Fear& - QTCinderella Recaps The Streamer Awards, Valkyrae Interrupts Hasan (Deserved) & So Much More | Fear&

Episode Date: March 13, 2023

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I got gum in my mouth too. Solidarity. You want to keep it in your mouth? No, I put like five pieces in my mouth. Whenever I come here, I steal so much of Hasan's gum. Yeah. Are you chewing nicotine gum? You're going to start getting spins, cutie.

Nice. Oh, God. This area is like fucking. Hasan, shut chewing nicotine gum? You're going to start getting spins, cutie. Nice. Oh, God. This area is like fucking... Hassan, shut up. Austin and I have been funny over here for the last five minutes. This is a better intro than whatever the fuck you're going to create.

Is that what you have to do? You just have to tell him to shut up? Yeah. Fucking socialist. He's so quiet. He's all done. Anyway, I have like five pieces

of gum in my mouth. He's too quiet. He's too busy eating the ridge. Good one. Can you hear the chewing? Can I have a gum, please? He's only got nicotine and Mentos. I just want to get the taste of Chipotle out of my mouth.

Welcome back to the Fear Ann podcast. We have probably the most heavy, stacked, unimaginably important guests of all time with us here today i'm of course talking about cutie cinderella who is supposed to be our who's supposed to be our co-host uh but i don't know who knows where that is at now it's all in limbo considering that she has a different podcast coming out that she didn't inform us on a bone to pick with cutie cinderella okay we have we have v have Valcaray in the building as well. Both of the hosts

of the Streamer Awards from last night and that's that about and of course my wonderful co-host Will Neff that about does it

for all of the important guests that we have on today on this episode. I am so devastated again. Oh my God. Oh, how could I forget? We have Austin's show in the building as well. You realize this is going to take a toll on my career.

You're the messiest girl. Surely his treatment of me is going to take a toll on my career. Austin's show is also with us, and he's fucking hammered. That's right. I'm a little worried about Austin. Tell him, what did you do today, Austin? I went to the Abbey and drank about six Bloody Marys and tipped dancers. Oh, you drank more than one Bloody Mary?

I did. It was a lot. Is that eyeliner from the show last night? It is from the show last night, yes. Also, your jacket. I heard it's not yours. Not mine either. I stole the jacket.

Quite possibly the messiest I've been coming on this podcast. I'm also wearing all of Hassan's jewelry that I haven't returned yet. He pulled out a wad of cash and there was gum stuck to it. Hold on, let me see if it's still there. It's still in here. Hold on. There it is, right? There it is. There's no gum on that. Those are all $1 bills. For the Abbey. Yeah. I'm saving

it to give it away. It's charitable, so don't eat me alive, alright? You think tipping streamers think tipping strippers is the same thing? Charitable? No, it's not charitable. It's what you should do.

Yeah, okay. I agree. It's what you should do. You tip a lot of strippers in your time. The Austin Show Liberal Arts Twink Fund. Absolutely. I don't even know where to begin. We've done a bunch of episodes

uh both in japan after japan uh will neff is finally back better than ever we had a with an insane night we had the fattest of nights last night uh an absolute banger i'm talking concurrent viewership wise across all of the other platforms reacting to it, probably around, what, 500,000 concurrent viewers? Peaking at around 500,000 to 600,000 concurrent viewers. The Schirmer Awards was a massive success. So I think we've got to start off by asking Cutie how much of a failure it was because I'm sure she's going to say a lot of awful things about what was otherwise a pivotal achievement for any person on the planet i have a few things that would change i can't wait to fix them next year i've got a pretty long list

excited to fix them it'll be better next year she's already started on the changes what's what's up what's what are some issues you want to talk about them yeah one thing that i'm really upset about was that i i usually have a reaction camera from streamers during videos so if you're watching the rewind you see yourself in it you're streamers during videos so if you're watching the rewind you see yourself in it you're like or you see a friend you're like you know just like a reaction that's what we're known for is we react to chicks we suck um and so uh so having a reaction i have all these streamers in the room let's get them reacting to some shit but i don't know what happened i paid for the camera it just wasn't there so to be fair i was reacting like a

motherfucker like i was just like oh oh like i was i was getting really bubbly with it and stuff when i was sitting there because i think it's on autopilot at this point i'm a husk of a man i'm a shell of what i was reacting harder for no one cutie do you need me to help you get a refund for that camera no no no just making sure it was used once okay well i don't think it's adequate and I think we should get your money back. I have a theory. Uh-huh. I have a theory that Austin's show

has gone slumming at the Abbey because you refused to give him a position at the Streamer Awards, which baffles me. Yeah, what Will didn't tell you is that I was dancing at the Abbey tonight, and those ones are my tips. You broke them.

Oh, my God. Austin did. People didn't get to see this on the stream. Austin warmed up the crowd for me, which is very nice. I called him the night before. He individually fluffed every member of the audience. He fluffed everybody. Yeah, unscripted, too.

You were natural. Unscripted. Went up there. Nobody saw it, but it was fantastic. It was really good. He did good. It was beautiful. It was necessary.

Yeah, it was necessary. Yeah, I just had i had a few things a lot of stuff on the back end that people don't know about that uh was messy my caterer was super messy was really hard to work with what do you mean we had chicken tenders and macaroni and cheese which was kind of funny i thought no i did that on purpose yeah yeah i chose food that everybody loves on purpose because then no one can complain about like oh i didn't get enough to eat because sometimes you do fancy chicken and it's like so i was like we're doing chicken fingers we're doing mac and cheese we're in tater tots we're doing the chili's children's

menu chicken tenders a little overcooked it was it was an insane change of pace from the uh first course which was like flowers it was a roasted carrot salad i did that on purpose i wanted a very like fancy and then LOL and then fancy dessert. It was really delicious. I ate multiple salads at the table. I didn't get to eat it. Oh my gosh. We didn't get to eat it.

We didn't get to eat it all. Sadly. Look, I want to say something. I think Cutie being critical of herself, that is a testament of a fabulous producer. Oh, well, thank you. Yeah, I don't think that, I don't think. Poor, severely broken person. I feel like she's a little overly critical. I think it's a little of both. Oh, well, thank you. Yeah, I don't think that, I don't think... Poor, severely broken person. I feel like she's a little

overly critical. I think it's a little both. No, I think... Double-edged sword. I mean, no, I think, I think it's incredibly important after an event, you should take

and celebrate your successes. So I would say a little bit of both. But also, I think it's also important, incredibly important to understand what you need to fix

and move forward. It's how you improve. It's how you get better. to understand what you need to fix and move forward. It's how you improve. It's how you get better. This industry, you have to be ever-changing and you can't bring the same product that you bring every time

or else it'll get stale and old. So I think it's... Speaking of which, name your price season. What now? No, but I'm serious. This is not supposed to be an insulting thing.

This is a great thing. No, I don't think it's insulting. I think you're totally fine. Was I too... Am I too drunk? Is this coming off? No, no, no. No, I just't think it's insulting. I think you're totally fine. Was I too, am I too drunk? Is this coming off? No, no, no. No, I just wanted to be contentious.

I was only saying that she was like. Austin is in a fight for his life with his mic stand. Yeah. Just keep it still. I think she's fabulous. She's the best in the biz. Okay.

I agree. 100%. No, you are. You are great. Okay. I'm not just like women. I'm so sorry. Speaking of great.

I'm going to spit this gum out. Speaking of a great night, let's do a highlight low light. I mean, what was your favorite from the event itself? And what was your least favorite? Ladies, let's start. Starting with. Let me just start from left to right. Yeah, let's go with Austin.

Let's hear you out. Highlight of the night was meeting and talking to all the lovely people at the Streamer Awards. Low light for me was the smelly shirt that I wore. Oh, no. Elaborate further, please. I bought a shirt from, should I say the place? It doesn't matter. We went on stream.

H Lorenzo. Okay, I bought it from h lorenzo and they they're fabulous they're wonderful they put together this outfit they got this shirt from me cutie let me tell you and it reeked of bo like and i'm not even being a drama then why did you buy it well hold on okay they said sometimes you gotta suffer for your art they said to me they said you know what look austin show we're calm down mr show they said mr show we're gonna be we're gonna go out you buy this we'll dry clean it we'll make it smell brand new i said perfect i need it by 12 o'clock noon tomorrow perfect 12 noon rolls around i show up the shirt still smells like bo weird ridiculous

right so i'm freaking out because i'm like what what am I going to wear? I can't go shirtless. That would be awful. You could have. That would have been funny. That would have been really funny. I personally loved the original fit that Will put together for you that you just cast aside like it was used tissue paper.

The pink one? No. That one was fire too. No, I'm talking about the crop top. Crop top was good. Crop top was good. I think I may go back and buy that. You were a Barbie girl in a Barbie world in that. Was. And it was fire.

I think all it needed was like a jacket to really tie it together. We were working on it and I think I'll go back and get it again. It was one size too small. He did text me that. Yeah. I'll go back and get it. But anyway, so I got it. Then they dry cleaned it again

they doused it in like pounds of thousands of pounds of industrialized cleaners that masked the smell of the BO okay three hours into the event

Kitty you didn't know this because you were just hosting and everyone was you were just doing yeah you were doing because you were just doing something

just not as important as my shirt yeah doing nothing easy and so my shirt was it started to stink three hours in. Oh, my God. The smell started to come back. It started to overwhelm. Yeah.

