Fear& - The Tragic Life Of QTCinderella | Fear&

Episode Date: August 25, 2025

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I'm just so shocked. Ladies. It smells so good in here. It smells delicious. Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to another episode of the Fear and Podcasts. We're all back together. And Cudy has gotten farther and farther. away from me every episode.

Oh, really? Yes. You have no... Oh, yay. She's back. Why you're being nice? That's weird. I think he feels back. Because last week I said that Austin's gone, we cut the fat. So I've got to... You said that? I didn't even see that. You cut it? Oh. You cut that?

Wait, hold on. Why do we cut that? Where, wait? Wait, you guys... I did. Sometimes you said it as a joke. You know what? I... I... I... Look, I can take a joke. Okay. I can take a joke. That's okay. You can say that. That's fine. I didn't hear that, but now I get it. I'll be fine. But I bet Will, I bet Will was the one that said we can't. I think out of all of us, if there's a ranking of who takes the jokes the worst, you would be the worst. You're the last place. Really? 100%. What? I don't think I don't take a joke well at all. Oh, stop trying to fucking dive on the grenade. I think he takes a joke well. God forbid I'm a little sensitive. No, it's okay to be sensitive.

I think, I just think, out of all of us, you take the joke, the worst. I've gotten better at taking jokes. I eat it professionally, so. But out of all of us, you eat the best ass. What do you mean? I do, I knew eat it. That's true. That's true.

That just sounds so crazy. That sounds like it's going to lean into that. Have you ever eaten ass before? No. I have. See? But I bet Austin's better than you. I met somebody that didn't like their ass eating the other day.

And I was like, wow, that's incredible. I've never met anybody like that. I'm hitting topic. Austin is back this week. I didn't start that. I didn't start that. You guys ever feel like? I didn't start that.

If you're entering a man and the man's got a big booty. No. Come on. All right, before we get too crazy, Hassan Piker, I knew you were interested in this. So I went to the Dodgers game with Demon Slayer and I got you the Demon Slayer Dodgers hat. Dude, I love the Doors. Is it like, okay, let me ask you this. Yes.

If you crumpled this, is that like. No, do whatever you want. Because I've always wondered, like, because there's hat etiquette, right? No, do whatever you want. Like the new era, like the new era snap bag. I think however you wear a hat, that's how you wear a hat. Okay, that's very nice. This is amazing.

Thank you so much. You're welcome. You're welcome. Chouts out. Well, that's amazing. What did you get us? Do you guys like the Dodgers? No.

No, we like cool hats. So what was I going to get you at Dodgers Stadium? I don't know. Oh, my dog. Yeah, it's been in my pocket for the last week. I mean, I would appreciate the effort. I'll love a hot dog. Speaking of hot dogs, you watch weapons.

I did watch weapons. So good. So good. It was so amazing. But you guys didn't watch weapons. So we're not going to talk about it. I just brought it up because you said hot dogs and it reminded. We can talk about weapons, but Austin really wants a cupy cake.

I really want, can you please tell everybody what these are? Yes. They look absolutely delicious. So I decided this week to bring everybody's favorite treats. So Hassan's favorite treat is Tresla Ches. That's true. Will's favorite treat is key lime pie. and Austin's favorite treat is the air.

No, I love strawberries. I do. I love strawberries. To be honest, you know what it's fair. I've never really talked about my favorite tree. Austin is a lying bitch that says that classic like,

oh, I don't want to eat anything. And then he just picks at it until he's had like the entire cupcake. And in the process, if you actually interfere and you go, oh, you're not eating it and you eat it, he gets mad at you.

I mean, I don't know. I don't know what he's happened. At least he pays attention to you. Yeah. When he pays attention. All right. Yeah.

To me. I'm not a lying, bitch. I'm going to eat this. Three milks. I'm going to like it. Three milks. It's a little sticky because it's trust leches and it's not supposed to be a cupcake. Cudy, this is really difficult to get out.

He got it out instantly. Oh my God. Austin. Ew. What else am I supposed to do? Cuddy, this is amazing. You are doing. what you're supposed to do. I didn't even know Trace's

could be made in, like, cupcake. It's not supposed to. I don't know how you did this. Well, this is new tech. Hard work. Hard work in termination. God damn. Ew. I don't want to sit by him. Yeah, well. What is this thing? You've never

had Trisleche's cake. You look like an alien eating a cupcake for the first time. What happened? Ew, it's dripping on you. I didn't do it. This is delicious, though. My God, you are incredible. Thank you.

It's got three different milks in it. Thank you. And the reason why it's super sweet is because he's got condensed milk. Ah, that is brilliant. The third belk. Will you pass me a keelaine pie, Will? Yes, I will. Thank you.

Does anybody have a napkin? Oh, no. I like keeline pie, too. My mom used to buy them for me. Aw. A little baby once. And then she died. Oh, God, I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry for your. was. Thank you, Austin. It kind of comes across as innocent here when you got Trace-electors in your mouth. We're licking your fucking fingers. This man went, oh,

I'm so sorry. Well, I am. Somebody's got to be. Someone, God damn it, has to be. Y'all just move past it. Like, she didn't just say that. That's true. You know?

That's true. So what's going on in the world, guys? Oh, my God. There's so much going on in the world. I went to ups and State, New York. Oh. Which, let me tell you, is nothing like New York City.

Yeah. It's nothing like New York City. No, that's not upset. I went to Syracuse. Wow. I was up in Syracuse. That's in Utah. And pretty much.

Oh, yeah. No, no, it was in New York. I know, but there's a Syracuse, Utah. I was just trying to include Utah. Oh, gotcha, gotcha. Utah mentioned. Well, look, upstate New York, and you could go to upstate New York, and you look around, and you're like, wow. Yeah.

We really have a problem in the United States. What? What? What do you mean With what? No, I'm just like, oh my God, there is no healthy food anywhere. Oh. You know what I mean?

That's awesome. What? That was your big concern for Syracuse. I mean, you're not wrong. No, it is an absolute. It's a cold place. It is a problem. We have an issue.

But I went, I went to small town America. I went even further than Syracuse. I went up to... Ethica? No, I went to Cleveland, New York. Wow. Oh, damn. That's Ohio.

What were you doing up there? Family reunions. Shout out of your geography. It's crazy. Thank you. Keep going. Had a family reunion up there, and I met some just tried and true Americans.

Yeah. You know, just small town Americans. Wait, what do you mean you met them? Like, at your family union? Yeah, well, I met some of my family are small town Americans. You never met them before? Well, it's been like 15, 20 years. I've been since.

