to do.

Yeah. And I really wanted to do. And she and her and Connor and her whole team really helped put this together and work really hard. So I would have. Did you keep it from Maya that you were going through this the whole time? Or did you tell her? Yeah.

I was going to say this is my first time hearing this. So I didn't, I didn't want to stress her out. No. You just kept it all to yourself. Yeah. She doesn't even know that you were in pain on the plane. No. No.

Yeah. She would have. Thank you.