Well, it's because BO is like a very strong thing. Yeah. And I was like, if anybody smells this, it's over. So I was in the parking lot. I'm the smelly guy. So wait, hold on. So what would anyone do in that situation? Maybe try to avoid getting people to smell it.

Is that what Austin did, you think? No, you said smell this. Does it smell like BO? To every single person at the event. I had to, because I had to tell everybody. You had to clarify. That it wasn't him.

Just in case word got around that Austin stunk, is that, oh no, it's because he wore something else. There's one point right at our table and Austin sat down and just went, fuck! And everyone went, everybody went like,

like looked at him and he's like, I'm sorry, it's just the shirt you told people all at once i told everybody it was just talking it was the talk of the awards minus everything else right no yeah no my main takeaway was how smelly austin's shirt was from last night i was gonna say that was my highlight and low light so i want to i don't want to spend too much time on this but i was in the parking lot on this, but I was in the parking lot. No, we can, we. I was in the parking lot getting doused in some Italian cologne from my driver and we masked the smell and then, anyway,

and then we. His driver who got in a fight with the owner of H. Lorenzo because the shirt smelled. My driver's Italian, so is the owner of H. Lorenzo. My driver got in an Italian shouting match with the owner of the store because he was upset through me because I had

to go around and do all this. Anyways, long story short, the shirt smelled. This is a Seinfeld episode. The shirt smelled. I changed it for the after party and I never can go to H Lorenzo again. Okay, remember on the stream when I said like H Lorenzo, you know, serves

a high profile clientele of a bunch of divas from like international like all across the world Austin is literally the most he is the the most high maintenance client that they've ever had I think Ray and cutie would you wear a shirt that smelled like BL why are you asking Ray and cutie and not Will

who was also there they're females they're closest to the gay archetype can I pose something to you? Go ahead. That I don't think you've ever considered. Hit me. I think the fabric of the shirt smells that way. Because it's an unusual-

Yeah, like what kind of material was it? Yeah, I think it's an unusual material. And I think it- Oh my God. Oh my God, this is epiphany. Look at his fucking face. No matter how many times they dry cleaned it, you were smelling the tinsel.

It had like a metallic smell. The fact that you said that it was dry cleaned and then three hours later it started to smell again makes me feel like it was the fabric. There was like a tinsel in that shirt and I think it had a smell. So question, when other people smelled it, did they smell the smell?

Yes. Okay. See, thank you, Cutie. Appreciate it. It did, like, it they smell the smell? Yes. Okay. See? Thank you, cutie. Appreciate it. It did, like, it was a bit overblown, I'll say. It smelled like cologne because I could tell you doused it. Yeah. He ran up.

He ran up to me again at the award show. He was like, smell my shirt. Just a cloud of Jean Paul Gaultier. And he's like, smell the fibers. Yeah. It did not smell like anything other than whatever cologne it was doused in. You did not have me smell your shirt. I did not because you were busy.

So thank you for respecting me. Thank you. He found a way to get me to smell it after the show was done. Yeah, that's crazy. Because Braylon's also busy. You guys were very busy. I was very respectful, wasn't I? Imagine when he runs on stage.

I didn't talk to you the whole night. That's how respectful. I gave you one hug. I said, you're fucking killing it. Yes, bitch. I do say that before events. I say, nobody talk to you the whole night. That's how respectful. I gave you one hug. Yeah. I said, you're fucking killing it. Yes, bitch. I do say that before events. I say, nobody talk to me. Yeah.

She says, she's an absolute. Everybody's running around. She said, get away from me. No, no. I'm just scared. I'm scared of you when you're on event production mode. I do get very feisty. Oh, yeah.

I almost cried. Because of me? I was stressed. i was late uh my call time was 12 38 p.m and cutie texts me 10 minutes before 12 30 and is like where are you and i was like i'm gonna be late and she was like you're my co-host you're supposed to be here rehearsal is at 12 30 so i start freaking out because like i didn't realize that i was missing rehearsal and um i get there and i just see cutie is like in the zone like she is going through it she's got someone vlogging for her there's people coming up to her and running and going and i like show up in my crocs no makeup on a green sweater blue plaid pajama pants because i'll get my hair and

makeup done there and i was like wow no this is actually happening yeah we're freaking out it makes it real real i was late because of austin show oh come on that's right i'll say it right here on the podcast so it's on the record austin show came over austin show came over to my house yes shirt with his no he didn't have the shirt on yet. He was going to put the stinky ass shirt a little bit later in the day. However, came to my house, got no jewelry on, and he goes, Assad!

I need you to help me with the jewelry situation like you said you would. He's on the phone with Carl Jacobs. He's like, I'm coming to your place later, Carl. He's like hitting everyone's house. Which is crazy because I had jewelry put aside for him. No, I didn't. Burglar.

Okay, Hasan. And I told him this days ago. This is not even true. He's messy. Yes, no, this is absolutely true. Well, that's true. Yeah. You can't.

That's true. So what part of it is not true? The fact that I made you late. Yes, you did. You came to my. What time was he supposed to be there? I'm inclined to believe Hassan in this moment. No.

Okay. What time was he supposed to be there? He was supposed to be there at 1230 as well. I was supposed to be there at 1230 for the text. Okay, I arrived at his house at noon. He came down the stairs, dick flopping in his underwear. Okay. I was about to go into the shower.

At 12 o'clock. No, that's not true, first of all. At 12 o'clock. What, is he waiting to get in the shower with me? No, no, it wasn't even 12 o'clock. I literally left him down there. First of all. What, is he waiting to get the shower? No, no. It wasn't even 12 o'clock. I literally left him down there. I was like, you know what? Fuck it.

I have the shower. Pick whatever you want. Go off. Only Austin's show can make it sound like he hated the dick flopping around. Dick flopping everywhere. That might be the highlight of his stream. Yeah, I came down. There's my underwear.

I was trying to take a shower and Austin was like, I need jewelry. I admired the comfort that he was in. Yeah, well. Truly, I was so. You mean in his own home as he was getting ready?

I was laser focused. I was laser focused on the task at hand and that was looking fabulous at the streamer awards. And Hassan was getting in the way of it, frankly. Yeah, I apologize

for getting in the way of you getting ready. But this is fabulous and I'm going to steal it because I'm gay and I can get away with it. That's March's gift for me, by the way of it, frankly. Yeah, I apologize for getting in the way of you. But this is fabulous, and I'm going to steal it because I'm gay and I can get away with it. That's March's gift for me, by the way. Oh, wow. Sorry, March.

That makes it harder to steal. Well, that cancels out. I'm going to have to give it back. Anyway. What about, Judy, now whose side are you on? 12 o'clock. Neither of yours. 12 o'clock, underwear out, cock flopping at 12 o'clock.

Cock should be secured by 11.50. At least. Minimum. I am on neither of your sides. Both of you are fired for next year. Okay. All right. You know what?

Fuck it. I'm just going to host at the eSports, whatever the fuck that is. They would jump up and down if you said that. I'm not doing that. But if you want, you'd pay me a big money. No. I would never do that. Stop it. All right. Never do that. It's true words. Okay. Highlight not doing that. But if you want, you'd pay me a big money. I would never do that. But never do that.

It's true words. Okay. Highlight low light. Okay. What should I start with highlight? Okay. The highlight honestly was like when we were doing the closing statements, just kind of standing there, realizing we did it. Also just being done.

Cause I've been stressed about this for six months. Like not nearly as much as this ball of stress. You're stressed about a different thing oh yeah you're afraid of stages yeah i've been on stage only a couple times to present awards but i'm only up there for like what five minutes this would be the first time i'm on stage for like two hours minimum well i don't know how long it went for but um also just reading a lot like it was a lot of text to read so i was definitely facing my fears um but yeah being able to like you know say like we did it we and it went better than i thought it would honestly that's

good the low for me was when cutie started to panic oh my god the fear and the stress no no i felt you witness a bad side of me you guys haven't seen panic i became an austin let me explain let me explain i was backstage and i said who the fuck even in panic. I became an Austin. Let me explain. Let me explain. I was backstage and I said, who the fuck is in charge of this? Dude, I've seen a new side of CUNY

that. I became an Austin. No, her feelings were warranted. So what happened was the audience couldn't see the video play, but the stream

could see the video play and she spent a lot of like money and time. It was so important to me. Explain the video. What was playing. So there was a, there was an animation

that was playing and it highlights nominees and something really important about this year i would say that we can all acknowledge is 2022 was huge for w community and i have this very important moment in this stupid animation that has kai your rage and bruce getting picked up in the limo and it's just super funny because they're like in their umbusters thing. I added it last minute because I watched the animation and I said,

we're missing the W community and so I stressed my animator out like the week before and I'm like, we have to add this scene. We have to do it. Like, it's so important to me

like just to see us all come together in this stupid little animation, right? Like, it's so sick and then it didn't play and I was like, as weird as it is,

I was really looking forward to peeping out on the stage and seeing like your rage's reaction to it. And like, I did tell him he was in the, he was in the table next to mine. So I yelled at him and I was like, yo, you're on the, you're on the thing. Cause we were watching it on our phone. But unfortunately the camera was down. So we didn't capture that.