I feel like you've met. Did anybody ask you about your career? Are they of them excited to meet you? No, no. Well, some of them did, and they're like, you know, They started to ask me, talk to me about what I did. And then after the family reunion, I posted TikTok, and one of my aunts, who's, like, in her 70s, I was like, hey, it's anti such and such from New York. And, you know, so they didn't really understand what I do, understandably.

But, you know, I was afraid because it's very conservative men. Yeah, I don't know. Do they know that you're a homosexual? We didn't talk about it really at all. Okay. I didn't bring it up. But did you bring Christian? I didn't.

I left him at home. Oh, my God, you're ashamed. No, I'm not ashamed. I'll be honest, I was just like, you know, I kind of did the cost analysis, and I was like, you know, I think it's just expensive to fly across the country. And I was like, I don't, he doesn't, he's never met them. It's been 15 years. You know what I mean? Me when I'm ashamed.

No, I'm not ashamed. I swear to God, I wasn't ashamed at all. You can come out of the closet whenever you want awesome. No, no, I wasn't ashamed at all. I just didn't think he would enjoy it, really. Yeah. Oh, sure. Anyway, great time, great time, great seeing family.

I don't think I'll see some of them. Were there any funny stories at the family reunion? No. Did you tie one on? Did you get drunk? No, I stayed sober. I took a lot. O'Re.

Yeah. You got to get hammered. You got to get hammered. Otherwise, the family reunion. A lot of the family is just, I don't know. You got to get on their level, man. You got to throw back some light beers. Well, no, they're just getting old.

No, just getting older, you know. It's like the first family reunion where I'm like, oh, my God. You know? Yeah. Anyway, but it was a good time. Good time. Small Town, America. But I wanted to get the fuck back to God's country, which is in Los Angeles.

I got into Syracuse. Yep. The university. Uh-huh. And I went to see the campus. Yeah. And they have these, like, very complex tunnel systems there. And I thought at first, how cool.

That, like, there's a tunnel connecting the gym to the, you know, dormitory to, like, some of the campus halls, right? And I didn't understand. And I didn't understand what was going on. Remember what I told you about this? This bitch. What about it? Look at what he's doing. He's talking about me.

Yeah. Okay. I don't know. Have the strawberry. No, continue. We can have the strawberry. There's no way we eat all of them. There's tunnel systems all over Syracuse University, right?

And I didn't understand why it was. And they told me, it's six months out of the year. They got six feet of snow. I was like, nope, not going there. Also, another industry town where the industry just basically left, and now it's like a ghost city. I don't know how it is now. But when I went, and it was a long time ago, I was, I mean, I got in at like 2009. Yep.

So I was visiting in 2008. It was in a dire state of disrepair. I mean, I was there, when I was there, I were trying to, you know, I ran in a car. I came back and I dropped my parents out at the airport because they had an earlier flight than me. It's like 4 o'clock in the morning because my parents get to the airport, you know, very early people. And I was driving around, and I couldn't find a gas station that was open. That part is normal, I think. Really?

Next topic. Okay. Awesome brought it up. Next topic. I brought it up. I brought better stuff. I brought better stuff. But we're talking about sparse gas stations.

I'm buzzering. I'm not the one who brought it up. You had it on. No, it had a good run. Yeah. Next topic. Okay. I got stuff if you want.

Kick streamer. Oh. In France. There was a French team of kick streamers. And it turns out. I don't give it that. means like a french like you know i've only read a few things about it you know a team of streamers like like like a group okay it's like an org yeah yeah they're not like i don't think they're

officially an org but they have like an unofficial name for themselves but basically they were trying to do a a sub-a- marathon marathon style situation where they were live streaming the entire time for 10 days straight and in the process of those 10 days one of those two streamers actually passed away live on camera he's a 46 year old um and and and uh it turns out that apparently he was being tortured fairly brutally for not just the 10-day process where they were live-streaming, but even far before that for a couple of years at this point. On the stream? Yeah.

Huh. Yeah. And it's, I mean, he had some mental health complications to begin with already. He's 46 years old. He felt lonely. He sent text messages his mom. Like, one of the last text messages he sent to his mom was like, I feel like I'm a hostage here. I can't like get out of the situation.

they had a lot of power over him where they basically kept like lording over the power that they had over him saying like you owe us we own the house that you live in if we kick you out you'll be out of the streets by yourself like you'll be homeless

and things of that nature to basically manipulate in the most evil way torture this person and the reason why I'm bringing this up is not to say you know kick bad which obviously it is is a website where things like this happen quite frequently and there's not really a lot of moderation

that's taking place on the website. It's famous for this kind of thing. But the reason why I bring it up is, like, I feel like the internet is making us a cruel, a crueler society. We've always had a mean streak as human beings. Obviously, we've done horrifying acts of violence to one another historically,

but it does seem to me like there is this very damaging, meta-chasing amongst content creators who just tune out like a normal human function, empathy, the capacity to feel for another human being in an effort to pursue clicks. And I do think that with Twitter especially,

but now with KIC as well, and this is having like secondary impact and even on platforms like we're on, like Twitch and YouTube, I feel like people are being ruthless to one another for the sake of chasing clicks. What do you guys think? I think that's a tale as old as time. I think what has changed is the audience's reaction to it.

I think there was a time where when something like this happened, once it reaches that lunatic fringe threshold of someone actually losing their life, the reaction would be like fairly consistent across the board. Pretty ubiquitous. Oh, my God. What a tragedy. Whereas we're seeing a lot of kind of spikes of people being like, and I think that's different.

Really? Yeah. I didn't realize that. I don't think the, I don't think creators. taking advantage of people is new. Like, if you want to go back to Japan, life of prizes, like that is a very equivalent situation that essentially destroyed a man's life.

And even further back, like, if you look at, you know, the silver screen age of Hollywood, they weren't really nice to the talent back then, especially women. No. But I do think the fact that the audience knows, like we've peered behind the curtain now in such a profound way and it doesn't seem to move the needle.

Or if it does, it's so momentary and we move on, and that's shocking. I feel like we are losing the capacity for shame, which, you know, one might say we never really had, but I'm reminded of like, Logan Paul, Japan incident, right? Like he goes and he's like deliberately being annoying in the streets, but then he goes to the suicide force and he films a person who has taken his own life. And that's this, that's this major moment where like, good morning America is doing a news hit about this sort of thing. And there's a lot of condemnations.

There's an apology. This doesn't really do anything to Logan Paul's career in the long run, but like there was a moment where we took a brief pause and said, what the fuck are we doing? Like, we need to not do that, right? And I don't see that right now.

And I feel like it's, it's, there's something different, it feels like. You're absolutely right. You nailed it when you said. It's more so the reception. Yeah. I think at least there was like a brief period for like a 10, 20-year time frame where like at least the reception of actions like

this was met with a lot of force and met with a lot of pushback. And I think that like social stigma associated with behaving like this, behaving like as an evil monster is what kind of kept the monsters at bay. And now it's, it's marketable. Now it's not only something that you don't have to hide in shame when you're enjoying or doing, but it also feels like it's something that can be very rewarding. And I think a lot of other contractors see that and they only care about clicks. So they just will repeat bad behavior like this. And maybe even escalate is what I'm worried about. So nothing has happened to this group. Didn't they get banned on kick or something? I think, I think. No, no, no. I'm not saying it's a worthy problem. I laughed because it's just

crazy that that's what it took to get banned. I think the situation is on. going yeah the authorities were warned ahead of time and i from what i understand the um while the authorities were uh were were warned in advance like many months prior as a matter of fact uh to so were people watching this like because you said this went on for a while were people watching this and calling the police and the police weren't doing anything um the the the last 10-day sequence was watched by people but i'm saying like before there were other french streamers as well who had called out this bad behavior and even I believe there's like a like there was a French government official that was warned ahead of time and said it's not a top priority for us

so so there's some questions there as well and the police actually did conduct somewhat of an investigation immediately after this after this untimely death with two of the content creators in the group and then they released them and now you know they've lawyered up of course and I believe the investigations are ongoing. Here is the New York Times article says, what did you pull up? Yeah. Adding to the probable cause of death appeared to be medical or toxological.

And so there's some questions there as well. It's like, did this person die directly as a consequence of the torture he was withstanding? Or was there another? reason and like and that these guys are absolved should they be absolved if they created the conditions for his death uh so there there are a lot of questions in that regard as well gary i think it's like uh horrific uh i think my thing is i feel like it's got to be on the

platforms to fucking do something about this you know like it's just so you know this is a much lighter lighter lighter uh version of this but i i went on my site visit of stream for streamer awards today and so then I come back and I'm on my stream and I'm yapping and I'm telling my stream about streamer awards and they're like beauty what if you what happens if someone who's like bigoted gets nominated for an award and it's one of those things that's really tough and I'm like well I hope that if they're that bigoted that the platform will ban them and then they can't get the stream hours to get nominated you know like I can't yeah that's not going to happen you're right a book 50 with you the platform is not ban but I think it's sad I

I think it's like, I think it's crazy that that you can just be so hateful and that's what makes you money. It blows my mind. It's a hard position for you to be in because you have to be is like neutral and objective or. Listen, Cudy Cinellera is not neutral. Streamer awards is. But the show that you run has to be like, you know. Yeah, you told me I would be winning streamer of the year every year if it was up to her. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. She's not neutral at all on that. Yeah. Okay, yeah, this guy, this guy. Yeah, I'm her favorite. Yeah, it's free and depressing.

It's very depressing. I hope the police do something. I hope the police get them good and I hope that I hope, you know, I also hope that these platforms get held liable too because maybe then they'll get their shit put together, you know? See, that's the other part of the equation is I feel like there isn't a lot of initiative being taken by politicians. One, because they're old as fuck and they don't really fully understand it at all. Yeah. This is like a totally alien.

universe to them. And I think the other reason is because some of these platforms are very wealthy and they can lobby the government or they can withstand any sort of like regulatory mechanism that might harm them. So silly. Because like stake the crypto gambling casino that is the engine, like the economic engine that drives kick as a platform, even created kick as a platform partially for marketing purposes. Because there is some regulation in terms of marketing in a lot of these, and a lot of these different, like, athletic competition, things like Formula One. So, Steak can't put their own steak logo on a Formula One car, but they can put a kick logo on a Formula One car, so they use that as an engine. Oh, that's interesting. I didn't know that.

Yeah. So it's basically, like, they're, it's the casino's, like, a brand-friendly version. It's like Mrs. Fields making weed products under a different name. That's awesome. She should do that. No, she does. Oh, she does? Wait, what? What is it called? Like Sally Field? You can look it up. It's called I'm not blown up Mrs. Phil's spot She makes

I need no snitch That's crazy I didn't know that That's cool Mrs. Fields kind of has She's got Some creed now Some Shrere

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This is a worse aviation incident for Wilden 9-11. Look at his face. You know, what's crazy is that in Las Vegas during the summer, the updrafts are so violent that the turbulence. That helps you pump. No, but it wouldn't even be. Wait, they have wedding vow renewal flights in the same cum sheets as the, as the Mile High Club flights. I think they probably watch the sheets. I think this is a more shameful experience than masturbating in an airplane.

A thousand bucks. Wait, there's three tiers. There's the gold tier, the copper tier and the silver tier. 30 minute flight. What if you're not done? What if you? Are they going to stop? you know he wants to do it so bad tantric tim over here having sex for eight hours if anything so the

copper flight is one that's only 30 minutes and the gold is an hour oh that's in a jet so they changed the plane so one's a jet one's a prop oh interesting one course dinner you can do wow 60 minutes what is it wait one course was just a hamburger they're like come on keep fucking oh romantic who's also can I say something what if I'm gonna fuck I'm not eating well then don't get then you can get the gold tier well no but the purpose of this is fucking no no you those are for the Mormons oh well I'm okay with you fuck and then you got Netflix and you watch Netflix afterwards I think it's nice but I do think you who are you speaking to you would never do this in a million I just trying to make my friend feel better about his ideas no he should feel gross out y'all I'm not endorsing this I just thought

Why are you like to do this? You want to do this. I thought it was fucking wild that you can fuck in the sky. Yeah, yeah. How cool is that? Even the way you're presenting. Can I, can I mention something? Yeah.

I think any time you rent a jet, you can fuck in it. Yeah, you don't have to get the fuck jet. You can just rent an expensive plate and fucking it. Yeah, but this is much cheaper alternative, I assume. Yeah. I do think this is cheaper. Yeah. I mean, you could.

Well, they're doing a loop around Vegas. Yeah. Instead, like, what? Why won't they let you fuck and, like, fly you to Los Angeles or something? I mean, now I'd be more into it. That one has a bed. Like, they don't, maybe. You know what I think would be cooler?

Yeah. Follow me on this one. Uh-huh. I get a plane in L.A. L.A. to Vegas. And instead of fucking on it, they just pack it full of strippers. And then you fuck the strippers. No, we just watch.