So yeah, he knows he was on it, but here's the beautiful thing about an event like this. Not only does it get people together. I know. Not only does it celebrate and engage in, I would say, a very expensive circle jerk. It's also bountiful for at least the next week of content, which everyone will react to. So you'll be able to get the reactions of all of those streamers after the fact yeah and my goal tomorrow is to get all the content pieces uploaded to the youtube and so then people can react to it which i realized but next year i'll delegate that to someone so they come up the same night but um yeah it was uh it was um i just felt so bad for you

because like i know how much work you put into it. And there were so many people behind the scenes like trying to like figure it out and put it together. And it just wasn't working. They tested it all beforehand. Right. Like throughout the day. So it's just so. Well, it made me mad because, again, like people don't people don't realize when they see like you do the streamer awards. I think like I'm getting paid to show up and host it.

No, no, no, no. I am. I'm in it, man. Like I wrote the script that we're following. I write the run a show like i do all that and so when something goes down and it's out of my control it's very frustrating because it's like i pay for this i pay for that and so the things that are important to me when they don't happen i was like i was back there i was like put up a b-right back screen put up a

b-right back fix this she she was i would rather have a b-right back screen technical issues than the audience suffering in any way, shape, or form. And they weren't listening to me and it was so frustrating. Yeah, that's fucking annoying. No, your feelings were valid. Yeah, I felt bad. I just didn't want it. Because I got mean.

No, no. Kitty, don't feel bad. You paid for that. You deserved it. Don't feel bad. When you invested so much time and energy and then it's out of the control, something that you created,

it's mind-numbingly frustrating. Yeah. We're going to save your highlight and low light because I think I know what your low light is. And it's going to be a segue. And it's it's mind-numbingly frustrating yeah we're gonna save your highlight and low light because i think i know what your low light is gonna be a segue and it's gonna be a segue we're gonna move over to me um my highlight my highlight was when i got there they they had the interviewers and i love sweet anita and so i and so I gave her a big hug and you know she's so sweet she's so kind she's like well I just in case I have any tics like I you know please don't be offended by it and I was like Anita are you kidding me like I fucking love you don't worry about she goes

well I've actually had a really good day I haven't made it fun of anybody and I was like oh great she aired me the fuck out bro she. She was like, you're gay, fuck off, you suck. I was just sitting there like. She jinxed herself. Yeah, she jinxed herself bad. But I was laughing so hard because at one point, Haas came over and we did like a handhold, and she just immediately went, you're gay.

Perfect timing. Awesome, my mom loved it. She didn't understand. And then my low light, got to be serious for a second. AustinOx, your editor, cut a really great video, stream rewards. And I thought, AustinOx, he's my friend. He'll put me in there somewhere. Fake ass, vegan ass, trick tell him vegan ass trick ass bitch

didn't sneak me in anywhere i have actually lowered or heightened my vegan impact now i'm buying cheaper meat that i know has been tortured oh from this point forward no because he's so trashed no this is my fault. This is my, I'm behind. I'm not letting you take it. I'm behind the scenes director on that. And I needed him to include as many people as I've never heard of intentionally. That was the whole purpose of the video.

So you're the fake bitch. I am the fake bitch. Yeah. Well, you're both fake bitches. Well, and I actually had a problem with the content pieces in general. And I didn't realize this because I made sure, last year I didn't get a chance to watch some of them. I made sure to watch them multiple times. And she was like,

ah, no will. Perfect. But there was, and I told Ludwig this this morning, there was too much Ludwig. And I even had editors. That's true.

I had editors cut Ludwig out a little more. And that was too much. That was with Ludwig cut out. Yeah. That's crazy. I know there was a lot of Ludwig. I love him very much. Obviously. I did. Obviously was a lot of Ludwig. I love him very much, obviously.

Obviously more than you love me. I did like the attention of every stream that I did the entire year. The one. You did like three. Exactly. And all of them were featured. You have a 100% rating. Exactly.

I was three for three. Your quarterly stream. The Flight Sim stream, and that's it. Yeah. Name your price. Well, I'm... I'm sorry. Don't say it fast enough. I mean Well, I'm... I'm sorry.

I'm steadfast. I mean, you were heavily featured on other pieces. It's just not the Awesomest. Just not the Awesomest one. Exactly. Who's dead to me. No. I understand. I mean, but you were very well presented,

I think, in other spotlights, which... I didn't talk about the other ones. I'm saying the Awesomest video. I agree. He's a fake-ass trick-ass. No, he's not. And I'm eating bald eagle meat tonight. He. He's a fake ass trick ass. No, he's not. And I'm eating bald eagle meat tonight. He's my perfect soul.

Bald eagle meat. I'm going to club it. I'm going to rub it before it's wedding. I think it's highly illegal, but okay. I'm going to give you guys my highlight. Low light. I'm going to start off with my low light first because it kind

of dovetails off of what Will was talking about. My low light was'm gonna start off with my low light first because it kind of it's a it dovetails off of what will was talking about uh my low light was i feel like i failed will neff no i he wanted to he was up for in a league of his own and i advocated heavily for him uh him and afghans both afghans for uh the the hidden gem and will for league of his own and i pushed for it and and unfortunately it didn't it didn't happen and i feel like i blame austin i think austin is somehow also responsible for that listen i'm gonna be honest but that was a stack category you even apologized to me for that which i think is ludicrous because i was just happy to be nominated. Stat category.

I think short of Gandalf showing up with the Eagles, I, there's no way I won that category. I thought, I thought it would, I was more confident about you winning. No, I was more confident about you winning league of his own.

Cause I didn't know a lot about Doug, Doug. Listen, you know me, I would have been prepared to give a speech. I did not prepare a single second in my head. I never even allowed an opportunity in my imagination that I would win that. Never once.

That's crazy. I literally thought you were going to win it. I was less confident in my chances of winning Just Chatting than I was in yours. I did not prepare a speech for mine either. Next year, I'm going to clear. Okay. I'm going to add some categories next year. Best gay pilot, maybe.

Two. Guest gay pilot. Guest. I would love for you to get nominated. And then lose. And then lose. There's like some other obscure gay pilot. All of a sudden it's like, and little Nas X.

He's like, when I picked up flying, I never knew. And you're just sitting there fucking steaming. This is Prezzo. Bitch. Prezzo does one flight simulator stream and immediately he's the best gay pilot. Crash is a helicopter. We have an in-memory.

That's the thing. They love him more because he would crash. I'm too good of a pilot. You will never show dick on stream though. He's got that up on him. Yeah. He showed dick and asshole. Yeah.

And fell asleep. Yeah. Really? Yeah. Like continuously. No, I didn like continuously i'm just now learning about preso yeah the best so that was my low light uh my highlight was probably uh i mean this is a bit of a repeat of what austin was saying because he went in first but uh was was definitely seeing everyone i tweeted about this before the streamer awards as well where like i really love um having an opportunity to socialize with the entirety of the streaming community well

not the entirety but you know as many as we can uh post in one area i love cons for that reason um so it was a it was an awesome opportunity i got to see the rdc boys uh you know mark phillips dylan all of them they came through which was sick. They didn't tell me day of they wanted to come to the show and I was so sad. I was like, I would have got you all a seat. People, you gotta tell me before. Jesus. I do it like...

We're streamers. We don't even have object permanence. You guys are the worst people to work with. You're dealing with straight up gamers. That was definitely... It's really difficult to get on time. I mean, I've had him on maybe 13, 14 times on my show. Yeah. And every time he's a little challenging.

It's a little challenging. You keep doing it for some reason. I've got him contracted for six episodes in the next season. I don't even know about this. His manager signed the paperwork. That's interesting. He gave him like the socialist doctrine. It's the cast deal all over again. Yeah, i'm just like he's gonna give me a shoe rothy's give me a shoe um but yeah that was definitely my my

highlight you know uh hanging out with rage a little bit hanging out with uh chris next door rage was so nice yeah i talked to rage and i was like you know uh hassan definitely thought you're gonna win and he was like no way and i was like we both did we thought you were a Hassan definitely thought you were going to win and he was like, no way. And I was like, yeah dude, we both did. We thought you were lying. Yeah, I thought he was going to win for sure. He was so friendly.

I missed your fucking award winning. Why, were you too busy getting doused in cologne? Yes. Are you serious? I was in the parking lot

or the side thing. Cutie prevented, created a great VIP entrance. I was in there getting doused in some Italian cologne because my shirt was smelling. That is, it's okay. I was in there getting doused in some Italian cologne because my shirt was smelling. That is, it's okay.

Oh my God. That was expected. You're an actual menace. No, but seriously, he is a diva. Let's open it up. Your turn. Let's open up Pandora's box, girl. Pop it open.