For what, though? Once I take their top off, it's like there's nothing left to see. Well, they could take their pussy out. once they're naked there's nothing left to see what do you mean wait a minute so you're okay with the fuck playing

but you're not okay with a stripping player yeah because 15 minutes in they're all naked I'm like now what that's a quick flight it's like 30 minutes yeah but now what I'm having a drink

then what wait I mean Hooters air did actually the problem is if you look at a naked person for too long then he starts saying the weird stuff like all the imperfections you have never seen your boyfriend

flacid in your entire relationship Yes, I have. I just thought it was funny to say. Lied to me? Ruin my fourth wall. You lied to me? Yeah, and I'll do it again. Yeah, she does lie a lot.

Wow. It's true. I don't know why. But, you know, you stare at people. Like, you stare at a stripper too long. You start seeing, like, the bumps on the nipples. You're like, eh. Yeah.

Oh, my God. Is that what you do when you go to a show club? You just stare at the nipples bumps? No, I check their asshole for hair. Cuted. Who wouldn't? I mean, I'm not, now I'm gonna start looking for it.

Sometimes you check the stubble, you're like, how good is she waxed or laser? You've been to a strip club before? Oh, I've done everything. Oh, were you a stripper? Were you a stripper? No. Why do you say it like that?

She's been hanging out with vanilla mace so much. She thinks she's vanilla mace now. I'm not vanilla mace. I'm not cool enough or nice enough. I'm saying that. I'll never be nice enough to be enough. Wait, bring that back up. I want to look at more of their TikToks.

Oh, my God. I want to see two more. Just like, I find this fascinating. No, the demographic profile of the customer base for this is very warning. What's that one that says warning? Oh my God. Are those even air safe? Oh.

Good shot, girl. Whoa. My phone's ringing. Oh, where's my phone? Oh, that's not it. Where is my phone? What is happening? Come on, girl.

Where's my phone? Oh, what is this? Oh, here you are. Hello, love, Proud. This Margarita, how may help you? I have a dumb question. My girlfriend just woke up with me. Hello, her.

Do you guys provide the sexual partner? Yes, of course. Let me look at our Cadillac, sir. Give me a moment. Yes. So we have vanilla, uh, coffee, fried rice, or... Pause! Which one would you...

Pause! Pause! This is a fucking... This is a fucking cat house plane, Austin. What? This is a prostitution plane. I also think they might be racist. I didn't look past the first TikTok.

This is a fucking cat house plane. Oh my God! It's a bunny ranch in the sky. It's a bunny ranch in the sky. Oh my God. I didn't even look at the website. Well, look at the website. You can get married on the plane.

Why is your boy getting so hot? Because I... I'm going to write a song about this one day. Wait, wait, wait. The bunny ranch in the sky. Hey, we're looping arms. Put that back. I wasn't sure.

I wasn't sure. What the hell? So, wait, so this is, this is for prostitute? Well, I support sex workers. Wait, keep pushing play. I want to see what happens. What more races can she say with food choices? Oh, perfect choice.

Would you like big tini or little tini? I'm not there, big kitty, little video. Wonderful. Okay, that's all set up for you. Do you believe everything you see in the internet? Don't. We're all about a romantic, spicy date night. Pause it!

We got two! It's a romantic date. It's not prostitution. Question. Is this a double blind, though? If you make a racist joke, But then say it was a joke, is it still racist? I bet you want to know.

That's why I'm asking. Yeah. And what did you say this week? What is going on? I'm just asking. That's crazy. I don't know what to think anymore. I think that.

Are they like being like you can pay to fuck in the sky? Just kidding. I'm just kidding. No, they're. I don't think they provide the girls. I think it's B.Y.O. B.Y.O.B. That's crazy.

B.I.O.B. Oh. B. B.I.O. Bitch or B.Y.O. I've been free. You can't, Austin, you can't lick your fingers and wipe them on the table. This isn't an absorberts. I don't have any other options, cutie.

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This story actually is a very good segue for my story because it's making me feel a certain kind of way. Bricked up. Well, something like that. Fucking horny. This is America Me Up. Bing, bang, boom. Zap, zap. Zap.

Lasers. Okay. I'm sorry. Pause. What the fuck was that? That was an old drunk man going on his porch taking his top of. And he's sad because Ozzy died. Guys, this week's America Me Up, unfortunately, has very little to do with the United States.

Mental disorders explained. What is this? An intervention? Just go full screen before they read anything more. I came across a mental disorder that was so fascinating to me. Oh, my God. That I couldn't get past it. And I've been reading about it all week.

Oh, my God, Will. You're so stupid. This is called Koro. Has anybody ever heard of Koro? No, I've never heard of Koro. It's also known as. Shrinking penis syndrome. Oh, my God, I have that.

My penis is tiny. You do have a little penis. You have a clitoris. This is not a penis. So this is a. a mental disorder that spread like a wildfire across South Asia. Go ahead and play some of this. It's fascinating.

You can skip the very long intro. Oh, no, this is a jam. Are you kidding me? You know this is a really good video. Why is it like our intro? Hey. Oh, my God. Wait, I think that hand thing was actually from our.

Yeah. Strong emotional reaction. What is it? Oh, I'm so upset. My penis is shrinking. Coro! Shrinking Penis Syndrome! I'm going to

Professor Graham Yawston. That's a... Crazy guy. This episode of five-minute mental health disorders, I'm going to be talking about Koro. Or the strange belief that your penis is shrinking and being drawn back inside your body. inside your body. I can feel it doing it right now. Oh, interesting.

His edit is crazy. Corro is a culture-bound psychological condition, first described in China and Southeast Asia in rural, undereducated populations with strong beliefs in the supernatural. It occurs as individual cases and in small-scale epidemics and causes immense distress and anxiety to men

who become terrified that they are going to die because something is pulling their penis upwards and into their body. What? Occasional cases of men developing Coro-like beliefs have also been reported in Africa, Europe, and North America.

Pause for a second. The one rare incident of Coro in North America is when you're with a man with a big booty. Yes. Actually, one of the symptoms is frequent urination and stress. And having to sit down when you pee. This is why you brought...

No! No! That's why I said you fucking ass on. But no, this ain't talking about me. I was talking about my penis looking bigger. Not smaller. The inverse of that is when we're with a big booty. Yes. I see.

But you're with a big booty man. No, I did not bring this for you. Okay. I just thought this is absolutely fascinating. Okay. Go ahead. To occur in people with clear signs of other mental disorders. He's very distrauded normally associated with a fear of impending death.

The term has also been extended to women who develop distressing fears that their nipples are being drawn inwards or their labia are shrinking. Pause. I can feel it. Are your nipples getting indented? Yeah.

I mean, I do understand this phenomenon because I think that... You've been with a big booty man? No, I have been with a big booty man, but like I think that men... Me too. Yeah? You have...

You know, we talked about this, but big, good penis days, bad penis days. Some days you could look and be like, oh, my God, it's shrinking. It's just only going to continue. Right. So I could see how people could develop this psychosis. You go in the cold water and you come out, your shit's not hanging. Yep, no, it's not.

It's not hanging left. Nope. Not hanging at all. The first description of Coro was in 1895 by J.C. Blanc, a Dutch colonial medical officer. It is commonly stated that Coro is a Malay word for the head of a turtle. Nice idea, but completely wrong. Korot is actually a word from the languages of Sulawesi in Indonesia, meaning to shrink. The Cantonese equivalent is Shuk Yong, and the first known medical reference using this term predates Koro by 30 years.

So pause. How the fuck did you find this in my travels? They don't do a good enough job of explaining it in this video. This is like a worldwide epidemic. Like, it is, it is popped up in different regions around the world where men have a mental disorder that they think their penis is being pulled up into their body and it will eventually kill them. Okay, but, but it's not. Like, it's going to stab their guts? Yes.

But it's not. You look at your penis. That's how you solve it. Fixed. It's, but it's a mental disorder. That's not. But you're, but a lot of men are talking to two hypochondriacs. You're talking to you epocondriacs.

Here, as ipocondriacs, we can't see inside our body. That's what freaks us out. Just don't have the mental. Yeah. No, we can't see inside our body. I can't, you can't convince me that I have a fungal infection on my toes because I can see my toes. Exactly. You can't convince me that I don't have colon cancer because I can't see my colon.

And I can't, you know, I have to go do the test. I could convince him right now that he has a brain to me, but because some steam from his shower went up his nose and he could spiral. I wouldn't do that, but I could. Is it any shower? You'll be fine. Okay. Because I have been a little foggy. My brain fog has been a little bit.

There's no cure for brain amoebas. You just die in 12 days. What's the first symptom? Headache. Yay. Headache and fever. Oh, I don't have that. Okay.

Are you for real? Is that what it is? Yeah. I know a lot about brain amoebas. Why? Only one person has ever gotten it from a shower, though. Okay. But two people have gotten it from Nettipots.

I don't. I don't use Nettipods. And most people have gotten it from water in Texas or Florida. Hot water. The sediment settles. And then a bunch of amoebas live down there. And then you jump in in the summer and it's nice and warm and all these amoebas have been having babies. And then you jump down and you're splish splash and it goes up your nose.

And then it goes to your brain fucking kills you. Survival rate is less than 0.000.1%. Wow. Nobody survives. Yeah. How does it affect people? Typically, people experience Koro as acute anxiety, which can last for several hours, with sweating, shortness of breath, tremors, chest pain, or even diarrhea.

In most cases, affecting people from an ethnic Chinese background, are associated with a sense of abdominal pull. That something is drawing the penis inwards, and the fear that if it disappears inside, they will die. Okay. This can lead to frantic efforts to make sure it doesn't. disappear by pulling on it, tying string around it, or tying weights

onto it. The panic induces can be so intense. He doesn't go into this, but there is a whole myriad of devices that they have used to extract the penis from the body canal because of Coro, like Phantom

Do you just chop it off? No, they pull it. They attach weights to it. Yank it. So they're lengthening it. Well, I... It's not how that works. What's a Gith Yankee? A Gith Yanky. Yankee is a race from Dungeons and Dragons. So what, why was that in your mind?

Because I like it. I like that word a lot. So, Will, does this video explain everything? Pretty much. Okay. Let's keep it rolling. Okay. That the attempts at suicide are not unknown.

Attempts at suicide. In the 1990, an epidemic of anxiety about genital shrinkage was reported in West Africa. There, however, affected individuals interpreted the experience as someone stealing their penises and spiritual essence and this was bound up with traditional spirit beliefs

or juju. In Benin, five people were burned and hacked to death when mobs attacked individuals accused of penis theft. Yeah, pause. So there was a wave of Thank God I was waiting around. That is the worst way to go out.

They're calling you a dick stealer while they're chopping you up. Yes, they were asserting that you used Juju to steal someone's penis from them. But like they still got their dick. And now you're dead. How did they prove that it was them stealing the penis? I don't think there's a due process here. Well, obviously not. I don't think they failed in their round of appeals.

What sort of suspicion did they have to even get to that point? lower district court and the magistrates I know there was no due process but I'm just curious to what like what would even a penis blind accusations kind of like the Salem witch trials oh yeah

penis thief Salem dick trials Salem dick trials how common is it it's very rare in the West less common in China than it used to be as education and social conditions have improved but it remains

shout out Mao Zedong in remote areas of Indonesia. Everyday problem in Indonesia. Was that a dead person? Yes. Why are they showing that? It's like there's totally irrelevant separate funeral practice. Outbreaks affecting thousands of people occurred in China at times of increased social tension, such as the Civil War and Cultural Revolution.

Damn. In Singapore in 1967. Pause the first of a second, they were saying like dicks were getting stolen during the Cultural Revolution. Yes. And this is like one of the biggest outbreaks, right? here in Singapore. I'm still confused why we saw those dead people. That's just a very interesting

funeral practice. I forget where they do it all around the world actually. They have a different versions of it, but they like will put like your clothes on and they'll prop you up. Yeah. Until you wither away? I think so. I think there's some. The ward off penis thieves. That point

it's a bygone. If you die, I'll make sure your corpse look skinny. Thank you. Well, I probably would. Because I'm skinny right now. Yeah. Thank you. Go ahead and play. This is where it gets real spicy.

It's, oh, it's not spicy yet. This is the most recent. Okay, yeah, so go ahead. ...were affected when newspapers reported that people had developed symptoms after eating meat from pigs vaccinated against swine flu. Numbers increased further after a report that an inoculated pig had died from pen neural retraction. That was one of the penis-stretching device. Eventually died down when government and medical officials with public announcements

explaining that their fears were groundless. All right, pause. You love vaccine hesitancy stories. Yeah. So one of them in Indonesia is because of Singapore. Singapore and Indonesia is because of Koro. Yeah, I see that. I don't know how the fuck they arrived at that conclusion, though.

Well, if your penis is shrinking, you're doing anything you can. I just don't understand how, like, a bunch of men in different parts of the world all get together and they're like, yo, my dick is shrinking. And then another guy's like, me too. And then it becomes this, like, epidemic. It's like vampires. It's like, how did this legend get to so many places? Also, the easiest solution is to just look down and notice that your penis is still there.