Highlights and lowlights. Highlights. Genuinely the highlight. This is the reason, the reason I do this show, people don't realize, is because I want to heal the world. genuinely the highlight this is the reason the reason i do this show people don't realize is because i want i want to heal the world i want to heal toxicity amongst streamers it's impossible

but i'm doing my best and so having a moment where i can pause and look out and see all these people being in the same room for the first time ever because even at twitch con you don't get these people in the same room you know um and so i have 300 people in the same room that have never been able to do that and so that that is my highlight i think that's my highlight every year um my my low light uh is we're about to unpack something here hasan's red carpet performance watch her just go austin stinky everybody smelled it for some no you're like for for some reason i was the only one who didn't smell it and i wanted to smell it that's my low light i'm super left out of that i'm sorry kitty um no i i i last year i so i am a broken human and i consistently feel

nothing um last year after the show, I felt nothing besides just like, just disappointment. I just felt like I could have done better. And I, you know, I was like, the only feeling I felt was just like bummed this year. I felt nothing, but I felt optimistic. Like, Oh, I know how to fix this now. Whatever people, I know people like it last year. I didn't know people liked it. I know people like it now and I I have my after party planned and I am for once ready to celebrate I think I like said to Maya in the car ride over like oh I'm gonna take a drink um crazy you know like I'm gonna have some fun um which is something I don't do I'm gonna smoke a little meth yeah I'm gonna be crazy there was a lot

of meth. First of all, I had a lot of behind the scenes stuff that people don't know is the venue called us that morning and said that there was a leak in the roof. So they had to close the whole entire top floor. They were like, they tried to cancel on it. We had a, we had gotten permission to have the food trucks there that the food truck show up and they're like, no, nevermind. Which is crazy. Cause they're the ones that provided the generator. The venue was awful. The venue was awful, awful, awful. We'll never be using them again. We'll get Austin to get me a refund.

The venue definitely was leaking. It was so leaking. I can attest to that. The downstairs, like where we're at, like dripping off us. It's completely unacceptable. NFTs were destroyed that day.

Yeah, which is fine. I mean, look, ultimately who cares? Airbnb is already losing their shorts to Marriott. This is terrible. They weren't even Airbnbs. Oh, well. It wasn't Airbnb.

Then I have no leverage. Anyway. Yeah. Oh, I thought you were talking about the venue that we were at. Oh, no, no. Not the house. No, yeah, I'm talking about the house. You just shit on something unnecessarily.

I mean, that was legal, too. It was just American infrastructure. LA is not built for rain. It wasn't supposed to be raining here. But I show up to my party. I'm like, ready to be chill. I'm ready to just chill and talk to people. As soon as I walk in, I see a lot of people that were not on my guest list,

which is very frustrating because this party is just for streamers to chill. It's not for agents to pitch. It's not for sponsors to pitch. It's just to be chill. And I'm very confused how this happened. For the record. Just for the record, I want to say something. At the party, I was given three cards. I was going i was gonna say that i was gonna say that as well like cutie

is not being like a diva when she says this coming like someone coming up and like pitching and handing me a business she's not she's not saying she's not saying like oh i hate when like streamers get to interact with like you know non-streamers though they're not famous like there's a lot of streamers that aren't you know popping or anything like that they're all invited ultimately but but this after party was a chance for everybody to chill this is like private relaxed it was supposed to i want those same people that i saw in that room that i was so excited to have together then they just had to sit there and watch me for two hours i want them to be able to talk to each other and that's why i spent thousands of thousands of dollars putting this

together unfortunately when brands are there though they do end up uh you know getting their way with uh you know talking about business just yeah there it's a it's a constant thing where they're like also talking to me about a shirt well i got i had a new shirt you were not supposed to come in the fuck yeah i was not invited who the fuck gives out business cards like it's the fucking 80s? I was very upset. I was very upset. And so I walk in and I'm, first thing I do is I ping my agency and I'm like, guys, did you give these out?

And they're like, no, like we have no clue. There was no one watching the door when I came in. Yeah. So I needed to triple my security, number one. So then I have my security start going through to check people for wristbands. And then long story short, I'm just dealing with all of that, which sucks because, and then one point this group, this, this was the audacity. I'm sorry. And maybe this is mean of me, but I'm going to say it because it's very frustrating when I'm trying

to do a private thing for my friends. And I'm sitting there in this group of six people walk in and they all have wristbands. And I go, Hey guys, where'd you get your wristbands? And we got, they're like, Oh, we got it from the production crew. And I go, what? They're like, Oh, we're friends with, we're friends with, um, this is no harm to Wubby, but they're like, Oh, we're friends with Wubby. And I go, Oh, that's totally fine. But this, this party is just for streamers. They're like, Oh, we are streamers. And I said, streamers, I personally know, I'm so sorry. This is like my personal party. At least it's supposed to be. And I just like, can't keep letting people come in. They're like, Oh, well we're friends with people. And they just walk past me. And I was like, okay. Like, mind you, this is not sponsored. Like

misfits sponsored the after party, but they only paid for a fraction of it. Like, this is my personal money that i'm trying to give to my friends i'm trying to celebrate with my friends and so it's just like wow like i realize we all have friends the issue with this industry is will probably has 10 other friends that would want to come hasan probably has 10 other friends that would want to come i invited all of them but unfortunately everyone knows each other all of my friends are managers and and marketing brand people so that's i invited them it's just like really sad it's my personal it's a personal

thing for me that was what the after party was supposed to be i know how i'm gonna fix it next year whatever it's gonna be great i'll fix it um that's not the problem but then something that's very personal that i'm not trying to create any unnecessary drama here, but, uh, Minx attended the after party and got kicked out and inevitably got the party shut down because it was in a residential neighborhood. And I want to unpack some things here. Um, I personally, and I don't want this to become a rag on Minx segment. It's not going to be that I have personally done everything in my ability to help this woman I have tried everything she has been my friends for years up until uh a point last year when it

she had pushed me past my boundaries where I had to say hey like this is too much for me this is unhealthy for me you are destructive to me um and so I had to walk away but i have tried everything i've spent time money i've tried everything what are you doing what are you doing i want to say hi oh my gosh we're gonna put you're good oh my gosh former former rock just wanted to say hi um so i've tried everything so i don't want people to think this is lack of trying uh i think if you've watched my content you've seen minx and i used to be very close and now i've separated myself from her completely however this is a person that i did used to care about even though i do feel as though i've lost her i don't recognize her anymore as a human i not like as a human but i'm saying like she's not the same person when i talk

to her i do not know what happened and i And I'm someone that suffers from mental health issues. I am not kidding you when I say I've tried to do everything. And anyway, she reaches out to me out of the blue a few weeks ago and brings up streamer awards. And I have a moment where I think, you know what? This is, again, a person I really have cared about for so many years I'm gonna give her another chance and I said Minx because she told me she bought tickets for the balcony I said Minx you can come sit on the floor with all the other streamers you have to promise me one thing and she was like what anything and I said do not drink be completely

sober you need to promise me this like promise me she was like, I promise I'll do anything. I was like, great. And like, I was like genuinely, like I will show you the messages multiple times. Me just saying, I'm not kidding. Promise me.

And she, I promise. I said completely sober. I promise. Like she promised me over and over again. Anyway, I get to the party. Um,

she's wasted. Uh, she is getting escorted out by security because she's trying to throw heaters into the pool And then Which Is bad Is a bad thing Yeah

Heaters The big propane The big gas heaters Like the ones that are like Like seven feet Eight feet tall She's trying to put those in the pool I heard she was trying to throw a cicada in the pool

Yeah And people She was trying to run in the pool Which is a bad thing. Um, and so I, uh, I,

and I'm being told that like security's handling it. And I'm like, you know what? I have to deal with this other problem. So hopefully security handled it. Apparently upon walking her out, um, she went limp with the intention of making it harder to kick her out.

You know, dead body weight is much harder to that. And in doing so, tactical. Yeah, tactical. Some other stuff happens. All of a sudden she's just laying on the ground, limp and no longer cooperating and getting removed from the party. Now, her friend that is with her is very concerned. Obviously, now I'm getting concerned because this is someone's safety. And, you know, we're trying to figure out does she need an uber home does she need an uber to an emergency room what should we do um by the time i get called out there

they're telling me the party needs to be shut down because since she's in the front yard neighbors are starting to come out because it's causing a scene and i'm saying you know i have to make sure she's okay but also like i don't know what's going on her friend unbeknownst to me called 9-1-1 so then in this residential neighborhood a fire truck comes pulling out an ambulance police cars and they have to close the party so by 11 o'clock my after party that i spent thousands of thousands of dollars on to celebrate my friends is closed down the thing that I wanted to do to finally relax and thank these people for coming and just like kind of celebrate this thing that we all just did together is closed down and I genuinely don't want people to think that like I'm complaining

about money over someone's health it's just the the sad like the disappointment I have and somebody who promised me better and then ruined my night after everything that I have done for everybody and what I've done for them specifically was very sad uh this is the behind the scenes on why a bunch of people today are like quote retweeting that I've unfollowed her on Twitter this sounds dramatic but I can't have someone like that in my life. I've tried everything. She is blocked on every platform I have. I am no longer interested in having contact with this person or taking chances with this person because I've done it. Everything I've done,

everything I can't do it anymore. So, uh, you know, I don't know. I don't know how to help someone who doesn't want to be helped. What do you do? Good question.

Well, I left the party right before that happened. Yeah. It was very late. You left the party before that. Because I happened to like 11. Because the party lasted all of 30 minutes. Yeah. Because it was very late.