What if your penis looks a little smaller that day? Well, then you get hard. You know what I mean? You didn't have to act it out. Well, I mean, that's what you got to do. All right. We can see what causes it now. you're doing any okay oh you miss it the first one i don't want to sit by him i'm just saying that's what

you got to do you get hard and you're like oh shit it's still there and strike this is the guy on the bus jerking on so what causes it there are many theories to explain it one is that coro arises from traditional cultural beliefs that during normal vaginal sex a healthy exchange of yang and yin humors takes place but with masturbation and not nocturnal emissions, this cannot occur, and the unbalanced loss of yang humor produces Koro. Insults. A study from Hong Kong found a preponderance of personality traits indicating a slow, shy, self-effacing

and nervous temperament, not endowed with much intelligence. Like this guy. He's just dunking on this guy. And often dependent on their mothers. And his lady. Sexual guilt or fears of inadequacy were common. In the Singapore epidemic, all of those affected had heard of the Koro syndrome and seen media coverage of the outbreak,

suggesting that it was an example of mass hysteria or what is now called mass psychogenic disorder. The conviction that once genitals are shrinking can also occur in anxiety, schizophrenia, psychotic depression, heroin withdrawal, neurosiphilis, hypercondriasis, obsessive-compulsive disorder and body dysmorphic disorder. I got some of those. That's where I want to stop. I thought this was fascinating. I have something about theories that men have, about genitalia.

What's that? Do you guys know that incels, some incels in these black pill forums, believe that the female vagina gets larger every single time they have sex with another partner. And for some weird reason, I don't know. why it doesn't work for the same partner, but apparently the vagina doesn't expand with the same partner over and over again. But if a woman has multiple partners

and incels believe that they actually end up developing a much larger vaginal canal. And none of them have sex so they can't It's like throwing a hot dog down a hallway. That's what I would say. And also, yeah, they think the vagina expands and it's

interesting because like, you know, women give birth. There's like a baby that comes out of that. So I know how they They scored that circle, but then again, they're not exactly students of biology like this guy was. Yeah. I feel like that's a crazy thing to study. Like you go to medical school and this is your research. That's wild.

The comment says, I was struggling with this disorder for two years. Glad I'm healthy now. You know what I have a theory that this isn't a disorder and these people have other things. It's OCD for sure. You have a theory that this is actually happening. No, I have a theory that these things are not happening and these people are hallucinating and they just so happen to look down and think that and one guy created this and these other people that are also hallucinating just bought into it.

Oh my God. Never once in my life have I ever heard about this phenomenon yet this perfectly describes what's been happening to me for the past few months. It all started with a shroom trip where I said to one. one of my family members that all of my problems are rooted in my insecurity with my penis. Okay. People just write too much, I think. I think we are sharing slightly too much.

Since then, my sex drive has decreased immensely and my flaccid penis has shrunk about 30%. After that, when I've... Smoked weed. Wait, where to go? I've experienced delusions that my penis is shrinking and being pulled inside of me, and I've felt that there has been a blubed. black hole inside my stomach literally inverting myself similar to the people in China who first

experienced it I would always get a sense of impending doom this happened and I believe that if I let go and pulled in completely I would be transported into an alternate dimension or I'm sent to hell okay Jesus I would also this is see what did the guy reply what did the doctor

reply by the way guys this is deep internet you should speak to someone you trust about this look at how many views this has this is deep internet how many views not many Will. Where did you find this? What do you mean?

He's a big fan of Professor Graemeorston. This is crazy. I thought you guys would have a field day with this. I think it's a little late and we're all tired. No, no. I think that I like this professor because he's smoking a pipe in his PFP. That's how you know. I think that's his glasses.

Oh. The Secret Life of Clara Bow. Oh my gosh. Fun. Hollywood's forgotten it, girl. Will you send that to me? Gabe, wait, that's like an old girly pop nation that fits with the theme song.

Taylor Swift has a song about Claire Bow because when Stevie Nix got famous, everyone would tell her she was the next Claire Bow. And when Taylor Swift got famous, everyone told her she was the next Stevie Nix. It's hard to replace Stevie Nix. I've got one more thing that we could pull up here if you guys want.

Go for it. Breaking news, hot off the press, happened within the last few hours. Gabe, I send it to you in the messages. Lil Nas X has been arrested It's not hot off the press It is hot off the press

Wait what did he get arrested for Lil Nas He was basically naked in public Walking around I got the TikTok And showed it But Lil Nas X was arrested For hitting a police

Striking a police Allegedly Striking a police officer Twice in the face Uh oh There's a video of the TMZ Of Payne where he's walking around LA nearly negative 4 a.m.

Hey Don't be late to the party tonight. Where's this coming from? Refresh it. Go ahead, babe. No. No.

No. No. It's playing in your district. Oh. I was like, where is this coming from? Little Oz X is here. All right, play it. Hey, no, no, no.

Don't be late to the party tonight. He looks great. Yeah, I mean, he looks. Go ahead, babe. Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah. He's serving. Nah, nah, nah. Didn't I tell you to put the phone down?

Uh-oh, somebody's going to have to pay for that. Da-da-da-da-da-da-da. Ha-ha, the boots. Serving. What parties he going to? I don't know, but... He's walking through West Hollywood, it looks like. I am serving you .

And you better be at that party tonight. She is serving. Yeah. That's true. How can one man be service so hard while possibly overdosing?

He's ODing on cunt. Yeah. That's crazy. Yeah, so I don't know what happened, but evidently he... At some point, the cops got called. Wait, is there more to this? Is the cops get called?

You need to be... Yeah, anyway, at one point, I think maybe the... The cops got called, and then he allegedly punched both of them in the face. Okay. Which... Can't do that. No, you can't do that.

He's a bad bitch. Yeah. He can't do that, but we hear at the gym podcast, we wish, a friend of the show, Lilnaz-X, we wish him well. Is he a friend of the show? He isn't come on the show? Well, he was on my lover host five years ago. We all spoke to him on the red carpet. Yeah, we just spoke to him on the red carpet.

Friend of the show, Lil Nas X, we hope as well. How do you feel? When he was on the red carpet, did you feel like something was going on? No, he felt perfectly normal. I think little Nazak's probably took a few too many. Yeah, well, you have allegedly done things that could make you do that. Wait, what would make you do that? That's what I'm, yeah, PCP?

PCP? That, can I be honest where I think that might be? Uh-huh. That might be a little bit of methamphetamine. Yeah. Wait, really? Yeah. How do you get meth?

Well, meth is actually pretty popular in West Hollywood in the gay community. Really? I don't know anything about I don't know anything about they don't invite you to any of the cool parties You don't get to go to the meth parties We do meth all the time I'm so sorry

I don't I don't want to speculate though He could have also just had a really bad day And he was lighting off some steam Because he felt like he was having a good day Wait what does meth do I've never done meth What does it like feel like What is it supposed to do?