Which means that you Ubered there 25 minutes. You got there. Maybe 10 minutes you were there. I did a lap. Then you Ubered back 25 minutes. I will clear my name times were longer than you were at the blame yes i will clear my name right now yeah i walked into the party austin smelled so bad i got thrown into the pool because my shirt smelled so bad i went inside i, what up to everybody?

People started coming up to me. Someone was like, hey, you want to fight in a boxing ring? And I was like, no. And then a bunch of other people came up and, you know, we're asking. All the sponsors were there trying to. No, no, not all the sponsors, which is fine. Got to see a bunch of people. Talk to some talk, some friends for a little bit.

I saw some incredible burglars uh snuck too i didn't get a burgle they they cleared them out when the cops came i don't know why why they removed the burgers they were like get these illegal burgers out of here but i saw them taking it out and i was like what no i had two cookies. There were a lot of burgers there after I was eating a lot of them before. That's where they went. I had two cookies, two burgers. I had like half of a drink and I was like, well, that's enough for me. Time to hit the hay. Yeah, I drove there.

I figured I'd stop by to try to socialize and celebrate a little bit because I also don't party very much. And then there was an announcement. They said like, hey, just so you know, party's probably going to be shut down in like nine minutes. And that's when I started to freak out because like that road is so narrow. It's like a one-way street. And then I go outside.

Oh, so that's the reason why you left early. Is that why you're... Yeah, no, I was like, I got to get out before everyone tries to leave at the same time. I was like, I got to go home. I'm tired. I literally went to be supportive. It's not because you... you're worse than me.

I am, yes, admittedly. You are worse than me. I really don't. Everyone always makes fun of me, but she's actually worse than I am. I felt like I got off work. Like it was. Yeah, it was a work.

It was a work day. We were working. Oh yeah, me on the other hand, I was not. Damn! I'm sorry. Were you? I mean, I can't believe you're throwing stones in this house. Were you?

Because I feel like you're used to it. We're used to hearing Hassan talk all the time. Did you just say my red carpet work was not work? No, that's natural for you. You love- That's what she said, Hassan. That's so messed up. Oh my God.

At least you guys didn't smell bad. I think it's easier to be on the carpet than it is to be on stage. I said it. I agree. God damn. That smell bad. I think it's easier to be on the carpet than it is to be on stage. I said it. I agree. God damn. That is true. To be fair, you don't suffer the type of anxiety

that I have for stages. And you're a fucking man, you pig. Yeah. What a pig. Got him. No, I'm serious. You know what? Disgusting.

This is bullshit. Come on, ladies. Get together, ladies. Come on. The amount of people I've ever talked to. All you had to do was read a prompter. He was off book the entire time. Yeah.

And probing off the top of his head. Oh, my God. The Violin is the Smallest World's Violin is playing for millions of dollars. It's kind of hard to read. Why is Mr. Smelly's shirt now acting like I have minor inconveniences? It's Slurry Sam over there. Slurry Sam, how dare you? Excuse me.

19 Bloody Marys. I am sobering up with this water. Thank you very much. And I do have to pee. You still have eye makeup on from last night, you messy bitch.

You look like a harlot. You look like a trollop right now. I'm wearing a stolen jacket with makeup on. Yeah, you fucking stole. And I'm still drunk. Yeah, we don't have

much argument here I have to pee I need you on your own I think our team lost go potty go potty no I think you both did a fantastic job

and I understand why both of you were tired and ultimately you didn't miss anything you didn't miss anything I'm just really sad because I just want

everyone's you know these are people that flew in to have an experience for a day and I really want to I really want to's... These are people that flew in to have an experience for a day. And I really want to take care of these people. Can we make a binding agreement? What?

Next year, I got the party. No, no, no. The reason is... She's not even spitting in her hand, Will. No, no, no. She's not even spitting. She put her hand behind her back. I realized something very important.

She even wiped it off. I realized something very, very important. I have to be a full control over it in order for um in all i'm saying is when shit was going down you i approached you and i said i will open a venue in los angeles for you and he found it in like two minutes it's very impressive all you have to do is pay for some of the bar tab. I'll have it open. I had them open a venue for you in Los Angeles. Were you guys there after?

No. She said at the last minute, she's like, I don't know most of these people. We're not doing it. Yeah, that's what I said because I looked around and I was like,

it's already too late to fix the guest list but that's the biggest thing is I need the... Full control. I need full control. Genuinely. I recognize that.

That's what I realized. Your advice is there? It does. It control. Genuinely. I recognize that. That's what I realized. Your vice is there? It does. It does. It does. But even this party, I realized where I lost control and what was fucked up

because of that. Cutie, I do have a couple people I'd like to put on the guest list for next year. I'll consider it. Okay. Thank you. I recognize that she needed control.

You are allowed a three-person guest list? I think we need to go twink. I think we... Literally going to say there was a huge there was a twink deficit there we have to measure their waist you know you're you're not wrong there was thank you soda popping did not show up this is very true although he's come next year i don't know if he's a twink anymore oh he's getting older wow that is so fucking breaking news he's not a twink anyway he's, he's my age.

Jesus Christ, man. I didn't know twink was an age thing. Dog, he was your age. I thought you were calling him fat. Like, back when you used to call him a twink as well. Yeah, and I've aged out of that twink, too. You were never a twink. That's the definition of a twink.

It's not an insult. He's just a- I'm going to use the restroom while you define a twink. Yeah, go ahead. Explain what twink is. I've buried myself, backed myself into a corner here. Look, there's nothing, there's not an insult about being, I'm Explain what twink is. I buried myself, I backed myself into a corner here. Look, there's nothing, there's not an insult about being,

I'm not a twink. You know, Hasan's not a twink. Is it an age thing? I thought it was like a, I thought it was like a skinny pretty boy thing. I thought it was like a, like a pretty boy. It's not an age thing.

Skinny. It's not an age thing. So you're saying Soda Poppin' is no longer pretty? No. Remember the episode that we watched behind a paywall of Milf Manor last week? I missed it. Gabe was, yeah. It was awesome.

Well, you had good reasons. Remember, was it Gabe, Gabriel, the one with the eye shadow? Yes. That's like a kind of a twink. Really? Yeah. A twink is like. Yeah.

No, no, no, no. The young one with Disco Mommy. I like him too. Disco Mommy's son. That's a twink. Oh, I know. Twink is like a very, like, like Hassan's like more of like a, he's not like a, he's not a twink.

He's like more of like a jock on steroids. Like a, kind of like a, like a hairy jock. Kind of like a. Does. He's not a bear because he's lean. I have a question. Does twink equal bottom? Most of the time, but not always.

Really? So you can be a top, but also a twink. Yeah, you can be a twink top. It's rare. Rare. It's rare. It's very rare. It's seldom, but there are twink tops out there.

Very rare. But there's more common to be verse, but much more common to be bottoms. Sure. So knowledgeable. I know. I've studied this for many years. I'm gay.

It's my passion. Look, let me talk about Soda Potman. He's incredibly good looking. I just think he's not a twink anymore. And there's nothing wrong with that. That's drama. There's no drama. What?

Really? Somewhere, Chance is crying right now. He's upset. I'm sure he's fine. Really? I think he's fine. I don't think he's upset i'm sure he's fine really i think he's fine i don't think he's crying into his body pillow of his of his waifu i mean he's he's a dad now right yeah he's a daddy what i don't know i don't think that's real i don't know what's real anymore i'm struggling i'm struggling to hear i'm trying to understand why it's an insult

no he no i'm kidding he had a title where he was like, I'm dad. And I was like, oh, he's moving in with his waifu. I have long considered Chance to be one of the more attractive men on this platform and I stand by that

till to this day. He's just not a twink anymore. It's not your time. It sounds like you're backpedaling. Does it hurt me? Yeah, it hurts me that we've lost another one. Lost another one.

It really does. Twink death is a terrifying thing. It's an awful one. I've said we need to get rid of twink death and create bear birth. We can do both. I like that, actually. We can do both. We can have twink death and bear birth.

But I wouldn't say that Chance is a bear either. No. No, he's an otter. No, Chance is an otter because he's getting hairier. So otter. He grew out his beard. An otter is like a hairy twink. Yep.

So a bear is a. So otter. He grew out his beard. An otter is like a hairy twink. Yep. So a bear is a very hairy otter? No, a bear is just like big. No! No! I'm a hunk! Hassan plus like 100 pounds. Wait, what's the difference between a bear and a hunk? If you're hairy, you just have to be hairy.

A hunk is more like muscular and more jock type. Whereas a bear is like fat. You better. I mean, you won't do the body off. You won't do the calendar. You better not start with me. How do we know that you're a hunk? I think you're a bear.

I'm sorry. I never heard of hunk before. So this was mine. So a muscle hunk. Hunk is like. Yeah. Hunk is like Hassan. It's like kind of like a hairy.

And then I'm a twunk. No, you're not. You're a jock. You're a jock. You're a jock. What am I? What the fuck? You are so funny. You want to be...

Call me that again, Will. What am I? You are... Thank you. No, I think you are a twunk. No, I don't think he's a twunk. I think I'm more jockish. No, you are.