Can we look it up It feels like cocaine What does meth do? Oh none of you have done meth no what does meth do come on guys what are you what does meth feel like cool drug

it's not it's one of those that like very notoriously is bad why would people do it I actually literally because I did listen you could stay up for like days on end partying so it's similar to cocaine but it'll it can last up to 12 hours spun okay that sounds

kind of dope oh okay what does cocaine feel like hmm I don't know. What does it feel like, Will? I don't know. I don't know. Okay, so I have a theory.

I've never done cocaine. You're right. I have this theory that it just like, it feels like a bunch of shots of espresso. No. Yeah. No. Like really a like a lot of espresso.

Awful and you shouldn't do it. Thank you. That's what I was going to say. Wouldn't I have a panic attack if I had some? No, you would. That's what I would think I would too. I, I should stay away from drugs.

I've had two ex-boyfriends, as soon as they break up with me, go and do Coke. Okay, can I? Why are you laughing? Can I, can I make a guess? Can I take a quick guess? Yeah. They were probably doing Coke while they were with you. No.

Well, one of them, maybe. But the second one, no. Those are just Coke heads. The second one wasn't a Coke head. But the first one was probably a Coke head. No. The first one, did I ever tell you guys about, about him.

Oh, you mean the groomer? Yeah. But that's not the what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the one after the groom. It's not funny. This is OG

QD Cinderella. Back in action. This is when the Fieramp podcast first started. We'd be like, let me tell you guys a little story about my past. And she'd be like,

ha ha, it's so funny. We would be sitting there like, yeah. Like you have been tormented. Okay, which lore drop do you want?

Do you want him or do you want rehab because I was thinking about rehab today you like going to rehab no when I went to rehab you went to yeah for what for um my eating disorder oh okay well did you not know why I went wait this is funny did I never tell you this story you went to rehab no I knew you had a eating disorder take me to rehab and I'll say okay I knew you had an eating disorder I didn't know you had to rehab for it I thought you got treatment for wait it's a fun story of how I got there okay I bet it's not a fun story go on picture this once upon a time i'm in love i'm in high school it's crazy okay is the dude over

the age of 18 we're both high schoolers we're so in love right it's the summer of junior year okay we go through a breakup my heart's broken right i call him a hundred times as you do and he's like no answering cringe um and so then i write him like a letter and i'm like hey if i ever met anything to you, meet me at our spot. He didn't show up. Wait. He was too busy doing Coke. That's not the Coke one.

Sorry. You chose this story. So he did show up. Wait! I'm a beautiful storyteller. You have to allow me to do my art. You're right. Quit interrupting her.

Shut up! Well, good. Gabe, turns out men forget and they need to hear it again. So then, I write him this letter. I say, if I mean anything to you, you'll meet me at our spot. spot, okay? And then, you know, at this date at this time, our spot was a park we used to

make out in during lunch at school. Yeah, as you do. Yeah. And so, you know, I put on my best true religion jeans. Sure. As one does. I borrow my mom's Camry because it's way nicer than my Toyota Ford truck. Toyota Ford truck. Yeah. That's too, I'm going to be honest. As a young man, I did not give a shit what car woman drove. I still don't give a shit what car woman drove. Okay, well, then why did I borrow my mom's nice camera? I don't know. Also, was your car of Toyota or a... No, my mom's car was a Toyota Camry.

I had a Ford truck that was two different colors because my dad got two different colors from the junkyard. I think at that age, I would have been more attracted to a girl driving a hoopty than a nice car. What's a hoopty? A hoopty is busted ass. Yeah, it's like a busted ass piece of shit. Well, I was trying to make it a nice night. Are you looking at Ford Toyota to see if there's anything that she's saying?

She's not saying. She's not making sense. It was a truck. It was a Ford Ranger. Okay. But I borrowed my mom's Toyota Camry. That's a way cooler car than a Toyota Camry. Okay.

So I borrowed my mom's Toyota Camry. I go to the park. I'm waiting there. I bought all of his favorite snacks. I bought a blanket. I was like, I'm going to lay this out. It's going to be incredible. We're going to show.

We're going to fall back in love. I drove there listening to Love Story. Did you have no friends to tell you? They should have stopped me. I had bad friends. No, I did. Did they encourage you to go do it? No.

They didn't know. No one checked in on me. Well, I mean Why is no one checking in on me? Because you're opt-in-old good. Well, it's checking on me and you might know. Especially since they know she went through a breakup, they should be calling her.

Yeah. And then she would have been like, I'm going to go do this thing. And they'd be like, no, don't do that. Yeah. Damn. No one's checking it on me. Friends growing up, whenever I broke up,

it was a celebration. Whenever any of your friends broke up, it was like, let's fucking go. Wow. Well, that's not what it was like. When I broke up, that's how Will. did it for me. He was like, fuck yeah.

That's what you're supposed to do as friends. When your friend breaks up, it's supposed to be a celebration, and you're immediately supposed to say what a nasty piece of shit their old partner was. Well, now, now, not always, sometimes your friend will go back. Can I be honest? After you say those words, can I be honest? And then those words get back to the girl. Oh, no.

Are you talking about me? Oh, no. This is a good therapy. moment drama sometimes there is a long relationship with a very toxic individual and

maybe your best friend is not too fond of set toxic individual for her impact on your best friend's life that's true and then you talk a lot of shit and then it gets back to that was a tough one

that was a tough one that was a tough one yeah yeah it's all good that's good that's good that they unpacked this Yeah, I feel like they got over it. We did. What were you going to say?

Okay. So no one was checking in on me. And my mom thought he was going to show up, of course. She was like, have fun, sweetie. You know, she's like, it's high school love, everything. And so I show up. I get everything out of the car. I'm like, unpacking.

And he pulls up. Oh, he did. Show up. He pulls up. And I'm like, light of my life, this is every Taylor Swift song I've ever heard. This is going to be crazy. And I'm like, hi. And then right behind him pulls up his lacrosse friends in a Jeep.

And they start throwing garbage. at me. That is awful. That is awful. That's so bad. It's not funny. It feels like if it's not funny, I don't know why you're laughing.

I'm just so shocked. What the fuck? Did the garbage make contact with you? Yes. What kind of garbage was it? It was like paper, banana pills, cans. I don't know. Gatorade bottles.

It was like prepared garbage. What were they saying? What were they saying? I don't know. In the moment, I don't know. Did you run? Yes. He ran.

Did they chase you? No, no, they didn't. I did what any sane person would do in that moment and I had my mom's car keys. I needed something. I threw him at the guy's face and I just ran. You threw the car keys? Yes, I threw the car keys. I mean, I think that's a valid response.

That's your exit route. That's your exit route. Well, I just was going to run away. Okay. Did they leave the car keys behind? Well, I said was going to run away. So I start running away. I'm a track star.