You are definitely jockish. Okay. For sure. If you lose 10 more pounds, you're in the twunk space. I don't know. Yeah. Hassan thinks I'm becoming a twink it's a weight thing

I think definitely weight oh yeah we're talking about the gay community a lot of it is weight weight is very important it's a central force progressive

also incredibly fickle no gay men are not progressive at all I wish we had a whiteboard famous famous

faux Hassan Biker. Oh my God. That's why he hates gays because they're not progressive. The cis white gays are like notorious for not being progressive,

yourself included. Excuse me. Oh my God. He tries to do this thing where he tries to ridicule me in front of powerful women as a method to...

I'll have you know, it's not working. It's a cuckold. It's not working. It's working, I believe it. You're doing most of the work. It's not working it's working I believe it you're doing most of the work it's not just me

I heard you smell bad you played a role in this how do we merge the gap between the NA broadcasters including some people that you invited outside of NA and the otherwise much larger Spanish community.

I don't know. I've taken a first step. I've been thinking about it a lot. How? I downloaded Duolingo on my phone. Wow. Yeah. Will's going to learn Spanish.

First step. You can't even pronounce the fucking app. Duolingo. He's dyslexic. No, it's Duolingo. Oh, God. Why'd you have to cut it out? Yeah, you're being ableist.

Playing into the cis. You think it's Duolingo? Yeah, I thought it was too. It's Duolingo. I thought it was Duolingo? Yeah, I thought it was too. It's Duolingo. I thought it was Duolingo. No, I think it is Duolingo. Pull that shit up. Billy Ravebrains.

Wait, if it's, if it's, no, it's Duolingo. Will, I'm sorry to. Duolingo? Like you're Duolingo. Yeah. Okay, fuck. Yeah, I'm sorry, brother. There's an O there.

Duolingo. It happens, it happens. Anyway, I mix it up with Dua Lipa. Yeah, that's... I'm always doing that. Common mistake. Yeah, sorry about that, brother. Well, let's see.

What language are you learning Spanish? Oh, one thing I wanted to say before... Yeah, yeah. One thing I wanted to say also before we got into the Spanish streamer thing was our fits. We can talk about them other than Austin's smelly one.

I definitely won best dressed. I wanted the... I liked it. I would say... I thought you were great. The smell is definitely minus one. I can't admit that because I'm a gay man. Why don't you download Duolingo and learn Chinese so you can expatriate to the

ex-Chinese country? What is he saying? He loved it. He loves China more than he loves the United States. I didn't understand it. Did you ban Winnie the Pooh in your Discord? What, really? No, they didn't shut up. For context, Hassan loves China

more than the United States. I watch Hassan constantly. He loves China. We'll excuse all their atrocities because they have beautiful shiny trains. He's trying to, I mean, it's like not wrong. It's not wrong. You're like kind of there. All right, anyway.

You've identified it. Yeah, now that you've slandered me, let's move on from that point. It's not true. He's just, I'm not in the Discord server right now, Austin. He loves triggering everybody in the, in Haas. I'm kidding. Look, I love Hassan. He doesn't love China as much as the great United

States of America. Okay. But yeah, fit-wise, I have something to say. The day before we went and I got a fit, and I don't usually fit into a lot of stuff, but this was the rare occasion where I actually found some

Japanese designers that actually fit my big burly body perfectly and i was very excited at the prospect but i got bullied a lot but there was one man there by my side not only defending me but also putting himself up there as well he had a entire fit designed specifically uh around something. You originally were going to wear something entirely different. You had your chrome heart jewelry ready to go.

And I unfortunately was not able to fulfill my end of the bargain because, well, one, I got bullied relentlessly. Everyone yelled at me, which has never fazed me from wearing whatever the fuck I want to wear. Famously. But two, Dolce & Gabbana. the fuck I want to wear famously. But two, Dolce & Gabbana.

Yeah. You didn't have to wear Dolce & Gabbana. Francisco was very insistent. Well, this is okay. I didn't even like the shoes. It just helped, though, that he wore it. All he needed to do was just say he wasn't going, and then it would have been fine. The problem was that you said you were going,

and then you didn't show up. I said I was going to go to D&G and then we linked up with Wisdom and that was a wonderful treat. It's like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. He's a brilliant, young fashion content creator. My favorite. Literally my favorite fashion content creator.

Sorry, Frugal Aesthetics. I loved Wisdom. Everybody missed it. Austin almost loved Wisdom. Everybody missed it. Austin almost fought Wisdom. What? No, I saw it in your eyes. Watch. This is what happened.

And I don't even know if you realized it. I don't realize it. This is how well I know Austin Show. I was about to go along with it. He was like, this is what happened. Austin Show was talking to Wisdom. And he's like, did you like my outfit? And Wisdom was like, yes.

And he goes, I almost got those shoes when I was in Paris. But the paint on the bottom, I didn't really care for. And Austin's show went. Really? Yeah, dude. You were seething. You were like, oh. Really?

I appreciated his critique. I just fundamentally disagreed with his critique. Except for that he. I love. I am at war with the fashion community. Yeah. Oh, we know. We can tell.

I mean, they haven't... I mean, they haven't... They haven't... I haven't returned... I'm... This is what frustrated me about this. Yeah.

Speak on it. They're still talking to me about it today. They're acting like they're doing me a... Who are they? The store. They're acting like they're doing me a favor for taking the shirt back.

You returned it? It smells like BO. After all that? Guys, you got to be on my side here. Wait, that's actually crazy. Right, it smells like that. Wearing a stolen jacket. He wore it. He wore it to the red carpet,

doused it in cologne, and returned it. I exchanged it for another shirt. You are a problem. Guys, it smells like BO. Everybody knows it. Cutie moved away from your side of the table. I would move too,

but I have some doggy. I need some defense in the chat. This microphone is out of control. He's at war with his mic. He's at war with the fashion community in LA. If you bought an eight or whatever fucking shirt amount that cost,

if you bought that shirt and it smelled like body odor, Hassan, you would have returned it yesterday. Yeah, but he also wouldn't have worn it to a major event. Well, they convinced me. There's nuance to this story, okay? The nuance is they doused it in industrialized cleaner,

and it covered it up temporarily, Ray. Temporarily, okay? Ray is his last thought. I'm his last thought. Yeah, I like that you're trying to get her on your side. I'm like, I've lost 50% of the female coalition I have in the room. I'm out. All right?

I do not agree. I'm still listening. I'm still here, Austin. Sweetheart, are you a girl too? I think he's asexual. Okay, perfect. All right. He's gotten so much worse.

Look, it smelled like BL. They industrialized cleaner all over it. Okay? It came back. It came back with a vengeance. It wasn't going to leave industrialized cleaner all over it. Okay? It came back. It came back with a vengeance. It wasn't going to leave. It's not my fault. I was on the phone with them today.

They're like, you know what? It's against our policy. I said, your policy? Come on. This is ridiculous. Austin, you're getting me a refund for the venue. I will definitely. Hey, look.

They are taking it. We're getting a refund. Hey, can I say something else before I go any further in ruining the reputation of this premier fashion outlet? No, their reputation is stellar. I think they're fine. Buy a shirt, wear it, and return it. The staff was fantastic. Lorenzo is a statesman.

It's not his fault that they gave the shirt to somebody to try on that wasn't, you know what I mean? It's not their fault. They're fucking amazing. And I'm going to go back and I'm going to buy the outfit if they let me in the store. I'm pretty sure there's photos of you at the store. Yeah, you're a problem now.

Do not let this man into the store or around the vicinity of the store. I don't know. I forgot to mention another thing about the after party venue. After party venue, everyone gets kicked out, right? I look around.

There's like 10 people that I noticed at the party that I didn't recognize that I was like, Oh God, like they must be something, whatever. And then, so I have security. I go, Hey, will you go ask who those people are? Cause I don't know them. It's gotta be. Friends of the owners of the house that I've been paying for their drinks, their food. Oh cutie.

It's over. Give me the number. I'll give it to you. Give me the fucking. That's crazy. I'll give it to you. Give me the fucking number. Wait, wait, wait. Great paywall segment. You call them while we're on the paywall. I will do it.

I thought you were going to do a paywall segment where we order. Cutie, I'll do it. Apparently, FaceHub's closed. I'll call them tomorrow. We'll record it. We'll come back to the room. I'll travel to wherever you live. We'll do the phone. I will seriously call them. That was travel to wherever you live. And we'll do the phone call.

I will seriously call him. That was absolutely ridiculous. Let me tell you something, chat. Uh-huh. Okay, or whatever. Chat? Chat! Let me tell you something.

When you pay for something, and this is, I think this is a very, this is a socialist idea. Whether it be a venue or a shirt. Right. People call me a Karen because I'm white and blonde. It's not, it ain't me. Look, Karen is, I think, this is a fundamental socialist ideal. People call me a Karen because I'm white and blonde. It's not, it ain't me. Look, Karen is, I think this is a fundamental socialist ideal.

Okay. When you pay for something, you should not be taken advantage of by major corporations. You need to stand up for yourself and get every dollar that you pay for. Let them cook. Let me tell you something. You pay for a house, you pay for that venue. Yeah.

When you signed up for that, you signed up for a venue that was quality, right? Yeah. That did not include the friends of the people that existed in the venue clogging up the space.

Were they paying for those people? No, they weren't. They're eating your food. They're eating your food. They're talking to your friends. They're spreading their business ideas. We did break the contract by having an ambulance

and a fire truck show up. What if there was a medical emergency? I mean, come on, that's ridiculous. Good luck. Okay, great. He should be a lawyer, honestly. I don't know. I mean, Sarah,

what if there's a medical emergency? What if Ahsan, I don't know. She was just belligerently drunk, though. But you don't know that. Well, I think they know that. Well, now we're admitting to it. Cutie, we're losing leverage on the podcast.

Cutie, come on. Listen, I think they know that. Well, now we're admitting to it. Cutie, we're losing leverage on the podcast. Cutie, come on. Listen, I'm friends with a bunch of stupid millionaires and they'll never use your venue service again. No, we don't use that to the end. No. Oh, that's the nuke? We approach it very nicely in the beginning and then you slowly increase the intensity

until you're talking to the manager. Austin has the capacity to book like a Delta Airlines flight in under 30 milliseconds. So I don't know how he does it. For free. For free. Yeah, I've never seen someone with such prowess in specifically custom.

He's got the uranium medallion now. It's beyond platinum. Yeah, like Hassan tweeted a very picture of him in a selfie, and I knew exactly the plane he was on, the suite he was in, and also the time at which he was arriving. And I can tell you, Hassan, you tweeted that you were in Los Angeles about two and a half hours before you were actually there. I mean, it's true.

He's a problem. I knew it, because you tweeted that. I was like, let me look. No, he's not landing He's a problem. I knew it. Because you tweeted that. I was like, let me look. No, he's not landing. I am so glad you are famous and not a fan. Or else we would have to take out. Are we going to cut this segment out of the podcast?

No, no, no. I have Nick's like that too. But Nick's autistic. So. Maybe. You have the exact same kind of brain when it comes to planes as Nick does. He does that exact same shit. No, here's what I honestly think you do at the venue.

I think you have to ask for a portion of the money. Yeah, I don't think I get the full money because we were a problem with the fire truck and stuff. Well, we. Yeah. The royal we. The issue is, is technically in my contract contract they could charge me a fee for that showing up nah fuck off everything was wrong yeah everything was wrong that's not a legal contract and to be honest there was a fucking bathing ape on the window that shouldn't have gave you that

was yeah also it was raining oh my god yeah that's not yeah but neither is a medical emergency i did i did not see security either yeah i had It was the guy at the front gate. It's probably because you guys probably showed up right when I was telling him to sweep for wristbands. And so they were all sweeping, I think, at that point. Cutie, can I just be honest? You should talk to an attorney because that is the most ridiculous clause in a contract that you can't have an ambulance show up.

What if somebody was dying? Yeah, that's kind of crazy. That's insane that they would put that in there and you would have to put your finances over the idea that you would save someone's life. That's ridiculous. You're right. No, that's fair.

Oh my God. We're talking about. Austin Knox, if you're not a fraudulent bitch, which I think you are, you will hide, you will make a highlight reel of every time this mic is attacked. I don't understand. Last week he was struggling with this mic. You just don't touch it. And now he's struggling with that mic.

Oh, now you're beginning to that's yeah that's the that's what I he always has mic issues and he's always yeah that's what we like to call the common denominator literally just don't touch it

don't I'm not touching it so okay no to be fair that mic just attacked him thank you I appreciate it I saw that I mean yes because he's hitting it from underneath I haven't struggled

watch it's to happen again. It's going to happen. And if you want to play America's deadliest drinking game, anytime he does a show, every time he adjusts his hair, take a drink, you will take 800 shots by the end of the stream. Did you? That's the first time I'm hearing about this. Oh, my God.

I call up any broadcast. Anytime you catch yourself in the stream, you go. Oh yeah. Any reflection. Not even. He's got the water bottle. He's got the water bottle in front of him. It's like off the reflection.

It's like, oh. America's death is drinking. And he does this. He does the face. Don't talk to us. Ladies, come on. Where's the dog? Where's the dog? You've lost us.

Ray and. Come on, Kitty. We're not like that. No, you guys are. Come on. Ladies. No. There was one other thing that happened at the Streamer Awards,

or rather, I guess, after the Streamer Awards that I noticed, which was Kaidei's response. I use this as an example to show people, like, look, no matter who you are, what is going on in your life, people are going to be ruthless regardless because fandoms work like that. Kaide tweeted at the Streamer Awards

16 hours ago, almost immediately after she won, saying the moment I won, I felt more dread than anything because I knew the hate I'd get. Woohoo. Tarek is much more deserving of this award than anyone, but it was fan voted not my fault and i'm so sorry for whoever this upset and would i mean that's insane because everyone was like fucking saying that she got toddy got robbed and i know toddy like i love toddy that's my brother he would hate this like he would he would never want yeah

he would never ever in a million years want people doing this kind of insane shit, especially because a lot of streamers are friends with one another. All of these streamers know one another, love one another. It's really fucking weird when parasocial attitudes get in the way. But you had some choice for us to say as well.

Can I come out of pocket for a second? I'm going to come out of pocket for a second. Uh-oh. Uh-oh. Because Kaida doesn't need me to defend her. Why? out of pocket for a second yeah i'm gonna come out of pocket for a second oh oh because kaida doesn't need me to defend her why because kaida is maybe one of the most incredible human beings i've ever had the privilege of meeting yeah i this person's presence is so important to me and i love this person and i'm gonna tell you right now if you don't think she was the best

valorant streamer fuck you she was her content is unbelievable she is brilliant she went from gold to immortal in one year she's just she grinds yeah i'm gonna be honest i have never been so close to violence that people i don't know than the stuff i've seen out coming in the wake of her recent developments and people taking advantage of that if that is you you're a sick fuck and you better hope i never meet you because i'll dismantle your ass i don't i don't think they're watching this if they are if you paid money to watch this i'm boiling i yeah oh my lord okay anyway cutie i love tarik what did you, what did you, Tariq's incredible. Yeah. Um, I think this is a hard thing about an award show. One person wins,

but the fandom of the three losers will always be bigger than the one person that wins. So people being upset about a winner, if you're going to constantly, if winning an award puts a target on your forehead, then the award show will not exist people will not want the award um it goes against the very the very principle it goes against the very principle of why you want to do this too to like bring i'm trying to fucking heal the gaming community i'm trying to say we can celebrate people we don't need to be

jealous angry fox we can like let's just fucking celebrate people it's okay and audiences take a cue from your creators was anybody upset was anybody out of pocket tweeting like oh i was i got robbed no one said that it was i did say that last year god you're a problem in in fairness to be fair i lost a miskiff so i think it's a little valid to tweet that and also it doesn't even matter i was i was jokingly saying it and then twitter thought i like actually physically got like violently robbed and then everyone was making fun of me and celebrating that i had actually gotten physically assaulted and robbed fox news got a hold of it no literally there was like thousands of quote retweets being like this this is what you deserve, you fucking comic position.

I'm like, I was joking about an award show. So that did happen last year. Does everybody have a problem with every category? No. Well, to be fair, if I had lost mine, I would have. What's the most violent category every year? It changes. Okay.

You said for this year specifically, Valorant. It was Valorant. Yeah. So I uh if this this again this award show will cease to exist if if it becomes a target that goes on people's head and i will say now first time saying this there are people that declined their nominations because they did not want hate for being nominated really yeah yeah there are people that would have been nominated that declined their nomination crazy bro yeah when i send them a message and said congrats you're nominated they said please don't

because of how some of this community is and that's a problem and we've got to figure out how to fix that and all we can do is hopefully normalize celebrating people instead of tearing people apart i don't know um but uh what happened was, I missed all this, obviously. I was trying to stay off of my phone last night, besides replying to people that needed things. But I got a message from Kaede today that said, hey, can you just give the award to Tarek? And I said, Kaede, I'm going to be honest with you.

He wasn't even in second place. It was Jody. Like, and I love Tariq too, but like what? And so I don't reveal any. Now this hurts my feelings. You weren't nominated.

I was pushing, I was pushing for Tariq pretty hard, you know, and the fact that. You have no juice. I have no juice. It is. Turns out,

it's bad that your audience doesn't show up to vote. Can I tell you another thing? Of all the audiences. There's a large percentage of your audience that does not give a fuck about anything but you. Fair. I think you were, but I think you're describing just like.

I feel like that's for everyone. Yeah. Like their community is like, they just want to watch their streamer. I'm going to say there are other audiences that mobilize better than yours. I think it's more so they don't watch Ballarin. I think they mobilize very well.

Yeah, there's other things. For your shit. No, for me too. They're all over me. In fact, they're changing profile pictures. You are one of them. Stop. You are one of them.

No, no, no. Here's what it is. There's truth to what Will's saying. No, we're great in Oscorp. They do not care about Twitch-related things as much as they care about politics. I don't think they care about gaming. Yeah, they don't. They don't. like Twitch related things as much as they care about politics. So anytime I like, yeah, they don't,

they don't. So anytime I deviate away from that, they're just like, I'm not interested. Fuck you. And I don't, and I don't have a audience that I think back in the day was way more distributed evenly between like just Twitch watchers in general that want to

like get their news, but also want to have fun on the side versus just like straight hardcore politics supporters i think my reputation has like been almost permanently damaged within the twitch ecosystem not creators will never uh see this because like they don't think about me like that but i think their audiences have like a lot of hostility a lot of the top content creators of well your your audience can be pretty hostile my audience can be hostile which i try to rein in all the time i yell at them regularly but that's not the reason i'm talking about like anytime i do get out with xuc or whatever even if we patch things up yeah there's

a gigantic chunk of their of his community that is like, I hate him forever. And no matter what happens like that. You don't think that's true of everybody? It is. There's still a group like X, you know, X and I had a long conversation last night. And there's still a group of his community that's like, they hate each other. And it's like, nothing's that deep, guys. No matter what happens. Nothing's that deep.