Okay, the song starts playing. I'm running. But what we forget is I was very sad that summer. And so I was just working and none of my friends were hanging out with me clearly. I don't know. He won all the friends in the breakup essentially. I had no friends. After throwing trash in me?

Well, wait, this was before they threw trash. So I had no friends. So I went through the whole summer just working. If girls became school shooters, like you would have been the first one. Okay, you're really. I'm pushing it. Yeah. So, so.

We can cut that part. I started physically running away. But that summer, all I was doing was working and watching DeGrassey and going to cheerleading and volleyball practice is all I was doing. So I've been 5'8 since about seventh grade. Right. And so. You think that's why?

Oh. No. What was the reason why they hated you? I weighed 100 pounds at this time. And I was 5'8, which was significantly less than a girly pop should weigh. So I'm running away And all of a sudden So I face plant

I have passed out in front of the garbage monsters Okay Oh no Did they draw dicks on you? No So they do what any person would do And they call 911 Oh thank God

Oh my God So they're not like that monstrous Yeah they call 911 However I'm like coming to I'm confused all of a sudden I'm in the back of a police car because they're waiting for the ambulance to get there. So I'm in the back of the police car. And I'm like coming to and I'm confused.

I'm very confused in this moment. I'm like, what happened? What is going on? And I hear him at the side talking to the police officer showing him a letter. The letter that I wrote where I said, meet me there, blah, blah, blah. And one of the lines in the letter is, I can't live without you. Okay. So wait.

Oh, my God. They search my mother's car who had been to one. Walmart that day and in the back of the truck was Drano and Root Beer and some other groceries that she didn't take in because they weren't they didn't weren't like perishable syringes a bag of lime a shovel But the specific ones

The specific ones were Drano and root beer Because they believed that if he didn't show up to the park I was going to kill myself With the Drano So really the trash guys were heroes No I wasn't They saved your life I wasn't going to kill myself

But like first of all Congratulations for that. That's crazy because like I probably would have killed myself. Will you say that they threw the trash as a distraction that maybe did

because they were worried Yeah They're like She's about to drink the Drano Quick throw the garbage I didn't know that the guard I didn't know the draino was in the car I really

To this day guys I swear I wasn't going to kill myself Cutty I was going there For my romantic night I believe you I believe okay well at the time My mother didn't Oh she didn't

No But she bought the Drano! I know. She bought the Drano. She bought the Drano. Why wouldn't she believe you then? Because I didn't have much charisma. I'm, you know, but my, what?

My ex-boyfriend at the time, he had a lot of charisma, and he's like showing her. So she gets there. We lived 45 minutes away, so my mom finally gets there later. I'm in the hospital. I'm in the ambulance at this point, and I'm just like, what the fuck? I have to wait for my mom to get there. And the police are on the same page as boyfriend, and police convince my mom that there needs to be a 72-hour hold.

He's got risen up the whole town? What's going on? He sounds really likable. So my mom, because, I mean, the police all think that, you know, I'm in a bad state. And so they put me in a 72-hour psych hold because I think I'm going to kill myself. Okay, can I just wait, pause it for it? And you also must just stink like trash. I didn't stink like trash.

She's covered in banana. Yeah. So. This is hilarious. I'm sorry. This is like, the sheriff's. It's insane. It was like,

ah, trash girl's gonna fucking kill herself. Lock her up. Throw that bitch in a psych war. The lacrosse captain's talking. Pride of the town. The 72-hour hold

turned into a week and a half a rehab from killing myself to then eating disorder rehab. Were you trying to tell them the whole time? Yes. I kept telling them I didn't want to kill myself. Did they move you to like

the section of the place? After the 72-hour hold, I got the drug. I got the drawstrings back in my pants, but that was it. Well, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that happened to you. As your friend,

I know you're okay with me laughing, but also as your friend, I just want to say, I appreciate and love you and you don't deserve that. No one deserves that. We should go find him and throw trash out. No, he's apologized sense. What do you? What do you say?

Hey, I'm sorry. I told everybody you wanted to kill yourself and I threw trash at you? Hey, I'm sorry. I called all of my friends to throw. On the bright side, I gained, I got healthy weight again. So like, so I, my eating disorder got a little fixed a little bit. No, not. Yeah. But the bad side of put my mom into bankruptcy and she had to refinance the house all because of my rehab. So that was really sad for me. And then I vowed one day to buy her a house. And then by the time I had the money, she was dead. So. Oh, cute.

Anyway. Every time. I'm so sorry for your loss. No, it's cool. So then high school starts. So this is over the summer. High school starts. Well, rehab was cool because I got to hang out with the drug addicts too.

So like, I was- Is that where you found your next boyfriend? I went into, I went into. Not now. So I was in the 72-hour hold And that's in 72-hour hold If you've never been They take your draw strings

They take your everything They take you can't sleep They check in with a flashlight Every hour to make sure you haven't killed yourself From your sweatpants Yeah They take them with a flashlight Yeah they check you with the flashlight

And you have to earn privileges To shower with the door closed Which I did So pop off me But the last day before I left rehab I asked if we could play a game of Candyland I said can I pick the board game tonight And they were like

yeah, you can. And I picked Candyland, but smart me. I got three boards of Candy Lane and we lined them all up, so one game was times three. It was awesome. So I was like, the Candyland girl was a hero. It was awesome. But then I went back to senior year of high school and all of a sudden I had a new nickname. Everyone called me Stage 5.

Because the stories then went from the reality of what happened and it got turned into me threatening to kill myself outside of his home in the middle of the night and I showed up unasked and unwarranted and was lighting stuff I lit his mailbox on fire or some shit

I didn't do any of that but that's what the story turned into at high school so that everyone called me stage five so even after all this trauma in which you were wronged through the entire process you exit that horrific situation

and then they start a rumor that wasn't even true and you're going to be honest if I was a medical professional I would have put you in a 72 hour old too I'd be like no the circumstances are so impossible for you not to do that

Well, I tried, don't worry. I tried to get my revenge. What did you do? So, I guess it's time to know the Patreon. I've been told. Ladies and gentlemen, we're moving on to the Patreon. Wow. Where Cutie will describe her revenge.

Thank you for watching another episode of the Fear Am podcast. Go to patreon.com slash Fear End, ladies and gentlemen. See later. Peace. Well, I got revenge because he did that. I walked, I left French class and I didn't go back to school that day. I didn't. The greatest revenge, right?

I listed on Craigslist an Xbox for sale for only 50 bucks and I put his phone number. Genius. Oh. And then? And then he got revenge on me. Oh, no. I just never stop.