No matter what happens, there are consequences. Do you think that's unique to you? No, I think, well, I think Cutie also faces that as well. Right. Like I think, well, especially if you're a woman, it's like way worse in general, but like, yeah, me being a political content creator, I think like there's a lot of people who just like wrote me off, made their minds up and will like, not only just not watch or not do anything that's like twitch related so that that part of my audience has been excised basically which is why people just don't give a shit when i'm covering like

regular basic stuff no matter how much i collaborate with people um they're just they still give a shit some some do in the community but it's not as large it's not as sizable as like i think you're what my actual audience looks like i watch your stream all the time i'm a loyal fan you just like the stands you want no no no no that aside i watch your politics i can't wait till the election comes back true but i love your politics i watch a lot i watch him more than anybody else on twitch. I sincerely enjoy your commentary over politics, especially when you watch conservatives and complain about them. My favorite thing.

It's my favorite thing to watch, genuinely. I mean that truly. I know it's a meme, but I genuinely, really, it's my favorite thing to watch on Twitch. I actually watch it the most, too. I don't watch it. Yeah, don't worry i know look i i've it's it's a win it's an interesting dynamic because like i've heard this from people when

i was on the red carpet i could hear everyone else's like interviews and a lot of content creators were like you know talking about either whether they were excited to see me or they like watch me they would moderate my channel whatever and it was like interesting thinking about that because i'm like their audiences probably fucking hate me you know what i mean interesting like for the most part they were like that guy yeah i heard these toxic so it's always like there's this there's this thing that doesn't um add up with the way that like the people that know me in the real world and how they perceive me versus fan bases that have been geared towards animosity. Part of that though,

is there is this conception that if, if there is a loyalty between two streamers that you won't talk about their bullshit. And as a newscaster, you talk about everyone's bullshit. Yeah. But so does Ludwig. So does XQC.

So does everyone that that actually covers drama, Moist Critical. I think they have the same opinion about a lot of those people as well. Yeah, I think they do too. You think those people also hate the Lud and Moist? Yeah. Oh, absolutely.

Yeah, Lud gets shit all the time. That's really interesting because I feel like he's a bit of a centrist when it comes to issues. Oh, he still gets shit all the time. He dances around issues a lot more than I do. I'm a little bit more direct usually um but anyway all this to say i've never ever disclosed like the placements of voting i think that's very toxic and i've chosen not to but i knew in this situation that

tarik tarik would want kaede to win like yeah he's the most supportive person i've ever met and like um and so i I was fine with saying it, but I replied and I said, listen to everyone out here. It would have been Kaide, Jody, Tarek, Shazam.

That's what it was. That's where the fucking votes fell. Grow the fuck up. Do better. Why are you doing this? If you're, if winning an award puts a target on the head, then no one's going to do this.

And I said, next year, I'm, I'm going to remove the Valorant category. You guys have lost your privilege. Maybe it'll be back in a little bit once you heal your community. And some people are like, Oh,

you're punishing the whole community because of this. Yes. Yes, I am. Yes, I am. Absolutely. How else would you manage that?

Otherwise? Yeah. Unfortunately, if that's what represents the entire community, then. Well, next year can replace it with the dark and darker category, of which I am one of the best

on the planet. Perfect. Some people will argue. If Soda Poppin wins that over you, I'm fighting him. Well, he's on my trio, so our trio would be... You can go up.

If Moon Moon wins that over your trio, I'm fighting him. Moon Moon's very good. Moon Moon. Oh, shit. Okay, well, maybe not a dark...

We do improv. An improv category. John Soles, man. We do an improv category. moon's very good moon moon oh shit okay well maybe not a dark improv an improv John Souls man we do an improv category it might not be gone forever but it's definitely it's not gonna be there next year you have that

you guys need some healing clearly you need some healing if that's how you're gonna react to someone losing an award it's a fucking good luck telling

people addicted cripplingly addicted to Riot Games that they need some healing you should understand that better than anyone else considering your league addiction it is sad because since i've been a part of the league community it's like it's i give the league community a pass when they're blatantly sexist to me when i do like the lcs broadcast i'm like these are my people that are being mean to me so it makes it better but it's just like man it's so sad that we've been

in this industry like guys just stop giving a shit it's okay if a woman gets an opportunity that you wanted or you can still have the same opportunity it's okay if a woman plays a video game better than you or she's just playing a video game at all and you don't have to go tell her that she sucks you really don't you can just go you can just play the game too like it's okay you can just exist with these things happening but people uh have a problem with existing um on that note i think it's time that we move on to the paywall proportion of this broadcast where we discuss whether or not cutie cinderella is going to actually uh keep working with us or talked about, you know what? I have a bone to pick with you. I have a bone to pick with you.

There's some drama. There is some drama there. And can we have an awesome try and call the venue? I don't think they'll answer at a 7 p.m. on a On a speakerphone?

Can we at least give it a try? Yeah, we'll have to bring in Taylor because she has their info. Okay, that's fine. Sorry, my head's gone. All right, we'll be making an attempt and I will be making an attempt

and I will be representing Cutie as her attorney. Is that illegal? We will see you on the other side of the paywall if you want to check out that sweet, delicious goodness.

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MILF Manor Reacts. Thank you so much for coming. You have anything to plug? You have a show? It's a pleasure to be here. I'll be here as much as I can. Austin's show. That's me. I'll be here uninvited as much as I possibly can. Please stop leaning onto the

microphone. Oh, I'm sorry. Is that going to cost you money? No, I just we're trying to do the show so you're mike you're happy to see me all right i'm austin show thanks for having me appreciate it yes uh hello and goodbye my name is valkyrie and i'm happy I got a redemption episode because last week the audio issues luckily Mauricio was able to recover but yeah definitely not jet lagged hope you guys

enjoyed the episode and I'm ready for the next part of it Queen it's Valkyrie bitch sorry he's still drunk my other podcast ay yo what listen i plan on being a two-timing whore it's a different it's a different podcast it's different shit it's it's very different vibes it's also a remote

podcast this one's in person so this is what we get for wanting to expand our horizons with a gay man and a woman yeah i'm just a slut conniving me too girl listen despite you being a two-timing whore i'm gonna take this opportunity to compliment you because if i do this in real life you shrivel away and silence me but truly uh your event was incredible thank you the amount of coordination, planning, follow through, and drive. She did everything. I tried to help her. It'll be better next year. And she was like, nope.

She's got it. The best part of it is it's like the opposite of a, it's literally the most thankless job you could ever take on. It is the most thankless job. For no fucking reason whatsoever. I think I do it for torture. Because people immediately chat no matter what happens because you're bringing in like so many fandoms together in one place.

Someone's mad about something. It's always explosive. Chat is popping off. They get mad at everyone who won the award because that means that three other people lost the award. And then also you cook the books, all this stuff. Which I do. I would like to make that very clear.

It's fan voted. All right? You can't be mad at the winners. And cutie manipulated. And I did. all the stuff which I do I would like to make that very clear okay well it's fan voted alright fan voted you can't be mad at the winners and Kitty manipulated and I did I played bubblegum bubblegum in a dish and that's how I selected

funny who it was incredible thank you absolutely and thank you for making all of us a part of it thank you Kitty thank you guys thank you very much

it was life changing I don't have a fear I don't have a fear of stages anymore wow yeah I know it was it was exposure therapy it really like it put my i put myself out there because of that event yeah i don't think i could have done it anywhere else except for like a streamer thing yeah are you

done and everybody watching go follow my youtube because i'm gonna plug myself for once so uh okay and osnox that fake bitch won't edit a video for me he's he's he's got his hands full doesn't he i've got some so expensive yeah i got some i got some i got multiple bones editors too much i got multiple bones to pick with him multiple bones to pick with him but he's so talented but worth it yeah yeah ossonox is uh you know he takes his sweet time with my projects now. Because, you know, he's been hired by everybody. Speaking of sluts, okay. Well, I'm sorry.

You stole one of my main editors and then paid them more than I could afford. That is true. I get Austin Ox every once in a while. Yeah. That seems fair. That's true. I mean, he killed it. He did kill it.

Except for the fact that he did not in in the video that was that was a bit of a see you motherfucker do it again i eat the dog hey yo mika run yeah i gotta please austin oxford will in a video all right well on that note we'll see you on the other side peace bye Peace. Bye. Listen. He's really talented. He's using a drunken master style. Don't let his appearance or his demeanor fool you. This is his art form.

This is his mastery. This is it. I've been waiting for this moment for my entire life. Look, for the record, or anybody gets mad about this, this is justified. You get what you pay for, period. Let's get the phone over here. All right, this is justified. You get what you pay for, period. Let's get the phone over here. All right, here we go. Okay, first of all, I need to get all my facts straight.